#i've already done a namjoon one so here's a jk one

[dearweirdme]

i would like to see examples of taekook being intimate on friendship-boundary-crossing level that the other members haven't done or they haven't done with the other members

Hi anon!

Either you are really new to fandom, or you are an anti trying to test me (once again). Since you’ve conveniently made this ask to include all other members as well, I tend to think you're the latter, but I'm gonna pretend you're new.

I am not going to be able to give you what you are asking for. You are asking for definite moments of obviously recognizable intimacy on the level of kissing and intimate touches. I will give you some that I feel are close, but ofcourse the real deal will not be there. But then again, no-one will be able to proof any ship at that level.

When I say I base my believes on what I’ve seen. I mean that I have seen a consistency in tender looks and touches, a consistency of them singling each other out, a tenderness that they don’t share with other members, an understanding that they don’t have with other members. How do I show you those moments when they are already hard to describe? And will you even have a mind open enough to be willing to see what I see?

So, how do I convey what their stares mean to me. Other members have probably stared at each other as well. But between Tae and Jk... there's this prolongedness, this.. helplessness about it. We all know the longest stare in history, it's this one ofcourse:

The unedited footage can be found here at 9:25. Just... count how long that stare lasts for. Look at Jimin's reaction.

Taekook's stares are always intense, many times longer than would normally be socially accepted. I don't see that tendency between other members. Anti's will say it doesn't mean anything romantic, but doesn't it? Try and stare at your best friends for that long multiple times. See how normal that will feel. And a bonus:

Same goes for their touches. Many members touch each other. Many members can possibly be found touching each other intimately. Hobi, Jk, Tae and Jimin are amongst the most touchy members, but hey... if you look hard and long enough something 'sus' might even be found between Yoongi and Namjoon (kidding kidding, not trying to start a new ship). There is so much footage, and BTS are so close, that all sorts of intimate instances can be found ultimately. But... for those instances between Jk and Tae, I don't have to try hard. Because it's many instances, and it's all kinds of instances. There's tender touches, there's secret touches, there's calming touches, there's touches that are really (!) intimate, there's touches that go on and on and on, there's touches that they melt into, there's touches that are caresses. All of that combined I do not see between other members. But how do I show you that? It's simply to much for me to show through gifs. You have to do the research yourself on this. It's there, you just have to focus real hard on how Jk and Tae are with each other. But some examples:

Tae and Jk have a knack of gravitating towards each other. It was very apparent during their early years, but even after that they still did/do. Again, this is not something I'm able to show in gifs or pictures. It's a summation of moments. You'd have to go through all the footage and just observe.

Now for the more tangable stuff.

Jealousy. There are clear instances of Tae and Jk getting jealous when someone else touches the other. I've not seen this between other members. I also feel this is a strong indication of a romantic relationship, because 'just friends' don't show this level of jealousy. I’m not going to show these, because a quick search will get you what I mean. But here’s a few Tiktok’s that convey the message (yes, edited… but the actual footage communicates the same situation).

Overall I feel the strength of their reactions to someone else interacting closely to the other is too strong to be merely friendship. I've not seen this level of jealousy between other members.

The same goes for hurt. Tae and Jk have gone though hard times. They have hurt because of the other (reasons unknown). Jk has been very upset because of/with Tae at times and he was unable to hide his feelings well. The show after Jimin and Jk's return from Tokyo is a clear example of that. It is clear that Jk is upset with Tae. The strenght of his emotions is again so high, that I find it hard to believe this would be for platonical reasons. Watch from 18:08 to see what I mean.

Then there's this.

So yeah a lot of hurt. Which brings me to my next point, which is imo something that only happens with Tae and Jk. They are the only members that get told to separate when they are too close and who consequently display high levels of hurt and annoyance.

There are way more instances like this. Search for it anon, you will have no problem finding it I asure you. What possible reason could there be for separating two friends. And why would those two friends have such strong reactions to it?

Which brings me to another point that only goes for Tae and Jk. They are the only two members that have a narrative of 'having fallen out/grown apart) while their body language and their interactions during that period shows nothing to support that narrative. A narrative of members falling out is not something companies would normally be prone to point out, yet with Tae and Jk they did. Is it because they want to be transparent about the truth (while members are clearly not open about their private lives) or is it to account for stuff clearly being hidden. I know this is speculating from my part, but it's educated speculating.

On to more 'cute stuff". The way Tae and Jk sleep is much more intimate than how other members sleep together. Their bodies are intertwined, they face each other, they sleep real close to each other. No space.

All members have been seen backhugging while sleeping, but sleeping together like this.. I don't think so.

All of the things I mentioned can and will probably be debunked or dismissed. But I strongly feel that the sum of these things point to them being more than friends.

So anon, if you are an anti.. I know I haven't given you what you asked for, you already knew I wouldn't be able to, yet your point is not made because you won't be able to give me those examples either. You convieniently added "other members" is it because you're afraid a direct comparison will be a 'too close to call'? If you aren't an anti, welcome to the club!

[wegonbealright-09]

Jimin getting that number gagged everybody hey!

Him going number one on BB100 had everybody chocking on their D. The whole of kpop was gagged, the members were gagged and someone at the company was losing his hair.

The whole of kpop was gagged because the biggest GG in kpop still doesn't have a BB no1 and jimin is considered to not be that popular in SK for certain reasons, him getting something that veteran kpop idols and groups couldn't get so unexpectedly and made it seem so easy gagged them. And I think the members were gagged because as much as he's known to be "the third most biased member" they didn't except that from him, they expected the kind of response Tae got because most of the fandom is tkk shippers and they don't like jimin even the members know that. Them being gagged got them bitter and jealous in the process.

I'm going to start with namjoon for various reasons. This guy last year seemed so done with bts, like he was so done being the leader and he wanted this freedom, he was so excited to go solo. He then released indigo which was beautiful but also mehh. His album pulled better numbers that BTS's own. He was so happy you could see the glow in he's eyes he was genuinely happy. He was considered the next bts by various articles he was so happy. Then face was announced and happened all of sudden he's not satisfied with his numbers he wants to pull more numbers he's releasing Collab after Collab. He released sprite with that girl during the same period and Vibe and then another one during jimin's debut. What was he hoping to achieve, more numbers, more listeners. He then became obviously bitter when LC went number 1 posted a story saying he wrote lyrics. A simple congratulations would have been enough what was he hoping for, recognition? What? He already got a paycheck he's credited as a write we know. He was so done with the group last year he looked so done, in his debut he didn't mention BTS at all literally now all of a sudden he's mentioning BTS every second because being arrogant and idgaf only works for certain members and he started feeling insecure about his numbers after Face, okay.

