#idek if any of y'all are interested in it?

[ittyybittybaker]

i made a post abt making playlists for aftg/the foxes and i know no one cares about this except for me but y'all i am So Serious abt this now 😅 the covers are just things i found on pinterest tho bc i'm not talented ...

i have: andrew, neil, andriel, kevin, the foxes/aftg in general, renee, matt, dan, and allison so far, but i plan to make ones for all of them eventually!!

there are some songs that appear on multiple mixes bc there are some characters that i think have parallels in their stories/they go through similar struggles but idk if i'm going to keep it that way bc i really want to make sure each mix has its own ~vibe if that makes sense???

idk it's definitely a work in progress but i'm having a lot of fun and i'm happy with how they're turning out !!! if y'all have any song suggestions pls send them my way 👀👀👀

[emersonfreepress]

help i'm alive

So! Long time, no see. 2023 was a whole goddamn lot lol

I don't have a demo update to share yet, but that's because I had to scrap nearly everything I managed to write during a very, very, very bad stint of writer's block last year. I hadn't even realized it had been a block like that until I went over my work so far last month and realized it was bad -- like, trust me; a slog to read that didn't even sound like me. It's been extremely frustrating but I've finally broken free of that and it's been easy and actually fun to write again for the first time in actual years. I just hate giving updates that have no actual news in them. And I really had nothing to share other than: I deleted thousands of words and feel so much better now 😅

Anyway, little about my demo plans have changed: I'm still putting out the Chapter 3 demos in Choicescript/on Dashingdon and then will be going dark to move things over to Twine. Where I am in the process right now is... feeling like 35% done with the overhauled version of this chapter and 50% done for the next demo update.

As far as asks, I'm... not really sure what to do?? I believe I've read them all (I love you guys), but so much time has passed since getting most of them that I'm not sure if it's, like... still pertinent??? To go back and answer them?? I suppose some of them like character asks could be, but all the nice messages of support -- that feels weird since I've practically ghosted this blog since August! Idk. Y'all tell me what to do with 'em and I'll do it. Maybe I should make a poll.

Uh... that's really all there is to say regarding the game! I've added some personal stuff after the cut, but if you're done here: Thanks for reading and sticking around. It means the world, for real.

So what has occupied my time all this time? Doctor, therapy, money, and friends. And improv! But especially the first two. There was a lot of non-writing related stuff fucking up my ability to focus and write, so hopefully with my mind and body both feeling a lot better, I can get back to being present and active with the game. I didn't realize how physically unwell I was until last year and it's been like... life-long issues I've been treating. It turns out it's not normal to feel exhausted enough to sleep at any given time, at all times, for your whole life! wow!!

I also uninstalled Tumblr from my phone back in February, so you could say I'm sort of generally focused on offline life. (And what an interesting coincidence that my writer's block dissipated shortly after that...) I also just moved!! The last two weekends have been so expensive and stressful -_- But I can't even compare the old place to the new. We're basically paying the same price for idek how much more space. The cats are so happy; which means the house humans get to be happy.

My schedule is finally freed up from constant medical shit (there was a 3-month stretch this winter with multiple doctor appointments literally every fucking week 🙃🙃🙃). My mental health is doing a lot better -- literally incomparably better compared to where I was this time last year. There's live comedy now (which I dabble in, to be clear lol), but I've finally found myself able to like... balance it all. The physical and creative energy that goes into it all, anyway. The lovely thing about improv is that you kinda just show up and do your thing -- it doesn't cut into my writing time so much as it costs energy. Unless I end up in this comedy debate show thing next month, which I am very excited to give up writing time for

So like... Life is life-ing and I'm just vibing. Or something? I'll be around.

Thank you all again so much for your interest, support, patience, and readership <3

[jupitergalactica]

𝔒𝔥 𝔟𝔞𝔟𝔶 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔡!

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About me:

• My name is Lynnie, but y'all can call me Jupiter / Juju. :3

• Pronouns are she / they

• I'm not American

• I'm a teenager / minor. I don't mind people older than 18 following my account or interacting with my posts, I just won't accept any friend requests with that knowledge for safety purposes.

• Certified Patrick Stump Fangirl™

• I have ADHD so plz be patient with me :]

• And plz don't be alarmed if I don't respond to your asks or messages right away, I somehow managed to be so socially awkward to the point where I struggle to converse online??? Idek just roll with it-

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Music stuff I love!

