#i've been hyperfixated on a minecraft server

[moonbigs]

aurora

[lucienff]

the leader and his bloodhounds

[who-is-page]

I don't want to be writing an essay for this class. I want to be playing Minecraft with my partner system and my boyfriend.

[x-bee-x]

I don't know if I can fully explain just how much QSMP changed my life.

I'm sure most of you know how much i love streams, see the example of liveblogging like it was my job, but like. Not to sound parasocial, but most notably Twitch streamers, have frankly kept me sane. Not to get into to much, but I have some mental stuff going on, and streams, regardless of physically watching them or just using them as background noise when I'm busy, help keep me calm and make me realize I'm not alone.

The people I've found through QSMP, streamer and community wise, have helped me so much in particular. Of course, I still absolutely have hyperfixations and immense gratefulness and platonic love for English streamers, but I find myself so much more fond of and comforted by ones who speak other languages. People like Cellbit and Missa and Pac.

I've been interested a little bit in some other languages, I've been taught some a bit even, but I've never particularly enjoyed it. And I think that's mostly because it wasn't my choice per se, it was just for example like I had to take it when i was in school. But with QSMP, I didn't feel forced to learn it, I was genuinely interested and willing and excited to do it.

And that, like many things, is because of QSMP. Because of Quackity. And of course I'm saying is, not was, even though some people aren't in the fandom anymore or think the server is coming back or don't have any positive thoughts on it before or still, which is okay and valid. But the impact it made on people, on communities, on Minecraft as a whole, will hopefully never completely cease.

[mintysuqasa]

I actually feel sick

QSMP, PLEASE RETURN TO ME RIGHT NOW AND AT THIS VERY GODFORSAKEN INSTANT

I'VE BEEN HYPERFIXATING ABOUT QSMP IN GENERAL SO BAD THAT KNOWING THE QSMP IS OFFICIALLY OVER ACTUALLY MAKES ME FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH

IT GENUINELY SICKENS ME

PLEASE

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE DEATHDUO MOMENTS?

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE GUAPODUO MOMENTS?

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE HIDEDUO MOMENTS?

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE TEADUO MOMENTS?

PLEASE

RETURN TO ME

THE HIDE AND SEEK EVENT?

EVERYONE JUST JOKING AROUND WITH ONE ANOTHER AND HAVING FUN BY JUST BEING WITH EACHOTHER?

PLEASE

I BEG OF SOMEONE TO JUST MAKE ALL OF THE QSMP MEMBERS A SEPARATE MINECRAFT SERVER TO THE QSMP SERVER SO THAT ALL OF THEM CAN PLAY TOGETHER AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER

THE EGGS?

PLEASE, RETURN TO ME

MY HEART CAN'T BLOODY DEAL WITH THIS FOR ANY LONGER THAN IT HAS TO 😭💔

PLEASE, QSMP

I BEG YOU

RETURN TO ME

[hopalongfairywren]

You know my obession with c!Hannah started as genuine but then I just started leaning into it for the bit but now i've looped back around to being completely hyperfixated on a character from a dead minecraft server so totally and completely I think it hasn't been a joke since like January. Of this year.

[seffius]

If I may, only because it's midnight and I'm feeling sentimental, I don't know what genre of brain I have that I'm like this but for the longest time my two primary raison d'etres have been Minecraft and languages. Like I've had a ton of hyperfixations over the years but those have never wavered for me.

And I've tried in the past to combine the two but it was never very easy, either because the language partners I found weren't into what I was into or the servers I found were too advanced and unacomodating for me to get anything out of it.

But now I'm on my seventh year of Spanish at the best possible time of my life because now I get to have conversations in Spanish (and mildly Portuguese) about Minecraft lore, and I'd never conceived this as a possibility before.

Not only that but now I have this world of content to help me learn and it's this perfect blend on my lifelong interests. Outside of a few videos, polyglot YouTubers almost never make multilingual gaming content, and mcyts rarely make bilingual content either.

But seffius, you cry, Karmaland has been around for ages. Brazilian Minecraft content is nothing new either.

But I'm talking about Minecraft content with a multilingual focus and a multilingual community. Something I can use to learn but it won't cost me if I don't understand everything because there are people who will help me.

