#i'm sick rn so like. it's not like getting the schedule ahead of time or anything like that would help me rn but. i wouldn't CURRENTLY have

[zemnarihah]

sorry but like if my schedule isn't given to me until two weeks in advance sometimes not even then i feel like i should be able to call out w no penalties like.... a week in advance. but at my job even if i request time off MONTHS in advance it's not always guaranteed. like that is literally enough time for you to hire and train someone to cover for me. it's actually insane

[robbie-roo]

I've been sick for 2 weeks and I need to recount my fun little trip to the doctor on Monday

so I call to schedule an appointment as soon as she picks up the phone I have a fucking coughing fit I get all scheduled it's all good I go to the health center on campus it's all free through my insurance I get to the waiting room I get seen right away everything is GOOD it's all good

so the RN is checking me in checking my vitals as she is taking my temp and blood pressure she like trips over the plug and is like "that's weird your heart rate is really slow" not realizing it was losing power...

anyways she starts going through all the questions she asks me if I drink and I answer honestly then she asks me if I do recreational drugs and I again answer honestly because I don't want any drug interactions and then she asks me that same question a total of three times?? to the point where I'm wondering like if she's trying to give me a chance to lie

and near the end she's like "oh can I check your throat" and when she does literally says "huh... weird" so I'm like ?!?!? but she then explains there's no irritation like she expected but an RN saying "weird" is a little unsettling

anyways then she goes "I'm gonna go get Dan" no like Dr. no explanation to who Dan is just- Dan (who spoiler alert- is the doctor)

So I'm waiting and then this kid my age comes in and he's like "hey I'm a student in training I'm gonna go ahead and get this going for you" starts doing an exam and mentions my right lung is all crackley and sounds like it's struggling lol but not to me no no to Dan who comes in later and introduces himself

Then Dan listens to my lungs and then goes on to reccomend an X-ray and literally as he is walking out the door adds "oh is it a dry cough or a wet cough?" and I explain I'm like coughing shit up and he goes "oh in that case I'll also put in for an antibiotic and cough medicine"

like if he forgot to ask I would have just been walking around with a URI unmedicated???? Healthcare is scary...

anyways kinda a boring story but damn Dan...

[zorosmalewife]

chain reaction upd8

The first round of edits on chapter 8 is done! My beta will read tomorrow, I'll do a final pass, and then we're good to post Sunday on schedule!

RN, it's looking like I MIGHT be able to post chapter 9 on time, though it may be a few days late. After that, I will probably take a week or two off, because I work a LOT in the middle of December. I think I will, perhaps, post 9 a week late, to give myself more time to get ahead. This will depend on how much writing I can get done in the next week and a half.

I have been writing today, though! I've been diligently working on the timeskip! This wasn't intended, but some of the scenes I've written / started have become continuous, which wouldn't be a problem if there wasn't also POV switching. I've decided to use line breaks to delineate this! One line break will mean it's just a change of POV, while two will mean there's a skip forward in time! I'll add these to the list below (as they take form in the doc LOL) using slashes

I've updated the abridged outline and also added VERY tentative chapter breaks. The end of chapter 9 is the only one that I'm fairly certain on, the rest are all there based on the Vibes of the scenes I have planned. Depending on how long they end up being in practice, things could change dramatically. If this breakdown comes to fruition, there will be 16 chapters total.

Scenes, in tentative order:

