#i'll need time to recover
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
69% of Tumblr users are millennials.
Text
finally watched aftersun, when does the crying stops?
1 note
·
View note
Text
It's a pretty cool name.
Loki + the progression of saying Mobius' name for @percheduphere
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#tysm for the amazing request because GOD did making this hit harder than i'd even expected??#like it's kind of a given mobius fell first#but i've been so swamped all month i basically only had time to finish maybe a gif per night#and let me tell you watching loki progressively fall harder with each and every scene was uh. an experience all right 🙃😳#in S1 loki's so obviously trying to keep their guard up until mobius gets pruned protecting them and it's like a switch flips#the walls come down and you see the power of being believed in the pure RELIEF mobius' presence brings#how much he's valued and needed and LOVED as loki tries to hold him close only to lose him again and again#leading to desperation building until the only option left is to sacrifice everything not realizing now they're both left wanting#y'all i'll never recover 😭#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
758 notes
·
View notes
Text
Merry Christmas to me personally
God i love these two idiots...
#hsr#aventurine#dr. ratio#ratiorine#this ship is single-handedly saving my sanity rn you have no idea#and the fact that i got this lovely little morsel in game this afternoon#listen i just need to be fed a bit rn#i have no energy to cook in the kitchen atm so to speak#and i'll starve otherwise#so i'm taking some time to feast at another table for a bit and hoping it helps me recover my creative drive#these two really are food for the soul tho you have no idea...
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
BONNY BEING OBSESSED WITH MARCY EVEN WHEN SHE'S THE ENEMY AND MARCY NOT WANTING TO KILL HER AND THEM DYING TOGETHER AS IT WAS DESTINY LIKE WTF WTF WTF MARSHALL GIVING UP ON HIS DREAM AND GOING TO HIS MOM IN ORDER TO GIVE GARY A CHANCE FOR HIS DREAM AND GARY DOING THE SAME TO PROTECT MARSHALL AND THAT KISS AAAAAAAAAAAA I CAN'T GUMLEE AND BUBBLINE SHIPPERS HOW ARE WE FEELING TONIGHT
#i'm going insane#like#i'll need the week to recover#i'm so happy though#and insane#adventure time#adventure time fionna and cake#fionna and cake#gary prince#marshall lee#gumlee#garylee#spoilers#adventure time spoilers#marceline#marceline the vampire queen#bonnibel bubblegum#bubbline#adventure time fionna and cake spoilers
250 notes
·
View notes
Text
... why he sit like this
#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little#rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo#cats#It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually#getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol#Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime#I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering#all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty#e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time#that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense#that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh#I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol#which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything#I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still#recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually#slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever#reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished#any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky#and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly#going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et#etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make#stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin#.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care#and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc#ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it#82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol
118 notes
·
View notes
Text
okay!!! got a couple short replies to tiny starters crammed into my (still paused) queue... it's not much, but it's something. tomorrow i'll try to get a bit more done, maybe restart the queue, etc. etc., but. yeah. baby steps.
#drafts are now under 50 but i still have more things i'll probably delete i just. apparently need time to let the decision fully settle ig?#or need to make sure i'll be able to get new threads going with those people? before deleting them?#idk. idk! all i do know is that i accomplished a few things today and that's a good thing#something something need to start slow to start building energy back up#i'm being a lot more conscious about my energy spending & capabilities (not just w/ writing but w/ everything)#bc if i just let myself go i fall into this awful cycle of#overdoing it ⇾ needing to recover ⇾ things pile back up ⇾ overwhelm & avoidance & spiraling ⇾ rinse; repeat#determined to actually get better this year. even if it's gonna be really slow going.#i am once again thanking all of u for ur patience w/ me during this time ♡#ok i'm gonna go play my stupid gacha games n maybe try to sleep earlier tonight so i can have more hours#where my brain feels like it can Do Things tomorrow#love you guys. like seriously so much. ♡♡♡#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
