#idek what the proper tags for this is tbh

[soulsmashers]

someone please give me a mxm plot based off from afar by vance joy. muse a and muse b who have been best friends literally their whole lives, maybe living in a small somewhat conservative town, and muse a has always know that they're definitely not straight and has pretty much been in love with their best friend, muse b, since they could remember. they've always had a very close and maybe even slightly flirty friendship but nothing has ever really happened. muse a's parents can maybe be conservative and close minded and have always sensed that muse a craves more than a friendship with muse b but they've always told them 'that's not the way that friends behave' and have made it evident that they shouldn't ever act on their feelings, which has resulted in muse a loving muse b 'from afar' because aside from their family, the thought of ever ruining their friendship scares him. now imagine one day they're hanging out with friends or something and maybe they're all really drunk and playing dumb drinking games like never have i ever or spin the bottle or even truth or dare and maybe in one of these games they get dared to kiss or something and maybe they're hesitant, especially muse a, but muse b could be like 'you're my best friend it's all good' and kisses muse a but it could turn into the smallest little make out sesh that actually leaves muse a speechless and muse b is eventually pulling away too quick and while muse b laughs it off and maybe muse a attempts to do the same, it rings in the back of muse a's head the entire night, and they decide the next day they would tell muse b how they feel even if it ruins the entire friendship, but what if the next day as muse a is going to tell muse b how they really feel, maybe they walk in on muse b making out with a girl or something and it could be like "hey, this is my girlfriend" or something and muse a is just like "oh okay, cool cool" but it actually kills them on the inside? i want angst, unrequited feelings, drama, denial, tears, coming to terms with your feelings, heartbreak and the usual queer dilemma of the century which is loving someone 'from afar' that you could probably never have. please please just give me this and make it HURT

[achairwithapandaonit]

20 questions for writers

tagged by @aobawilliams ! (thank you!)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

44 (that's a lot!)

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 212,262

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I've written for quite a lot of fandoms but I think currently I'm only writing for One Piece and Black Butler. I used to write quite a bit for my hero academia, but the hyperfixation passed a long time ago. And I think no matter how much time passes I'll always be up for writing for detective conan/magic kaito.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Villain? Gamer? Why not both? (4803 kudos)

Shouta's Guide to House-training Two Idiots (2178 kudos)

Two Weeks (1191 kudos)

Accidental Kidnappings and Semi-purposeful Hostage Situations (1084 kudos)

The Wake-up Call (1082 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I used to, but I don't anymore. I can take things very personally and I'd posted a fic where someone didn't agree with my characterisation of one of the characters and told me this in the comments. I didn't take it well and argued with them, and now that kind of embarrasses me (though, tbh I'd be embarrassed myself if I commented on someone's fic without being asked for feedback in a way that was critical to their approach to a character. Sometimes fanfic just isn't for you and you should leave others alone and let them do their thing).

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

it's probably The Stranger (Mob Psycho 100 fic)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

hmmm i mean, the thing is, my fics rarely end. so i don't really know...

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I got a proper hate comment once. it was really funny. they didn't mention anything critical of my writing and just told me it was shit and that i'm too old to write like that (i doubt they knew hold old i am?? i don't put my age online anymore). i assume i made them mad on tumblr so they decided to try and make my day bad?? but i just found it funny.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No. Sometimes I think it would be fun to write smut just to try something new but then I realise I don't enjoy writing about sex and don't have any ideas unless they're funny crack treated seriously ones.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

@aobawilliams and I have a shared bnha/detective conan crossover we were planning to write maybe a couple years agonow. we never got round to it tho cause aha writing hard :')

i did have a dream where ciel phantomhive got yeeted into the one piece world tho and that was fun. only problem is i think it'd be VERY hard to write something like that. very funny tho. he would hate every second of his forced one piece holiday

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I think I've had a couple people pop up in dms to ask to translate my fics before. I've never seen the supposed translated fics tho (not that I'd be able to read them).

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

aoba and I have several co-owned wips that likely won't ever see the light of day cause writing is hard and we are very very tired.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I don't really have a favourite. I just have ones I think are funny or interesting to explore.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

ughhh too many. idek.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I've been told my character dialogue is quite good?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Actually having to write ):

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I don't really like it cause I have no idea what's being said and am too lazy to look up a translation, but to each their own.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I have this very old very embarrassing memory of writing tsubasa chronicle/tokyo babylon crossover fanfic for my english class homework as an 11 or 12 year old. i think they got ice cream.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I'm not sure. Maybe The Ceiling of the World (black butler) just cause I've wanted to write black butler fanfic for years and never finished any other wip. Otherwise it'd probably be one of the bnha wips I never finished (there was this time travel one that made me go insane. now that I'm thinking about it I REALLY need to finish it) and uploaded or Permanent Membership Guaranteed (bnha)

not tagging anyone but if u want you can take this as a go ahead to do it.

[skibasyndrome]

Simon!!!! 1, 3, 7 and endless amounts of 12 pls and thank you 💜💜💜 (and I wish you the most lovely day ofc)

Hi Lia!!! Thank you for tha ask 🥰💜💜💜

1. Tell us the name of your/ one of your WIP(s).

Okay so the only thing that actually does have a proper title rn is You Crave The Applause // Yet Hate The Attention because that one is out already 😅 Titles are something that usually only comes to me relatively late in the process, so all the other still run under stuff like "Wilmon Club Drabble" or "Vampire AU" or "sad Simon POV oneshot"

3. What tags or warnings will your / one of your wip(s) need if you intend to share it?

So for the next one that I will probably share I don't think there's gonna be any warnings tbh. So far it's looking like a maybe somewhat crack-y explicit one shot. Probably just a handful of sex acts to tag again lol.

The only one that will need some warnings is probably the Vampire AU (namely mentions of blood, minor character death, mentions of parental abuse etc.)

7. Post Any sentence from your wip.

He [Wilhelm] gawks on, mild shock surely evident on his features, as the stranger throws his head back, seemingly totally lost in the song that’s currently not really reaching any of Wilhelm’s synapses.

(unedited so idek if that is a functioning sentence. also: my first drafts always have a lot of hefty run-on sentences lol)

Thank you for the extra kudos! 💜💜💜

And thank youuuuu, I also hope your day is the best it can be 🥰💜

[comefeedtherainn]

tagged by love of my life @saltsanford thank u bb

How many works do you have on AO3? 27

What’s your total AO3 word count?

608,101

What fandoms do you write for?

this varies bc i revisit old fandoms often, atm im deep in the untamed and also working on drafting a sleuth of ming dynasty, might try guardian if the mood strikes. i also have wips i'd like to return to for mass effect, rdr2, and bioshock

What are your top five fics by kudos?

your darkest roads - the untamed (1,417)

scars and scratches - the untamed (1,307)

break of dawn - mass effect (865)

it starts with a lighthouse - bioshock (385)

here's a truth - IT (233)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i used to, i stopped recently because i got busy with grad school and cant always find the spoons lol i try to at least respond to questions, concerns, and also if i finish a fic!!

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

probably a tie between sparks amidst snow and unseen, both very depressing character studies for the untamed. jin zixuan and lan xichen, respectively. you can understand where the angst came from lmao

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

hmmmm probably break of dawn?? i like to write happy-ish endings esp for long things, just to reward the reader for sticking around for a long fic lol. but break of dawn ended with john and kaidan getting married, leaving the military, and getting a dog. so. absolutely the best case scenario and very happy lmao

Do you get hate on fics?

honestly not really. i got some on mass effect ones but that was more character hate which i shut down hard, rather than hate on the fic lol i either dont write much that's controversial, or i sell it well enough no one bitches lmao

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

i do! most of my longfics feature smut, i enjoy it in my romance

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i do occasionally, though not as much recently. i despise fusions though lmfaooo

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

if i have im not aware! lmao

Have you ever had a fic translated?

sadly no :c

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

i have not!! im a control fic idek if i'd like it if im honest lol

What’s your all-time favourite ship?

why would you ask me this. i have way too many favs but i do think tuckington of rvb and mshenko of mass effect will be with me foreverrrr

What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

i choose to believe i will finish all my WIPs, no matter how long it's been since i touched it!! if i start it i intend to finish.

What are your writing strengths?

dialogue and describing environments!! also plot.

What are your writing weaknesses?

pacinggggggg, and character arcs imo. i can do them and they turn out well if i try hard, but i do have to try really hard/do a lot of rereading and organizing

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

if im writing fic for a fandom that's not english-speaking, like the untamed, i will use words in mandarin if they are a proper noun/name of a place/etc. i also tend to keep it untranslated for titles and for diminutives/honorifics that lose meaning or impact when translated to english. that's it, though.

if i were to be writing a character liiiike james vega in mass effect who speaks spanglish occasionally, i'll be real sparing about it tbh. if i dont know someone who speaks a lot of spanglish or speak it myself, i'd rather just take it easy on that and not look like a dumbass/be offensive lol esp since with a property like mass effect it's really questionable if canon is even accurate lmao so you cant even go off of that

First fandom you wrote for?

starfox adventures dlgkhapodih yeah the gamecube rpg. best game ever btw

Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

this is so hard lmao but i think it's probably break of dawn. writing that fic was such a joy and the interaction with the fandom was something i haven't experienced since!!

if you read this, you're tagged!!!

[maureenoharra]

30 questions

tagged by @henriettamaria! thank you, lovely ❤️

tagging... @jim-stewart, @ritahayworrth, @deforest, @reignandco & @hildy-dont-be-hasty! 

name/nickname: venessa / nessa gender: she/her star sign: libra height: 5″4.5 time: 12:11am birthday: september 26 favorite bands: literally all the big band orchestras (artie shaw, glenn miller, benny goodman, harry james, etc.), the national, florence + the machine, the lumineers, coldplay, alt-j, the head and the heart, scorpions, lynyrd skynyrd, a lot of the ones i grew up listening to thanks to my dad tbh favorite solo artists: frank sinatra, loreena mckennitt, julie london, adele, james morrison, bing crosby, jo stafford, édith piaf, a tonne more <3 song stuck in my head: 16 tons, tennessee ernie ford (it’s what i’m listening to so lol) last movie: i’m in the middle of häxan: witchcraft through the ages (1922) atm but the last movie i watched in full was milk (2008) last show: just started another rewatch of malcolm in the middle lol last one i finished was home improvement (shut up), and thinking of watching bridgerton soon but idk we shall see (i’ve lost interest in shows i have no idea what is wrong with me but can’t wait to get out of this anti-tv funk at some point <3) when did I create this blog: september 2020; don’t be fooled though! i’ve been on this hellsite since 2010 <3 what I post: mostly film (that’s probably my biggest passion nowadays), some nature/photography/aesthetics/idek, random bits of other stuff, and that’s about it last thing googled: criterion channel lol to watch häxan other blogs: @auldcine do I get asks: nope, not on this account :D why I chose my url: she’s my mother following: 334 😳 followers: 248 😌 average hours of sleep: ummmmmmmm a lot! it’s the depression and lack of a proper schedule, baby!  lucky number: 7??? idk i don’t think i really have one but i like the number 7 lol instruments: basic guitar (enough to get me through a tonne of songs), and i’ve recently picked up the ukulele cos i wanted to learn something new what am I wearing: ruffle swing dress, white with a pretty floral pattern dream job: at this point, literally anything i can do satisfactorily and be happy doing lmao dream trip: austria, ireland, the uk, france, iceland, japan <3 favorite food: i love food but idk if i have a fave food... so i’ll just say my grandma’s tabouli cos she made some today and *chef’s kiss* nationality: australian / lebanese favorite song: i can’t answer this this is a terrible question there are far too many songs last book read: i reread frankenstein by mary shelley top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: this would have been a good question to ask me when i was 16 <3 i really don’t know

