#i'm so sorry girl i'll stop bothering u after this I just have a lot of feelings about them

[andrigyn]

a vibes based bluegrass playlist for Wolfer by the lovely @peppershark

[skubean]

Omg hiiii. I was wondering if you could do a Saiki K request? Basically he meets another psychic that’s not attracted to him and she’s in the grade above so she practically acts like his older sister and fights off Kusuke AHAHAHAH

Thanks again💜💜

hello, anon! thank you for the request. i thought this idea was really funny since it's random but i like it a lot!! i'll try my best and hope u liked it! (i'm also really sorry it took me so long to do this)

psychic! reader fighting kusuke ft. kusuo saiki (hcs)

notes: fem reader, platonic, reader acts like saiki's older sis, just crack

kusuo was unamused, to say the least. here he was, listening to you rant about how powerful you were in comparison to him, in which he absolutely disagrees. but who was he to say anything? you clearly weren't listening to him, nor did you care.

he should've acted quicker when he felt your presence in his school, a senior a year older who was looking for him. knowing that kusuo could hear your thought, you told him to befriend you if he wanted you to keep your mouth shut over the fact that the both of you were psychics.

which is why kusuo is stuck with you after classes, and during recess (in which kokomi was not pleased).

a part of kusuo thought that you were one of the girls that were chasing after him (you were so offended he thought of you like that, the disgusted face you made was enough to serve as proof that he was wrong).

to add insult to injury, kokomi came across you ruffling kusuo's hair once, so now the misunderstanding just keeps getting worse.

tbh, you were doing it on purpose since kusuo was always so stone-faced and it just intrigued you.

in all truth, the reason you approached kusuo was to stop his older brother, kusuke from wrecking the whole entire world.

although kusuo doubts his brother's capability in doing so, he knows it's possible. he knows. because it's kusuke.

but what kusuo wasn't expecting was how much he liked having your company around, much to his dismay. having you around made him feel like he wasn't alone (in terms of being psychic)

and to be honest, you liked hanging out with him too! as much as he tried ignoring you, you just couldn't help but be around him.

and then the day came, and you had to face kusuke.

kusuke was 100% annoyed that you existed T.T like wtf you doing around my brother typa beat.

and you were actually right, the man was tryna destroy the world! so you and kusuo had to play kusuke's little game of hide and seek and eventually managed to win.

kusuke was amused, the least to say.

now imagine him tryna research on you bcs he's never seen someone on the same wavelength w his bro.

to conclude, now kusuke was constantly on your ass and kusuo is the least bothered by it.

your everyday life just got more crazier

-end-

a/n: i am so SORRY this took so long i actually passed out mid writing bcs i was so sick KJSDKSAHDK and then forgot i was writing abt this and im sorry this just dont make no sense T.T

[alarmsofmyheart]

Jack and Joker: U Steal My Heart

Ep 1

Okay we are beginning with a (probably) failed ocean 8 except it's all gays.

Why am I reminded of Gone with the wind admsnshhsjajana

Enthusiastic taekwondo puppy on screen.

Why does it feel like lunch at my house lmao.

I DO NOT like this brother guy. He has just breathed for four minutes and don't like him.

Somebody please protect this Grandma.

Learn photoshop y'all (yelling at myself)

That hairstyle never fails in making anyone look younger, but it so well suits Yin Anon Wong.

Dreams curbed.

Guys Girls Theys, I get it, I saw so many posts about yearning in war's eyes. I get it. It's just episode one.

Alright I'm leaving this bar. Bye. Byeeee. Love is in the air. Atleast love interest is in the air. I'm leaving.

Not the wooden stool grab behind the counter and checking if anyone else is checking him 😭😭😭😭 That was so cute but Sir you are six feet tall everything you do is visible??!!!

Okay now we are sitting side by side.

The bling ✨ SFX for Jack/Yin's smile was PERFECT.

Jack!!!!! The shoulder grab!!! Oh God.. I get it why Joke is a goner. Acceptance and affirmation for someone who feels invisible and lonely. Wow. Glad Joke met Jack instead of parasocial relationship like me.

(I literally just paused the episode to type it all out, because it's gonna be good. I have never lived react blogged before on Tumblr, this is fun, this is like a pure unedited essay, no mind to mouth filter haha. Feels unreal to myself too. But here I am, instead of deleting this account, live blogging)

:( -> :) in 7 mins episode running time after face to face meeting. IM FINE. THIS IS FINE.

There's lot of inner healing required to accept the acceptance but also, boi is a theif, the unacceptance is blantant.

Wondering how nice their first meet is, how fucked up things are gonna get.

Wow. That is funny now. Run Forrest, Joker, Run. SFX are so good. Lmao.🤣

Ohno!

Okay that's too much blood. But okay. That was nice.

Girl!! He was not asking you.

Yes boi, go ahead scold him. Now the dark alley is pink alley, sirs stop flirting right now.

Girl, I'm so sorry, I was listening to you, but they werent. I've seen this scene as gif or clip atleast twenty other times but it's funny still.

Hand kerchief to wipe the blood!!!!

No mam. They weren't listening.

Ohmygod 🤣🤣🤣 Joke left, with the Gucci purse.

Ajshsjajjahah Rosè okay

Girl has bodyguards and yet somehow Jack and Joke got all bloody and bothered.

Big as a giant, heart as small as an ant

Well said grandma 🤣🩷

God this puppy is going to get heartbroken a hundred times 💔

The difference between the families UGH. Grandma is sitting by his side, while all the three are looking down on him, that too from staircase. DAMN. The lighting too! It was warm and orangy at Jack's and it's all cold and blue at Joke's.

Their optimism and pessimism of Jack and Joker is directly a result of the so far shown families dynamics but lets see.

Not the heist getting interrupted for coffee order 🤣🤣🤣

Oh the loan person better not be Jack.

Ah it's him. So that's how its gonna get fucked up.

Joke, your heart eyes Sir.

That's definitely no how banks work, but I'll just see.

No. No. No.

Oh no don't return the kerchief dear.

Ahsbsjsjshab He called him P'Joke.

Wow he disappeared again. The windswept SFX. It's gonna be one difficult love story. The bgms are good. I'm reminded of the first two-three episodes of Word Of Honor, not able to guess how and when WKX will show up. But here, it's Joke disappearing, trying to untangle, un-associate, running away.

So, Jack is gonna get arrested. Okay that's how he got arrested.

God War!!! War!! His face! Joke is regretting it all.

Grandma being sure that Jack didn't do it and it's striking opposite of Joke's family.

Wow. Joke bowed on his knees!!!!!!! This is not what I expected that too in ep 1. He is confessing it all. War the actor you are!

Alexa play I robbed a bank by Nerd Connection

Fuck!!! So that's how he got arrested. Okay.

Yin!! the actor you are!!!

What was that ring?

Wait what was that???? Omg?

Okay so that made him confess. And that made him a theif.

What an episode. It took me 1.5 hours to watch it.

[sehodreamsthoughts]

i literally just had 2 coolers in my own home :(( couldn’t stop thinking about sungchan :(((

squirting for sungchan after going out n being a little drunk help me!! omg u always respond with the best stuff n i feel bad bothering u sm but like, thank you for always tolerating me😔😔😔

i was thinking a lot about chubby chaser jake too and it was not good for my mental health… like.. it’s a slippery slope but anyways. kinda need him to just be obsessed with your tummy🫠🫠🫠

also ur gf wonbin is so pretty :(( do u think she’d be a baddie who wears like low rise jeans and crop tops or i wonder what her style would be like.. she’s a cutie

- 🥟 anon

Baby you're not bothering me at all 😭🩷, I love to see your messages, even more, if I'm being honest, sometimes I feel my answers can be a bit dull compared to your elaborated messages, and I'm afraid I sometimes can't answer them as fast as I'd like to 🥺😭 still thank you for saying that my answers aren't as bad I thought 🫂💖

Jake chubby chaser is everything!!! I have no idea why but I imagine him with so many kinds of chubby girls 😭, first I see him with a baddie that isn't afraid of wearing whatever she wants like tops that slightly show her tummy and legs (chunky platforms too), then I see him with a really feminine girl that loves dresses and flowers and maybe has a colored hair 🥺 (he'd love to buy her girl whatever she's into like skirts or knitted clothes and he'd BEG to pay her hobbies) and finally I even see him with a girl that doesn't really show any skin? More on the modest side and almost boring clothes (since they're "normal" like jeans and oversized shirts, etc) but he'd still love her because she's his girl 😭 (also, I feel this would turn him on a lot too because he can kind of "discover" what's inside those clothes 😫).

THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND, MY GIRLFRIEND MY GIRLFRIEND MY GIRLFRIEND, I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART, MY HEAD, MY BODY, SHE'S THE LIGHT OF MY DAY AND THE MOON OF MY NIGHT, I WANT TO TAKE HER OUT ON A PICNIC, WEAR PRETTY DRESSES AND THEN WALK BACK HOME HOLDING HANDS AND SHARING HEADPHONES, THEN I WANT TO MOVE IN WITH HER AND ADOPT A CAT TOGETHER THAT WILL BE THE MOST LOVED ANIMAL IN THIS WORLD BECAUSE IT'LL BE OUR BABY. I WANT TO MARRY HER AND SHARE OUR INSURANCES, THEN I WANT TO GIVE HER AN ADDITIONAL OF MY CREDIT CARD WITH HER NAME IN CASE SHE EVER NEEDS ANYTHING AND THEN I WANT TO BUY HER FAVORITE DESSERT EVERY FRIDAY WHEN I GO BACK HOME FROM WORK AND AND AND AND (sorry i could continue for hours).

I think she would wear whatever she wants because she knows she looks pretty with everything and maybe sometimes if we go to parties she'll wear mini skirts and tops that show her cleavage (a baddie) but at home she'll walk around with oversized sweaters and pajama pants with fluffy socks and I don't know why but I feel she dresses more in a Y2K style but she also likes to be a comfortable nerd so she also likes hoodies and jackets in which she swims in (with a lot of denim too!). I'm sure that most of the time she'll carry around one of her big jackets only because after a couple of hours she'll want me to wear them and then when my lipstick loses color she'll make me go with her to the bathroom to reapply it but it'll be useless because she'll kiss me a lot inside and I just KNOW she'll be holding my hand the whole time in public because she doesn't want me to get lost or see a dumb macho man (probably Sungchan) flirting with me and I'll be like same because I don't want anyone to see more than necessary at my pretty girlfriend but Wonbin is definitely the one more possessive and jealous and we'll probably fight because she doesn't want to be jealous and I don't want her to be jealous but she's just so 😭 but I love her just the way she is.

I'm sorry.

I really love my girlfriend Wonbin.

[cpd-55055]

i would like to hear your honest opinion do you think that since a few seasons (seasons 8, 9 and 10 1/2) PD has become boring in terms of story and writing and in general?

Short Answer: Definitely! They have lost their creativity and intensity. In the past seasons, every episode brought us to the edge of our seats. But now, both the cases are boring, and the personal stuff is getting repetitive.

Long Answer:

You probably didn't ask for a rant, but I'm giving it to you anyways. Sorry in Advance! 😊

To be honest, S8, as a whole, wasn't that bad. The Upstead stuff was amazing. Kim's story with Makayla was really sweet and meaningful for the character. I liked Kevin's storyline at the beginning and how the Doyle shooting was wrapped up. But I didn't like how every Kevin episode was about the blue wall and his race. Vanessa's sudden disappearance is something that still bothers me, but I guess we have to blame COVID for that. The cases were interesting and intense at the same time. And although it was a character-centric format, I really think the balance between personal and case was good. And let's not forget the epic finale they had. In my opinion, the best finale PD has ever done.

For S9, you have to evaluate it as two parts, 9a, and 9b. 9a was really good. The continuation of the Roy storylines was perfect, and the end, even though it felt a little anticlimactic with North's character, was a decent wrap to the storyline. The Upstead angst was worth it. The flow was starting to become choppy, but since the content was so good, I ignored it.

9b, on the other hand, was just a disappointment. Anna was introduced in 9a, and I still don't understand why they couldn't wait till 9b. Her character was so confusing. I liked her sassiness and her boldness, but her relationship with both Voight and Jay was all over the place. I also don't understand what the whole point was of having Jay create "a deal" with Voight in 9x09 if he never actually followed through with it. I liked the whole Kim fighting for Makayla during the adoption, but everything after that felt pointless. Like they needed something to give Burzek a storyline. There was no reason to kidnap and traumatize a young girl who was already previously traumatized. Instead of showing Makayla recovering from her kidnapping, they should have taken those episodes to focus more on Kim and her trauma after losing her baby one season and then being shot and left to die the next. Don't get me started on Kevin and his "relationship" with Celeste. I actually thought Celeste and Kevin had great chemistry and potential, but they literally ruined it in the first episode they introduced Celeste. Kevin deserved better than that. Anna's storyline had way too much focus than it needed. It just dragged on for too long, and the finale was just sad. There was no intensity or drama. Compared to its previous finale, this one was boring. Still bitter that we never got Will and Hailey scenes in 9x13 and never got worried Jay in 9x22. Why spend so much money and time on an explosion if there is no drama afterward.

