#i'm really thinking about making a btr blog

[btr-rewatch]

Big Time Rush Season 1, Episode 1: "Big Time Audition" PART 1

Well, here we go! I'm super excited to be revisiting this show after so many years. I was so deep in the fandom back when the show was on, but it feels like going into it with a blank slate at this point. I have no idea what the fandom is like anymore and also forgot so many of the episodes. Ugh, I wish I could remember what my BTR blog from like 2011 used to be called (and if it even still exists; I might have deleted it). It'd be so cool to take a look at it.

I'm gonna try to just jump right in here. A few things first: I'll be pausing the episodes perodically as I watch in order to write up my posts on here, so it'll be a very "real-time" depiction of my experience, lol. Posts will also always be put under a "read more" on account of length.

Y'all the smile on my face at just the beginning few seconds of the episode. It brings me right back to 2009, watching the premiere with my sister. And I love how there's really no time wasted in making it loud and clear what each of the boys' roles are in the group and what their personalities are like.

Kendall's first line is literally a little motivational pep talk. He's trying to motivate them to do something that's going to get them into trouble, but still...it's in character. (btw, I will absolutely be focusing in on Kendall's character development—and my criticisms of it—as I move through the series)

Anyway, continuing on down the line: Logan counters Kendall's words with math, thus promptly labeling him as The Nerd of the group. Carlos jumps at the chance to cause some chaos (very Carlos. he was my favorite, btw) and James is just not paying attention to any of it. He's just standing there preening.

James is another one who changes a good deal from this first episode, I think. I mean, if I'm remembering correctly, he stays sort of self-absorbed and concerned with his looks, but not quite to THIS degree.

Also, the guys all work well together and fit, but I can't help but wonder how this group came together. It's such an oddball mixture of extreme personalities that you'd be hard-pressed to find in real life. In fact, if it were real life, they probably wouldn't be able to tolerate each other at all, let alone be friends. But that's the beauty of the show.

They do all eventually help Carlos turn the sprinklers on.

Troublemakers. Oh! And I spy plaid on Kendall. He wears plaid in like every episode, doesn't he? I remember that being a thing.

Logan's hair looks very dark. Was it dyed for this episode? I don't remember it being that dark.

I'm only ONE MINUTE into this episode. Yikes; these are going to be long posts, aren't they?

Yes, Carlos gives James the helmet right before they get pummeled by the mob of angry girls! Kendall knows James has to protect his face! Just a little over a minute in, and we have a leader of the group firmly established.

GUSTAVO AND KELLY!!!

I love him.

Meanwhile, the guys are nursing their injuries back at Kendall's house. It's so funny to me the way that Kendall seems to have the rest of them (mainly Carlos?) "trained" in a way? He tells Carlos to give James the helmet, and Carlos does do without hesitation. Then, when James starts dancing on the couch, all he has to do is say Carlos's name, and Carlos tackles James to the floor.

But when you've got a group of buddies like that, someone has to step up and take the reins, and that someone is Kendall Knight.

Look at these goofballs smiling as Carlos and James beat each other up.

The FLIP PHONES

Amazing. This show already kind of feels like a fun little time capsule.

I'd be remiss to not talk about this specific moment (when James and Carlos are throwing hands again) that I recall the fandom latching onto back in the day. As things start spiraling and glass starts flying, Logan simply calls Kendall's name, and Kendall immediately runs to Logan's side.

This is the point in which I probably start overanalyzing, but. Well, that's half the fun of this project, isn't it?

It speaks volumes about who Kendall is, what his role is in the group, and how the other three (especially Logan) look at him. Things are getting out of hand, and Logan is overwhelmed. So what does he do? Simply call for Kendall to take control and fix it. Because that's who Kendall is, right? He's Mr. Hold Everyone Together, Fix Everything All the Time, Carry the World on His Shoulders Guy.

I'll be delving more in that in future posts, I'm sure. Many thoughts.

