#i'm guessing no one here currently know what i'm talking abt in the last bit but I had to put them in there

[sleeplesstories]

for the truth or dare ask game:🍓🛼🍄

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?- I really into got into a fandom/ship, read tons of fanfics and started coming up with some stories of my own :) I also just wanted to try my hand at writing and i feel like writing about characters your already interested in really helps!

🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis-🩸❤️‍🔥🦋😔🪦

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings- I like to think that Krauser's was more gentle with Leon than anyone would assume/expect. It's great for some sweeter moments but i also think it would make the betrayal hurt even more. I don't mind the fics that portray him as a bit rougher and more 'crazy', but I always like some variety and unexpected sides with characters :) This isn't RE related, but I think that Cardan from tfota would have a bunch of plants and enjoys doing Judes hair and makeup lol

Thanks for the ask anon!! ♥️

[rotdistressxox]

DARLINGGGGG GUESS WHOS BACK FROM THE PYSCHE WARD!!

im currently brainrotting over agito as you can see..can you write how you think he would meet reader and how their relationship would develop into romance with him? like actually i sat at work for like 15 minutes trying to think how but i actually cannot cook anything up.

(Also I'm seeing the ghost stuff and I'm interested...gonna have to do research for dis one☝️)

sorry if i keep sending you silly asks😞

—🪡 anon

JOIN US WE HAVE SEXY POPES WHO DOUBLE AS FRONTMEN AND FREAKY GHOULS. Listen to them, I highly recommend listening to the meliora and prequelle album before delving any deeper. Watch some YouTube videos abt the lore. PLUS THEY HAVE LITTLE EPISODES <3

Time for some more Cakemaster 9000

Phew, this took a while

Kanoh Agito: How does he fall for you?

• Like what I mentioned in one of the headcanons, you work for Katahara. While Agito doesn't directly work for him apart from beint his representative fighter, he's technically his family AND The Fang.

• However, you two hardly see eachother when on the job. BUT-

• You two visit the same coffee shop. He loves his morning Latte, and you love (insert your favorite Cafe drink here)

• When you first started working, you were surprised to see the Kanoh Agito at a small coffee shop.

• He usually greets and addresses you formally, not interested in any small talk.

• "Sheesh, what a stick in the mud" It's not that he was trying to be rude, but he did come off a little condescending when he greeted you. (He has tone issues)

• One day you woke up late and didn't have time to stop and get your usual.

• He notices your absence. "They can't be sick, they showed no signs of it two days ago"

• Long story short, he picks up your order and goes looking for you. Once he finds you, he stiffly hands it to you. "You were late I presume. I picked this up for you"

• Everyone in the room was shocked. The cold hearted Fang buying someone a drink? You smiled warmly and looked into his eyes "Thank you, this was very kind of you"

• His breathing hitched, and he felt speechless. Was he....flustered? "Don't let it happen again, you work for the Chairman afterall"

• You obviously didn't let it happen again....buuuttt it was super sweet how he seemed to care about you enough to get you something.

• To return the favor, you arrived earlier and got him his Latte. Listen, he was speechless before, now he was in shock. He didn't show it though. In his lifetime no one had ever bought him anything or returned a favor. There was a first time for everything.

• You saw through his attempt to hide the baffled expression on his face. It was kinda- cute.

• "Why have you done this?" "Why not? I'm just repaying you" "I-" "Shush, just take the drink, it's burning my hand"

• He has to get there before you now to ensure that he sees you. He's a bit friendlier with the greetings, too. Don't expect a smile though, just a softer glance in your direction.

• When he was around you, he didn't feel like he needed to be The Fang of Metsudo. You didn't hold him to any higher standard when you chatted, you didn't bother holding back a few curses. He felt as if his soul was on Earth instead of hanging in the balance.

• On one of your off days, the two of you get coffee and sit down for once. Finally having a slower paced discussion. It lasted a few hours, you did most of the talking while he had a response to almost anything. There was a lot he didn't know about pop culture.

• Coffee dates became your thing, even though it wasn't technically a date. More like two friends hanging out. Discussions got into deeper topics like pasts and whatnot.

• Agito decided that he could trust you, so he opened up about the Human Gu Ritual. He didn't know what trauma was, so you explained to him that his feelings and memories about that time in his life would be very traumatic.

• "I'm glad you could tell me that, but are you okay? If I had something like that on my chest I'd cry" "I'm quite alright, I'm not fazed in the slightest but I had no idea the caliber of the topic. I hope I didn't ruin the conversation"

• You tapped your cheek and sighed. "Have you ever been hugged before?" Agito thought for a second. The embracing gesture? The only physical contact he's hand was a pat on the shoulder or when he's fighting.

• "No, I don't think I have" "Well today's your lucky day, bring it in"

• He froze as you wrapped your arms around his waist, pulling him into you. His heartbeat raced as he thought of what to do. "Just tell me if you don't like it" you squeezed him gently. He awkwardly put his hand behind your back and rested it there.

• You let go after a few seconds, but he didn't want you to. "How was it?" You smiled.

• "I'm not sure" He smoothed out his suit, trying to relax himself after what just happened.

• A few days passed and you haven't seen him anywhere. He wasn't at work or at the coffee shop. You start to worry. Did you drive him away? Was the hug too much? Oh god was he dead?

• All the while Agito was keeping an eye on you from afar. Not letting you see him, but he could see you. He felt very fragile after that day, he almost felt ashamed. He wasn't good at managing his emotions. And what happened moved him in a way that frightened him.

• He summons the courage to talk to Katahara Metsudo about how he felt. He was the only parental figure he had in a sense.

• "You are a grown man. Is this really a difficult concept to grasp?" Katahara looked out the window of his office. "I'm inexperienced, these feelings are foreign to me"

• 'He's not referring to himself as we and us anymore, this must be serious' Katahara turned around. "To put it simply" he laughed "Tell (Reader) everything you told me"

• "I have a strong regard for you" Agito came clean. You know how I said there was a first time for everything? Well he had a hint of red on his cheeks. This beast of a man, blushing? Utterly adorable

• "So you're saying you love me?" That's the word. Love. He nodded. "Well. Say it then. There's nothing holding you back"

• He pauses for a moment, he's not exactly fond of eye contact. But this was for (Reader)

• "I love you"

• You wrap your arms around his waist again. "That's all I needed to hear"

• His lips curled into a smile as he looked down at you. You parted from the hug and tilted your head to the side. "Wanna go out to a restaurant sometime?"

• "Are you asking me out on...what is it that they call it...a date?" "Yes" you stated bluntly. Beating around the bush or teasing wouldn't get far in this situation.

• "We can talk about plans later, I have important matters to attend to" he look your hand and grazed his lips on you knuckles. Planting a small kiss on it.

