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toujoursmiraculous · 3 years ago

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THOUGHTS AND REACTION TO RISK!

I didn't do one for Psychomedian and I'm sorry. Dx I had things come up so I just didn't get around to it. But hopefully I make it up to you with this one! Woo all the heroes, love them! BUT YES HERE IT IS MY LADYNOIR MOMENT "Can I come with you?" sounding all sweet and vulnerable oh no 😭 "I know, I know. Only the guardian knows the identities of the Miraculous holders. And Cat Noir, despite being the first and most amazing team member of all, is now just a holder like any other." "Yep, but you'll always be my favorite. 😘 BYEEE!" I LOVE IT 😭 Like usual people are probably mad. But she's not wrong really, is she? She's the Guardian, everyone else is just kind of... below that. Including him. They can't just be partners anymore, not with her new role and the need for so many more. And we know the reason he doesn't get let in on everything. Everyone gets mad, but whenever he's found out about her and gets involved more, terrible things happen. She knows that. So she keeps him at a distance. So if you want to get mad, get mad at Gabriel for doing this to them. Also I SEE YOU RUNNING AWAY GIRLY AFTER YOUR CUTE "BYEEE". AS IF YOU DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM, PFFFFFT.

Ladybug goes to Kim first to collect the Miraculous because he's the least to be trusted for long with free time. Change my mind. But really I adore him xDD "I AM NOT. WORTHY. OF OUR LOVE!" dang Gabriel, don't make me feel for you please. But Keith Silverstein did such a good job there ahhhh! Sadness & crying to anger to laughing maniacally in a short span... you ok? You're getting even more unhinged. Okay the ANIMATION is so PRETTY "Hide your froggy toy well" welp. "I'm gonna hide it where she'll never find it." Wow... that's really not good. 😅 Yeah Shadow Moth's getting scary... ADRIEN IN PAJAMAS AGAIN WOO!! Seriously he needs better regular clothes. We shouldn't be this excited for PJs. DO BETTER GABRIEL, YOU'RE A FASHION DESIGNER. "But first and foremost the breakfast for two my father's been promising for months!" "Umm, about that..." Just crush his hopes. He hasn't had a meal with his dad for MONTHS and he still couldn't. He burst in there mad xD But then it washed away the moment his father told him not now. "A girl...a boy... they search for each other all over the world before finally meeting in Paris, on top of the Eiffel Tower." In this context with Lila and Gabriel being the one to say it....GAG. Also why do I get the feeling that this could be Marinette and Adrien's future someday? 😥I don't know why I thought about it, but now I can't get it out of my head. When the reason your father's sending you on a trip around the world is so that he can totally destroy Paris without you being in any danger. SMH. "Using CG they will meld together to become the perfume bottle. 2 souls, one mind, one heart. First Love the Fragrance" again GAG.

He's absolutely miserable.

Friends, see the news report: Oh yay Adrien gets to go travel around the world with Lila, it's going to be so great, I'm happy for him! His father never lets him leave the house so I'm sure he loves this! WHILE TOTALLY IGNORING NOW SAD HE LOOKS Hahaha Lila representing true love hahahah well that's a joke "I think above all that it was my sincerity that touched his heart."

Same girl, same. It's been my reaction since Lila appeared on the screen, really. "Adrien doesn't look happy, and I feel like I'm the only one who sees it!" "You can see it because you love him, Marinette." That is very true. I honestly can't believe nobody else (in his class, at his school) sees it. How does Lila function with all those lies? How does she actually get away with it? For real, it's insane. Marinette needs to talk to Adrien, but because of this he gets distracted (tbh he probably would be distracted with his thoughts anyway) and Nino pummels him with a ball. Alya's reaction to him flying backwards and falling on the ground 😂 TO THE DUNGEON, ADRIEN!! Oh hey, someone send Marinette there too so she can- Oh. Oh Alya was on the same page as me. Sweet! "Are you really leaving for several months?" "It's what my father's decided :c" AND RISK INCOMING "If only you knew how sick I am of all of it. The photos, the film shoots, all these people fawning over me who don't even know me! These ads that don't make any sense...And now I'm expected to just leave my friends and travel to the end of the world for I don't know how long, with LILA?!" YES you finally said it! I know it's because of Risk but I'm still so proud of you 😭😭😭 Also she knows all of it now! She knew he wasn't happy at all, but now she knows why! She knows he hates what he has to do, hates how his father makes him, really does not like Lila at all! "Why don't you tell them all that you don't want to do this?" "No one would understand my complaining. They all think it's amazing what's happening to me :(" "I understand you." "Well, you're the only one...c: *holds her hand* ADRIEN. THAT TONE. THAT SMILE. THAT HAND HOLDING. THIS ISN'T WHAT FRIENDS DO I know you know that that is not what friends do so I'm seriously looking forward with what he's going to do in the future. 👀 LILA SIT BACK DOWN!! Adrien smiled for all of 8 seconds before it got washed away again. :/ "Has there ever been something you've wanted to tell someone, but just couldn't do it? As if some kind of invisible force was holding you back?" Yes. Like her feelings for you and the fact that she as Ladybug can't tell you as Chat Noir who she is because the world always ends up ending when she does. I love how Adrien turns to face her like, "Go on Marinette, I want to hear about what you want to say that you're never able to." AHHHHH such a sweetie. x3 LILA. I HATED YOU BEFORE BUT I HATE YOU A THOUSAND TIMES MORE NOW, HOW DARE YOU?! I'VE WAITED 5 AND A HALF YEARS FOR THAT LEVEL OF COMFORT AND COMMUNICATION BETWEEN THEM SHHHHH "You so richly deserve to finally see the beauty of this world!" OKAY I had no idea Mr. D'Argencourt was so caring and sweet towards Adrien but I'm loving this so much 😭😭😭 He knows how bad Adrien's life is that he feels he deserves the world. I'm crying. "I'm going to miss you all so much! *looks at Marinette with a grin*" BOOOOOOY I see Adrienette serious progress on the horizon and I am HERE FOR IT. Marinette was seriously about to tell him again and Chloe just has to come and ruin things again! But here's the thing, it's like the Bubbler when she pushed her out of the way. Only last time, he just walked off while she was on the ground. This time he's like, gasp you pushed her?? Then was like sure Chloe, now out of the way, I need to see what's up with Marinette. and he actually ASKS if everything's okay and his bodyguard won't even let him do that like DUDE please give the boy a minute, would you?? He kept his eyes on her whenever he could too awww Nino, Alya, Rose, and Kim need to chill. I'm sorry, I love them, but good grief. Nino being all, how dare you want to keep Adrien from an opportunity to leave his house, Marinette. He told you himself? You must be wrong, because I'm his best friend and he'd tell me. Alya and her, you're doing this because of Lila aren't you? GIRL you're talking to Ladybug here, Ladybug who caught her lies first thing. Ladybug that Lila hates with a passion. And that Adrien can't stand either for that matter. You'd

think that'd say something, but no. And then Rose's "If you love someone you have to let them go." okay but what if that person doesn't want to go? Should they still be forced to go, should the person that loves them just sit back and go "Oh well, everyone else thinks you should go, and I know you don't want to, but I'll just sit back and watch." ? This is Marinette we're talking about, she helps everyone. She's going to help him too. TBH this right here that she's going to help him with is probably the biggest thing she's ever had to get involved with to help someone. The outcome will be serious and affect his entire future. Then we have Kim over here like, oh what are you talking about, everyone wants to be a model! Not everyone thinks like you, Kim. I love how whenever we get serious scenes, they throw in things like Kim taking a risk to swim the Seine (ew okay don't do that that's gross) and Max being like, hey I can't swim but I wanna join you. SO I BROUGHT MY DUCKIE! XDDD So random but you can't not laugh. All this time, all these months waiting for this episode, I knew Felix would be in it. And yet I forgot going into the episode and was taken by surprise when I saw him lol Hahaha Felix has some sass lol "Why are you here this time? To mock me or ruin my reputation with my friends? "Neither, I'm here to save you." "I'm doing just fine, thank you." Oooh Adrien's not taking anything or forgetting what happened and is showing how irritated he is. I like the sass Adrien, keep it up! "I don't know what I want." "I know, and that's why the second I saw your face on TV this morning, I left London to get you out of this mess. Freedom is something you make, Adrien. For starters, you've gotta stop doing everything your father tells you to." I mean he's not wrong. 👀But what's his purpose for doing this? What does he gain going around the world? But then that would actually set it up so Felix and Lila would get to know each other, and there goes that ship that I'd love and hate because of how scary and fitting they'd be together. xDD They're getting the Peacock and Moth Miraculouses, I just know it. "Or maybe your fear keeps you from seeing a hidden side of him." Wait. This is important for later***** Wow, Felix sure has Adrien's "Yes father" down, the sadness and disappointment in both his expression and his voice is on point. "I know you've got a secret, uncle." yep he has two. Have fun! 😬You'll need therapy now, I hope it's worth it!

Gotta love that foreshadowing! Hawk Moth wins this time? Okay, thanks for the heads up :O I'm scared o.o ALSO WTH FELIX, ARE YOU A SPY?! WHO ARE YOU?! I'm so confused! 14 year old children don't just get spy tech like that! Was your dad one, is that how you got it? We all know, Felix has seemed really cold and cruel the couple of episodes we've seen him. But as soon as he saw his aunt down there, the horror and disgust and torment, how he wanted out of there as soon as he could and stayed as far away as he could....that shows he's not too far gone. I like him a lot more now, but I'm afraid that this could drive him further down a bad road. *****it's later. Here's the moment where we see a different side of him. Adrien (Felix) told him no, determined and angry. Suddenly after looking him right in the eyes, the firm Gabriel seemed...subdued? Almost like he was drugged or something and didn't want to continue. I'm sorry what? Sentimonster, sentimonster, no. This has nothing to do with that. If it was that, he wouldn't have reacted like that looking into Adrien (Felix's) eyes. And we know that he's unaware that that's Felix, he showed no signs of it whatsoever. It has to do with the anger and speaking back. I've thought before that he does that motion with his ring whenever he thinks of Emilie, and I'm wondering if that moment with Felix, that look in his eyes and his anger, reminded him so much of Emilie that he was speechless and all his anger and fight went out of him. "To save a prince from a dragon, you need a KNIIIIGHT!" "And that knight is you?" "Course not, Tikki! That knight is Ladybug! No one listens to Marinette, but everyone listens to Ladybug!" Well ouch, that's not true Marinette! Obviously people listen to Ladybug more, but there are things Marinette can do that Ladybug can't. And I'm pretty sure this is going to be one of those times. ALSO SHE DID HER LITTLE LADYBUG MOVE WHEN SHE TRANSFORMS AHHHHHH! "You've been taking too many risks today, something's wrong!" Yeah it is, but it helped Adrienette progress much better because of it :D Kagami calling Adrien just to scream at him to get himself together and stick up for himself and stop being a puppet, like dang. See, they make great friends but terrible for a relationship. He needed that. First there was Marinette that started to tell him he needs to tell his father, and everyone else, how he feels about being a model and being forced to do all these things he doesn't want to do, because she can see he was miserable. Then there's Felix, though of course for his selfish reasons, could see he's miserable and doesn't want to go, and tells him that freedom is something you make, you have to work for it. He's not going to have it if he sits there and does nothing. Then now Kagami that is like the final blow that screams at him and tells him he's a puppet to everyone in his life, he lets everyone control him by pulling his strings, and that these strings need to be cut. And as we all know, the thing that's kept him from being able to actually find out about Marinette being Ladybug and being happy has been his father. The only person that isn't bought and easily tricked by things is Marinette. The only person that lets him be himself where he actually feels truly happy and special, is with Marinette. This is the point where all of that will change, the obstacle will be out of the way so they can finally have everything in the open and he can be free and they can be happy together. Oh please let this be the beginning of the end of Adrien's sad life. Please. Also I'm believing after seeing this episode, that this will be the start of her really seeing the Adrien side of Chat Noir and loving and appreciating him truly, so unlike Ephemeral where she was freaking out and didn't know what to do about Chat Noir being Adrien, and not seeing him the same, I bet after more development happens and then she finds out, her response will be like "Of course it's you, you couldn't be anyone else" AND I WILL CRY SO MUCH IN THAT MOMENT But getting back to the

