#ididntmeantobutiaccidentally

[hansoulo]

!!!!! I finally had a chance to read pillar of salt (rip school) AND IT IS SO AMAZING!! You’ve created characters with such depth im in awe, especially Boba!! Your descriptions are so vivid and immersive I could read each chapter a thousand times and love it each time! Not to mention how hot they are!!!! You’re really out here playing with my emotions so easily!!!!! A million kudos because this fic really is a work of art that was a privilege to read!!🤩🤩

DUDE YOU’RE SO WONDERFUL 😭😭😭 thank you so much im so glad you liked it!!!!!

[peachebunnys]

I have to say pain w/ love is my fav fic that you’ve written!! It was the first thing of yours I read and I read it right after I watched Narcos so it holds a special place in my heart! Your descriptions were otherworldly & I loved ur characterization. I know I’ve been mia but ur fics really do mean so much to me and I truly believe you are talented!

stop trynna make me cry im trying to pay attention to class right now 😭 i always thought PWL was a dumbbb plotline that was inspired by the idea of being together and slowly falling for each other 🤧

[pachitoherrera]

OHMYGOD “serenity” is so so beautiful!!! The way you artfully meshed dialogue and description has me On The Floor!!, and the first paragraph when ur describing the way everything looks like a Monet painting was so beautifully done 🥺🥺 < that was me!! Everything about this is so soft and artful I’m gonna tattoo it to my forehead 🥰🥺

ahh oh my god thank you so so much!!! this is so sweet i’m telling you i’m smiling like a child that is eating chocolate for the first time!! im always having difficult times describing what i’m seeing in my mind with my limited english vocabulary (though to be honest even in my native language i’m not good at that) so it really makes me happy when someone likes it (and motivated to write more)! so again, thank you very much for taking your time and writing this beautiful message, i’m glad you enjoyed serenity 🌸 💕 have a lovely day and stay safe xx

[ardentmuse]

I just wanted to say that your mcu ship quiz is perfect and I loved the entire experience!! Thank you so much for creating it because it was amazing!!!!

You are too lovely for this earth! 

I am so, so glad it is appreciated because I had a blast learning this code and making something so detailed. I want to keep working to make it even better. And once I get this template done, I can add characters and extend to different fandoms. 

TAKE THE QUIZ NOW!

[shirewalker]

I just wanna say that I find your art style so gorgeous! I like the blend you make between vibrant figures and their backgrounds. I also LOVE your actual style of drawing I find it so compelling! I truly believe that you have a talent!!!!

Oh wow, I... Thank you so much!!! This was such a nice surprise to find in my inbox >w

Your words mean a lot, it’s so genuinely nice to hear this kind of comment on my art alksjdalsjd

[alexsunmners]

Your recent warren fic has me in Tears!! It is so marvelous all I can do is stare at my phone screen in shock. The descriptions you’ve weaved are beyond vidid and it’s almost like I’m watching the fic play out on a movie screen. This fic is honestly everything I didn’t know I needed you did such a brilliant job!!!!!! I am utterly!! Heartbroken!! For my bby warren!!

aaaaahhhh thank you so much!!!! this is so so sweet of you!!! i’m so glad you liked it omg 

[timetogoslumming]

Hey so I literally just finished watching newsies for the first time(why did I wait so long??) and I was wondering if you had any blogs to recommend to me or just general knowledge you'd like to share? You're the best and I love your blog already!

OH BOY. im so glad you asked! im going to go through the list of blogs i follow for some faves.

a lot of these people are good friends of mine. they’re super cool. there are way more great blogs but these were just some that immediately came to mind!!!

@spotsies, @freedomfriesandapplepies, @thestoryweneededtowrite, @tiredjay, @vitariesocks, @jackscrutchie (she also has this INCREDIBLE crutchie cosplay blog @watchmestand ), @spotchie, @missmedda, @bentylershook, @benfankhauserrr, @racetrackhuggins, @newsiesforrealjustice, @screamingnewsies, @spelmer, @ask-lgbtq-newsies

also, general information: the newsies aint straight

[mushmeyers]

Hey I love your blog and you so much keep being awesome 💚

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! thats so nice of you to say thank you!!! 

