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NOTE: I am not responsible for your dentist bills for the cavities you might get from this one... happy belated 2x4 day, the even bois are super cuties <3
boy 1 boy 3 boy 5
#gundam wing#duo maxwell#quatre raberba winner#duo x quatre#2x4#i shall not apologize for the amount of fluff i stuffed into this#fluff isn't usually my thing#i'm more comedy by a LOT#even reading it gets boring for me insanely fast#but MAN do these two bring out the fluff demon in me#they're so cute TT_TT
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ok now that the dance in fire birthday celebration is outta the way i guess this is a good time to (officially) announce that i'm working on another sonic zine! it's focused on a handful of the robotic characters from the series, especially metal sonic.
it's gonna have more comics in it, so it's taking me a while. not sure when it's gonna be done - hopefully october, but no promises.
here's some sneak peeks:
#this one is also um. a lot more emotional . it stops focusing on comedy pretty fast lol#there's a lot more i'm trying to say with this one. so i hope that comes across when it's done#this is also gonna be the last sonic zine i do (god willing) because goodness gracious i would like to focus on other things some day lol#im still very excited to get it out into the world. so stay tuned!!#fern's sketchbook#sth
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me: I'm not a bat
Mr pages: (stuffing novels under its robe): I must abscond
#I have a lot of other bits I've collected but don't want to overwhelm the tag#I really would suggest motr and to play it as like. I like it for giving us a day to day slightly more grounded neath life#I think fallen london is a great setting well conveyed in total but motr is way more fleshed out in a “you're just a guy” way#I also really like the character writing. The gameplay to solve the mysteries is quite obtuse in total but I used a hint guide so it was#I knew what to do bc I would NOT have succeeded otherwise. But experiencing it was still fun#I'm quite torn on how good an intro it is for FL. I think that depends on your genre of choice but as a world introduction...#Idk!! In theory it's probably good. But I'd need to hear from people who went through it as their first to say. It touches on a bit of it a#Mask of the rose spoilers#Fallen london#for virginia and milton teaming up to bully you + mr pages ridiuclous comedy of a life it's worth it to me
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𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄'𝐒 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐎
#i've been waiting years to draw this like since highschool#so i'm sooo happy to finally be able to put it altogether#maybe not its final version but for now im satisfied ahah#it gathers lots of things i drew lately (3-4 years) : medieval maps / space maps / alchemy symbols and circles#also notice how there is no style consistency in my blog on my last posts ahahaha#also ive got tons of lore idea about hell and i wish i had time to illustrate them and think more about it#map#medieval#fantasy#Dante's inferno#divine comedy#hell#alchemy#circle#litterature#occult#demonology#ink#inferno#dark academia#catabasis
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Happy to report I have finally started listening to Malevolent and to no one's surprise I am already obsessed (I'm almost done with s2 atm please don't send me spoilers yet sdlkfj)
I'll skip over my usual formality of having one normal art post before diving into shitposts let's not waste anyone's time here
#to no one's surprise the body-sharing eldrich horror buddy comedy is right up my alley#this one's been on my 'to listen' list for a long while but the stars finally aligned to make it happen#okay time to figure out how to tag this uhhh#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#john doe#i will probably change how i draw arthur a Lot as this goes on lol but enjoy these early drafts#unlike him I had a good idea how I wanted to draw john from the get-go#though the scrawling chaotic scribbles are actually a bit tedious to do in cleaner art#the pencil comic at the end is about the easiest way to do it he's just a bit more formless there#which is only really confusing when I also want to draw the hand like in the first shitpost#if i draw anything for s2 i'll update him a wee bit though probably pretty easy to guess what#i'll be playin with it i'm sure#idfk what tags people use for these i'm not allowed to search the tag till i'm caught up#so for now these'll work!#shorthand i'll probs just use#mp#pretty sure i haven't used that before#probably#my art#doodles#comic
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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.
he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.
a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).
but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.
and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.
he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.
and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal
#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about#religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk#maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about#how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks#btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian#piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into#the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general#and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj#i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me#like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly#and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway#moral orel#orel puppington#(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed#i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his#but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow#christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha#but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3#(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)
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You know, what else would be hilarious?
