#i'd like to retract those statements please

[luckythereviewer]

So, update for Chapter 17, I'm having to rethink the rest of the chapter due to rewatching the scene that I was planning to change and realizing that Leo not only comes off as trying to manipulate Hakuno, who is in a very emotional state after the fight with Alice, and take advantage of Hakuno's lack of memories (though that second part is up in the air if he's actually aware or not) but outright says he and the rest of the Western European Plutocracy view the populations in the Asian region of the Fate Extra world as "expendable". The stuff you, on a first playthrough, just end up glancing over and not taking in the full realization of what is being said is funny sometimes.

Welp, already got a good start on Chapter 17. First scene of the chapter is finished and already got the second scene's initial start ready to go for tomorrow (though later today as of me writing this post because time zones are fun) Though, as I was wrapping up, I had an idea for a funny scene waay later once we get into the Extella stuff in regards to some stuff I'll be introducing for E!Rin in the next chapter. Won't spoil anything but very much enjoying that idea that will likely just be a short one off chapter inbetween Extella and Link's stories.

[hirazuki]

To whoever made the creative decision for Aizen's characterization this season: Congrats, you've achieved the impossible. You've managed to turn me into an Aizen girlie.

[madelynhimegami]

Rulue Guide

This is the next, Rulue the Queen of Martial Arts:

Rulue is relentless. She does not give up and she does not back down in getting what she's after.

She's shown to be cordial (if on the haughty side) when not being competitive or immediately after something

Rulue really does consider Arle to be a dear friend, though she is often not inclined to admit it

Amitie is the only one she's explicitly said as much to

Because of this, Rulue needs no prompting to help Arle if she has reason to believe she's in trouble (or sick)

Her favorite excuse for showing concern for Arle is that she wants her to be at full strength when she overcomes her

It's about proving her strength and maintaining her honor! So she says.

Rulue's relationship with Schezo has a solid foundation of mutual respect, and often train together. They will both deny being friends.

Rulue is probably very slightly more likely to consider Schezo a friend than vice-versa. But that says more about Schezo than Rulue.

Schezo finds her strength terrifying (positive) (negative)

Rulue is proud. She doesn't take advantage of people, refuses to lie to get ahead, and will never break a promise.

She's can be an extremely sore loser, though.

Satan's involvement in a given situation is the number one cause of Rulue compromising on her more positive traits.

Clinginess, jealousy, pettiness, selective perception, and reduced self-awareness are most commonly seen in such circumstances.

Once, Ally (being Ally) expressed a desire to fall as deeply in love with Satan as Rulue has. Rulue responded with a quiet but seething anger that promised hands would be thrown if Ally didn't retract her statement.

Ally complied, and declared that no one loved Satan as much as Rulue. She had Ally repeat the statement multiple times before she was satisfied enough to let the matter go.

She has no magic ability and will freely admit to not knowing anything about it, beyond what she's seen her friends do with it

Rulue can and will punch through multiple walls in rapid succession.

When it comes to physical feats, be they strength or endurance, the question is less "can Rulue" and more "how long does it take for Rulue"

She's perceptive enough to see through most superficiality in others, particularly where it concerns their true strength.

This includes Satan. She's well aware that his silliness, drama queen behavior, and presumed weakness is theater.

She's the one that witnessed Satan declaring that he'll give Carbuncle to the one he loves. That's the main reason she doesn't seem to realize that Satan's flirtations with Arle are also part of his theater, and why she still believes she's competing with Arle for his affection.

…Which, in turn, is why she spent most of Puzzle Pop driving herself nuts trying to figure out if there was something her personality lacked in currying Satan's favor

Speaking of, Rulue does not actually think Lidelle is pathetic, that was a mistranslation. She was actually wondering if being more demure would have Satan feel more protective of her.

She holds no respect for those that act submissively. Arle angrily pointing out that she had draped herself onto a submissive and easy-to-please image of Satan was what got her to break her illusion in the book Everyone's Dreams Coming True?!

Additionally, she detests mediocrity, both in herself and those she cares about.

This is more of a headcanon, but I think between the above and the events of Tetris 1, Rulue concluded she was being mind controlled too often and trained to resist it.

As a result, in Tetris 2 she resisted Marle's corruption and is never forced to act out of character by Meena in Puzzle Pop (she says she feels pulled in a direction, but maintains her self-awareness)

We haven't really seen much of Minotauros since Compile died, but I'd like to imagine Rulue does care about him, but also knows he can take care of himself.

But his servile position means Rulue has no real interest in reciprocating his feelings.

Rulue considers herself the pinnacle of femininity, and as far as she's concerned, her physical prowess serves as evidence of that.

Most humanoid characters do, in fact, acknowledge her as beautiful.

