#i’ve had one actual relationship ever and it was ass and also 4 yrs ago

[kazooster]

CUTIE ASKED ME OUT AND WERE WATCHING SAW AS A DATE AND IM SO EXCITED EEEEEEEEEEE

[yeahyoume]

    Have you ever wondered to yourself  what you would do if you found the "perfect lady"? Have you ever wondered to yourself what it would be like to have the sexiest woman in the room with her legs wrapped around you in the bathroom of  some shit corner bar where everyone wants to fuck her?  Have you ever found yourself daydreaming about a woman so perfect, you thought she could never exist ? Yeah, well, I used to be just like you until this fire of a woman entered my life. When I say fire, I mean like a fucking blast furnace. I'll put it to you this way, it's like my entire soul , being,  every emotion and sexual desires have been soaked in gasoline for 40yrs and then Gwyen was the spark that lit me on fire.

    The first time I laid eyes on Gwyen was  about 10 or 11yrs ago.  I was at local pub with my fiance at the time, yeah, I was engaged then, more about that later on.  Anyway, prior to this night, I heard of this woman named Gwyen and how sexy she was, top notch personality , etc etc. Everytime I would hear about this woman through locals just talking I would think, shut the fuck up no like that exsits.  Then as I'm standing in front of the jukebox waiting for a drink I felt someone tap me on the shoulder , "Yo Mark, I want to introduce you to my cousin, Gwen!"  I turned around and I just stopped, my face probably went to "holy shit" . I could not fucking believe who was standing in front me.  She was probably 5'2 or 5'4, this reddish hair that was definitely about to light me on fire and her eyes, Jesus Christ her eyes! Are they blue? Are they fucking green? I couldn't tell  but they were absolutely stunning. Athletic built , just superior she was. Wearing a low cut vneck t-shirt, no bra and her nipples were staring at me as if they knew what my tongue was wanting to do.  "Hi, nice to meet you , Mark!" Her smile was so bright it made me feel special immediately.  I smiled right back at her and I think she knew what I was thinking.  After a quick hello and hand shake she turned to play a song on the jukebox and there it was, her ass. Now, understand , I'm an "ass man" and I mean I LOVE a woman's ass. There she was, her back turned to me and she's flipping through songs, putting her weight on one leg and then the other , switching back and forth making her ass wiggle just enough to start to turn me on, right there at the fucking jukebox .  She looked over her shoulder , just to see where her cousin went and she smiled at me again, then she looked at my cock, she smiled even bigger . Holy fuck, I had a hard-on!  Since I'm not exactly a "small guy"  but known to stretch a few in my time, she now saw the outline of my cock through my jeans. Right there at that moment the sexual tension was like I just got out of jail and I couldn't wait to slip my cock into my waiting princess. Because of me feeling like a douchebag since my fiance was there, I had to turn my attention back to our group of friends. I couldn't help but often turn to look in her direction and I would notice she did the same. Wow, I never had this feeling before, ever. Sure, I've seen beautiful woman and immediately thought I like to fuck her , but this, this was different.  This was a desire to know who she was, to know what makes her tick, what it would be like to feel her wet pussy accept my rock hard dick,  all at the same time. This was crazy! So the night ended and just like that, I never saw her again.

A few yrs later, we ran into each other at the liquor store and wow, all those feelings I mentioned before came back like a raging bull! We had some small talk and I would call it "fuck me flirting" on my end anyway. We went our separate way and then  she was gone again. I would see her in pics on social media and stuff like that but that was it, she was my personal Houdini. Then I heard through the grapevine that she got married, had child and was leading a great life. Well, fuck me then. 

    Now, let's fast forward to the present day, which would be 10yrs later or so. Since this time, I've been divorced and out of a 8yr relationship, a free man with no fucks to give.  A friend tells me about how Gwyen is unhappy in her marriage, struggling to stay with her husband etc. One thing leads to another and I think, "well Mark, send her a message and see what happens." I'm a confident man, I know what I bring to the table. If you deserve the world, I'll give you the universe , if you need to be told "get fucked" , well I won't hesitate. So, I did just that, I sent the message. I made up some bullshit reason for sending her a private message on Facebook.  She answered and enthusiastically I may add.  I couldn't fucking believe it!  We had some small talk a few times via messaging which then led to exchanging phones numbers. Messaging turned into texts, turned into phone calls (when she could since she was still in the house with her husband).  

    At first the conversations were like we were trying to get to know one another, gain some trust. It was playful , I felt like a teenager again with her. As the conversations progressed  it turned to more like, I'll say adult like chat. When I say adult chat, I mean she asked me to say something dirty to her, I was taken back and yet so fucking excited that she asked that, I thought "you better bring your " A" game Marko , it's showtime!" I have never ever done something like this, ever. So I did, I sent her a few hot, very erotic messages, they were getting so hot that I would start jerking off writing them to her , she fucking loved it. Then, THEN that's when I got ballsy and said fuck it , here comes a dick pic Gwyen , hope you like it!  Let's just say, she did. Then she returned one to me and my God, she was more gourgeous than I even imagined, standing in front of her mirror, topless with these perfect nickel sized nipples, hair in a pony tail and a look of seduction on her face.

    We would talk almost everyday from there on out. We would talk about everything in life, get a little frisky and then talk about life agian. This went on for weeks. Through these conversations, spilling our guts out to one another, not only did I want to fuck her like it was my last day on earth, but I wanted to hold her hand and be the one who told her "everything will always be ok". Fucking weird , right? What was this I was experiencing? 

Through out our messaging and calls, she asked what kind of music I listen to, I told her pretty much everything. Music is a way for me to connect to my emotions, my desires , the moment and so on. She asked me to send her some of the music I listen to. The very first song I sent was, Roses by The Chainsmokers , I thought (and still do) think that is a very sexual song, Everytime I heard it I would think of her. She also loves that song, little did I know. To this day when it comes on, my mind rewinds at warp speed to her and the first time our lips touched. (Feel free to go ahead and put the song in, I guarantee you want to fuck the person next to you immediately).

These in-depth , intimate conversations went on for a long time without seeing each other, at all. Kinda sounds like a cat fish story, but that it was not. This woman was becoming a part of my soul, my heart and I couldn't get a grasp on that, nevermind the whole her being married part, I was dying inside just to talk to her face to face, eyes looking at eyes.

Then my dream came true, I was invited to have a few drinks with her sister and herself. I had to think for a moment, "are you gonna do this? What's gonna happen? Holy fucking shit yes I want to go, I didn't give 2 fucks about anyone else but her and I.

We decided on a place to go, the 3 of us. I got there first, the friggin anticipation was killing me. It was only me, the bar keep and 3 other people there and then the door opened. It was them, first her sister and then her. There it was, that smile, just as bright as it was 10yrs prior. We said hello, gave a little friendly hug and sat and ordered some drinks, beer for me and her sister, vodka and cranberry for her.

We sat and drank for a while, talking, laughing, discussing our pasts, people we mutually know blah blah blah. The whole time I was a nervous little fucker, "am I saying the right things, is she in to me, why is she here , dear God don't let me fuck this up! " Ya know, all the normal shit that goes through your head when you're into someone. She was just as sweet, kind and sexy in person as in the texts. See, no cat fish here.

Her sister decides it was time for her to get on the road back home. Gwyens sister drove them both there. She turns and asks me, would you be able to get Gwyen back to her car later. "Absolutely" I said. Holy shit, it's now just gonna be us two. But then, Gwyen yes why don't you take me to my car now. My heart kinda slowed, disappointment started to set in, "is this it? Did I say something wrong? Oh, just shut the fuck and take her to her car" I said to myself. " Sure, no problem, I replied

    We said our good byes to sis, I was warned to take good care of her. I opened the car door for her , she seemed surprised. I smiled and said "what?" Lol. She replied that no one has ever done that for her before. Well I told her, not everyone is me.

We started to drive towards her car which actually was only 4 blocks away. She told me, "keep driving, I love talking to you". So I did. Now, I wasn't sure what to do, my head was telling me to be a gentleman but my hard-on was telling me other wise. I always try to be a gentleman because that's what a true man should be. "Treat her like a lady in the streets, and a freak in the sheets".