episode. "Felix shouldn't be doing this for me. I need to take my own rightful place and tell my father what I have to tell him myself!" GOOD ON YOU. But oops Felix really wants to pretend to be Adrien and go around the world. Why?? "He tricked me again! It's time to end this game, I've got to talk with my father!" Sorry, your father can't come to the phone right now. Why? Because he's Shadow Moth. 🙃 HAAAAA the fact it's Felix and not Adrien being like, uhhh Ladybug what's going on? Legit he's doing a good job here, I would've expected to see a passing annoyed look or something. The only thing is he doesn't sound quite like Adrien, and she's too upset and worried for him to notice. Plus for all she knows, it could just be his sadness. "I don't have the courage. Unlike you, I'm not a superhero." Ironic when Adrien actually is one, but who she thinks is Adrien here actually isn't one so he's telling the truth. xD Okay hold up. Now I'm getting in spoiler territory for those of you who didn't see a previous trailer that showed clips from the second part of this, one that was from a few months ago. Where we saw Ladybug detransform and collapse in what looked to be Adrien's bathroom. If that was Strike Back, and it really was his bathroom, that means she still needs to go there. Why would she? I don't know, but I'm holding out hope that she'll actually speak with Adrien and they'll figure this all out. WITHOUT Felix finding out who she is. These scenes are honestly scaring me that he'll find out. She's going to use the horse miraculous to bring Felix back. PLEASE have her somehow see Adrien in the street and talk to him. PLEASE. Or at home. I don't care, just do not let Felix find out. Oooh Adrien found the spy monocle thing and then there's the sentimonster outside...then fades to credits. Well. :O My goodness this was insane, and even more so when this was not a planned episode but was just dropped on us out of the blue lol A lot of this doesn't feel as much like Miraculous Ladybug but like something else, and I honestly really love it. xD Now to wait the long wait (or maybe if we're lucky we'll get part two next week. I'm wishful thinking here) so we can see how this goes. But from the sounds of what we've been told, it's going to probably end in chaos so I'm just all around scared at this point lol

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sagessoftwings · 3 years ago

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Can I have a haikyuu and demon slayer match up please. This is what I look like

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual and poly

Personality:I don't talk to people I don't know usually and can seem shy but once I get to know them a can be talkative and a little bit loud. I don't really hate people unless they give me a reason too. I don't get annoyed or mad easily. I make dark jokes sometimes there directed to myself. I try to be supportive of my friends but if I know what they're doing is stupid than one will call them out on it. I'm really into the emo style. I do suffer from anxiety and depression, I also am touch starved. I have anger issues but they usually only get bad if I don't get enough sleep.

Hobbies: reading, drawing, watching anime/tv shows, writing, painting, going on late night drives, and going on walks.

Likes: anime, art, music, nightmare before Christmas, harry potter, the colors black and purple also green alot, scented things, candles, Halloween, fall weather, animals, and fuzzy blankets.

Dislikes: spiders, super hot weather, liar's, blend food, and people who can't clean up after themselves.

Thank you!!

Hi Hi of course!!

Warnings: sexual content, cursing, and fluff <3

A/n: matchups,fics,headcanons,thirsts and scenarios are all open so don’t be shy!! If you have questions about the rules, just shoot me a message!! The fandom I write for are also pinned so go give that a look!! Love you all - Sage

For Demon Slayer I ship you with: Mitsuri Kanroji!!

Demon Slayer: Mitsuri Kanroji

Literally the sweetest thing on earth

Mitsuri will let you take your time opening up when you first meet

She typically would always start the conversations with you and try to get a better understanding of you and what you like

Over time you open up with her and AHHHH she’s so happy like finally! You chose her :’)

Misturi cares deeply about all of her friends and it’s no different with you , in fact half of the times it’s the two of you getting onto everybody else in the hashira group for being so reckless

Mitsuri always makes sure you feel comfortable, especially if you're around people you don’t know so well. Misturi is a social butterfly but makes sure you don’t feel left out.

She ALWAYS makes sure you know that she couldn’t care one bit if you get loud, often others tell her to quiet down and it makes her sad so she wouldn’t want you to feel that way

In a modern AU, mitsuri would love to watch movies with you and is a die hard Harry Potter fan no doubt

She’ll even get those Harry Potter themed snacks at the store and invite you over for a marathon with blanket robes for each of your houses

Mitsuri fucking goes crazy for candles, like you’ll have to call her and remind her to blow them out

She will drag you to Bath and Body Works every time there’s a sale

Mitsuri also likes to make you seasonal packages for each holiday/season

She’ll always get you cozy themed socks for each holiday too, even the minor ones that make no sense to you

You’ll never catch Mitsuri slacking, her place is typically always clean especially if you’re coming and will never make a mess at yours because she’d be upset if someone did that to her.

On sunday I can totally see Mitsuri inviting you over to read and just snuggle under a warm fuzzy blanket

-Smutty Smut-

Mitsuri treats you so so well in bed I’m jealous

Major switch but can be a pillow princess

She has a thing for thighs and boobas, she loves boobies :0

A strap on queen, if you want her to top… bestie, queen will toss up those insides

All of her toys are typically pink and have glitter but she has specific ones for seasons too don't worry

If it’s around halloween she has a cute witch outfit she likes to wear while she goes down on you

Likes to paint her nails so her fingers look extra pretty in you

Mitsuri is not afraid to send titty pics or videos during the day so keep those to yourself

Her aftercare is phenomenon, she’ll run you a bath with your choice of bath bomb, a facemask, bath salts, candles, Lofi the whole 10 yards

She also has an outfit for valentines which is her personal favorite

Mitsuri does have a pretty kinky side but makes sure you’re comfortable with what she’s into before starting anything

Shes workin hard, workin hard to please you

For Haikyuu I ship you with: Kejji Akaashi!!

Akaashi is the same way, being pretty quiet around new people or someone he doesn't know all too well but when he told Bokuto he thought you were pretty Bo took it into his own hands to introduce you two

Once you started talking though you two found that you had a lot in common

Akaashi loves to have you over on rainy days so you two can read together and just embrace each other

Akaashi is like.. mediocre at drawing, like it's not good but not bad either? He mostly does it to please you but he’s really good at like simple digital art

Akaashi loves the days when you two just laiz about and he plays with your hair while the two of you watch Harry Potter

If you ask nicely, he’ll make you a homemade butterbeer

Akaashi, being friends with Bokuto, personally likes it when you get loud. It lets him know you’re comfortable around him and happy

He has a habit of just staring at you and your lips when you talk because how could he not?

If you ask him if somethings wrong when he stares he’ll just go “You’re pretty”

You and Akaashi are constantly keeping Bokuto in check, especially now since he plays for a professional team

Akaashi loves to take you out on walks and maybe even go to a park, this man also loves planing picnics for you

Akaashi likes to surprise you around halloween with decorations and movie nights

He might even get you two fun pj sets

Akaashi is constantly making sure your apartment is clean not just for your sake but his as well

He also will never hesitate to help you out when there is a bug you need removed. Even if he has to drive from his place to yours, he’ll be there

He has a set bedtime for you so you don’t get angy in the mornings, but if you don’t he tries his best to soothe you and help in any way he can

-Smutty Smut -

Akaashi is definitely a giver in bed, he couldn’t care less about himself but aims to please you

He always makes sure your nice and loud for him, your soft breathy moans are what get this man going

This mans can really use his fingers i’ll tell you what, he loves to press his hand to your tummy to hold you still while his digits plunge into your spongy walls

HE CAN AND WILL KISS YOU EVERYWHERE has to make sure you know he loves every bit of you

Pls for the love of god sit on this mans face, he’ll be to shy to ask

He ADORES when you ride him and he can paw away at your thighs and ass while he stares into those beautiful eyes

He loves to kiss your neck continuously, even if he’s down bad in the grocery store, mans will come up behind you and snake his arms around your waist and place open mouthed kisses on your neck and ears with a soft “Let’s go home, yeah?”

AMAZING AFTER CARE, makes sure you’re clean, have water, and pee before he tucks you all nice under his arm (doesn’t want you to get a uti, just to be safe)

If you two go on late night drives and he gets horny for some reason, he’ll start off with a hand on your thigh and if you’re okay with it finger you on the way home <3

Always and I mean ALWAYS says he loves you with a smooch before you drift off

#demon slayer mitsuri #mitsuri x reader #mitsuri smut #mitsuri kanjiro #mitsuri kanroji #Mitsuri x reader fluff #akaashi x reader smut #akaashi keji x reader #akaashi hcs #haikyuu akaashi #haikyuu x reader #demon slayer x reader

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ziracona · 4 years ago

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so can u tell us a little about ur characterization of Lisa?? What's she like inside and outside of trials? Does she have a lot of lucidity, what were her relationships with others like, would she ever get better, do you think? ( im SAD.) Just. What's she like!! Also, same for Sally? Oh! And I'm rly enjoying two songs by Meg Myers which maybe you'll like? Running up that hill (Cover) and Desire. Maybe check em out? :3 - Sleepy

Sure!

My Lisa is from a bit before the archives for her placed her (early 1970s), because I wrote ILM back when there was no date given for many killers or survivors, so I just hoped they were historically accurate with the things they did mention & went through a fairly exhaustive list of drained swamps in the Southern US & paddleboat makes & placed her according to that data (it’s been a bit so I don’t remember the exact date without looking up my notes) in the 1920s-1930s, I believe? And in her early 20s, since she’s described as a girl & young woman, which DbD usually does only for characters in their early 20s. (Which I’d still assume is her age, bc even though her archives, if you go by them, have her in her teens, they’re not connected to the events of her disappearance/definitely happened before them.)

In trials, Lisa has like 0 lucidity. I talk about this some in chapter notes, so I’ll try to give a quick overview instead but sry if I restart myself. She’s so starved that any time she sees a living being, she is just completely overcome with hunger and can’t do anything but operate on it. Very scary. Feral. Like being attacked by a starving animal. She’s super out of it, and is completely wild and violent and has no control, only the need to eat. Outside of trials, if no one is around, she’s lucid again, but will remember trials and what she did to people, and spends that time in horror and despair. She’s tried to kill herself before, because the last thing she ever wanted was to become the thing she swore vengeance on (the Entity’s a real cruel motherfucker. Did the same to Rin, to Philip, to everyone it could. Likes to really twist decent people into what they would most despair to be), but in the realm, she’s stuck as it. She’s not really aware for trials, but remembers them with decent clarity, and is in constant agony over what she’s done. Unfortunately, suicide does not take in the realm, and every one of her attempts failed, just like her attempts to maim or tie herself up so she wouldn’t be able to hurt people did. She’s horribly alone and despairing, and also in physical agony. She’s at the worst end of what a human can be at as far as emaciation and starvation while still being alive goes, and that’s physically awful. It fucks up your brain chemistry too, and everything is just really fucking miserable all the time. It hurts to move, it hurts to breathe, your breath smells tastes like rotten fruit but in a way that’s so much worth than that can sound. She’s so hungry, her addons are things like dragonfly wings consumed to give her extra stamina. That’s the kind of bare sliver of relief she ever gets. God, poor Lisa’s life is hell. She’s completely heartbroken and isolated and almost dead. As far as relationships go, she didn’t have any for a long time. No one can really interact with her, because she goes feral at the sight of food. She’s kinda utterly alone. But briefly, when Alex, Philip, Vigo, Benedict, and Sally were a group, she kind of got stumbled into, and after a kind of nasty first encounter, was able to regain lucidity around other people, and had a truly sweet and memorable and invaluable bit of time with love and friends and other people. She was kind of in love with Sally, who did her hair for her and was really kind to her, and Sally liked her too. They were close. Lisa was close with all of them. But when things ended the way they did, the Entity took that away. Lisa remembers it, but she could never get them or it back, and was cast aside and left behind until the end of ILM, when she finally got peace and found happiness in finally getting to be at rest in the arms of a friend. Overal, she’s a fairly young and wide-eyed, bright, cautious, fun and sweet girl by nature, now massively traumatized and hopeless and broken, but still with a truly incredible amount of that kind nature retained. She would have really loved reading fantasy novels aloud and exploring the worlds of lore and history, travelling, seeing other cultures and geographic features and animals. Enjoys fashion too, and has a heart for designing and making cool, personal and cultural and symbolic tied designs, and would have been both great at that and loved it if she’d lived long enough. (Shoutout to @artianaiolanthe who inspired the fashion take & it is so suited to her I love it). A little shy, but an extrovert at heart under it, just a nervous one. Loved people. Liked climbing trees and fording brooks and baking bread and throwing rocks and baseballs to knock a target out of a tree and win a prize at little town fairs. Didn’t get the length or quality of life she was owed, and it’s just not fair or okay at all. Liked to watch the stars.