You know, in AtLA the "Ember Island" episode? The one with theather? Imagine: After Doriath, the remaining Feanorians (M&M, A& maybe A depending on what you prefer) go spying among the refugees in one or another city (no, IDK how Maedhros is not recognizeable, elven illusions, ok? Maglor does it) and there is a theatre and it does a play about Feanor and his sons (mostly about the sons) and it has the budget of a Czech musical and historical accuracy of the Amazon series.
Most of the men are played by girls (because boys and adults are mostly dead or fighting), Maglor is the main character, portrayed as weeping all the time and talkieng about hope (see: Katara in the episode) and hating his brothers (also, a strong suggestion that he's actually Fingolfin's son). Maedhros is portrayed as an orc-like monster but also has a lot of evidently artifical muscles which he flexes all the time in a flirty way. Celegorm is shown eating people, beating his dog, and still somehow is a comic relief. Curufin is played by the same actor as Feanor, only wearing heels (yes, they do the "short Feanor" thing) and is basically the same character, only he screams less and speaks in whole sentences (yes, they somehow make Feanor dumb). Caranthir is somehow turned human to marry Haleth (who is an evil witch). Amrod and Amras are one character.
Oh, and the actor playing Maglor cannot sing well (for an Elf at least).
And they need to sit there unnoticed in order to gather information about the Silmaril later, or something.
#silm#silm crack#silm fic ideas#sons of feanor#btw I'm sure Feanorian side also had some cringy propaganda#not the brothers themselves they are too sophisticated#but their soldiers making a play about B&L or Doriath in general?#especially the ones centered around Celegorm#we know they were ...well we know how some of them were#so I won't go into details how their B&L would look#but someone more decent just misinformed and having a lot of emotional investment in the feanorian side?#it would be also hilarious#but with a play about Feanorians we can have them watch it#also you know what???#Celebrimbor taking Annatar to a B&L play#it's a comedy#with a big focus on Sauron getting defeated by a dog (it's a normal sized lap dog in the play)#and missing Gondolin while flying over it#[a fic written from Annatar's PoV]#[no I don't ship them]#[they go to a romantic comedy because the plot demands it ok?]#[unless I find another way to force Sauron to watch a play about him and keep a straight face]
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After Isa's redemption in KH3, I'll never find it not funny as a huge fan of FFVIII that the fanon consensus is that the new "nemesis" of the Seasalt Trio or at least Roxas and Xion is Seifer.
I dunno how much of the KH fandom has played FFVIII, and in-universe it makes sense given Seifer is the "neighborhood bully" of Twilight Town. However, given what VIII players know about him, it's hilarious and cathartic to see these two kids either bonk him with copied claymores in response to him trying to intimidate them into giving him their ice cream money, curbstomp him at Struggle right after calling them "lamers" or "chicken wusses", or accidentally drop half-eaten popsicles on his face when, in his universe of origin, Seifer was a major war criminal who, among other things, dropped all sorts of horrible endgame monsters including actual malboros onto a hugely populated city (which like any VIII fan can tell you, malboros are already nope on a stick in general, but in VIII in particular they're excessively brutal).
Roxas and Xion are just delivering Seifer some belated karma from 1999 is all and I'm loving every second of it.
#Kingdom Hearts#Final Fantasy#Final Fantasy VIII#Roxas#Xion#Seifer Almassy#Seasalt Trio#Seasalt Squad#Rokushi kinda?#I will say though#Roxas and Xion -insert handshake here- Squall and Rinoa#Power couples against Seifer Almassy#I'll never find that not funny#Sorry Seifer you're an interesting character but as you are a bully this post shall bully you slightly#One of the many reasons I wish the FF characters had more spotlight in KH3 or will get spotlight in KH4#Because I want the Seasalt Trio to meet some of the characters chiefly Squall/Leon and a newly-introduced Rinoa#Not just to bond over literally and metaphorically hitting Seifer with a rolled-up newspaper#Just sort of comparing stories#Particularly Xion and Rinoa would have SO MUCH to unpack due to having been in similar states of mind at least at one point#Also comedy ensues when Leon already psuedo-adopted Sora and now accidentally adopted Roxas#It just kind of happens it's his destiny to adopt all the Soras#I'm so sorry I love FFVIII so much I would die happy if Rinoa ended up in KH#Same with Laguna he'd be a lot of fun to have#Sadly I think the FF characters are going to be gradually phased out as the series progresses until they're nonexistent#BUUUT I can dream
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Coming back from the dead is the kind of thing that can really fuck up your weekend, as Jon has recently found out (especially considering that he’d paid a mint for those concert tickets, thanks). On one hand, the bureau paperwork is horrifying, and the less said about his skyrocketing health insurance premiums or this year's taxes, the better. On the other hand, though, Sansa Stark, the pretty head of the medical/pathology research division and long-time object of Jon's affections, has insisted on giving him her utmost attention until she’s sure he’s back on his feet and fully among the living.