aye can i get a fuckin uuuhhhh
break. on my burger
#shit chat#family cw#got sicker than i have been in years my bank closed my checking account on accident work is nightmarishly busy#and my mother is sending strings of long voice memos in the family group chat again#i simply will not be listening to them. at most i'll ask my dad or brother for the sparknotes version#bc her pattern for the better part of this year has been radio silence. no attempt at communication whatsoever#and then BAM like 5-10 min worth of voice memos screaming crying sobbing shaking#I DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO GET MY CHILDREN TO FORGIVE ME. I'M CRAWLING ON MY KNEES ON THE DESERT FOR A HUNDRED YEARS REPENTING#WHAT THE FUCK IS FAMILY FOR YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING AND I'M SUFFERING SO MUCH AND I'M ALONE BECAUSE#MY FAMILY ABANDONED ME. I HAVE NO ONE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID BUT I'M BEGGING. I NEED HELP I NEED MY KIDDOS AROUND ME PLEASE I'M DYING#followed by several minutes of sordid updates on her shitty miserable life#which is tbf pretty shitty & miserable. she's extremely physically disabled & mentally ill#her partner had a severe stroke a couple months ago and is still recovering. they've both been in & out of hospital#neither working. partner's adult son who lives with them is the only income in the household#partner's permanently disabled mother also lives with them. plus 2 large dogs 6 cats and 3 each of chickens & ducks#they're in court suing their landlord bc he's trying to evict them but the property is an uninhabitable shithole to begin with#but like. whenever i do make the mistake of responding to one of her groupchat tantrums#she's just like 'oh you know me im a survivor :) i just miss yous is all :) now that you're here i'm gonna bitch about my life for an hour#and ignore everything you have to say and show active disdain & boredom whenever you tell me anything about yourself or your life :)'#and if i offer help she refuses it#like it's just a bid for attention. expecting unconditional love and absolution and salvation from us bc That's What Families Do#she doesn't actually seem to give a shit about any of us as real people. just this ironclad delusion of unconditional family support#that she frankly has not earned#my brother actually did go visit her in the hospital on thanksgiving. driving 2hrs out of his way to do so#and she was a raging passive aggressive bitch to him and threw the gift he'd brought her back in his face#ma'am i know you're Going Through It but so are the rest of us & frankly you've given me zero reason to want to interact w/ ur caustic ass#plus this is petty but yet another way in which she doesn't listen to me & makes no attempt whatsoever at genuine relationship#i've told her numerous times that responding to groupchat voice memos is hard for me. that i love & miss her#and if she wants to see me or needs help or whatever to please contact me one on one either by call or text#nope. refuses to respond to/initiate individual contact. ONLY traumadumping in the fam chat. TLDR MY MOM IS A DISFUNCTIONAL TOXIC NIGHTMARE.
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
probably shld do something with myself today before I fall deeper into Wallowing
#bee blabs#after shadamytober I think I might need time to recover#this has simultaneously been the best and worst thing for my health#I've met some incredible people !!!#I've gotten to write things I otherwise wouldn't have !!#but I feel so crappy every time I post sumn#and then I go doubting my ability as an artist#due to numbers and lack of approval ???#like who am I ??#I need to get over myself#maybe a break would do me some good idk#but not too long bc I'll need to start that shadamy secret santa thing#plus the 20 other things I probably should be doing in its place
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
"Ai, living has no answer."
"When we're in pain, we search for an answer to feel better. A concise, absolute answer. But if you really want an answer… it's that there is no answer. There are no absolute in this world. Even if we think there is, in the end, it'll only make us feel better for a moment.
If there are no absolute, then what's left?
Bonds. Bonds between individuals. Bonds between one another. That's all there is.
That also changes with time. A huge trigger can cause a huge change. Bonds may be severed. But new bonds can also be formed. So living is a series of bonds.
That's what life is.
I have to do that forever?
Yes.
That's a lot of work.
Yeah.
I'd need to be so strong.
That's why people become stronger. That occasionally leads to conflicts. But even if that happens, we have to keep fighting. Keep searching for bonds, even if there's no answer.
You can't rush living."
So I saw on MyFigureCollection that October 13 was maybe possibly Yusaku's birthday, although I couldn't find any reliable source for this. I'd have loved to do something nice and light-hearted for the occasion, but I'm still feeling too strongly about it all. So here you are instead: Happy (maybe) Birthday, Yusaku! Please have some trauma to go with your trauma. Here's to another year of fending off expectations and looking for your own life and its non-answers with eyes wide open and always filled with hope.
