#i'm not making an account now that's for sure. not unless my life depends on it

[celepeace]

Oh so you just can't view twitter at all without logging in now huh. I guess fuck me if I want to see my local fire department's account for wildfire updates

[babyashieblue]

Doing this, but all at once! ^-^

I honestly don't remember how i discovered age regression. I most likely found an account on tik tok and got curious and decided to look more into it!

I'm also unsure about this one, as it's kind of a mix. I like pacis and sippies like a younger age, but I also love coloring and doing school worksheets like an older age.

I have one! He's my soon to be husband!! ^-^

I'd wake up, immediately take a nap with tons of stuffies, wake up again, eat some little snacks and drink some little drink, color or do some worksheets, play with my cg and stuffies, play minecraft, go into a little space world in vrchat, then go to bed with baba tucking me in.

Yes! I only have a paci and some fidget toys at the moment, but that'll grow soon!

Sometimes! I regress to a dog/wolf when do! Puppy barking is so fun!!

Honestly, im not that different! Big me and little me both love mlp and bluey! However, big me is more responsible and likely to do productive things, while little me would rather just laze around with my stuffies.

I love coloring when little, and drawing when big!

i love @buttercupagere !

It started out voluntary, then it turned into involuntary because i started slipping naturally!

I'm still not quite sure what that is ;-;

If i have i dont remember!

Goldfish!!!!!

I love plushies!!! I have at least 60 at this point!!

Only a select few people! My baba and my ex know.

Ashie or Sweetiebelle

My little pony and bluey! Also being called ashie or when my baba goes bwahbwahbwahbwahbwah!!

Not always, I have days when I just cant be little!

I love the community! You guys have made so much awesome agere stuff and it wouldn't be nearly as much fun if it weren't for that! This blog feels like my little tiny corner of the internet and I love it!

I don't! I don't really like to read unless its very short or has pictures.

Extremely!

Starlight Glimmer (Glimmy) from mlp!

LOTS of stuffies, a princess bed (the one with the big curtain drape thingies), a fluffy pink carpet, a play corner with a play kitchen and stuff like that, a picture book corner, a minifridge with angel milk and some snackies in it, mlp and bluey posters, and me and baba of course!

I love to but it's very hard for me to! I still feel kinda silly sometimes, so it's difficult for me to let go and just have fun ;-;

It makes me feel a certain kind of happiness I can't find anywhere else. I like just pretending I don't have responsibilities and that baba can just always be there to take care of me when I need him to. I like forgetting about all of the sad in the world and just be a kid again.

I do! I have a little space playlist on my spotify with more light and bubbly sounding songs. Bubble Tea, Just Monica, Muffins, and some disney songs just to name a few!

Not yet, but my baba and I are working on some!

It depends on my mood! Sometimes im super hyper, and other times I'm extremely sleepi and whiney lol. ***There is no in-between***

No! I'm just a wittle baby

Agere has become a huge part of my everyday life, more than I ever thought it would be, and my Baba is a huge part of that. He's helped me leave my house, get a job, and just generally better myself since I first met him. I feel like im finally coming out of this hole I've been in for years for the first time ever.

Anyways, that's all for now.

Goodnight, my littles! <3

DNI banner made by @springtimefrog

[character-obsessed-fem]

sorry for not being active for a while, i'm on vacation and my schedule is pretty packed + my wifi connection is pretty spotty :3

as an apology, i grant thee; Meeks family headcanons!!!

(might post this on my other account too)

Stephen ??? Meeks Sr. [father] - 46 years old, American

- born in Maryland

- was "present" in his family's lives until Stephen and Stephanie were about eight, then left. lives in Maryland now

- isn't divorced from Julieta only for convenience's sake, still shows up for his kids' school ceremonies/graduations so the heads don't think their home life is "wacky", doesn't show up to any other events

- engineer

- favourite family member used to be Stephen Jr. (before she ), now he hates them all equally

- is everyone's least favourite family member

- he, mr perry, and mr nolan would get along. i feel like that's enough explanation as to what kind of man/father he is

- has fist fought stacy before and will do it again

Julieta ??? Meeks [mother] - 45 years old, Italian

- born in Italy (Florence)

- currently lives in Maine with Stephanie

- overbearing mother. was extremely hesitant to send Stephen to Welton, a boarding school, where she can't easily reach her

   - it's why Stephanie doesn't go to a boarding school

- otherwise amazing mother with some minor flaws and like one or two major flaws

- doctor (specifically cardiologist). dabbled in engineering when she was younger but gave it up for a while due to peer pressure. brought it back once stephen (jr) started showing interest

- favourite family member used to be just Stephen Jr., now it's a tie between her and Stella

- will indulge her children in just about anything (as long as it's not illegal (underage smoking/drinking is an exception)), especially different interests

Stella Ines Laura Meeks [oldest sister] - 25 years old, Italian/American

- born in Italy, Venice

- currently lives in Vermont

- Stephen's emergency contact

- married with one kid (2 years old) and expecting another

- paid astrology intern, will be an actual astrologist soon. always makes sure to tell stephen all about her research because she knows stephen loves stars

- highkey overbearing but is trying to rear it in in an attempt to not be just like her mother. has to bite her tongue everytime she sees the steph twins breaking rules

- favourite family member is their mother

- accidentally hid her first pregnancy from stephen throughout the school year, meaning when stephen came home for the summer and saw stella with a baby she just went "... who's goddamn baby is that"

Stacy Isabella Sofia Meeks [second oldest sister] - 21 years old, Italian/American

- born in Vermont

- currently lives in Maine

- Stephanie's second emergency contact (first is their mother)

- raising an adopted child (six years old) with her "best friend"

- studying psychology, wants to be a therapist specifically so she can "fix" her family (every member of the meeks family avoids therapy like the plague)

- super chill, wine aunt vibes. regularly sneaks cigs and alcohol to the steph twins

- favourite family member is a tie between Stella and Stephanie

- respecting elders for simply being elders? not her thing. has cussed out mr nolan before stephen even started attending welton

Stephanie Cristina Kennedy Meeks [twin sister] - 17 years old, Italian/American

- born in New York

- lives in Maine with her mother (and twin sister when she isn't at Welton)

- if goth music existed in 1959 she'd be goth/gothic

- favourite family member is Stephen

- steals stephen's and stella's clothes all the time. the others have to pry her clothes out of her cold dead hands (unless it's stephen)

- literally the only artist in the family, but is also interested in biology. wants to go to med school or art school, depending on her grades during senior year

    - depending on which sort of school she ends up going to, she wants to either be an ER nurse or an art teacher

- has an aunt who's the dean of an art school, wants to work there as a professor or anything similar - preferably doing a 3D modelling class

Stephen Kennedy Chris Meeks Jr.  - 17 years old, Italian/American

- born in New York

- lives in Maine with her mother and twin sister when not at Welton (Vermont)

- favourite family member is Stephanie, absolutely no way she could have a different favourite

- steals everyone's clothes but also gives back just as many

- does not plan to go to college/university if given the choice. will only go to Yale (engineering/physics) for Pitts and her mom

- wants to be some sort of mechanic or engineer, or even an engineering professor at some university, when she's older.

   - if she doesn't end up going to university she wants to be a plane mechanic - her uncle has connections, especially in the air force so she knows he can get her sorted

   - is on the fence about becoming a pilot - thinks it's cool but not sure if it's a good profession for her. willing to try

hope you enjoyed!! sorry if these headcanons are a bit cliche lol. also i am sorry for just blatantly throwing canon away like that

[voidfragments]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.

repost, do not reblog this

NAME: bedo!

