#idk I'm just Thinking
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trying to figure out how to say this delicately. i do think that the pwhl is going to make some progress, and already the support for the league is showing how much of a market there is for women's sports even from a few years ago. but it's kind of been irking me to see so many posts that act like there has never been any arena for women's pro hockey before. like do you understand how many people — how many leagues!! — came before this to even make the pwhl a possibility. do you know how many people have fought tooth and nail for women's pro hockey for DECADES. i'm not saying don't support the league, but don't act like it's the perfect solution to a brand new issue
#idk i'm just thinking#how quickly people forget the outrage and devastation of the entirety of the phf being blindsided by the acquisition/merger#contracts erased. careers ended. lives uprooted.#yes women players are getting more money and more visibility! that's great!#but i can't support it wholeheartedly#i will support it because they've ensured it's the only option there is but it still feels kind of bad man#saw a post earlier that was like 'starting today. young girls will realize there's a future for them in pro hockey'#that's great! but it's not starting today!#it started with all the groundwork that's been happening for years and years and years#hockey#pwhl#phf
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what if—and this is just a what if bc i’m still starting to consider— i end up moving tommy to a sideblog to my main blog ?
#bc i WANT to be here &#i WANT to write but#i'm also struggling with having#2 active blogs at this moment#even tho i do#prefer solo blogs#anyway i feel like#this way i could be more active ??#idk i'm just thinking#❛ ━━ › ⌜ outside the hex / ooc tag⌟
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Not to just like. Talk about the fact I likely have a personality disorder or anything but something that bothers me is how there are people out there who have stuff like BPD (like me) and NPD and other disorders who experience "stereotypical" symptoms. And because of the pushback against stereotypes (which is understandable!) we've ended up with the opposite effect where if the way your disorder manifests is too close to how neuroptypicals expect you to act then you're suddenly like, invalid or whatever. Idk man I think we should just accept the fact that there exist people who experience a disorder the "stereotypical" way and be accepting of those people instead of telling them "erm well mine doesn't work like that so obviously you're faking"
#rambles#idk I'm just thinking#i likely have bpd. i get bad anger flares that trigger seemingly randomly and I get obsessive thoughts etc etc#and because of how 'typical' it all is for the stereotype ive been told I'm not 'valid' or whatever. like I'm faking or making up excuses.#it genuinely pisses me off.
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The struggle of being an aroace writer who loves reading and writing romance and love stories and shipping right up until the point where mouth kissing happens. Like I genuinely for the life of me cannot stand reading or writing kiss scenes. And it's not like I view it as an inherently sexual act, it's just that the concept and action of kissing someone on the mouth just seems so awkward to me.
#acespec#asexual#writing struggles#tw kissing#idk i'm just thinking#this is why every ship i like/write rides a fine line between romantic and queerplatonic
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wait so the "you are me" scene between mahito and yuji started to only make sense now because yuji's cursed technique is related to the soul as well?
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as a masc lesbian... dom fems are so 😮💨
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I keep seeing this take that "oh, Donatella has to have a different reason for her feelings towards psychics than the rest of the family since she married in so the curse doesn't affect her!" and like. I'm not saying she CAN'T have other reasons and it could be interesting to explore that!
but also, like, I think the fact that she spent years--at least Frazie and/or Dion's lifetimes--thinking that her husband and children were in constant danger of drowning...yeah that'd mess you up pretty bad
#idk I'm just thinking#psychonauts#donatella aquato#and like I said having other reasons is not a bad thing! maybe she came from an anti psychic family or something! we really don't know!#I just think that saying she has no reason in canon is. undermining how much having all your loved ones in danger would cause that kind of#intense fear
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hmmmmm..... kinda wanna make my qpr fic a series maybe idk
#but i will have to think about it.#but i'm thinking about them moving out... and people assuming their husbands and them not correcting them because what does it matter?#they're as good as married.#and they just share a secret smile...#idk i'm just thinking#*THEY'RE
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daily affirmation of the fact that i have in fact experienced romantic attraction (in a prophecy) and Know for a fact that i am aro (god knew i hated it and saved me from experiencing that hell ever again) even though i crave intimacy and close relationships (we live in amatonormativy, boo) it can be whatever the fuck i want it to be (qpr, romantic, platonic, unlabeled, it's up to me and whoever) !!!