My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Pre-split Panic!, Twenty One Pilots, Green Day, Metric, Linkin Park, Weezer, Three Days Grace, Los Campesinos, The Smashing Pumpkins, Chappell Roan, David Bowie, etc.

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What do I like:

• My top three albums of all time are The Black Parade - MCR, Folie A Deux - FOB, and Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park. (Although that doesn't mean that I like ONLY those albums lmao)

• Playing guitar

• Occasional shitty doodling xD

• Making memes on Picsart

• ARCANE ARGHHHHHHHH

• Scott Pilgrim

• Transformers

• Hazbin Hotel

• Reposting MCR clips that I find funny which has completely took over my account for some reason

• Creating playlists on my side blog (@evamustdie21)

• Making somewhat funny clips with Capcut

• The only thing I love more than Patrick Stump is sugar cookies (Sorry Trickyyy)

• Becoming friends with other fellow emos! :D Don't hesitate to message me if you're interested! (Although again, I most likely won't reply to someone over eighteen for safety reasons)

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DISCLAIMERS:

All my meme posts are satire. Hence the frequent tags #/satire. I make those on a whim when I’m in a silly mood, and for the love of god, I do NOT think about Gerard Way giving birth on a daily basis. 😭 I’m just a pretty odd (PANIC REFERENCE?1?!1?1) teenage girl okay??? just thought I’d address this b4 someone thinks I’m being serious!

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~ 𝔍𝔲𝔭𝔦𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔏𝔶𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔢

[probablyaseamonster]

honestly my favourite thing about skeletondance is that Wander is literally Hater's shoulder angel and Peepers's jealous ass (like fr i have never seen a more jealous male character who wasnt like an ex boyfriend) is essentially his shoulder devil.

My interpretation is that Hater chooses to be evil partly because it's fun and gives him a rush of pride and other red emotions but also because of Peepers's influence. Hater probably WOULD enjoy being good if he (and Peeps) let him(self). I mean you could make a compilation of all the times Peepers had to force Hater to focus on doing evil deeds, and you could argue that that's just because Hater's hate is so strong but I like to think that that is kind of a representation of Hater's morality anyway. Shoulder devil.

Its so funny to me how this man is so determined to not do anything nice because "ew thats gay" that he overcompensates and physically reacts with disgust at any positive vibes like some kinda Megamind feedback-aversion. And we know this isn't just him genuinely not consenting because there's multiple episodes where Hater gets to (or is dragged into) hang(ing) out with Wander and he genuinely enjoys himself and it's almost like letting loose. It's this weird almost fanfic-y enemies-to-lovers thing where- I just realized what it is. Hater is a tsundere.

Lord Hater from Wander Over Yonder is a tsundere.

Idk man I just have so many thoughts about this love triangle and its so funny to me that this show clearly meant for children had this kinda dynamic. Wander Over Yonder has some really... interesting relationships! I'm rambling now but idc because I don't know how to organize these thoughts so y'all are just gonna have to take these! Idek if I'm contributing anything new to the Fandom! Please if anyone has any recs where Hater is just being top exaggerated "ew gross!" While secretly enjoying it i would thank you immensely and also could we be friends?

[littlerosetrove]

So the show and the writers DO know how to write a decent love interest!!!! Are fucking kidding me??!?!?!? fghvbjkhgfgchv. OKAY LISTEN AND BARE WITH ME.

Bucks love interests - Abby was developed because she too was a main character in season one. But after her? - Ali was barely present then gone. - Taylor Kelly was never interesting or compelling, definitely not to me. She was a selfish asshole the entire time we knew her, and her back story didn't garner much sympathy points because it showed her hypocrisy. - Natalia was a death doula that never got developed. No clue why she did or said anything in season 6.

Yes I'm going to bring Eddie into this because he's relevant for sure.

Eddie's love interests - Shannon was definitely an interesting character. In some ways we never really got to know her, but overall? Yeah still got some clear ideas of who she was as a person and a mom (a bad one). - Ana was a teacher, nice, but terribly bland (and low-key ableist). Her only interesting moment was the Iconic breakup scene. - Marisol. We still know jack shit about her beyond her weird connection with her brother, and liking DIY.

AND SO I'm finding fascinating that Buck's newest love interest, Tommy, in predominately one episode (though yes he was in 7x3, and had a few scattered scenes throughout season 2) has had a pretty dang decent amount of character development already.

