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periwinkla · 10 months ago

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Pokeattorney AU x 15th anniversary skit because I take great personal enjoyment in making fun of Edgeworth

...just as much as Phoenix does. The video in question :

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_ pokeattorney AU tag

Btw just for the record whenever I mention the unnecessary feelings bit keep in mind that I didn't bat an eye when I first saw it, but in restrospect it's hilarious and now I just really like to make fun of him for it. Unconfortable Miles hides and/or says things in the most convoluted way possible adding in further embarassment upon himself. And I like to make fun of him for it <3

#ace attorney #narumitsu #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #wrightworth #pokemon #periwinkla #pokeattorney au #I had this as a wip for something like 2 months #I have so many wips you don't understand....#this was file n.43 of 2024 #for reference the nrmt poster was n.36 (started with the layout way earlier than necessary bc I has sudden layout-inspiration ahahah)#and I have reached n.47 rn.... (which is the 14 page-travesty of a comic)#btw this was also an experiment bc I'm trying to figure out how to render the 14 page travesty #since there is no way I'm using BW coloring #it's just not for me - guess I'm allergic to BW (you might have noticed)#...I like it in other people's art but just don't like using it myself #I don't even use BW for rough sketches #not even when I drew traditionally #....always colored pencils even for sketching #btw among other things I also have a pokeattorney AU x T&T gang wip just post the BTTT dinner.... when will I ever finish that? whoknows

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vaguely-concerned · 1 month ago

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powerful mental image of lucanis expounding passionately about any given one of his limited but extremely deep areas of interest (the wyvern/knives/coffee/cooking/murder continuum of lucanis dellamorte special interests if you will) while rye lounges around and Beholds him with palpable twink boutta pounce energy

#having lucanis really go off about something no matter what it is is a rare and precious gift for rye specifically. free aphrodisiac #honestly rye's version of that might initially be subtle enough that only davrin would notice it (and suffer accordingly) lol #'could you guys do that while I'm not here. I'm starting to feel sick' '*perfectly innocent rye voice* do what davrin? I'm not even #doing anything :}' 'yeah you're doing nothing with a lot of subtext rook there are whole chains of footnotes here I'd rather not know'#very funny idea of rye leaving the top button of his shirt open (which means about one centimeter of throat exposed. to be clear)#to go to dinner b/c that is enough to make lucanis completely lose his train of thought every time he glances over #and davrin with half his glorious booba out at all times shaking his head at rye across the table like 'you harlot (affectionate)'#(may I remind us all that his first crush was viago de riva. I remind myself of this at least twice a week b/c it's one of my few sources #of joy and delight these days. rye only gets as mean as viago under very rare and specific cirumstances but I think that #might be lucanis' equivalent aphrodisiac material lol. whenever rook gets tried to the point of showing his hand that not only #IS he actually very clever he also has the capacity to be a *bitch* when provoked lucanis finds his trousers suddenly a little tight.#man something here about both of them struggling with holding on to their anger yet actually finding it appealing in the other person #that's actually kind of moving as well as hilarious haha. rye losing his cool and being like 'oh fuck my cover is blown yet again #now everyone will know I am an asshole actually' and meanwhile lucanis is like 'I need to kiss him under the pale moonlight' <3 #something something nothing is more beautiful to me than the fullness of your nature getting to witness the full spectrum of your being #'*davrin facepalming just out of frame as they gaze upon each other like this* literally what did I just SAY!!! assan avert your eyes #this is grownup stuff. weird-ass grownup stuff I don't fully get and yet I suppose it takes all kinds etc. but still grownup stuff')#davrin being the baffled witness to the intricate yet extremely low-key mating dance of two introverts is something that can be so personal #he clocked them from the moment they showed up to recruit him (which to be clear is before either of these two dumbasses realized anything)#and now he has to live with it <3 sorry davrin I love you davrin #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar #lucanis dellamorte #davrin #from my tag rants etc.#rook x lucanis #rookanis #holding on to my sanity and will to live by a shred but with how coherent and sane this is I'm sure it's not even noticeable

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hannahssimblr · 29 days ago

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#girls i know my period is coming when i start assuming nobody likes my writing anymore #or me/my personality lmao #please god grant me the ability to not care and not always compare myself to others.#do you ever feel like you work very hard and it doesn't really get seen #which like isn't even true in my case because I have such nice readers #but also it's sad to see some of them go away over time #and i wonder is it something i did or that i've gotten worse in some way #then i feel like i should just stop because it shouldn't feel so hard and so sad #not all the time just sometimes when I'm hormonal #my body is mean to me #and so is my brain #i'm scared about getting more in my head about it now that I have increasingly less time to work on my story #I had endless free time before but now I'm becoming a manager at work and it means I simply won't anymore #and i fear fading into obscurity and nobody noticing or missing me or my story/characters #time to talk to real people so i don't feel like shit lmaoooooooo i've had a whole weekend working on a cake topper for a client #that i don't want to make #and i'm tired

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deoidesign · 1 year ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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chewyhanniebug · 1 month ago

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there's a pattern in the polaroids

+ bonus pain: this is the first era without jungjun together for the unit photos

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disneynerdpumpkin · 9 months ago

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So was anybody gonna tell me that Meet the Robinsons is the best Disney movie of all time or was I just supposed to find that out for myself