Then there's Tae who's only friends with jimin when it benefits him. Well he grew up poor( they all did except Jin but this is about him) and as a person who grew up poor like me you try to fit in to get the bag because at all costs you tryna get the bag, you have to secure the bag. But at what cost. He's basically losing himself he doesn't know if wants to be cute, sexy or a bad boy or whatever because his personality is made up he's just fabricated because he's genuinely such a boring person you can tell by his voice. Before FACE when smfpt2 was about to be released he posted something in weverse about looking forward to midnight or something idk. But it was about smfpt2. Then he went missing literally he posted nothing after that, imagine your best friend, your soulmate achieving such a feat and as someone who's chronically online you don't post about it? Tell me how. He was gagged I'm sure he kept on clapping hands every five minutes because he couldn't believe it. How jimin achieved this before his gf's group, how he achieved it when the fandom literally doesn't like him.

Then there's jk and yoongi whom I have a lot to say about but I won't say anything at all because I'm just tired of these two like literally. When's yoongi going to the military like nigga move your scrawny legs to the fking military he's probably not going to be in the field like others because of his shoulder thing meaning he's going to serve more months than others yet he's still here doing lord knows what just go please for the love of God and everything holy just go. Then jeon jungkook I've talked quiet alot about him to the point where my little blog started to feel a bit toxic, and it seemed like I was a jk anti whereas this is just a mere jimin focused blog nothing else. As for Hybe I'm done talking about them hell no.

And as for jimin. I hope he one day gives back the same energy he receives but the reason why he looks younger than all of them and doesn't even need a face routine for glowing skin is because he truly give zero fucks.

Anyways I'm just ranting because whilst having a glass of wine I was thinking and I wish Tumblr had voice record option because typing tires me

[spookyserenades]

Hi Dana!!! Just wanted to stop by in your asks to let you know that I absolutely love Trouvaille! I can't believe you've been pumping out +20k chapters for this, but I appreciate it a lot (I can't imagine the amount of time you take to work on them). Overall, I really love the concept and world building you've done in only 3 chapters. Especially the originality of adding in the occult/paranormal/supernatural to the story. I find it so interesting, especially now that there's been more interactions and insight into MC's past with the spirits and ghosts.

I guess I'll put in a theory (?) regarding future chapters...? I have a feeling JK and Namjoon are going to be important or instrumental with MC's dive back into the paranormal. Looking at their moonboards gives some hints towards it, too. I feel like JK was either in a cult or grew up in what seems to be the Catholic church (I thought I saw a rosary behind the crucifix). Also, with the ghosty hands and stuff, it just feels like he'll be important. Even in Norse mythology, elks are symbols of protection against physical and spiritual danger. As for Namjoon, we already got a hint that he had known MC's mom before. Plus, his moonboard has so many books about the paranormal/criptids. Idk, the nightmare, thinking his eyes are really familiar, etc. It just seems like there's something to it. (Lowkey, I just keep reminding myself of the: "You have 2 wolves inside of you" meme and laugh when i think of him).

To end off, i guess I love what you're doing with this series!! And I'm so excited to read more whenever you release the chapters! I'd love to be on the taglist for it also, if that isn't a problem. As a last note, Tae and Jin are the best boys!!! Love them so much, but all the guys are great in their own special ways😂 I hope you have a great day/night!!! Much love💜💜

!!! Hi darling!! AHHH you've sent me such a lovely message <3 It makes me so happy that you love Trouvaille! And LOL I love a good lengthy update, there's so much I want to squeeze into each one I find it hard to stop writing sometimes. If I'm having a lot of inspiration, I can usually crank out a chapter in a little over a week... but there have been times where I don't have as much time to work and it can take me about a month! I'm trying to be dutiful with my writing schedule so I can continue to update consistently :) All of my chapters will be at least 20k, though!

YAY I'm really excited that you're enjoying the paranormal/spookier aspects to Trouvaille! I love these kinds of subjects, so writing a BTS fic with these themes have been very... self indulgent? LOL! But it makes me so happy that you and others are interested in it too <3 There will definitely be more ~haunted happenings~ in future updates!!

Which leads me to your awesome theories!! You're right on the money, Jungkook and Namjoon are totally vital to the paranormal aspects of the plot, especially regarding MC's return to her mystical past. I really love your idea that Jungkook may have came from a cult, that's definitely a theory I have not yet heard. As a little hint (actually, it's a big one), I've loosely based Jungkook off of Keanu Reeves' character in the movie Constantine. The Norse mythology fact you've brought up is SO COOL!! I had no idea that's what elks represent, what an awesome synchronicity! Namjoon, true to him IRL, is definitely the bookish part of the operation here... he's read quite a bit about these supernatural subjects, perhaps experienced a thing or two prior to his adoption ;)

SCREAMING at the two wolves thing!! It totally fits him, his character is a bit of an edgelord. I think of those meme pictures of the anthropomorphic wolf tearing off its clothes or moodily staring at a lake LMAO!

Thank you so so much for reading and offering your awesome insights <3 Right now, I update on the 7th and the 20th, but that may be subject to change as I'm taking some summer classes that will be taking up a bit of my time. I'll absolutely add you to the taglist, darling! You're so right, Tae and Jin are the bestest angels... they deserve the world <3 Have a wonderful week yourself, and thank you again for your love and support!!!!

[jaffakoo]

just some thoughts of namkook as the wizards in lotr. jungkook, chief of the order of the istari and namjoon, wisest of the istari, wielder of light & fire. nj's never opposed jk's higher position, and it never got in the way of their (hidden) relationship. until the one ring.

namjoon has heard the 1 ring has been uncovered from its hiding place and is seeking to be returned back to its master. as is custom, nj has to alert the council of this terrifying matter - alert ungjkook. they had last met only a few months ago, they didn't have a long time to be together.

and so namjoon hurries to jungkook, heart beating painfully against his chest. jungkook will know what to do, he's been so perfect as chief of the order, so strong and knowledgeable - so pure and kind. jungkook meets him at the tower, his white robes billowing beside him as he runs down barefoot.

jungkook places a soft, tender hand on namjoon's wide shoulders as they make their way inside. they've always kept their relationship a secret from the order, not sure what would happen. "is it true what i've heard?" he asks, face full of worry. namjoon nods solemnly. "we must speak, alone."

jungkook takes them to his office, all the way up the tower, away from prying eyes. only then does namjoon pull jungkook into his arms, hands around his waist, huffing out a distressed sigh as he kisses jungkook's nape. "i don't know what to do. we have to destory it, but how?"

jungkook is quiet, his hands shaking a little as he hugs namjoon back. he plays with the back of namjoon's nape, fingers and nails gently scraping against his neck. "hyung, what exactly do you know?" jungkook's eyes are so wide, so beautiful. namjoon tells him everything.

jungkook listens quietly, carefully. nodding, his eyebrows creased in concentration as he watches namjoon pace around the room. when namjoon's done he turns back to jungkook, waiting for his wise council.

"hyung..." jungkook starts. "middle earth will soon be at war. sauron is gathering all forces of evil and darkness to him. mordor is going to be unleashed."

"how do you know this?" namjoon asks. he knows jungkook is wise, but to have such valuable information of the enemy is...