Also, can we talk about how James and Carlos are just. Destroying Mrs. Knight's home?? Throwing things and about to hit each other with a lamp and a...whisk?? Is that what Carlos has? As a kid, I was like, "ahahaha, funny," but now I'm like, "I hope Mama Knight made those boys pay for every item they ever broke while in her house."

I was originally going to break this up into just 2 parts, but it's already pretty long, and I don't even know if anyone will read it, so I'm going to wrap it up right here for now. I'm sure once I get into the actual series, the posts will be shorter, but there's a lot of ground being laid in this episode, and I'm also still finding my footing on this blog.

Thanks to anyone who checks this out!

[myloveforhergoeson]

Hey there! :) For the ask game: 1, 2, 3, 8, and 13.

hello!! thank you for the ask! i love the questions <3

how did you become a big time rush fan?

my college roommate introduced me our sophomore year! my spotify tells me i added my first btr song to my playlist on oct 5th 2021 if we want to get specific about it. i wasn't allowed to watch nickelodeon growing up - had i been, i would have definitely been a fan when it was airing! i'm a huge boyband girlie, so my roommate was shocked when she asked me if i'd ever seen btr and i didn't even know what it was. i only knew of the song big time rush through that "why are you in such a big time rush?" vine :)

2. who is your favorite member (and why)?

in the showverse, james 100%! if you couldn't tell by my blog i love him very much. cute, silly, a little bit stupid... dream guy fr. but irl, definitely kendall! from interviews i think our personalities are similar and we'd vibe together well :) he seems really sweet and laid back. i also really love his work outside of btr

3) what are your top three favorite big time rush songs?

worldwide, paralyzed, picture this! worldwide bc it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy whenever i hear it. paralyzed because it's closest to my music taste outside of boybands; musically i think it's just incredible with the blend of rock elements into the love song and vocally the boys just kill it. i wish they had more songs like that. picture this because i love the little storyline woven throughout because it's so vivid i feel like they're singing to me and it always makes me want to put together a scrapbook lol! and the guitar is soooo sweet. honorary mentions to amazing, like nobody's around, love me, love me, this is our someday, and time of our life

8) who's your favorite character from the show?

lucy :) she is the loml i wish they didn't do her so dirty. i feel like she was created as a caricature of punk/emo culture and there was a big waste of opportunity to have her introduce her pop friends to a new genre idk. i'm very big into pop/punk/emo and i wish we got more of her music in the show as well even if it's not about her. the snippet of "you dumped me for her" always leaves me wanting a full song! and i really wish they didn't force her into a relationship with james lmao; they've both got some things to work out about themselves when they get together and i don't think them being together fits either of their characters! but regardless, she is my favorite. i love a little pot-stirrer alt girl :) and a singer songwriter? all on her own? such insane talent they do not really commend her on!!

13) what's your favorite picture of big time rush?

ughhh i just went through all my concert photos and none of them are any good 😭 but i’ll pick an oldie-

this one!! can’t explain why tbh, i just think they all look so cute :)

[fallingsunflower]

Hello I want to take a second to address what a majority of you want to talk about and why I'm not answering those asks.

I've had this blog for a little over 2 years now (which is crazy to think about good lord lmao). I created it as a safe space to talk specifically because of what was going on. I'm sure most of you are familiar with my stance and some of you have been following me for that long, which is nuts lol I didn't expect my blog to grow in the way it has.

I still want to be a safe space and I appreciate the asks. I'm sure there are some of you who genuinely want to discuss it and I'm sorry to those for shutting the conversation down.

Most of the asks I've been getting are either fueled by paranoia or bitterness. Not all, but most, and I have a difficult time weeding out which is which. It's easier to just ignore the conversation completely. I don't want things to spiral out of control, which they were already beginning to.

