#ia is like this man has severe clinical depression SPECIFICALLY

[definitelynotshouting]

Do you think that in the “Grian fesses up immediately” au, he would purposely. not eat or sleep or do things like that because he’d think he doesn’t deserve it

do you think that when or if anyone would try to messaging him, he would ignore it every single time just to cry about it later but never message back

do you think some of the hermits, cough coffh scar and mumbo, would repeatedly try to message him and text him and desperately try to get back into contact with him

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Obligatory tw for discussions of suicidal ideation

I think its a lot softer but more deeply aching tbh-- its less that he denies himself food and rest and more that he just. Stops being himself in favour of this empty shell going through the motions

I think he disconnects his comm from everyone, tbh, because why would they want to talk to him??? Why would he want the reminder??? He fucked up and now he has to pay the price. So Scar and Mumbo and any others who want him around just straight up cant reach him!!! He has effectively vanished like a ghost

Its part of why Iskall is so eager to reconnect with him when they accidentally meet. Grian's singleplayer is far from Hermitcraft, but Iskall travels a lot for VH, and they happened to meet in a server hub while looking for supplies not immediately available to them

for Grian, he sorta... assumed this would be his last stop into a hub. Period. But then Iskall saw him, and wanted to reconnect, wanted to hang out, and it stalls him in his tracks a bit, enough to put his own plans on hold for a while (but with the lingering sensation of waiting for himself to die as he does it. Thats a big part of this au too-- the waiting for yourself to die and then realizing you Arent, and suddenly having to grapple with the idea of a future again)

But yeah personally i think Grian's day to day is like. Mundane chores where he goes through the motions. Farming food he doesnt even need to eat. Taking care of limited livestock. Early to mid-game stuff. And the rest of the time he just kinda sleeps, because life is easier to face when he's unconscious for it. And he hasnt built anything more than a simple cottage in a long, long time