"i've seen it, hyung." jungkook says, uncovering a small white cloth on his table to reveal a palantír, a seeing stone.

namjoon's throat is dry. "t-those are dangerous, jungkook. they're not all accounted for, you have no idea who could be watching! who you're talking to!" with a strangled breath he throws the cloth back on the seeing stone, turning to jungkook. there's something in his eyes, a dangerous sparkle.

namjoon can't believe what he's hearing. he shakes his head, staring at jk in front of him, his white robes tinged with black. "jungkook." his voice wobbles. "we can stop sauron, we can stop him destroying middle earth. we have to stick together."

jungkook shakes his head. "it's too late, namjoon. against the powers of mordor, there is no victory." namjoon feels a shiver run up his spine. jungkook looks so different, hauntingly so. did namjoon come here too late? how long has jungkook been haunted by mordor, being posioned with false words? if namjoon got here quicker could he have stopped this?

"jungkook, please."

"we must join with him, namjoon." only now does jungkook step forwards, grabbing hold of namjoon's hand. his skin is cold, icy. it makes namjoon jolt backwards, jungkook's hands - his body - was always so warm. "we have to join him, it's the only thing we can do."

it's with a heartshattering breath that namjoon realises, jungkook is too far gone to be saved. namjoon can't save him. he's already passed, already tangled in sauron's strings. namjoon shakes his head, tears stinging at his eyes. "that's madness jungkook - can't you see that? he's posioned you."

jungkook blinks, furious. "i'm doing this to save us!" he shouts, pushing at namjoon's chest. "the chances of winning against mordor are slim, too slim. we have to survive hyung. you & me - we're always in this together?"

namjoon takes a step back, shakes his head. he hates seeing jungkook this way.

"but what about the rest of middle earth, jungkook?" he asks softly, trying to hold back his tears. "we can't let them fall into darkness, all those innocent people. you know it's not the right thing to do, jungkook. you know it."

jungkook shakes his head, pushing namjoon to the doors.

"get out."

"jungkook--"

"get out!" he shouts this time, eyes red. "before i do something. i won't regret it, you've already chosen your side."

perhaps it's naive of him, but namjoon is certain there's still a part of jungkook that's pure, untainted. even if namjoon has to charge to mordor - he'll do whatever he can to bring jungkook back to him.

they don't say goodbye. jungkook only watches, chest heaving, tears down his cheeks as namjoon leaves.

maybe in another life, things wouldn't have ended this way.

[aajjks]

omgg not the B word 🙈 i’m scared for y/n

TPOL!JK

flight to switzerland? BOOKED.

jungkook? ECSTATIC.

he can't wait to see the look on your face when you see him again. how dare you move on like what the two of you had together meant nothing. he was there for your mother's burial, tattooed your name on his body, and let you in when it came to his familial issues. YOU MET HIS MOTHER and then you decide to throw it all away for his best friend? now he's set on ruining you until you're on your knees begging him to take you back. he's done enough of the begging and now it's your turn to see how you like it.

namjoon, being the sweet boyfriend that he is, plans a small surprise birthday party for you. he invites yerin, lola, and of course his friend jungkook to keep him company. he even invites a few of the coworkers that you chit-chat with now and then to your surprise party and since all of this is without your knowledge, you just continue with your normal schedule. after a full two weeks of planning, your birthday is finally here and jungkook flies in early to help his friend buy you something special for your birthday. namjoon rambles on and on about you without knowing that jungkook already knows the information he's providing but he's not too fond of hearing it come from someone else. you're HIS girl, no one else's hence your name on his body in permanent ink but jungkook doesn't mind reminding you who you belong to. you thought you could move him? never, there is no you without him and he'll make sure of it. no matter who he has to ruin.

the surprise party is at namjoon's apartment and the moment you walk in, the lights are completely turned off which is a little strange. "joonie? joonie, this isn't funny" you say as you walk into the spacious apartment where the lightswitch was located and once you flicked it--

"SURPRISE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y/N!!!"

"oh my gosh!!!! you guys scared the hell out of me!!" you whine as you hold your hand over your chest to calm yourself down. yerin quickly pounces on you saying happy birthday to you once again but it all quiets down when namjoon walks up to you.

"y/n? listen..."

"you planned this? you're so sweet, joonie"

"i know, i know but listen, for the past two years, i've been head over heels for you. stumbling over my feet trying to ask you out because you always looked like you had better things to do"

you laugh at your boyfriend's joke and you peek around to see behind him and what you saw made you do a double take because there stood jungkook with a smirk on his face and a box in his hand. you don't even hear what namjoon says because why is he here? did namjoon invite him? but how? did yerin?

"and i hope you like it" finished namjoon who has everyone in awe as he presents you the box that was in jungkook's hand.

"um, th-thanks joonie. this is sweet"

"don't you wanna open it?"

"yeah, open it, y/n" says yerin

"okay okay" you respond as you open the gift to reveal a necklace with two birthstones, yours and your mother's but the necklace seems like a cruel joke.

"this is so sweet, namjoon. i love it" you say as you show everyone and namjoon helps you put it on. he pecks your lips one time before turning up the music and resuming the party.

once it's over though, you find time to talk to jungkook who doesn't look too pleased to see you.

he doesn't look happy at all.

"h-hey. how have you been? how's ms. ji-ae?" you ask with a smile but jungkook just glares at you.

"what's wrong? is everything okay?"

Jungkook rolls his eyes looking at you.

It’s pissing him off how beautiful you’ve gotten in the span of these years, and how you have the audacity to act so kind and sweet towards him like you didn’t fuck him up.

He stares at you and his heart is burning inside his chest. He hates you so much, you cannot smile like that at him and expect him to be fine, he then stares at your lips. The same ones he used to kiss all time and now you kiss his friend with them.

Disgusting.

“Don’t talk to me. Go away. I don’t know you.” He barks, glaring at you. He doesn’t feel bad at all for dismissing you like this, no. You walked all over his heart like it was nothing.

And now, it’s his turn. He’s going to make you beg for him to love you again and take you back, just like he did, countless times.

“Seriously seeing you pisses me off. Go away- go to your dear boyfriend yn.” He groans. “Oh and happy birthday. This is just the start of surprises, princess.” He laughs cruelly, emphasizing on princess.

“No maybe I should call for him to come here instead.. hm?”

Jungkook then rolls his eyes at you, instead deciding to look for namjoon, and when he spots him, he smirks. “Hey hyung!!!” He signals him to come over to you two.

You seem nervous. He laughs.

It suits you.

“I just met your beautiful girlfriend hyung, Ms yn? Wow she’s a fun person… like I’ve know her forever..”

Tonight’s going to be so fun.

