#i'm stressed and wanna cry honestly

[hydrangeyes]

No one tells you how draining crafting the details of the actual locations your OC's will be in.

[ppulverse]

i think my house is gonna get flooded again 💀 it's been raining for days now and the water won't stop rising and apparently it's gonna keep raining until SUNDAY like............. @ god why do you literally hate me

[ddiidi]

bf!Bangchan x gn!reader (ot8 mentioned)

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When he calls you clingy, so you distance yourself

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!Warnings: angst, angst and more angst, fake!texts, swearing (lmk if i missed anything)

Side-Note: Sorry but I really needed to do this, my heart desires this angst rn but dw y'all get ur happy ending (reader will throw chan off a building and gets married to jay why papi😍)✨

You were walking at a river, listening to a story one of your friends is telling, when you receive a message.

You groan and take out you phone to answer back as quickly as possible, but when you saw what the message was about, you were the one that nearly collapsed.

You didn't mean to be that mean, you really didn't but it just pissed you off so much. He hurt you and now he's expecting you to just come over and act like nothing ever happened?? You did care about him, a lot, but rightnow, you don't even know if you care about him since he's your boyfriend, or because he's a human being. Either way, you don't plan on forgiving him, not yet, not since it's been a week and there hasn't been even one message or apology.

"Y/n? Y/nnnnnnn everything okay????? You've been staring at your phone for minutes." Rin, one of your friends, asks you, as you were standing still, staring at your conversation with Felix.

"I'm...fine..just something..... unnecessary" you shove your phone back in your bag "Let's not mind it. How about we'll go shopping?" They all agreed on going shopping, but you honestly weren't in the mood for a fun day anymore, not when your mind keeps wandering to chan. Even if he was an asshole...you still love him.

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Later that evening, you drove over to the hospital chan was at, to "just drop off a bag" of fresh clothing for him tomorrow.

Earlier that day you asked Felix not to drop anything off and that you'll do it later, also asking him about Chan's state. Apparently he fainted due to stress, lack of sleep and also a sudden panic where his heartbeat wasn't quick enough to exchange the oxygen in his body fast enough, so it was in fact not your fault.

Well, not all at least.

You were just going to take a quick look at him, to make sure he's not dead. You love him after all... You can't just stop caring for him, you just wanted to see that he's okay...it's been a week and to be honest, you did miss him, somehow.

So here you sit, next to his bed, watching him sleep peacefully. The nurses let you in, when you said you'd quickly drop off his bag.

You just stared at his face for a while, before standing up and giving him a quick peck on his lips before walking towards the door, turning around when he mumbles out your name.

Oh this voice. His voice. How you missed hearing your name with that voice, from him. But instead of saying anything, you quickly and quietly get out of the room. You didn't wanna talk to him and you also don't want to give him the joy of knowing, that you still miss him after what he said.

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The next morning you were awoken by messages blowing up your phone and were close to a heart attack when you didn't recognize your surroundings, when you realize that you moved in your new apartment early, so you wouldn't wake up to a half dead chan banging at your door.

Instead, that half dead oldie decided to blow up your phone.

You turn you phone off, lay it on the nightstand, cover yourself with your blanket and.... Cry.

What did you do? Why did you say that? And why did he keep giving you the fault? Questions over questions linger in your head as you cried. You didn't want all this to end, but what if he notices he's actually better of without you? What if you just....destroyed a 3 year long relationship just because of your stupid personality?...

No. He deserved if. He definitely did for being an asshole. But do you really have to suffer, because of his mistakes?

You eventually cried yourself to sleep, in hope that it was just a bad dream...

Sometimes it's heart to accept the truth, because the truth sometimes hurts.

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@finnbbl @emilyywhyy @wolfs-howling @justastraymoa @loveyouamory @muraae @callmekda

[xenteaart]

it's not about the roses

pairing: chan x reader (i wrote it with idol!chan or producer!chan in mind, but despite a brief mention of the studio it can fit any au, really) word count: 1,1k genre/warnings: er, fluff, a hint of angst if you squint but overall just tooth rotting sweetness. reader being kinda vulnerable author's note: inspired by my and @skzms 's channie brain worms, me crying over how boyfie he is in may's dms and her coming up with this little prompt. i'm manifesting a sweet healthy relationship for y'all, never settle for less <3

you were never the one for flowers, really.

it just didn’t seem anything meaningful or special, an occasional cute little bouquet on some first date you had ages ago, meeting someone completely new after mindlessly swiping them right on a dating app. plus, it’s always such a bother to take care for it. disassemble the thing, cut the stems, change the water, maybe cut off the leaves too.

at some point, you began to think of yourself as more of a practical person, taking gift giving to the point where it completely lost symbolism. always getting your friends and family either money or something they specifically asked for.

“at least, they’re actually gonna use it and get some utility out of it. ‘s good, right?” you thought to yourself, ticking a box on one of your friend’s wishlists for their birthday. it is good. no stress of choosing and endlessly pondering whether they’ll like it or not.

or is it avoiding the vulnerability of going down a more symbolic route if they don’t happen to respond to your gift the way you’d like them to after carefully planting hidden meanings and confessions all over a seemingly useless present? yeah, maybe, that’s the one, actually.

it was a regular saturday evening, no work, no plans, no big day or anything to celebrate. so, naturally, you were just spending the time at your place, resting after successfully having done all the house chores in one go.

purposelessly lying on the bed, you wondered what chris was up to. it wasn’t something out of the ordinary for you two to leave each other hanging during the day, keeping each other’s messages unread and waiting for some free time to give a thoughtful, proper reply.

but the little “1” next to your kakaotalk message was starting to feel unfriendly because... honestly? you just missed him. you wanted to know about his day, what he ate for lunch and whether work was okay today (knowing full well the man couldn’t care less about days of the week, coming over at the studio any time he needed or pleased).

distracting yourself with scrolling tiktok for a quick dopamine hit, you end up losing track of time a little. and the thing bringing you back to reality is chan’s short message, popping up on your notifications bar.

“can you come out for a sec? i’m at the door hehe~”

it takes you three times to read to finally understand what it actually means. he doesn’t have keys to your apartment yet, and you mostly hang out at his place anyways, so him coming all the way to the opposite side of the city makes your heart skip a beat.

you rush to the door and open it almost immediately, only to see channie, your channie, standing right in front of you with a nice bouquet of red roses wrapped up in kraft paper. the next thing you notice is chan’s wide smile, so sincere and endearing it makes you wanna cry on the spot.

you were never the one for flowers, really.

red roses always seemed like something either too vulgar or “easy”. something that becomes men’s first pick because they just never care enough to look for anything else and assume every girl loves it by default.

right now, however, it doesn’t feel like either of those.

the way chris is a bit nervous and really excited all at once; his hands gripping at the crunchy paper-wrapped base as he's waiting to give the flowers to you. the way his eyes sparkle and shine with warmth and genuine adoration for you. and you read past the roses, you learn so much more from it.

you learn how he’s been quiet because he was plotting a little surprise for you, trying not to be too obvious.

you see how he thought of you during the entire process, from an idea to carefully picking out the best flowers, making sure they’re fresh and pretty and will stay this way a while.

you can hear his timid little “thank you” to the florist as they exchange their bows and polite smiles.

you imagine the slightly awkward small talk with the taxi driver asking him about the occasion — the traffic and the parking area next to your building are awful, so you’re guessing he did take the taxi. and the drivers sure love to talk on the long drives, this one you had to learn the hard way.

gosh, chan looks so warm and… so soft, his lips making a familiar heartbreaking :] shape.

snapping out of your thoughts, you look into chris’s eyes and swallow down a salty lump in your throat.

“please don’t be alarmed, but i probably will cry a little,” you warn him before your voice gives out and take the roses, holding them close to your chest where the heart is bleeding.

“so pretty,” you stare down at the gentle velvety petals and sniff quietly.

chan looks worried for a moment but quickly pulls you into his embrace, stepping into the apartment and locking the door behind him.

“hey-y, i expected a smile, not your tears, baby. i didn’t upset you, did i?” to which you shake your head to reassure him.

“no, no, ‘course not! what do you mean? they’re so nice. i’m just… really happy? and i missed you. so much,” the last words come out like a weak mouse squeak as you close your eyes and let your emotions roll down your cheeks, staining your skin wet.

chan nods and takes your face into his palms, wiping away the tears and looking at you so lovingly you think you might actually break.

“i missed you too, baby. do you mind if i stay the night? i…- uh. i bought some face masks too, so we can just relax a little before bed and cuddle?”

you squeeze out a little “yeah” in response, headbutting his forehead and putting your arm around him, with another still holding the roses carefully.

“i love you,” you say slightly louder, making sure that he hears it.

maybe, gifts don’t have to be practical all the time. maybe, it’s okay to put sentimental value into simple, useless things sometimes. make them mean something.

“i love you too, baby,” chris hums still a little confused, rubbing soothing circles into your lower back and planting a chaste kiss on the bridge of your nose.

you reach for his plump soft lips and press yours against them. and even though your tastebuds can feel the salt, it’s the sweetest kiss you two have shared so far.

