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meticulac · 22 hours ago
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Naive Rules to Argumentative Fantastical Play
Roles: director, encounter-controller, adventurer-patrons
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Preparation: Together, write a realm sheet. Record: Realm-name Creation-date player-bylines starting social-groups, one per-player, with: group name general aesthetic three common member traits several common names frequent hazard
Encounter-controller: Define enemy characters in relation to common realm traits and frequent hazards. Director: Mock up introduction, outline, formatted for convenient encounter production.
Adventurer-patrons each have: reserve-deck of character-cards spirit deck for dead and retired characters Character-cards are 3x5 note cards made starting with: character-name player-alias creation date three traits, but each from a different social-group
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Adventuring: Director: Present introduction, passing control to encounter-controller.
Encounter-start: adventurer-patrons without a living party member draw from reserve-deck.
Encounter-controller: Present situations, asking each adventurer-patron in turn for character responses. Players argue over applicability of character traits using Septem-Circumstantiae questions. After all responses, roll any dice to determine party luck, then describe outcomes, including any character deaths. Decide if encounter ends. Once per-encounter per-player: Optionally draw from spirit deck for a trophy-assist style summon.
Director: Observe, produce further encounters for encounter-controller as needed, steer adventure to resolve in one or two sessions.
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Session-end: Record each party member's most memorable success and failure (or death) as timestamped traits. Retire character-cards when almost full.
Feel free to archive this game off-site! I also posted this to Pollowfort, and if reasonably practical, I would like for the Pillowfort post to also be linked directly from the archive, but if that seems like it could be a hassle don't worry about it.
The game was completed fairly early on and is being submitted last-minute mainly because I was holding out for anyone to show interest in doing even one playtest of it, I'll maybe consider just skipping that part next year. I did get some feedback from someone proofreading it though, so that was nice.
Anyway, a quick rundown of the ideas here is that having adventuring players help in filing out information about the realm, and having a specifically designated player serve the role of building out encounters while the other game master actually runs them are both meant to reduce pressure to constantly come up with and keep track of everything in the game.
The argument system sort of goes against that a bit, but ideally it should also just take the desire to rules-lawyer and direct that itself toward storytelling by asking adventurers to philosophically justify why what they're doing should work. It's also a nice excuse to name-drop the ancient Greek version of the Five Ws.
It should also be helped by having every character card act as a log of the most notable story events they were involved in. The card system, where characters are initially made via simple templates and dead characters kept in a spirit deck, are both there to make it so running a game where death comes fast and easy is can run as smoothly and painlessly as possible.
If I could easily fit more stuff in this, I would want to expressly make it so new characters can also take inspiration from one random dead character as one of their traits. I also kind of like the idea of having players each design a deity character who they use to add divine intervention moves to the spirit deck, mainly because having that be a player's main character could further help players feel comfortable playing fast and loose with their mortal underlings.
Incidentally, the process of building the realm together out of whatever aesthetics the players think of first kind of resembles how in the Disney Animated version of Peter Pan (1953), the island of Neverland mainly consists of features that the principal characters used as happy thoughts to fly there. I didn't realize I was working that in at first, but it's incidentally something I've been thinking would be cool to design into a game.
200 Word RPGs 2024
Each November, some people try to write a novel. Others would prefer to do as little writing as possible. For those who wish to challenge their ability to not write, we offer this alternative: producing a complete, playable roleplaying game in two hundred words or fewer.
This is the submission thread for the 2024 event, running from November 1st, 2024 through November 30th, 2024. Submission guidelines can be found in this blog's pinned post, here.
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hopelessc0cksvck3r · 3 days ago
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Hi, p3rvs, I'm back! 18 year old slvt waiting to be used! 🤤 I have quite the extended history on this app. I'm into a lot of things it's more of a question or what I'm NOT into. I like being hurt and used and degraded in general. I'll try to respond to everyone, but I can't lie if you're interesting to me. I'll respond more often. I do send n4d3s. I am looking for mainly men 30s to 50s. In all honesty, I'll talk to anyone, though! Also, anyone please leave something for me to answer or see in my inbox :)
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cxffecoupx · 3 days ago
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love languages: jeon wonwoo
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jeon wonwoo x reader fluff warnings: mentions of food, mentions of being attacked while playing games wc: 651 author's notes: will forever support the gamer!wonwoo agenda. i actually wanna play games with him and seungcheol😔. also, trying to finish posting this series for the '96 line before i change my theme for a winter event (i hope i get done w jihoon's tomorrow.) hope you like it!