S10 so far... let's see. The Anna stuff of 10x01 felt weird. We never really saw Voight move on from Anna's death. It just felt incomplete. And somehow, all this mess led to Jay crossing lines and deciding to leave 3 episodes later. The biggest disappointment of this season is how Jay was written out. He deserved better than being given 3 episodes to exit. It was rushed, sudden, and truly unnecessary. I'm glad that Hailey is getting a lot of screentime, but I'm not glad that all her screentime is sad Hailey on repeat. The acting is superb, but come on, stop finding more ways to make her sad. I'm not gonna dig into Burzek's situation, and how I feel about that. All I'll say is I just hope they stay like this. Torres is an interesting character, and I like his partnership with Kevin, but I do wish that they did a Torres episode before Jay's departure. Jay was the one that brought Torres to the unit; it would have been nice to see Jay help Torres fit in and slowly shift to Torres and Kevin. And I feel like it's a season too late to bring up Kim's trauma. My guess is they're gonna use this to bring Kim and Adam together, but why didn't they do it last season. I guess the only good that that's come out of S10 so far is how quiet Voight's character is. He has truly been in the background, even during the Sean/Chief stuff.

I think the big difference for me is that during S8, I was actually interested in every character's episodes. But now, I could care less what happens to everyone else. All I care about is Hailey and hoping that there is a happy ending for Upstead.

[m-jelly]

Hey jelly could i request virgin levi with experienced reader and he’s so nervous and stuttering and being all flustered and cute and reader taking the lead ? Im not sure if u did it before but it’ll be great i lovvveee ur work

Thank you!

Happy to do this for you. I can just imagine him now being all cute and flustered by his own body and excited by yours.

Exploring together.

Pairing: Levi x Reader

Genre and tags: Virgin Levi, smut, foreplay, teaching, first time, gentle, soft, caring, flustered Levi, worried Levi, sweet Levi, cuteness, canon world

Concept: After being together for a few months, Levi can't fight his urges any longer. Levi admits to you one night he wants you but confesses he's a virgin. You take him to the bedroom and slowly teach Levi how you both can get pleasure. With a lot of fumbling around, a few mistakes, and a lot of encouragement from you, he eventually finds his rhythm and discovers he rather likes having sex with his girlfriend.

NSFW 18+ material below. Minors do not interact. Thank you

Levi felt thirsty, but nothing was stopping his thirst. He was agitated and shifting about. He had this urge inside him and didn't know what to do. He was horny and this had never happened to him before. The longer you both dated, the more he wanted you.

He watched you walk around his office and wanted to be the straps that wrapped around your legs and bust. He watched you walk closer and inhaled your scent. He flinched when your body brushed his causing him to drop his pen on the floor.

You stopped, then looked down at your boyfriend to see he was blushing hard. "You okay?" You placed your hand on his forehead. "You seem hot."

He moaned a little, then looked away from you. "I-I'm fine."

You frowned a little, then looked down to see his pen on the floor. You crouched down and picked it up. When you looked up, you noticed there was not a usual bulge in Levi's trousers. "Levi?"

He cleared his throat. "Y-yes."

You stood up and gazed at him. "Are you hard right now?"

He put his head in his hands. "Y-Yes. I'm so sorry. I j-just can't stop thinking about you." He peaked at you. "Forgive me."

You sat on his left thigh. "Don't be sorry. It's perfectly normal." You kissed his cheek. "I'm not offended." You popped a button on his shirt, then pushed your hand in and ran your fingers over his warm muscles. "I can help you take care of it."

Levi moaned and shivered at you touching him. He blushed when he remembered his secret. He stopped your hand and stammered your name. "I have a confession to make."

You pulled back and studied Levi's face. "What is it?"

He whined and looked away from you. "I'm a virgin." He winced. "Go ahead, laugh at me."

"I'm not going to laugh." You turned his head so he would look at you. "Everyone starts out a virgin, okay?"

"B-But I'm in my thirties and-."

You hushed him, then kissed him on his soft lips. "It doesn't matter how old you are. Some people don't have sex at all and die of old age never doing it. There's nothing wrong with being a virgin."

He gulped hard and locked eyes with you. "There is a problem."

You frowned a little at his words. "What's the problem?"

He blushed. "I-I-I want to ha-have sex with you. I-I want to please you." He pouted a little and lowered his head. "I can't do that as a virgin."

You covered his face in kisses. "Levi, even if you weren't a virgin, our first time wouldn't be perfect together because we don't know anything about what the other person would want. We just have to talk and learn things about each other."

He nuzzled the crook of your neck. "I umm...I want to do that now. I want to explore each other."

"Okay. I'll take good care of you, alright?"

Levi let you pull him along to his bedroom. "You're not a virgin?"

You shook your head, then looked over at Levi. "Does that bother you? A girl not being a virgin seems to bother some men."

Levi pouted a little. "I'm not bothered, I'm just a little jealous that some other guy took your virginity. I want to be the only one you have sex with."

You let him go, then locked his bedroom door. "Well, that's my plan. I'll never leave you."

He smiled at your words, they'd made his day and life. "Good." He got nervous when you walked over to him. "I-I hope I don't disappoint you."

You undid the strap on his chest. "You won't. It's okay Levi, it'll be okay and we can stop whenever you want."

He lowered his head. "I don't want to stop."

You hummed a laugh. "So brave." You kissed him as you kept undoing his straps. "Can you get the rest and I'll get my own?"

He nodded, then fumbled with the traps to his gear that he'd put on and taken off countless times, but he was an excited and nervous mess right now. "D-Done."

You dropped the last of yours. You walked up to Levi and rubbed his chest. "Breathe, okay? You're safe."

He let out a long shaky sigh. "I'm okay."

You kissed him, then went into his bathroom and searched his medical things and found protection. You returned to Levi and found him sitting on the bed trying to relax. "We can stop."

Levi looked over at you. "N-No. I don't want to stop."

You sat next to him. "You sure?"

He nodded. "Yes."

"Okay." You slipped your boots off and pulled Levi's off. You moved the boots to the side, then stood in front of Levi. "Do you want to take my things off? I can do it if you're too nervous."

He shook his head and started undoing the buttons on your shirt. He pulled your shirt out from your trousers and finished off the last buttons. He pushed your shirt open and held his breath when he saw you topless and your nice bra.

You took Levi's hands and placed them on you. "You can touch me."

Levi's hands glided over your body, he couldn't believe how soft your skin was and how warm you were. He felt something in him pulling him closer. He kissed your stomach all over, then nipped your skin. He cast his gaze up at you and felt his nerves kick in.

He pulled back with his cheeks burning hard. "Sorry."

"Don't be. You were doing well."

He smiled as he felt pride inside him. "Really?"

You nodded and loved how adorable the dangerous Captain was being right now. "Do you want to take my trousers off?"

He shook a little as his mind raced with excitement. "Yes." He popped the button on your trousers and pulled your zip down slowly. He pushed your trousers down to reveal your underwear and perfect legs. "Beautiful." He watched you step out of your trousers, then he massaged your thighs. "Pretty."

"Thank you."

He let go of you. "S-sorry, I got lost in the moment."

"Don't be sorry." You sat next to him. "Do you want me to remove your things, or do you want to?"

He shuffled closer. "You."

You smiled, then slowly unbuttoned his shirt for him. You pushed it open and ran your hands over his skin. He stopped when you heard Levi moan a little. You looked at his face to see how sweetly he was blushing. You kissed the crook of his neck, then undid his trousers.

You slid up the bed and sat on your legs. "If you're comfortable, then take your trousers off and join me."

Levi nodded, then stood and pushed his trousers down. He crawled onto the bed and sat. He blushed at how clearly aroused he was through his boxers. "I'm sorry in advance if you don't get any pleasure."

You cupped his face and smiled. "It's okay. We're learning together, okay?"

"No, I'm learning. You're not."

You kissed him lightly. "I am. I don't know what you like at all."

He hummed. "I guess you're right."

You let him go, then held his hands. "So, what do you know? I need to know where your knowledge is."

He blushed. "I know about it all, I've just never done it. I know about foreplay, that you have a clit and g-spot. I know that foreplay is very important to do. "

You hummed a laugh. "You're right."

He gulped and eyed your body. "Can I touch you?"

You nodded. "I encourage it."

He slid his hands up your thighs, then kissed you. He massaged circles on your hips nice and slow. He pulled from your lips. "Can I lie you down?"

You wrapped your arms around his neck and slowly lay back. "Yes."

He lay against you and went back to kissing you. He bucked against you making you moan. He pulled back a little flustered. "S-sorry. I didn't mean to...sorry."

"It's okay. It felt good. You rubbed against a good spot."

He smiled a little and felt proud. "Really?"

You nodded. "I would never lie to you."

"I know." He hummed. "I'm supposed to uhh..."

You giggled. "Well, we have a few options. I can give you a-."

"No!" He blushed hard. "N-No. I don't want you to d-do that for me. I want the other options."

You lay there a bit, then hummed. "Well, you can touch me with your fingers, or use your mouth. I think your fingers would be best and we'll work up to other things in time."

Levi nodded as he blushed a little. "I wanted to taste you, but okay."

You giggled at him pouting. "Touching is just easier to start with. I promise you can taste me."

Levi perked up. "Great." He ran his hand down your body and pushed it into your underwear. "Right, umm..." His fingers moved and parted you. "It's up here."

You hummed as he got close. "Little higher."

Levi nodded at your instructions and slid his fingers up. He gasped when he found your clit. "It's like a little button. Cute."

You giggled. "Levi."

He blushed. "S-sorry. So, I just..." He moved his fingers slowly. "L-like this?"

You sighed and felt a bubble of pleasure. "Little faster." You moaned when Levi did as you asked. "That's it." You hummed in delight. "Perfect." You cupped the side of Levi's face. "Kiss me, nip my neck or touch my breasts. Enjoy yourself."

Levi kept moving his fingers and enjoyed how you moaned and looked so beautiful. He was so happy that he finally got to see and experience this. He leaned closer and nipped the crook of your neck. He'd kissed and bitten you countless times, so he knew what he was doing with this part.

He licked a line, then bit the crook of your neck. He sucked on your soft and warm skin. He moved his tongue over your skin and hummed in happiness at claiming you as his own. He moved his other hand to your breast but hesitated.

Levi looked up at you. "How do I?"

You sighed and hummed as you enjoyed Levi's fingers. "J-just massage. Don't squeeze too hard."

He nodded and massaged your breast. He watched you closely as your pleasure increased. He frowned a little when you grabbed his arms. "Is it too much?"

You shook your head. "Don't stop." You rolled your hips and panted. "Levi." You locked eyes with Levi. "So good, you feel so good."

Levi felt pride inside him that he was doing a great job for his first time. He leaned down and kissed you with passion and love in his heart. He pulled back when you dug your nails into his skin. He gazed at you as your eyes closed and your head leaned back.

You squeezed your legs around Levi's hand as you came. It was a warm, soft and gentle pleasure from a delicate and loving touch. You relaxed against the bed and held Levi's hand. "Stop."

He stopped and pulled his hand from you. "Are you okay?"

You nodded as you felt pleasure bubble away in you. "I'm good. You did perfect."

Levi perked up. "Really?"

You nodded as you lightly touched his cheek. "Yes."

He cleared his throat. "I put my fingers in you now, right?"

You laughed a little. "Yes, if you want to prepare me. I don't mind. I suppose it could teach you where an important place is."

"C-Can I take your underwear off?"

You nodded and lifted your hips. "Of course."

He slowly pulled your underwear off, then dropped them on the floor. Levi blushed bright red. "Wow. You're so beautiful."

You laughed a little. "I've never been called that before when mostly naked, so thank you."

He ran his fingers up and down from your clit to your pussy. "One finger?"

You smiled. "Thanks right, one first, then two."

He pressed one finger in deep and gasped at how you felt. "So warm." He moved his finger. "Where..."

"Lower down and press up." You shifted your hips. "Almost." You sighed when he pressed it. "That's it."

Levi's eyes widened. "You squeezed me."

"That bad?"

He shook his head. "I liked it. Do you do that every time you feel good?"

You blushed a little. "Yes."

"I want to feel it again." He massaged your g-spot and felt you squeeze him. He watched your face as you gripped the bed and panted at your pleasure increasing. "Show me more."

You shivered. "Two. Two fingers."

Levi pulled his finger from you, then pressed in two and kept massaging. "Do it again. I want to see and feel you cum."

You rocked your hips against his hand as you felt the pleasure build up. You cupped the side of his face. You squeezed your toes and hummed in delight. You felt you were on the cusp of pleasure. You inhaled as your walls collapsed. You moaned in pure ecstasy as your body squeezed Levi over and over.

Levi gasped in delight at feeling your walls squeeze his fingers a few times. "Incredible." He pulled his hand from your and studied his fingers. "I really like this."

You sat up and smiled. "You did amazing." You kissed his cheek making him blush. "Well done. Are you ready for the main part?"

He sat back and nodded. "Yes." He grabbed the protection and studied it. "I just pull this on over my dick?"

You nodded. "Yes. It's to protect me and you."

Levi wiggled his boxers off, then sat on the bed again. He pulled on the protection and blushed. "Sorry if I'm not. I mean I'm...well..."