[foxymoxynoona]

Heellloooo I swear I didn’t faint after I told you I was going to pull an all nighter to read everything (okay maybe I did, I’m sleep deprived but ANYWAY) I think I just processed that flux is over 🙂 I’m this close 🤏🏻 to going in my email inbox and mark all the flux emails as “not read” so it’ll feel like you’re still updating. Delusional, I know🥰. Regardless I’m so happy another story is done because 1. I can now download it on my ebook😉 and 2. we’re leaving Sasha and JK in such a nice place. Way better than Little Bean’s ending, at least now there is no sugarcoating those “I love you”s🥹. Also, now that’s it’s over, I can finally say: reading flux has been like going through the 7 stages of grief😀 we literally had it all! I’m not forgetting the pain I went through while reading THAT part of the story but I’m so glad it was worth it in the end (as usual, it’s your work, it’s always worth it😌)

Anyway I’m so excited for the next book! I have a feeling this will be the book that will definitely break me☺️ third time’s the charm💀 in the mean time don’t stress yourself too much! Stay hydrated! Relax! I don’t know, book a vacation to the Maldives or something! I’ll be here, waiting for every update and re reading amended for the third time probably💃🏻

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If you're like me, those dark days feel sooooo far in the past... even though they're not LOL. They got back together THREE MONTHS ago basically. I enjoy your comparison to Little Bean's ending. I think each book ending will get warmer and cozier because each book we build a stronger, deeper, more multi-faceted relationship. They're growing, their relationship is growing, and it leads to a more gratifying closeness for all of us. At least I hope so!

I'm so excited to see how people respond! It's part of the reason I want to take this period of time before I just start posting, I need to go through and figure out what adjustments if any I want to make to books 3-5 to pull in actual events that have happened since I wrote these, and I don't want to be doing that on the fly so I can fully enjoy the emotional ride with everyone. We'll get through this together and I think i mentioned before, what I *think* will be the final arc of book 3 is one of my favorites I've written to date.

In the meantime, hopefully I'll have some other member content in that verse coming out (like the Namjoon things) to tide everyone over 🥳 I'd really like to get all the side books started so as I have ideas while I write, I already have a place to put them. I wish I'd done that during LB and Flux, but it'll just have to happen now as I read those.

Anywaayyyyyy thanks for reading and your nice little notes, as always

[yoongiilu-archive-blog]

jungkook mb for @namjoonjuly

[leviackermanscleaningbuddy]

"Forget it. Just like you forget everything else." and "I can't lose you." "You already did."

with KIM NAMJOON <3

MORE ANGST. You guys are killing me. XD (JK I LOVE SUFFERING)

Pairing: Namjoon x Reader

Warnings: Mentions of Cheating, Miscarriage, Basically this Whole Relationship is Toxic AF

"Are you trying to goad me into a fight? Is that what you want?"

Namjoon throws his hands up in the air-a desperate movement-before raking a large hand through his already mussed hair. "Yes! That's exactly what I want!" He eyes you wildly, where you sit on the bed, features neutral.

"I want you to scream, to curse, hell, throw something!" He gestures toward the lamp on the bedside table. "Just do something other than sit there and look at me like you don't care."

"There's a reason I'm looking at you like that." You reply in a flat tone, glancing toward the door of the bedroom, where your already packed bag lies waiting. "That's how I feel, Namjoon."

Hurt flashes across his face, but you tamp down the small flare of sympathy that the look brings to your stomach. This relationship has done nothing but hurt you both, from day one, and you've reached a point where you don't-no, you can't-care anymore.

"I don't understand." Namjoon whispers, lips going into a thin line, dimples appearing, but not because he's happy. No. He's incredibly upset, you can tell by the way he paces the length of the room in front of you.

"I can spell it out for you." You quip back, but there is no bite to your tone, just exhaustion and neutral acceptance.

Namjoon turns to you, and you're surprised to see a flare of anger behind the hurt swimming in his eyes.

"I can too." He stares you down, and you're pinned beneath his gaze, but you still don't feel anything other than tired. "You cheated on me."

"Yeah." You sigh, not even trying to fight him. There is a headache pounding behind your temples.

"That's it? Yeah?" He snaps back, and his jaw clenches, the muscles in his cheek clicking as he bites back his next words.

"What do you want me to say, Namjoon?" You question back, a fire starting to rekindle in the pit of your stomach of anger and hurt the longer this goes on.

Why can't he just let you have this? Just let you go in peace? Make anything in your relationship easy for once?

"You were always gone. I hardly ever saw you. I got lonely. I was weak. Is that what you want to hear?" You fire back, standing up from the bed now, taking a step toward him, hands clenched at your sides.

"Sure. Anything but that bored tone in your voice that I've come to hate so much." Namjoon exclaims, hands open wide toward you, as if he can't for another second with you, and you note that he's no longer wearing his wedding ring.

Even though he was angry, and hurt, he still knew where the two of you were headed.

"You weren't here." You hiss out, teeth clenched, and you have to stop yourself from stuttering and choking up over your next words, because you want them to have an impact, want to make him feel like shit. You take another step toward him. "I lost our baby, Namjoon. I had to have surgery, I had to cry by myself in that bed for hours, holding a box full of empty blankets and broken dreams, and you weren't here."

He flinches, and you feel slight success at achieving what you had hoped to with your words.

Good. You want them to cut. You want him to hurt.

"I was out of the country-" Namjoon starts to say, as if to defend himself.

"You know what." You sigh, drained and exhausted and ready to be done. Done for good. You step around him toward the door, toward your waiting bag, toward freedom. "Forget it. Just like you forget everything else."

You hear his sharp intake of breath, but you don't look back, don't give him the satisfaction of another glance, as you reach down to pick up your bag off the floor.

"I'll come back for the rest of my stuff this weekend." You say, and something in your heart breaks at the words, but it's a good ache. A needed change.

You step toward the door, but pause, finally stopping in your tracks as you remember the wedding ring you had left in the bedside table. You had stopped wearing it months ago.

"Oh. I left my ring in the drawer. You can sell it or pawn it. Keep it. Whatever."

"(Y/N)-" Namjoon's soft voice starts to say your name, and you don't let yourself focus on the slight hope there.

There's no hope left, and you know, even if he wants to believe otherwise, that you're both aware of that fact.

"Goodbye Namjoon." You murmur, hand reaching out for the doorknob.

"I can't lose you." He says from behind you, and you bite your lip, because the words should have an impact, but they don't.

And maybe that hurts more than anything else.

You don't look back as you turn the knob on the door.

"You already did."

[bonny-kookoo]

Fictional Happiness 9 (ft.Jin/Jimin)

In which Jungkook, youngest of Kpop Group and werewolf Pack BTS, finds his mate at his own concert; just to learn that reality is nothing like the movies - and that not everyone is blindly after him and his name.

Tags/warnings: werewolf! AU if it wasn't obvious already lol, angst, there's so much angst Jesus, romantic kook, kinda selfish kook though, shy!reader, anxiety, medication mention, therapy mention, panic attacks, idol!Jungkook, slow burn, strangers to eventual friends to lovers/mates, insecurities, bad habits, kind of tsundere! Jk, Impatient kook, alpha!kook, omega!Reader, swearing, reader doesn't like him a lot at first just as a heads up, realistic approach- meaning she won't just fall head first right away like nuh-uh we're wearing seatbelts on this ride yall, smut in future chapters

Additional Chapter Warnings/Tags: scenting, nesting, omega!Jimin, Alpha!Jin, omegaspace/subspace meaning reader is regressing and basically non-vocal, angry kook, he's still kind of a dick, Jimin x Reader content, slight Jin x Reader content, they're super soft with her :(, namjoon uses force on kook cause he's being an ass

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When the doorbell rings, it's not jungkook who Jin finds on the other side. It's Jimin; worried eyes and a bag in his hand as he looks past Jin, scent of your distress still very clear as it waves towards him. "Jimin?"