I genuinely hope people of different content categories will pick this up. I want to see multilingual Rust. Multilingual GTA 5. VR chat. Whatever. I want to see polyglots actually have conversations outside of hello how are you with other content creators. The Internet is so fucking vast and makes so many different people accessible it's a damn shame we aren't all bilingual.

But we could be.

[light-lanterne]

hi angel! i’m sorry today’s so tough but i’m mentally sending all of the warm thoughts i can muster your way 💕 as for my distraction, i’m wondering if other than stranger things, there are any other shows/works of media (it could even be music or video games) that you love, and wouldn’t mind gushing about? i could use some recommendations, anything would do really :-)

i’ll also send my own recommendation your way: the last few days have been really tough for me also, so i’ve been turning to movies for comfort. one of the ones i watched is called The Birdcage (it has robin williams in it, maybe you’ve seen it) but it turned out to be really heartwarming and served as a fun little distraction from the day to day stresses. maybe it’s not your style but it might be worth looking into

once again, wishing you all of the best! take good care, ok? x

hello ! thank you so much for the kind message :] hm,, i'm a little lame about my other interests, i must say :S hyperfixations are very frequent for me, so i often avoid new media in fear of having my life consumed by something else x.x

that said, i couldn't stop myself from becoming a bit fixated on a metal-ish band called sleep token (they're a lore-based band, a bit similar to ghost in the concept and vibes), so if you like pop with heavier stuff interwoven in between you might like it.

also, some old hyperfixations are just there to stay and lately i've fallen back into one of my old fandoms: hermitcraft, which is a minecraft server that focuses on building and community, with a nice siding of rp and lore~ so i've been watching that a lot.

i recently rewatched the fear street trilogy (hence the fanart spam from the past two days), so if you like good horror then that could be a nice evening watch,,, oh, and criminal minds. i've also been on a rewatch, but it's a bit grimmer than the other stuff so i don't rb stuff related to it :S

i have no idea if any of those would interest you, but it's what i've been up to, i guess; sorry i have odd tastes u.u

as for your recommendation, i haven't watched that :O but i do love robin williams so i'll probably watch it :D i first need to watch dead poets society, though,,, maybe i can make it into a double feature thing for myself~

thank you again for the ask and for the recommendation !! this was very nice :] take care and have a lovely day or night, okei ?

[oofouchstovehot]

Hi hello I have come to entertain you with fun random questions

Do you have any scars?

What's the worst injury you have ever gotten?

I tend to have a type of favorite character, do you have a common similarity running through your favorites?

Do you have a favorite plant? It doesn't have to be a flower :)

Have you ever had any hyperfixations on anything or have been in a fandom that has had such a chokehold on you that you can never be free? What's your favorite one? What's the longest running one?

If you could have any body modifications both realistic and fantastical (including things like wings tails horns etc) with no ramifications physically emotionally or socially, what would you get?

How was your day today? (I hope it was good)

[scars] i have a line on my leg from when i was cut by a bed nail, and another on my right hand from when i stabbed myself with a pencil. Both probably could have been healed over, but i never wear bandaids.

[worst injury] I've fractured both my arms, but that's in memory. It might have just been a weird condition but I remember a time i was really little and had to be hooked up to one of those heart monitors and get help taking baths? idk i don't really remember it. There was also the time i dropped a pickle jar on my foot and my toenail fell off.

[favourite type of character]

Distressed and bitter medium ugly evil Old Coots, who were betrayed by a friend/family member at a young(er) age, and was mutated and corrupted beyond recognition, growing into a monstrous shell of their former self, and usually, in the best timelines regains a family, often in the form of adopted children or siblings (Nightmare, Vlad, Bendy, Snatcher, Puppet(?), The Hollow Knight, Meta Knight, Geno(?), Jason Todd(?), Luna, Molten Freddy(?) My OCs Ember, Shadow, Lunar, and Nirvana)

[hyperfixations]

UTMV and FNaF have been with me since I was but a wee girl. I've been obsessed with FNaF since it scared me so bad I had visions of Freddy Fazbear replacing my older brothers dresser in the dark. UTMV was little me's first exposure to "Why You Should Be Careful When You Look Up Your Silly HaHa Characters on The Internet." My first and last time roleplaying was with a UTMV discord server. When I first began reading fanfiction it was for Underfell. FNaF introduced me to Fan Music, minecraft role plays, OCs + roblox roleplays (I WAS THE ORIGINAL ROXY), Lore.