#my writing#my fics#jonsa fic#jonsa#jon snow x sansa stark#asoiaf fanfic#asoiaf fanfiction#got fanfic#a small goofy slightly gory oneshot of a workplace comedy?#Idk sometimes you just write something purely for yourself because it makes you personally laugh#weirdly this is one of my more romance-centered stories#despite the fact that it spends a lot of time talking about the biological implications of having been dead#like Jon does die but he also gets better right away so nobody is angsting about it#modern AU#Modern AU with magic and the paranormal#Sansa as a pathologist/medical researcher for a vague paranormal/magic government agency#Jon as a unit chief for paranormal artifact acquisition#(i.e. he's indiana jones but with paperwork)#Sansa and Qyburn as rival medical researchers who fucking hate each other#I'm trying to get back into the swing of writing AND editing and this was a good exercise plus it was also just fun to write#i make no promises about the biological accuracy of the symptoms of reanimation but it makes for a funny background thing#Melisandre as the bureau necromancer and resident office gossip
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I'm not going to say I understood everything in The Divine Comedy, because I certainly didn't, but there's one thing I did notice that feels relevant to Dante's role in Limbus--the emphasis on stars.
So many parts of the Comedy used stars as a way to describe things (sometimes substituting the word "ray" for "star" to avoid redundancy), and do you know what Dante looks to in Limbus when they heal the Sinners? A star--or "the faint star of truth," according to dialogue from Faust in Canto I, 1-11.
Also, having finished all three parts, I really feel like this star is in reference to Paradiso. In Canto XXXIII, Dante is finally granted a chance to look up and gaze upon God Himself, and while he cannot remember the details of his vision, he does remember "the truth." And what did Faust call this star? "[T]he faint star of truth."
It is only through this star that the Sinners can heal in Dungeons ... it's through this star Dante can use their ability. And, after finishing the Comedy, I genuinely wonder why that is ...
I know some list Dante's source as Inferno, but I really think their source is the entire Divine Comedy--yes, Inferno has Virgil and Charon, and the former serves as Dante's guide there, but Virgil is also Dante's guide through Purgatory, where the Seven Sins are more clearly labeled and assigned a punishment. While it's said at the start of Limbus that Dante is going through Hell, I feel the way the Sinners are constantly killed and revived is a kind of Purgatory--and Dante also endures the pain they go through, as if it's a punishment for them, too.
I think, in some way, Dante is attempting to reach "Paradise," whatever that may be in the City, and that's where their "Aspect" will finally be engraved--much like how their counterpart had God's truth stamped upon his soul after gazing into the "Eternal Ray" head-on.
#I've been constantly thinking about this star since I started noticing how many times stars are mentioned in the Comedy#and there's such an emphasis that I'll be changing Dante's emoji from the alarm clock to a star ... it feels more fitting for them#there's a lot to unpack in The Divine Comedy and a lot of it was confusing ... but it did give me a new appreciation for Dante#and I'm curious to know more about them ... is Beatrice somewhere in this universe?#if she does exist what's her connection to Vergilius?#seeing as he's the one Beatrice sought out to guide Dante in the source material#is Dante's story in Limbus somehow related to the real life Dante's exile?#there's just so many questions I have now ...#p: the truth shining before me like a star in heaven 🌟#a real page turner: The Divine Comedy#scattered pages
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WIP(s) as a Moodboard
tagged by @inafieldofdaisies !! tysm!! <33
rules: show a moodboard and an important phrase or dialogue from the current fic you are writing!
WIP: So Much For You and Me
"Fuck you," Dean choked on the words, he hated it but his voice broke as he swallowed a sob. His anger was infused with a heavy sorrow tugging at him. He should have gotten it through his skull when the helicopter crashed, if any of his friend had been left he'd have plucked him out of that wreckage and taken him away. Far, fucking, away. His friend was gone, well and truly. And the only person to take out the anguish of that loss on was the husk of his memories in front of him.
