#i've been wanting to change my icon for the longest time

[nanihirunkits]

hi. i love your new icon. bye.

🥺👉🏻👈🏻💗

[thelunarfairy]

Any Tsukasa theories on Tsukasa’s emotions? Does he never get upset? Scared?

So have you stopped to think about this too? I know, I've been thinking about this for a long time.

Tsukasa, one of the most iconic characters I've ever met in my life, precisely because he doesn't show emotions or because he acts in a completely random and unpredictable way.

I like to separate Tsukasa into periods to try to understand him. We have the baby Tsukasa, the 12/13 year old Tsukasa, and the sealed Tsukasa, the yorishiro.

Baby Tsukasa is very kind and loving. He showed us all these basic feelings, happiness, sadness and….

maybe anger?

Baby Tsukasa initially seems ordinary, until the moment he talks to the thing inside him, but even then he is in disbelief that his brother killed him even though he sacrificed himself for him.

Tsukasa, aged 12/13, who is still alive, apparently seems to be kind and calm, at least in the images that were shown to us, we don't have much to say about him, he always seems to be melancholic and sad, I deduce this from his way of look at Amane or us.

And here we talk about Tsukasa with the seal, the one we've known the longest. The yorishiro. This Tsukasa is very difficult to read, because it seems like he alternates between being an ordinary, childish boy and between being cruel and merciless. As if the cruel part of him was completely related to the monster that merged with him.

But doesn't he cry? Doesn't he get angry?

We see him happy very often, even when things don't go the way he wants, he gets distracted easily and changes his mind very quickly.

Tsukasa with the seal doesn't seem to have emotions common to human beings, he is very contradictory, at one moment he hugs Hanako and at another he wants them to kill him.

Not even Hanako can understand Tsukasa, as he said.

Tsukasa with seal demonstrates nothing but joy and happiness, and there is no way of knowing whether this joy is true or false. He is chaos itself and that is very interesting!

The fact that the way he expresses his emotions has changed drastically made me think about the possibility that the yorishiro is just a representation of what his owner loves most and not the real thing, as in the case of Sumire and Hakubo.

I don't know if this is true, it's just my guess. He represents what Amane remembers of him, and if he doesn't understand him he becomes the chaotic one.

He loves Amane so his fear should be that he'll get hurt or be exorcised, but we know that's not what happens. At one point he almost slams Yashiro's face into the ground and at another moment he's kissing her.

Do you understand how controversial he is? And this contraversion happens because he doesn't show these feelings, how will we know what makes him feel angry if he doesn't show it? What makes him cry?

He's like a baby, he's happy with his toys and cries with rage when they don't do what he wants, but he doesn't care about anything much beyond that.

The Tsukasa with seal is still a mystery to me, but I'm still trying to unravel it, I'll talk more about it when more information arrives. :3

If you're interested, there's a post I made about Tsukasa and Amane's relationship, I talk more about Tsukasa's feelings towards his brother. You can click here.

[erebosblue]

welcome to: I never post but I kinda want to sum up how I feel about (616) Peter Parker.

so, like. I've tried to do this many times and always end up coming short of fully explaining myself because I have ✨𝓂𝒶𝓃𝓎 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈.✨

note: I have done an ass ton of research over my couple years of loving Spidey, but that does not mean I know everything. if something sounds wrong, it might be! I'm just a 17 year old idiot who got attached to an absolute mess of human being.

note #2: I am trying not to make this all about how much I dislike MCU Peter, but it will come up from time to time so just be aware of that.

first and foremost, I want to talk about comics as a whole. a lot of choices around characters have less to do with what a character would actually do and more what a writer wants or general comic/societal culture at the time. every character will be different depending on the writer and you're gonna make your own interpretation of a character from what you like. that doesn't mean certain things can't be out of character, just that a comic character can vary quite a bit depending on the person. that's part of the fun of comics tbh.

what I'm trying to say is that if my character analysis doesn't feel like it's what you read, it very well might not be and that's okay. Peter is a character that's been around since the 60's. he's developed over time and will continue to as time goes on. like, for instance, how he's changed from a high school kid trying to get by to a mid-to late twenties mentor for Miles (1610) and Gwen (65).

alright onto more interesting points. and actually a kinda heavily debated topic. whether Peter is a naturally good person or not. mainly this is just about his origin and how he really just straight did not care. honestly, part of the reason I really like how the comics did his origin is that he's not an self-absorbed prick. (even though it would be reasonable if he was considering he was 15.) he's more,,, jaded.

Peter was a social outcast his whole life. he didn't make any sort of friend until Freshman year. he's also super traumatized. his parents' death is kinda over-looked a lot, but it was shown that it really set in action his fear about everyone around him dying that has only gotten worse from, well, just that happening. he's shown in younger years to help people, and even in Freshman year he puts his safety on the line to make sure his bullies don't get stabbed by his friend, but he also kinda just,,, doesn't care.

personally, I really like characters that are inherently good people, but are limited by trauma making them apathetic. (ahem me with a male P3 protag icon.) not all trauma responses are loud or easy to fix. it's totally reasonable for Peter to close himself off from a world that has only been cruel to him, but the fact that moves past this? yes, it took a tragedy, but sometimes you need something big happening to realize.

Peter is inherently a good person, but he's also,,, short-sighted at times. he can royally fuck up because he was trying to do the right thing and just really missed the mark. but I honestly thinks this makes him more likable. intent doesn't change the affect, but if you're a vigilante, you're gonna fuck up from time to time. he's always been a hero grounded in reality and I don't think that makes him any less of a good person.

speaking of trauma, the fact that he hated working with other heroes for the longest time is mwah chef's kiss. mans did not make a real friend until college so, like, of course he's gonna have problems trusting other heroes. (especially since most heroes have tried to kill him but that's neither here nor there.)

this is one of the times I will be ragging on MCU Peter so skip to the next paragraph if you don't want that. there are many reasons not to like MCU Peter wanting to be an Avenger so goddamn bad, but one of the ones that irk me so much is the fact that it just gets rid of so much character development. 616 Peter had to learn how to trust heroes, to trust people, with something as serious as his life after being tormented by basically everyone that wasn't his caretakers. he now works with heroes just fine but like??? it's been a long ass time you can't just skip all that.

anyway, moving on. another thing I just fucking love about 616 Peter is how he is just a ball of fucking rage. this is basically never explored outside of 616 but it is genuinely one of my favorite parts of the comics. this man has been put through so many things and he is just so. done. like the canonical reason why him having Venom is a bad idea is because Venom specifically will go feral when their host is pissed and Peter is, to state again, a ball of rage.

like, yes, sometimes he doesn't kill because ✨moral compass✨ but more recently a lot of the times he hasn't is because The Giant Web That Holds The Entire Multiverse Together Said No.™️ I could make a whole post about how much I adore Spider-Totem stuff, and I just might, but my point is Peter is just done with shit and life in general and I love it.

this is so rambly and not gonna go over everything I want it to, but I'm gonna get powering on until I have to go to bed.

I also genuinely love how even though they will never come out and say Peter is any sort of queer of way, he is so queer-coded. his relationship with many of his male friends is fruity as FUCK and Peter straight wore a crop top with the word animal across it and booty shorts. (if you've never seen it, let me treat you.)

this hasn't even covered half of what I know I want to cover so let me speedrun some points before I literally pass out.

Peter "I'm partial to clones" Parker and his relationship with Kaine and Ben is my favorite relationship dynamic (/p) in all of 616. the fact that they are just absolute bastards to each other but only they are allowed to be. no one else can touch the others.

