#i'll do this for nick later he has a lot of good stuff

[acadianideals]

alrighty! so this right here is a bunch of unfinished, unused dima lines, found in the files by yours truly. i have no doubt someone's beaten me to this before, but hey! it's here now! a small handful of text-to-speech generations, plus that one actual guy at the end. this is anything i deem as 'interesting'. things that didn't make the cut as 'interesting' are basically just versions of final dialogue that are only different by a word or two.

everything is in this audio file, if you'd rather listen:

or here's everything transcribed!

"Leave this island and don't ever come back. You are not welcomed here."

"I did it alone. Out of shame, and hoping my students would set a better example than their teacher."

"But now, I built this system because I assumed that someday I might not be able to trust the citizens of Far Harbor. But it raises the question-- why do I presume I can't trust myself? So I'm going to remove the command code from my memories, and hide it. Bury it. Actually, deep inside the recesses of Pine Crest Cavern. If I want to use it, it'll force me to think about the consequences during the journey."

"Good. Not everyone is so eager to talk to us. So, how can we help you? What brings you out all this way?"

"Ah. That explains a lot. It always warms me to hear that a Synth had people who cared about them in their old life, even if it… complicates things."

"The study was to implant a series of memories into one of the prototypes. A matrix of thoughts, feelings… history."

[mxqdii]

helloo! I was wondering if you could do hcs or a fic with Matt x reader who has ADHD ?? Love ur work <3

headcannons - m.s x adhd gf

pairings: matt sturniolo x reader

summary: headcannons

warning(s): talks of mental health

a/n: as someone with adhd i'm happy to write this!! read at ur own risk if this makes u uncomfortable anyone!

not proofread

okay matt would be SO GOOD with any girlfriend whatsoever, but if you had adhd?? aaaaaa

for me i def fidget a lot and with adhd comes bad habits sooo, picking your nails? he'll grab your hand, bouncing your leg? he'll put his hand on your knee.

"i'll do it later" no you won't!! matt is def so patient with you but when it comes to procrastinating, he'll make sure you get stuff done and help you, whatever u need.

when you first tell him you have adhd you're super nervous to tell him and stuff but he doesn't make it a big deal he's like "thank you for telling me baby" and just super sweet about it

knows you have no patience so never makes you wait for anything, always yells at his brothers to hurry the fuck up 🙈

loves when you ramble, even though you hate it because you don't even realize your doing it buuuut, he finds them adorable. staring at you intently the whole time, listening to every word.

knows you hate when things get too quiet, so when you're going to sleep he always turns the tv on, or when you're in a public space you guys will share an airpod (im dead)

^^ he makes a playlist of songs you guys like!!!

keeps remembrance of your current hyperfixations

if you ever snap at him or randomly get upset he'd be so sweet doing everything to try and make you feel better (kms)

if you're in a rough patch he's literally SO soft towards you like i just know chris and nick are making fun of him

def struggles a bit too in the mental health department but you guys help eachother grow.

TAGLIST:

@opheliaofficial07 @stargirlv0id @strnilolo @annaisabookworm @theperson-nextdoor @prettysturniolo @its-jennarose @gottamakemyhatersmad @luvsturniolo

[dearramiel]

𝐓𝐚𝐠, 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐈𝐭 | 𝐒𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧

✧ - fluff in the beginning of the story, will eventually get dark, undertones of off setting steve, he's kinda stalking her in the beginning, anxiety/paranoia, steve is 28, reader is at least 21, yes I want to be steve's housewife(a lot of those undertones are present throughout the story so steve has a housewife kink), we listen to stevie nicks and honestly it was by pure coincidence, domestic vibes,

You look beautiful..

In that cute little dress, you'd make the prettiest housewife in town, if you'd just let him in. But all he can do is look, as you walk down the driveway of your house, a little empty basket on your arm. He figures that you're running Saturday morning errands. He shuts the blinds of his window, quickly running out of his own house.

"Y/n!" His voice calls out to you, you whip your head around and spot Steve Harrington jogging towards you, car keys in hand. The rattling of his keys come to an end when he catches up to you.

"Steve, Good morning!" You greet, your voice melting his insides.

"Morning, Sweetheart." He says, trying to ease his nerves when he notices the visible reddening on your face, or the way your smile gets bigger.

"Heading out to the markets?" Steve asks, to which you nod.

"I need to pick some stuff up for dinner today." You reply.

"In that little thing?" He motions to the basket.

"Well I'm only making something for myself, my mom and dad are out on vacation.." You giggle, "Unless, you want to join me?"

The older male is a little shocked, is that even a question?

"I don't wanna bother, but I also wouldn't want a little lady like you to be all alone." He grins. "How about I drive you there?"

The next two hours were spent with you trying to politely decline Steve paying for your groceries. You couldn't deny what it made you feel. You felt like you and him were together, walking around the market places as you picked fresh vegetables and canned goods, shoulders bumping by accident, accidentally brushing your fingers against his, even eying a dress.

All which Steve noticed, encouraging you to try them on in a makeshift dressing room that looked to be an extra storage room, mirrors in place where you could twirl in the dress. After deciding on a couple, you step out, showing Steve who was sat on a chair.

"What do we think?" You say, "it's a little long but maybe I'll grow into it." You joke. Steve doesn't speak for a solid second or two, his heart is racing because you look gorgeous.

"I think you look amazing. You should definitely get it." He smiled, looking at how it hugged your upper body, hoping one day he would see underneath.

"There's another, but I'll save it for later." You say, twirling another time to really show him everything. And again, he's nearly speechless.

"I'll be back." You say, going into the room to change back into your own dress. Carefully untying the little bow, blushing when you remember Steve's face.

Once out, you see Steve with the old lady, the owner of the shop. He's smiling to her as he gently pushes her hands full of change back to her, where she then bows her head to him, smiling ever so gratefully. The act is enough to make your pulse pick up, she hands him a bag big enough to fit the articles of clothing on your arm.

Steve noticed you close the door of the dressing room. "Here." He opens the bag, to which you then put everything in.

"You didn't have to, you know ..pay for it.." you say, feeling bad that he's practically been spoiling you all day. You weren't fortunate to have the money he did, and you definitely didn't want to make it look like you were trying to take advantage of his generosity. Most of what you did have was hard earned money coming from your parents, the house you lived in from your grandparents. It's why you pushed them to take a vacation for themselves.

"Don't worry your pretty little head about it, besides, I think that little dinner will make up for it." He suggests, a sweet smile on his face. You return it.

"Well, thank you for doing this." You play with your fingers, forgetting that he's holding everything. And he doesn't mind because it plays more into his fantasy.

"It's really not a problem."

It's 12 p.m by the time you get back home, Steve has walked you to your front steps, promising to stop by at 6:30 for dinner with you. The thought has you excited, almost throwing yourself into the shower before remembering that you already had, prior to stepping out.

After the excitement settles down, you realize that an unsettling feeling begins to wash over you. Being alone in a big house comes with perks like those, paranoia.

It leaves you feeling unnerved, and it's hard to shake off. It's not the first time you've felt this way, but it's also never been so intense.