[hansoulo]

GIRL “toccare” is the most beautiful display of intimacy I’ve ever seen. I haven’t watched the mandalorian but now I’m gonna have to 👀👀 your descriptions are as perfect as ever, I could literally feel the tension around me. “drunk on contact and the twilight fog of shared lifetimes” this was the most beautiful and artistic line I’ve ever read. It had so so much emotional weight I had to read the sentence over and over before I could continue reading everything else. You are so amazing!!🥰🥰

FOR REALSKIES????? YOU’D WATCH IT BC I WROTE A HORNDOG MASSAGE FIC??? BABE????

i don’t deserve you shkdsaksjal

[peachebunnys]

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW U DO IT BUT EACH CHAPTER IS BETTER AND BETTER!First the tone of this chapter is absolutely everything! The terror underlying Horacio’s actions was crafted so beautifully I cry. I had to read it three times just to process everything bc your writing is THAT great!! The plot though! Ripped me to pieces, it felt like everything was happening in slow motion and so realistic it was like I was sitting in the car watching everything play out. When Horacio finally found the reader (1)

And u wrote “He sucked in a breath before calling out to you, rubbing his palms against his canvas pants” my heart literally stopped this was the most beautiful paragraph I’ve read in such a long time. Horacio’s anxiety was palpable the entire fic and reading how he calms down was such a beautiful thing THEN HIM CONFESSING ,, MY ACHING HEART and their kiss and how they can’t let each other go 🥺🥺 TEARS TEARS!!! And the CLIFHANGER?!?? I don’t know what I’m gonna do except cry until the next (2)

update!! But no rush take all the time u need!! You are such a brilliant writer and I am constantly in awe of u a million kisses and kudos for filling my stupid Horacio-loving heart 🥺🥰🥺🥰

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ thank youuu 🥺 these past few days ive been having serious writer’s block so chapter 9 may not come that soon but! i’m working on professor carrillo smut rn so ;) i guess you could anticipate that instead? who knows? once again thank u so much <3

[shirewalker]

OMG YOUR LAST NIKOLINA FIC IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING I CANT BREATHE BC ITS SO BEAUTIFUL. My favorite quote is “He pressed his forehead to hers and whispered her name over and over again, like aprayer, like a vow, like a promise to live by forever” when I read this line I had to stop reading because I was blown away by how beautiful it was. This whole fic was indescribably beautiful to me, I wanna print it out and put it on my wall I love it so much you. You have brilliant gift!!!!

AKSDHAKHSDA YOU’RE QUOTING MY WORK??? THIS IS SO NICE!!!!!!

thankyouthankyouthankyou, I really don’t know how to express how your message has made me feel. like, that pic right there is a great description without words (aksdha ironically, since you are talking about something I WROTE). this is really such a wonderful and sweet message, /I/ wanna print it out and put it on my wall

[medicatemedrmccoy]

Bite Me - Update

Alright you lovely and beautiful readers, after much debate I have decided to up load strictly to Ao3. The main reason is for saving time, by the time I come home and edit a fic, and draft it, tag everyone, my evening is basically shot, and with not even being halfway done with this fic yet, I’m trying to save myself some time. The second main reason is with Tumblr beginning the crack down on things, I would feel better with it being on another platform, because it’s doing to go deeper, a little darker, and a bit smuttier before the end. ;)

Cut for explanations

That being said; I don’t want to alienate anyone from being able to read this story. Yes, I’m trying to save myself a little work so I can have more time to write, but I’m posting these and writing and trying to finish ultimately for you guys to enjoy. So please, if there is anyone who wants to read and cannot do so on Ao3, please let me know, and I’ll suck it up and keep posting here. I want everyone who wants to read this to be able to do so.

The days will stay the same, Mon/Thurs. I am going to try my best to draft the fic and then log in at work and post during my lunch hour, if that fails, the latest you will have an update will be 6pm CST.

I hope this doesn’t upset anyone or put anyone off on continuing to read. I love seeing you guys so excited for chapters and I love hearing everyone’s feedback and their thoughts. I really hope you guys will continue to comment on Ao3, I want to hear from y’all.

Thank you to everyone that has liked, loved, commented, and reblogged this fic here. I will continue to update my masterlist but all future chapters will be links to the Ao3 fic site and I will label appropriately. I will also reblog the masterlist once a week as to give people who miss this update a chance to catch up.

So much love to everyone,

-Kat

You can find me on Ao3 under the same name as here. The fic should be the first one on my list!

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[wanderingpages]

Thank you for tagging 😩😩

I don’t really have a playlist, if I like a song, I just add it to my library hahaha // dubbed: everything is everything

Go fuck yourself - two feet

HATEMYGUTS - Blackbear

YEAH RIGHT - joji

What you do to me - blanks

Loca (remix) - KHEA, bad bunny, duki

Chicago freestyle- drake

West coast - Lana del Rey

Armed and dangerous - juice wrld

Be the one - dua lipa

Stargazing - the neighbourhood

Tagging: @ididntmeantobutiaccidentally @lanyjoy-13 @cultureaddictconfessions @to-read-is-to-breathe @goldbooksblack @madcakessssss @damsesverden

thanks for the tag @ambitioncunningpridemieczyslaw

Rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs then tag ten people!

