#i'll delete this later i'm just stressed

[all-pacas]

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[call-me-copycat]

I just need to be told "You Can Do It" right now.

[crowfromfoggyforest]

Did almost none of the fun stuff i could have done all evening because i had a Task to do. Naturally, i didn't do the Task either.

[flagsontheland]

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[mypeggableromance]

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[hyacinthsdiamonds]

Seeing the same people who perpetuated or sent vicious misogynistic hate to Hannah Schmitz, as well as disgusting racist abuse towards Yuki and Alex because of FUCKING CONSPIRACY THEORIES and those who just straight up ignored it, now up in arms regarding whatever the fuck is going on between the FIA and the wolffs is beginning to piss me off. Because now that it's not someone red bull affiliated involved, it's somehow now unacceptable.

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

this is mostly in jest but heads up i might not post official art besides small doodles for a while because my drafts ran out and these past two weeks have genuinely been destroying my mental health so I don't have the capacity to do anything seriously art-related right now

[hissterical-nyaan]

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[carbonateddelusion]

sits here. my mood has been swinging back and forth like a pendulum lately

[runawaymun]

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[asrielpearlart]

Sorry, no Halloween piece this year.

[lady-harrowhark]

my mom just texted me and was like "did [your sisters] tell you that they're going to paris later this week?"

and of course i told her that no, they did not tell me that, because they don't really talk to me, and she was just like "okay. also your dad and i are going to florida at the end of the month."

thanks for letting me know, i love hearing about all the family vacations that i'm not invited to

to be fair, i would not want to travel with my youngest sister and it wouldn't have worked with my schedule or finances. and they've taken several other trips together that i haven't been invited on, so that part's not new or anything, but still.

i'm also feeling kind of touchy about it all because i was just thinking earlier about how much i've straight up stopped telling my family because they either don't care or don't get it. like. they don't know that this morning i turned in a first author textbook chapter. or that i just set up my dissertation committee. or that yesterday the faculty made me assistant director of the university clinic. like i could tell them but honestly, most of the time them not knowing feels better than getting the flat "sounds cool."

[thedaythealienscame]

yeah, if you're really friends then a confession won't change anything whateverrr but. what if it does.

[justashamwithwastedpotential]

Rotating Lance in my mind to Maxwell the Cat

[cerbreus]

it’s been a hellish last couple months dealing with being caught in the crossfire between incompetent rental car agency that is mad at me and incompetent car insurance company that didn’t tell me the person handling my claim fucking QUIT and MY CLAIM WENT FORGOTTEN FOR MONTHS and it still isn’t resolved in fact things have gotten worse and tbh, when i have major stressful setbacks in life, my body and brains’ response is to just. not. do anything. just shut down. intense fatigue, inability to focus on literally anything because the background level of stress is so high.

[robinsnest2111]

reasons I need therapy asap:

simply waking up and knowing my parents are just a room away at any given time in this house always kills my motivation to get up and be alive, no exceptions. and that's not normal or healthy for me.