1 - decides [COMPLETE] 2 - contact [COMPLETE] 3 - FD 1 - decision [WIP] // 4 - S 1 - fruit [COMPLETE] / 5 - handprints [WIP] -> this is going to include porn probably? I'm wondering if I should also delineate sex so people can skip it if they so choose. Tho I will say the piece has always been rated E because I always intended to write smut, partially because the original has smut, and also because I like writing smut for these two and I wanna do more stuff with them... IDK. There WILL be sex, either way, I just need to sort the logistics INTERLUDE - FD 2 - together -- predicted end of chapter 9 & start of chapter 10 -- 6 - alpha INTERLUDE - S 2 - distraction 7 - farm INTERLUDE - FD 3 - wine 8 - haki INTERLUDE - S 3 - practice 9 - camping INTERLUDE - FD 4 - setup 10 - nails -- predicted end of chapter 10 & start of chapter 11 -- INTERLUDE - S 4 - mihawk 11 - spearfishing INTERLUDE - FD 5 - baths 12 - trust INTERLUDE - S 5 - wrestling -- predicted end of chapter 11 & start of chapter 12 -- 13 - solidarity INTERLUDE - FD 6 - nipples 14 - honest answer INTERLUDE - S 6 - mihawk 2 15 - love INTERLUDE - FD 7 - sacrifice -- predicted end of chapter 12 & start of chapter 13 -- 16 - charades INTERLUDE - S 7 - real 17 - cold INTERLUDE - FD 8 - cringe 18 - sick INTERLUDE - S 8 - N/A 19 - cooking INTERLUDE - FD 9 - recovery -- predicted end of chapter 13 & start of chapter 14 -- 20 - it all comes spilling out. INTERLUDE - S 9 - unseen 21 - reunion INTERLUDE - FD 10 - music 22 - future INTERLUDE - S 10 - unequivocal victory 23 - hair INTERLUDE - FD 11 - …? -- predicted end of chapter 14 & start of chapter 15 -- 24 - legacy INTERLUDE - S 11 - animals 25 - ok stud. INTERLUDE - FD 12 - announcement

[broomswept-thoughts]

Sigh, wish I didn't get so pissed off when plans aren't smoothed out ahead of time. I know it's not Tammy's fault but it irritates me so much ugh idk why. Maybe because I have to do more work? To figure stuff out? Maybe also because it makes me irritated that I need to figure out food stuff and it'll be more expensive if I eat out but I don't want to bother my parents so I would rather not eat at all, but it wouldn't have had to be like this if they had told me ahead of time. I guess I'm pissed because I'm not feeling entirely forgiving right now and I believe that it's because of their personal faults rather than maybe situational reasons. I don't know what the reason or why this is the way it is, so I shouldn't presume the worst about people. I think I might also be kinda prickly around Prashit's housemates in general, still. Unfortunately it's gonna take some time for me to really like them/ not treat them coldly because I don't want to get along with them. But I think I just have to treat them politely. Idk why I'm tryna 強がって and be standoffish, I think maybe it's just a form of passive aggressiveness against Tammy for putting me into this situation even though I voluntarily said I'd go. I wasn't feeling particularly mean or tired or prickly when I said that I'd come but I think I'm just tired and feeling ambiguous/ still like a watery and wet emotional fetus rn.

I'm pretty much more or less over Duncan, but yeah. I'm not feeling particularly incentivized to be close with anyone other than people I know and like already. I guess being super closed off doesn't help anyone but. I'm feeling kinda tired of people I don't already have a strong connection with at least rn. Sorta just... Wanna rest. Do absolutely nothing or at least not much emotionally. I'm kinda tired of weird texting games and conversations, it just feels... Idk, I'm doing what I can but it's hard with people who aren't similar like me in online convos (like Camellia or Kryssy). Karin is okay nowadays but having radio silence for days just makes me *throws hands up*. Like what conversation is this, pigeon mail lol. I think talking on the phone or sth would be faster and more like.... Idk real? I'm just kinda sick and tired. Of inconsistent and/or hot and cold talking. I'm officially done; Idc if it's too much, I reply quickly because that's my personality unfortunately. But how quickly or often the other person wants to talk is up to them. Its not sth I'm gonna bother with anymore. Or value too much, or as anything more than a pastime.

I think back to the whole scheduling thing, I think I've noticed that I really dislike changing my schedule last second. Maybe I just hate flakiness with a passion lol. But I get irritated and maybe a part of it is because I feel that I'm not being valued? Or valued enough to have my time taken seriously? Which is a valid concern but also I think it stems from insecurity. I think about flakiness from Karen, because that made me kinda depressed. Like oh......... Maybe I wasn't that important to her after all. Idk it was hard because she was going through trauma and stuff but. I think seeing her hang out with ither friends instead sort offffffffff made me feel like I might not be as close to her as I thought? I guess this also plays into other insecurities like from being ghosted and stuff. But maybe that's why I get so prickly about plans being changed suddenly; maybe I'm conflating being steady with plans as valuing me as a person vs being flaky/ constantly changing plans as not being valued and/or being seen as just someone casual/ not that important. It might not be that deep, but I think if this insecurity combines with other insecurities like jealousy and envy over being alone, insecurity over not dating anyone, and insecurity of being abandonned by a close friend, it becomes a lot more toxic.