PRONOUNS : it/they/he

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION : ims unless i know you elsewhere, which i understand is not the norm around here! i've had issues with people in the rpc stalking me in the past so i'm very hesitant to do anything that could potentially link my rp-related accounts to my personal accounts. i do have rp-focused discord accounts i'm willing to use for plotting & stuff with people i've known for a while, but as a general rule, we're probably gonna be in ims.

NAME OF MUSE(s) : there's like 80 of these bitches just look at my carrd

BEST EXPERIENCE : even if i just restrict it to specifically this blog, i'm not sure i could narrow anything down to a specific experience tbh! just, in general, it makes me really happy when people take an interest in my specific take on my muses, which is definitely something that's happened a fair amount here. i get a lot of dupe/portrayal anxiety so it's really nice to know when i'm doing something right!! also a huge fan of when characters can banter with each other. even if it's not actually banter and is legitimately mean-spirited ic (jia siblings i miss u every day...). it's just always extremely fun to me.

RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS : idk man don't ghost me or talk shit about me behind my back and we're probably gucci? we're all a bunch of socially awkward nerds around here so i try to be understanding;;

MUSE PREFERENCES: characters who harbor deep obsessions, especially with specific people and/or to the point of affecting their sense of morality; tsunderes; mean and/or violent children; conflicted/morally gray heroes; The Komaeda Archetype (TM). i write all kinds of characters but these are some of the most common types for me to write! also: side characters nobody else cares about. my city now.

PLOTS OR MEMES : both have their time and place but i often prefer memes, at least to break the ice/kick things off! i struggle with plot ideas sometimes so memes save my life;;

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES : idk how y'all can pump out 5+ para replies consistently. if you get a reply longer than around 3 paragraphs from me please assume i was briefly possessed by the spirit of my muse.

BEST TIME TO WRITE : my sleep schedule is ass and i'm easily distracted so i get most of my writing done in the late night/early morning when nobody else is awake lmao

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) : depends on the muse lmao. some i inject a bit of myself into, some are just naturally kind of similar to me, some are extremely different!

Tagged by: @dupliciti ty <3

Tagging: you, the person reading this

[bi-kisses]

I wanted to thank you for the post you just made about detrans people, I really needed to hear that support right now since we don't really get much empathy these days. People just talk about us as statistics and bargaining chips and not really as people, it feels like. I won't pretend to know everything about the detrans/desist circles since I'm still new to it myself but I've experienced enough that so far anytime I see someone talking about detrans it's usually to win arguments or they only talk about misdiagnosed detransitioners, and those of us who were correctly diagnosed and are and always have been sex dysphoric get ignored. I guess we don't really 'fit' anyone's argument well enough for them to want to acknowledge us. It's a really sucky life to live for lack of a more formal wording; the only treatment that's really out there for this dysphoria is transitioning and when it doesn't work, it's a very bleak way to live. I never really understood why some people years into their transitions are still nearly as miserable as before they started or still attempt suicide, but now I do. I don't mean to vent or traumadump too much, for a little context as insight on a personal example: I had an unsuccessful transition. I was transitioned as a minor and now in my 20s I suffer from health complications, mostly regarding my heart and hemoglobin and all that (I've had heart palpitations/irregular heartbeat since I was 19 or 20), and I can no longer continue medically transitioning unless I want to see an early cardiac arrest or death from its worsening. The doctors that gave me transition treatment will not give me detransition treatment nor referrals so I'm on my own now. Not to mention I am stuck looking like a teenage boy and will never be able to look like a fully grown man which causes a lot of dysphoria and pain since the only reason I transitioned was to be a man, not to be a forever teenager. I don't regret the transition's effects of masculinizing me, if anything I wish there were more, but it's been 10 years so there's no more to be gained. At this point if I detransitioned fully I don't think I'd look like a woman either so I'm pretty much stuck suffering no matter what I do or don't do next in terms of continuing or stopping social aspects of my transition. I'm not sure if it's because I was transitioned too young or because I just have shit genes, but this is my situation and it is permanent.

Anyway, I'm sure there are many other detransitioners/desistors out there like me in similar situations. It's our lives, our realities, and it's a lot of suffering to have ignored and not have much support for. Not to mention how it's pretty much impossible to talk to friends and family about for fear of them lashing out that they think you 'betrayed' them or 'lied' or 'made a stupid mistake' so we don't have a lot of safe places to talk about this kind of thing. I even feel like I have to stay on anon to be able to safely talk about this here.

My heart goes out to you, and idk if it's any comfort but I have for sure seen several people in similar situations where they ARE dysphoric and would love to live as the opposite sex but it just isn't viable. Usually it's seen with trans women, as transitioning from male to female is notoriously luck dependent genetically speaking, but health issues have impeded trans guys I've known too.

I can't believe you aren't able to receive medical support for your detransition, that's fucking awful and those doctors should be held accountable for not providing what is, imo, a necessary service to help you live in a comfortable and healthy manor.

I'm not detrans, but I have a pretty fucking irritating health condition that makes my day to day really uncomfortable. I totally understand that helplessness. Doctors have been useless to me so far (I'm on, like, my third different specialist just hoping this one figures out what's wrong). Sometimes all we can do is figure out what works so that each day is worth getting through, even if we can't live in an ideal way.

Lots of love for you and I hope things get better soon. Feel free to reach out anytime.

[illusioninteractions]

Hey! So, I've done some thinking and I think I've decided I'm okay with taking requests! Though, before I go through my rules, let me introduce myself to those who read this or follow me who don't know who I am!

My author's name is Illusion Interactions, and I started writing fanfictions about 2 years ago, but I've been writing my whole life. I started posting on Wattpad, which went well for my first fanfiction book. My account is still up, and I will continue to post multiple chapter-filled stories there. I am the author of "Shifting Souls" on Wattpad, "Love Never Discussed" on Tumblr, and "A Spark That Grows Into A Flame" which is also on Tumblr. I do plan to keep long stories on Wattpad and One Shots here on Tumblr, so I'm posting on both depending on what you're interested in!

Now, here are my rules for requesting One Shots from me:

-Smut, lemon, etc, I will NOT do. I need more practice in the area before I'm completely comfortable writing such explicit stories, but the moment I am, I will make sure to update this post! I can do Lime, which is just mentioning's, yet not going in depth.

-Characters I don't know won't be written about, so here is everything I've watched/played/read: Genshin Impact, Obey Me, Attack on Titan, Black Butler, Banana Fish, Tokyo Ghoul, Fruits Basket, My Hero Academia, Backflip!!, Haikyuu!!, A Silent Voice, Fire Force, Kakegurui, Hunter x Hunter, Bungo Stray Dogs, Anohana: The Flower We Saw that Day, Charlotte, Horimiya, Komi Can't Communicate, Demon Slayer, Spy x Family, Kaguya-sama: Love is War, Ouran High School Host Club, High School Babysitters, Yuri! On Ice, Death Note, K, Kamisama Kiss, Erased, Stars Align, Devilman Crybaby, Howls Moving Castle, The Case Study of Vanitas, Claymore, Your Lie in April, Toilet Bound: Hanako-kun, Violet Evergarden, High Rise Invasion, Cheer Boys!!, A3!, Angels of Death, Skate the Infinity, March Comes in Like a Lion, Joker Game, All Out!!, Ikebukuro West Gate Park, Plunderer, I Want to Eat Your Pancreas, 5 Centimeters Per Second, A Whisker Away, Flavors of Youth, Mirai, Your Name, Weathering With You, Drifting Home, Bubble, Belle, Akira, A Lull in the Sea, Stranger by the Shore, The Garden of Words, Given, Helluva Boss, Hazbin Hotel, Digital Circus, Boyfriends, Heartstopper, Our Life: Beginnings and Always.