#aro thoughts#idk i'm just thinking#and overthinking too#but yeah. i want closeness. i'd prefer it if it wasn't romantic but like. i just wanna be someone's number 1 who's my number 1#besties who will stick together i guess. maybe i've had too many failed friendships but fuck i just wish i had someone#who I didn't have to worry about them eventually leaving or having others thatre closer/more important#maybe it's selfish but it's happened before and while i'm happy for my friend where does it leave me? it hurts and it sucks#fuck amatonormativity#aromantic#aro#amatonormativy
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[Definitely toying with the idea of none of the Lunas having kids due to a few deals with demons/entities. Could also play into why his mom moved to Chicago.]
#idk i'm just thinking#they probably adopted him because maybe he wouldn't have powers but then BOOM endless supply of magic that could alert the entity demon to#the family#idk
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Thinking about how Lincoln Broadsheet said he worked in the newspaper industry for 25 years, and this game takes place in 2004 so he's worked since 1979. Idk how old he is, he looks 34 to me at the least.
He DID say that he likes music from the 60's - 70's, but idk if it means anything.
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wait so I can add MORE angst? 👀
#reading about the effects of having your vocal cords severed.... oh boy#oh I can make this so angsty if I want to...#either it's like. Benze is super cognizant of it in that doctorish way he has and is constantly waiting for something to happen#OR it doesn't even cross his mind. it's one of a set of symptoms that are kept on a list in the back of his mind and he spends#so much time fretting about communication that he doesn't even think about any of the rest of it until it happens#and then suddenly his best friend in the world is choking on nothing and looking to him with wild panicked eyes#because crab didn't expect this either. how would he?#severed vocal cords lead to vocal cord paralysis which has common effects of trouble breathing/swallowing etc and choking#the internet does not want to be forthcoming about my fictional hypothetical of what happens if you get both#cords straight up sliced but like. you can imagine#idk I'm just Thinking#something happens like crab gets knocked out or drugged or smth and benze is so concerned that he'll have#breathing problems while unconscious#and knowing all of that means that the others get kind of spun up about it too#(meaning: sandman gets so stressed out he thinks he's gonna throw up because he's ridiculously high strung anyway#and doesn't like when one of his friends is hurt aND ANOTHER ONE IS TALKING ABOUT POTENTIAL COMPLICATIONS#LIKE IT'S NOTHING.)#(actually I think it's really funny bc when Benze is in doctor mode he does come off as really cold and unfeeling#even though what's really happening is that he's falling back on facts that he knows and trusts in. medical stuff he can handle#so he's super clinical about it most of the time. and it drives the others up a wall bc they think he doesn't care)#ok sorry I'm just rambling somewhat unrelatedly now about stuff#ddas
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thinking about cudaas lately and how i wanna scale down the concept on some level i think. but like How
#multi makes text posts#idk i'm just thinking#i wanna tell the same general story but... man. idk#part of me wants to make them Regular Ass People but that feels weirx#*weird#idk we'll see
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I just rewatched the Reservation Dogs episode where Elora's grandmother dies and it got me thinking abut the way spirits/ghosts are generally represented in a lot of the media I grew up watching, mostly made by and for Christian white people. The idea of spirits, as I know it, is based on the presumption that death is scary, unknown. A terror. That's what gives stories of haunting so much power.
None of the characters on Reservation Dogs react to spirits with fear. Sometimes they're exasperated with them, but mostly they bring them peace. Makes me think about that community in Indonesia (if I recall correctly) that keeps the bodies of their loved ones in their homes for weeks afterwards, taking care of them and continuing to treat them as part of the family. Grief remains, but the intimate relationship with death seems like it does away with so much of the fear of what comes after.
Seems like a much healthier way of thinking about death than cloaking it in this loaded ominous silence.
#idk i'm just thinking#i didn't bawl like this the first time i watched this episode but i'm an open wound so i guess everything is getting to me now
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changing my "x reader" fic blog from gender neutral reader to trans male reader knowing it's going to ruin my reach but doing it anyway cause the gremlin in my brain won't stop chanting WE HAVE TO GET MORE NICHE
#idk i'm just thinking#x reader#trans male reader#like yeah gn reader is great it's the best middle ground and should be the default#instead of female reader#but i want content for ME#that's why I'm writing it!#so fuck it I'll kill my blog's chance at popularity cause fuck u idk#ariana grande voice and what about it#it's like 1;30 am and I'm halfway high idk if I'm making any sense here
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