As far as getting better goes, mentally, totally. If they could get her out of the realm or break the Entity’s connection, she’d immediately stop killing. She has never done it of her own free will. She’s a sweet small town kid who was just trying to live her life. As far as physically goes though, Lisa is in one of the worst possible spots. Unlike say Amanda, who was on death’s door but healed by the Entity, or the Legion, who weren’t injured at all, Lisa was on death’s door and like Adiris, did not get healed. Just preserved in that near-death state and forced to work in it. Honestly, it’s possible she could survive long enough to get to a hospital and be saved, but at best, she’d probably live another year. When you starve, your body begins to catabolize/eat your own tissue to save itself, starting with fat, and ending with muscles and organs, which, when it reaches the heart, kills you. Lisa was so close to dead, the organ damage was probably awful, and would leave her with complications that would take her very young. The most likely thing, since she was saved literally seconds before death, would be for her to step outside the realm and immediately die. However, it’s possible she got lucky on body damage and could be saved—kinda up to interpretation—and if say, she was around for Quentin’s Vigil going healing batshit, and got some organs repaired that way, she’d have a real shot. (I also am sad. Lisa was actually the only determinate character in ILM to me/that I wasn’t sure the ending for, and while I am very happy with what ended up being her closure, I also would like to see her live for even more love and peace TuT. Lol, if I ever end up doing my goddamn four fate route fics like I’ve joked now a truly dangerous number of times about doing [>.> me @ me] then maybe she will get a variety of lives in the end). I’m glad you wanted to know! I really like and pity her. This poor kid really did nothing wrong, much like Rin, and just got eternally tortured for asking for help and justice against the monsters who took her life so violently. Fuck Brittany. (Read: the Entity.)

Ahhhh Sally. My sweet, sweet girl. Uhhh, not sure which of the Lisa questions you meant for her too, so I’ll try to speed-answer them all? Sally’s intelligent and understanding and thoughtful, patient, polite, almost elegant despite how impoverished she spent most of her life—she just tries to act like a lady and treat people with as much respect and esteem as she can (unless they suck lol). She’s also very mentally damaged and not there though, and has extremely unstable mood swings, especially into despair. Her relationships with the other killers were limited. She talked to & was on polite terms with any who would talk to her and not be condescending or a dick so openly she’d pick up on it (so like, on cordial terms with Evan, Herman, Caleb if she’d been there that long, but not like, Kenneth or Freddy or someone who wouldn’t bother to put up an act). But mostly, after figuring out she wasn’t really of any use to them, they quit communicating with her. Sally has been extremely isolated since shortly after being taken. She believes that the survivors are innocent and suffering and knows that they don’t deserve the hunt, but has no way to stop the whole system, and has been convinced by the Entity that if she does a good job and earns moris, the ones she strangles to death get to stay dead instead of coming back after death to suffer endlessly again, so she works very dedicatedly and slowly trying to earn kills to save them. It took her physical eyes when it got her and lets her see through it’s powers, and uses that to randomize what survivors look like in her memory so she doesn’t catch wise it’s the same people over and over and she’s not saving them at all. It’s extremely tragic. God it’s one of the most cruel Entity tricks, which is saying a lot. Poor gentle woman is Sisyphus pushing a boulder up a hill day after day year after year and she doesn’t even know how hopeless and meaningless it all is. : (

When the Vigo-Philip-Alex-Benedict team was going, though, she met and attacked, then was convinced to instead befriend them, and quickly became very attached and well liked by them. Met Lisa while with the group, and became extremely fond of her and loving towards her and was truly, truly happy for a brief period of time. Still remembers her, even as lost as all her memories are. Not her name, but what she looked like to Sally, and how her hair felt, and how nice it was. Sally would have considered everyone in that group a dear friend, and in ILM, Philip most definitely becomes her deepest, closest, and best friend, just like she does to him. She’s a very faithful woman to her soul. Loved her family, loved her husband and mourned him, worked as hard as she could. Cared for her patients, and did her best in that hell until the Entity slowly whittled away at her sanity until it broke her mind and left her convinced the only way to end their pain would be to give them death, and she had to do it to save them. Sally loves little pretty things and neatness and collections. Flowers, bows and ribbons, china and colored glass. She would have treasured gifts like decorative holiday cards and carved animal figures and left them on her mantle or carefully tucked in lovingly organized and decorated books she could open to revisit the memory. Likes dresses and skirts and the way the wind feels. Hopeful and very enduring. Loving. Had a mom heart, and will never really get entirely over the loss of her children, but is strong and kind and will find new love that makes life still worth living in other people. Will remember both kindness and cruelty a long, long time. Loved Quentin from the second he gave her flowers (Dwight: Quentin, why did the entity let you have three moms? Quentin: Because I fucking earned it >:[“ [author’s note: he did. God that poor kid...]). Loved Kate from the day she sat with her in a hospital and held her hand. Is like that. Remembers small kindness and treasures them.

Sally could definitely recover. Not all the way probably, physically or mentally, but by far enough to be complete and happy and realized and who she wants. She never meant to hurt people, so she really just needs some stability, and I think she finds that with her new family. I mean, it is a lot to adjust to. It’s been like nearly 100 years. The Entiry broke her mind, and she’s got some damage that just probably can’t ever be fixed, but a lot can be, with drugs and treatments and therapy and kindness and a good support system, and honestly, the biggest things she needs are people to keep her memories together and herself present, and influences to protect her from being manipulated and controlled now that she’s so suggestible and easy to hurt, and she’s got that. I am 100% certain that while some things—the scatteredness, the ease of slipping into other moods especially deep sadness, the different way of thinking altogether—never leave her, she gets better in the most important ways and is truly happy and quite functional and what she wants to be. While there’s no way (yet anyway lol. Cybernetics that good when?) to give her new eyes since the Entity ripped hers out, and she’s blind now, and can’t be changed, her seeing eye dog does a great job for her, and she’s very happy and adjusts well. She has a lot of friends to be her eyes, and learns to lean into what she can do and has a quite fulfilling and blissful life outside the realm in ILM.

Also: thanks for the recs! I’m going on a run soon, and I’ll add those to my iPod and give ‘em a listen if I can. Hope this answered what you wanted to know! ^u^

#ask #sleepy #in living memory (fic)#in living memory #ilm spoilers #dead by daylight #Lisa Sherwood #Sally Smithson #long post

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theclovercastle · 6 years ago

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Her smile literally cured my depression.💯

Seeing her animated (FINALLY) got me so fucking trippin', like..Step aside for the Queen Bitches.👑🔥🦁

~Kat☘

Im diying. She’s smilling. Mereo is too much for me. She’s my god

I’m honestly oddly happy about her smile? Like it’s so out of character for her, way too soft. But I love it. WHAT’S MAKING HER SMILE LIKE THAT!!??

#black clover #admin kat #gotta love the queen #she's so beautiful #and gonna wreck everyone #i'm so happy to see her finally animated ahhhh #mereoleona vermillion

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Okay since I've established I'm a sucker for qpr Ningxian, and since you mentioned A-Yuan's adoption going through in the last drabble, what about Wen Ning and Wei Wuxian taking A-Yuan to pick out their first family pet (just, not a dog, obviously 😅)?

Ahhhh!! Another queerplatonic ningxian prompt!! I’m so happy you requested this, thank you!

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When Wen Ning first moves into the apartment with Lan Wangji, Wei Wuxian, and their newly adopted son A-Yuan, it’s the first time that he lives someplace that allows pets. He’s absolutely over the moon about it, though he tries not to be too annoying about it.

Lan Wangji already owns a pair of rabbits: Cabbage and Carrot. Wen Ning cannot deny that they’re cute.

There’s only one problem, though. They’re also kind of boring.

Of course, Wen Ning would never say such a thing aloud. It’s mean, first of all. But more importantly, Lan Wangji would probably never forgive him. Wen Ning already feels bad enough wiggling his way into their family.

It’s A-Yuan who first suggests they get a cat, though that’s likely Wen Ning’s fault, too. He has been showing his now four year old second cousin cute cat videos every evening when they hang out before bedtime. Though, it’s less of a suggestion and more of a persistent whining.

“I want a kitty, Xian-gege,” A-Yuan pleads at least once a day.

Wen Ning winces whenever he hears it, hoping that no one pins the blame on him. His love of cats is well known, and for A-Yuan to start asking for a cat right after Wen Ning moves in... well, it’s not hard to connect the dots.

Lan Wangji is the one who surprises Wen Ning by suggesting Wei Wuxian and him take A-Yuan to adopt a cat as a surprise for his fifth birthday.

And so Wen Ning is, with a blind-folded A-Yuan in his arms. Wei Wuxian and him stand before the Leling Cat Cafe, which their friends Qin Su and Zhao Zhiruo own. It doubles as an adoption center. Wen Ning has been here many times before, to play with the cats. The day has finally come for him to take one of them home.

“Ning-gege, Xian-gege,” A-Yuan whines, when the two men stop walking, “Can I take my blindfold off now?”

Wei Wuxian nods excitedly at Wen Ning.

“Yes,” Wen Ning murmurs, “You can take it off now.”

All too eager to get his sight back, A-Yuan fusses with the fabric around his eyes. It was knotted firmly by Lan Wangji earlier, so A-Yuan struggles with it a bit.

“Tsk, tsk, did your Ji-gege tie your blindfold too tightly?” Wei Wuxian reaches over to help his son.

“Too tight,” A-Yuan complains.

The two of them manage to get it off together. The sudden sunlight causes A-Yuan to squint.

Wei Wuxian and Wen Ning share a meaningful glance, and then say in unpracticed but surprisingly perfect unison, “Happy birthday, A-Yuan!”

A-Yuan takes a second to process what he’s seeing. He can’t read yet, so the sign means nothing to him. But then he catches sight of a white Persian preening in the window, and that tells A-Yuan everything he needs to know.

“Kitty!” A-Yuan cries out, “Ning-gege, look! There’s a kitty in the window!”

“This is a cat cafe,” Wei Wuxian explains, “but it also doubles as an adoption center. When we go inside, you can pick one cat to take home with us.”

This seems to absolutely blow the young child’s mind.

His eyes get all watery. “Xian-gege,” A-Yuan says, “Do you mean it? I can have a kitty cat?”

“Yes, but only one,” Wei Wuxian repeats, like he’s genuinely afraid that his son will try to bring home all of them, “So chose wisely.”

Wen Ning is just as excited as A-Yuan, so he rushes forward without any other preamble.

Qin Su has been waiting for them, and she opens the door for them. “Wen Ning,” she greets then, “A-Yuan! Happy birthday. How old are you now?”

“Five!” A-Yuan chirps, but he isn’t looking at her. He is twisting, looking every which way. “So many kitties!”

Afraid he’s going to end up dropping the wiggling rugrat, Wen Ning gently puts his cousin down on the ground, though he doesn’t immediately release his waist. “Remember what I told you about petting animals,” he says.