-I'm totally okay (and love) doing Y/n inserts, but pronouns will be automatically set as Gender Neutral unless spoken of otherwise. If it's between two characters, or more, that's also perfectly fine!

-I can also do music One Shots, so if you're interested in that I can comply.

Hope you guys will enjoy my writing! If anything happens to change any of this, the post WILL be updated!

[dragonsorceress22]

More pros: (please feel free to use these to argue for your needs)

saving on commuting costs - gas money, parking fees, train tickets, ride share, wear and tear on your vehicle, TIME, etc.

flexibility and work-life balance - ability to care for your pets, children, elders, and self. Need to pick up your kids? Have a doctor/vet/dentist appointment? Would you otherwise need to pay a dog-walker, or for child care, or put someone in a home?

ability to meet deadlines more efficiently - No, I'm not kidding. This is a benefit for your company. I don't know how specific this is to my job, but I'm betting my other accountants out there will know what I mean. You have a deadline to meet (for example, closing the books). Your role in meeting the deadline is contingent upon other employees completing their pieces first. You wind up waiting around for the task to be progressed into your court. When in-office, this either means being stuck there working late, or leaving at quitting time and missing the deadline. With work from home, I can go about my evening and hop back online when I see that what I was waiting on has been completed.

boosted morale - I dunno about y'all, but I'm WAY happier when I can work in comfortable clothes, in a place that is not FREEZING like all skyscraper offices seem to inevitably be, listening to whatever I want in the background (music, youtube, audiobooks) without disturbing my coworkers or limiting my situational awareness with headphones.

safety - are you catching a commuter train in a bad neighborhood because it's your only option? Do you have to leave your car there to be damaged while you're at work? Do you have to walk in the city alone at night when work causes you to stay late? Have you ever been stranded by train malfunctions? Are you concerned about viruses when sitting in nasty train cars, packed in with loads of other people? Are you worried about carrying anything you catch back to vulnerable loved ones - the very young, the very old, someone already ill or immunocompromised? I've dealt with all of this and more in the years I've commuted, and the environments I commute through have only gotten worse since the pandemic.

These are all items literally right off the top of my head. I'm sure if I sat and thought about it a little I could add even more.

Again, I encourage you to pull any of these as needed to make your case for work-from-home. The people at the top aren't gonna figure it out unless the workers with boots on the ground lay it out real clear for them.

Note that this is also in the mindset of jobs where, during the pandemic, work was transitioned to WFH, and now the company is arbitrarily walking that back, even though we've proven for three years that we can function just fine and BETTER in the new environment. I know not all jobs CAN be WFH. But the ones that can be... why not let the employee decide?

(This is where I also acknowledge that some people LIKE getting out of their houses, away from distractions, busy households, inconvenient spaces, or who just really really like other people or something idk lol but mandatory return-to-office directives that strip away choice and flexibility that people have come to depend on over the past three years? That's bullshit.)

P.S. sorry for turning this light funny post into an irate rant. consider me triggered. my company is pulling some BS literally RIGHT NOW about this shit and I'm mad about it.

[jodilin65]

I'm completely baffled by the fact that my visitor counter keeps going up on LJ but no visitors ever get recorded on my log.

They posted the pics from painting class and damn do I look huge! Short, old, and huge, lol. My arms are so huge that they round out in these half-moons. Tom doesn’t think so but you know how we always see ourselves differently than others. Either way, I just can’t get myself to take my weight seriously. I’d rather eat when I’m hungry and indulge every now and then than be hungry all the time even if it means I won’t quite be as healthy and there are more health risks involved. Sometimes I don’t even know if I could take it seriously if it was a matter of life or death. Maybe I could 20 or 30 years ago but now? I hope I won’t have to find out!

I still find myself stuck with a sense of emptiness and finality. Then again I don’t know if emptiness is the right word because it isn’t like I don’t have things to occupy my time. I just feel like there isn’t much hope for much change in the future. As I’ve mentioned numerous times before, once you get to a certain age it gets to be a case of been there, done that. The less money we have, the fewer opportunities we have as well. It seems I spend more time dealing with my health than anything else.

Started to lose energy after organizing things but then I perked back up. Still think I’m low on thyroid.

No mention of the paper journal I left on the counter in the bathroom in the clubhouse in hopes of someone finding it and curiously reading it. I don’t know how legible it would be since I wrote in it on the road and it sometimes got bumpy. I also abbreviated a lot and I don’t mean just the typical commonplace abbreviations either but abbreviations that only I would understand. The fact that it wasn’t mentioned makes me think someone ditched it, it’s still sitting there, or someone is reading it and not mentioning it. The thought of someone reading it with curiosity and interest amuses me for some reason. I might be curious to read it too, depending on what was in it. I like reading some journals here and there but I’ve never been interested in people’s stories. That’s what Kindle Unlimited is for. I’m very picky in what I read, too. It must be well-written, and the only genres I really like are mysteries, thrillers, and suspense.

The honker went out with his girlfriend and left me with his howling mutt. It howled longer than usual, too. I wish he would just go home already! His truck and his girlfriend’s SUV were there, though, so I’m guessing they walked down to the clubhouse or to someone’s house. Unless they were in bed fucking and the dog felt jealous and neglected, I don’t think they were home. Her SUV is gone now. I know she’s spent the night over there before but I wonder if he ever spends the night at her place and if he does, does he take his dog? They really seem to be spending a lot of time together and I wonder how it may impact his time here. I just want him, his motorcycle, and his mutt out of here! The rain kept him off the motorcycle today but I’m sure it will go out tomorrow which means I’ll have to crank the damn sound machine up. I hate it when I’m forced to do things in my own house on account of others. My living arrangements shouldn’t have to revolve around others but it could be worse. The sound machines were defenseless most of the time against the traffic at the old place. I don’t miss the days of being woken up 2 to 4 times a week. That was very hard on me. It was almost like being in the NHA all over again. I hope the storms won’t make up for it in a few months.

Tom doesn’t think the honker will move down here permanently even if they do get serious. But what about her moving into his house even if she’s in it by herself throughout the summer? Tom said that if anything he would sell his place. That would make more sense since her place is brand new. The idea of him selling his place excites me and also makes me nervous because I know something worse could end up over there. These kinds of places aren’t what they were in the 80s. I learned that 11 years ago. Yes, it’s now been over a decade that I’ve lived in adult communities. Can’t see him selling it, though. Don’t know why but I just can’t.

Love how my PB buddy is loving Swell and so grateful that I mentioned it in my journal. The digital one, of course. Glad he’s enjoying it!

So the Dream Kit app analyzed my dream of us adopting a kid, which I mentioned in my last entry. Here it is but what professional life other than working for Prolific? lol

The dream about adopting a 9-year-old girl may symbolize a desire for nurturing and caring for others. The fact that the girl is being connected to someone who has passed away in the dream could represent a sense of responsibility or duty to fulfill someone else’s wishes. The concern about your schedule and being in an adult community may reflect your apprehension about taking on new responsibilities and adjusting to changes in your life. It’s possible that this dream is prompting you to consider how you balance your personal and professional life, and how you can make room for caring for others while still taking care of yourself.