Not everything is a stunt. A lot of you are jumping to that conclusion. I've never been one to think every single "relationship" of Harry's has been a stunt. The conversation is exhausting, quite frankly. I'm sure you have your reasons, which I respect, but the constant debunking and trying to prove it's fake is tiring to read about.

That being said, I also don't think there's enough proof to assume it's a real relationship. It could very well be a friendship. To put it bluntly, it's fucking annoying that a lot of you jump straight from strangers to relationship. Harry can't breathe next to a girl without rumors coming out.

I value your opinions and if there's something you'd really like to discuss, I'm open to a mature conversation about it. But please understand that most of the time conversations about Harry's love life take this really weird turn and I don't want that on my blog anymore. I don't like the energy it radiates. I don't necessarily regret how I handled it previously but going forward, I don't want that here. That's why I've been ignoring it all recently.

If something dramatic happens, sure we can talk. I'm just limiting the petty nonsense based off of not much.

I hope this makes sense. It's 2:07 am and I just got home from seeing BTR live in the pouring rain LMAO my brain is a little scattered. I'll answer the rests of my asks when I wake up.

x

[myloveforhergoeson]

tysm for the tag <3 i've only ever written the one story so my answers may be redundant, but i can talk about specific chapters of my story!

How many works do you have on A03?

just That's All She Wrote! but if we want to count individual side stories, different pov stories, and the au story that puts me closer to 10 i think!

What's your total word count?

tasw is currently 422,680 words! what!!

What fandoms do you write for?

big time rush! a long time ago i tried to write a that 70s show fic that was hyde/female oc but i got to embarrassed and deleted it lmao. she was the original roxanne (roxanne walters!!) and a few of her traits morphed into creating roxy for tasw. i also attempted a young justice wally west (kid flash)/female oc fic (althea prince) as well but only got through a rewrite of the first episode... all abandoned in favor of that's all she wrote which i think is the best choice :)

Top 5 fics by kudos:

you'll never guess... but that's all she wrote... :) but the most liked chapter on wattpad is the first one! and on here the chapter with the most notes is my most recent chapter, Sick, Sick, Sick!

Do you respond to comments?

i do my very best to!! i love love love comments and as we all know i always have soooo much to say. they make my day so i do my best to give that energy back to the commenter <3

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

None so far... but lots of my chapters have angst! i think some of the angstiest i've ever been was probably chapter 19 where roxy was writing her letters, chapter 22 where roxy and camille get into a fight, and chapter 29 when mag comes to roxys door... can you tell i prefer fluff lolll

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

none so far, but i try my best to end most of my chapters on a happy note if situationally appropriate! i really loved the ending to chapter 18 part 2 (first rames kiss!), the christmas chapter (jersey + declan surprise!), and the slightly angsty but mostly happy end to chapter 14 (rames at the dance -> phone call to kendall)

Do you get hate on fics?

not to my knowledge but tbh i don't really think i'd care. i read a lot of fics as i was growing up and i know what i like and what i don't which is why i started writing tasw in the first place. additionally, i know that i can just close out of something or stop reading or whatever and i don't need to let the author know. but i saw a post the other day about people calling original characters cringe and whatnot and that hurt for a fraction of a second before i realized how much work i've put into my story and how it led me to this blog here and all of you and i felt soooo much better

Do you write smut?

i don't but i sure do read a lot of it lolll. i can hardly write kissing without kicking my feet and giggling and getting all silly about it i can't even imagine how i'd be if i tried to write smut - it would certainly affect the quality of my writing bc i'd be far too embarrassed

Craziest crossover?

i haven't written a crossover but i think there's lots of room for btr crossovers! i think i'm going to write a victorious/icarly/btr crossover just for fun as an additional tasw chapter. there's an episode of icarly where they go to a party in LA and meet the victorious kids - i think i'd be fun to throw btr + rox into the mix :)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

erm. yes kind of. not the whole thing but mostly just original scenes + a few points of roxy's backstory i've written copied and pasted into another fic i found. still trying to figure how to bring it up to the author in a nice way without them thinking im coming for them...