"Jungkook came by just a few minutes ago, told us what happened. I thought maybe I could help?" He asks. "If- if you know, not me physically, I packed some stuff that might help her-" He starts, holding the bag towards Jin as he simply smiles, letting him in. "Thanks hyung."

"Dont mention it." He says, walking inside as Jimin quietly takes off his shoes. He's been at Jungkooks apartment a few times before, so he knows his way around, walking towards the kitchen where he puts some plastic food containers in the fridge, having packed some of their dinner for you to eat later if you're hungry. "I'm actually glad you're here." Jin says, before Jimin turns around.

"Whats wrong?" He asks. "Jungkook said she just dropped suddenly, and you had kicked him out after an argument." He tells his older bandmate, who sighs and runs a hand over his face. Jimin smiles. "But I guess that's not what happened." He chuckles, as Jin nods, looking towards the opened door leading to where you are currently sleeping.

"No." He explains. "We did have an argument, but it was only because he took what happened way too lightly. You'll see what I mean once she wakes up- she's completely non-verbal." He says. Jimin nods, as he folds his arms over his chest. "I hope she'll feel better with you there, there only so much I can do, and I don't want to overstep anything for them. It's already bad enough that Jungkook was accusing me of stealing her." He sighs, and Jimin puts a hand on his older packmate's shoulder.

"You know what he's like." The omega reassures. "It gets to his head sometimes." He shrugs, and Jin simply nods. Jimin has always been just a tad too soft on the youngest, letting him get away with a lot more, even nowadays still. As soon as Jin notices movement in your room, he walks towards it, Jimin following behind.

"Hey sweetheart." The alpha coos as you sleepily look at his form in the door. "Feel a bit better?" He asks, hoping for a verbal response from you. But there's none, you simply look around before you spot jimin. Mentioned omega smiles, waving and trying to make himself as small as possible. As soon as he sees the way you look around you, full of shame and bitter insecurities, he's reminded of himself years back, so jimin walks past Jin, squatting down in front of where you sit on your knees.

"You've done pretty well." He praises, and you look at him with wide eyes as he opens his bag, pulling out a knitted patchwork blanket. "How about we make one together, hm? I've always wanted to nest with another omega, especially someone as cute as you." He softly says, eyes full of warmth as his scent becomes warm and nurturing. You slowly nod after a moment, and Jin watches in awe as you willingly let Jimin in your makeshift nest, the older omega throwing the blanket over you and him before he helps you adjust the rest of it accordingly so he fits together with you.

Jin has always been mesmerized by Jimin.

The omega had had troubles accepting his wolf for way longer than others may ever had, denying his identity up until his twenties. He's only fully connected two years ago, finally accepting him and his inner omega, and ever since then, he'd been almost dangerous. He knew how to wrap people around his finger, knew how to get what he wanted-but he never had any ill intentions or used his influence in a bad way.

So Jin is comfortable letting you two alone, settling on the couch as he tries to find some sleep.

In your room, you've let jimin close, still picking at your nest constantly though. "Still not right?" He asks, tucking some hair behind your ear as you whine in frustration. "Jungkookie kind of sucks at nesting hm?" He chuckles, as you violently shake your head, looking at him before you point at yourself. "Oh no baby, you're doing great though!" He assures, but you still can't pin point what's wrong.

Jimin knows you won't be able to sleep like this.

The only way you could be reassured was to get an alphas praise. "Jin-hyung!" He calls out, the alpha appearing after a few moments, eyes wide as if he'd thought something happened. Jimin waves him over, making a little space with you at his side as you look at him in horror. "Come here, come look at it." Jimin asks, and the look he gives his alpha is speaking enough as Jin gets the message.

"Wow, you two look comfortable. Such a nice nest!" He praises, walking up to you as you lean over, hiding in Jimin's chest who chuckles and hugs you back, nodding towards Jin to go further. When you notice the dip of the mattress, you know seokjin has joined yours and Jimins nest, and you whine again, hands grabbing Jimin's shirt. "I'm tempted to stay here, you've done really well." He says, and Jimin nods.

"See? Even Jin-hyung wants to stay in our nest." He reassures. It's then that he notices you rubbing the sleeve of the sweater you're wearing against right underneath your ear, where some of your scent glands are. Jimin looks at Jin, a silent question, and the oldest of the band decides to just go for it. He just wants to see you better- and he doesn't know why he's feeling that need. He assumes it's simply his instincts, hopes it's just that.

Because everything else could make a huge mess out of it all.

But for now, he gives in, leaning over you as he places a warm hand onto your shoulder. "Can I scent you omega?" He asks, and you turn towards him, glossy eyes as you nod, but stay close to jimin.

And after Jin made sure you're both smelling like a small pack, each and every scent properly mixed and intertwined, he lays down properly falling asleep with you and Jimin, while Jungkook at the dorms keeps arguing with both Namjoon and Taehyung, who are livid at the way he had handled the situation.

"I don't know why you're all so mad about it, I would've managed it eventually, but you never let me do shit!" Jungkook yells, as Taehyng tries to keep calm. The young alpha is pissed to the bone, angry at Jungkook for treating his mate like its something casual. Maybe it's his own feelings mixing in though; having broken up with his 'mate' only a few weeks ago after finding out she'd masked her scent with black market pheromones, basically lying to him all along.

"Jungkook, that's not true." Namjoon calmly tries to argue. "But you know how sensitive a dropped omega is, think about Jimin back then-"

"Yeah well she's not Jimin, she has me, I would've handled it!" He argues back, almost barks at his packleader, and its then that Taehyung speaks up.

"You're just proving Jin's point right now." He says. "You're talking about her like she's being dramatic, like she knows what's going on, like she could just get a grip." He growls lowly, as Jungkook now snaps at him too.

"Oh stop it, you're just being bitter right now because of what happened with-" and that's where Namjoon draws the line, reaching out for the Maknaes neck as he pushes him down, knee on his back as he forces him into submission.

"Thats enough Jungkook!" He commands, alpha command clear as Jungkook struggles against his grip for a moment. It takes a few moments for his mind to slowly fall, making his eyes glossy as he grows emotional at the force of Namjoons command. "I know you're frustrated, but that's no excuse to act like this." He scolds, before letting him go. Jungkook stays on the ground, simply sitting on the floor as he puts his face in his hands.

"I just wanna do it right." He whines, and Taehyung watches him before he sighs.

"Jungkook, maybe you need help. That's not a bad thing." He says. "You can't just expect everything to somehow fall into place by itself." He says.

Jungkook sighs, sniffles. "Sorry for saying what I said." He says. "I can't imagine what you're going through." He mumbles, and Taehyung shrugs.

"Its fine."He says. Deep down he knows that he's hurting- but for now, he'll just try and help his bandmate, trying to forget his own troubles in the process.

