#idk hopefully retired involves banging a hot religious dork with a sword

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Reading IDW Transformers comics (which is a trip don't do it but also definitely do it pain is weakness leaving the body amirite?) and it's giving me even more feelings about Ratchet. Like...everyone has been at war for millions of years. War for even a few weeks fucks up your head so do that for millions of years yeah that's fine. So everyone has to cope. And thus almost everyone is insane. Charming insane! Except Ratchet doesn't get to be charmingly insane. We know what happens when the medic goes "charmingly" insane. You get Pharma and nobody wants Pharma as their doctor (poor little meow meow? Fine. Healthcare professional? No.) No, Ratchet doesn't get violence or faith or obsessive loyalty or any of the other copes, he forces himself to be as present and "realistic" as possible. And this isn't just the comics, he's always the grumpy adult in the room because he has to be because if he isn't on his game, people die. His friends die. Even if he is on his game, people die, and he forces himself to experience every single second of that. No dissociation, no quirks, no nothing. For MILLIONS IF YEARS.

Yeah. Yeah I'm super normal about this. When does rationality and "sanity" loop back around to become the most insane reaction possible? When are you fundamentally unwell because you've had to be the "most well" person in the room for so, so long?

How do you retire from that?