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acts of service:-
wonwoo loves silently. he might not always say it out loud (but mind you, he does — he does when he feels like his heart will explode if he doesn't say it) but he expresses it in ways that melts your heart. he shows his love when he kisses you on your forehead when you sleep in on day-offs, before heading to make you breakfast (well, attempting to). he shows his love when he stops you in the middle on your walk to tie your shoelaces, or pulls you across him so he's the one walking towards the road-side. he shows his love by restocking all your favourite candies and drinks and fruits when they're over, or when you're nearing your shark week. it's his love in the way he makes you an album of all the pics of you he's taken while you weren't noticing. he doesn't say it all out, but you can see it in the efforts he puts in for you, and that's more than enough for you.
"we might need to go grocery shopping; we're out of banana milk..." your voice traces off as you open the fridge and notice a tray filled with the item you just mentioned. wonwoo hugs you from the back as he nuzzles into your neck, "i knew you'd say that, so i bought them the other day itself."
quality time:-
another way wonwoo expresses love is by trying to be with you as much as he can. weekends are days for you both to relax together, even if that means you're on the opposite sides of the couch, one reading a book and one watching videos on their phone. he lovingly indulges in your routines — silently accepting his fate when you drag him for skincare, humming songs to keep you company as you clean up the kitchen, massaging your head on wash days. when he's playing games and you're somewhere around, he instinctively pulls you into his lap, saying something along the lines of, "you help me play better." so now you're on his lap, playing with and tugging at his hair while he wins games.
wonwoo silently watches you as you gather a few things and get ready for your bath. you turn around to look at him, "hey, i'm going to take a bath." he smirks before standing up. "mind if i join?"
playing video games together:-
if wonwoo is asked, 'what are the two things he loves the most?' he'd probably reply with 1) games, and 2) you. so even though playing games together comes under quality time, it's so special to wonwoo; it's like his own multiverse of madness. It was a surprise to him, when you'd first told him you were interested. he almost jumped from joy when he actually processed it. from then on, it was a joint project to help you clear the levels; sometimes he wouldn't even let you play because 'its too difficult, I'll do this for you.' always plays on your team because he wants to be there for you when you need help, but once he understood that you're good on your own, you started competing against each other (you winning over him ended up turning him on, and you had to deal with it, but that's a story for another time). he also gives your characters names that match with his — GAM3 BO1 and GAM3 G1RL (will get ready to physically fight anyone who's already taken the name).
"wonwoo!! i'm being attacked!" you yell at the top of your voice. wonwoo rushes his character over to where you were getting attacked and uses his special skill, the shield (one he bought especially for you), to help you regain health and get into form. but just as you begin to play, wonwoo says: "i'll complete this level for you, love. you just sit back and look pretty."
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cuubism · 1 year ago
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hello friends. despite my 9 million existing dreamling wips i'm feeling the need to branch out a bit for the sake of my mental variety. what pairing other than dreamling should i write a little something for? could be romantic or platonic
other way of phrasing i guess: any pairings you really want to see more fics for in the fandom?