[canonicallyanxious]

Previous anon! I think you mentioned a literature degree in a post a while back. (But the tags you left on the ask certainly showed evidence of it haha). I was curious and wanted you to talk about it but wasnt sure if i should straight up say "pls talk about your degree i am very interested and curious"

lollll i mean as a lit major i feel like i’m morally obligated to drag myself for it bc like i deserve it but yeah i’m down to talk about my degree!! uhhh idk if you have anything specific in mind, feel free to ask me whatever you want to know bc it turns out when asked to talk about my degree i don’t even know where to start rip also if you’re looking for someone who can advise you on what you can do with a lit major i am the wrong person to go to sdkjfnsdkjsnfd what i do for work now has basically nothing to do with what i studied but i’m honestly good with that bc it was always something i studied more because i wanted to than because i wanted to turn it into an actual career

Trying to remember what lit classes i liked the best... off the top of my head: contemporary women novelists, modern english lit, black literature in europe, post-colonial lit [by far my favorite lit class ever, that reading list fuckin slapped]; there was also a class that i don’t remember what it was called anymore but i loved it bc we read a lot of more nontraditional writing that also focused a lot on intergenerational trauma [so like Maus and the Photographer which are graphic novels were on the reading list, and we also read a poem called Zong! and experimental plays and things like that]

hmmm not knowing what specifically you wanna know about i guess i’ll just give some general thoughts about being a lit major [and tossing a cut here bc i got rambly... i’m sorry... you asked a lit major about being a lit major this is what happens i guess]

as one might expect it involves a fuckton of reading and writing literary analysis which might be a con for some but definitely not for me. but like i am the kind of asshole who actually likes reading three books in a week and writing a 7 page close reading comparing the roles of Persuasion’s Ann Elliot and the Bride of Lamermoor’s Lucy so, you know, i certainly don’t expect what works for me to be a one-size-fits-all kind of thing lol

One thing I really liked with the classes i took was the opportunity to push back against the typical canon of the Dead White Man that i feel like was really prevalent in public school. tbf there was still quite a bit of that in some of my classes [James Joyce meet me in the fucking pit] but if you’re strategic with the classes you sign up for you really get the chance to get exposed to a lot of unique and diverse perspectives, i feel like the foundation i got in those classes helped me form a baseline for where to start in finding more literature like that

Although as mentioned i did still have a lot of issues with that in my department. like idk if that was just my school or being in undergrad or whatever but i feel like a lot of lit majors I knew had a very prescriptive view of what “counts” as literature, we got into so many discussions about what qualifies as ~art~ [which if you know me i think is such bullshit like who are we to judge what is more artistic than something else particularly when for so much of history what has been deemed ~proper literature~ was written by white men but anyway we don’t have to get into it right now lol] and while i got the sense that the culture was slowly changing while i was part of it i do still feel like there’s a lot about the lit academia world that still kinda has to catch up, like it can be a field rife with elitism and narrow-mindedness depending on where you are in it. but of course that’s just my own take on it! ymmv and all that

i feel like this major taught me way more about how to read than about how to write, like at my school at least especially in a lot of the upper level classes there was basically no guidance for how to write your papers you’re kind of already expected to know how to write good literary criticism? also tbh i didn’t always love writing papers, in fact sometimes it fucking sucked having to write long analyses about topics i didn’t give a shit about and sometimes you have to do a FUCKTON of writing about shit you don’t care about [especially during finals week rip college Sarah you will not be missed]. but i think the analysis skills i developed while studying lit are genuinely really valuable even if i don’t really do anything directly related to my field of study career wise, like they help me be more thoughtful about pretty much everything i read and watch from the news to fiction and also be more thoughtful about my choices in my own creative writing all of which i really appreciate esp since it’s stuff i’m interested in just in general so I definitely don’t regret this choice of study!

sidenote but big rip to anyone who goes into this major and likes reading for fun in their downtime sdfknsnf i had way too much reading always to do any of my own reading outside of class [anthro is a very reading/writing heavy major too BIG rip to college Sarah] and when i did have breaks i was like fuck no i’m not thinking about words until i ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO [by going back to class] [god i’m so glad i’m not in school anymore]

Lord that got rambly skjfnskdjfnsd idek if any of that is anything you’d be interested in but yeah feel free to ask me more specific questions if you feel like it! then maybe i won’t go off on a million tangents [disclaimer: i probably still will]

[lizzybeth1986]

Quick Thoughts on The Royal Heir, Book 1 Chapter 1

• We're back! Hopefully with a better series this time, but I'm not going to keep my hopes too high.

• If my QTs are clogging up your dash, I recommend you block these particular tags: #trh quick thoughts, #trh qts, and optionally #long post.

• Much like my Book 3 QTs, I will be exploring as many playthroughs as I possibly can to see how each LI's route is being written. Last book, this experiment definitely helped me figure out that they were putting more effort into some characters and less into others, and I'd still like to keep an eye out for these things as much as possible.

• I feel this QT might be shorter than my usual (edit: joke's on me - it's not!! 🙈), mostly because the opening chapter itself is...pretty light, and is mostly meant for us to spend time and have fun with our chosen LI. Plus a tiny smidgen of buildup to the premise, which is having a child in Cordonia. But I do have a theory about the overall theme that I'm going to be expanding on towards the end of the chapter.

• Okay that's it for preliminary explanations, it's time for me to start with the chapter! XD

• Ooh. Oooooooh. This loading page now has tidbits about Cordonian society!! Interesting.

• Title: Happily Ever Afterwards

Alternative Title: Be Grateful We're Letting You Have This Much Sex For Free This Week, Because That's The Last Time It's Happening.

• I'm extremely offended they're making me wear that Pepto Bismol outfit again.

•

...thanks so much for reminding me you still don't care about Hana, PB! 🙄 Everyone else remains to be some version of "loyal", but Hana is still considered more for her skills than for her own steadfastness, even though she was the most hardcore-loyal of the four (SHE LEFT HER FREAKING HOME. HER FREAKING FAMILY. FOR YOU. While the other three were certainly loyal and honorable to the MC, they definitely didn't have to completely cut ties with their families to do right by the MC).

• The "fairytale" aesthetics of the frame story were what drew people into TRR in the first place, so it's not too surprising that the LIs and MC give a nod to the flagship series with a "once upon a time". If you're with Liam, it goes straight from "falling in love with the Prince" to what his relationship with her taught him, before the happily ever after. If you're with one of the other three LIs, it specifies that she came there for Liam but fell for someone else. Sounds a lot like Maxwell's book 😄 In Maxwell's playthrough, in fact, there is a reference to it when the MC calls him a "famous author".

•

(Screenshots organized as follows: 1 - Liam, 2 - Drake, 3 - Maxwell, 4 - Hana. Liam's and Hana's are my own. Drake's from @thefirstcourtesan, and Maxwell's from Kaitlyn Walker's YouTube channel).

The other interesting thing to note is that in Liam's playthrough, he leads the narration. While in everyone else's the MC is the one who steers it. One reason I can think of is that the narrative still treats this story as Liam's story as much as it is the MC's (if I'm right about the theme) - which...has honestly always been a sore point with the fanbase in TRR. That would depend on how us and our baby are now further involved with Cordonia in the story. Another factor for why she leads the narration...could be that essentially, the MC took initiative in the other three relationships, while in Liam's case it was he who took a more active role by proposing to her.

• The little story ends with this question from the MC:

Question: But what happens after Happily Ever After?

Answer: Mess. In Cordonia it's always mess.

• Cordonians (specifically the upper classes, since I don't know enough about the common populace to tell, since they're, yknow, practically invisible) are addicted to tea, apples and fucking shit up where they don't even need to.

• ANYWAY. What (literally) happens after 'happily ever after' is a tropical honeymoon on Liam's private island. In the case of the other three, he allows them access to the place and gives the staff instructions on making the stay comfortable for them.

• Now, since Liam owns the island and has probably visited it a could times, he shows more familiarity with it. He tells his wife that on previous trips the island had more rustic accommodations, but the villa they're now staying in was prepared recently. Additionally, the butler welcomes Hana, Maxwell and Drake as newcomers to the island, considering it's their first time. With Liam, there is an air of familiarity - he calls the butler by his name (Javier) and enquires about him and his wife (Mariana) - to show us perhaps how familiar he is with this holiday spot.

• Why the hell does everyone call Liam "Your Highness"? It's been two whole books since he became King, and the proper title for a monarch is "Your Majesty". How is it that Constantine gets to rake the MC over the coals for calling him Your Highness, yet Liam has to hear this from practically everyone. From Javier to freakin' Protocol-Monitor-Madeleine! The disrespect, I tell you!

• Okay so we're having a candlelit dinner by the ocean, and we get our first OOTD. Cute beach dress, has bright flowers and some crochet work on the bodice. I bought it because I couldn't bear to have Esther stay another minute in that Pepto Bismol of a dress.

• LOL @ all the LI responses to "this spot is right where the sharks are!"

• Tuna sashimi and pineapple aioli, huh? I have never had either so idek what that's supposed to taste like (someone on this writing team likes pineapples). I remember having to cut down on tuna during pregnancy, which meant no more Subway sandwiches since the tuna sub was the only one I liked at the time. IIRC most of my family were also cautioning me against pineapples and papaya during my first trimester!

• My gosh this butler doesn't waste much time jumping into assumptions huh?

• Also Javier, why is Cordonia's future so dependent on the well-being of my foetus even if I'm not ruling the country?

• Does Cordonia have sex ed? My money is on no. (esp in the Hana route).

• So there are two parts to the way the premise of wanting to have kids is built up in this sequence. In the first part, the LI impresses upon the MC the need to have children soon after the wedding. The second part addresses the urgency - the "why right now?" factor, and explores the LI's personal emotions towards having children. This bit also feels a bit like a follow-up to the Valtoria balcony scene in Chapter 15.

• The first part is pretty similar for Drake, Hana and Maxwell - all three of whom are now married to a Duchess and are aware that securing the duchy is important. They word it in their own distinctive styles, but the gist is pretty much the same. In Liam's case, since he is the king of the country, he speaks more about Cordonia and its tensions with neighbouring countries.

Take note of this because I'll be returning to this point later. (also who are the writers trying to convince about Cordonia's size. "Small kingdom" my ass).

• I'll be going by the LIs' personal reasons to have a baby now, one by one, along with a summary of their views on children in the Valtoria balcony scene last book (since this scene clearly references that diamond scene if you've bought it last book).

(Screenshots: Liam's and Hana's screenshots are mine, Drake's is from @thefirstcourtesan and Maxwell's is from Kaitlyn Walker's YouTube channel)

- Liam: Liam's love for family and need for children is well-known throughout the series. In Book 1, he's dropped hints about wanting to have a different kind of family dynamic from the one he'd experienced as a child, and in Book 2 there were multiple references to wanting to not be Constantine - both as a King and as a father. In the balcony scene in Book 3, Chapter 15, Liam tells us a number of things - about the value of having more heirs for succession, of him always dreaming of having at least 3 children, about Kenna, Cordonia's most legendary warrior queen which leads to an interesting factoid about how the rules of successions for both the throne and duchies are not gender-specific (he also cites Olivia and Penelope as being in line to inherit their duchies). In this sequence Liam undoubtedly has more to say about the political aspect of having an heir than the personal, but his statement about "someone missing" in their lives is of no surprise when he's been enthusiastic about kids for three books straight.

