#id get screamed at and physically/verbally bullied. so now when i cry i instantly start having a panic attack bc my body thinks were gonna
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I don't wanna go to work and face The Horrors again tonight.
#every fuckin time i go into work. something activated my fight or flight/the rupe goldberg machine that is my panic response#unironically wish i was incapabale of crying. if i could keep from crying then id be fine#or at least better. getting caught crying or visibly sad was just asking for an assbeating/all my belongings destroyed growing up#id get screamed at and physically/verbally bullied. so now when i cry i instantly start having a panic attack bc my body thinks were gonna#get hurt#which makes me cry EVEN MORE and just becomes a feedback loop#until i dissociate and go numb#and GUESS WHAT! thats not good when you work in healthcare and you have to take care of people and interact with others constantly!!! fuck!
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