i don't really have a "favorite" playlist, so I'm gonna use my on repeat playlist:

wow - jatp

cowboy like me - taylor swift

taking care of things - cavetown

lemon boy - cavetown

chosen family - rina sawayama

i got the music - jatp

things that make it warm - cavetown

wake up - jatp

was it something i said - mykey, cavetown

ivy - taylor swift

tagging: (i don't know if i have 10 people to tag, but ok) @skadf1 @secretly-of-course @penguin-writes-books @based-bisexual @divabrown8713 @dobby328 @jelazakazone @yellow-roseman

[thestoryweneededtowrite]

IM ACTUALLY SCREAMING OH MY GOD YOUR MOST RECENT SPRACE FIC GIVES ME LIFE!!! "I’m very gay,” Race explained confidently, “I’ve been skirting the truth and sort of lying about a girlfriend but the truth is I’m exceptionally queer and I love my boyfriend a lot.”" I've never related to anything more in my entire life exceptionally queer is gonna be my new catch phrase. I love how well you wrote sleepy race and everything is JUST SO CUTE AND AMAZING UGH your words are so detailed and precise💚💚💚💚

Omg this is the nicest ask ever, it made me so happy so thank you so much

[donnynovitskiaccordiongenius]

The Tag Game

I was tagged by @pontmarius so here’s my answers!

rules: answer the questions and tag [20] followers you’d like to get to know better name: Lauren nickname: scootymouse, mouse, vandel  zodiac sign: gemini hogwarts house: Ravenclaw height: 5′10″ (I think? I haven’t measured myself in a while and I’m not 100% sure this is accurate lol) sexual orientation: Straight ethnicity: caucasian favorite fruit: pineapple, but I also really like strawberries and peaches favorite season: Autumn favorite book series: Harry Potter favorite fictional character: Hermione Granger, Lily Evans Potter, Rose Tyler, Felicity Smoak, Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov, Han Solo, Princess Leia Organa, Jack Kelly, Katherine Plumber/Pulitzer, Donny Novitski, Peter Parker, Stitch, Snoopy, Elizabeth Bennet, Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy (I could go on but I’ll stop now lol) favorite flower: blue hydrangeas  favorite scent: fresh baked chocolate chip cookies favorite color: pretty much any shade of blue but specifically cerulean favorite animal: Labrador Retrievers, Hedgehogs, and Pandas favorite band: Paramore and I really like Rend Collective too coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: coffee hot or iced (and most of the time black), hot tea, sweet tea, hot chocolate (I love them all :D) average hours of sleep: I generally get 6 or 7 hours of sleep during the week and on Saturdays I normally get 9 or so number of blankets: one sheet, one blanket, and if I’m cold also a quilt dream trip: I’d love to travel around Great Britain to see the sights in England and Wales, go on the Warner Brothers Studio Tour: The Making of Harry Potter in London, go to the Doctor Who experience in Cardiff, see a show on the West End and more! (I’d also love to go back to Ireland because it is beautiful and I love it) last thing i googled: the name of the Warner Brothers Studio Tour: The Making of Harry Potter lol guys I wanted to make sure I called it the right thing when describing my dream trip and before that I googled how to spell hydrangeas (because I’m a mess who can’t spell) how many blogs i follow: 120 number of followers: On this blog I have 57 followers but if you combine my followers from my main blog and other side blog, I have a little over 200  what i usually post about: on this blog, musical theatre (mostly Bandstand and Newsies), graphic design, my life, nice photos, and other things that make me happy do i get asks regularly: nope, but I’m happy to answer any that I do get!

Okay, now on to tagging people! If I tag you, feel free to do this or don’t (whatever floats your boat)! Also feel free to do it if I don’t tag you! (And I’m gonna tag some of my followers from my main blog too cause why not – so if you follow @ginervamariechaseeverdeen, this is my musical side blog but I wanted to include you in the tag game too!)

@theragamuffininitiative @beautyinsteadofashes @welproosterteethownsmysoul @forgotten-peggy @connormurhy @emarasmoak @nnellowdrama @notafraidofstopping876 @library-of-magical-dreams @taplove2015 @featuringjuliatrojan @hellotreegapnewhampshire @gracefarrell @treehuggerhansen @chelseaellie @broadway-musical-bliss @starlightonthecurtains @teamnicefob @queenlmno @ididntmeantobutiaccidentally

[dregstrash]

also "open your eyes" by snow patrol if you like them 😊💞

Sooo I wrote something for my Zoyalai school au, yesterday, it only feels right to write something from my zoyalai detectives au

And I got this prompt a couple of weeks ago that asked for one of them to be injured and write about it. And the asker made a good point, it is always Nikolai that gets injured. So this prompt is the response to what our dear Head Detective does when Special Agent Nazyalensky is injured

Tell me that you’ll open your eyes

It’s been two days since the incident. 

