#i'm not bitter i promise

[ivywing]

[firelorcl]

Dentist

all I wanted 10 years ago when I used this more was anons, and now the only anons I get are this lmao thanks @meladoodle

[neverbelessthan]

JET LAG THE GAME | Benjamin 'bing bong' Doyle (2 / ?)

[laughhardrunfastbekindsblog]

To all the Bad Batch fans who are also MCU fans:

Do y'all remember when Endgame came out, Natasha Romanoff sacrificed her life just for a chance at everyone else returning, and the most she got in terms of grieving was a short scene of some of the other Avengers crying with Hulk throwing a bench, and a vague reference at the end? While Tony Stark got not only several extended goodbye sequences, but also a funeral/memorial. And fans brought up the discrepancy and their disappointment, because Tony DID deserve such a send off, but so did Nat.

This is how I, as a massive Tech fan, feel about the "closure" we got in the show regarding Tech's death and its impact on the other characters. Except it hurts even worse in Tech's case, because the only finality about his death came at the very end of the show and was basically "he's dead by default" since he hadn't come back, whereas with Nat we at least got reliable confirmation of her death so we could process it early on.

I love the Bad Batch. I appreciate the finale even more after a rewatch (and several paradigm shifts). And thankfully I (and the fandom) have an imagination so I can come up with my own cathartic moments to fill that gaping oversight for Tech. (Though the question remains: why do we as the fans have to do this, why didn't the show provide the closure and catharsis??)

I'm just saying: spare me the convenient time skips and "they were busy/they'd moved on already" excuses, Tech should have gotten at least as much attention from ALL his family members honoring his memory as Mayday got from Crosshair.

[lloydfrontera]

y'know what's funny in a 'not really funny at all but i have to laugh or i'll start biting people' kind of way??

the adaptation team working overtime to make the relationship between javier and lloyd look so much less deeper than it actually is in the novel makes the novel look so much gayer than it already did on its own. like. sorry but your attempts to cover up the homoerotism just makes it stand out more in its absence.

because if there truly was nothing remarkable about lloyd and javier's relationship and they were just very good friends and nothing else then why take the time and effort to change it in the adaptation so they look less close than they actually are.

why skip entire scenes that make their relationship deeper. why change their dialogue and thoughts so they're less invested in one another. why give interactions that they had with each other to their romantic interests. actually why give javier a whole new love interest that did not exist in the novel.

why go through so much trouble to change something that is so important in the source material if there truly was nothing else going on in the novel.

what was it about their relationship that made the adaptation team decide they just needed to change everything about it so they weren't as close and attached as they were originally.

if they were truly nothing but platonic with each other in the source material then why change their relationship so much in the adaptation that it's almost unrecognizable.

what about it did they find so unappealing that they simply had to modify it until it was but a shadow of itself.

in trying to cover up something they only managed to call attention to it by the people who knew what was there originally. now we know that they wanted to get rid of it so badly they were willing to butcher the story and plot for it.

it's really funny :)

[utilitycaster]

I enjoy shipping, but I cannot see the appeal in watching shows only for the purpose of shipping; I think it closes you off to so much. I think coming into a work with the expectation that it will only succeed if a particular configuration of people end up happily in a relationship with each other when the curtain closes means you will reject so many unexpected choices altogether. It destroys your ability to appreciate the entire concept of tragedy. Just, imagine refusing to let yourself enjoy "I'm not a gardener" because you are too furious that a different kiss than the one you wanted happened to feel other emotions.

[gunpowdercarousel]

Baldur's Gate 3: And then you saved the day! The End 😌

Me: W-wait, but what about Astarion? He's the Vampire Ascendant, what does-

Baldur's Gate 3: The End 😌

Me: But what about Shadowheart and Lae'zel and Minthara and-

Baldur's Gate 3: Theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee End 😌

Me: But what happens to them? And what about all the other people that-

Baldur's Gate 3: Main Menu 😌

[softstarsabove]

Ah this used to be one of my favorite photos I've taken (*´∀`)♪

[springs-hurts]

how do you balance it then? Magic and might. One person who's most powerful sorcerer to walk on the earth and the other who is The best warrior and a powerful king.

The prophecy was about Arthur, you can't deny it. Merlin was part of the prophecy, yes, but essentially it's Arthur who'll bring magic back, it's Arthur who's supposed to unite the whole Albion and become her High king. Merlin was supposed to protect him and help him reach that goal.

How it works then? I don't know if I'm making any sense because fuck if that whole fucking show made any sense. Cause, like baby I love you buf wtf you were trying to cook? The whole thing was a disaster recipe. The one person who's supposed to be a prophesied figure, who's supposed to bring magic back and all that.. That man isn't aware of his own destiny, like how fucked up is that?

[yoosung-ah]

[corvidclub]

there's really no canon evidence for it but I really like the idea that Louis' dad was a relatively caring father for the time period and that loustat were both attempting to (consciously or unconsciously) emulate their paternal figures in their treatment of Claudia

[coffee-with-mint-syrup]

Look, I didn't want to be "that" person

who criticizes something just because "it was different in the books".

But I love PJO just way too much to not feel frustrated at the tendencies of modern adaptations that I think new series is suffering from. And I feel much more frustrated because in others aspects the new show is great.

