#i'm so tired rn sorry for sounding flat

[earthtooz]

HELLO? i died when i saw ur reblog on my post thank you 🙏🤞🏽😁🫶 brb yelling

hellaur val, your itoshi rin fic actually gave me life so thank YOU. clingy rin will never not be good for my soul :3 especially when u wrote it so cute

[daniiiboo]

a new years kiss - qh43

summary- Your friend dragged you to a party, even though you really didn't want to. You end up meeting quinn and sharing a news years kiss.

trigger warnings - talks about drinking, some flirty comments

dani's thoughts - kind of a late new years fic, but hey, at least I got one! sorry about the bad summary, I'm very tired rn!

word count - 1.01k

The music resonated through the walls of the modern downtown Vancouver penthouse, the deep bass line intermingling with laughter and the loud rings of margarita glasses. You tightened and squeezed the hem of your dazzling black dress which now felt both too short and too tight in a sea of glamorous partygoers. It was your girl Rachel who dragged you here, and she'd promised a "legendary" New Years' Eve party, which you really didn't believe.

You'll thank me later," she'd promised, pulling you out of the Uber and into the elevator up to a skyscraper-high flat.

You'd stood near the kitchen, nursing your champagne and people-watching, when Rachel seemed to disappear. You felt a little lost, a little out of place, until a familiar face caught your eye across the room. Quinn Hughes. The Canucks' defenseman and local hockey idol was in a jovial mood outside the giant floor-to-ceiling windows, laughing about one of his friends' remarks. He was in a smart navy blue-coloured button-up shirt and dark jeans, well, his typically good looks remained even when he was in such a formal atmosphere.

You weren’t a die-hard hockey fan, but you’d watched enough games with your family to know who Quinn was. And maybe you’d developed a tiny crush on him after seeing him in those post-game interviews, his shy smile and understated humor stealing the spotlight. There, in the flesh, to look at him had the effect of flipping your stomach upside down, which had nothing to do with the champagne.

"Oh my god, is that Quinn Hughes?" a voice to your left whispered. You swivelled around and saw two women eyeing him with chuckles. 

"Yeah, he's so cute," the other chattered.

You saw your cheeks flush and hastily turned back to your drink. No way was someone like him going to notice someone like you in a room full of gorgeous, confident people. However, as if in a protest against all reason, his eyes moved across the room stopping on you. For a moment, you were convinced you'd imagined it. But no, his eyes lingered, his expression softening into a curious smile.

Your heart was racing. What was he smiling at? You looked back over your shoulder to discover whether someone else out there was watching your back, but nobody was watching you. When you turned back, Quinn was working his way toward you, weaving through the crowd with an easy confidence that only made him more intimidating.

Hey," he said, his voice smooth but warm, like you'd known each other for years. "I don't think we've met. I'm Quinn."

You blinked, momentarily starstruck. Up close, he was even more striking. His dark hair was a bit tousled, and his hazel eyes shone under the light of the chandelier that hung over him.

"I'm Y/N," you managed to say in return, trying not to sound as flustered as you felt.

"Y/N," he repeated, his smile spreading. "Nice to meet you. You here with friends?"

"Yeah, my friend Rachel dragged me here. She said I needed to get out more," you said with a small laugh. "What about you? Are you friends with the host?"

He nodded. "Yeah, kind of. I've been to a few of his parties before. They're always… a lot."

Well, that's one interpretation," you said, scanning the extravagantly decorated room and the host of people dressed to the nines. Right, are you sort of a New Years' Eve party type of person?

He shrugged, leaning casually against the counter. 

"Not really. I usually keep it low-key. But a couple of my teammates got me to go out tonight.

"Well, it's definitely not low-key here," you said, gesturing to the packed living room where people were dancing and shouting over the music.

Quinn chuckled, the sound warm and genuine. 

"No, it's not. But it's not so bad now."

You raised an eyebrow. 

"Now?"

He tilted his head, his smile turning slightly shy.

 "Now that I've met you."

Your breath caught. Was he… flirting with you? Before you could overthink it, Rachel appeared out of nowhere, tugging on your arm.

"Y/N, they're starting the countdown soon! Oh, hi," she said, noticing Quinn. Her pupils dilated a bit in recognition but she did not panic.

"Hi," Quinn said politely, giving her a nod.

"I'll catch up with you in a minute," you said to Rachel, who raised an eyebrow knowingly before turning and melting back into the crowd.

"Looks like we've got a few minutes until midnight," Quinn said, glancing over at the clock on the wall. "You want to head outside? The view's pretty great from the balcony."

"Sure," you said, trying to sound casual despite the fact that your heart was practically doing cartwheels.

The two of you went onto the big balcony, where the fresh night air was a breath of fresh air after the heat of the party. The city lay in wait, a ocean of shimmering lights. Fireworks started going off in the distance, bursts of color lighting up the sky.

"Wow," you breathed. "This is incredible."

Quinn rested against the railing next to me, with his shoulder touching mine. "Yeah, it is."

At that instant, the two of you stood motionless as you absorbed everything. The noise from inside was muffled and the city seemed almost peaceful despite the celebrations. And the countdown started, voices from the party echoed onto the balcony.

"Ten… nine… eight…

You looked at Quinn, already staring back at you. His face was soft, almost hesitant, weighing something over. Your heart was racing as the countdown went on.

"Seven… six… five…"

"Y/N," he whispered, leaning in closer. "Can I…"

"Four… three… two…

You nodded, not trusting yourself to speak. And then, as the crowd inside shouted, "One! Happy New Year!" his lips met yours in a soft, tentative kiss that made your entire body feel weightless.

As he recoiled the reddest of his cheeks were visible, grinning sheepishly toward you. "Happy New Year, Y/N."

You grinned, your heart soaring. "Happy New Year, Quinn."

[hii-hawaiiu]

Bored

Pairings: Sirius x Reader

Summary: Sirius Black is so full of himself and Y/N seems to be tired of it.

wc: 965

A/n : posting it at 1 am rn (a girls gotta do what she gotta do) angst?? kinda?? idk its more like arguments and all nevertheless i hope you all enjoy!! don’t be shy to leave some likes/comments/reblogs or all three idm

Why don't we

Call it for what it is?

Can't remember the last time we kissed

And it tickled my heart

I think that it's best that we spend time apart

I just yawn

Listening to you

Talk about yourself again

And again

“And then, I managed to close that major deal with the goblins,” he said with a smirk. “I don't know why everyone thought it was impossible, but I did it, of course! no one could refuse someone as charming as me.”

Sirius sat in his chair, leaning back with a pompous air surrounding him. He was recounting yet again his latest achievements to Y/N, his tone laced with arrogance as he boasted about himself again and again.

Y/N let out a yawn struggling to keep a neutral expression, her patience wearing thin with each word that came out of his mouth.

Y/N sat in silence as Sirius droned on about himself, feeling a familiar sense of boredom wash over her.

She couldn't take it any longer. "I'm bored siri," she blurted out, her voice betraying her feigned interest.

Sirius looked at her, a baffled expression on his face. "What do you mean, you're bored?" he asked, clearly annoyed that she had interrupted his monologue.

Y/N sighed. "I mean, I'm bored of this. Of always listening to you talk about yourself, and never once asking me anything about myself."

Sirius scowled, clearly offended by her remark. "Well, excuse me for trying to share my life with you," he said sarcastically.

Y/N rolled her eyes. "It's not about sharing your life, it's about listening to mine as well. This conversation is always one-sided, with you doing all the talking," she explained, her frustration growing.

Sirius huffed, clearly not used to receiving criticism. "So what exactly do you want me to say then?" he snapped back.

Y/N felt the anger bubbling up inside her. "Maybe try asking me how my day went or what I did, instead of just talking about yourself over and over again," she suggested through gritted teeth.

Sirius rolled his eyes, clearly not appreciating her feedback. "You're being ridiculous," he retorted. "I talk about my life because it's important, and you're supposed to be interested in it."

Y/N's patience had reached its limit. "And what about me? Doesn't my life matter too?" she shot back, her voice rising.

You followed me out and said, "Darling, don't leave"

Your passionate monologue woke up the street

"I'll marry you someday, you're perfect for me"

I got in my car just to drown out your plea

Y/N stood up abruptly, the sound of her chair scraping against the floor echoed through the room. She had had enough of Sirius' self-centeredness and knew that she couldn't bear to sit through another minute of his boastful chatter.

“oh come on! Y/N! Darling, you know I don't mean it that way!” He yelled/exclaimed as soon as she stood up waving an arm in the air as if to express his sorry.

