#i've been trying to enjoy things and it's been going alright ig
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pickapea ยท 1 year ago
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literally me omg
not at my shady ass fading into the shadows of obscurity ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
#logged off twitter two weeks ago bc enough is enough#and it was enough#i've been trying to enjoy things and it's been going alright ig#been getting some writing done#emphasis on some. not a lot. but still#also discovered a few new nice artists and songs and such without making twitter jokes about it#don't get me wrong i do love making twitter jokes and i miss my friends#but enough is enough#have been consuming music and media and keeping up w the artists i like without immediately composing tweets mentally in my head for clout#getting rid of that gut reaction instinct response kicking in whenever literally anything happens. literally thinking in meme phrases. sigh#it's healthy to step away from i think#anyway#speaking of missing one's friends i just logged on my account and searched my name and cliked the ''show only ppl you follow' option#for an ego boost#i am so loved <33#they're so fucking crazy it makes them look stupid <3#pickapost#anyway i miss my friends <////3 and i can't even focus on writing or anything bc i miss my friends </3 i will log back on tonight#i feel like i have been cured somewhat. i can see things in my life and think. ah a thing in my life!#instead of think of a meme phrase that will make the masses laugh on twitter dot com#my favourite rappers can post something on instagram and i can take a deep breath. close my eyes. and not scream about it on twitter#i am..... recovered... healed <3#but i miss my friends so much i must return#bc now i'm not getting anything done anyway!!!!!!!#anyway in half an hour i'm meeting a friend and on wednesday i'm meeting a friend and other than that i want to get some writing done#but i will still log back on tonightยจ. i will#phew
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lilhealthybean ยท 8 months ago
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I'll wait for your love
"Sweetheart, you know pretty well I am not jokingโ€
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Tags: haikyuu, suna
Notes: Mix of angst and fluff ig)?, hope you enjoy it :). I updated it and wrote it better, idk why I even published them before I revised them and changed everything lol (Not me posting random ideas I have at 2 am)
"I thought you wouldn't understand", you confessed
He smiled at you with a comprehensible look.
"How could I not even try?" Suna's response was calm, still gazing at you.
His tone was gentle and his handling of the third rejection of the month was surprisingly serene. You were amused by your ability to reject him three times. However, you didn't feel ready to start dating, not since your last relationship which ended in nothing but pain and traumas. Besides, you had a lot on your plate, and having a boyfriend wasn't a priority.
"I deeply apologize for putting you through this situation again..." the volleyball player apologized, gently stroking your hair. "I thought you might be ready for a new relationship, considering it has been three months since your last one. I guess I was mistaken"
Much to your relief, the school bell rang loudly, signalling that classes would begin in 5 minutes.
"I guess that's my cue to leave" Suna said, giving you another small smile
"Can we still return home together Rin?" you asked shyly, as if you were a kid seeking permision from an adult.
He chuckled softly
"How could I refuse you anything sweetheart? You will be at the library, right?" You nodded with a timid smile "Alright, I will pick you up there, I promise" With that, the boy left your classroom to meet the Miya twins in the corridor.
"And...?" the blond twin inquired, lookinf at his friend eagerly.
Rintaro shook his head and with a defeated look. Both twins gave him a sorrow glance.
"Are you going to walk home again with her?" Osamu asked as he finished his onigiri
"Yes"
Atsumu sighed
"I don't know how you do it Suna" the blond twin admitted "I would lose hope afther the first rejection"
"I don't mind waiting a little longer," Rintaro remarked indifferently.
As promised, after volleyball practice, he left the gym and walk to the library where you were studying. As every Friday, you were sitting by the window, trying to focus on the paper in front of you. Suna couldn't help but notice how cute you looked. Silently, he approached you and decided to take the seat in front of you, admiring you.
He lost track of time since he sat down. When you finally noticed his presence, you couldn't help but place a hand on your chest, holding back a scream.
"I've warned you to stop doing that! One day you will give me a heart attack" you complained while gathering your things with his help.
"Come on, hurry up or we will miss the train" Suna urged before you could keep complaining.
By the time both of you reached at the train station, the sunhad set and the cold began to invade into your body. Before you could start shivering, you felt the weight of Suna's jacket on your shoulders.
A sudden wave of guilt washed over you.
You felt guilty for making Suna wait so long for you. He had always been a gentleman since he met you, and all you could offer in return was a grateful smile. Why was it so hard to accept his feelings?
You wanted to be more than just friends with him, but you believed you didn't deserve him in your current state. Despite Suna's reassurances that you weren't a burden, you couldn't shake off that feeling.
Moreover, you had important matters coming up in your life next week, which was another reason why you couldn't reciprocate his feelings.
"Thanks for the jacket Rintaro. Maybe I can forgive you for being such a creep in the library" you teased, and he pretended to get offended by your remark.
"You seemed so focused that I didn't want to bother you, so I chose to admire you" Suna replied, gazing at you and moving closer. "Honestly, I can wait longer"
The train pulled into the station, and both of you boarded, searching for an empty space. You found one agasint the train wall, while Suna stood in front of you, acting as a barrier to protect your personal space.
"How long were you willing to wait?" you asked while you put your hands in the boy's jacket to keep them warm.
Suna drew nearer, his face close to yours, causing your cheeks to flush with heat.
"I'm patientโ€ฆ I could have waited until you felt the same way I do about you" he said softly, that didn't stop your heart from beating faster than usually
"Don't tease me like that!" if your cheeks were hot moments ago, now they were burning. You withdrew your hands from the pockets, attempting to conceal your intense blush from him.
Suna smiled, he loved knowing that he had that effect on you. It made him believe his love could truly be reciprocated.
"Sweetheart, you know pretty well I am not joking" he assured, gently taking one of your hands in his. You kept your gaze fixed on the train floor, feeling embarrassed.
Meanwhile, Suna was elated, having plucked up the courage to hold your hand. He knew it wasn't a grand romantic gesture, but that simple touch was enough for him.
"Rintaro..." your trembling voice brought him back to reality. Puzzled by your concered expression, he raised an eyebrow. "I have been accepted into the Tokyo art academy, starting next Monday"
His ears were buzzing. Did he hear correctly? Today was Friday, and you mentioned that next Monday you would be assisting another academy in Tokyo.
How could that possible? He gazed at the station they had just arrived at. He still had two stations to go before you got off the train.
"That's great. We should celebrate this weekend" Suna said with a monotonous voice, still processing the news you had just share with him
"Suna, you have a match tomorrow, and on Sunday, you need to study for the biology and math exam scheduled for Monday. Besides, you mentioned yesterday that Sunday is your sister's birthday" now it was you staring at him, meanwhile Suna had a distant look, holding your hand tighter than before.
The sound of the train announcing their arrival at the next station made Suna's heart race. He had one station left.
"Well, we can still stay in touch, right?" his voice losing his usual calming tone, a hint of desperation creeping in.
"Of course Suna, we can still text and call each other"
"I will keep waiting for you" Suna confessed, lifting his head and staring directly at you, holding his breath as he awaited for your response.
He felt the crowd startinf to push, implying that they were trying to exit the train. Suna had no stations left. You weretruly going to leave him.
"Rintaro... I don't want you to wait for me. It wouldn't be fair. I'm trully sorry; I got the acceptance letter last week. I had applied for next year, but they resquested me to go there to cover the basic subjects I missed here... I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't find the right moment..." you apologized softly. The boy in front of you didn't deserve this, and you were aware of that.
As the train slowed down, Suna was reclutant to realase your hand. He had received too much information in such a short time, leaving him paralyzed. With a gentle expression and a sweet smile, you let go of his hand and waved goodbye.
"Goodbye Rintaro, take care of yourself, please..."
His eyes followed you until the train started moving again, and he lost you among the crowd.
Due to the love he held for you, he was still determined to wait for you. Long-distance relationships can work, right? Besides, he was willing to visit you every free weekend he had. If both of you wanted, it could happen.
His heart urged him to wait for you. No matter how long it took, he believed the wait was worth it, since you are.
However, a noisy thought lingered in his mind. Even if he thought you were worth it, was it worth waiting for someone who didn't want to be waited for?
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uselesssomebody ยท 2 years ago
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thinking about joel obviously and i just
joel caught up in the moment, probably drunk (actually off alcohol or pu$$y Ima) and letting a fantasy of his slip out where he wants a MMF 3some just to fill reader upโ€ฆ... but denies it later when she brings it up..... but she tries to arrange it with some dude and they get pretty far into the process - - like meet up at a bar and hang out with plans on all going home together..... but jealous!joel changes his mind (shocker!) and keeps reader all to himself, probably fucking in the car before they make it home Imao
specific yes but.
you're a good writer. you can do it. please.
๐•š ๐•Ÿ๐•–๐•–๐•• ๐•ช๐• ๐•ฆ - ๐•ฃ๐•š๐•˜๐•™๐•ฅ ๐•Ÿ๐• ๐•จ - joel miller x reader
complete masterlistย |ย joel miller masterlist
words ||ย ๐ŸŸ.๐Ÿœ๐•œ
summary ||ย in which the reader and joel do some experimenting?? (just look at the ask)
a/n ||ย i am such a waffler man this was supposed to be a quick and easy response and now it's over 7k?? โžต hey nonnie hope you enjoy i know it's long. i actually adored the request so much and it made me blush when i first read it on the bus. also, i realized like halfway through that you had likely wanted pre-outbreak but it is, in fact, post-outbreak and set in jackson. โžต no ellie in this one though, guys, but there is like a male oc who the reader is kinda with for a bit - just look at the ask, honestly โžต poe and thomas from tmr requests in my asks - i see you and you will be answered so soon! โžต evidently i am now also a whore for oscar isaac so sen over lil moon knight, santiago or poe requests if you have 'em. planning on writing for leto from dune too - just too much of dilf to ignore, unfortunately. โžต like very 18+/MDNI content, and heed warnings cuz by god is this one of the sluttiest, smuttiest things i've ever written โžต not edited (yet) โžต send me requests if you have โ€˜em. enjoy!
warnings ||ย fluff/smut/smidge of angst โžต unprotected p.i.v. โžต sex after alcohol consumption (fully consensual though)โžต finger sucking + gaggingโžต lotta threesome mentions and fantasizingโžต bitty bit of spit playโžต semi-public sex + exhibitionismโžต mirror sexโžต oral (m receiving) โžต cum swallowing โžต cum ig (tell me if i miss anything)
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"are you feeling alright?" she blinked up at the man in front of her, broken out of her daydream.
"huh? yeah, yeah - i'm fine. why'dya ask?" he shrugs.
"looked like you'd fallen asleep over there. actually, you've got a little bit of drool-" all grogginess evaporates from her as she brings her sleeve up to wipe the corner of her mouth that he'd gestured to. he laughed at her bugged-out reaction, keeling over, when she realizes he'd been joking - and she hadn't, in fact, been drooling.
"fuck off, man." he wheezes through his laughs.
"you should have seen your face!"
they were the last two sat at the kitchen, serving dinner to the last few residents of jackson who had come in for a late meal. it'd been a long day for her, as she attempted to pick up shifts to help with the town's current shortage of workers - too many out with the flu at the moment.
it was a bit absurd, honestly, having so many afflicted by the common cold when there was a whole apocalyptic fungus about.
nevertheless, she'd finished cooking a few hours ago, and now, her and her coworker were finishing portioning the meals and wrapping the sliver of leftovers for the next day. with only a few people sat around the makeshift cafeteria, the both of them were sat in the cleaned kitchen, trying not to fall asleep.
she'd known him - jake - since she'd been in jackson: her first superior when she'd joined the food industry in the small town. he was nice and welcoming at first, but as they were put on more shifts together and had more silent hours to kill, she'd realized how dumb he was.
affectionately, of course.
he loved to make stupid jokes and laugh at stupid things. he liked to believe stupid things, and say even more stupid things to her.
she sat through them, laughing at his antics or willing away her annoyance at his childishness. nevertheless, he was one of her close friends, and - as much as she thought he was dumb - he was there enough of the time for her to accustom to him.
they're snapped out of their banter by the bell at the door ringing, signalling someone had walked in. they both walk out, ready to serve the very late townsman, until she realizes who it is as they near.
she slips out from behind the booth to greet him, placing a soft kiss to his cheek as he grips her side in a half-bear hug.
"hey, joel."
"how're ya, baby?" she nods, detaching.
"i'm - i'm okay."
"long day, ain't it?" she nods meekly at his assessment, smiling when his large hand presses over her shoulder, subtly massaging the tense muscles there as she turns back to jake.
"'lright, i should get back, joel -" she starts, but is cut off by her colleague's disagreement.
"no, you guys head home. i'll finish up here." she hesitates, immediately disagreeing.
"no - i shouldn't-"
"don't worry about it." jake's words hold a finality, and she salutes him as he laughs.
"alright - i'll see you tomorrow. okay?" he nods, waving them off as joel guides her out. he's moving a little fast - a little urgent - and it makes her laugh.
"are we in a rush?" she mumbles, taking in the cold of the night air as she sucks in a breath.
"hmm?" joel's voice is gruff, and, only when she glances at him under the streetlight does she notice the flush on his face.
"are - are you drunk?" he stays quiet, and she snakes her arm around him, smiling at the warmth he provided, "okay, how about 'how much have you had to drink'?" his lips don the ghost of a smile as they approach her place.
"just enough to remind me how much i miss you." he mumbles, crowding her back as she opens the door, quick to take her bag, and then her shoes, and then her jacket, and then her sweater off of her, leaving her goosebumped in the aftermath of the cold wind hitting her on her near bare front.
she was quick to realize that it was one of those nights - and she sure wasn't complaining, wrapping her fingers around joel's hair as his head dips to meet her neck, sighing contently at the action. his hands clasp - almost desperately - on her hips, pulling her straight into her bedroom, as he continued leaving a trail of wet kisses along her neck.
she grips at the collar of his flannel, tracing her hands over the top of it until she reaches the buttons at the front, eagerly slipping them off, and his deft fingers perform the same action over her jeans, the button almost as eager as she was, slipping undone swiftly.
she grips his cheeks, pushing his lips to connect with her own, wanting to taste the 'just enough' whiskey or beer he'd had while waiting for her.
and, fuck, did it taste good - a harsh taste that had clung to his teeth, which she eagerly licked off. it tasted aged, and rough around the edges - but that was probably just him.
she moaned into his mouth as he pulled her jeans just low enough to gain access to her cunt, swiping his fingers over the fabric of her soft underwear - where she'd practically soaked through the garment.
"fuck, baby - all for me?" his head dips into the small space between them as he moans, his mumble being confirmed by her vigorous nodding and the jolt of her hips when he applied just a hint of pressure. she pushes his shirt off as his fingers continue to explore the extent of her arousal, before he's pushing her down into a laying position over her bed.
he pulls her jeans off the rest of the way, and she rises just enough to grasp his belt, unbuckling it - but not taking it off. when she'd looked up at him, she'd realized that tonight was a i need you - right now night, and his trousers would probably only remain unzipped and lowered enough to take his cock out.
so, she does just that, pushing them down just enough to pull his cock out, stroking him lightly as he lets out another low groan.
"you want me-" though she can see the way he's aching for her, she knows he's still - as the gentleman he is - going to ask if she wants more satisfaction beforehand.
"inside. right now." it's supposed to be a cheeky command, but the desperation in her voice breaks the illusion. it's more than enough for joel, though, gripping his cock and slipping her underwear to the side, only taking a moment to run a finger over her soaked folds and exhaling deep and low.
his tip nudges against his clit, making her hips buck, catching him on her entrance, and allowing him to push inside her.