We were driving for maybe 20 mins and she turns and says, "find a parking spot so we could talk and I could look at you". I found the closest , most secluded area I could and parked. We turned to each other , we smiled for a few secs. No radio on, no traffic on the street, just me, her and our throbbing sexual desires for one another. Her face got serious, and she softly whispers, "are you going to kiss me?" I didn't hesitate for a split second. We closed in on each other's lips, starring into each other's eyes and our lips touched. First it was intimate, then quicky became like 2 horny teenagers in dad's car. I softly nibbled on her lower lip while I took my hands and gently cupped her face and pulled her in harder so our tongues could feel one another. We slowly circled each other's. My cock was throbbing, I may have came a little I was so excited. I could feel her hips start to move as of she was grinding her pillow before bed. She stared to raise herself up, like you would do if you want someone to undress you. And then, she pulled away and looked at me as if she was frighteed. Oh fuck I thought. She said "we should stop, I'm fucking married , I'm so sorry". I understood, I'm a human being with feelings and emotions and try to understand everyone else's. I gave her a hug and made sure she knew she was safe with me and it never had to go any further. She thanked me. Then I dropped her off at her car.

Once I got home , I got text from Gwyen asking me if i regretted it, I said absolutely not and that I loved every second of it. She sent another text saying "I've never ever been kissed liked that, it was intense." I smiled and thought , maybe there would be a second one.

The next day I woke up feeling like a new man, a different man, but new none the less. At this point in our friendship or whatever you want to call it, we would text in morning and throughout the day. I recieved an unexpected text from Gwyen stating she's on her way to my house, by this time she was probably already there, we didn't live far from each other. I ran downstairs and sure as shit, there she is at my front door. I let her in not knowing what to expect. She said , "after last night I just needed to see you again". Wow, she was really into me I thought". I replied that I felt the same. She said I should show her around my house. As we made our way up the stairs , by her direction may I add, her ass was just inches from my face, it took everything I had not to bend her over right there and stick my tongue into her. She said, " so this is the bedroom" and without hesitation she laid in my bed and pulled me on top. We kissed like we never stopped from the night before. My hands roamed her body as if they never felt a woman before, her hands clawing at my back. I sat up for a second, she asked if we should wait, I said no. I started to unbutton her shorts as she undid mine. She lifted her hips up and I slid her shorts off, she wasn't wearing panties. There she was, this beautiful woman, with her legs spread open , her pussy was already soaked and glisening and then she took my pants off. She whispered to me, "please fuck me with your huge cock but be gentle" and she guided all 8 inches of me into her. It took a few slow thrusts to get inside of her but once I did, that was it. It was like 2 lost souls finding each other. I could feel her shaking as her pussy pumped from excitement, my cock was harder than a piece of steel as she slid on it. She shouted, "I'm cumming!" I couldn't last long after that and I told her I was going to cum, she said "please don't pull out, I want to feel your cock pump me full of you." So I did exactly what she asked.

When we were finished, sticky, wet and the smell of sex in the air was enough to keep us both smiling. It was a hot summer day in May that I will never forget. That was the day my life changed forever.

She had leave soon after because she was suppose to be running errands. I had to sit down and really take in what I just experienced. It wasn't just a great organism, it was something much deeper. It was like a spiritual thing going on. I felt complete, finally fulfilled. She was the one I was looking for this whole time. Charlie Puth - one call away.

Did I mention she was a school teacher? Well, if that doesn't make her even more hot, I don't know what will. She really loved when I would send her dirty texts and pics through her school day. I would be able to get her pussy so wet from a juicy text or a straight up cock pic , fully hard and ready to explode.

The one day she came to my house before going home, walked in my door with this cute little sundress on. I walked right up to her with authority , no words were exchanged, I just took her, turned her face forward to the wall and spread her legs. I pulled that sundress up and quickly slid my cock from her clit to the top of her ass and then right into her soaking wet pussy. I thrusted myself into her makingr her know I was there. She bent over even more and picked her ass up just enough for her to be on her tippy toes. With every plunge of my cock I watched her perfect ass jiggle and hear my balls slapping off her clit. I held both her arms in my one hand against the wall and I slowly circled her clit with my other hand all while fucking her the way she wanted to be fucked. We were both right where we were suppose to be, surrendering to one another, like raging animals just thristing for each other. When I finally came in her, she turned to me, grabbed my face with both hands and kissed me. As she walked away I could see a trail of cum in the inside of her thigh. Fuck that was sexy. Omi - fireworks

We would chat as often as possible through out the day, but see each other as often as she could. The time went by slow when I wasn't with her or talking to her. She was all I could think about. Everything in my life was going the right way, good job, decent place to live, nice car, a bit money stashed away, she was the missing puzzle piece for me. I was so excited I would danced around the house to music. Cue - Flo Rida Blow My Whistle

I recall the one day I told her how beautiful she was and she replied immediately that it's been years since someone told her that. I was fucking floored by that statement. I thought, how dare someone be so self centered and be an inconsiderate prick not to tell her all the time how gorgeous she was! I thought, fuck this! I'll make sure she knows she beautiful and nothing short of that. This beautiful gem of a woman, with compassion, giving, sensitivity, a golden heart be let down by all the douchebags she's had in her life. I actually had to sit for a moment and think , why do I feel this way. So angry that she didn't feel beautiful, didn't feel appreciated etc. Then I knew. I was in love with her. Our intimate conversations, our deep understanding of each other and the trust we had right out of the box plus the ridiculous sexual urges we had for each other all added up to this one moment enlightenment. It was love.

"Jesus Christ , Mark you can't tell her that, she's still married and its way too soon to pop that on her." So, I went online visited some underwear shops and picked out something I though she'd like and purchased it. She stopped by my house the one day just to say hi, she couldn't come in so I met her in my alley and gave her the gift. Inside was a little note that said "you should always feel beautiful." She started to cry because no one has ever done that before, thought about her. I was like holy fuck, what is wrong with men. She should be treat like a queen and that's what I wanted to do. Thomas Rhett - Die a happy man.

She sent me a pic of her in her new, sexy as fuck underwear along with the song- Keep my hands to myself - Selena Gomez. It drove me crazy

She knew I wasn't that big on cooking, I was eating shit out of a box that was microwavable. She would take time out of her night just to bring me dinner. I couldnt believe that. Someone thought about me! Are we really this lucky to find each other? So the one night she decided to bring some dinner she cooked, when she came into my home, I couldn't help my self, I picked her up, she wrapped her legs around me and I set her in the kitchen counter. My heart was pounding, not only with sex on the mind but I really loved this woman. I pulled the black leggings off her like unwrapping a present and just forced my dick inside her. I was so deep I could see my cock moving in her stomach. She held into me with such strength and tightness as if she never wanted to let go. I was thinking , maybe she loves me.

Actions always speak louder than words for me. Words mean shit because we all say bullshit nonsense that we don't mean at times. Let someone do whatever they want and then watch their actuons, that's my modo. She would find time to see me, call , text whatever. Actions.

Gwyen had to go out of town for a weekend, something with teaching during the summer. She asked if I would come and see her one day. It was a 2hr drive and I didn't give a fuck, I get to see her. So I drove down on that Friday night and picked her up at her hotel. She was standing with her coworker. I was like "oh shit, snagged". I forget her friend's name, but she peaked her head inside my car and said " so, you're him. I knew there was something up! You are what I picture her with." Then she walked away. Gwyen got in and said, "well that cat is outta the bag." But she wasn't worried, girl code I guess.

We got to have dinner together for the first time. We sat and talked. Gwyen said something to me that no one ever ever said to me "I can listen to you talk forever". Here I thought I was a blabbing idiot, but she really enjoyed my company, our conversations etc. Wow. So i had to take her back to the hotel, it was raining that night. We parked and she said, "jump in the back" and like a trained German Shepard i leaped back there. She came back with me, we couldn't control ourselves any longer that night. She was wearing a romper, she loves those things, no underwear, so I tore the crotch out of them and fucked her just like I loved her. Her hands were on the glass, pushing herself on my cock like it belonged to her, it did. When she got out she smiled and wanted to say something, but she just ran to the door in the rain. I wanted to walk her to her room but her other co workers couldn't see me. I drove 2hrs home thinking, this is the girl for me.

There were so many special features with Gwyen. I wanted her more and more and more. She said that the time for her marriage to end was coming soon, so I held on. It was scary, frustrating and disappointing at times but I really wanted her in my life, all the time. Our connection was so real and pure it was nerving.