- Drake: Drake perhaps gets the lengthiest 'personal' bit of all, revolving around his eagerness to be a father and his own family history. This scene has Drake speaking of wanting a child with "your eyes and my hair", but most of all of Savannah and her little family, and wanting the happiness his sister is experiencing now. The writing often manages to tie Drake's thoughts about his future family with his past: in the Valtoria balcony scene, his memories of his father and his desire to bring up his own kids the way Jackson did are dominant in the conversation on children. He speaks at length about the absence of a proper 'home' so far in his life (stating that his room at the palace always felt like "a room in someone else's house") and how high on his priority list the prospect of having children is. The Valtoria scene shows him eager to have kids asap, and this scene builds up the same urgency. You're left in no doubt that he wants those kids now.

• Maxwell: Maxwell's route of this scene soundly pretty sudden, tbh. In his Valtoria scene, Maxwell expressed doubt and nervousness when it came to children, citing the example of Bartie ("I love palling around with little Bartie and everything, but if he bonks his head or something, I can just hand him back to Savannah. When it's your kid, you're the one people hand him to."). While this is referenced in TRH's dialogue when Maxwell jokes about forgetting diapers and baby socks - it's a pretty big jump from the man who didn't exactly feel ready to have children yet, and not enough work was done to justify that shift. This could be somewhat excused in the beginning of Book 3, when the narrative had just begun to treat him like an LI, but they've had an entire damn book and several months after to reflect on how to write him properly. That is...if they actually gave a damn.

- Hana: They don't even have the excuse of "relatively new LI" in Hana's case. Because she is the lone female LI married to a female MC, her scene should have been a lot more extensive and explored her urgency to have children so soon after their wedding, a whole lot more. There are tiny changes, like the one where she hints at the "logistical concerns" that come with two women considering a family, and where she speaks of giving her child the childhood she never had (which, frankly, is an extremely vague statement and could be applicable to more than one character in Cordonia). But there is urgency that, again, isn't properly explained in the scene. Even Hana's Valtoria scene doesn't have much that would explain why she would want a child barely weeks after her wedding. The Valtoria scene does have her outlining her dreams for the duchy (along with a joke about her enacting "Beauty and the Beast") and her happiness at the thought of being a mother (she maintains that out of the things expected of her, motherhood is the one she looked forward to). They could have spent some time thinking up a reason for why Hana would rush this, even before anything has happened, or outlined something personal and not ultra-generic. Both Maxwell and Hana deserved a lot better than this.

• Maxwell speaks about possibly forgetting diapers (PLS NO MAXWELL NO) and baby socks (um okay not as bad but depends on the climate), and one of the MC's dialogue options is to say..."diapers and socks are overrated". Guys your kid won't care how much fun you are when they have a bum rash.

• A-ha! Diamond scene. First-chapter diamond love scenes always come cheap in these series' (12 diamonds) and are usually quite a steal.

• ESTHER HAS NEW LINGERIE OMG I'M SO HAPPY I'D BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT FOR SO LOOOOONG 😭😭😭😭

• ...and it is also matches Liam's underwear. Maxwell's too 😅

• The scene is nice, there are variations between the ways the LIs work up their appetite before they finally roll in the...well, sand 😅 Maxwell has what they call an "ocean duel", Hana's fulfills her lifelong dream of carrying and spinning around her wife on a secluded beach, Drake chases the MC through the water...and Liam just enjoys being a huuuge tease, okay? 😂

• Oh God, why are they still using the old LoveHacks sexytimes music. That "DHUM-boom-ta-doom-DHUM" beat drives me nuts, and not in a good way. You have better music now, PB! Like the sexytimes tunes from RCD and PM. Use those!

• My gosh this entire group is quite horny for dominant duchesses, aren't they. Every last one of them. Each playthrough has these four gazing at the MC in wonder and telling her some variation of "I think you ordering me around is hot". Olivia could trample over them all with spiked heels and they would thank her!

• As always, when something suspicious happens, my dumbass MC goes ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and never thinks about it again until shit actually goes down. This woman will never learn, will she.

• Anyway! We now move on to the rest of the honeymoon, summed up in three-four varying scenes per LI:

(Screenshots: Liam's and Hana's screenshots are mine, Drakes is HIMEME's YouTube channel, and Maxwell's is from Kaitlyn Walker's YouTube channel).

- Liam: Focused and dedicated. And insatiable as hell. Sex on a bed (SHOCKING!), sex after his wife points out what could be an apple constellation during stargazing (the MC effectively killed Liam's boner for Cordonia, I see), sex after having chocolate strawberries at a sunlit pond, sex again on a bed (Why is he getting four? 🤔). While the staff is still around somewhere on the island. This is a man with a mission.

- Maxwell: Fun and playful - kind of a "let's live wild and do daredevilry while we can!" vibe. In one Maxwell and the MC cliff dive into the ocean, debating over the wisdom of such risky adventuring when they may possibly be having a baby. In another, the MC watches, concerned, as Maxwell eats a raw squid appetizer. There is a nice callback to Maxwell's House sigil - the kraken - when he tells her that a squid would never hurt a fellow squid. The third shows them playing Strip Monopoly in the comfort of their bedroom.

- Hana: Adorable, caring and looking through every detail. Hana's three scenes involve her showing the MC the sights around the sunlit pond (which Hana and the MC lovingly call the "Hana Lee Honeymoon Itinerary"), watching the sunset under blankets, and this little scene of them choosing sperm donors for their baby:

It's a nice addition, but it still doesn't explain why they couldn't have waited a few more months. Nothing has happened yet in the timeline of the story, the women are (they believe) finally safe and happy, and while Javier seems to believe that babies born to a couple that consists of two women pop out of nowhere, I'm hoping the denizens of their duchy will have at least a little more common sense (this is Cordonia, so "hope" is the operative word).

- Drake: Langorous, relaxed and contented. Stargazing on the beach (I wonder whether this was a nod to the meteor shower scene in Book 1), whiskey on a patio/balcony/whatever in the afternoon, and eating roasted pork by the fire. Plenty of sex but also lots of outdoors, which means lots of the stuff Drake enjoys doing.

• Aaaaaand it's time for sexy scene 2! The couple are now relaxing in bed on the last day of their honeymoon, and the LI proposes a momento in the form of a sensual photoshoot (which comes with artwork of the LI in their underwear, posing for the MC) The male LIs pose with their hands at the back of their heads, smirking at the camera, while Hana strikes a coy pose, leaning against her hand. It's a quick, fun scene that's supposed to squeeze as much alone-time out of the couple as possible, because from here on the focus may shift to other things. Basically this chapter is meant to be one giant (but largely safe for readers) smutfest. I like the artwork - it's different and I guess meant to be a little more realistic than the usual full-page art in the books (like the engagement and wedding photos with your LIs last book), which is why I think it takes a little getting used to. I know it took me some time!

• Maxwell got an underwear upgrade too!

• We've now come to the end of our honeymoon, our bags packed and ready for our return to Cordonia. The chapter ends with us seeing a "familiar face", who could either be Liam (if you married someone else, and he doesn't show any expression) or an unspecified person (if you married Liam, and he looks ultra happy). Now that could either be related to some paparazzi-related stuff, if the flash of light was paparazzi-related, or it could be a fake-out and he's actually brought along the rest of the gang to surprise you. Idk and I don't want to speculate too much on this, mostly because something more interesting caught my eye.

• So that's it for my thoughts on the scenes themselves! On to the "general thoughts" section.

• General Thoughts and Potential Theories:

- As a first chapter for a new series that is still tied to an older one, it worked. It mirrors the light feel and sensibility of TRR's very first chapter, in that both chapters build an illusion of a fairytale-like place, with hints of the darkness within emerging the next chapter onwards (in this series though - since we're already familiar with Cordonia - the darkness is lightly hinted at this chapter itself). In a lot of ways I think we're going to see a lot of parallels between TRR and this new series.

- Unfortunately, one of those similarities also includes the imbalance in the writing for the LIs. Specifically with Maxwell and Hana. It's the most glaring in the dinner scene, which builds for us the premise on which this entire book stands (the topic of pregnancy). There are ways you could have them make the jump from nervous about having kids to excited, if you tried - there are elements in their storyline that could have helped us understand their urgency.

- I played Liam's route first, and was happy overall with it but I still have my misgivings. The good in terms of Liam's story is that he gets importance because the story is also about him and his country, where we are staying. He gives us some very important details in his route, and personally I like that his role as Guide To The Intricacies And Nuances of Cordonian Society still exists...but you can't deny that there were things in his storyline which should have been addressed and never were. I hope those are addressed this book. If they do the same this time around, it will only be to their detriment.

- Also, I find it highly ironic that Drake is the one to mention Savannah and Bartie when it was MAXWELL who was more involved in helping her with the child. Sure, he was - as he confessed in that Valtoria scene - more the "fun uncle" type, but he was still pretty heavily involved. Still keeping track of what Savannah needed and what Bartie would want. In his own final Book 3 scene, Maxwell is shown having an amazing rapport with little Bartie, playing peekaboo with his nose. I can barely count scenes involving Drake and Bartie with the fingers of one hand. Why couldn't Maxwell reference that last moment in Book 3, drawing up some inspirational moment from it? Like spending more and more time with Bartie changed the way he felt about kids? Or maybe that Savannah or Bertrand said something regarding the joy children bring to him. Anything that gives us some idea of when this shift happened.

Maxwell may have been new last book. It may have been a struggle to know what to do with him last book. But that isn't the case right now. By now they should have settled in their writing of him and figured out ways to make his story make sense? To give him more depth rather than simply reducing the man to the court jester? Maxwell's story was supposed to be about him growing, the scene in Valtoria was supposed to be about wanting to be a good father for his future children but fearing he might fail...yet the writers have the same man say the exact opposite. Maxwell's family history was thrown away for no good reason last book, and was replaced by Savannah drama. There was more space given to Savannah's love story with Bertrand (which didn't NEED the entire book to gain fruition) and Drake (optionally) enjoying humiliating Bertrand. That time, energy and effort could have gone in building up Maxwell, getting an insight into what happened to the Beaumonts that they became so poor...but no. The only Beaumont that mattered seems to be Savannah (and we know exactly why). And going by the fact that they're going to force an entire wedding storyline involving Bertrand and Savannah down our throats, that still seems to be the case.

- Hana's is even more worrying considering that it was poles apart from the rest of the playthroughs and therefore SHOULD have had more thought. Yes Hana loves the idea of being a mother. Yes Hana loves children and has a nurturing nature. But the urgency is still the same as the others' in her playthrough, and it made absolutely no sense. There was a clear dissonance between their current situation and the rush these two were in.

Hana's deserved at least some more time in her dinner scene. Maybe one where she could speak about growing up an only child, with no companions and not even toys. She could explain the loneliness involved in having a small family with parents who gave her more duties than affection, and then speak about giving her kid a better childhood. There isn't even any discussion about which of them should be the person carrying (we know it will be the MC, but why it has to be her in their case is anyone's guess).