You moved your hand up at down on him. "You're perfect. Now, sit against the headboard and I'll take the lead. You okay with that?"

He nodded and moved up against the headboard. "Ready."

You shuffled closer, then kneeled over him. You held him, then pressed down onto him so only the head was in. You looked at Levi as he hissed and grunted. "Nice and slow. Breathe for me, okay?"

Levi held your hips and gulped hard. "O-Okay."

You lowered down slowly and stopped now and then when you could tell Levi was struggling. "You're okay. I can stop."

He shook his head. "No, don't stop. I need to control the urges."

You sat fully on him, then covered his face in kisses. "Good boy. You're doing wonderful. Now, I'm going to squeeze you so you know what you might feel during. You okay with that?"

He nodded. "Yes." He moaned when you squeezed his cock twice. "Fuck, that feels good. This is incredible. You're so warm and soft."

You hummed a laugh and kissed him. "Such a sweet man. I'm going to move now, okay?"

He nodded. "Y-yes. Do I hold you?"

"Yes."

He held your thighs, then gasped when you moved up and down on him. He blushed hard at feeling his cock slide in and out of you. He gripped your thighs tightly at how incredible it felt. His hold body was overcome with pleasure as he felt you from the inside. He looked up at you and marvelled at how beautiful you looked as you panted and moaned at him.

He whimpered at you a little to get your attention. He leaned up for a kiss and blushed at how needy he was. He hummed in happiness when you captured his lips. He opened his mouth and welcomed something more passionate and loving. He slid his hands up to your hips and waist, then helped you move up and down on him.

Levi bucked up against you as his urges took over. He wasn't sure if he was doing the right thing, but he was going to try his very best. He wanted you to want him again instead of being a disappointment.

You stopped Levi. "Hang on. I need to adjust my hips. Slow down a little."

Levi blushed at your words. "Sorry."

"It's okay, sweetheart." You shifted your hips so Levi would rub your g-spot. "There, now you'll rub my g-spot."

"A-Ah, I wasn't before?"

You rubbed his cheek. "It's okay. We're learning together. Now we can move again and take it slow." You moved up and down and smiled at Levi bucking up. "That's it Levi." You panted. "Just like that."

Levi moaned as he felt you squeeze him. He liked you praising him, it gave him a little spark of pleasure. He leaned closer and nibbled your collarbone and left little bites all over it. He shifted to the crook of your neck and bit a little hard. You kept moving on him as you felt your coil tighten in pleasure. You hummed and tangled your fingers in Levi's hair as you chased your pleasure.

You leaned your head back and smiled. "Levi. Levi, you feel so good." You clenched him and moaned in delight. "I love you."

Levi wrapped his arms around you and bucked hard and fast against you. He moaned your name. "Mine. I love you."

You cried out as euphoria shot through you, but Levi didn't help you ride it out. You frowned at him as he stopped and grunted, then he buried his face against your chest and hid his face.

You played with Levi's hair and felt worried. "Levi? Levi, what's wrong?"

He whined. "I came."

You stared at him, then smiled. "Well, that's supposed to happen."

He shook his head. "N-No. I wanted to l-last."

"Well, it's your first time having sex, so I'd be surprised if you could last for a very long time."

Levi moved you off him, then ran to the bathroom. "I'm sorry."

You sat there a little confused, then you felt such love for your man. You slipped off the bed and put on a shirt of his. "Levi, darling? It's okay." You leaned against the door. "It's okay."

"It's not! I came too early."

You smiled a little. "That's alright. Besides, you made me cum three times. Twice in foreplay and during sex. You did it."

He opened the door a little and peeked at you. "You did?"

You nodded. "I did. Besides Levi, we have all the time in the world to keep trying. In time, you'll last longer and we'll get more adventurous. There are lots of things to do in the bedroom. There are different positions, ways of talking, outfits and toys. We'll take our time, okay?"

He nodded. "Okay. I look forward to the different fun things we can do."

You smiled at him. "I love you, Levi. Now, why don't you clean up and we'll talk a little about the different things, okay?"

"Okay. I love you."

You kissed him and smiled. "Love you too. I'll sit on the bed and wait."

Levi cleaned himself, then returned to you. He eyed your body and loved you in his shirt. "Ah."

You looked over at him. "What's wrong?"

He sat on the bed. "I'm umm...you look so...and it made me..."

You looked down and saw he was hard. "Impressive. You've only had over five minutes break."

"I'm a pervert."

You ran your hands up his thighs and kissed him. "You're not. How about another nice position next? Do you want to be on top and me lying?"

He blushed. "Missionary?"

You nodded. "That's right."

"I want to. I want to try again."

You lay back on the bed and smiled. "I'm all yours, Levi."

Levi's eyes sparkled with delight. "Mine."

[under-sedationnn]

the arcana: main six reacting to injured! reader

anonymous: Could u do m6 reacting to mc coming home injured? I want some hurt/comfort >:))

Warnings: talk of being injured, blood. if that bothers you or tiggers you in anyway, please scroll away! i want this to be a safe place, only :)

thanks for the request anon!! i hope you enjoy!! <3 requests for the kissing prompts and physical affection prompts are STILL OPEN. please send them in with the character of your choice (which could be any character from any series i write for) and i will create an imagine!! thanks and happy reading!!

- tries his very very best to stay calm

- you can see panic bubbling under the surface

- faust is on high alert

- slithers around your shoulders and squeezes you for a hug

- "friend! hurt!"

- doesn't immediately ask what happened, just gets you to a comfortable place to be cleaned up

- then, and only then, will he brave to ask what happened to you

- or who did this to you

- wipes the blood from your skin with very gentle swipes

- winces when you wince, and apologizes profoundly

- "Y/n, how did this happen? i thought you were just taking a quick trip to the market."

- "i fell in the market, tripped over a stone"

- "and nobody helped you?"

- in this case he's disappointed with the bystanders, but does not become angry

- in a situation where someone hurt you?

- oh god

- "Y/n, how did this happen? i thought you were just taking a quick trip to the market."

- "yeah, well, somebody had their eye on the same apple i picked up. somehow, though, they managed to push me to the ground and steal it from my hands."

- i don't even think he would know what to say

- and asra is not really the type to march out into the streets of vesuvia and seek to challenge the one who hurt you

- but he would certainly hold a grudge against whoever it was if he did find out

- and would feel absolutely awful about letting you get hurt

- his mind would race about the possibility of losing you again

- because he simply can't handle it

- and what if that person had been particularly violent or malicious? what if you had been taken??

- you'd have to comfort the hell out of him to make sure he knows that you're okay

- "asra, hey, i'm fine! i can handle myself, you know that"

- "you're right, and i know you're right. it's just hard"

- "it's still hard for me, too. the market still makes me a little nervous and i got caught a little off guard, is all"

- that would make him feel better

- would finish patching up your wounds and would make sure to bring you to julian the next day if they were too bad for him to fix or needed stitches

- would also create a special brew to help with the pain and ease you to sleep

- "why don't i go down to the market tomorrow?"

- "why? so when you pick a fight over apples, i can pay you back for all of this high quality medical treatment?"

- "well of course, surely you didn't expect all this tender love and care to be free" *wink*

- panicked doctor mode enabled

- immediately begins checking you over, asking questions

- something tells me it would be a head injury of some sort

- "oh darling, what happe- you're bleeding!"

- "julian, i'm okay! it's just a little scratch"

- "no no no you might need stitches, come sit down. i'll go get my kit!"

- there's really no use in arguing

- he has cold ass hands, so he tries to warm them up before he begins suturing the wound

- tries to be gentle, and his expert hands move quickly without any snagging

- "so, how did this happen?"

- his voice is literally trembling

- "well, i was in the clinic grabbing the list of ingredients we need for our next grocery trip and there was a puddle of... something on the floor. i slipped and hit my head on the corner of your desk"

- immediately thinks it's his fault

- like "oh shit i should have cleaned better that could have killed y/n and then what would i have done-"

- doesn't necessarily voice this, but you can tell by the silence that follows that he's feeling really guilty

- would kneel for you, head on your knees

- "y/n, i am so sorry"

- "juli, it's really okay, i should have watched where i was going"

- "i'll make sure to clean better from now on, okay?"

- would guard you throughout the night in case of concussion

- nurse juli <3

- but let's say someone had put their hands on you

- would patch you up the same way, and apologize profusely for not being there with you

- tuck you into bed and fetch mazelinka to keep an eye on you throughout the night incase of a concussion

- would most definitely be self destructive and seek that mf out

- maybe not successfully, but would try his hardest

- "i'll be back in the morning, get some rest"

- "I can find them myself if I want to, you know"

- embarrassed blush

- because he KNOWS you can take care of yourself

- "of course, but right now you're hurt. as your partner, i will do what must be done on your behalf darling"

- probably shows up the following morning with battle scars of his own

- the guards found you in the garden, passed out in the maze

- blood trickled down your arm, a large gash marking your bicep

- ran you up to the palace and immediately to the medical wing

- them]n nadia gets word

- the calm, collected queen act disappears

- abandons anything she's doing, anybody she's talking to

- "we will finish this at a different time, i have more important matters to attend to"

- she is so worried and it's honestly adorable

- very much giving "where tf are they?" energy

- god i love her so much

- anyways um

- asks the nurses over and over what happened, if you're okay, etc.

- watches the physicians and nurses like a hawk as they clean the wound and suture the cut

- and they're so intimidated lmao they never come face to face with her literally ever

- brushes your hair back from your face as they do so

- holds your hands

- would demand that you be brought to her sleeping chamber

- so that's where you wake up! how cute

- she's laying beside you, her brows furrowed

- maybe even her eyes are a little hazy

- "y/n, sweetheart, do you remember what happened?"

- patiently waits for your answer, you're still a little groggy

- you were either attacked by an animal and passed out from the fright

- or you were attacked by an armed person and was knocked out

- either way, the guards are on it

- nadia isn't letting whoever or whatever did this get away without a fight

- the palace is meant to be a safe haven for you

- for the both of you

- "well, don't you worry, we'll take care of that"

- you try to sit up but she won't let you

- "oh no, you must stay down, y/n. you are possibly concussed from the fall"

- "oh okay, sorry"

- "is there anything i can get you?"

- the countess of vesuvia, serving you in your time of need

- "just some water would be nice"

- "of course, i'll have some brought up right away"

- i literally feel like he would just start crying straight up

- cause like he has some problems anyway

- he big sad boi

- and you coming home to the hut bleeding from a gash in the arch of your foot is not helping

- picks you and carries you to the bed without a word

- just starts examining the cut

- inanna is also very concerned

- she licks the blood from the cut, she's trying to be helpful

- meanwhile muriel is stumbling around the hut looking for anything to stop the bleeding, disinfect it, bandage it, anything

- but he's not the best about keeping that stuff in stock

- keeps looking back at you with worry in his eyes

- he doesn't know what to do

- "muriel, let me see if i can contact asra. maybe he or julian can bring me a salve. i'm pretty sure i'm gonna need stitches"

- low-key makes him feel worse

- cause he feels like he's unable to care for you and keep your safe

- even tho this was just an accident

- he's breathing really fast, his anxiety creeping

- agrees anyway, but goes to get them himself

- "i'll be back soon, just keep this piece of cloth pressed against it"

- cause you're bleeding like a lot

- inanna stays behind

- he returns very quickly with julian in tow, though he doesn't look happy about it

- leaves the hut without another word

- julian gets to work immediately

- "so, you cut your foot i see"

- smartass.

- "yeah, muriel always tells me to put on shoes when i walk in the woods but i love to feel the grass beneath my feet"

- julian chuckled at this

- "and i'm assuming you, what, stepped on a rock?"

- "...yeah, sliced it right open"

- after julian is done cleaning up the cut, he tells you to just stay off of it for a while and make sure it doesn't get infected

- once he's gone, muriel trudges back into the hut

- "muriel, baby, it was just a cut it's not a big deal"

- but his eyes look hurt, and you beckon him toward the bed

- "hey," your hands on his cheeks, "i'm okay, really"

- "sorry, i just got scared. blood is still a trigger for me and since you got hurt in my woods, i felt like it was my fault"

- "muriel, of course it wasn't your fault"

- he really needed a hug

- after this instance, he made sure to keep medical supplies in the hut and you promised to try and wear shoes in the woods more often than not

- "i'll try my best to be more careful. deal?"

- sweet lil smile

- "deal."

- "oh my god, y/n, what the hell happened??"

- you were tending the garden

- without her supervision

- and the garden sheers might have sliced into the palm of your hand

- deep

- brings you over to the sink and runs water over the cut, covering it with a towel when the dripping blood had been washed away

- girl is on the move

- cause she knows what to do! love that

- low-key a main reason why julian managed to live as long as he has

- pepi is curiously perched atop one of the counters, peering down

- finds her personal first aid kit she had stashed in the bathroom

- guides you over to sit on the counter while she tries to figure out what to do

- "damn, you really cut yourself, y/n"

- "sorry! i think i just got a little carried away"

- she giggles at that, though she is still worried about the fact that it won't stop bleeding

- gently wraps the cut in gauze and adheres it together

- places a kiss to your fingertips

- "all done! no more gardening for you!"

- "hey, why not?"

- "well you don't want that cut to open back up again and again, do you?"