She made the jump one night and decided she wanted to stay over at my place. I was so excited, I made sure the house was perfect , had all the wine she could drink , the lightening, I wanted it to be perfect. When she showed up, it was like she came home to me after a days work, it was comforting. We talked, drank, watch movies. It was great. She then started to rub my cock under the blankets. I thought, here we go. I picked her up and put her in the floor. I started to kiss her neck and lightly lick little circles just under her ear. I made my way down to those link perfect nipples and just sucked on one at a time. I went down further to her belly area , she started to rub the top of my head but I grabbed her hands and held them to her belly, I felt her legs open even wider. As I worked my way down to the top of her pussy, I could feel her breathing getting heavier and heavier. I was so close to her that she could feel my breath on her dripping wet pussy. I made sure to hold her tight so she could move nor could she touch me, she went wild as I could see her stomach twiching. I licked her clit for second, just to tease her and then kissed the inner thigh by the labia while holding her arms tight. Once I started to circle around her labia once or twice ,I knew it was time to opened her up with my tongue just to hear her moan in satisfaction. I stopped a few times to gently lick her clit and insert my middle finger in her at the same time. I used my tongue to cover every inch of her perfect womanhood. I was inserting my tongue inside her while I took one hand and softly pinched her nipples and that's when she started to grind on my face because she was cumming. I sucked on her clit for a few moments and then she started cumming right in my mouth , just how I wanted her to. As soon as she orgasmed, she pushed me on my back, and took my cock right inside her mouth and tried to get the whole thing in. I was so hard it was actually pulsating with my heart beat. I came so fast in her, I couldn't help it, I loved tasting her pussy so much that it would make me cum , nevermind watching the beautiful woman whom I loved just take me in her mouth . God I love her. LL COOL J - Doin it

Im going to rewind a bit, I'm telling this story in Quentin Taritinos movie style , so bare with me. I need to tell you how Gwyen had this way of making me feel like I was the only one who existed. She was soft when she spoke to me, she always made my thoughts and feelings come first. She actually wanted to hear what I had to say, even if she had to force it out of me. I would get a text out of the blue just saying hi or heart or whatever. It would always make my day. When she held my hand I could feel the energy flowing from her into me, I'm telling you it was on such a higher level of connection. It would be me she would come to when needing to be held or to be told "it's gonna be ok". She was choosing me over everyone. I was the luckiest guy to live. I found her, she was for me. Maroon 5 - lovers do.

I asked her to a movie , out of town so we could actually be a "couple " forjust a few hrs and she gladly accepted my invite. We decided on lunch and a mivie. I could tell she was scared to be seen, but she did it anyway, that said a lot to me. Lunch was great, the movie even better but the most I loved about it was holding her hand in the theater and watching her watch the movie. Man, what a great experience. Her cute facial expressions with every scene, I loved it! It was a very special moment for me, that I'll always remember.

Moving along,a great friend of mine who lived a few hours in a big city asked if I wanted to go to a beer festival and if I had anyone I wanted to bring, GWYEN! I thought, we could get away for a night.

So off we went, she asked her sister to go and came up with some excuse for her husband so it was all good. Gwyen wasn't even a beer drinker, she loves her wine and some mixers. I mean, this woman went to an event she didn't have to, away from home, over night and took a big risk just to be with me. It warms my heart what she was willing to do for me, his I loved her. We had a great time, drinking, eating singing, dancing it was truly a good day. We ended up at a bar late that night for few more cocktails, like we needed it. I saw Gwyen looking for the bathroom, stumbling and giggling Soni decided to follower her. We ended up in some dark room, definitely not a bathroom and she pulled me close to her so we could kiss like savages. She stuck her hand down my pants and started to jerk me off and I was finger fucking her at the same time. I pulled her shorts down just enough to squeeze my cock in her from behind. As soon as I was in, well we hear "who the fuck is in there, that room is off limits" we both got dressed quickly while laughing our asses off. I had a huge wet mark on my pants from how wet she got. It was fucking funny. See, that's what I loved about us, nothing else mattered but her, me,the moment and that's it.

When we were apart I would spend most of my day thinking of ways to show her my gratitude and appreciation of her. I wanted to tell her that I was in love with her, but I couldn't bring myself to do it just yet. I did what I could because we still had distance between us. I would send her a song, a nice pic of the day , whatever I could. One day her little girl got sick and I felt terrible , Gwyen did to, she is such a great mom, loving, caring. I tried to think of a way to help with her little girl feeling better. So I hurried ran to the store and got a DVD for her to watch. I actually went to Gwyens house to drop it off because her husband was at work. The look on Gwyens face , once again, as in disbelief someone thought about her. Well, that's just who I am. Gwyen and I had the same heart, same soul, she did those sweet things for me too. She would make a coffee run bright and early Saturday mornings and sure as shit, she'd be waiting outside of my house to bring me my Java and a smile. My Saturdays were the best.

One Saturday morning Gwyen came inside to have coffee with me, I was so surprised. We sat and talked and a conversation started about her family and what our future would look like once she got divorced. During the conversation, it came up about how I would be accepted my her family. I asked "do you think they'll like me?" Her reply, " they're gonna love you! I asked, "how could you be sure they'll love me?" She answered, without hesitation, " because I love you." We both just stopped and looked at each other. I know what I heard, but I couldn't believe it. So like an idiot I said "what did you say?" She replied "nothing, I have to go." Gave me a kiss and out the door she went.

Did Gwyen really just say I love you? Did she mean it? Christ, I wanted her to say it a thousand times because I wanted to scream "I love you, Gwyen!" from the rooftops everyday. But I had to play it cool . She truly stole my heart , she's an amazing woman.

I really felt like we were heading somewhere when Gwyen asked to do an over night stay at friend's house a few hours away. This friend was Gwyens go-to, best friend of all time. I was nervous, this was a big step I thought. Of course I said yes. Gwyen made the hotel arrangements and we drove off to Cindy's house.

Every car ride we took, every moment we were together felt like utopia for me, perfect bliss. We would either not shut the fuck up or sit in complete silence just embracing eachothers presence. If you never had that, well, don't stop looking because it's magical.

On this car ride , she decided to talk about leaving her husband and the best/easiest and less painful way to do it. See, she even felt horrible for doing what she was about to do because of her compassion for other people. On the other hand, she wanted what she wanted and that was happiness. It didn't mean with just me but with life. I admired that about her. Deftones - passenger

Once we got into town, she took me to a wine tasting, I've never been to one before. She wanted to introduce me to new thjngs. All I needed was the new way to be cared about the way she did but the wine was good too but not one of them was as sweet as her.

Once we checked in and unpacked, Gwyen wanted to show me around her old stomping grounds, she was originally from this area we were in. As we left , walking to my car, she was in front of me (you always let a lady go first) I had this uncontrollable urge just to "sweep her off her feet", I snuck up from behind, picked her up and carried her to the car like the precious cargo she was. She was startled and excited all at the same time. We just looked into each other's eyes as we made our way to my car. It was at that moment that I felt like I was carrying my queen or even maybe the key to unlock all the happiness this world has to offer. How about that? All those emotions unleashed in a 20-yard walk. I could never imagine how much I was going to miss her. Pitbull - Give me Everything.

We had a great time, we just went out for a drinks and met some other friends. Cindy was very welcoming and she already knew about me and pretty much all the details of Gwyen and I. Cindy was pro Team Gwyen/Mark.

Gwyen had these cute little saying that would make me laugh everytim she used them: craziness, what's happening here, it's just craziness. Lol. I still laugh to this day. I would sit around on those days we couldn't see each other and think about all those little things that I adored and I started to realize I wanted her in my life, I would literally laugh out loud in my house. Cue Jason Derulo - want to want me.

I could explain every detail of our time, there's so much more to tell but I'm fast forwarding now.

The days and nights I wouldn't hear from Gwyen were long. I would get depressed. Not truly able to understanding her circumstances I thought it was me. Or maybe I just didn't mean anything to her. It was confusing. As the months went on we got further and further away from what I thought would be our new world, a world of understanding, compassion, intimacy and pure love.

[trauma-13]

You know the drill. All them asks. 😈 (is this deja vu?)

You got it dude!! (It is...cause I fucked up 😂)

The meaning behind my url:

Trauma because it's my favorite area of nursing.

Princess because I'm a fuckin princess.

93 because the year I was born.

A picture of me:

If you look hard enough you'll find one on here. Also my icon is me soooo.

How many tattoos i have and what they are:

Oh good lord. I have quite a few....

1. Mom's last name on my left wrist.

2. Flowers on my right foot.

3. Tribal-ish heart my brother drew on the back on my neck.

4. Walt Disneys signature on my left foot.

5. Mickey and Minnie behind my ears.

6. A prior dogs paw print on my left ankle.

7. A dandelion on my right shoulder blade with music notes.

8. My dog, Axel, paw prints on my collar bones.

9. A moon on my right ankle.

10. A semi colon on my right wrist (ulnar side)

11. A arrow on my right wrist (radial side)

12. A humming bird on my right forearm.

I think that's it... for now...