#😭#its SO GOOD #i went into it thinking it was just gonna be a random quirky Disney film but no #i was bawling #like it's so good #meet the robinsons #mtr #oh and yeah you better believe im making my self insert/oc a Robinson now too just not sure who im gonna make myself related to #oh and I'm back haha not that anyone even noticed im gone #but I am back just very busy #when i started this blog i had more time on my hands but now i dont unfortunately 😭

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kingkat12 · 7 months ago

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once again, i am back in the school library trying to write the next chapter of seven minutes... safely tucked away in a corner like this

to my fellow writers; what do you listen to when you write?

i usually just search up those dark academia classical music playlists that have titles like "you're tucked away in a library at Oxford and it's raining as you're writing a poem to your love" lmaoooo but now i have Mozart's requiem on repeat... banger after banger. not willing to argue on that matter.

also just staring at a half-empty page because writer's block is chomping on my leg like a humongous wet NYC rat😍

#revealing myself to be a classical music nerd #music nerd in general #extremely #i'm so nervous about this writer's block if you've noticed #i don't even know what to do about it #haven't had it since the start of june #am i burning out?#nah i'm not #or am i #LMAOOO

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sofastuffing · 9 months ago

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i have a headache

#i've been stuck scrolling instagram for the past few days #i don't even like being on there #modern ig is so overstimulating everything is either a reel or a reel in disguise or an image post that inexplicably has audio #i kept making myself go on there because i wanted to find a way to make art friends or a community or w/e #and i thought if i had more of a presence and interacted more i'd eventually get people to like. talk to me and comment stuff ig. idk #but ughhhh #i don't think insta is a good platform for that cause it's either pictures with a short caption or the worst media format known to man #like. idk i wanted to find and follow and be friends with and be Cool Artists (don't ask me to define that)#but no artist on instagram is a Cool Artist because there's no goddamn text on there #like if it makes sense i wanna find people who talk About art as well #but not in an art Discourse way #which is another thing. even if instagram had more Talking it would still be shit because the mainstream 'art community' is insufferable #art tiktok is that on steroids #and instagram is is bootleg tiktok #the same five discourse topics jokes memes advice whatever the only difference is now they're circlejerking about ai too #i wanna be Casual and Spontaenous and Mysterious and shit but IG's layout makes me feel like i can't just post whatever #i feel this pressure to give my posts all the same format and add tags and do this and do that and have good Branding or w/e #and it's just ughhh why can't I be a famous enigma (<- doesn't make or share anything)#even on tumblr the pressure is the same #and at the same time i hate looking back on my art accounts (both ig and here) because it just. doesn't align with what i wanna do #like my attempts at categorising and tagging and being consistent #it's just so. yuck #i want to have a Good Brand but i also want to be 'real' but then i look back at my disjointed messy past work and i cringe #i think i need to block my irls from my art accounts bc i feel super embarassed trying to do any typical Get Noticed on Social Media thing #cause it feels embarassing being seen doing shit that's ''influencer-y'' (idk what to call it)#cause it feels out of character to how i actually am in real life #but also why i do want to show my ''real'' character? I'm not cool #and that's another thing I've had these accounts for ages #looking at my past posts makes me fuckign cringe #I want to purge them or start over

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daz4i · 5 days ago

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a thing that made me accept and solidify my sense of self is accepting change. like. i am not the same person i used to be (thank god). but that's a good thing, bc the self is transient. it's nice to find things to define yourself by or to check how ppl see you - but it's important to be able to let these things go. you used to be a dog person but now you prefer cats. you liked this color and wore it all the time but are now tired of seeing it. etc etc. little things we may unconsciously latch our identity onto (which is fine, and natural, i'd argue almost a necessary part of growing up) but being able to let them go and find new things to temporarily(!!!!) define us is helpful. and through that you can notice patterns in who you used to be vs who you are now, grab the things that stand out, and just. keep them in your mind for now. but be willing to let them go once they become unhelpful. does that make sense

#i'm gonna be so fr guys a few weeks ago i had a really good session that genuinely altered my brain chemistry.....#smth shifted in me and now i have a sense of identity. due to [redacted]. doctors hate me for this trick they don't want you to know about #(somewhat joking bc i HAVE been going through an intense lengthy process in the recent year but. yeah)#i think it's more like. by starting to do stuff and be with ppl more i learned what is and isn't good for me #even things ppl insisted would be good for me. i felt better once dropping them (professional help for example LMAO)#but also good people. being around good people really helps. 10/10 would recommend #(which is also smth that helped me learn things abt myself. like which type of ppl i prefer to be with)#(and learning abt myself through these interactions. bc they point out things i didn't notice or consider)#(but they say it in reaction to proof i can't deny. bc i just did the thing they pointed out) (good things. btw)#ANYWAY you are what you love not who loves you 👍🔥#AND! does it even drive you crazy. just how fast the night. changes.#smth smth i am the same person i was as a kid but also someone else entirely. and this makes it easier to accept a sense of self #but also [redacted] helped 😌 contact your local [redacted] today!

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haarute · 10 days ago

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it's amazing how almost all of my friendships (and by almost all i mean Every save like three) are ruined by my own self essentially swerving into a wall and crashing on purpose due to my inability to believe my company could ever be even slightly desirable to anyone and i'd rather just burn it all and die than see myself as someone who intrudes and abuses people's kindness out of my own selfish desire to want companionship.