• "Now where did you learn that?" "It's a romantic gesture they do on television" you bite your lip from calling him a dork.

• "I'll meet with you later about this date. Until we see eachother again" He leaves, and you're alone again.

• Man, you're already falling for him. It's not like you'd hate dating him. But you didn't want to be head over heels just yet. You looked at your knuckles and sighed "Ah what the hell, being love isn't that bad"

[castorfell]

I have a thought about the Trolls babies, so we see Tiny Diamond born and he is already walking and talking, later in the same movie we see this with a country Troll born and immediately doing chores, we also see Cooper born already walking talking and his iconic laugh.

originally I thought that these three trolls were exceptions to the rule with baby Poppy in the first movie as the baseline rule of she can't walk she barely talks and acts like a regular human baby BUT

What if Poppy was an early baby, like for Trolls an egg has been in the hair long enough for a fully matured hatch where they will be able to walk and talk even if they still have baby tendencies (as seen with Tiny Diamond) So Poppy may have been a pre-mature hatch which is why she was more like the regular babies we as humans know.

Yknow what I actually completely forgot about like, every other instance of baby trolls that weren't Tiny and Poppy so I rescind any previous statements n opinions abt trollings. This franchise has a surprising amount of characters being born on-screen.

So yeah I guess most baby trolls really DO just hatch out the egg already sentient and cognitive and able to do chores and sing and dance, it's just POPPY who was different. She came out the egg still mushy brained.

It would explain why she doesn't remember Viva. Viva says that she was there when Poppy was born. The word "born" being used specifically here is a bit confusing because I'm not sure if it referes to the moment a troll egg physically manifests from what I assume to be the sheer force of love felt between more than one troll (Guy Diamond excluded, that's a discussion for another time) or the moment a troll egg actually hatches. Viva also comments that compared to current Poppy, baby Poppy the last time she saw her was "teensier and weensier" which is either just how Viva describes baby trolls in general (she fun like that) or a literal comment about how baby Poppy was possibly smaller than other baby trolls. Maybe both. Probably both.

Her birth likely happened close to the day of the last Trollstice and pop village escaping Bergentown since Chef was already aware of her existance.

Tldr; Poppy was a pre-maturely hatched baby, that's why she looked ugly (affectionate). Do with this information what you will.

[formulatrash]

Hi Hazel, just saw your post with your thoughts on the situation between Jake Dennis and Pascal Wehrlein. Firstly, thank you for always sharing your insights on that sort of stuff, it's super interesting to hear about the drivers' personalities and the dynamics between them, especially cause I feel like we still don't get enough content from FE that would show that side of the drivers (like we do in F1), which is honestly a shame.

Secondly, there was another interview on German TV (Daniel Abt took Jake out on a coffee date) where Jake said he and Pascal haven't been talking since Berlin (or, well, Pascal hasn't been speaking to him since then, but I absolutely hate how they made it into this one-sided thing coming from Pascal because it's so obviously playing into that old arrogant diva narrative that i thought we'd overcome in recent years but I already know certain people will use it to fuel the agenda). So apparently the trigger wasn't the comments from Jakarta, my guess is it's either about Pascal sustaining damage from Jake going into his side after the Ticktum crash in Sao Paulo, or about Jake taking Antonio out in the first Berlin race? And idk if you saw but Pascal's response was "I didn't feel like that but okay if he says that", it was published in one of the articles in the FE app. Does any of that information change your view on the situation, or could I just get your take on it (again, sorry)?

Oh and while we're on the subject and I'm already in your inbox, has Pascal ever talked about how he perceived/perceives the way he got treated by the media and the reputation they gave him? From what I've seen, people here on tumblr aren't afraid to call it out as stereotyping/racism, but I've never seen people openly call it that on any other platform, and unfortunately even with some years of distance I don't think I've ever seen Pascal talk about it in an interview, or be asked about it (that would require the media to be self aware so yeah, probably never gonna happen).

I'd still say it's clash of personality. Pascal could chew Jake out post-race and Jake wouldn't take it too hard, sort of considers it banter. Pascal does not. He doesn't talk badly about people habitually and when he does he means it, Jake has a much more casual attitude to throwing things about but then would expect people to still be friends with him and that that was all part of the game.

Jake is a puppy that bit you and can't work out why it's in trouble because you were just playing, right? Which is why he keeps talking about it. And Pascal is simply taking himself out of the situation. He won't play if you use teeth.

Theres also the fact they are in a title fight and so yes, they will both play off against each other. If Pascal knows it winds Jake up for him not be friendly then he's not likely to go out of his way to avoid that - they're not and never have been besties and Jake is also a BMW factory driver interloper in the Porsche machine currently so there's no real internal pressure for Pascal to even vaguely pretend like with his last teammate.

It's also Jake's prerogative to wind Pascal up a bit. This is, after all, a world championship both of them (rejected F1 boys, chips on their shoulders*) want very badly. The margins in Formula E are very fine so of course they all play psychological games - it's not been too beef-tastic for awhile because you can't really beef anyone specific when there's a 17-way title fight. But even when there wasn't, Mitch and Stoffel managing to stay friends is more like Sam and Jev did. In both cases, a long history of liking and understanding each other, there, whereas Pascal and Jake are distant semi-colleagues.

In reality, if Rome hadn't gone as badly for Mitch and Nick as it did there's every chance they would've both played themselves by worrying too much about each other and not enough about the Jaguar powered cars.

To the point about the media angle: no. A lot of people in media will tell you the lies about Pascal with a dead straight face and being totally serious about it, like this is the Deep, Secret Truth. I know perfectly well it's not because even if I hadn't met him myself, I know a lot of people who've worked with him.

Some drivers can be divas, Jerome D'Ambrosio was a nightmare to work with when him and Pascal were both at Mahindra and I think he did a lot of learning and reflection about that when he moved into a management role with Venturi. Pascal is one of those drivers his team Loves, like Lando or Mitch. Which probably does make it quite hard to be his teammate sometimes, as much as it's nothing he's doing deliberately but also doesn't excuse the falsehoods.

Most people just don't talk about Pascal at all anymore. Once you're outside F1, the F1 journalists don't care and I doubt anyone would be particularly interested in interrogating their relationship to him prior to that. There's not a huge number of uhhhh idk what you'd call us, the socially conscious end of motorsport journalist, who've been around since before Pascal left F1. So there is also a gap in the history of it - and if you don't occasionally get your ear bent by dinosaurs, you might well not be aware what they say about him anyway.

I'd like to think it's something that Formula E's PR team is aware of but none of the original PRs from FE are left and I don't think there's anyone from even the early stages of Gen2, so institutional memory is pretty much blank there. Obviously if you think about the landscape of motorsport, it would be clear but the majority of people who work in motorsport are the people who don't necessarily see anything glaringly wrong with its diversity let alone the micro and macro aggressions of the media.