You figure that the only way to ease the tension that begins to weigh down on your shoulders is by putting a vinyl into its player. A sense of relief comes down as Stevie Nicks plays throughout the living room, spilling into the kitchen. It helps just enough that you're able to focus on what you want to make, especially now that you want to impress Steve.

You settle on spaghetti and meatballs, after that, a pie to go as dessert.

1:00 p.m. becomes 2 p.m., which becomes 3 p.m., 4 p.m, and then 5:30 p.m, cleaning, cooking, and baking had you distracted, you wash your hands before quickly rushing upstairs to your room, bag in hand, the dresses Steve had bought you now on your bed. You figured that wearing the one he hadn't seen you in would be perfect.

You weren't sure why you were trying to impress Steve, maybe it was the growing crush you had on him, whatever it was, it began to make you feel a little insecure. Trying to live up to his standards, he was known to have any woman wanted, and they were usually really pretty.

You shake away your nagging and negative thoughts, choosing to put on very light makeup, a little bit of eyeliner, lipstick, blush, and eyeshadow, going for a natural look.

You slip out of your dress, embarrassed as you think about also changing your undergarments. It's not like Steve would see you in your underwear anyway.

But.. just in case...

You pick out a matching white lace bra and panties set, then slipping the dress on. You button up the dress, until you reach the last two buttons, leaving a very visible sight for your cleavage. Your chest on display, collarbone showing. Your hair is simple, a low messy bun with some loose hair scattered everywhere aside from your face. By the time your done, it's barely 6:15 p.m, giving you 15 minutes to yourself. With those spared minutes, you slip into your black flats, hanging the other dress in your closet, walking to the kitchen, serving two plates of food, two cups of water, and taking the pie out of the oven, setting it on the counter for it to cool off.

Setting the plates and cups on the table, you're finally done.

Then the ring of the doorbell has your heart jumping out of your chest. You smile and pat down your dress, quickly rushing to the door, opening it swiftly, face heating up when you see him.

Steve Harrington in a suit, holding roses in one hand, the other in his pocket, and you can tell that he's nervous.

He's not moving, stuck in a trance as he looks at the dress you're wearing, down to your legs, before looking back up to your face. An innocent smile on your pink lips, Steve finally moves.

"Hey Sweetheart."

[meraki-yao]

I also have something to add to this anon's ask https://www.tumblr.com/meraki-yao/743384157947920384/i-want-to-hear-your-opinion-on-this-please-if?source=share (your answer is perfect as always, so if I overstep, I'm sorry if I'm not organising my thoughts clearly here)

While I'm not in the fandom, I'm still a fan, which means I follow some people to keep up, and I'm interested in what Nick and Taylor will do next.

The thing here is that there's a group within Twitter fandom that's demanding more from Nicholas. And while they're aware of his need to promote two more projects, him signing books in LA and Milan when possible, leaving Taylor on his TikTok following list*, it's not enough.

Personally, most of these stans are being dramatic because they're not getting more. So, instead of being rational, they start to “joke around” (I'll come back to this later)** by saying Nick doesn't care, he moved on, he doesn't want to be part of a sequel, Taylor and him are not friends, and they bring up his personal life and socmed activity.

A part of me wants to think these people are very young and incredibly online, so they base everything around it, ignoring real-life interactions during their outbursts. Another part of me thinks they're shippers, which eventually ends up being problematic because they see their interactions through that lens. If they don't interact, they hate each other, they are just co-workers, or something happened between them. If they interact, they're besties, they love each other, or they are something else. Like, on socmed, there's no winning for them. It's intense. You cannot see all of that, read some nasty comments, and then say, “I miss when Nick was more active here.” Like, it's obvious why he doesn't want to be active.

I sent you an ask weeks ago about parasocial relationships, and I think these things go along those lines: Most of these people think they know them, they understand their reasoning, and while we do have snippets of their personalities, we don't know them. We're not their friends, and we cannot justify bullying and nasty comments as “it's just a joke, people take things too seriously” because you think it's nice to destroy someone else's work just because you don't get your Instagram likes.

I even read “Nicholas owes us more pictures and content. It's the least he can do.” And he did, for a few days. But he's an actor — he'll have more gigs and eventually RWRB will be another project dear to him. And so for Taylor. And Taylor is signing all these books and going to these events because can go, and most importantly, it was his first leading role. He's extremely proud of the project and of him as an actor. And he'll also move on eventually.

What's more annoying is that we're all aware of a sequel project, and just because Nick is not talking about it any more, they go, “He won't do it because he hates it/now he's too big,” not noticing that they're also implying that Taylor is “less important,” which he isn't. Matthew already said that if Taylor and/or Nick aren't on board, there won't be a sequel, but hardcore fans decide to ignore that part. Nick has never been part of a project this big that actually can have a decent sequel, so there's a big chance of him being part of it. He does care.

I think some people are just very dramatic, and they're not responsible about what they write. So, based on that, it's best to curate your experience as much as possible and recognize problematic accounts/takes on people immediately. Otherwise, it won't be enjoyable.

*I think Nick has been doing some cleaning (I think it's common for him, said by people who have followed him for a while) and he's working on more projects with awarded actors. I think that Taylor has become a good friend of his within the industry, which is good. They've also said Nick's socmed activity is very random and to not be taken seriously because he does a lot of random stuff, but then again, people ignore that.

**Usually these replies come when people start to point out that their comments are wrong, cross boundaries, etc. It's like a way to deflect. But you can tell that it's not really a joke if it's repetitive, which is what's happening right now.

I truthfully don't have much to add. Your points are absolutely spot on, and you organized it very clearly. Thank you for this.

I think I'll just one thing, I was talking to @pippin-katz about this whole rivalry issue, and they said the problem is these people want certain things from the boys, and when they don't get it, they become these violent, malicious comments.

We as fans are not in a position to dictate how they should live their lives. Frankly we're not in any position to dictate people how to live their lives, no one but our own. People need to realize this.

Again, thank you so much for your addition.

[hypnotisedfireflies]

I wondered if in the Driftverse had either Sarah or Nico (Mike can stay dead) survived, would Joel and Tess connect. From your recent posts I guess yes in the case of Sarah. But, if it had been Nico who survived would Joel want to get involved with a woman with a toddler?

I’m starting to think that you’re all out to get me. 

I’m sleep deprived but I don’t think this paranoia is misplaced??  You are all out to get me with your prompts and your plot bunnies and asks that make things happen in my brain that I can't control and then want to write about. 

The short answer is Joel would get involved with Tess probably a lot earlier (not that they wasted much time) had kids been involved. I'm thinking of this through the lens that Sarah also lives, because let's go full happy here.

I'll bullet point how Drifters might have gone had Nico and Sarah survived:

(Also can I point out the Nico Servopoulos – Nico Parker thing was a coincidence.  I called the kid Nick which I was then like, that’s short for Nicholas, that’s TOO many S’s and so changed it to be short for Nico and then later clicked with the Nico Parker connection.  Funny how these things work out.  ANYWAY).