[dumplingsjinson]

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I’ll link the survey here, as well as her introduction, which I’ve copied and pasted, just so you can have a brief summary of what this is about.

Thanks so much for your time! ❤️

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[aemiron-main]

I think a lot of the issues people have with your Henry theories is that you so strongly believe in them (which is great! We all should believe in our own theories otherwise what’s the point lol) but then you and the other theorists so firmly believe that it’s canon and that everything you say is 100% truth and every single detail you’ve discovered is all gonna come out in s5 and anyone who either a) doesn’t believe in these theories or b) doesn’t understand/doesn’t see it is so stupid bc to you it’s like duh it’s obvious! And you’ve ‘cracked the code!’ or whatever and that comes across as rude and snobby to some and I think that’s where you lose a lot of people instead of gaining people to believe in your ideas too.

Sorry if this sounds really rude! I’m just trying to throw an outside perspective on it lmao.

Anon, I get what you're saying but here's the thing. I don't fully believe that. I don't fully believe that everything I say is gospel. I have repeatedly, publicly, retracted posts and said "I WAS WRONG!!!" when I notice something that isn't accurate. I am already WELL aware that some things aren't going to be in S5 and that I'm wrong about some things. But the stuff I feel strongly that I'm right about, I'm passionate about! Maybe I'd be less "rude" about it/veer less into "it's 100% right" territory if I didn't have people constantly telling me that it's 100% wrong even when it comes down to things that are literally confirmed by ST production. I also don't think that people who don't understand are stupid, so let's please be very clear about that. What I think is stupid is when people criticize posts without even TRYING to read them or ask for clarification. I think not even making an ATTEMPT to understand is stupid. I think that assuming that you know better than the ST production team themselves & what they've said about their work because you went to ~film school~ is stupid. The stuff that I think is obvious is when I've taken the time to lay things out repeatedly for certain people, and not just things that are up for interpretation but things that are STONE COLD FACT from the mouths of ST production themselves about their costuming and VFX work and people still act like their personal opinion overrides those facts.

I don't think people are dumb for not seeing things- I think they're dumb for not even being willing to try and look because they've already made their own biased judgements. I DO think people are stupid for posting about how Henry's inherently evil and how anyone who believes otherwise is crazy/stupid, especially when theyre unwilling to even consider the other side of things.

I absolutely agree that everyone should believe in their theories too- and I think that people should also be open to changing their beliefs when presented with new evidence. But for the majority of my stuff, I have yet to be presented with compelling evidence contradicting it that doesnt just boil down to "oh it's a production error".

And me being EXCITED about things isn't me trying to be snobby. I've literally posted about "cracking this code" or whatever and then retracted the post 5 minutes later because I found evidence that contradicted it. Most of the time I'm just being dramatic in that regard. And I also word my posts like essays with a thesis statement- so even when I'm not actually 100% sure if something's going to be canon, I word it as if it is because I'm trying to make the point about how it would be canon/again, writing it like a persuasive essay.

But when I'm not just being dramatic, I'm usually responding to a ton of vagueposts or unposted anons about how I'm a dipshit pedophile apologist and how everything in this show is a production error, and THAT is when the frustration comes into play. I AM very passionate when I believe I'm right about something and that I have the evidence to back it up, No need to apologize! I appreciate the perspective but I also don't see a need to censor myself & my excitement because people might think it's rude. Personally, I think the constant vagueposting and throwing the word pedophile around simply for analyzing a tv show is pretty rude. I hope this clears things up. I spent a long time on here watering down my posts with "well i might be wrong BUT" and I'm not doing that anymore because I'd hope that people would use their brains and understand that I'm just Some Guy and my posts are just My Analysis Based On The Evidence We Have. People don't have to listen to me. I don't care if they do. What frustrates me/when I do care is when it comes down to people dragging me for things I'm not even saying (such as acting like I'm saying that even if Henry did all those things, It's Totally Fine and Okay). I think EVERYONE should post their opinions firmly and strongly, and still be willing to change their opinions. I post my opinions firmly because I'm not afraid of being wrong- if I was afraid of being wrong I'd preface every post with "oh this might be wrong however-". But I'm not afraid of being wrong. I just move onto the next thing/next piece of evidence when I am. Sorry for being passionate about a subject I guess???? No yknow what I'm not sorry!!!!

[capyphoenix]

The thing is if there were a blurry spec like that about Max I'd like to believe I can tell if it's him or not. But in this situation if the shadow isn't him that doesn't mean he wasn't there this weekend. I'm sure his bestie and his "Carlos hookup" girlfriend will let us know soon///

I’m sorry I’m a little lost can someone please explain what is going on?