Pascal has definitely talked to me about being misrepresented in the media. It would've been awhile ago now (since obviously I haven't been at FE for more than a year) so I don't know whether I still have the recordings; I'll ask him about it in London if I get a chance.

(gently, obviously; it's why they talk to me about this sort of thing more than other people)

*Jake was never funded very well in junior series and is too tall to drive F1 cars, his head blocks the air intake which is why he is kept as a pet simulator driver by Red Bull. Pascal was meant to be Mercedes next big thing until Ocon was and then neither of them were. Mercedes treated him extraordinarily poorly towards the end of his contract, including forcing him to do a DTM test in redundant machinery that wouldn't even run the next season instead of his first race weekend in FE.

[byunbaekhyunie]

hiii, how are you? I'm so sorry if this is annoying but, what happened? what was Baekhyun talking about in his live? I watched a bit of it and he seemed tired and upset but I don't speak Korean so I couldn't understand what he was talking about :( only caught SM and EXO sometimes. Please forgive me if I'm asking something dumb, I just don't really use Twitter and you're like my go-to blog for Baekhyun (I love your blog BTW!!)

thank you so much in advance!!

hi (..◜ᴗ◝..) sorry for the delay !! I had to get offline last night cause I was really too upset and it was also my bedtime so sorry I couldn’t get back to you faster :c I think you might be caught up to speed by now but just in case you aren’t, I’ll try to give a short summary of what happened, to my understanding at least, but even I am missing some context pieces bc I do not and will not seek out speculative, slanderous articles/forum posts abt baekhyun like I refuse to do that so idek how some of these things got brought up to the public attention but here’s what what little I did pick up, but mostly what baekhyun said

he came on live to clarify rumors that had started going around earlier that day and addressed 4 points in particular

1. the legal dispute that he took part in, along with jongdae and minseok, back in May. he didn’t say very much regarding that topic, he was so courteous and didn’t say one bad thing abt SM honestly he was so nice

2. the new company. so from what I gathered, yesterday it got leaked that baekhyun was starting his own company, and that’s I think the largest factor that pushed him to come out and clear the air cause speculations started ramping up like crazy. baekhyun confirmed that he is in the process of setting up a company with kasper and that it is done with SM’s approval, he will still be a part of the company and a part of EXO

3. his new house and the loan he took. ok so you might know that news broke out last week that baekhyun bought a new house. and… apparently, again idk who leaked this information or where but, it got out that baekhyun has taken out a very large loan and ppl got angry over it… I guess(?) honestly I don’t feel very comfortable talking abt this, it feels weird to me discussing smth that is quite frankly none of our business, but anyway baekhyun said that he took it to hold himself accountable in a way and put pressure on himself to achieve success with his company, and that he’s paying everything back and that he doesn’t understand how that’s an issue and honestly neither do I so .

4. and finally, his 4th solo album. talking abt this is reigniting my boiling rage, but I guess ppl where saying that he lost his path bc he’s not currently working on his next solo project and baekhyun said that he wants to do things correctly and it doesn’t feel right rn working on an album while also setting up smth as big as his own private company and that he’s sorry for keeping us waiting and not being able to go on tour and see us and that breaks my heart the most I won’t bore you with my personal output but I seriously need ppl to leave him alone I swear since he’s been back from the military ppl have been at his neck trying to get him for everything that he does and he….

anyway that’s more or less what happened ^^; and you’re not dumb or annoying for asking !! thank you so much for enjoying the blog (˶˃̵ ^ ˂̵˵) ♡

[ravenelyx]

Get to know Kaia, hii

@bugglebees tagged me so here I am. Hellooo

share your wallpaper: lockscreen is a simple black picture with the letters R. A. B. on it bc Regulus makes my heart beat, homescreen is me and my cousin. As for my laptop wallpaper, it's an haikyuu fanart (since 2020, talk about comfort series)

last song you listened to: Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers &lt;3

currently reading: "The Nonexistent Knight" by Italo Calvino (although I'm in a bit of a reader's block atm)

last movie: either Han Solo or Dungeons and Dragons. I can't remember (Sophiaaaaa)

last show: The Marvelous Mrs Maisel bc my professor asked us to :')

craving: ice cream

what are you wearing rn: oversized sweatshirt and sweatpants - talk abt fashion

how tall are you: 164 cm - idk how many feet that is, prob 5'4 or something

piercings: lobes and a left helix, although I would love a conch as well

tattoos: none yet but I want crows on my ribs :)

glasses/conteacts?: I have myopia and glasses but I never wear them bc they give me headaches... as long as I can see it's fine I guess 🙌

last drink: water fr

last thing you ate: pasta

favourite colour: I'm basic af so i'm gonna say black, but I also like denim blue a lot

current obsession: writing ff, weirdly enough. Hogwarts legacy, the MCU, the wizarding world in general

any pets: 2 cats (one of them had babies recently !! my loves) and 4 dogs (different houses)

favourite fictional character: that's like asking me to chose which hair on my head I like the most :') I guess very special mentions are Stiles Stilinski, Harry Potter, the Weasley twins, Wanda Maximoff, Bucky Barnes, Alyssa Foley, Robin Buckley, Max Mayfield, Sasha Blouse, Neji Hyuga, Edmund Pevensie

the last place you traveled: north of Italy (Trieste especially but the whole region in general). I even reached Slovenia at some point and visited Ljubljana, Bled and Nova Goriza

tagging @maleficamenteio and @jennymbear &lt;3 don't hate me pls

[seekforwarmth]

hiii, lou! 💜

honestly, i love giving comforting hugs, because most of the time i don't know how to react when someone is having a bad time. i'm really empathetic, but at the same time i easily find solutions for other people's problems. when what they need at the time is just to mourn and calm down. 😓

yes, when the time comes, i would love to see what blogs you have in mind. 👾

oh, i love angst at all. it's just sometimes the pain is too much. but if i'm being honest, i easily lose interest if everything is just fluff or the couple gets together too fast. 🫣

let me guess, you only like louis, harry and one dee? i can't wait to see what songs you have chosen! and i have been always thinking the songs we listen to show what kind of person we are. it's like you get the memo before even talking to someone. that's why i don't usually show people my playlists. 🦄

well, about the astrology, not only one sign makes you who you are, but a lot of different signs working with each other. also, i kinda get this. i usually prefer listening when i don't want to talk about myself. but at the same time i'm like harry when someone asks me questions i don't want to answer. talking about anything else, but not the topic we are currently discussing. 😄

i hope whatever is the reason about you not being allowed to drink coffee is not something serious and you feel better soon! and i love hot chocolate so much. i don't like coffee. i prefer tea, matcha or hot chocolate. 🪁

i think in our next spanish lesson you should teach me how to say "i love chocolate", because i can't live without it. 😋

my questions for the day: how many fics are you planing to post this year? and what keeps you motivated to write? ☔️

hope you have a lovely friday,

- your secret valentine ☺️

hi love!!

i never know how to react either, i just offer if they want to be listened and that’s it. i’ve only comforted my family when we’ve lost someone but that’s as far as i’ve gotten.