Tommy, Joel and Sarah eventually come to the Lake Michigan camp – the brothers want to get off the road for Sarah’s sake.  They’re not as hardcore do-it-alone when they’ve got her to protect.  The priority is just finding somewhere safe to be. 

Tommy and Tess don’t meet up as early contacts and the windmill stuff never happens, because Tess isn’t trading.  She’s grounded at the Lake Michigan camp with Nico.

They start to interact with Tess through Sarah.  Tess is struggling.  She had started to find her rhythm with Nico before the Outbreak happened, but that’s all gone out the window. 

I kind of think having Nico is almost an Achilles Heel for Tess rather than a serious motivator as it is for Joel.  Like, she’s already struggled so much to function as a mother and now she has all these other issues to contend with.  When it’s just Tess, she can be as selfish as she needs to be.  But the pressure of looking after someone who she already feels like she’s failing would be such a stressful, frightening situation for her. 

And because she doesn’t trust anyone, she’s not really getting any help and she’s just kind of heading toward some kind of serious crash.

There’s no other kids at the Lake and Sarah, who is in that twilight between childhood and adulthood, starts spending time with Nico and Tess.  Sarah has never been around little kids so she’s not like a star babysitter or anything, but it gives her something to do - and someone to talk to who isn’t an adult who talks over her head and makes decisions for her all the time. 

Joel meets Tess and can tell right away that she’s not coping.  He makes some gentle suggestions to which she is not amenable, but Sarah’s in earshot so she reserves her right to tell him what he can do with his advice. 

Joel would start coming by, helping out.  They’d take Nico sometimes so Tess can just rest.  And he’s just naturally good with kids, right?  Daddering just comes easily to him.

They probably end up in the Chicago QZ with Ash’s group.  They’re not going to risk travelling far with kids.

Thanks for the ask, anon! It’s interesting exploring the Coulda Beens.

And then ... Idk, maybe they never get to Boston.

Or maybe they get to the Appalachian Mountains? There are a few prompts floating around to this effect ...

They'd become a tight family unit. Nico's going to call Joel Dad and Joel would see him as his kid. I've never thought Ellie would call Tess Mum, but maybe Sarah would.

Oh and Tommy probably doesn't leave. He wants to, but Sarah won't let him. 🥺

If Sarah wasn't alive, Joel would still become involved with Tess and provide that support, but it would take longer. She'd get a lot closer to that crash.

[sp00kycrumpet]

Paradise. (6/10)

Pairing: Javi Gutierrez x f!reader

Rating: E

Tags: Javi is baby, fluff, holiday romance, Nick Cage is Nick Cage, reader is bilingual

Warnings: swearing

Summary: Working as Nicholas Cage's personal assistant was your favourite job; so when he asked you to accompany him to Mallorca for this birthday party he'd been invited to, you were more than happy to go. What you didn't anticipate was the host himself.

Will also be posted on my AO3

(Part One) (Part Two) (Part Three) (Part Four) (Part Five)

A day later, you were woken up from your nap by some commotion going on outside, you sat up from where you'd dozed off on the couch to see Javi leading Nick through to the dining room followed by… Addy and Olivia?! You hadn't heard anything about them coming out here so you were startled to see them here. You jumped up off the couch and moved to follow them.

"Olivia?" You called out, the older woman turning to look at you, she looked exasperated but almost happy to see you. She gave a tight smile as she paused to see you. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh, Nick's new bestie called us and made out he was dying or some shit. Turns out he was trying to help Nick 'creatively' apparently." She rolled her eyes, glancing over her shoulder as Javi had spotted the two of you. "We're going for lunch, Javi thinks he can help. Like he can do better than the thousands of dollars we spent on therapy already. I'll come and meet you after, it's good to see you. Addy will be glad to see you too." She turned on her heel and carried on after the group, Javi giving a smile as he held the door open for the family. He excused himself for a moment, coming to you.

"Sorry my dear, I am hoping to try and help Nick. He has a lot in his heart regarding his family and it's stunting his creativity like you said. Come and join us later?" He smiled softly, squeezing your hand as he passed you to go and ask the staff for some food. You sighed softly, Olivia was going to hate this and you knew Nick would be more stressed than before the trip. You went back to the lounge, tidying away the blanket you'd been wrapped up in and resisting the urge to go and see if you could help. Luckily, about an hour later, Nick came out to find you.

"You need to pack your stuff. We're leaving tonight." He has a seriousness to his voice you'd not heard many times and it put you on edge.

"Nick? Why? What's going on?" He ran a hand over his face, watching you for a moment.

"Remember when I warned you to be careful about spending time with Javi?" You groaned a little, folding your arms over your chest.

"This again?"

"Please listen to me. That night I went into town to read Javi's screenplay, I was grabbed by the CIA. They've been watching Javi. The olive business is just a front to seem normal. He's the head of the cartel, he kidnapped the governors daughter. They've had me spying on him and gathering intel so they can arrest him. But I've been made and now, we need to go." You stared at Nick for a long moment before you burst out laughing.

"You're fucking with me. Funny Nick, really funny." Nick just kept serious, watching you before shaking his head.

"I wish I was. I know you're attached to Javi but he is a dangerous man. We have to leave. Pack your stuff and keep Olivia and Addy in house until I come back." Your head was spinning trying to make sense of it. The kind, sweet man who had been such a gracious host and stolen your heart was wanted by the CIA?? You wanted to find Javi and ask him but something in Nick's face told you to just do what he asked. You nodded and turned on shaky legs to go back to your room, keeping your calm so staff didn't notice anything. You were almost done packing when Olivia and Addy arrived at your room. You embraced both women, all three of you trying to make sense of the situation as you waited for Nick to come back for you.

"Did you know any of this?" Olivia asked, you shook your head, chewing lightly on the inside of your lower lip. The three of you had moved into the room where you and Javi often watched movies. Olivia was pacing and trying to wrap her head around it all while Addy lingered by a window, staring outside.

"No. Nothing. Nick has been a little weird lately but… it's Nick! I thought he was just having a moment. If I'd have known any of this…" You sighed and ran a hand through your hair. Olivia nodded and seemed to believe you, Addy let out a frustrated sigh.

"This is ridiculous. I bet they're outside now just laughing at us!" She exclaimed and pulled the door open to go and see. You both called after her but she didn't stop. Olivia was quick to follow her, you jumped up off the couch to try and stop both of them. The front door was wide open as Addy had stormed out, you jumped when Olivia let out a scream. A man had suddenly stepped out and grabbed Addy, making quick work of shoving her into a car while Olivia was grabbing at him and trying to stop him. He spun around and pointed a gun at you both. You grabbed Olivia and dragged her back into the house.

"Olivia, we will get her back!! I promise you!" She was sobbing and trembling as you bundled her into your arms, wishing Nick would come back and have some idea of what to do. If he really was working for the CIA then surely they'd be able to help?

---

The two of you hid in the living room again, peering out of the window between the curtains for any sign of someone coming back. You'd just gone to get your phone from where it was on charge when Gabriela seemingly appeared from nowhere.