“Pet head to tail, flat palm, and don’t tug on anything,” A-Yuan recites.

“Good boy,” Wei Wuxian commends him, coming up behind Wen Ning. He turns to Qin Su and waves. “Hey, Qin Su! Long time, no see. How’s the wife?”

They make idle chit-chat with Qin Su, allowing A-Yuan to explore the cafe on his own at first. As they talk, Qin Su sets Wen Ning and Wei Wuxian up at Wen Ning’s usual table in the corner, right beside to the tallest cat tree. She gives them each a menu, then sits down with them at the table.

“So...” Qin Su starts, during a lull in conversation, “I hear the two of you are... a thing now? But Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji are still dating? Are you a threesome now? Or would that be called a polycule?”

Wen Ning looks to Wei Wuxian. Usually Wei Wuxian takes care of the explaining bit, since he’s better with words.

“Lan Wangji is my boyfriend,” Wei Wuxian explains, sounding remarkably unembarrassed even when he’s discussing such personal matters, “Wen Ning is my queerplatonic partner. It’s something between a romantic relationship and a platonic one. Something completely unique to us.”

Warmth blooms in Wen Ning’s heart. He loves how Wei Wuxian always says that: “Something completely unique to us.”

Qin Su doesn’t quite look like she understands, but not many people do. But there’s no judgement in her voice when she says, “That sounds nice. All that matters is that you’re happy.”

Wei Wuxian’s face splits into a huge, sunny grin. “We are happy,” he says, “All four of us.”

“Five when we add the cat,” Wen Ning chips in. He doesn’t mean to say it, but it just slips out. He’s really, really excited to finally have a cat of his own.

Wei Wuxian laughs loudly. “Yes, yes, five with the cat. Seven if you count Cabbage and Carrot.”

“Lan Wangji’s rabbits,” Wen Ning explains before Qin Su asks.

She smiles. “So... do you two want anything to eat or drink while you wait? It looks like A-Yuan might take a while to settle on a cat.”

Wen Ning orders a salted caramel hot chocolate, while Wei Wuxian asks for “whatever drink has the most caffeine.”

Qin Su leaves to prepare their drinks.

Wen Ning turns his attention over to A-Yuan, who is now half-buried in a sea of cats. He’s gotten a hold of a toy mouse on a string, and waving it above their heads. He giggles in delight whenever one raises up on their hind paws to swat at it.

After a minute, Wei Wuxian nudges Wen Ning.

Wen Ning blinks and looks over.

“Hey,” Wei Wuxian whispers in a conspiratorial tone, “A-Ning. Go ahead and play with the kitties. I know you want to.”

Wen Ning flushes at the affectionate nickname. He’s still getting used to it. “Okay,” he replies, “...A-Xian.”

And then, too embarrassed to continue looking Wei Wuxian in the face, Wen Ning gets up to join A-Yuan. The worst thing is, it’s not even the first time Wen Ning has called him that. Somehow, it doesn’t get easier.

—

In the end, they end up spending three more hours at the cat cafe. A-Yuan does try to convince Wei Wuxian to let him take them all, but they manage to explain why they can’t do that without inciting a temper tantrum.

Surprisingly, A-Yuan choses the shyest of all the cats. It’s an orange tabby, a girl, and she sounds like a distressed baby when she meows.

A-Yuan shows that he has all the creativity of his Lan father when he names her Kitty.

They take their time properly introducing Kitty to her new home, one room at a time. Lan Wangji frets over how she’ll get along with the rabbits, but thankfully, there doesn’t seem to be any issues. Still, Lan Wangji makes it a rule that the animals are only allowed to interact under his supervision, until he’s completely ruled out Kitty as a threat to the safety of his rabbits.

Wei Wuxian, Wen Ning, and A-Yuan snuggle on the couch that evening. Lan Wangji is in his office doing some last minute edits to his newest article for The Pavillion Review. Kitty is curled up on Wen Ning’s lap, purring up a storm.

It’s so peaceful. Wen Ning may still feel a little out of place at times, but this apartment is feeling more and more like home each and every day.

They may be an unconventional family, but they have built something completely unique to them. It makes all of them happy, and really, that’s the only thing that should matter.

#asks #livenarrator #ningxian #mdzs modern au #mo dao zu shi #drabbles #leigh’s writing

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vanaera · 6 years ago

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AHHHH I am in love with the new prince and his rose update!! I love how we are learning more and more about kook and the reader's backstory slowly, and not all at once. ALSO I'm ITCHING to finally see kook confess!! Your writing is amazing and makes me so happy. 💜💜

Hi sweets! Thank you so much for your sugar-sweet feedback! I practically needed this bc I've stopped writing for weeks bc of a shitty burnout and idk if I still have the skills to make my readers feel something bc no one's talking to me 😭😭😭 (I know the Mikrokosmos installment is getting a few loves here and there and some of my readers are silent ones but a feedback can be helpful too, u kno? So I can improve the things u see I'm lacking in, and also to make friends here! I really want to get to know you guys more!)

Anyway! Thank you for noticing these bits and pieces! I always liked dropping hints and foreshadowing in tiny pinches here and there and if you've long observed my writings, my fics are littered with this! Lowkey a hobby of mine, too, bc I've been into art since a kid and I draw things and animals that communicate double meanings. I even use colors to communicate! Yeah guys, I know a wide array of color meanings and also, I can communicate with flowers! I studied flower meanings for like two years in HS (not as a subject, just pure interest) and I swear I'm like your local con-florist who can tell you appropriate flowers for certain events without any experience of being a florist at all! (If you pay attention to the flowers I write here in there in my fics, they already convey the things I'm about to say in the next sentences hehehe, okay for example: the daffodils in Translucent Fireworks means loyalty; specifically 'You're the only one').

Hehehe I know I'm blabbering too much so anyway, YES I'M ALSO ITCHING FOR JK'S CONFESSION! SERIOUSLY I ALREADY HAD THE WHOLE STORYBOARD FOR THAT READY ALREADY, HOWEVER (yeah all caps), I still have to write about essential events that have transpired since they were kids bc they really add dynamic to my characters. OC is not just a passionate aspiring writer who is naive to JK's advances, you know? There's more to that and her seeming obliviousness. Also, I love how I'll write about JK slowly balancing the differences in their gravitational attraction to each other in the installments I have planned. I've always missed the old, traditional courting (based on my homecountry's history and tradition, and yeah, I still use this term; 18th century, anyone?) when today's modern society is too fast-paced and nearly gave any more fuck about the pure concept of love- love for love; nothing more, nothing less. I just want to make some of my fantasies be a reality I can put down in ink. I'm blabbing too much again so yeah, more stories and feels are gonna drop in the future installments, so stay tuned!

(Quick reminder too! Even if I released the confession part, TPAHR will not end! 😘😘😘)

*Oh and here's also some art of mine, thought I'd share since I already opened up about it:

*You can find them in my art account in ig with the same username @vanaera with some impromptu poems I make before I hit post.

#aera blushes #tpahr #aera does art #what about aera #i blabbed so much omg sorry #it's been a long while since i talked with you guys #i guess i got a little too excited #hope you like the stuff i shared!#thank you so much guys for your support #love you hons

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imtryingmybeskar · 3 years ago

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hii💕 from the fanfic ask game, what about letter F or Y?

F: share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

(Since I'm an indecisive idiot I've got two scenes under the cut. Sorry!)

This is from In Time - Pero Tovar is in modern times and the notion that he would like Murder She Wrote because he thinks Jessica Fletcher was homicidal amused me quite a lot.

"I am pleased with this," he gestured at what was currently on the TV. "I watch this woman. She has put to death many people. They do not know it is her. She is very wise."

"Pero, that's Jessica Fletcher. She investigates the murders, she doesn't commit them."

"Commit?"

"Um...she doesn't do them herself. She finds out who has done them."

"Then why is she there without fail when they come about?" he demanded. "No, she kills and kills and they never know as she is just a prying old woman. I like her."

And this one is from Fugitive. It's when Reader is on the trail of Din and goes to Nar Shaddaa where she meets Hondo (from The Clone Wars). If you're not a Star Wars fan it probably won't be of interest, but it pleased my geeky soul to marry KOTOR2, TCW and The Mandalorian in one piece. Plus Hondo is such a satisfying character to write for!

Hondo's mouth fell open in amazement and he clapped his hands together with glee.

"Wonderful, wonderful!" he proclaimed. "And now we see how everything works out as it should! Trats used to work for me. He betrayed me many cycles ago. Stole from me and used the credits to build his own business. I was so proud of him." Hondo dabbed at his eyes with the hem of his coat. You couldn't tell if it was for effect or if he was genuinely weeping with pride. Neither would have surprised you at this point. "But treachery of this kind cannot go unpunished forever and now the time has come to crush him and take back what is mine. With a Jedi beside me once more, I shall finally have my revenge upon his filthy hide!" Hondo declared this in a tone akin to talking about taking a pleasant afternoon stroll. Your curiosity finally got the better of you.

"Which Jedi were you friends with? And which Mandalorians for that matter?" Hondo gave a resounding burst of laughter.

"Ah, Hondo has had many an adventure across this galaxy with many a companion! The stories I could tell you, so many of them true! I once kidnapped Count Dooku, General Skywalker AND General Kenobi during the Clone Wars. It was after this that Skywalker and Kenobi became my very good friends. Always happy to see me, they were, especially when I was delivering weapons for their cause against the Separatists. And little Ahsoka! Ah that sweet little girl. I kidnapped her too once, or maybe twice. I had the pleasure of calling the great Mandalorian Jango Fett my associate. The best bounty hunter in the galaxy he was, and Hondo taught him all he knew! I met his son Boba as well when he was but a little boy starting out in the galaxy. I stole his ship from him. Ahhhh, those good times, excellent times all!" With every infamous name that fell from Hondo's lips, your incredulity grew and you were very glad you had chosen to keep your face covered.

"It was actually Boba that tasked me with finding Trats. He and I are...also friends." At this news, Hondo became even more animated and went into a paroxysm of delight.

"My dear lady! You must give him my very best wishes! Tell him that if he ever wishes to work together again, I would be most delighted to see him. I'm sure he is a forgiving man-" At this you shot Hondo an incredulous look from under your mask. "-And he will not hold it against me that I took his ship while he was in prison. I fixed it for him, after all! And it was definitely not my fault that he was arrested by the Republic in the first place!" Feeling a certain amount of time pressure, you interjected before Hondo could reach full flow in his speech.

Y: A character you want to protect.

It's an obvious answer but Marcus Pike.

#fanfic ask game #fanfic asks

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AAAAAA LOWAH I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT... I SAW YOUR ART ON LEEANDLIE'S YU YU HAKUSHO OP COVER AND....IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL IT ACTUALLY MADE ME CRY...I GOT SO EMOTIONAL... SO I JUST WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY ENTIRE LIFE BY DRAWING THOSE (btw i'm a longtime follower I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH AND I SCREAMED WHEN I SAW YOUR NAME IN THE VID)

AHHHH AEOR;GHAORGH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! I’m so happy to finally see it go up on youtube i put so much work into her video a;roghuaogehu seeing it up and animated with the music MADE ME SO HAPPY AND PUT A HUGE SMILE ON MY FACE EVERYTHING WAS WORTH IT

#fluffberries #asks #sorry for the inactivity!!#i had a deadline to finish and then i got sick.. LOL

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werewolfmagic · 4 years ago

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So, here's my playlist of my life as it has been so far. I may update it, but this is what every song on it means to me as of what was on it 30 June 2020.

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL9_zyjXfClT3ymeEbJNz-a3oWHgs_isWM

1. Lalasweet- So, this first area of the playlist is themed to be my foreign songs. This first one I first heard in college at Radford University. I spent a lot of my time in college walking around listening to music. This one means a lot to me because I can still feel myself walking around campus when I hear it. I see myself very clearly walking in front of the gym, heading to my sociology class in the morning with my fruity tea from Starbucks. I felt so calm back then, the pain from high school just evaporated as I listened to this song.