#yu gi oh#vrains#vrains spoilers#SPOILERS#how do you tag so it really really doesn't show too obviously because seriously I'd feel horrible for completely spoiling#but I still wanted to share it because I KEEP CRYING#i told my *therapist* about it and we had almost a whole session about bonds and what they mean in terms of support and pressure#I also posted the quote on Facebook last week for my birthday with no explanation and completely out of context#and it was so amazing to have people compliment me on it and ask if they could reuse it#those were the same people who told me that anime would make my brain rot 20 years ago so that's nice turntable and all#i really want to write something heartfelt about it but i'm just rambling and honestly the quote is self-sufficient#i guess i'll just have to find a way to get it tattooed somewhere on my back now because it feels like the only way for me to recover#“I get it now; if you have bonds no one will forget you.” “I won't forget you.”#Vrains quote#VRAINS FEELS#i can't wait for more post-canon in Duel Links#maybe beginning of 2025 if i calculated correctly?#hoping for Akira Zaizen and his Tindangle deck that I'll be happy to destroy with my Revolver deck#and i also have kilowords upon kilowords to write about EVERYTHING but i still need a bit more time#okay that's too many tags i'm done gonna cry a Nile and a half now bye#edit HEY I FIGURED OUT THE “READ MORE” THING I feel less afraid of spoiling now but seriously if you haven't watched Vrains yet stop readin
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Today I:
Saw Käärijä live for the first time
Got a picture with Käärijä, leaned against his chest as he had his arm around me, made him laugh
Met Häärijä, had a nice conversation with him and got the best hug ever from him
Met Jesse, had a nice conversation with him and got a hug, made him laugh
I've been literally screaming for a couple of hours now 🥹
#käärijä#häärijä#also at the gig i was in the middle of front row and got a lot of good pics#I'll post them later i need time to fucking recover from all of this#häärijä hug cured my soul and melted my heart 🥹
89 notes
·
View notes
Text
My poor boy Kieran, they made him a dullahan
#I knew he was gonna die but it's so devastating to see it#I'll need some time to recover from this#rdr2#kieran duffy#vaquerobuckaroo journal
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
today on "i played a video game and fell in love with a character whose story ended in tragedy and i fell into such a depression as a result that i had to drop everything and doodle him to heal the sadness"
#blade and soul#hajoon#doodle#vani candy art#i love him and i miss him i still havent recovered#i absolutely drew his gloves wrong oopsie doodle#i literally just needed to get this out of my system#NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED AND IT WONT BE THE LAST#i will return to Sandrock brainrot posting momentarily#I GOT A CHAPTER DRAFTED TODAY AND I THINK I'LL DRAFT ANOTHER ONE OUT TO GET A BUFFER GOING
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
dude, genuinely, why can't i be happy? why can't the universe ever let me be happy?
#i was SO excited for thanksgiving bc my niece is old enough to start remembering me#and it'd be the first one with her and my nephew both talking and walking so we can all play together#and i can truly establish myself as the fun cousin aunt#but now i'm like super sick and might need to leave the house asap perhaps even tomorrow so i can't do thanksgiving#and even if i don't leave i'll probably be too sick to play with them or enjoy myself and dude i've been so looking forward to this#and i really needed it after the semester that i've had and now i can't even have this#and if i don't recover by morning this'll be the fourth time i've been majorly sick this year!!!#and the second thanksgiving in a row that i've been sick for (though last time i managed to be not contagious and fairly well functioning)#this just sucks so bad bc it was supposed to be my one good thing and it just feels like i can't have anything good in my life#idk man i'm just tired of being given a struggle at every turn#isn't my life hard enough????#tea talks#tea vents
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
oh boy i sure did go from "i think i'm feeling a bit lighter this week" to being lowkey kinda casually suicidal with some ironic speed lmao,,,,
#ahdgksh I'm not like. ACTIVELY there. the thoughts are just present.#I'll be fine this is v much the state I've been in and out of since..... god since april? it's been that long already?? fuuuuuck#but yeah no I think. I'm just tired. overstimulated. overwhelmed. disheartened.#I'll be fine I just need to take some time to recover. again. asjggjdg#writing it down helps and apparently it's easier for me to post to my dumb rp blog than to pull out a journal so. lmao#I am once again appreciating y'all's patience with me 🥺💜#the Want to write is ever present but the Will is still struggling ahdgksg#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw#suicidal ideation cw
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
not gonna lie yall, it feels like all I do is either work or recover from work and it's bumming me out big time
#I don't have a chronic illness. I shouldn't be taking this long to recover#idk why I can't get home from work and go straight to writing#it's like I have to spend a day mustering up the will to live in the face of ongoing capitalism#it's my own fault. I would have had a two day weekend but they asked me to come in to cover someone and my clown ass said sure#I want to be pissed at the coworker who called off but it's my own fault for accepting#I had a phone interview today and I am ANXIOUS to know if they're going to bring me in for a second interview I NEED a better job#I just want a job where I dont dread going to work and also maybe get paid more than minimum wage#feeling really depressed about capitalism and working forever and knowing I'll never be able to afford a house#I WANT TIME TO DO MY HOBBIES GOD DAMN IT ;A;#also im lonely as hell. how am I supposed to go out and meet people if I'm too tired to do anything#I wanna meet someone. I wanna be loved romantically.
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
Curse of "thought of a really good Halloween costume but it is four weeks until Halloween and I can't move my arms above my head"
#>:( !!#who knows maybe i'll recover quickly enough#i already have some of the fabric i would need and wouldn't be (too?) complicated i don't think. probably#but sometimes i'll think of costumes that i'm like eh that's not the best fit for a con probably and#halloween. halloween is the time for those costumes
32 notes
·
View notes