"oh, fuck-" it falls from his mouth - practically without permission - and his sentiment is shared by her, breaths shallow as he fills her.
"oh - god - that's so good, joel - 't's'good-" her words her garbled nonsense, and the desperate nature of them spur him on, letting out a gruff moan as he bottoms out.
he can feel her clenching around him - obviously trying to adjust to the size of him - and it's doing all sorts of things to his head. he allows her breath to even just slightly, before he pulls back and pushes inside her, watching her mouth fall open at the sharp action.
she was so fucking pretty - her eyes glazed over as she felt him repeat the action, his thrusts determined and rough, her mouth hung open, mind seemingly blank, as not even a word escapes her.
he slows down for a moment, and sees the moment of annoyance fall over her features, her brows scrunching as she goes to question his actions. he removes one of his hands from their grip on her waist, bringing it up to cup the side of her face. his thumb strokes her cheek for a second, making her relent and smile at the soft action, before he takes her by surprise, speeding up, and bringing his hand closer to her chin, his thumb ghosting her open lips.
"oh - oh, my god-" her moans are quiet, a whimper pressed under his finger, and as her mouth falls open again, he rests his thumb against her tongue, watching her features flash in confusion, before she succumbs, almost instinctively wrapping her lips over his thick finger.
it's a pretty sight - in a fucked way - and it makes his thrusts quicken, her eyes squeezing shut and her mouth humming around his thumb at the sensation. his eyes watch the hollow of her cheeks as she suckles him, the flick of her tongue against his nail, the slight rock of her head up and down. her moans sound garbled and mumbled against him, and that makes them sound more desperate - as though she was trying so hard to let him know how good he felt, but couldn't get it across while her mouth was occupied.
he pressed up closer against her, removing his thumb and replacing it with his index and middle fingers. it wasn't a challenge for her mouth, but she could feel herself gag when he pushed them down - and he found the sound fucking hot.
"christ - gonna have to fill you up like this every time." so distracted by his cock and his fingers, she nods without paying too much attention, until his next sentence: "want me to get someone else to do it? watch someone fill your mouth while i fuck you like this?" her eyes widen at the notion, but she knows that he can feel the way she clenches around him at the thought, and a grunt escapes him, his hips stuttering at the sensation, "fuck, you like that, don't you? so greedy, pretty baby, ain't i enough?" he can see the way her eyes widen at his words, as she was totally not saying that. he's sure her small movements around his fingers are the shake of her head, and it makes him laugh, "that's okay, baby, i wanna see it too. wanna see you get filled up-" his words swim in her head, and he's still talking, but she can't hear him anymore, her stomach clenching at the feeling of her orgasm.
she's sure she squeals around him or something, because his thrusts speed up just slightly: his hands are a bit rougher on her body, and his movements are a bit more intentioned.
"that's it, baby, d'ya wanna cum for me?" she nods, and he smiles, pulling his fingers out of her mouth, and trailing his spit slicked digits over her cunt, ghosting over her clit, making her moan come out loudly, "i didn't hear you, pretty girl," she looks up at him, gripping one of his biceps and the hand on her waist.
"please - please, joel, lemme cum - please?" it seemed to be the only word in her vocabulary, the way she was pleading, and he relented, nodding his head.
"go 'head, baby - cum, cum f'r'me." his accent becomes more pronounced as his own words become mumbled, his thrusts growing sloppy and less calculated. it's more than enough for her to oblige, feeling the growing knot in her stomach snap so hard her legs begin to shake, squealing at the sensation. his continued movements inside her are spurred by the clench of her cunt as he feels his own orgasm close, thrusting in a few more times, before pulling out and finishing over her.
they're both breathing deeply, trying to catch their breaths, and she's still twitching. he pulls off of her, allowing her some space to recover, before he walks into the bathroom of her place to clean up and find something for her.
when he comes back out, she already looks close to sleep, so he avoids saying all too much, focusing instead on slowly and gently cleaning her, pressing soft kisses to her crown or her fingertips. she lays down as he returns to the bathroom, seeing her practically passed out, her body curled against the side of the bed, and leaving a him-shaped spot by him.
he slides in beside her, feeling the warmth of her bare skin against his own, and lulling into an exhausted sleep of his own.
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she woke up earlier than him the next day, knowing he preferred to sleep in late, especially since being in jackson. she rose to make herself - and him, when he decided to wake up - some breakfast, keeping her stove on low heat so that the sizzle of her eggs wouldn't cause too much noise.
she's in her own thoughts all morning, first adamant in getting ready so that she can go to work - before she remembers what he said last night.
'want me to get someone else to do it? watch someone fill your mouth while i fuck you like this?'
she didn't have a moment to process his words in her wrecked state last night, but her ability to mull over them this morning left her very confused.
sure, she didn't mind the idea of the fantasy - but that's under the precedent that she'd never thought about it before. joel had never said anything like that to her before - in fact, if anything, she thought joel hated the idea of her with someone else, always ready to pull her into him or grip her with purpose in the presence of other people who looked at her with too much interest.
so, his admission the previous night wasn't something she'd dismiss - but something she'd have to speak with him about after he'd woken up.
which, to her surprise, happened sooner than later, when she felt his arms wrap around her as she absentmindedly stirred her scrambled eggs, too focused on other things. she jolts against him, squeaking, but he takes the majority of the impact, still holding onto her tightly as he rested his head on her shoulder.
"jesus, joel - you scared the hell outta me." she catches her breath, tipping her head back onto his own shoulder, and smiling lightly at her reaction.
"good mornin' to ya too, sweetheart." he mumbles, good-naturedly. she laughs at his slightly monotone, unafflicted tone, before brushing him off and nudging him in the direction of the table, which he reluctantly obliges. she plates up their simple breakfast of toast and eggs, placing them on the table as he runs two glasses of water for them.
when they're both sat down and eating, she clears her throat.
"late today." it's a mumble, reminding him she'd be home late again, having been placed on another long shift.
"again?" he's curious - she'd pulled a lot of them recently, "if they're overworkin' ya, i'll talk to tommy-" she smiles, shaking her head at the suggestion.
"no, joel - everyone's sick, it's just temporary." he looks like he wants to argue, but he nods, shrugging. she smiles, trying to cheer him up, "you can put me to bed like you did yesterday, yeah?" she says it as she reaches for the fingers splayed beside him on his outstretched arm as he ate, ghosting her own over them. she can see the hint of a smile ghost over his face, not looking her in the eyes - as she knows the memory of the previous night is at the front of his mind.
"'f ya want that, i'll give it to ya, baby." it's a promise, and she smiles, feeling her own face redden at his casual tongue. then, her face falls for a moment, realizing what she still has to ask him.
"joel - actually, i need to ask you something." he looks up at her with questioning eyes. his mouth's full, but she knows he's gonna answer her, so she asks away: "were you being serious last night?" his expression turns more confused, his chews slowing as he processes her words. she continues, "you know, about bringing someone else in?" he chokes at her words, swallowing harshly and coughing before taking a sip of water.
she's a bit shocked by the reaction, but waits as he recuperates, before he answers.
"what? i dunno wha' yer talkin' about, sweetheart." his accent is heavy as he goes to sip his water again. her eyes widen at the response, unbelieving that, across the many ways he could have answered her, he chose to lie. and, she knows he's lying, because his cheeks and neck have reddened, and he's not looking her in the eyes. she shakes her head, mouth agape.
"i'm not - i'm not freaked out or anything, it's just something i thought we should talk about-" he shakes his head, picking up his now-empty plate, and placing it away without looking at her.
"there's nothin' to talk about." it's dismissive, and, frankly rude. she goes to say something, but, seeing his back still to her, she bites her tongue and rolls her eyes. having lost her appetite, she eat the rest of her meal with gritted teeth, leaving for work after with a noticeable frigidness.
at work, jake's quick to mention her heightened annoyance. first, he pokes a bit of fun at it, before he realizes the extent of it. he goes to ask what's wrong - but decides that she needs a good laugh more than a shoulder to cry on, so he does just that for the next few hours.
he watches as her shell cracks - first from her cracking just a hint of a smile at something stupidly funny he'd done, then accidentally letting out a chuckle and, finally, essentially belly laughing, to the point where he had to hold her up to make sure didn't fall into the large pot of chilli that she was making.
her mood positively lifted by her coworker, she walks around with just a slightly bigger pep in her step. jake had done a good job, he thinks.
by the end of the day, though, she's thinking about joel - and what he'd said last night, again. she can't help the thought of including another person proliferating her mind, especially not today, as she realized not only how damn sweet coworker, funny guy, friend jake is, but also how his smile's a bit toothy, but nice to look at, or how his hair actually looks really good when it's a bit fucked up from his hands running through it when he took a break, or had to push it away from his face.
it was fucking unholy, was what it was, thinking about the poor guy who was just trying to br a friend to her - especially right after an argument with her boyfriend that morning. jake seemed to notice her faraway stares again tonight, poking fun at it, without realizing that he was part of the reason for them.
by the last end of her night shift, she was sure he had realized the slight distance she was trying to put between them, but the man didn't mind, knowing she had a lot to think about from her behavior that morning.
he thinks he knows the reason for it, when he sees her boyfriend walk inside more timidly than he'd ever done, and the lack of a kiss that she'd usually immediately plant on him. in fact, he sits on a table in near them instead of saying hello to her - a distinct difference.
he ushers her out a little early once again, and she smiles, earnestly thanking him as she steps out of the kitchen - with promises of making it up to him sometime. he shrugged her off, waving her away, asking her not to worry about it.
she notices joel as soon as she leaves, watching him raise as she nears him.
"are you coming to mine?" she mumbles, not really looking at him as he opens to the door to let them both out.
"d'ya want me too?" she pauses for a moment, before smiling, as she can hear the hint of a plea in his voice. joel hated when they got like this, not liking the notion of making her unhappy, but knowing that he was uncharacteristically stubborn. she slides her hand into his own warm one, and sees the way his face lights up - well, to the extent that it can.
"you gonna keep your promise?" for a moment, he's confused, before realization dawns on him.
"f'course, sweetheart."
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the previous night had left her just as satisfied and passed out as the last time. joel had fucked her with a purpose: letting her know how sorry he was for dismissing her out of embarrassment. nevertheless, he doesn't mention the idea he'd proposed two nights ago. she can tell it still intrigued him, though, as his fingers still exploratively entered her mouth, still hooked by the look of her trying to pleasure him in two different ways.
that morning, she felt more determined in surprising her boyfriend by fulfilling his fantasy. there wasn't too much opportunity to have these sexy surprises between each other in the advent of the apocalypse, so she figured this would at least be a memorable experience for the both of them.
and she knew just who the third would be.
that day, when she got to work, jake felt as though she was walking on eggshells around him. it always seemed as though a question was on the tip of her tongue, and she had this apprehensive, curious, and something-else look in her eyes whenever she'd catch his, and it was driving him mad. if there was one thing the man hated, it was not knowing.
finally, he corners her after the dinner rush.
"what's up with you, huh?" her eyes widen at his direct question.
"what? nothing, why do you ask?" he rolls his eyes, holding his head in his hands.
"you've been acting weird all day. did i do something?" she's quick to shake her head.
"no! no, not at all..." he immediately disspells his worried act, becoming annoyed.
"well, then, what is it?" she goes to argue, but he holds a hand up, "spare me the dramatics and just tell me, please. i've waited all day."
she opens her mouth. then closes it again. then repeats the action a few times. every time, it piques jake's interest. finally he can't take anymore, and lets out a frustrated sigh, causing her to finally blurt it out.
"joel wants a threesome!" as soon as it exits her mouth, she realizes how crude it is. jake's mouth falls open, before his shocked expression morphs into a laugh. she's shocked by the reaction.
"yeah? and you're worried? who's the lucky girl?" realizing his misunderstanding, she shakes her head.
"no, no - we kinda wanna introduce a guy." jake sobers up immediately, real confusion falling over his face.
"okay..." it's a slow response, and he suddenly feels as though the space between them is too small. seeing his expression, she panics.
"i'm - god, i'm stupid, sorry, i shouldn't have jumped out-" she's rambling in her panic, and he reaches to calm her.
"no, no, no, it's okay." they go silent for a moment, as he lets go of her hand, "you thought of someone else?" he finally asks. she swallows harshly.
"well - there's only one other guy i really trust in this town." it was true - everyone else was nice, but she didn't know anyone else, viable or not. he looks almost expectant in an answer, but when she looks up at him with a very suggestive glance, he realizes what she means.
"me?" he's shocked, as she slowly nods.
"only if you want to - i mean i totally get it if you don't..." realizing she'd start rambling again if she spoke, she bit her tongue, stopping herself. he shakes his head, taking a deep breath.
"no - god, no, it's not that. i mean, you're pretty, and - like, we're friends, i like you, it's just..." she watches his mouth expectantly, wanting his answer, "joel's scary" she wants to take him seriously, but she can't help but crack into a smile, causing his face to morph to indignance, "c'mon, i'm being serious." she nods.
"yeah, of course, of course. but he's not gonna do anything - he wants this." he looks contemplative, jaw clenching and unclenching.
"this is a stupid idea." her face falls a little, as she swallows, "but, i'll do it." shocked by the turn around, her breaks into a smile, reaching to give him a hug.
"seriously?" she mumbles into his shoulder.
"yeah, what the hell." she laughs at his casual nature, when the both of them hear the door open, knowing it could only be one person so late into the night.
she peeks out, smiling giddily at joel, and he follows her, waving at the man as well. joel's a bit confised - not having interacted much with jack? - jacob? - before, but he nods a hello to him as he hugs her.
she waves jake a quick goodbye, and he smiles at the couple, watching them walk away. as the door closes, he exhales deeply, wondering what he'd just gotten himself into.
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over the next few days, her conversations with jake had this air of just slight awkwardness to them, and she was trying her best to subtly remind joel of his fantasy. she'd taken to sticking his own fingers in her mouth and mumbling about how she wanted to be filled up during their nights together.
she'd decided that the upcoming weekend maybe the best time for this experiment, and her and jake were about to be exempt from their duties for a well-deserved break, as some of the other kitchen staff had begun feeling better. she'd proposed the time to the man, and could practically see the heat that reached his ears.
"uh - yeah, shit - yeah. saturday?" she nods slowly, deciding it might be best to warm joel up to the surprise throughout the day, before the reveal at night.
on that friday, she walks out with a distinct pep in her step, excited to be doing this for her boyfriend. she had wrapped her friend in a quick hug - a thank you for his commitment to the idea - before returning to joel.
on that saturday, they practically woke up that morning fucking. she knew he'd never say no to sex before breakfast, so, as she goes down on him, she mumbles about the surprise she had for him later. thrown out of his pleasure by the surprise, he grips her hair, pulling her off of him and looking at her expectantly for elaboration.
"what - fuck-" her hand hadn't gotten the memo to pause, "what surprise?" she laughs against him.
"'f i tell you, it's not a surprise."
he doesn't bring it up again until after breakfast, though, once he does, he doesn't stop. he practically pesters her all day - on her off-day, no less - for an explanation, until, by about the evening, she relents.
"joel, alright." he finally stops, watching as she plops onto the couch next to him, finding a comfortable position as he watches her movements, an expectant expression on his face, "remember what you said a few days ago." his face suddenly hardens - immediately understanding, but not acknowledging her, "i know you were worried about what i thought, but i - i don't hate it." his mouth parts at her admission, and she averts her eyes, a shy smile creeping on her face, "go ahead, call me greedy again."
finally, his expression breaks, and a small laugh - more of an exhale - comes from him, remembering his reaction that night as well.