[stormblessed95]

I loved your recent answer about the boys teasing jikook. I also love how the boys are with them individually as a duo as well. We know Namjoon is different with jikook than Hobi is haha. Tae will spill the tea on those two in front of them and Jinjikook is just chaos. Its like if they didn't react so big to those two sometimes it wouldn't be so obvious.

I absolutely agree. Lol I'll just use this as a chance to link a few posts I've done already too,

Hobi with Jikook

Jin with Jikook

Namjoon with Jikook. I need to do another with him, because this post was more about "monitoring" them and not just supporting them or being with them, but that's what the ask was about, so that's what I have. But I'd love to do more a more in depth post for these 3. They love their namjoon hyung so much and he adores them.

JK with Minimoni to switch things up on you 😂

Tae with Jikook, although this one is definitely just my vminkook dynamics post and covers them as a trio lol

Another, but my Taekook love Jimin post 😍 (it's a different link then the first one, I promise. I know the title shows up as the same lol)

Yoongi with Jikook, I only have this very short post over this trio, with a how does he react react them type post. Yoongi does have a quite good poker face lol

I need to do more posts over the 3 of them together and how amazing they are too. They are my bias line and seem to be very close as a trio too. 🥰🥰 sigh. So much i could talk for hours on here I swear. I have too many types of posts I want to do!

I love all these guys and their bonds so much. Watch me finish my duo dynamics and then start in on trios too 😂🤣 thanks for the excuse to share these posts again for anyone who hasn't seen them yet!

[jimilter]

When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you’ve written/fics you’re most proud of, then pass them on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

helloooo bby! thank you so much for sending me this! 🥺 i'm sorry it took me so long to respond, i was waiting to post this new tae fic so i could include it in the list~ 🙈

i was also tagged to do this by: @ahundredtimesover and @park-jimin-isnt-real. thank you, loves! 🥺❤

i dunno how to rank them, so this isn't in order:

— reflection (m) | ft. namjoon i wrote this for soya's (@/missgeniality) wings album fifth anniversary collab (this), kinda basing it off joon's song of the same name.

— birthright (m) | ft. seokjin this one is part of the universe maggie (@/kth1) created (briarwood manor) with seven vampire princes written by seven different people.

— holding you like this (m) | ft. taehyung i worked on this fic for five months, one of the most real and raw storylines i've ever woven.

— the prince's cinderella syndrome (m) | ft. jimin written as part of the halloween event naia (@/opaljm) back in october (here), i wrote this during a very tough time in personal life. this shall forever be my most precious baby <3

— the knight & damsel drabbles (pg-15) | ft. jungkook lmao, the one universe i can endlessly write about! i never intended for it to grow as large as it has (in my head, as of now) but this ceo!jk and president!oc are my fav crackheads in the world!

tagging some of my favs: @taegularities @ressjeon @missgeniality @aquagustd @writtenwhalien @inkedtae @xpeachesncream @ilikemesometaetaes @kimvvantae @bangtanintotheroom @parkdatjimin if y’all haven’t done it already! 🥺

[yoonia]

“The pleasure that he brings to your body feels like nothing that you had ever felt before. It feels intoxicating and freeing at the same time.”

jungkook deserved better than her. you shouldve made her end up with namjoon after writing an explicit scene like that 😑 just what everyone who wanted oc/jk together hoped for 😵‍💫 nothing she had ever felt before but you still made jk her second choice and made them end up together. he deserved better than her after a scene like that. literally wanted to throw up, why did you think it was a good idea to include a scene that long and detailed? it was more detailed compared to their sex scenes together too. its like some of you writers just want people to suffer because of your silly choices. whatever though. she shouldve ended up with namjoon after that bullshit. let me tell you, the chapters you wrote after didnt make up for anything. it makes no sense.

I already knew that I would be taking a huge risk with this story even while I was developing the plot of this series and figuring out its storyline, so I've already expected different opinions and reactions for the story from my readers.

As a writer, I know well enough that with an angst fic, we can't possibly please every single one of our readers with the path that we choose to end the story. That's why your response wasn't too surprising tbh, but perhaps I would have taken this message of yours more seriously and would take my time to properly explain and discuss my intentions if you haven't been so rude about it and if it wasn't so obvious that all you've done was read the story until chapter 5 without finishing it properly or even read the rest of the series to get to the point that was needed to solve the issues on chapter 5 before coming here to lash out on me.

If you had truly read the story, you would have understood that the "detail" within that scene was not written with the purpose of showing an intimate moment between the reader and Joon, but more to show the mating pull that they were fighting so hard against until it became too much for them that they came close to losing the battle. If you had read it properly, you would've come to the part where she finally managed to fight against it for knowing that it wasn't as real as what she had with Jungkook, nothing but a mirage that was created to bring them together, and you wouldn't have come here thinking that they actually slept together and insisting that they stay together over some illusion instead of real, genuine love, which is something that this story is trying to show you. If you had truly read the story properly, you couldn't have come here to tell me that I have written a more detailed intimate scene between them when it was really nothing compared to the lengthy multiple scenes between Jungkook and the reader that showed how their relationship grew throughout the series.

A little advice, next time when you come into an angst series that has a huge warning about a possible heartbreaking moment with characters that might be making some questionable choices to keep the story going, do come into it with an open mind and without hoping that your precious favourite character (of, in this case, a BTS member or any idol you are coming in here to see) wouldn't get hurt. I know what I wrote, I know my intentions with this story, and everything had been deliberately put together in order to create a story that invokes your emotions, not for the sake of making some silly choices as what you’ve made it seem to be. The only thing that doesn't make any sense here is the fact that you come fuming to a writer and hating a story that you barely finished reading and when you obviously ignored all the details and answers that were provided in every scene that you missed.

[littlemessyjessi]

Hey, loves. I need your input for content for the next few days.

Hello, my angels.

So! We just got an update on KoC, the yandere Kim Taehyung story. My plan is that over the weekend sometime I will post Chapter 10- which will actually be a continuation of Chapter Nine. I won't spoil if you haven't read it but we'll get to dive deeper and get a little juicier on the drama. Anyway, the plan is to post it somewhere between April 8-April 10th, which is this weekend. So anyway, that's the plan for KoC.

However, I would still like to put out some content over the next few days.

So here are some things I've been thinking about.

I've been going through my drafts and here are some things that are partially done but they just need the final touches.

Now, truthfully the finale of Untamed the Park Jimin BTS 8th member story with Mae Jae is in there but Dumblr traumatized me so I'm still working to get the emotional stability to finish that, lol.

However, I do have some others.

So in the Jungkook category I have:

"Completely Bananas" Part 3 of the JK x single mom, Daisy ft her son, Jax. This chapter includes Jax's bday party at the Rainforest Cafe. There will be two more parts after this as the outline for this story is a five chapter program. So we are smack dab in the middle here.

"Big Bunny, Tiny Tiger" Part Two. Ft. physical therapist bunny hybrid Jungkook and tiger hybrid Zoey. It's a hybrid and roommate AU. It finished up Jungkook and Zoey's story in BBTT but it also introduces Taehyung's story that is coming up. These in this series are just two parts but they are quite long parts truthfully. The previous one gives the set up for the next. So while BBTT will be finished, it'll introduce Taehyung's situation. Though Zoey and Jungkook will still have background roles in Taehyung's story while also giving the set up for Jimin's story because he's next in line after that. Does that make sense?