Have you ever had a fic translated?

i haven't, but how neat would that be! it would certainly be a massive undertaking

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

another thing i haven't done, but it might be cool. not really sure how it'd work out if i tried as i'm a pretty sporadic writer. i also don't do so well with deadlines

All-time favorite ship?

RAMES DUH! lolll jkjk. most of the fics i traditionally read are /ocs or /reader (i just put roxanne in the place of "me") but i've been reading so much btr fic lately and honestly any one of those ships have really been doing it for me lol. been pretty big into house and wilson from house md recently too

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i am going to do my very very very best to finish everything i've started in my tasw-sphere because i am so dedicated to this project and i desperately want to see it through. i don't see myself undertaking another project like this though... if you can't tell im very particular about my stories, i love them super super long, and i add in so much extra stuff. but my t70s fic was really fun to write when i was (it was basically bad boy x good girl... god im kicking my feet just thinking about it) and i was super super into my young justice fic for a while (silly boy x serious girl? not quite grumpy x sunshine but somewhere along those lines), but i'm not sure those'll ever be worked on again. we'll see!

What are your writing strengths?

is length a strength? i looooove a long fic. maybe that puts me in the detailed category?

What are your writing weaknesses?

i've never really understood grammar and like... good sentence structre? obviously i know how to write lol i don't believe i'm a terrible writer but i feel like i write more of a flow of consciousness instead of well formated sentences. i drag my sentences out so much. i use "as" like once a sentence and it's been starting to drive me crazy

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

english is the only language i speak fluently + i took four years of spanish in school; i think i'd be comfortable writing basic words and sentences in spanish but anything beyond that i don't think is for me. any other language i'd like to include would also be basic things like greetings, colors, or numbers probably and not much beyond just out of respect for people who do speak that language. i wouldn't want to badly butcher something as important as the language someone speaks!!!!! but on a sidenote i love it when i'm reading a story and i have to look up translations though, feels like a little scavenger hunt hehe

First fandom you ever wrote in?

technically t70s but i never published. i'd consider this btr still

Favorite fic you've written?

you'll never guess...

EEE THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN!! i'm tagging anyone who wants to add on; i'd love to hear what you have to say!! <33

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Found this browsing Tumblr. Nobody tagged me, but I wanted to do this anyway.

How many works do you have on A03? 15 (and more to come)

What's your total word count? 1,235,276

What fandoms do you write for? Big Time Rush, CSI: Crime Scene Investigation, Criminal Case, Harry Potter, Loonatics Unleashed, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (2012 series), Thunderbirds (1965 series), and Transformers: Prime

Top 5 fics by kudos: The Thunderbird and the Doctor (96), The Adventures of Avery Samuels: Welcome to Grimsborough (94), Save You (74), In the Darkness (72), Take a Shot in the Dark (61) - this is at the time of answering this

Do you respond to comments? I respond to comments on The Thunderbird and the Doctor only. (Because I started it when I only had limited fics and wanted to keep going.) Beyond that, I only reply if someone has a question.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? So far, my completed fics have happy endings, but the angstiest ending will be in The Adventures of Avery Samuels: Welcome to Grimsborough.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Probably The Thunderbird and the Doctor. I gave my couple a happily ever after.

Do you get hate on fics? Not since I've been on AO3.

Do you write smut? Oh God yes

Craziest crossover? Haven't written a crossover

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Oh my God, yes!

Have you ever had a fic translated? No, but it'd be cool if someone wanted to.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Way back when and it never worked out.

All-time favorite ship? Do shipping canon characters with my OCs count?

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I feel like I'll finish all my WIPs, but Avery Samuels is going to be my longest story, so it feels daunting.

What are your writing strengths? Apparently, I'm good at cliffhangers.

