#idk how id actually act in this situation

[gifti3]

I just watched this youtube video about a recent tiktok drama and honestly....it had me interested

[todayisafridaynight]

NO YOU’RE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE MAJIMA STUFF THOUGH. GOD. God forbid you speak poorly about the fandom silly guy etc etc. I rt’d one post about someone being annoyed abt majima getting an insane amount of merch (especially compared to other characters- even other PLAYABLE characters) and suddenly my TL is filled with ppl taking it as a personal attack….. like?? Settle down???

My one fear is that instead of Mine content we’re just gonna get Majima Saga 2 for yk3 and rgg will call it a day. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY ABOUT THE GUY !!! GENUINELY!!!

at this rate we’re going to have a complete record of Majima’s life from birth until modern day bc you knowww they’re never gonna let the cash cow die or retire. + god I lowkey need the 3jimas to break up Now so saejima and daigo can stand on their own again (w/out being overshadowed by Majima)…. Saejima especially… I miss the days when he felt like a character………

(I may have a lot to say on the topic) (he’s a fun character but at this rate I’m getting so sick of the fandom around him)

gen is kinda funny how when there's the Monthly Critique Of Majima post on twitter the rggtwt part of the tl is flooded with majima fans being upset. its like clockwork really LOL

as for saejima, i do miss him being solo... like he's funny with majima at times, but as wack as Y4 was i still really liked his coliseum scene, and his prison adventures in Y5 were a real treat too..

[snapcracklepop-myjoints]

i wrote this in the notes of another post originally and am copy + pasting it here because im right but "tell the cops nothing, tell the doctors everything" is such a stupid ass fucking abled take. doctors engage in policing idk how to explain to yall that some people cannot in fact just tell doctors everything without it putting them at risk

like im not gonna go into the myriad of ways this is bs but like a quick example is i cant tell my doctors about my substance use issues because if i get that listed on my medical records it will actively endanger me. It will impact how I'm treated in emergency situations and will get me labeled as "drug seeking" when i try to get other issues dealt with.

i dont say this to scare people but because this is actually important information for people to have. if a medical professional claims this isnt an issue, they are NOT "one of the good ones". they are either straight up lying or theyre utterly unaware, which is frankly not better. doctors are cops. never forget it

like YES tell ur doctor abt being sexually active but stop saying "tell the cops nothing and the doctor everything" before i start killing in cold blood

I KNOW THE ORIGINAL QUOTE. This is about how people misquote it, as well as how they view the phrase as meaning "all medical professionals". ALSO! emts are not the neutral figures you think they are. please stop spewing your lack of understanding on the topic all over my tags, its embarrassing. Paramedics kill people and engage in policing stop fucking shilling for them indiscriminately

finally, THIS POST IS ABOUT DRUGS. FIRST AND FOREMOST IT IS ABOUT DRUGS. THIS WAS WRITTEN BY AN ADDICT. the way yall are talking about addicts and drugs users in the tags is so fucking dehumanising. you are part of the problem. Id suggest non addicts shut their traps please and thank you.

similarly, before you comment, ask youself: am i an addict ? do i have an understanding of how addicts, particularly otherwise disabled addicts, have to navigate healthcare systems ? if not, consider SHUTTING THE FUCK UP. hope this helps !

read the notes before you leave a comment im so fucking serious. reblogs are off because none of you know how to act and i have zero patience at this point. if you think im being bitchy pls consider the fact that your stupid comment does not exist in a vacuum and i have received and deleted countless stupid notes and abusive asks on and about this post and your stupid comment exists within that context and i am fucking tired.

[unma]

I'm not going to be able to write my typical long rambles for a bit (need to catch up on important work), but here's a short list of things I wanna talk about with the latest canto.

Spoilers, of course.

The entire Canto taking place after the ending of Don Quixote (the first Don, I will not call him the Actual Don because our Don is as much Don Quixote as he is) is not something I expected, but makes so much sense and made for a wonderful story. There are themes of identity, struggling to live under a broken system and GOD THE FAMILIAL TIES. THE FIGHT AGAINST THE TWO MIDBOSSES + THE PRIEST HAD SUCH MAGNIFICENT STORY BUILD UP. AND THE PRIEST'S ENTIRE MOVESET. UGGGH I WANNA TALK ABOTU IT

Hey. Outis. What did you mean by that. We all know what I'm talking about, right? This is the first time I know of that she's actually given even a smidge of info about herself somewhat directly. Somewhat. Everything else is just in how she knows things and acts. Here she is asking a very specific question and god, I need to know more about her now.

Good job Sinclair. And everyone else. But good job Sinclair.

Vergilius with Sanson's face/mask is cursed.

I continue to feel so so bad for the Bloodfiends. They did the best they could in a world that gave them only two horrible options. I couldn't help but compare La Manchaland to the Tokyo Ghoul:RE ending, because the hemobars reminded me of the artificial meat, except in TG:RE it worked and here, well. We saw how that went. I think it's a great idea to start with the after of their solution; this isn't a situation with a possible solution, they tried that and failed. Who knows if there is one that works? Does it matter now that they're all dead?

I'm going to be very weird about Camille once this is all said and done, but I do want to note that the pretty boy being turned into a flower and having a name very clearly gotten from Carmilla the flower (and maybe the book? Haven't read it yet so idk if he's taken from there) is very cheeky. I still wish I could've besting him up myself. This isn't me critiquing the writing, this is me being weird.

The QTE in the ending cutscene of the boss fight was cool and really added to the feeling of fighting against and overcoming a clearly superior foe.

I wanna hug Don Quixote the First. He's such a ray of sunshine and deserved better. Even if he was somewhat delusional, at least he genuinely cared for his family.

What happened to Hong Lu's sister? Did she just vanish? I didn't notice until later on, so I'll probably need to go back and check myself.

Bari is the Librarian of Death (edit: Nameless Bookhunter, thanks for the correction AE)? Idfk and idc for now. If Bari ends up showing up again or a moot of mine decides they wanna talk about it, maybe I'll look into it.

The familial themes here are most certainly also going to be related to Hong Lu's story, which once more is a reason I really should get to reading all the books for this game.

Ryoshu accepting death from the possibility of fighting Don Qui the second was really funny.

The abno fights here are really good, and I love how Limbus is making unbreakable coins the standard from now on. Makes it so you can't just blaze through fights taking no damage, and these battles genuinely feel difficult. That's good. Their designs and mechanics are also pretty easy to understand and match with their ego gifts pretty well. God I wish we had more Rupture ids that could stack as much count as the Lasso abno.

Sancho fight was cool as hell. The clashable 10 speed skill was so good and made it feel like a massive improvement on the Cassetti fight. So good. On use coin power did mess me up a little given it doesn't show up in the clash numbers, but that was on me for not reading tbh.

Fun fact: final boss can be Meatlantern soloed really easily. So easy in fact that that's how I cleared it. Doing it with a full team didn't end well for me. The solo's also really consistent, which is nice.