Thanks! ☺️ and I’m sorry Capy if this is too obvious

The first time the F1 gossip world has hear about Pietra (I hate those two literally are Max and P lol) was when a Brazilian commentator exposed a little vacation with Brazilian ladies after the Brazil GP. Problem was Carlos was still dating Isa and Ferrari PR had all gossip accounts that uploaded and translated the video from FP1 erased by the time FP2 started. And the commentator was pressured to retract his statement. "He must have misunderstood what his son who was there with them told him" 💀

I always had the theory that the gossip account that posted it Fofoca Paddock that was suspended that day was the first try by the now big Brazilian page.

[howlingday]

Yang: What's up, everybody? My name is Yang Xiao Long and I am your host tonight of Light Me Up, where we have some sexy singles looking for a match to light! Don't worry, we'll let you know when it gets too hot. Now, introducing our contestant tonight, Jaune Arc is a 20 year old sensitive sort from Ansel, whose hobbies include practicing HEMA, which is some kind of knight larp thing, and practicing on his guitar. How you feeling tonight, Jaune?

Jaune: Uh, pretty good. I'd just like to shout out to my friends and family watching at home. Hey, guys!

Mama Arc: Oh, there he is! Hello, honey!

Papa Arc: (Chuckles) And you said this was a bad idea.

Yang: Well, Jaune, if you don't mind me asking, why are you still single? You seem pretty handsome.

Jaune: Well, I guess I'm a little shy, and I'm just waiting for the right girl.

Yang: Ah, to be 22 again.

Jaune: Aren't you also 20?

Yang: And you just might meet that special someone tonight! Here are our lucky bachelorettes! Contestant number one's name is Pyrrha! Pyrrha is an athlete from Argus, who's hobbies include dancing and working out at the gym. Say hi, Pyrrha!

Pyrrha: Hello!

Yang: Our next lucky lady is Weiss is a 20 year old performer from Atlas, and her hobbies include singing, reading, and quiet thinking. Pretty chilly up there, eh, Weiss?

Weiss: Indeed.

Yang: I'll bet, I'll bet! And last, but not least is Ruby, our final bachelorette, an 18 year old Patch gunsmith whose hobbies include marksmanship, gun-cleaning, and reading romance novels. Ruby, how you liking Vale?

Ruby: (Nervous) Blue. Wait, no, uh-

Yang: Alright, now let's start the game! Jaune, we've given you a stack of index cards with questions for you to ask these lovely maidens. Go ahead and start whenever you're ready.

Jaune: Uh, okay... Bachelorette number one, if you were a hammer, how would I use you?

Pyrrha: Hm... You could... use me to fuck yourself. Like, really fuck the shit out of you. Just take me out of your toolbox, and use me fuck you. Like, all night long. I want to fuck you so hard.

Jaune: (Wide-eyed, Audience oohs)

Yang: Ooh, spicy~!

Mama Arc: ...What did she say?

Papa Arc: I retract my previous statement.

Yang: Bachelorette number two, same question!

Weiss: Hm, if I were a hammer? Well, I would be a high quality sort of hammer, so my answer is I want you to rail me hard from behind. Just bend me over and pound my slutty holes until you're spent with no regard for my well-being. Then maybe just shove your cock down my throat for good measure.

Jaune: (Blushing hard, Covers his mouth)

Yang: (Audience oohs, Chuckles) Looks like things are really heating up! So, Jaune, what do you think about that?

Jaune: I... I don't know.

Yang: Well, let's change things up a bit. Go ahead and read the next question for bachelorette number three.

Jaune: (Gulps, Exhales) Bachelorette number three, I'm a really big fan of soccer. If I won a game, where would you take me?

Ruby: ...I want to choke myself on your cock. I want you to just grab my face and fuck it until you unload everything down my throat.

Yang: Fantastic, Ruby! Just fantastic! Okay, Jaune; new question for number one.

Jaune: Bachelorette number one, I am very cautious about bringing girls home to Mom. Tell me, how would you introduce yourself to my mother?

Mama Arc: Those girls are not setting one foot inside this house.

Papa: Dear, please don't sit so close to the TV.

Pyrrha: I just want to rip your pants off and ride you inside my ass. Up the stairs. Down the stairs. In the garage. Everywhere, inside my asshole. I want the entire house to smell of our sweat, cum, and the nasty shit that comes out of my destroyed rectum.

Yang: Whoa! Look out! Bachelorette number two, same question.

Weiss: Meeting with your mother is an incredibly big step in a relationship, so careful thought is required for this task. That said, I want to drown you in my pussy juice. Just smother your breathing with my sopping wet cunt juices while you tongue punch me until I'm hoarse from screaming, and you shit from cumming so hard.

Yang: Haha! What a crazy selection we have here tonight! Jaune, let's roll in a new question for number three.