Like. Like just in two episodes of season 7 we can tell that he's been a firefighter for years, has a history with the 118, has been in the army and so connects with Eddie on that level, has had a connection with Chris at some point, is confident, ready to help at the drop of a hat for Chimney and Hen in particular, is very friendly, social, is respectful (ex: when he waited to get the clear from Buck that he's interested, and then made a move), mature, and I could probably go on.

Part of my point is that I honestly appreciate that, finally, in this case for Buck, he's getting a love interest that the writers are putting in effort for. I think it's, yeah, important to do so since *gestures* this is a queer story they're telling. I'd hope that they'd put more care and effort into this, you know? Gosh I hope I'm phrasing this right.

And just. Again I find it weird and funny that, idek, when it's a guy (love interest)??? Oh now they can make an interesting and far more developed character???? Okay okay okay. Interesting. Okay.

And I think the last thing I wanna say is....... I. Y'all. I like Tommy. I don't hate or really mind the Buck and Tommy of it all. I think a big reason for this is, as I just laid out, that Tommy has been developed and just seems like a good guy. No, I don't think they're any kind of end game. No, I don't want Tommy to even get hurt because Buck is still confused about Eddie and currently avoiding delving all that, but. But yeah. While Tommy and Buck last? Yeah sure, I'm cool. I'm happy that I feel fine about it, because I sure have not cared for really any of Buck's other previous love interests (or Eddie's.)

I'm way more confident about Buddie canon, just a by the way. But we're getting there! Give it time!

[bitbrumal]

BLOG REOPENING

hewwo hewwo fellas & fuckos. winks with both eyes. i'm possibly going to slide in around here throughout the holiday season bc the writing itch be itching, so i'll provide an update on the muse list & the dynamics / threads i'd like to keep ( if y'all are also down ) from before my break.

if you would like this post if you're ( still / again / whatever ) interested in writing with me, i'd really appreciate it ! it'd let me know where to get started again ❤ i'm mainly looking for threads over meme replies, although the threads don't have to be lengthy or involved per se. inbox things just aren't doing it for me.

MUSES

UNDER RECONSIDERATION : KHIONIYA / TSARITSA ( open to all )

I wanna keep her, but I've gotta rewrite her. I've been going on pure wishfulfilment MommyTM vibes, but we need a bit more canon accuracy lmfao. Goddess/Archon of Love, yes, but I ought not ignore that she has become like a reversed tarot card :joy:

SCRAPPED : ALHAITHAM

I should be feeling this criminally autistic nerd, but I'm not. Maybe I will some day. I'm leaving him be for right now.

SCRAPPED : CAPITANO

't isn't happening. i'm not... doing what i wanna be doing with him & i also don't care so fwhoop that one's going.

ADDED : WRIOTHESLEY

No-one's surprised. Daddy came home with the milk the moment I called for him, & uh. As soon as I actually fucking play the Fontaine quests I'm sure I'll pick him up. ( I accidentally spoilered myself on his tragicTM backstory & on god this man is a king. ) ( If I fall sideways into neuvilette instead nobody laugh at me. )

KEPT : DOTTORE ( semi-selectively open to all - he's picky & that limits my options ) REGRATOR ( for select fatui threads unless smth Happens ) TARTAGLIA ( open to all ) KAEYA ( open to all ) DILUC ( open to all )

THREADS & DYNAMICS

Obviously I understand if we're not on the same page about carrying on where we left off, no hard feelings. We can start over, pick something new, slap new muses together, or do nothing it all. Issal GucciTM.

LIKE I NEVER LEFT LOL :

I'd love to pick back up where I left off with @galactia, on any & all muses, their dynamics, & also threads c:

The same goes for @bunnyshot, although I see you haven't been online in ages! Regardless, if we're ever on the timeline at the same time again you know I am down to clown. This includes your other muses.

@torrentide HOMIE. HOMIE. HOMIE. HOME BREWSKI. i am down for everything from before & more, idc what.

If @greedbent is still down to clown, I'd love to carry on with what we were brainstorming in the DMs.

Same to you, @howthesleeplesswander!! I see you writing in another fandom on the dash atm, so I get it if you're not in the vibes for what we were brainstorming in the DMs, but I'm still hype to write with you if the mood strikes you. Lmk if you're down :thumbsup: ❤

@xiielians You know idek wtf you're doing right now bc much as the dramatic chinese gaylords captivate me, I haven't indulged in the fandom + I'm waiting patiently on that novel of yours with eyes peeled—but if you wanna play with anything ( whether I know the fandom/char or not ), I'm sure I'll be game!!