#i actually do have one someone asked me for ages ago i've been meaning to get to so i'll try to do that too#bonus points if it still involves dream bc you know i love dream XD#probably wont do any romantic pairings /between/ the endless because well yeah#but open to exploring pretty much anything else... feel free to send whatever if you want. dont worry about if i'll like it#if i can't vibe with it or find it uncomfy i just won't write it no harm no foul#not me soliciting little prompts fully knowing that motivation is a fickle beast and who knows if i would get to writing them XD i want#to though! or like. idk. if anyone wants to share headcanons about their favorite pairings i am happy to receive them#the sandman#a couple that are bouncing around my head already:#rose meeting desire. this could be really interesting i think (they are of course her grandparent)#calliope and lucienne post-calliope's imprisonment: i think their dynamic could be interesting since they both have/had close relationships#with dream. but of course calliope's relationship with him fell apart. i think lucienne with whatever context of it she had would probably#be sympathetic to calliope's perspective but still staunchly On Dream's Side so the speak bc she is ultimately very loyal to him... could b#an interesting convo.#additionally - calliope and johanna. both suffered things recently. both had curious interactions with dream where they recently saw both#his vicious side AND a kinder more understanding side of him... [dream gave rachel a peaceful death at johanna's request etc]#but they've come out of their suffering really differently (granted it was different types of suffering. but)#wow here i am asking for people's ideas and then just coming up with my own XD#anyway#wait two others: i'm fascinated by the potential dynamic of lucienne and the corinthian they only had like one short scene together in the#show but can you imagine. spending eons being loyal to dream and then going opposite directions with that loyalty. being among dream's inne#circle so to speak except lucienne is her own entity while corinthian was /created/ by dream. they have the most fascinating venn diagram o#personality traits and narrative positions...#secondly. and this is kind of crack. but like. imagine johanna and corinthian in the same room XD 'hi i'm an exorcist and this is my pet#serial killer' 'yeah my lord gave me a vacation to go kill some demons' why doesn't he try to kill johanna? bc she tried to destroy him#first time they met and he can't help but respect it XD
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teaguehq · 18 hours ago
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No, I get that because it's hard to reach out about these things sometimes! Though I feel like I've gotten better about that as I've gotten older, too. Which is a good reminder too, that the people who love us aren't bothered by us needing extra support. Of course, and we can't have enough support from people who understand that headspace, so why not help each other, right? And friends help each other! I can imagine, Jo's a hugely popular character, and so is that film! You played her beautifully. I appreciate the kudos, and he was certainly an interesting character to play for sure, though at least now I know better not to live in that headspace for filming rather than balancing it with other things, because my headspace was so messy because of him, and that lasted a while. I don't regret anything though when I'm happy for the way the show turned out. That makes me laugh so much though, because who'd forget Ireland is an island?! That's a bit like people being shocked I lived around beaches since I grew up in Florida. And I try to head back to Florida when possible since my parents still live there, and they'd protest if I stayed away too long! Please do tell me the best places since we can't have too many vacation places up our sleeves, especially between projects to unwind some. Thankfully my boyfriend's more kind than that, though he'd definitely be amused if that were happening and I were still walking and acting like an ape, which I couldn't blame him for! Everything about that was so much fun, just being on a playground every day where we acted like apes. I feel like my kid self would be so proud I got to do something like that. Are your parents good about not talking about your projects though? I always want to tell mine details about my projects too, but if I've been threatened on secrecy, I don't tend to tell them as much for being paranoid they may let something slip to a friend or the like. Though I'll tell my boyfriend since he's in the business and knows it's important not to say anything. I will, and I'd love to hear all about Bad Apples then! Well, I'm currently on set in Calgary, though I wouldn't make anyone show up with a cheerleading outfit given this weather right now! | @saoirseur
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it really is rough -- and honestly, i'm someone that doesn't like to bring others down, so i'll internalize everything, which i know isn't at all healthy! and you're very right about that, when you're in that darker headspace, it's easy to think the worst and just assume you'll be a bother, even though deep down you're not. not a single person that cares about you would feel that way. which is sweet of you to say, and you know i'd offer up the same to you as well. i like the idea of us looking out for each other on that front, we'll be good friends for that! right?  like when i got cast as jo, i was over the moon -- and thank you for saying you loved my jo, that means a lot. i'll admit that i've watched some films and have always wondered what it would be like to go that dark, but i still couldn't imagine myself doing that, you know? so i'm giving you all the kudos for playing harold and having to dive into his character like you did. and i can only imagine how easy it is to fall into that sort of headspace! i am pretty lucky, and it makes me laugh when i tell people i live on the beach in ireland and they're shocked, like they've forgotten that ireland is an island. i can imagine missing gorgeous beaches while you're in new york, do you get to go back to where you grew up a lot to visit beaches there at least? please, if you ever want to come to ireland for a vacation, let me know and i'll tell you the best places to stay! i'm glad you're doing well being a human, though i would laugh if your boyfriend wasn't telling you that you were walking like an ape randomly. however, i feel like he'd probably be a good boyfriend that would give you a heads up! i can just imagine how much fun playing with those ape arms was, though -- and working with them, of course! it really is, and my parents are who i always want to blab to first when i start a new project. and in my head, i'm like, they're not in the industry, who they going to tell? but yes, as soon as you can tell me anything about your new projects, please share them with me! though i can finally talk about my project, bad apples, that i've just finished filming! and thank you, i figured i needed the best outfit to be your cheerleader, so next time you're on a set, let me know and i'll show up. || @teaguehq
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beesorcery · 8 months ago
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hello it's part 3 of 3 for my cool fun graphic design adventure!! part 1 and part 2 got too long. to recap i am recreating this t-shirt design but with the magic 8 ball songs instead of city names:
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here is the current draft, updated through 3/27 (pittsburgh) (!!!!)