Peter's closest hero friendships being Daredevil, Wolverine, Johnny Storm (I can't remember his hero name right now I think I'm officially losing it,) and Deadpool is so fucking good. he just loves someone that he can argue with and that is also my ideal friendship. just absolutely besties and fuck with each other but will absolutely kill for each other.

I love Peter being a teacher and/or mentor SO MUCH. please I need more of it, no one appreciates how good of a teacher he is and it's mean. :(

his guilt. man as someone with an awful guilt complex I just,, adore his so much. the way that every other character is like "woah dude chill" is just so fucking funny to me as he mentally just shuts down because oh god how dare he not be perfect.

unrelated but the fact that Miles can tell the difference between how Peter and Ben talk is literally one of my favorite facts. like that says two things.

Miles knows Peter so well that he knows the way he talks and

Peter and Ben have become such different people that they talk with different speech patterns and/or in different tones of voice.

personally, I headcanon that Ben rambles more and talks in a higher register but kyldktdoy this is off topic- (I should make a Ben post too.)

okay, I'm delirious, the point is: Peter is a really interesting and good character and I love him so much. I personally resonate a lot with how he handles trauma and I think it's well done. but stldykd that's just me.

I'll add on later because I know I have more to say.

[romaine2424]

Daily Blog June 25, 2023

I've changed my icon. Summer is here this week in the PNW. Usually it doesn't show up until July. Summer in the Seattle area almost makes up for the rest of the year. :) Today's blog will be short but oh so rich in what I'm going to cover. It's a Darry Rec!

What I'm reading:

@drarryspecificrecs, the amazing resource for all Drarry fans, posts an end of month wrap up of the longest Drarry fics posted on AO3 for the month. Here's the link for May 2023. The third one on their caught my eye. Symptom of Your Touch (115K) by @ghostofnoir. Now if you read the notes on this fic or go to her AO3 profile, you'll see that this is her first fic. Holy fuck, what an entrance!

Here's the summary:

St. Mungo's Healer Draco Malfoy is used to being pushed to his limits when providing aide to the ailing, but when an unexpected encounter with an out of character Harry Potter throws his life out of balance one night, he is forced to ask himself how far he's willing to push his own levels of discomfort to be of aid to a man in need of help that only he can provide. And once that need for aid is over, how will he find balance in his life again?

Here's a bit more from me:

12-13 years after the war, Draco is now a top Healer. He's single and trying to make his way through life though being a former Death Eater sets up many barriers. He's got a nice flat with a unique potions lab, a cranky owl, and a life. He's always had a thing for Harry but never did anything about it. Just it was out there and he rarely saw the guy. And when he did Harry was still snarly to him. Harry is a curse-breaker trained by Bill. Then someone spikes Harry's drink with a strong lust potion and Harry shows up at Draco's office wanting him. Draco has to treat him but also knows everything sweet Harry says to him and his longing to touch him is because of the potion and it will all change when the antidote potion is brewed. It's Draco POV and it's so good and so hot.

The characterization of Draco in this fic is so well done. You’re cheering for him and Harry, but also knowing trouble is brewing. Harry has been a jerk to Draco whenever they've crossed paths over the years, which hasn't been many. You will be pissed off at him for a long time, but slowly you feel for him, too, when his side is revealed in bits and pieces. So here's our poor Draco trying to not to give into Harry both because of his position as his Healer and because he knows Harry will break him apart in the end. So not only are you rooting for Drarry to happen, you're also rooting for Draco to succeed in his life with or without Harry. Here's some of the delicious lines revealing Draco's feelings and reactions:

Hermione might have called Draco out recently over his feelings for the man, but Pansy had seen through them at eighteen. She had tried to call him out back then, and when denying it didn’t work, he had told her he couldn’t talk about it. Talking about it out loud made it seem like he thought it might happen. He never thought it would back then, and he still didn’t now. It had just been a silly crush that grew into something he had to find ways to push to the side. The few occasions after, when she had tried to bring it up again, he would always shut her down. And the times they had run into Harry while they were out, he always knew what she was thinking. When he finally made eye contact with her, he gave a small shake of his head at her spoken, and unspoken, question. What was there to say anyway? No, he wasn’t okay. Yes, this was fucking with his head — and could they just pretend it wasn’t and that he could handle it. He didn’t have a choice. Harry needed him. She nodded in quiet understanding and turned to Ginny, letting it drop for now.

And my fav:

"I really want to kiss you,” Harry whispered. Replay those words in a pensieve and Draco would drown in it.

One final thing about this fic, the sexual tension and scenes are something else. And I mean that in the hottest of ways.

One of the many joys in fandom as both a reader and writer is when a new author or artist joins in with such high quality material. I believe we're going to be enjoying this author's works for quite a few years. So go read this fic and give it lots of love.

Symptom of Your Touch on AO3 by NoxNoir

[marezablr]

for the fic asks, 30 39 and 41 !

30. Have you ever written something that was out of your comfort zone? If so, what was it, and how did it affect your approach to writing fic thereafter?

yes! i don't do it with every fic, but i often try to do something new when i write something so i can test out new skills.

"one three four three four zero": longest fic i'd ever written. i wanted to see if i could write a long fic at all. it gave me the confidence to go forward and try more long fics and helped me understand what i need for a long fic.

"forest fires": i had to pare down my writing for the zine word count. it helped me learn to cut the fluff/kill sentences that i like but that slow the story down.

"good loser": the first time i did outlining for a proper long fic. this has made the biggest change to my writing process in years. i am now obsessed with outlining! i still frequently shout at my beta while working, "outlining is so good??? how did i go so long without this???" what i learned from "good loser" has given me skills and habits that i know will help carry me through future work.

"per ardua": the first time really dedicating myself to trying to structure a bit of an action/mystery story. it gave me new skills to work with in terms of seeding information (eg learning when NOT to give exposition) and twists, how i can make descriptions more interesting to myself, how to pace action. i've been trying to use some of those skills to help with the more psychological pieces i'm working on now, and also to help with a body language/facial expression writing exercise i'm doing right now to develop my skills in those areas.

39. Is any aspect of your writing process inspired by other writers or people? If so, who?

i've done a lot of reading on writing over the years. one of the books i read really early on, like truly ages ago, was stephen king's "on writing." i had not ever read a single stephen king book, or watched any of the movies based on his books, and i probably never will (except maybe the dark tower?), but i read that book. and the thing i really remember out of that book was this:

stephen king talked about having an ideal reader. he said, if you write to everyone, you're not writing to anyone. you'll be paralyzed with doubt and fall into generalities. you need an ideal reader, one person you're writing to who you really want to understand the story. that will focus your writing.

i've tried to take that idea with me in my writing. i do my best writing, i find, when there is one person i'm focusing on writing to, one person i share the story with and get excited about it with and try to get certain reactions out of. i write lines and think, 'i hope this line will really hit for this person.' it gives me a clarity and focus that helps me block out the noise of wanting to make things more broadly appealing.

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

early in fe3h, i started reading metallic_sweet's fics, specifically the vicious calm and war dog. i was so fascinated by the style that i tried to do my own spin on it in "network effects." m_s remains an icon to me in having such a distinctive style.