Last time i cried and why:

I dunno, honestly. I cry frequently hahah

Piercings i have:

Labret/Monroe

Ears gauged to a 00.

Traugus both sides

Right sided daith.

Nipples.

Favorite band:

Sooo many. Currently imagine dragons.

Biggest turn offs:

Bad hygiene, liars, cheats, narcacists.

Top 5 (insert subject):

???

Tattoos i want:

Too many to list, honestly.

Biggest turn ons:

I'm a big physical touch person, so basically anything where I'm being touched.

Age:

26

Ideas of a perfect date:

Doing something totally new that neither of us has experienced.

Life goal:

Pediatric ICU trauma nurse, be a mom, be a good wife.

Piercings i want:

Maybe my left daith. Probably a 2nd lobe hole.

Relationship status:

Very happily engaged.

Favorite movie:

Steel magnolias (the old one), Moana, Mean Girls.

A fact about my life:

I'm a nurse, I work in the ER and medsurg/tele, I have 2 doggos, and 2 kittens, I'm practically married at this point, I live on the surface of the sun.

Phobia:

Spiders, failure.

Middle name:

I'ma pass on telling the world that.

Height:

5'6" with shoes on.

Are you a virgin?

Naaah.

What’s your shoe size?

Between 9-10 depends on the shoe and brand.

What’s your sexual orientation?

I am bisexual, however I'm in a heterosexual relationship.

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

Drink yes, no to the others.

Someone you miss

@car-one-responding

What’s one thing you regret?

Suffering in an abusive relationship because I didn't think I had a way out.

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

Chris Evans.

Favorite ice cream?

I'm honestly not a big ice cream person, but we have some delicious basil-lime sorbet from a local store that I'm obsessed with.

One insecurity:

Weight.

What my last text message says:

"I re sent it. Just delete the other one I guess? Lol" from @car-one-responding in reference to this cause I done FUCKED IT UP.

Have you ever taken a picture naked?

Mmmmhhhhhmmmmm.

Have you ever painted your room?

Not recently at all, but as a kid yeah.

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

Yep, couple times.

Have you ever slept naked?

I usually do.

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

Almost every day hahah

Have you ever had a crush?

Duuuh, who hasn't hah

Have you ever been dumped?

Aldo duuuh.

Have you ever stole money from a friend?

Nope. I'm a very honest person.

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

Hmm. Probably.

Have you ever been in a fist fight?

Does patients attacking count?? I didn't punch, but I got punched.

Have you ever snuck out of your house?

Yep.

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

I think just about everyone has.

Have you ever been arrested?

No. Im from a tiny Town where my dad was a cop, mom was a nurse. So everyone knew me.

Have you ever made out with a stranger?

No I don't think so.

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

Like...in a sexual way? Or like hung out? If so yes to both hah

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

Yeah, however I'm a pretty open person. I usually tell my mom where Im going. She raised me as a single mom, and I had a lot of freedom as long as I was open and honest with her. That's just transferred into adulthood.

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

No. But I purposely became friends with an old neighbor cause he had a cute ass dog named Max.

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

Yep. Got busted too haha

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

Uh huh! It's called sleep overs, duh aha

Have you ever seen someone die?

Unfortunately, that's part of my job. Not everyone gets saved in the ER. Plus in the hospital where I work there is a very large group who has very strict rules about death, so frequently we admit people to die either to the floor if we suspect it'll be a couple days, or the ER if we think it'll be quick. Death can be a beautiful process, or it can be horrific, and traumatizing...just depends how ya look at it.

Have you ever been on a plane?

Yeah quite a few times!!

Have you ever kissed a picture?

Honestly what little girl didn't kiss a picture of Leonardo DeCaprio...

Have you ever slept in until 3?

Bro I'm a mid/nightshifter. Weird sleep schedules are my life.

Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

Weirdly worded question. But yes I have loved, yes I do miss people.

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

Yes!! It's one of my favorites. I also love to watch the stars.

Have you ever made a snow angel?

Yeah!!! It's super fun!!

Have you ever played dress up?

Yeah!!

Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

Queen of attempting to cheat at games and failing miserably 🙋‍♀️

Have you ever been lonely?

Mhmm. Side affects of working away from my family.

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?

I'm forever sleepy, so yeah.

Have you ever been to a club?

Yeah couple times!

Have you ever felt an earthquake?

Once as a kid. I don't remember much of it besides it waking me up, and I woke up my mom because I didn't know what it was. I was maybe 7?

Have you ever touched a snake?

I love snakes. They're such cool animals.

Have you ever ran a red light?

That may or may not be why I didn't have a drivers license for 3 yrs.

Have you ever been suspended from school?

Nope 😏 I did get temporarily kicked out of nursing school and fought my way back in though. That's a tale for another time.

Have you ever had detention?

Once, for chewing gum.

Have you ever been in a car accident?

Yeah, nothing serious though. *knocks on all the wood*

Have you ever hated the way you look?

I feel like everyone has, unfortunately.

Have you ever witnessed a crime?

1. I live where I live, it's a regular occurrence. We don't carry a gun for no reason.

2. Used to work in the heart of the ghetto.

3. Used to live 5 mins from there.

Safe to say I've seen a crime or two.

Have you ever pole danced?

One drunken Halloween, yes.

Have you ever been lost?

Physically not emotionally? Yes to both haha

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

I have yeah!!

Have you ever felt like dying?

Yeah, on quite a few occasions I don't talk about.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

Yep.

Have you ever sang karaoke?

Again, drunken Halloweens.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?

Im sure I have.

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

Yes I have, it's not fun.

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

Hmm.....I don't actually think so.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?

Yes!!

Have you ever sang in the shower?

Every single time.

Have you ever made out in a park?

Mhmm!

Have you ever dream that you married someone?

Yes, and I'm marrying him in a little over a month.

Have you ever glued your hand to something?

My other hand hahah

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

No..but not for lack of trying.

Have you ever gone to school partially naked?

Uh, no haha

Have you ever been a cheerleader?

Nah, I was a band geek.

Have you ever sat on a roof top?

Yes, it's a great time.

Have you ever brushed your teeth?

I want to say "who hasn't" but we all know there's those people who haven't...

Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?

Sometimes, yes.

Have you ever played chicken?

Not huh.

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

Probably so.

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

Yep.

Have you ever broken a bone?

A few yeah. My nose, jaw in 3 places, my tail bone, my ankle.

Have you ever been easily amused?

Have you met me....

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

Like 45 mins ago hahah

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

Yep, regularly occurs in my house.

Have you ever cheated on a test?

Probably way back in the day, but I don't remember anything specific. I'm a pretty honestly person, so if I don't know it, then oh well.

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

Every fucking day of my life!

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

Not quite sure...?

Give us one thing about you that no one knows.

Once upon a time, I was like 13 or 14. I was hanging out with my mom while she cooked dinner and eating a carrot. I suddenly sneezed. I then had a carrot chunk stuck in my sinuses. I could feel it, but mom didn't believe me. So for 3 days straight I blew my nose constantly. And I finally got the carrot chunk out.

[marvelousaddiction]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. 

I was tagged by @pheonyxstorm

LAST: 

Drink: Last thing I drank was a coke, last alcoholic beverage was Gentlemen’s Jack (but I may have regular Jack tonight)

(btw Tay, try Irish Trashcan, optional but add strawberry sour straw candy)

 Phone Call: My momma lol 

Text Message: @ceobryce

Song you listened to:  Rammstein - Feuer Frei! (and Victorious a Breezy original)

Time I Cried: two tears in the shower, I missed the breakdown this time and I took care of myself so yeah...