Days with too much coffee. Too much time. And not enough assurances from the nurses and doctors that everything was going to be okay 

Nikolai could have sworn that he had permanently melded in with the cheap cushioned hospital seat, and he was sure that the crick in his neck was a permanent feature of his body. But he remained where he was. He dozed when he needed to, but mostly he waited. If he was a more religious man he would have prayed. Prayed that the knife wound that punctured her lung would heal correctly. Prayed that the concussion she had sustained when she stupidly decided to investigate the last known location of the Darkling alone wouldn’t keep her down for too long. Prayed that she’d wake up, just for his own piece of mind. But he wasn’t a religious man. All he had was the waiting and the annoying little beeps that sounded off in the monitor right by her bed.

The tips of his fingers felt raw as he fiddled with the paperclip in his pocket again. The silver encasement peeling and the weak metal heating in his hand. 

“Sir,” There was the nurse again. Nikolai noticed that the furrow between her eyebrows were getting deeper and deeper with each time she checked up on him, “The doctor isn’t sure when Ms. Nazyalensky will be able to wake up. Maybe it would be best if–”

“I’m fine where I am, thank you.” Nikolai cut her off, and just resolved to staring at Zoya. 

He felt the nurse’s stare from the corner of his eye, and didn’t let his posture drop until she checked up on Zoya and then left the room. 

An hour passed. Two hours. He didn’t care he’d wait another goddamn three hours if–

“Nikolai?” 

Her voice was so weak that he barely caught his name, but he heard it all the same.

“Zoya.” He breathed, feeling the oppressive weight sitting on his chest let up. 

“Why do you look like shit?” She croaked. 

He got up and gave her the cup of water that the nurse had given him.

“You’re the one in the hospital bed.” He managed to say. He had gone home only to shower and change his clothes, but judging from the way her eyes were lingering on his face he assumed that his tiredness was lined in the dark shadows under his eyes.

“That’s my excuse,” She said after taking a tentative sip, “What’s yours?”

A bitter laugh escaped him without his permission and it set something loose in him. 

“What’s my excuse?” He bit back sharply, “My excuse is that my partner in this very dangerous case made a very stupid decision to investigate on her own, and almost got killed in the  process.”

She opened her mouth to say something, but he didn’t give her a chance. All the waiting and sitting by her hospital bed had blended all the emotions that were pressurizing in his mind. All the worry, anger, frustration, self-loathing, and…caring were toxic chemicals that were primed to explode.

“You know the state me and my junior detective found you in? You were in the floor of that disgusting building, with half your blood spilled around you. Do you know how cold you were when I tried checking for a pulse? Or how about the size of the lump that was on your head? No? You have no idea? Well, I can say that Isaak threw up. It didn’t help that a dark moon wasn’t drawn on your forehead, and not with ashes by the way, it was drawn with your blood. So forgive me for not looking quite my best when my partner almost fucking died.”

Nikolai didn’t realize that his voice had raised from the reverent hospital whisper until a dead silence filled the air. Part of him wanted to feel bad for snapping at her, after all she was the one that was injured and had just woken up. But then Zoya gave him one of her trademark glares and bared her teeth.

“I did my job, Lantsov. I couldn’t wait around for you to be done with your paperwork to investigate a lead. One of my CIs got me a lead and I had to chase it before the Darkling got away again. And don’t bullshit me that you wouldn’t have done the same. We’d both be willing to die out there, don’t treat me any less than that.”

For a long while, neither of them said anything. Both just staring at the other, waiting for another rebuttal or an apology, but none was forthcoming. 

Zoya was right, as she usually was, but that didn’t change the way Nikolai felt. He’s already lost a partner that was more his brother than his biological one, and the very idea he could also lose Zoya had sent him into a panic that was worrisome. He took his time to really look at her, and catalog the weakness that rested in her shoulders from her attack, and despite the same disdainful look on her face, there was also a modicum of fear. A fear that she had gotten caught and barely escaped with her life.

Eventually, Nikolai sighed and moved his chair closer to her.

“Fine, we’re both willing to die in a hailstorm of bullets, but don’t expect me to be happy about it, Nazyalensky. Any good cop knows to bring back up, so try not to make such a rookie mistake next time.”

There was a twitch in her lip, and Nikolai felt some of his worry melt away from his bones. He relaxed in his seat.

“You’re lucky I’m in this hospital bed, Lantsov.” She threatened. 

He laughed, but didn’t respond. He was lucky that she was in this hospital bed. She was luck to be in the hospital bed. Because it was better to be in a hospital bed than the morgue.

Tagging: @rainbowzebraas @bucumber @strummoner@bi-zoya @nazyalenskey @julian-harlow @ifangirlninja @language-of-thorns@ididntmeantobutiaccidentally @lazyperfectionistteen @ladytitaniagray