[filteredrays]

so one of my goals for this year is to Actually Finish Video Games and in service of that i think it's a good idea to write down what i'm currently playing, what i'm planning on playing, and what i've dropped (if anything) once a month just so i can keep track of it all so here we goooooooooo

Currently Playing

FINAL FANTASY VII (1997)

honestly i've been trying to finish this one for a long ass time-- it's an iconic video game and i'm one of those freaks that actually likes turn-based (or, in this case, pseudo turn based) combat (hi f/go) and i personally want to see where the plot actually goes before i dive into the remake and such. currently just past Kalm. using The Reunion retranslation patch as well as a couple of other mods to make the game actually play at a decently modern standard! widescreen! 60fps battles! it's nice. here's cowgirl tifa and sephiroth walking like he just shat himself.

Planning to Play

Elden Ring (2022)

while i did technically start this game, i haven't gotten very far and i don't think that's going to change much for a little while. yes i'm putting the biggest game of last year on the backburner for the biggest game from literally 25 years ago, sue me. i'm also not that good at soulslikes so this is probably going to be the biggest challenge and the one that takes me the longest, even though the next two entries are literally visual novels.

Mahoutsukai no Yoru (2022)

waiting for physical copy to come in so i can actually read it. haven't read a visual novel since i did the MM translation of the fate route of fate/stay night, and i'm interested in seeing what mahoyo has to offer, being the type moon nut that i'm slowly becoming. as excited as i am to rip into this one, there's one other visual novel that i'm planning on reading this year, one i've been meaning to read for a long, long time....

Umineko no Naku Koro Ni (2007-2010)

people have literally been telling me to read this since the witch-hunt translations finished up way back when, but this will be the year. 2023 will be the year i finally read umineko. i've kind of intentionally not spoiled anything of it for myself, somehow, and i plan on keeping it that way, but it's hard not to be aware of the golden bitch i mean witch at this point. i've had the game on steam for a while and will finally pull it out of the backlog at some point after mahoyo.

FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE INTERGRADE (2021)

the same game on here twice, waow. as troublesome as modern square enix is, i played through the bombing mission in this twice already and was enthralled pretty thoroughly both times. having a Vague Gist of what happens in ffvii and knowing that there's potential for this remake to suffer from Tetsuya Nomura Syndrome makes me wary, but i'm interested in seeing what the plot of this one actually winds up being, even if it winds up sucking shit and tarnishing whatever reputation ffvii has left at this point.

of course there's gonna be some mindless games to take the edge off and it's not like i'm going to abandon fate grand order at this point, i just Definitely want to get through at least these five games, maybe? this isn't even considering any games that are coming out this year, just the things that i've either played in the first couple days of the year or have been thinking about playing for a while now.

something about old video games has just been grabbing my attention this month, because i think roller coaster tycoon 2 is gonna be the game i play when i just need to turn my mind off and watch numbers go up. or down. probably down.

anyway i'll probably do this once a month or so, just to keep my thoughts more properly organized instead of just sloshing around in the primordial soup that is my brain. if you've read this far, thanks! hashtag mahoyosweep

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

ofmd fave game

was tagged by @biceratops7 a while ago and have been working on this on and off since then!!

fave ed gif

ok anything were ed's massive peepers are on display. the little huff and pout after stede tells him to stand down is maybe my favorite ed moment in the entire fucking show but i picked three different gifs bc i couldn't help myself:

fave stede gif

idk i don't go crazy of stede gifs the way i do ed gifs and also the tumblr gif search sucks. but this gif of stede having a Dom Moment in his pink robe and frilly nightgown is so personal to me:

fave stede outfit

i am a men's tit's appreciator first and a human being second

fave ed outfit

the full leather look absolutely gave me permanent brain damage but this look specifically makes me drool. first of all we can see both of ed's arms, which is always a plus (also symbolically letting his guard down?? showing off a different side of himself??? being more vulnerable??????). then there's the fact that the neck of this shirt is SO WIDE. lots of skin showing. 10/10. and the accessories, the gold chains (sexy) and THE CRAVAT HE STOLE FROM STEDE (hanging out with his old mate jack but wearing something that belongs to stede, almost like how his heart? belongs to stede??? maybe????). it's a sexy look and also represents how there's a LOT going on with ed. his character is developinnggg

fave blackbonnet song

ok big lame loser moment but i dont usually have blorbo daydreams to songs. my brain rarely makes those connections. i have seen a lot of ppl talking about their favorite blackbonnet songs but my brain mostly associates songs from the show itself with them.

i will say tho that my favorite song from the show to apply to blackbonnet and cry over is Perfect Day by Lou Reed. bc like:

you made me forget myself??? i thought i was someone else???? someone good?????? YOU JUST KEEP ME HANGING ON?????

OW?????

fave ofmd fic trope

reunions where they're in a screaming match or where stede is rambling and ed is being really cold and distant and in the middle of stede's dialogue he just drops the fact that he's in love with ed real casually like it's something ed already knows because he thinks it is and ed's brain just short-circuits because he did not know that and he can't even believe it like that just does not compute, what the hell, why is stede still talking what is he even saying nothing else fucking matters except he loves me he loves me he loves me stede loves me

ed or stede's hair

ed's hair no question. stede's curls are iconic but the long salt-and-pepper hair has life changing for me. and also for stede probably.

longest you've gone between rewatches

probably not much more than two months?? i don't keep track of my rewatches lol. i dont even know how many times i've watched this show. Many Times. i feel like im due for another one, actually!

hiding in the ship lucius vs ghost lucius

hiding in the ship pretending to be a ghost, obvi. giving ed ghost therapy. sneaking around the secret passages and haunting izzy.

fave revenge crew member

frenchie my best friend frenchie i would die for you

tagging people:

@wearfinethingsalltoowell @batsarebetterthanpeople @meanmisscharles and whoever wants to!!

[artistnotthemuse]

Dear Jack,

You're younger than what I was when I had my first break-up. I was 17, ready to head to university, and you were 15, ready to pick your high school subjects. It doesn't sound like a lot, but think about who you were 2 years ago - it's a considerable amount of time and change. You've always been mature, but maturity, I'm afraid counts for nothing when it comes to heartbreak. Heartbreak (and I'm not saying that every break-up equals heartbreak. As you so eloquently put it, 'shopping when you're hungry' doesn't mean things are serious or even a good idea) is an emotion, not a thought. Emotions we feel in our body and in that tight, empty space in our chest. We don't feel them in our brain, even if our brain generates them (in the amygdala. In case you were wondering).

I'm sure there are more qualified people out there than me to give relationship advice. I'm also definitively sure that if we take out all citizens of the world, and leave it to your immediate family, I'm a strong candidate for advice in this sphere. For one, I am happily engaged, and planning my wedding to the love of my life. For another, I don't harbour disappointment, grudges or the deep sense that the love I give will never be equally returned to me. One last advantage I have is the fact that this relationship feels like the least amount of active work I've ever had to put in. Please don't mistake this for 'no work' - all relationships take effort and sincere action - but I'm saying that some group projects are easier than others. And a long-term partner is really just one of the longest group projects of your life.

Deciding if a partner is the right for your most important group project - your life - is hard and something that you'll face, likely more than once. I read this recently in a book about marriage and commitment (One day, I'll lend you my copy of it. Right now, you've got bigger things to worry about, like real group projects):

"When I first started in the jewelry business," Felipe went on, "I used to get in trouble because I'd get too excited about the one or two perfect aquamarines in the (bulk) parcel, and I wouldn't pay as much attention to the junk they threw in there. After I got burned enough times, I finally got wise and learned this: You have to ignore the perfect gemstones. Don't even look at them twice because they're blinding. Just put them away and have a careful look at the really bad stones. Look at them for a long time, and then ask yourself honestly, 'Can I work with these? Can I make something out of this?'" - Committed, Elizabeth Gilbert (p.129)

Elizabeth Gilbert, the writer of the book this quote came from, is an icon in her own right, and one of my many, many writing celebrity-crushes. Everything she writes touches you deeply - in that tight chest cavity - as you read it. And while I've only had 3 relationships longer than six months (present one included), Liz has had strings of bad relationships (and has even been divorced. Side note: Divorce is no more a moral failing than deciding to change your job). Which, when you even out our experience and combined advice, gives you some decent odds of this being good advice.