Mili song is really good. As usual. I need to go listen to it again. I need an in-game mix. I need it. The childishness of Sancho's side of the tune compared with the seriousness of first Don's side is lovely.

Also. Please, in the final clash where you use Don's base ego. I hope you looked at the name of the ego and the name of Don the First's attack. Please. It's such a good detail. And it's so much better when you remember that Sancho was always the one making weapons for Don. He calls Sancho's lances much more graceful than his. It's so lovely. You can tell these two genuinely love each other. It's so good.

Also the fact that basically every fixer we went in with got wiped out by weakened Bloodfiends really shows just how powerful these bloodfiends are. Camille had to resort to using ego gear to survive. Sheesh.

That'll be all for now. Expect a long ramble on any of these points when I'm more free, aka never.

[hp-confessions]

Seeing Snape and marauders fans argue all the time is like the live reenactment of the characters in a nutshell.

Both will continue arguing over their takes on that era and how their sides are the better choice. However, no one, or at least most of each community refuses to listen to each other. Instead they keep arguing as if it’s going to solve things.

Usually it’s always just reduced to petty insults.

“Snape deserved to get bullied” On a snape slander post.

“stan bambi” on any and EVERYpositive tt centered around snape.

“She should’ve gotten with snape anyways” on a jily post.

The same thing happens in the book. Insert the name calling.

Then there’s the apologists/victim blamers.

“Snape didn’t do anything wrong. he was right to bully children.”

Just because snapes life sucked doesn’t mean he’s just allowed to take it out on others?

“They were just fifteen.”

Unclothing someone, the shrieking shack incident , and probably having multiple 4v1 isn’t justifiable by any means.

“they matured”

Seeing as sirius still calls snape snivilous at his grown age, snape taking any moment he can to slander any of them, or just remus brushing things under the rug id say that yeah no the fuck they didn’t.

“snape saying mudblood was an accident”

He still said it.

“Shrieking shack was an accident”

Remus got exposed and Snape could’vedied.

“We dont know if they completely took off his underwear so it’s not that-“

exactly. we don’t. yet a lot of evidence points towards it but wtv. either way he still took his pants off. That’s assault.

“His father and the rest nearly killed me and tormented me for seven straight years.”

yes, and that’s bad ofc but that doesn’t excuse snape continuing the cycle and doing the same to his students.

”He was a slytherin! He wasn’t a good person!”

pretty sure a first year wasn’t showing any signs of being death eater material but alright..

then there’s the demonizers….😟

“Snapes a pedo because if harry was a girl he’d be creepy towards harry”

WHAT THE FUCK🤢🤮 NO HES NOT OH MY GOD..😨😭 Genuinley what goes through your mind when you think that.. Snaoe would probably still act hateful or if anything he’d absolutelyavoid fem!harry because in this hypothetical situation she was similar to lily. Not because he’s a pedophile but because of TRAUMA????? HELLO???? Seeing ur bully is one thing but seeing ur dead ex bff is another.. just. because. you. think. he. liked. her. mother. does. not. mean. he’s. going. to. become. a. kid. liker. for. her. daughter. just because harry’s a gender bend doesn’t mean snapes going to transform into a creep. how did you even get that from SNAPE of all people. SNAPE. If you haven’t gotten the memo bro DESPIES no he LOATHES the existence of children. he’d be the last person to be a pdo. Yes he does care for them obviously, but in a way of where if a pedo was idk being creepy with a child bro would 🪄💥🧨🔪🧠 off that pedo…

“Sirius tried to murder snape”

….no…he didn’t. if i recalled sirius was not guilty gor murder charges regarding a rat.. like i said earlier, the shrieking shack incident wasnt okay in the slightest but that doesn’t mean it was purposeful attempted murder. they were stupid (no this also doesn’t justify their actions) and thought it’d scare him and obviously didn’t think their little prank through. they weren’t trying to murder him they were just being assholes. i don’t see sirius using remus to kill, ever. a highly dangerous prank apparently? yeah? murder? no,

“____/____ didn’t contribute at all”

Snape, sirius, and remus literally threw away his life to save harry. not pettigrew tho he’s a little bitch rat i hate pettigrew!!!!!!!👺👺

Anyways, to summarize, everyone’s arguing yet never actually trying to achieve anything but submission when that’s quite literally impossible to accomplish. And that’s because no one’s willing to find a common ground and no one wants to actually create logical arguments. Petty insults and cursed theoretical nonsense isn’t going to solve the argument.

Many Snape fans ignore or straight up defend him bullying students and refuse to acknowledge he was in the wrong.

Many marauders fans ignore or straight up defend the bullying and refuse to acknowledge they were in the wrong.

Snape will refuse to back down from Sirius and Lupin and will continue behaving the way he does.

Sirius and Remus will refuse to back down from snape and continue to do the same things they did as schoolboys.

Real or fantasy, this is something that will never be resolved. maybe because no one cares enough to fix it? maybe because they care too much?

either way i guess it’d be nice to say i like snape and not immediately stereotyped as a snape apologist or get made fun of by it from friends. Im not stupid and if anything i like that he’s morally grey. i don’t support his actions, but i like to see characters with faults and put together why they ended up that way. his home life and other (non bullying) aspects of him are relatable and that’s another reason i like him.

i guess it’d be nice to talk to marauders fans and let them yap abt fanfics and for them not to think that i’m going to instantly call them horrible people for liking the marauders. I may not be in the m fandom but that doesn’t mean i won’t be respectful and gen listen to them. i’m sure that marauders fans like relate to the non bullying aspects aswell.

anyways yeah, i kinda just wished the fandom was a little more chill and not a fucking dumpster fire💀💀

~

[catbeeisafraid]

I don’t have like a ton to say about this but I have mixed feelings- also spoilers ✨

I like Crystal I really do but at times her dialogue bothered me and some of her behavior was kind of obnoxious to me- like at times when she started aggressively inserting herself into situations and just kind of made it about her? Like in episode seven (though this happened many other times too) where she was having a total fit about not going to hell when it’s clearly for her own good and not about her no matter how much she cares? and I totally understand that this is her being written as an immature teenager who hasn’t been dead or a teen for 30-100 years but as a teenager this sort of selfish immature writing kind of gives me icky feelings because I know so many people who are mostly emotionally intelligent not just raging all the time.- and I mean that for a lot of teenagers and teen girls in writing, to make them tough and likable they are made volitile and annoying which to me is not likable (my opinion, I just don’t like the trope that’s not what I’m talking about right now anyway-) I do think she had good development and I liked her a lot better by the end, some people on other forums were saying that her actress was weaker than the rest of the cast and I don’t really know about that? I think maybe she was artificial at times but I’m blaming that on the writing. I also didn’t like her dialogue about her “crazy demon ex” either, it felt very forced? -Not her emotions about the whole mind cage thing I get that but just all of the “UGH WHY ARE THEY SO FUCKING NOSY IM JUST TRYING TO GET OVER MY STUPID STUPID CRAZY ABUSIVE STALKER DEMON EX BOYFRIEND UGHHH ILL DOUBLE KILL THOSE BOYS IF ITS TGE LAST THING I DO” that felt out of place to me- Lastly I get that this is also an aspect of her teenager-ness but I didn’t like the amount she cursed? I have no qualms with cursing but it felt to me like when little kids and middle schoolers start cursing where they just explosively yell fuck when like literally nothing warranting that kind of expletive has happened? She curses too often it makes her sound really stupid? Like the ep 7 “take me to hell I won’t die” thing, she was screaming at Charles who was being pretty reasonable like “fuck that I’m going he’s my fucking friend too fine then fuck it- fuck you ill find another way to get to hell” like yes she was emotional but that isn’t what teenagers sound like guys?