What are your writing weaknesses? A lot (my confidence is nonexistent)

Thoughts on dialogue in another language? I don't mind it as long as a translation's easily accessible. Never written with another language, but I won't say no to the challenge.

First fandom you ever wrote in? Loonatics Unleashed

Favorite fic you've written? No! Don't make me pick! It's like picking a favourite child!

I nominate @myloveforhergoeson @kristylime @ligercat and anyone else who wants to do it!

[nimrodist-moved]

you should become a btr fanblog instead of a my chem one

yknow i should i really should

[bisluthq]

nat i want to preface this by saying that a) i am bi, b) i am muslim, c) i really love this blog, and d) i think taylor is flawed and i have actively criticized her flaws before.

anyways, i feel like the comparison between the problematic things taylor and lil nas x have done makes no sense? taylor was wrong for releasing btr, but she was a teenager who was hurt by her boyfriend dumping her, and she's apologized and clearly grown from it. lil nas x's past tweets are problematic. he hasn't shows at all that he's grown from them. like, when people started cancelling him on twitter, he literally MEMED it. this man was tweeting islamophobic shit like relatively recently and has not shown in any shape or form that he's not islamophobic anymore.

i'm not going to say that queer people can't like nas. it's great that we have really mainstream representation, but that doesn't excuse his past. and like ya, he was a dumb teenager. but i was a 12-year old girl when the guy next to me in Spanish class found out i was muslim and then took my backpack and started searching through it "for bombs" (an incident that fucked me up so much i STILL have a hard time telling people im muslim and made me hate myself and my religion for yeaaars). the people who suffered from his islamophobia were also probably like me; they were little kids who probably internalized this shit and now they feel terrible about their identities. so ya, you can say "oh he was a teenager," but that doesn't change how the shit he's said has affected muslims. i don't think its your place, as a white woman, to say that he's grown from his past.

also, i get that his music is probably life-saving for a lot of people, but that doesn't mean we can't criticize them? evermore was genuinely the only thing keeping me alive last year; taylor literally saved my life with that album, but i still criticize her often (especially with ginny and georgia). a celebrity's impact on one person does not mean that somebody else can't criticize them.

This is fair but like you say there isn’t really a point in comparing him to other people and especially not to Taylor. It’s fair to cancel him. Tbh it’s fair to cancel anyone who’s done or said fucked up things and it’s also fair to just… not like a celeb based on vibes tbh. Like it’s fair to be like “this person annoys me” and honestly that’s that and that’s a fair standpoint even when they haven’t said or done hurtful things.

[heffrondriving]

MAKE THAT TWO WHOLE EVIL YEARS OF CURSED RUSHER SHENANIGANS FROM YOURS TRULY BABEY!!!!! (⁎⁍̴̛͂▿⁍̴̛͂⁎)✲ﾟ｡⋆♡ོ

i can’t believe it’s been a full-ass year since my villain origin story-

[orderuponthe99prettygrimmdiaries]

This is who I'm meant to be, #ThisIsMe” 💁🏻

Well, this week was such a rollercoaster! Experienced a truly terrible day (probably the worst I’ve had this year), and truly great days too (can’t exactly say the best, but.. great I’d say). 

Not sure what’s up but suddenly we’re piled with so many new projects. We had to pitch ideas for writing for the blog, help out with some marketing research... Got to bond with my two fellow part-timers, especially one of them that I, we, expected that without this project, we might never speak to each other. And also learnt that the new guy who used to sit beside me had pestered her too, and he left because their department moved back to their original office. WOO!). 

AND turns out the previous project might not be off anymore. Apparently the boss replied and we didn’t receive her email, so turns out we might have to do that project after all. Whoopee. Honestly, I actually wouldn’t really mind since more work means more experience and yadda yadda, but I guess that is my least fave side project. 