(i don’t have any blogs in mind but i’ll look for some.)

ohh i like both i think. i like it when they go through a lot of things to be together but also when it’s just them loving each other since the beginning. i guess it depends on how things are said for me hdkdhd

yes, i only like them 🤭 and before i forget about it, here are ten songs to know me better:

the view from the afternoon - arctic monkeys

music when the lights go out - the libertines

ocean’s deep - born ruffians

hometown - twenty one pilots

beautiful disaster - 311

wait for it - leslie odom jr (hamilton cast)

fireproof - one direction

headline - louis tomlinson

satellite - harry styles

everywhere - niall horan

i think that’s why i prefer listening, so i don’t have to talk abt myself, and bc sometimes i stumble with my words (idk if that’s the right expression lol).

it’s nothing serious, don’t worry! it’s something to do with my brain, i was a bit ill last summer and now it’s just a measure to not get back to that heheh we can share a mug of hot chocolate sometime!

okay, if you want to say “i love chocolate” you can use the pronoun for “i” which is “yo” or you can skip it since the verb already indicates you’re talking in first person. “yo amo el chocolate” or “amo el chocolate”. yo is pronounced like in english, amo = ah-moh, for el it’s like when you say elephant, and chocolate you already know ;)

i’m posting two fics this year. my friends keep me motivated but not in a pressured way but i want to write to make my friends happy, that’s the reason i started writing fics in the first place. since i can’t give my friends gifts for their birthdays (or just because), i decided to write fics for them. currently i’m working with a friend on something and i’m having so much fun but i’m mainly doing it to see her happy. 💗

you know, i originally wanted to ask you your top 5 louis songs and then i linked it to the movies so i mentioned soundtrack lol but i’m still curious if you want to share?

have a nice day!!

[pfaerie]

actually i’ve been thinking abt it all day here is my hasty scrawlings from just waking up

they were on a trip out of the state (senior trip maybe) and the crux of it was they got separated from the rest of the group and Daniel started bitching about how nothing ever goes right for him and this is just his luck and Johnny was like "what the fuck do you mean nothing ever -- everything ALWAYS goes RIGHT for you" and Daniel was like "excuse me? We're literally lost right now??" And then he listed some of the things going wrong including getting paired off with Johnny at all.

And Johnny. Got so unreasonably mad and upset and listed off all the things that goes right for Daniel (girlfriend, good grades, won a karate tournament when he wasn't even good at karate, gets Johnny in trouble, etc) in a mocking Daniel impression to which Daniel was like "my girlfriend DUMPED me, my grades are average, and I never WOULD HAVE BEEN IN THE TOURNAMENT HAD YOU JUST LEFT ME ALONE IN THE FIRST PLACE" and Johnny just like was like "yeah, fine. It's all my fault. Everything is fucked up because of me. Whatever." And Daniel said "finally we agree on something" but instantly regret that bc Johnny just like, immediately shut down?? Didn’t explode at him just crossed his arms and bit his tongue and didn't say anything and Daniel wanted to say sorry but Tommy found them and yelled "FOUND THEM" to the group and Johnny retreated away so fast he didn't even listen when Tommy joked everyone was worried he'd snuck off to murder LaRusso (which like, from Johnny's POV just sucks bc everybody just thinks he's a dumb violent goon still huh! Literally the only thing he's fighting is tears rn)

I'm pretty sure later Daniel tries to talk to Johnny at dinner but johnny is ignoring him hardcore and refuses to say anything to him at all which frustrates Daniel bc wow Johnny is surprisingly!!! good at the silent treatment.

They are sharing a hotel room (sadly there was more than one bed) and Daniel genuinely cannot take it, sitting in the room listening to Johnny brush his teeth in the bathroom and he winds up slamming the door totally open and being like "you cannot CARE that deeply about oral hygiene, Christ Johnny, it's been 7 minutes" and Johnny just glares at him and pointedly brushes more just to be annoying. And Daniel’s like "You're going to erode away your teeth like that" which does set Johnny off again bc if he has to hear one more criticism he might actually explode but then Daniel puts his hand up and says "kidding, kidding, it's a joke" and Johnny has to spit before saying "it wasn't funny" and wipes the toothpaste on his chin off the clean (Daniel’s) towel since Johnny's is currently a wet heap on the floor. He shoulders past Daniel and u know, gives off the air he doesn't wanna talk but of course Daniel is a chatterbox and won't fucking stop!!! Comments it's weird Johnny's gonna just, like, go to sleep. Just like that! And Johnny buries his head under his pillow til he hears the bathroom door close and the shower turn on and basically he is just going through it bc his crush (rightfully) hates him and it’s simply a lot of johnny pouting and pining all at once and also, y’know, generally feeling bad for himself (tbh i’m sure him n daniel simply do start to bond a little and they find our Things abt each other)

and anyways at the end of the trip they are packing and johnny figures, like, fuck it. he’s never gonna spend time alone with daniel ever again may as well as just kiss him to get it over with so he finishes up and does that and beats daniel to the bus and they don’t sit next to each other and johnny is listening to his walkman and looking out the window just generally feeling sorry for himself

and then i guess the school didn’t let them park there over the trip so everyone had to be picked up and they were waiting for their moms and eventually were the last ones in the car port and Johnny was very much ignoring daniel and also beet fucking red bc OH this is when he'd be alone with Daniel again and of course Daniel wants to talk about it and Johnny’s about to tell him they don't have to when Daniel kisses him back and it takes Johnny off guard and when Daniel pulls away he says "well, now we're even, so --" and HE'S BLUSHING TOO and says "you suck at kissing" and right when daniel’s about to complain, he tugs Daniel in to kiss him again and after Johnny says "it was a joke" and talk about fucking cheesy

Anybody else plagued with intense lawrusso dreams

[cherrycheolliesc]

Let Me Hear You Say

part 46: Joshua’s Weeb Closet. (46/50)

red below 👇 (1.5k words)

“You know I can break out of this, right?” you say to Mingyu who is currently holding you down. He just scoffs knowing you can't move anywhere, but entertains you, “I know, it just makes me feel strong”