"i'm - i'm not gonna do that, sweetheart. but - i don't wanna pressure ya 'r anythin', 'lright?" she looks up at him earnestly and nods.
"you're not - i swear. i - well, it can't hurt to try, right?" he leans further back into the soft cushions, half shrugging, before his eyes narrow.
"what's yer su'prise then, baby?" she hesitates for a moment, unsure how to mention it.
"well, since you - y'know, we - wanted to, i thought i'd find a guy and arrange something..." she trails off, realizing the shock on joel's face. there's definitely an intrigue in his eyes, but something else - a little darker - hidden deeper in his gaze. she searches his face desperately, looking for disgust, or apprehension in his eyes.
"ya -" he swallows, lips parting again, tongue darting out to moisten them, going silent for a moment, "who'd ya find?" is the question he eventually settles on, averting his gaze from her for a moment.
"i - you know the guy i work with? jake?" joel immediately realizes - the man that always let his girl leave with him a little early. the guy who seemed decent enough, respectful enough. it made him swallow harshly, not sure how to process the thought, but being unable to ignore the slow, interested churn in his stomach, "did - should i have found someone else?" he can hear the light edge of panic in her voice, and he's quick to shake his head.
"no - no, darlin'. that's the surprise, then? we meetin' him tonight?" she nods slowly, still unsure of his reaction. he places an arm around her, pulling her close to him, and burying his nose in her hair. "re ya excited?" she stills for a moment, before nodding, a little sheepish.
"yup." his response is immediate.
"greedy girl."
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the bar has a quiet lull to it, though it's a saturday. there are a few patrons milling about - in the booths, or by the bar. they step into the warm atmosphere after the cold of the night, and she can feel goosebumps rise - due to the weather change or the anticipation, she doesn't know.
joel's warm - as always - against her back, so close to her that she feels like she can scarcely breathe. his gripping her tightly by the waist, fingers tapping on her shirt - almost contemplatively. she sees jake by the bar, and he makes eye-contact with her over the rim of his glass of beer. she waves a hello, before guiding her boyfriend towards him.
she slides into the stool beside him, tentatively giving him a hug in greeting. she doesn't usually do it in front of joel, but she figured, by the end of the night, he'd be used to much, much more, so who cared? jake mumbles a quick hi to her, before leaning back.
"hey, joel." he also speaks hesitantly, nodding at the other man. she turns to watch his reaction, and sees that the stern expression that he always kept on his face hadn't exactly left. she watched him swallow, shuffling on his feet.
"yeah. hey." it's a gruff response, but it's, at least, a response. she rolls her shoulders, a small smile growing on her lips.
"well, i think it'd be best we have a little to drink?" it's not a question, but it's got the intonation of one, as she looks for support for the idea from her two companions. joel nods, and jake calls the bartender over, requesting 3 drinks.
she only planned on them staying about half or three-quarters of the hous, before heading back. now, it had progressed to be a few minutes past an hour and a half, and it didn't look like anyone was particularly ready. jake had been maintaining a respectful distance, talking to her, and trying to engage joel in conversation, but the other man was dismissive at best and just silent at worst.
thus, she'd been engaged in conversation with jake instead - boring stuff, such as the town's gossip, about work, or about something newly stupid the man had done. she'd laughed - in fact, she'd keeled over laughing at his story, a hand at the bar and the other at the man's arm to steady herself.
though, she felt herself lose that touch quickly, as joel's hands grip her waist to keep her grounded - maybe a little tighter than his normal hold.
nonetheless, through the conversation, she had tried to listen along to jake's stories, and include joel in their conversation, but it didn't seem to be working - and, after the third beer, her confidence was supremely dwindling.
when jake had been recognized by someone else that he knew, moving just a meter or two from the couple to greet the other person, joel had pulled her flush against him, his torso warm against hers as his mouth adjusted to be at her ear-level.
"i dunno 'bout this, sweetheart." he whispers it into her cheek, and it makes her features contort into confusion, but she doesn't turn to him.
"why not?" she whispers back, a bit confused by the change of pace from the afternoon. after a moment passed, and he hadn't answered, she turned to face him. there's a distinct discomfort on his face: a sour expression, his frown deeper than usual. he wasn't looking at her, though; his eyes instead trailed jake's quiet conversation with his friend. she felt a heaviness overcome her, along with realization, "if you don't want to - we can go..." she trails off, giving him space to respond, and she can feel his sharp inhale against her skin, contemplating the idea.
"baby, i you want to - i can, but-" she immediately shakes her head.
"'t's 'lright, we can go. i don't really mind." she gives him a small, almost reassuring smile, and, after another second, he nods. he pushes both of their empty drinks so that they're not teetering on the edge of the bar, and she quickly walks over to jake. he immediately takes notice of her.
"hey, you ready-" he begins, but, seeing the other person who was still speaking with jake, her eyes widen, quick to cut him off and turn him to face her, indicating a more private conversation.
"no! i mean - i dunno, jake - he's not up for it, i think." she tries to be as discreet as possible, but jake's worried expression as he glances over at her boyfriend forces her to suppress an eye-roll at his blatantness.
"i - is he alright, i mean - i'm-?" he's stammering a bit, and she smiles, knowing what he's actually stressed about.
"he's not gonna do anything, i swear." jake's eyes flickered over to joel's ever stern face, not really reassured. nevertheless, he nods.
"okay - you guys going, then?"
"yeah - early night, but whatever. i'll see you monday?" he's quick to agree, waving her off as she returned to joel, "'lright, we heading home?" joel's still looking at the other man, and she lightly presses against his forearm to get his attention. he finally switches his attention to her, a contemplative glaze in his eyes. he hums lightly, and she's about to repeat the question, before he's shaking his head.
"no. not yet, baby." she's a little confused, until he takes her hand in his own warm, large one, gently guiding her to him, "i've got an idea. d'ya trust me?" her eyes follow his movements: the slight fire in his eyes, the hidden smirk on his lips, the impatient tapping of his fingers on the back of her palm, and she's suddenly very intrigued. she nods slowly - of course she trusted him - and the smirk seems to grow.
they duck away from the crowd, towards the back of the bar, and into the bathrooms. now, she's even more confused, as she surveys the hints of the old jackson on the walls as joel ushers her inside - closing and locking the door behind her. there's scribbles on the walls - marker, pen, paint, nail marks - and she finds it a bit difficult to move too much between the space that her and her boyfriend were occupying in the small bathroom. it was quite bare-bones, but it was at least clean - she remembered thinking, distracted enough by the setting to not notice joel's wandering hands making their way to the front of her jeans.
when she does, she lets out a gasp, gripping them before they reach her button, stilling his movements.
"what're you doing?" it'd have been more shocked and indignant if they weren't still in decent earshot of some of the tables - she could hear music and people decently through the wooden door of the bathroom.
"i need you - right now, baby. you gonna let me make you feel good?" he mumbles it into her neck, not letting her confusing defer him as his lips trace over the side of her throat. she feels her hands grow a bit shakier, realizing why this sudden urge had overcome him, but that didn't stop her hesitance.
"i - joel, there're people outside - what if someone hears us?" he's pecking away at her resolve, though, as his hands travel up her body, pulling up the sweater she's wearing along with them.
"let 'em baby, let him hear how good i'm making ya feel." alright, this was a bit out of character for him - obviously spurred on by recent events - but the way he was moving definitely indicated his desperation. finally, she secedes, rolling her eyes as she tells him to be quiet nonetheless. cheekily, he responds, "remind yourself, sweetheart." he grasps the button of her jeans, taking it off with ease, as her own hands go to grip the edge of the sink in front of them, desperately trying not to see her own flushed appearance in the mirror, and focusing instead on the movements of his hands.
he's pulling her trousers down before she can even focus all that much, just far enough to rest under her ass, allowing his hand to snake around and find her cloth-covered clit, rubbing harshly before she has a chance to realize. it causes a squeak to emit from her, making her throw a hand over her mouth, forcing herself to bite down on her finger to avoid alerting the populace of the bar to the unsavory acts occurring.
her other hand reaches desperately to slow the wake of his hand's force, grasping uselessly against his forearm as his fingers continue their assault, feeling her hips involuntarily buck against his ministrations, her thighs hitting against the sink whenever she did. his other hand pulls her underwear down to join her jeans, his hand only relenting for half a moment before it immediately reconnected with her slit, collecting the evidence of her arousal on the tips of his fingers, before bringing the thick digits to his mouth. she follows the movement of his tongue across the slick on his fingers through the mirror, having to avert her gaze for fear of letting out a loud noise at the lewd action.
her bare ass begins rubbing against his clothed cock, begging for some renewed friction and - due to his kindness, or his own desperation - he obliges her immediately, unbuckling, unbuttoning and unwearing his trousers in swift, measured movements. even through her impatience, she can appreciate the speed with which she could feel the head of his cock against her cunt, pressing against her with a striking warmth, as she bit her tongue to little success - a small moan still slipping out from her teeth.
he places a hand to each of her own, placing them in an almost bracing position against the sides of the sink, before gripping her hip, and guiding his cock into her with the other. she can see her face change as she feels the movement inside her - and, better yet, she can see his: a pretty, flushed expression as he struggled to contain his own strength, as indicated by the grit of his teeth and the twitch of his fingers as they all come to rest on her waist.
she bites her lip, feeling his hips make contact with her ass - the feeling of fullness overtaking her senses as she desperately attempted to focus on not screaming.
though, when he began moving, she could feel that resolve crumbling: a large gasp escaping on the first thrust, then a small whimper on the second and - soon enough, full blown moans, echoing over the small room, accompanied by his own grunts and groans.
he lets out a sharp exhale, a ghost of a laugh, pulling her back to rest closer to him as his pace maintained - pushing and pulling inside her with a determination and dexterity.
"what happened, baby? though ya wanted to be quiet?" it takes a moment for her brain to even comprehend what he was saying, and only a garbled noise awaited him in response. she can see his smile against her skin - right next to her completely debauched face, which he also seems to notice, "look'it ya, yer so pretty, baby girl, my pretty girl, ain't ya?" she can hear how his own words are sloppy but unrelenting, as he gets lost in the feel of her. she immediately nods along, knowing that her stream of half-muffled moans didn't suffice an answer.
"joel - i - too loud-" through her mess, he could make out a hint of worry still present in her fucked-out nature, worried about the knowledge of their actions occurring to those outside the room. he finally relents - though he loves the idea of others hearing her noises for him, and only him.
"'lright, pretty, you just can't be quiet, huh?" there's a light hint of degradation in his tone, but not an actual lie in his words, and the events of the evening made it so she wasn't exactly shameful in that moment, so she simply nods. he obliges her untold request, taking a hand off her waist and pushing it over her mouth, muffling her moans to a much more effective degree. the action forces her head back a little, closer to him, and her back to arch. she glances into the mirror, and sees a smirk appear over joel's panting face.
suddenly, his thrusts are faster, harder, causing her eyes to widen as her fingers scramble to better hold onto the sink. he follows the actions in the mirror, smiling as he sees her reaction, trying to hold it together after his seeming measure of good-will, and subsequent surprise. he watches her eyes roll back into the back of her head, and chest heaving as she desperately tries to reduce her moans, feeling the consequence of her open mouth as her spit falls over his hand.
"that's it baby, take it for me, jus' like that, pretty. ya only get like this for me, don't ya, baby girl, jus' fer me." his pace is unrelenting, spearing into her like it was his last time, while all she could do was nod, mumbling yes's that all got captured in his hand. she can feel her impending orgasm, and she attempts to say something. she doesn't need to though - as he can feel it in the violent flutter of her cunt around him. thus, he doesn't allow his pace to falter, pushing into her that much harder and that much deeper, intently watching her expression in the mirror as all her muscles tense and still: her eyes rolling back, her inhale harsh against the top of his hand, the clench of her around him, the quiet sound that finally emits from her as she feels the orgasm wash over her intensely.
her body fully slumps against him, before she practically falls to her knees, hitting the tile of the bathroom as she grasps his cock and takes him in her mouth, lapping at his underside until her also releases in her mouth with a content groan. she swallows in a heartbeat, the musky taste washing over her tongue as she rises again, gripping the sink behind her to stabilize herself. joel's hands are on her jeans and underwear, helping her pull them up over her ass, before she buttons his jeans and buckles his belt as he checks their appearances, head dipping down to kiss her on the cheek as she caught her breath.
"did so good for me, baby. how're ya feelin'?" she deeply inhales, opening her eyes to look up at him.
"good - good, really good." a smile ghosts over his lips, before he opens the door of the bathroom, ushering her in front of him.
she can feel the eyes on them, and - though joel is a little less abashed - she keeps her gaze glued to the floor as they exit.
the one time she looks up is when joel cheerily waves goodbye to someone, and as she looks at the lucky recipient, she makes eye-contact with jake, who had a bit of a shocked, amused expression on his face. her face whips forwards once more, cheeks burning.
monday's gonna be fun.
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ok okokk i may be pushing it but i just cant stop picturing barry circa 2012 with leaving!bucky. i just feel like theyd have the cutest dynamic ever. he gives art student vibes like maybe hes studying film or literature. theyre childhood bestfriends and maybe they were eachother's homoerotic-codependent-friendship canon event. UGHH theyd be so cute stfuu. and maybe bucky and gale are already established and curt is just yearning for a whileee like over a year of slow burn until the three of them are a throuple... idk i just miss curtbuckbucky. you dont have to change your canon for the long fic i just needed to share this idea lmfao
au post | NO ur not pushing it this is such fun world building teehee <33 genuinely this is gonna help me later for drafting! (FUCK MY LIFE HOW IS THIS 2K WORDS. i thought i only had a few thoughts... i was so wrong. my bad chief. enjoy/suffer ig)
ok so this is so funny because i've actually been thinking ab how sweet those two would be together, cute little nerdy besties, and how they'd meet because of course curt has to be in this fic!!
and the first thing my mind went to was the cliche homoerotic codependent friendship trope too LMAO. i'm feeling like maybe they meet on the first day of highschool; neither of them share their english class with any friends, and they end up sat next to each other, and john keeps sideโ€“eyeing him because curt looks... interesting. (ie: deep into his emo phase. the fringe. the smudged eyeshadow. chipped black nail polish, band shirtsโ€“ all things john does not let him live down as they grow up.)
but his eyes settle on some pin on curt's jacket that has some character from his favourite movie or something, and the yap jumps out, john can't control it. blurts out a "you like ___ too?!" and curt's head snaps over and he nods nervously and john takes one look at those big sad charcoalโ€“ringed blue puppy eyes and is like yup. this is the one. will protect with my life.