[surfinminho]

Things that turn them on

Hyung line | maknae line

Wc: 1.3k

Warnings: gun play, anal, sub!skz, mommy kink, slapping/hitting

authors note: I'm back!! please bear with me, this was a draft since February so it might suck and I haven't wrote since lmao 😭 idk when I'll post the second half of this, but I'll try not to go AWOL again😪

Chan

You had him wrapped around your finger, he doesn't usually act like this. Being a leader of a group doesn't usually allow him to behave this way.

But when he's with you? It seems as if ever thought in his head disappears. He tries to not let it show especially when he's with the members but he can't help himself.

Him changbin and jisung were all in the studio, doing their tasks while sharing lyrics they came up with.

His complete focus was on this one assignment, something just didn't seem right. In the late nights when he was awake on his laptop, trying to get the lyrics right you would come. Calming his nerves and making him take a break. He needed that stress reliever again with the way he felt like he was going to cry over this demo.

his phone buzzed, sending vibrations in his pocket.

"Hi chan ^^ I'll be home a little late. Like late late, I picked up a extra shift. Hope you don't stay at the studio for too long. Love you 🩷"

He sent a quick message back, running his hands through his hair for the nth time.

The clock ticks to 1:30 am. Exhaustion took over him. Eyes threatening to close.

"I think it's time to call it wraps" changbin spoke up, shutting his notebook.

Chan and jisung both agreed, going their separate ways.

When chan got home, he felt so different. He took his usual shower, eating a snack, even managing to get a little more done on that track. As he got into bed, his nose was filled with the scent of you. He didn't even know when he started tearing up, or when they started pouring out.

To his luck, you came home at that time. Taking off your shoes and hanging your coat up. You didn't bother eating anything, having eating at your job.

You expected chan to be asleep when you walked into your shared room, not him crying in the dark.

"Chan? What's up?" Your socks padded against the wooden floor. Sitting on the edge of the bed.

"N-need you mommy" he tugged at the bottom your shirt, hand reaching underneath it.

It was something you guys did when he was really stressed. You didn't mind it, as it calmed him down.

"Need me? How so?" You maneuvered yourself to sit on top of him, hands grounding yourself by holding his thighs.

"Wan- wanna suck your tits. Please?" Tears were still seen in the corner of his eyes. Threatening to fall once more.

You lifted up your shirt, unclipping your bra in the back, letting him attach his mouth to one of your breasts. It's easy for him to relax and fall asleep just like this. Though, he doesn't think he'll let anyone know Abt his little secret.

Minho

I think I've mentioned this in my other ot8 post but honestly I see minho into gun play. Like if it's minho giving it, (que mafia trope) he's definitely a person in charge or In high rankings. And the more well known you are the more someone wants your head on a platter. He would never want to hurt you, that should be a given. But the thrill he gets from pressing a gun against your neck as his fucks you can give him jerk off material for days.

It was in the spur of the moment, you were perched on his lap in his office, and you were asking him questions about things he had on him, random I know. But it sparked a conversation about guns and one thing led to another and your chest is pressed against the desk, leather glove covered hand covering your mouth while the other has the gun pressed against your neck.

"Shut the fuck up will you?"

If it was minho receiving it, it would probably be a enemy situation. You had known him but jobs and other things tore you guys apart. Saying you missed him would he an understatement.

But when your boss said you had to interrogate him, you got a little giddy.

When you saw him in your basement, you had your hand on your gun. Even though he's tied up, doesn't mean you can't use it.

"Hello there" he smiles at you attempting to wave.

"Let's get this done, just tell us what you were doing." You stood in front of him, gun pointed at his forehead.

"You have the gun there as if you're gonna shoot me. Nice joke bunny." He was taunting you, which for some reason you couldn't take lightly.

You pryed his mouth open with two fingers, shoving the gun into his mouth. You heard him gag on it while you push it to the hilt.

You eyes trailed down to see him hard, straining against his pants.

"Really? Hard because of a gun? Pathetic."

Changbin

He wants you to fist him. That's it that's the sentance.He has almost an infatuation with pegging anal gaping and what not.

He was big and buff, and you.. well you weren't. If anyone was nosy enough (his friends) they would think he was a Dom. And nothing's wrong with that, until he starts talking about how strong he is in bed. What a lie.

When you guys were back at the dorms, you had him face down ass up on the bed. Working him open with three fingers, you made him cum once by sucking him off then again by fingering him. You had him whining like a little bitch. It made you smile.

"Binnie, baby give me another one. Or are you gonna fight me back? Since you're so strong." You rolled your eyes at the last statement.

"I- I said I'm sorry!" He shoved his face into the pillow, hoping to not wake up his flatmates.

"Are you really sorry? Do you need me to pick up the pace? Or add another finger?" He clenched on your fingers as you said that last sentence. Moaning your name as his came for the third time.

"Need me to add another one hm?" You laugh, easing in your pinky.

"No- no more, mommy stop!" You knew he didn't mean for you to stop, he had his safe word. But the thrill of it makes it better.

"Baby, we both know how you love to get your tiny hole stretched, don't hide it."

Hyunjin

I see hyunjin as a hard sub. The whole package if you may. You were hesitant at first, not wanting to hurt him. But soon you got use to it. Inflicting pain on someone was not on your years bucket list. You weren't gonna say you dislike it- actually you were the opposite of that.

Some of his close friends (who happened to be yours) said maybe you are being too rough. Then theyd point to the purple marks scattered around his neck and wrist, but he knows his safeword. He would tell you if it was too much.

He was being good this week, and you decided to give him a reward. It wasn't as usual for him to get a reward, mostly because he's always acting like a piece of shit. But that's besides the point.

You let him have your ass.

"You ready?" You question, digging your nails into his waist.

"Yea" he pulls his slick fingers out, replacing it with his cock.

He presses his cock head against your hole, whining when he couldn't push pass his tip.

"Can't- too tight" he threw his head back, clawing at your waist.

"Baby.." you smiled, grabbing his chin.

"How about we use that brain of yours? Or are you already fuzzy?" You roughly let go off his face, throwing him a bottle of lube.

"I'm feeling nice, try again."

He repeated his actions from before, opening you up a little more.

"Thank- thank you" he read your mind, I mean how could you spoil him and not get a thank you. How ungrateful.

"So warm" he whines, bucking up into you.

"Shit- hit me, mommy- mama please I want it"

[yandere-sins]

So... Honkai Star Rail... have you met Dr. Ratio yet? I have literally seen him twice so far and he has my whole being in a vice grip. Man has either put me in direct danger or towered ominously over me and acted completely dismissive the entire time. I am not okay.

I have met him! (However brief that was because I'm not sure if there's more of him when you defeat the boss (and I struggle with the bosses because I don't build support characters, yes >-<)) I saw him and I knew this one is also going into my pathetic yandere shoebox with Argenti, and I wish I could see more of him because I so wanna get into his personality and yandere-fy him lol

All I can say is... since Argenti I am really into pathetic yans and Ratio just fits sooo good in that category.

Don't get me wrong, he probably started out pretty scary! He has that manipulative, confident, cocky attitude that will make everyone turn on you for being rude and conceited when you try to go against what he's preaching. He'll absolutely try to separate you from you friends and coworkers until he's that saint that still allows you to tag along with him. No one will really mind if one day he just doesn't bring you back to work. Keeps you snug and locked up and terrified in his private hideouts, enjoying that he gets to lord over you. He'll be so enarmored with the thought you now need him, you can't say anything against him, Ratio is the one you have to submit to if you want to survive in the paradise he's creating for himself.

The towering over you probably happens a lot (at night as he watches you sleep and trying to understand you) because he wants so desperately to be acknowledged by you, not even caring if it means he has to be creepy or a stalker watching the camera feed of your room. And when you don't do what he wants you to, he tries, he really tries to ignore you, lock you up and leave the whole planet if he must, but his thoughts are always circling back to you, his heart always wondering what you're doing and if you are lonely and thinking of him.

But the thing is, the situation is scary and all, but he's not exactly an example punisher from the beginning.

So yeah, I see him to a 180 after he has aquired a darling, no more pondering about science or math (I don't even know yet what exactly he is into even) but about how to make his darling like him because they really don't. Darling is just sitting their reading their book, throwing in a "mhm" - "yeah" - "sure" while he's talking, and Ratio is getting really desperate over the lack of acknowledgement and the kind of connection he wants with his darling. It's his own fault, considering he completely ignored all the reasoning and pleading you did in the beginning. And when there weren't as many awful punishments, you just grew numb to the fear of his presence.

I can just see him throw a damn fit about his darling ignoring him. Either in their presence or out of their sight, but this man hates hates hates not being in the center of his darling's attention when he demands it and he's being really pathetic about it.

The problem is just that he really expects too much from his darling. He'll be good and feed them and give them books (reluctantly even one that the darling wants and not only the other five he wants them to read so they can talk about his interests) and expect praises and teary eyes and so many thanks that honestly, he'll just be so heartbroken when the darling is "okay, thanks" and goes back to not acknowledging him or his good deeds.

And yes, he has his scary moments where he takes his darlings out on "dates" into situation that frankly would not end well for them without his presence. But he does not understand why they are angry and crying from stress and fear after he took them out and even defended them from dangers.