"What happened?!" You stared at her for a moment, torn between trusting her and just staying far away. Instinctively you stood between her and Olivia, eyes never leaving Gabriela as the other woman watched you both in confusion.

"Like you don't know. You were probably sent to kill us off before Javi gets back!" Gabriela blinked, her gaze flickering from you to Olivia then back again.

"You found out about the other family business?" She asked softly, you could feel every muscle in your body tensing in fight or flight mode.

"You're damn right we did. They took Addy, Javi took Nick. If you're going to kill us then I'm afraid we won't go down without a fight." Your jaw tensed as you watched her, Gabriela sighing softly as she moved to perch on the arm of the couch beside her. After a moment of silence, she explained everything. How Javi was just the face but Lucas was the head of the organisation, how Lucas was screwing Javi over and doing whatever he wanted - including kidnapping the governor's daughter, and now Addy.

"Javi is a good man. He tries to use his money for good and work honestly with the olive business. But that's why this place is so private and there's always some kind of security." You weren't sure whether to believe her at first but the look on her face told you she was being genuine. Plus, that now explained why Javi had grabbed you at his party when the power flickered. Maybe he'd worried it was an attempt on his life, or yours, and that's why he'd looked so relieved when the lights came back on.

"My guess is Lucas found out about Nick helping the CIA and probably threatened Javi into killing Nick. But he would never do it, Javi is a peaceful man." You nodded a little, wrapping your arms around yourself.

"And now that bleached psycho has Addy. We need Javi and Nick to come back quickly." The other two agreed with you, Olivia returning to her post by the window as she tried calling Nick again.

Minutes seemed to crawl past as the three of you tried to come up with a plan or something. Suddenly Olivia exclaimed that they were back and the three of you darted outside to meet them as the truck they were in skidded to a halt. Olivia yelled to Nick that someone had taken Addy, Nick telling you to all get into the back of the truck. You climbed up with the help of Gabriela and sat beside Olivia with an arm around her. You had no idea where you were going, Nick pulled a phone from his pocket and started talking to some woman on the other end about how Lucas had Addy. The woman was unnervingly calm as she explained what Lucas had planned before giving Nick an address of where to go to. Once she hung up, he ask Javi the best route to take before explaining that the woman on the phone, Vivian, was one of the CIA agents he'd been working with. He trusted her completely. Olivia kept asking what the plan was, but Nick repeated they'd have to see what happened when they got to wherever Vivian was sending you.

Rushing into the building; your heart was racing as you just prayed Addy was okay and Vivian was telling the truth. You barely had a chance to see inside the room when you heard Olivia exclaim in surprise and Javi suddenly pulled you against his chest, hiding your face so you didn't see the bodies on the floor.

"We need to go." Gabriela breathed, tugging on Javi's wrist as you glanced up at him. You reached out your hand to Olivia and turned to head downstairs to the car outside, looking over your shoulder as Nick stood having an internal war with himself. You caught a glimpse of the henchmen not far from Nick and the bodies of who you assumed to be the CIA agents. A horrible sight to see, especially when they'd been working on bad intel all along. Olivia called out to Nick and he eventually snapped out of it to follow you all outside. You climbed into the back of the truck, keeping close to Olivia as Nick drove following Javi's directions to his safehouse. It was insane, your beautiful holiday in Mallorca suddenly turned into a battle for survival and trying to save Addy's life.

(Part Seven)

[lover-girl-estxx]

Nick having some mental health issues, he has these bad nightmares and rarely sleeps good till he meets the reader and falls deeply in love with her and he finally sleeps a bit better when she stays over.

Angst with a lot of fluff

Thank you 🙏🏻

Nightmares

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| Nick's POV |

I've slept about four hours since Y/n left two days ago, she had a lot of writing to do for her book. It was the third day of no Y/n and every time I close my eyes I wake up in a cold sweat having horrible dreams about I don't even now what.

6:32pm.

M: Mamas?

Y: Nicky?

M: could you come stay the night?

Y: I still have a bit of writing or I would

M: Please? I miss you bring your stuff do it here

Y: I can't when you're cute face is looking at me the whole time

M: Y/n please :(

Y:i'll be there in 30, want me to grab food or us go?

M:Thank you! go

I opened the front door to her bag over her shoulder "hi" she smiled wrapping her arms around my neck kissed me my hands on her waist, she lightly put her hand on my jaw getting my face lean down "did you still up last night?" she asked "yeah playing COD" she pecked my lips "you have to to stop staying up so late" "I know" "i'm so hungry in 10?" I nodded letting her go past me before shutting the door.

| Y/n's POV |

"could you drive?" he asked I nodded he handed me the keys and opened the door for me "thanks!" I smiled. On the way to the taco truck Nick fell asleep in the front seat, I lightly shut the door behind me and went and and got same as we always did. I opened the door "you got food already?" he said running a hand over his face "yeah it was quick today" he nodded "wanna eat here" I nodded.

I was sitting with my back on his headboard his head on my ribs arm around my waist asleep, I couldn't write i'd stop to run my fingers through his hair and rub his back. I only had to write for one hour more so I slowly got up and went to the dining room. "what are you doing?" Nate said coming out of his room to grab a soda "writing I have one more chapter" "thought you only wrote at home?" he took a sip "you're brother really wanted me to come over and I missed him" "he's not been sleep well" "what do you mean?" "his nightmares are back I think heard him yell the other night," he shrugged "got them alot in high school" I closed my laptop "i've stayed here a lot think i've only had to wake him up once" I shrugged.

I set my laptop on his dresser then grabbed my skin care bag getting in bed next to him starting to put it on. his chest started moving up and down breathing heavy sweat building on his forehead, he started to make small noises and moving around. "Nick?," I rubbed his shoulder "Nick!" he sat up gasping "shit," he ran both hands down his face "i'm sorry" "it's okay Honey, Are you okay?" I pushed a piece of his hair "yeah i'm fine i'll be right back" he stood up fixing his basketball shorts.

I sat on the bathroom counter next to him, "what's going on?" I asked pulling him in front of me "just a bad dream happens sometimes" he shrugged "Nate said you've been having bad nightmares...That why you haven't been sleeping?" "no.." "nick?" I cupped his cheeks "..I have nightmare's sometimes..I don't really get them when you're here that's part of the reasons I wanted you to come here" I kissed his collarbone "come on" I grabbed his hand.

His head was laying flat on my shoulder I ran a hand through his hair "what do you dream about?" I asked kissing his forehead "I don't even know" he shrugged "i think it may be from my pills" I nodded.

"sleep baby I know you're tired....I got you" I said, he pulled me in tight "i'm about to be," he looked up at me "thanks for laying with me" he said half asleep "don't even" I pecked his lips "love you" he whispered "love you Nicky". I was up a little later than Nick and through the time I was he'd pull me closer or dug his head into my neck. I could tell something change in Nicks breathing, I rubbed his back kissing his head "it's okay" I whispered into his hair, he slowly opened his eyes looking up at me before pulling the blanket up to his chin "thank you" he rasped closing his eyes laying a light peck on my shoulder "yeah bubba" I laid my arm over his as he started falling back asleep.