(tiny headcanon that rly won't have a big effect on plot or anything, but i feel like it just fits very well with john/his character in leavingโ€“ dude's got madddd undiagnosed adhd. he's written off as a loud mouth/troublemaker in his childhood, but he wants to be a good kid, his mind is just always going too fast and sitting still is torture and his parents get frustrated and don't look into the root of the problem, trying to discipline it out of him instead. i will heal my inner child by healing him alright)
they're attached at the hip from that moment on and it makes sense to no one because they seem like complete opposites, curt more inclined towards the arts and bookish things and his friends are all the same, whereas john is more inclined towards athletics and science and hangs around that type of crowd as well. but they both love video games and movies and music and they bond over never really feeling like they fit in anywhere particular and both groups of friends get along just fine when they all get together. <3
but yk time goes on, they learn things about themselves as they grow up, and curt and john are so close and spend so much time together that they're already a lot closer than regular friendsโ€“ they just don't realize it. they think nothing of cuddling up on the couch watching movies together, or sharing a bed when john stays over at curt's place after he gets into a fight with his parents, or being much more interested in spending time together than pursuing girls.
and curt's prettyโ€“ john nearly mistakes him for a girl that first day they meet. the summer before their senior year, john practically spends the whole summer at curt's house, and curt's mom doesn't mind; she works long hours and is glad her son isn't spending the summer moping around indoors alone, and she loves john and gets the feeling that her home is a sanctuary for him. one day they're in the backyard lazing around, and they get onto the topic of first kisses, and neither of them have had a proper relationship outside of those classic weekโ€“long middleschool flings that don't actually mean anything, so there's not much to talk about.
but being dumb teenage boys, they start worrying about "what if we're really bad at kissing and no girls wanna go with us to senior prom this year" etc. and one of them pops the suggestion of practicing together, and thus begins a summer of sweet stolen kisses and hand holding and experimenting and dancing around calling it something. it ends when the summer does because they realize that they both work better as friends, but they're as close as ever and both definitely learn they aren't straight (and they probably make a cute pactโ€“ย "if we aren't in love by the time we're thirty, we'll just marry each other.")
i don't see them really doing much together because they're young and shy and inexperienced, but it's enough for john to decide that yeah, he definitely likes guys too, but that's all that really amounts to (until he meets gale) because he's growing up in a small town in wisconsin and it's not the easiest/most accepting place to find other queers. john probably ends up dating a real sweet girl during his last year of highschool, but she's going away for college and john's going to a local one so it ends amicably at the end of summer, both of them staying close friends. (if we wanna get sickeningly wholesome, maybe she ends up pining for a girl while john's pining for gale and they share their little stories and give each other advice and facetime every week to catch up <3)
(++ curt ends up falling head over heels for ken, who he meets through john when curt and john's friend groups get together for movie nights or summer parties. john pretends to be annoyed at how lovesick they are when they first start crushing, but he ends up matchmaking and being the one to push them to confess their feelings after graduation because he loves his friends.)
BUT THEN, leaving this fic's 'canon' to elaborate on the throuple stuff you said! i miss curtbuckbucky too </3
in a separate universe, curt doesn't end up with ken, and as much as he loves his friendship with john and agrees that a relationship wouldn't have worked at that time in their lives, he spends that first year of college pining. when john starts talking about some guy named gale during their second year, he's a little sad, but mostly protective, because "what do you MEAN he's in his 30s??" and "he's a BIKER?"
but john eventually introduces him to gale after a few months of telling curt about him, probably once he and gale actually start seeing each other, and curt immediately gets it. and then he's in doubleโ€“hell because not only is he a bit (a lot) in love with his best friend, but he's blushing every time said best friend's new bf talks to him, and they're gonna notice eventually if they haven't already and he feels so guilty.
more yearning ensues and john is dense and doesn't realize but gale picks up on it, maybe even notices john doing a bit of pining of his own that john's not fully aware of. and his heart twists because his mind goes to his own insecurities about how john should be seeing someone his own age, so he sits john down and opens up a conversation about it. john is adamant that he's very, very happy with gale, but he tells gale about his and curt's past and admits that he has always still had feelings for him, but insists that it's not something he'd ever pursue, that he values curt's friendship more.
gale throws him off by saying he wouldn't mind if john wanted to explore those feelings, and at first john gets anxious gale is calling things off with the two of them and this is his way of softening the blow, but gale reassures him that's not the case, that he's very happy with their relationship. he just encourages that if he wants to talk to curt and feel things out, he wouldn't be opposed to john and curt seeing each other as wellโ€“ gale's often busy, after all, so it would be nice for john to have someone else, as long as curt's comfortable with that kind of arrangement and as long as john keeps gale in the loop.
they decide to kinda just feel it out as they go, but soon enough gale starts coming home from work every so often to find the two of them curled up on his couch together, sweet and innocent. curt's wary at first, always slightly detaching himself from john when gale's around, but gale is always friendly and doesn't change up his routine, settling on the couch at john's other side like it's not a big deal at all, wanting to show curt he's welcome there, not wanting john to feel guilty.
it's another scenario where lines just sorta start to blur over time, curt spending a lot of time over at gale's house, and gale sees the way curt looks at him, probably noticed it from the first time they met but chalked it up to nerves at the time. curt's an angel and he's grown quite fond of him, but he doesn't want to overstep, so he leaves it up to curt, thinking maybe the boy will mention it to john one day and john will in turn come to gale to talk about it.
and eventually that happens, just like gale thought it might. curt's just gone home and john's head is in his lap on the couch while they watch tv, and john asks "what do you think about curt?" and gale tells him that he's sweet and he loves how much john smiles when he's around him, the usual. "so you like him?" john pushes, and gale immediately has a feeling where this conversation is going, drags his eyes away from the tv to look down at john.
says "of course" easily, and lets john take his time forming his thoughts. john ends up telling him that he and curt were fooling around earlier while gale was at work (and god help gale for the images that puts in his head) and that he'd made some offhand comment about how curt better hurry up if he doesn't want gale to come home and catch him half naked on their couch. and john's all shy when he says "and curt, uh. y'know. that... did it for him" with a vague gesture LOL. gale never fails to find it amusing how certain things can fluster john to talk about after all they've done together.
"so, anyway. i asked him about it after, if it was a coincidence, and he was real shy about it, but he did admit after a whole lot of apologizing that he likes you." gale listens to him nervously get his words out, petting his hair encouragingly, waits for him to be done before he asks "how do you feel about that?" only to watch the flush return when john mumbles "it's hot."
this is getting sooo long i need to take away my own typing privileges, but basically that's how things would start between the three of themโ€“ john and gale agree that gale will let himself be a bit flirty with curt and see how curt takes it. obviously this goes a little too well when curt gets hot and bothered sat between john and gale during a movie night with john's hand on his knee and gale's arm resting on the couch behind him while he plays with curt's hair.
the movie is forgotten when gale's finger catches on a tangled curl and curt doesn't bite back the little whine that slips out in time and john's head snaps over and he mumbles a "fuck" when he realizes what's happened, and his lack of filter comes out to play when he turns to curt and asks "curt, can gale kiss you?" and curt turns to gale with big doll eyes and nods.
john ends up palming himself over his shorts as he watches gale coax curt into his lap, face hot and pupils blown as he gets to see both his guys make out in front of him, almost dizzy seeing curt get so shy and needy and pliant because when it's just the two of them, he and curt are both very balanced in their dynamic. they've been such close friends for so long that not much gets the other truly shy like that, and they're always quick to voice their wants and crack jokes while fooling around and all. so to see curt get so flustered in that way with gale has him lightheaded, and by the time they all collapse into gale's bed at the end of the night, john's convinced this is the best decision he's ever made.
there's a lot of pining on curt's end because for a while it's kinda just sex when it's the three of them, and he loves it but he also finds himself wanting more but feeling too scared to voice it because he feels like he's intruding. but eventually they all get their shit sorted out; curt fits into their relationship just right in a way gale and john never intended or expected, and gale falls for curt just as much as john has and curt does the same with gale.
gale's got two sweet things glued to his side now and man, do they ever give him a run for his money, and if he'd thought john had too much energy (and stamina) it's nothing compared to keeping up with both of them, but he wouldn't have it any other way. <3
throuple things won't be happening in the actual fic, but i do love the idea of exploring the dynamic the three of them might have in a spinโ€“off of that au so this was rly fun thx :-) maybe i'll write a pwp oneshot set in that universe as an excuse to write more curtbuckbucky once the fic is done LOL we'll see!
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moriihana ยท 2 years ago
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we canโ€™t fix each other but we sure as hell can enable each other instead || eighteen: desolation
pairing: dabi x disabled!gn!reader
overview: you meet dabi pre-canon because your cat, nugget, literally wonโ€™t leave the guy alone. friendship, fluff and (eventual) angst ensue.
chapter summary: you deal with emotions and dabi has to seek you out.
content: angst with fluff ig
word count: 1135
a/n: sorry this took so long to get out, last month marked the one year anniversary of me getting kicked out so i've been havin' a rough go of it ^^;
taglist: @iincandescenttt
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You looked out at the destruction Shigaraki had wrought from where you sat atop a building, your legs dangling off the side and a frown on your face. The unmistakable sound of Dabiโ€™s footsteps caught your attention.ย 
โ€œHey mouse. Youโ€™re awfully close to the edge there. Whatโ€™re ya doinโ€™ up here all alone?โ€
You glanced over your shoulder at him before turning your gaze back to the desolation. โ€œHi, Touya. Iโ€™m just thinking. Whatโ€™s up?โ€
โ€œYouโ€™ve been avoiding me.โ€ Dabi sat next to you, frustration evident in his voice. โ€œFess up.โ€
โ€œI havenโ€™t been avoiding just you, pretty boyโ€”Iโ€™ve been avoiding everyone.โ€ When he clicked his tongue in disapproval, you sighed, โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ tired, Touya. I miss Twice, and Mister. Himiko hasnโ€™t been the same, either. And Shigarakiโ€ฆโ€ Your voice took on a dark tone, a snarl lurking at the edges of it. โ€œI knew he shouldnโ€™t have gone through with the procedure. That bastardโ€™s trying to steal his body. His expiration date passed lifetimes ago, and now heโ€™s just trying to cheat death. Heโ€™s scared of not being in control.
โ€œIs it worth it, Touya? Losing our friends? Possibly our lives and our freedom if we fail? Every time I stop to think for too long, I see Twiceโ€™s body and the life leaving his eyes. I think about how I couldnโ€™t save him. What if Himikoโ€™s next? Or you? What if youโ€™re next, Touya?โ€ Your voice wavered, breaking at the end. โ€œI canโ€™t lose you. I canโ€™t.โ€
Dabi pulled you into his side, pressing an uncharacteristically gentle kiss to the crown of your head. โ€œTwiceโ€™s death hit Toga hard, but the kidโ€™ll be fine. Sheโ€™s a big girl. As for meโ€ฆ I promised you I wasnโ€™t goinโ€™ anywhere, doll,โ€ he said quietly. โ€œIโ€™ll crawl out of my goddamn grave if I have toโ€”I ainโ€™t leavinโ€™ ya here alone.โ€
Your bottom lip trembled and you bit back a sob. โ€œIโ€™m scared, Touya. For the first time, I have people outside of you, Nugget and Boo that I care aboutโ€”Iโ€™m scared the heroes are gonna rip it away from me,โ€ you warbled. โ€œOr me away from it.โ€
โ€œI wonโ€™t let that happen. I made a you promise, doll, and Iโ€™m not one to break promises.โ€
You sniffled, burying yourself further into Dabiโ€™s side. โ€œI know,โ€ you whispered. โ€œBut things donโ€™t always go our way.โ€
With a deep sigh, Dabi shifted look at your face, ignoring your whine of protest as he lifted your chin to make eye contact. โ€œDoll, thereโ€™s no use in worrying about that right now. I donโ€™t know why all thatโ€™s botherinโ€™ you so much all of the sudden, but shitโ€™s goinโ€™ our way for now, so enjoy it while it lasts, yeah?โ€
You pouted, but mumbled a quiet โ€˜got itโ€™ anyways. โ€œWhatโ€™s so funny?โ€ You huffed when he chuckled affectionately. He gave you a quick kiss to your forehead.
โ€œYouโ€™re cute when you pout.โ€
โ€œOh, fuck off.โ€ You punched him lightly in the chest, though you had a small smile on your face. โ€œAsshole.โ€
โ€œThere we go.โ€ Dabi brushed his thumb across your bottom lip. โ€œAs adorable as you are when you pout, I wanted to see ya smile.โ€
You narrowed your eyes and bit his thumb playfully. โ€œDisgusting. Canโ€™t believe youโ€™re being affectionate, pretty boy. Gross. Get that outta here, youโ€™ll make me sick.โ€
He rolled his eyes, flicking your forehead. โ€œAlright, alright. Glad to see youโ€™re back to normal. Seeing you all mopey and shitโ€™s depressinโ€™ as hell.โ€
You snorted, shaking your head. โ€œYeah, whatever. Was there anything else you needed, or were you just being a grump over not having my undivided attention?โ€
โ€œAh, rightโ€”Togaโ€™s also been mopey and shit. Itโ€™s annoying. Cheer her up.โ€
โ€œWhat makes you think I can cheer her up?โ€
โ€œThe kid loves you.โ€ Dabi shrugged. โ€œIf anyone can make her get over her feelings or whatever, outside of those hero brats, itโ€™s you.โ€
You hummed. โ€œ...yeah, alright. You know where she is?โ€ You moved away from Dabi and grabbed your cane, hauling yourself off the concrete floorโ€”or roof, technicallyโ€”with a grunt. You adjusted your knee brace and brushed off your pants, then held out a hand to help Dabi up. He took it, pulling himself up.
โ€œI have a hunch. Not too far from here, follow me.โ€ย 
You cracked your neck and trailed after him, your free hand shoved in your pocket. โ€œHowโ€™d you know where I was?โ€ You asked as you two walked, curious.
โ€œAsked All For One to look for you,โ€ Dabi drawled. โ€œDidnโ€™t actually expect him to cooperate, considering how much shit ya give the dude.โ€
โ€œMaybe if he werenโ€™t a creep and absolute garbage, I wouldnโ€™t give him shit,โ€ you grumbled, scowling. โ€œI hate the guy.โ€
Dabi snorted, โ€œWeโ€™re all well aware of that.โ€
You fell silent, a weariness settling deep in your bonesโ€”or maybe it was just the stiffness from the cold and sitting on a hard concrete roof. You looked around as you passed through devastation with Dabi, listening for the sounds of possible danger. Shadows of fleeing civilians moved in the corners of your eyes as they recognised who you both were. As you walked through a slightly less destroyed and slightly more populated area, you caught the sound of multiple footsteps crunching on debris. You paused when you noticed the footsteps were growing closer and reached out, your fingers curling around the back of Dabiโ€™s coat. โ€œTouya,โ€ you murmured, standing stock-still. โ€œTrouble.โ€
Stopping when he felt you tug on his coat, Dabi let out a dry chuckle when you let him know people were approaching. โ€œWe both know nobody stands a chance against my flames.โ€
โ€œOf course I know that, pretty boy, but we both also know that support items have been made widely available. We donโ€™t know what they might have,โ€ you hissed, tightening your grip. โ€œJust be on guard.โ€
โ€œI always am,โ€ Dabi scoffed.
You nodded and released his coat, moving your hand to your thigh to pull your knife out of its sheath. You kept a secure hold on it as you resumed walking, hyper-aware of the crunching behind you. About ten minutes passed before the footsteps sped up and someone called out to you and Dabi aggressively.
โ€œHey! You two arenโ€™t welcome here!โ€ย 
With a sigh, you turned around to face the three people who approached. You took note of the weapons that two of them held, satisfaction glinting in your eyes as you watched fear wash over them. โ€œWeโ€™re just passing through,โ€ you said lightly. โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t have troubled us.โ€
โ€œTch.โ€ Dabi clicked his tongue and incinerated the threeโ€”they didnโ€™t even have time to scream.
You rolled your eyes, but put your knife back. โ€œWell, thatโ€™s dealt with. Canโ€™t believe they didnโ€™t recognise us beforehandโ€ฆโ€ you snorted. โ€œAlright then, letโ€™s go find Himiko.โ€
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translucent-at-best ยท 1 year ago
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Scatter-brained...
Castlevania an alright show for real. I just started season 3, but judging by how quickly I've been getting through the episodes. I'm going to finish em all by the time I go home this weekend.