@ncrthlandbank I'd love to continue what we were doing with vlad & alyos ❤ if you're down! The thread where regrator terrorizes vlad is one of my alltime faves & still lives rent-free in my head :weary: it's the only time i did him any type of justice & your no-longer-non-playable-characters are awesome.

REBOOT :

Here go all of my moots with who i never fully settled anything ( dynamic / muse / thread-wise ), but was vaguely interacting with on the dash here & there... I am down to clown with all of you, I'd love to start something be it serious or silly. Whether you wanna continue vaguely doing things here & there or you wanna plot something out, idgaf I am so down to clown i am . the whole circus. vamos lmao.

[forlix]

hiii, it’s me again, 🪷 anonnie

I’m so glad you liked the song! I love giving song recs, and music and lit are so intertwined in my brain so I’m thinking of the two together all the time.

now… onto ‘empty my mind’… spoilers below:

SO GOOD 😭🫠

idek what this trope is called but I love when one characters is soo devoted and desperate to do anything for their lover. like, just give everything up completely and do anything for them. and I love it even more when the target of their affection is immediately aware of this dynamic and feels so protective instead of, like, taking advantage of it? which for sure you can see jisung assumes will eventually happen, and he feels like he deserves to be used and dropped. but reader treats him so well like ‘no, you’re not a bad person you’re literally just a human existing. you’re doing your best baby’ like UGH! SO GOOD!

and then they actually talk at the end and get that closure? like jisung feels safe enough to open up and reader understands him completely. and this silent reassurance that is fully being vocalized really convinces jisung that he does deserve to be loved. and like, he believes he’s being fixed too which is so much development. going from ‘I’ll do whatever you want, I feel like nothing so I’ll be thankful for anything you give me’ to ‘I’ll do whatever you want, because you make me feel like something’. also there is so much care put into the metaphor of the ghosts that manifest in his nightmares representing his mental health that I can’t get into it because I will literally CRY! how reader handles his mental state so tenderly just wrecks me 💗

also, love the scenes with felix and the other members. especially when jisung and reader leave the study group. I imagined felix thinking ‘yes, she can fix him’ the whole time he’s trying to bring them together. and I loved the smut, car sex is always sexy. not to mention how intent jisung is on convincing reader that he’s not gonna leave, and then later during the storm she assures him that she wants him to stay. like YES HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT YOU WANT HIM FOR MORE THAN JUST SEX

sorry for the short essay but I really wanted to say it all. I think next time I will just dm you but I’m very shy about interacting with people 👉🏻👈🏻 anywayyy, byye, take care 🫶🏻

hello my light, my love, my lotus anon, pls accept my apology for replying to this so late i wanted to store it in my inbox until it finally sank in that it's REAL and you're real bc what the fuck. i can't believe u took the time to analyze "empty my mind" so deeply and so richly i wept reading this the first time and i'm weeping AGAIN typing this out. thank you, thank you, thank you

re: the connections between music and literature, you're SO real for that. for most of my writings (except for the drabbles), i include lil playlists in the description so y'all can listen to the songs i derived inspiration from while writing :') i would be so curious to know your thoughts on the ones i chose for "empty my mind"! or if u made any associations yourself 🎤 lmk my lyrical genius

and i seriously fell over myself reading your interpretation of their relationship because that's EXACTLY what i was going for, like, for real, you hit every single point and articulated it so much better than i could if i tried. i loved all of what you said, but especially the part where the reader embraces rather than takes advantage of him. i like to think he got the sense he could trust her from the moment they met, so he very cautiously continued to give himself to her bit by bit as they grew closer even though he was deathly afraid of doing so. and it was all worth it in the end bc she's wonderful for him and wonderful in general (can u tell i love my mcs)

and it's so interesting that you used the word "fixed." i had to tread carefully around their dynamic, in part because i didn't want it to seem like she was hoping to change anything about him (or yk those memes that are like "i can fix him" and it's about the most toxic person in the world? yeah that was not her thought process). the core of their love, the reason why they work, is because she doesn't see anything that has to be changed in the first place. he is fucking perfect to her as he comes. so i love the way you described it: it's him who wants to change, not for her but because of her, thanks to her, because she reminds him that he can.

taking an intermission to fangirl over you bc

going from ‘I’ll do whatever you want, I feel like nothing so I’ll be thankful for anything you give me’ to ‘I’ll do whatever you want, because you make me feel like something’

the way you PHRASED THIS HOLY FUCK. A BILLION TIMES YES. you picked up on their very essence and i'm pressing consensual kisses to your mind because you read them (and me) like an open book