[rad-roche]

chit-chattin about some books i've read (or reread) recently. not a review, and i'll refrain from big spoilers in case you happen to be interested in reading any, but just a general overview and some thoughts ( ᐛ )و

been making an effort to read more lately. that thing happened that comes with adulthood, you know, things take priority, life happens, as well as the SocMed's curse i'm sure we all share; books take time, and effort, and is competing with a skinner box. i've come up with a pretty good system, which is taking me e-reader somewhere nice, or at least into a different room, away from my desktop, but not getting too hung up if i do get distracted. i'll dig out my wireless headphones, put on an album or lofi, then throw my phone the maximum distance away before it disconnects. i make a point not to make time to do it every day, like a set hour, because i know how my brain works and if i feel like i 'have' to do it i'll resent it. it's somehow much easier for me to think, independently, 'oh yeah, i've got a book to read' every single day rather than planning to do it. this is a fool's system. i do not recommend structuring anything like this.

in no particular order;

negative space - b.r yeager: i really loved this! there are a lot of 'sad kids roam around on bikes with Horrors Occurring' books, but this is very contemporary and has a very specific sort of late 10s malaise. teenagers are committing suicide en masse in a dying suburban town, and all there is to do is drink, smoke and see who comes up next so you can take a picture and talk about it on a specially made gawking message board, and that's before the hallucinogen that lets you see into another reality. explains very little and that just makes it better, don't worry about things making sense the first time through. strongly recommend if you like your books to make you vomit

the thin man - dashiell hammett: nick and nora charles. need i say anything. is there a single thing i need to say. it's fucking dashiell hammett. it's dashiell hammett writing nick and nora charles. one trillion out of ten. nora. nora fucking charles is here.

archer in jeopardy (the zebra-striped hearse, the instant enemy, the doomsters) - ross macdonald: three book omnibus from another of the Big Three (chandler, hammett, macdonald). they're all fantastic. they don't quite have the poetic turns that chandler does but also, comparing anybody to raymond chandler on turns of phrase is criminal. set in a time period you don't see so much, the transition from the 50s to 60s. a little old-man-yells-at-cloud-y about the youth, but you're going to struggle to find a noir writer who approaches his subjects with such empathy. lew archer is a kind, open-hearted man, and he suffers hugely for it. i know a significant amount of you are here for fallout stuff, so i think this is a fair comparison; nick valentine owes a lot to how lew archer is written. if you're looking to get into the genre and need a reference point, these are probably the books you should start with

mass effect revelation - gave it a whirl, couldn't stick with it. might try again later, i really like anderson as a character and i'm big into ME.

quantum devil saga; avatar tuner - yu godai, kevin frane; it's okay! i enjoyed it, but i'm super into the game it's expanding on. supplemental material, you know. i wouldn't read it by itself

body scout - lincoln michel; neo-noir set in the future where corporations run amok and pump athletes so full of experimental drugs that they turn to chunky soup on the field. i appreciate how batshit weird it gets, it's very confidently written. i finished it a month ago and have thought about it every day since, it's very up my alley, themes and such that i like and explore. you'd probably like this if you like dmt.

dishonored; the corroded man - adam christopher; an interesting read in that it takes the incredible setting of dishonored and somehow makes it tedious. didn't like it

devil house - john darnielle: now here's a fuckin tome and a half. a (fictional) true crime writer digs into an occult double-murder. but it's not about that. well it is. don't let the cover fool you, it's not a horror. but it kind of is? whatever it is, it's worthwhile. really dense, good if you want to get your teeth into some Big Questions. you'll spend the first part wondering when it will pick up speed, then you'll be screaming for it to stop

pictures of sea slugs; various sea slugs - not a book but something i've been looking at a lot lately. i think they're very cute. i love their little frills

i mean my god

[sxilor-1010]

Working on a danganronpa x fear street au because I'm bored and I got nothing else to do, so here's a short character list for this AU! I'll be starting off with Fear Street Part 1: 1994, Part 2: 1987 & Part 3: 1666 will come at a later point.

I really recommend watching Fear Street, it's a good movie trilogy! With that, onto the list!

DO NOT CONTINUE READING PAST THIS POINT IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN FEAR STREET, THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS!

Heather Watkins – Sayaka Maizono

Reason I chose her is because she's the first girl you meet in game and the first girl who dies. Heather's the same way.

Ryan Torres – Leon Kuwata

I chose Leon because of both he and Ryan have some girl catcher thing going on, not to mention they both become killers. (albeit one was possessed, the other was forced)

Deena Johnson – Shuichi Saihara

In reality because the Fear Street Trilogy also counts as a LGBTQ+ film (Deena & Sam used to date), you could put anyone besides Shuichi as the main character. Reason I chose Shuichi was because Deena associates with the color blue, and she's also pessimistic and depressed at the start of the movie until the end.

Samantha Fraser – Kokichi Oma

Now, Sam and Kokichi are very different characters. One's manipulative and childish while the other doesn't like to cause trouble while being quiet. The only reason I chose Kokichi is due to a couple things, one of them being Sam living in Sunnyvale (which is a rich and safe town, and since Kokichi is the Ultimate Supreme Leader, I just put two and two together.) Second, Saiouma is a popular ship and since Shuichi is Deena in this AU, I might as well make Sam Kokichi. (But other options such as Kiibo or Kaito or any other male character Shuichi's shipped with could work too.)

Josh Johnson – Yasuhiro Hagakure

In the movie, Josh is the nerd who's all about conspiracy theories, and he's smart because he's able to piece together what's been going on with Shadyside and the killers it pumps out every decade or so. Yasuhiro's all about that conspiracy stuff, and he's somewhat of a nerd (alongside Hifumi), hence why he's Josh. His best friends that he talks to like Josh does in the movie with AOL would probably be Hifumi and Gundham.

Kate Schmidt – Miu Iruma

Kate's not an inventor, I'll give you that. But in the movie she's very smart and has a good sense of what she's doing (even after she dies). She's also a very attractive girl, so who else could fit her other than the genius with good looks and golden brains herself?

Simon Kalivoda – Kazuichi Soda

In my personal opinion, I could've chosen Mikan for Simon due to both of them being cowards and having knowledge of over the counter medicine and drugs, but it just didn't feel right given Mikan also cries a lot... which is something Simon doesn't do. So I chose Kazuichi because I thought it would be more fitting in terms of personality. (Also, both of them are simps in a way)

Sheriff Nick Goode – Nagito Komaeda

While it doesn't make much sense for Nagito to be Nick, I chose Nagito because both of them wield guns (/hj) and because both of them live a lavish lifestyle where nothing bad ever happens to them. (With some exception as an Ultimate Lucky Student aka Nagito) Then again, he could also work for Sarah Fier given both of them had one hand cut off from their body...

C. Berman – Hajime Hinata

It's implied in 1978 that C. Berman and Nick Goode had a thing for each other when they were kids, and C. Berman was very pessimistic (almost like Deena) during most of the movie. It fits very well for Hajime just like Shuichi does with Deena.