“You already strong, Gyu. Anyways where is everyone?” Seokmin asks. You look around the room only seeing half of your friends in Seungcheol’s small living room. Seungkwan and Wonwoo are sitting on the couch quietly talking. You wonder how they became friends because you've never seen them talk to each other. You assume Jeonghan and Joshua are probably somewhere making out so they don't have to deal with actually setting up the party. Seungcheol and Jihoon seem to be lecturing Chan about who knows what. Things are finally quieting down when everyone decides to watch the movie that's playing until someone bursts through the doors, “I'm here motherfuckers. The party is finally getting started”

“She drunk, isn't she,” Cheol asks as he points towards the small blonde girl in Mina’s arms. Seoyeon nods as she brings Chaeyoung to one of the rooms in the apartment. When she comes back, everyone turns towards the commotion at the front door. “You can't make me go inside. I'll bite you, you know I will” 

“Soonyoung, if you just go inside, it'll make everything so much easier,” Jun says as he continues to try and push the smaller boy in. Everyone just watches him, Minghao, and Vernon struggle to bring Soonyoung in until Cheol eventually just picks him up and holds him down, “You two are gonna talk like two grown adults or I’m firing Jihoon”

“Woah why am I getting involved in this?” Jihoon asks walking over to the rest of the group. Everyone looks confused before Chan talks, “How can you even fire him?” 

“Yea and with what job exactly,” Soonyoung says causing Cheol to roll his eyes, “Look if guys talk to each other, I'll tell you where I work” 

“One, no one cares. Two, stop lying to yourself, it's okay if you're unemployed. We won't stop loving you just because you don't have a job, Cheollie” you say which only annoys him more. Jihoon confused asks, “Why do you guys really believe he's unemployed? The dude is literally our boss.”

“ ‘Our’ boss?” Seungkwan says, “yes our boss. He's at the building all the time. How did you not know that?”

“To be honest I thought he was just going there to hook up with you, Ji,” Jeonghan says before getting a drink. “Ew, why would I hook up with Cheol? He's like my brother. That would just ruin your friendship.”

“And that is exactly why I’m not admitting my feelings for Y/n!” Soonyoung screams before trying to run away but failing as Cheol is still holding him down. You decide yelling back is the best option, “like I would ever admit my feelings for you.” 

“That’s it! Time out for you two until you can figure out your issues. Bring them to Shua’s weeb closet and don’t let them out until they're cool with each other.” Cheol says before lifting Soonyoung. Mingyu sees the message Cheol sends and brings you to Joshua’s room as well. “Hey hey, why are you taking them to my closet? What if they fuck in there?”

“Then they'll be happy again,” Vernon says with a smile on his face. Shua rolls his eyes before giving in. Eventually, you and Soonyoung are both shoved into the small closet. You try to stay as far as you can from him, putting a blowup titan in between the two of you. To ease the awkwardness after a few minutes of silence, Soonyoung asks, “You think Shua uses this thing as a sex doll?”

“If he does, I regret touching it,” you reply. The boy beside you laughs and says, “If I remember correctly, you and Joshua sleeping together for a whole two years after college, right?” 

“Yeah well, it was kinda weird. Let's just say, you aren't the only furry in our friend group.” This makes him laugh again before finding a place to sit down. You take a seat beside him as he leans his head on your shoulder, “I’m sorry, Y/n.”

“For what exactly, Soonie?” You ask back wanting a better explanation than just a small sorry. He rolls his eyes before saying, “You already know why. For being immature and not dealing with things like an adult.”

“To be honest, none of us deal with things like adults. We're just the worst. I guess I’m sorry too.” you say back to him. The two sit comfortably in silence just relaxing in each other’s company. Why did we make things so hard for no reason? you wonder. That thought quickly goes away when you remember that the two of you are friends and you never want to ruin that, but your thoughts are interrupted, “I love you, Y/n. But I mean even if it's pretty obvious, I know I'm not very good at showing it.” 

“But we're friends, Soon,” you say back before walking to the other side of the closet. You glance at his face for a second and see a bit of hurt in his eyes. Why am I still hiding how I feel? What’s the point of lying to myself and everyone else? You ask yourself before he breaks your thoughts once again, “Y/n, you say that, but then you're willing to fight with me for months because of the whole situation. Why are we just continuing to do this to each other?” 

“I don't know, Soon. I really don't know,” you reply, overwhelmed, burying your face into your hands. He walks behind you and gives one of his famous, familiar back hugs to comfort you. You relax into the hug as he softly kisses your shoulder, “it's okay, Y/n. You don't need to have an answer right now. It's not wrong to want to take everything at your own pace. I just don't want to feel like I have to constantly avoid you because like you said, you are my best friend.“

“Are you trying to say ‘the power of friendship is so strong’ that we can get through things like this?” you sarcastically say as you laugh and lean into his arms. He giggles and replies, “That's exactly what I’m saying.” The two of you once again sit in silence. You take in everything from the moment you first saw Soonyoung as a small boy eating dirt in the playground to this exact moment You wonder when everything changed, “When did you realize you loved me, Soon?” 

“There isn't an exact moment. I think just over time my love constantly grew for you. I didn't realize it at first and never really wanted to accept it because, well I'm pretty sure it's obvious why,” he responds. You feel the same way. You've always just told yourself it was because of that dance, but you know those feelings have always been there. More importantly, you know you've acted on those feelings before. “Why did you leave me after graduation? After I told you I love you?” 

“Because I was stupid and a coward. I got jealous of Joshua, but then I started to think I wasn't as good as him. I wouldn't be good enough like him. I thought I wouldn't be able to make you happy like he would, ” he says honestly. You don't understand how he could ever think he wasn't good enough. You loved everything about the kid, from his weird tiger obsession to his incredible dance skills. “Soonie, you know I never believed you weren't good enough. And to be honest, Shua wasn't the greatest boyfriend. He was an amazing friend, but there's something off about knowing your boyfriend is denying his feelings for someone else”

“I guess that's how Seoyeon felt. It was just seeing you in the arms of a model like him brought up my insecurities I guess. I thought it would be too hard to compete. So I ran away because I didn't want to deal with the feelings, ” he explains still holding you in his arms. You feel how much bigger his arms got over the years and decide to ask him another question, “When did you start working out? Not that I'm complaining, but the last time Cheol asked you to work out with him you called him a loser and told him there's no reason to work out when you have a cute face.”

“Yes, my face is adorable, but I figured I'd just work out because why not. Also, Ji paid for a year's gym membership in China by accident,” he answers while softly laughing. The two of you continue to talk about random things for the next few hours without anyone interrupting you. You hear soft snoring on the other side of the door. Soonyoung quietly opens the door to not wake the sleeping person on the other side. You walk out to see Seungcheol and Wonwoo fast asleep on each other and quickly take a photo before sneaking away. You and Soonyoung decide to leave through the window to avoid questions or stares from anyone else. For the rest of the night, the two of you wonder who knows where and finally you feel happy to be with your best friend for once.