When it comes to a partner, thinking about what you love and like about them is great - and it should be easy. If it's not easy to think about what you love, you're either dating the person out of boredom, settling or being abused (and life is far too short for either of the three). For the right person, spend time thinking about some of their worst qualities. The things that you want to wish away, the things that make your relationship challenging, the things that are just down right annoying or shameful. The conflicting beliefs. And ask yourself - Can I work with these? Can I make something out of this?

In my own relationship, these bad stones are occasional angry outbursts, minor rigidity and a sometimes too practical approach to everything. These stones I can work with. I can make an amazing life out of these stones.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #133

When did you last drink coffee? I've never truly drank coffee, just tried it a few times and thought it was disgusting each instance.

When did you last cry? And why, if you feel like sharing. Yesterday, a little bit. My sister posted something on Facebook that's happened at work over the past week or so, and it just warmed my fucking heart so much and reminded me yet again my sister is a real-life superhero, like very literally.

What was the last beach you visited and when? Carolina Beach, more than likely. Maaaaaaany years ago.

What book do you plan to read next? The next WoF book is Darkness of Dragons, the last book in this specific arc.

What fictional character/s remind you of yourself? Uh the first one that actually came to mind was Violet from The Incredibles haha, primarily as a teenager though. As I am now, I majorly relate to the character Clearsight in the WoF series, probably more than any other fictional character I've encountered. I resonate quite a bit with Kiara from TLK too, always wanting peace and to follow her heart no matter what.

What's in your fridge right now? List as many things as you can think of. Uh there's milk, yogurt, cheese, water, I'm sure lunch meat, lettuce and I think other veggies, condiments, etc. Our fridge is actually pretty full right now, definitely more than usual.

If you could have any artist, living or dead, paint your portrait, who would it be? Absolutely Nana Qi, much more popularly known as puffygator in online spaces. She makes THE cutest art I've ever seen absolutely anywhere, I am a ginormous fan of her work and I think if anyone has any chance of making me look even REMOTELY cute, it's her, haha. I basically BEG you to check her out.

Do you smell anything in particular right now? No.

Do you make enough money to live comfortably? [can be in combination with a spouse] I personally make zero money, so. My mom doesn't though, we're technically considered impoverished. We survive solely off her disability right now. I'm trying so damn hard to find a job so I can actually be financially useful.

What is one thing you like about your appearance? Don’t say nothing! I just like my hair, or at least how healthy it is and its general style. Not happy with the color right now, but.

What would you like to tell your father? I wish I saw you more. It's not just his fault, though.

What would you like to tell your mother? Thank you for absolutely everything you do to keep me safe, happy, and healthy.

Whose was the last wedding you went to? Bethany and Spencer's as the photographer.

What is your greatest fear? Living alone on the streets.

What is a chronic health issue you deal with, even if it’s minor? I think depression is the longest-lasting and the one that has most heavily affected my life.

What was your college major? If applicable. It changed between Game Design, Photography, Wildlife Biology, and then Art/Photography again.

What new place have you been to recently? Nowhere, lol. I basically never go to new places.

What are you a geek about? Meerkats, Silent Hill, tarantulas, snakes, Rammstein if u didn't already kno, Shadow of the Colossus, other stuff. But those listed are the primary topics I can think of where if you bring them up I will share E V E R Y T H I N G I know under the sun about them lmfao

What is something you have no patience for? Anti-LGBTQ+ opinions and behaviors. Like you are immediately JUST garbage to me.

What celebrity would you want to go out for a meal/drinks with? None realistically, bit too personal an occasion for someone I don't personally know at all. Well, unless it was like, Bindi Irwin lmao, I would take basically any opportunity to get to know her and be friends. It'd be a lot less awkward of an idea because she's not a celebrity that I "like" in a romantic/sexual sense, either, I just think she's fucking incredible and such an icon of love and goodness.

Are you happy with your weight? Hell fucking no, sick and tired of it.

When did you last hold a baby, if ever? Whose? Over three years ago when my niece Emerson was born.

How many cats do you have? One.

How many dogs do you have? One.

How many other pets do you have? One (champagne ball python).

How old were you when you got your driver’s license? I haven't yet, and I don't really think I ever will just with how fucking terrified I am of driving; it's just a fear I don't think I can conquer. I COULD NOT survive killing someone if I was involved in a car crash, like I'd just straight-up fucking kill myself. My panic makes me a dangerously passive driver, and people who know they can't drive in a safe, confident (NOT to be confused with aggressive) manner don't need to be on the road. I'm very well aware of how inconveniencing it is for others that I can't drive, especially with where I live (public transport really isn't a regular or widespread thing), but I'd prefer to not kill or cripple somebody.

What year did you graduate high school? 2014.

What is the first number of your zip code? Two.

How many of your grandparents are still alive? Zero.

What is your favorite number? Honestly don't really have one. I like the dark myths of the number 13, but I don't have a strong fondness for it or anything.

How many kids do you want? IF I have children, I can't visualize a world where I have more than two.

How many apartments have you lived in? As an official, legal resident, zero, but basically two.

What age do people say you look? Very early 20s. Actually the artist who did my new tattoo thought I was like, literally 19 lmfao thanks I guess

Do you feel like your family accepts you for who you are? For the most part. I'm confident my mom fully does, but idk about the others.

Do you feel like your friends accept you for who you are? Yes. I have more liberty in picking my friends; if my friends that I choose aren't willing to accept me, uh bye, our "friendship" is a waste of time.

Who is the best doctor you’ve ever had? The psychiatrist that very literally turned my life around when I began my partial hospitalization program. I stayed with him for many years until insurance made it so I could no longer see him. This is actually what resulted in me being hospitalized again last March; I was so devastated and scared of leaving the ONE mental health professional that REALLY made a difference for me that I became suicidal again. He is an incredible professional with what seemed like a totally unending well of medical knowledge. In the same hospital, when I did the PHP a second time, the therapist that most regularly worked with me was my favorite I've ever had as well; I totally desperately wanted to stay with him once the program was over, but sadly he worked exclusively in that. I wanna emphasize I've been seeing psychiatrists and therapists since the 7th grade (who are around 12 or 13, and I'm 27 now), like I've seen SO FUCKING MANY, so calling you my favorite carries an insane amount of weight.

Have you ever been flipped off by a random stranger? Yes actually, while driving. It was a truck of teenage boys and when they (illegally) passed, multiple of them stuck their hand out the window to do it. My mom was fucking furious lmao, she did it right back.

Do you have a lot of people blocked on Facebook? Not many that I have a personal problem against; most are actually people my mother has asked me to block for a variety of reasons so they have no tabs on my family's lives. Then there's random people who've sent random suspicious or gross messages.

Do you consider yourself spiritual? To a degree. Like I do believe some sort of soul/"essence" of us exists, but that's the end of it. I know nothing about that realm or even if it really exists at all, and I worship nothing or hold nothing as truly holy or whatever.

Do you consider yourself religious? Absolutely not.