“Look, I'm sorry darling, I love you, you know that right?” He voiced out his concern, outstretching his hand as if he's begging her to stay, “I’m sorry, love, please,” his voice began to shake.

She stormed out of his flat, slamming the door behind her. She couldn't believe how far their relationship had deteriorated, how he’s so self possessed. How he was so charming at first but now just the thought of him makes her depressed.

He followed her out and said, "Darling, don't leave," his passionate monologue woke up the street “I’ll marry you someday, you’re perfect for me”

She quickened her pace, feeling irritated at his attempts to win her back with empty promises and sweet nothings. She got into her car just to drown at his plea.

As Y/N sat in her car, engine running, she could make out Sirius' voice through the closed windows. He continued to speak, his words barely audible over the sound of the engine.

"Y/N, please listen to me!" he shouted, banging on the passenger window. "I know I've messed up, but please, please don't leave."

Y/N refused to look at him, keeping her gaze fixed straight ahead. She gripped the steering wheel tightly, her knuckles turning white with the force of her grip.

Sirius continued to talk, his words blurring together in a jumble of pleading and desperation. "I promise to change, Y/N. I'll listen to you more, I'll value your thoughts and feelings. Just please, don't go."

“I can’t do this anymore, Sirius” Y/N's words echoed in Sirius' ears, silencing his pleas. He stood outside the car, his shoulders slumped in defeat, as he absorbed the weight of her statement.

"You can't do this anymore? With me?" he repeated incredulously, trying to comprehend her meaning.

“yes, we’re done Sirius, I’m done”

As Y/N drove away from Sirius, her mind and heart were in turmoil. Every mile she put between them felt like a weight lifting off her shoulders, but at the same time, it felt like a dagger lodged in her heart.

Once she reached her own apartment, she parked the car and buried her head in her hands. The tears she had been holding back since the night before came streaming down her face, and she couldn't stop the sobs that racked her body.

With her forehead against the steering wheel, she let out a strangled cry, the pain and exhaustion finally taking over.

Cause I'm bored (bored)

Bored of this love, oh, I'm bored (bored)

Bored of this talk, and

Maybe you're just way too vain to be interesting

Baby, keep talkin' but nobody's listening

Don't mean to walk out the door

But, baby, I'm bored, oh

[luminousbeings-crudematter]

(Sorry if this sounds demanding, swear it's not my intention) could you write a domestic scene within the situationshipverse pls? A date or something like that. I love it <3

You don't sound demanding at all, and THANK YOU, anon, for this request, I actually loved writing for these two fools again! I briefly talked about a disastrous Valentines' date with Simon (that takes place soon after the end of the main series) and wanted to talk about it more.

I'm feeling a bit meh about my writing rn, but I hope you like it anyway <3

You're late.  Again.

Your phone is dead, you’re tired beyond belief, you’ve got blisters in your feet and it’s pouring rain tyrannically, rendering you completely drenched, boots squelching with every step you take towards his flat.

You’re so irritated, so full of anger at the shitty circumstances and while you’re not usually a violent person, you kick at the sign that says that the lift is out for repair.  But the sound it makes when it knocks over sets off the waterworks, and by the time you’re pitifully knocking at Simon’s door, your face is as drenched as your coat.      

He ushers you in without a word, but it just makes you cry harder.  It’s not only that you were late for your date with Simon…it’s that you’re four hours late, Simon is on leave for only two weeks and that it’s Valentine’s Day and you’d wanted to spend a cheesy evening with your stoic boyfriend who’d stumbled his way into feeling out and planning something that he’d thought you’d enjoy.

And you were four hours late.  Because cheesy fools all around the city had wanted the same thing you’d wanted—time alone with the one you loved with the world shut out around you.

Your wet clothes stick to your skin and your irritation makes even removing them a chore, but Simon patiently leads you to the bath and helps you strip off your clothes that fall down to the tiles with a wet plop.  While the bathtub fills and the steam envelopes the room, Simon looks down at you with melted eyes the colour of dark caramel and wipes your tears with gentle fingers.  “Why are you so upset, love?” he whispers.  “It’s alright, you’re alright.”

You bury your face into his chest and his arms automatically go around you and grab your bare ass.  It makes you giggle through your tears, and you half-heartedly smack his chest.  “You can’t do that, I’m crying!”      

“Not mutually exclusive,” he insists, and it makes you cry-laugh again.  

You push away from him slightly, put your hands on his chest, rest your chin on them and look up at him.  “I’m sorry I ruined Valentine’s Day.” 

“Sweet girl,” he starts quietly.  “You’re standin’ naked in m’flat, lookin fuckin’ fantastic—” your ass is squeezed again for emphasis—“and yer’ going to relax and we’ll get some food and then you’ll sit on m’face until the mornin’.  Day’s hardly ruined, love.”

“Jesus, Simon,” you mumble, pushing away from him and rubbing at your swollen eyes.

“S’true.  You could never ruin anythin’, love.”

“You’re a sap,” you chide him.  “I know you made some plans for us to do something.  I should’ve just asked for the day off and—”

“Shut up.  Take your clothes off and get in the bath,” he interrupts, and despite yourself, you roll your eyes at him but follow his instructions.  When you’re comfortably seated, you feel his fingers gently drip water into your hair, on the back of your neck and on your shoulders, and the familiar, repetitive  motions soothe the disquiet in your mind. 

When his fingers use rhythmic motions to massage shampoo into your hair, you feel your stress further melt away, and sink deeper into the warm water.  “You wanna talk about it?” he enquires quietly.

“Fuck no,” you sigh, closing your eyes and leaning your head further back into his touch.  “I don’t even want to think about it.”

“Good,” he whispers.  “Don’t think about it, then.  Just relax, sweet girl.  You’ve got me.”

Your eyes blink open at his words, and you’re reminded of why you’d been so upset previously.  The real reason you’d been so upset.  “I, er…earlier?  I was upset because—I feel like you planned something for us and I let you down and you’re going away next week and we don’t even know when I’ll see you next, and fuck, Simon, I love you, I love you so much, but this is so hard—”

“Fuckin’ hell,” he breathes.  “You’ve been thinkin’ about that, pet?”  His sigh is deep and troubled, and he leans down to press a kiss onto your forehead.  “I love you…” he murmurs, “...but you’re a fuckin’ idiot, love.”

“I know,” you wail.  “I know it’s ridiculous, but it just feels like I’m wasting your time—”

“Alright, enough of that.”  He stands abruptly, and bends down to you.  Before you know it, he’s lifted you up effortlessly, and your legs dangle over his arms while he marches you into his room.  When he throws you onto his bed, you bounce a little and it makes you gasp.

“Simon, you fool, I’m dripping wet.”

“I know you are,” he says.

“I’m going to mess your bed up and we’re going to have to sleep on a wet bed.”

His expression is intense as he says, “Doesn’t matter.”

You rise up partially on your elbows and narrow your eyes at him.  “You’d hate it,” you tell him.  

He doesn’t bat an eye.  “Don’t care.  What I do care about is that you never say anythin’ like tha’ again, okay?”

You laugh nervously and fiddle with the covers, too embarrassed to even look at him.  “I know.  I wasn’t really worried about that, I just say stupid shit sometimes.”

“Okay,” he says, crawling over you now, and hovering over you, forearms on either side of you, effectively caging you in, keeping you safe, making it so it’s just him and you, exactly like what you’d wanted.  “Love you.”

“I love you too, Simon.  You’re it for me,” you whisper, and lean forward until your forehead touches him and you’re holding on to his wrists with your hands.

“You’re it for me too, sweet girl.  And…” his eyes quickly flicker down to your bare body.  “...nice tits.”  You can tell he’s still a little bothered though, and you lean further up to speak against his lips.

“I promise you, I don’t actually think I’m wasting your time, I just want to make the most of the time we’ve got together, and sometimes I struggle when you’re gone and it’s a bit lonely at my place, but I know you’re coming back to me and—”

“Move in with me.”

“...what the fuck?”  You stare at him with comically large eyes that threaten to bulge out of your eye-sockets.  “What the fuck is wrong with you, how are you asking—”

“Move in with me, dove.”

“Fuck, yes!  Of course, yes!” you say, grinning.  “Obviously yes!”

He doesn’t say anything, but a rare, perfect smile makes an appearance, and in that moment, everything’s perfect and life is perfect and you’re just two love-struck fools staring at each other with goofy smiles on your face.  “Should we have sex now?” you wonder aloud.  “Celebrate, somehow?”

“Got the bed messy anyway, love.”