2. PEEP SHOW- So, this song took a lot of effort for me to find after I first heard it in college. It was written in characters and I couldnt for the life of me get it translated so I could find it on YouTube. But hey, here it is. I sang this song and the previous song to myself a lot as I walked around campus. The same image appears in my head whenever I listen to it.

3. Crossing Field- This one is a trip for me. So, Sword Art Online was my first anime way back when in high school. This is the first opening song to it. This song also got me into listening to japanese music! Sword Art still holds a special place in my heart. I actually read nearly all the books that have been published, and I've seen so much of it. Another sword art song is actually later in the playlist, and it captures more of how the anime makes me feel. This song and this anime mean so much to me. A lot of good came from anime for me.

4. Kakumei Dualism- I've never seen what this is from. But, in high school while I had to wait on my dad to pick me up, this was the first song I learned how to sing in Japanese. So, I couldnt ride the bus because people were dicks to me. I wouldnt get a seat, people would push me around and generally be assholes. So I waited in the lobby for my dad to pick me up after work every day. He got off around 5 usually, and school ended around 3:30, so I had time to kill. This song got me into trying to learn Japanese and learning how to sing!

5. Bye Bye Yesterday- Ahhhh this anime omg! The ending made me cry so hard I would highly recommend watching it. I used to listen to all of the songs from it on my way to therapy in college, so I learned how to sing this as I walked the 1 and a half mile walk I believe it was once every week after I got out of the hospital. This song and this anime give me so many good feelings and good memories.

6.Masayume Chasing- Again, great Japanese song from an amazing anime I love! I listened to this in my room a lot after my dad picked me up. I remember crying a lot while this song was on, I felt so isolated and alone. This song was beautiful to me though, and it got me into listening to BoA. I spent so many hours listening to her music in high school and college!

7. RE:make- This band was just epic to listen to. I forgot I ever found them, I just remember like jamming out to their music once I found them, and when I lost spotify premium, I sorta stopped listening to a great band.

8. Bloody Mary: I got into two bands because if Noragami. Helli Sleepwalkers was one. I used to sing Bloody Mary so often I still think I have it memorized. I sang it to myself in high school and in college, it's practically a mantra now. More on Noragami in a bit.

9. Let me hear- This is from another anime, Parasyte. Great anime, but I honestly like the band more than the anime. Two of my closest friends in high school, Rachael and Maria, I showed this song to them. I still remember sitting in Rachael's room with them, showing them this song. More on both of them when we get to some association songs, there's a lot.

10.Wagakkiband- Great band, I discovered them in high school. I actually dont know what my favourite song by them is, I cant read kanji so I could never find it. I just cried a lot to their music in high school. I would turn it up so my dad couldn't hear my cry, and I would just sob for hours.

11. History Maker- I'm not sure why, but this has always been a hopeful more lovey song to me.

12. Everything- This song means a lot to me. I discovered this band through Noragami too, I loved that anime I read so much of the manga too because season 3 still isnt out. The oral cigarettes got me through a lot, and I mean a lot. I've always actually wanted someone to sing this song to. It's a love song, I've memorized it so I can sing with the song. I've always dreamed of one day singing this to someone who means everything to me. If you ever get the chance to translate it, this song defined how I viewed love for a while. I still hope one day i can sing this song to that special someone,I just hope I get the chance to.

13. Anohona- This is a real cry song for me. Whenever I felt worthless, i would listen to this. The anime is a real tearjerker too. The line "Something must be wrong with me" resonates with me to this day. People who love each other drifting apart, and blaming yourself for it. I cried to this song for countless hours, I really feel like it defined me for so long. I'm actually listening to it as I write this and I'm already crying because of it. It just always makes me feel like there truly is something wrong with me.

14. God knows- This is a song like Everything. I really want to sing this for someone who means the world to me one day, I've practiced it so much! I hope one day I get the opportunity to sing this to who I truly love. Honestly, this feels like a song for someone who is struggling. I wish i could sing it to my love when she truly needs it most. Because yeah, "I will follow you, no matter what we go through." If you listen to this song love, please know that I feel it could mean something to you too.

15. Catch the moment- this is the other sword art song. I got to watch the movie this came from with my dad. It's one of the last things we did together before we drifted apart when I came out. We went to a super fancy restaurant that night, i had vietnamese food for the first time, and i watched an amazing movie with my dad. I really treasure that memory, and I always will. More on my dad later on.

16. Bebe- Time to change themes. These songs relate to my music career in highschool. I was in marching band, jazz band, and concert band. I played Alto Sax. I always worked towards playing this song. I got the Jimmy Dorsey Sax guide as a Christmas gift from my aunt. And I used it to get better. I never could make it to this level though. I always worked towards it but I fell short. My best in this song was the first few lines of music with no mistakes.

17. String of Pearls- My sophomore year in high school, I played the sax solo from this. It's the performance I'm most proud of. It took a lot of effort, and I fucked up when I finally did it, but I'm really proud of myself for accomplishing what I did. It made me really happy to get to do this solo.

18. Law and Order- I learned to play this on sax too! I actually wanted to perform it in concert, but I was never allowed to. This show means a lot to me. Growing up, I used to sit with my dad and watch it with him. This was way back in elementary school when we did this, and I have a lot of fond memories of watching this show with him and talking with him. It felt like we never really spent enough time together.

19. Pink Panther- I would say this song is what I'm most proud of learning on my own. I never performed it, but I did show off with it during jazz band. I was so proud of myself when I managed to growl with the song! I feel like I really nailed the style of this song.

20. Your latest trick- This is another solo I'm really proud of teaching myself! I never played it, but damnnnn I fuckin nailed it when I played it.

21. Deacon Blues- I would always suggest this song to my band director for us to play in concert. We never did do it though. I love the solo, and I spent so many hours learning how to play this song and just vibing listening to it.

22. Zoor Suit Riot- This is the song I listened to a lot during band camp one year. Band camp was always an experience, I have a lot of stories from it, but this one hurt me, and this song I associate with that pain. My dog, Jake, he was an Autralian Shepherd. He was attacked by a pit bull. He died while I was at band camp. I knew he was sick before I left, and I wanted to stay with him, but my dad convinced me I should go because if I didnt I wouldnt have been in marching band that year. I regret going. I wish I spent my dog's last day with him. He was the best dog I ever had, I raised him. My family didnt even tell me he died until a month later, they just kept saying he was with my grandfather. I really miss my dog, and this is the song that reminds me I shouldve stayed home with him.

23. Centerfold- This is the song I associate with the good side of marching band! This was a stand tune we played during football games, and I really could like dance and jump around while playing it! It was a super fun experience!

24. Radioactive- Heres the bad side of band. My junior year, there was a solo in this song in marching band. We were allowed to audition for it. I tried so hard to get an audition with my band director. He kept saying to ask him tomorrow during pre camp. I said I could come in early, or I could stay late any day, but he kept blowing it off. He said I could do it first day of band camp. I asked when I got there, he said wait until tomorrow. The next day, he gave away the solo to his favourite person, and nobody even got to audition. He just chose his favourite. That really fucked with me. My senior year of highschool, the band director picked on me a lot too. There were so many problems in band, and he always blamed me. I was yelled at because I told the drum major we had to move because the susophones would run into a car if we didnt. I was yelled at for reporting drug use. I was going to kill myself because what was my life at that point was making me miserable. This is the first time i ever cut, this was the first time i wanted to die and i was going to act on it. Maria saved me, and i quit band. More on maria below. This song just reminds me of how fucked up the whole situation was.

25. Honeybee- This is the first of my people association songs! This one is for Maria, my sister. You aren't the first person I made a list of songs for and got one from love. Maria and I had the idea first. I felt it would help us get closer as sisters! This was when we were house sitting for rachael that we did this. The first time I didnt have nightmares was when we shared a bed and snuggled together. Honeybee was one of her songs. She saved me from band. She saved me from myself. She never really understood my depression, but she always helped. Shes also who I came out to first when I came out as trans. She helped me learn how to pass as a girl, and she accepted me for me. I've always loved talking to her, she'll always be one of the people I'm closest to. Shes family. Emily is too, that's my other sister. I dont have a song for Emily sadly, but she means the world to me too. Hell, if you want to know more about any of what I'm saying or more about these people, just ask me love and I'll tell you everything. You still have my number, and you can always message me on here.

26. Mona Lisa- This is my first of two for Rachael's songs. Rachael is the second person I came out to, and she helped me along with maria. I actually ran away from home on Christmas 3 years ago. My dad's girlfriend started yelling at me and I just ran away. I texted Rachael on Christmas Eve and she came and picked me up on the side of the road. I spent Christmas that year with her family and her. I spent next christmas there too. Rachael has always helped me through a lot. She also never really understood my depression, but shes always been a good friend.

27. Fox on the run- This is Rachael's other song. She used to pick me up every morning and take me to school. We would listen to music and chill together on the car ride, and this was one of the songs. I always treasured my time with her, and I often think back on those car rides.

28.Tattered Banners- This song is for Kris. I played dnd at a shop called Mishap Games while I was in high school. Kris was one of my friends there. One of the times I ran away, she got me. I spent the night at her apartment, and she introduced me to her dad, lastweektonight, and amon amarth. When I came out to her, we traded clothes. I gave her my old boy clothes cause she liked plaid, and she gave me the clothes that were too femme for her, and it's because of her I was able to dress the way I wanted to when I came out in high school. I'll always appreciate her for that.

29. Peace of Mind- These next 4 songs are associated with my dad. This one is a positive song. I would vibe with my dad and listen to his albums when we moved out. My mom cheated on my dad while I was in high school, and I chose to stay with him. He introduced me to so much rock music. Boston was one of my favourite bands of what he showed me. I still listen to them to this day and smile and think of the time I spent with my dad. It will always make me happy knowing he chose to spend so much time with me to make sure I was taking the divorce okay.

30. Paperback writer- my dad introduced me to the Beatles too. This song struck a chord with me because I wanna write books one day lmao. I love so many more of their songs too, i had a saxophone book of their music so i can actually play a lot of Beatles on sax too!

31. Pinball wizard- Yet another good memory with my dad. He got me hooked on music from the British invasion, so the who, the stones, the animals, the kinks, so many good bands he showed me! I love the time we spent together.

32. Cats in the cradle- Heres the negative of my relationship with my dad. I feel like he never really had time for me once he met deana and before the divorce. He spent more time with me when he and my mom split up,but then he just stopped. I really hope I didnt do anything wrong. Dad, if you ever read this, I'm sorry if me resembling my mom ever hurt or anything. I'll always love you dad, please pick up and call me back dad, please? I miss talking to you, I miss my dad. I know you're busy, but please? Just 5 minutes dad, please just call me if you ever see this I miss you. I love you dad. I learned a lot from you dad. I hope I'll make you proud of me, I hope I get to see you one last time before August 14th. It might be my last chance to see you. I love you dad, I hope you're proud of me.

33. Fireflies- This is my Gillian song. She fucked me up for years. She changed me. She wanted me to be her Ashe, and Ashe wasn't me. I didnt want to be Ashe but I loved Gillian. I let her change me as a person so that I could be good enough for her, but all she ever did was block me over and over, and unblock me and insult me. I dont know why I loved her so much but I did. She just tried to change me and I didnt want to change but I did for her. There's still a part of me that struggles to remember who I was before Gillian. I hate Ashe, I hope I never become Ashe ever ever again. I really never want to struggle like that again.

34. Imitation of Life- New theme! Let's talk about periods in my life. This was the song I listened to on an up. It gave me hope surprisingly. It taught me a lot about how to approach life. If you watch the video love, it keeps focusing on different scenes going on in a clusterfuck that is life. It just looks like a normal party at first, but there's so many little stories going on as the camera focuses on different parts. This song taught me theres a lot going on I cant see, and I should approach life assuming I dont know all the details. I need to focus on different parts, and then I'll see all the little things that make life beautiful.