Are you afraid of spiders? No, not really; I actually love spiders, especially tarantulas, but I'm not going to pretend that if a big spider just randomly went down my arm I wouldn't freak out for a second, just because I hadn't been expecting it and most of my life I was scared of spiders, so the instinct to be startled is still there.

Are you afraid of snakes? I absolutely adore snakes with all my heart.

Does everyone in your family know your sexual orientation? Not exactly; I think everyone knows I like men and women, but I'm sure there are family members who'd still call me bi because they don't know I later realized I was really pan, AND I know there are a number who don't even know what pansexuality is lmao.

What is one thing you find offensive? Using the word "retarded" to insult someone's intelligence. My respect for you will fucking PLUMMET.

Do you often post about politics on social media? I share lots of political posts, yes.

Would you ever want to go back to school? I just can't do that. I've dropped out three times already, I can't keep pouring money straight down the drain.

What are three things you are naturally good at? Writing, bonding with animals, and I suppose seeing things in an artistic way?

What are three things you are NOT naturally good at? Socializing/talking confidently, asking for help (this does depend though), and thinking more with my head than my heart.

Is your dream to get married and have kids? No, my dream is to be happy with and proud of myself and feel like I made even a tiny difference in the world. I'd be bummed if I never do get married, but it's not my dream.

Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering? It goes in the laundry basket.

If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair? Idk, it'd very likely depend on how I look as a whole. I do know I love guys with long hair though, so I'd probably at least have longer hair... maybe. Part of the reason I keep mine short now is because I was bad at brushing it even nearly enough, so I'd probably have that problem as a man too.

Last person you hugged? It was either Girt, his mom, or his sister before leaving his place on Saturday.

How is the weather right now? It's sunny and WAY too motherfucking hot; my weather app says 86*F right now, disgusting.

Are you missing someone? I miss Girt really bad.

What is the wallpaper on your cell phone? Lock screen is artwork of Till Lindemann with the "Engel" wings prop, home screen is insanely cute meerkat artwork.

What do you have handy at your bedside? A lamp. If Girt's staying the night that's also where I put my phone.

What is your dad's middle name? John.

What is your mom's middle name? Marie.

First thing you'll save in a fire? If my mom is in there, I'm making sure she gets out first. If she's not, then I'd probably run and get Venus out of her terrarium first and then immediately look for Roman. I think I'd go for Venus first just because she's in a cage and is also a ball python so she wouldn't be going anywhere and is therefore super easy to find, while I'm sure Roman would probably be frantically running around or like paralyzed in a hiding spot. Really I wouldn't be surprised if Roman found a way out himself if there's an open window or door, being a cat. Deep hatred for this question btw lmao

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#5

So I'm caught up on Naddpod, and finally have to actually wait for new episodes now which is crazy because it's been my hyperfixation since I discovered it like last May (a year of naddpod woot woot) but just finished listening to this week's episode and it still just feels like coming home and hanging with your friends. Naddpod is comfy. Comfort media. Comfy comfy podcast.

24 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#4

Look, I love the Goncharov x Andrey interactions, and Katya is my girlboss, and Ice Pick Joe is my poor little meow meow, but everyone is leaving Sofia out to dry? She's so integral to the character arcs! Not just because of the red dress, but because of how she's somehow made an impact on their whole trajectory just from a single conversation with Katya! She's the instigator of the whole entire plot!

29 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

#3

So, I've spent a miniscule amount of time adjacent to deaf/hoh culture, so I picked up a couple small things like a name sign, but I also picked up the sign for clapping? You know, where you're wiggling your hands? Similar to jazz hands. And I just do it, all the time, more than clapping. Because it's close to hand flapping, like how my little brother stims, and it feels good to me to go "Yayyyyyyy" *sign clapping* and allllll the time when I'm in zoom meetings for work and I have myself muted(or when I'm not) because it's so friendly to have a visual representation of celebration and appreciation.

34 notes - Posted June 11, 2022

#2

Very important question: in a Muppets rendition of Goncharov, which muppet plays who, and who is the token human?

Katya, of course, is played by Miss Piggy.

279 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I'm really loving this new tumblr mobile glitch of putting the asker's icon as the responder's icon, because it took me a little too long to realize that Neil Gaiman had not in fact changed his icon to nonbinary Howl

364 notes - Posted January 31, 2022

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OFMD FAVE GAME

Thank you for the tag @not-nervous-jester, I'm stuck on both of the things I wanted to write this afternoon so I guess I'll do this instead?

Fave Ed gif:

Please save this man. (Also I love this outfit so much.)

Fave Stede gif:

GIF by thyla

Actually, same one as yours Jams; there's a reason this is my icon now, this scene and his expression means literally everything to me, evokes something very personal and special. (I want to see him in S2 with this face but also wearing something ridiculously fancy)

Fave S2 Headcanon: here's the thing. I am fully prepared to be completely surprised by what happens in the actual show. I love the speculation, and yes, I am writing an entire post-S1 fic, but I don't think anything in it is likely to actually happen in the show??? (I'm just running down some ideas that wouldn't let me go.) So really the only thing left is LUCIUS LIVES, because I really do believe that killing his character fundamentally changes the nature of the show in a way that I don't think they'd do.

Fave Blackbonnet song: I was building what ended up being my fic playlist, and Tidal suggested Thank You by Led Zeppelin, and honestly it's perfect.

Fave OFMD Fic Trope: I should make a list as some point lol, but goddamn I love a good Ed POV canon pining fic, they're always so wild and funny and dramatic.

Ed's hair or Stede's hair: so, Ed's hair: the day that I realized that the girl I was madly in love with in college and never did quite get together with (despite being embedded in a sort-of-polycule that needed wholeass diagrams to explain to my therapist at the time) had uhhhhh very much hair like Ed's, as did my high school/college boyfriend (who was also part of aforementioned diagram) and wow it's true there is something about that, huh? (as it happens, I could almost certainly end up with hair like Stede's given the right stylist. it looks fantastic on him and would look like a goddamn grandma on me.)

Longest you've gone between rewatches: I think the last month I've mostly been watching one episode on repeat every few days, which episode depending on which chapter of Hungry for love, waiting to drown I've been working on, and I've been kind of itching to do a full rewatch, actually. (am I going to do it during Sad Week specifically for the catharsis? maaaaaaaaybe?)

Hiding in the ship Lucius vs. Ghost Lucius: por que no los dos? (also I'm always entertained by Lucius pretending to be a ghost while hiding in the ship)

Fave Revenge Crew Member: they're all so fucking good, but lately I've been kind of obsessed with Frenchie.

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#5

ANNOUNCEMENT:

So... I completely reworked Fate's Crystal Majesty.

After realizing that the first book was long enough to be almost 2 and a half whole novels... I decided to break it into chunks. In doing that, I've changed several parts of the story that many people have already seen.

BUT!

That also means the book is several steps closer to being worthy of possibly getting published!

So. The website has been redesigned and the live chapters have been re-uploaded as google docs rather than site pages. Not only does this make interaction more smooth, it also creates better ease of access. As always, they are completely open for comments and interaction!

A story can't happen without its reader, after all...