[mcrmadness]

Okay, it is safe to say that the average length for my very intense short-time hyperfixations is from 2 days to about... 10 days, probably. After that they fade into regular interests and depending on the type of the hyperfixation (video game, youtube channel, a movie or series, and so on...), it behaves differently. In this case it's a youtube channel (or two) and now it's on the level where it doesn't consume every second of my brain activity anymore, but I still check social media accounts related to those channels a few times a day. BUT I'm still able to watch other videos too and even forget about those channels existing for a minute.

I found the channels somewhere around Xmas, and then I could feel the hyperfixation building up and then it really peaked, and a few days I did nothing but bingewatched videos. Then I finished watching the videos, but couldn't stop thinking about the videos, so I started rewatching them which is something I almost never do when I hyperfixate on youtube channels.

But yeah. Now it's been what... 3 weeks? And it's no longer as intense as it first was, but more of one of the regular interests I have, but definitely content-wise it's in the top 5 of youtube videos I enjoy watching (which is exactly why it skyrocketed into hyperfixation so quickly and took over all my thoughts for a few days).

This is usually my regular short-time hyperfixation process, and after the novelty wears out, all my old short-time hyperfixations will take turns cos I need some change in my life 24/7 and I get bored with the same things very fast, which is why I might keep playing a video game for years and years, but only for a few weeks a year at a time whenever I hyperfixate on that.

Also all this makes me really wonder why the hell did doctors think I would be autistic because I have never ever had the special interest behaviour, and I have understood that is one big key feature of being an autistic. I have tons of interests that started as hyperfixations but then faded into regular interests in a matter of days or weeks, that I will stick to because I like collecting interests like trinkets. (Sure not every single interest of mine from the past has remained, but some of them have come back years after abandoning them cos I am 32 now and nostalgia hits different lol) I can't remember a single interest from my childhood or teen years that would have been, like, above anything else. I don't count fan behaviour here, because I have had 4 favourite bands in a span of 25 years and every single one of them has felt like the best band ever and I knew everything about them - and then I found a new one that was my new favourite. Current one has been my favourite for almost 15 years now but I was almost 18 when I discovered them, and interests just work different and time feels different when you're an adult. I could swear I found this bad 2 years ago, when in reality it's actually been almost 15, and that is insane.

All my childhood interests worked like hyperfixations and the same way they do today too. A big part of them were also shared interests between me and my siblings, for example dinosaurs, but I would say that was more of fan behaviour and there's still a clear difference between me and my sister, who is actually autistic. I recently found old home videos where I'm 8 or 9, and my siblings are around 5 or 6, and my aunts are constantly asking us questions about dinosaurs. I keep replying but either I was just so done with questions and wanted to draw, but to so many I just answered "Ask [my sister], she knows everything about dinosaurs..." cos she had the dinos as her special interest and she was a walking dinosaur book at that point.

But honestly everything I remember about my childhood and interests, it's always hyperfixations behaviour. Getting super into something so quickly only to get over it in a few days or weeks, and them remaining as regular interests from that on (unless they were such random hyperfixations that I never picked them up again), and I was already on the next hyperfixation. Or none at all, which lead to me being frustrated because of Boredom.

[imrtlwitch]

He liked a self-starter, he couldn't deny that. In fact, this kid definitely had the right idea but he couldn't allow for Eden's to be the thing that this one sunk his teeth into - no pun intended - when writing about the supernatural. Not only was it bad for business, but being discreet was of the utmost importance to Harley and most customers that visited Eden's. After all, who visited a sex store and wanted people to read about it in the local paper?

"Well, I guess it depends which vampires we're talking about. Are we thinking like, Anne Rice or True Blood? Twilight or The Vampire Diaries? Dracula or Van Helsing?" Harley questioned, though he didn't leave much room for an answer before he next spoke. "Though I have to admit, even taking all that different lore into account - you know, sun vs no sun, garlic vs no garlic ectara - I still don't think any of them who go to glory holes would like to suck the blood out of a hard cock, because then the hard cock is a soft cock and darling, there's nothing more disappointing in a glory hole than a soft cock. So that brings me full circle to why on earth would a vampire be at a glory hole? I'm sure that if they're real - which I couldn't care less if they exist or not - they have more important things to be doing with their immortal life than visiting glory holes, no?" Harley truly couldn't care less if Tomas managed to prove the existence of the supernatural, he just didn't want him proving it using Eden's. That would be bad for business, he was sure.

"Honey, did you just say that you wrote an article confirming the sensuality of vampires? I don't think you can use your own work as a source..." He trailed off, a smirk settling on his lips. "I would love to see that proof though, I'm a very sensual being myself. Tell you what, if you prove they exist, please tell them to leave our glory holes alone and just come straight to my bedroom, won't you darling? I consider myself quite the free spirit, though not quite free enough to indulge in drinking anothers blood, but perhaps they would make for good lovers." A pause as he thought about it, Zane was more than enough for him of course but he had to make this look real for the other. "I'm telling you love, vampires aren't in our glory holes. If they were, I'd kick them out for softening all the cocks and that's not something I've had to kick people out for recently. Unless... Are you telling me you went into our glory hole and got the blood sucked out from your cock? Oh darling, I can understand the distress now! Do you wish to come back? I can assure you, no one will do that to you on my watch, and I can watch very closely if you'd like."

The stranger almost goes right on past and Tomás is half a breath away from questing after another individual to convince of the truth. But then the other dude stops — and Tomás is holding his breath again, air swells in his lungs.

It bursts just as quickly. He's not a listener.

"I — wait," He cannot get a word in edgeways against this guy. Is he a lawyer? No, Tomás knows the types, his mother's one. They don't stop for newspaper slander. "It's not —" Fuck, it's impossible. The guy doesn't cease. And even though Priestley is absorbing every word, plucking out the important details. He's not sure if it might be worth something. He might write about this. The non-believer that thinks Tomás was born yesterday. Jokes on him. "There are vampires in the glory holes!"

He says it loud enough, a few eyes look their way.

And that's about all the defence he gets in before the man wishing to start this debate rattles on. Tomás lifts a finger in objection, mouth opening and closing in quick succession. He might have to call his mother after this — if this guy isn't kidding about filing something against him. A nervous laugh breaks free from the editor's mouth, part concern, part frustration. I know they exist, I've seen them, I write about them. They're just very clever at living in the shadows. But he'll catch them, someday. Have a conversation with one and get all the nitty gritty stories.

Maybe write a book, too.

The Truth about Port Leiry. With The Leiry Conspiracy as its cited source. It has the facts; the photographs and the experiences to boot.

Then the stranger gets positively filthy about the supernatural — and whilst Priestley would love to know the ins and outs. The secret society of vampires, moonshifters and beyond aren't going to make an appearance if they're crashing into the glory holes; it'll spook them, he knows it. And then — Tomás catches a line of importance; why the man is so bothered?

Our glory holes.

That's not an invitation, as much as it's a flex. This guy works at Eden's. The jaw-slackening reflex is quickly rectified when Tomás closes his mouth. Don't give the guy an opening; he's just quoted cocks. In fact, Priestley's searching for his notepad, and he's writing it all down. One never knows when it might come in handy. Not literally. He's okay without that.

"You seem to know a lot about what vampires like, hm? I wrote an article a couple months back that actually confirms that there is a sensual nature to the species; they had fluidity down long before us humans ever did. Acceptance of all bodily desires. They've lived longer than we do. You know that? They're so much more open, free spirits, in fact." But he's not saying that he won't take a trip to the glory hole, he's just sure he won't find what he needs. He's already asked there. "I've been to Eden's — where do you think I got my facts. I don't write made-up shit, okay?"