- "no"

- "alright then," she smiled, moving to put away the first aid kit again, "and we're going up to the palace medical wing first thing tomorrow morning to make sure it's not infected"

- eye roll

- "yes ma'am" you mocked

- even though you know it's just because she loves you

- "but since you got hurt, you want me to bake you some cookies?"

- "only if you let me eat the dough!"

- good god do i love this man

- but he is so self-absorbed it's actually insane

- and I feel like he wouldn't even notice at first

- cause he's too focused on himself

- gazing into the mirror without a care in the world when you walked in

- "y/n, thank goodness you're home, how do you feel about these pants?"

- you just hobbled to the nearest seat, hand resting over the gash on your knee

- mercedes and melchior were lazing across a rug at the base of his mirror, their attention set on you

- "u-um, yeah, they look good"

- literally just trying not to bleed out, over here

- "good? oh really, now, y/n don't they look amazing?"

- "yes, they look ama- ow, damnit"

- then he turned around

- immediate shock and worry! oh no oh no y/n is hurt!

- mercedes and melchior walked over first, whining as they took in the cut, brushing around the edges

- lucio raced over, squatting down in front of you, and began examining the cut

- "hey, hey, what happened?"

- "i accidentally tripped on my walk in the garden and scraped my knee on the cobblestone"

- he was lightly touching around the cut, gauging how sensitive it was

- when you flinched he stopped, looking into your eyes with a soft "sorry"

- "i think i need to go to the palace infirmary"

- "oh there's no need, i can take care of you!"

- you were not convinced he could take care of you, at least not well

- "uh, lucio, are you sure?"

- he looked slightly offended, at that

- "you know, y/n, i did fight in battles at one point. i have not only tended to my own wounds, but the wounds of others, as well"

- you giggled at the thought

- "much to your protest, though, i'm sure"

- he moved to the small cabinet of medical supplies in the ensuite to your bedroom, returning to your side with it in hand

- "at points, but i don't mind helping you in the slightest"

- for all of his antics, his soft side was enough to make you fall in love all over again

- and although i know he would take care of you in literally any situation, i can't say for certainty that he would stick around and place nurse lucio for long if a person had hurt you

- attacked you

- much like nadia, the guards would be sent out without a second thought, lucio leading the pack in the search for you aggressor

[jenomark]

I love angst and I read some of your angst stories and I'm quacking, my masochist ass is happy :D Can I please request NCT 127 reaction when, after an argument, you say coldly to take some time/break up? uGHhH, i love this, thank u queen!

Johnny: "Well, then, maybe you should be alone," you said to Johnny. "Finally get to live that fantasy of fucking all your groupies." You winced as soon as you had said it, and you could tell that he was just as bothered by your words. As cold as you could be, Johnny was still warm. "Is that what you want?" he asked. You shrugged and said, "Isn't it what you want, too? I don't know why we're still together, Johnny. We aren't in love anymore." Johnny's eyes were turning to liquid. "Are we breaking up for good this time?" he asked. You stared at each other for a long time before you spoke, "I don't see any other choice."

Taeyong: "Please," he pleaded, falling to his knees in front of you. "Don't leave me." You had turned your back on him. A lot was said, some of which you were not proud of. The tension in the room was so thick, you felt like you couldn't breathe. Taeyong crawled across his bedroom floor, until he was holding onto your leg. "It's just a short break," you whispered, looking down at him. "We both need to figure out what we want." Taeyong waved your words away with his hand. His eyes were begging you to reconsider the break. "I know what I want," he said. "I want you. I don't need time away to figure that out."

Yuta: He could say hateful things that made it feel like you were insignificant. "I can't do this anymore," you said. "We're not the same people who fell in love all those years ago. For fucks sake, look at us, look at me." Yuta huffed, "I don't want to look at you right now." He was as hurt as you. Deep down, you knew it to be true. Since it was your idea to break up, it was you who had to deal with the fall out. Ideally, you wanted a clean break, but Yuta wouldn't let you leave without speaking his mind first. "You're pathetic." he said, not really meaning it. "Fine," you said. "I'll go, and you won't ever have to look at my pathetic face again."

Doyoung: "Rather than a break up, "Doyoung began. " How about some time apart?" You were both sitting down. You only came to return his things, but the guilt had caused you to hear him out. Doyoung always got his way, even if his way felt more like a business transaction sometimes. "I don't think so. I don't think that will work," you said. "I think we're finished. You don't love me, Doyoung." He shook his head in denial, closed his eyes and breathed in deeply. "How do you know how I feel?" he asked. "You haven't asked about me in so long." You fell silent, choosing to bite your tongue. Doyoung continued, "A break could be good for us. We could make this work."

Jaehyun: He was repressing his anger. He was so quiet that you could hear him breathing through his nose. It was evident that he hadn't been expecting the break-up. Rather than get up and walk away, like he had wanted, instead, Jaehyun listened to all of the qualities you hated about him. "You're so indecisive," you said. "It drives me crazy. And you don't like the things I like. And you never take me out anymore. And it feels like I'm your friend, well, no, because you treat your friends better than you treat me. I'm not saying this to break you down, Jaehyun. I'm saying this so you know how to treat the next girl you find. Consider it a service, honestly." Jaehyun just listened, nodding his head in icy agreement.

WinWin: He was inside of you when you said you wanted to break-up. WinWin stopped thrusting and looked down at you, like he didn't know who you were. You wiggled out from underneath him and said, "I'm sorry. This is probably the wrong way to break up with someone, but I panicked." WinWin took a blanket and wrapped it around his nude body. "Why didn't you tell me this before we started having sex?" he asked, not really wanting to stick around for the answer he knew you didn't have. "Are you even sad about it?" you asked. WinWin looked around, avoiding eye contact. "Not really, " he said. "I've been expecting it."

Jungwoo: "Do you have anything to say to me?" you asked Jungwoo. He had retracted into his body, clamming up when you asked him to talk. You felt annoyed that he couldn't even stand up for himself, and he definitely wouldn't stand up for you. "You won't fight for us?" you asked. Jungwoo awkwardly patted the top of your hand. He tried to speak but no words came out. "Do you even care?" you asked. "This is what I mean when I tell you that it seems like you don't love me. There is no passion, no fire. You don't yell or get angry. There are no emotions. It's like you're self-obsessed." Jungwoo raised his eyebrows, his angry growing steadily. He said, "There are plenty of emotions I'm feeling right now, none that you deserve to hear about."

Mark: "What do you want me to do?" Mark asked. "I've done everything you asked of me. I'm tired." You paced back and forth, feeling a fresh fire lit underneath your ass. "Oh, you're tired!?" You said. "Mark, for the last three years of my life, I've had to deal with yours, your career, your interests, your problems. I don't even know who I am anymore." Mark sat down. He looked exhausted, which did stir up a little regret. "I'm sorry," he said. "I didn't think. Are we breaking up for good? I don't want that. Is it what you truly want?" You sank down beside him, feeling deflated. You held his hand. "I don't know what I want." you said. " Some days I want to be done. Some days I only want to come home to you. Maybe a break? I know a break can't hurt me as much as I've been hurt already."

Haechan: "You're going to talk to me right now." Haechan said, grabbing your wrist and spinning you around to face him. "Don't treat me like a child. Talk to me, please." To protect yourself, you didn't emote. You were pissed off and feeling like there was no escape. "It's too late." you said blandly. "Your words can't fix this, Donghyuck. I've made up my mind." Haechan stood, his body slumping over slightly. He said, "What about me? What will happen to me? Please consider me and my feelings. You're all I have. If you leave, I will respect it, but I want you to know that in every lifetime, I will fight for you. I will work for us. Therapy? Counseling? Anything. I'll do it for you."

[jaewin97]

Do you hate me?

You have a feeling Taeyong hates you and Taeyong hates himself for feeling the way he does, especially because of Donghyuck.

word count: around 2100

fluff, misunderstandings, mutual pining (?)

A/N: I kind of quickly proofread it, so sorry if there are any mistakes!

Upon hearing the ringing of the doorbell Donghyuck is quick to run out from his room towards the front door, almost falling on his butt as his socks slide across the wooden floor. 

Taeyong, who was having his meal at the kitchen table, almost chokes on his food at the sudden commotion and turns to watch the younger boy with a bewildered expression, ready to yell at him for running in the dorms. But as Donghyuck opens the door, albeit a little out of breath with a wide grin plastered on his face, he simply closes his mouth again and is quick to straighten himself as best he can as he registers who's at the door by Donghyuck's loud greeting. 

"Baby!"

"Hey cub!" he hears you say followed by a sweet giggle. He assumes Donghyuck has you locked in a strong hug as you let out an 'oof'. He internally curses as he turns back to his food and sees that he had splattered some rice on the table as he was choking. Taeyong quickly gets up and grabs a napkin making sure to clean up as he hears you and Donghyuck walking towards the kitchen. 

"Oh! Taeyong hyung, I didn't notice you were here!" Donghyuck exclaims as he finally reaches the kitchen with you in tow. "YN came to visit me today!"

"Hello" you softly say, as you timidly bow towards Taeyong. 

"Oh um, hi" Taeyong replies as he sets his gaze on you. You looked absolutely adorable, dressed in black jeans and what looked to be an oversized hoodie. As he took in your appearance his gaze lowered down and he realized that your hand was interlocked with Donghyuck's hand. Taeyong felt his face heat up as he quickly looked away and grabbed his plates which still had plenty of food in them and placed them in the kitchen sink. 

"I- I have to go change. Sorry. Um, it was nice seeing you" he quickly said as he looked down and made his way towards his room. A loud slam from Taeyong closing his door resonated in the dorms causing you and Hyuck to slightly jump. 

"That was so weird. He was already dressed" Donghyuck commented as he let go of your hand and made his way to the refrigerator. "Do you want anything to drink?" he asked.

You stood in your spot not understanding what had happened. You thought back to plenty of other times where Taeyong had also abruptly left when you had arrived or when it looked like he was uncomfortable to be in your presence. 

Maybe he doesn't like me? Or what if he thinks I'm annoying? Could it be because I'm younger and he finds me immature or loud when I'm with Donghyuck? All these questions flooded your head and you decided it was best to just ask the man in question. You didn't want him to be uncomfortable in his own home and you didn't want to cause any discomfort with him and Hyuck. 

"I think he hates me." 

You heard a pained groan as Hyuck quickly shot up and hit his head on the refrigerator. 

"Ah fuck" he whined as he turned to you with a pout causing you to walk over and stand in front of him. He slightly bent down to your level as you reached a hand out to rub the spot he had hit. 

"Why do you say that?" Hyuck asked. 

"I'll tell you in your room" you sighed as he stood straight and nodded, motioning for you to follow him down the hallway. 

Once you reached his room, Donghyuck proceeded to close his door and play some music from his speaker in case anyone heard you two talking. You proceed to tell him your thoughts as you both laid in his bed staring at the ceiling. 

"I don't think he hates you. I think it's the opposite but I for sure think you should talk to him about it if it bothers you or if you think it bothers him" Hyuck responded once you were done. 

"What do you mean it's the opposite?" you asked as you turned to face him. 

Hyuck sighed and opened his mouth to answer when his room door opened. 

"Oh! I'm so sorry, I thought Johnny was here." 

You both looked towards the door as you saw Taeyong standing there before he quickly made eye contact with you and quickly turned around and left. 

"See!" you whined as you turned to look at Donghyuck with a pout earning a laugh from the boy. 

"Go talk to him" he exclaimed, shoving you off his bed and pulling out his phone.

"B-but" 

"No 'buts' yn. Do it or else I'll call him in here and all three of us can talk about it" he glared as you begrudgingly walked to his door. 

"You're so evil," you said, sticking your tongue out at him, causing him to smirk and wink at you. 

You exited his room and made your way towards Taeyong's, mentally planning out what you were going to say to him. Before you chickened yourself out, you knocked on his door as soon as you reached it. 

A soft "come in" was heard as you shakily turned the handle and walked in. 

Taeyong stood in the corner of his room watering his plants with his back to you. After hearing you softly clear your throat his head snapped towards you. 

"O-oh yn. U-um what's wrong?" he stammered as he put the water bottle he was using to water his plant down on his desk and wiped his hands on his jeans.

"I um... I wanted to talk to you about something" you gulped.

"Of course! Have a seat" he pointed to his desk chair near him. You timidly nodded and made your way over. You felt like you could taste the awkwardness that was in the air and it caused your hands to begin to get clammy. 

Taeyong muttered a quick 'give me one second' before he walked out of his room and came back in a few seconds later with a dining table chair.  He set it slightly next to the desk chair which you were sitting on and he took a seat. 

"So what's wrong?" he shyly asked, making quick eye contact with you before looking down at his hands.

"Do you hate me?" 

His head quickly snapped up as he stared at you in shock.

"What? No! Why would you ask that?" 

"I just- I'm sorry. It's just whenever I'm near you, you either leave or look really uncomfortable. I just wanted to apologize for making you feel this way and I wanted to ask you so I can figure out what it is I can do to make you feel comfortable" you responded feeling your cheeks heat up as his gaze held yours. His eyes scanned yours over and over as he furrowed his brows and locked his jaw. 