Honorable mentions are Bendy, Danny Phantom , and AHIT. They come and go but they'll always be my children.

[body mods]

WINGS

[how was your day?]

I JUST WOKE UP AND MY INBOX IS EVERYTHING I COULD EVER HOPE FOR! MY CAT IS LYING ON MY CHEST! I THINK I'LL FINALLY HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO SOME LAUNDRY! MY FANFIC IS GOING GREAT! NO SCHOOL TIL THURSDAY!!! THIS IS GREAT!!!!!!!

THANK YOU ANON!

[teazerwashere]

which fandom are you currently hyperfixated on and why?

it's a really tight race between Hazboss (Yes, both of them, I've been trying to watch both of them like I'm not gonna get distracted by a completely different thing) and Minecraft (Due to being in two servers at the same time)

However things are subject to change. Maybe Skyrim's next! Or Kingdom Hearts! Who knows, I'm a GODFORSAKEN ENIGMA!!!!!!!

thanks for asking btw <3

[blakium]

I have to thank minecraft for keeping me sane through this year (ironically bc I approached this hyperfix in a very insane way 💀).

I've played in a total of 5 servers this year, but this last run has been the comfiest one ;v;

[hiro-doodlez]

To prev tags (I just put them in my tags)

There was homophobia in the fandom?? Im pretty sure everyone I met in the fandom was really.. NOT straight to say the least lmfao

I mean, when I was in the peak of the Hyperfixation I was either 12 or 13 so of course I was kinda weird about it. Plus you can't generalize an entire fandom based on the most terrible things a handpicked couple of people in it has done (OTHER THAN COUNTRY HUMANS HOLY SHIT BLUEGHHHH I should put country humans in my DNI LMFAO. that fandom is just racism but try to make it cute)

I mean, EVERY fandom is gonna have some good sides and bad sides, and I feel like since DSMP got so big the bad side of things became more and more noticeable to everyone outside of it

Also, about the rude part, in my DSMP phase I met one of my closest and nicest friends I have ever had, Val. (VAL IF YOU SEE THIS HI!!!! HIIIII!!!!! ILY!!) We met on a silly Minecraft server because I was in a faction called "philzas murder" and we were just jumping and hitting each other and having fun

She knows more about me and the shit I've been through than my entire family probably combined. She always understands when I'm upset, she is always is there and always has supported me even after my interests shifted about a million times. She is so incredibly kind and caring I could never have asked for a better friend. I remember randomly joining the server and checking the list of people online, and literally just leaving if she wasn't online. When I was still figuring out if I was Aro/Ace or not, I asked her for some help and she was fully willing to date me for a day and to test things out, and alsk if I would like to be in a QPR. Then when I finally figured it out, she was extremely proud of me and watched multiple videos on what it's like and how to support me. I have literally considered MULTIPLE TIMES moving to her country and hanging out with her practically EVERY DAY. And this all started because we both liked this stupid Minecraft server. Because we both liked the DSMP

I understand being iffy about the fandom but you have to consider that to some people, it was a HUGE comfort. During that part of my life I was healing from so many things and trying to get better (and be better), and at that time DSMP happened to be my form of escapism. I was having trouble making friends and was so sure everyone hated me, but seeing all of these people laugh and genuinely having fun made me have some sense of hope that one day things could and would get better. (I know it's stupid SHHHH) val ended up being the first person who showed me pure and genuine kindness, and it all started because we liked DSMP, the fandom that everyone thinks is pure evil

Also, I don't know if it's worth mentioning but it's also the reason I STARTED (and continued) drawing. AND NOW LOOK AT ME!!

I mean, hell yeah dream fucking sucks and there's tons of people in the fandom that are terrible but that doesn't mean EVERYONE there sucks. The fandom is huge and has so many amazing people it's genuinely amazing

(also prev tags person ty for telling me about this and I'm not mad IN THE SLIGHTEST. Just giving out my take on this because I've been wanting to say this for a LONNGGG time. Also please don't get mad at me for this SODJALSL)

((also sorry for long rant AKDNALSKSN))

Ok wait genuine question for Tumblr, why does everyone hate dream SMP so much??

[just-antithings]

I can read tiny text with little to no issue and I recently found out that I can distinguish different shades of the same colour better than your average person can and even I can't read some of these DNI-banners, good lord!