Jaune: (Huffs) Bachelorette number three, without talking about sex, what would we have in common?

Ruby: Please fuck me! I will pay you whatever you want! I am so fucking horny, this seat is already ruined from my wetness. And that goes for the audience, too! If anyone is interested, I will pay you money for you to fuck me, and fuck me hard!

Yang: (Audience cheers, Laughs)

[sunarc]

Hai!! i just discovered your account and i have been reading all your posts!! their so good!! 😍🥰Can i please request the underrated Futakuchi?🙏🥺 i luv him so much. How they make up to their s/o after they had a very heated argument. With Futakuchi, Sugawara. Kageyama and Akaashi. Thank youuu! 😌Angst to fluff i can't take it if its only angst! Please and Thank you!

Heated Arguments

A/N: I'm sorry this took so long but anon I really hope you like this!! I didn't add Akaashi in this because it was getting kind of long but if you want another part with Akaashi and some other characters I'd be happy to write it. I really hope you enjoy this love.

Futakuchi

➳ Futakuchi doesn’t realize the harm that he’s done until he sees you walking out the door and all he wants to do is hold you in his arms

➳His mind runs wild thinking of ways to make it all better, all he really wants is for you to be back by his side

➳He doesn’t want to lose you, he’d fight until the end of the world to keep you, he’s said a million times over before “ I’d lose my world if I lost you”

You sighed a defeated sigh staring at the ground almost preparing yourself to walk out the door. It had been constant yelling back and forth between the two of you since you had arrived home and it seemed to be going nowhere. You turned your head looking away fearing the words that were threatening to spill past your lips. Futakuchi stared at you breathing heavily expecting you to yell back words that you knew would go in one ear and out the other.

“Kenji…” you started voice shaking violently “ I think we should-”

“No” he cut you off before you could finish the sentence, refusing to hear the rest. “No , no don’t you dare finish that sentence”

Tears spilled freely past his eyes as he spoke.

“All we’ve done lately is argue… I’m just so... tired.” you said defeated

“It’s what you do!” he yelled “ when you love someone .. you argue, you yell and you cry and you argue some more because you want the best for each other… and sometimes you say things you don't mean but that doesn’t mean that you don't care, but you never give up on each other.” His feet led his body closer to you as he stood in front of you staring, desperate to grab your hand but afraid to touch you as if fearing that you would break. “

"Because giving up would be like… like saying you didn’t love the other person any more” Futakuchi pulled his strength together and reached for your hand.

“Like saying you didn’t love me anymore” his voice was soft as it came out broken.

“I do love you,” you started and pulled him in, hugging him tight. “ I love you more than anything”

Those sweet words seemed to unlock the breath that Futakuchi didn’t realize he had been holding.

“Please don’t leave me you know you're my world” he held you tight refusing to let go.

“Ill never leave , I promise”

Sugawara

➳ Sugawara can’t even look at you, seeing the way you cry because of his words almost rips his heart into two

➳ He hates arguments with you, he gets so afraid that you’ll walk out one day and you won’t come back

➳His heart practically aches seeing you so broken because of him he can’t bear the sight and all he wants to do is fix it.

You pace back and forth words laced with venom spilling from your mouth as you yelled at Sugawara over something the both of you had completely forgotten about. Your heart hammered in your chest as you rambled on words that you didn’t recognize to be your own.

“It’s so stressful being with you”

Your movements stilled and it seemed the world stopped spinning, trees stopped growing, water stopped running. Sugawara’s words came out in almost a mumble but when they breezed past his lips it sounded so clear and unmistakable.

“What?” your voice came out broken and soft, you heard what he said loud and clear but you needed to hear him say it again unsure of why

“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that” he retracted his statement as soon as the words slipped past his lips.

“Being with me is stressful to you?” your words came out as broken cries instead of the strong confident voice you were aiming for. Tears streamed down your face as a painful realization came crashing down on you.

“It’s not I was angry I-”

“Suga stop” your two words silenced him within seconds.

You stood silently looking anywhere but at the man in front of you. Sugawara felt like he was standing in the center of the earth heat rising through his body as he waited for you to speak. His eyes became glassy as he stared at your figure desperate to hear your voice, he needed you to talk, hell you could yell even ,he just needed you to say something. Anything that wasn’t a goodbye. He needed you to tell him it would be okay to assure him he wouldn’t have to watch you pack your bags and leave.

“I want you to be happy Suga… to be with someone who lights up your world the way you light up mine.” your voice was small, shaking as you spoke. “ If being with me is stressful for you I don’t want to put you through that.” Your eyes never left the floor as you held yourself wanting desperately to forget this whole argument happened.

“You do make me happy Y/N” Sugawara started walking towards you lifting his hand to wipe the stray tears from your cheek.