idk- I’d love to hear what other people think and to be clear I do like her I just focused on the negative- I guess it’s a human thing. She had lots of strong points just I ending up not liking how much she was on screen, this isn’t really about you? It’s about the dead boy detective? Give me more ghosts or Edwin or Charles or Jenny or Niko or Mr walrus please? They were fun I like them? I just felt like there were times where she was over shadowing Edwin and Charles and they are what’s actually important to the show? I think I’d like her more in smaller doses- I felt like I spent too much time having to stop and be like “girl step back this is not about you, you are not the star right now”

and to the argument of her actress being inexperienced or over acting or just not great- I have no specific feelings on this but like the other main cast had for the most part very little screen acting experience and were Fantastic so i don’t know what to feel in that area? so yes, i think crystal is an interesting character and i think she grew on me and developed in the season but i also definitely think that she’s annoying and I’m conflicted because i don’t want to not like her-..

what are your thoughts? Id love to hear different perspectives but please be nice to me because I’ll probably delete this and cry (unless that was your goal, then carry on)

that was all like super ramble-y sorry- but I hope I communicated semi accurately! Thank you

[aroanthy]

thinking about kanae and her relationship with her parents and akio and his relationship with her parents and just like…. ideas about patriarchs and fathers and family in utena. and incest obviously. you know there’s something so horrifying about kanae’s situation, beyond the obvious fact that she’s not yet graduated high school and she’s being married off to a child predator who is using their relationship to levy more power over more children. and her mum. and the fact that we don’t ever SEE her dad. fathers in utena have, shall we say, the worst track record in the book. i have so many things that i want to say about representations of Adult Men in rgu and specifically representations of fathers but it all circles back to their absence and imitation.

like, okay. i think the only (non-silhouetted, ie Actual Flesh) father we see is miki’s, and even then we don’t see his face. similarly we don’t see kanae’s mum’ face though she too is a Flesh Parent. don’t even get me started on how the only two visual representation of utena’s parents are their coffins and graves. also don’t get me started on that One shot from episode 10 that i use in all of my amvs of the silhouetted kiryuu parents because as you can probably tell from my heavy use of it in my amvs, i find it a deeply fascinating shot. swagever. all of this is to say, dads are not In The Flesh in utena.

im excluding the movie from this discussion bc whilst im a diehard aou lover and would never normally eclipse it from my analysis like this, the choices it makes in representing touga’s father break with rgu’s typical stylistic choices in a way that i honestly think is less effective. that whole sequence is incredibly visually rich in every other way and includes symbology that is some of the most compelling in all of rgu, imho, but it’s like. gahhh. i know it’s an active choice to represent him as Just A Guy, and you could argue ‘well akio’s Just A Guy’ but it’s. it just irritates me. i don’t think it’s meaningful in the way that utena likes to be meaningful. id argue that seeing his face doesn’t contribute anything, but idk maybe i just don’t like looking at his horrible face. it’s probably just that but also im right it’s a lacking stylistic choice

rambling side note aside, i get to my actual point that i technically already alluded to: akio. akio’s not a dad but akio is positioned as a (pseudo?)father figure to (checks notes) anthy, utena, kanae (hey remember she’s what started this post lol), touga, id throw nanami in, you could probably make a tangential argument for miki and kozue, ruka’s an interesting one, and mikage (maybe??). this is for a couple of reasons. he’s the (acting) chairman of the school that all the characters i just listed attend, he’s the guardian/caregiver for three or four of them, and, fundamentally, he guides and governs their lives to the best of his ability (not in the sense that he’s trying really hard to raise these kids, in the sense that he’s trying to control them. lol). BUT. crucially. he is an approximation of a father, an imitation of the patriarch, even and especially to anthy.

why does this matter? well, funnily(?) enough it circles back to why i dislike aou’s choice to portray touga’s father as A Guy. the powerful men in ohtori— and when i say ‘powerful’ here, i specifically mean men who are not marginalised, men who are not racialised, men who come from money and have never had to reach the top of the tower, rather always resided at its summit— are not seen by us. akio is the acting chairman, the acting father, the stand-in who stood up for something that is altogether worse than him, that made him who he is in such an insidious way. and i just think that’s really fucking interesting to think about wrt his status as a brown man, being racialised, being The Thing That We See when everything else— the inappropriate vice principal, miki’s piano teacher, mr ohtori, mr kiryuu (anime version), even off-hand dialogue from shadow girls about adult men in positions of power like mr judge (papa! daddy! god!!)— is obfuscated and implied. and i don’t want to suggest that that’s an intentional commentary on the racist mythologising of brown and black men as innately sexually violent, because. It’s Not. and utena massively drops the ball wrt race, but because of that lack of explicit, intentional commentary, it creates this strange dynamic between akio, the only racialised man in the show, and Every Other Guy. and that’s a very long-winded way of saying ‘maybe poisoning mr ohtori was a good thing actually’

[dovahkinniez]

this is an absolutely, shamelessly feral idea- but i hope you’re up for writing submissive, bound farkas in sexual denial 😇

+ no pressure to write it ofc if u don’t like writing for submissive guys!

i saw another fic by someone else with the trope of farkas gone feral from his wolf blood, and asked to be bound down to his bed to try and calm himself, he wears a muzzle that muffles his speech and secretly wears a chastity belt underneath 👀 And so i thought up this continuation of the trope and was hoping you’d write it for me (istg ur work is so good i have like it all archived) Btw the fic is called Wolfs Blood I'm pretty sure.

maybe it would be his wolf blood acting up that made him not realize his internal desires, how he actually wanted to be in this situation for sexual pleasure rather than to calm himself, but he slipped up. being bound to his bed, unable to tell anyone to release him, muzzled and strained by his chastity belt? It would be so unlucky for him to be especially horny and turned on that night. such a pitiful sight for him to be effortlessly struggling in his binds, hot breath escaping his muzzle, demeanor cracking. DESPERATELY trying to release his core from its prison; but just simply can’t. And so effortlessly turned on from the fact that he can't. maybe the reader (who farkas def has a wild crush on at the time) would be the only one awake at that time, only one hearing the grunts and near silent wails from the other room, the only one to investigate it, opening the door to such a sight 😳

being so clouded by desperation and denial, embarrassment and self control completely subsided him as an affect of his heightened wolfs blood making him so honest; he would beg the reader to help him through muffled words. He would have meant for them to release him, to take off his muzzle even- but the reader would have other (consensual) plans, determined not to lose this opportunity to make the oh so strong farkas SOB.