12 notes - Posted September 12, 2022

#4

I have no idea about what bigotry/drama/war unfolded while I wasn't looking (my dash is sprinkled with a wide variety of conflicting takes that do absolutely nothing to clarify whatever the heck I missed) but more and more lately I'm thinking that we as a community need to just... Have a fucking meeting. Because there is a LOT of thinly veiled shit that seems to constantly be happening. Everything from people starting drama about writing about ~bad things~ (a gay person having a homophobic villain character in their works and getting attacked for it) to SERIOUS racism (apparently someone said they want to live in a world/write a world with only one race? The fuck?) to cultural appropriation/deeply rooted lack of knowledge about a culture being referenced (saw a writer trying to just... Claim Aphrodite as a 'trans-masc icon' and trying to rename her 'Aphrodito'???) To mountains of mountains of toxic positivity and/or insisting on asanine levels of 'purity' within the work of other people.

Genuinely. We all need to like... Talk.

13 notes - Posted October 24, 2022

#3

Okay so this is very obviously NOT the finished product. Not even a little bit. But I'm writing a prequel bit for Fate's Crystal Majesty for @athena-anna-rose's writing contest. And. I'm having the hardest and funniest fucking time writing an oblivious straight man. I have no experience in this category of Guy so writing this bit is killing my sensibilities but it's already so fucking funny and I wanted to share. Current progress is under the cut. This is turning into a comedy.

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Contest Story: What Once Was

"I've been meaning to say this for a while," said a voice, light and playful like a bell. "...But you really are pretty cute, mister Crown Prince!"

Solaris Trinidad Coronis nearly slammed his book closed, face turning red as his head whipped around. There, standing behind him, was a young mage— a university student that was younger than him, and a familiar one. Her blonde hair and aquamarine eyes would have been a dead giveaway, even if her uniquely folded 'dog' ears didn't signal her identity and status.

"O-oh, you're… Lunari Nitewing, correct? I believe I've seen you around…" He asked, doing his best to ignore her commentary on him. He nearly winced as he glanced at the nearby clock, suddenly noticing the time.

The young half-Rorvan nodded, grinning. "Yes, your highness. But I'm surprised you remembered my name… They say you spend too much time with your head hidden in these books to notice much, and I'll admit, this library is where I usually end up seeing you."

He sniffed, wolf ears giving a disdainful twitch as he collected his studying materials. "Well 'they' don't seem to know the value of being well-read… but at least they're smart enough not to insult me to my face, I guess…" Though… he thought wryly, I'd have to be blind not to notice the most magical young woman on the planet. "...You ought not to listen to gossip, Miss Nitewing. You have a lot of talent. It would be a true shame if you got caught up in a bad crowd."

"I find your studious nature endearing, actually!" The girl giggled. He suddenly realized how petite she was as she sat on the table, her eyes just barely higher than his were. "Makes you seem like a normal person."

"You'll find that I am a normal person, Miss Nitewing," he said, voice even. "I do what I can to make sure that being a prince doesn't get in the way of being a good citizen."

He stood then, gathering his books in his arms, then gave the girl another quick once-over. Sky blue Rorvan-inspired blouse over white pants, dark boots, a charming blue headband to match her top, tasteful floral scented oils along her pulse points… she looked a bit too nice for a trip to the library.

Is she… going out with someone?

He gave a polite cough. "If you're planning to meet someone, you shouldn't be chatting me up… someone might get the wrong idea if you speak to me."

She smiled almost pointedly. "Oh, I don't know if I'm going out yet… the guy I like doesn't seem to notice me as much as he thinks he does. I'm actually here to talk him into going to dinner with me."

Solaris blinked, suddenly a little surprised and annoyed on her behalf. What kind of idiot wouldn't notice her? "Oh… that's too bad. Someone as interesting as you should be at the top of anyone's list. Are you meeting him here?"

The young woman giggled. "Actually, he's already here. I'm just running a social experiment to see how long it takes him to notice."

16 notes - Posted November 2, 2022

#2

The Crystalline King

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Lilly watched as the young Keir—he really was so, so small here—quietly edged towards a door frame. Somehow, despite the fact that she was much further away, voices suddenly came to her the same way they would have if she stood where the young prince did. It was as if, even here, that part of their connection still worked. But the sounds were… odd. Entangled, somehow. It was impossible to tell who spoke, without seeing who was in that room.

"... But you know he'll probably never have magic like us."

"We can't say that! He's only a child, just like Rolph had been before he left because of all this pressure. His magic could manifest any day now, or maybe even years from now, and that's fine!"

Lilly blinked, then jogged over to the doorway, watching things unfold. There stood a young Crowlyn, looking around her own age, leaning against a table and facing the king… who looked very different from when she last saw him in real life, a creepy and dangerous figure with a fake smile and lacking entirely in humanity.

No, this was an entirely different man. Tall, yes, but only barely taller than the average human. Velvety black hair with greying highlights framed his face, and seemingly helped to hold up glasses with a thin wire frame. His shirt was strikingly white and billowy, draping over somewhat lean limbs and tucked into brown working pants and a pair of well used boots, as well as a pair of leather bracers at his wrists. Like Keir, the king wore minimal jewelry. Much of it was made of sturdy leather and gold chain—including a piece resting at his forehead and looping under his hair, which seemed to stand in for a crown like she'd seen Keir wear occasionally. The way he stood and the magical atmosphere around him, however, resembled Crowlyn. He had an aura that even she could feel, and a sense of strength and authority that went beyond the physical. She couldn't quite see his eyes… but she knew that he could probably stop armies with a glare. This was the man from the painting she'd seen. Handsome. Soft features, clean and well-kept hair and close-cropped beard, a voice that was soft, but firm. A smile that radiated kindness—if not also a tight frustration at the current discussion with Crow. He looked so… normal. Like a father. Not at all the imposing and dangerous force that he had been when she’d met him. 

She could understand how Lunari might fall in love with this man, rather than the king she knew he would become.

"But still, an heir to this kingdom must have magic,” Solaris said, “It's the only way we keep our status as leaders over the other Daekin. If it wasn't for Lunari bringing together the other mages and supplying most of the power to build this place, I doubt we'd be held in such high regard. An heir who's empty of magic cannot take the throne while you are still an option to rally behind. It must be you, unless..."

"You're too much of a pessimist. And he doesn't need magic, if he has a mage and advisor,” Crowlyn argued.

"You only say that to avoid your duties, my son. Whether they lead anywhere or not, marriage interviews are part of the job—"

“—An unnecessary part, I assure you—!"

"—and are vital to keeping our family line strong,” the older man sighed, rubbing his neck. Did… did he seem sorry for having to say these things, or was Lilly just imagining it? “Our ancestors were the first Rorvae. The first to undergo the changes back on Earth, and the first to access the magic behind Fate. Our history and future are important things that must be maintained, at any cost."

Changes… back on Earth?

But no one elaborated on her silent question. “Keir can do that easily when he's old enough. Leave me to my own business,” Crow said, an edge to his voice, “And stop trying to force all these petty she-wolves on me! I'm not going to suddenly be more normal just because you set me up with someone!"

"Crowlyn…"

"No offense, father, but I'm tired. You should really go and see your sick wife for once, instead of barking in my ear about something neither of us needs to be concerned about."

As Crowlyn abruptly turned she watched Keir half-fall over himself to get clear of the door, while she also stepped back. He was nowhere near fast enough, though, and Crow—he seriously couldn’t possibly be a day over twenty—nearly tripped over him as he rounded the corner. Upon finding the younger prince, Crowlyn immediately signaled for silence, fluidly picking him up and trotting away.

Lilly glanced between the king and retreating princes, then turned to follow—

"I don't have my wife's talent for discernment, but I'm not entirely blind either."