Speaking of which... I hope this week flies. I'm so ready to be back around my people. I'm excited for the hugs, fulfilling folks' cookie orders, and the cousins are already trying to plan a quick DC trip. I ain't mad at all.
I read my scatter-brained posts in my voice, but I just realized y'all have never heard my voice. I wonder... do y'all just read them in your voice or did you assign one to me?
I've always known that it was a thing (and that it's a thing that I really enjoy), but I just learned the phrase "parallel play." Like we ain't got to always be up under each other, but it's comforting being alone, together.
Finally got my security deposit back from the old place. Now how we paid $500 two years ago and got $600 back, I'm not sure. But I'm not about to put a question mark where God put a period. And it was just payday? ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ
I'm itching to buy a plane ticket because since I forgot to expect it, this feels like a surprise extra money. But nooo, I got sponserbileries nshit.
Maybe it's the PMS, but I've been thinking a lot about my first heartbreak recently. I don't know if I've fully dealt with how his sudden switch-up affected my sense of trust. Lord knows I've tried though. This might be something I need to work out with a therapist. Me dealing with it on my own doesn't seem to be working out like I hoped it would.
I slept on Kenyon Dixon, but his Closer and The R&B You Love albums have been in heavy rotation these past couple weeks.
I am my father's child. Give me 15 minutes with a mafia or sports documentary and you won't have to worry about me for hours.
I hate that these phones be listening to us, but the fact that I was just told I need my cabin air and engine filters changed and that it'll cost me $200+ and IG out here sliding tutorials in my algorithm so I can do it myself is clutch as hell. We serve an on-time God.
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audioaujom ยท 1 year ago
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27: Victim's Memoirs [wrong end 4 โ˜…5]
Corpse Party Hub, < prev, next >
This is wrong end 4 โ˜…5 from Chapter 2! A lot of these bad endings are fucked up and awful but I honestly debated not writing this one because itโ€™s nasty, butโ€ฆ when whump calls lmao
I've also written (or begun writing) nearly every other bad ending for this game and I guess this one felt left out idk
I know compared to a lot of the other graphic shit on this hellsite this is probably nothing, but Iโ€™d feel uncomfortable posting this without a bunch of warnings. I donโ€™t really have a taste for such graphic things, but Iโ€™m actually kind of pleased with how it came out. I like the ick ig Be safe and enjoy responsibly.
Pairing: Ranboo and Charlie
Word Count: 3190
Chapter TWs: Mind Manipulation ("Darkening"), Graphic Depictions of Violence, Gore, Implied/Referenced Cannibalism, Vomiting, Character Death
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โ€œWhoa hey, do you see that?โ€ Charlie asked as he stepped out of the classroom, Ranboo poking his head out the door to look over his friendโ€™s shoulder at the floor.
โ€œThe notebook paper with blood on it?โ€ Ranboo asked, Charlie turning around to face him with a sinister grin. โ€œYeah, I see it. Why?โ€
โ€œCโ€™mon, arenโ€™t you curious?โ€ Charlie all but whined, his eyes darting back and forth between the page and Ranbooโ€™s disapproving glare from the doorway.
โ€œUhm, not really. Whatโ€™s it gonna say? โ€˜Hereโ€™s how to get out of this horrible haunted elementary school in three easy stepsโ€™?โ€ย 
โ€œIt could!โ€ Ignoring the obvious deadpan, Charlie smiled hopefully up at Ranbooโ€”who just sighed and shook his head.
โ€œNo, it really couldnโ€™t.โ€ Ranboo then paused, an unreadable look crossing his face before he continued, โ€œBut Iโ€™m not going to stop you if you do wanna look.โ€
โ€œAha! You are curious!โ€ Charlie poked a finger into the taller boyโ€™s chest, his smile splitting into a wide grin. โ€œItโ€™s just as I suspected!โ€ Triumphant, he turned and swiped the paper up off the ground, eyes scanning the page from behind his glasses before his grip on the page tightened and his face paled. โ€œOh. Oh god nevermind.โ€
โ€œWhat? Whatโ€™s it say?โ€ Ranboo asked, his own curiosity morbidly piqued by Charlieโ€™s horror, taking the scrap paper from his friend who passed it over wordlessly.
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” I ate my friend today. What else was I supposed to do? I was starving. We both were. And there's no food here. So we decided, together, that one of us should try to live just a little bit longer. If I ever get home, I'm supposed to tell all the people waiting for us what happened. We left it all up to a game of rock-paper-scissors. Loser eats winner. And I lost. I felt her blood going down my throat, quenching my thirst. And her meat was surprisingly satisfying. But that blood and that meat was once my friend. Up until just a few hours before, I'd been talking with her. As I feasted, I just kept thinking, this food used to be a person. Before I tore it apart, it all worked together to sustain a life. And every time I thought about that, I just started cryingโ€ฆ and I couldn't stop. I wanted some part of her to be with me even after she died, so I decided to keep one of her eyeballs. And I thought maybe I should write all of this down, to help preserve some small portion of my sanity. โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
โ€œOh.โ€ Ranboo gagged in disgust and horror, dropping the page to put one hand over his mouth as the other went to clutch at his stomach. โ€œWell, alright. Thatโ€™sโ€ฆ wow, okay. Umโ€ฆโ€
โ€œCouldnโ€™t have said it better myself.โ€ Charlie tried to joke, but it fell flat as his voice shook nervously. He then put a gentle hand on Ranbooโ€™s shoulder, quietly suggesting, โ€œLetโ€™s justโ€ฆ leave that there.โ€
โ€œYeah. Good idea.โ€ Ranboo nodded, staring down at the paper on the floor, his look turning to a slight glare. โ€œJust when I think things canโ€™t get any worseโ€ฆโ€
โ€œCโ€™mon, let's keep looking somewhere else.โ€ Charlie offered, lightly pulling Ranboo by the arm away from the classroom and towards the stairs.
The two silently made their way back down to the first floor, wanting to search in a more orderly fashion by working their way up from the bottom. By the time theyโ€™d made it downstairs the odd tension in the air had already dissipated, them hunting in a much more comfortable silence untilโ€”
โ€œUhmโ€ฆ Ranboo? Is thatโ€ฆ?โ€ Charlie asked tentatively, pointing at another rather innocuous piece of notebook paper lying behind a ruined table near the rows of shoe shelves at the front doors.
โ€œAnother bloody piece of notebook paper probably containing horror beyond my worst imagination?โ€ Ranboo responded rhetorically, giving Charlie a look as he blandly stated, โ€œI think so.โ€
โ€œWould it be wrong of me to say Iโ€™m still curious?โ€ Glancing at Ranboo beside him, Charlie quickly backpedaled, โ€œNot in a weird sort of way, I justโ€ฆ if itโ€™s from the same person I want to know what happened to them.โ€
Ranboo stared at him blankly. โ€œWhy are you asking for my permission?โ€ย 
โ€œIt makes me feel better.โ€
โ€œWow, no hesitation there.โ€ Ranboo shook his head at his friendโ€™s immediate answer, sighing and gesturing forward at the page. โ€œSure. Go read it if you really want to.โ€
โ€œOkay!โ€ Charlie nodded, jogging forward and crouching down before looking up as he realized he wasn't being followed. โ€œAre you not coming too?โ€
Ranboo stood still for a long moment before he finally gave in and stepped over with a quiet, โ€œ...coming.โ€ย 
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” I hold, in the palm of my hand... a piece of a person's body. A piece of a person who was living and breathing only a short while ago. This body part used to be attached to her head. And now, I'm walking around the school with it. I had no idea eyeballs were so heavy. And I just keep squishing it in the palm of my hand, as if I'm testing its firmness. Squeeze, and release... Squeeze, and releaseโ€ฆ โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
โ€œOkay.โ€ Charlie announced, dropping the page immediately after finishing it. โ€œSomehow thatโ€™s worse than the vivid description of cannibalism.โ€
โ€œCouldnโ€™t have said it better myself.โ€ Ranboo grinned as Charlie turned to look at him, betrayed.
โ€œHey! Thatโ€™s my line!โ€ He whined with his own smile, before it slowly faded alongside the playful air as realization started to dawn on his face. โ€œBut dudeโ€ฆ this place is really fucked up. The bodies we keep coming across are all of kids, which meansโ€”โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t. Iโ€™m gonna stop you right there.โ€ Ranboo cut him off, firmly waving both of his hands and shaking his head for emphasis. โ€œI donโ€™tโ€ฆ donโ€™t. Nope. I am not going to think about the implications. You are not going to think about the implications. There are no implications. None.โ€
Charlie nodded, his widened eyes slowly closing as he let out a breath to calm himself down. โ€œNo problem.โ€ย 
Working their way around the main floor and then to the row of first floor classrooms, the second pageโ€”while weirdโ€”was long forgotten as the two briefly bickered about how to open the nailed shut door at the back of 2-A until Ranboo remembered the nail puller theyโ€™d found earlier. The secret room was strange, with large gaps in the floor and a mechanism at the far corner, the two venturing all the way to the back corner to look over the mechanism to try and figure out what it did.
โ€œ...Charlie.โ€ It was Ranboo who broke the silence this time, an arm flying out to the side to stop Charlie in his tracks about halfway into the room. The two boys paused, both noticing the page on the floor.
โ€œAre these notes following us around or something?โ€ Charlie questioned with a frown, pushing Ranbooโ€™s arm away. โ€œCause we canโ€™t seem to go more than a few feet without finding another one.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t like this at all.โ€ย 
โ€œYeah, thatโ€™sโ€ฆ fair.โ€ Nodding to himself, Charlie paused before shuffling forward a few steps. โ€œ...Iโ€™ve gotta, right?โ€
โ€œNo, you really donโ€™t.โ€ Ranboo answered, Charlie ignoring him as he bent down to pick up the page with a shit-eating grin. โ€œThat sounds like a yes to me!โ€
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” I've been searching every last corner of this school building, trying to find a way of escaping with her. But it's not happening. No matter how much we struggle, only further misery awaits us. I'm so unbearably thirstyโ€ฆ so hungry that it feels like my stomach is eating itself... And every moment, it gets worse. It's like a big, black mass in front of me that's slowly closing in. I can't keep ignoring it. I've started talking to the eyeball in my hand, to help stay focused and maintain my sanity. Stop looking at me like that! I swear, I'll find us a way out of here! I have to make sure I tell your family what you did for meโ€ฆ โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
โ€œHopeless. Lovely.โ€ Ranboo commented from over one of Charlieโ€™s shoulders, watching as his friend curiously started re-reading a section of the note.
โ€œWhatโ€™s that black mass thing they were talking about?โ€ Charlie asked after he finished looking over the page, setting it back down with a huff. โ€œThat sounds a little more imposing than the hunger or thirst.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not sureโ€ฆ but whatever it is we should avoid it if we can.โ€ Ranboo sighed, staring down at the note on the floor, lost in thought.
โ€œOh. I assumed that went without saying.โ€ Charlie agreed, before smirking and commenting, โ€œYโ€™know, to avoid the big black ball.โ€
โ€œDude.โ€ย 
โ€œNot evenย  a sliver of a smile?โ€ Smirk dropping, Charlie sighed and shook his head. โ€œThrow me a bone here man, Iโ€™m trying to cheer you up.โ€
โ€œ...thanks.โ€ Ranboo smiled a little, recognizing Charlieโ€™s effort but still too anxious to actually feel any sense of relief. โ€œBut the best way to cheer me up would be to stop reading these creepy notes and find a way out.โ€
โ€œAye aye, captain.โ€ย 
Ignoring Charlieโ€™s mock salute, they continued investigating each floor systematically in an on and off silence until they reached the end of one of the hallways on the third floor, the two noticing another bloodied page near a particularly large gap in the floorboards.
โ€œOkay, I know you said to stop reading them, but itโ€™s right there.โ€ย 
โ€œI already said I wouldnโ€™t stop you like ten times, Charlie.โ€ Ranboo sighed, watching Charlie run up to the page and instantly scan its contents.
โ€œEpic.โ€ About halfway down the page, Charlie's expression dropped, setting the page down with a wince of nausea. โ€œOh. Nevermind. I think Iโ€™m just gonnaโ€ฆ put this backโ€ฆโ€โ€œWhat did it say?โ€ Ranboo asked curiously, wandering over and picking up the page as soon as it hit the floor.
โ€œOh, you donโ€™t wannaโ€”โ€ Charlie reached out to stop him, but was a moment too late as Ranboo had already begun reading. โ€œWait!โ€
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” I am writing these memoris wit hsticky hansd but its not me that is stiky but somethng else I hope you re not mad about this maybe you will think im a horribl e person but i got hungry again really hungry like i was about to DIE so i I did something I shouldn't have done. I promised myself I would stay sane, and promised myself I wouldn't do what I did, and I am so, so sorry, really, really sorry, really sorry but there is no excuse for what I did. With my bloody hands, I took the thing that I've been squishing, and I put it in my mouth, and I swallowed it. Iateit. โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
โ€œ...yeah.โ€ Ranboo silently let go of the page as Charlie spoke, letting it slowly flutter through the air until it landed at his feet, Charlie grabbing him by the shoulders to maneuver him further down the hall. โ€œLetโ€™s go, Ran.โ€
โ€œYeah.โ€ Ranboo nodded absentmindedly, fiddling with his hands before glancing over at Charlie and timidly asking, โ€œWeโ€™ll figure this out, right? You and me?โ€
โ€œYou and me.โ€ Charlie affirmed, squeezing his shoulders. โ€œWe got this.โ€ย 
No matter how confident Charlie sounded Ranboo couldnโ€™t shake his lingering anxiety, the longer they searched around the school with no clear goal only serving to make it continually spiral. By the time theyโ€™d backtracked to the second floor for a second time, it had gotten so bad he almost didnโ€™t step off the landing and through the doorway to the floor, letting Charlie pull him along as he couldnโ€™t seem to get himself to walk forward. The anxious ice in his veins that had shattered when Charlie urged him forward resurged rapidly after the briefest moment as both of them noticed the paper lying beside the large gap in the floor at the same time.
โ€œ...is thatโ€”?โ€ Charlie asked, cutting himself off as the two stared at the page on the floor.
Ranboo nodded, dread coiling in his stomach as he couldnโ€™t will himself to move any closer to it. โ€œI think it is.โ€
โ€œItโ€™s fine.โ€ Charlie said randomly, pulling Ranboo into a nearby classroom with a soft smile. โ€œIโ€™m not curious.โ€ย 
โ€œWhat? Really?โ€ Ranboo asked, disbelieving, some of the dread giving way to relief as Charlie sounded genuine and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.
โ€œYeah, really. We have other priorities right now.โ€ย 
โ€œYeah. Yeah.โ€ With a short nod from Ranboo, the two went back to investigating the small room. โ€œEverythingโ€™s gonna be fine.โ€
The classroom held nothing useful, Ranboo giving up after a few minutes and slamming shut the teacherโ€™s desk drawer heโ€™d pulled open in a vain hope of finding anything they could possibly use. He turned to comment about the empty nature of the classroom to Charlie, only to realize his friend was no longer beside him. Confused, he poked his head out of the doorway to see where he couldโ€™ve gone in the minute he was distracted with rifling through the desk.