ALSO!! ABOUT FELIX OMG. you're so right, ofc our wonderful, emotional, observant lix can see the clouds perpetually hanging over ji's head and knows mc will be able to help him scatter them. my fav matchmaker

NEVER, EVER apologize for sending me an essay my star. you genuinely have no idea how happy your ask made me like it's not an exaggeration to say my heart is floating within me rn. that you took apart my fic so tenderly and so perceptively not only enforced my love for writing as a whole but strengthened it manifold. i don't even have the words to thank you as vehemently as i want to but just know i'll be safekeeping your words for a very long time to come 🤍

i treasure you so fucking much. THANK YOU.

[literaticat]

Hi Jenn. I've been looking into how an author should respond if they get an offer. What are the different ways an author should respond to offers from the following: 1. an agent, 2. a publisher with an advance an agent likely might be interested in (such as a Big 5 or a medium-sized publisher), 3. and a small press without an advance? I've heard you should never accept the offer outright - but otherwise, the advice seems more scattered. So am I right in thinking for 1. you thank them, ask for a week or 10-14 days and let all other agents know, 2. you thank them (but don't accept) then immediately let agents know, and 3. you thank them and then ask for a contract to review (straight away or later on?) and notify other publishers (if applicable) and agents if you want (but expecting they likely won't be interested in most cases). Is that the standard protocol for those three things? Did I miss anything? Or is any of that advice not correct?

yep - you let other the other agents who have the material know you have an agent offer, just in case they also want to offer. Please don't start querying NEW agents at this stage.

yep - you thank them and say "I'm actually in the midst of my agent search, I'll get back to you [x-time]" - then tell agents you have queried that you have an offer.

I don't actually know about that "asking for the contract" business -- I have never been in that position, obvs, or even adjacent to that position. I do get A LOT of questions about no-advance-giving small presses on here (why? when y'all have to know that's not my area of expertise???) -- and they are always talking about "asking for a contract to review" and -- OK? If you say so? That's just not the order of things with traditional publishers.

So I have said this MANY TIMES, but when I, an agent, get an offer from a publisher, we have a deal memo with the terms of the offer (territory, advance, royalty, sub rights splits, bonuses, etc) -- we haggle to improve that -- and then when the deal memo is to our liking, assuming no other offers, we accept. Yay! Then, some days weeks or months later, I get a draft of the contract, which contains all the points from that deal memo we negotiated for this book, plus many pages of other language which my agency has previously negotiated. And here I'm checking to make sure it's all what we agreed to and that nothing new or weird has been inserted etc etc. It would be very rare to walk at this stage (it has happened, if there's something dramatic about the contract that they simply refuse to change -- but that is RARE).

My point is -- I have never asked to see a contract at the time of the offer or ahead of accepting an offer. And because I don't work with the extremely small publishers you guys are always asking me questions about for some reason, I have no idea if that is normal or not. To me, it sounds weird -- but enough of you have asked me questions about it that IDEK, maybe it is normal??? Go ask Absolute Write about small presses please! <3

[searchingfortheuniverse]

Miscellaneous Tag Game (pt. ii)

Tysm for tagging me @onehelluvamarine xxx

A band you don’t like that many others do: Uhhh I can't think of anything at the moment. I'm positive there is one but I cannot for the life of me think of one right now

A childhood memory that you remember vividly: So when I was. I want to say like 5? We went on a big family holiday to France and we stayed in this holiday home on a farm, and instead of getting a bedroom I actually slept on this little bed on a semi-landing thing, and I remember being in that bed and falling asleep with the rest of my family still chatting downstairs

Least favorite animal and why: The only thing coming to mind is spiders. Not little ones, they're fine, and not tarantulas either. But big house spiders. Because I have encountered them in too many places they Should Not Be

Hot fandom take: Umm idek. I guess maybe that crossover pairings need to stop being automatically considered crackships? Like, unless you're hitting me with that Impala/TARDIS shit or something, it might just be a regular old crossover rarepair ship imho

Do you wear any jewelry, if so, what’s your favorite piece: I basically always have a necklace and a ring on, and I love them both but the necklace is definitely my favourite. It's Thor's hammer, and it was a Christmas present

A movie others liked but you didn’t: The Dark Knight. Excellent performances but I just didn't really vibe with the Nolan Batman movies even though I really wanted to because I watched them at the height of my DC phase