HAVE YOU EVER: 

Dated someone twice: nope

Been cheated on: twice 

Kissed Someone and regretted it: yep, four people.....well....yeah four

Lost someone special: yep, some of them died, and one of them is still alive but I wish her the best still

been drunk and thrown up: yes, twice, but only a little bit each time  and I’ve never really had a hangover, only maybe a mild headache when I wake up, I barely notice it 

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made a new friend: I’d like to say so 

Fallen Out of Love: no

Laughed Until You Cried: all the time like (almost) errday

Met Someone Who Changed You: no, not really, but people I have always had I’ve come to some realizations about leading to changes in myself, example, I drink sometimes now

Found Out Who your true friends are: mhm, I always constantly play it safe in this department because of my past

Found out someone was talking about me: honey, listen, people been talking about you since you came into this world and they gon’ talk about you after you out of it. (at least you're on their mind) 

GENERAL:

How many people in Tumblr do you know in real life?: @ceobryce @wolfsilverlight @leftzombiepenguin @brayamac @violet-soulkeeper17 @talonvictor @oneshoeshort (and Megan, I have to find her name and edit this lol)

Do you have any pets?: Yep. Dusty Leroy (my last name), Simba Sophia (my last name), Angel Clemingtine (my last name), Bobby Lee (my last name) and Loli (Lolli) Pop (my last name) 

Do you want to change your name? : First name,no, it made Papa proud I was named after him, Middle name, yes until this past june because I was the only kid of my dad’s kids (and grandkids) without the middle name Marie but in June something happened that changed my mind so I thanked my mom for naming me Irene. Last name, eventually lol, yknow marriage and shiz

What time did you wake up this morning: 6:00

What were you doing last night: laying in bed, talking to @browneyedhunter and ignoring what was going on outside my bedroom or trying with all my might and failing 

Name something you cannot wait for: Just one thing, other than actually starting my life (long ass story), tonight (giggidy), the black panther movie and april fools day to take a day trip to Raleigh and see Kevin Hart (if life allows) and down the line a little bit, to be a mom 

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: not to my recollection, but yes in my dreams, Tom Hiddleston is a amazing man 

What’s getting on your nerves right now: nothing really at this moment, i guess being a female has terrible timing 

Blood type: blood? red? 

Nickname: Nerd, Short Person, BabyGirl, Jess, Jessie, Jessie Jess, Angel, there are so many 

Relationship Status: Happy 

Zodiac Sign: Cancer (June 25)

Pronouns: She, her, I am a cis girl lol but I will proudly respond to Dude, Bro, Bruh, Broski

Favorite Show: Obviously Supernatural is number 1, top 3 are Supernatural, Sherlock, and probably Penny Dreadful (but I have many favorites)

College: Not yet, I took a placement test and such but I am trying to get things straight first. Fingers crossed, within the next year or so I can start. I took some CP/ college class in high-school, there was one, Physcology, where  the professor actually came and taught us and I did well in that also I think I made like a high Cor a B but with the history class they gave us a book, popped us in front of computers. I tried, I really did, but I also did something there that I never did in school before, I tried and couldn’t learn anything (that is when the computers actually worked) and it was just boring so I got fed up basically said fuck this shit and failed on purpose. My education currently is K4-graduating from high school with a diploma. I actually love learning so please don’t misunderstand, I hated school, but I still tried my best and did pretty well and never flunked a grade level or anything, I was also that person everyone hated for reminding teachers of homework when they forgot it because I was the one that, not exaggerating, had mental breakdowns doing it. In highschool there is/was a notorious teacher that everyone hated, literally, someone keyed his truck, but, he saw how hard I worked and such and he actually became like my best friend and I may have been a teacher’s pet but he and my other math teacher my senior year were my best friends. Okay long unnecessary rambling sorry 

Hair Color: brunette, naturally, will eventually be black I know for certain. However, I colored it black once years ago, and in highschool I bleached my bangs so they were blonde, about two years ago but longer I put blue where the blonde was and that faded to teal, then i put red streaks throughout my hair when that was gone. Its been natural for a long time 

Do you have a crush on someone: yes. celebrities, obviously, but there is one man on campus i sware i cant take my eyes off of lol. My babe,marie, and I have a whole private joke thing about it. He is known as Superman, you had to be there

What do you like about yourself: this one is really hard, honestly. It varies but I guess....I mean, my sweatshirt I am wearing now? that count? Oh! I can drink and not become my big sister, despite having to convince myself of that. It is complicated and my eyes too lol 

FIRSTS:

First Surgery: it was getting my tonsils taken out when i was like maybe 5 or 6

First Piercing: ears, although i was never really able to wear earrings because of a reaction but they are closed now. I’m really thinking about getting my belly button pierced

First Sport You joined: there was the time when I was little and wrestling my dad, but that career ended when I kicked his nose/mouth and they swole, and the time I played football as a baby at my moms old family church but I bit my evil cousin? do those count?

First vacation: I don’t know if I ever had a vacation but I know my first time leaving home for a trip we went to Virginia, then Pittsburgh PA, then Niagra Falls NY

First Pair of Sneakers: I am willing to bet were hand me downs or from dollar general or a thrift store

Right Now: 

Eating: Nothing at this second

Drinking: Nothing at this second but later Jack & Coke/soda  and going to taste green apple Crown Royal with sprite,supposedly tastes like Jolly ranchers 

I’m about to: respond to @browneyedhunter, shes been waiting while I typed all of this and hopefully tonight......uh giggidy 

Listening to: keys typing and Jimmy’s snoring behind me 

Want Kids: in the future, someday, yes, very much 

Get Married: maybe, I’ll see if life let’s me but people say Jimmy and I are married. By people I mean my 62 yr old parents and his grandad, and his mom 

Career: I really want one someday, but, we have talked, and we would both be alright with being a SAHM too. Right now, I don’t feel like I am doing my part despite what everyone says; but as long as I feel like I am doing that, I am good

SO TIREED!!! SHOULDERS HUUURURRTT 

Lips or Eyes: who’s?

Hugs or kisses: again, who are we talking about?

Shorter or tall: I am shorter than everyone, @emoryhemsworth knows what I mean since we are both 4′9

Older or Younger: I have a thing for older guys

Romantic or Spontaneous: both

Sensitive or loud: those things don’t always necessarily correlate 

Hookup or Relationship: Relationship. Unless it is another girl’ then I couldn’t do a relationship unless it was Poly

Troublemaker or Hesitant: hesitant af 

Have You Ever:  

Kissed a stranger: no, that is how disease happens. Unless...I guess Jimmy was technically a stranger when I met him and we kissed 

Drank hard liquor: the hardest thing I have found I actually like is whiskey or Irish Trashcan 

Lost Contacts/ glasses: nope

Sex on first date: believe it or not i have only ever done it with one person

Broken someone’s heart: I think I broke Faith’s heart when I told her true things about disney,childhood movies, fairytales etc 

Been arrested: no, my parents have though XD

turned someone down: nope

Fallen for a friend: Yup, wish her well but she co go screw herself or that sweet soulles-

DO YOU BELIEVE: 

In yourself: most of the time, no

Miracles: yes, because of I have lived through some, many of them 

Love at First sight: i guess 

Ive tagged people lol, I am done 

[fireladybuckley]

Survey thingy

I was tagged by @southernbellestatues, and @outside-the-government! (and potentially others but broken tags, y’know) Thanks! :)

Tagging: @star-trekkin-across-theuniverse @fandomheadrush @medicatemedrmccoy @mcbonescoy @lt-sammi-matthews @secretgaygentdanvers @thevalesofanduin @kaitymccoy123  @dolamrothianlady @jefferson-in-the-tardis @taylorjacksonandtheolympians   + anyone else!  I have no idea who else has been tagged (I know quite a few people have already) so consider yourself tagged. :)

1. Drink? I’m trying to drink mostly water right now.  I am addicted to diet pepsi though (especially with cherry in it), and I’m also fond of most of David’s tea teas iced.

2. Phone Call? Usually my Mom or Gramma. 

3. Texting? Generally my Mom and @outside-the-government.  I don’t get a lot of texts lol

4. Last song you listened to?  I don’t remember what the last song I intentionally listened to was, but I’m currently listening to “Two Fux” by Queen/Adam Lambert in my head right now, so... that counts.

5. Last time you cried? When we watched Moana a few days ago.  

 6. Dated someone twice?  Edit: Was just informed this meant dating someone, then breaking up, then dating them again.  Yes, I have done this once, with my very first BF actually

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? Nah

8. Been cheated on?  Yes.  My high school BF was a dick.

9. Lost someone special? Unfortunately, yes.

10. Been depressed? A lot.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up? Nope.  I get uncomfortable really fast when I drink so I’ve never even really been properly drunk, let alone so drunk I’ll puke.

Favorite Colors

12. Deep blues

13. Deep purples

14. the teals of shallow ocean waters 

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends?  A few, I guess?   I’m pretty socially awkward so, I dunno.  I can never tell if someone is actually/wants to be friends with me regardless of how i feel about them.