You'd think making sure everybody can read them would be priority numero uno otherwise they're basically useless.

You’d think that!

I actually use my friend who has issues reading stuff as my art beta tester to make sure my shit is readable for fic banners/covers/etc because if he can read it, I’m fine, and if he can’t, I’m not. Sometimes this means not using fonts I really fucking like in the name of accessibility. Because, yanno, letting people read shit without stressing themselves out or hurting themselves is important.

[equius]

You can't just fakeclaim people you don't even know. Systems exist, retard.

nice ableist slurs you've got there lmao

systems exist!!!!!!!! they do! but i would easily bet my next hundred dollars that these 13-17 year old pluralkit-using tiktok/tumblr/insta addicts with their laundry list of mcyt/dsmp, genshin impact, irl school shooters and serial killers, cookie run, and stranger things "alters" who exist only in froofy system and minecraft servers for the purpose of having everyone's faves to publicly roleplay as, and very badly, at that, are literally nothing but fakers. none of these people scream any variation of genuine did/osdd system to me. yes, everyone's system will be different, but it's not what these guys have going on.

i've been seeing this shit. where'd the massive plethora of everyone's encanto alters go now that it's no longer popular? oh, they've gone "dormant", have they? convenient.

splatoon 3 just got announced and you already have alters of those guys? insane. it doesn't work that way.

i've grown extremely tired of people using did/osdd as a means of claiming to have what's essentially just characters to publicly roleplay as, all for the sake of attention. the worst part is? a lot of them don't even know that they're faking. they're 100% convinced that they have a dissociative disorder because they hang out in these circles and have people clamoring in their ears that this is what they have. it's especially infectious on tiktok where everyone sees the immediate clout users get when they post their fun little alter intros with 700 neopronouns and xenogenders.

i feel like they project themselves onto characters and youtubers so hard that they've successfully convinced themselves that those people and characters are a part of them. it's also the possessiveness of your faves that make you want to have them all to yourself.

very scary knowing that a lot of these kids aren't even aware that they're faking. they spend so much time in these endo circles and dream fans with like minds that they get sucked into the system cult and get convinced all too easily that they have to be a system/plural because they daydream about their fave characters, imagine them talking and doing stuff in their head/inner world, and they think that's all there is to it.

it doesn't help that the universal desire to be unique and special and gain attention from others is instantly attainable with being a system.

sometimes people pretend that they're a fictional person or character as a means of coping with something or for a confidence boost, and it's healthy to express yourself in ways like that. it's not healthy to think that you have a dissociative disorder because of it, or claim you're a system, or "plural".

another thing is like.. these kids aren't growing up like kids used to grow up, either. i was 13 and still playing with toys, getting out my sillies and using my imagination to my heart's content, acting out scenarios with my toy horses and giving them stories, pretending to be pioneers or whatever with my sisters outside, just like.. being imaginative. and being someone other than yourself through that power. but these kids are just given a phone and a tablet and that imagination is cut off very quickly at a young age.

what are these kids supposed to think when their imaginations are running wild and they have nothing to channel it into? and they're deep in communities full of other minors and young adults who are going through the same thing, and are all convinced that it means that they're plural bc their brains are going 200 mph and they're all hyperfixating on their favorite medias and projecting onto their favorite characters. we all do that! but these guys have nothing to put any of that thought and creativity into, because they have very little creative output outside of making tiktoks or writing bad ooc fanfic about eddie munson or wilbur soot.

idk where i'm going with this. it wasn't supposed to be me ranting. but my point stands. and no one with system/collective or whatever formative words in their tumblr usernames are going to convince me of anything else. you are all so full of shit and you don't even realize it. you've convinced yourself that you're like this. you need extreme psychological help to undo what social media has done to brainwash you into thinking you have a legitimate dissociative disorder. i hope you get that help someday.

[adazzlinggirl]

A basic introduction to Kaida Haru (Nijisanji vtuber)

*DISCLAIMER: this is just a silly little post to introduce more people to my recent hyperfixation, so all opinions are my own and are silly jokes based on the few months I have been a fan. Also I don't own any of the videos I have hyperlinked, all credit goes to their publishers. I have tried to find clips with eng subs*

Kaida Haru (甲斐田 晴) - debut: 4th April 2020

Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCo2N7C-Z91waaR6lF3LL_jw/featured

Kaida Haru debuted with 2 other Nijisanji members, Nagao Kei and Genzuki Tojiro, to make up the unit 'VALZ'.