Ratio has times where he punishes his darling or forces them to do something they don't want to do mercilessly. Where he uses them as needed for experiments or puts them in dangerous situations, knowing it's wrong, but using these moments to put him into a better light with his darling. He might be cunning, but once he realises that really, what is the darling supposed to do except shutting down when they meet deaf ears with every other reaction? Ratio begins to panic and that makes him into such a sweet, pathetic yandere, desperate for his darling.

Anyhow, I'm sure he can be scary temperamental, but I also like to think he's just not entirely made for having the upper hand in a relationship. (Sorry, I had these thoughts for such a long time, hope it was okay to jump on yours! I know they are a little different but your thoughts about him are super valid as well ♥)

[reiniesainyo]

IN BETWEEN. charlie bushnell x reader – 03

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SYNPOSIS. when a girl's co-star is good to her and now she wants it more than everything in between. (smau)

A/N. i'm going through a rough / stressful period and i find this series and writing it very therapeutic so here we are! this chapter takes place around episode 7 release, i'm not really inclined to write about the filming in between for some reason (unless you'd be interested)

liked by walker.scobell, thelnarchives, and 262,287 others rickriordan With the release of the new PJO series on Disney+, I'm happy to announce that to celebrate I've partnered with some of your favorite authors and close friends of mine to present to you all a new look into the lives of our favorite demigods!

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🃏 @CHILDOFHECATE what are your guys guesses for the stories in what it means to be a half-blood??? 🗨 32 comments 🔁 150 retweets ❤️ 456 likes

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[zeherili-ankhein]

Ok guy I was feeling really bad that I didn't write out something to you guys in that moots giving chain so here's my separate moot appreciation post

Firstly

@foreignink yeah I don't know when you will come online again OR if you'll come online again but honestly speaking, you are one of my most beloved person both online and irl. You were the first one ever who listened to my endless ramblings and stupid stories I made up no matter how questionable or out of pocket they were. I loved sitting next to you and chatting away the entire break. I miss you I miss you since the day we last saw eachother after crying like idiots infront of the school. You will always be my baby mwah I love you <3 ✨💚🧡 everything orange always reminds me of you.

@randomx123 you are so cool :D You were one of the first even people I actually talked to on Tumblr and the one of the first ever Bangali too. I loved listening to your story that's really really a great story. You are like that one cousin dada I never had. I like all the random (pun included) conversations we have and basically everything else. You are one of the few people whom I send random (pun) asks with basically anything and everything. Then I loved your moodboards during Pujo and you swearing always makes me roll with laughter XD You are in my favourite person catagory

@krishna-priyatama you are literally my favourite person I met on Tumblr. Thank god to the day we started chatting, you are a literal blessing to my life if I'm being honest. The only person who ever understood my crazyness and the intensity of my love for Chhota Bheem and other cartoons and matched my weirdass freak. Chatting with you is the highlight of my day which no matter how bad the day goes it always brings a smile to my face. I have no proper words to say tbh just love ya tons tons 🫂💖

@igotadigbickandureadthatwrong yeah I remember finding your main blog on a random day in boshonto (yes pun) and that introduced me to the Vasant cult and every other funny mytho shits. We hadn't interacted at all before untill I dropped those Cult rituals into your ask box, and from then on I literally had a blast sending and receiving asks filled with theories headcanons memes metas and basically everything else. I still wait for when you'll drop your next crazy ask and it will make me take a round around my house. And then cursedblr made it more unhinged lmao :3 ✨💚 if I am being honest I wanna violently throw paint balls at you

@jeahreading NOW you, I remember our first fight over baked roshogolla and you being my roshogolla anon for some hours. I was so fun... One of the best things ever because I got to discuss sweets with someone online so frankly for the first time. You are one of my favourite person on Tumblr literally and maybe one of the very few whom I have given a nickname. I loved loved loved sharing and received pujo details with you and the love for food we share is so dear to me. I hope we can meet irl one day 🥲 I wanna squish you in a hug so bad you have no idea. We'd me unstoppable. Love you a tons 💚✨💖 the Batasha to my Chini <3

@mi-stress-of-chaos mummyyyyy I don't remember when we started interacting or when we became such crazy buddies but it was definitely related to the cursedblr which is a blessing curse in my life. Then you became chaos mummy one of my favourite internet parents. I loved every single of our cursed and normal interactions and all the other shits we did and your blog is one of the best blogs on Tumblr. You are too cool and chaotic to even be friends with a lame loner like me but I am thankful we are because you are lovely 💜💖✨

@shinchansbitch if I remember correctly ig our first interaction was when you rebligged one of my shinchan incorrect quotes... Honestly speaking I didn't knew what to say at firat and it took a lot of time for us to become proper interacting moots but I'm glad we did because you are one of the coolest moat amazing person I met here and ilysm for that. You are one of the best ever internet parent I ever had. Your shitposting is one of the best things ever, I love love love reblogging from you they are the best. 🩷💝✨

@tum-naam-sochlo-merese-ni-hora favourite person ever to overexaggerated and complicate things with. Best didi ever. The coolest person to ever walk on this planet, you are one of the funniest people on this entire universe. We also started interacting because of Vasant and it was the best thing ever. I love your art you are one of the best artist I ever know. You inspired me so much to make my own art and you were one of the first people who encouraged me to post my paper flowers. If I could I would make a tons of paper flowers, you are too good to me. Ilysm you are amazing. 💜💚💖✨

@schrodinger-ka-billa you are the best ever otter god ever and one of the best oersons with whom I interacted. And the only one whom I gave the tag of didi openly (but I'm your didi too lol) I love chatting with you here you the too funny and sweet. Even if our views on the marauders are somewhat different I love that I have found another marauders fan, that's one of the best thing ever in mankind's history. Also I loved hiw caring you are and your asks with buggies were one if the best things ever that happened to me. Ily a tins you are one of my favourite 💚🦦✨

@wulfricnavy we also started interacting during the daddymon thing I think, but anyways you are one of my favourites. I love your fanfic and I'm always waiting for when you will drop your next chapter (do it quick man). You are the best ever dadaji on the internet, a literal legend. I don't know what to say except I like the way you are interested in so many series and you are really really cool :D you are like a neighborhood bhaiya who got backpain ✨💚

@no-idea-where-i-am-lost you are a cutie :D the bestest thakuma everrrrr. Honestly I'm so glad Wulfric introduced you to us you are so sweet and one of the best people here. And one of the Bangalis with whom I enjoyed sharing Pujo moments. You should interact more it would be nice to talk and do more shenanigans together. Also cursedblr awaits you (even tho you've joined) and I really really really really like you so much you are a pookie person 🧡✨💖

@desigurlie you are so so so cool I can't even explain :D you're blog is one of my most favourite blogs, I love your metas and fic and moodboards and the way you do dhobi pachhad to shit anons and other people. You are one of the raddest most amazing didi person I even know. Our first interaction was also because of Vasant if I remember and then it was because of Mahabharat. You are one of my favourite persons online and if I could I'd give you a big fluffy hug and those paper tulips I made for you ilysm 🫂✨💖💚

@intellectual6666 cool cool person I love your fics and your vibe and in general you are kne of the coolest persons here. I don't remember how exactly we became moots and started interacting but your blog is one of the best things on this app and you yourself are one of the sweetest here. You are also like that parar bondhu jar sathe khub bhalo vibe kora jaye. I honestly want to share narkel er naru with you as we both sit quietly and enjoy the peace or gossip who knows. You are a big cutie and I would make you flower crowns if I knew you irl 💐✨💖

@hellincarnation FINALLY the bestest war criminal ever you are so cool and honestly one of the best fucking people I recently talked to. You don't even know how much your shenanigans makes me laugh or how much I enjoy talking to you. We should seriously take over the planet and then have a party. You match my crazy so much its iconic. We really are a duo for chaos. I would do cool and cringe poses with you in public if I knew you irl lol ✨💖🩵 and never hesitate to ask me any question related to thing you wanna know. And ofcourse you are one of the very few who got a nickname. Aro the car guy Satan.

@im-on-crack-send-help YOU ARE SUCH A CUTIE and you're so sweet and caring and nice and cute and basically everything nice and shiny reminds me of you. Ilysm you are one of my favourites and its sad we don't gwt to interact much we should do that honestly but anyways I'd make you all the flower bouquets with paper flowers If I can and I want to sit and eat cookies with you as we watch movies and cry ✨🧡♥️💖

@sumiyxx another cutie! You are one of the best people here and one of the pooliest too. Even if we interact less you are one of my favourite peoples here and I hope we can vibe more and do crazy. Lysm you silly darling you deserve the world and beyond and I'd give you as much as I can once I take over this planet ✨💖💚♥️

@lyrebirb you are one of my favourites easily. Your shitposting era was my favourite and you are so amazing and cool and awesome. You are my favourite birby (I say as a bird hater) and ilysm and I'm so hlad you are back. I loved the time we had a discourse over mermaid meat and eggs it was so funny and K enjoyed it so much you are so cool ✨💐💖🫂

@stxrrynxghts you are such a amazing person and I love love love taking to you :D your fics are amazing and I'm always looking forward to read them (but don't overwork yourself please) you are one of the few people with whom I shared soucha nd you are so amazing and cool and admiration amd everything all together I don't even deserve to be your friend. You are one of my favourite people here and talking to you is so great I love it 🫂💖💙

There are so many more people I'm forgetting to tag but I live y'all so much you precious pookies you all are like those fruits and nuts in my chocolate.