16. Fallen out of love? Yep.

17. Laughed until you cried?  So many times.  Usually with Jules.  It hurts so much when we laugh that hard.

18. Found out someone was talking about you? *sigh* yep.

19. Met someone who changed you?  I once read that every person you meet shapes you and changes you, even just a tiny bit.  Some people far more than others... Jules, my family, several of my profs, and several of my friends have made me what I am today. <3

20. Found out who your friends are? Yep.  Too many people have stabbed me in the back in the past.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list? Yes indeed. 

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl? The vast majority of them.  A few are internet friends that live too far away to have met

23. Do you have any pets?  My two gorgeous kitties and two fish tanks.  I love my furbabies <3

24. Do you want to change your name?  I’ve seriously considered it.  Also considered legally adding a second middle name.  Haven’t decided on the middle name yet but I’m not going to change my first name anymore.  I’m not overly fond of “Danielle” but I do like “Dani” so I’ll live with it.

25. What did you do for your last birthday?  IIRC we went to the Valley Zoo here in Edmonton, I remember seeing Lucy (the elephant) and Jules bought me a little chameleon plushie dude :D  This year we’ll be camping on my birthday!

26. What time did you wake up? 7am, then 7:30, then 8:30, then 9:15, etc etc.  Eventually dragged my ass out of bed at 10

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?  Ummm playing WoW, I think.

28. Name something you can’t wait for:  Camping!  In just 3.5 weeks now!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?  Last May :(   Unless webcamming counts, then it was only a month or so ago haha. What happened to 30?

31. What are you listening to right now? Construction in the apartment above ours and the popping/cracking noises of Jules eating sunflower seeds. 

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?  Yeah, I had a crush on a guy named Tom when I was like 13.  He was fun.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves? The construction in the apartment above ours.  (Though the fact that they’re renovating in there means that a major source of my usual irritation is gone-the guys above us used to be very obnoxious)

34. Most visited website? Absolutely Tumblr.  Also Facebook, Not Always Right and WowHead are probably the next most visited.  (CHECK OUT NOT ALWAYS RIGHT, they have all kinds of funny stories)

35. Hair color. Medium brown with red undertones and a bit of light chesnutty/auburn from a past dye job.

36. Long or short hair? Long-ish, I had to get a few inches cut off recently so not as long as before.  But past my shoulders several inches for sure

37. Do you have a crush on someone?  I have crushes on so freaking many celebrities/characters, but my only RL crush is @outside-the-government ;)  Because she is my awesome GF.  Unless you count my soci prof, then yes okay I have one crush

38. What do you like about yourself? My sense of humor and love of/passion for nature

39. Piercings?  Two per ear lobe, one on my upper right ear (helix), and my left nostril.  Love my nose piercing <3

40. Blood type? B+, so I have to Be POSITIVE.  Kek.  Sorry that was terrible.

41. Nickname? Dani, Wifey

42. Relationship status? Common law. *squee*

43. Zodiac?  Leo!  (Also Tiger, for the Chinese one)

44: Pronouns: She/Her.

45. Favorite TV Show: Supergirl, Smallville, Warehouse 13.

46. Tattoos? Just my Serenity tattoo on my left ankle (that matches Jules’) for now.  I don’t have money for more but I want more SO BAD

47. Right or left handed? Right.

48. Surgery?  Dunno if it counts as actual “surgery” but my wisdom tooth extraction (I had 5) and I had a small cyst-y thing removed from my boob once.

49. Piercing?  This is a repeat

50. Sports?  I played soccer for most of my adolescence (8-16 yrs old)

51. Vacation? I’m too poor for a proper vacation haha.  We’re going camping in less than a month though so I’m psyched for that!

52. Pair of trainers? I had to retire my favourite pair fairly recently and I’m still sad haha.  Generally I wear knockoff skechers because they’re comfy AF

53. Eating? I had hot dogs for brunch.

54. Drinking? Water and coffee.

55. I’m about to? Get ready for work x| kill me.

56. Waiting for?  short term:  getting home from work and soaking my feet (and playing WoW) long term: camping and going back to school

57. Want? Some money would be nice.  And time off with Jules so we can do fun stuff.  Our schedules seem to be opposite lately, blah.  And for people to just be NICE to others ffs.

58. Get married?  Hopefully to my wifey one day <3

59. Career? If student is a career, then that.  Bio major BSc student.  

60. Hugs or kisses? Hugs <3

70. Turned someone down? Yeah, surprisingly.  It’s awkward AF.  Especially when it’s a complete stranger.

71. Sex on the first date? Definitely not.  I’m demi, I need some kind of connection first.

72. Broken someones heart? Probably not

73. Had your heart broken? Yep, several times.

74. Been arrested? Lol no, the most illegal thing I do on a regular basis is jaywalk.

75. Cried when someone died? Uh, yeah... I cry at sad commercials ffs, my empathy knows no bounds, especially if someone DIES.  ;_;

76.. Fallen for a friend?  Hell yes :D  @outside-the-government have been best friends for 13 years and a couple for 3, so... perfect example :D

do you believe in…

77. yourself? Sometimes, but definitely not often enough.

78. Miracles? I dunno.  Crazy, seemingly impossible shit definitely does happen but I’m not sure how I feel about it being called a “miracle”.  Dunno.

79. Love at first sight? Potentially... My parents met and married within 3 months (and at least half that time they were apart in different provinces)... might not have been love at first sight, but it was definitely something at first sight.

80. Santa Claus? I used to believe, then I realized that Santa has the same writing as Mom and all the same wrapping paper as us haha

81. Kiss on the first date? Yeah probably :)

82. Angels?  I dunno.  To believe in the generalized concept of “angels” you kind have to believe in God, Heaven and all that jazz, and I don’t.  I feel like there could be spirits watching over us, but I don’t think they’re actual angels, no..

83. Current best friends name?  Jules (and technically Nicole, we’ve been internet best friends for like 15 years, even though we don’t talk much at all lately (goddamn timezones))

84. Eye color?  Blue :)

85. Favorite movie?  Of all time?  Legally Blonde. Most recent favourite? Wonder Woman

[sstarkiid]

do all of the lovesick asks bitch. expose urself

wow, ok.

read more thing bc this is long and embarrassing

1: Do you have a current crush?

Two actually but who's counting

2: How long has your crush lasted?

Uhh a few months n then the other one is weird i can't answer that lmao

3: 5 songs that you have associated with your crush?

I'm……..not that sappy I can give u like one

Ice prince : Runaways by ATL

Space boy : Stars by Fun.

4: Do you think they've ever liked you back?

I mean. It's very likely.

5: Will you ever reveal your feelings to them?

Yea probably

6: What’s holding you back from making a move?

It's not that I haven't made a move but like. I am Fear.

7: Are you frightened by your feelings for them?

A lil

8: Do you think they could ever love you?

Maybe???? but i’m kind of an optimist

9: Do you love them?

Lol next question

10: Have you ever had a crush on someone you really shouldn't?

DEFINITELY. I CAN'T NAME ANYONE SPECIFICALLY BUT THE ANSWER IS PROBABLY YES.

11: Do you think anyone currently has a crush on you

...IT'S VERY LIKELY.

12: Ever had a crush on what you thought was a platonic friend?

Hi Jared

13: What would you do if your crush revealed they felt the same?

I'd probably need a second to process it but like probably hug ‘em idfk

14: Has your crush ever hurt you?

Nope!!!!

15: Have they made you cry by breaking your heart?

Nope!!!!!!!!!

16: Why do you like them?

Ice prince is fun to tease idk we go back n forth a lot but he's also a softie n listen he's dramatic enough to keep up w/ me

Space boy tells u like it is and he seems kinda scary or not,, nice at first maybe but he's actually also soft !!

They're also both hot as hell oh my god

17: Do you think you'll ever get over them?

I mean. If I had to I would but...  I don't WANT TO.

18: Do you have 1 specific song that is strongly associated with a certain memory or interaction with them?

Mmm not really?? Not yet?? It'll happen dw

19: The moment you knew you had feelings for them?

We both got scared of the firework finale on the 4th and I squeaked and he like held onto me n it was really funny n cute n I was just like “ok this is a thing now great”

Uhh I was doing the typical girl thing where I send screenshots of a conversation to a friend only the friend is his sister so………..i blame her it’s literally all her fault

20: What would they have to do for you to stop liking them?

Murder someone probably

Or y'know

Something equally as shitty n illegal

21: Have you ever fallen asleep with them?

Yea. Both. Napping is cool.

22: Held their hand?

Mmhm! Both but like that's not that weird

23: Kissed their cheek?