"Sweet Bun" : These are headcanons of what it is like to have the bunny hybrid, Jungkook in your life as your lovable and mischevious hybrid.

In the Taehyung category:

Obviously, there is "KoC" but there will be a post on that over the weekend.

And then of course, he is next in line for the hybrid AU series following BBTT.

But also, there is a partially written sub Taehyung headcanons/gif/reactions thing. You know the style I do sometimes where it's kinda like an imagine, kinda headcanon-y but I do it with gifs that go with the written content. There's one of those for him.

And also, a kinda how he'd be in little space situation that is basically already done because it's a million years long but ya know. I've done these for the hyung line already and I'm working my way through the maknae line. Idk, why I started with Taehyung as he is the middle child of the maknae line but I did, lol.

Moving on to the Jimin category:

Obviously, I have freaking PTSD of Untamed and it's finale but it's getting there. I'll make a post when I am ready to go live with it and give you guys warning because I know Dumblr is an ASSHOLE about notifications sometimes.

There is also a sub Jimin gif posty thing. A couple actually that are almost done.

There's sub Jimin when he's having a good boy day.

Then there is also another brat Jimin post because idk, they're fun.

Also, another segment of D Dom Jimin and the reader who sassed him but then in the next post sweetly apologized. He's soft for this reader honestly but ya know. Gotta lay down the law sometimes.

Anyway, in the Namjoon category there isn't actually a lot in the drafts. Well actually that's a lie. There is a lot in the drafts but they are legit stories and I don't want to post them until I get some other stories completely finished. But yeah, there's a ton of Joon because I adore him. It's just that they are a full on situation and can't be posted until some things are completely finished. I have to make space for them so to speak.

However, there is a bratty Joon gif-y post in the works.

And also a Daddy Joon ft. soft dom Joon.

Moving on to Hobi:

The next part of the hybrid/werewolf AU, soulmates AU story, "Sides" ft, Hybrid Hobi

There is another sub Hobi gif post.

A dom hobi gif post.

Same as Joon, there are actually a lot of Hobi stuff in the drafts. It's just that it's legit whole ass stories.

Now for Yoongi:

"Blossom in Darkness" the next installment ft. Hybrid AU and also a power outage that turned into being a blessing in disguise.

A gif imagine with sub Yoongi being the best boy. Like honestly, such a sweet dumpling.

And last but not least, Jin.

So there are only a couple, three installments of Jin and Joo's story, Dreamy: BTS 8th member series.

A how Jin is as a dom post. Headcanon gif style.

Group Content as a whole:

The next installment of Guardians of Stone which is a poly BTS story ft fallen angels/demons AU.

More BTS x Witchy Reader Headcanons

An easter themed request which I'm tweaking into kinda of spring thing instead because it's really about the egg hunt. I just struggle with easter sometimes because I'm pagan. So I do Ostara. I mean, don't get me wrong, I respect all religions and hell my family celebrates Easter and Christmas and all that jazz. I just felt like it could easily just translate to spring. Idk, probably over thinking it.

There's also a Mafia BTS request.

There's also some rather saucy requests but idk, ya'll just gotta forgive me but I have to be in the mood for those. Sometimes it just feels like p0rn and sometimes I'm disgusted with smoot. But then sometimes I hold filth hours and just attack ya'll with it. So I apologize for my randomness but also, just bare with me, lol. Filth hours will be back eventually. To tell you the truth, I think my depression meds just kinda take away my inspiration for anything like that sometimes. So what can you do you?

Anyway, there's also some little space requests for both sub bts and sub reader.

There's some slice of life requests, ya know some pre established relationship stuff.

I've also got more themed reactions in my drafts with like the reader has a certain style or has a certain job or something. So idk what you guys would like to see but that's what's in the drafts/inbox at the moment and I would love to know what you angels would like to see.

Oh and also, I think I had someone ask me in a message. If you want to be added to the tag list that's totally ok. Just send in an ask through the ask box.

And also, Kpop requests are always open. Just hit up the ask box. I mean, sometimes I don't really vibe with them or I've already written something similiar. You know I usually reccommend checking the Masterlist 2.0 to see if I've written something for it because that's where all the Kpop is.

At the moment, the Kpop groups I'm writing for are BTS, GOT7, Stray Kids and Blackpink. I listen and love many more. I just know myself well enough to know that I get sucked down the rabbit hole pretty easily. So I give myself little sections to work in for a while. So those are my four categories at the moment.

Anyway, please hit up the ask box or comment and let me know what you would like to see, my loves.

Thanks, sweeties.

Love, K

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[missgeniality]

tumblr 2021 year end review o(*￣︶￣*)o

tagged by: @taegularities, @amourtae and @agustdakasuga, thank you lovelies!

rules : post the top 5 works you're most proud of that you released this year (not necessarily your most popular), your top 4 current WIPs that you're excited to release in the new year, your top 3 biggest improvements in your writing over the past year, your top 2 resolutions (ways you wish to improve your writing/blog) for the new year, and your number 1 favorite line you've written this year!

lessgeddiiittt <3

1. top 5 works i'm most proud of that i released lastyear:

Keynote - I LOVE the way this fic turned out. It burned me out mid-last year and I'm so happy I pulled my pants up and finished it. It was a WIP that I wanted to finish for so long, I wanted it to be nasty extraordinaire, and I feel like I achieved that so yay!

Opaline Moon - I'm always in love with this. Because a. Jin. And b. it was my first try at a real story I think, and I was pushed out of my comfort zone with incorporating some angst. This is the only fic I love rereading from time to time.

A Date With Destiny - MY FIRST BABY!!! I go back to it sometimes and want to rewrite so many things, but I am always just so happy that I opened Docs and went with this wild dream.

Unicorn Ride - I probably wrote this in a horny daze, in two nights. It feels like a shitpost and I'm so proud of it T_T

“Kittens, They Love To Enslave Us” - It's a milestone drabble that I wrote and I found it to be very difficult, but it was just so fluffy and cute 😭I was veryyyy happy with the way it turned out.

2. top 4 WIPs that i'm excited to release this new year:

Ornaments Of Adour - Coming in a few days! I wanted to badly fill the Namjoon gap in my mlist, and I think I'm done with 60% of it! Very excited <3

Stigma - OH LAWD I WAS SUPPOSED TO FINISH THIS IN OCTOBER MAN I KNOW BOO ME OFF THIS PLATFORM T_T I swear I will be done in Feb/March, all the plotting is through I just need to seat my ass and WRITE.

Strip Lawyer - This is another horny dream with Lawyer!JK. I'm not gonna say much but 😩😤🤯

Dress Down - Just more installments of this series!

3. top 3 biggest improvements in my writing over the past year:

Descriptions have gotten better - I think my smut quality has improved in general.