โ€œCharlie? Whereโ€™d youโ€” NO!โ€ The yell of surprise ripped out of Ranboo before he knew what he was saying, staring at where Charlie was crouched on the floor by the staircase with the previously seen note clutched in both of his hands. โ€œCharlie, what are you doing?!โ€
โ€œSorry, Ran. Iโ€™m too curious.โ€ Charlie apologized, flashing him a quick smile. โ€œBesides, this is probably the last one, anyway. No harm, no foul.โ€
Reaching out, Ranboo threw himself forward to try and take the page from Charlieโ€”who easily ducked out of the way. โ€œNo, donโ€™tโ€”!โ€
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” if you are reading this allow me to forewarn you there is no hope of rescue there is nothing to be gained endless wandering and endless torture is the nature of this place i succumbed to my hunger and thirst began nibbling on that corpse again there is no flavor, no sensation just meat and fluid to sate my empty belly i promised i would not desecrate your body any more but i broke that promiseย  pleaseย  forgive me โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
Charlie had barely read the last few words on the page when his vision completely blacked out.
Everything felt wrong.
The last thing Charlie remembered was reading another one of the bloody notesโ€”please forgive meโ€”and then blacking out on the floor. His head hurt and his mouth tasted metallic, a hand coming up to messily wipe some blood leaking out of his mouth as he tried to sit up and figure out what was going on around him.
โ€œShit, my headโ€”!โ€ Charlie glanced around with half-opened eyes, shaking his head and looking around frantically for his friend only to realize he was alone in the hallway. โ€œWhatโ€ฆ oh god, Ranboo? Ranboo?!โ€
Forcing his nauseous body to his knees, he felt his stomach roil and force a line of bile up his throat from the movement, trying hard to swallow it back only for the metallic taste in his mouth to grow stronger.
โ€œWhat the fuck isโ€”?โ€ He asked, cutting himself off to spit out a thick wad of blood that was building up in his mouth, the contents landing in an oddly gloopy pile on the wood between his knees. He spat again, the blood a little thinner but still strange as he recoiled from it and toppled over backwards. โ€œShit, what the fuckโ€ฆ?โ€
Finally looking up and getting his vision to focus, Charlie wished he could fall back unconscious as he realized he wasnโ€™t technically aloneโ€”but the only company he now had was his friendโ€™s unmoving body.
An extreme amount of blood had soaked into the wood flooring beneath Ranbooโ€™s still form, his throat torn open and windpipe crushed, his neck missing a large chunk of jagged flesh from the middle that had already stopped oozing. His mouth and eyes were wide open, the once lively gray now faded, glassy, and frozen in a kind of terror that made Charlie sick to his stomach all over again. The muscles on his upper arms had been torn clean off, white bone sticky with what was left of the crimson tendons and blood missing from his limp armsโ€”one of his elbows bent all the way up the wrong way. His legs werenโ€™t nearly as torn as his arms, but they were ripped by what looked like teeth marks from the knees all the way down to his shoes, pants shredded by the unnatural strength of whatever had attacked and left his mangled body in the middle of the hallway.
โ€œWhat didโ€ฆ what?โ€ Charlie scrambled back up to his hands and knees to crawl up to Ranbooโ€™s body, afraid to touch him as he realized his hands were already slick with the same blood that formed dried drips on the front of his shirtโ€”and was very likely Ranbooโ€™s. โ€œOh god, noโ€ฆ no no no, this some twisted fucking joke, thereโ€™s no way I wouldโ€™veโ€ฆ oh fuckโ€ฆโ€ Metallic twinged bile threatened to rise up his throat again, Charlie only managing to turn his head at the last minute before the vomit could soil Ranbooโ€™s already desecrated corpse. โ€œBloodโ€ฆ everywhere andโ€ฆ noโ€ฆ no, pleaseโ€ฆโ€
Sitting innocently next to the body was a scrap of paper that managed to avoid the worst of the spilled bodily fluids, Charlie reaching for it with shaking hands as he recognized Ranbooโ€™s scrawled handwriting.
โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” Itโ€™s okay, Charlie. I know this wasnโ€™t you. Only the school and that black mist are to blame. If you ever come back to your senses and read thisโ€ฆ Iโ€™m sorry I couldnโ€™t stop you. I hope you make it out. - Ran โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€” โ€”
The rest of the note trailed off into a thick coating of blood, Charlieโ€™s eyes going unfocused with hot tears that gathered in the corners and threatened to stream down his already messy face. โ€œThereโ€™s no way Iโ€ฆ I did thisโ€ฆ?โ€ Charlie asked aloud, his strangely half-full stomach feeling infinitely heavier as he frantically tried to spit or even throw up more of the flesh and blood coating the inside of his throat. โ€œIโ€ฆ oh godโ€ฆโ€
Another retch had vomit with chunks of barely digested muscle landing in front of Charlie, his eyes blurry with now freely flowing tears and an odd faded black tint around the edges that creeped in with a cool chill. One hand went up to claw at his throat as the other braced him against the floor, overwhelmed with a self-loathing so strong it was only rivaled by the innate disgust that stung in his mouth like his stomach acid, him clinging desperately onto the awful feelings as they started to slowly slip away from his conscious grasp into the dark void that gave him a sense of deja-vu to when heโ€™d finished reading the last of the bloody notes.ย 
Charlie was tired and anguished and suddenly overwhelminglyโ€ฆ hungry. He just couldnโ€™t fight it anymore. The hunger ate away at his feelings greedily, him collapsing to the floor as the dark haze re-took over his visionโ€”leaving him in an empty heap of despair lying on the bloodsoaked wood next to Ranbooโ€™s unmoving body.
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jayisanemoig ยท 2 months ago
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panic! at the emo x3 day 8
first of all sorry bout the last post i really dont like getting that serious. im all about the shitz and gigglez. i luv my life lol. also hai its been awhile sorry to my 2 readers i've just had a lot on my plate lately but now we should be getting back to your regularly scheduled program.
so yall, i was gonna tell yall before i went to the concert but um we can see how that turned out,,, anywhoo guess who i saw in concert!?!?!?! well u cant answer cuz ur just reading this and now im kinda talking to myself atp lol. i saw the greatest duo of all time, oh the child i was, depressed, holding on by a thread, and these guys helped me through it all. the one and the only's, TWENTY ONE PILOTS!!! literally worlds cannot describe how much this concert meant to me especially in the kind of stressful times im in right now. ive been listening to twenty one pilots since like 3rd grade and their music is just something that i hold near and dear to my heart. the concert itself was amazing too. it was a stadium and me and my older sibling and their friends are all kinda poor so we were up in the nosebleeds :/ but honestly i dont think it really made a difference because between all the theatrics and both josh and tyler randomly appearing in the stadium seats it still is one of the best concerts ive been to.
so ive been gone awhile haha, and theres kinda a better explanation for that. last thursday i left for a trip with my aunt, uncle, and lil cousin to go hiking and stuff in michigan. and it was an alright trip. i didn't have any weed during the trip so thats what kinda made it "alright" TwT which to some may seem a lil addictive but i can assure you that im not addicted lol :0 i really only use when im going out or trying to calm down im not a day to day user usually. but anyways i had wanted to bring some so i could use while we went on our hike and also on the boat tour but things happened and the plug did not show :( (aka my older sibling was gonna give me a dispo they didnt like but they ended up not being able to run it to me before i left) but it was still a cool trip i enjoyed the scenery of the national parks we went to n stuff and the hike was also so cool and ill never forget it. i also lost my belly button ring on that hike. i went in with it on and left with it missing ig?!?!? but yeah that kinda sucked ig but luckily the hole didnt close by the time i got home so yeah a win is a win.
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lowkeycasanova ยท 2 years ago
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Down bad
*This played out better in my head*
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It started with him sending you the picture of the frog holding a cheez-it in your instagram dms.
He was trying to get your attention. Didn't work, but he expected that. Over the next weeks that would come, he would message you more. You didn't see those either.
vinniehacker: won't budge huh? fine
He had even taken a screenshot of the messages he sent and posted them on his story because he thought it was funny.
**
After that, he said in a stream, "I would let Y/N Y/L/N have my children." That comment alone resulted in fans making edits of the two of you.
Next, Jett caught him staking your tik tok profile. He noticed it when he realized the same song was playing on repeat and Vinnie had a grin that he was trying so hard so to show.
Then, Jett and Eamon had got on twitter to try to get your attention on Vinnie's behalf to help him out. They were really just joking but they'd be lying if they said they hadn't hope that you'd see the mentions.
Finally, the most recent thing occurred on tik tok. He was doing the trend to this sound. The video starts with a selfie that he took with the text on top saying, "I wonder if pretty eyes would suit me."
Then it goes to a montage of photos of you, with the text then changing to, "I hope they do."
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You got so many notifications throughout the day, so you normally didn't keep up with them unless they were from friends and family. Until today. You were laying in bed, about to get up to get ready for work when you opened tik tok. People were relentless in tagging you in some video, so you clicked on it to see what the hype was all about.
It was Vinnie's video that he posted. Your eyes widened to see that he used your pictures to do this trend. After the video was on repeat four times, a soft smile appeared on your face as you clicked "duet".
It was simple, really. You looked into the camera, interested to see what was going to happen, then your eyes widened at the sight of your own pictures. Trying to recreate your expression that you just had in real life a few moments before.
All you put for the caption was his username and posted it.
Within a half hour, it already garnered so much attention. Some of the comments were:
The duo we never knew we needed
I can't handle this
no way y/n saw this
Since when do they know each other?
someone check on vinnie, make sure he's okay
Later that day was when he saw it. He put a hand over his mouth as he gasped. You duetting his video proved that you were aware that he existed and that was enough for him, honestly. It's funny how the tik tok algorithm works. He couldn't get over the fact that when you smiled in the video, it was because of him.
He was such a fan boy.
But it didn't stop there. The high he felt increased as he saw a notification from you in his messages.
yourtiktok: hey! how are you? I just wanted to say that I thought your video was so sweet and I appreciate it.
He couldn't move.
He clicked on the username to make sure that it was in fact you and not a bot. It was real alright.
Vinnie was actually getting ready to stream when all of this was happening but now that was just gonna have to wait. He even tried to seem nonchalant in his message back.
vhackerr: oh hey, im doing well. And im glad that you liked it haha
yourtiktok: I've actually have known about you for a while now. you seem pretty dope
vhackerr: i bet i've known who you are for longer but it aint a competition
yourtiktok: i see
He proceeded to send you a meme in response but once he sent it, he instantly regretted it because maybe you wouldn't understand his humor and think he was weird.
And when you didn't respond fast like you had been doing, he felt like he messed up.
vhackerr: nvm i retract that
vhackerr: if u see dis
yourtiktok: why? it was funny
He let out the breath he didn't realize he was holding.
vhackerr: ig i enjoy embarrassing myself
yourtiktok: you and me both
yourtiktok: oh and hey, you in LA rn?
vhackerr: ye
yourtiktok: same here, maybe we can hang out before I leave for chicago in a week and a half
vhackerr: im down, but i be in the house most of the time. but did i go outside today? yes
yourtiktok: i love a good homebody tbh
vhackerr: well then, lemme check my schedule and i'll lyk
yourtiktok: deal
Vinnie knew that people would get a kick out of knowing that you and him were talking. He was about to take a screenshot of the convo but decided against it because he respected your privacy too much to just throw away these personal dms to social media.
He'd been waiting for something like this ever since he became a fan of yours. And he wasn't about to risk letting it crumble for nobody.
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calehenituse-brainrot ยท 3 years ago
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Hi! Iโ€™ve recently joined the TCF fandom (about a month ago, and Iโ€™m currently reading the novel hehe) and I guess you could say that Iโ€™m a really huge simp for Cale SO ITS A BLESSING THAT I CAME ACROSS YOUR ACCOUNT THANK YOU SO MUCH I REALLY LOVE YOUR WRITING!!
I was wondering if itโ€™s alright to request? Could you write on what would it be like if Cale is jealous bc reader isnt giving him any attention or smth?im curious on how youd interpret him if he does get jelly like is he possessive of reader or just petty to others or to reader? Or a mix of both?
Itโ€™s really alright if you wonโ€™t accept this request, have a good daayyy!!
HELLOOO BABEYYY im about to go to sleep so let's talk about this for my late night scenarios
I hope it's okay for me to just write about what I think instead of a drabble๐Ÿฅฒ also my first time working with bullet points yikes
there's a spoiler in here so please pay attention to the red letters! im putting a warning inside so u can skip the spoilers.
SO LETS TALK ABOUT JEALOUS CALE
i've had this rant before in my voice memos but i'll share my thoughts with the world
my man Cale is such a chill person so i think it's a bit hard(?) for him to get jealous
not that he doesnt care, he just trusts his significant other
i usually associate jealousy with insecurity so im pretty sure he's gonna be fineee
he's really confident with his looks and wealth and isnt the slightest bit insecure
(honestly? remembering the life he led before this one, im pretty sure he's grateful of what he has now)
hes also pretty sure you're not as close to other people than him
(let's be honest here, if you manage to steal this guy's heart, chances are you're spending nearly a 100% of your time with him and sharing the most deepest and vulnerable parts of your life with him)
he might not be all jealous but i have a feeling that he's territorial (im using the term as loosely as possible)
it's important for other people to know that you're a part of his family and know that they shouldn't bother you with nonsense
this would actually result in you walking around with a certain item that basically screams CALE HENITUSE'S PEOPLE, PROCEED WITH CAUTION
possessive? i dont think he's one to get possessive.
UHMM SPOILER ALERT FOR LATER CHAPTERS OF THE NOVEL
i forgot in what chapter but when the half-blood dragon mentioned about raon being "cale's dragon", cale immediately shuts him down
"Why is he my dragon? He is Raon Miru. Just Raon." or smth along those lines.
that really made me believe that Cale isn't the type to get possessive with people
OKAY END OF SPOILER, CONTINUE READING
Cale has always been someone who preaches about "being alive is the best" so if he were to be possessive, it would just be really,,, out of character ig๐Ÿ’€
let's not talk about the priest smut i got in here
he had always talk about how people (especially his kids) are allowed to do whatever they want so yeah, him being possessive doesnt really fit him imo
(okay whee this got kinda long)
REGARDING IF HIS S/O ISNT PAYING ATTENTION TO HIM THOUGH??
everyone stand back, I have HCs about needy!Cale
the most annoying motherfucker on earth istg
you're just trying to look over reports
and hes staring at you with a frown on his face bcs??
this is snack time, [name]. SNACK TIME
why are you working???
why are you not enjoying your break with HIM?
do you know that tendency cats have when they see glass on the table?
where they just swoop on the fucking thing while staring at you dead in the eye as the sound of breaking glass fills the room?
he does that but with more consideration
basically he WILL make you stop working
he'll start with asking you questions and you'll answer him without looking up
"how was your day?"
"mhm, it was fine"
okay thats a bit...
cale doesnt like the fact that you're not looking at him and telling him about your day because what the heck?
he loves listening to ur voice and how your day went.
how dare u rob him of that pleasure?
"what's that?"
you waved the papers a bit but still doesnt look up, "work. you know, the usual."
"right..." cale stared at the papers in your hands. "what's it about?"
at this point, he's desperate to make you talk to him
"it's boring stuff," you told him, flipping a paper to check for something. "you'll fall asleep on your chair if i start explaining it."
okay WOW that's so not true!!
that paperwork shit is really boring tho, he cant make any promises๐Ÿ’€
okay so cale failed his first attempt of getting you to pay attention
next attempt is by bothering you with another method
he's placing his hand on yours to get you to look at him, but even that was futile
you pulled your hand back because you needed to write smth
he's shuffling closer to you and you barely reacted because "yeah thats normal behavior for cale"
okay WOW, how long are you gonna keep this up?
you know how cats just slithers into your lap when you're doing smth?
he does that
he just laid his head down on your lap and while you're startled, he takes the paperwork away from your hand and placed it on the table
"cale... i need to work," you'd say with a frown.