You look around you at the rumpled, wet sheets and nod.  “Yeah, sorry about that.  I’m honestly impressed you let it happen, considering how military you are about it like oh make the bed so tight and neat you can’t get in or out of it otherwise it’ll start the next world war—” you mock him doing a horrible job of imitating his accent but your voice just gets deeper and deeper until it cracks, making you laugh, then snort and then laugh again.

Through it all, Simon has the most unimpressed expression on his face, pretending to be pissed off, of course, but the melted honey of his eyes gives him away, and he ends up smiling at you anyway.

He leans down to kiss you, and you try (and fail) pull his jumper off of him.  He pulls it off himself, and strips the rest of his clothes off, only separating from your lips when he absolutely has to.  When he briefly shifts, a strand of soft gold falls into his eyes, and you reach up to push it aside.   

“Why are you smiling?” you ask him.

“Why are you smiling?” he shoots back.

“We’re about to have sex, why the fuck wouldn’t I be smiling?”

He shakes his head and laughs at you, and you’re suddenly euphoric at the feeling that he incites in you, knowing that you do this for him and he’ll do it for you, and you’ll be stuck in a loop of making each other undeniably, uncontrollably happy for the rest of your lives.   

He makes the night infinitely better when his moan against your mouth ends up sounding like he’s in agreement with your thoughts.

[physcoticfrog]

heyo! i'm new to your blog but i've found your writings amazing! may i reguest the soulmate au "The voice inside your head is your soulmate's" with the sfw prompt "Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone" for Itona Horibe? Thank you so much in advance 💝!

AHHH IM SO HAPPY TO GET A SOULMATE ASK

Ahh itona ✋😺 I love that man lemme just say that rn. (AND LISTEN IK I HAVE A FIC TO WORK ON BUT IM LAZY)

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Pairing: Itona Horibe x reader

Prompts: Soulmate au where the voice inside your head is your soulmate's, "Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone."

Warnings: Slight mentions of parental abuse

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This week seemed like a very chaotic week. But then again, when were they not? You managed to gain a new classmate, and not only did he have a really fucked up life, he was hot. But did that really mean anything?

You thought of your mother and father. They already reprimanded you enough as it was for being in the E class. Not only that, but if you were ever late, you would get a long lecture. They weren't ever going to allow you to even have a boyfriend.

You were woken up by Terasaka. "Hey dumbass, wake up. Class is over." He deadpanned. You let out a harsh groan.

Next class was phys ed, and although you were good, it had never been your favorite. Especially when you're extremely tired.

You had also come to hate the fact that the voice in your head wasn't even your own. You always hated the idea of soulmates, but ignored it anyways.

"God damnit I hate this voice it's so annoying" you told Terasaka. It wasn't unusual for you to complain about it, and Terasaka was used to it.

He just rolled his eyes. "Come on, we gotta go." He said. You groaned again, but still reluctantly stood up.

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When you got to phys ed, it was normal. But, Mr. Karasuma had decided to put you all in pairs. You got paired with Itona, the extremely hot and.. interesting one.

"Hey" you said.

"hi" he replied. Your eyes went wide. His voice. His is the ever so annoying one playing on loop inside of your head.

You had heard him talk before, but why are you just now noticing it? You didn't pay it much attention, and immediately just started going in for the attack as if it would make the class go by faster.

Unfortunately for you, Itona was incredibly fast. He dodged your attack with ease, not even flinching. He then grabbed your arm and had you pinned.

You huffed. "Fuck", you spoke, "how are you so fast?" You heaved out. You might've known had you been out the other night, but your parents had alarms on every window and door in the house.

He didn't even answer you, and let you go as Mr. Karasuma said that class was over. But, you were just glad to get a break.

After mulling it over, you decided to skip. Luckily for you, you had already picked out a place that is pretty much flat.

So, you walked away and climbed up the tree, and played down on one of it's unnaturally flat branches.

As you lay asleep, you realized that Itona had never, not even slightly, acknowledged the voices you two shared. After a while, you heard everyone leaving to go home. Had you really managed to miss 3 different class periods over a nap?

When you got home, you immediately felt your mother's gaze move to you. She seems livid. "Why are you home late?" Your mom spoke through her teeth. That cause you to look at the time. 3:07. Two minutes late.

"I- I'm sorry", you muttered and bowed, "I did not intend to be late home today." You stated, trying to lace sincerity into your voice.

Your mother crouched down in front of you, smilingly a sickly sweet kind of smile. "It's ok pumpkin, we are never going to do that again, right?" She said, almost too sweet.

"right." You answered. You knew there was no right answer to this. You held your breath.

"You're wrong.", she stated, angry and gripping your shoulder, "You have never once changed this behavior. I will not believe you until things change." She said, borderline yelling. Her grip tightened on your shoulder, causing her to hit a pressure point and you passed out.

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When you woke up the next day, you immediately left for school. You brought your uniform but were still in your pajamas. You climbed up the mountain, entered the building and made your way towards the bathroom. Hazama looked at you weird.

"don't ask." You stated at her. She then threw her hands up and went into the classroom.

Once you got changed you looked into the mirror. You looked like shit. The bags under your eyes were more noticable than ever, and your eyelids felt so heavy like they could collapse any minute.

You eventually moved your pajamas into your bag and went to class.

As soon as you walked in, everyone took notice for your crappy state. "Y/n, are you doing ok?" Karma asked you. You were honestly surprised, it wasn't like him to ask anyone if they're alright.

But, you let it slide and smiled. "Yeah! I'm doing great, don't worry about me." You laughed as you scratched the back of your neck.

Class went by like a blur, and you didn't even notice. You honestly were zoned out the entire time and didn't even remember anything Koro-Sensei said.

You got up and walked out, but decided to go to your tree. You were definitely going to regret it when you got home, but that's a story for another day.

And Itona's voice? You didn't even know how to start going about that.

As you lay down, you started falling asleep. How long? You really didn't know. "Hey, Ritsu?"

"Yes?" She responded.

"Can you wake me up at 4:30?" You asked her.

"Yes I can!" She said sweetly. It was so kind, not a sickly or bitter kind of sweet like your mom. And there was no anger like your dad.

You were passed out. It was crazy how easily you slept on that tree. You, unfortunately, were startled awake.

You almost fell out of the tree, but someone grabbed onto you. "I'm sorry, I just heard your phone playing some sort of alarm sound, so I came to check it out." It was Itona.

You put up your casual and shy facade, "Oh! Thank you, I'm sorry." You laughed out.

He made a face of disbelief and concern. "Are you ok?" He questioned.

You smiled, "why wouldn't I be?"

He frowned at that, "Y/n, you came into school today in pajamas." He deadpanned. Your smile faded.

"Oh! That, yeah I was in a bit of a rush because I woke up late." You then became panicked. "Oh no. Oh no." You repeated. You chanted it like a prayer.

"I have to go. It was nice talking to you, Itona." You tried leaving, but he grabbed your arm. When you looked back at him, he had an expression of extreme seriousness.

"Look, I don't know you very well, but I'm still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone." He stated.

"I- Itona, thank you so much. And I get that we're soulmates and all, but I really need to get back home." And then you froze. You just told him you were soulmates. Yeah, he probably knew, but he hasn't said anything about it.

He also froze. "I- I'm sorry? We're what now?" He questioned.

You rolled your eyes. "Have you not noticed? Have you not realized that the voice in your head is mine?" You stated.

His eyes then widened. "Yeah. I seriously have to go now. Thanks for your concern." You told him. However, his grip on your arm didn't falter. " Itona, let me go."

"No. I'm not letting you go until you tell me what's going on." He told you. And although his face was unreadable, his voice was filled with worry.

You sighed. "If I tell you, will you please let go of me?"

He nodded. You decided to be as vague as you possibly could. "My home life isn't all that great, and I'm also super stressed out about the whole soulmates thing." That seemed pretty vague, right? "Now will you please let me go."

His grip loosened, and you moved away from him. "Um.. since we're soulmates and all. Do you.. maybe want to give this- us- a try?" You hesitated though. Your parents would be furious, but who are they to decide if you get to date your own soulmate?

You nodded. "Yeah.. let's give us a try." You jumped down the tree and then sprinted back home while trying to prepare yourself for what was to come.

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A/n: Alright! Not my favorite thing I've ever done, and I'm sorry that this took me a while. But uhh yeah! I did my best 😅 I really hope you like it.

[lostinthewiind]

I literally am having the worst day too my tire got flat lmao but I thought about these last night what a perfect time to share lol also I hope your days gets better 🥰

bf!suga headcanon -

-best date planner

-has too many photos of you in his phone (like he has a whole folder) (no it’s not creepy)

-is secretly good at drawing and likes to draw you your favorite flower

-would be a stay at home dad

-won’t fall asleep until he knows you’re sound asleep first

So sorry to hear about your flat tire, anon! Honestly just one of the most inconvenient and quickest ways to ruin a day!