He surged forward, tossing messy, uncoordinated punches at the redhead as he shouted every profanity he'd ever learned. Every word he'd scolded Jacob for using on the playground, every hissed syllable he'd heard from the kitchen at night, every hurled abuse rained with spittle in his face at bars. He threw it all at Jacob and hoped it'd be absorbed and taken away, but it hung heavy in the air between them; sticking to them like an angry web.
Jacob caught his hands and headbutted him with a grunt, twisting him around and catching him in a headlock. Dean clawed at his scarred arms, visages of the peggies he'd incapacitated this wxact way springing to his mind. What a cruel swing of karma.
"That's not all you got, I know it isn't." Jacob grunted and Dean replied by elbowing him in the ribs and ramming his head back into his nose. Jacob stumbled back with a groan, his grip only loosening enough for Dean to tuck his chin under his arm. With his mind in survival mode he does the only thing he can think of and clamps down on the scarred flesh with his teeth, his canines sinking in enough to have a metallic taste quickly pooling into his mouth. Jacob swore abruptly, swinging Dean into his bedroom wall. Dean crumpled to the floor, his vision going white for a moment as his brain rattled around in his skull. It's like he can feel every part of it at once and none of it at the same time.
sending tags out to @adelaidedrubman @socially-awkward-skeleton @deputyash @clicheantagonist @aceghosts @kyberinfinitygems @megraen @simplegenius042 and anyone else who feels like it!! <3
#i'm reworking this whole section of the chapter bc i'm not happy with a lot of it yet. the pacing and dialogue isn't flowing how I want BUT#I am enjoying writing Dean being a fucking Mess. we love men who cry while they fist fight their ex bff#I was gonna do a more lighthearted moodboard for the attempted comedy that comes before this section#but there are no images of pantsless men with funny socks to be found on pinterest. which is a shame#anywaysss <3#Far Cry Tag#ship: Only Us#misc: aesthetics#misc: tag game#misc: wips
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I've been doodling these guys a lot and I was like, haha what if I tried to blend each characters' designs together using my favorite elements. And then uh. I did all of them.
#terrain of magical expertise#zetto tome#kizuna tome#alpha tome#flamegirl tome#kirbopher#gamecrazed tome#nylocke#sofdti#zetto#redesign#Zetto's face markings are my man Galaxynite's idea btw and then I STOLE it#and gave everyone else face markings to boot#I had SERIOUS trouble 'improving' on RPG Flamey and Kirb's designs like they're legit perfect imo#had to really try not to just steal them verbatim#These are super messy but I'm really happy with how they turned out heheh#I would kill for more interactions with Zetto and GC post-canon btw#or Kizuna and Kirb because the comedy potential here is great#OH these are made for the webseries continuity I should probably mention#even though I took a lot of cues from their RPG iterations because those designs are killer#My friend my give them a pass too and if they do I will be drawing those at some point so WATCH OUT
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hey, i don't post here often, but a friend of mine made a fun little visual novel for a senior project in college, and i did some voice work for it!
i'd really appreciate if you checked it out, everyone involved did such a great job.