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↣ summary: after not seeing each other for years, Yn is ecstatic when she finds out all of her friends will finally be in the same place at one time. but unfortunately an unwanted dream turns a 12 year friendship into hateful relationship between yn and soonyoung.

↣ pairing: reader x soonyoung.

↣ genre: angst, comedy, youtube au, sm au. friends to enemies to lovers.

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a/n- tbh i don’t really know how i feel abt this chapter. but also i don’t really see myself as a good writer when it comes to like written things like this but i really want to get better because i want to open requests soon when i get the time.

[one-abuse-survivor]

Tired is when you're sick of life, or feel weighed down by the stuff around you. Sleepy is when you want to go to bed. That's how me and my friend do it, anyhow. At this point, I'm fucking exhausted to the point where I feel too tired to let it out but im gonna anyways. There's bits in here that I can't tell my friend, or anyone, so i'm hoping bc this is anonymous i can let it out. Right, intro done lol. Onto the story. Last night, i have no idea what time, maybe five or six, (all i know is this

thing ended at 7pm), my mom storms out of the room and comes back holding a bottle of water and her bag. She proceeds to tell my dad she found the bottle at the bottom of my bed, (basically im not supposed to have anything at the bottom of my bead bc asian tradition believes that youre on top of it and thats dirty or whatever). Then she pulls out my school photo, puts it on the table and tells my dad to look at it. Starts ranting about how I never listen, i look horrible, worst photo i've ever taken. 

Basically, I go to a private school, and they think I should look good, and then they spent some time lecturing me about how i was supposed to look right when i was in the school, I look like a boy, i act like a boy, my hair's a mop, I look like a hooligan. Start talking about when i dress to go to school, how my shoes aren't polished and one of them has laces that show the white inner. How my hair's messy at the back, if i saw someone in jeans and someone in a suit in the street, who would i think was respectful? They told me they shouldn't have let me into the school, they loved me too much, that's why, they should have let me go to this public school that has a reputation for being a mess, that i belong there, waste of money, they regret letting me go here, thought i was a respectable girl. 

Dad asked me again, who wouldd i think was respectful, the jeans or the suit, and I told him I don't know. We'll get to that later, but at that moment he sneered and snorted and looked at my mom. 'says she doesnt know' he jeers. I'd meant it as in 'i have no idea, please help me'. He took it as 'she doesn't know, and doesn't give a fuck'. I don't know how to look proper. they never taught me. they tell me that something looks good so i wear it. mom still buys my clothes for me. I have no fucking clue what looks proper and what doesn't. 

Anyways, somehow they moved onto uni, and my current work, and how I pull all-nighters and how dad thought i was smart but nopw he has no hope, how he sees me get up in the morning and know i'm going to fail the assessment, how i get distracted, how i take too long to shower, how i never learn, how i never help them around the house, they do everything for me and if he was in my shoes then he would work until 'smoke came out' (vietnamese saying), how he would be so grateful but i'm not and they're going to leave me (which is a normal threat for them lol) and how they're going to die (another normal threat, dad has a lifelong illness and mom has been struggling with leukaemia for years) and they're not going to pay for uni if i get a stupid degree, only if i get a good degree like they want which will actually help me (law), if i want to become an engineer (something im considering) then i can pay for it myself, then again it's not like i'm even going to get into uni, when they look at me, they have to think of the girl i was when i was five because if they think about me now they feel sad, they won't look at me because I make them sad, they had so much hope for me, now down the drain, no, down to the sewers, look at my cousins going out, one of them had piercings and infections and almost got tattoos and is a nurse in a prison with a husband who stressed her out so much she passed out at work, do i want that, that's what i will get if i dont work, basd job, assisstants have to buy pads for their bosses, horrible child, this will end one of two ways, one i listen to them and come back years later to thank them or i'll look up at the stars and wish that i'd listened to them and they regret having me and caring for me, if only they'd been better parents, they'd been too lenient, but i don't care do i because if i cared it'd show in my working to please them and i haven't done that so that means i don;t care about them.

Dad told me it was too late to change, then switches to tell me it's not too late, they ramble on about my internet use, (i have to ask them for internet) and i'm not acutlalyu doping work on it, i'm just fucking around, they kjnow, they know, i can lie all i want nbut it's true. Horrible child, they'll die, they'll die, That's the end of the conversation, we're not going to talk about it anymore. No, stop talking. I'm going to tell you this until i die. I'm going to keep saying it, beccause it's better that i say it and you not listen than i dont say it and regret not saying it. (okay, i can;t currently remember anything else of what they said lol.). By the way, you wanna know abt

[asks didn’t arrive and I asked for the last bit again]

ok lets hope to god this sends then. i think i know where i was up to - 'do you want to know about what was wrong with the photo' i think was meant to be that. anyways, yeah. guess what was wrong with it. i had a fucking splinge. like my hair was parted and a bit of the part was split. that's all i can see that's wrong with it. maybe my hair looked oily? idk but that's all i noticed. also said something after that about do u remember when dad asked me abt who did i think looked better the suit.

also can i add something i just remembered which is that one of them put folders on my shelf and mom told me she knew i put them there to hide what i was looking at on my laptop from her when i??? didnt??? put them??? there??? in the first place???? (the layout of my room allows the folders to block the view of someone from the door basically) i put new folders there after i think my dad put them there but i didnt originally put them there??? sorry it was a full ask rant and i have no idea what the freak i typed and what i didnt lol. but u get the gist i think. big fat lecture.

i am tired. my eyes were puffy and there was like this pool of snot floating on top of this pool of tears if you did get the ask sorry u had to read that twice. :(. i mean even tho u didnt see it i was able to let it all out. not sure if it made me feel better about anything but being able to do it at all is rlly nice. Thank you for that.

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No wonder you’re tired, nonnie... I’m really glad you could get all of this off your chest, and really sorry that you have to hear those awful things about yourself coming from your parents.

I’m a white European, so I don’t share many of your experiences and I don’t know how it is to live in a Vietnamese family, but I hope it’s okay to compare it a little bit with my experiences in my (very Christian) family--if not, you can absolutely skip the next paragraph! 