What the team have done here is give Hana the bare minimum, after an entire two books of giving her even less than that. I know I'll probably be judged for thinking negatively rather than being cautiously optimistic, but the fact is that the moment this team feels they can get away with tossing scraps or less than that, they can and will do it. It's not stopped them before: not from botching up Hana's storyline, not from giving Hana fans a reception full of goof-ups and shoddy writing, not from pairing her with her bully. Perhaps last year I would have been happy and grateful to see Hana and the MC calling each other "my wife". This time...I refuse to settle for just mere scraps. If you can give thought and care to Liam and Drake's storylines, you'd better be able to do the same for Hana and Maxwell, otherwise what's the point of reviving this book? What's the point of using Hana specifically in two of your ads as bait for your lesbian/bi/wlw fans?? Might as well let the entire series rot in the trash where it belongs in that case.

- I've heard theories about our child becoming heir to the throne, thanks to a possible future arc that may make Liam unable to have children. I personally hate this possible plot line for two reasons:

1. As it is the MC gets more importance than she deserves, whether or not she actually puts in the work. She becomes a front-runner during the social season even if she fails. She becomes a Duchess even if she lacks even the most basic skills, while Hana who has done way more than she ever had for the country gets nothing, not even a needle-point's worth of land. She becomes Champion of the Realm even if she is literal garbage throughout that book, when that title could have easily gone to Olivia or Hana instead if she didn't earn enough to get it. And now to have her kid be made an heir to the throne? For no good reason? Get outta here.

2. Forcing Liam into yet another storyline that is tragic and painful (and I'm pretty sure the writers will find yet another excuse to write a thesis on Drake Walker in the time they could be using to let Liam actually break down, or vent. If they couldn't be bothered to explore the man's feelings when his own father died, do you really think they will bother with him in this??) on top of whatever else he's had to experience so far? At this point I can do with less of that. I'm honestly sick of storylines that put Liam in very uncomfortable, painful situations with very little space for him to air out his grief. Give the man a fucking break. Let him have some breathing space to rule his goddamned kingdom, get him a fantastic therapist and get him better friends while he's at it. Pushing him into yet another messed-up situation when you've barely even scratched the surface with what his experiences have done to him, is really just drama for the sake of drama, nothing else.

- Nonetheless, since this is about a pregnancy and a future heir, I believe there will be plenty talk about succession, and about the importance given to fertility and children in Cordonian society. But as with the social season in Book 1, the engagement tour in Book 2, and the wedding + Unity Tour in Book 3, I believe the pregnancy itself is a frame story. The kind of story that justifies the glitz, the glitter, and the glamorous events...that can serve as a temporary gloss to cover the conflicts within. All while the inner stories reveals those conflicts, layer by layer (again, if it's done right. Book 3 is a good example of a great premise ruined by bad writing. I sincerely hope this book does not go in that direction).

- Remember those screenshots I put up in that dinner scene from Liam's route? About Cordonia's tensions with its neighbouring countries, and how the country may be viewed as vulnerable? I think that's where the actual theme of the story lies.

Books 1 and 2 mostly revolved around the illusion of Cordonia - the fairytale kingdom - before the MC herself is confronted with the tensions brewing within. Book 3 was about strengthening Cordonia through resolution of internal conflict. It was about learning about the intricacies of the country, its most powerful duchies, their histories and identities, Cordonia's messy, complicated history - to tackle the problems that lay within.

I feel like Book 4 would be taking a natural progression from resolving internal conflict to finally standing united as a nation against outside forces. Constantine - in his conversation with the MC in Shanghai - hints not only at groups within Cordonia that wanted to destroy the monarchy, but also foreign powers ("suffice to say there are those who envy Cordonia's prosperity...". Not the royal family's - but "Cordonia's").

Keeping a united front and showcasing strength through pride in the country - ergo 'patriotism', or perhaps 'national integration' since Cordonia is home to many different cultures and geographical locations (I originally wrote 'nationalism here, but now realize there may be negative connotations attached to that word in today's times: thanks @musicallisto!) is often viewed as an asset against alien forces. The MC is now a part of the monarchy/nobility, and will be irrevocably tied to the country's future - so it makes sense that she will now dig into the deepest and most intimate parts of Cordonia's history, and go several steps further in helping to unite the nation.

- Why do I theorize 'patriotism' or 'national integration' as being a theme? There are several reasons for this:

The Unresolved Storylines: We still have a ways to go in understanding Cordonian history. We don't know which other forces were involved in previous assassinations, and we don't have a clue what happened to Liam's mother. All we do know is that other people and groups that we have probably not even seen yet, may have been involved. Francesco (who also knew Liam's mother) and Xinghai, the only foreign delegates/visitors that we got to network with in Book 2, have minimal roles so far but SEEM to have had some influence when they were introduced earlier. Francesco particularly could have some sort of role to play, given what we were told about him in Book 2. Now would be a good time to explore why he needed contacts with these people (other than the fact that Xinghai is Hana's dad). It's possible that nothing will happen and we may not even see these two, or exchange any important information, but I'd still hope that there is some importance to their appearances in Book 2.

The Connections We Made In The Engagement Tour: Meeting Francesco in Capri was related to getting access to EU markets for Cordonian products. The engagement tour itself revolved around grabbing international attention towards Cordonian problems - one of which was the tsunami that hit Portavira, which we learn more about in Book 3. There is a possibility that these threads may be picked up in the future.

Both the above points hint at possible threats, or allies. At this point we can't exactly determine who is friend and who is foe, but it is clear that neighbouring countries - and indeed countries we have associated with in the past - will play a pretty big role in the way we view Cordonia, and in the way we direct the narrative of this country.

The Artwork: I love this part of my theory because it is the most based on actual evidence rather than guesswork. The idea of a nation depends as much on items of familiarity and symbols, as it does on history. It's why countries have national animals, anthems, fruits. Why art depicting national and local legends can often be considered almost sacred. The book has barely even begun yet, and already it is FILLED with all kinds of things symbolic to Cordonia.

Let's first take a peek at the cover art:

Now let's ignore Liam's and Drake's (busted) faces in this cover and focus on what the three are holding.

The MC holds a rattle in her hand, and the jewel within the rattle looks similar to a ruby, which has been associated more than once with apples in the story (Cordonia's most valued variety of apple is the Cordonian Ruby, Liam's wedding gift to the MC is a ruby in the shape of an apple. The same rattle shows up in the second cover [on the left] as well. It's a stretch, I know, but I've got better evidence. Stick with me).

Liam holds a onesie with a crown design on the front - and we know that "for crown and country" is a popular phrase, especially for toasts, in Cordonia. Drake holds out a toy lion: the lion is the national animal, and holds a place of pride in the national Coat-of-Arms. The throne on which the MC herself sits, is blue and gold - both considered national colours. That's at least 4 symbols related to Cordonia vying for our attention on the same cover!

I mean, even Book 3 had just two major symbols - the apple (related to Cordonia) and the phoenix gown (related to Valtoria) - featuring on its cover.

The biggest proof to me, however, is not the cover, but the loading page. To be more precise - what is written above that loading page. A number of Choices books (BB, for instance) write little factoids about the world they are building above the loading bar, which players can read while they're waiting for the chapter to load. This wasn't a common practice with TRR, but they've definitely started it now! Some of the commentary is usual stuff - about gaining advantages through outfits, welcoming you back to Cordonia, etc...but THIS TIME there are tidbits of information given to us as well. And 80% of those involve apples!

Here are a few I managed to catch. One fact on the importance of apples in Cordonian culture, two specifically on the Cordonian Ruby itself including a rare recipe, and two old proverbs (this isn't the only time we've heard apple-related proverbs in the books - in Book 3 for instance, Bertrand refers to their trip to Fydelia as 'slicing two apples with one knife'). Proverbs in general often give us an idea of what people within a region hold up as important, as so connected to their life experiences that they can use those familiar objects as motifs for things that they see in daily life (eg. proverbs in my home state, Kerala, often refer to things/animals we find locally: jasmines, coconuts, jackfruit, dogs, elephants).

The fact that the apple features so often and with such emphasis in the loading page itself - and we have already seen what this simple fruit means to Cordonia - indicates to me that this national symbol - and the idea of the nation itself - will be of great importance. Not only will we be exploring foreign relations, IMO, but we'll also be learning how to build a national narrative that will benefit and strengthen Cordonia.

What's also interesting is that the apple symbolizes fertility to the Cordonian people as well - the apple cutting ceremony during a wedding (as explained by Regina to Leo's fiancée in RoE) is "a symbol of the fruit the tree will bear - you being the tree, of course", and there are chances that the fruit may feature often within the context of pregnancy/having children as well.

• That's all for now, guys. I hope to write more and theorize more as the chapters progress! Until then, I hope you enjoy this one, and I'd love to hear what you have to say.

• I did the Hana screenshots for this chapter, since the first chapter allows me to play repeatedly within losing keys, but I won't be able to do so from Chapter 2 onwards. If there are any Hana fans out there who keep screenshots of scenes in their route and are interested in sharing, I'd love to hear from you and will definitely credit you for the screenshots I put up!

• If you'd like to be tagged in future QTs, please let me know! Tagging @nikkisha16 for now since she asked xD

• Until Saturday, folks!

[angelfccdie]

repost,  don’t reblog !

𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

FULL NAME.      whis PRONUNCIATION.     wheese i hope that makes sense NICKNAME.       whisy-poo, powder puff, little bird GENDER.        male HEIGHT.   like. 6′9″ish? AGE. HOLY FRICKN ANCIENT also technically ageless so. there’s that SPOKEN LANGUAGES.   all of them

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

HAIR COLOR.       white EYE COLOR.        lavender BODY TYPE.        thin and tall, sharp joints. very little muscle mass which probably confounds everyone bc he is The Strongest lmao ACCENT.         none he Knows every language VOICE.         prim DOMINANT HAND.         ambidextrous POSTURE.         very straight and proper, shoulders back, chin lifted TATTOOS.         none BIRTHMARKS.         none MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).       he’s so goddamn tall..................

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !

PLACE OF BIRTH.        ??? HOMETOWN.        the angels’ homeworld BIRTH WEIGHT.        no idea BIRTH HEIGHT.         ok he. came into existence as a toddler, so. idk. what. two feet tall or so?? MANNER OF BIRTH.      he was created by his father, the grand priest. exactly how he did this is a secret. whis manages to do the same for his own daughter in some verses :v and possibly for marmad in a ship verse FIRST WORDS.         whatever the divine language word for ‘want’ is SIBLINGS.         Martinu, Marcarita, Vados, Korn, Cus PARENTS.         The Grand Priest PARENTAL INVOLVEMENT.      the grand priest was responsible for his birth and was the one who raised whis from then just until he was strong and aware enough to need less care. whis was considerably attached to his father in the first couple years (maybe??) after his birth, during which the grand priest would have taught him the very basics of how to care for himself and how to speak, and eventually moved on to their world and the multiverse itself, and then his abilities. vados and whis’ older siblings would have been in charge from there of teaching him, including his martial arts training

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !

OCCUPATION.       attendant/martial arts teacher CURRENT RESIDENCE.         beerus’ planet (previously known as quiri’s planet) CLOSE FRIENDS.       possibly beerus, but he technically has no close friends RELATIONSHIP STATUS.        generally single, but there may be a complicated partnership with beerus going on in some verses FINANCIAL STATUS.       he lives outside of mortal society however he’s also lucky enough to be friends with the richest woman on earth lmao DRIVER’S LICENSE.       Do Not CRIMINAL RECORD.        mass murder see above about living outside of mortal society

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.      homosexual (generally) ROMANTIC ORIENTATION.         demiromantic PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE.       submissive |  dominant | switch |  equal PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.       submissive |  dominant  |  switch | equal LIBIDO.        relatively low when set up against how frickn long he’s lived TURN ON’S.       lies down idek i’ve been working on this meme for frickn ever now i don’t caaaare TURN OFF’S.      don’t caaaare flops over LOVE LANGUAGE.    tends to be affectionate, but distantly so, almost in an affected manner. he is, however, extremely physically affectionate, and usually enjoys being as physically close to his partner as he can possibly be. likes pet names a lot. do not expect sharing of secrets or many talks about his past or deep feelings and thoughts. he will share anecdotes, but they’ll be amusing ones, nothing that hurts

RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.       he uh. basically goes either for one-night stands and no strings attached ‘fuckbuddy’ kinda relationships or the kind that last for literal centuries there is no in-between ufjfa;g

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 !

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.     Hermit the Frog, Main Titles (Chocolat), Hook HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.         cooking, eating, small talk, traveling, painting, dancing, music MENTAL ILLNESSES.       none PHYSICAL ILLNESSES.      none LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.       i just. i honestly can see him as either tbh lies down PHOBIAS.  none; his inactive state fills him with dread SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.      relatively high. he doesn’t really have reason to doubt himself much tbh :v it’s not a fragile ego, either, bc he reacts to being belittled with a smile (.....granted that those belittling him are not his family, in which case he’s way more passive-aggressive) VULNERABILITIES.    ..............................uh

TAGGED BY:  i stole it from the dash like a million years ago

[jisungshotfirst]

50 Questions Tag!

thank you so much @sprouttsse​ for tagging me!! i love these 

what takes too much of your time?

tumblr lol

what’s makes your day better?

skz + kpop in general, listening to music and the sun, man, i love it

what is the best thing that happened to you today?

It’s still early so still more to come hopefully but rn Twice’s album wow all bops (hot is prob my fav)

what fictional place would you like to go to?

camp half-blood. I’m a massive pj fan

are you good at giving advice?

I think I am, I’m pretty mature for my age lol. Also I just want people to be happy in themselves and at peace so my advice is always in hope of them reaching that

do you have any mental illness?

I don’t think so. I mean i’m not always the happiest and have features of mental illnesses but not enough to say I suffer from it I don’t think, and I don’t really want to self diagnose. I’ve enough physical illnesses do deserve at least a partially healthy mind lol

have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

no I haven’t, my sleep isn’t perfect but never paralysis

what musician inspired you the most?

stray kids. I love my boys

have you fallen in love?

yes 

what’s your dream date?

Totally stealing this from begin again but walking around a city sharing earphones and showing eachother music and dancing 

what do others notice about you?

everything lol, I’m loud about who I am so people learn pretty quickly what I love, my dreams and ambitions. Also they notice I’m really affectionate, I cling off of people and am comfortable with new people so won’t hide it

what is an annoying habit that you have?

do you still talk to your first love?

a little when in a conversation that calls for it

how many ex’s do you have?

only 1 proper one

how many songs are in your playlist?

my huge kpop playlist has currently 422 songs lol

what instruments do you play?

piano, guitar and ukelele

who do you have the most pictures of?

jisung lol... my folder is at a scary number now... maybe in the 700s don’t judge

where would you like to go before you die?

Korea, japan, africa and iceland

what’s your zodiac?

sagittarius

do you relate to it?

yes scarily considering I don’t really believe in zodiac. It’s very accurate tho

what is happiness to you?

feeling loved and sharing love and being proud and at peace with yourself and your life. I’m happiest when with friends or when making music

are you going through anything right now?

though anything?? like emotionally? i’m not lol

what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made?

not doing things I should’ve said yes to

what’s your favorite store?

pull and bear probably... or urban outfiters if it weren’t so bloody expensive. and tower records

what’s your opinion on abortion?

completely pro-choice in every way

do you keep a bucket list?

no, just kinda a mental one

do you have a favorite album?

god that’s so harddd. albums have to be like bloody perfect for me to put them in my favourites, like not just the best songs, the entire album has to be gold. All I can think of really is Vessel by Twenty One Pilots and American Idiot by Greenday

what do you want for your birthday?

em.. i’ve no idea maybe a guitar

what are most people’s first impression of you?

loud and affectionate lol

what age to you seem according to most people?

normally younger than I am but the other day someone assumed i was in university and i’ve never been more honoured

where do you keep your phone while sleeping?

on the desk beside me

what word do you say the most?

gay, fuck and shit

what’s the oldest age would you date?

5 or 6 years older maybe?

what’s the youngest age would you date?

3 maybe?

what job/career do most people say sould suit you?

most people say teacher and i’m not against it tbh

what’s your favorite music genre?

rock, pop and alternative but a bit of anything really

if you would live in any country in the world, where would it be?

I wanna live in Berlin man

what’s your current favorite song?

current.. mikrokosmos by bts and just from today HOT by twice 

how long have you have this blog for?

this tumblr account for like eons but kpop,, prob almost 2 years now

what are you excited for?

SUMMERRRRR

are you a better talker or a listener?

depends on the situation and who it’s with. I’m good at getting people to talk lol so mainly listener

what is the last productive thing you did?

... I’m about to unpack so yeah that lol

what do you want for Christmas?

a han jisung (this was your answer @sprouttsse but i’m not changing it coz shit same man imaginee)

what classes do you get the best grades in?

art music and classics

on a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling right now?

prob near an 8 coz twice gave us bops and the sun is out and i’m on holidayyy

what can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

living in an apartment with tons of cats, making music and having fun :)

when did you first get your heartbreak?

...idk if it counts as heartbreak

at what age do you want to get married?

lol idek if i want that. I wouldn’t even think of settling down until i’ve achieved plenty of my goals

what career did you want to have as a child?

i wanted to be a vet or an astronaut lol

what do you crave right now?

ice teaaaaa

tagging: @fluffylix @doomed-95 @rosycheekedrosie @roseblue-doodles @scene-steala @felixscutefreckles - only if y’all want

[spacerhapsody]

85 questions tag game

I was tagged by @yasisworld - thank you, I hadn’t done one of these for ages! :D

last?

drink: water

phone call: a co-worker from another location at work

text message: a friend… about soaps, lmao.

song you listened to: Heroes – David Bowie

time you cried: last weekend? ugh PMS, making everything ten times more dramatic

ever?

dated someone twice: no

kissed someone and regretted it: ugh, yes.

been cheated on: no

lost someone special: special to me, yes.

gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, and trust me, I learned more than one lesson that time.

fave colors?

purple

turquoise

red

in the last year have you?

made new friends: yes

fallen out of love: no (unless you count football, because wow, that’s such a mess)

laughed until you cried: yes

found out someone was talking about you: no

met someone who changed you: in a way

found out who your friends are: no

kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them, and the ones I’ve never met I’ve still known for a pretty long time.

do you have any pets: not anymore

do you want to change your name: no, I’m pretty happy with it :)

what did you do for your last birthday: I think I made at least two rhubarb cakes that day, one for my family and one for work. I also took my birthday off from Facebook and realized that I really don’t care about empty wished from people I don’t really care about, and how nice it is that almost all of the people who mattered cared, anyways.

what time did you wake up today: 8am (we went to the beer garden to celebrate a birthday last night, sue me)

what were you doing last night at midnight: finally home sleeping!

what is something you can’t wait for: THE WEEKEND, this week is going on forever already. Also, it’s my brother’s birthday and the cake he wants sounded like a lot of fun to make, so I’m kind of looking forward to it.

what are you listening to right now: the washing machine next room because I’m too lazy to get up and close the doors.

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes, I actually did so today.

something that gets on your nerves: right now? My boss, and probably myself tbh.

most visited website: Firefox says Twitter which kind of surprises me because I’ve not been using it that much lately??? (I really need new people to follow.)

hair colour: dark brown

long or short hair: rather short

what do you like about yourself: the fact that I do enjoy trying new things, even when some of them scare the hell out of me at first.

want any piercings: I want the third one in each ear back, yes!

blood type: 0+

nicknames: none tbh, mostly because my name is pretty short as it is and I’m not a huge fan of “Tanni”.

relationship status: single, still not sure how     to mingle

zodiac sign: Aries

pronouns: she/her

fave tv show: Black Sails, Ashes to Ashes, Queer Eye

tattoos: none, but I want one! My main problem is that the best tattoo artist in the area has a fucking long wait list and you need to apply with the tattoo you want and then you might or might not get chosen for that wait list, and the one I want probably isn’t that special. Of course they’ve     ruined every other artist for me.

right or left handed: right handed

ever had surgery: no

piercings: the remaining four in my ears.

sports: I watch football, even though it’s complicated, and I really should start doing zumba again.

vacation: IT’S BEEN TO LONG. My last proper one was to London in 2013.

trainers: I’ve discovered my love for them over the last few years. My favourite pair right now are the light blue/grey Puma ones I bought this year because they’re some of the most comfortable ones I’ve ever owned <3

eating: yes? Like, I do eat? I enjoy good food? What’s even the question here?

drinking: also yes? Both in the “I do drink a lot of water and stay reasonably hydrated most days” and the “I do occasionally drink alcohol” way? Also, I feel like I should give a shout-out to coffee here.

i’m about to watch: uuugh, I don’t know. I finished Happy! And caught up on Ducktales the other day and now I have to find something else. I kind of want to rewatch Black Sails, though.

waiting for: myself to get my shit together again

want: I’m stealing this answer because, god yes, a new job would be nice

get married: right now I can’t really see it

career: not right now

hugs or kisses: hugs

lips or eyes: eyes

shorter or taller: taller?

older or younger: omg I hate these questions, who cares?

nice arms or stomach: arms, probably?

hookup or relationship: hookup? I don’t think I can handle a relationship on top of everything right now tbh.

troublemaker or hesitant: a good mixture.

have you ever?

kissed a stranger: yes

drank hard liquor: yes, but unless it’s a small amount in a cocktail or something I’m not a big fan of that anymore.

lost glasses: thankfully not.

turned someone down: yes

sex on the first date: no

broken someone’s heart: I hope not

had your heart broken: yeah

been arrested: no

cried when someone died: yes

fallen for a friend: I’d say no, but in hindsight I’m not 100% sure anymore

do you believe in?

yourself: on good days, yes.

miracles: sometimes

love at first sight: not real love, no.

kiss on the first date: if it feels right for the date, sure!

angels: no

other?

best friend’s name: idek anymore, i guess

eye colour: blue-grey

fave movie: Back to the Future, Star Trek IV, Rise     of the Guardians, and don’t judge me, but my latest happy place movie is actually The 10 Year Plan

favourite actor: I don’t really have one. The last one was Johnny Depp, and we all know how that went down…

favourite food: those gnocchi al forno the Italian restaurant near my workplace makes.

extrovert or introvert: introvert

favourite flower: daisies? Maybe sunflowers.

favourite hello kitty characters: there are more Hello Kitty characters than just Hello Kitty…?