"I'm the one who should be apologizing. You did nothing wrong, you could never do anything wrong. I'm just an idiot. I've just been trying to sort some stuff out when it comes to you- I mean it's nothing like you causing me trouble or anything it's the opposite! I mean- wait! I don't want to hurt you or Donghyuck. I could never do that to him" he rambled.

Your brain was trying to process what just happened. Did he confess? Or are you reading into it? Hurt me or Donghyuck? What? 

"I'm- wait. I'm so confused. So is it just that you don't like me? You're trying to figure out how to be around someone you don't like? If it's something I said or did I'm sor-" 

"No!" he quickly cut you off. "I don't know how to express myself with you. I'm sorry. This is so frustrating. I know what I feel. I know what I want to say, what I want to do. It's just- whenever I'm near you my brain malfunctions and I act like a complete idiot." he confesses looking down at his hands again, noticing they were slightly shaking. 

"Taeyong I don't understand" you whispered. 

Taeyong took in a deep breath and nodded. 

"I like you. I like you a lot and I know you and Donghyuck have something going on and I don't want to ruin it. He's my little brother and I would never do anything to purposely hurt him. I hate myself knowing I could potentially hurt him because I can't control my feelings." He didn't dare move an inch as he finally let out what he had been holding in. He squeezed his eyes shut as he realized you hadn't said anything for almost a minute after he had finished speaking.

"Nothing is going on with me and Donghyuck. " 

Hearing this he finally looked up at you. You were staring at him with watery eyes and rosy pink cheeks, he swore his heart almost leaped out of his chest.

"But you guys always call each other baby or couple nicknames and you're always together and-" 

"He's like my little brother" you cut him off, gaining the courage to reach a shaky hand and grab one of Taeyong's. "I'm a year older than him and since all of you are males and his siblings are young he needs an older sister's advice sometimes when it comes to struggles he may be facing or just asking how to approach girls." 

Taeyong's mouth opened and closed as he processed what you just told him, the feeling of your hand in his wasn't helping him either. 

"so... oh." he let out as he felt his face heat up. 

"I like you too." 

Hearing those four worlds caused Taeyong's world to stop. His heart was beating so fast and he felt like his face was literally on fire. He bravely looked up and met your gaze which conveyed sincerity and determination. Your own cheeks were a darker shade of red and your chest rose and fell at the same rate his did. 

"Really?" he managed to ask in a slight tremble.

"Yes. I have since day one" you responded sincerely. 

"Wow. I- I don't know what to say" he let out a shy giggle "I never thought you would feel the same way. I mean, I thought about the 1% chance that you maybe could see me in a different way other than your friend or Donghyuckie's leader but then I always shook it out of my thoughts. So I really have no clue what to do. My mind and heart are both racing if I'm honest. I think I'm in shock."

You let out a giggle as Taeyong's eyes widened and he placed his left hand on top of his heart. He looked up at you and let out a big smile.

"You're so cute," he said.

"I should be telling you that" you said shaking your head as you felt yourself become even more shy if that was possible.

"You have no idea how crazy you drive me." he whispered as he timidly grabbed your hands in his and slightly leaned forward.

You felt your mouth dry up as you felt him rub small circles on the back of your hand.

"I want to take you out. Can I?" he asked looking up at you with a small smile.

You could only nod as you both leaned closer to one another. Your eyes flickered from his eyes to his cute pouty lips as you swallowed.

"Can I kiss you?" you whispered as his eyes bulged out and he shyly nodded.

You could feel his shaky breath as he licked his lips and placed a hand on your cheek. You slowly brought one of your hands and placed it on the side of his neck, gently running your fingers along it.

You closed your eyes and then you felt it. His soft lips gently molded with yours. Your heart skipped not one but two beats as you realized that you were finally kissing him. Taeyong was in cloud nine. He couldn't believe he was finally kissing you! He wished for this for what felt like forever and now here he was, he couldn't help but smile into the kiss as he finally realized that his wish came true. He could finally call you his, kiss you whenever he wanted and be able to give you all his love unconditionally. This was to be the start of something the both of you would look back on and recount to your future grandchildren. The story of how you both got together and fell in love. 

[i-cant-sing]

Hey, hypothetically asking: Is there a way for me to stop feeling emotions? I mean... having them is kinda hurting me at times. I usually have trouble expressing myself but then I stumbled across your blog and I decided to give it a shot. I'm really sorry if I'm bothering you with this, I just need to vent feelings to someone. My school's adding so much of stress in my life for me, I keep having test after test and I guess I'm scared that I'll be a failure if I fail. And on top of that, I barely get 4 hours of sleep everyday because of all the extensive notes I always keep writing and we keep getting various projects. Oh, and I guess you could say that I'm also kind of a loner? I also don't know why it's so hard for me to love someone either platonically or romantically. I guess it's because I'll never be good enough and I might be scared of attachment. I might have philophobia the fear of love but at the same time, I'm also scared of being alone. Wow, isn't that ironic? Sometimes I feel like the pain in my chest is getting too heavy, I feel like giving up... but then the only things that's keeping me sane are the fics that I write everyday. And another ironic thing: I keep giving people advice on things like not giving up on life and having faith that things will get better but I'm not so great at following my own advice. Then again, no one ever is

Sorry I dumped my feelings on you, I know some people might think I'm being over dramatic and making a big mountain out of a mole hill or I could be an attention seeker. But after writing this, I kinda feel half better and once again, damn... this thing was really long

This feels like my past self sent this to me lol. Anyways, anon I'm not really great at giving advice, and I'm not really good at expressing emotions either, and I'm 20 and in college, so I haven't got my shit figured out yet.

Look I know how stressful school and exams can become, and believe me, the older you grow, you're gonna have other kinds of stressful problems. But... I suppose the way I've dealt with pretty much any difficult situation, especially during exam season, is to talk to myself. And it honestly helps me figure out a lot of things in life, and also helps give myself reality checks and realise when I'm in the wrong. It's also very entertaining too. So, be your own therapist, your own motivator.

You know, I once failed a really big, important test- actually 3 exams. But even at that time, while I was sitting in the dark, listening to Renegade by Styx, I told myself: "This too shall pass." That no matter how bad things seem, bad situations don't last forever.

Now, worrying and stressing over your studies/school won't do anything. Whenever I feel like I'm about to breakdown, I clap my hands and then focus on palms, take deep breaths and tell myself "I got this." But as students we are bound to be burnout, so I recommend listening to music in the dark, taking a walk, or even reading some short story or something. We all need a little escape from reality, that's why fiction is my favourite genre.

I highly recommend that you take some days off from school or at least a break from studying, because in the longterm you'll study more this way. You may think that you would fall behind like this, say maybe by 20%? But you'd still be 80% prepared, and that's way better than not taking a break and falling behind by 30%.

You sound like a teen and let me tell you girl, you can literally do nothing to stop yourself from embarrassing yourself. Nothing. I cringe everytime I go to my Facebook and see the kind of teen I used to be🤮🤮🤮 I'm not like that anymore 😭 But important thing to remember is that everyone else is also constantly worried about embarrassing themselves, so they probably don't even remember what stupid thing you did.

Man just chill out a bit, like physically tell yourself to chill out when things start piling up. Like take a nap, listen to music, read some fics then get back to studying. Worry about relationships later, you got your whole life for that. Don't worry about what others are thinking, just focus on yourself.

U said u write fics? Anon, send the link🔪

[kuroos-babie]

Falling in Love with a Single Mom

Sugawara x fem!Reader | Kenma x fem!Reader

[ Headcanons/MiniFic ]

Request: hi!! i absolutely loved your single mum hc and please could you write the same but with sugawara and kenma? thank you so much- you’re doing great!!! — anonymous 

a/n: sorry it took so long!! wasn't feeling motivated lately and didn't want to put out half-assed stuff :(( I HOPE U LIKE THIS ANON!!!!!

❀ suga sat in front of the class, observing his class of 4 year-olds with a gentle smile on his face.

❀ they were all minding their own, occasionally calling out for their teacher when they were short on glue and fancy stickers, checking up on their tablemates to compare their crafts

❀ one particular student catches his eye as the child opted to lay on his arms folded on top of his desk, looking sullen, instead of working on the given task; a father’s day card

“hey, is everything all right? are you not feeling well?”, his voice was soft as he approached the boy and his eyes grew softer when the he shook his head and proceeded to bury his face between his arms.

“why aren’t you making a card, then? look, all your friends are doing one for their dads.”

“i don’t even have a dad to give it to, why would i even make one.”

suga was taken aback by the young one’s words but stood his ground

“give it to me then, i’ll be your substitute dad”, he said with a gentle hand on the boy’s back, smiling even wider when the boy looked at him with a giddy smile

“really?”

❀ the child then proceeded to work on a card; enumerating all the nice things he likes about his teacher-turned-substitute-dad

❀ after adding the final sprinkle of glitter, he excitedly went to show his finished product

❀ suga scanned his work, his smile never leaving his face but the clumsily written bit at the end left his heart soft with sympathy for the little boy

❀ “i wish suga-san really was my dad, we would have lots of fun playing at the park and mama won’t be too lonely anymore!”

❀ when the day came to a wrap, he found himself being dragged through the halls, your child pulling him by the sleeve

"mama said she'll be picking me up today!"

he laughed nervously but continued to match the boy's little steps, "that's great! but why do i have to come with?"

"i want you to meet mama! i bet you'll like her, she's really nice, her food is amazing!! and she's the preeeeeettiest girl ever"

❀ and oh boy was he right

❀ suga couldn't contain the the wild blush that found it's way to his face, tinting his cheeks and the tip of his ears

❀ he hasn't felt this flustered since kiyoko held his hands

❀ he watched the boy let go of his sleeve to run to you, meeting him with a sweet smile

"mama! suga-san said he'd be my dad so i can have someone to give my dad's day card to!!"

you looked shocked. then confused. and then just plainly amused.

"baby, i told you to call your teachers sensei, haven't i?"

"but if he's my dad now should i still be calling him sensei?"

"you'd only cause trouble, baby. besides, i don't think he wants to be a full-time dad just yet, isn't that right sensei?"

you shot him an apologetic smile and he glance at the boy whose eyes are already brimming with tears

"i-i wouldn't mind at all!", he blurted out before he could even stop himself

his face flushed an even deeper shade of red which you found endearingly cute, "I MEAN ONLY IF YOU WANTED TO. IF HE! if he.. wanted to, i mean. yes."

❀ and that is how he found himself sat in your living room floor two weeks later, playing legos with your son

❀ he knew he couldn't be with you just yet, not when he still has your son as his student

❀ but when he glances at you busily preparing food in the kitchen and at the little boy on the floor trying to make turtles out of legos, he knew he'd be able to wait for a bit more.

❀ you and kenma lived in the same apartment complex, on the same floor, separated by a single wall

❀ being a new mom living alone with her 3-month old child wasn't easy

❀ sleepless nights, panicked grocery runs, and a shit ton of noise complaints from your neighbor

❀ noise complaints in the form of small pieces of paper slipped through the crack of your door

❀ "pls quiet down, trying to sleep. ty"

❀ but it was one evening when kenma had a scheduled stream and your baby's been inconsolable for the last 45 minutes, her cries seeping through the thin walls and bouncing across kenma's flat that he decided to come over yours

he knocked at your door, annoyance clearly shown in the way his eyebrows are knitted in a frown

"can you please do quiet down a bit? i'm trying to stream and the mic's picking up your baby's... crying"

he couldn't help but notice your disheveled look; wrinkled shirt, eyebags and tear-stained cheeks while you held your child, rubbing circles on her back in an attempt to calm her down.

"i'm very very sorry, she hasn't been feeling well. i'm sorry for the trouble, i really am"

he couldn't possibly be mad at you still, he figured you had it really tough and kenma's not the type to deliberately make you suffer even more

with a sigh and a quiet, "it's fine, i guess", he went back to his unit, deciding to cancel the stream just this once

❀ that evening, kenma laid on his bed thinking about you, or your situation rather.

❀ you woke up the next morning with a bag of groceries hanging on your doorknob

❀ it was full of cupped ramen, gatorade, a couple jars of baby food and a note in the same neat handwriting

❀ "i'll be next door if u need any help"

❀ you continued finding random treats at your doorstep with little notes for a few more weeks

"i ordered too much, u can have it."

"sponsor sent some stuff i didn't need."

"friend brought food, couldn't finish it all."

❀ you find it sweet but couldn't help feeling guilty having to bother your quiet neighbor like this

❀ so you decided to post your own little note on your door, hoping he'd find it

❀ "what food do u like?"

❀ the same hour you put it up, you heard shuffling outside your door

❀ and as expected there was another bag of instant ramen with your note scribbled with his reply

❀ "apple pie"

❀ a week passed with radio silence between you two, even your baby has been cooperative enough in your mission of trying to make apple pie

❀ soon you found yourself in front of the door right beside yours, freshly baked apple pie in your mitten-clad hands and your daughter blubbering in her carrier on your back

you knocked.

"uhm hi, i'm y/n. i made some apple pie, figured you wanna share."

kenma's eyes were wide and his cheeks dusted pink the same shade of yours.

he ushered you inside and prepared two plates and forks for the both of you.

"thanks for the stuff" was your meek attempt at breaking the silence.