"you can work later," he told you, grabbing your hand and giving it a light kiss. "you're supposed to be spending time with me."
"stillโ€”"
"you've been paying attention to your paperwork ever since you entered my room," he cuts you off with a small frown. "and didnt i say my bedroom is a free work zone?"
you raised an eyebrow. "i thought that only applies to you?"
"well, now it applies to you, too. so stop working."
honestly, what are you going to do with this man?
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jayden-killer ยท 2 years ago
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Mental health matters. So do you.
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Paring: Kakyoin Noriaki ร— GN! Reader
Summary: after exhausting months, in which you studied hard for your exams, your boyfriend, Kakyoin, helps you realx in anticipation of Christmas holidays!!
Genre: small angst to comfort๐Ÿ’“, stress dealing, hints to anxiety, but only if you spot them ig(?).
A/N: oof, maybe this is some kind of comfort story I wrote for me, since I've been really struggling with exams in these past few months, but I also want you, fellas, to enjoy it and maybe find comfort too!!~ I do also want to apologise for my absence: uni has been a crazy ride so far.๐Ÿ˜ณ
~
I sighed.
Maybe I should take a break. Or keep going. Man, I really want to finish this paragraph, but it's so hard try to learn it...
Christmas holidays approached day by day and I had a goal to reach: prepare my future exams. Unfortunately for me, stress was kicking in, and it was definitely not helping. I couldn't focus, this was a really bad. I had to finish.
Just this paragraph. Then, I can finally relax... no, I need to keep going. Just a bit more. No distractions.
With another sigh leaving my mouth, I put my hand on my cheek and kept reading over and over, taking notes every new and then. My eyes felt heavy, I just couldn't focus anymore and it was stressing myself!
โ€“UGHHHHH!โ€“
I kicked the desk, making frustrating nosies.
โ€“I CAN'T FOCUS! DAMN ME, I WONT EVER FINISH THIS ESSAY!โ€“
The next thing I did was picking the nearest pillow on my bed and screaming in it, trying to suffocate my screams.
โ€“(Y/N)? Is everything alright in there?โ€“
Oh god. Not him. And not now!
โ€“It's okay, Kakyoin. I'm totally fineโ€“
Wrong. I was a bad partner lying to my boyfriend, but I didn't want him to be involved in my problems. After all, it's not that bad, huh?
โ€“Well, could you please open the door, so I can bring you your tea cup?โ€“ he kindly said, on the other side of door. I could sense his smiling, that kind of smile who can erase everything bad. Kakyoin made his appearance in my life in one of those... hard moments. You know, those kind of moments you don't expect to meet new people?
Exactly. His polite behavior and kind presence were the first traits I noticed. A thing led to another: date after date, I finally had the courage to confess. I couldn't believe myself: he feels the same way! And now we're here. Speaking of that...
โ€“You can come nowโ€“ I took my tea cup from his hands, giving him a polite smile and indulging him to go back to what he was doing. He crossed an eyebrow.
โ€“Can't I come him?โ€“
โ€“Kakyoin, my room is really a mess, besides I have to go back to my essay. It won't finish itselfโ€“ I muttered, but audible to him, now staring to my cup.
๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ(Y/N), I know this essay is really important to you, but a break is necessary. You can go back studying after I'll help you tidy your room, give it some fresh air..โ€“
โ€“I said I can handle it. You can go back.โ€“
โ€“You donโ€™t, I can tense your stress meters far...โ€“
โ€“Just shut up for a fucking second, your pressing is far annoying! Donโ€™t you understand the importance of my work?!โ€“
A pause followed, and the silence took its place in our house. I cringed at my own wrods, a hand covering my mouth. I had no courage looking in his eyes, because i knew i fucked up. Real bad. I didn't have any intentions to snapping at him. He didn't do anything. He was just.. trying to help me.
-I...I need to finish it. Or I wonโ€™t...โ€“
โ€“Wonโ€™t what?ย โ€“ Kakyoin replied, dead serious on his face.
Another pause followed.ย 
โ€“(Y/N), believe me when I say that you really worked hard, and I'm so proud of you you doing that. You've come so far.But I need to remind you Christmas is coming. And I donโ€™t want to see youself closed in a room, reading over and over a book, and scrabbling... whatever youโ€™re wroking on!โ€“ he calmily said, yet severe.ย 
I know it is true. Iโ€™ve been barely going out and enjoyed the sunโ€™s warmth on my skin, because I was so focused on working, working, working... it only mattered that. I must admit, he was right.
What was the last time I had a social interaction?
โ€“Iโ€™m guessing you really are the Horseโ€™s Mouth, huh?โ€“
He briefly chuckled at my own joke, and opened his arms for a hug, which i kindly accepted.ย 
-Iโ€™m sorry for snapping that way to you, Kakyoin. I shouldnโ€™t have do that, you were only helping me... Stress is going to be the death of me, one day...โ€“
โ€“Iโ€™m glad you understood that, (Y/N), so i acceot your apologies. I'm not mad at you, okay?โ€“he answered, petting my hair and giving a short kiss on my forehead. โ€“Now, why donโ€™t you show me what youโ€™ve been wroking on? With my help, weโ€™ll finish sooner than excepted, then..โ€“He smiled at me, raising both eyebrows-cuddle and watch the Polar Express?โ€“
That little shit. He knew how to motivate me by the simplest things!
โ€“Sounds fair. You know me too well!โ€“
He laughed and sitted on my chair, patting his lap. โ€“Cโ€™mon, iโ€™ll gladly help you.โ€“
I realized that I, indeed, was the luckiest person on this earth.
What would i have done without you, Kakyoin?
I would be lost.
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feyda-forever ยท 3 years ago
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hello, I hope you're having a good day/afternoon/night <3
I got the confidence to finally do an ask-
but anyways I wanna know if you can do any ( creepypastas of your choice -If you can you please add Toby it's optional ) x reader that is self-conscious about their wavey/curly hair
If you don't wanna do this it's okay I understand fully! (p;w;q)
WOW!!! This is the first time I'm getting a request for HC and I'm very excited :D
I hope you enjoy it <3
Wornings: none ig...?
Proxies x self-conscious wavey/curly hair s/o
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Toby
Toby probably is one of the least out of the pastas/proxies that cares about there s/o's looks, he just wants someone who feels sympathy towards him, someone that understands what he's going though everyday.
He'll brush your hair with his fingers as he whisper sweat little compliments if he ever founds you getting insecure about it.
He sometimes lose his cool, i mean how dare you to be insecure about such a beautiful and priceful gift?
He's not the best with words but if you ever needed some comfort he'll take you to the closest rooftop and will cuddles you as you two enjoy the beauty of the sky.
When he gets mad his ticks and Tourettes will became worse than it already is, that normally happens when someone makes fun of you. Tho they basically ends up dead till the next 24 hours. lol.
He'll try his best to stay away from you when his personality changes cause of his disorders but still you should be careful when you see him acting wierd!
Hoodie
Hoodie is that type of person who'll give you hundreds of picky nicknames and it's not only cause of your hair but your personality and literally your everything.
He'll grab you by your waist and carry you around the House whenever he gets bored.
Hoodie might tease you alot but he's always on tour side even if you're wrong.
I'm like Toby, Hoodie's a .aster manipulator and he's not afraid to use this fact on You, whether it's for himself or for your own good, tho he rather honesty when it comes to you.
Late night drivings happens alot but mostly when you need some comfort and motivation or just had a bad day.
Hoodie is a slight person and he can figure out what's on your mind in less than a minute, so don't be surprised if he came up with your favorite type of candy home cause some people thought it would be a funny idea to mess or make fun of you.
Masky
Now now... we're gonna have some difficulties with this guy...
Well Masky is a pretty stressful person and he's not afraid to take out all this rage and anxiety that is happening inside him on someone else, which makes him to be furious and hurshful almost all the time.
Well good thing, he has a soft side only for you, And if he ever notice you being anxious about your beauty he'll warp his arms around you as he tells you "you're the prettiest thing I've ever put an eye on sunshine." Or any sweat sentences that can come is his mind.
Sometimes he makes you're favorite meal or just take you out for a walk in the forest.
Tim knows how to play guitar a little, he ever finds you thinking about your insecurities he'll play it for you just to distract your mind outta negative things.
And i gotta mention, teasing or making fun of you is basically a suicide wish without them knowing it.
Alright I'm sorry it took so long for me to make this, I've been struggling with exams and some personal things in life so yeah... :>
But I hope you enjoyed it!! And remember that you're perfect no matter how you look, i mean your look doesn't even matters, what matters is the beauty of your heart <3
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nightswithkookmin ยท 3 years ago
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I think gay or not, he still will blurr out the face of the people in his photos for their own protection and for privacy so it's not telling of much to be honest.
The queerbaiting bit is too strong like you said. Queer baiting is a promise to a gay audience that they are being represented, included and at the very least celebrated.
I don't think he's doing any of that here. But he can be a bit of a troll and some times he participates in the clownry too. It's just like JK pulling Jimin's pants down in Soop when JM said he should save his energy to work later or when he asked Jimin if he wanted to eat some ramen at 1am knowing well the subtext behind it. Does he not know rumor has it he screwing Jimin? Pretty sure he do.
I mean one time he tried to unbutton his shirt on stage while staring Jimin in the eyes- won't lie it haunts me to this day.
Can't take bangtan literal sometimes. They will troll and clown you heavy.
Besides, men have male friends too. Clearly he enjoys the male company he keeps and whether that's his friend or interpreter or both or other we never know.
I get the humor and i participate in it but I'm surprised people are taking it seriously that's all.
Dude freaked out when Tae talked about bts having kids and he freaks out around certain members who are rumored to be dating. But somehow we think if he had a boyfriend he'd post them and blurr their faces to the cheers of the members he seperates. scolds. and censors. Army let's not be weird and just enjoy this for the humor that it brings.
For Jungkook, really all that his actions shows me is something I've already been saying about him consistently for years now that he is not afraid to express his affections for Jimin or anyone really.
You are talking of an ig photo but forget a whole Rosebowl happened.
You say he didn't post for JM on his birthday but did he post for RM or Tae too??? No. Hell he didn't post for any of them for a whole year going on to two but clearly he had been saving pictures of them in his camera roll all along.
And I get that because this is his personal IG and not one hybe is controlling that whatever he posts are things and moments that carry meaning to him but really all he's been doing is posting and deleting and trying to figure the app out.
And this is the most active he's been in a very long time. That's what I find most intriguing.
If he has a picture of Tae, he most certainly has a picture of Jimin in his camera roll too. And please, Tae had 4D photos of Jimin in his camera roll and didn't post them on JMs birthday๐Ÿ˜ซ
Didn't even post at all now did he.
I'm still salty about that. No one asked him to go get creative with it. No one๐Ÿ˜ซ
I hate these discussions because I feel on one hand, I'm being pushed to compare and contrast and invalidate others' relationship when that isn't and shouldn't be the case.
I'm a bit of the observant type and like to observe, understand a situation before reacting to it. I'm just taking all this in as data either enjoying it or simply pushing it into the archive for review later
I get that it can be hard to see your ship captain pilot another ship but that's between Jungkook and us his shippers isn't it?
When he's done feeding and frolicking around with other shippers he has us, his main ๐Ÿฅchicks to answer to๐Ÿ˜ค
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Not jungkook seeing other shippers๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜”
Remind me to give him detention at the end of year shipper/shippee annual review dinner. Lol.
As his lesbian PA and ship clerk, I'll let him know jokers are furious and jealous and he needs to come do the gay for us too. Is Tuesday ok? Oh wait, Jinkookers booked him for Tuesday. How bout Thursday? Is Thursday alright? Whew. The ghetto. Lmho.
I think this is tame compared to the things those two can do and yall just tripping or too spoiled and entitled.
I didn't take them seriously when they said they were working on a song together. I thought it was a joke and Kook played along well. He's actually good at it even though half of the time i don't think he knows shit๐Ÿ˜ซ
But if there's a song coming it better be a bop about their shared love for french fries and troye sivan cos Friends is taken and Tae already has a soul mate๐Ÿคบ
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I think us shippers need to seperate our personal ideosyncracies from the subject matter and know our boundaries.
Take accountability for your emotions.
If you are mad you are mad. If you are jealous you are jealous. To project and lashout against these boys for your emotions is wrong.
Say it with me, IT IS WRONG.
Been there done that it doesn't help nothing. And I think we could all learn to have a sense of humor about these things.
Please channel all your grievances through me. I'll forward it to kook. And maybe I'm slow and don't get it, do yall feel him posting someone else and not his boyfriend is an ass move?๐Ÿค”
Or that it shakes the foundation of your belief in Jikook as a thing?? Because if that's the case then I think you need to find a new blogger cos I'm not the one for you๐Ÿ˜ซ
If the former is the case then I'm sure he didn't think too much of it but knowing Kook- this was a deliberate act๐Ÿคท๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ
Pretty sure there are a lot of photos he has of himself and other members and he chose to post this on his own free will.
Good for Tuktukkers๐Ÿ™„
But again, it doesn't invalidate Jikook so...
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And if JM has a problem with this boy would he whoop someone's ass๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
He didn't post for JMs birthday, made portraits for others, didn't post him on his IG, posted another- my boy must be a masochist chilee. He really must love getting spanked and tied up cos WHY does he keep setting himself up. Lmho.
Funny thing is, he'd be out here posting lyrics about how hoes aint loyal and throwing tantrums if the roles where reversed
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I just hope JM doesn't come out here posting nobody cos please we need to respect ourselves in these streets and live up to our reputation of petty mcPetty ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ
May be I'm projecting but I only fuck with those who fuck with me and I'm petty as fuck.
I feel it's too early to draw definitive conclusions so let's just watch how they use the app and space and trust that they are adults who know what they are doing and have free will to do what they want to do. You may not like the choices they make but you gotta respect it.
GOLDY
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tartagliad ยท 4 years ago
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Seeing you for the first time pt.2 (ft. Albedo, Xingqiu, Venti, and Razor)
summary: how they react when seeing you for the first time
G/N reader
warning(s): misspellings, grammar mistakes (?), some scenes from windblume festival in Venti's and some from Razor's lore and a little angst ig
fluff!
(A/N: hey there, I'm back..this time I wrote for the other characters, i hope you enjoyed it)
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Albedo:
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You met this boy at Dragonspine
That boy literally spent 24/7 of his life in that place ._.
He was at Starglow Cavern, painting cave structures and some hilichurls
You entered the cave and continued your adventure there (finding the history about the place)
Suddenly, a bunch of hilichurls started to attacked you..
There he saw how calm you are in that position, just swaying your sword back and forth elegantly
He just stands there and didn't realise that you've finished fighting the hilichurls and stared at him
"You know..it's not nice to just stand there and do nothing" you joke
"Oh..uhh sorry, I kinda zoned out.." he blurts
"ahaha, it's alright..i can see it on your face" you said
Albedo is literally stunned by your appearance, your figure, your eyes, everything
"I'm y/n, are you always go to this place?" you asked him
"Oh uhh, yes actually..i always do some research on this place..I'm Albedo btw" he respond
"Ahh I see.." you said, after that you accidentally saw his paintings
There was a painting of hilichurls and sketches of..you fighting?