Better stories? I thought I would write myself a whore nest but somehow, I add SOME SEMBLANCE of a story here and there. ANd HEY, big ups to all sexy writers who write filth pwp - immense respect for you. I just didn't think I would do it LOL

This is not a writing thing, but I think I've gotten better at betaing and understanding someone else's writing style and adjusting my comments accordingly <3

4. top 2 resolutions (wishes to improve writing/blog) for the new year:

Want to write more angst. More feelings. Just more tears. I don't like reading angst but I badly want to write it.

Want to try to not abandon my writing for days just because I wasn't happy with one paragraph. Learn to leave some of the work to editing Siya.

5. number 1 favourite line i've written this year:

Your brain rejects logic, chews and spits it out before any of the rationale seeps into you. You have wanted this for far too long. The need inside you for a meaningful relationship materializes in the form of recklessness, desperately looking for surface-level relief for the moment. A night of sewing sutures to your battle-worn heart, stitches that may come off at the slightest strain - but right now, that will do.

- Opaline Moon. (I'm sorry I know its not a line T_T)

No pressure tagging: @jimilter, @agustdealer, @voiceswithoutlips, @beckysworld7, @sugalaritae, @jeonjcngkook, @moccahobi, @ditttiii, @moonse0k, @kookthief, @sublimebangtan, @yutasthetic, @hobeemin and anyone else who wishes to do this! <3 And if you have done it already pls forgive a blind bich ily 🥰

[chemicalpink]

2021 TUMBLR YEAR END REVIEW

rules ; post the top 5 works you're most proud of that you released this year (not necessarily your most popular), your top 4 current WIPs that you're excited to release in the new year, your top 3 biggest improvements in your writing over the past year, your top 2 resolutions (ways you wish to improve your writing/blog) for the new year, and your number 1 favorite line you've written this year!

I was tagged by @ressjeon and @lavienjin (hello babiesss) and I know I'm most probably late and most people have already done this BUT if you haven't gotten around to do so/if you'd like to: @hyunnows @knjsnoona @erotikkook @jimilter @faithalenora @tenderfrailty

sigh I don't even know what I posted in 2021 but here we go.

5 works i’m most proud of

If History is Dead: Tales of the Sea This was my first lengthy work, which is something I keep looking forward to. It's also one of the few works that I completely fell in love with the lore of, I also really liked the name and after writing it I decided that I wanted it to be a universe. I don't usually do plot when I do smexy works yet I am a goner for plot fics so having been able to incorporate it and see myself do it just made me really happy and boosted my confidence as a writer ngl.

Anti-Romantic Listen- this fic came to be from TXT's song cause ya girl was obsessed I just had to do it. I think the general plot of it was a first for me, and hopefully, I was able to deliver it nicely. It's also on the lengthier side of my work so I was really pumped about it.

Young Gods I'm a polyamorous fic enthusiast, yet I had never done a two-member fic that I felt like it was done nicely. I also LOVED the dynamic which plays around with their canon-compliant dynamic of boy-crush JK. I am really looking forward to dive more into a fantasy genre like this.

Zoom Call It's a drabble, I know. But the general idea of it and the scenario just seemed so fun to me, I had to do it. I discovered I liked to add bits of humour into my fics thanks to this one.

Mr President My precious 2021 baby, this fic took everything within me and plastered it on a tumblr post. The general idea of it was very scary to me, I wanted to do it all, while at the same time delivering a less fiction-like universe. I honestly thought I was being too ambitious and was going to fail miserably more than five times. I thought I wasn't going to make it. But I did and I'm so so glad I did. I love everything about it and hopefully, I'll keep delivering this quality content in the future.

4 current WIP’s i’m excited to release

Ohhh I'm excited for a lot of my WIP's, some of them are

VOGUE–a Hobi fic in which I have yet to decide whether he is a model or a fashion designer (it's going to be a theme for me this year, I know it)

If History is Dead: tales of time & If History is Dead: tales of heaven– a Namjoon and a Jimin fic accordingly, set in the IHID universe, Gods AU, where I hopefully will be able to wrap them all together and work on a major plot

Industry Baby– two words: Producer Yoongi.

A Ladybug inspired JK fic

3 biggest improvements

The length of my works. It's no secret that I do a bunch of stuff on a daily basis but since I like writing I've kept up with short works, this 2021 served as an opportunity for me to cross that bridge into lengthier fics and I'll hopefully keep on going that way.

I stopped being scared. This is very vague, I know. But I stopped being afraid of mingling with other authors, of getting to know them and share our works. I stopped being scared of writing in other platforms like AO3. I stopped being scared of writing mxm content.

I'm focusing more on plot-heavy fics. It's no secret, I've been writing fanfiction for 10 years now (longer if you count me not posting it on the internet) When I was younger I was a VERY heavy plot writer, with lack of time (and an inner need to focus on the erotica genre) a.long with a writing burnout, I started to focus more on pwp but I've found my way back to plotted fics. I think.

2 resolutions

Write for yourself only, I don't think there was a time I didn't write for myself mainly, but it's easy to get lost in the blurred lines of it.

Make writing a priority. It's been a thing I enjoy doing but self sabotage myself not to (those 154 WIPs in my notes app are aware of it) I'm done with abstaining myself from doing things that I love.

1 favourite line

Do people really recall what they write? lmao

“I’m walking this path by your side, Y/N never forget that”

-Namjoon, Mr President.

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Q: i hope you'll excuse me if i don't write summaries for the recs but i'm very bad at those and also my memory isn't that great especially with how many fics i've read! - this is f/f i hope that's okay but this story is very dear to me (namgi) https://archiveofourown.org/works/21375034 - i know you don't seek out taekook fics but i love love love both of them here and jungkook's characterization here really just makes me want to smooch his cheeks https://archiveofourown.org/works/8910193 - minjoon https://archiveofourown.org/works/20583104 - you said you like brightlight's writing so possibly you've already read this one but just in case! https://archiveofourown.org/works/15012203 it's namjoon + maknae line and i found it was a wonderful journey of discovery and vulnerability - this is old but a goodie (namseok) https://archiveofourown.org/works/12529116 - long but i remember it being an emotional trip (minjoon) https://archiveofourown.org/works/15663936 - this was fun to read like ok it's porn but i loved that it's exquisite (for me at least) (namkook) https://archiveofourown.org/works/23060521 - i have no recollection of this but it is in my bookmarks i want to trust past me (namkook) https://archiveofourown.org/works/21735055 - [finger guns] (namkook) https://archiveofourown.org/works/21706339 - i think vmon good https://archiveofourown.org/works/18498259 - every day i think about this (vmon) https://archiveofourown.org/works/14553735 alright i'm done for now! if you'd like i'll be back later (probably tomorrow) with more ships. this is mostly what i found in my most recent bookmarks/most read ships these days but i have a lot more of basically every pairing (or almost) ^^ (in response to)

A: aggghhhhh thank you, this is so many fics, i feel so well fed!!!! funnily enough, that taekook is the ONLY one of these fics that i've read, and i agree, i liked jk's characterization in it, it was a good one! collecting every single one of these in my grubby little paws and marking them for later, thank you thank you thank you 💜💜💜💜💜