( I honestly didn't plan on making the trope so descriptive but I think I had a little too much fun- still dont really know how you're supposed to request things here.. Nevertheless id b so happy if u could use it 2 make a smut or something. If u don't want to, that's completely okay!!!!!)

` 𖤓 . . . FARKAS.

First of all, thank you so very much for the compliment! I love seeing you guys tell me you like my writing, like fr makes me so happy.

(18+) I did do a semi sub! farkas fic not long back, but it just didn't involve kink, so maybe you'd also like to read that if you haven't. But as I said, it wasn't sub sub, ya get me? Idk. ANYWAY! Yes, submissive men >>>. Gotta love em, I just don't write it out a lot due to the fact most people like them dom (tell me if I'm wrong). So hell, yeah. I love this idea, and the idea from the fic you told me about (I haven't ever read it though). But I have once read a few anime character fics that work along the same lines so I am familiar with the whole 'in a rut and can't control self' thing, and I love it. :D

So credits to the op who wrote that fic, I don't want to steal that person's idea, of course.

I will try and make this as gender neutral as possible, but there may be mentions of a female bodied reader, I'm sorry if I do and that makes you feel uncomfortable, I adore you all. And enjoy!

18+ only! Sexual content ahead, minors dni!!

Hours. That's what it felt like. Fingertips burning as he tugs at the restrains, trying to find some release. It's not working. Eyes glazed over with frustration and desire, his blood is burning through his skin, he's counting down the hours until this...curse...wares off. Hoping the ache in his body subsides, so he can feel normal again. The ceiling grows misty from his lack of vision as he pushes his hips up, feeling the metal of the chastity belt rub against his needy flesh.

Gods, he needed release.

Whining and grunting as he aims to gain as much friction as possible yet it isn't enough. Feeling the hardness of his cock strain against the solid metal stings as it grows tighter against his skin, fuck it hurts.

Asking to be restrained but a few hours ago he didn't expect to feel this worked up already, he knew it'd be bad but not this fast. He feels his body changing each rut he falls into and since meeting... someone. He's noticed his desires increase until it hurts, now he's completely feral as he attempts to grind his restrained cock against the belt, all while thinking of you.

He wants you so fucking bad its driving him crazy.

You walk back in from a night's work, shaking the adrenaline off your limbs; wiping blood from your face with your hand, which is smeared in just as much blood. Cringing at the taste of the blood you make you way into the sleeping quarters, it's silent. Not wanting to make noise you creep around, hearing noise from Farkas' room you freeze slightly, hoping maybe he could help you with some clothes as you didn't want to wake anyone up making a ruckus to get a change of clean clothing.

This had became a routine, as Farkas stayed up late at night he became the person you'd go to if you needed anything after a late night job. In reality the night time was the only time you had Farkas to yourself, enjoying his company uninterrupted and without eyes watching, where you could be yourselves. You found Farkas more comfortable in speaking around this time.

Slowly opening the door the heat hits you, taking your breath slightly at the sheer temperature in the room, Farkas felt you by the door. He could smell you and the blood that coated your form, biting down onto his bottom lip as he pulls on the restraints until it burned at his skin.

"Y/n.." By Dibella. His deep voice broke out into a cry of desperation, the sight took you by complete surprise yet something in the air compelled you to shut the door behind you, watching him closely as he moves his body on the bed, in an attempt to try and get you.

Walking closer you take in the details, feeling the arousal seep through your veins, it was intoxicating as the heat from his body radiated through the entire room. "S-Stop..." "Stop what?" You reply as you watch the sweat on his heaving chest, the way his stomach sucks in as you grow closer, how his back arches, his thighs cling together, tight and muscular. "You're making it worse." He barely growls out, whines passing his mouth as he falls back, watching you with dozy eyes. "Do you need help, puppy?" "Don't tease me." Inside he was begging, pleading and the way his hips push up tells you exactly just that.

Smirking, you begin to realise the power you hold in this situation. He's ready, hot and looking at you with needy eyes, all for you to play with. He notices your smirk, the way you snake your way onto the bed, watching his body as he shakes from not only the rut but now you too. He's always wanted this.

He just didn't realise how badly.

Slowly taking off your armour, he watches with bated breath. "Tell me, do you need help?" You ask again, he watches the blood drip across your naked form as you take ahold of his legs, parting them between you as he lifts himself up, he could cum alone at the sight and smell of you.

"Y/n-" "Farkas. Yes or no. Do you need help?" You cut him off, eyes sharp as he gulps with a nod, "Use your voice, puppy." You smile gently, almost innocently as you rub your hands up his muscular thighs, tugging at the straps of the belt he wiggles his hips up, wanting to be freed.

"Yes. Please. F-Fuck." He hums out, his lip almost bloody from biting down. "I need you-" Farkas whimpers out as you lean up, running your hands across his body, squeezing at his muscles and his neck as he pushes his head back, "Fuck. Me ... Please." He chokes out between breaths as you giggle while licking and kissing against his abs and v-line. "Patience, puppy." He had none. He had been wanting, needing and waiting for too long. He needed release.

You knew this. You decided to take advantage of it instead. So cruel.

"I can't-" "Ah-Ah." You smack his thigh, Farkas mutters a shy sorry, causing you to smile against his skin, "Good boy." Fuck. He felt whatever blood left up shoot right down, his cock pressing against the belt and he swore it felt as if it were bleeding from the pain. Whimpering as he attempts to close his legs, you slap his thigh again, grabbing at the hot flesh as he takes a deep breath in.

Biting and licking against his neck, bruises litter across the skin, you lick up his neck as he moans out, your fingers tangled through the raven locks of his hair as Farkas hangs his head back, like putty in your hand he follows each movement and each motion you make. Hot and sweaty under you, his body laid out ready to be fucked as he whines each time you make eye contact in a desperate attempt for more.

"You're so impatient." You hum out. He only whines more. "Do you want me to suck your cock?" You ask, he moans out, feeling his dick twitch against the metal desperately for your mouth. You laugh out, looking at him as if he were weak and pathetic and fuck, he loved it.

Slowly taking the chastity belt off you pepper kisses along his torso, releasing his cock as it slaps against his stomach, hot and heavy, tip leaking and angrily red.

You couldn't help but laugh, leaning back and simply watch him as his hips jolt, his cock twitching with need. "Please." "Patience." You shush him, running your finger across his thigh, until it reaches to his ballsack, using your hands you tug and gently massage, he grits his teeth, his cock bobbing with anticipation and all you do is watch, eyes low and glued to his face as he watches with a helpless expression, panting for more. Rubbing your hand up to his cock, feeling each vein and the wetness that formed a string from the tip to his stomach, you form a fist around him, slowly pumping, watching his dick swallow your hand as he let's out groans and whines. Fuck, he sounds hot.