I have had a bunch of conversations with my therapist about traditions, religion, and misogyny, because since I cut my mother off, my grandfather has lectured me many times about how I am a bad daughter for looking out for myself and putting my life first instead of being devoted to my mother’s wants and needs. He told me that she’s sick and I’m horrible for not caring about that and abandoning her, and that if she doesn’t love me, I just have to work harder until I "crack her walls”. (As if I haven’t tried already, and as if she didn’t use her very mental illness as an excuse to abuse me). My therapist basically told me that sometimes, being the Disney villain in some people’s stories means you’re doing something right, because their vision of what’s right and what’s wrong (especially when it comes to daughters and women in general) is designed to hurt you, to make you put your family before yourself. That it’s never wrong to put yourself and your needs first, and that kids don’t owe their parents anything just because the parents brought them into this world--that was the parents’ choice, not the kid’s, and therefore it’s the parents’ responsibility to care for their kid, whoever that kid turns out to be; and not the kid’s responsibility to be the model child that the parents had in mind or to care for them.

Your parents belittling you for things you have little to no control over and accusing you of being responsible for their future deaths, for not knowing things that haven’t been explained to you, for not living up to their expectations without even giving you a chance to try, and for not “working for them as hard as they would in your place”, are all red flags of emotional abuse. Accusing you of things you don’t do and constantly drilling into your mind that they “know” you’re a horrible person who doesn’t want to learn or change is a red flag too, and probably an excuse to take the guilt off their shoulders for not taking the time to guide you in life and to explain anything to you before accusing you of not knowing it already. “It’s too late” puts the blame on you, but what it actually means is probably something along the lines of “It’s easier to scream at you than to put realistic expectations on you and then help you achieve them while respecting your boundaries and allowing you to make mistakes, but I don’t want to feel guilty about it, so let’s pretend you’re a lost cause, yeah?”

I used to go to a private school too, and my mother repeatedly told me that was the reason she struggled economically and that I had ruined her life. It wasn’t until I talked about it in therapy that I realised that I never had a choice in what school I went to. Same as I never had a choice in anything my mother decided for me. So how could I be to blame for the consequences of those decisions? And how can you? If they buy you certain clothes, then they have no right to criticise how you look in them. If they chose to put you in a private school, then the money spent is on them, not you. You shouldn’t have to “prove” you’re worth their decisions for you or their basic care for you--they chose to give you that unconditionally the moment they decided to have you in the first place, and if they refuse to give it or threaten to take it away, it’s becuase they’re neglectful and/or abusive, not because something intrinsic about you justifies it. You’re not a bad kid; you’re just a normal kid with very bad parents. And I’m really sorry that you have to put up with them. You deserve better 😔

I’m here if you need to vent again in the future, nonnie. Sending a virtual hug ❤

[sstarkiid]

do all of the lovesick asks bitch. expose urself

wow, ok.

read more thing bc this is long and embarrassing

1: Do you have a current crush?

Two actually but who's counting

2: How long has your crush lasted?

Uhh a few months n then the other one is weird i can't answer that lmao

3: 5 songs that you have associated with your crush?

I'm……..not that sappy I can give u like one

Ice prince : Runaways by ATL

Space boy : Stars by Fun.

4: Do you think they've ever liked you back?

I mean. It's very likely.

5: Will you ever reveal your feelings to them?

Yea probably

6: What’s holding you back from making a move?

It's not that I haven't made a move but like. I am Fear.

7: Are you frightened by your feelings for them?

A lil

8: Do you think they could ever love you?

Maybe???? but i’m kind of an optimist

9: Do you love them?

Lol next question

10: Have you ever had a crush on someone you really shouldn't?

DEFINITELY. I CAN'T NAME ANYONE SPECIFICALLY BUT THE ANSWER IS PROBABLY YES.

11: Do you think anyone currently has a crush on you

...IT'S VERY LIKELY.

12: Ever had a crush on what you thought was a platonic friend?

Hi Jared

13: What would you do if your crush revealed they felt the same?

I'd probably need a second to process it but like probably hug ‘em idfk

14: Has your crush ever hurt you?

Nope!!!!

15: Have they made you cry by breaking your heart?

Nope!!!!!!!!!

16: Why do you like them?

Ice prince is fun to tease idk we go back n forth a lot but he's also a softie n listen he's dramatic enough to keep up w/ me

Space boy tells u like it is and he seems kinda scary or not,, nice at first maybe but he's actually also soft !!

They're also both hot as hell oh my god

17: Do you think you'll ever get over them?

I mean. If I had to I would but...  I don't WANT TO.

18: Do you have 1 specific song that is strongly associated with a certain memory or interaction with them?

Mmm not really?? Not yet?? It'll happen dw

19: The moment you knew you had feelings for them?

We both got scared of the firework finale on the 4th and I squeaked and he like held onto me n it was really funny n cute n I was just like “ok this is a thing now great”

Uhh I was doing the typical girl thing where I send screenshots of a conversation to a friend only the friend is his sister so………..i blame her it’s literally all her fault

20: What would they have to do for you to stop liking them?

Murder someone probably

Or y'know

Something equally as shitty n illegal

21: Have you ever fallen asleep with them?

Yea. Both. Napping is cool.

22: Held their hand?

Mmhm! Both but like that's not that weird

23: Kissed their cheek?

Yup. Both.

24: Kissed them on the lips?

Yeah. Both. Actually.

25: Gone down on them/ they've gone down on you?

N O P E

26: Had sex with them?

Nuh-uh.

27: Where on your body have they touched you?

This is…. A weird question I don't like it

28: Does their touch set your skin on fire?

Fire.

Ice prince.

Fire.

HM.

29: Do you get butterflies when they touch you?

Ok maybe

30: Do they make you smile like no one else can?

Y e a

31: Does their presence calm you?

Mmhmm.

32: Does it make you go crazy being around them and not 'being with' them?

Not… until recently but---

33: Are you friends with your crush?

Both of ‘em!

34: Have you always been friends?

Uhh I guess w/ Ice prince yes but not the other one

35: Last thing they messaged you about?

One was abt a dog, other one was abt coming over to hang out

36: Best phone call with them?

Hands down any call when I've been driving so I make my brother talk to them instead those are always fun

37: Last time you hung out with them?

I. I literally started answering this in one of their houses.

38: Ever been drunk together?

I DON'T DRINK

39: Fondest memory of them?

The fireworks show n then probs a few days ago when we just drove around n talked abt stuff

40: Ever made a mistake with them?

Mistake??????????? i don’t make those

41: Regretted not making a move?

Every day of my life but also I have literally kissed both of them so which is the truth

42: If you could go back in time to that moment, what would you do?

Nothing ‘cause I'm a big baby

43: Do you think that would change your current relationship with them?

Nope

44: If you could get a 100% honest answer from them, what 3 questions would you ask?

ok first FUCK THIS QUESTION

Ice prince

Do u. Actually wanna date or am I just the most gullible person ever

.......................so how do you feel about polyamory

Do u actually hate the puns or do u secretly enjoy them I need to know.