BUT, really glad that my work anxiety is getting better. I think I might be a little too good at avoiding people, or well, ignoring people. I know, that’s horrible, but tbh, I realize that I do that cos.. I guess I don’t want people to get too close because I feel I’ll probably hurt them or let them down. 

I realize that I’ve always been that way. Doing the bare minimum, and always saying things are okay so there’s no expectations of me. “How’s exams?” I always just say okay so I’m not overconfident. “What are your strengths?” And I take ages to think of something, and finally settle on something basic or whatever. 

It’s kinda a problem, not sure if I care about it that much to make it my priority. Right now, at least. 

All I know is, I gotta get back to focusing on me. I’ve kinda been distracted here and there, well, maybe not that distracted tbh, I mean, I’ve been to counselling, I’m learning driving (FINALLY REGISTERED FOR MY TEST TOO), I’m reading, I’m learning German, I’M WORKING, I’m trying to do my best with family and friends, so maybe I’ve not strayed too far off my path. 

But I do realize that I’m still not at the right headspace. Hopefully I could get it back to where it was during internship, when every thing was a rush and I was too busy with working to think about other stuff. 

I need that sense of feeling so busy and accomplished that I don’t have time to wonder and think about the unnecessary. I need to find that confidence, so that I would stop being so self-conscious, especially on unimportant things. I need to find that passion in life again. 

Well, I probably really need a BTR marathon. Been saying that for a bit long time, but I still haven’t got to it. I went back to read my #8YearsOfBTR post, since many of you have still been reblogging (thanks lovelies for taking the time to read it. I know it was super long, but it’s my heartfelt feelings, and I really appreciate that you guys feel me.) And I realized that since BTR’s hiatus was one of the huge reasons that, well, led to my “downfall”, I guess rewatching and reliving those memories might help. I mean, they were the ones who gave me the confidence back then.

And I’ve been thinking if I’m actually a worse friend now, since I’ve been putting myself in focus more, but.. it’s like what Quentin said, 

“You hope you’re doing the right thing by becoming a better person, but you’re also becoming a different person.”

I might not have been a great friend during my fangirling days, maybe focusing a little too much on me and the band only, or tbh, even now. I can’t seem to find the right balance, or at least I feel I’m still not doing it right. But I think I’ll make it out better, when I finally get out of this muck. 

It’s also hit me that this is just the start of everything. I mean, I’m halfway through 21 only, and there’s so much more shit life’s gonna throw at me, at us. But maybe by then I’ll be able to handle things better. 

I don’t need a savior. I need to be my OWN savior. Or at least I gotta try, rather than being my own worst enemy, right? 

And was just looking back at my last post, which is the one where I had a minor meltdown, and I noticed I was saying something about how I wanted to delete the post but decided I need to stop deleting posts where I vent during my bad moods. Really perfect cos just watched Once Upon A Time where Rumple said something similar:

“And we shouldn't (get rid of that nasty, little piece of us) because it's that piece that shows us how far we've come and how much we have to lose.”

So true. Looking back, I really have become much better. Sure, I might not have reached my peak, but I’m doing better than I was. And I feel like I’m almost there, it’s just within grasp, but I need to take a leap. 

In other happy news, found out a couple days back that my online bestie (i know I hate using the term best friend, but she’s truly one of my closest and dearest friends) got engaged! SUPER HAPPY AND EXCITED FOR HER! Her fiance is super nice and sweet too, and damn, I sure hope I can attend their beautiful wedding. Otherwise, I’m skyping in as planned! 

But thinking about it, it’s so amazing how I’ve been through with her through her other crushes, then her and him dating and now their engagement, and that whole time I’ve still been hung up on the same guy. Not sure if this is some plan by the universe or I’m just really stubborn (or well my heart is), but whether he’s my soulmate or not, I think it’s best I focus on myself so I can be ready when the universe finally feels the time is right for us. Or well, for the right guy to finally make his dramatic entrance. 