You wish to stay there longer, but your mouth waters at the sight and the sounds before you, but it didn't matter how fast leaned down to move your mouth because to poor Farkas it felt hours before he noticed you slowly lean down to lick the tip, gathering the precum on your tongue before you slowly take him I'm your mouth, your jaw expanding until it hurt due to the thickness he bared. "Ohhhhhh ..... Fuck yeah." He breathed out, louder than he expected. Biting down on his bottom lip to mask his moans and to mirror the pain you were causing in his thighs as you dig your fingernails into them, gripping tightly while trying to fit more of him inside your mouth.

It almost felt impossible, too big. Poor puppy is too large for his own good yet he shakes and moans just as well while you lick and press your tongue against him, sucking and licking while making all sorts of ungodly sounds, Farkas listens and forces his own sounds to quieten as he rolls his eyes back, leaning back onto the bed. Arching his head back as you wrap your hands around him, pumping him while focusing your sweet mouth on his weeping tip. Farkas moans like the good boy he is, "Please... I need to come.." He begs, as you rub and fist the saliva that oozed out your mouth and down his shaft.

Tears roll down your cheeks from the sheer size of the man, yet his tears where from pure frustration as you fuck his cock with your pretty mouth and skilled hands. "Cum for me, puppy. Be a good boy." You say lowly, he whimpers and arches his back as he pulls on the restraints. "Fuck - fuck." He grunts as you bob your head up and down, hands rub and please his cock and his balls as your mouth licks and sucks until you feel him pulsating, squirting cum onto your tongue as you groan, you mouth rumbling against him as you tilts your head, licking and sucking down the edges on him, licking at the oozing cum as he continues to moan out like the whore he is, thighs clenched into stone until he gives way, limp and sweaty, whimpering breathlessly as you clean him up with your tongue.

"Gods. I'm not finished." Tonight was going to be a long night. Good job you haven't fucked yourself on him yet.

[i-d-e-g-a-f]

Hey pal, I hope you're doing well! ^.^

What's your favorite Mailee moment? Favorite Mailee headcanon?

hiii!! this got lost in my asks i hope you don’t mind im responding so late! sorry for rambling so much, but you prompted me and i love to talk about mailee so you get all my thoughts now.

my favorite moment is honestly i think one of their first on screen interactions, where mai is like “i thought you ran off and joined the circus. you said it was your calling.” that small moment establishes so much about their dynamic to me from the jump. it’s honestly such an unimportant piece of dialogue that could have EASILY been cut from the episode and changed basically nothing. but it wasn’t. it’s the subtle ways that mai shows her care/concern for ty lee, whilst being very aware of the fact that technically neither of them have a choice. it establishes that mai and ty lee’s relationship is truly genuine. not to say that the girls did not have love for azula, but there was also a clear power dynamic at play that didn’t allow for their relationship to be genuine in the same way. that’s why i love mailee so much. they truly are equals and just want the best for the other. honestly, i can’t recall any other character for whom mai expresses concern for regarding their EMOTIONAL state. that’s part of what makes mailee so special for me personally. in the text of the show, i think mai cares for ty lee the most. and as for ty lee, i think it’s quite cut and dry given that she stood up to azula for mai. it’s not the same as mai’s situation because we often see ty lee extend empathy to many characters in a way that mai doesn’t, but at the end of the day she still CHOOSES mai. in an incredibly oversimplified summary, mai only really truly cares for ty lee, whereas ty lee cares about everyone but she always CHOOSES mai. and i find it incredibly sweet. i honestly think the “i love zuko more than i fear you” applies more to ty lee’s relationship mai than it ever did to mai’s relationship with zuko. but that’s neither here nor there. anyways yeah i just love their introduction because it establishes that mai’s care for her is selfless in a way that her care for others isn’t and also solidifies their feelings for each other as mutual and of that of equals.

oh and i also just generally love any time mai reciprocates ty lee’s affection (smiling, hugging, etc.)

as for headcanons, idk if i have a specific short one, i moreso have like an personal timeline of how i think their relationship goes throughout the show lol. i personally think mai absolutely fell first (and harder tbh) but has severe comp-het and does not acknowledge it (hence the boiling rock). id even go so far to say that mai already liked her prior to the episode they’re both introduced. ty lee i think starts to fall around the drill episode and actually acknowledges it to herself, but doesn’t act in them because mai means something more to her than people shes attracted to and casually flirts with. i also think she’s fully convinced it’s not reciprocated. mai doesn’t even think about whether it’s reciprocated because she refuses to acknowledge the feelings are there. i would say ty lee is like fully in love with mai by boiling rock, but like still fully convinced it’s unreciprocated (which… to be fair is understandable). i think they’d get together WAYYY post war, like post zuko mai break up + when ty lee’s an active kyoshi warriors member, but not before way more interpersonal conflict occurs because these are girls with a lot of unresolved trauma (especially mai). i think immediately post war they’d probably be incredibly codependent (shared trauma and whatnot), but i think ty lee would eventually realize she needs a change of environment for her own well-being and healing (that being the kyoshi warriors)(it’s also partially because mai is still dating zuko at this point in time and she can’t deal with it). (mai takes her leaving very personally but doesn’t express it. ty lee picks up on it, but doesn’t address it). i think the community ty lee finds in the kyoshi warriors would embolden her to open up to them about her feelings for mai. mai eventually breaks up w zuko and then visits ty lee, and ty lee, having a newfound courage because of her new community, finds it in herself to confess to mai in quiet, private moment when they’re reminiscing. not necessarily with any expectation of reciprocation, but for closure. i think mai would probably panic and go into fight or flight mode because i still don’t think she’s fully confronted the fact that she’s gay at this point, or that being gay is even really an option. it would result in, not necessarily a fallout, but a period of time where they’re just not close at all, probably not even talking. like mai is fully avoiding ty lee. i think mai has to do a lot of self discovery and personal growth before her and ty lee actually get together. but eventually they find each other again slowly rebuild their friendship (under healthier circumstances and with much better support systems), and from there start dating in a mutual confession type of way and then in the future they argue technicalities about who asked who out, who fell first, who confessed first, and whatnot.

in summary, LOTS of angst and incredibly slow burn. painfully so. but they get there eventually :) and i think they’re relationship would be incredibly sweet.

i like to think that mai would learn to cook for ty lee. honestly i like the idea of mai as a sort of artist (perhaps wood carving)? where she stays home more often working on personal projects, whereas ty lee has the more traditional job (being a kyoshi warrior). i also think they’d work out together and make it a point to partake in each others hobbies occasionally (meditation, knife throwing, yoga, etc.). in a modern setting, they’d absolutely go to the gym together. honestly i think they’re just very domestic. mai takes ty lee out because she knows she enjoys it, but they tend to just enjoy each others company privately more than anything. i also think ty lee brings mai surprise flowers from patrols in interesting areas, and mai pretends she doesn’t care that much but takes perfect care of them. i don’t think they ever have kids of their own. but the kids in the community adore them. mai ends up being kinda like a grunkle stan to them, ykwim? ty lee loves to swim, mai loves to lounge poolside to keep her company, occasionally being convinced to join her. ty lee’s love is the opposite of subtle, she smothers mai in affection and gifts. she never stops talking about how much she loves her girlfriend, she’d shout it from the rooftops if they’d let her. mai’s love is quieter and shown through smaller gestures and her attention to detail. like she remembers EVERYTHING about her and makes it her job to make sure she’s as happy as humanly possible. mai wakes up early to make ty lee tea before she goes for work, then immediately goes back to bed because she is NOT a morning person. ty lee tells everyone about how lovely and talented mai is and how her tea is the best she’s ever had, no question. ugh they make me sick. that’s all i got. i love mailee.