“ You mean everything to me and I don’t want to lose that, I don't want to lose you.” Sugawara grabbed your hands with the softest touch one you could never forget.

“Look at me Y/N please. I love you and I’m sorry for ever making you think anything other than that.

You looked at Sugawara watching his eye blink back the tears desperate to free themselves.

“I love you too Koshi”

Kageyama

➳Fights with Kageyama are kind of frustrating because both of you can be stubborn sometimes so it's always interesting to see who will apologize first

➳Kageyama can be a little harsh with his words sometimes and he doesn't realize the sting of his words until they’ve fallen out of his mouth but it’s too late to take them back

➳Kageyama can’t stop replaying the way your voice sounded so pained. It’s like a constant reminder in his head that he can’t escape

Your voice strained as you yelled over Kageyama’s words wanting, needing to be heard.

“I just wish you would understand how I feel tobio” your voice cracked as you desperately attempted to make him understand

Your words seemed to fall upon deaf ears as Kageyama continued with his rant not even looking up at you.

“God I just wish you weren’t so difficult to be with sometimes.”

The words slipped past his lips so easily...too easy. Your hands dropped to your side and the room seemed to go silent. Kageyama’s eyes widened as if shocked by his own words mumbling confused words of ‘ why did I say that’

"I-I'm sorry didn't mean that" his voice came out softer than usual.

Your eyes brimmed with tears as you turned away in a failed attempt to hide the tears that were beginning to spill over. You silently cursed yourself feeling the way your lip quivered defying your wish to put on a strong face.

“It doesn’t matter if you meant it or not. The pain is still real.”

Kageyama went silent voice failing him. He wanted to scream about how much he loved you and would never want to be without you, that he needed you and being with you wasn’t difficult, it’s fun and like a breath of fresh air after drowning in oceans of stress, it was you that got him through tough days, but words seemed to drift away from him. He stared at you , hating himself for not being better with his words.

“Y-you mean the world to me Y/N. I’m not…” Kageyama sighed frustrated unable to find the right words. He was desperate to say something fearing that you would walk out the door before he could get anything out.

“I’m not good with my words Y/N but I-I love you so much, you’re not difficult… loving you is probably the easiest thing I’ve ever been able to do, it comes to me so naturally. It’s one of my favorite things to do and I’m sorry. I’m sorry for making you think otherwise.” his voice was strained as he looked at you with a pained look tears threatening to fall.

“Tobio I love you so much. I don't want to fight anymore” you looked at him dried tears staining your cheeks.

“Can I hold you please?” his voice was soft and you couldn’t resist falling into his arms feeling the touch that always gave you butterflies.

[breathebangtan]

Credulous

Ch. 4: Lurking

Genre: FallenGuardianAngel! Jimin, Supernatural

Members: Jimin

Pairings: Jimin x y/n

Synopsis: love is an uncontrollable feeling, even for those who were meant to protect, and only protect. Nothing more and nothing less. Yet somehow, there was always outliers.

Warnings: Slight manipulation and a small accident

Word count: 3.6k

A/N: Hope you all enjoy! Please like and reblog if you do!

Ch.1 | Ch.3 | Ch.5

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My weeks were usually uneventful, aside from the occasional accidents here and there. Like this morning for instance, when I didn't tie my shoelace tight enough. I accidentally tripped on it and fell down the stairs. Luckily, I was only three steps away from the ground, only ended up with a scraped knee. Jimin, of course, took care of my wound. I was late to class, but at least my knee wasn't burning, thanks to him. I hadn't realised just how much my guardian would be around me, now that I knew who he was. He gave himself full reins on my life. Sitting in the empty seats next to me in class, giving me the answers to tests, literally telling me where to walk because he was afraid I'd get hurt again. Maybe I was over exaggerating though, he wasn't with me 24/7, or at least he wasn't visible to me. But he was a little overbearing, about everything I did that could potentially harm me.

Not that I could blame him, my track record wasn't in my favor by the slightest. He let me be once he thought I was fine on my own, which was nice. I was grateful that he trusted me. The week came to an end sooner or later though, and my double date was getting closer. Jimin seemed to feel funny about the whole thing, sat on the edge of my bed as I did homework, asking me for details. “Where will you guys be going, anyway?” I could only shrug, I didn't know either. Rae had only stated that it would be a double date this Friday, and that was all the information she gave me.

“I wish I knew that too, but Rae didn't give me any specifics. Hopefully the guy isn't a douche.” I giggled to myself at the last part. “Are you sure you want to go out with some random dude you haven't met?” He questions me, and he successfully inserts doubt into my mind. It doesn't go unnoticed by me, however, the fact that he's trying to push me away from the whole thing. At least it would seem like it. “I mean, Rae knows him. Why? Do you not want me to go out?” I question his motive but he just shakes his head.