[hyyunjinn]

    I swear if I forgot someone, and I feel like I am because I’m so bad at keeping track of things, I’m gonna go scream. ALSO: all those tags and mentions I’ve been tagged in, I swear I saw them but it was usually when I’m in the middle of doing something and I didn’t want to reblog aND THEN I JUST LOST THE TAG so I’m sorry ; - ;

    But uh, I. Reached. 3K. Followers. On this blog a while ago actually I’m just that lazy of a person and I never do anything on time. And I just wanted to say thank you so much for supporting me and screaming about Stray Kids daily? I haven’t been feeling the greatest emotionally which is why this might turn into a rant—but I just want to use my emotional energy for something good and that’s saying thank you! This is the first time a community has shown so much interest in my work and supporting it and I really, really can’t say how much I appreciate you all. I’ve been creating content for a while now, but it just never got the support I hoped for and,,, idk—just the fact that you guys like this blog just makes me so happy. And it’s not just the gifs: the gfx and writing that I post are the ones I care more about and I’ve gotten so many positive comments on it ahhhhhhh I want to hug each and everyone of you.   

    I know I don’t respond that well and those who tried to talk to me are probably disappointed by how I keep up a conversation but aklsfjasf I want to use this an appreciation post for all the wonderful people I met because of Stray Kids. Also, I want to say that, I’ve tried to talk and support you guys all—even if I don’t follow you, I lurk your blog and stuff—it’s just wow, we’re getting really big and I feel bad not being able to interact with everyone BUT I WANT TO SAY THAT ALL OF YOU ARE SO AMAZING AND WONDERFUL AND YOU WORTH MORE THAN YOU BELIEVE YOU DO. I think it’s easier for me to talk about random stuff on kakaotalk so uhhh, if you wanna shoot me a message my id is cicikookie!    

    And just to my followers in general: thank you so much for sticking around haha. I see a lot of regular usernames and lurk sometimes haha so ;)) Thank you ♡

    Thank you again for being so supportive and I love interacting with all of you: LET’S SUPPORT STRAY KIDS TOGETHER FOR A LONG TIME!

    So, I guess I’ll start with the personalized messages:

@changlix Wow Lexi, you were my first friend in this fandom anD IDK WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE ME DROP MY USERNAME TO YOU BUT AKLSJFALSF LOL I’M SO GLAD WE’RE FRIENDS because everyone loves you and you’re amazing and I love your blog and everything and alskdfjaslfd you’re really crazy but I love you and ahHhHhhh. I know you’re busy with life, but whenever we talk even for like 2 messages at a time, I love it so much. ESPECIALLY WHEN WE WERE THROWING SHADE AT EACH OTHER EARLY ON. I still. Can’t believe. yOUR PROFILE PICTURE IS STILL HYUNJIN ON TWT WYD GIRL. And you calling me a hoe—wow, I keep that close to my heart. HAHA BUT ALL JOKES ASIDE, I appreciate you so much for being the inclusive self that you are and keep being amazing. Okay, I’ll admit: when you told me to “take care of your man properly or i’m coming for him cici” I THINK THAT’S THE REASON I’M STILL LOYAL TO HIM OR I WOULD’VE SWERVED AGES AGO. Thanks Lexi, you’re best ;) altho how could you come for him when i am taking care of him, traitor

@manny27lei I’m adding you here but I don’t even wanna write you anything hAH. YOU DON’T EVEN TALK ABOUT SK. MAKE A SIDEBLOG AND I MIGHT

jk ily thanks for listening to me cry everyday and laskfdjasf it’s crazy how we met because of sk but it’s not even because of sk, it’s because of svt whoops

@seungminty yOU’RE STILL MY FAVE SEUNGMIN STAN AND YOU FOREVER WILL BE. ULT SEUNGMIN STAN. And ofc vocal line enthusiast. Thank you for being you and asklfdjasldf goodness, sometimes I worry that you’re being too hard on yourself MAR ILY AND THE GC LOVES YOU AND BE CONFIDENT! YOU’RE AMAZING AND A TIIINY BIT OF YOURSELF GOTTA FLAUNT IT. You keep the chat going and ahhHhhH I don’t even know how much I want to say the fact that I appreciate you so much. Thank you thank you thank you ♡ random confession: you make me really soft because you’re so soft and i just wanna hug you until everything goes well for you

@princeminho ASFKLJASLFD MAHI! MY CEREAL BUDDY! I STILL CAN’T BELIEVE YOU WERE A actually, the fact that he was your icon should’ve told me bUT WHAT. MINHO STAN SINCE DAY ONE? WHY DID IT TAKE YOU SO LONG TO ADMIT IT AHAHHAHAHAH I’M STILL SO SHOOK. You’re so lowkey about your love for him and I feel and it’s really cute and lksadfjalsd FAVE MINHO STAN BC I DON’T FEEL LIKE I NEED TO FIGHT YOU UNLIKE SOMEONE/ Thank you for just hanging around and taking our shit and just being you—I love talking to you so much, you’re so amazing and ♡♡♡♡♡

@9traykids I give up. You can have Minho. You save me every time you send in Hyunjin photos and I cannot appreciate you enough hAH THEY’RE SO CUTE AND I JUST START SPAZZING OUT AND ALSFJDASDF that one photo where you badly edited with “i ♡ cici” I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THAT AHHHHH. stop making me cry ; - ; I love talking to you and you’re so randomly funny and laskdfjasf THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU ILY ♡♡♡♡♡

@seungchanie HI YOU AMAZING PERSON I LOVE YOU SOSOSOOSOSO MUCH YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW. I’m not quite even sure how we met but it’s like one of those friendships where it feels like it’s been forever because, everything is just a blur but there are good moments, you know what I mean? Vale, I love you so much—you’re so cute and friendly and whenever we talk, I get so excited because you’re so excited and hehe aHHHHHHHH LEMME JUST HUG YOU. You’re always there and yOUR CONTENT. I LOVE YOUR CUTE LITTLE FANARTS AND THAT 3RACHA SCIFI AU WTF I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR YOUR AMAZINGNESS. You have a really simplistic style and I love it so much mwah

@hyunjinh laksdjf hi jas!! oKAY CAN I JUST SAY YOU’RE PROBABLY MY TUMBLR CRUSH BUT LIKE, WE TALKED BEFORE BUT I STILL DON’T ASLKDFJASD IDK YOU’RE REALLY COOL AND I REALLY LIKE TALKING TO YOU but idk how to keep a convo going and ahHhhHh LOWKEY BLUSHING BC I REALLY LIKE YOU HAHAH you’re really amazing and I love your blog and I hope we can become better friends hehe.

@straykidzz OKAY TBH IDEK WHEN OR HOW BUT THE FACT THAT WE NEVER HAD LIKE, A PROPER CONVERSATION and yet we act like good friends is aslkdfjasldf—maybe it’s a mutual thing hehe aHHH MANDA ILYSM AND JUST SEEING YOU ON MY DASH MAKES ME SO HAPPY. Or maybe it’s the fact that you’ve been here as long as me heheh. I hope we get to know each other better and skajflasdf W A H ♡♡♡♡♡♡ TAKE MY HEARTS

@chanbng Fishy, you. are SO AMAZING — we never seem to be on the chat at the same time but you’re so sweet and lasdfjasdlf wow i’m highkey crushin haha AHHHHHHHI JUST WANNA SAY I LOVE YOUR WORK SO MUCH AND THANKS FOR BEING YOU and i hope we get to talk more heheh

@aussieline KLASDFJALKSDF YA BIBI WE NEVER ACTUALLY HAD A REAL CONVERSATION BUT JUST, THIS MUTUAL THING WE GOT GOING ON? ILYSM YOU ARE SO AMAZING AND YOUR ARTWORK ALWAYS MAKES ME SMILE AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH we gotta talk more omg but thank you for providing my dark life with cute fanart and cute tags, you’re adorable

@jeongin-ie sup smol softie ilySM WE GOTTA START CHATTING FOR REAL OR SMTH YO which means i should be the one who sends the message but laskdfjsadf i su k but i also want to be better friends with you ; - ; hit me up with your kkt thO THEN WE CAN CHAT PLSPSPSLSPSL i hate chatting on tumblr lmao CJ, YOUR WORK IS AMAZING AND YOUR BLOG IS CUTE AND YOU’RE CUTE thanks for being you :)

@strgaykids Okay. I SAW YOUR 3K POST THING AND YOU ARE SO PRETTY I NEARLY FELL OFF MY CHAIR CONGRATS ON HITTING THE MILESTONE TOO! You make the fandom so much more fun and I love the shitposts you have TBH, I REALLY HOPE WE GET TO BECOME FRIENDS OR SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU SEEM, I was gonna say chill, but maybe lit? but that doesn’t really make anysense—tHE POINT IS: hiimciciandihopewe’lltalklaterinthefuturehehebyegottablast

@spearbin asklfjdsaldf pffffffft Camille right? YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND I JUST, LOVE YOU AS A PERSON AND SEEING YOU SPAZZ OUT IN THE TAGS IS SO CUTE and i have a highkey tumblr crush on you but like, we’ve interacted before and >///< AHHHH HIHIHI I REALLY WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND BUT I’M SUPER AWKAWRD I HIGHKEY HOPE YOU DON’T SEE THIS BUT YOU PROBABLY WILL AND PFFFFFT I’LL JUST, LEAVE NOW

@chanskitty AHHHHH DIAN HOW ARE YOU?????? I know we don’t talk as much anymore but — ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ You’re so amazing and chill and ahhhhhhhh. You are taking care of yourself right? Getting sleep? I HOPE WE GET TO TALK MORE SOON ♡ I’LL SEND A MESSAGE OR SMTH tag you in something????/// :DD

@realstraykids Did you know it took me a couple of weeks (or was it days) after following you to realize that your url is the same handle as Stray Kids’ official ig name alskfdjasdf I FACEPALMED MYSELF SO HARD LMAO — also hold on, I didn’t know you’re minho bIASED AH YESSSSSSSSSS Em. I really hope we get to know each other better beCAUSE YOU’RE SO COOL AND I LOVE YOUR EDITS SO MUCH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH They’re really different but a good kind of different and tell me your ways of sitting in front of a computer screen and masking each frame of a moving object hOW I HATE DOING THAT

@stray-k1ds hOLy cow I don’t think i actually know your name—is it Tiffany? I THINK WE FORGOT TO INTRODUCE OURSELVES—I’m Cici! AND I LOVE TALKING TO YOU YOU’RE SO CUTE AND LASKFJAAKD I love your cute little scenarios and all that and keep up the good work!!!!!!! I HOPE WE CAN BECOME BETTER FRIENDS AY

@jeongn pfft Nicolle, you actually haVEN’T DONE ANYTHING IN A WHILE THAT MADE ME WANT TO BLOCK YOU AHAHHALSFKJASLDF i still can’t get that image of tired chan and his accent coming out whAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME you can be so cool and so fREAKING TALENTED I CAN’T BELIEVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU FOLLOWS M E. I love the times we do actually talk, so! :))) I hope we become better friends ayyYyyyyYYY

@stray4419 hehehehehe i know we just started talking but Chi, you are so kindhearted and i’ve said it twice and i’ll say it again: thank you so so so much for personally offering me a shoulder to cry on haha. You have no idea how touched I was and I really can’t thank you enough. LET’S MEET UP SOMETIME AND CRY ABOUT STRAY KIDS TOGETHER YO AHHHHHHHHH