Space boy

Are you aware that you can literally text me for anything at any time?? Bc u should be

Were you ever afraid to talk to me?

Will you promise to talk to me before doing stupid shit so that at the very least i can tell u that ur an idiot,,, but like. affectionately.

45: Did they wish you Happy Birthday on your birthday?

My birthday is in like another month and I didn't know either of them really last year so they better

46: Have they ever tried to make a move?

?????????

Idk tbh

47: If so why did you miss it?

‘Cause I'm clueless as hell

48: Have they ever been infatuated with a friend of yours?

Don't think so

49: Are they single?

Lol yeah they're definitely single

50: Where were you when you felt the most for them?

IT'S ALWAYS WHEN THEY'RE SLEEPING they both just look so cute n peaceful n I get all mushy n wanna protect them but I'm weak as hell so

51: Any specific place you associate with them?

Mmmm not really

52: Films that make you think about them?

Disney films in general

Marvel movies for Ice prince bc NERD

53: Have you picked up a habit because of them?

I don't think so but it's also not unlikely

54: What was your first impression of them?

Ice prince seemed antisocial and idk abt space boy we were like 5 yrs old technically so who knows man

55: Has it altered since then?

LMAO YES

56: Do you remember the first thing you talked about?

Probably musicals bc I can't shut up ever and he was confused

And uhhh no unless u mean like when we started hanging out bc it was candy

57: First time they touched you?

COLD

HE DID IT TO SPITE ME AND IT WAS FUNNY BUT IT WAS SO COLD HOW

And I'm 99% certain I made him high five me before we ever spoke bc I'm a nuisance

58: Have they ever lied to you?

Not that I know of

59: What are their eyes like?

Ohhhhh my GOD

really......clear?? that’s not like. a good way to describe em but u know when u look up at the sky and it’s like. wow there are no clouds!! n then u feel the breeze and it’s kinda cold but it’s not unpleasant it’s?? p nice??? like. that.

cool as FRICK like what the hell i’m actually jealous they’re a rly pretty nice shade n then suddenly it’s!!! different!!!! and it’s like!!!!!!!!!!!!! a surprise a v good surprise which is fitting u just gotta look a lil and he’s full of lil surprises

60: What are you most attracted to about them?

well,, for one they’re both hot as hell, so. that. in general.

if u know anything abt me i’m a sucker for pretty eyes

i also like the “soft but pretends to not be” because i think it’s cute they’re also really good to cuddle with

61: Can you see a future with them?

well i can’t see one without ‘em so something’s gotta give here right?

62: Have you sabotaged things between you two?

i freaking hope not

63: Why? What were you afraid of achieving? Love? Happiness? Content? Disappointment?

why does this thing assume you said yes to the above question that’s kinda rude

64: Could they make you happy?

already do

65: Do you dream about them?

if we’re friends and you haven’t appeared in one of my dreams and done smth weird or random are we actually friends??

side note does daydreaming count LOL

66: What's something that only you two do?

i don’t think i “gently bully” anyone nearly as much as i do ice prince also the only one who actually can cuddle w/ me properly in the summer i’m js

uuuummmm go on random drives in the middle of the night so tht zoe can make out w/ ppl instead of texting our sorry asses

67: Does liking them make you feel vulnerable?

you. have. no idea.

68: Have they ever given you anything?

food has definitely been exchanged and shared. i’ve stolen sweaters. uh.

69: Have they ever used you?

.........not that i’m aware of??

70: Have they abused and manipulated you due to your feelings for them?

nO WHAT TH E

71: Have you ever spent quite literally all day and night thinking about them?

that’s......a bit much i might be pathetic and somewhat desperate but like i do kinda have a life

72: Have you ever accidentally nearly walked into moving traffic cause you were thinking about them?

no but i’ve walked into walls because i was tired and thinking abt stuff so that’s a thing i probably have done

73: Ever worn anything knowing it would draw their attention to you?

YEAH LMAO I DO THAT ALL THE TIME IN GENERAL i like attention fight me

74: Have they ever made you feel so safe and content everything else slips away?

y e ah

75: Ever held you so close you could feel their heartbeat?

mmhmm

76: Truthfully do you think you belong together right now?

[taylor swift’s you belong with me playing in the distance]

77: Have they ever seen you completely vulnerable?

um. no.

78: Do you trust them?

i would trust all of my friends with my life

79: When you see them what feelings are strongest?

i just get?? really happy n i turn into a little kid i swear to god how does he put up with me

n he makes me feel really calm n content n just. good. u know.

80: Are they in love or interested in someone else?

d e a r l o r d i h o p e n o t

81: If they asked you to kiss them, would you?

in a heartbeat

82: Will they be in your life a year from now?

they BETTER BE

83: A moment where you so nearly gave into your feelings for them and did something about it?

i have literally kissed both of them and not because of dares what kind of,,

84: Do they know you have feelings for them?

i’m not exactly,,, subtle

85: Do you have a favourite picture with them?

no but i have favorite pictures of them

86: Your ideal date with them?

hey. concept. a double date. but like. instead of 2 couples it’s just me w/ both of them wow

87: What's their name?

it’s rly obvious that i’m talking about porter and connor fuck you

88: Have you ever been in their room?

i’ve been in connor’s but porter n i mostly chill other places

89: Shared a secret with them?

yeah but it’s not a secret if i tell the internet now is it?

90: Have they ever made you a promise and broken it?

don’t think so

91: Have they ever disappointed you?

nope!

92: Whats the most problematic thing about them, which you overlook due to your feelings for them?

uh. idk. porter’s kinda closed off to other people at first i guess that could be problematic. i’m patient w/ that shit so it doesn’t bug me as much idk

general relationships or lack thereof w/ other ppl tbh for both of them i think 

93: Have you ever had to compete for their affection?

no

94: For as long as they're in your life could you handle just being friends?

that’s what i do with p much everyone else but another way to approach this is if u couldn’t be together would u shut them out and the answer is no?? bc that’s kinda shitty

so yes

95: Ever looked for a sign to make a move?

every?? single second of every day but once again i have literally kissed both of them uh

96: What's standing in your way from being with them?

general anxiety

a single conversation

...lmao

97: Would you let them use you for sex?

this implies that,, they don’t care abt me and only themselves n they’re not really?? like that so?? it wouldn’t happen like that??

realistically knowing myself i wanna say no but i probably would which is Not Good i know

98: Ever had a bad feeling about them that's screaming for you to get out while you still can?

no. like. literally the opposite. wtf

99: If you could go back in time, would you avoid ever meeting them?

NEVER

100: You have 1 wish about them, what would you wish for?

that porter finds someone who makes him feel warm n fuzzy on the inside even if it’s not me

n for connor that one day everything is stable and everything is ok

anyway hey jared U SUCK