The girl halted, her head whipping back to Solaris. He'd sat down at the wide table and started to write something. After a moment, he looked up with eyes that bore a startling resemblance to Keir's. They looked like bright gemstones, faceted and glimmering an array of yellows and oranges as light shifted around him. But unlike Keir's warm honey and amber tones, the eyes of king Solaris were hard and cold with their brightness, and zeroed in on her with alarming precision. They looked so light and alive compared to the last time she'd stared him down.

"Well, come in. You don't appear to be here to kill me… and from what little I can see of you I doubt you could regardless. Just skin and bones, you are"

The girl shivered, then entered the room. Once she'd gotten past the door, it clacked shut, trapping her and causing her to jump with a squeak.

"A girl? And human as well, it seems… I have no idea what you're doing here, but you shouldn't be roaming around so… willy-nilly. This place can be dangerous," he said, turning his attention back to what he was writing, almost sounding concerned for her safety. "But I suppose the guards cannot see you, as powerful as your spell is… though I'm shocked Crowlyn didn't spot you either. He's a very powerful mage… perhaps even more powerful than me. He's at least on par with Lunari, when she was younger. He must be just as frustrated as I am, to be so distracted."

Lilly swallowed. "I… don't know if he can see me, since he's who I'm… supposed to be following. 'Dream-walking', I think Crowlyn called it?"

The king nodded absently. "He sent you from somewhere himself, then… and you are a powerful magician in your own right. Your combined magic must have affected his spell, if you're here, and able to move independently. This isn't dream-walking, young lady. You've projected your soul back along Crowlyn's timeline. So... you aren't a spy, nor an assassin. Humor me, girl, why are you here?"

"Well… uh…" Lilly fumbled, her heart racing. Was it even safe to talk to this man? In a few short years, he'd be hurting his children left and right! She didn't want to give him anything he could use.

Solaris paused, then sighed, his shoulders sagging a bit. "It seems I've frightened you by accident… I apologize. When they call me 'the crystal king', it isn't just because of my eyes… I'm also a bit cold and rigid. You've caught me in a bit of a mood. Crowlyn, bless his heart, has put me in a difficult position. I don't want to force him to marry when he obviously isn't interested in women, but a king needs to be able to carry on his legacy. He can't dance around the problem forever, but he also doesn't seem keen on telling me his actual reasons. If he would, I'd be able to relent a bit…"

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19 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

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Contest Story: What Once Was

Heya! This is my entry into the writing contest being held by @athena-anna-rose! It's a short story involving some characters from my book, Fate's Crystal Majesty, and hints at some of the events to come. I recommend reading it in the original document HERE, because Tumblr breaks everything and doesn't allow for other fonts (and also removed every ounce of formatting in the story).

I put a lot of thought into what scenes to show, so I hope you find the story interesting!

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"I've been meaning to say this for a while," said a voice, light and playful like a bell. "...But you really are pretty cute when you're lost in a good story, mister Crown Prince!"

Solaris Trinidad Coronis nearly slammed his book closed, face turning red as his head whipped around. There, standing behind him, was a young mage— a student at the nearby university, and a familiar one. Her blonde hair and aquamarine eyes would have been a dead giveaway, even if her uniquely folded ears didn't signal her identity and status. A human-Rorvan hybrid, with strong magic and eyes nearly as mesmerizing as his own, could only be one person.

"O-oh, you're… Lunari Nitewing, correct? I believe I've seen you around…" He asked, adjusting his glasses, doing his best to ignore her commentary on him and hoping the magic in his eyes hadn't flared up. He nearly winced as he glanced at the nearby clock, suddenly noticing the time. The pups would probably tease him again for staying out so late...

The young half-Rorvan nodded, grinning. "Yes, your highness. But I'm surprised you remembered my name… They say you spend too much time with your head hidden in these books to notice much, and I'll admit, this library is where I usually end up seeing you."

He sniffed, wolf ears giving a disdainful twitch as he collected his studying materials. "Well 'they' don't seem to know the value of being well-read… but at least they're smart enough not to insult me to my face, I guess…" Though… he thought wryly, I'd have to be blind not to notice the most magical young woman on the planet. "...You ought not to listen to gossip, Miss Nitewing. You have a lot of talent."

"I find your studious nature endearing, actually!" The girl giggled. He suddenly realized how petite she was as she sat on the table, her eyes just barely higher than his were. "Makes you seem like a normal person."

"You'll find that I am a normal person, Miss Nitewing," he said, voice even. "I do what I can to make sure that being a prince doesn't get in the way of being a good citizen… or parent, though I can't say I'm doing a stellar job at the moment. I ended up getting lost in my reasearch."

He stood then, gathering his books in his arms, then gave the girl another quick once-over. Sky blue Rorvan-inspired blouse over white pants, dark boots, a charming blue headband to match her top, tasteful floral scented oils along her pulse points… she looked a bit too nice for a trip to the library.

Is she… going out with someone?

He gave a polite cough. "If you're planning to meet someone, you shouldn't be chatting me up… someone might get the wrong idea if you speak to me."

She smiled almost pointedly. "Oh, I don't know if I'm going out yet… the guy I like doesn't seem to notice me as much as he thinks he does. I'm actually here to talk him into going to dinner with me."

Solaris blinked, suddenly a little surprised, and annoyed on her behalf. What kind of idiot wouldn't notice her? "Oh… that's too bad. Someone as interesting as you should be at the top of anyone's list. Are you meeting him here?"

The young woman giggled. "Actually, he's already here. I'm just running a social experiment to see how long it takes him to notice."

Prince Solaris looked around. His lanky build let him have a good view of most places, and from where he was standing… this floor of the library seemed empty, aside from himself and the young mage that still sat rather casually on the table.

I don't see…?

"You know…" she started, and when he looked down at her he found that her eyes almost seemed to twinkle in the artificial light of the nearby reading lamps. "...I've been saving up for this date for nearly a month, so it'll be a shame if he turns me down."

Solaris blinked, noticing a hint of humor in Lunari's eyes, but chivalry won out over his ability to think past the sudden twinge of his heart. "That is quite a power move on your part, Miss Nitewing… but I must say, any man that forces you to pay for him as well as you, isn't worth your time. Call me old-fashioned, but a first date should be a meeting of equals."

She giggled, and he suddenly twitched to adjust his glasses. "If it were a normal man, I'd agree… but I'm afraid that I'm quite fond of this poor soul. He and I haven't talked much, but…" she said, looking up at him, eyes sparkling in shades of blue. "The medium of my magic is Shadow… and shadows tend to talk. This particular man's shadow says he's lonely, and a bit tired from all the stress he's been under after an awkward breakup. I decided it might be nice to treat him and his children to something fun. Maybe ice cream, since I know he has a thing for sweets."

Solaris suddenly blushed. Children? She has eyes for someone with kids? That would make him probably as old as… probably a lot like… and he enjoys ice cream like…

"...Oh."

"I've been watching this man from afar…" she confided, looking almost shy, as if watching the dots connect in Solaris' head while his ears twitched in embarrassment. "I don't think he really noticed. I've been trying not to scare him off, you see, since he's the type who tends to overthink things. I didn't want him to think that I was just approaching out of the blue or that I wanted something I shouldn't… but I didn't quite know how to start a real conversation with such a dignified gentleman."

The prince looked away, rubbing the back of his neck. "...What will you do if he declines?"

"Probably just try again tomorrow. I'm very persistent!"

"And you don't mind that he… has children?"

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[fractalflare]

Hi! It’s super rad that you’re making all of these icons (not just rad but like, an actual godsend omg). I just wanted to ask what program you used for the caps and stuff or what method you used that’s most productive in getting them?