Ruby Lane – Sonia Nevermind

Halfway in the movie, Simon ends up entranced by Ruby Lane's singing which is how he ends up getting tackled and almost killed by her. I don't like to doubt that Sonia would do something similar to draw out Kazuichi if she ever decided to kill someone.

Sarah Fier – Kiyotaka Ishimaru

While it may not make sense for Ishimaru to be the witch, It's the only character I could think that would work for this AU since, and there are spoilers so don't read if you haven't seen Fear Street, Sarah Fier in the movie is a lesbian who was hung for witchcraft and had rejected a dude who loved her when she loved another woman.

[jeffbytes]

elaborating a bit more on Nick's importance to me, something i've only really recently felt more inclined to look back on and resurface in my mind given the..... nature... of this story 🥲 going back through my old facebook to find the images has definitely tightened my chest a lot as i'm writing this, but i think it's as good a time as any to share now i've done so.

trigger warning for domestic violence / physical assault. contains content made pre transition, identities and characters i no longer use, please respect this and do not use them

observing the bittersweet horrors below the cut

the movie released in 2016. i was 19 / 20 yrs old at the time. i was still a furry, identifying with the label, with a "fursona" all that jazz (i still have animal sonas and interest in costuming as my sonas now, i just dont identify as a furry or interact with the community / go to the meet ups anymore). most importantly i was in a co habiting relationship with my then boyfriend, who we will refer to as L (bc he certainly didnt act like a W lol....)

we've got the trigger warning out of the way so i'll be frank - L was my abuser. i was a domestic violence victim to this man. he was unpredictable, attacked me in my own home several times a week, over mundane things like a chore needing doing or not smoking inside or needing to wake him up at 4pm. it's stuff that still haunts me to this very day (high intensity therapy finally happening, end of this year) that i wont elaborate much more on but it was BAD, ok. really really bad, shit you only see happening in movies. i was nearly DEAD, on the last occassion. i lived that horror for over a year whilst we lived together, and the knock on effect its had... i have not been able to work since, i lost my job due to needing to be sent to hospital on my shift a couple days after and fired for my "inconsistent appearence" at work. i lost everything to this man. i've only just started coming out of my shell in terms of holding a relationship in the last 2 years, largely in part given to the bravery that self shipping has brought me.

so here we mention Zootopia. Zootropolis over here w/e it's not important - Zootopia released in the same year 2016, after much hype from myself it was one of few things keeping me going at the time the awaited release of this movie, and i fell hard for Nick. how much i related to his character (even more so in recent times) how tender he seemed underneath everything and his turn around, everything about this character comforted me.

and i started to selfship with him! i didnt know what selfshipping was at the time, it was just me drawing my at the time fursona with him romantically and had no idea the SS community existed until just a few years ago. i never really felt the need to ship with characters when i was in IRL relationships before - and the fact i started drawing myself with Nick was an eye opener for me that something wasn't right for me. that i was deep down seeking refuge in a fictional relationship bc i was starting to break down and come to terms with the fact my IRL relationship was not only unhealthy, but dangerous.

it was the comfort of shipping with Nick and that realisation it gave me that gave me the wake up call i needed. one morning L was on another of his hands on tyrades, and scared our poor elderly cat, seeing my baby scared and knowing i'd been putting my heart into new outlets, i ejected him from the property that day. sure, L was able to manipulate his way back into my life for another couple months later that year that ended the exact same way (for good this time, good riddance) but in that moment i knew i wanted better than what i had when i found that in Nick at the time.

while my self ship with him has been quite on and off since then, i'll never forget the part he played in essentially saving my life. aforementioned, L nearly KILLED ME one time, right towards the end of that second appearence i mentioned before. i'll spare the specifics, i'm lucky to be alive.

i don't know where i would be without that wake up call. Nick and my sweet elderly cat Clawey rest in peace, they both saved my life in 2016 and i'm forever grateful for that ;___;

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary338

8/23/24

friday

want to sleep soon.

spent all day working on the same song... again... got another guitar tone out too, which is nice, hope that one will be useful later on. i need to start work on the ost in full tomorrow probably. right now i am listening to a band called 'squid pisser' and their thing is that they sound a lot like the locust. so i'm into it. even though it's mostly just locust worship... i get it... i worship the locust too. one of the vocalists kinda sounds like nick cave in the birthday party on one of these songs. i need to hear their first album. i'm really enjoying this record actually, some of it is super locust-y but some stuff's a little different, they do the riff-y-er bits differently. they kinda lean into the hardcore catharsis a little more, or differently. the locust do play with that too.

i should also watch a movie... the day after tomorrow... cuz apparently we are now going to chinatown, to do nothing but hang about and get treats i suppose. so i will pencil a movie in for sunday.

i'm being avoidant about listening to the song cuz i don't want to hate it or something, always so disheartening.

that's just how this goes, it's a kind of bickering with oneself until the thing seems complete somehow, or it's reached some kind of precious footing that messing with it anymore would mess everything up. although, i mess with stuff anyways, it's only when i'm satisfied, that i did everything on purpose at least i guess. or if there's really happy accidents. some tones are effortless, some riffs are effortless, some songs feel like that and then i have to go mix them and then a lot of focus kind of begins to appear i think.

i'm onto the first squid pisser record, it's less locust-y in places, which is cool, it's cool to hear them do some more straight-laced hardcore-y stuff and work the synths into that, kinda instructive for me.

lol this album has the girl from that goofy band starcrawler, arrow dewilde, my gf and i saw her wandering around vegas once.

that's bizarre that she's on this, this is kind of like when karen o was on this song:

some say this is one of the best songs ever... well no one but me actually... but it is!!!

the song w/ yako from melt banana on this squid pisser record is very good, i remember hearing this when it came out. her shouts are so fun. i like that they did this first album with a bunch of guest vocalists, that's very sweet to me, i'm really excited to hear the song they got joey from the locust on this album for.

this one is just okay, it's kinda slow but i like all the uggy noises, it's mostly just the uggy noises and not much pace. but i like hearing joey do that sorta apathetic moaning, it's cute on him.

good record... what else to say. i should just sleep now since we are suddenly going out tomorrow. thought i would be staying in and cooking and things. it's okay that i'm not, i am excited to get icecream tomorrow. i'm making sure i get icecream i have been craving it.

oh, the selfies i took the other day, i was in a rush and they're like super blurry and not good looking, so no pictures.... it's okay, i just wore a corset belt in a mental sorta way. wonder what i'll wear tomorrow... i'm sure i'll figure it out, it'll be fun to get dressed. i am probably going to see my gf's brother tomorrow too... that will be fun i bet, when we go do our own thing and, he gets pissy, i am expecting that!!!! cool!!!!

since tomorrow will be #busy, i will sleep now,

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[shirogane-oushirou]

hi it's time for a dive into * .✧ ro's ancient oushirou art ✧. * on this lovely oushiversary!!