"it's nothing really"

you noticed him silently looking at your daughter whose hands found their way into her mouth

carefully placing her from your lap to kenma's you giggled as panic flashed in his eyes.

he held her nonetheless, smiling softly as she reached out a slobbered hand to his cheeks and letting out curious coos

❀ you both soon found comfort in each other's homes, coming and going as you both shared takeout, home-cooked meals and stories in between

❀ kenma's fondess for your child grew apparent in the way he'd let her crawl all over him and tug at his hair and the way he held her up just to hear her giggles and the way you'd find him passed out on your couch with your baby on his chest and a protective arm around her

❀ what wasn't obvious to you was the way he would stare at you lovingly as you tucked your daughter to sleep in her crib every afternoon, or the way his little notes turned to subtle love confessions

❀ or the way he's been building up the courage in asking you to move in to a new house together and be a real family.

[trivialoveclub]

2020 Year in Review!

hey! i was tagged by the absolute angel that is ⚘ @unefleurofferte ⚘(tysm my love! 💞) for this 2020 tag! first off (even tho it's the middle of january already 🤡) i wanted to wish everyone a happy new year! not to get sappy 💀 but even tho i don't rlly talk/interact that much, it brings me a lot of happiness seeing u guys on my dash 🥺💗 i genuinely am supporting and rooting for you all and i wish u guys all the love and kindness in this new year bc you deserve it babes 💖

Rules: answer the questions about 2020 and tag some people to pass it on!

5 Fav Films You Watched in 2020

🎬 Soul (2020) "Your spark isn't your purpose. That last box fills in when you're ready to come live."

🎬 Onward (2020) "I never had a dad, but I always had you."

🎬 Klaus (2019) "A true selfless act always sparks another."

🎬 Diecisiete (2019) "You think I'd be doing all of this if I had no heart?

Maybe you're trying to get it back."

🎬 East Side Sushi (2014) "You know behind every great restaurant here, there are great latinos, in the back, in the kitchen, hidden. Prepping the food and making you all look good. Well, I don't want to be in the back anymore."

5 Fav TV Shows You Watched In 2020

📺 Like in The Movies (2020) "Do you ever feel like you're not the protagonist of your own story?"

📺 Given (2019) "Do you have anyone you like, Haruki-san? If that person suddenly disappeared from this world, what would you say?"

📺 Banana Fish (2018) "My soul is always with you."

📺 Masterchef Junior (2013-) Not a quote but Gordon Ramsay always says the dishes has "finesse" and now i can't stop saying it in everything 😭

📺 Next in Fashion (2020)

5 Fav Songs You Listened To In 2020

🎶 UGH! : BTS 🎶 "You're allowed to be angry, but bothering someone else's life, I don't like"

🎶 Fuyu No Hanashi : Given 🎶 "Just like the snow that hasn't completely melted in the shade I continue on with these feelings inside of me."

🎶 So Beautiful : DPR Ian 🎶 "My love is turning kinda gray / My heart is looking the other way."

🎶 PSYCHE : Joohoney 🎶 "All of the world pay attention"

🎶 Stay Tonight : Chungha 🎶 "Tell me what you wanna do, run away or stay tonight"

Top 5 Albums of 2020

💿 Map of The Soul 7 : BTS

UGH! ⏯ Black Swan ⏯ Inner Child

💿 Fatal Love : Monsta X

Sorry I'm Not Sorry ⏯ Nobody Else ⏯ Guess Who

💿 Ungodly Hour : Chloe x Halle

ROYL ⏯ Forgive Me ⏯ Lonely

💿 Mixtape [ PSYCHE ] : Joohoney

PSYCHE ⏯ Intro (Ambition) ⏯ DIA

💿 Chromatica : Lady Gaga

Replay ⏯ Sour Candy ⏯ Alice

Top 5 Books You Read in 2020

🤡 🤡 🤡

...i haven't read for fun in years 😔 i used to read a book every single day :(( but! i already have a list of ones i want to read so this year for sure im gonna be that girl again 🤧💅🏼

💌 How did you spend your birthday this year? 💌

uh hahaha 🤡 suddenly i can't read 🤡

well...i had to take my drivers test but i had no idea how to park so i mean obvs i was gonna fail 💀 so i got super anxious and then had a breakdown in the back seat when it was getting closer to my turn 😭 my parents had to reschedule it and take me home. i felt like such a disappointment. so it started off absolutely horrible, fortunately the rest of the day was a lot better but oof 🤪

💌 What was your most memorable day? 💌

i honestly cannot remember anything 😭 it's like one big blur but ummm...probably finishing high school! i felt like i could finally breathe 🥲

💌 What was your most memorable meal you had this year? 💌

hmm...ooo probably when my abuelita made us a bunch of paches de papa 🥺 i ate them for a whole week and i loved it entirely...my heart is pache shaped 🤧💘

💌 Did you find any new hobbies or interests in quarantine? 💌

hmm i don't think i got any new ones but i did get to be reminded again on how much i genuinely enjoy making food and like decorating/personalizing things! ☺💖

💌 What was the last big event/thing you remember doing before covid? 💌

uhhh i honestly can't think of anything? i literally don't go out 🤡 like im in chilling in this quarantine lifestyle bc nothing has changed for me 🤪

💌 5 good/positive things that happened to you in 2020? 💌

🌱 i finally escaped high school! 🎓🎉

🌱 i decided to take a gap year and the burnt out student inside me feels like she can finally exhale

🌱 i can't remember if it was in early 2020 or late 2019 but anyways I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE 😝😝 i honestly...do not know how i got it...i took 15+ minutes to park (as u can see your girl didn't learn her lesson) but bless that man for passing me i hope u have a beautiful life sir 😭💖 however i have not stepped in the driver's seat since then 💋 i refuse 💋

🌱 i honestly would say watching Soul 🥲💗 i've always been obsessed w my meaning and purpose in life and that movie rlly just hit home for me...i think about it everyday and im literally starting to tear up right now so let me just stop 🤪

🌱 hmm honestly just being home 💗 i now have an excuse to stay in all time and that brings me so much peace in my heart 🤧

💌 Biggest messages or lessons learnt from this year? 💌

that there's a lot to live for. and i rlly want to enjoy it? and like w the gap year i still feel guilty and still feel like im wasting time and not being productive (love being a capricorn 🤪) but im trying to not think like that...and the fact that Soul came out and it's whole message is literally like life is beautiful and it's meant to be lived 🥺 it rlly like...set that for me u know...there's so many little things that truly make me excited about life and i want to enjoy it and after those 4 years in high school of constant work and stress and losing my entire mind maybe i actually deserve it 🥲 so um yeah..sjdkajd

💌 And what are you most looking forward to in 2021? 💌

a lot ☺ everything honestly...wow omg that's so weird asjakjd ahhh 😭😭💘 [insert that paul rudd who would have thought not me meme] but i wanna do sm much!! bake and cook and learn to knit! and personalize my clothes and READ! and watch movies and shows! and i'll also be going back to school so i rlllllllllyyyyyyyy want to learn how to manage my time bc my procrastination truly fucked me in the ass in hs 🤡 but yeah im excited ahh! ☺

And We're Done!

oof my memory is so awful i feel like i can't remember anything that happened in 2020 🤡 this ended up being a bit long 💀 so if u made it to the end...thank u for reading...ily 😚💌 besitos for you! 💞

tagging these cuties 💘: @moonlattae @fluorescente @glossierjoon @ardores @star99 @jooniephoria @ahearthrob @catboyjm @yoongidisease @violetmoonlits @koyan @stardustyoongi @7blueside @m1amor @sobsyub @m8nstruck @souheii @1okyos @virgomoon @alevchaan @jihyoist

[love101imagines]

Way too much

request: could u pls write a imagine with Sinan,I was thinking about him and you being the best childhood friends, but they ended up getting away a lot, so some teacher spends a double job and chooses them to do it together, so they spend a lot of time together and discover that they still like each other

tag list: @zaynlikfalls @wwafangirld @girl-looking-out-window

If you asked Sinan if he had ever been happy he wouldn't answer. However, his mind would go back to the time when he was six and he used to spend every hour with his best friend, meeting you since you two lived in the same neighborhood and we’re the same age. You, the girl he used to play around on the park under his grandpa's care, the same one he used to watch cartoons with until you two fell asleep on his couch, and the one he used to play wrestle until one of you ended up with an accidental bloody nose or a broken tooth.

You were also each other's first kiss, the result of a dare when you two were nine and you wanted to know what it felt like after you watched a romantic movie.

Everything changed when you turned twelve when it was one of those nights your parents were out and you two would stay up late watching horror movies. With a blanket covering most of your face and eyes glued to the TV, you didn't notice how Sinan was looking at you.

When a jumpscare happened and you yelped, immediately grabbing his hand, he blushed slightly, finally realizing he was in love with you. And it terrified him. Even more than the old movie you were watching on the couch in your living room.

He felt his heart breaking when a few days later you arrived at his house on the verge of tears because your dad had received an offer for a better job in Ankara and you would be moving in some weeks. The only thing he could do was hug you, trying to calm you down as you continued crying into his shoulder.

That had to be one of the many disappointments he would face during his life, but he slowly got used to it, expecting people to always leave him, just like you did.

"You're staring." Eda pointed out, a smirk on her face as she leaned against the wall behind her. "Who are you looking at?"

Sinan gulped, back to reality before he looked away. "No one." He snapped in an annoyed tone.

Eda rolled her eyes, letting out an exasperated sigh as she went back to the drawing on the wall. He mentally cursed himself as he looked back at the group of girls standing nearby, no sign of the girl who had been his best friend for almost seven years. His mind had to be playing games on him, probably from drinking too many that day. There was no way you were at school, he must have seen someone similar.

He didn't have much time to think about it, focusing on the ticket Osman was handing to him for a concert.

"I'm off to the infirmary to sleep." He announced, already feeling a migraine he didn't have any intention of increasing.

Taking slow steps, he walked away from the group. The ticket was in his shirt's pocket, and he only had one thing in mind as he walked through the halls. To stop the feeling on the pit of his stomach after thinking about you in months and to sleep.

"Sinan!"

He didn't even get a chance to fully turn around before you crashed into him, standing on your tiptoes so you could wrap your arms around his neck. He didn't recognize you for a second, believing someone was about to punch him when he heard his name being called but he didn't even have time to flinch.

It was only a second though before his eyes widened and he wrapped his arms around your waist, finding comfort in the fact that nobody else was around and you two were the only ones standing next to the infirmary's door. Feeling you hug him again definitely was one of the best feelings in the world.

"(Y/N)?" He asked, chills running up his spine at the feeling of your skin against his.

You pulled away after a few seconds, even if you were sure the whole hug lasted for at least two minutes until he let you go. "The one and only." You teased.

You took a minute to get a good look at him, your hand still lingering on his shoulder. He looked...well, you didn't care about the bags under his eyes or the fact that his breath smelled of alcohol, the only thing that mattered was that you were with him again.

Sinan looked at you up and down too. Your hair was a bit shorter, not in your usual braids that you used to wear all the time. Your cheeks weren't as chubby as before and your legs weren't as skinny, and the small scar on your upper lip was faded almost completely, just like the one on the bridge of his nose.

But still, you were beautiful. That was undeniable.

You gave him a toothy grin, the same one you used to have all the time when you were kids. "It's so good to finally see you again. I missed you so much."

He nodded, a soft smile on his face as he looked at you, any thought about the migraine already gone. "When did you come back?"

As you started your rant about your father finding another job offer here in Istanbul and coming back a week ago, his mind couldn't help but drift off that you hadn't seen each other in years and many things had happened in between. His parents had abandoned him, he had turned into an alcoholic and he was about to be expelled. You, on the other hand, didn't know any of this, and he was sure you would look at him in disgust once you found out he wasn't the same twelve-year-old you had trusted with your whole life before.

He didn't even notice Osman calling him to meet when the rest until you tugged in his arm.

"What?" He asked emotionless turning to the taller boy.

Osman didn't seem to care, already used to his attitude. "Eda convinced Miss Burcu, we need to find a way to convince Coach Kemal."

Convincing Coach Kemal couldn't matter less to him, glancing at you because he wanted to take advantage of the fact that you still believed that he was the sweet boy who you had grew up with. It wouldn’t last for long, but he wanted to at least enjoy that time until you were disappointed.

You only gave him a reassuring smile. "Go on, I have to fix some things about my schedule but I'll see you later. We have a lot of catching up to do."

A bit less unsure than before, he nodded, giving you one last smile that lasted a second before he left, his heart pounding with so much force he didn't know how the rest couldn't feel it.

While Kerem was busy talking to their teacher, it didn't take much for him to run into you again, sharing your same classes. Even if most of the time he slept through Chemistry class without anyone bothering him, his brows furrowed as soon as he heard someone sitting next to him.

You only chuckled after waking the boy up, Sinan's face softening immediately. "Um, rough day?" You asked, not sure of what to say once you noticed the flask near his bag.

He shrugged, slowly leaving it inside his bag and taking out a notebook, trying to show that he cared about school even if he truly didn't anymore. Nevertheless, your bubbly attitude surely did something to him. It was like you two had never been separated before while the rest of your new classmates didn't understand why the new girl was hanging out with him, the depressed boy who mocked everyone.