Hey there, thanks for such a lovely message!

I'm going to try and make this has straight forward as possible, so bear with me, I tend to ramble.

I use KMPlayer to take my screencaps, there might be alternative programs out there, but this is just the one I've been using the longest. Once you've opened a video you can right-click > capture > frame: extract... which will bring up this window.

Here's my currently settings, you can tinker around with the 'frames to extract' section until you work out what works best for the type of media you're trying to cap. The prefix section is important if you're capping multiple episodes, I usually abbreviate the show title and change the number as I work through each episode, this way all caps will be in chronological order, and it's easier to sort. I extract all my caps as PNG, but there's an option for JPEG and Bitmap in the dropdown menu. The downside to capping this way if you have to let the episode run in real-time, so a 24-minute anime episode will take at least 24 minutes to cap, it can take longer the more caps you're trying to get. (I have it set to 6 frames in 1 sec at the moment which gets me about 6000 files per episode, obviously you can lower it)

I hope this was helpful, and if you have any other questions feel free to send them in, I'll do my best to answer those for you too. Enjoy the rest of your day!

[gats-puckish-rogue]

Thank you @mango-of-the-sea for tagging me <3 <3

1. Why did you choose your URL?

My first url was awesomeamywinchester(I actually joined for Hannibal if you can believe it) and then I wanted a change, so I went to the game I was obsessed with at the time, Saints Row 4. A badass character in the series is Johnny Gat, voiced by the amazing Daniel Dae Kim. And the player character describes themselves as a puckish rogue at times, so I became gats-puckish-rogue

2. Any side blogs?

Have an art blog that I usually post to, called the-roguish-arts, though I haven't gotten around to much art these days.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

Started in 2014 and it's the site that I've used the longest for literally anything.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

I don't even use the queue at all

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I saw a fanart competition for Hannibal, and you could only participate by submission to the official tumblr blog, it was only after I made my blog that I realized it was only open to US citizens :(

6. Why did you choose you icon/pfp?

It's my boi John Constantine, I colored a screencap from a Legends of Tomorrow episode that had an animated version of him, albeit in a different coat. He was my latest obsession, though his less-than-stellar storylines in LoT and the way the current actor's (Matt Ryan) amazing portrayal of the character was tossed aside by DC for a new show has made me lose interest in the character.

7. Why did you choose your header?

Is my other boi Clint Barton as Ronin in Avengers: Endgame. I was absolutely hyped for the movie coming out and the header was probably screenshotted from the trailer and edited lol.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

It's a little gif set from the Avengers Assemble animated show of Tony Stark and Bruce Banner sharing a fist bump and going "Science Bros"

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I have 14 that I actually recognize now, ppl that I reblog from or reblog my posts

10. How many followers do you have?

170, which is surprising because I post so little original content

11. How many people do you follow?

398. @mango-of-the-sea we have the same amount of people following lol

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

So many. Popular shit posts? Nope.

13. How often do you use tumblr?

Daily or every other day, unless a show I'm watching has aired and I haven't had time to watch it yet, then I don't open the app until I've watched the episode.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

Nah I don't interact much with other blogs directly, mostly through tags and if I see something I don't like, I just ignore and keep scrolling

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog” posts?

Occasionally I see the "reblog for artists and gif makers" posts, and admittedly I'm a little biased on that so I do reblog most of that, but if I see posts like moneycat or lucky posts or whatever, or posts that say "If you don't reblog you are bad" I personally ignore those. I can agree with PSA's to reblog to give attention, but the moment you start getting aggressive, it feels rude to me.

16. Do you like tag games?

I love tag games but I'm very slow to get around to them.

17. Do you like ask games?

I do like them, but I don't usually reblog them. Sometimes I send an ask if my mutuals have reblogged them, though always on anon.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I honestly don't know who even counts as tumblr famous lol. I have been on this hellsite for seven years but I have no idea what is going on.

Feel free to do this and tag me so I can see yours!

[doorbloggr]

Wednesday 28/4/21 - Usernames, Tags, and Personal Growth

So yeah its barely been an hour since my last post, but this particular topic is one I've wanted to blab about for a long time.

Online, and offline too in many cases, people will choose to represent themselves with a Username, a title to depict themselves as. This can be for many reasons, but the main ones I can think of are hiding your identity, and nicknames.

Now when I say nicknames, I don't mean by Mitch, instead of Mitchell, I mean like a pet name or title you use to identify a key part of your being that you want to be recognised by. But the interesting thing about choosing a nickname to represent YOU, is that you change.

My various personas over the internet

I wanna explore the idea of this change in persona by discussing how I've changed my own user/nickname over time. My journey of spreading around the internet was a gradual one, so rather than having the same user everywhere, I actually have a number of different usernames, depending on when I joined said site.

Pre Internet Username: Comixlad

In Highschool I filled 10s of exercise books with my own graphic novels, the longest running series was very creatively called "Awesome Comix" and detailed the adventures of me and my friends with super powers that allowed us to transform into new super forms and fight the evils of the world.

This led to my user comixlad, which I used everywhere from message boards to emails, and to this day I am still stuck as comixlad on certain sites.

Facebook/MySpace: Nothing really

For my first social media's, I really just used my full name Mitchell ****** (rather keep my personal life private). So yeah boring, and fairly formal.

Tumblr: supereffectivemoonblast

Tumblr was my first private affair where I went full on exploring myself without using my name. My personal tastes were very nerdy, so I thought I'd try to be unique and quirky by combining Zelda and Pokemon; originally my profile pic was of the Majoras Mask Moon, so the Moon Blast mentioned was in fact a Zelda reference too.

Given that I post a lot of my art to my main tumblr, in order to not get lost with the mem clutter, I made a side archive blog, named supereffectiveartblog to keep the theme going.

Instagram: mitch_zelda_sketches_selfies

When I started instagram I was feeling much more refined and artsy as a person. Whereas with Tumblr, I was more trying to be full on secret nerd, my instagram profile was a chance to show a more sensible side. So the user i chose was just an underscore list of what my profile would feature pictures of.

I later started a side account just to archive the realistic art I made of animals, since for a while, I made a lot of them.

Twitter/Reddit: Doorbashr

You'll notice I use that pfp a lot. I dont take a lot of selfies.

Anyway, I started my twitter in response to my involvement with the Super Smash Bros competitive community, where I could keep up to date with other players, and also (see: mainly), when I was mentioned in the results for competitions, I could be tagged personally.

The tag itself came from an incident where I tried to leave a friend's house during a house party, and in my tipsy state, didn't see their screen door and knocked it right off the rails onto the ground. Quite embarrassing, but Doorbashr is a memorable title that many in the local FGC recognise purely because of how funny it sounds.

Reddit I joined the most recently of social medias, if you can call Reddit such a thing. And since I already had an iconic username at that point, I just used Doorbashr again.

I do have one more username I have picked up more recently, but it's more on the private side for now and I won't divulge it unless you've read this far and wish to learn more by PM'ing me on here or any of my other socials mentioned here.

[sunnytastic]

also i'm actually thinking about finally changing my tumblr layout. i've had the same one for at least 3 years and i was using tumblr so irregularly and switching up fandoms that i didn't want to commit to a certain layout only to change it when i got a new hyperfixation but this is the longest time i've been active in a single fandom since maybe 5 years ago and i don't really see myself stopping so i'm thinking i should just go ahead and do it but i also really like that the icon is me and idk i kinda find my layout iconic at this point and idk if people would recognize me but i also really think a sunny layout would be cool