[sunnebeam]

"my boss just gave me orders."

A 'PERKS OF BEING A HOUSEHUSBAND' DRABBLE.

pairing: min yoongi x reader

plot: the (mis)adventures of retired gangster min yoongi as he leaves behind the life of the mafia and navigates the way of the househusband.

warnings: the way of the househusband au, marriage au, crack, domesticity, yoongi being oblivious & wifey being horn knee ;)

masterlist + disclaimers.

note: in case u didn't know, i'm still currently on my aug-oct vacation (see details in pinned post!) and this post was scheduled in advance :> tbf i don't really like how this turned out (well what's new?) but i hope u guys still enjoy this. and as always, feedback & reviews are highly appreciated!

After the longest day at work, you finally arrive back home.

Holly barks at you, welcoming you home, leading you to coo and kiss the poodle hello. Your husband follows right after, taking your bag from your shoulder and welcoming you with a big smooch on the lips.

"Welcome home, darling," Yoongi greets you with his signature uneven smile.

He's changed up his outfit today, choosing to wear a fitted black shirt that outlines his chest beautifully. You drool at the sight.

"Welcome home, indeed," you echo back.

"Are you hungry?" he asks you.

"Mhm," you confirm.

You step closer to him, wrapping your arms around his neck.

"I'm so hungry, Yoonie," you continue in what you hope to be a seductive tone. "Absolutely starving."

Unfortunately, your husband takes it literally.

"Why? Did you work through your lunch break?"

"No, no, Yoonie, I meant—"

"That can't do, darling," he says in a no-nonsense tone. "We need to get some food in you. Come on, quick."

And Yoongi leaves you there – stunned, horny, and in disbelief.

But you remain persistent. You try again after dinner and after you've both finished washing the dishes.

"Yoonie? Wanna watch some Netflix and chill with me?"

This should work. Your husband's a millennial. Surely, he knows what Netflix & Chill means, right? Right?

Wrong.

"This is a good movie," your husband mumbles through a mouthful of popcorn. "You picked a good movie, darling. It's well-directed and the cinematography is outstanding."

You smile dryly in response.

You're both seated on the couch with clothes still on, unfortunately. Naturally, Yoongi took your words for what they were and is currently engrossed in the Netflix film you mindlessly picked.

Looks like you need to be more specific.

"God, it's so hot in here!" you exclaim in exaggeration, fanning yourself with your hand. "Aren't you feeling hot, Yoonie?"

He finally takes his eyes off the movie to focus on you.

"Uh, no?" he responds in confusion, staring at the thermostat that showed an acceptable temperature. "Are you?"

"I am!" you tell him. "I feel so hot. Maybe we should take our clothes off and—"

"Hang on, darling," he cuts you off, and promptly stands. "I know what to do."

He heads somewhere for a few seconds before returning with a portable mini-fan.

"Do you want me to hold it for you? So your arm won't get tired?"

You blink at him. Honestly, you could cry. Whether because of his sweet gesture or because of how dense he is, you don't know.

"On second thought, Yoonie, I think I'm fine now."

"Are you sure? Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry," you start to say, but then you realize you could use this opportunity as a final attempt. "Actually..."

Yoongi stares at you, waiting.

"...I'm not completely fine. I've been so stressed lately, you know?"

"From work?" he asks.

"Yeah. I think I need some stress relief..." You look him in the eye to get your point across. "Do you understand what I'm saying?"

There's a glint in Yoongi's eyes.

"I understand completely, darling."

Finally.

But wait.

Where is he going?

And what's that he's bringing?

"Aroma therapy," Yoongi tells you seriously, placing a diffuser near you and setting it up. "Essential oils are known to help with stress. Don't worry, darling, I've got you."

Of course, you sigh internally.

You should've known better than to beat around the bush with your blunt, straightforward husband.

You grab his hands.

"Yoonie! Stop it!"

"But the oils—"

"Forget the oils. I don't need aroma therapy, okay?"

He's genuinely confused. "But you said—"

"I know, I'm sorry. I'm not too stressed out, alright? You don't need to worry. I just..."

"Just what?"

You grip his chin and bring his face closer.

"I just want you to fuck me."

It's out in the open now and your husband blinks at you for a few moments, before realization dawns on him and he smirks lazily at you.

"Why didn't you just say so?"

You shrug, smiling now that he finally gets it.

"Well," he grunts, "my boss just gave me orders. What should I do?"

You play along with him, wrapping your arms around his neck, making your lips hover just centimeters from his.

"I think you shouldn't make her wait any longer," you say cheekily. "And I think you shouldn't hold back on her tonight."

Yoongi sweeps you up in his arms, making you squeal.

"Be careful what you wish for, darling," he tells you in that deep voice of his and you feel your underwear dampen.

And without wasting any more time, Yoongi carries your horny ass to your shared bedroom where he fucks you all through the night.

COPYRIGHT 2023. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

[iamumbra195]

!!!SBG SPOILERS CHAPTER 77!!!!

THIS CHAPTER WAS EVERYTHING HOLY FUCKING SHIT!

The dynamics between the kids and how comfortable they've gotten around each other, especially with how Ashlyn was totally okay with Taylor and Aiden messing with her hair-- which is something I absolutely adore in this chapter she looks amazing and badass. The fact that Logan felt comfortable enough being snarky like that is also everything. Like this kid has been bullied relentlessly and the fact that he knows he can be snarky and mess with Tyler like that without getting hurt because of it shows so much growth. And the little moment of childish delight between Taylor and Aiden at the idea of racing around and the fact that Ashlyn doesn't tell them to focus or be serious but instead tells them they can do it later?? Early Ashlyn would get so annoyed and now she's just chill with it because she knows they all have their own ways to cope and deal with the stress and that's honestly so sweet.

Also, Ben using sign language and being understood and the others trying to find solutions so he can warn them of danger or something he is about to do is so sweet. They're so accommodating and caring to one another without even having to think twice, it's honestly so sweet.

Alex helping them with the card without question is really sweet but I have bad feeling it's gonna backfire on him and I don't like it.

And the rules of the phantom dimension are literally so weird. So technically they don't need to sleep or eat but they should because it helps them feel better when they're awake? I knew I was onto something when I made that post about how the fact they're technically living 31 hours a day should effect them more physically.

Also, The fact that the facility has a fucking armory is insane but also works so perfectly for the Mike-centric AU I've been trying to cook up and speaking of Mike, OH MY GOD HE'S IN THE PHANTOM DIMENSION, I REPEAT, HE'S IN THE PHANTOM DIMENSION!!

Does that mean the other parents are there too? Is it just him? Is Emma with him?

Also, both dad and daughter being certified badasses and having the same instincts??

We also got Mike with facial hair again lol but I'm kinda worried about what the means. Like they probably gave them stuff for basic hygiene right? Did something happen? Is he spiralling? Who was the one that screamed in this moment?

Also-- THE WAY ASH STARTED CRYING WHEN SHE RECOGNIZED HIM??

Oh my god, idk if we're gonna have another hug moment where he's comforting her again or if we're gonna have all the kids hugging their parents but either imma start crying.

Also, if she's crying but she thinks she's the one who dragged her dad into the phantom realm and feels horribly guilty about it again I'm gonna fucking cry.

My thought process is all over the place but if you stayed thanks and here are some of my other favourite panels in this chapter.

the second one and aiden shooting the guns has some good pfp potential lol

Anyway, the new outfits and Ash's new hair is everything (she looks adorable I wanna squish her cheeks she looks like a chipmunk oml) and I can't wait until next week holy shit.

[queen-of-hellfire666]

Nightmares [Joel Miller X Female Reader]

Warnings: scary topics, fluff, angst, comfort, nightmares Summary: you have not been able to sleep due to nightmares, Joel takes a notice and tries to help you.

"You okay?" Joel asked, grabbing your shoulder. "Honestly?" Your eyes are glossed over, stressed to the brim. Joel took one look into those bloodshot, dark eyes of yours and nodded. "I'm stressed. I- I'm having these dreams every night and-" your breath hitches as you look down. Joel watches you, eyes softening. "I just want them to stop, I have tried everything. Teas, pills, warm baths, stupid books, lewd thoughts-"

Joel took a moment. "What are these dreams about?" he asks softly, sitting down next to you on your front porch. "Being torn apart, ellie getting killed by raiders.. You- losing you to clickers." Joel nodded, listening closely. "I don't know what to do." your voice was broken. Joel experienced these a while back but with Sarah. He would dream of her death, being eaten alive by his own daughter or monsters. He felt this same pain.

"I used to drink whiskey until I passed out." he recalled. "I don't recommend it but.." his voice trailed off. "No, I cannot take booze." you smiled softly. He made you smile, it made him feel good. "uh I read having a companion in bed helps? like sleeping next to someone." Joel offered up. "Who would just sleep next to me and even try it?" Your eyes wandered.