@woojinskids eASILY YOU’RE MY FAVE WOOJIN STAN M. YOU’RE SO SOFT FOR HIM AND READING YOUR TAGS FOR HIM IS SO CUTE I actually fall in love with him even more every time you talk about him aahahh I know we don’t talk as much but I really love seeing you around ♡

@chxngbins NehaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I MISS TALKING TO YOUUUUUUU and your old username not gonna lie alskdfjasdf whoops but AHHH YOU’RE SO CUTE and smart wow and asldfkjsdf I wish I was as levelheaded as you pFFT. You are so amazing and smol and i associate you with that picture of namjoon eating pizza lmao BUT AHHHH KEEP BEING YOU ILYSM

@felixsfreckles I WAS LOOKING THROUGH MY FOLLOWING LIST AND ASLKDFJASLDFK WTF I CAN’T BELIEVE I WASN’T FOLLOWING YOU THE ENTIRE TIME i feel so bad omg i’m sorry—actually hold on, are you not a felix stan anymore wH A T. but alskfa hiiiiii thanks for being amazing!!!!!!!!  idk, you’re like one of those mutuals that, I’m sorta comfortable knowing that you exist? because you are so nice and we’ve been on here for so long kinda thing haha ♡

@bunny-minsungie asfjkdhsda I KNOW OUR CHAT IS PRETTY MUCH ALL BUSINESS SOUNDING/RELATED NOW BUT I JUST WANNA TAKE THE TIME TO SAY THANK YOU FOR BEING AMAZING and doing so much ; - ; Now that I think about it, we don’t even talk about anything else noooooooo but I really appreciate you Lys ♡ and that demon!hyunjin au is seriously taking over me omf

@bbang-channie Dude Leah, you are so cool omg—you’re so inviting and fun to talk to and AHHHHH I REALLY HOPE WE GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER BETTER BECAUSE LKSDJAFLSDF FROM THE SHORT TIME WE’VE TALKED VIA GCs, I love it  ; - ; UGH I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT KNOWING WHAT ELSE TO SAY BUT!!! I APPRECIATE YOU BUDDY!!  

@seoracha I KNOW YOU’RE NOT EVEN HERE ANYMORE but i just wanna say you the craziest triple biaser i’ve met probably the only triple biaser i know and honestly idek how your brain works but lmao miri you’re so cool ily

@utlwoojisung @kim-squishmin @doublekn0t @chanyeolsidepiece @vallkyr @hi-hello32 @sparklingthoughtss @straykidding @indiepoptime @f3lix-lee @ultchris @maaatryoshka @straykidsstan @softlix OKOK I KNOW WE’VE TALKED BEFORE/ARE MESSAGING/SOMEHOW INTERACTED AND YOU SEEM COOL but alksdfsd like, I don’t know you guys as well bUT I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU ALL TOO AND I HOPE WE CAN GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER BETTER! :))

Ummmm, here are people that I follow and don’t really know but uhhhh ihopewegettotalkonedayahahiwantmorefriendsandyouguysseemreallycooltotalktoahhh @jicue @chans97 @cosychans @lees-minho @leefelixs @chngbins @changbinsplushie @starrykids @softstraykids @sprearb @stray-keeds-in-yo @straykeeds @hyuunjins @bvian @straybros @straykidsmp3 @straykiz @straybabies @stkids @1straykids @felixeslee @jeonginie @jeongin @str4y-kids @bchanies @changbln

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ALL THAT IS IS SO FRICKEN CUTE I LOVE IT. TELL ME MORE!! :D I WANT TO HAVE A FULL REPORT! XDD!!

Ahahahaha, okay. I’ll do one big explanation of everything that went down for you guys (as much as I can, I tried explaining it to my mum and she was very confused) and then I think it’ll be time for me to call it a day and stop harping on about the show stuff in general. ^^;; 

I do apologise for this slight deviation in content, we’ll be returning to your regularly scheduled FFVII blogging shortly. And I’ll keep all the youtube-related stuff on the sideblog I created just for that purpose, I don’t know why I’m so bad at keeping things where they’re meant to be.

Also this will probably get super long, so under the cut we go. (Also beware spoilers for the Markiplier show!!! If anyone’s worried about that.)

Hoo boy. Okay. Where do we start, howmuch detail do you want? xD Are we talking just the going on stage part all thewhole evening?

(I’m going to go for mainly just the on stage part because I’ve left it very late alreadyfor answering this and I need to sleep. >>)

But!! The day was pretty hectic cause Ihad 9am to 2pm straight lectures and labs, and then took a taxi straight to thestation and left for Nottingham then, which meant I had to do my lab in mypoofy dress. xD So that was amusing to start with.

Got to Nottingham, checked into my hotel(such a sweet glory to have a proper hotel room all to myself compared to thehostel I had for Manchester, aaahh), then went pretty much straight to thevenue from there after dumping all my stuff.

I was weak and bought too much merch. I’dalready bought one of the beanies in London, so I thought this time I’d justbuy a sticker set and some badges, that’s pretty cheap right? Well, yes. Thosewere. Until I stood in the queue for too long looking at the merch and beingmore and more tempted by one of the hoodies. I didn’t buy it originally, butthen I gave in and went back for it because I have no self-control lol.

There was the VIP section! Mark’s beenill for like, most of the tour thus far, and for a while his voice was totallygone. Poor dude. Normally he sings in the VIP section, and he did most of hissongs for the Nottingham one. I posted a video of a section of one!! There wereone or two songs he didn’t do because his range wasn’t back up to 100% justyet, but that just meant we got a bit longer for Q&A stuff.

(Uuugh every time I see how far he’s comemusically it reminds me how much I love singing to myself and writing dumbsongs and I want to do things too. ;^; It was a fit of inspiration afterwatching Mark before that led to me buying my whole mic set up I have.)

So then there’s a break between the VIPpre-show and the main show while everyone else comes in and I hung aroundsinging obnoxiously to myself the whole time because Mark put in the mood forsinging oops.

Then the main show!! The way the show is structured is that it’sthe same games and stuff each time, but there’s three different themes thatthey can go with for the show, and the theme is determined at the start. Themethod of determination is that there’s cases you have to pick from, kind of like a deal or nodeal style. Mark and Bob chose a case each (marking their choices with a redor green sticky respectively), and then the audience had to decide who theyagree with via the application of these coloured paddles they give out wheneveryone’s entering the theatre; hold up the colour you want to vote for. Butthe boys are cheaty mc cheatfaces and will never go with what the audiencewants. xD They have to pick one person out of the audience to make the finaldecision. (That was me!!!)

Also the final decision is made by stabbingthe holder of the case you don’t want with a foam sword.

(We got the horror theme for theNottingham show. :D)

I chose Bob’s box and didn’t stab Tyler,so I got to sneak in a hug from him for that. x3 But I also got put in thepunishment corner for not listening to Mark (not complaining 👀). Regardless of the decision, the gag is that Bob decides totry and take over the show anyway by kidnapping Tyler. Ethan and Wade came inas the inept henchmen dressed in ridiculous costumes, and then it was Mark andI, armed with swords, against the others in a stupid slowmo staged sword fightand honestly idek it was the most fucking surreal thing I’ve ever done in my life.

(I found this photo on Twitter!! Creditto Craig Frewey for it.)

So that was how I ended up having a veryone-sided swordfight with a shark??? xD

Man, I hope there’s video of this becauseit’s REALLY HARD TO EXPLAIN WTF WAS EVEN HAPPENING.

Anyway, I rescued Tyler! But while I wasbusy slaying the shark and stealing the golden key of rescue, Bob went and tookMark hostage instead and then I had to choose between saving Tyler or savingMark. Like goddamn, stop giving me so many impossible choices. D:

I may have eeny meeny miny mo’d it.

(But tbh I did kind of want to save Markmore anyway I’m so sorry Tyler but if I had to pick a favourite…… anyway, Iscrewed Mark over earlier not choosing his case, so making it even? xD)

Also look at this fucking pouty babytrying to make me feel bad and convince me to save him.

(Photo from this photoset here, credit to @giggles3475​!)

You deserve only to be saved by atechnicality of eeny meeny miny mo, sir.

Anyway, since I saved Mark, I got to goon a ‘date’ with him; got invited for a candlelit dinner loooool. This is theonly date my aroace ass will accept, I’m good for life now. xD

((One day I want to have thisconversation:Someone: You’ve never had a relationship?You’ve never dated? :0Me: Well there was this one time I had a fakestage date with Markiplier…))

Anywho, the point of that is that it’s anopportunity for Mark to ask a bunch of questions(or Tyler in other cases if the poor sod who gets calledup to take part in this ridiculousness saves Tyler instead), because the next part of the show is that they make an improvisedmusical about that person’s life! ….and I have a fuckin’ weird life.

So Mark started asking me questions aboutwhat I did and stuff, what my poofy dress was all about (‘cause I’d dressed upin my pretty Lolita dress just because why not I never get the chance to dressup), it was all relatively normal at first.

Oh, and Mark asked me if I was seeing theshow with friends or family or anyone; I was just like “nope, I’m here alonelike a sad loser!” and apparently that’s the line that people liked ‘cause I’veseen it quoted somewhere in the tags and in the discord server I’m on inseparate incidences. xD (Mark’s reply was a highly cheerful “alone like a sadloser? Me too!” bless him.)

So it started off normal but then oncethe crocodiles came up… that just got even more surreal, ahahaha. I bet Mark’snever heard that one before. And I did the ‘born in England, moved toAustralia, moved back to England, moved to Australia, back to England again,and then we were in India for a while too…’ spiel that is the quickest way Ican summarise all the back and forth we’ve done. That got brought up in a song.In the most ridiculous way possible fuckin’ honestlyI was just crying over in my corner.

Tiny snippet of that:https://twitter.com/LilyRooney31/status/966821044739854336

And then my poor dear sister, I said shewas my favourite ‘cause she’s cute, she got a skit about her and somehow itended up in a song about pants??? xD Also my mum is apparently now a spy. Thesethings just happen.

There’s a bunch of footage starting fromthe end of the first musical bit and the whole of the second part here: https://www.pscp.tv/w/1djxXdaZXmjxZ

(In the very last few seconds of thatvideo in the side of the screen there’s a me!! I got to hug Mark!!)

I’m slightly worried though that everyonein the audience might think I was bullshitting about a lot of the stuff I said,like I was making stuff up to try and make myself seem cooler?? ‘Cause who the fuckhas crocodiles?? Apart from my freakin’ family. Honestly if I was gonna lie Iwould’ve made it more believable. xD

So, yeah!!! That was what I got to do onstage. I don’t think I embarrassed myself hideously at any point, probably someminor awkwards but I got through it okay. I’m just absolutely fucking kickingmyself now that I had the opportunity rightthere, but I was so worried about not messing it up and like, ‘performing’for the audience that I was hardly paying attention to Mark. There was just. Alot happening. @_@ I feel like I barely even looked him in the eye throughoutit ‘cause I was like what the fuck do I focus on should I try to talk to theaudience so they can see what’s happening? (‘Cause during the sitting downtalking thing if I’d turned to look at Mark properly my back would’ve beentowards the audience, and that seemed rude to them then, so I ended up with akind of sideways thing looking at neither. orz) I feel like I was up there onstage with Mark, but I never talked tohim, if that makes sense?