First of all, what's with this downplayed brutality of PJO world? The moment Sally started her speech about Perseus I smelled trouble. In her story, in her reasoning she named him after Perseus because of this beautiful story where happy ending is just something that happens. While in the books thats a huge deal that Percy is named after THE ONLY HALF-BLOOD HERO that had that happy ending. That fact is supposed to highlight the mortality rates and that for most of these demigods happy ending is pretty much NOT IN PROSPECT. Like, despite that rambling post I'm usually fine with some differences that are made in adaptations, most of them I usually can understand. But why do you need change the message of "I named you that way because I hope you will live happily ever after despite being in constant danger" to "I named you that way because it's a beautiful story about a mother and a son"? Especially when they absolutely could do both?

Secondly, the Gabe issue. You see, Percy Jackson books were great because they were able to discuss with children some pretty heavy themes without downplaying them - like domestic abuse. And that scene with poker players and Gabe getting from Percy money was brilliant because it showed that Gabe was so awful that he took everything he could even from a 12 y.o. There were also heavy implications that he beat Percy. But now Gabe is just your usual jerk who is lazy and doesn't have a good relationship with his stepson and argues with his wife all the time. Look, I know, that is awful too, I know that. But the point of Gabe that he was absolutely the worst. That he's the worst of the worst that's why he smells on this metaphysical level and is able to hide Percy. That he kinda deserved what happened to him in the end. And now I sure that we won't get that end because apparently that stuff is too brutal for kids. If they're afraid that much younger audience would get shocked by it they could at least do that in hints, you know. Old shows were great with things that you didn't understand as a child and then later while rewatching them you finally could get the message.

And what's with this Grover thing? Okay, I understand they probably didn't have the time for establishing why Percy would feel betrayed by his teacher but wanted to save this "low point" for Percy's character. But why? Why? How Percy as a character and we as viewers are supposed to feel that amazing friendship if it started for us with betrayal? That just sucked.

Also, personal flaw - they really could insert "This is a pen" line when Brunner gave Percy the pen. They really could and that would be so awesome. But they didn't.

And the sad part is that now I understand that there was no way they could include this important stuff in the series. Because Disney is too afraid to show domestic abuse. They afraid to show Sally Jackson that put up with heavy abuse just to keep her son safe. They afraid to show that literal children die in PJO world. That that half-blood stuff is no game - as Percy said in the very first minute of the series. For fuck's sake they didn't even mention him having ADHD! They implied that by saying that he was being weird! That was so so so so important that those things that kids with ADHD are struggling make them so special and strong in their own way. And now that message is gone too.

And all of that is because Disney doesn't have any balls left. It's like they sanitize everything they make into that 0+ versions of stories while sometimes the point of the story is in discussing something from a real, sad and unsanitized world.

The stuff I listed is just from the first episode and I don't know if the show will go that way, if this tendency of sanitizing the story will continue or not. I'm just really afraid that all of that means that they decided to leave out all the brutality that made Percy Jackson so iconic. It is like watching this new version of Harry Potter where he doesn't live under the stairs - that maybe doesn't change much story-wise but it's just not the same Harry Potter that way.

I want to like the show, I really do. Walker is so amazing is this role. Other actors are really great. I see the effort, I see how people tried to make this adaptation as close to books as they could. The show looks truly amazing. The fight with minotaur was absolutely stunning. Ending sequence is a masterpiece. I have so many good things I can say about it. But those little things they changed - they weren't little at all. A huge chunk of what made those books so special at least for me is gone (especially in comparison with Harry Potter books). And I can't help feeling sad.

[milkzfall]

I'm thinking about how tua end.

If only we had a season 4 ┐⁠(⁠‘⁠～⁠`⁠;⁠)⁠┌

[of-the-stars-and-the-sea]

A Raw and Broken Reality

There was a time when I would have been afraid about what I am about to do. 

…To be truthful, I know that isn’t accurate. The person who I used to be would never have even conceived of this. How could they, when they had been led to believe that people were meant to be just and unselfish and kind? How could they, when they so deeply believed in good?

The funny thing about belief is that, in the end, it can only ever be an imitation of reality.

We were good. We were kind. We were everything we were supposed to be. It was never going to be enough, but we hadn’t known that. We hadn’t known much of anything, really. 

It wasn’t until that night that our imitation had come apart. 

It hadn’t come apart cleanly. It came apart forcefully, harshly, in a way that left no single piece unscathed. It came apart and left everything in its vicinity spattered in blood.

That’s what stuck with me the most, after. I had never thought about how warm blood could be, how much the smell of iron sticks in your nose. Now it’s all I can think about. Everything smells like it. My clothes, my hair, my dreams. I can’t bear to even shower in the same one I did that night. I’m too afraid that the blood and the memories will come up the drain and drown me. 

Sometimes I think I should let them.

At least, then, I wouldn’t have to keep waking up in this raw and broken reality where you are no longer beside me. This reality where nothing is sacred and everything can be torn from you in an instant.

Maybe that would be easier. But for now, I can have comfort in the fact that living gives me the chance to do this.

If you were still here, I imagine you would tell me to stop. To not allow my grief to push me to a point of no return. To hold my anger and let it shape into something with words, with calm reason, with faith that everything can be fixed. 

Once, I had nothing but that faith. 

Now I have nothing at all.

If you’re watching this, wherever you are, please look away.

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Inspired by this post

[otomevibes]

Anyway here's the shojosei licensing announcement I'm most excited for from Viz:

[running-in-the-dark]

had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)