[tetrisfinished]

defeated - sos

if there was ever a dictionary definition of the word defeated - it would be me, right now. in this moment.

i wish i could say this is the first time i've felt this way. but it is in fact not.

i've felt this way pretty much daily throughout the past couple months.

tonight's defeat feels bigger though?

i just yell and scream and shout and i'm not being heard. i'm not being heard by the guy who is supposed to be my partner in life. i no longer trust this man with anything. i cannot hold him accountable for any responsibility, household, childcare, etc.

i'm so tired of this life. i'm so tired of this resentment. i'm so tired of gaslighting myself thinking he's trying or he's saying he'll try harder.

i'm tired of it all. most of all i'm tired of this person that i'm becoming.

this angry asshole queen mother bitch monster. and that monster is not contained only to my husband. it's making my life toxic, it's making my mood toxic, it's making the relationship i want to foster with my son toxic.

and i'm pretty sure, it's staggering the rate at which my son is developing in life. i'm causing all the anxieties and fears in my kid that i see on a daily basis in all these tiktok videos i watch. i'm doing all the things to him, my 18-days-away-from-3-year-old, that are the actual consequence of the ways you should NOT be behaving around children.

shit is tough man.

shit is really really tough.

i'm almost at the point now where i feel like is it me? is it truly just me? why am i having this DIFFICULT a time adjusting to my life?

marriage is tough, but i feel like my own marriage in my life is the actual test that i'm being given by God.

and every day i sit in bed at the end of the day and i think...there's another day i've failed my test.

there's another day of defeat.

and yet i persist in waking up the following day and trying again.

tonight....i just don't know if i want to wake up tomorrow to try it all again.

i want to be done.

i want it all to just end.

life. is. tough. shit.

DISCLAIMER: i am in a super dark place, but for better or for worse, i know there is a little human that's pretty wholly dependent on me. and i'm not going to do anything to put my guy in harm's way...anymore than i already am anyhow.

urgh whatever.

much love,

k (i'll still be here tomorrow unless of course that's not God's will....)

[jsab-crisis]

Time to finally rip the bandy-aid off...

Hi, I'm the creator of JSaB Crisis AU, the owner of this blog, the artist of this comic, and so on and so on. I haven't updated this comic in- I forgot when I stopped, to be honest, I haven't touched this comic in a long time or anything relating to this AU in particular.

I've had people ask and are rightfully concerned regarding when I'll post the next pages and if I'm actually still doing this fan comic series. So, here's my answer;

I don't plan on touching this comic anymore or even the AU itself, for multiple reasons;

Technical difficulties in production is one thing, I use mobile Medibang paint to draw this comic and at one point there was an update that became a massive roadblock to it. You see, I've put the entirety of Crisis AU in one cloud file, even the WIPs, and depended on that due to not wanting to fill my storage with junk.

Crisis AU started when I was using an old phone with limited storage hence why I used Cloud-- it also helped me transfer all the art since I use the same medibang account. (Got a new phone afterwards)

Now, the medibang update that messed me over was when they added a premium membership in which you can access other assets such as brushes, certain controls, and cloud storage. They put a cloud storage limit which messed up all my cloud files (mind you, I've been using Cloud files for nor just the comic but for everything, even on my laptop for personal art/other projects).

Because of that, this made the cloud file almost inaccessible unless I manually save each page to my storage which... was infuriating and a huge demotivator. Had to delete other cloud files to at least make space but because of how many pages there are, well, I just left it there.

Loss of interest is also a common thing when it comes to fan series. My JSaB hyperfixiation died down at one point as I leaned to other medias, making me focus more on other media with LOTS of interest AND motivation to work on something relating to that instead of the comic itself.

This is very common with other fan series to my knowledge, having seen lots of discontinued fan works when I was merely a DA user.

Of course, my interest towards JSaB had kicked in again. I still love that game and the community i was a part of for awhile, having met wonderful and talented people throughout the year(s) and still do.

However, this also comes to my third reason.

Doubt. I have started to grow a distaste towards Crisis AU due to the writing itself and how my art is constantly changing. As time goes on, so does one's creative ability and taste and let me tell you how many times I've grimaced as I looked upon my own script. My writing style and comic making has changed over the past year and comparing it to this, I'd say I prefer now than whatever this was.

The concept of JSaB in a slice of life and modernized world that attempts to tackle personal turmoil? It's nice but it's not something I'd make in a heartbeat. I knew my goal with this and what I wanted to do but now it doesn't spark that flame of interest anymore.

Crisis AU is, well, a Crisis. The irony in that, am I right?

Not saying it's entirely hopeless, no, feel like if anyone would take this concept and do it their own then I'm sure they'll be able to execute it well with their own passion. It's just not me, if that makes sense.

Crisis AU is somewhat decent, mediocre, messy, and abandoned. It's a genuine shame to see how things have changed as it isn't the only art project I've abandoned due to the lack of creative flame. I can sympathize to those who actually looked forward to this as I've been met with support by those who read the comic and yet I am unable to continue delivering the series to its fruition.

Hell, I couldn't even pass the introduction arc!

...so yeah, that's why. I haven't touched this comic in a while because I've lost interest and I think I'll be able to rewrite it as the concept is lost to me now.

Now, it might be time to ask the Golden question when it comes to change!

What now?

For start, I might just let this blog become an archive because deleting in entirely would be an insult. I don't downright hate it! Slap a "Discontinued" onto it along with context in the blogs description.

Next? Well, I have multiple plans but I'm also worried they'll meet the same fate as Crisis AU so I'll start with small things.

Rebrand on the Crisis JSaB Discord Server.

All invite links have been revoked to stop new members for entering as we're entering changes. It'll be rebranded as a small JSaB server, dedicated to all JSaB fans. Channels, categories, even rules will be changed for simplicity sake and to fit the new name. This will then be followed with reopened Mod applications.

Ask Box will still be answered !! That means:

Crisis AU characters will still answer Asks regarding the discontinued comic series.

...which would make it more of an ask blog, yes? Huh. Whatever works. Take it as compensation due to the discontinued comic series. Ask box will still be open and I'll be answering old asks that are still there. So, yeah, you can still interact with the characters and even ask regarding what the lore was all about. I (or, well, specifically the characters) won't be keeping secrets anymore, nope.

New... projects?

I have another JSaB AU I've been rewriting for a while now, more interested in that since it at least LEANS to the Canon story... kind of. I won't be jumping to making a new blog and starting a new comic ONLY to be discontinued after an unannounced hiatus followed by a similar long text post/apology. No, I don't wanna set myself up again.

So, I'm staring off with small snippets of comics that piece together in my art blog and maybe make a blog that acts as an ARCHIVE. Keep things organized and pretty. This will inly happen if I reach a certain amount of comics, yes.

It's something, makes me less overwhelmed with trying new things. I've been getting better at comic making and writing! This might be a new start.

And, of course, I wanted to say this to everyone;

Thank you for everything and I'm sorry for not delivering.

The amount of support I've received during the active production of this series was genuinely heart warming and boosted my confidence in comic making. I wouldn't want it any other way.

And I'm sorry for things having to come to a disappointing end, but I'll make up to that. I promise.

If I was given the ability to wish that I never started Crisis AU then I would refuse.

Because then I wouldn't have met such wonderful community. I wouldn't want to change anything about it.