Yup. Both.

24: Kissed them on the lips?

Yeah. Both. Actually.

25: Gone down on them/ they've gone down on you?

N O P E

26: Had sex with them?

Nuh-uh.

27: Where on your body have they touched you?

This is…. A weird question I don't like it

28: Does their touch set your skin on fire?

Fire.

Ice prince.

Fire.

HM.

29: Do you get butterflies when they touch you?

Ok maybe

30: Do they make you smile like no one else can?

Y e a

31: Does their presence calm you?

Mmhmm.

32: Does it make you go crazy being around them and not 'being with' them?

Not… until recently but---

33: Are you friends with your crush?

Both of ‘em!

34: Have you always been friends?

Uhh I guess w/ Ice prince yes but not the other one

35: Last thing they messaged you about?

One was abt a dog, other one was abt coming over to hang out

36: Best phone call with them?

Hands down any call when I've been driving so I make my brother talk to them instead those are always fun

37: Last time you hung out with them?

I. I literally started answering this in one of their houses.

38: Ever been drunk together?

I DON'T DRINK

39: Fondest memory of them?

The fireworks show n then probs a few days ago when we just drove around n talked abt stuff

40: Ever made a mistake with them?

Mistake??????????? i don’t make those

41: Regretted not making a move?

Every day of my life but also I have literally kissed both of them so which is the truth

42: If you could go back in time to that moment, what would you do?

Nothing ‘cause I'm a big baby

43: Do you think that would change your current relationship with them?

Nope

44: If you could get a 100% honest answer from them, what 3 questions would you ask?

ok first FUCK THIS QUESTION

Ice prince

Do u. Actually wanna date or am I just the most gullible person ever

.......................so how do you feel about polyamory

Do u actually hate the puns or do u secretly enjoy them I need to know.

Space boy

Are you aware that you can literally text me for anything at any time?? Bc u should be

Were you ever afraid to talk to me?

Will you promise to talk to me before doing stupid shit so that at the very least i can tell u that ur an idiot,,, but like. affectionately.

45: Did they wish you Happy Birthday on your birthday?

My birthday is in like another month and I didn't know either of them really last year so they better

46: Have they ever tried to make a move?

?????????

Idk tbh

47: If so why did you miss it?

‘Cause I'm clueless as hell

48: Have they ever been infatuated with a friend of yours?

Don't think so

49: Are they single?

Lol yeah they're definitely single

50: Where were you when you felt the most for them?

IT'S ALWAYS WHEN THEY'RE SLEEPING they both just look so cute n peaceful n I get all mushy n wanna protect them but I'm weak as hell so

51: Any specific place you associate with them?

Mmmm not really

52: Films that make you think about them?

Disney films in general

Marvel movies for Ice prince bc NERD

53: Have you picked up a habit because of them?

I don't think so but it's also not unlikely

54: What was your first impression of them?

Ice prince seemed antisocial and idk abt space boy we were like 5 yrs old technically so who knows man

55: Has it altered since then?

LMAO YES

56: Do you remember the first thing you talked about?

Probably musicals bc I can't shut up ever and he was confused

And uhhh no unless u mean like when we started hanging out bc it was candy

57: First time they touched you?

COLD

HE DID IT TO SPITE ME AND IT WAS FUNNY BUT IT WAS SO COLD HOW

And I'm 99% certain I made him high five me before we ever spoke bc I'm a nuisance

58: Have they ever lied to you?

Not that I know of

59: What are their eyes like?

Ohhhhh my GOD

really......clear?? that’s not like. a good way to describe em but u know when u look up at the sky and it’s like. wow there are no clouds!! n then u feel the breeze and it’s kinda cold but it’s not unpleasant it’s?? p nice??? like. that.

cool as FRICK like what the hell i’m actually jealous they’re a rly pretty nice shade n then suddenly it’s!!! different!!!! and it’s like!!!!!!!!!!!!! a surprise a v good surprise which is fitting u just gotta look a lil and he’s full of lil surprises

60: What are you most attracted to about them?

well,, for one they’re both hot as hell, so. that. in general.

if u know anything abt me i’m a sucker for pretty eyes

i also like the “soft but pretends to not be” because i think it’s cute they’re also really good to cuddle with

61: Can you see a future with them?

well i can’t see one without ‘em so something’s gotta give here right?

62: Have you sabotaged things between you two?

i freaking hope not

63: Why? What were you afraid of achieving? Love? Happiness? Content? Disappointment?

why does this thing assume you said yes to the above question that’s kinda rude

64: Could they make you happy?

already do

65: Do you dream about them?

if we’re friends and you haven’t appeared in one of my dreams and done smth weird or random are we actually friends??

side note does daydreaming count LOL

66: What's something that only you two do?

i don’t think i “gently bully” anyone nearly as much as i do ice prince also the only one who actually can cuddle w/ me properly in the summer i’m js

uuuummmm go on random drives in the middle of the night so tht zoe can make out w/ ppl instead of texting our sorry asses

67: Does liking them make you feel vulnerable?

you. have. no idea.

68: Have they ever given you anything?

food has definitely been exchanged and shared. i’ve stolen sweaters. uh.

69: Have they ever used you?

.........not that i’m aware of??

70: Have they abused and manipulated you due to your feelings for them?

nO WHAT TH E

71: Have you ever spent quite literally all day and night thinking about them?

that’s......a bit much i might be pathetic and somewhat desperate but like i do kinda have a life

72: Have you ever accidentally nearly walked into moving traffic cause you were thinking about them?

no but i’ve walked into walls because i was tired and thinking abt stuff so that’s a thing i probably have done

73: Ever worn anything knowing it would draw their attention to you?

YEAH LMAO I DO THAT ALL THE TIME IN GENERAL i like attention fight me

74: Have they ever made you feel so safe and content everything else slips away?

y e ah

75: Ever held you so close you could feel their heartbeat?

mmhmm

76: Truthfully do you think you belong together right now?

[taylor swift’s you belong with me playing in the distance]

77: Have they ever seen you completely vulnerable?

um. no.

78: Do you trust them?

i would trust all of my friends with my life

79: When you see them what feelings are strongest?

i just get?? really happy n i turn into a little kid i swear to god how does he put up with me

n he makes me feel really calm n content n just. good. u know.

80: Are they in love or interested in someone else?

d e a r l o r d i h o p e n o t

81: If they asked you to kiss them, would you?

in a heartbeat

82: Will they be in your life a year from now?

they BETTER BE

83: A moment where you so nearly gave into your feelings for them and did something about it?

i have literally kissed both of them and not because of dares what kind of,,

84: Do they know you have feelings for them?

i’m not exactly,,, subtle

85: Do you have a favourite picture with them?

no but i have favorite pictures of them

86: Your ideal date with them?

hey. concept. a double date. but like. instead of 2 couples it’s just me w/ both of them wow

87: What's their name?

it’s rly obvious that i’m talking about porter and connor fuck you

88: Have you ever been in their room?

i’ve been in connor’s but porter n i mostly chill other places

89: Shared a secret with them?

yeah but it’s not a secret if i tell the internet now is it?

90: Have they ever made you a promise and broken it?

don’t think so

91: Have they ever disappointed you?

nope!

92: Whats the most problematic thing about them, which you overlook due to your feelings for them?

uh. idk. porter’s kinda closed off to other people at first i guess that could be problematic. i’m patient w/ that shit so it doesn’t bug me as much idk

general relationships or lack thereof w/ other ppl tbh for both of them i think 

93: Have you ever had to compete for their affection?

no

94: For as long as they're in your life could you handle just being friends?

that’s what i do with p much everyone else but another way to approach this is if u couldn’t be together would u shut them out and the answer is no?? bc that’s kinda shitty

so yes

95: Ever looked for a sign to make a move?

every?? single second of every day but once again i have literally kissed both of them uh

96: What's standing in your way from being with them?

general anxiety

a single conversation

...lmao

97: Would you let them use you for sex?

this implies that,, they don’t care abt me and only themselves n they’re not really?? like that so?? it wouldn’t happen like that??

realistically knowing myself i wanna say no but i probably would which is Not Good i know

98: Ever had a bad feeling about them that's screaming for you to get out while you still can?

no. like. literally the opposite. wtf

99: If you could go back in time, would you avoid ever meeting them?

NEVER

100: You have 1 wish about them, what would you wish for?

that porter finds someone who makes him feel warm n fuzzy on the inside even if it’s not me

n for connor that one day everything is stable and everything is ok

anyway hey jared U SUCK

[keyofshadows]

Mostly out of context and in no particular order.