Three things you love about yourself: My humour (I'm a pun master to the extent that some of my colleagues still bring up a joke I made when I started about 6 months ago), my hair, and the way I taught myself to paint my own nails and now they basically always look cool and interesting

A place you hope to visit in the future and why: As just a holiday: Crete because it's got some fascinating history. As a place specifically to visit people: if you're reading this and you know, you know >:)

An actor that gets on your nerves and why: If I ever meet Kevin Bacon it is ON SIGHT. I've never seen him in anything but X-Men but he's been in EE ads for so long he's driven me up the wall and I can't look at him any more

Things you’re excited for in the nearby future? I have a week off next week! Thank GOD

Least favorite ship in a fandom you’re in: I've said it on this blog before so I'm hoping I'm not going to get mobbed for it but. Sledgefu. As I've said before I get it but I Do Not Vibe. Glad y'all are having a good time though!

What’s the most toxic fandom you’ve been in? I can't name it because it's tiny and this'll end up somewhere they'll find it. They were entitled and had a whole superiority complex going on. Last I heard they were STILL hung up on something that happened three years ago where they had beef with someone from another related fandom which blew up into a whole thing

List three things you find beautiful about life: My family, I'm so so lucky to have them and they're always so supportive. My friends, and the fact that I can have good friends who are so important in my life when they're so far away from me. And creating things generally, whether I'm doing it or someone else is, and making something that means something in some way

Any dreams for the future? Current, very mundane dream is to get a job that, even if it's not my biggest passion and I love doing it all the time, doesn't make me dread going in every day

How are you really feeling today? Uhh. Worn out. Kinda ill in a very general way. Seasonal depression is kicking my ass. But I managed to do a couple of important chores today so feeling good about that!

Tags: if you feel like it, then @bruin-coll, @noodleblade, @thesunlikehoney, @paperbrds, @hopefulsapphic and @sumquiasum!

[viktors-still-beating-heart]

Uh content warning ig for me talking about really gross mould n probably tmi ED kinda stuff idk but it's nasty,,

DUDE. From my room I removed some mouldy dishes + some rubbish bc I'm moving out and I needed to remove them finally before my family tidy it while I'm gone.

It's rlly bad and the disgusting result of me struggling to tidy + bingeing + purging. Most of the time I find it hard to keep on top of clearing the dishes from my room since I eat and drink up there fairly often.

Occasionally I've left dishes for too long and they start to grow mould, if it's not too bad I'll do an intensive bleach-y clean on them while my family is out (idk if this is safe uh) or if it's real bad I'll just chuck them out. Also sometimes when I leave dishes it's because I've binged and I feel too ashamed to bring down the mass of post-binge dishes in front of my family, I don't want them to be concerned and I feel so gross for bingeing.

Also some of the time when I have binged I'll purge, and there's been a few times where I've just regurgitated the food back into the dish I'd eaten it out of (I'm so sorry, I need to vent this, good lord). Idek why I do this bc the toilet is so close and it just makes the tidying/leaving dishes issue so much worse bc I can't exactly bring down a fucking bowl of saliva and bile and food mush down to wash in front of my family.

It's always so bad and stupid, I can deal with it but still the mould really (I think understandably) freaks me out and it's just drenched in shame and asjfgkhdgfhj it's not fun and it's my fault entirely. It is interesting to see the different types of food mould tho lol, especially when it's purged stuff it reallyy makes mould thrive, delightful.

Anyway fucking I was throwing everything into a bin bag and I moved a box that was under my bed bc it had some broken mugs inside it that I hid but wanna try to repair. No big deal, but I see another (whole) mug that was hidden behind the box. Huh that's not good, idk why I hid that but it's almost definitely got mould in it. I put the box down and took a proper look at the mug.

What the fuck. Let me tell you that that thing was housing some godforsaken, unholy, horrifying entity. This absolute creature was like a fucking demon slowly creeping out and growing under my bed over an untold period of time, I'm so glad that it wasn't touching anything except its ceramic home. It had these long, glossy, black hairs all fountaining out and hanging over the edge of the mug. A deeply unsettling fungal wig spilling out, slithering out. Some of the hairs had small beads on them, and they were all growing out of this mysterious greyish mound at the bottom of the mug. Awful. This fungus has come from the deepest depths of hell and risen as a spectre to haunt me for my disordered wrongdoings.

Truly, what the fuck. At 5.30am I sealed its demonic body and soul into that bin bag and snuck through the house, out the back door, and across the gravel and wet grass to banish it into the bin. Thankfully I managed to get back inside into my room without my family waking up. I am relieved but shaken, holy shit lmao.