As for me, I've gone through the 5 stages of grief by now (and multiple times over) and have arrived to the point of "failure is not an option so pick your ass up bitch"

Now onto the good stuff!

I totally agree that Suga would be such an adorable and loving bf! While I, personally, subscribe to the fanon that he is kinky af, I also like to believe he is sweet as can be!

What I would give to get a suga hug rn! Or really any hug from any Haikyuu boy.

I'm in need of some hugs rn.

[usertoxicyaoi]

hey! this is a very serious question without negative ulterior to it and i'm sorry in advance if you take it the wrong way, but i really want to have your point of view on how you feel about sarawat and tine not having a proper kiss scene yet? don't you feel it to be a little unrealistic and quiet naive from the show? even if i personally don't want them to kiss in every episode tbh but having such little reaction from tine, after being boyfriend with sarawat make it looks uncomfortable

hiii anon!!! oh man ... i ..... this topic of discussion has become so ... its polarising to the point where ive become tired of it bc of how contentious its become.

kisses are an added bonus to things, if anything for me personally, which is nice to see. yes, i'd like to see tine initiating a kiss, or actively kissing sarawat back too, but .... it just doesnt feel right right now for that to happen. not when tine's not ready to do so.

now some may say that theyve moved in but tine isnt willing to kiss? to which i say ... ya know. yes theyre boyfriends. but theyre also really really good friends to one another too. they enjoy each others companionship. they want to share their space with one another. and tine has been physically close to sarawat in SO MANY ways, that its just as fulfilling and satisfying to see, so much so that a kiss is just gonna be a bonus. nothing else. but tine's perhaps just not quite ready to initiate a kiss yet bc ... that might mean a lot to him, and tine still is in this frame of mind rn where he still cannot believe he is wat's boyfriend, but he's trying and he's putting in the effort bc he does like wat. and he wants wat to Know that. and wat is so patient with tine, that he's okay with tine not wanting to initiate kissing. but tine rn needs the emotional fulfillment his relationship with wat brings to him as he navigates his way through his insecurities and low self esteem. thats not easy to do. not at all. and pam is still yet to come!!! and thats going to open a whole can of worms. and until that doesnt get addressed, tine is going to be On Edge. sarawat ending ep 11 by saying "i dont think anything bad will happen anymore" is just as ominous sounding bc things still havent actually been sorted? theyve told each other they like one another, but that does nothing for tine's insecurities when he Knows at the back of his head that mil is still Lurking. and then pam is going to come into the frame and thats gonna Stress tine out even more until he has no option but to lay it out flat on the table to sarawat, that "hey, listen. i dont feel so good about these things and we need to talk about them." until tine doesnt initiate THIS, sarawat is not going to know. and THAT is what needs addressing between them, and what tine NEEDS addressing for the sake of his own sanity and healing and heart, before he feels secure enough that "our relationship isn't under potential risk, damage or threat and that wat isnt going anywhere," to initiate kissing or whatever. but the problem rn is tine is just not brave enough to voice out his deepest concerns or insecurities. and he's gonna NEED a push like pam (who is a literal reflection of himself) to do that.

i just ... i dont feel like ive missed anything with them having not kissed, when we have gotten to see them be intimate in So Many Ways. and theyre all just as valid. and its quite telling that even tho they havent kissed, people are still HOOKED onto their love story, bc thats what it is: a story about 2 boys falling in and figuring out love. so, something must be happening right for people to be so enamored by their love story. and every facet of love is being shown here, from emotional to physical, and so, a kiss will come, when it will. why not enjoy all the other ways, in the meantime, where we see them being intimate? through words and gestures and gifts and healthy communication and mementos and domesticity, etc? isnt that what real life couples also do? isnt it so nice to see 2 boys slowly falling in love with one another, in their first relationships with a boy, have all these things between them to signify their relationship too?

and then theres a small matter of this being a gmmtv show. you're not gonna get kisses for the sake of them. thus, it makes every kiss that does happen feel that much more monumental and significant. personally, i prefer that.

but yeah, endpoint is: the kissing is just a bonus. if we get it, cool. if we don't, i'm cool with that too. tine and sarawat's love for one another shines through in every act of theirs, anyway. the whole world, literally, knows that as Fact.

[thisstableground]

If it's okay, I'm really in need of Ruben yelling at stupid people re. science and/or health (and Vanessa & Usnavi staring because they ain't used at Ruben being so assertive - also, ngl, it's kinda hot). Can be anti-vaxxers, flat earthers, or the kinds of stupid we're witnessing rn with people going out to crowded places bc they're "not afraid" and "I'm healthy/young anyway" (bc fuck vulnerable / chronically ill people right *headdesk*)

ruben is sointensely focused on the heated conversation he’s having with some rando when vanessa comes in that hedoesn’t even acknowledge her presence.  she slides behind the counter next tousnavi, who is eating jellybeans and watching the argument with a look of pure delight. 

“what’sup?” she mutters, stealing a handful of jellybeans as ruben is loudly saying,“–fully discredited, and if you don’tfind it suspicious he was trying to patent his own single-dose vaccines indirect competition with the MMR then you’re clearly—“

“we was chatting about work while i rang her stuff up, and she askedif i was ever tired or had problems focusing and i was like ahaha did you meanmy whole life and turns out she was just tryna sell me some of thatpyramid scheme supplement crap,” usnavi whispers back. “i took a leaflet to be polite andshe started trying to recruit me.”

vanessasighs. “again? usnavi, you gotta getbetter at just telling these people to shove it .”

“i know, iknow, she kept saying run yourown business, be your own boss and i was like, hi, welcome to my store that i own,”usnavi gestures all around him. “but i never know how to make them leavewithout being rude, you know?”

“and this?”  vanessa indicates ruben and the pyramid scheme woman, who is looking unconvinced as she tells ruben “i’m just saying, my children were never vaccinated, and not only arethey not autistic, they’ve never caught any of these so-called diseases so—“

ruben makesan explosively angry sound. “that’s called herd immunity! which is onlypossible because of vaccination! andpeople like you are ruining it!”

“honestly, ididn’t even know he was here,” usnavi says.  “she said it could help symptoms of things like ADD and depressionand autism and he just materialised out from behind the cereals like an angry ghost.it’s been like fifteen minutes. he scared off three other customers.”

“why areyou smiling so much, then?”

usnavishrugs. “i mean. look at him.”

they bothturn and observe him for a long moment. vanessa’s never seen ruben like this: he’s standing up straighter than vanessa’s ever seen,his gentle eyes glinting furiously, and he’s ranting “- a danger to public health, and the very idea that a horrific illness is better than being autistic is absolutely—“ 

she looks back at usnavi and they both nod in confirmation: yup, that’s a fine-ass science boy we got here.

“and besides,” ruben finishes, slightly out of breath, “if your pseudoscience sugar pills were thateffective at curing so many things, don’t you think science would have foundsome kind of proof of it by now?”

“if you do the research-“ the lady starts, but she’s cut offby ruben scoffing.

“you mean reading whatever blog you got your ‘facts’ from? I got myPhD in biochemistry when I was 21 years old, my research has been quoted by some of the most prominent scientistsin the world, and i’m autistic, and you couldn’t get me to touch your snake oil capsules for a million dollars.”

“you big pharma types—“

“okay, you can leave now,” ruben says abruptly. “if you stay any longer you might catch The Autism off me.”

“nobody knows who the fuck you are,” vanessa adds, making a shooing motion. “go on, get.”

“not that imind but neither of you actually got authority to kick folks out of mystore,” usnavi says mildly, ignoring the woman’s i’m just trying to help parting shot as she leaves, taking the leaflet she left behindand tossing it in the trash.

“sorry. i hate people like that.”ruben doesn’t sound particularly sorry, glaring at the closed door even thoughshe’s long out of sight. vanessa wonders if she can get usnavi to close thestore early so they can take some of this energy upstairs. dr marcado is hot.

“are youreally autistic?” usnavi asks. “you never told us that.”

“…ah,”ruben says, suddenly slumping back into his usually slouchy posture with his eyes all big and surprised, like a startledtortoise who didn’t mean to come so far out of the shell. “oops.”

[baekhvuns]

Stopppp I thought they dropped an album are they for fucking real?! Sadly I saw some cute photos also we're finally gonna see this Hwa look SWEATER WITH HOLES https://www.instagram.com/p/CVYBjiQB1fL/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=so I need to buy ://// KQ is evil for announcing shit so late though 🔫

BUT HAVE YOU SEEN BARNES AND NOBLE FUCKED UP AND LEAKED THE TITLE AND RELEASE DATE OF THE COMEBACK. WORLD EP 1 MOVEMENT! The title makes so much sense 👀

I have a love hate relationship with competition shows, but I still watch them lmao. Currently I need to finish Great Dance Crew, Ten was there also Fei from Miss A!