(aka i don't wanna reblog any of this art directly from the source bc a number of the posts include my old name ^_^ also there's a lot and i'm already spamming y'all with old art KJNASFKJN)

↑ early college era -- still hadn't taken coloring classes, but i had taken anatomy classes and was using my favorite boy as practice outside of classwork :o)

↑ that first one was from when i was drawing my own dakimakura cover bc i figured honeybee would never deliver on an official one (and also a nod to the fact that i had just had my first taste of nutella and it broke my brain (positive)). and i could be wrong but i thiiiink the second one was around when the official one was announced...? maybe?

i just needed a daki so badly. when i FINALLY got my hands on the daki cover, pillows of that size weren't standard over here, so i actually had to make my OWN dakimakura by sewing two standard pillows together... in a larger case comprised of a sheet... which i did all by hand bc i didn't have my sewing machine at the dorm... i was Committed. 😊👍🏻✨

↑ The Sillies. i'm saving everyone from being subjected to all of the oushipug drawings but. ousheep.... ough... and i included the third one in my nick-gave-me-a-pass-to-gush post, but i'm putting it here too bc. it's cute. :3c

↑ practicing with the yoh yoshinari sections in the PSG design books. good stuff, highly recommend taking a look if you're into very interesting western-japanese animation style mixes.

↑ shortly after getting my hands on after winter -- the bouquet is a drawing of a scene from his route ;w; he's so sweet... and so clumsy... top left is from the time when i was watching the end of clannad during all-nighters while working on assignments. can you tell just from that sentence that i was Quite Unwell at the time? KJASNFKJN. (still love miku!oushirou so much tho. honestly love this style. i want to study my art from around this time at some point, maybe regain some things that were uhhh Firmly Discouraged, to put it nicely, during my later college years.)

↑ doodle dumps! first one is from shortly after playing AW, second is from maybe... junior year with a couple from sophomore year? just a lot of style practice. third is mostly from the end of college when i was. struggling kJNASFJKN. SCAD Profs I Will Not Name made me feel like shit for drawing "too anime", then a couple of years later said their "anime" students were their favs, so my style was. very mixed and not confident. skjdnf.

↑ random gifs! wish i could find it, but i also have one somewhere of him blasting off team rocket-style KJASNKDJN and another of him getting scared from a horror game? movie?

↑ first anniversary pic!! and a reblog meme of "draw your favorite character wearing what you're wearing right now", and i was dressed to drive down the street for some late night gas station food w roommates.

↑ selfship-before-selfship "wife blog" art from 12yrs ago!! kazuaki, the series's artist, has drawn catboy oushirou in design docs before, so he'll sometimes pop up in my art as well ksjdnfnkj. also, naturally, self insert art babey. and he's being a little asshole ksjnd.

↑ the one on the left is like. right around when i graduated?? the one in the middle was for his bday, probably 2020, when i was just starting to get back into art, the one on the right is a college sketch that i redrew as practice to ease myself back into drawing in 2020.

↑ bday cupcakes for the bday boy!!!! around like. 2013 or 2014? i used to do a lot of baking for his bdays before i had dietary restrictions kJNASKJFN, though i sometimes sneak a little treat in on his bday if i can find one.

maybe as i sift through posts on my old blog i'll collect all of the weird art i've done and post them in chunks like this. nice way to put them someplace without spamming people with old curiosities ksjdnfk.

(credit)

[give-me-stuff-to-watch]

Watching Stuff Day 6 - 7/12/2023 - Current Streak: 6

For today's thing I watched, I decided to watch the first episode of Avatar: The Last Airbender. I think it did a really effective job at setting up its characters and intrigue for the plot in a mostly natural way. There was a small exposition dump at the beginning, but I think it was actually handled pretty well itself. It wasn't all that complex and just helped catch the viewer up on the rules of this world. The episode does a lot to draw the viewers interest by explaining the lore and world building, establishing mystery with the situation Aang is in, and ending on the cliff-hanger of Zuko locating Aang and village, putting it in danger. It was able to show all that at a good pace and make all of the events seemingly flow naturally.

I think it handled its humor pretty well too, considering it isn't the main focus of the show. I did find it funny how Sokka did nothing but be wrong and take Ls the entire time. If it had been any other character, I would've felt a bit bad for them. But they established early on that Sokka's a bit of an ass, so it all worked. Definitely shows that the writer's are aware of how they're writing him. When they first had him say something sexist, I was afraid it wasn't going to be addressed since it's an early 2000s Nick show and I felt like they might let that kind of thing fly, but then they had Katara immediately call him out on it and my faith in the writers was restored. I'm guessing this aspect of Sokka's character changes later on though since I've heard he's a lot of people's favorite. I do think the show has done a good job of balancing and establishing characters and dynamics so far. Aang's a fun loving guy trying to stay optimistic in a bad situation. Katara's burdened with a large amount of responsibility, but is still looking to grow and reach her full potential as a bender. Sokka's a bit of an ass but is still looking to protect his village and sister in his own way. Zuko has a one track mind for getting stronger and capturing the Avatar/Aang because of his personal honor. And Iroh just wants Zuko to take better care of himself, chill a bit, and patiently learn. Overall, each character was given decently established traits and depth to build upon as things go on.

Visually, I really like the character and animal designs, and I think the artstyle suits them well. The animation was a bit choppy at points though, but that makes sense considering this was a weekly kids show before it got big. They probably didn't have too big of a budget starting out. They did seem to prioritize animating the bending/mystical aspects when they appeared. I'd say this was probably the right call, you'd want the magical elements that are one of the main selling points to feel magical visually and animate smoothly.

I think it was really solid pilot and I'll probably watch more considering the reputation it has. Maybe I'll do an update post when I finish it, idk.

[now-we-say-c0ral]

June 25, 2023

Woke up around 8am and I'm so grateful to wake up next to this guy every morning. I truly do. We cuddled for a bit and got myself ready for the gym but I decided not to go through with it today because the front door wasn't opening. Don't ask me why. Went to the gym 4x this week so that's already good enough and I had to remind myself that it's Sunday and that I have to have a proper rest day.

I folded the laundry from yesterday after this door fiasco the I just wizzed through my diary in the morning because the backlogs that I had were piling up day after day. I tried logging in to play Diablo 4 but there was a problem with the server. Luckily, I got in after like 30 minutes of being in the queue. Spoke to my little sister and mommy and I'm just so happy that she finally passed her CV and she'll have a chance to work very soon. I'm quite excited about all this for her. Eddie made some bagels stuffed with caramelised onions and tuna flakes and some eggs on the side for breakfast. It was super yummy!

In the afternoon I just played Diablo until the whole evening. Ed came home from climbing at Canary Wharf then cooked us some burger steak for dinner and I prepared the same meal for our lunch for tomorrow. I had some broccoli on the side because I couldn't, or rather, shouldn't have rice anymore because I need to be in a calorie deficit to regain my old belly.

Preparing my bag for tomorrow because I'll TRY my very best to wake up early and go to the gym near work so that I could hit my cardio and maybe some arm exercises so that in the evening I'll just go home and have stuff ready for Ed to cook his chicken tikka masala for our lunch the day after. Life's been so good lately.