"If you need it I can." Joel put a firm hand on your back. "c'mon, lets try it darling." he reassured, helping you up. "its really late and plus I don't wanna bother you-" your voice wavered. "Look I'm old, I don't wanna walk home." he chuckled half heartedly.

Upstairs was a whole new ballgame. Joel Miller didn't expect your room to look the way it did. Memories everywhere. He got himself comfy, laying down and waiting for you. "Nice outfit." he teased at you wearing HIS shirt and panties.. that's it. He had to remind himself, wholesome thoughts. "shutup old man." you teased right back.

Settling into his arms felt right, its like his arms were meant to be folded around you, your head on his chest. Its like it was suppose to be this way, this was suppose to happen. 'Joel.. is this okay?" you asked innocently. "Yeah, that's fine darlin' " Joel was warm and smelt like cedar in the forest. He always had a good smell.. even when he was soaked with sweat or blood.

Joel was fast asleep in a matter of seconds. His breathing comforted you. Joel was a snoring machine but it didn't bother you. after what felt like hours you finally fell asleep.

your eyes opened to the middle of a field.. Standing infront of you was a turned Joel.. Your eyes darted for a way out, for this to be fake. Joel runs toward you. "NO!!" you scream and run, running faster than ever into the woods. You dodge him through tree's before tripping over yourself. Joel was on you, growling, eyes white and face fleshy. "please no!!" you tried to fight and push, nothing. Joel was slowly killing you, eating your skin off the bones..

You shot up out of bed, crying and screaming. "Baby girl!!" Joel yelled, holding you. "Hey.. its okay.. its okay shhh.. what happened?" he rubbed your arm. "Y-You-" your breathing was still heavy. "Hey.. Its alright, I'm right here ain't I? Your not dead or dying." its almost like he read your mind.

"I_Im sorry." he pulled you into a hug, letting you sob. Your sobs wracked through your body. Joel had to fix this. He secretly loved you and this just broke his heart. "Hey.." he cupped your face, pushing all the wet hair from your eyes and face. "Let me get you something to drink-" you shook your head violently. "okay, then let me hold you." he pulled you back down, laying with you basically on top of him. You buried your head into his neck.

"I'll always protect you.. I promise." he whispered gently, his hands running soothing circles into your back. "Please don't leave.. Joel I-I love you." your words caused him to freeze. "I love you baby girl." He whispered back. He needed you to say it tomorrow to confirm it. Your hands gripped him tight, clinging for dear life. "Shh.. close your eyes. I'm here. I promise." He waits for you to go to sleep first. Seeing you rest peacefully.

The next few nights were better, Joel was able to soothe you while you were asleep and even stop the dreams. Finally they were gone but you didn't want Joel to leave your bed and neither did he?

part 2?

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

hello I just got caught up on the free chapters of tto:u and I just wanna thank you for making it! I had to go on a pretty stressful family trip this past week, and I had to fly (which I'm terrified of, not for logical reasons but for phobia reasons. irrational fear of heights runs in my family) and honestly this story got me THROUGH that week. i can't stop thinking about it, in a good way. it's getting me hooked on sci-fi again, falling in love with the genre all over again. I keep thinking about arborea, about a hacker obsessed with retro-futurism who plays doom on the side of buildings, about bees and sleeping in a nest in a tree. i haven't felt this way about a sci-fi story since I first read the Wayfarer's series, and that story permanently changed my brain chemistry. you write in a way that is so easy, getting across dense exposition in a way that Feels quick and easy and digestible, but grows like a fungus once it's inside my head.

I spent the flight over crying like a baby. I spent the flight home rereading ttou from the start, and all the fears I had about flying seemed so small compared to aspen crawling along the hull of the Courageous hours after waking up from a months/decades long coma. there's this current of teeth-gritted hope and a stubborn will to survive just a little longer, no matter how bleak the future looks, that I cannot get enough of. it's in all your work, but ttou resonates with something in me that's very unique.

basically just wanted to send you a reader's love letter. you did also make me miss SEVERAL buses, because I kept thinking 'ill just read this next paragraph and keep checking the road, there's no way I'll miss this next one by getting too distracted to notice the bus pass me" which honestly, is entirely my own folly. I knew what this story does to ADHD readers. still, getting home late was worth reading more. it's just so damn good.

also (apologies if you've answered this before), does TTO:U have a planned ending? I see the chapters titled but not yet available to read, and I'm not sure if those are available on Patreon or if those are the planned final chapters? I desperately never want to stop reading new chapters of this, but of course I understand that isn't likely Actually feasible. no matter how much is left though, I look forward to reading more, and to finding new things in the previous chapters to fall in love with

I'm so glad you're enjoying it! There's always another bus coming :P

TTOU is 183 chapters long, so you'll be getting the ending pretty soon. Patrons already have the whole thing. After TTOU, there'll be a new story called Child of a Wandering Star, which has bug aliens in it.

[pathologicalreid]

hiii :)) I just wanna say I absolutely love your work, and I love the way you write Spencer! I squeal everything I get a notification from you, honestly.

please could I request a spencer reid x female!reader where the reader suffers from trichotillomania (a hair pulling disorder.) One day spencer walks in on her having an "episode" where she stands in front of the mirror and starts pulling her hair (mostly her eyelashes) and she tries to stop but the urge to keep doing it is too strong and she physically can't stop herself. So spencer gently moves her away from the mirror and comforts her when she starts crying because she just can't seem to stop doing it and she's frustrated at herself. So he talks her through it gently and gives her advice and maybe he throws in a few positive facts to help her calm down?

Im so sorry if you find this a bit weird and you can totally just ignore this but this is something that I suffer from personally and its gotten really bad lately. So I just thought this would maybe ease it a little bit :) tysm!

resilient | S.R.

in which your boyfriend lends you a hand when your own are working against you

who? spencer reid x fem!reader

category? hurt/comfort

content warnings: possibly triggering for those with trichotillomania or other compulsions. please take caution when reading and take care of yourselves. mentions of anxiety and therapy. reader is referred to as "sweetheart".

word count: 879

a/n: hi anon! thank you for requesting! i'm so sorry this took me so long to write! i wanted to make sure i did thorough research while also trying to balance finals and work, but i finally think it turned out pretty good. i hope you like it and i love you very much.

The door squeaked open, but you didn’t hear it. Sometimes it felt like you were in your own little world, just stood in front of the mirror. It started with a long day at work, and it ended with pulling.

When you were younger, you pulled from your scalp so much that you couldn’t wear your hair down. In college, you moved to your eyelashes. Your therapist explained to you that it was how your brain dealt with stress. The way some people exercise or drink, you pull your hair out.

You got a new therapist when you moved to Virginia, you tested healthy coping habits and tried to find methods that would prevent you from pulling. A few days ago, you tried band-aids on your fingertips, but they fell off and instead of replacing them, you just pulled.

Just a few, you told yourself. Just a few to help the anxiety, you tried to bargain with your brain that was actively working against you. You put your hands down at your sides, constantly flexing your fingers before lifting your hands to your eyes again.

A hand placed on yours brought you out of your bubble, and you jumped slightly when you looked ahead of you and weren’t met with your reflection, but rather the familiar eyes of your boyfriend. Golden on the inside, just as they’d always been. “What’s wrong?” He asked you, clasping both of your hands in his and bringing them down between your bodies.

It was never his intention, but you couldn’t help but feel like a deer in the headlights. A child caught getting into something they shouldn’t have. “I don’t- I didn’t… I thought…” You stammered, not quite knowing the words you wanted to use to describe the struggle.

You looked over your shoulder at the mirror as Spencer gently led you into your bedroom, one of two designated ‘no mirror’ zones in the apartment. “It’s okay,” he whispered, his voice gentle as he tried to console you. “What do you need? What can I do?”

At his concern, your face crumpled, and tears welled in your eyes, “I’m so sorry, Spence.” You whispered, your voice warbling through the tears. Hot streams of water ran down your face, “I thought that I could just do a little. I thought I could stop,” you were fully crying now.

He shook his head, “this is a compulsion, sweetheart. You can’t just be done with it, okay? It’s alright to have bad days,” he told you, moving one of his hands to wipe the tears from under your eyes. “Recovery from trichotillomania takes time, but I’m here.” He leaned forward and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, “I’m here for all of it.”

You knew that he meant well, but his words just made more tears well in your eyes, “You’re so good.” You whispered, “I wish I was stronger.”

“You are the strongest person that I know,” he told you, holding both of your hands in his, skimming the pad of his thumb over your knuckles. “You are so strong, and you can overcome this. It just takes time,” he told you, his voice was strong and reassuring. If he believed you were this resilient, then you would just have to live up to that.

Your shoulders slouched forward, “I didn’t like the band-aids.” You admitted they made it hard to do things, and the sticky residue they left on your fingers made you uncomfortable.

He looked at your hands thoughtfully, “I read about someone who used petroleum jelly on their fingers to dissuade them from pulling. Would you be willing to try that?”