Don't fret, friends! I'm still here! It's not over, buds.

We just keep moving forward.

[crabussy]

heyyyy welcome, welcome!! I've been expecting you. You don't need to wipe your feet on the mat, mud tracks on the carpet adds some personality to the space!! Hang your coat on the weird fake taxidermy pronghorn. To your left, the dining room, currently occupied by 23 people (and not people) having a heated debate about whether chartreuse is green or yellow (its neither). Oh, and here on our right is a comprehensive list of my Things! Take a peek, I'll be waiting in the corridor with the mosaic floor.

post includes: info about me, hobbies, tags, sideblogs, DNI, disclaimers and explanations!

(this is going to be LLLLOOOOOONG. I love explaining!!)

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✦ Name: Robin to most, Rob to some, Thing to all (call me whatever!)

✦ Pronouns: I use he/him exclusively, NO they/them ever thank you! some cheeky it/its is always fun though go for it

✦ Age: 18. somehow an adult and a teen at the same time. save me

✦ Nationality: I am a Pākehā Kiwi

✦ Plurality: I am part of an OSDD-1B system alongside two dozen other headmates, some of the others have their own blogs set up which you can access via @menagerie-crew. they may post on my blog too, tagged with "_____ takeover" depending on who is in front. it is totally okay to request to chat with any of the others!! (I have discussed this with a therapist and a psychiatrist who both believe I am a system. I cannot get diagnosed for safety reasons. lalala)

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✦ Art:

@beastwhimsy - my art account! Please give it a look, thank you! My commissions are open.

@silly-pony-scribbles - an mlp art request blog I run with my bestest friend, sal!

✦ Tags:

silly tag: blorbos

sea tag: FISH. one of my special interests. coelacanth... kissing you

beast tag: ANIMALS. yet another thing I am full of love for

fren tag: any friend/moot related posts [: sometimes I forget!

art tag: art I am putting in my mouth right fucking now

music tag: music I am grating onto my pasta like parmesan cheese

insp: art inspiration

fave: what it says on the label [:

save: a tag full of posts I haven't looked at in about a year, oops

ultra fave: posts that make me roll around on the ground screaming

people tag: human people!!! I love us!!

mindfuckery tag: posts that violently rearrange my neurons

there tag: liminal spaces yayyy yayy

listen to my gibberish boy: my terrible words

important: usually PSAs and such!

mecore: posts that make me go YEAHHHHH. UH HUH.

robincore: posts that are like if I was images.....

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✦ Hobbies:

⋇ Camping, hiking, etc etc: I'm part of a scout group and have been camping ten gazillion times,, if I am not in a tent again soon I will surely perish. Put me in there NOW

⋇ Conservation/ecology: this is something I am most passionate about!!! I'm fascinated by ecosystems and do everything I can to contribute to positive change in conservation. I am especially passionate about Aotearoa's ecosystems!

⋇ Art: I draw ^_^ self explanatory !!! I specialize in character design!! redesigning characters is my love language.

⋇ Scaring myself shitless: I love horror... I will consume any horror related media although my favourite type of horror is unnerving stuff, not shock value stuff (although shock can be fun) if you have any good horror recs PLEASE I AM SO HUNGRY.

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✦ Interests:

⋇ animals!!! arthropods!!!! zoology/ecology! this is my special interest, has been for years, I could talk about it for hours [: NZ species/ecosystems especially! this is both a hobby and an interest rah rah

⋇ ADVENTURE TIME. HEEELP HELP ME HEELP HELP HELP. life giving magus I would do anything for you

⋇ mlp g3/g4 (currently VERY VERY gripped by The Horses. I love you ponies)

⋇ liminal spaces/old buildings (Don't mind me I just need to be in those places forever ?? and ever?)

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✦ DNI:

transmeds, terfs, pro-contact harmful paraphiliacs, syscourse blogs, autism speaks supporters, neonazis, zionists, racists, sexists etc. please stay off my page unless you're here to explore a different viewpoint and question your current views! thank you!

message me if you need any clarification on why I'm against any of these things, or if you're not sure what something on here means!! /g

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✦ Other:

I am autistic and experience chronic pain. Please keep this in mind when interacting with me! Tone indicators can be helpful, and I might sound a little off/dry due to pain sometimes, or I might not respond to asks for a long time due to low energy levels or forgetfulness. I promise I am always happy to talk!

anonymous asks and comments (unless you've been following me for over a week) are off because people kept using them to be needlessly unkind or to assume the worst of me. I've turned them on in the past only to have more people send me awful messages jam packed with pretty much every slur in the book. for that reason, they're off! sorry about that. (if you REALLY need to send me an anonymous message, you could make a temporary sideblog and DM me through it! I hope nobody takes advantage of this to be horrible. just be civil and block me if you dislike what I have to say please!)

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I see you finished reading my extensive list of Things!!! Lets continue with our tour- you haven't even seen the indoor crocodile pool yet. Did you bring any swimwear?

[preciouslittletoonette]

Knowing the nature of both their cartoons/any media they both have been in, who the winner of the fight is all depends on who started the fight.

Because whoever started it, is the one losing the fight.

Both Mickey and Bugs are "underdog" characters in a way. Characters who just want to live/are living life comfortably until some bully/antagonistic character comes in and disrupts this peace they both love, who they eventually end up defeating in the end with the power of their own wits and the tools they have on hand. Both of them are this archetype, they just go about it in different ways (Mickey is more straight-laced hero, while Bugs is obviously chaotic trickster)

Like the real issue of Mickey vs Bugs fight isn't even about powers or physical strength or audience favoritism (cuz let's face it, a lot of the times, the decided answer for these types of questions are 95% "who is my favourite" and not actually taking any stats into account unless youre a nerd), the issue is toon physics.

And I'm not talking about the anvil conjuring, the hammerspace- I'm talking about the aspect of toon physics that almost no one takes into account- which is the narrative. What role are they playing in the current narrative and how is the toon world reacting to them? Because if either of them are displaying the slightest bit of antagonism or aggression at the other, then that's an immediate loss and the toon world will make sure they feel that loss.

Both Bugs and Mickey got stellar records of wins, but both of them are susceptible to losing. Bugs will lose to anyone who the narrative sees as a little guy/underdog even if they aren't at that moment (see: Cecil Turtle- because he's based on the Tortoise from the fable "The Tortoise and the Hare", where the Tortoise in that story is the little guy/underdog; the Gremlin who was based on Roald Dahl's The Gremlins book). And Mickey will lose to his environment beginning to fuck with him, some genuine poor luck (see: Clock Cleaners; Moving Day). Bugs has lost to actual characters, but Mickey's losses are more cases of Murphy's Law- I don't recall seeing him lose to actual characters like Bugs has (actually wait- scratch that- I think he lost to Pete in "Barnyard Dance" but I'll have to rewatch that short)

So my answer to this would be, depends on who was the asshole first. If you put these two in a short together and allow them to work as they usually would in their media, no outside/meta influences, no audience favoritism bullshit; then the loser is whoever decided to be a dick first.

And THAT would be a very interesting thing to get into.

Now if we're talking a straight-laced, reality-based boxing match Mickey vs Bugs, then Mickey is the winner- that mouse has knocked several thugs and Pete (all of whom are twice his size) out clean BY HIMSELF. He has, can and will throw hands.

Didn't even give Donald the chance to throw a punch in 😭

Any version, feel free to reblog with Mickey/Bugs propaganda.

My money is on Bugs, but I'm curious what reasoning people would have otherwise.