June 26, 2023

Woke up early today like 5:30am because I promised myself that I'm going to go to the gym before work and I actually fucking did it! I deserve to pat myself on the back because it literally took a lot on me not to tell Siri to Wake me up an hour later.

I got to The Gym in Bloomsbury around 6:45am and I did some abs, arms, and cardio then got to work on the nick of time. I'll try do do this again tomorrow. Hope it'll follow through.

I was assigned to work in Theatre 14 today with Matron, Kuya Ernest, and Katie. It was my first time scrubbing 6-7 hours alone in a case. I know. They told me that there's going to be many more to come. I'm just bracing myself. I volunteered to backscrub because I'm useless circulating while I'm not used to the contents of the sets and where the other stuff are found but they actually trusted me that I do the whole case by myself. I'm just glad that I haven't forgotten how to scrub yet. I ate lunch around 3:30pm and my golly was I hungry.

Ed was having an insanely bad day at work so I decided to buy him some cupcakes to help with his bad day-ness or whatever you call it. He has a sweet tooth so he'll definitely like this one.

Today was a good day!

[corvondog]

Nick

Okay, how do I start talking about my boy Nick? His name is Nicolas aand he's definitely one of the most fleshed out characters rn.

He's what you'd consider a shy extroverted, usually failing to make new friends bc of his own self doubt, but really really wanting to. Even tho, he still has one best friend since they were around 12/11, and thats Bia (but we'll be talking about her later)!!

Althought shy, Nick can be a bit of a bisaster of a hopeless romantic, aways crushing in one person or another, a concept Bia doesn't quite understand (how does he move on so easily??). He's a goofball, aways triyng to crack some questionable pun, and being mostly... well, kinda optmistic.

One of Nick's goals is to be the best person he can be... and that to him means being very empathetic and altruist, even if he dosen't feels like being so... wich brings us to his main emotional conflict in the story.

The thing is, Nick does feels some very negative things towards people, but it's just that... it's nicer if he's quiet about it, isn't it? Why bother anyone with his own conplaints, that would be so... selfish! And, well, what if they have a really good reason to being that way he dosen't know? Everyone hides stuff, right? He does, so they must too.

So, he just... internalizes every negative feeling and thoughts to himself. He wants to be a Good Person, very much, even if he feels like a liar sometimes... But that's okay, and, just like his fire powers, won't have any negative consequences if he keeps it quiet, right?!

OH YEAH. Did I mention he has fire powers???

So, a big thing in my story is, a lot of the characters do have powers (I don't know if I'll come up with some alternative name to it, but let's just call tem powers for now)!!! And Nick is one of them!

He does tries to hide it, because his sister told him to, but he still uses his finger tip to warm his coffe every day, to burn little pieces of paper and, more rarely, liting up candles if the lights go off.

That, however, changes when the storie begins, and he start's to unravlle more of the past, his parentes incident, and find out not so pleasantely what those powers actually mean to him. Also, he makes a second friend, Allice!

And, yeah, I think that's most of what I can say about him in one post!! If you have any questions, please, feel free to send, be they lore questions, clarification questions or simply fun questions!

Nick's a little bit alike past me, so he means a lot to me personally, and I hope you guys like him too! I'm planning on writing more scenes, so that you can see him in action.

That's pretty much it for now!! Ty for reading!

[with-the-same-tattoos]

kani kani QUESTION.. how would sirppi and milkweed be like if. they were paired with each others partners?? like milkweed with brahms and sirppi with thomas . how would that go

H-hi anon i.... ily ur so kind to indulge me..........

OK JWJWJWJ. SO I AM ACTUALLY STRGGLING MORE W SIRPPI & Thomas. If i figure it out i might makw a sept post but the dark tones of tcm reboot r like way heavier for Sirppi (i mean, its interesting to put them into a setting like that so i might have to try!!!) W hoytt, especially, being how he is. If Sirppi saw a family like this, they would probably pop and scream at Hoyt and get killed immediately,,, so yeah. But he WOULD adore Thomas so. It's interesting. It might have to be like a "childhood friends" situation tbh- sirppi having known Thomas and having hung out w him a lot, but having moved later on. And then returning. I'll try to think about it!!!

However, they would LOVE. The sawyer family!!!!! Drayton, Nubbins, Bubba, Chop....... they are bad but not sinister and rotten like the Hewitts, yk??? Sirppi would ABSOLUTELY have been Chop & Nubbinses just as weird of a friend who went bonecollecting w them.

But brahms & Milkweed stuff is pretty clear cut, so here r some rambles!!!!

Milkweed as the Heelshire maid

Milkweed is much more a caretaker personality. They WOULD look to babysit, especially since they personally really, really, REALLY wants to have children and a regular family (both due to religious reasons, and their biological inability to have kids tho.... yeah). I see them fitting a mousy house help / maid kinda role in the house in gen!!! They love cleaning organizing and such.

If the Heelshires hired them as a nanny- yeah, they would happily take care of brahms doll.

And I imagine Brahms would be pretty happy with them!!! They might be a little odd looking, not very curvy and such, but they clean, cook, read, listen to music and do everything asked of them VERY studiously. They're polite, meek and have that slight air of innocence/softness that the girls in Brahmses old shitty romance books have.

However, they would be fast to figure out. That Brahms. Is not a doll. They do have kind of a sixth sense (they are... supernatural after all. They would feel the eyes on them, note the strange little events, and more than anything- find their own way into the walls.

Not that they would climb in there. It would be very impolite to climb in someone elses houses walls... but, they would note the spots.

They would catch glimpses of him. In the mirrors as he hurries from hallways, his shadow dissappearring to the top of the stairs. All such stuff.

From Brahmses side it must seem confusing. They do their usual peeking and voyerism, but sometimes Milk seems to look towards where he is like they know.

Now, unlike Sirppi, Milk is much more accepting of violence and such, so the reveal of Brahms could be more similiar to the original movie. W/out breaking the doll and the ex, maybe a house break in?

With burglar beat up and fleeing or smth, Brahms standing heaving w a crowbar at the door, turning back to look at Milk who is clutching at their shirt, nearly cooing smth like "Oh heavens, what a good time to arrive back home mr Heelshire, just at the nick of time when i really needed you"

Essentially, they just seem to pretend like he is a son of the Heelshires who has come back from travels. And Brahms the doll they immediately start calling Junior, and treating it almost like its either Brahms' little brothet or son.

Brahms? Hella confused. But. Hes living w a live in maid who seems to be like SUPER keen on him. Bc hes big n hairy and strong.... so .... yeah........

Essentially I think their daily life would just be this cycle between playing house, playing this weird game, and Absolutely kinda messing w Brahms.

A lot of lingering touches, and Milkweed bashed moving away n apologizing (but keeps getting into Brahms' way purposfully also).

Milk would do a lot of "oh but mr heelshire this is innapropriate.... 😚😚😚😚😚 " qnd thrn just randomly go get water and dissappear for a few hours.

Uhhhh anyways sorry for raamblingm....... im exhausted but this ask also got me so exited tysm ; v ;