It was to his luck that your teacher chose you two to work together on an assignment. Of course, you were happy, thinking you could make up for all the lost time and he allowed himself to feel happy too, even if he knew he'd fuck it up like he always did.

"So?" You started the next day as you two walked towards your home.

He raised a brow at you, his hands fumbling with the hem of his shirt. "So what?"

You rolled your eyes in a teasing way. "I want to know everything that happened since I left. My parents didn't tell me anything because they're busy with their new jobs and we haven't had time to talk. How are your parents?" You added, mindlessly looking at the colorful neighborhood you were walking past.

It was a loaded question and Sinan thought for a moment, waiting for you to find your keys in your bag. "They got divorced."

You almost dropped your keys in surprise, not knowing what to say like when you found him with his flask. "Oh." You mumbled, awkwardly opening the door for both of you. "I'm really sorry, I didn't know."

"It's fine." He brushed it off, not wanting things to change and be more awkward. "I've been living with my grandpa since I turned fourteen." He explained as he followed after you, taking off his shoes just like you were doing.

"How is he?" You asked with a smile, with a better mood knowing that the older man who used to take care of you two when you were younger was still alive.

"You know him, he doesn't die." He said, earning a slap to his arm.

You two ended up sitting on the floor of your room, a few books next to you, and a music cassette in the background. It felt like when you were seven, and he would trace out different pictures and you would giggle and try to bump his hand out of the way to color it in.

"What was Ankara like?" He asked as he turned the pages trying to look for something.

You continued highlighting a few phrases sitting in front of him. “Um, nice I think. I met a lot of people, went to a few parties, the school was pretty good.”

He glanced at you, absentmindedly doodling on his notebook. “Did you have fun in the city?” He asked sarcastically.

You punched his arm in a teasing way. “Yeah, but there wasn’t anyone like you.”

You only received a small smile before you sighed and moved over to sit next to him, knowing that he didn’t take notes and this was the most he had done in months.

“I have a question for you.” You told him.

“Go ahead.” He answered, still calm which was weird.

If someone else had asked him something personal he wouldn’t have answered or he would have given a sarcastic answer, but you were the one who was asking him. He could never snap at you.

You grinned at him. “How much did you miss me?”

He sighed, turning to look at you with a small sparkle on his eyes. “Way too much.”

It was in that moment with your smile that a small glimmer of hope built inside of him. It didn’t seem to bother you that he slept through most lessons, or that he showed up at school with messy hair and his tie undone, or that he always had his flask close to him. He hadn’t even taken a sip since you approached him that day so you two could go to your house.

“I tried to write to you.” He started, eyes directed to the floor so he didn’t have to meet your eyes. “My mum gave me your new address but...I always ended up crumpling them up and throwing them away.”

When you left, he used to write a letter every day, always trying to find the right words to express how much he missed you and to express his true feelings whenever he thought about you. It helped a bit to pour out all the feelings he didn’t know how to tell you in person, but out of fear of rejection or of ruining what was left of the two of you he never sent them, destroying them completely.

You furrowed your brows confused. “Why?”

A few seconds passed, your music being the only sound in the room.

You bit the inside of your cheek, fumbling with the hem of your skirt, knowing that things had changed between the two of you. “Sinan, it’s fine, I know that it’s been years since we...”

“Are you going to leave again?” He interrupted you, a hint of anger on his voice.

“What?” You blurted out.

“You left once, it wouldn’t surprise me if you did again.” He continued, a scowl on his face.

You crossed your arms, trying to act firm in front of him. “Are you serious? We were twelve, I didn’t have any choice and you know that.”

You stayed like that for a while, no trace of a smile on your face and a hard look on his until he gave up.

“I’m sorry.” He mumbled. “It’s just, I...I don’t want to lose you again.” He admitted, vulnerability palpable on his voice.

You found yourself wrapping your arms around his shoulders again, hugging him for the second time in the same week. He didn’t seem to mind, his arms holding you by your waist and keeping you close to him.

“I won’t leave.” You added softly. “I promise.”

You tried to pull back to look at him, but it was to no avail, his grip on your waist tightening with each passing second. “Sinan.” You muttered, your hands finding his.

He was painfully aware of how close you are to him. It was like a deja vu from when you kissed for the first time, and with your eyes fixed on him, you didn’t even notice that one of his hands that was on your waist moved to the back of your neck until he was kissing you.

After you closed your eyes, you smiled against his lips. The kiss was slow, and you left your hands on his neck, bringing him closer. He didn’t pull away until you finally did for air, placing your forehead against his shoulder with your eyes closed, feeling your heart beat in your ears.

You weren’t seven anymore, you were now teens who could admit why you felt so comfortable around each other, or why one of the bests things of your day was to talk to him.

“About time.” You mumbled with a smirk, and he thought the same.

About fucking time.

[fydream]

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a/n: hi yes! another differently formatted chapter! word count is 2.2k, so it’s not that long. also this semi-proof read sorry (meaning i did proof reading and editing while writing it but i didnt give it one last over view.. again, sorry) hope u like it! :D 

You sigh as you swing your legs back and forth from the countertop you were sitting on. Currently, you, Renjun, Chenle, and Jeno were all at Hyuck's house hanging out. Your sigh catches the attention of Renjun which prompts him to ask "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." You say, trying to brush it off.

He furrows his eyebrows. "It's not nothing. If it's bothering you this much why don't we talk about it?"

You pout at him, hoping he'll pick up a sign that you don't want to, but still he insists that you tell him what's wrong.

"Well.." You mumble. "Jisung said he wanted to talk to me tonight.."

"Sorry, what?" Renjun asks. "I didn't hear you."

"Jisung said.. he wanted to meet up to explain everything." You say, a little louder this time.

"Jisung what?!" Renjun exclaims, getting the attention of everyone else in the room.

You sigh in defeat as you watch Jeno tense at the name of his ex-friend.

"What's this about Jisung?" Jeno asks.

"Nothing." You mumble, trying to find something else to talk about.

"No no, it's okay. I won't be upset." Jeno reassures. "What about Jisung?"

"He wanted to clear up a few things with me." You answer, glancing at the clock propped up on Hyuck's kitchen wall.

Donghyuck seems to notice how fast your eyes move and asks "Tonight?"

"Yeah. In like an hour or so actually." You confirm.

"Are you sure you want to go?" Renjun asks you.

"Well.. yeah. I kinda want an explanation."

"Are you sure?" Chenle asks. "Like, one hundred percent sure?"

"Yeah?" You nod, confused on why they seemed so concerned with you meeting up with Jisung again.

"Why?" He asks.

"I literally just told you why." You answer, annoyance prominent in your voice.

"Okay." Chenle says, backing off, hands raised in defense.

"Do you, uh, need a ride?" Donghyuck asks, hoping to clear the air a bit.

"Yeah, sure." You agree, hopping off the kitchen counter. It takes him back a little, he wasn't expecting that kind of response, especially that quickly.

"Oh, uhh, now?" He asks as he watches walk towards his hallway.

"Uh, yeah?" You say as he looks at his two friends and his boyfriend confusingly. They shrug in response. You can hear Chenle say "Hey man, you offered to drive. Not us."

You pause in between the end of the hallway and the entrance to the kitchen to watch the four boys start to quarrel.

"Jeno, you'll come with me, right?" Donghyuck asks and Jeno shoots him a look.

"Are you insane?" Jeno responds. "I don't wanna talk to him."

"You're not going to talk to him. Y/n is."

"Okay, then I don't want to see him."

"Fine." Donghyuck scoffs, before turning his head to look at Renjun and Chenle who were already saying no.

"What are you gonna do?" He asks them.

"We're gonna watch your house. Duh." Chenle responds.

"Actually. They're gonna watch your house." Renjun corrects, pointing at Jeno and Chenle. "I'm going to watch Chenle."

"Whaaat!! That's not fair!" He protests.

"I trust Jeno more than you." Renjun retorts back.

Donghyuck sighs in defeat. "Fine. Just don't do anything stupid." He says, turning to walk towards you and you can see the three boys cheer behind him. It causes you to giggle, and Donghyuck is just happy you're happy.

Once out of his house and into his car he asks you where you're going. You tell him not to worry and that you'll just give him the directions on how to get there. It only worries him more.

"I dunno y/n. It seems kinda sketch."

"Listen I know you don't trust the guy, but you trust me, right?" You ask.

"Yeah.."

"Then trust me, that it'll be okay."

"Okay." He sighs. "You lead the way."

"Are you sure you don't want me to stay?" Donghyuck asks as you step out of the passenger seat to his car.

"Yeah. I'm sure." You sigh.

"Okay.. Just. Call me if you need me. I'll be nearby, okay?"

"I'll be fine, Hyuck. Don't worry."

"Whatever you say.." He mumbles before rolling up his window and driving away.

Walking to the only other human like figure around you, you start to wonder if Jisung is really worth your time. Sure you missed the time you spent together, all the hours in the library studying and having stupid debates over the simplest things like, the best ice cream flavor, or how to write the number eight. Yeah you missed it, but was it really worth going back to? You could do these with anyone, even the new friends you've made so far this year. But for some reason, it was different with Jisung.

Maybe it's because you did like him. Or maybe it's because he was really different from your other friends. Yes you love Hyuck, and Renjun, and Chenle to death but it was nice having someone else to talk to, someone who didn't know everything about you, someone you could make different memories with.

"You came.." He says. It's not loud, but it's not quiet either. It's enough to snap you out of your thoughts though.

"Yeah." You nod. "I wanna know.. the truth. And only the truth."

"Do you promise to believe me?" He asks.

You don't respond for a second, you just stare at him with a blank face. You can tell that his eyes are shaky and you can't tell if he's about to cry or not.

"I don't want to make a promise I can't keep."

Needless to say, you could practically feel Jisung's heart shatter.

"Okay." He nods. "Where do you want me to start?"

"I don't know? The beginning?"

"Oh.. Right." He mumbles. "Well um.. You- You see.. It started like- uhm- like."

"So are you gonna tell me or are you just going to keep stalling?"

"Uhh."

"I mean. I can wait, I do have all night for your information." You spit, crossing your arms. "Do you? Or do you have another date planned after this? Y'know, one where you lied to another other girl too?"

"I- What? I don't have another 'date' after this.." He defends. "I've.. I've been alone for the past month and a half.. What are you talking about?"

"So I've heard."

"Look." Jisung sighs, you notice that he looks tired. "I don't wanna fight. Can we just start over?"

"Okay Park Jisung, we can do whatever you want." You scoff. "Hi! I'm y/n l/n, I came to have a conversation. Are we going to have one, or not?"

"You want me to start at the beginning?" He yells. "Fine then! I'll start at the beginning. I'll tell you whatever the fuck you wanna hear!"

"It's true! In the beginning of the school year I was bored and was looking for someone to date. But then I met you! And you were different!"

"Oh yeah? Well I bet you tell that to every girl you meet!" You yell back at him.

Ignoring what you said, Jisung decides to continue. "For some reason something clicked with you. I don't know what it was and I don't remember when, but something just clicked. You really were different. I started enjoying your company a lot more and everything just felt right.. around you."

"This is bullshit." You mumble before turning to walk away. Part of you didn't want to leave because you knew what he was talking about, something clicking. The other part of you decided that this was probably all a lie. "If he's lied to me before he'll do it again." You think trying to convince yourself to leave.

"I'm sorry, Jisung." You sigh. "I really want to believe you, trust me, I do. But you've told me things before.. and you lied to me about them. So who's to say that you aren't lying to me right now?"

There's no response. He just looks at you and you can see the small bits of hope leave his eyes. "Okay." You sigh with a nod before turning to leave. You get pretty far away when you hear him yell your name in attempt to get you to stop walking away from him. "Before you go.. can I please just tell you something?"

You let out a tired sigh. "What is it?"

"You don't have to believe me." He starts. "But you remember that night we spent together? The one right here? In this exact spot?"

You nod. "You mean the night that you lied to me?"

Your words sting, but he decides to continue anyways, trying his best to not show how much that hurt him.

"I meant everything I said that night.. All those words I said were true y'know.." He whispers. "I miss you."

"I miss seeing how your eyes lit up.. And I miss seeing your smile.. I still see it every now and then, but it's not directed at me and it just hurts. I miss our silly disagreements and how we'd drag them on for what felt like ages. I miss driving you home because even though they were silent drives I felt safe and comfortable with you there. It didn't have to be loud like when I drove around with my other friends. I miss the little dates we went on, and ye-yes you'll never hear me say it again but they were all dates. I miss that day at the mall.. before everything went down. Do you remember?" He asks.

You nod again. This time it's smaller and more subtle.

"Y'know.. That's the day I started realizing I liked you." He admits.

Closing your eyes you whisper, "Stop talking."

But he doesn't listen. He just continues.

"You were playing some dumb game.. I don't remember if it was a claw machine or ski ball but it was something.. You were so focused. You even stuck your tongue out a little.. you got so into it."

"Stop talking." You say again, louder this time.

"You looked so pretty.." He sighs. "And you were so excited when we raised enough tickets to get a bag of candy for ourselves. They kicked us out because we sat on the air hockey table, remember? I don't know if they'll ever let us back in there, but it was fun while it lasted." He laughs.

