#i'm like a 12 year old cringe fangirl

[theroundbartable]

Arthur is smitten

Kisses are just hard to draw, so I used some pinterest references.

I think that if they had actually gotten together, Arthur would have found it impossible to stay away from his manservant <3

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[theconstitutionisgayculture]

Fandom question, what’s your opinion on self-shipping/self-ship OCs?

I’m mostly talking about the more indie media where people just like to draw or write about themselves or their in-universe sona interacting with their favorite characters for fun, not any of the Harry Styles fanfic or Sans fangirl examples I’ve seen. But I’d also like to hear your opinion on it in more popular stuff too, still using the example of the more chill or passive self-shippers.

It's not for me at all, but as long as it's not about real people I have no issue with it. I got into fandom and fanfic in the early 2010s, which was towards the end of the early era of fic when it was mostly written either by 12-16 year old girls or 40+ year old women. With the younger crowd, you got a lot of "me and my three best friends woke up in Lord of the Rings! Legolas was totally into Becky, but Aragorn can't stop looking at me! What's gonna happen when Arwen gets jealous???" and similar things. Lame and cringe, but ultimately harmless. These days it can get a lot weirder, and with people having social media access to celebrities, there's a bigger potential for creepy harassment which I'm not fond of. But in and of itself, self-shipping or self-insert OCs aren't a problem. I can just skip by those when they turn up in my searches and move on.

[gamora-borealis]

hmmm I just find it interesting that I avoided supernatural as a 13 year-old on tumblr during the height of the superwholock era largely because the fangirl slash fiction obsession seemed weird/scary to me as a repressed (bisexual) good christian girl™ (like yes of course we all know there was/is extremely problematic shipping going on in the spn sphere but I didn't know much about that at the time besides the questionable 'straight girls fetishize gay relationships!' narrative). then by 2020 I was out and accepting of myself so when the spn/destiel renaissance happened I hopped on the rollercoaster out of curiosity and here I am two years later. I haven't had this intense of a hyperfixation since star wars when I was 12.

and then I remember discovering dan and phil when I was 14 and really loving their videos but not getting too deep into their fandom because of all the slash fiction (which obviously the shippers were very problematic at the time, but that wasn't necessarily why I was avoiding it... because I was into straight rpf as a teenager around the same time 🤦‍♀️).

well anyways... guess who just fell down the dan and phil rabbit hole once again? I was conveniently procrastinating finals stuff last week by rewatching all their old videos and then picking up where I left off in around 2016. which is extremely ironic if you know anything about dan howell (who has been posting content again and sucked me back in).

moral of the story: of course superwholock-era tumblr fandoms were weird and had problematic shit but I avoided some of them mostly just because of internalized homophobia and now that I'm older I've turned back into a cringe (but free) 13 year-old and am healing my inner-child, except now I know how to engage with media/celebrities in a more healthy way in general so maybe it was a good thing I waited?

[nomattertheoceans]

The kind of drunk shit I’d do: become sworn sister with two dudes over a kebab 

[the-bjd-community-confess]

Rant... Okay, so I will rise to the obvious trollbait but let's talk seriously here. What is it with this trend of younglings being : "Oh you're 30 yo, so old, so creepy, get a life ewww !" in every hobby and fandom ? I cannot possibly be the only one feeling this. Some comments stated as such under the last confo. So, what is your problem, kids ? Who do you think created your dolls, your games, your books, your action figures ? Who do you think created entire websites, fanzines, fanworks of these medias ? Not 12 years old teenagers, that's for sure.

Fans do not have an expiration date, even if we fangirl on Barbies or Little Ponies or Star Wars. I'm nearly 40, been roaming the web since nearly 30 years and god knows I knew how to lurk and certainely not engage with adults in their space. It's especially glaring in japanimation/video game spaces which are FLOODED by younger people but if even a niche, luxury hobby like BJDs starts falling to this, it's concerning. Facebook's taken over by boomers, the rest of the web by babies. Where does that leave us middle-aged people/gen X/gen Y ? I feel like we've become massively unwelcomed, and pushed out of our spaces by litteral kids and teens, and it's seriously starting to annoy me.