35. Mr. Brightside- This is another up song for me! This song really helped me learn to smile and bear it. Like, this song helped me figure out how to smile again, and that if I smile more, life gets better and better the more I smile. It was just hard sometimes. I still struggle to smile, ya know love? You made me smile again though. You really helped me love!

36. Toxic- Fuck me sideways this song. I never have been in a good relationship, and this song kinda defines that. Everyone I've been with is toxic, and I shouldn't have loved them, but I did. I just was under their control. If any of the people that hurt me read this, I forgive you. You fucked me up, but I cant hold a grudge against anyone.

37. Monster- I truly believe I am a horrible person. A monster. I have never been able to do enough for anyone. I have never been able to make everyone happy. I have never been able to help everyone. I'm a disappointment. I'm a disaster who let's down her friends. I've never done enough for people and i can never go back and fix it. I can never save everyone. I can never help everyone. I wish i could help the world, but i feel incapable of doing that.

38. Kiri- This is another cry song. I spent hours in my room after school just with this blaring and crying my eyes out. I wished someone would save me. You have saved me though, love. You saved me from myself.

39. Bad Day- Lmao this song. Every time I had a shitty day I listened to this. I listened to this song every day for at least a year straight. Every day felt like a shitty day. Every single one. I just wanted to kill myself. I'm surprised I didnt. I still dont understand how I'm alive to this day. I dont know if I'll ever know how I kept going.

40. 11 minutes- This is one of the songs I associate with being ghosted. It feels like it always happened. I would make a friend, then a week later they just left me. I felt like I would always be alone. This was my college ghosting song. I made so many friends in classes, swapped numbers, then just nothing. I never heard from any of them ever again. I really felt worthless.

41. Telephone Line- My high school ghosting song. I had so many people promise me they would stay in touch. The only people from high school that talk to me are Maria and Rachael. Everyone else just doesnt care about me. And I get it. I'm worthless. It just hurts still. One person promised we would get together next summer, then when I texted her she ignored it, and posted not even a week later how happy she was to be back with everyone from high school.

42. In love with a killer- My first of 2 link songs. It's because of him I might go to jail, but more on that below. This song I associate with the abuse from him. He held me down, and cut his name into my back. He threw me on the floor and pissed on me and made me clean it with my tongue. He beat me. He stole my phone and texted people pretending to be me and made what few friends I had hate me. I lost everyone because of him. He just beat me and belittled me. He made me use my area even though I was uncomfortable. He made me give him head on his period, this he posted on his Facebook calling me a sissy. He only referred to me as his f*gg*t or his sissy or his fairy, he never let me have friends, and he cheated on me. He told me he only married me so he could own me. I fell for him though and I dont know why. He always said if I didnt mess up he wouldnt have to hit me and it made sense. If only I was better he wouldnt hit me.

43.Designed to Kill- my second link song. I tried to leave him once before we finally ended things. He had hickies on his neck. Since I tried to escape him, he said those hickies were strangle marks. I never hurt him. Hes a fucking bodybuilder and I cant open a pickle jar. I spent a week in jail and they put me with the men because of my area. Now I'm facing felony charges even though I didnt do anything to him. I was the one being beaten. If I go to jail, I'll be going to one where the guards dont patrol. I'll be killed. I'm so scared hes going to take my life from me.

44. Because of you- This is my rape song. When I was 5 or 6 (I cant remember what age) I was molested by a high school boy named Ryan. I never understood what he did to me and I still cant unpack it emotionally. When I went to college, I was raped in my ass with a toy by a trans guy, and I was raped by a nonbinary girl. When I went to the police, they called me the rapist since a penis cant be raped, it can only rape. Someone I was with threatened to post my nudes online. This song is about all of them, and about link too. This is the song I associate with all the pain I've felt because of it, and the fear I have whenever I walk anywhere alone.

45. Call me- this is my treatment song. When I was in college, I planned to kill myself on December 15th, at 3 am, exactly 3 hours after my birthday. I planned to jump out of the window of the 5th floor of muse hall on radford campus. I told my friend mary one day and she reported me to the police. I was put under EDO and sent to a residential home. There I met some really great friends I have since lost touch with. There was a Wii with just dance there,and this was the song we did most often when we played it. That treatment place was horrible. They held me for so long, promised one on one therapy sessions every day but we never got it, and I started the worst medication. It was supposed to help me with my eating disorder by giving me an appetite. Well, I never felt full. I ate until I puked because of it. But my friends helped me, and eventually I left. I'm not sure if that place really helped me or not, but the people did. After treatment, I spent a month at Rachael's house, then a month at Maria's, then I went back to school and moved dorms. It was after I went here I was raped.

46. Bo peep- fuck this animation just made me laugh. I love creepypasta so much, and the scp foundation. Seeing my fav creepypastas made me laugh so much when I needed it. I discovered this video and song and the next one while i was with link, and this made me smile at least for a bit.

47. Bad end- the other creepypasta song. This one actually inspired a book idea! I really hope I get the chance to finish it one day, but I'm not sure if I ever will. We'll see though, right love?

48. Intergalactic- This song I just really vibed with in college. Honestly this song and the next one are grouped together. I have a hard time thinking of why i like it or what it means to me, but it does mean something to me.

49. Echo- I love this band, they wrote my all time favourite song. This is just another song I felt needed to be on my playlist but there isnt any other reason for it.

50. Drake and Josh- omg this show. I grew up loving this show! It really helped define some of my childhood and listening to this song really makes me smile a lot!

51. Take a hint- Victorious was another of those shows for me. Honestly though I included this for another reason. So, you know I'm trans. This show sorta helped me realize it when I was growing up, but I never came out or rationalized it until I talked to maria my senior year of high school. Fuck, one time growing up I was on a fashion site looking at dresses because I really loved them and thought they were super pretty and I wanted them! My brother saw and told my parents I was looking at porn. I said I was because I was embarrassed I wanted to wear a dress. I remember in kindergarten being jealous of Jaycee for wearing this really pretty purple dress. I remember growing my hair out so maybe a girl would braid my hair randomly like they did to other girls. I remember playing dress up with Samantha in kindergarten and my grandmother walking in on it and I felt so embarrassed for enjoying it. I remember wishing I could he a Disney princess. I remember taking scissors to my area and wishing if I cut it off I would be a girl instead. I remember coming out to my sister and being so afraid she would hate me for it. I felt so ashamed for how I felt. I remember being bullied when I came out. I remember being cornered in the bathroom by a group of guys and they said they would make me inti a real girl. I remember screaming and fighting until a student came in and gave me the opportunity to run. I remember going to prom and leaving in tears as people were getting dared to kiss me. I remember being driven to therapy by my friend's husband. I remember him telling me I should go back to his place cause he knows what's tr*nn**s like me like. I remember being chased to my dorm from dnd one night. I remember everyone who's ever grabbed my ass or my chest. I remember being outed to so many people by a psycho old woman and I couldnt even go pee because of her. I wish life was easier, but so many people hate me because I'm a freak.

52. Cantina- New theme! This is how nerdy I am lmao. I've always loved stuff like star wars and dnd and star trek. Honestly this song hits weird. I remember watching the original trilogy with my dad and loving it. And my best friend, colton, could play this song on clarinet. He, Andrew, and I were really close. I kinda associate this song with them. Their mom died and colton walked in on her body. They moved away and I just felt so useless to them. I could never be there for them the way they needed me, I could never help them.

53. Doctor who- I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCHHHHHH. OMG I GREW UP SO MUCH WITH THIS SHOW. This was my escape in high school. I learned how to play the theme on sax too! I just always resonated with this show and it means so much to me.

54. Moonquest- This is my nerdy theme still, but now with youtubers. I've loved the yogscast all through college. Watching their videos really helped me after I was raped. It helped me take my mind off of things. This song really makes me smile to this day because of what the yogs did for me.

55. Diggy diggy hole- this song did the same for me what moonquest did, but this group is just so important to me. I love their content and they really did help me a lot. I got to escape through their videos.

56. All the way- I grew up watching jacksepticeye, he helped me get through highschool. My Irish accent is because of him too, I still like to try and do an impression. I loved growing up watching his stuff.

57. I'm back, baby-markiplier, omg markiplier. This was my first youtuber. I subbed to him I think when I was in 6th or 7th grade, and I didnt miss a video until I lost internet after I moved to the apartment with my dad. I still watch nearly all of his videos. Hes an escape that I really appreciate. He really helps me every day, and I really wish I could meet him so I could tell him his videos helped save me.

58. Fly like a butterfly- Markiplier also inspired me a lot. He made me believe in myself, and his message really makes me want to be the best I can be. I want to accomplish my dreams, and his videos made me feel like he believed in me. I really hope I can keep striving to be the best I can be. If you've never seen his videos love, I hella recommend them, same to his other channel unus annus.

59. Everybody wants to rule the world- NSP. Ninja Sex Party. Lmao this band. It's a rock comedy group. This song means a lot to me. It felt really inspirational when I heard it. NSP also has a really wholesome message behind them, and I believe in myself because of them too.

60. Party of 3- another amazing song by them. After I was raped, I really escaped into their music. And when I had a rough go of it in high school, I escaped to their music. They've always been a sort of relaxation band for me.

61. Baby, NYC- I actually got to see TWRP, Starbomb. And NSP perform in silver spring Maryland. It was one of the last things my dad and I did together, the other being watch thr sword art movie together. This band just means so much to me. I could've only used one song from them and gotten the same message across, but they're so important I felt like I needed more than one. I hope that makes sense love.

62. Smash- starbomb also means a lot to me. I remember the mornings my dad drove me to school I would listen to them on the way there with him. Their music was always really funny to me too, and I love the games they parodied.

63. Rivers in the desert- time for my nerdy videogame theme! Persona 5 royal is my favourite game of all time. The story is really moving, the characters are really well written (yusuke is bae), and it was just such a great experience to play. If you ever get the chance to play it love, I highly recommend it. Fuck I cried so much while playing it, it just means so much to me it's so good, in my opinion it's the perfect game for me.

64. Fairest one of all- This song I heard from SCGMD4! It's a rhythm game, and I've always wanted to show this song to someone I love.

65. Hollywise- this song is from Super Crazy Guitar Maniac Deluxe either 2 or 3. It also means a lot to me. This game series got me into rhythm games, and I spent so many hours on Kongregate just playing games like this. Before steam, this was my gaming website.

66. Cat- minecraft. Oh minecraft. I have so many fond memories of doing a LAN party at a friend's house or just playing modded with my lil friend group in high school. It's such a relaxing game, I can just mine for hours and just chill talking to someone. I love building villages too!

67. Zelda theme- I can play this on sax too! I loved watching the game grumps play the legend of zelda games, and I've always had a soft spot for them. I just kinda grew up with this series.

68. Evil woman- This song I remember from GTA IV. That game got me through some shit too, I honestly loved the story in it and it made me feel really good going through the story. It felt so real in a way. I played through it so many times.

69. Top secret- I watched patrckstatic play Maize. It's a really funny game and it made me laugh so hard! I still think of it whenever I listen to this song.

70. Skyrim theme- I sunk so many hours into skyrim. It felt a little samish after awhile, but it was still a great game!

71. Halo theme- Halo 3 was one of my first ever games after the gamecube. Now, why did I include so many short blurbs from video games? I didnt exactly write paragraphs about these like my previous songs. Well, gaming was and still is how I connect with a lot of people. I made friends in Britain, Lousiana, Portland, New York, I still keep in touch with some people through games, gaming has just always been a social thing for me and I grew up playing video games with friends. This music helps me remember that.

72. Wolf blood- this is my dnd song. In high school, I ran dnd club. I taught so many people how to play! I also went to a store I mentioned earlier, Mishap Games, and I played all day, every Saturday, for about 3 years. I played online and I ran groups. I played in college at radford. Dnd was my escape from life, where i could pretend to be some hero or villain character. I didnt have to be eden, I could just play a game with friends. I felt really good playing with people! If you ever wanna learn how to play love, or play together or anything, definitely let me know! I'd love to share a game I'm in love with with you!