[seelestia]

「 # 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐏 𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄! 」

contains information on this blog's content, prefaces, and rules. please read carefully and thank you!

─ ⊹ ⊱ ・・WHAT I WRITE.

i currently write for genshin impact and honkai: star rail. as of now, i do not have any plans on branching to other fandoms besides these two. all my written works are tagged under → #seelestial.inks

i write using second POV (you/yours) and portray my reader as gender-neutral using they/them pronouns. i mostly write romantic content for male characters. note: although i don't write for female characters, i do love and appreciate them!

below is a complete list of characters i write for:

note: characters with a [*] are not playable (yet), but i feel comfy enough to write for them based on the information we have on them so far. characters in italics are ones whom i significantly enjoy writing for.

{ GENSHIN } xiao, kaedehara kazuha, zhongli, albedo, gorou, cyno, tighnari, alhaitham, diluc, wanderer, venti, shikanoin heizou, arataki itto, kamisato ayato, childe, thoma, kaeya, kaveh, baizhu, neuvillette, lyney, wriothesley, dainsleif*.

{ HSR } dan heng, welt, gepard, sampo, jing yuan, luocha, blade, luka, argenti, dr. ratio, aventurine, sunday*, gallagher, boothill, jiaoqiu, moze.

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sporadic activity. i do not have a set schedule for posting content + i queue my posts often. if i've been offline for a long time, i may be busy with irl stuff! i also usually rb art & other things related to genshin/hsr to keep things lively here. hope you don't mind! rb's are tagged as -> #reblogs! 🕊️

relaxed response time to asks. i take some time to get to my asks due to social battery – but i cherish every ask i get, so thank you! answered asks are tagged as -> #inbox! 📬

this blog is selfship-friendly! there will be occasional mentions of selfships (whether mine or others). i'm a casual selfshipper & comfy with sharing f/o's. my inbox is always open for selfship talks ♡ selfships are tagged as -> #selfships! 🧸

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⎯ essentially, be nice! it isn't a hard price to pay, i promise. ♡

[ohmygoodnessgraciouss]

could I request a story where Loki and the reader are both magic time variants captured by the TVA, and they become closer and plot to escape together, but even though the reader wants to help him they're afraid of getting too close or opening up about their past because in the past they had been really hurt by the alternate Loki in their timeline? I'm sorry that's very long, you don't have to write it if you don't want to I just love your work so much and Reality Check is so perfect :')

I'm sorry this took forever! Honestly, I should've just made this a whole miniseries to really flesh it out, but with MOM I wasn't sure if I wanted to dedicate all my time for that. Hope this is alright! <3

You watched the man before you smirk once he recognized who you were. "Y/N L/N, I never expected you to wind up here," He commented, scanning you. You scoffed, turning your head away to look at Mobius.

"You expect me to work with him?" You asked, pointing lazily. Mobius nodded.

"You two are the best of the best. He never seems to die and you have the ability to control him. Not many can say they can do that," He responded.

"I don't want to work with him," You replied, sharply.

"And why is that? I want a better explanation than he hurt your feelings a while ago," Mobius said. You rolled your eyes, knowing Loki must have grinned at his statement.

"No hard feelings, promise! I'm not the same Loki you knew after all," Loki said.

"No, but the sacred timeline forces it to be exactly the same. I know you haven't done it yet, but you will. Eventually. If you ever decide to stop being a little shit and go back to your timeline." You walked closer to Loki, trying to seem intimidating.

"Ouch," Loki winced, stepping forward, "I see Midgard taught you some vulgar language."

"Seemed only appropriate for a man who killed 80 people in a matter of two days," You suddenly realized how close you were to him, eyes widening as you backed off. Loki rose an eyebrow at this.

Mobius chuckled. "This is going to be interesting."

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"I need you two to go to a small town in Oklahoma from a few hundred years ago to inspect something," Mobius said, pulling up a file on the desk in front of you. You sat next to Loki (Though it was not willingly) and waited impatiently to hear more about the mission.

"Oklahoma?" Loki questioned.

"It's on Midgard. It's a lot of farmland. Prone to tornadoes." You briefly stated.

"Seems like you know the place quite well."

"I lived there for a while. Until the TVA decided that I messed up something in their precious timeline. I mean, really. Do you guys think another war would happen when most people don't even know this place exists?!"

Mobius chuckled. "See, that's why I like you. You're realistic. But, unfortunately, rules are rules, and the timekeepers aren't ones for breaking tradition."

You shook your head in response, leaning back in the chair. Loki leaned forward towards the desk to get a better look at the file. It had several reports scattered across it, all describing the deaths of several minutemen from the T.V.A. "What happened?" He asked.

"Someone supposedly time traveled to the 1800s and broke the timeline. When our minutemen arrived at the scene, they set fire to the surrounding grasses and burned them all to crisps. We suspect the variant is another timeline's you, Loki." Mobius explained, showing several photos of the scene.

Your eyes widened. "Another timeline of him is running rampant and you imbeciles can't catch them?" You asked.

Mobius shook his head. "Loki is hard to catch. This one," He pointed to the man before him, "Not so much. The other one? Different story."

"And you expect us to just find Loki and bring them back?" You asked, leaning your head against your hand.

"It's either that or being reset by the woman who wants your heads on a silver platter."

Both you and Loki looked at each other for a brief moment, nodding slightly. Looking back at Mobius, you spoke at the same time.

"We'll do it."

~

You arrived in Oklahoma with Loki, taking a look at the burned farmland around you. Several bodies laid around the area, their weapons scattered. "God, these men didn't stand a chance," You said, crouching down to take a closer look.

"And neither do we if we can't find a trace of myself," Loki replied. He used his magic to trace where the fire started. "Over there," He pointed.

You looked over, seeing nothing special. "Looks just like everywhere else," You said.

"No, it's an illusion. I must have cast an illusion to make sure only those with magic would be able to find it. Or, well, another me did it. Why would he have done that though?" Loki asked, contemplating it for a moment. You walked up to him, showing him the collar and remote you had stolen from the agency only moments before arriving in Oklahoma.

"If anything goes wrong when we see them, I've got backup."

Loki grinned. "You're always so dependable. That's why I love you." You knew it was a weak attempt to make you soft. You shook your head, walking away from him.

"Not the same Y/N you know."

"The Sacred Timeline makes you the same."

"The same to an extent, but for me you're in the past. A lot changes in the upcoming years." You mentioned.

"Oh come now, old feelings can't die that easily, can they?"

"No, but you sure can."

~

You made your way to the Loki pointed to. The spot seemed to be as burnt up as the rest until Loki unveiled the illusion. It didn't take much of his magic to lift it, probably because the universe recognized it as the same signature. When it was revealed, the area hadn't been burned by the fire at all. The grasses were tall, reaching up to your shoulders at times. One spot was completely flattened though, with a singular note on the ground.

You picked it up, unfolding the paper carefully. Loki stood directly behind you, looking over your shoulder. "What does it say?" He asked.

"Meet me where we once called home," You read it out loud. The note crumpled as you tightened your hold on it.

"What does that mean? Once called home?"

"It means this Loki is in fact my Loki."

"Please tell me I don't have any hard feelings that you clearly harbor for me."

"That depends on whether or not you forgive me for the incident."

Loki quirked an eyebrow at this. You shook your head. "Not here. Let's find a place to stay. I know where home is. We're not far from it."

"Then shouldn't we go there first?" He asked, placing a hand on your shoulder to ensure you didn't walk away. You shook your head.