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kakusu-shipping · 2 months ago
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I may have spent more money than I made at Regionals.
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pine-arten · 2 years ago
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i spent all yesterday making a semi-realistic slugcat base. i used sphinx cats as a reference, so they’re pretty cat like here
 i imagine they hold themselves different than an actual cat though, plus more robust shoulders for bipedal-ism
this is the survivor btw :) i think i’ll do monk next
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fabdante · 5 months ago
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WIP Game!
Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
Tagged by: @robinainthood (thank you so much I've been wanting to do another one of these since the first one I did and I just got my laptop back so perfect timing! Check out their WIPS here!!)
Fiction
The One Were Kat Gets To Yell At Vergil (DmC)
Catharsis for Someone (TF2)
Retrospect (Samurai Champloo)
Swan Song (DmC)
Tales of Ba Sing Se redux (ATLA/Zutara)
The Mai/Jet dream captivated me (Atla/Mai and Jet)
The Jet Bit (ATLA/Zutara)
The really long Zelda Fic (LoZ/Zelgan)
Playlist for a Three-way with Eve, Lilith, and the Serpent (this is an original poem?)
A bug flew into my ear (this is also an original poem??)
ATLA Champloo (ATLA fic inspired by Samurai Champloo my beloved)
Gweoff Fic 2 Lmao: The Hair Dying One (Total Drama)
The One You Thought of in the Shower Where Snow gets Stuck in a Time Loop (Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes??)
The One where Kat needs to tell Vergil's Parents that he may or may not be dead and may or may not be king of hell also that their sons been a super natural being this whole time an-it's awkward (DmC)
Zutara Playlist Fic (ATLA/Zutara)
A Zelgan Fic I Started Editing About Bath Houses That I May Never Post (LoZ)
the one where Dante wakes up to his hook up cleaning his trailer for no reason and it's weird but she's cute so its fine probably (DmC)
Meta
Eva, Sparda, and the boys
Verat and The Divine
V is Kat theory and some thoughts on Downfall
My Long Running Desire For A Good Samurai Champloo Essay (this is actually 4 separate WIPs so if you want to get real spicy you can specify between: Take 3, An attempt at a conclusion, some points on Journey as Growth, Another misc unit of paragraphs)
Essay no one asked for on spiderverse and grief mostly because I'm obsessed with the black out kingpin causes
Essay no one asked for about why Channel Zero upset me
Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes Meta Post Roulette (i have like 3 of these on the same subject you're just going to get a random part of one of them)
Fics I Answered For Last Time But Am Still Writing
the lost boy fic im still writing because i got angry (Lost Boys) (the bit of WIP i posted last time)
Tagging: Not a person for every WIP I apologize sdfghjk but if you want to do it please tag me I want to see your wips!! Also tagging @thevampireauthoress @ro-blaze @mocosa-media
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canary-song · 1 year ago
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This is definitely a minority opinion, but I personally find it more fun to depict the Spider God as a bit less involved, or at the least not actively malicious with her treatment of Peter.