I'm also looking forward to more dream pop and alt rock, like Attention please! by Enhypen was made for people who like Br'i'sh indie rock! I'm not against softer songs, but I find a lot of slower kpop tracks uninspired, I'm sorry Ateez but you're guilty of this too </3

I'm mad not more people know about Get It, it should be a fucking heat, so I always put it on my kpop playlists and spread the word! Then they tried with Hinapia and the group disbanded as well, so sad 😔 about the THEIR SONGS SOUND THE SAME major flashbacks to people saying Thunderous sounded EXACTLY like God's Menu I-

Truly I love the juxtaposition between sad lyrics and fast or happy beat, do I wanna cry, do I wanna dance or both??? Like TXT's Run Away the song is so cheerful in sound, but the lyrics? 💔

Yeah, garlic ksjriedhidehdejhdhsh I throw up at school once, because we had those "milk days" in winter, they'd give us a cup of warm milk THE WHOLE SCHOOL REEKED OF WARM MILK AND I HATED IT and the milk skin??? 🤮 most people brought cocoa with them, but once they made me drink pure hot milk and well, it didn't end well

You do not want my hair, it's not straight anymore which like I said - I don't mind, I look weird with flat hair, buuuuut I wish I could control my hair better 😭

Stop I only remember the cursed Pirate King relay and Mingi... also someone pointed out Seonghwa once, but I'm pretty sure it was just a crease in his trousers anyway I don't wanna look 🙈 loose trousers are too tricky

Hwa looks cute yes, a baby boy, but I'm really not ready for whatever's gonna happen to his hair soon, like I'm anticipating it, but also 😭

Ok so I finished ep 6 of Why Her? and damn shit is going dooooown, I think the romance is a bit forced and quick and my boy needs to slow down, because he's lowkey annoying... but they have decent chemistry. Yes, Seo Hyunjin ma'am 😳 she stole the show! Oooooh what episode of Tomorrow are you on rn? A few of my friends are finishing it too and I'm still mentally there

TIRED so relatable lmao.

Bestie the heatwave is real, I like summer, but living in a big city when it's scorching is not it 😭😭😭😭😭 but today it was raining and storming the whole day and I fucking hate storms, I was so mad my wifi was acting up and I couldn't work properly, ugh. - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Stopppp I thought they dropped an album are they for fucking real?! Sadly I saw some cute photos also we're finally gonna see this Hwa look SWEATER WITH HOLES https://www.instagram.com/p/CVYBjiQB1fL/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=so I need to buy ://// KQ is evil for announcing shit so late though 🔫

NO BC I PANICKED TOO JCVSGALK STOP IT I CANT BUY IT BC THE CB VERSIONS 😭😭😭 BESTIE GET IT THE HWA PC LOOKS SO PRETTY AND THIS???? THIS????

BUT HAVE YOU SEEN BARNES AND NOBLE FUCKED UP AND LEAKED THE TITLE AND RELEASE DATE OF THE COMEBACK. WORLD EP 1 MOVEMENT! The title makes so much sense 👀

OUT OF EVERYTHING ITS BARNES AND NOBLES 😭😭😭😭 GBWNFB SO EXCITED BUT I HOPE ITS NOT 3 VERSIONS ID PASS AWAY 😭😭😭

I have a love hate relationship with competition shows, but I still watch them lmao. Currently I need to finish Great Dance Crew, Ten was there also Fei from Miss A!

love and hate relationship esp with the mnet ones 😭😭 OH MY GOD FEI IS SUCH A GODDESS 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 i was watching the jessica one like just a few clips off it and it seems like the slamdunk unnies one where jessi and tiffany was there

I'm also looking forward to more dream pop and alt rock, like Attention please! by Enhypen was made for people who like Br'i'sh indie rock! I'm not against softer songs, but I find a lot of slower kpop tracks uninspired, I'm sorry Ateez but you're guilty of this too </3 I'm mad not more people know about Get It, it should be a fucking heat, so I always put it on my kpop playlists and spread the word! Then they tried with Hinapia and the group disbanded as well, so sad 😔 about the THEIR SONGS SOUND THE SAME major flashbacks to people saying Thunderous sounded EXACTLY like God's Menu I-

LITERALLY RIGHT AFTER RV’S BAD BOY PRISTINS GET IT WAS NEXT LEVEL THEY WERE ON THEIR WAY TO SO MUCH SUCCESS want them back so bad,,, apparently theres a new show coming where u can bring old/disbanded groups back 😭😭 bEGGING FOR PRISTIN

kpop fans rly find everything the same its not even funny,,, but then also listen to the same song and refuse to look into diff discographies,, they’re never happy

Truly I love the juxtaposition between sad lyrics and fast or happy beat, do I wanna cry, do I wanna dance or both??? Like TXT's Run Away the song is so cheerful in sound, but the lyrics? 💔

LMFAOOOO I JUST BE DANCING ATP JVBAK yeah runaway,,, i just like to think it’s abt running away to a different place for fun but 😭😭🔫🔫

Yeah, garlic ksjriedhidehdejhdhsh I throw up at school once, because we had those "milk days" in winter, they'd give us a cup of warm milk THE WHOLE SCHOOL REEKED OF WARM MILK AND I HATED IT and the milk skin??? 🤮 most people brought cocoa with them, but once they made me drink pure hot milk and well, it didn't end well

FBWKDJWK GARLIC AND MILK 😭😭😭 NAURRRR ID THROW UP TOO PLS THE GRITTY NESS 😭😭 NO BC SOME MILK SMELLS DIFFERENT AND ITS RBWMFBWK I WISH U COULD SEE MY FACE RN 😭😭 i knew someone who’s lactose intolerant and like they were at a party (a home one) and had the option to drink pop or milk (they hated pop and were a people pleaser) and chose milk,,, haha. 🔫

You do not want my hair, it's not straight anymore which like I said - I don't mind, I look weird with flat hair, buuuuut I wish I could control my hair better 😭

NAURRR 😭😭😭 i wish ur hair gets better after the haircut or MAYBE ITS FROM THE DYEING

Stop I only remember the cursed Pirate King relay and Mingi... also someone pointed out Seonghwa once, but I'm pretty sure it was just a crease in his trousers anyway I don't wanna look 🙈 loose trousers are too tricky Hwa looks cute yes, a baby boy, but I'm really not ready for whatever's gonna happen to his hair soon, like I'm anticipating it, but also 😭

stop that mingi one was 😀 DONT even sTART ON SEONGHWA I TRY TO IGNORE HIS ALL EVERYWHERE 😭😭😭 stylist doing the grey pants + sweats are doing it on purpose jvckkc FEJDHJE IM NOT READY EITHER but they filmed the mv before tour which would mean undercut hWA 👁👁

Ok so I finished ep 6 of Why Her? and damn shit is going dooooown, I think the romance is a bit forced and quick and my boy needs to slow down, because he's lowkey annoying... but they have decent chemistry. Yes, Seo Hyunjin ma'am 😳 she stole the show! Oooooh what episode of Tomorrow are you on rn? A few of my friends are finishing it too and I'm still mentally there

i watched a kdrama review and thats exactly what it said abt the dynamic between them fbwmfb LOWKEY ANNOYING LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 IM ON EP4 ATM MENTALLY THERE FBENFH I JIST KEEP LOOKING AT OUR MAN

TIRED so relatable lmao. Bestie the heatwave is real, I like summer, but living in a big city when it's scorching is not it 😭😭😭😭😭 but today it was raining and storming the whole day and I fucking hate storms, I was so mad my wifi was acting up and I couldn't work properly, ugh. - DV 💖

NAURRRR bestie here we’re supposed to get a dome like heat wave but they’ve been saying this for weeks and its ✨raining✨ with cold wind and dARK grey clouds rn 😭😭😭 LIVING IN THE CITY IN HEAT BESTIE IMAGINE LIVING IN THE RURUAL AREAS WOULD 100% PASS OUT 😭😭😭 buT STORMY WEATHERS GOOD FOR READING IN A BLANKET >>>

BESTIE ATEEZ AT KCON & 😭😭😭

[nicsfuerungut]

Thanks for tagging me, @go-catch-a-chickn ( My memory is terrible and I simply forgot I had been tagged, sorry 😂)

Nickname: Nici or Nick

Zodiac: Leo

Height: 160cm

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff

Last thing I googled: Chocolate chip cookie recipe 😂

Followers: I don't really care about the number of followers I have

How much I sleep: Ideally between 6-8h to feel well rested but I'm an unfortunate cross between a night owl and an early bird so most of the time I end up with 5-ish h of sleep 😂

Song stuck in my head: Moscow by Autoheart

Lucky number: 7

Dream job: Difficult to answer, rn I'm at uni studying history and English to become a teacher but I'm not really sure if that's my dream job. Tbh I have no clue what my dream job is. Kinda going through a quarter-life crisis rn haha

Wearing: Black sweatpants, black oversized hoodie and warm socks bc it's quite cold in my flat

Favourite song: There are so many haha, but I think my favourite song atm is Vent'anni by Måneskin

Favourite instrument: I can't play any, but I love listening to people playing the piano

Aesthetic: my personal aesthetic is a mix of dark academia and grunge with a sprinkle of tired uni-student , I'd say? As for my flat: Organised chaos, plants everywhere,lots of books and more scented candles than surface area.