[ajdrawshq]

Hey so after an intense amount of fishing and banana peels I decided to play the epilogue as a palette cleanser and discovered the island might be back now?? So ty for sending me on a fishing journey bc I would've never noticed.

The reason i say this btw is bc if you don't point out the dialogue during a loop to the daydreamer about her sister, she just seems to think hard during the party b4 returning to daydreaming. HOWEVER, if you did she asks the elder if she had one. The elder says she doesn't think so but her memory isn't what it used to be and asks her why to which she says she dreamed of one. She then describes her sister and the elder interrupts saying that the sister would say she'd travel the world and see every country on earth. When the daydreamer says thats exactly what she said in the dream and asks how she knew. The elder says she's not sure but I can see you having one, that they can imagine it vividly which makes the daydreamer happy. AND NOTHING SUDDENLY GLITCHED! THE UNIVERSE DIDNT REWRITE THEIR CONVERSATION!!?? So yeah ty for sending me on a fishing quest!

OH YEAH!! i got that during my first playthrough, i didnt know it was missable tbh :0

im not sure if id take it as confirmation that the island has fully returned, since the daydreamers memory (and the elders memory, who knows if its old age or the other thing) of her sister is still a bit off, but theres possibly something going on here thats.. more lenient ? about peoples memories and perceptions regarding it and/or connections to it. either that or that conversation was indirect enough that it didnt require being rewritten.. idk!! shits weird!!

the situation w the island and its very (non)existence is honestly super interesting to me bc its like. its not completely, physically gone, is it? during act 4 after beating the king if you have sif look outside towards the sun, they can see it - if only briefly, since they stop themself before the universe has the chance to. so its. still there?? but what happened to everyone else who lived there, besides the few we know about? the daydreamers sister didnt just cease to exist, did she? sif had parents, and other people they knew there, what happened to them? are all the former residents end up just.. wandering around random areas unable to remember anything, like the king? did some actually disappear? but theres still physical proof of it in written form, so thats unlikely.. probably.. but the land itself is still there, somehow, so.. ?????????????

didnt mean to get into all that here cksbksjs anyway ur welcome!! :] its so fun to find new things in this game theres SO much stuff hidden away that u dont even think to look for, especially when its by accident!! what a game .........

[fictionfixations]

can i just say

you know those transmigrater(?) grator?? i odnt. i dont know the terms for this man

but you know the the the. transmigrates into usually the villain kinda stories?

you know whats my favorite for that kinda stuff? where we were the actual character all along (i think its.. regressor...? ??? either going back into your past as yourself or living another life and then backtracking to a past life of yours that being of generally the villain? idont know if thats what it actually means)

ive also never seen it but i just. think its really cool. and i like reading fics where theyre the same person

in the same way i like it when they have motives. let me be clear, ive NEVER seen the source material so i have no idea whats canon and whats not

but you know what id like to think is canon? shen jiu being a former slave and being super bitter at the world for being very cruel and thats why hes an asshole in like. book canon.(? canon. of. the book. ..in the story.? i think the the the book in that one is like Proud Immortal Demon Way...? IDK man)

or like like. og cale henituse acting like trash because he cares about his siblings and doesnt want negative attention on them also dont know if thats canon. but yknow what? thats my canon

now about time travel in general since it kind of relates, romance is always iffy because its like you know everything that'll make this person fall in love with you. or like, theres an age gap now, and it might not bother them but its not like they know. i know. (its worse if youre like back in your teenage years while youre already an adult cause at that point it feels a little gross)

its that sort of discrepancy(?)

so like. i dont like that there needed to be an entirely new person to be in that body to make change or do things for the better or make everyone like that person

it feels like a cop out.

and also people believing that that person suddenly changed for the better when they arent that person at all???

which. ow.

maybe thats my bad. maybe im secretly an apologist for them, idk, maybe im projecting

but like idk man. the world telling you youre not enough so someone else ends up in your body and then fixes literally every issue in the world (and everyone liking this 'version' of you better). like ow me heart

in all fairness the og's wouldn't have knowledge of the book they're living in??? which is why the transmigrator can do so much

but. THUS. new life AS the transmigrator, then regressing(?) back into their past life with that new knowledge. and probably character growth cause maybe they experience what being loved is like (familial. imagine how cruel itd be to have a lover then one day waking up in a past life of yours that you can only associate as cruel and punishing, and you genuinely cant be sure if that person was made up or not. like was it just a dream? also 'oh god the people i thought mightve been dead are alive')

tbh though it might be because while op time traveling shenanigans (or anything in between) is cool with me, i also like the angsty time travel of 'when i look at them, i keep seeing their dead faces'

of 'how do you know this' (accusatory, 'are you a traitor?')

of also grudges and stuff

but also. more character growth refacing trauma theyve faced before

also maybe probably very much selfish because they kindaa probably just wanna protect their family and will do anything to do so (and thus embrace the 'villain' part that people think of them as)

i dont know if im making sense anymore

now LET ME BE CLEAR i dont like that shen jiu hit his students and shit and was a huge asshole and its not going to suddenly go away. but. its acknowledging what you did wrong, making up for it, but knowing that it'll still stay there. that he still did it even if he deeply regrets it and even if everyone forgives him. because i really dont know in what situation itd be okay to be hit? and also that hopefully hes not that person anymore, but that he wont hide it and will own up to it as a thing he did and shouldnt have done.

anyway i dont know what og cale did besides act like trash but its either the fics im reading are downplaying it or like. thats really it. i have no clue. but still the same thing. if he did some horrible thing, ABOVE.

i just like redemption. and revenge stories. and character growth-ing.

and maybe thats on me for liking villain-ish characters. (im saying villain-ish though because supposedly og cale didnt play a huge part in the book? ....Birth of a Hero...?????? like he just happened, got beat up, and dipped? i think? thats what ive heard anyway. so i dont know if he really counts as one since like uh. white star.????????? ????)

anyway uh thought dump over

feel free to correct me in comments i like learning about things

[im0utoftime]

JACKIESHAUNA THOUGHTS!!! :3

jackie and shauna are one of the very few ships i think about consistently, due to how complicated both individual characters are separately, and together. Jackie is outwardly seen as popular, confident and quite caring, which further adds to her role as the team captain. she's able to influence others due to her attitude and tries to make light of situations. On the other hand, Shauna is the opposite, while she's still well known due to her part on the team, she can be insensitive, and hot-headed and prefers to keep her emotions to herself. As a result, it eventually boils over and causes her to damage relationships and others in the process of lashing out and leads to quite dire situations occasionally. This is the eventual cause of Shauna and Jackie’s friendship coming to an end, which kills Jackie. I love it.