"I said stop talking!" You practically yell, turning to face towards him.

"Why?" He asks, giving you a sad look.

"Because I don't want to remember that day." You sigh.

"Why?" He asks again.

"I don't wanna say why."

He takes a step closer to you. "You can tell me anything."

You sigh in defeat.

"Did you feel it too?" You ask him and he nods.

"So you know?"

"I do."

"Then why do I have to say it?" You ask.

"Because if you say it, then it's like you're accepting the truth."

"I don't like how you know what I feel." You mumble to yourself as he takes another step closer.

"What if I don't.. say it?" You ask.

"Then just give me a sign." He says.

"Do you miss me?" He asks. By this point the sun has gone done, and if weren't only you two here you probably wouldn't have heard him.

You nod. "I do."

"Are you mad at me?" He asks.

You nod again. "I am."

"That's okay." He says. "I understand."

This time, you take a step back.

"Do you wanna be mad at me?"

Instead of responding this time, you ask, "Why do you get to ask all of the questions?"

"I never said you couldn't ask any." He says while you shoot him a glare.

"Okay then." You start, deciding you were going to play this little game with him. Taking a step forward you ask, "Why did you choose me?"

He shrugs. "I dunno. You were new."

You scoff at his response. "Predictable."

Thinking of a better question to ask him, you say, "How can I believe you?"

"You can't." He responds. "You just have to trust me. Do you trust me?"

"I do."

He nods.

"Okay."

"Do you trust me?" You ask him, breaking the pattern you two have created.

"I do." He says, echoing your answer.

You nod.

"Okay."

"So.. What now?" He asks.

"What do you mean?"

"What do we do now?"

"Ah." You sigh. "That's what you meant."

"Well.. Yeah." He says. "I don't know if you know this but.. this is the closet we've been ever since.. what happened. Yet it's still the furthest we are from each other."

"Can you just shut up, for once?" You ask, voice playful in tone.

Jisung hears it and he gives you a small smile, liking the sudden change in atmosphere. "I dunno.. Will I?" He jokes.

"You're silly." You say, while a smile starts to form shortly after.

"..Can we start over?" He asks, and you can tell he's being serious.

He looks scared. Nothing like the same boy who you saw just a second ago, the one who was starting to be comfortable with you again.

"I'd understand if you didn't want to. Or if you don't want anything to do with me anymore after this. I just thought.. it'd be the right thing to ask."

"Do you promise not to break my heart?" You ask.

"Only if you promise not to break mine." He responds with a smile.

"No promises." You say, grabbing his hand and interlocking it with yours.

"Hey!" He exclaims. "You can't do that!"

"Yes I can. I just did."

"I'll take this as a yes then?" He asks, a giggle following afterwards.

"Yeah. You can take this as a yes."

✰ how to be a heartbreaker

↳ so what happens when park jisung, the school’s infamous fuckboy runs into the new girl at school? out of boredom he decides it’ll be fun to have someone new to play with, but little does he know, she’s learning how to be a heartbreaker.

[stingykei]

Kenma Kozume x Reader Oneshot : I'll take care of u

Genre: Fluff; maybe smutty?;

Warning: A bit of cursing and a spoil from the movie A whisker away

Things didn't really end well with Suna. After that drama, you guys were together for 5 months then decided to break it off as it wasn't really well with him. It has been a year then, and you've already moved on. You knew that your relationship won't last long enough. You lived on with your life, you still hangout with Kuroo and Kenma. You've gained some friends from other school during their Summer Camp too. Life was better is what you thought.

Lately you've been noticing so much about a certain someone and you're bothered because it's you bestfriend, Kenma.

Kenma is a good friend. He was always there when you need him wothout fail. Even when he's playing, if you ask for help he will help you. You started to appreciate these little by little. Sometimes whe. you're watching them practice, you will notice little things he have or does.

'He was very thin before, what happened now?' You thought. You will slap yourself with this, cause that's stupid Y/N! He's your friend! Stop!

'Kenma smells minty despite him being really sweaty. hmmm.'

'Kenma has really big hands though.'

'Kenma is very lazy when he's home but damn, look at those thighs'

You wanna slap yourself for these thoughts. 'Y/N no, you'll ruin everything! Stop, you guys are friends okay?'

Then one day, you decided to hang out with Kenma in his place.

You knocked on his door. "Kenma, I'm here." No one answered, you tried opening the door which surprisingly opened. 'Wow it's op..en?'

Why is it open? Why isn't Kenma answering? What's going on. Did some stranger kidnap Kenma? What the... then I SHOULD SAVE HIM! HE CAN'T PROTECT HIMSELF! you're probably misunderstanding something but whatever, go on.

You picked up a rock outside, slowly going inside his house. Your knees were trembling and your heart was pounding so fast. 'Kenma?' You whisper shouted. You went to his room there was no one there. You looked under his bed, and everywhere else where you could hide a body. Then the bathroom door opened.

"KYAAAAA!" You shouted at the top of your lungs then someone covered your mouth.

"H-hey Y/N! what are you shouting for!" You opened your eyes from this familiar voice. It was Kenma.

"Kenma! I thought you were kidnapped!" You hugged him. Kenma was confused but whatever. He patted your back " Uhm.. everything's alright though? Why'd you thought of that?"

You broke the hugged, "Well your door wasn't locked and you didn't answer so I thought someone was inside your house So I came here and look for you then you were just he..re.. taking a bath.. without a shirt on?" That's when it dawned you.

You turned your back on him. "I-I'm sorry! I didn't know! I didn't see anything." You know your face was red. You've seen Kenma with his sweaters and boxers a lot before but because of everything that's been going on in your head, you were embarrassed. There stand a shirtless Kenma with only towel in his lower part of the body.

Kenma felt embarrassed too. "I-I'm sorry! I heard someone rummaging my things so I unconsciously– *sighs* I'm sorry, I'll change for a bit." You heard him getting clothes, and a minute later. "I'm done. Sorry Y/N." You still didn't look back.

"It's fine you don't need to apologize!" You closed your eyes shut. You felt stupid for the sudden raise of your voice.

"Are you angry?" Kenma asked touching your shoulders. You yank his hand, "No I'm not!"

You were shocked with your action. Then you looked at Kenma. He looked shocked too. "Kenma! I'm sorry. It's just.. I did it on impulse. I don't hate you."

"It's fine, I understand."Kenma said with a gentle smile. He went to the kitchen for food. You just stood there thinking, embarrassed mostly.

'What am I doing! That was stupid! Why did I do that, oh my. Why? Why is my heart beating so fast? Do I like Kenma? No! We're friends, if I let my feelings get the best of me. It'll ruin everything!"

Kenma came back with all of the foods you wanted. He set it on the table, you two decided to watch an animated movie entitled "A Whisker Away." You two got immersed in the movie. Especially in the part where the girl confessed her feelings.

'If you do that, right here. Kenma would hate me too. It'll ruin our good relationship as friends. I don't want that.'

The movie came to a good ending leaving you a smile on your face, 'oh how I wish all confessions result to that. Should I become a cat? Well, Kenma looks like a cat. Kenma's probably a cat.'

"Kenma are you a ca–" You looked at your side then stopped on your sentence when you've seen Kenma looking at you.

You stayed like that for a whole minute. You didn't notice he was closer to you. "Y/N.." Kenma called out softly. You only answered a hum when he caressed your cheeks then gave you a kiss. You were surprised but you kissed back, holding his soft face. Then he broke it.

"Y/N I like you." He said looking in your eyes still caressing your face. Your heart was beating so fast. You don't know how to answer that, you were happy.

You smiled and replied. "I like you too, I like you. Kenma." With that, Kenma gave you another kiss, a long one at that then he smiled during the kiss.

"I'll take care of you and yes, I'm a cat." He looked at you with that 'seductive look'. You giggled. "Silly."

Something happened that night. Y'all know what. It's something dirty 🙊.

You woke up in Kenma's bed, naked. Kenma's arms was wrapped around your body. Then you remembered what happened last night, hotness creeped in your cheeks as you remembered how you lewdly called out his name. 'I didn't know Kenma was big down there. I always thought he's average. He was very skinny.'

When Kenma woke up with a boner, you two did it again for goodness sake. You two showered together, eaten you breakfast together. You later on discovered that Kenma liked you for a very long time. Ever since you and Suna were together. He told you he'd take good care of you and you knkw he is not bluffing.

He was always there in the happiest times, times where you are down and sad. So you don't have an inch of doubt in every word he said.

Kenma was also, very needy. You were surprised. There was a lot of things you discovered about him. You are happy, you couldn't wish for more.

+++

I'm sorry, I don't know how to write sex scenes 😭🙊. Also, I've attached Suna's love story above. You can read it there if you're wondering what happened. Click on the 'Suna' word I've mentioned in the story.

ps. There's probably a lot of typos and grammatocal errors there, so I apologize.

[mrs-mikko-rantanen]

Uhm, my day was decent? I mean aside from the fact that mornings exist and I did not want to wake up in time for my shift at work. But. And the end of the day when I have literal hours to do stuff after.. it works out cuz. Usually I get off and its oh shit I have enough time to halfway emotionally recharge and then its time for bed.

But. I got in and E^2 had put like. My name down on the schedule, and. That was great really. And we had this sheet for sign up of, basically what areas you want to be personally responsible for. And I signed light and it was great. And I dont think anyone really noticed cuz the manager wasn't there and no one else really looked at the schedule or anything else. But. It made me happy.

Still haven't gotten my name tag changed and honestly I dont think I'm going to. Cuz. I feel like I'm just being a bother asking again. But. It is what it is I guess.

I got off at five and its now nine and ive just been vibing in the car listening and singing to Spotify since I got off just trying to keep the sad at bay. And I should probably go home but. I dont want to. Cuz I know I'm just gonna wallow in the sad and self destructive tendencies if i go home.. If I ask nicely will the fae take me in as one of their own and I can become a cryptid in the woods?????

I have a three day weekend coming up and im considering doing a touch up on my hair since its really washed out. But I cant decide if I wanna keep it fully red or try and do like an ombre double tone thingy.. but I'm not sure what other color I'd try to do to the tips? Idk

I kinda wish my hair was longer so I could do like. The galaxy hair thing? Where its various shades of purple and blue and some pink and it looks different depending on how you style it. But I also know attempting to grow my hair out longer than I already plan to is a bad idea, cuz the sides and back are already getting too long and I hate it. But I wish I could do fun stuff with it too

Oh well. The duality of man i guess..

Uhm. I bought a giant plastic egg the other day, that reminds me of a dragons egg kinda. And I'm trying to decide if I should keep a hoard of dice in there or a hoard of crystals. Cuz. Dice and the clacky math rocks. But. Also shiny crystally gems

Speaking of dice I also really kinda want to try and get into a dnd group, but social anxiety and I have zero idea where to start with that so. That's fun.

Im currently resisting the urge to go and get more holes and metal in my head too. I just. The red hair makes me feel cool and powerful and I wanna look punk and

Sorry I've been rambling for like half a novel. I'll stop now before I get annoying. I mean I definitely already am. But you asked for asks and distractions and 👉👈 I love you

Id ask about your day but you seem to want a distraction from that sooo. How about, got any fun headcanons to share??

Thats awesome on the name front!!! I saw that and I got really excited for you when you posted the picture this morning, honestly I think you should bring up the nametag again, esspecially if its showing up on the schedule too. (Oddly enough I kicked around the idea of using a new name with friends and sruff today which is weird mostly bc like i like my name irl, its fairly androgynous and it makes me happy and i love my online name bc it means me :))

My vote is two tone!! I almost did a pink/purple ombre with my hair this round so I say do ittttt (that's also what I say about the extra holes and metal. Do itttttrrr)

That would be a hard choice but u do really like the idea of a giant dragons egg full of dice ngl. I need to find some people to play with too. I'm trying to get b and c in on something but idk if its ever really gonna pan out the way I want it too. My town actually has a pretty active dnd community but I am way too new and way too socially anxious to ever join something like that so I feel you there.

100% not annoying, each paragraph made me smile more. :)

My day was actually mostly ok, i just sorta ruined it with Danny at home. I just pointed out that the idealized dream band life that I wanted and thought I had was what she got and that it made me kinda jealous and she pointed out (correctly) that I'm jealous of so many aspects of her life that she now has a list of things she can't talk to me about for fear of setting me into a spiral and just. Yeah. That wasnt fun.

But work was ok. The kids all were really tierd so there was a fair bit of crying going on, but the weather was really nice so we got to go outside with them for a long time and that was very nice. I also got some really sweet cuddles from a few of them that made me very happy.

Oh! I also have a funny story about them!! So I was squatting (my main position is almost like Spiderman bc I'm down on the kids' level but i can also get up and move if I need to pretty quick) and one of the girls goes and gets a book, then stands right in front of me and points at the floor and says "sit" in the most authoritative voice I have ever hear from a 1 1/2 year old 😂 as soon as I sat down she was in my lap and opening the book so I could read to her.

As far as headcanons.... Sadly my brain is bouncimg mostly art ideas for the Tamgled au and not anything of substance so I may take a crack at that later. Otherwise I keep thinking about whumped up Will crying on the floor and Maurie finding him. Really I'm just thinking about Maurie and Will being bros. A lot. So much. God I love them.