And some of you kids might benefit of this teaching : stay in your goddamn lane. Sfw spaces for minors exists, please stay in those or don't come crying when we hit you back harder when you're often the ones starting shit. God knows we have our fair share of asshole kids in this hobby, starting but not limiting to the infamous Cvlur, who's just one example in a sea of entitled drama-seeking-brats. Well, she's all grown up now, and still shitty as ever, will wonders never cease, amiright ? As if we hadn't already our hands full with all the bitchy adults, you know... That said, I'm not against younger people in fan spaces, but I'm absolutely not okay when they starts policing everything or stirring up shit and refusing to take accountability because "I'm a kid uwu" and so on. I've got no problem with responsible, mature and kind people, and that comes in all ages. [Also, and that is a cry from the depth of my heart : please, young people stop doing cringy tiktok and uploading them with your personal info and/or your face visible. These cursed videos should not ever go out of your bedroom. Ever. And I would know because I was a PEAK CRINGE teen once upon a time, and I did the same thing as you in front of my mirror BUT THERE IS NO RECORDING !]

~Anonymous

[proeticshadows]

What's up, @ 26?

Hello! Been poppin' here and there at this space for a while now but still struggling to write for myself. Anyway, I just want to share that I recently turned 26 last July 12! I think the first time I've been here on Tumblr was a decade ago - 15 or 16 years old. I still keep this space to read my past shenanigans, experiences, and even heartaches (I used to write about my feelings a lot - what a cringe fest lol).

At 26, I'm back at being an active fangirl of EXO (I'm a Minseok girl!!). I've been in and out of the fandom since 2014, was on hiatus for 2 years (2018 to 2020), then back now at the same time they dropped their new album. My boyfriend gifted me the Photobook version 1 of Don't Fight the Feeling for my birthday (along with a sunflower shirt he remembered I like, uwu). Since the pandemic and WFH set up started, I've been trying also quite a lot of hobbies, jumping in from one thing to another, and reviving some stuff I used to love, like being an EXO-L. I feel like I'm a baby L these days because I'm new again on stan Twitter and I feel so tita as a kpop fangirl lately because of my age.

I also rekindled my interest on fountain pens and shockingly, it's become a fast process because I now possess 11 pens (2 are not inked and not sure if they still function), and I still want more from some brands - TWSBI, Lamy, Sailor, and maybe even a Pelikan. It's an expensive hobby and I'm scared to buy and commit myself for a pen that's worth more than 1k pesos (I'm almost there! My recent purchase was just on sale but its original price is 1k, haha). Let's see.

They say 26 is still young but I'm feeling the need to become more responsible lately, like, I want to buy a house for my family before getting married, keeping up with my savings and our wedding savings, and at the same time, taking care of my mental health. I wanna write about my struggles and mental health wellness also but that's for a next post, I guess.

Overall, I'm still staying at home and working diligently for books, treating myself from time to time, and trying to become that good daughter I promised my parents ever since. I guess I'm getting there.

[coralsgrimes]

I tried reading the 1883 interview and didn’t/couldn’t finish- I think it’s similar to the feeling that you have that causes you to mute any of his videos of him singing. Lol.

I hope people realize that he’s only getting this media exposure for his music because of his publicist (or whoever his marketing agent is) and not because his EP is sooooo amazing and people just discovered it and HAD to interview him or write up a feature about him.

Anyways the little bit I did read he came off arrogant to me. 🤷🏻‍♀️

LOL I did miss his stupid interviews. It was a funny game to see how many things he will repeat or how he's gonna change the story cuz fangirls moods changed x.x AND THE FEELING IS CRINGY - it's both cringe and sponsored by twin flame's cult brand!

Like I don't know how the shite works but I suppose it works exactly the way ye described it? And no one big reviewed him sooo here's that too!

SO OKIE! NOW LET"S MAKE FUN OF THE PUPPY! the interview is from the Toronto times soooo.......