In general Kaida is a cheerful, mischievous, introverted otaku. He does a wide variety of streams, but mainly plays guitar, sings and chats or plays video games!

Kaida is a very good singer and plays guitar! I really like his voice! My personal favourite cover of his is his new one of 'Vampire' but I would recommend any of his songs. He often plays guitar and sings covers of songs in his streams.

Kaida is known for being very loud and screaming a lot and his voice breaking a lot of the time.

Kaida is constantly (lovingly) bullied by other Nijinsaji members (and he not so secretly enjoys it):

-He is bullied by his debut mates (such as when Nagao and Genzuki spent 9 hours making his Minecraft base into a mountain)

-In Minecraft, his senpais wrote untrue "wishes" on plaques posing as him

-In Minecraft: he was visited by senpais who attacked him on sight

-In Ark: Haru was compared to a little monster by his senpais

-In Ark: he was tricked by Ibrahim and got killed by him and then ran crying to his big brother and started a war

-Just in general in other games.

Speaking of Ark and The 2nd Great War™: I would highly recommend watching the 'Aniki & Kobun vs Sword of Akasha' series, that details Haru and his 'aniki' (meaning 'big brother', mainly used among yakuza) Fuwa Minato and their fight against Ibrahim and Kagami! It is so funny and entertaining. The interactions between Kaida and Fuwa make me laugh so much.

In his earlier days he was often considered the 'mama' of VALZ because he acted 'motherly' - probably because Nagao is like a troublesome child and called him 'mama or 'haru mama'. The meme was continued by his fans who acted like babies. Nowadays, he isn't called 'mama' as much anymore, as it has now been discovered that Kaida too is a mischievous child - but I have still seen fans call him it occassionally.

Some more random clips that I like a lot are:

-Him screaming about having no way of knowing if he is a bottom -Him not realising his mic was open and talking about wetting himself in front of his senpai -Kaida showing Saegusa Akina around the new Nijisanji Minecraft server and proudly introducing all the toilets he built -This VALZ Mario Kart collab - honestly just 3 brothers arguing loudly with each other -An early collab with Mayuzumi Kai where mama Haru tried to stop his children being disrespectful -Kaida being a gentleman in Minecraft and building 'latern trees' for his senpais (his laugh after he sees the disaster it becomes at 25mins is so cute)

Thank you for reading this long post about my son! Kaida is my favourite vtuber and I love him a lot. If I've made any mistakes, or you have any questions or things to add, feel free to let me know!! I'm going to make posts about Nagao and Genzuki too and probably some other Nijisanji vtubers but please be patient!

[desolationcleo]

first i cosplayed red life cleo for halloween and answered the door for some trick-or-treaters. at one point i mentioned that i was cleo from last life and someone about my age, maybe a bit younger, no costume, clearly the older sibling of a kid trick-or-treating, went "i've seen that smp"

then i was on a tma discord server and upon getting a red-coloured role went "hell yeah red name" someone replied "read that as a 3rd life reference" to which i responded that it was one (turns out there was enough of us to make a thread that lasted months and then it was no longer in the wild)

then i was at fan expo and found the vendor i got my Watcher's Crown (purple flower crown with eyes and black feathers in it) from, brought it up, casually mentioned that the eyes sealed the deal because of a minecraft roleplay i'm hyperfixating on and they went "wait i think i know what you're talking about" turns out neither of us left the desert

then i fucking ran across somebody in a life series hoodie at the museum and actually didn't register it as unusual at first because i'd seen so many online pics of those hoodies but then i realized wait there's someone in life merch physically next to me and ran up to them and started incoherently rambling about minecraft bloodsports

then i cosplayed scarlet pearl at comicon less than a week later and ran across people cosplaying grian and gem

then there were two different instances, one a while back and one earlier today, of me casually scrolling the pixel cats end forums or cat recruitment board and getting jumpscared by someone who usernamed themself after Grian

i also got crane wives concert tickets partially in order to meet other life series fans (less than 2 weeks from now!) but that doesn't count as "in the wild" and hasn't for a long time those concerts are basically unofficial fan conventions like there's literally been cosplayers

the number of times i've met other life series fans in the wild is getting kind of unbelievable. why does this keep happening