Favourite authors: Matt Haig is definitely my favourite, closely followed by Sebastian Fitzek. And there are so many wonderful authors on Ao3!

Favourite animal noise: Definitely cat purrs. That sound is pure serotonin.

Something random: I'm unable to fall asleep if I don't listen to this specific podcast by the German Youtuber Coldmirror, it's called '5 Minutes Harry Podcast' 😂

I'm tagging everyone who feels like doing this 😊

I was tagged by @raininyourblackeyes like a week ago and I kept putting it off because of uni work but I'm almost done with that so

nickname: the bestie squad calls me barns (and I really like it)

zodiac: scorpio

height: 158 cm

Hogwarts house: Slytherin

last thing I googled: captain marvel in the dc universe, I saw a text post and got confused

followers: wouldn't you like to know weatherboy? (honestly idk)

song stuck in my head: Somebody's Watching Me by Rockwell, this happens pretty much every time I read the words twilight zone

how much I sleep: usually somewhere from 6 to 8 hours a day

lucky number: i don't have one, sorry

dream job: I used to want to be a writer, but that requires actually writing. So now I think my dream job would be to be a college professor, but that is very unlikely to happen since doctorate programs are expensive and young researcher and asistant positions at the faculty are scarce due to funding :

wearing: pajamas

favourite song: this is an impossible question but the two songs I listen to the most rn are Noah Reid's cover of A Case of You, and State of Grace (Acoustic Version) TV

favourite instrument: piano (I don't play, but I would love to learn)

aesthetics: I want to say dark academia? But make it modern

favourite author: Maggie Stiefvater, the way she writes and describes things just does something to me. Also the way she describes beauty as something incredibly sad is 👌

favourite animla noise: I like cat purrs a lot

something random: I have a presentation today and I should probably get back to working on it now

I'm tagging @go-catch-a-chickn, @fandoms-princess , @kurobthings , and @saecookie

[disarmingly]

hi!! another random question: do you have any favorite song from the new album?? or just what are your thoughts on it in general? i love reading your posts on bts bc i feel you always put emotions into lovely words that really hit home :") i'm the anon who asked u about time square; i was just curious bc i live in ny too lol

!!!! i’m never very good at talking about music except from an emotional and physical level. but to me this album is diverse, strong, and smart. it has beauty and it has attitude and it has self-awareness ---- the latter of which i find extremely compelling, in amongst all the other charismatic flares bangtan keeps carrying so well. i like every song, but i think this in and of itself is a remark on how excellent i find LOVE YOURSELF HER to be. i saw not long ago a comment that this would be the album that an individual won’t have to skip a song and i thought: well yes true but for me that’s actually every bts album.

the reason is more or less the same even if the songs are new, stronger, and exhibit the growth the boys experience; and that reason is versatility. i don’t get sick of a melody i don’t tire of certain subjects or whatnot because the build and execution of their music tends to be shockingly vibrant. i feel movement of all different kinds. in mic drop. in sea. in the godsend of an intro. in that heartsong of an outro. my god. you can tell five thousand stories from HER and they can be your story they can be my story they can be....so many things. they are playful but serious. they are classic but forward moving. 

mic drop has received either ++++++++ or ------- lol and i don’t know why for the ------- because it’s brilliant. the beat has this...like you know when you see a really talented dancer cough hoseok cough hoseok cough hoseok cough do a move wherein they come up from flat on the ground and it LOOKS like they’ve been hooked up from their center but they’re really starting from the balls of their feet (because duh) but even KNOWING that it looks like some invisible hand threw them against gravity and said TODAY YOU WIN. well that’s the feeling of the opening of mic drop, it feels like the movement of telling gravity you’re not dealing with its ridiculous self today. granted, mic drop is that. the choreography is that. god they are all so On it in that whole stage(s). 

mmm i really love the coming-together vibe of DNA like it’s definitely for me a strong reaffirmation kind of song that manages to prove that a song can be upbeat and still very emotional? like....yeah talking about being destined has this cheeseball factor but the world could do with more of that. and i know that’s probably rich coming from such a sad blanket of a human being as myself; but i really appreciate this don’t worry love sense from DNA ps guys please stream your internet into the ground thanks this has been a none-too-subtle plug of Do The Most for Bangtan Because Bangtan Does the Most for Us thank you.....ah but truly. like . ‘real love’ like ah idk it’s cheerful and playful but it hits home too and any time i get to see and feel bangtan being together and that TOGETHERNESS they like...radiate? lifespan increases ten years. i just want and live to see them happy. it is a little extreme perhaps but their happiness is often my happiness; i don’t feel happy much but to see them being loved and appreciated, to see their hard work’s fruition will always be a reward.

i live for dimple. oh my gosh. if that got on the radio here i think it would slam everything into pieces. it has a PERFECT pop song construction and three times the cleverness. i want to be rich so i can make my own radio station and just air bangtan 25/8 can this be a thing.

and i know there’s a lot of controversy around best of me but to be honest it’s a great song. there is a lot of relatability in the lyrics, the SOUND is so good like they definitely seem to have made this in regard not only of the sound they wanted to give it anyway but also with a consciousness of what is being done and popularized around them. anyone who says paying attention to that kind of thing is ‘selling out’ or ‘unoriginal’ needs to just shhhhhh because in any industry it’s important to have that awareness. people don’t exist in bubbles. bangtan knows that better than anyone probably. so i love this: the insane intelligence of synthesizing their own intentions with the more they learn of the music they are making in conjunction with the other stuff out there. ps yoongi singing gave me so much to thank idk who for but yeah. but also it’s cheesy but idk i think of best of me and i can like.....see them taking turns to point at each other? ;_; like fml bye

I HONESTLY LOVE EVERYTHING PIED PIPER IS RIDICULOUSLY GOOD AND GO GO IS A GALACTICAL ANTHEM SO LMFSDLKJDSFJDKSLJFDS i swear i could say more but like it’s 4am and im thinking of drabbling so who am i really haha who’s the real winner here...wait. it’s bangtan. or it should be. PLS STREAM GUYS ;_; digital means a lot in so many arenas. OTL

ANON IM SORRY I AM NOT doing good words rn ;_; b-but ah hello! fellow city dweller! ^^;;; forgive my inept phraseology this time please...it is just me babbling haha....

[punkscowardschampions]