Plus, I realized I’m really into slow burn relationships. Like all my OTPs on shows take about 3 seasons to actually get together, and with every single crush, I’ve gotta be friends with them first. And I can’t have any eye candy moments or feelings for them before the friendship develop. Maybe that’s why I push the rest away, cos I know it wouldn’t work out. 

And okay, I’m rambling now. Well, I guess I’m gonna get back to reading He’s Just Not That Into You for a bit before bed! 

Hope everyone has a lovely week! And of course, thanks to anyone who actually reads this too haha. 

Update: Omg why didn’t I read this book sooner?? Gah. Why did I mess up and text him then? Ufgh. 

[myloveforhergoeson]

Hey I've been just randomly scrolling through your blog and I totally agree with you about cover girl. Like, im sorry Kendall, but I always skip it when it comes on.

Also, I totally never knew the lyrics in someday were "if the world is an apple then its time to take a bite" so thanks for that horrifying information

i understand exactly what they were going for with cover girl but i just know a bunch of middle aged men were sitting in the writing room going... hmm what can make our young female audience fall more in love with these guys? i know!! the most backhanded compliment ever!!

ick

in my heart of hearts i feel like it was one directions fault with little things but i just googled it and im WRONG, cover girl came out in 2011 and little things in 2012... ed sheeran rlly said 👀📝 (for that and for leave your life lmao)

and yeah idk like this is our someday is such a good song and then we get that line and im like ehh! i feel the same way about lost in love and that line that's like "i can show you the world like im christopher columbus" HELLO??? absolutely not

i don't really have a point to make i just think its funny that i'm talking about this like im a songwriter... thanks btr writing team, you had some damn good hits !

[heffrondriving]

Allen! I followed your blog a while ago because I already loved BTR, but then I saw that you also talked about this Heffron Drive thing, and I went to listen it and 🤯!!!! They are so good, how come I hadn't heard from them before?! But yeah, I wanted to thank you for getting me to listen to Heffron Drive. 💕

hey there!! (๑＾ ∇ ＾๑)ﾉ☆ firstly, may i just say thank you for putting up with all of my silly btr blog in all of its shenanigans......and umm also i'm very sorry for all the brainworms. mostly for the included terminal brainworms,

N E WAY STG THE EXCITED JAMES-MINI-SHRIEK MY THROAT EMITTED AGAINST MY WILL WHEN I READ THIS DHSNJKL YES PLS EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO HEFFRON DRIVE, IT DESERVES SO MUCH MORE LOVE!!!!! ✨💞🎉 and idk maybe i'm just too much of a music-obsessed crackhead but people telling me they listened to a band or artist bc of me is like,,, genuinely one of the highest compliments i could ever receive in my lifetime. it will never not make me do the biggest Cry ahh ;w;

and honestly my reaction upon first discovering heffron drive was pretty much the same as yours ahaha. i think i first found james and logan's solo music (and all of carlos's two songs rip) first, and that in itself was already the wildest whiplash-inducing adventure considering i've only been exclusively listening to big time rush beforehand. it was like...mature btr boys??? i'm- 😳 is this allowed????? but the moment i found out kendall also had his own band with dustin, it was instant game over for me. and i will proudly die on this hill but their songs are just so pretty!!! poignant lyricism plus cronchy indie guitar riffs make for emotional bangers for days!!! kendall's voice is so uniquely top-tier and his little screams in hot summer will never not give me instant weak knees everytime i listen to it!!!!!

((also, as ecstatic i am that we're finally—FINALLY—getting new big time rush music after a thousand years of waiting, tbh i wouldn't mind some new heffron drive songs too. just a teeny bit. i'm not sure if the band is still actually active but i reckon we deserve some more ken and dustin somftness :< but maybe that's just me lmao))

i really hope you get to enjoy heffron drive's music as much as i do, and thank you again for the ask that totally didn't make me start a riot in our downstairs kitchen at four in the morning hrk and have a wonderful day 💙