They both view each other SO differently from how I just said as well, this can be shown in their fight and Jackie's dream (idk what to call it😭) when she dies. during the fight, Shauna goes on about how Jackie doesn't care about her and keeps Shauna in her shadow on purpose. I don't think she could be more wrong about Jackie if she tried. JACKIE LOVED HER SOO MUCH. She states how good of a friend Shauna is, even going as far as to say she's “the best friend she's ever had”. Jackie would have done anything just so that Shauna was happy, she cared so much about her. She views her so differently from how Shauna actually acts to others. While jackie views Shauna as caring and soft in how she acts. EVEN REPEATING THAT QUOTE I PUT FROM THAT LITTLE DREAM SHE HAS. she's not soft to others, only Jackie to an extent bc of how she slept with Jeff behind her back. Even though I believe she feels guilty for it now, she consistently went back to do it multiple times despite the fact she knew it was wrong. Even after Jackie confronts her, she decides to start attacking Jackie rather than saying sorry and apologising. She chooses pride over everything, even her best friend. She left her outside to sleep even though she wanted to apologise but didn't. She cares too much about herself. They're so fucking tragic and I love them but oh my god they make me sick every single time.

Anyways, this is probs not explained well or accurately sorry 😊😊 pls share ur thoughts!!! id love to hear abt what u think :3

[superdeluxeaverage]

n just thinking abt the whole shittyness of my whole friendship w/ them n how i tried to ride it out with them when theyd treat me shittily and blame it on stuff they were going thru and tell me that they rly valued me as a friend and hoped we could continue to be friends n then continue to consistently ghost me like monthly and then fall on the same excuses anytime id bring up to them how i felt abt the dynamic of our friendship and how theyd do this super fucking weird in hindsight thing where theyd always go on mini-rants abt ppl need to get therapists and stop using their friends to vent about all their troubles and then immediately start venting to me about all the shit they were going thru with their real friends so that would like put me in a weird situation where id listen to their problems but feel guilty about even considering talking about mines and once i did eventually tell them about my moms then drinking problem (b4 it got real real apparently bad but where it was still something that made me uncomfortable) and they just recommended me a therapist lol. I dont kno if i have a place for them in my heart truly like im sure they tell everyone they know that im a huge loser and a weirdo clingy person or whatever and i kno one of their friends def thinks im a huge loser and was prob just waiting for them to cut me out so they could stop tolerating me but like hypothetically if they did actually reach out and apologize i wonder what id do knowing we shared music interests n stuff like idk that scares me i really especially with my job have been aware of how much of a pushover i am and how unhealthy that is to let ppl walk all over me as if its no problem n then for me to go to pieces when it obv doesnt lead me anywhere but like i wonder if id ever forgive them if they did reach out idk. my whole situation with my mom and how i never forgave her and now well do have a positive relationship with her i dont wanna be a completely unforgiving person cause i kno u have to forgive to be a good person and obviously u have to draw a line to live ur life healthily but idk where that line belongs for me with the way i act like im no big deal with not much goin on. i think abt them and that theyre in their way a beautiful person but i dont think they ever respected me as an equal. i dont kno what id say to them if i had to talk to them i fantasize abt being rude and concise with my words but in reality i dont kno what id say. maybe just that i was hurt. because i was. ive matured a lot since then in ways they would consider maturity (having a job driving a car dressing better) and ways id consider maturity (comfortable with my isolation or perceived isolation, not being so codependent on relationships, greater confidence in musical abilities and musical interests, dressing better) that id wonder how things would go if i was in a situation where i had to talk to them. but mostly it just makes me sad thinking abt it but a mature kind of sad not moping about it or having it eat me up but just like idk u look at adulthood and see how ppl u thought were mature cause they had things u didnt/dont (friends/friend group, driving ability, job) turn out to be more childish than u thought. like where im at now rly things look different looking back theres less envy of wanting to go back and glancing at their face when they came to where i work two days ago i could rly see the weakness and childishness in their face in a way. like looking back im glad i moved forward cause im sure theyre in the same place with the same problems while im in a very great place and have a genuine confidence with who i am as a person

[nephritebabie]

Ok, first of all, being a Jupiter ruled Virgo must be so dope, I bet the Virgo Anxiety™ misses you most often then not. My Plutonic ruled Virgo ass can only marvel, good for you (honestly!)

Secondly, could you help me interpret a reading I did? Ya girls fighting deep rooted poverty patterns, and asked my cards what to do for I AM sabotaging myself losing, and drew out

5 of pentacle’s

Knight of wands

The emperor

Usually the knight is on the mission and kinda hastily in the move, but for some reason I feel like this is a “focus all your attention on what is in front of you now, and not where you want to get, you will get there eventually” and idk. I like reading what I want for myself and not what I’m actually being told so if you are willing to chim in, or maybe your followers, id be really really thankful and appreciative 🙌🏾

Happy Christmas! 🎄

😭😭 i mean the anxiety can get to me, but i do have to admit that i depend on jupiter a lil too much to help me out cause usually the luck he gives carries me HARD lmaoooo

but merry christmas! let me see if i can offer a different perspective and maybe you’ll resonate with it.

- if anyone else would like to give their interpretation to help this person out, that would be appreciated!

depending on where the knight of wands was placed, i’m assuming in the middle. the knight can show up as incomplete action. he’s eager to act but can fly off the rails a lil bit due to that fire energy. here, it might be saying that he’s (you) throwing everything at the wall, hoping it sticks.

you have two fiery cards (active) with a pentacle (receiving element) so is there anything more that you can do maybe? that knight seems like the saving grace to your situation, and can aid you in creating stability and control. but is there anything you can do to ground this knight of wands? and when i say that, i mean thinking about what you have planned or are doing already. is it solid enough to continue? is it just a quick fix to your situation, and not something with a lasting effect? maybe in order to end instability the action that you’re taking needs to be less frantic, and more controlled. i dont think you’re on the wrong path, our interpretation seems similar. but maybe the problem is how you’re directing your focus to get out of your situation!

i’m just thinking that the emperor is solid and stable here, but i’m imagining the knight screaming looool hes going really fast, with a lot of passion. but its frantic and can burn out fast due to the lack of control he has. and the emperor is all about control and being a pillar of security for those around him

[jemmo]

Seonwoo is sooooo messy, I love it and hate it, he brings that drama but at what cost???? The way he kept teasing Junsung, GOD he’s so annoying I had to take a deep breath

this man. this fucking man. I don’t just wanna go out and say I can’t stand him but maybe I just do. idk. im also interested in him and the way he works even when those ways are so twisted, bc it’s like I can see where he’s come from and why he’s like this, a person that literally came out a week before the show in his 30s who has this outward persona and confidence and chatty and outgoing but he’s so unwilling to actually share his thoughts and feelings, it’s like I can see this huge void between what he presents and who he is and a need to please people mixed with who you are not being the normal thing people want seems to put all the puzzle pieces together.