[punkscowardschampions]

Edie & Diego

Edie: Aygo! I got a pitch, you buying? Diego: give me more to go on Edie: oh yea, you too young to know how it usually goes on casting couches, my bad lil homie Edie: you got any super 8 atm? Diego: Can get some Diego: a day or two? Edie: what u gotta clear ur schedule big man Edie: u on ur business boi respect Edie: well, i think we could do most of it in a day buuuuuuut i gotta secure a car to trash and i haven't convinced iggy he don't need that fuckin' hippie van so that'll be another day as and when, ye? Diego: I can give you that Diego: on your own with the car situ Edie: ye ye ye i won't get u in the shit Edie: what kinda big sister would i be?! Edie: but, similar vein, don't tell mum and dad where we shooting okay Edie: you'll be safe with me but they'd never sign off on it ya feel Diego: understood Diego: where we going? Edie: don't u like surprises? 😜 Diego: hard no Diego: get a car that goes so we can store the equipment before killing it I'd like that Edie: What about ones you can't hear, better or worse? cos I've got some fireworks that might be cool Edie: you don't like surprises but you wanna DIE Edie: boi i can't drive! Edie: I'll see if I can get someone to take us but if not, hitch ur wagon to my pushbike Edie: just like old times n'awwh Diego: I'll steer you do the pedals Diego: fireworks smell bad but I won't do fart jokes if you want the colours Edie: if we find a motor that runs Edie: know there's one that the O'Dwyer lads left under that dodgy underpass Edie: but I say we got only so long 'fore that's completely fucked/burned out Edie: time's a wasting boyo Diego: Can be ready day after tomorrow if you are Edie: not a cult classic but how you rate it? jake's usually a fittie but he's pretty dorky in that Diego: the special effects were bomb for the era Diego: I can give you the same commercial success with my skills Edie: dope 💎 Edie: i'll storyboard lowkey for u but i'm happy for it to be mostly in the moment real shit Edie: u can use editing magic after if ur so inclined lil dude Diego: send me the song Diego: I'll get a feel Edie: hoe u best hop on my soundcloud rn Edie: gimme them listens Edie: EDieM as you clearly forgot 😤 Edie: newest track on there Diego: I remembered how to sign it, giving you that promo to my friends, but yeah Diego: confusion Diego: you're you're name sign to me Edie: 🙌 ayo, jokes aside about being a musician with a load of deaf fans Edie: always amping that bass up so should be feeling it literal Diego: capitalise Diego: nobody else is Diego: take the silent disco concept and make it fresh Edie: 💸💸💸 Edie: i'm into it Edie: fuck the mainstream, making music for the kids at places like ur school n mine n all the other's who a lil fucked up Diego: Put that into your storyboard Edie: 😏 Edie: mightbebreakingintomyschool Edie: itseasyandriskfreedoneitbefore Edie: hey, d'ya reckon we could get our hands on some hearing aids and shit Edie: not about to suggest we break into your school, more to nick=not worth it Diego: Old people's home? Edie: yassss Edie: shame our grandparents are young as shit and we love 'em enough not to do it to 'em Edie: i'll give 'em a free performance, they'd LOVE that Diego: ma has my baby stuff kept cos she loves me real deeply Diego: won't be enough but its a start Edie: 🙄 lowkey a hoarder Edie: imma make billie n her go round all the antique shops, keep an eye out for those real old school ear trumpets Edie: that'd be sick Diego: my teacher has one of those! ill ask if we can borrow it Diego: he loves showing it around Edie: 👏 i've got a vision so hard now Edie: u can ask if any of ur friends wanna be in it but we'll have to do that 'round here Edie: look like pied piper paedo taking too many of yous away on a jolly Edie: esp. with a 🎥 in tow Edie: lord help me Diego: I'll do seamless cuts Diego: there's a girl that NEEDS to be in it Edie: I see how it is Edie: ur REAL muse Edie: better not be too cute, stealing my shine Edie: i'm the ⭐ remember Diego: Understood Diego: She's a good singer