Nodding slowly, you wiggled your fingers, the petroleum jelly would make your fingers too slippery to pull your eyelashes out. You’d have to be good at reapplying, though. “Sure,” you whispered, the last of your tears running to a stop on your cheeks and neck.

Spencer sat you down on the bed before walking into the bathroom and you wrapped your arms around yourself self-consciously.

“How was work?” You called out, it wasn’t often Spencer left in the morning and came back that same evening.

In the bathroom, you heard the cabinet opening and closing, Spencer sighed. “A lot of the same. People commit crimes, I find them,” he said, walking back into the bedroom with a container in hand.

Gingerly, Spencer took your hand and started applying a layer of petroleum jelly to your fingers, focusing on your fingertips. “I’m sorry,” you whispered, focusing your eyes on your hands.

“I understand that your anxiety is making you feel like you need to apologize, but I really wish you wouldn’t apologize. Not to me, and not for this,” he murmured.

You took a deep breath, “I’m… Thank you,” you corrected yourself.

He hummed, lifting your hands so you could see how they shone, “This doesn’t define you, you know that, right? ‘The whole is greater than the sum of the parts’, and I love all of you. Even the parts of yourself that you don’t love.”

Your head lifted, and the corner of your mouth quirked up, “Did you just quote Aristotle at me?”

Spencer nodded gently, “I quoted Aristotle to you.”

Despite yourself, you smiled, “I love you too.”

[jayparked]

question:

i wanna get into andteam but I watched iland and idk if it’s evil editing or what, but K didn’t seem like the greatest person to me? Maybe I’m biased because my ult is Heeseung but idk. The same could be said for Ni-Ki but he was 14-15 when the show aired, I think K was old ebough(?). But seeing recent clips of him he seems extremely supportive of his members! (And my bsf also loves K so i hear a lot of good things about him!). No hate to him obviously!! Just wanted you input!

so i'm going to apologize right away if my tone does not sound as nice as it usually does while i answer this. i am honestly just very tired of the "k was mean" discourse and people not taking the time to see the entire situation as a whole. all everyone sees is "k was mean. riki cried" when it is NOT that cut and dry

every single person on iland was tired, frustrated, stressed and overworked. each of them were being pushed to their limits. have you ever been so tired and exhausted that your words don't come out that great or your patience is a little thin? keep this in mind when you think about iland k

k was the only person who expressed his frustration to the people to their faces instead of going behind their backs and talking about them like what people did with heeseung. could he have worded things better? sure! but given that in the moment he was exhausted, frustrated, etc (which are not negative emotions) he tried his best to express himself. riki did not just cry because of what k said to him. riki cried because he was ALSO feeling exhausted, frustrated etc. it's not so black and white. and no one likes to be scolded or called out by someone they admire. it's embarrassing but what k said was not wrong

we also have to consider the fact that because k is the oldest he inherently had MORE responsibility put on him than everyone else. he's immediately held to a higher unfair standard and it's not his job to parent a bunch of teenagers. he was there to fight for his dream just like everyone else and he acted like everyone else

reality tv always wants a villain. so because k had the guts to express his frustrated feelings outwardly was gold for them. there was absolutely evil editing and they purposefully didn't show just how close k was with riki or jay etc. they focused on k's relationship with taki and made it look like he favored one over the other. k and riki are friends to this day. if k truly was so horrendously mean like people try to make him out to be, both jay and riki would not speak so highly of him still or be in contact with him

idols are held to extremely high and sometimes unrealistic standards. k is human. he's allowed to not be perfect all the time. he's allowed to say things and have them be misinterpreted. he's allowed to not be everyone's cup of tea. but what makes me mad is out of all the "drama" that happened on iland this is the thing people will not let go of. if you think he was mean, okay that's fine that's your opinion. i would hate if people referred to some of my most traumatizing moments in my life and denounced me to just how i reacted when pushed to my limits. he is so much more than the person he was on iland. he is extremely loving, kind, patient, and considerate to not just his members and i really urge you to take the time to see the kind of person he is outside of iland

another thing to keep in mind is we don't have the full picture of that moment. things were edited and framed in ways to keep an audience engaged. we also did not get to see every moment on iland. we didn't get to see how they interacted when the cameras were off, we didn't get to see a LOT. we got a snippet of some discourse and then were moved along to the next part of the show. we are missing a lot of context to what happened

at the end of the day you can have your opinion of him but just know if anyone thinks k was truly mean on iland you should probably not waste your time on my blog. i greatly urge you to do your own research and come up with your own opinions before just siding with twitter discourse etc...

[woozinhos]

I was wondering if I could request giving ateez Yeosang a BJ after he had a long day of work/practice?? 🫢🫢👀

(I also wanna say I LOVE your blog and writing so much it’s an unhinged problem…) 💝💝💝

Notes: back to writing woo oh my god anon thank you so much honestly you’re too sweet thank you for supporting me!!

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Yeosang returns home after a long day of work and practice, looking exhausted but still handsome as ever. He sighs as he walks into the house, rubbing his temples in an attempt to alleviate the stress of the day. You hear the door open and close, followed by the sound of Yeosang's footsteps as he makes his way towards the bedroom.

He pauses in the doorway, his eyes widening slightly as he sees you lying on the bed, waiting for him. Yeosang's tired expression melts into a small smile as he takes in the sight of you, his eyes darkening with desire. He quickly strips off his clothes and joins you on the bed, his body feeling warm and solid against yours. Yeosang pulls you into his lap, his hands roaming over your body as he buries his face in the crook of your neck.

"I needed this," he murmurs, his breath hot against your skin. "Needed you." You can feel the tension in his muscles as he holds you close, the stress of the day slowly melting away under your touch. He lifts his head and captures your lips in a deep, passionate kiss, his tongue slipping into your mouth as he claims you with an intensity that leaves you breathless. As the kiss breaks, Yeosang's hands move to the back of your head, gently tilting it back so that you're looking up at him.

"I need you to take care of me," he says, his voice rough with need. "Please." You can't resist the pleading look in his eyes, and you nod your head in agreement. Yeosang lets out a soft sigh of relief, his hands guiding you down his body until you're kneeling between his legs.

"I'll take care of you, baby," you say, your voice low and sultry. Yeosang lets out a soft moan at your words, his eyes darkening with anticipation as he watches you.

"You look so needy right now," you tease, running your hands up and down his thighs. "All worked up and desperate for my touch." Yeosang shivers at your touch, his body responding to your every movement.

"Only for you," he whispers, his voice hoarse with desire. "No one else can make me feel like this."As you tug his boxers down, Yeosang's cock springs free, already hard and throbbing with need. You take a moment to admire the sight before you, your fingers tracing the veins along his shaft. Yeosang lets out a low groan, his hips bucking up slightly in response to your touch. Yeosang's eyes flutter shut as you wrap your lips around him, his hands gripping the sheets tightly.

"Fuck," he breathes out, his body trembling with pleasure as you take him deeper into your mouth. You begin to move your head up and down, setting a slow and deliberate pace that has Yeosang's toes curling in pleasure. His fingers tangle in your hair, gently guiding your movements as he loses himself in the sensation of your mouth on him. Yeosang's breath comes out in ragged gasps, his hips rocking upwards as he chases the feeling of your mouth on his cock.

"So good," he manages to gasp out, his voice thick with pleasure. "You feel so good, baby." You pick up the pace, taking him deeper and deeper into your mouth until the tip of his cock hits the back of your throat. Yeosang lets out a strangled moan, his body arching off the bed as he struggles to control himself.

"I'm not going to last much longer," he warns you, his grip on your hair tightening as he tries to hold back his release. You can feel him starting to tense up, his body coiled like a spring as he gets closer and closer to the edge. You hum around him, sending vibrations through his cock that make him cry out in pleasure.

"Please, please don't stop," he begs, his voice ragged and desperate. "I'm so close, baby. So fucking close." His hips buck upwards with more urgency now, his body seeking out the pleasure you're giving him.

"I'm gonna come," he gasps, his fingers digging into your scalp as he loses control. Yeosang lets out a loud, guttural moan as he reaches his peak, his body shuddering as he spills into your mouth.

His grip on your hair tightens almost painfully as he rides out his orgasm, his hips jerking upwards with each wave of pleasure. As he comes down from his high, his body relaxes back onto the bed, his chest heaving with exertion. He loosens his grip on your hair, his fingers gently stroking your head as he looks down at you with a dazed expression.

"You're incredible," he murmurs, his voice hoarse from his moans. "I don't know what I did to deserve you."

[97linelover]

if you do requests, can you write angst for hoshi next please? something similar to cheol and seokmin's but with even more hurt 😭😭😭

it´s always the quarterback - Kwan Soonyoung

18+ / mdi

summary: the quarterback and the nerd, how cliché- well not every cliché story has their happy end. The Story between you and Soonyoung started out like in the movies, but what if he betrays you?

content: Quarterback Hoshi x reader, fight, crying, angst, no happy end, highschool au

wc: 4.1 k

a/n: I first started out with Gyu in this Story but then I had this request and thought this would be amazing.

You strolled next to Jia with your black backpack on your arm rummaging through it. "I left my notes in my locker, don't wait up for me" you said with an apologetic smile.