that being said, it’s that thing of I can understand where you’re coming from and what your deal is but I can also objectively not like it. a reason is not an excuse, and when he sat with hyungjin and said I am what I am, that’s me, that changed my approach towards him then. before, I thought he needed someone to break through that exterior and help him take down that guard and get to the core of him, but now I’m more thinking ok that might be a part of it but I also don’t think how you behave is a mask, it’s part of you, and whatever you perceive yourself as, you don’t have a problem with, which makes things a bit easier for me bc now I don’t feel the need to reason his behaviour. his actions are his actions and I’ll see them now I see them.

so saying that… he’s a bitch. I don’t know if this is my roommates for endgame rose-tinted glasses, but his behaviour has bitchiness in it, the way he continually finds ways to bring up sungho to junsung, rub it in his face that he’s dated him while he hasn’t, it’s the hypocritical-ness of it all for me that’s the worst bc he said he’s uncomfortable in this love triangle situation continuously in ep 7, and yet he’s the one seeking out junsung to set themselves up as rivals. he’s the one at that table who called them rivals, and junsung is the one that said he doesn’t like competitiveness, doesn’t like tension. at this point, he seeks out junsung to talk about their rivalry more so than he seeks out sungho, the one he actually likes, to hang out with him. and I think I said in tags before, that this need to compete with junsung comes from jealousy and insecurity, bc he isn’t like junsung, and can’t bring himself to be. junsung is certain and steadfast and straightforward and bold and seonwoo can’t do any of that. he isn’t a person that can express himself that easily. and instead of explaining that difference to junsung and sungho, instead of seeing that difference, bc he sees it as an insecurity is why he twists it into this rivalry, a way to prove he can be all those things that junsung is, that he wants to be.

and it’s the way he acts this way, pushing this love triangle narrative, while still being the one talking to and keeping doors open to other people. like i can’t bear to watch yonghee anymore bc i adore him so much and I need seonwoo to cut that tie instead of keeping him tethered with this promise of id like to date you someday, bc when will the day come. I get that they haven’t had a chance, but so haven’t so many other people. so many of the pairs that are interested in each other, like sungho and junsung, like minsung and hyeongjun, haven’t dated, and yet their feelings and connections are strong. you don’t need a date for that, you can foster that in the house, and a date can then serve as a chance to check or affirm those feelings. seonwoo strings yonghee along like if only we had a chance to date, then I’d be able to see whether I’m interested or not, when they have had time, they’ve talked a lot, and I just want seonwoo to give him more than there’s maybe a chance of cut it off altogether bc he can know by now if there’s a feeling, he can give some indication of whether this is more than just returning kindness or feeling sorry or wanting to comfort him. and that maddens me, bc it keeps yonghee in this state of tunnel vision when there’s so many other people around him giving him kindness that he can’t see with those blinders on. but no, seonwoo will keep that flame alight only just while feeding into this love triangle and acting like he’s frustrated by it. like… dude if junsung wasn’t in the equation, you’d still be in a love triangle bc sungho is apparently not the only person you’re open to. you’d just be at the center of the love triangle, and is that what you want? this personality of being cowardly to share your feelings and make a move but instead wanting everyone to chase you and pursue you and have you at the center of everyone’s attention? I just can’t get behind that, that selfishness. and it makes me even more mad that he won’t acknowledge the fact that he’s a central figure in this house bc he has so many people interested in him and he won’t take on the responsibility of that place by properly addressing those interests. sungho has two people interested in him that he can’t decide between and it makes him feel stressed and awful. seonwoo had multiple people interested in him and he sleeps fine at night. it’s that difference that infuriated me, that he starts all these fires and won’t put any of them out. great for tv, great for drama, but as a person making decisions… nope.

and I think it’s very telling that hyungjin, his complete opposite, someone very honest with his feelings and straightforward that is still very personable… I think it’s very telling that I think he clocked onto him straight away. literally on their first date, the first time he met him, asking whether he was being nice to him out of affection or is he just nice to everyone. bc he saw that he is kind to a fault, to the point it purposefully obscures his true feelings and he very much said I’m not here for that, he’s off my list. and you saw that seonwoo gauged that and didn’t like it. he went to hyungjin and had it out bc he couldn’t handle someone not even not liking him, but not being interested in him, and I love that hyungjin told him straight. and sungho sees it now too and is getting mad at that constantly bright persona when he won’t sort out the situations he’s created. and I’m kinda like yes yes get mad and go find refuge in the calm and comfort of junsung pls.

bc the thing is I don’t want to see this as a rivalry. I want sungho to take time and make the decision himself bc he’s capable of that. he’s a person, not a prize, and he can like who he likes. but what got me was him saying he just wanted to go, get out and have fun, get away from the house and the drama of it. and that is drama that seonwoo has maybe not created but absolutely fostered, and made bigger (bc look at how comparatively less tense and heated the minsung love triangle is… which ofc seonwoo has to stick his nose into), and it’s junsung that says he wants to go and have fun too. it’s those things that keep affirming in me that sungho would find that kind of happiness with junsung. and I think the best thing for seonwoo is for him to be knocked down a peg or two, and have a good long look in the mirror and realise how hypocritical his behaviour is.

ok this rant turned out way wayyyy to long I hope you aren’t bored of me anon but I’ll put this under a read more to save your brain from my ramblings. but thank you for your ask and hit me up with whatever his man 2 anons you want bc clearly I have a lot of opinions and I ain’t afraid to share them

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i can see where Neteyam is coming from. he's just like reader but again so different. it's easy to understand both reader and Neteyam when you're the eldest in your household.

Neteyam seeking for some sort of validation from his big sister makes it look like reader is like another parent to him — a parent Jake failed to be.

while reader keeps on seeking for validation from Jake whilst still looking our for her siblings makes it look like she's taken over the role of Jake.

I'd bet none of them actually see Jake as a father, they only accepted him as a father because they were told to do so. in my opinion Jake has never really been a father, he can claim that he wants to protect his family but by how he's acting he only pushes them in danger.

yet i can't seem to blame Jake, he knows no better.

yes !! i think the reason why i can portray different household roles (idk how to explain it) is because of my siblings themselves. in a way, i know where they're coming from and i understand how they feel in different situations. that's why i can never fully be angry at them. everyone is valid at some point and that applies to neteyam and reader- in a way, everyone is just a little bit confused and ofc have different perspectives. i hope i'm able to convey that well

the 'id bet none of them actually see jake as a father' kinda stings ;( because it's kind of true in a sense. heck, his sons literally call him sir. i'm not saying jake is entirely a bad father of course, but he has this side that makes him seem like one. ultimately, fathers are just fathers. they are never good with words and the actions they do are rooted from the worry they have for their family.

thank you for this, anon!