if you do need backup Diego: [Sends her soundcloud] Edie: oooooookuuurrr lil mama Edie: i see u Edie: if she's down then we can make it happen sure Edie: get you your boo thang 😍 Diego: I'll ask Diego: don't out me Edie: gon' get all shy? Edie: use your director swag Edie: just don't get #metoo wid it, Tarantino, alright? Diego: She's shy Diego: and with that voice Edie: or playing it Edie: best be chill then lil one Diego: You think she's faking coy? Edie: meh, might be too young to know how Edie: but that's what girls do Diego: do you? Edie: i'm not telling u all my signature moves! Edie: depends Edie: lots of lads don't like it if a girl is funnier, more mouthy and opinionated than they are, if that's what you're after, then sure Edie: some boys want that at the start, so they can 'tame' you and have that on their ego, so you end up pretending later Edie: but you'll get it as you grow Diego: Everyone's thinking too hard Diego: I just like her, she's nice and funny and talented Edie: you sweet sweet child Edie: don't ever grow up k Edie: once u hit 10, 11, you'll be a right dickhead Edie: always happens, the girls usually a bit before 'cos we're always ahead of yous Diego: Are not! Diego: and I'll be sick when I'm older you mean Edie: are so! Edie: we'll see Edie: not in my experience but prove me wrong Diego: I'll be the first Diego: Be ready Edie: 😂 believe it when i see it Edie: guess Junie isn't so bad but that's 'cos he's gay Edie: its different Diego: He's not? Edie: oh yeah shh Edie: keep that under your hat Edie: deal with that one later Diego: more importantly Diego: half the school want to be in this Diego: they're telling me Edie: ✋ hahaha yes brotha Edie: can do so much more with a full cast Edie: i'll make sure its fun, even if they can't come for the illegal bits Edie: love these kids, so hype 😂 Diego: im loving the song Diego: Feeling it Edie: forreal? Edie: u can be brutal, my ego can take it 😉 Diego: don't need Diego: it's bomb Edie: knew u was my fave Edie: feel free to rub it in w the others Diego: They'll state me a liar Diego: but you're on to something with these beats and you need to be told Edie: i got ya back Edie: i'll start bein a real cunt to 'em sharpish, like Edie: no room for doubt lmao Edie: gotta when u gassin' me up so hard Diego: ulterior motives Diego: can I use some of the footage for school Diego: If it turns out it's one less essay Edie: 'course you can Edie: its probably not all gon' be sfw, don't need the 'rents saying i got u in shit as prev. mentioned, but the salvageable shots, go for your life Diego: I'll do extra editing don't want you in the same trouble Diego: I'm trying to film what we do much as the whole fam'll stand it Diego: personal project Edie: Fair 'nuff, fill your boots Edie: I ain't camera shy Edie: And Rio and Gracie can't pretend they are either Edie: always pouting looking like braindead fish 😂 Diego: Got a mountain of footage of them already Diego: Only been doing a few days sly Diego: I want Billie's vibe but I can't catch her Diego: Iggy same Edie: Shoulda known 😂 Edie: yeah good luck with the rest, either too busy for the fam or moody lil fuckers Edie: take ya pick Edie: self included usually obvs but you know, wanna do this music thing proper so Edie: got 🍀 kid Diego: arrgh Diego: facts Diego: I'll keep at it Diego: maybe I'll strike it with them Edie: get gus to round 'em up Edie: hard to say no to Diego: Now that's an idea Diego: Bound to work Edie: i'd pay for that energy Edie: i do 😂 Diego: hahahah Diego: put a price on it Edie: if i could bottle what he has i'd be laughing Edie: don't give a shit what nobody thinks man, what a cool kid Diego: his piss bottles itself some of the time Diego: you're there Edie: ya nastys Edie: secured a ride Edie: ur equip is welcome Edie: but i gotta go now, favour fo' favour Diego: I'm in too then Diego: don't do anything I wouldn't Edie: 👌 Edie: like i said, don't grow up Edie: need that childlike wonder for my vision Edie: catch you on the flipside mofo Diego: not in my plans Diego: enjoy yours