"uhh are those your drawings?" you asked him
His face flushed because he got caught sketching a portrait of you
"Uh..yeah, you were an interesting...'view' let's just say..so I decided to draw you" he confess
You actually find his drawings beautiful yet pleasing to look at
"Wow..these are beautiful" you speak
The boy is literally out of words ngl, he's used to get some compliments from other people, but somehow..compliments from you made him flustered
"a-ah..w-why thank you.." he said
"Uhm..maybe you could come and join me next time..maybe pickup some materials or sightseeing areas of Dragonspine" he adds
"Of course, I'll go with you" you said
You two always spend time together at the mountains, well.. even though you don't go there everyday..lol
You always helped Albedo on his 'unusual' experiments or even tell him your stories of your adventures
The boy loves your eyes, he literally could get lost in those beautiful pairs..
Even though he painted it or sketches it..the feel is still different compared to looking at it directly
The feel just makes his heart race..<3
"๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ, ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ'๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜'๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ณ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜'๐˜ฎ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ.."
Xingqiu:
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Like Albedo, he always spent most of his time at a certain place, for him..the place is the library
So... you obviously met him there
He was looking for a book that he wants to read since the last couple of months
The book was actually rare that not many people knew or read it..so he's looking for it
You actually borrowed the book from the library and you wanted to returned it
He currently asking the librarian when you suddenly walk to the counter and returned it
"I heard that you want to borrow this book?" you asked
"Oh..yes, I've been wanting to read it for sometime now" he answered
"It's quite rare that people actually read this book though and yet it actually caught your attention" he added
You nodded and smile at him "Yes actually, I was reading a few pages and then I was so in to the book, i have to borrow it"
You both laughed as you leave the library
"My name is Xingqiu btw, may I ask yours?" he asked
"I'm y/n, nice to meet you Xingqiu"
There, you two talked for archons know for how long
You two sometimes switched books from your collections or maybe go out and find some interesting books
Other than reading, Xingqiu enjoys going on adventures with you
Seeing the nature around him makes him feel lighter
He really loves to read books though, but he tries to make you comfortable as much as possible around him
Maybe he'll try to take you out on a stroll around Liyue Harbor or maybe eat at Wanmin Restaurant, depending your mood
Sometimes you guys planning to pull another prank on Chongyun LMAO
He wants to make sure that you're comfortable around him and feel happy around him
All in all, he wants to see you enjoyed his company
"๐˜๐˜ฆ๐˜บ, ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜Ÿ๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ'๐˜ด ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฆ? ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ'๐˜ด ๐˜ข ๐˜ด๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ถ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ, ๐˜'๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ.. ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ..๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ฆ"
Venti:
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You met him at The Windblume Festival
It was your first windblume, so you're still confused about the traditions that happening around
He was in front of the Cathedral finding students for his poetry class
When he saw you, he waved at you and you approached him
"Hey there! New to the festival?" he asked
"Oh yes, I've lived in the city for awhile but i never experienced this festival before.." you answered
"Ehe, allow me to explain it. The Windblume Festival is a Festival in Mondstadt celebrating the thousand winds. Usually, the people of Mondstadt offers windblume to the anemo archon and to their special loved ones" he explains
"The people actually have to take their matters into their own hands, so they don't really have anything to get helped with" he added
"Is that why when I asked if anyone needs help, they say they don't need one?" you asked again
"Hehe, that's right" he says, "Oh, I haven't introduced my self haven't I? ehe, my name is Venti, the most popular bard in town!" he adds
"Your that bard, I've heard great things about you, my name is y/n, I'm just a regular adventurer.." you replied
He shrugged and acts a little nervous when you said that
"So uh.. want me to take you around town and see what people are doing?" he offered
"Sure, that would be nice.." you said
With that you two took a stroll around the town
Seeing people prepare gifts for their loved ones, the atmosphere feels so wholesome
You guys even took a little trip to Windrise, and he even play you a tune or two
You really enjoyed his company and heโ€™s enjoying it too
During the festival, you guys grew closer together, and maybe you guys would perform together in front of the Cathedral
You were really happy that you have someone to enjoy the festival with
Even Venti feels a lot of joy hanging out with you
He wonders that he could be with you for a long time..
Well, whatever he is feeling, he wants to grow more closer to you :3
"๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ.. ๐˜ช ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ซ๐˜ฐ๐˜บ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜บ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ'๐˜ด ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ, ๐˜ช ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ..๐˜ฃ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ'๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต. ๐˜ž๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜š๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜Š๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฆ? ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ"
Razor:
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Bless this wolf boy :")
You two met at his habitat, Wolvendom
You were currently adventuring at that place
When you're peacefully strolling around the place, you saw a bunch of wolves dead..
So you rushed to see where it was coming from
There, you saw a boy fighting against an abyss mage, boi... that thing really do like to cause trouble
The boy looked really angry despite the mage killed his wolf packs
You determined to help him and so you did..
After you two defeated the mage..he turned to look at you, "thank you... lupical, dead.." he said
This baby almost cried because he couldn't save all of them, only a few of them that are safe..
"I tried to protect them...but I failed...", he said in a sad tone
You looked at him sympathetically, "aww..it's alright..you tried your best, it's not your fault.." you said to him
He looked really sad and disappointed, but at the same time he felt kinda relieved that someone was there to help him
"Why did you come here..?" he asked, "Oh, I was just adventuring and then I suddenly found you..." you said
"My name is y/n.." you added, "I'm Razor"
"Do you come from here Razor?" you asked again, "yes..I was raised by wolves, Razor has no human family" he said
You were shocked that there's actually someone who is raised by wolves
"I see..." you said, "I think some of your wolf friends got hurt..may i help?" you offered him
Razor nodded and help you as much as he could
"There, that should do it.. they can't move that much for awhile, but they'll be alright.." you said to him
Razor was very grateful that he could find you, maybe he would be doomed if you hadn't come..
"You're strong...can Razor learn from you..?" he asked shyly :")
"Of course, I would be happy to teach you" you say
Razor smiled a little, he wanted to learn from you so that he could protect his lupical if something bad like this would happen
The next day, you came back to Wolvendom and train him
He picked up the lesson pretty quickly, and he now learnt how to use his Vision
You even teach the boy how to write and read loll v:
You came to Wolvendom couple of times, and besides train him, you helped him hunt some meats to eat
You never really force him to come and live at the city, but if he wants to visit it once or twice..you bring him there
Razor is really happy now that he learned new things from you and also has a friend that helped him..
Sometimes he wonders if he could protect you from danger too
He just didn't want to lose you like he loses his other wolf friends
Razor silently swore to him self that he will protect you from any danger that you encounter
Overall, you guys cared about each other and wanted to protect one and other, he just wishes that you'll be saver around him <3
"๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฑ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜™๐˜ข๐˜ป๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ... ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜บ'๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜บ. ๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ..๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ, ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ'๐˜ต ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ..."
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(A/N: AHHH this is not like I wanted in my head...I hope you liked it, leave me some suggestions what I should write next, I still have some couple of ideas, but requests are open...so yeah ANYWAYS- thank you and good day :D)
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translucent-at-best ยท 2 years ago
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Scatter-brained...
This JIF peanut butter recall is affecting me more than I ever thought it would. What I'm 'posed to eat my honeycrisp apples with? They keep trying to force me into buying Skippy, but it just don't hit like that JIF.
I got a job. It's not the one I interviewed for, but another position with the same company. I was a little bummed at first since I wouldn't be making as much as the other position, but once I did the math on what I would be bringing home (because even though it wasn't the director's salary, it was still well above what I made last school year) You know what? I'm good. That director position will be there next year.
It's crazy because a few months ago, my friend and I were talking about our finances when, in the middle of me explaining how hard budgeting was on my salary, she asked me how much I thought I'd need to be comfortable living in this city. The amount I answered is the exact amount I'll be making. And it's only going to go up from there.
When I think of how much I was making at the first job I worked after moving here to this new salary? The difference is staggering. I'm not rich, by any means, but I'll be making enough to pay my bills, put some away, and go out and enjoy the city I'm living in a lil bit, which was all I wanted. I'm alright.
God got jokes. I wasn't looking for this type of job at all. I was determined to be somebody's School Counselor next year, but when HR told me how long I'd be waiting before schools started reaching out to fill those positions for next year, I knew I had to make other moves.
One thing I've realized over and over again since living here - in a city with the 2nd largest school district in the country - a School Counselor is far from the only position that will allow me to help and support students. In the part of PA I'm from, a lot of schools were lucky if they had a counselor at all, let alone a School Psychologist, Psychiatric Social Worker, A-G counselor, College and Career Counselor, Pupil Services and Attendance Counselor, Specialized Student Services Counselor, in addition to multiple organizations and agencies that work to provide resources for students and families. Truly an unexpected surprise.
That gospel version of "A Thousand Years" making its rounds on TikTok has been stuck in my head all day. Black people so talented it's ridiculous.
I finally found (another) solid loctician I like out here. Fingers crossed she doesn't move away like the last one.
LA really be hard on folks. And although my move has definitely had its shares of twists and setbacks... so far, I'm still here and I'm still good. I'm grateful.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I don't want kids. At least, I don't want kids to come from my body. Being pregnant don't sound like nothing I need to or long to experience. And the thought of giving birth? Judging from the badassmotherbirther IG alone, I don't want them problems.
With the state of this country and the world I'd be bringing a child into... it just feels more selfish than anything else. I think I'll be just as content continuing to work in schools and caring for the children that are already here.
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primergon ยท 3 years ago
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I'm not sure if you're still doing these and it's fine if you don't since you have your own life and can be busy but if it's alright, may I request a tfp match up?
I'm 5'3, asexual and chubby and go by she/her.
I'm calm and withdrawn at first, I'm usually very silent when I'm surrounded by people I am not comfortable with. I have suspicions that my selective mutism that I had when I was younger may still be around because there are some situations that require to speak, I get uncomfortable and find it hard to say anything. I don't know, it's just a thought, not sure if I still kind of have it. I just kinda hate being forced to talk when I don't want to. I don't go out much, I prefer indoors, I only go out if I have to.
But yeah, when I'm surrounded by people I'm comfortable with, I'm more talkative and more expressive of my emotions. I don't have many friends in real life but I do have a few online ones.
I usually prefer texting than verbally talking to be honest. Its just easier for me to express. Not like I could physically see my two best friends since I had to move last year but luckily we have discord ๐Ÿ’€๐Ÿคš otherwise my dumbass can't even go out to try and make friends nor even want to.
I like games, though, I'm also a procrastinator and a lazy person. I tend to procrastinate on my school work and other things like watching a certain anime, tv show, movie and even with playing games. I have a game block ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ‘Š.
I don't know, but I can be insecure about myself but I try to be positive about some qualities I have. Anyone could compliment me, I mean, there's nothing to compliment anyways, I would just say that they blind or something or wrong. I get insecure when I show people my music taste only because they just seem uninterested when I play it ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ‘Š. My friends reckon I'm smart but I just don't apply myself to my assignments... Idk, I believe I'm just stupid. Somehow, I don't get stressed out easily, even when a due date is coming up and I haven't done much in my assignment. But that probably depends on the subject and how important it is for it to be done, otherwise I will start getting a little stressed. I don't believe that my problems should matter ever, because I've had a good childhood, a loving family, though occasionally, I have some problems with my dad otherwise we're usually fine. I mean, my friends and many other people have it worse than me so that's why I don't think my problems are relevant.
I can get childish and get distracted easily. Like, I could be doing an assignment or homework and after 30 seconds, I'm on my phone or doing something else ๐Ÿ’€. Sometimes, I need things dumbed down for me because I'm just like, "what??"
I love comedy and laughing, it's just fun. I like memes and sending cursed memes to my friends or anyone else that happens to be on the same server I am. To be honest, I'm active 24/7 on discord and mostly active on one server because I socially suck to talk on any other. I'm not a fan of horror because obviously it's scary yet I like watching people play horror games ๐Ÿค”.
I'm not a fan of physical affection, but it depends on who the person is and how comfortable I get with them like my family for example. My love language would be quality time I think but only a bit of physical affection if I'm comfortable enough ig ๐Ÿ˜•.
I've never been in a relationship before because I fear cheating, arguments, having a significant other bored of me and all the other problems. And because I'm not that interest in romance that much at the moment in my life
In regards to people having problems in their life and they vent to me, I find it hard to comfort them. I try to do my best but I suck at it. I usually don't know what to say and I wish I knew. It's not that I don't care, I do, I'm just more of a listener than a talker but I try to find some words to say in attempt to help. It's a little easier for me to comfort someone online than in person, I'd probably be silent.
I'm good at keeping secrets, I would take them to the grave, though sometimes I can forget depending on the secret. I can be a forgetful person, not only with some secrets but other stuff I'm suppose to remember ๐Ÿ˜ญ.
I love music, I can't tell what genre I like, I like many songs. I'm also an animal lover and currently doing animal studies, which mostly revolves around dogs at the moment but I'm looking forward for the cat part, I love cats, I have two of them.
I'm sorry for all this information, now that I look at it, that's alot. I'm sorry ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคš
A/N : Hi Anon! Thanks for sending this ask, I hope you're doing well (๏ฝก๐“Ž† ๐“Žบ ๐“Ž†) Don't worry about the long descriptions, I don't mind! I think I'll pair you up with tfp Smokescreen !
TFP SMOKESCREEN
01 | Smokescreen has a way of making you feel at home. In the beginning, you were reluctant to open up, yet once you've gotten to know the playful mech, you find it easy to talk to Smokescreen. You enjoy listening to him ramble on and on and on and find no trouble comforting him when he needs to hear it. In return, Smokescreen is more than happy to speak on your behalf whenever you don't feel like talking. He may be enthusiastic by nature but he isn't pushy. He never forces you to do something you're not okay with and makes you feel safe. This is why eventually you opened up to him and both of you became fast friends.
02 | Texting with Smokescreen is never boring. He's always ready with a handful of reaction pictures and a dozen of emojis when chatting with you. The young mech is naturally expressive and curious, which is why he's always up to date with the latest memes and trends. ( The way Smokescreen text may frustrate Ultra Magnus at times but it never fails to make you laugh.)
03 | Two of you share a lot of common interests which is why you get along so well. Ever since Jack taught him how to play video games, he's been asking you to indulge him. Smokescreen can also sometimes feel worn out and choose to watch movies with you indoors instead, following the plot of your favorite anime and always quoting them on the battlefield. He's not picky and is almost up for anything as long as you get to spend some quality time.
04 | With his positive, upbeat attitude, Smokescreen rarely seems upset or dissatisfied on the outside. But his inner idealism can leave the mech with a nagging feeling that some major areas of their life just arenโ€™t good enough โ€“ which would sometimes make him feel insecure. The two of you seem to understand and relate to each other's experiences, making you comfort buddies that lift each other's spirits whenever you both feel down. He reminds you constantly that your problems matter and he's more than happy to listen to you vent, while you assure him that he is good enough because he's trying his best.
05 | He knows you're afraid of starting a relationship, and while he can be a bit impatient and bold, Smokescreen is more than happy to take it slow with you. While he himself is disorganized, Smokescreen tries his best to remind you to catch up on schoolwork. ( Smokescreen tells himself he's turning into Ultra Magnus whenever he finds himself nagging you.) He doesn't take it against you when you don't get what others are saying and is more than willing to rephrase it for better understanding.
06 | Smokescreen thinks you're special. He loves how you're so good with animals and how you seem to have all the right songs to show him. Smokescreen can watch you play with your cats for hours and has a copy of your playlist for him to listen to whenever he feels down. He finds it adorable how you can be forgetful at times and admires how loyal you are in keeping secrets. ( Like that one time you covered for him and saved him from being yelled at by Ratchet.) He doesn't see any flaw in you and even if he does, he accepts that as a part of you : his favorite human.
I hope you enjoy this Anon ! xx
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