73. Finally, Jump Up, Super Star- This is my favourite song. I've always wanted to show this song to someone and tell them how much I loved them. I've always wanted to show this song to someone who's more important to me than anyone else in the world. I've always wanted to show this song to someone who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and make them happy. I want to show this song to someone I'll always be there for. I wanted to show this song to someone I wanted to jump up with, without a care, someone I wanted to go on the odyssey of life with! My first ever post was me dancing to this song. This song means the world to me love. I really want you to know I'll always be there for you for as long as I'm alive. You mean the world to me. Come on, jump up in the air. Jump up because you know I'll be there for you. Everything will always be okay. I'm here for you. I know you're going through a rough patch love, but I'm here for you.

EDIT: 74. The Last Unicorn- This is the song from the movie the last unicorn. It's my favourite book of all time, it made me cry so hard! It's an amazing fantasy book that turns some tropes on it's head. It is a fantastic read I would 100% recommend so I dont want to spoil anything it's just amazing.

Now, why did I decide to post all of this today? Well I want you to know more about who I am, and what defines me. I hope I can get some explanations on the songs from your playlist too if you're ever up for it. I just wanted to share with you who I am. And I wanted a record of how I've felt to live on after I'm gone, if I do go away in August. Maybe you'll look back on my playlist and smile and remember me? Maybe Jump up will give you hope like it gives me. Maybe you can smile and jump up and just not have a care in the world. I really hope that songs has some meaning to you like it has for me, love.

Love always,

Eden ♥️♥️♥️♥️

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"Such a gentleman..." Mattie leaned in and nuzzled Guinness' forehead against hers.

"How about this as a thank you?" She gave his warm lips a peck.

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When the camera was turned on again, Jake was now the standing in front of the incenter view as he set it in position, zoomed in. Just like last time, it's vision was somewhat blocked, but unlike last time it appeared to be by stuffed animals. When the tall Brunette took a step back, it revealed a perfect shot of a large queen-sized bed with a big fuzzy purple flower patterned comforter and matching purple pillows. There were shelves above and next to the bed, due to the fact that it was focused on just the comfy looking mattress, it was hard to tell WHAT was on those shelves. Then the camera shut off. And turned on automatically, several hours had passed by then, the time stamp reading 10:30. Suddenly it became very clear who's room this is.

"C'mon Mat~." Jake purred while climbing up on top of the tall girl and rested his hand on her inner thigh. Mattie giggled as she playfully swatted his hand away.

"jaki stooop!" She squealed as the brunette gave her thigh a quick squeeze.

"Awwww! Mattie, baby, pleeeaaaase? I know you don't wanna do this until you're married-," He kissed the tall woman's neck. She moaned in response, and tilted her neck a little for him.

"But I wanna make you feel good~." He whispered as he slid his hand to the front of Mattie's nightshirt and unbuttoned the first four, letting her soft supple C sized breasts to fall out of the silky clothing for the camera to see. Matilda's eyes widened in fear, which didn't last long as her touchy boyfriend cupped the soft fleshy globes in his hands and rolled them, gently squeezing them. The tall girl let out an unwitting moan against her will, her eyes instinctively fluttering closed.

"Jake-! No! Wai-Wait! Sto-ahhhh~~~!!!" She cried as he pinched her right nipple, giving it a tug.

"Yeah~. You like that don't you baby girl~?" Mattie began to cry at this point, shaking her head at the utter horror of her body betraying her like this.

"Jake please!!" She hiccupped while trying and failing to pry his hands off of her chest.

"Please?" When he finally stopped, it was to pull Mattie into a passionate kiss. His eyes closed while here's were wide, terrified and alert. Which only got worse as Jake pulled down her night pants, and exposed her erection to the cool air. She sobbed loudly, her face red from humiliation. Tears dripped from her face, and she gave a loud unwilling moan as he began to stroke her cock in a fast paced manner, his thumb rolling over the sensitive tip. Jake broke the kiss with a breathless.

"God… Mattie, baby~." He pulled the trembling girl up onto his lap, speeding up his pace the more Mattie moaned and cried out. For a second, her wide and terrified chocolate eyes met the cameras, then she gave a shriek as she came onto her stomach. Leaving her curling over herself in a panting mess of painful sobs.

"Why….?" She whimpered, her voice hoarse from crying. Jake pretended to be confused and concerned.

"What, sweetheart?" He asked innocently and held her close.

"I-I asked you to stop…" Mattie hiccupped. She felt so filthy.

"I asked you to stop…!" At that Jake's blue eyes widened, and he held his supposed girlfriend close to his chest.

"O-Oh my God Mattie baby!" He cried out while Mattie continued to bawl and weep.

"I-I thought-FUCK!! I'm so sorry, sweetheart!" He held her close while the brunette whimpered and wailed. When Jack looked up at the camera, he dropped his distraught expression to give a little smirk. The camera shut off.

"HAPPY NOW YOU FUCKING BITCH!?!!" Jake hissed at attacker.

“An Unforgettable Meeting”

Siren au part 16!

Rp with my lovey @hes-a-rat-whisperer

“It’s such a pleasure to meet Guinness.” Felonious shook the small redheaded man with a bright smile before pulling out the chair for his wonderful boyfriend to sit down. He was dressed in a slimming dark green suit that matched his emerald eye, and his raven hair had been done up in a loose hanging braid, he allowed a few locks of it to hang down freely, which did a lovely job in framing his face.

“Gossy’s been talking so much about you and I have to say he did not disappoint!” The raven haired wendigo joked as he kissed Gosgo’s cheek.

“And I’m so sorry about having to keep postponing our meet up, I’ve been busy helping out with my friends’ wedding.”

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Do you take requests for fanfics? If you do, can I request a Branch x Poppy fic? I had this idea where they were already in a relationship but Poppy doesn't think she's attractive so she tries to seduce Branch. Branch catches on but he doesn't think Poppy is doing it on purpose so he tries to calm himself until finally they just admit their needs to each other and end up doing it. I'm so sorry. Please make it really sweet too with lots of kisses~~~ I hate myself for this ahhhh

There you go anon, sorry for the long wait, I’m really slow when I write fanfictions! But I hope this Smut (r18) is good enough and, most important, cute enough! :)

Troll'sfanfiction: -Reflection-

Poppylooked her own, naked reflection in her mirror with a serious andjudging look. Her pink, graceful eyes, her two beautiful orbs, alwayscurious and excited about everything. Her fluffy, long and silkyhair, that smelt like strawberries and fresh flowers. Her thin,elegant and positive face, covered in glittery and numerous freckles,that seemed a clear and starry sky. Her body, her slim and perfectfemale body; everything about her was absolutely perfect, the gentlecurve of her seductive hips, her muscular legs and thighs, heralluring structure, everything. If she just asked a random Trollabout her look, he or she would surely say: “You are sobeautiful!”, “You look gorgeous!” or even “What are youtalking about!? Your body is indeed perfect!”.

So,she was pretty... wasn't she?

TheQueen of the Trolls sighed with tiredness, forlorn, her head wasexploding and those sad thoughts and doubts, threatening and darklike a stormy cloud, were bugging her already busy mind. She caressedher own soft and pink skin with her hands, thoughtful. Poppy alwaysliked the way she looked very much, she didn't really care about herweight or her height, she was who she was, and liked it that way. Sheeven thought she was a really pretty Troll, well... until now.

Suddenly,two strong and muscular arms wrapped around her naked waist, tight,protective and loving as usual, and Poppy chuckled softly as sherecognized the playful blue and green male behind her. “Hello,Branch. Did you sleep well?” the Queen whispered, greeting herboyfriend with a happy look and shivering slightly when his biggerhand brushed, obviously unconsciously and with innocence, against thesensitive skin of her groin. Maybe... maybe today was the right day,maybe now, in that sunny morning, he would take her into his beefyarms, lied her on their shared bed and finally, finally connecttheir more-than-ready (hers, at least) bodies in the most intimateway known. But it didn't happen, of course; Branch gave her a fast,too fast and chaste kiss on her left cheek, then let her free fromhis beloved grip.

“Oh,I did. And what about you, Pops?” the blue and green Troll smiled,his light blue eyes shining into hers, not looking at her naked andattractive form at all, to her displeasure and disappointment. Whenthe ex-survivalist got a shaky nod as answer, he shrugged with asweet grin and said: “I would love to have breakfast with you, mylove, but I have a lot of work to do today, ugh. I still need to helpour friends with their pods. But I promise I'll be back beforedinner. I love you.” he concluded, putting on his leafy vest andwaving at her one last time, leaving the Queen alone and with a bighole inside her heart.

Itwas always like that. The happy couple slept together in their comfy,colorful bed, inside their safe and romantic pod, cuddling each otherand sometimes kissing lightly during the night, those slow butterflykisses that the female appreciated and loved, yeah, but that couldn'tsatisfy her needs, but they never went all the way or did somethingmore “private” to the other. When Poppy tried to go just a littlefurther, kissing his neck or maybe lightly rubbing the throbbingcrotch of his pants, Branch would just gently part from her lips,push her away, smile and say with a quiet tone: “Alright, let's goto sleep now.”, as he didn't like her body, as he was disgusted orrepulsed by her person. What was wrong with him?

Poppygroaned with frustration, sitting on the floor with a loud “thud”and looking at her reflection again, a hand up under her chin. “Ilove Branch with all my soul, and I am ready to have sex with him...and so he is, I'm sure of it.” theQueen frowned, remembering the cold nights when she heard Branchwhispering and moaning her name right into her round ears, she knewhe was having a damn good wet dream, and his hard erection pushingagainst her covered back or behind when he slowly thrusted his pelvison instinct. “Maybe I'm pushing him too much into this?Am I going too fast...? I don't think so. Come on, we've beentogether since... at least seven months, I just want him to touchme!”.

Yeah,the always-happy Queen had to do something about it, as soon aspossible; Poppy had to know if Branch had some serious problems withher body, if he didn't like her that much after all, she wasdeterminated to figure that out. Even if the answer she was lookingfor would hurt her or broke her heart.

Poppychased those thoughts away once again, those brooding fuckers neverleft her alone during those days, carelessly caressing hercurvilinear hips and thinking about it until, finally, somethinginside of her snapped. “Very well, my dear Branchie.” the Queengot up, her expression determinated and her magenta eyes burning withdesire and assertiveness. “You don't like my body so much? Well...tonight, when you come back home, I'll seduce you 'till you'll begme to have a ride.”.

...

Thatwarm evening the excited and dynamic population of the Troll Tree wascompletely silent, almost sleepy, the forest was very dark and allthe animals, big and small, predators and preys, were already intotheir hidden dens, safe and protected from the dangers of the night.A little blue and green Troll, 4.3 inches high, was quickly walkingtowards a big, pink pod, breathing heavily through his big nose andlooking dead tired. “Man, what a long, long day I've had...” hemumbled to himself, his voice still a bit grumpy and his light blueeyes half-lidded, his muscles stirred and his back aching because ofall the work the others gave him. “I'm happy that so many Trollsneed my help... but this is too much, even for one like me...”Branch yawned, absolutely without strenght, lazily climbing on theTree's bark and reaching his and Poppy's pod. “At least now I'llbe able to see Poppy, I can't wait to hold her in my arms and sleepfor at least ten hours.” he thought with a small and cozysmile, entering their home silently. “Ehy Pops, I'm home! Beforedinner, as I promised-” the blue Troll's deep voice died rightthen, along with his calm, when he stepped into their fluffy pod. Thelights were all... off? That was strange, really strange. What ifsomething bad... happen to the always-positive Queen!? “P-Poppy!?Where are you!? Pops, answer me, I beg you!” Branch immediatelypanicked, suddenly finding very hard to hold on to his newfoundcolors, looking everywhere, searching for the love of his life;Branch's old, worried and grumpy self never really left him, he waswho he was and he knew it too, and now that part of him was comingout. “P-Poppy, if this is a stupid joke, I'm not laughing at all,i-it's not funny...” the ex-survivalist started to tremble, and healmost sob in fear, until he felt two smaller arms gently wrappingaround his quite chubby waist, making him sigh with great relief.“You almost gave me an heart attack!”.