It's all good now ig and honestly pretty funny overall, quite an experience - typical ED shenanigans. I doubt any of y'all will be bothered to read this wall of text but goddamn, I just needed to write it all out somewhere. Hopefully the writing is alright bc I'm quite sleep deprived. Mental illness is cool. What even are eating disorders lmao, this is horrible. Hello if you read this, I hope it was worth it and not upsettingly nasty.

[shslpunkartist99]

Hello I was the anon who sent in that angy long ask earlier today and I'd like to apologize once again. I said it already but I LOVE THIS. Always did love whenever folks put a little bit of drama and conflict in their stories. Makes it more nice and interesting imo, and I wish more folks would be willing to do this more- not that I'm really complaining here. I do really enjoy my fluffy sweet wholesome fics~! But sometimes I'll be craving for that bit of drama/conflict/etc and will be searching for a good story with it.

BUT ANYWAY sorry again for that. I love what was going on but I was also zooted up and running on very little sleep, which pretty made all the emotions I felt from reading that stronger than usual? Eh idek. All I know is that I felt more strongly about it than I do now. I mean, well, still strong, but more in a "goddamm this is making me emotional and I love it" rather than a "this is making me emotional and I love it so much BUT I ALSO WANT TO FIGHT" if that makes any sense lmao

ANYWAY SORRY AGAIN FOR THAT LONG MESSAGE AND SORRY TO MAMACITA OREO, MAMACITA CHERRI, MAMACITA PAPI, AND PAPI KENO FOR GOING OFF LIKE THAT ON THEM. I STILL LOVE Y'ALL I SWEAR. JUST WAS REALLY ZOOTED UP AND VERY EMOTIONAL AND JUST WANNA FIGHT WITH LOVE-SORTA LMAO

Ahskaksnskn you're good! I get like that too for angst stuff that I'm not in charge of (I'll swing at anyone that hurts BF cuz that's my baby /lh)

But yeyeye I love adding drama, and if Kim's okay with it, I'll include Xeno whenever. Makes it fun~

[joanthangroff]

For the violence asks, in the arrowverse: 1, 7, 8, 9, 12, 16, 18, 19, 21, & 23

(I tried so hard to contain myself!)

thanks peachy!!!!

1. the character everyone gets wrong

MICK RORY. i think it's just difficult in general to actually catch all the nuances of his character. it's hard to keep him 3-dimensional!!! (i get him wrong constantly, too)

7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

lena luthor </3 she's super interesting and the BOMB but i just hate how obsessed fandom has become with her (especially in the sense that She Can Do No Wrong), at least from what i've seen, that i found myself avoiding the show's tag as well as possible

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

legends season 1 is good, actually.

9. worst part of canon

the treatment of female characters. (mostly on arrow and flash) (especially when they're not the main love interest. because then they just suffer, period. not even for manpain </3) also!!!! the way they just won't be consistent about how barry grew up at the wests' and what it meant for his character. you have those deepmoments between them with history sometimes and the next moment it's like they barely know each other. i can't put it into words, really

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

mon-el!!! imo he actually changed a lot and is a good example for character growth but y'all aren't ready for that. i think if the fandom didn't hate him as much he would've stayed around longer and we'd have seen that he actually grew as a person, too, and not just so kara would like him better.

16. you can’t understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

romantic eobarry???? i'm super interested in eobard's obsession with barry and wish we'd seen more about how it's come to be and stuff but i just can't see it be romantic. also barry being into eobard in return just seems wrong.

18. it’s absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on…

more unhinged AUs.

19. you’re mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like…

dunno. do i even have any shame about anything in this fandom?

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

once again, idk. idek what people hype.

23. ship you’ve unwillingly come around to

both the canon zari ships tbh. both nate and constantine came out of the left field for me but i ended up loving them with their respective zaris :)

[cuppa-ale]

I don't really know what to say or do that isn't already being said and done. I can only say that I deeply wish that I wasn't such a coward for so long, and that I stood up for myself instead of seeking the approval of people who turned out to be bullies and abusers like I feared, and should have listened to that fear instead of feeling guilty and blaming myself for feeling that way.

There's so much I could say but I don't want it to be in bad taste.

All I can say is that if you think “proship/anti” discourse is stupid, that’s because IT IS. It’s fucking stupid and shouldn’t exist. But the reason so many of us DO take it seriously is because fantis/anti-shippers take it very seriously.