“It's not that, I just know you don't like socializing, much less dating. It just seemed odd to me that you gave in so easily. That's all.” He smiles, and I brush it off. His excuse was pretty valid. Even I was astonished at how surprisingly okay I was with this, even somewhat excited. Albeit, very little. He spent the rest of that night watching me study, helping me here and there before he disappeared. There was nights when I couldn't sleep and he'd stay with me, until I could. On nights like that one however, he'd disappear randomly, and I wouldn't see him until the next day.

Finally I was home, after a long day of work. Maybe the fact that work was stressing me, was the same reason why my excitement for tonight was growing slightly, and I gave in. Spending the remaining hours, before the double date, preparing for it. I tried my best to look presentable, yet casual. A simple pink knit sweater, that was torn at the bottom, making it barely reach past my belly button, that paired with a denim skirt and black sneakers. I hoped I wasn't underdressing myself, nor over dressing. I was just so nervous on what my first impression would be, and I wasn't sure why. Maybe the comfort Jimin had given me, was changing me.

Just as I thought of him, he chimed in out of seemingly nowhere. “Is that what you'll be wearing?” He asked, as I finished applying the last bit of makeup. “Yeah, is it too much? It's not enough, is it?” I questioned. My tone made me seem desperate though. I always disliked feeling desperate, which made me shake my head. “No, you look perfect.” He smiled at me, I was relieved as I looked myself over in the mirror.

“I just think it might be too revealing.” He spoke in a quitter voice, with a tone I couldn't figure out. I tilted my head slightly, in questioning. Too revealing? It's just my legs, but it's nothing bad, right? “Are you sure? It's just a skirt.” I asked him as I looked at my mirror, contemplating what to do. “I'm just saying, it's supposed to get cold later tonight. Are you sure you want to be wearing a skirt? I don't want you catching a cold.”

He might be right, I didn't want to get cold later. As much as I didn't want to go, I didn't want to not enjoy it because I was cold. Besides, I was slightly excited, I didn't want to ruin it for myself. “Should I wear jeans instead?” He was quick to nod his head at my suggestion. It was cute though, making me giggle as I went to grab a pair of jeans from my drawer. After successfully changing in my bathroom I walked back out. He wasn't in the room anymore, I figured he'd left and grabbed my purse. As if on cue, Rae called me. I didn't hesitate to answer her call. “I'm outside, are you ready!” She screeched full of excitement. How could she not be though? She'd had a crush on Henry for the longest time. Just another reason why I wanted to be on my best behavior tonight. I didn't want to jeopardize her chances with him. “I'll be right out.”

I was thankful that Rae had a car in this moment, because I wasn't sure how far our date would take place from my apartment. I was sure that walking wouldn't be ideal though. The only reason Rae had a car now, was because her parents finally took the next step and bought a new car. Resulting in Rae receiving their old one. “So, have you guys decided on what we'll be doing today?” I asked her as she drove down busy streets. The moon was high up in the sky, shining as bright as it could, but still overshadowed by all the street lights. “Yeah, we're going to the boardwalk. Ride a couple rides, play some games. It'll be fun, plus it'll be easy to get to know each other.” She happily cheered. She was always so bubbly, in contrast to me. I always wondered what made her befriend me, we're so different. Maybe opposites do attract.

“Well, it does sound exciting.” I looked out the window, looking at all the stores and cars passing by, all the people out shopping. The city was booming with activity right now, it was Friday night after all. Not too long after, we made it to the location. Just as I expected, there's a huge crowd of people. I guess the incident from last Friday night did have an effect on me, because I was worried that in this large crowd of college kids, that jerk would be too. I prayed that he wouldn’t and got out the car, sighing slightly. I guess my thoughts were obvious, because Rae questioned me. “Are you alright? You look a little pale.” She looks over my features as she walks closer to me. I can only smile at her, nodding. I was determined to make this night amazing for her, without having to worry about me. “Yeah, of course. I think I’m just a little nervous. I mean you never told me who my date will be, or what he’s like.” I try to act like that’s what’s bothering me, and nothing else. Not a complete lie though, I was curious as to who she paired me up with, what he was like. Which didn’t really matter because I wasn’t thinking of being in a relationship or anything, but a fun date couldn’t hurt, right?

“Oh, you’ll have so much fun together, I just know it!” She responds as she ushers me into the swarm of bodies that are running around, enjoying their night. “That doesn’t really help me, but okay?” I let her lead me to wherever, guessing she and the boys probably agreed on a specific spot to meet up. We quickly end up in front of a booth that look like it sold tickets and passes for the rides. Rae didn't bother to get in line, instead opting for cutting half of the line. “Um, Rae… What are you doing? Shouldn't we go get in line back there?” I question her, but quickly realise why she had done so. We ended up in front of two guys, laughing with each other. One was Henry, who didn't take long to notice us. “Hey! You guys made it.” He smiles at us as Rae smiles shyly, going in for a hug, which he reciprocates. Next to him is someone I haven't seen before, which wasn't unusual as I didn't socialize much. Aside from parties at least, which wouldn't help because the alcohol made everyone's faces blurry.