“Donot worry you grumpy dork, I'm not going anywhere without you, youcan bet on it.” Poppy whispered in his pointy and sensitive leftear, making her boyfriend shiver, and then the Queen got off andturned the lights on. “This was supposed to be a surprise, but youare a scaredy cat sometimes. No fun at all.” she chuckled deeply,the strong light revealed her still naked and scented body. “Comehere on the bed, Branchie. Let's talk for a minute before we eat.”.

Orbefore I eat ya.

“O-ok...”the young male nodded, a bit unsure and somehow wary, following thepink girl's instructions and sitting right beside her, still notlooking at her beautiful and attractive form; sometimes he indeedwanted to look at her, sometimes the temptation was more than hecould stand, and that scared him a lot. Branch wouldn't have touchedher, he was waiting for her permission or maybe... he was waiting forhis own mind to be ready for something like that. “So uh... how wasyour day, Pops? Mine was tiring and long. Did you do something coolor entertaining with your classes and your friends?” he asked,tapping his thick toes on the ground, feeling like a hunted prey.What was wrong with her? Poppy was looking at him with an odd andkinda lewd expression, licking her dry mouth as she was doing so.

“Oh,pretty sure I had a pretty good day, my love. Thanks for askinganyway.” the Queen stirred her arms, resting one of her hands onhis lap and grabbing him by his leafy vest with the other one. “Imissed you so much.” Poppy then whispered, pressing her lips on herboyfriend's in a fierce and deep kiss, pushing her tongue insidewithout hesitation while rubbing the crotch of his ragged pants withher smaller hand.

“Mpgh!?”Branch's light blue eyes snapped open as he moaned in the kiss, hisheartbeat speeded up considerably and his cheeks became dark red, abig blush that covered even his ears. “Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold yourhorses Pops, what do you think you're doing?” he questioned,pushing her off from his own, hot and boiling body genly and tiltinghis big head with slight fear and intimidation.

“Nothingat all, Branch...” Poppy purred with a naughty tone, her handsstill rubbing his muscular torso, sweaty waist, legs, covering asmuch fluffy skin as she could and focusing on his sweetest spots,which she knew really well: his ears, his neck, his back and hips.“I'm just touching my boyfriend's body. Is it so wrong in youropinion?”.

“Poppy,you are very strange tonight. Come on, let me go now.” Branch triedto push her away once more, controlling himself, struggling a littleto get free from her tight and affectionate grip. “We both shouldgo to sleep, we are obviously dead tired and I think you're justbiased by your current state. Let's sleep.”.

Somethinginside the royal Queen snapped, really hard this time, and sheslapped the male's face with considerable strength, leaving himshocked and traumatized, with a visible mark across his cheeks.Unable to control herself, as opposed to the ex-survivalist, andcompletely mad and enraged, Poppy got up and yelled right in front ofhis chubby and throbbing face: “Ok, Branch! This needs to fuckingstop, right now! Tell me! Tell me how much I disgust you,then I'll punch you in that big nose you got and kick you out of mypod, leaving you outside!” she quickly concluded, cracking herknuckles and lifting an arm, threatening the guy. “Tell me! NOW,SPEAK!”.

“W-Wha-W-Whatare you talking about, Poppy!? W-why did you h-hit me!? What's wrongwith you tonight!? You're overreacting!” Branch asked babbling,absolutely terrified, backing away from his furious girlfriend withshaky movements: never mess with Poppy when she was angry like that,NEVER, if you wanted to live another day and maybe see the daylightagain.

“Oh,I am overreacting!? Let me explain the situation then, it's beenseven months and I think it's finally time to let you know!” thepink Troll screamed and cursed under her breath, pointing anaccusatory finger to him, keeping up her attack. “Everytime I tryto be closer to you, to have sex with you, you just push meaway like I've got the plague! The question is: what is wrong withyou? First you tell me that you love me, and then... you seemsickened by me, disgusted. I wanna know why: is it me? Or is it you,Branch? 'cause I'm so tired! I'm tired of this, I wanna know thethruth, even if it'll hurt me or break my heart! Everything would bebetter than this!” her smaller body shook because of thenervous and the tension she had accumulated during those months, hereyes were a little bloodshot and teary, and she punched the bed.“I... I love you, Branch. I really do, and I'm not afraid to showyou that. But maybe you don't feel the same anymore.” Poppywhispered, a few tears streaming down her face, her rage suddenlyturning into sadness and sorrow. “I-I wanna be left alone now. Ifyou wanna leave now it's fine, I just want to think about thiswithout you around a-and-”.

“No,no, no! Poppy, my love, you've got it all completely wrong! I'm sosorry, this is all my fault!” Branch jumped up and ran into herarms, hugging her tightly to his chest and mentally slapping himselffor having been so stupid and blind. He was an idiot. A total idiot.“How could I have been such a fool? The thruth is that I was scaredand dumb. I was so scared that I couldn't even see what you werefeeling, despite your silent signals. I... I thought you didn't wantme. And I wasn't ready, too. But don't doubt me when I say that Ilove you with all my heart and soul.” he whispered with a sweetvoice, holding her elegant face and pressing a soft kiss on her lips.“I love you.”.

TheQueen relaxed under Branch's touch, sniffed and kissed him back, withmore passion and desire, nuzzling his purple nose with affection. “Ithought you didn't like my body.”.

“Howcould I despise your body? You are the most beautiful creature I'veever laid my eyes on. I-it's not that I've never thought about doingsomething like that with you, I wanted to. Believe me.” thegreenish Troll smiled softly, kissing the ex-Princess' cheeks,forehead, closed eyes and neck. He suddenly blushed a bit,remembering Poppy's harsh words and proposing: “And, if you want meto, I'd be glad to unite my body to yours tonight. I am ready now.”.

“...Pff, unite your body with mine? What a nice and innocent way toexplain sex, Branchie! I should bring you to my school to teach sexeducation to the kids, they'll love you!” Poppy bursted intolaughter, giving him butterfly kisses on the lips and grabbing hisgreen vest, slowly taking it off and exposing his fluffy chest andcaressing it with assertiveness. “Are you sure you're ready forthis right now? I mean, I could wait if you're feeling uncomfortableabout it. A few days or maybe a few weeks won't change anything, am Iright?”.

“N-no,I don't wanna wait. No more. We are adults, I'm not a child.”Branch shivered deeply when her small hands started to roam aroundhis chiseled hips, chest and waist, heading secretly towards a lowerspot. “I-I need you. Let's do this.”.

“Verywell, brave boy.” the pink Queen smirked and snickered, taking holdof his dirty and worn-out pants and removing them with a swiftmovement, revealing Branch's blue-greenish manhood, already half hardand throbbing with anticipation. “I promise you, you're sogonna love it.” she purred, kissing his lips once more whilegrabbing her boyfriend's dick, moving her hand up and down to make itfully hard as soon as possible. She needed him, she needed to feelhim inside herself.

Branchlet out a strong moan when her warm palm came into contact with thesensitive skin of the tip of his rod, and his pelvis thrusted backagainst her touch on instinct, riding his pleasure. “I. Love. You.”the future King said between every tender kiss, their tongues dancingaround each other with grace and complete trust. “Every. Single.Facet. Of you. It's. So. Beautiful.” he said, caressing her alreadynaked body with care and delicacy, like she was made of crystal orprecious stones.

“A-ah.G-get inside of me, Branch. Now.” Poppy whined loudly, pushing theblue male on her body, between her long and slim legs, on theirmattress. “Make love to me, I need you.” she begged with teary,magenta eyes, writhing and moving her pelvis to help him, to help herbeloved boyfriend to finally get inside her most intimate part. Oh,and he did.

Theirsweaty bodies fit perfectly into each other, like two pieces of apuzzle, Branch thought using the poor sense he had at that exactmoment, and he caressed the pink female's freckled cheeks while hewas deeply sinking into her in a fast but gentle move, doingsomething so intimate and unforgettable with his Queen, his Poppy,his love. “M-mh...” the greenish Troll grunted, wrapping hisrather short and blue hair around Poppy's pink and longer one, in atight and lovely embrace. “D-does it hurt, Pops?” he asked, a bitworried, closing his orbs and focusing on not-freaking-cumming rightthen because, my God, he was already so close. “D-do you want me topull out?”.

“N-notat all, it's perfect. You're perfect. Gosh Branch, just thrust...”Poppy moaned in ecstasy, her womanhood dripping wet liquid thatlubricated them both, her hips moved against the boy's, encouraginghim to bounce or do whatever he'd like to do, preferably fucking her.The Queen lifted his head and kissed the ex-survivalist once again,tilting her head and rubbing his pointy ears, his most sensitiveerogenous zone. “T-thrust!”.

Branch'spelvis followed her instructions, and he hugged her to his chest,enjoying the feeling of her fluffy, pink skin against him and herfast breathing against his neck. “A-ahhh...” he whimpered,nibbling Poppy's earlobe with his rather sharp teeth, covering herwith his body in a protective way.

“F-fuck!Faster!” the royal girl mewled with a big grin under hisconsiderable weight, gripping his arched back and sinking her nailsinto his thick epidermis, but not hard enough to make him actuallybleed. She tilted her blurred head back, their hips rubbing againsteach other stimulated her swollen and red clit: the little nub didn'twait to show its great appreciation, sending strong waves of pleasureinto her shaky form, leaving the Queen breathless and making hercontract around his rod. “W-why did we wait so much!? I-it's soamazing! Awh!”.

“P-Poppy!I-I'm gonna cum!” the greenish male wailed and drooledunconsciously on her torso, pushing into his girlfriend with fullstrength and speed, perceiving a certain warmth and pressure in hisgroin area, ready to burst; being a virgin was a disadvantage forBranch, he was incredibly sensitive and dammit, underneath him therewas the sexiest Troll in the whole world. So he couldn't help butopen his mouth and let out a very, VERY loud scream, which probablywoke up a few neighbor Trolls, when he reached his yearned peak, hiswarm seed coating the Queen's insides and his manhood spasmingpleasurably for ten seconds. “Ah-ahh...”.

Despitehe was done and tired, the blue Troll continued to thrust, undauntedand determinated to make her come as well, taking advantage of thefact that his moist and dripping cock was still hard enough to be“used”, but he had to be very quick.

Luckily,after a few more movements, Poppy arched her back, moaning his nameat the top of her lungs and letting everything out: “B-BRANCH!”.Her voice echoed inside their cozy pod, shocks of ecstasy caressingher whole form for at least a minute.

…

Thecolorful and royal couple laid there on the bed, one into the other'sarms, cuddling and kissing softly their exhausted limbs and faces,whispering sweet nothings and lovely words. “You know, I was afraidbefore... you know, this. And that was weird, I'm never afraid.”Poppy gestured to their current situation, nuzzling into his chestand closing her magenta eyes. “Anyway, I was afraid I wasn't cuteor attractive in your eyes. Sometimes I couldn't even look at my ownreflection.”.

“Again,I'm truly sorry about that. But I hope I'll make you feel lovedeveryday of your life, as you deserve.” Branch kissed the top ofher head, comforting his girlfriend and looking at the near mirror:he saw their beautiful reflection, they were together, with smallsmiles on their visages, in the aftermath of the prelude of theirdeep and real love. “And what about this reflection? Is itgood?” the ex-survivalist questioned, rubbing her behind with hisbig, left hand and glaring at her with slight amusement.

“Mhh,what about this one? Let's see... Mhh no, I don't think it's cute orgood, sadly.” the Queen mumbled jokingly and stirred, looking atthat intimidating glass plate with serious eyes. Suddenly, shebursted into sincere laughter, kissing his lips and saying, with themost beautiful smile on his face: “I think it's perfect.”.

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