Antis take it so seriously, in fact, that they see it fit to stalk, doxx, harass and ruin a person’s life over what ships or art they like/create.

They take it so seriously that they would rather someone be harmed or killed rather than dare to enjoy dark, taboo or uncomfortable fiction.

The absurdity of all this is what makes it so terrifying.

There will never be an excuse for spreading someone's personal art around to slander them in a dangerous climate, and there is nothing wrong with liking kinky and taboo and weird art if it's not targeting anyone. Likewise, there is nothing wrong with liking any and all ships. (yes, even whichever ones you're thinking of right now.)

Especially, especially when that was done with the intent of getting someone denied from work and falsely accused of being "dangerous" over their personal cartoon drawings. Especially when it was done by jealous ex-friends who already had a bone to pick. Especially when the person they targeted was disabled with chronic health issues, and had their healthcare tied to their employment.

Like. idk what to say bc it's not about me, and all of this is bigger than me. I could go on and on about "what could I have said back in the day that would've stopped some of this?" but idek. I didn't even know about all this until after the fact, but holy fuck.

All I want to say to the people who hurt those they call “friends” over fiction is this:

You are the mean nerds that you claimed to hate, while pretending to be “cool and chill jocks.”

You are the bullies that you couldn't be in middle school when you got picked on for having "weird" interests.

You are bullies and bootlickers wearing a rainbow hat, and I’m not afraid of you anymore.

Actually, calling you "bullies" is too generous- at least some bullies grow up and move on. But y'all never do. You never did. You fell for r/adfem rhetoric and anti-kink rhetoric and gladly marched someone to their grave because of your own disgust and discomfort- to protect your own image from the jackals who you pandered to- to assuage your own egos and petty grievances- to project your traumas onto someone who had nothing to do with it- and whatever the fuck else y'all think was justification enough.

All I am now is angry, and sad, and I don’t know what I can do or what I could’ve done that would make anything better.

If i seem reclusive or stand-offish, a lot of it was in part due to the fear and anxiety I took away from seeing this behavior play out for years and convincing myself that it was "normal" and that I should doubt my own judgement, and now I find it hard to trust or form connections w/ most people because I'm afraid of going through the same things. I just feel so fucking stupid.

[eunoiaastralwings]

To be entirely honesty with y'all – I expected this xD

Because ik my ocs do not bring anything to the table and they are way of the league of with any other Tolkien oc here. Tbh really am like wondering why the world are people I roleplay with – actually want to rp with me?! Not only that but ship my oc with theirs?

Am stil wondering about deleting them too – since they do pick up interest and honestly I do not blame ye for thinking so. Because in honest truth yes, each of my ocs are absolutely fucking dull. Sometimes – I do hate having brought them out because now I want to love them and show them off. . . But idk lately, they are just. . .idek.

Ik my mutuals and friends are going to come at me like no you actually like them – y'all. . .you know it is OK not the like something, right? We all have different likes and dislikes, you do not have to like my ocs just because we are mutuals/friends – I rather you be honest with me please. I will not be hurt if you dislike them – am hurt when you are lying to me 😢.

I am terribly imitating you cannot be honest with me? 🤣🤣

Thing thing these polls are here and they are anonymous. Thank you for everyone who voted and was being honest 💝💝

[lallemxnt]

who’s up for the second chapter of twisted for you?

[bylertruther]

with the way that some of you talk about will you'd expect every other scene of his to be a suicide attempt, for there to be scenes of him talking about lonnie negatively or at-fucking-all, for there to be scenes where we can see this supposed disgust or hatred for his sexuality, for him to have been the one that said "what did you think really? that we were never going to get girlfriends and stay in my basement playing games for the rest of our lives?" and "it's not my fault you don't like girls!" and "we're friends! we're. friends.", for him to have been the one to make fun of mike's campaign, for him to have been the one to ditch his interests to be Cool and Grown, for him to be the one with the family that doesn't give a rat's ass about him, for him to be the one in a relationship with someone he doesn't love because he doesn't want to face the truth, for him to be the one that can't ever talk about his feelings or let himself feel them, for him to be the one avoiding love, for him to be the one that went through a depression and grief arc, for him to be the one that is shown to not be okay even when there's no supernatural fuckshit going on, for him to be the one isolating himself from his loved ones, and so on and so forth cutting this post short now even tho i could 100% go on and keep rattling off the Actually depressing shit tht you guys keep stealing from other characters on this show and trying to pin on him. but anyway ....