So for the most part is so boring and repetitive that the questions he was asked I could have answered and no one could tell the difference lol we been through this x.x

like boy? what the fuck? Here it is again! The fucking forced positivity of his... Maybe I read too much into it at this point but he keeps repeating the stuff and really proving that he is all for the positivity but the bad kind? Like boy they may say I don't like this and then constructively explain why not. And then ye can either be a crybaby, ignore OR if there is something to acknowledge and improve... ye can do that??? Maybe then yer lyrics gonna be better than 12 years old girl's who had her heart broken for the first time... At least the lil girl has the good excuse of not having a fanceeee degree which Benny does have and keeps bringing into every other conversation about himself x.x

Beside this, as everyone can tell, nothing new ;c we get word for word the same stories. LIKE LITERALLY WORD FOR WORD when ye compare to other interviews x.x also love how he always says the elusive FRIEND told him this and that, and then he name drops other folks? No mentions of momma this time around tho!

Will not go back over the changing stories and what turned out to be a horseshite cuz we been there before too ;c OLD NEWS but like actually I would really like to know why the fuck they released the shite so late? Everyone already forgot about the EP by the end of October (ye can't argue this, like there is EVIDENCE!!!) why wait till February? Like I honestly can't understand? Can someone explain like I'm stupid? Boy has nothing to promote now so why now?

[0iam0]

cool question

And bruh, I had pretty much the exact same story. It wasn't online, but I remember making an oc named Sarah, back in 2016. She also had blue hair, also ice themed, and she had something to do with demolition boys, cuz I had a teen fangirl obsession with Tala :|

I don't know what would count as me getting into the fandom but I've known about beyblade since 2011/12 or something. I even bought some beyblades which are lost forever now, even singing the mfb theme song and everything. I was interested in the show (mfb, it was airing) but ig I just felt awkward watching it in front of parents cuz, idk. They would ask me what was happening in the show I would be just as clueless. I was probably really young to understand anything, cuz I think it was a show for teens.

I had another beyblade phase in 2016, specifically bakuten shoot season 1. (And now I'm having yet another phase with beyblade burst lol, technically every generation tho, but esp interested in beyburst) I actually never saw v force and g rev until this year. And this is when I became a fan of Tala's existence and created an oc.

Back to the oc, it's kinda sad what I did to her. I remember drawing Tala like twice from online screenshots, basically copying everything. And afterwards drawing some of her, cuz I probably got some idea on how to draw anime characters by drawing Tala. I planned her on having a dragon bit beast, for which I still have the pages but I can't post since I didn't bring them with me to hostel. She had a certain type of hairstyle, long hair, and eyebrows almost similar to Tala (big bruh moment, cuz I created her to be shipped with Tala :| ) and she was basically a part of, or at least of close associations with demolition boys.

Now on to the sad story about what happened to her, I basically erased her from everywhere. I didn't know why I did this but after some years, I probably have the word for it. Cringe. I tore pages that had her, even the ones with the Tala drawings, crumpled them and threw them somewhere deep in my house. We were also moving to another apartment so the papers were left there with the old apartment and now I don't have any evidence of her. Ig a part of why I did this was because I couldn't draw her good, I remember thinking I drew the head really small, and proportions were bad. But the main reason was ig that I thought it was cringe, can't exactly describe it, but I didn't wanna see her anymore. I even erased her from the bit beast drawing (which frankly was just a random dragon drawing originally, I like dragons) and replaced her with a tree.

Now, after years, getting into beyblade yet again, I actually drew her from memory in my chemistry book lol, cuz I was bored. I think I drew her pretty accurate to the way I used to draw her. May not post it now, maybe a post for another day.

Ok so.

Can we all just share when we got into this fandom and what our first contribution to the fandom was?

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[jikook-love]

sometimes i wonder y i ended up a shipper. i could be one of the millions of fangirls who watch nothing but their fav bodyrolling (let's be honest all bodyrolls are satisfying but dancing won't affect me unless it's lisa oops i'm gay) but instead anytime someone's like "i want to marry jk" my mind's like "nice, but instead, imagine jk marrying jimin-" n next thing i know i've planned an entire marriage fic in my head that i'll never write

ehe well it’s more common than you think nowadays ^^ especially with all they’re doing to encourage shippers. 

idk it’s kind of surreal to me too. back when i was younger, i admit i definitely thought of being leeteuk’s wife once or twice (*deep cringes* they were right--12 year olds really do have no sense of judgment) but i mostly knew it was a joke and would never happen. so how did i end up here? who knows? lmao.

but the real question is? which situation is truly more realistic? a) you being married to oppa or b) oppa being married to oppa’s “oppa”  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