(short explanation below the cut)
Peter being the most active participant in his actions and the way his story goes is pretty essential to my characterization of him, as it follows that he's willing to be Spiderman because he thinks he can help people (or stop others from hurting people). It also adds that it's not the Spider God forcing his inevitable mental health decline, and that its Peter's own poor consideration of himself that's making him so isolative. Just as much as he's active in trying to save people, Peters also actively harming himself in the process, rather than just being at the whims of some higher power.
Furthermore, for a less Deep Reason, I just find the concept of not-actively-malicious but still harmful deity-like entities fun to write. She's not trying to make him a puppet, she's just following along holding to his story like a life-raft while her grasp over this reality is narratively slipping. He's highly motivated and determined to keep going, which makes him perfect for the perpetuation of her presence. She doesn't want full control, but he's her tether, so perhaps she pushes him just a bit to pull the trigger that first time, or she gets him out of bullet fire.
Maybe she doesn't realize any of this could be construed as overstepping or evil because she's not human. She doesn't understand - she just knows what she needs to do to keep going (and of course we can't understand her; her existence is beyond us). But she's still not calling all the shots.
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phioneplatinum · 6 months ago
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some harmoknight headcanons i have!! this isn't all of them, but here's some for lyra and tempo!!
Lyra
Lives in Symphony City, near the exit close to Calypso Beach and the Tori Gate.
Ever since she was younger, she always wanted to protect the people she cared for most. This was her main drive to eventually become a soldier of Melodia.
She mainly patrolled Calypso Beach before the Noizoids struck, but after they did, she found herself patrolling Rock Range and Marching Hills more.
She sometimes gets into small fights with Tyko, but thankfully they simmer down before they get any worse…
Has a weakness for sweets.
Tempo
Doesn't like talking much. However, he feels comfortable talking to Woodwin and Tappy. Maybe if enough time passes, the same will go for Lyra, Tyko, Cymbi, and Ariana...?
Has a big Allegro plush in his room thanks to Octarina. Sometimes, he's even seen sleeping while hugging the thing…
Sees his mentor as a [grand]father figure of sorts.
He visits his friends quite often! Sometimes they all get together in his house to have fun :D
Can be seen drawing sometimes. His art isn't the greatest, but they're charming enough to make you smile!
Despite saving the world, he still does training. Can't have his skills growing rusty!
Doesn't like going to Baroque Volcano. You know why.
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infinitelystrangemachinex · 7 months ago
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Come on, you know you want to, give us the character bingo for Viktor.
don't mind if i doooo
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#ask me#okay there's a lot going on here but first things first#viktor has transcended the favorite character tier where I want to protect him or whatever#like yeah he did that shit! I support him but I also don't! the more trouble he gets himself into the happier I'll be!#do you feel me#like one of the things I love most about Viktor is that I feel so much sympathy for the circumstances he's in that are out of his control#but he has so much agency in his own story that everything he's gained and accomplished are because he makes choices#and GETS HIMSELF places#and now the same thing is happening with his BAD choices and I find that just as delightful if not moreso#he is the agent of his own salvation and his own destruction and I will be in the front row seat with popcorn for both or either#so writing him is mostly me studying him under the microscope poking him until he does something untoward it's very fun#I only hesitantly say that Viktor is like me but the Balkan ties and the grumpy-but-kind and obsessive personality#and the strong opinions about a chosen STEM field#are inescapable okay#mommy issues is not circled because I have mommy issues but bc I have convinced myself that Viktor WILL have them#if Nikola Tesla is anything to go by#the jayce-mel-viktor trifecta is ruled by mommy issues and i will stand by that claim#also viktor is more interesting with no therapy - with as little therapy as possible would be my preference#WITH THE EXCEPTION of the lonely genius shit that Singed planted in his head#that is absolutely the lie that Viktor believes that he MUST discard in order to progress as a character and I am excited for it#I genuinely think that Viktor will be happier and more eccentric as [REDACTED] but it won't last#he will hit a VERY LITERAL -if thy right hand offend thee cut it off- situation and then he'll have peace but he won't call it happiness#I can't say that I'd hate anyone who hurt him because that is half of why I'm excited for s2#but I will probably lose it at any scene where he loses to [REDACTED] for rivalry reasons#I genuinely do want to see Mel completely own his ass as [REDACTED] though like can you imagine the banter#and both of them secretly having fun with it
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silverselfshippingchaos · 7 hours ago