"Alright we're gonna meet up at Chans place later remember, you need to help me with my dress" you just nodded while walking towards your locker.

Lee Jia, Highschool sweetheart, popular and beautiful. Next to her you always felt like a loser, even though she never gave you the feeling. At least you thought so. Jia was deeply in love with Kwon Soonyoung, the popular boy in this school, quarterback and class president.

Kwon Soonyoung was the typical Highschool sweetheart, his looks were a bonus. He was so kind, even the teachers were obsessed with him.

You would never tell her about your crush on him, after all Lee Jia would get him, because after all, she get's everything she wants"

"Y/N you're coming tonight right?" Jeonghan asked followed by Mingyu, cheol and Soonyoung.

"Yes I'll accompany Jia, so I'll see you guys later" Hoshi looked at you, his deep brown eyes focused on you "see you" he smiled softly at you and you nodded, feeling yourself blush.

Kwan Soonyoung was to good to be yours.

And now hours later you found yourself dressed in a red tight dress next to Jia, with a red plastic cup in your hand filled with some cocktail that was nearly empty "did you see Soo? He looks so freaking hot I can't believe he's real, I swear if i'm not gonna end with him I'll freak out" Jia was fanning herself some air and you giggled "maybe tonight you both will get together, you look so good in this dress" you said honestly.

"Would be a shame if not, I'm gonna look for him" She excused herself and you walked towards the kitchen, you rummaged through the cabinet "what are you doing?" a voice interrupted you. You quickly turned around "Soonyoung" your voice sounded shocked "hi Y/N" he said smiling.

"I was just looking for more drinks, anything but beer" you blushed "oh I can mix you something?" He rather asked and you blushed even more "oh I don't wanna bother you"

He laughed "I could use some neutral company" he grabbed a fresh cup and went to a different cabinet "neutral?"

"All the girls are swarming me, they basically press their tits into my face, they are annoying as hell" you covered your mouth giggling "but isn't it kind of nice?"

"It would be, if they would not act so desperate and like sluts, they all act like they want me right now but they hop on another dick every night" you gasped at the words he chose.

"Jia is also looking for you" you nibbled on your lip "I don't care one bit about her Y/N" he gave you the cup "wanna go outside?" He raised his eyebrows and you took a sip of your cup "why not, lead the way!" you giggled and he took your hand pulling you behind him.

All the girls looked at you like you just won the jackpot. And your heart sure felt like it, you both sat down at the bench "aren't you sick of how Jia treats you?" He asked after a while "huh?" "She always talks so low of you, she treats you bad Y/N"

You shook your head "she is a good human Soonyoung, she can be a handful but she is always there for me" you smiled taking another sip. You and Jia have been friends forever, you were sure she was loyal.

"Just be careful around her" he looked up at the sky. You watched him carefully "you seem stressed" you noticed and he shrugged "finals are coming up and some potential sponsorship will be coming next week, I'm trying to get one" he sighed "you are good Soo, I saw you play and I noticed that you're the perfect Quarterback, you always look out for the team" he looked at you "you think so?" he smiled weakly and you nodded "you are really one of a kind when you are on the field. I believe in you" you pecked his cheek and got up "I think I'm gonna go home" you blushed when you realized what you just did.

He quickly got up "I'll walk you, its late" you shrugged it off "ah no don't bother, I'll look for Jia and then head home it's not that far"

"I'll wait outside for you" was the only thing he said and you walked inside, you looked around for Jia "Y/N!" you turned around "Jia!!" she carried a bottle of Vodka with her and a Boy from the Baseball team was clinging on to her "I'm heading home" you said while looking at the guy "I'll take care of her" Jia giggled "you're going home alone? No boy ? like always?" you furrowed your eyebrows "bye Jia" you walked out of the door heading towards the street.

Was Soonyoung right?

Jia loves attention, she would do everything for it.

"Hey I told you I'll walk you" Soonyoung joined you and you smiled softly "sorry, I forgot".

You felt the cold air blowing through your hair and you began to shiver, some raindrops were falling on to your skin "run" he said laughing and he took your hand. Running in the pouring rain with your long time crush was not what you had planned.

"here we are" you said breathless infront of your apartment complex "Thanks for the talk tonight Y/N! You are pretty amazing" he said honestly and you smiled "do you maybe wanna come upstairs until the rain will settle? I could put your clothes into the dryer" you nibbled on your lip.

"I would like that" he smiled and you opened the door walking up to the 4th floor, you took your shoes off walking inside "I'll grab some clothes for you", he watched you walking towards your bedroom, your ass was swaying from side to side, looking perfect in this dress you were wearing.

He groaned because his obsession with you was unbearable, for months he was watching you from afar, whenever you approached him with Jia he could only look at you. His little crush turned into something huge and now he wants you.

Soonyoung does not want to scare you, he wants you to know that he wants to take you out, that he wants to learn little facts about you.

But he was also fucking horny for you.

"You can also sleep here, I don't think the rain will settle, you can use the shower" he was brought back to reality by your soft voice and how you looked at him with your big eyes "thanks a lot Y/N " was the only thing he could say.

And he rushed past you, he closed the bathroom door behind him and took a deep breath, your bathroom looked cute, exactly how he imagined, some pink decor bits were all over the bathroom , and a fluffy bath rug was laying in front of the shower.

He quickly showered and got out of the shower and grabbed a fluffy pink towel, "Y/N, I forgot my clothes I'll come out now" you did not hear him because you were listening to some music, you were only in your underwear dancing around taking your make up off, your hair was in a messy bun and you did not hear the door open.

With some steps backwards you slipped your slippers on twirled around to grab your robe, you let out a scream when you looked at Soonyoung's amused face "keep going" he chuckled and you quickly wrapped the robe around you "gosh you scared me" he chuckled and you noticed something dark in his gaze, something filled with lust.

You felt the heat pooling in your stomach and you tried your best not to look at his chest "you can look you know" he walked in front of you lifting your chin softly "because I sure did enjoy looking at you" his breath hit your face and your Hands fell on his toned chest "I can't" your voice was weak "why not, mh?" you sighed "I will touch you when I look at you, and then I want more, because Soo, you look fucking hot" he chuckled darkly at that "Then touch me, because I'm graving your touch and I am graving to touch you"

Your breath shuttered at his words "fuck it" was all he said and then he kissed you.

And this kiss knocked all the air out of your lungs, you both wasted no time, he guided you towards the bed and kissed along your stomach. He took your underwear off and and you threw the towel to the side.

He was big. And fucking beautiful.

And when you woke up the next morning, cuddled to his chest you felt blissful, the night was breathtaking, he took you over the edge more than 3 times. He was stirring slightly and you quietly tried to get up "more cuddles" he whispered groggily and you giggled pecking his nose "gonna use the bathroom real quick" he pouted at that and you rushed to the bathroom, you quickly peed and brushed your teeth and then climbed back into the bed.

He wasted no time pulling you close kissing your head "still sleepy?" you stroke his chest and he yawned "no but really cozy" your heart fluttered at that "Kwan Soonyoung is cozy in my bed?" he chuckled and nodded "really cozy baby" he pulled your face towards him and kissed you softly.

"Do you wanna stay here? I can make us breakfast" you whispered against his lip and he pulled you on his lap "I need to go home. I have training later but tonight I could come back" you nodded "I will cook something" you slowly grinded your hips "you're a little minx" he groaned when you let yourself sink down on him.

And when Monday came you were walking inside school with the biggest smile "Y/N DID YOU HEAR?" Jia walked towards you "huh?" you raised your eyebrows "Soo went home with someone after the party on friday and he told his mates that they spend the entire weekend together" she was furious and you gulped.

"But isn't he allowed to hook up?" you were confused and she gasped "NO! He's mine Y/N, you know that I am the best for him, we are meant to be together" she flicked her hair "no one is as good as me for him"

You wanted to scream at her that she is delusional, that's she's crazy claiming someone.

"you're right" you forced a smile and you saw her eyes widen and you saw Soonyoung with his friends. "I'll ask him out" Jia said confident and you gasped "you don't know if he's seeing someone, not that you get a heartbreak"

She laughed "I am not you, people want me" and with that you scoffed "I need to go to my class" you did not waste any time an rushed out of the main building.

And after some Minutes you got pulled in to the empty class room, you looked right at Soonyoung "Hey baby" he kissed you softly and your eyes fluttered shut "Soo that's risky" you giggled and threw your arms around his neck "I missed you this morning, I still smell the traces you left on my pillowcase, your scent is addictive " he whispered and kissed your neck "You can come over tonight" you suggested and he nodded "sounds good, I'll bring food after practice" he kissed you again "I need to go Soo" You whispered "I know" he kissed you one last time.

The entire week you sneaked around in school because you did not want Jia to know, you both wanted to test the waters first. You knew Jia would freak out and she would try to destroy everything going on between the two of you. 

And when finals came around you and Soonyoung did not see each other that much, you both were busy with studying and applying for scholarships. Life was crazy at the moment and you were happy that Soonyoung was by your side. You told Soonyoung that you want to make it official that you do not care about Jia anymore because Jia showed you how low she thinks of you.

