#i'm not writing this

[leashybebes]

i'm going to chew my own arm off, that magical realism thing from this morning on four hours of sleep is invading my brain and i do not have time, but now i'm imagining the breakup in this context, how buck saying he feels comfortable because tommy feels comfortable and tommy freaking out because what if? i will very likely not get around to writing this thing properly so in case, here's the contents of my brain

He's certainly never done it to Evan deliberately, but when he was younger it used to happen by accident that the feeling he'd clumsily pushed at people was the vague feeling that things were good - that they felt good - when he was around. He knows he's never done it on purpose, but what he's wanted this whole time was for Evan to be comfortable and it turns out he was so damn comfortable that they've stumbled across this huge, sudden scary thing that he doesn't know what to do with.

Thinking god, what if he did and this is where it's led, and if he didn't, what if he does because he wants to keep Evan so much, wants it more than he's ever wanted anything, more even than he wanted friends and a route out of the house as a child. He wants and he wants, and apparently Evan wants too, and it's the most terrifying thing that's ever happened to him in a lifetime of being afraid.

And if there's one thing Tommy Kinard has known his whole life, it's that his father's son cannot be a good man. There are other things that make him go, but the sudden, horrifying knowledge of how easily he could change those things is what makes him stay away. It makes him stay away for three miserable months in which he keeps it together and he goes to work and he goes to the gym and he aches for every single second of it.

And he really is his father's son - dad's a dog demon and there's more than a little of the canine in the way Tommy pines. Like a faithful mutt he'll curl up every night on the grave of his relationship, except the metaphor gets a little muddled because he's the one that killed the relationship. And just like dear old dad, he killed with fear, only it's his own, not something he's inspired in someone else with his bark and the threat of his bite.

But maybe he'd done it, even just a little, and if he hadn't maybe he would, some day. Both feel equally unforgivable.

Later, when they've fought their way back to each other, Tommy will find the words to tell Evan exactly what had made him so afraid, and Evan will look at him like he's an idiot.

"Seriously?" he'll demand and roll his eyes. "Tommy, I'm such a little shit with you. I'm so much. I think if you were gonna mind whammy me into anything it'd be to take it down a notch or five, not...whatever the hell you think you did."

Made you like me, Tommy will think.

Tommy will catch Evan's arm and pull the words out one by one because they communicate now, they are open now, they tell each other exactly how they feel now, and it's healing and important and a pain in the ass a lot of the time but this one will come easy as he tells Evan, "Hey. I love exactly how much you are."

Evan's eyes will go soft in that way Tommy has been half in love with since the first time he saw it, and he will say, "I'm so happy with you," and the precision of the wording will make Tommy's heart turn over in his chest, will be the latest in a long line of things that pulls honestly out of him hand over fist.

"I thought I made you like me," he'll say.

"You didn't make me do shit," Evan will say, and he'll kiss a smile onto Tommy's face. "I just like you, dumbass."

[bhellion]

new scooby doo origin story but the gang's genderbent

also they're kids (idk why tooti's big)

[put-a-keep-are-you-foo-dell]

[bookwyrminspiration]

sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though

[rubyleaf]

Honestly? My main piece of advice for writing well-rounded characters is to make them a little bit lame. No real living person is 100% cool and suave 100% of the time. Everyone's a little awkward sometimes, or gets too excited about something goofy, or has a silly fear, or laughs about stupid things. Being a bit of a loser is an incurable part of the human condition. Utilize that in your writing.

[monsoon-of-art]

[chodzacaparodia]

It's frustrating that you can come up with the plot of an entire fic in just a few seconds, but writing it all down can take anywhere from never to forever.

[nariarts]

Spent a ridiculous amount of time last night obsessively editing my hand written zines in Photoshop to take away any tiny blemishes so they were definitely readable.

Whatever. Understand or don't.

[ducktracy]

sharing a very sage bit of advice from The Simpsons' own John Swartzwelder that i've been trying to hamper down in my writing and drawing alike. let your inner crappy little elf do his worst

[noperopesaredope]

I wish we had more female characters like Eleanor Shellstrop. One of the most unlikable people you've ever met. Read a Buzzfeed article on most rude things you can do on a daily basis and decided to use that as a list of goals. Makes everyone's day worse just by being there. Dropped a margarita mix on the ground and tried to pick it up, only to get hit by a row of shopping carts which pushed her into the road where she was hit by a boner pill delivery truck, killing her instantly. Cannot keep a romantic partner despite being bisexual. Had a terrible childhood but will die before she gets therapy. Best employee at a scam company. Just the worst but also can't help but root for her to improve.

Absolute loser. Girl-failure. Bad at almost everything. Literally perfect female character.

[anexistingexistence]

Yes I want to write my story but my story doesn't want to be written so what the fuck am I supposed to do about that huh?

[smoosie]

(Which arm, Viktor, huh ? Which one ??)

They were not a couple so, Jayce (who had a very bad day and just wanted to hug it out) proceeded to freak out, backed out of the lab and never mentioned it again but, Astral Viktor, that mf ? He'd be delighted to remind Jayce of that moment in time, of that missed call and watch him die from embarrassment and resentment over himself

(I'm glad they've never beaten the gay allegations and never will)

[oliversrarebooks]

[redactedrem]

Headcanon where after so many arguments between the batkids and Bruce over his paranoia and complete disregard for his kids privacy, the entire family had compromised with (in the healthiest way possible) downloading life360 on their phones and that's how they all keep track of each other.

Now Bruce knew that this is mostly for his benefit and is supposed to be a healthy alternative for his unhealthy paranoia and helicopter parenting, but what he wasn't expecting was for his kids to start keeping track of him.

He's putting gas in his car and Dick calls him because apparently Dick has been watching him drive around on the app? And Bruce is currently at a gas station thats right around the corner from a Taco Bell and now Dick wants him to get food for everyone since he's already there.

He's driving home from a meeting and Steph calls him because her and Duke were shopping in the area and wants to know if he can pick them up, when he asks how she knew he was on the same street, he gets a "Oh I just like to stalk everyone on the app for funsies." as an answer.

Jason calls him and he can barely get out a hello before Jason cuts him off, "Bruce why the fuck is your phone battery on 5%, charge your damn phone" which completely stuns him because why does he know that. He clears his throat before answering. "Jason, what?"

"Everyone can see each others phone batteries on '360, now charge your phone." Is all he gets before Jason hangs up on him.

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

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Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

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I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.