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I had a dream where a 3rd J.udgment game was announced and M.ine showed up for one split second in the reveal trailer with this super hot evil smirk on his face and Twitter was going batshit crazy over it
Then I woke up and got really disappointed
#ash rambles 💚#you were beautiful 💸#it's like also 6:30am rn#i jolted awake and ran to check twitter just in case something important happened in the y.akuza fandom#but nope. it didnt. at all. now I'm disappointed. and sleepy...#goodnight!!!!#hmm what else is going on in my life..? uhhh. I've got a massive final paper due tomorrow! i should... probably start that haha#I've got this other group project that i don't feel motivated to work on anymore because my group member (absolutely unsolicited)#popped into my DMs and was like 'hey here are some suggestions for your paper' and the comments were just mean as fuck#like what the fuck man. what the actual fuck?? this group member is also like two decades older than me-#but thats alright I'll do it eventually (also because I'm graded on how my group members review me and... if this little bitch gives me a#bad review and fucks up my chances at getting a 4.0 in every class this quarter...........)#hmmmm what else#I've been playing y.akuza 5! i just got to the hunting part. I'm bored. when does this shit get good?#oh and i've been rewatching f.airy t.ail when i have the time#and m.onster too because.. um.... dr. t.enma 👉🏽👈🏽#oh nooo (fake cough) I'm sickkk i need a doctor hahaha preferably a really hot one with a super nice voice and beautiful smile and-#and that's about it for my life updates ajdjshdjaj at least all that I'm comfortable sharing here#I'm still mad about my dream though#like. I'd be fine even if m.ine didnt show up again. maybe he survived and him and ash just decided to disappear off the grid together#but. I WANT THAT THIRD J.UDGMENT GAME#PLEAAASEEE#OH OH!!! ONE MORE UPDATE!!!!#i made a bad financial decision on black friday and now.. once my package arrives... I'LL HAVE EVERY MAINLINE Y.AKUZA GAME IN MY GRASP!!!#I AM SO POWERFULLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I also bought s.oul hackers 2 bcs it looked interesting. anyone here like it?#hmmm I'm going back to sleep#gn#honk shoo mi mi mi mi
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udog · 1 year ago
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I absolutely adore how you draw rito and especially Revali! I still can’t get enough of him no matter how much time has passed. I know it’s been a while since you last posted—be it because of life or art block, or both—but I still will offer you my sincerest gratification for the artwork you have deemed worthy enough for us to see! I hope the Rito in Tears of the Kingdom provide us with the same kind of “inspiration” (brain-rot) as in BotW. Even if Revali probably doesn’t make a big appearance; and possibly even Harth as well 😩
this was 😭 so nice to come back to HWUEUFHEJEEHEB THANK YOU 🥹 revali may not be in totk but hey at least harth is ‼️‼️ I have. bigger issues with another particular rito that isn't in totk though 😒
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sorry all I could provide was a messy sketch ‼️ idk it probably has to do with reagan 🤥
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medicinemane · 7 months ago
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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better#forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood#I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself#by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good#everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice#but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care#not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening#it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me#I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet#and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information#but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived#that's where I'm totally blind#people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking#and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed#and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden#but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters#and I do not#I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to#and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well...#and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this#but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off#not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out#and a scrap of company#but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do#sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past#there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done#I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to#no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to#certainly let them talk about them when they want#...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing
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jack-crow-lantern · 5 months ago
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Today when I was out and about, I stopped in the middle of my tracks and thought to myself "I don't look very punk rock, do I?" I saw two rad looking people and was like "wow, do I look friend-shaped enough?" One of them was goth and the other was a punk leaning towards emo.
Sometimes I just think about wearing a huge "queers welcome (I am one)" sign.
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