I really want to find more videos andphotos of my part because it’s still so surreal I’m like wait what did thateven really happen??? I did give my email address to someone who said they hadvideo of the date section so I’m really looking forward to that, and I knowsomeone else has photos, so it should be all good on that front! I needevidence that it wasn’t all just a weird fever dream. I mean. I did have aswordfight with a shark so the fever dream thing is always a possibility.

But anyway. xD That was only the firstpart of the whole show!! I’ve already written and entire damn essay trying toexplain how things went down, so I’m not going to expand on all the otherimprov games they played, but it was a really good time watching the rest of ittoo, and then hanging with people outside, and getting Taco Bell on the wayback to the hotel.

I did not get nearly enough sleep becausehow the heck could I sleep after that I was too pumped, I didn’t fall asleepuntil like three in the morning. And now it’s 1am again ‘cause I spent waaaaaytoo long typing this up, and I reallyneed the sleep, so.

If anyone actually read all that, Isalute you, and also dear god what are you doing with your life.

Lol, but thanks for asking about itAisha! :D

[kim-bbap]

Rules: answer these 11 questions, make up some more and tag 11 people. Thanks for the tag @yes-i-am-student!! i love you hahaha 💕

1. What’s your dream job? skldfj;alksjfakjsf ahhAAAAhhhh idk maybe a creative director?? but idk in what field (lord pls help me figure out my life)

2. When was the last time you saw your friends? Earlier this day. classes resumed today so i saw them :)

3. What accomplishment are you most proud of in your life? why are your questions so hard geez you could ask like what i ate for breakfast and i wouldn’t know the answer hahahah um i guess getting into the college and the program that i wanted and getting the high grades that makes my parents proud??

4. Do you make new years resolutions? i don’t lol i know i’ll just forget them in around two weeks.

5. Who is your favourite artist or author? artist? like a singer? or like a painter or something? I’m gonna go with painters because I have a several names in mind. Van Eyck, Botticelli, Caravaggio, Vermeer, and Goya. When i was learning about painters and all that, Francisco Goya (de Goya?) was i think my favourite, or like the one that really piqued my interest. His works were dark and kind of scary. And also Jan Van Eyck, his paintings were meticulously detailed af. if you go to this website, you can see his works in great detail. like you can zoom in, and zoom in even further and you’ll still find small details and it’s so cool ahhhh sorry this is getting too long, and idek if you were asking about painters. (im gonna keep going) and i mean of course i also like van gogh. i did an acrylic painting of one of his works (starry night ofc) and it’s so therapeutic. it’s so fun to do bc you don’t have to pay so much detail to proper proportions and stuff, and i liked doing the little strokes. anyway aside from (post)impressionist painters and renaissance, i also like painters who did expressionism and surrealism. (sry i got excited there’s so many) as for authors, i don’t really have a favourite? i kind of like ya books just in general. honestly, i don’t even read as much as i used to do. so sad. 

6. How happy are you about where you are in life right now? quite happy actually. stressed, yes, but happy. (tbh, i was really depressed back in high school and i used to think i wouldn’t even make it this far?? like how am i even alive right now wth)

7. Introvert or extrovert (or the mythical ambivert)? introvert. I wish i was an extrovert. I’d probably have achieved so much more if i was. :( but that’s alright i guess

8. Favourite item of clothing? i’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker colour :) Majority of my clothes are black hahaha i like all of them. but there is this one black muscle tee that i wear quite a lot and it has two skeletons on it. I also like sweaters. and black thigh high socks.

9. Where is your dream holiday destination? JAPAN pls

10. Do you like Star Wars? i’ve only watched ep 7. but I have downloaded the first 6 on my laptop a while back bc i really wanna get into it. but rn it’s just sitting there hahaha

11. How much time do you spend on your phone during a typical day? a lot of time. an unhealthy amount of time, im guessing. If i’m not seated in front of my desktop or working on something, i’d be on my phone.

My questions: 

1. How was your day? 2. Can you recommend song/s for me to listen to? 3. What’s your favourite meme? 4. What’s one thing you want to improve on this year? 5. Post any random picture from your phone. (You can skip this one if you want) 6. Seen any good movies recently? 7. What’s the coolest thing you have right now? 8. What did you want to be when you were a kid? Is it the same now? 9. What’s the weirdest dream you had? 10. Do you watch any youtubers? 11. Do you have any funny or weird stories about a teacher in your school?

I’m tagging @psyduckstudies @shrustudies @a-turtle-studying @citrusstudy @awhaleinanoceanoffish @ryukignis @study-beaver @studygnit @fragmentos-de-estrelas @notesbynunes @drama-studies

[cookignis]

answer the following for your muse so people know how shipping works on your blog.

REPOST. don’t reblog.

WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE?: Uh….Ignis/Happiness tbh.

WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING?: I’m pretty fine with writing anything from fluff to angst (especially angst). Though, be forewarned that Ignis is pretty single-minded and tends to only focus on work (read: Noctis). I can pretty much do just about anything so long as it’s a well-developed ship. But regarding smut, I’m not quite confident with that. When and if (big if) it ever gets to that, I guess it’ll be that good ‘ol fade to black lol.

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?: So long as both muses are 18+ and are consenting, I don’t really mind age gaps. 

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?: Yes. I am a staunch stickler to chemistry and development, so that is an absolute must. This is in regards to both mun and muse, of course. 

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY’RE CONSIDERED NS.FW?: I mean I guess when clothes come off or parts start being mentioned? idek

WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH?: I guess if it isn’t obvious, Noctis? But anything is a go under the right setting and with proper development.  

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?: I mean you don’t need to ‘ask’? Just maybe tell me if you’re interested and we can discuss development and what possibilities there might be. Of course, this is under the assumption that we’ve at least interacted a bit already. 

HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP?: Ships are great! I’m all about all different kinds of ships! Platonic, romantic, familial, frenemies, etc etc. 

ARE YOU MULTISHIP?: Very selective multiship.

ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?: I’m pretty trashy I guess. But I don’t go around shipping at the speed of light lol. As stated above, I prefer a lot of development and chemistry before getting into a legit ship. But I am more or less trash tbh. I will spam and bombard my partners with pictures, musings or whatever else reminds me of them. Spoiler: you’ll probably get sick of my ass hitting you up. 

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?: Again, if you couldn’t tell IgNoct. 

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?: Hit me on up, friendos. Talk to me. Develop with me. Love me and my megane son.

tagged by: I stole this from myself tagging: steal it

[cinnaminsvga]

Get to Know Me Tag

I was tagged by the sweetest @spicyauntyjimin!! Mahal kita 💓

1ST RULE: Tag people who you want to get to know better

I’m tagging some of my faves: @comfyeol @catandlovelyfish @btsaeipathy @btsofmyheart @forever-young-got7 @itsawonderfulsakujo (feel free to pass if y’all don’t want to do it hdhsajhd)

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller (next joke please) I wear glasses (I’m blind af) I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined (NEXT JOKE PLEASE) I have or have had braces PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people (only online, not irl sorry lmao) People tell me that I’m funny  Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me (usually if you’re nice to me, I’ll be nice to you) I enjoy physical challenges (again, NEXT JOKE PLS) I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well (bruh i call my followers demons) I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it (saying lol and lmao in real life... kill me) ABILITY: I can sing well I can play an instrument (I can play the piano... poorly) I can do over 30 pushups without stopping (keep these jokes coming) I’m a fast runner (it’s like this tag is trying to make fun of me or something) I can draw well (debatable tbh) I have a good memory (i repeat: debatable) I’m good at doing math in my head (only if I REALLY focus, and that is: never) I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling (despite my lack of physical fitness, I like fighting people so) I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch (??? honestly? idek) HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports (why is this tag game bullying me) I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week  I work out at least once a week (UHHHHHHHH) I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months (i repeat: UHHHH) I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing (finally, relatable content) I do or have done martial arts EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss  I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country (bruh, i’m studying in one lol) I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts (may 6 changed my life I love you bangtan) RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity (UM BIGGEST UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY) I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship (boys in my school suck and all the girls are straight :c) I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily (only celebrities; irl people--not really) I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school (bruh I live in campus lmao) My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs (i love you 1D rip) I share my room with someone RANDOM STUFF: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie (i know like... two jamie’s) I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life (this is the saddest one yet lol) I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year (aka all the people i tagged! ily all)

[tahpssi]

LONG ASS QUESTIONAIRE

tagged by @dae-dreamxx thank you aaaa!! ;u;

I’m tagging @donutquestion​ @annaflamel​ @goddessofwasteland​ @suntoryz​ and @sick-of-love-songs​ (none of you have to do this of course if you don’t want to!)

THE LAST

1. drink: water 2. phone call: my dad 3. text message: girlfriend 4. song you listened to: Fall Out Boy - The Last of the Real Ones 5. time you cried: yesterday oops 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: 5 years ago 10. been depressed: when am I not tbh 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nah man

3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. red 13. blue 14. green (I’m basic like that)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: I’m not sure tbh but probably? 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: no 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: I don’t have facebook so no

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: again, I don’t have facebook 23. do you have any pets: sadly not :( 24. do you want to change your name: yes 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I honestly don’t remember lmao 26. what time did you wake up: 11am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I was hanging out with friends 28. name something you can’t wait for: meeting my girlfriend  29. when was the last time you saw your mom: Sept 23rd  31. what are you listening to right now: Fall Out Boy - The Last of the Real Ones (I have the song on repeat) 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah I have two Toms in my class 33. something that is getting on your nerves: life in general 34. most visited website: tumblr, youtube and twitter 35. hair colour: black 36. long or short hair: short 37. do you have a crush on someone: my girlfriend, duh 38. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and voice? kinda? 40. blood type: B+ 41. nickname: multiple, but my favorite one is “crocodile” 42. relationship status: taken (still can’t believe it) 43. zodiac: aquarius!! 44. pronouns: they/them 45. favourite tv show:  oh boy, Downton Abbey, Jessica Jones, Criminal Minds and probably a few more 46. tattoos: yes, I’ve got one on my left wrist that says “until whenever ☆” 47. right or left handed: right. 48. surgery: nope 50. sport: does breathing count 51. vacation: I wanna go to so many places, like Scotland, England, back to Ireland, New Zealand, Japan, South Korea... but rn I just want to go somewhere quiet and peaceful to calm down, I’m so fucking tense lately 52. pair of trainers: Nike

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: like rn? nothing, tho I had cereal earlier 54. drinking: water, I don’t really drink anything else 55. I’m about to: skype with my girlfriend 56. waiting for: finals to be over 57. want: to go to a BIGBANG concert tbh 58. get married: I don’t really care that much about getting married?   59. career: nah man I just want to earn money in a job I don’t hate completely

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: hugs 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: shorter bc my gf is smol and I love it 63. older or younger: if it’s not a difference of more than 5 years I’m fine with either 64. nice arms or nice stomach: I don’t really care tbh 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: neither lmao

HAVE YOU EVER

67. kissed a stranger: nope 68. drank hard liquor: nope 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope 70. turned someone down: nope 71. sex on the first date: nope 72. broken someone’s heart: yeah  73. had your heart broken: yep 74. been arrested: nope 75. cried when someone died: yep. 76. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. yourself: nah man I’m useless 78. miracles: kind of?  79. love at first sight: crushes yes, proper love no 80. santa claus: nah man 81. kiss on the first date: sure why not 82. angels: hmm, probably not? 

OTHER

84. eye colour: blue/green-ish I think, idek 85. favourite movie: The Lion King, Spirited Away and Lord of the Rings