She made fun of you all the time, and you came to realize that.

Soonyoung told you not to worry,that he needed to arrange some things first and kissed you softly,he tried to cut off the topic as soon as possible, he seemed off the entire time. You did not think about it at first, but now sitting next to Injured Cheol with Jia wearing Soonyoung's Jersey it made you feel weird. You wanted to surprise him between the exhausting time, but when you asked for a Jersey he told you that the only one he had was gone.

Jia had it.

You cheered for him the entire time and you saw the People from the Sponsorship writing down his name and your heart filled with pride, your Boyfriend was the star of the game. The Captain of the Korean National team even showed up. "Can you believe it?" Jia asked happily and you looked at her confused "what do you mean?" "that Soonyoung actually agreed on going out with me, we went out yesterday"

Your heart fell to the floor "you did what?" your voice became quiet "are you deaf Y/N? we had a date dummy" she giggled "and happened something?" you fiddled around with your hands feeling sick all of the sudden.

"what do you think? Of course, we fucked inside his car after he took me out to an Italian restaurant" she smirked "and hes a maniac" she said dreamily and you felt the tears stinging your eyes.

This felt like the most cruel Joke ever.

"Jia shut the fuck up, why are you spreading those dumb things" Cheol said, he was one of the few people that knew about you and him "If you don't believe me, I don't care, I know his little birthmark down there, I know the love bite another girl left on his thigh near there, it seemed pretty fresh, and I saw those marks on his back. Well I replaced them with new ones"

you gulped because you were the girl that left it there three days ago, how was she supposed to know if she did not see him naked.

How was she supposed to know if they did not hook up?

"Excuse me, I need to get out of here" you whispered and got up looking down the field one more time just to see Soonyoung running until he hit the score everyone cheered because Kwan Soonyoung once again brought the win home. Everyone cheered while you were crying.

You hurried down the hall sobbing, feeling like your heart broke into a thousand pieces.

Soonyoung saw you, he saw you leaving, and he saw the tears on your cheek.

But he just watched you.

He watched the girl he loved leave, and he knew his heart left with you.

And when you got a call from Jia three days later you groaned "Hi Jia" you switched through the different tv channels "He asked me" she squealed "what?" "he asked me to be his prom date" you choked out a sob not believing what she just said"that's amazing, but I am really busy right now.. I wish you two only the best" you whispered and ended the call. You could not listen to her, how she now has the boy she always wanted while you were the one whose heart got crushed.

You dialed his number and tried your best to muffle the sound of your sobs "Y/N? Is everything alright?" his sleepy voice asked with concern in it "Why did you break my heart like that? Tell me it was a lie, just a stupid lie" you whispered and you could hear him gulp "Y/N listen," "no it's alright, we were never official, I get it. it was a quick flirt for you, It's always Jia I just wanted you to know that the time we had was real to me but I rather not talk to you or Jia again. I still can't get you out of my mind, even though I'm probably long gone from yours. Have a wonderful life" you hovered over the end button "two days after the ball are the sectionals, I would love to see you there" he whispered "you don't deserve me there, no thank you" was the only thing you could say and end the call.

You dragged yourself into school everyday and your only motivation was that you knew after that you will move, you will start working with a law firm in Seoul. The night of the school dance you were dressed in the most stunning emerald dress you've seen

Soonyoung told you to wear more green and you chose that dress because of him, but right now you felt like ripping it off your skin. Wonwoo would be your date tonight because he told you he does not want you to miss the important night, he told you to give a fuck about them and you really tried.

You ignored him when he entered the Room with her on his arm, and when he walked towards his friend group where you were now a part of.

"Hi guys" he smiled and you heart squeezed at his smile "yáll have drinks?" he asked while looking at you "oh Y/N I'll get you one" Soonyoung sometimes forgot that he was not yours anymore, that he had no right to pamper you anymore. "I'm grown up, I can get my own Drink" you said with a cold voice and he gulped watching you walk away "I think this between you two will never be the same" cheol said towards his friend. "I know that" he muttered "But you can get me a drink Soonie" Jia clawed to his arm and he just nodded..

You were standing at the wall with the cocktail in your hand watching the two dance together, her head was laying on his chest, and he swayed from side to side, Jia once again won.

"and now for prom queen and prom king" the director said into the microphone, all the pairs got called up on to the stage "Prom Queen of the night is...LEE JIA" she squealed and jumped on to Soonyoung.

They gave her the crown and Soonyoun clapped but he did not smile once "And prom king is... Kwan Soonyoung" the people cheered for them and you felt the tears running down your face again. they both posed for a picture and Jia kissed him softly, this was the last straw and you sobbed into your palm "hey shh" Wonwoo hugged you tight and you could only cling on to him.

Why does it hurt so much?

"It hurts so bad" he stroke your back "let me bring you home" he whispered and you nodded looking down while he guided you outside. "poor crybaby Y/N" Jia said into the Microphone and your head shot up looking at the stage with blood shot eyes.

"oh are you crying because Soonyoung chose me?" you felt all the color leaving your skin "ladies and gentleman, my best friend fucked my crush, the man I loved for years" everyone gasped and you felt your legs buckle "Jia" Soonyoung whispered "no its true Soonie, she knew about my love to you and she still went behind my back" she scoffed "cheap hoe never had a chance in the end, after all I'm expecting your baby" you heard gasps from all around you. And you felt numb, and when Soonyoung looked at you he saw an emotion he never thought he will see in your eyes.

You hated him.

He made her pregnant, he really chose her over you.

"bring me home please" you pleaded and Wonwoo guided you outside, you were crying all the way to the cab when you heard his voice "Y/N wait please, that's never" you interrupted him "I dont wanna hear anything, I look at you and I feel miserable , Soonyoung this situation was the worst thing that could've happened. I don't know with what I deserved your sick game but I don't wanna be a part of it anymore. Not once I gave you a reason to treat me like that, I gave you my heart, I fucking despise you." you wiped your tears away.

"you chose her, after you told me to cut her off, ironic isn't it" you opened the cab door "from now on I will forget that we ever existed, you can never earn back my trust" with that you drove away while wonwoo tried his best to calm you down.

In school you ignored both of them, not that they tried to reach you, but you just acted like they are not there.

It was now the sectionals and you knew that Soonyoung would get a scholarship after today, he had to. You watched the entire game from the last bleacher praying for him to win this match, and he did. You smiled while watching some of the coached approaching him and then you left. You left this school and you would leave Soonyoung behind.

And while you left, Soonyoung was talking to Mr.Ko "Soonyoung, you are incredible, your girlfriend was definitely right about you" he furrowed his eyebrows "girlfriend?" mr ko laughed "Y/N, she got into contact with me praising you like no other, she's pretty stubborn until she gets what she wants, but she was right you are one of a kind, keep this woman close she has so much admiration for you something you won't get that easy again" he smiled at him and Soonyoung nodded "she is really one of a kind"

"So Soonyoung do you wanna play for the Seoul football team?".

-

After the 10th time Soonyoung did not try to call you anymore, you were packing your bag when a knock was on your door "coming" you opened the door "Soonyoung" you gasped "I know you don't wanna see me, but fuck I am not dating Jia, if she's pregnant then not from me, we never had sex! I did this for you and i know this was the wrong way but everything I did, I did it for you" he was sobbing by now and you did not know how to react "Mr Ko told me what you did and fuck I miss you so much, I loved you more than you knew. I just wanted to save your reputation" he whispered.

"I love you, and I am sorry" he walked down the hall "do you want a drink and explain?" you whispered and he looked at you nodding "I would love that" he followed you inside and you went inside the kitchen "do you want water?" you asked with unreadable emotions.

"yeah..um water is fine" he sat down at the kitchen chair and you watched him "care to explain what you meant?" you took a sip and he sighed "Jia came to me, she pulled me aside and she told me to date her, I scoffed at that because I dont even want her.. but she pulled out her phone showing me nudes of you, she told me she knew what was going on between me and you and that she wont give you, me... she told me that she will leak all of them if I stay with you, and fuck I did this because I wanted to protect you, I wanted to keep you out of this just because she is obsessed with me" he wiped his snotty nose "I told her some stuff to make this believable, like the love bite" you tried to blink the tears away "In the end I should've told you I know but I could not"

You starred at your hands "thank you for telling me" you whispered "but I think the worst part is that I don't even feel relieved, you broke my heart into a million pieces and I dont think you could fix it by now, she humilated me in front of the entire school... you turned my world around and crushed it" you heard Soonyoung sob once again and you turned around.

"I want us Y/N, I want us to work" he whispered and you took your cup "I wont be here tomorrow, you can never earn back my trusty" you felt the tears running down your cheek "what?" he got up "I got the scholarship in seoul" you smiled through the tears "and I dont think I'm worth a long distance" you could see how he was processing what you just said and he laughed out "don't shit me" but then he saw your packed things "so this is over?" he took your face into his hands "it was over when you decided to break us apart" you whispered and he nodded "I am so sorry. I love you I really do".

"I love you too, but I can't love you anymore, I don't want to" you whispered "no love is worth this pain, maybe in the future if our paths cross again we can be friends again" with that you ended this chapter of your life.