He stuck his hand out to me, smiling widely as he introduced himself. “I'm David, it's nice to meet you. Rae was boosting about you all week, it's nice to finally see why that is.” I blush slightly, a light giggle escaping my lips. Wasn't sure if it was because I found that funny, or if It was a nervous laugh. “Well, she hasn't mentioned you at all. So I'm excited to see what mysterious you hold.” I smile as we step closer to the booth, the line making progress. He laughs at my words, “I'm an open book, so you won't have any trouble. Trust me.” He smiles and I nod my head. I had to admit he was a very good looking guy. “I'm Y/n, by the way. So, do you go to school with us? Or?” I ask him, trying to make conversation, I just hoped that it wouldn't get awkward. I couldn't count the many times I made small talk with someone, and I somehow made it awkward. “Yeah, I'm studying law now. To be honest though,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck, “I wish I could pursue something else, but my father is a lawyer. He wanted me to be one as well.” He comments.

“I see, that's always hard. Have you tried talking to him about it?” I questioned him, and as I did I realised he most likely has, but it wasn't like I could retract my statement now. “Of course, but he's insistent. I just wish he could understand that it's just not for me.” His shoulders droop slightly, in defeat. We take a couple more steps. “No, I totally understand. We only have the one life, we should do what we like and be happy.” He smiles genuinely at me, his mouth opening to say something, but Rae interrupts us. “You guys, I’m getting a little hungry.” She pouts cutely, we all smile at her.

“We could eat something before going on the rides. Although, I don’t know how much of a good idea that is.” I contemplate my own suggestion, as I realise that eating before going on any roller coaster isn’t exactly ideal. It could lead to an unwanted accident. “We could eat something light, maybe a snack. You know, just to tame your hunger.” David chimes in. I agreed with him immediately. As we were all agreeing, the person in front of us had finished buying tickets, we walked up to the booth after they’d walked away. The girl behind the glass window spoke up. “What can I get for you?” Her tone was bored, it’s not that she was rude, but you could definitely tell she didn’t want to be here. I didn’t blame her, working Friday nights, in a ticket booth, watching others having fun wasn’t ideal.

As much as I hated myself for what I was about to do, I tried not to think about it too long and just did it. “How about you guys go and get something to eat for Rae, David and I will buy the tickets.” I say as I give Rae a little push. “Are you sure?” She asks but I just nod and turn back to the girl behind the window. I didn't want to be alone with David, but I also knew Rae probably wanted a little alone time with Henry, and I was determined to make this date the best for her. David and I decided on what free passes to buy, and walked away from the booth. The loud laughs of the people running around the boardwalk filled the night. “So how did you meet Rae?” I ask David as we walk around, looking for our friends.

“Oh, we were friends when we were younger. We use to live in the same town. I saw her on campus not to long ago and we started talking again.” He explained to me, I was glad in away. At least it meant she knew him pretty well. He wasn't just a complete stranger. “Oh, so you know her since she was a kid. Has she always been this bubbly?” He laughs at my question as he nods his head. It was a good thing, she's always been the bright person that she is today. “It's quite endearing, isn't it?” He wasn't wrong at all, it was the feeling I always got when she got excited about things, or acted like a schoolgirl fawning over Henry.

“So tell me about yourself, I mean Rae talked a lot about you, but it's not the same as hearing you say it.” He leads us further down the boardwalk, where I see Rae and Henry near a pretzel stand. “Well, what are you interested about?” I realise that I’m making myself sound mysterious in away, but I just genuinely don’t know what to say. Aside from Rae, I never really had to talk about myself. I mean I didn’t even with her, we just gradually figured each other out the more we spent time together. I thought that was the norm, but I guess not? “Anything, are you from here?” He asks. We’re getting closer to the other two, that Rae sees us and waves at us to hurry.

“No, not originally. I use to live two cities away from here, but I moved here on my own for school.” He nods taking in the information. “Just like Rae and I, I guess it’s not that uncommon for students to be out of town.” It really wasn’t, I was sure around half of students were out of town. It was just such a common thing. We finally reached our friends, Rae handing me a pretzel. “That’s for you,” She says, in a sing song voice. “and this one's for you.” She hands David another. I take a bite of it as we walk away from the stand. Out of nowhere Rae starts jumping excitedly and we all laugh at her antics. “Oh my god! Look!” She points at a carnival game, the cliche knock down the bottles and you win a prize ones. She was usually really good at these games, but I figured that she’d want the typical date experience where the guy wins the prize for the girl.