"No, I can't go there yet. There's a lot to explain before you see Loki."

~

You found an inn close by and decided to rest there. Because it was the 1800s you had to be careful about what you did. In a different century they wouldn't have minded you being in a TVA shirt and jeans. Now, they would.

Luckily for you, Loki was able to cast an illusion so that only you two knew what you were wearing. He even had to cast an illusion on himself to blend in more. He used fake currency to buy the room, which was about as small and cramped as you expected.

With only candles to light the room, it would've been considered quaint and cozy by most. A single bed with comforters, a drawer and chest, and a small desk. It was all you needed for your journey after all.

You sat down at the desk as Loki sat on the bed, feeling the comforter. "Softer than I expected," He commented.

"You lived through the 19th century, you should know it wasn't as bad as history books make it out to be."

He nodded in response, relaxing slightly. "Well? You said you would explain it to me. I should know what's going on before we go face off against myself."

You sighed, fiddling with a pen you had found in your shirt pocket. "Time travel isn't as uncommon as people may think. You and I both know that."

"Of course. You've time traveled a few times yourself."

"Exactly. Well, in my timeline, after the events in New York in 2012, you went to prison in Asgard and were eventually freed during the Dark Elves attack."

"I know what happens there," He said, sharply. You knew he must've known what happened to his mother.

You looked down at your hand, placing the pen down on the desk. "Well, you know what happens in the Sacred Timeline. Remember, you're a variant in this timeline too. In this timeline, you ended up going back to the 1800s, to this time."

"Why would I do that?" He tilted his head.

"To see me."

"What were you doing in this time?"

"I was running. I got into some nasty trouble with not only the Avengers but the federal government as well. It was just easier to go back to a time where I wouldn't have to worry about it. Plus, I didn't know what I was doing, so I wanted to hang out in a place where I knew I would never run into myself. I didn't account for you finding out." You sighed, fiddling with your fingers.

"And what happens after that? We were just fine before I... Well," He hesitated, "Tried to take over Asgard and then Midgard," He said, sheepishly.

A soft smile graced your lips as you thought about what had happened next. "We shared a life together. We were married, secretly of course, but we were happy. We moved into an old farmhouse around here and decided we would start a family here. It was in the middle of nowhere. No one was going to find us after all. We could be happy here."

"What changed?" He asked, leaning in. He couldn't understand where it would've gone wrong.

"The T.V.A," A scowl corrupted your smile as you looked up at him for the first time in minutes. "We were variants. What happened between us should never have happened."

Loki shook his head. "I can't believe that's what divided us. What did they do?"

"You gave me a chance to escape. You kept them off me and I ran off. See, I ran off and you went into the T.V.A to be charged for your crimes. They were going to prune you. Unless you told them where I was," You scoffed.

"Did I?"

"You did. Because no matter what you would always do everything in your power to save your own skin. Even if it meant ratting me out when I was protecting the child we had just taken in." Your tone quickly turned to ice at the thought.

Loki stayed quiet at the revelation. He didn't know what to say. "What happened next?" He asked quietly.

You shrugged. "I went in, you got out. You were reset. I don't know how you became a variant again. I guess they couldn't wipe your memory if you were able to remember our home."

"I don't understand. I don't understand how I could do that," He said as he stood up from the bed, pacing the room.

"The version of you in this timeline is different. He changed after escaping. I just hadn't realized it until it was too late."

Loki stopped in his tracks suddenly, staring you dead in the eyes. "Is that why you're with the T.V.A? To get revenge?"

You nodded. "The T.V.A, while I despise them, are my one way of getting to him. I want to make sure the agency brings him in once and for all. I'll prune him myself if I have to. And then I'm out of there. I have a plan to escape."

"And what will you do after that?"

You looked out at the window, "Find my little girl, I suppose. Make sure she's okay."

"Then perhaps you would like a partner to join you," He grinned.

"No."

~

Making your way to the farmhouse, Loki decided to stay back a little. The plan was for you to make sure Loki was in a vulnerable state, giving you just enough time to alert the T.V.A. Then, your partner Loki could capture the criminal Loki using the collar and remote you brought. It wasn't much of a plan, but it was enough for you to feel comfortable facing off against him.

Loki stayed outside, watching from a patch of wildflowers that sat outside the house. They were your favorites.

The house was cold and creaking from weight and pressure it hadn't felt in years. It looked abandoned. No one must have moved in after you did. The sight sent shivers down your spine. All seemed quiet except for a single door opening across from you. There stood the man that ruined your life - Your version of him.

"Hello, darling," He greeted you, a small sheepish smile plastered on his face.

"Loki."

"I know these are probably not the circumstances you would've wanted for this-"

"Not the circumstances?" You interrupted harshly. "I never wanted this situation to ever happen. You're lucky I haven't tried to shoot you in the face with a magnum."

Loki raised his hands up in mock surrender. "What I had done was uncalled for."

"Uncalled for?! You exposed me which put our family in harm's way! I have no idea where Rose is! None!"

His expression softened at the mention of Rose. You knew it struck a chord in his heart. It had to. Rose was adopted just like he was. All he wanted was to be a better father to her than his own was. If he were a better person you may have cared about hitting a sensitive spot like this.

"That's unfair. I had no idea she would possibly be reset by them," He said.

"Oh come on! What else did you think would have happened?! They were after us and so they were after her too." You moved your finger slightly to the communicator in your jacket pocket, signaling for the T.V.A to arrive and for Loki to step in.

"I never meant for her to get hurt," He said, his voice shaking slightly.

"No, but you meant for me to get hurt."

"I never wanted either of you to get hurt. It's just that-"

"Just what?" You grit your teeth.

"I was scared. You know how I am. I'm a coward!"

"That's no excuse for what you've done," You glanced up, seeing your partner sneak up behind the man. He wrapped the collar around him and quickly backed away, holding the remote up.

"What are you doing?!" Variant Loki exclaimed.

"Getting justice. Revenge. Everything I've wanted for years from you," You glared at him. The other Loki smirked, proud of you for what you had done.

The minutemen from the T.V.A quickly stepped in, arresting Variant Loki as soon as possible. Mobius followed them, looking the man up and down. "So you're the one who's caused all this trouble. And all because of a girl you crumbled. Gotta admit, it's not a good look for you," He said. You nearly laughed. "Take him away."

The minutemen began to drag Variant Loki through the portals, though he didn't go through without one last word to you, "Y/N! I will get out of this!"

You scoffed. "Sure you will."

~

Mobius decided to allow you and Loki to stay behind, giving you a moment to examine the home around you. He trusted you two enough to have a few minutes of peace alone. "So what's the plan, love?" Loki asked.

"Mobius has given us this much. If we gain his trust for a little while longer then we'll be able to have far more time and perhaps even a way to travel through the multiverse on our own. I hate to say it, but I'll stick with the T.V.A a little while longer. The endgame is long-term here."

Loki nodded thoughtfully. "It's smart. But I'm smarter," He held his hand up, revealing one of the portal remotes in his hand. Your eyes widened.

"How did you get that?!"

"I stole it from one of the men as they went through. I'm sure they won't miss this, but if they find out we have this when we go back it won't be pretty," He said, walking up to you, grinning.

You stifled a laugh as you looked down at the remote in his hands. You shook your head looking back up at him. "You're insane."

"Perhaps I am," His grin widened, "But I know you want this as much as I do. So, what do you say?"

He held his empty hand out to you, waiting for your response. Instead of giving it a moment's hesitation, you held out your own, taking his.

And with that, you never looked back.