Buster & Rio

Buster: Where'd you go? You can come back now if you want Buster: Dad's gone Rio: How'd it go? Buster: Better than I reckoned it would Buster: I'm still standing Rio: One of you is losing your touch Rio: but good Buster: He's going soft, obviously Buster: Missed my chance Rio: Unlucky Rio: Comes in threes, yeah? So you've only gotta field off one more Buster: It's the worst one though. I've gotta tell my sister eventually Rio: Yeah Rio: Seriously, good fucking luck Rio: How are you even? Buster: Cheers, babe Buster: Right now I ain't even Buster: Mum reckons I should wait for the DNA Rio: I guess that makes sense Rio: Don't wanna lol jks on it Buster: Exactly Buster: And we both reckon Chlo will behave enough not to tell her before I do so Rio: Yeah? I hope so Buster: Me too Rio: Do you feel a bit better, like Rio: now they know Buster: Yeah Buster: They have that effect Buster: Neither of them are gonna take any bullshit from me or her Rio: Good, you're in safe hands Buster: For real, get yourself a mum who thinks she can do anything Rio: I do Rio: God bless 'em Buster: She was gonna fight me for shouting at you Buster: That's another story, like Rio: Ha, what? Rio: Well, I'd like to see that if she's still offering Buster: Shut up and eat your fruit she's about to deliver in thanks Rio: Ooh, that'll be 🔥 Rio: It's one thing posh people do well, the gift baskets Buster: I'll take your word for it 'cause I ain't getting one Rio: Wait for the babyshower, like Rio: Sorry Buster: Or you could just share with me while I fend for myself here in my hotel suite Rio: You really wanted some room service huh Buster: 'Course Buster: Who can sleep without a mint on their pillow, like? Rio: Idiot Buster: No argument here Rio: That's why you're staying in School, babe Buster: Nah, they need me, I don't need them Buster: I make them look good with my results, babe Rio: Hmm Rio: Take your word on that one Buster: You don't believe me? Rude Buster: I'm such a good student and you know it Rio: Don't make me laugh rn Buster: Actually offended. Don't let the extended absence fool you like, I really love school Buster: Also, I've gotta. You look so cute when you laugh so Rio: Duh, I know you're a 🤓 Rio: Don't need to tell me Rio: Or say that Buster: I know you love a reminder though Rio: 'Course Rio: How long are you staying? Buster: I don't know Buster: How long do you want me to? Rio: Just answer, Buster Buster: I just did Buster: I can't tell you what I don't know Rio: Ugh Rio: Fine Buster: I thought you'd be happy that I'm here Buster: What's wrong? Rio: What's wrong? Really? Buster: Rio, what the fuck? How does it make any difference to what's happening whether I'm there or here Rio: It doesn't Buster: Then why are you getting mad at me for staying? Rio: I'm not Rio: You do what you want Rio: but happy about it would be a stretch Buster: Fuck's sake Buster: What do you want me to do? Rio: Do what you've got to do Buster: I literally am, why are you being a bitch about it Rio: Fuck you Rio: I still get time to deal with this myself, and for myself Rio: just because I care about you and making sure you were okay Buster: Fuck you Buster: I've had a shit day, why can't I be happy that we're still in the same fucking country for once instead of just feeling bad about everything Buster: Jesus Christ Rio: Okay this might be happening to you but it isn't all about you Buster: Tell me something I don't fucking know, alright Buster: I've spent the whole day telling everyone else about this Rio: Yeah, me included Buster: And what you're all talked out now are you? Poor you Rio: Seriously, fuck off Buster: Fine Rio: I'm going to go away so you can have Dublin to yourself Buster: Fuck that Buster: I don't want it Buster: Just talk to me Rio: About what Rio: What is there to say Buster: How you feel, what you wanna do, what happens next Buster: any of it Buster: Don't just fucking leave Rio: I feel fantastic, about as good as you no doubt Rio: What happens next is you're going to be a father Rio: so whatever I wanted to do is irrelevant Buster: Stop Buster: No it isn't Buster: Nothing that you want or don't want is irrelevant Buster: I fucking love you Rio: Yeah, it is Rio: it's hard enough doing this now, you said so yourself right Rio: how do you think it'll work when you've got a kid Buster: 'Cause I'll make it work Buster: It's always been hard and we always did it anyway, we still can Rio: If you think this is hard then you have no idea Rio: you're going to have uni and a kid and a social life and somehow find the time to come see me? Rio: I don't think so Buster: Well, I'll prove it then Buster: Wait and see Rio: You'd be better if you moved on Rio: Save yourself the hassle Buster: Don't Rio: I'm serious Buster: So am I Buster: That's such bullshit Rio: You feel that now but once you leave for uni and now this Rio: you're gonna feel different Rio: I know Buster: Don't tell me how I'm gonna feel Buster: You don't know that, you can't Rio: I can guess Rio: You'll meet someone else Buster: Fuck off Buster: I don't wanna meet someone else Buster: Who the fuck are they gonna be? Buster: I want you Rio: I don't know Rio: Someone more like you, smart and whatever Buster: Don't be an idiot Buster: I'm punching above my weight with you already Rio: So you reckon you can't do any better, yeah? Buster: No I can't, babe Buster: You're perfect, you know Buster: Don't let a shit day make you doubt it Rio: Do you actually mean that or is it something you just say Buster: Of course I mean it Buster: Do you need a list or what? Rio: No, shut up, make me sound conceited Buster: Do you really think I'd still be here, fighting this hard to get you to stay and every fucking thing else, to just chat shit? Rio: I guess not Rio: I just, I don't know Rio: it's a lot Buster: I know Buster: But it's always been a lot, yeah? Buster: I'm not my sister it wouldn't have got this far if I didn't reckon it was worth it Buster: You are Rio: Yeah Rio: I just can't help but keep thinking Rio: how fucking stupid we'd look if we went to the trouble of outing ourselves Rio: and then just got over it Rio: it's so much upheaval and Buster: We don't have to tell anyone Buster: I'd rather have it this way than not at all Rio: But we're already sick of it Rio: I don't know what to do, this is why Buster: I can't answer that for you, babe. I wish I could Buster: You've gotta do what you've gotta do too Buster: You either wanna keep trying or you don't Rio: Of course I do but there's so much more to consider than what I want Buster: Right now, it's all that matters to me though Rio: Buster Buster: Yeah? Rio: I love you, you know that Buster: I love you too Buster: It can be enough, can't it? Rio: I want it to be Buster: Me too Buster: Not only 'cause I don't have anything else to give you Buster: I want you to be happy, you know Buster: If you can't be with me then you have to move on Rio: Big ask, babe Buster: Yeah well, it's been that kind of day Buster: This isn't gonna work if you're waiting for it to end. I know that's my fault, 'cause I fucked it up before and I can't promise I won't ever again but Rio: Yeah, 'cos my life is so perfect, please Buster: Last I checked you didn't impregnate an actual psycho though Rio: That would be impressive though Buster: Don't make me laugh Buster: I'm trying to be serious and heroic Rio: Aren't you always Buster: You wish Rio: 'Course Buster: Solve all your problems, like Rio: Ha, feel free Rio: Can't offer the same in return but you know Buster: Like you said, big ask Rio: Bit rude Rio: don't point out all my problems like that Buster: I ain't gotta call myself out like that Buster: I know I'm your biggest drama, babe Rio: You reckon? Rio: Not gonna hurt your masculinity by suggesting otherwise Buster: You can't kick me while I'm down Rio: Okay just so we know, that ain't actually flying as an excuse Buster: Come on Buster: Be nice to me Rio: I'm always nice to you Buster: But you could be nicer Buster: Stay with me while I'm here Rio: Babe Rio: I don't know if I can Buster: Why? Rio: Because it's nearly my birthday everyone's going to be all up in my business Buster: Indie'll cover for you Buster: As far as everyone needs to know you're just at the flat chilling or whatever Buster: You're at work too much for them to question that Rio: Why are you so convincing? Buster: 'Cause I'm so selfish Rio: I don't know, maybe I don't need much persuading Buster: I don't mind if you do Buster: I'm tired but I'm not that tired Rio: Surprised you've got any trust left in you though Rio: or you got the trojans like Buster: Not funny Rio: Nah Rio: but honestly Buster: If this is your way of telling me that I'm not a DILF then like Rio: Awkward Buster: Dump me now honestly 'cause that's the biggest lie you've ever told if that's what you're saying Buster: I haven't even had a single sleepless night yet, I look great, cheers Rio: If you're that worried about your beauty sleep I won't come over then Buster: Please Buster: You know you will Rio: You better hope Buster: No need, only gotta wait Buster: Are you at work or what? Rio: No Rio: Just avoiding you Buster: Come over then Rio: Going by keep your enemies closer, are we? Buster: Shut up Rio: I know you wanna make me Buster: I really don't Buster: I want the opposite Rio: Yeah? Buster: I'm not gonna waste a hotel room by being quiet in it and neither are you Rio: Would be a shame Buster: Not to mention all the time we could be spending together too Rio: I just want to forget about all this for a while Buster: I can help you Buster: Just let me Rio: Promise Buster: I swear Buster: I'll make you feel better, just me and you and none of this will even exist for as long as we want Rio: We can do that, yeah Rio: Just one more time Buster: 'Course Buster: It's what I'm good at babe Rio: Can't disagree Buster: You know I need you too Rio: Tell me again Buster: I need you Buster: Right now Rio: Okay, I'll come over Buster: [sends his fancy ass hotel deets] Rio: Of course you are Rio: no premier inns here Buster: Even purgatory doesn't come cheap the way I do it Buster: Down but not out, babe Rio: 🙄 So inspiring Buster: I'm just trying to survive my exile Buster: It's all in the thread count Rio: Sure that's how Napoleon did it, like Buster: I don't have to do anything the way that tiny cunt did it regardless Rio: 😂 Rio: Why are you dissing him Buster: Didn't realise he was a fantasy of yours like Buster: Trying to feel tall, babe? Buster: Still not as small as you I don't reckon Rio: He wrote a good love letter but you know Rio: Only got eyes for Josephine Rio: Gutted 😕 Buster: And I'm the nerdy one, yeah alright Rio: Shut up, had to make history interesting somehow Buster: Better than fantasizing about the teachers, I'll give you that Rio: Oh god no Rio: You'd get it if you saw our history teach, no thank you Buster: Whatever gets you off, babe I'm not judging Rio: You're dumb, he never got that raunchy Rio: Mozart was a freak though 👀 Buster: I see why you bought me that fancy pen now Buster: Which is it, love note or symphony? Rio: 'Course Rio: expect 'em both about the time I get my 💍 yeah Buster: Obviously Buster: Tell me about Mozart then Rio: Boy you don't even wanna know 😂 Rio: 🍑💩 Buster: 😂 Rio: Got us all feeling vanilla Buster: Got me thinking that you're an absolute 🤓 Rio: You love it Buster: Oh do I? Rio: Yeah Rio: Wanting me to talk nerdy to you Rio: I see you Buster: I'm just trying to get an education, make up for the one I'm about to miss Buster: Don't get it twisted Rio: Yeah Rio: Using me for my brains Rio: so believable babe Buster: 'Course Buster: Everyone knows you're a huge swot, like Rio: They'll know you out ya damn mind I know that 😏 Buster: It's how you've got me Buster: I'm not mad about it Rio: Better work on your lines if you're writing me that letter Buster: Don't be rushing me Buster: How long did he spend on his? Rio: Oh he wrote her all the time, and would get mad when she didn't write back often or fast enough Buster: Bullshit Buster: You're making that up Rio: “I have your letters of the 16th and the 21st. There are many days when you don’t write. What do you do, then?” Rio: Direct quote Rio: along with calling her a slut, shit you not, boy was mad Buster: 😒 you wouldn't think it was romantic if I hit you with a double text before you had chance to reply Rio: When my names your last word even though you remarried, then we'll talk Buster: Who else am I putting a 💍 on? Stop playing Buster: His game is weak compared to me Rio: Maybe you'll be feeling the need when I cba to write back Buster: Shut up Buster: You couldn't ignore me if you tried Rio: Sure I could if you were pissing about all over Europe Buster: Been there, done that, babe Rio: 😂 You really gon' compare yourself to Napoleon? Buster: Fuck no Buster: But like, I have traveled extensively, deal with it Buster: Turning heads everywhere I go Rio: Bitch, me too Rio: Not gonna make me jealous on either account Buster: First time for it Rio: 😒 Buster: Don't make that face Rio: Why not Buster: 'Cause I like that you are and how bad you want me Rio: Of course you do Buster: I feel it too, you know Rio: Yeah? Buster: It drives me crazy like Rio: Not giving you much to be jealous about these days Rio: Tragic, honestly Buster: You don't have to do anything Buster: You're so hot everyone wants you anyway Rio: Okay, slight overstatement Buster: It's not Buster: Everyone's looking at you when I'm trying not to make it obvious as fuck that I want to Rio: I wouldn't know Rio: Only looking at you, clearly Buster: Well, yeah Rio: That's why this is so shit Buster: One of many reasons Rio: I know you were drunk and everything but Rio: the thought of it still boils my blood Buster: I'm sorry Buster: I literally did push her away earlier in the night, I don't know what happened after Rio: I know Rio: it's not like I even had any right but still Rio: you felt like mine Buster: I am yours Rio: Not all mine now Rio: I have to share with her of all people Buster: We don't know that yet Buster: And you never have to share me with her anyway Rio: you won't get protective and noble over her Rio: that's just for me Buster: I was nearly sick in my mouth at the idea so no Buster: She's never had me like that and she never will Rio: Okay Rio: Good Buster: You're special to me, like it or not and believe it or not Rio: I do believe it and believe me, I do like it Rio: Too much, I don't want someone coming in and taking my place now Buster: I love you. She can't make me stop and neither can anyone else Buster: Nobody's been in your place never mind trying to take it Rio: I love you Buster Rio: Always have, always will 😜 Buster: It's gonna be alright for us, whatever I have to do Buster: I didn't wait years for this for her to ruin it in a night, yeah? Rio: I believe you Rio: Me too Rio: Iwant to be with you Buster: You're all I want Buster: I don't care about America or any of it Rio: Really Buster: I'm still going to uni obviously, but I don't wanna go if it means being further away from you Buster: There are other decent schools that are full of less yanks, like Rio: I'd move there if you wanted but now Rio: Probably not, but you've got plenty decent on your doorstep Buster: Maybe we could still go, we don't know for sure that Chlo's trapped me here Buster: But I don't know, I was thinking about it before this, how far away that is and how much your fam needs you to mother them all Rio: Yeah, I would miss them all Rio: but I'd survive, I can't deal with not being with you any more Buster: But I'm not trying to make you give up things, I'm trying to get us things, you know Rio: I know, if the younger ones were a bit older but Rio: they all still need me right now Buster: Exactly Buster: And I can do what I need to do here Buster: Might actually have to Rio: We'll see Buster: All I know is my mum told me to fight to make sure things I don't want ruined by this bullshit aren't, so that's what I'm gonna do Rio: Solid advice Buster: She was good Buster: Like how I remember from being a kid Buster: Before I turned into this idiot Rio: You'll get it back Rio: Everyone has to have their rebellious 'fuck this family' phase Rio: you'd be weird if you didn't Buster: I have to get it back somehow Buster: Like even Nance knows about how the Chlo thing went down now, that I wasn't like trying to fuck her over or fuck Chlo either so Buster: It's gonna be shit if she has to stick around but we're in the same boat of neither of us wanting her too, right? Rio: Yeah Rio: It'll sting but she knows it wasn't remotely your intention and that it's as shitty for you with added consequences so Buster: I just keep thinking, if someone did that to her, how Chlo played me, it's so fucked Buster: Or if I did that to some girl, you know Rio: It is Rio: I am really fucking sorry it happened to you, you know that Rio: Even if my own petty shit gets in the way sometimes Rio: it was wrong on a lot of levels, like Buster: It wouldn't even matter as much if she recognised that it was but we all know she doesn't and won't Buster: No child should be raised by her, mine or not Rio: Sadly, can't stop her or other cunts breeding Rio: unfortunate Rio: if it is yours, it'll be alright, you'll do right by it, I know Buster: I'm still hoping her parents will step in when they know, not that they can force her to do anything but Rio: Maybe they'll talk sense and she'll listen but yeah Buster: Let's not talk about this anymore Buster: For tonight at least Rio: Fine by me Buster: My final word on it is that I'm sorry for how all this went Buster: My mum has a point, I shouldn't shout at you Buster: I'm not sending you more fruit though Rio: I know you are, I promise I do Rio: Damn, so close Buster: Probably should send my veggie loving sister some crudités or something Buster: I can think of better ways to make it up to you though Rio: Tell me more Rio: not about the raw veg, like Buster: 😂 Buster: Not a kink of yours? Buster: Good to know Rio: I have enjoy sex toys that I don't need to raid the pantry Rio: sacrilege in my household Buster: You're funny Buster: And that is genuinely comforting that I don't have to hit up room service with that kind of request Rio: Oh they've had worse Buster: Sure, from me on previous visits is likely Buster: But I'm 😇 now so Rio: 😒 Rio: without me? Buster: Do you think there's a fancy hotel room in this city I haven't fucked in? Rio: Well don't tell me that Buster: 🤐 Rio: Honestly, why do I gotta get you when you're all reformed 🙄 Buster: 'Cause I only am as far as everyone else is concerned Buster: For you I'd do anything Rio: Interesting Rio: I plan to test that bold claim Buster: I hope you do Buster: Try me as much as you want Rio: I hope you weren't here to rest Buster: 'Course not Buster: I'm here 'cause it's nearly your birthday Rio: Oh yeah Rio: Almost forgot Buster: I'm not gonna let you Rio: Spoil me? Buster: Try and stop me Rio: Nah, it's allowed Rio: Get to be 👸 for one day, like Buster: I don't care if it ain't. It's happening Buster: For all the days I'm here Rio: 'Cos I'm your princess, yeah? Buster: Babe, come on, you're a queen Rio: 😋 You're so cute Buster: You're fucking beautiful Rio: Shh Buster: No Buster: You are Rio: I don't know what to say sometimes you're so Rio: nice Buster: You don't have to say anything, I'm not that competitive, like Rio: I can't say nothing when you got me feeling this good Buster: Just show me how you feel when you get here Rio: Done Buster: Good