#add a tag#paThs#voice acting#my voice#visual novel#it's fun#you should play it#you will have fun#or else#that sounded threatening#i'm not gonna kill you#that would be mean#you should play the game though#a lot of work went into it#i'm proud of it#well i didn't do any of the programming#i was just a voice actor#but still#it's a great game#probably need more tags#comedy horror#video game#itch.io#uhhh#ok that's enough tags
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I'm so close to writing about a character being beaten over the head with a rusty shovel and bleeding out dying to prove just how easy angst is to write
#Humour is so much more challenging than angst and I'm not going to take it back#It takes actual skill and effort to make funny jokes and laugh#Actually great s-tier angst makes you feel like you're transcending to a new plane of existence but you can still hurt people pretty easily#I just find the hard-hitting angst sticks a lot harder#Since most of the time it's either relatable or has been built up to exceptionally well#As opposed to most angst oneshots where it's just a quick and somewhat meh dose of pain#Give me suffeing for 20k words minimum or give me death#sp-rambles#Am I arguing over anybody about this?#No of course not I made a strawman to get mad at like usual#Except IG it's also true here#Comedy is seem as a lesser form of writing than tragedy and whatnot#Which it isn't inherently so
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I love over-analyzing media and I have pulled magnificent theories and headcanons out of my ass on the tiniest crumbs in other fandoms before BUT
y'all might be taking this improvised comedy show that is greatly determined by dice rolls a little too seriously
#dimension 20#fhjy#the number of times I've seen a bit turned into a long sad analysis of the character's trauma ugh#if you browse the tag of this show w/o knowing what it's actually about#you're gonna think it's a lot more serious and dramatic and painful than it actually is#and that little comedy bits are actually hugely significant when they're just jokes#I've seen it with almost every character#and multiple plot points#across nearly every season#and I'm not here to be the fandom police but aren't you guys tired?#does this show not make you laugh way more than it makes you cry?#this fandom is such a bummer sometimes lol#and so often things are hugely influenced by dice rolls#and the story doesn't go the way the PCs or even the GM thinks it will#but people pick apart 'plot holes' or inconsistent characterization#the cast is making this shit up as they go y'all!#cut them some slack and also don't assume every single little thing is significant#honestly surprised I didn't see deep and tragic analyses about the vulture dimension#rambling about my life
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vent incoming:
got my grades back for my courses last semester and most of it was to be expected, mostly A's, maybe an A-, etc. but i honestly can't get over the fact that my independent study (the buddy cole documentary) was for some reason given a B. like sure getting a B isn't bad per se, I usually get at least one B every semester and i honestly don't really care about what my exact gpa is as long as i can graduate, but come on. this school put me through months of psychological torment over this project and didn't even have the nerve to give me a B+??? i'm still coping with the self-doubt they forced on me and this bullshit is not helping!!
#honestly it's kind of hilarious ngl. especially bc i also got my documentary work counted as an independent study the previous semester#and the previous semester even tho i barely worked on the doc itself#(mostly just planning and putting together the crowdfunding which was still a lot of work but like compare it to the past few months)#they were willing to give me an A (my school doesn't do A+ so this is the highest mark possible)#vs this semester. like i'll admit my final assignment was late and could have been more polished#but i was literally on tour in documentary-mode 24/7 for several weeks. i filmed an entire comedy special! i put together a live interview!#not to mention having to fucking negotiate with my own college censoring the footage they'd promised me of an event i put together#and play nice with a professor who literally outed me on twitter in an attempt to cancel one of my best friends#at this point the ''B'' feels more like a petty grudge than anything else#like ok we can't get away with *actually* fucking over jessamine's grades bc clearly ze did do the work. but let's just give zir a B#like i will admit the audio quality in my final isn't great. and i could have used more polished footage in some sections#but counterpoint: 100+ students were arrested at a protest while i was editing and i was having a mental breakdown#the fact that i finished *anything* is goddamn impressive especially after they essentially conditioned me to hate myself any time i was#working on a project i loved!!!#due to the aforementioned student arrests my college did put out an option where we could change any letter grade this semester to pass/fai#so anything passing wouldn't impact our gpa if we didn't want it to. so i could just change the B to a ''pass''#but really what's the point. ''B'' is still a good grade and my GPA is fine (3.65 on a 4.0 grading scale. 2.0 is required to graduate)#it just sucks that after what i went through last semester i feel like nobody takes it seriously#i was reminiscing earlier about how it's honestly kind of funny how after that professor outed me on twitter#i was at the hotel with scott like an hour later sobbing and having an existential crisis about my relationship to gender#and scott was so supportive but also awkwardly being like#''i know i should offer the crying child a tissue but where the fuck are the tissues in this room what do i do''#and he just handed me a full-on towel instead like oh my god he was trying his best but also so clearly out of his depth#but of course i then had to remember how when i told that story to a different professor to be like ''this is how much scott cares about me#this guy called me fucking UNPROFESSIONAL for crying in front of the subject of my documentary?????????#like yeah maybe so but how DARE you call me unprofessional when a different professor tweeted my full name and gender without my consent#in an attempt to fucking cancel one of my friends for ''misgendering'' me for using pronouns i'm fine with him using!!!#i don't think i'm ever going to be able to forgive my college and i don't know how i'll be able to get through one more semester#that experience genuinely changed things about my psychology that i'm not proud of and i need to work through#so if i have to miss a goddamn kids in the hall event because i have class this november i am going to set something on fire
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