#i'm not doing well

[kazisonline]

Edit: for people tagging this some weird stuff, it's about black sails, it's a direct quote. Tf you guys even are taking about in the tags, wdym #feminism #healing XDDD GO WATCH BLACK SAILS GEEZ

[caroandcats]

do you think Bobby knows absolutely everything that happened the night Eddie had his breakdown? do you think he had to hear how Chris had his headphones on at the time but was thankfully still able to hear his dad and call for help?

[johnthescientist]

this picture of fernando isn’t just a picture, its a cultural reset, its the oxygen you breathe, its a lifestyle, a reason to wake up, an escape from this cruel world filled with thieves, its an art, the first gift you open on christmas, a hug from a loved one, everything you’ve ever wanted.

[misswoozi]

????? What kind of fuckboy shit,?????? What in the world???? What the fuck???

[loucifersbitch]

Eddie sneaking Chris into Buck's room

Eddie CRYING WHILE CHRIS TALKS TO BUCK

OH MY GOD KILL ME

"Wherever you are right now, you have to come back"

[theyoungbuck]

doodle dump

[cosmic-ships]

Cool thing about Obi-Wan he'd let me have my space without letting me have my space when I'm caught in a depression spiral if that makes sense? He'd be in the same room with me. He knows that I like to disconnect from people when I get like this and I get very very quiet and speak as little as possible when i do have to speak but eventually I will want someone near me and I'll want company but I'd be too anxious to ask. (Under read more as it's personal and im really going through it rn™ and really really want comfort. Sorry for mistakes I'm emotional right now.)

Obi-Wan: What are you doing?

Kaden: Playing minecraft.

Then he'd go back to doing what he was doing then maybe an hour or so later he'd ask. "What are you doing in the game?"

Kaden: building stuff.

Some more time would pass he'd inquire once more I would respond: "mining stuff"

He'd go back to whatever he was doing for awhile and then once again ask "what about now?"

Kaden: growing stuff

Obi-Wan: May I watch? It seems peaceful. The music is lovely.

Kaden: Sure.

Obi-Wan would settle on the bed beside me but he wouldn't touch me. Hed simply just be a presence beside me. He isn't actually particularly interested in the game but he does enjoy the music and he wants to make sure I know he's there.

That would be all it took to have me start breaking down and crying, throwing thr control away and curling in on myself. It just happens, especially after I've had an extremely long high. (Not sleeping/being reckless/ irritated and snapping at people/ god complex etc.....all the "joys" of being bipolar) I just feel this overwhelming sense of dread and that I'm not okay in the slightest and the realization of my actions while I was in that heightened state. I feel broken. Ashamed, embarrassed and disappointed in myself once more.

He'd ask if he could hug me and god knows I wouldn't be able to speak just nod as I'm scrunched into a ball. He'd pull me against him and run his hand soothingly over my back while I sobbed, whispering soft gentle reassurances and telling me that I'm going to be okay that its okay, that he's here for me.

Even when I apologize profusely for being like this he reassures me that I've done nothing to apologize for. I cannot control what happens. While he says that he reminds me that I'm never a bother and he wants to be here to help me.

I'd tell him I feel like a burden and bothersome and he's quick to reassure once more telling me if he truly felt bothered or burdened he wouldn't be here at my side at all.

He tells me while he cannot fully understand what I'm going through as he doesn't have the same mental disorder I do he says I will never have to feel alone because he's here to help lessen and quiet all the thoughts that seem to overtake my mind.

He reassures me that even when I have incredibly bad days where any regular person would see my paranoia, my irritation, depression, manic episodes as personal attacks or threats that he doesn't, that he will be here in any way that he can because he cares about me deeply, he loves me so much and he wishes he could take it all away, he knows he can't so he instead vows to stay with me through the storms, that I'm not hard to love, I'm not difficult.....that I'm not a horrible person, I'm not all the nasty stereotypes people lump together about my disorder...that I'm not dangerous or a threat...I'm just...me. and I try my absolute best each day.

Come hell or high water, he's here with me and for me. No matter how ugly or beautiful a day may be for me. He's here. I can't ask for more than that...

[cruell-summers]

that was the last "welcome to the eras tour" we'll ever hear.

[nonbinaryanarchist0013]

ima pull an icarus and just rawdog stare at the sun with my autistic eyes and no one can stop me

[the-blossica-fan]

Sometimes you lay down without your phone, you have stuffed two medicinal herbs into your ears to cure the pain, you can feel your heartbeat - no, not hear, feel - and you look at the ceiling. You're mostly deaf now so you just say: "Lord, please let me live another day, I haven't sent my second draft to my beta reader"

[th3-c0ll3ct3r]

I remember THE LAST EVER MINECON was in my city and my mother had bought tickets, but last minute she decided that I didn't need to go so I never went (and she sold the tickets)

AND THEN WHEN I FOUND IT WAS THE LAST I NEVER LET HER LIVE IT DOWN

She'd told me "it'll come back around" and guess what?-

And now since the UK isn't "technically apart of the EU", that means if they ever do a MineCon/Minecraft event in person in Europe, then it will never be in the UK and therefore it's super unaccessible for me because poor

This is the root of my trust issue and villain arc I swear-

[alizaphale]

I need people for a rant and I think I have created a fairly safe environment here, plus there's probably very few people here who're gonna read it.

I've had breathing difficulties for the last 3 weeks. Like they're really stopping me from doing things I enjoy. Been to the doctor who just told me it was just my mental health, and there was nothing she could do for me. I just need to look after myself.

And I'm just. Yeah. I know.

That's what I'm trying. Every fucking day. But I'm reaching my limit here. And pushing through the breathing difficulties in addition to pushing through everything else is just really tough. I have no idea what I can do.

I love my job. And there are a lot of changes happening at my job and I would really like to take on more resposibility because I know I would be good and I could change things. But I don't know if I should because apparently I can even handle normal life.

I'm just really sick and don't really know what to do. What's wrong with me that I can't handle normal life? Like what did I do wrong? How do people do it?

I just need a hug. Can someone send me a hug, please? 🥺

[givemeyourknees]

If I see one more piece of dog metaphor poetry or media I think that'll actually be it for me

I can't do it with this shite lads.

[s-creations]

Current Mental State:

How the fuck do you say "I'm done with life" without sounding like you're ready to leave?

[chaos-potat]

No matter how much we've talked on a server, unless I tell you through dms that I consider you a close friend, do not say mean jokes that friends say to each other (insults, namecalling, laughing at misfortune, ect) unless you are actively trying to hurt my feelings

despite being a guy raised in a house with toxic masculinity, I am a sensitive person, thanks

[tarancho]

i just keep FJLSDJLDFSJLSDFJLSDFLJJDLSFKDFSJLLJDSFLJDFSLJDFSLJDSLJFDLJ ojk now felei better.