“Hey, why don’t you go win her a prize?” I suggest to Henry, trying to set in motion my plan. He looks like he wants to respond, but David picks up on my intentions and pushes him forward. “Come on, win the pretty lady a prize.” Henry gives in and pays for a game. I was starting to notice how nervous he was, they were comfortable with each other, and he was confident. Even so, he would do slight things that made it apparent that he wanted to impress Rae. Which of course, I was happy about, because that could only mean he liked her as well. “Do you want to come up to the ferris wheel with me?” David seemed like a nice guy, from the small sentences we interchanged, but I was here for Rae and to have a good time. I feared that spending too much alone time with him would make ideas in his head.

“I… I don’t think that’s a good idea.” I stuttered out, rubbing my arm awkwardly. “Why? Are you afraid of heights?” He asked, I could tell by the tone of his voice he really wanted us to go. “No… I just…” My voice caught in my throat, as a new thought came to mind.

It’ll be fun, he’s cute. I couldn’t help but agree with myself, but I was still silent. Not sure if to say yes to him. The thought brought along an unpleasant and odd aura. A sudden emptiness left inside me, but I was totally fine with the vacancy within me. It was as if I could become addicted.

I’m so lonely, he’d be perfect. Everything I need. My lips turned into a smile on their own. It’s time to live my life, and he’s the one to do it with. My voice rushed out of my mouth, “On second thought, this should be fun!” I hooked my arm around his and pulled him along, yelling over to Rae that we’d be back as I ran off. David laughing beside me as his steps picked up. I couldn’t argue with myself, even if I wanted to. I just went along with my instinct. Thankfully the line wasn’t long. Barely anyone was waiting, we were up and in the ferris wheel in no time. David helped me sit down, and in my head I marked down a point for his chervillry acts. When he sat down, I noticed he tried his best to give me space. Something if never Do was my next move. I brushed my hand over his, leaving some fingers lingering over his.

His slight smile was evident. The pink hue in his cheeks forming was utterly cute to me now, the wind pushing his hair back as he looked to the side. “I know we just met, but you seem super nice and I’d like to spend more time with you.” He scots closer to me, my head leaning on his shoulder. “That would be nice, you and I.” I say in a dreamy voice. A familiar scent came to me in that instant. Vanilla and roses mixed with lavender. Such an amazing scent, one I could lose myself in. It was utterly familiar but I couldn’t place from where, not in this instant at least. “What made you change your mind, back there I mean. When I asked you to come up here.” I shrugged slightly. Even I wasn’t sure what that was, all I know is that I did and we were here now.

“You seem like a nice guy that I’d like to spend time with.” I didn’t want to let him down, and it was a complete lie. I hooked my arm around his again, sliding closer. “Maybe we can make that happen.” He suggested and I nodded my head In content. We spent the rest of the time in peaceful silence. Until the ride stopped, our cart at the very top. “Wow, look at all those light.” I pointed out at the city, everything looked so small from here. He laughed at me slightly, “The view is amazing, isn’t it?” He looked out as well. Our eyes opened wide suddenly as we felt the ferris wheel shake. My heart started to palpitate quickly, as a more violent shake was felt. My breath hitching in my throat.

“Are you okay?” David asked, as he kept his arm in front of me, gripping the metal handle next to me. “Yeah, I’m fine.” I told him, as I dared to look forward, to see what was happening down there. The all too familiar feeling came to me. Only accomplishing for me to look like crazy all over for Jimin. However, I couldn't find him anywhere in the crowd of onlookers on the ground. “Be careful, you’ll fall.” David said protectively, and as he did Jimin’s presence became much more unbearable.

“Where are you?” I whispered to myself, gaining a strange look from David. “What was that?” He asks, confused making me shake my head. “Nothing, I just don’t understand what went wrong down there.” My sentence barely making it out as the ferris wheel rushes to rotate. A scream escapes my lips, my body slamming against David’s, which I was quick to hold on to for dear life, wishing it was Jimin instead. But he wasn’t making himself visible to me.

I’ve got you. Jimin’s voice filled my ears as the ferris wheel came to a halt and started to slowly move. My breath was irrational but I was trying to stabilize it. Finally, our cart reached the bottom and it all stopped as we did. I didn’t even wait for the man to open the gate on our cart, I unbuckled myself and opened the gate, running out. I didn’t even stop to wait for David, rushing to where Jimin was in the crowd. I wasn’t even sure how I knew where to find him, probably our connection. Either way, I crashed into him, hugging him with all the strength that I still had in my body. A stream of tears falling down my eyes.