Someone tell Henry to stop turning into Sora. Also Wendy is making me think of Namine. So who does that make Pan? Wait, Marluxia!

I keep wanting to cry happy tears and hug chibi Sora into little bits and this has Maya and Kai all upset- well, Maya's squeaking at Sora's cuteness and kinda spazzing over 'Can you imagine if Kai HAD been Riku's son' and we're not getting into that mess and Kai's just mostly upset because he misses his family damn it, even if he has friends where he is and a kid brother.

And hi, rambling because FEELS.

AUUUGH.

I've gone weird again.

Ahahaha, and the bad ideas keep coming. I wrote out a thing for the mods seeking permission for Heartless-related stuff. Haven't sent it yet 'cause I might be sane come morning. That and Kai's borderline freaking out. Something about not wanting his mother's past to be his future. Maybe I really just want an excuse to have a weird AU KH/WR crossover where Ray kicks his ass for training Shadows as minions.

Meanwhile Eli and Fen just sit on the sidelines and snicker.

I wanna go home and laugh at the trouble Kai's gotten into. Or not. I giggled earlier and was exhausted for 20 mins. But still, Kai just found out he's fucking with a 3,000 yr old spirit born of darkness. Somehow this is not phasing him as much as it should. He's either very much his mother's son (with all the issues that entails) or Riku and Sora rubbed off on him. Or he really IS Riku's, but Maya can dream. It's better than the truth, anyway.

Random 1 am thought: Eli as a kid, boasting to all his friends that he was kidnapped by an evil faerie before he was a year old and turned into a kitten.

"And she replaced me with a fake baby that turned inta sticks when my mama blew out my birthday candle! Isn't that NEAT?"

Amy: /facepalm Lanie: /jealous

"How come Eli gets ta do all the fun things?"

Eli: /smiiiirk

So I got this started during a low-pain point in my migraine, and Eli can't stop snickering. Despite the migraine Kai's post got me thinking. 'The last time...' in reference to wishing his dad was there. 'The last time he'd built a snow fort like this, it'd been in Christmas Town. His uncle had taken him and his dad to see Santa, when Kai was on the edge of not believing anymore. He was, after all, seven. His mom had stayed home, insisting she'd not only get a stocking full of coal, but would probably find herself buried under it.'

And she would've, too.

When someone introduces themselves as serving under a king, it's appropriate to use 'Keyblade wielder' after your own name, yes? Yes. Inwardly Kai's just like '.....fuuuuuck.' This was not how he wanted to become known to Henry. 'Yeah, I kinda adopted your adopted son as my kid brother, I swear I'm not a bad influence on him and I'm so sorry I attacked your knight unprovoked. Please don't have me executed.'

Newsflash: Kai doesn't know how to keep his mouth shut.

'They're kind of cute when they're not trying to eat your face.' - Best description of Shadows ever.

OMG it's so cold in this house why do I not know Firaga. Or where my gloves are. Or my scarf. Or hat. Assuming there's any money left next month I'm buying socks. I have...five pairs of socks? That don't have holes. And I'm not sure where three of them are. I'm wearing one and the other is...in my dresser. I think. Lol I'm totally on top of where my stuff is. This is why cleaning my room is bad. I can find my floor but nothing else. Ever. This'll be Eli someday. Only able to find things when they're strewn across his room. And he'll like it that way! "But mom, all great warriors have messy rooms! Uncle Sora told me so!" And you KNOW Larkin'll be the only one that can make him clean it properly. Threats and bribes. Though both may be the same thing.

Right in the middle of one of Xehanort's speeches and I got a migraine. I'm kinda disappointed.

Re: OUAT and hearts - DUDE HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK and Hello WR flashbacks. Also re: next week's ep and swords being present at a baby's birth - Yes, I imagine Jalen was armed when Eli was born.

That random idea I had a few days ago involves what Awiergan's supposed to be doing, you know, hunting down Mal's nobody and knifing her. She's certainly had prime opportunities to do it, what with her current masquerade. Amy and Jalen's wedding anniversary is the 5th this month, and I wanted Amy to be back to herself by then, however temporary. THEN I thought, hey, what if Awiergan went out, found the nobody, brutally killed her, and let Amy watch? The shock of that would be enough to let Amy push the Brat back under, and she could come home covered in blood freaking out. To who, I dunno yet. But hey, happy anniversary!

Um, what was the original plan for the Cornerstone of Darkness? And I vote we destroy Disney Castle. As in the whole world. Dunno what exactly that'd mean for the Cornerstone of Light, but hey. The one place everyone trusts to always be a refuge against the Darkness going bye-bye? Always a good time! *whacks Awiergan*

Eli insists on a new tradition = New Year's Day Bug Hunts. Every New Year starting from age 8, he's gonna spend the day looking for the weirdest, most colorful bugs he can find. He demands that Larkin accompany him and carry his jars. >>; I do not see that ending well for him. "I only asked her to carry seven jars! An' then she dropped 'em! Down a hill! WITH MY BUGS IN 'EM. THEY ROLLED INTO THE POND AND 'MOST DROWNED!"

...The last time I had a *really* awesome and entertaining idea, it was a plague that wiped out two-thirds of Hogwarts.

This kid is gonna be in so much trouble. Eli: "....Aunt Song, Larkin won't stop followin' me! She says she's gotta protect me from Heartless!" Amy: *snickers forever* "Good luck with that. This is why we don't pretend that Igor is real sweetie~"

I decided Lanie gets to learn magic from Ray too, because she'll need to help keep her brother in line. God forbid her best spell turns out to be Thunder.

Yay babies. Oh god, a three year old and a newborn why did I do this to Amy oh wait. *cackle*

I had this cute little dream where Auryn wakes up crying (He's like a week old) and Eli gets to him first, and is trying to calm him down so he doesn't wake Larkin 'cause she needs her rest, and god forbid his mom, 'cause he'll never get to hold his son again. *snicker* He finally gets the kid to pass out by putting Igor in the crib by Auryn's feet, then makes the comment, "Yeah, he was my favorite too."

Hahaha so adorable and sappy and damn it, men should not be attractive when wounded. (And this is where Jalen's eyebrows go into his hair because what conversations has he been missing)

And then there was that time that healing magic was backfiring and Jalen was stupid and fell off the bailey wall and broke his wrist, and instead of his wife going 'Oh, my Jale!' and cuddling him silly, she whacked him upside the head, gave him a lecture, and teased him for a week. *snort* But then, they have an weird relationship that'll be sure to amuse their children for years to come. Hell, it's amusing FEN.

Ahahaha. I love how Kai is all '.....How do I explain this?' Because apparently he was taught the honor thing but not exactly the why of it? Or he's just a dork. Let's go with that. Eli says that girls can take care of themselves, but you should at least make the attempt unless you want to get beat up. Speaking from eventual experience, no doubt. Also I love how that last sentence makes no and yet all the sense.

I've always sympathized with the villains. Maleficent was the first. I was four. *shifty eyes* I was a weird kid.

The game I've got Kai in is getting an expansion. The school's going to be revealed to be on an island. I'm happy. Kai on the other hand, not so much. Reminders of not-home and places he'd been with 'Jem, which are probably gonna lead to him hitting things with his Keyblade. Especially once he finds his Corridors STILL can't get him away from the damn place.

Suppose Kai could always just try and use his Keyblade to chop 'em up...and this is for a bonfire, actually, though I did think him trying to make a raft in an attempt to leave the island would be all sorts of funny and history sorta/not really repeating itself, but I gotta get mod permission for that first and I'll just shut up now.

Yay, they have access to the beach now. And someone else decided to try a raft, which I'm actually glad about. >_> Kai will instead make an idiot of himself trying to catch fish. And the 'here fishy fishy' is a ridiculous inside joke from the old game that I couldn't resist using even though no one will get it. Riku had a net and was out tromping through the shallow water on Destiny Islands, trying to catch dinner for himself, Sora, and Kairi. He finally managed, but he burned dinner afterward. *snerk*

Oops. Kai wants to know what the fuck I just got him into. *cackles madly* Hell if I know. I've got Eli on the sidelines lecturing him on Darkness. And Fen pointing out he should consider himself lucky he's never met Ray. *facepalm*

Yeah, so if the wyvern doesn't kill Kai, he's gonna take Eli's advice and call him Yen Sid. ...My muses should not be allowed to interact sometimes. Also now I've got Jalen snickering because hmm, who did he know that had problems with a wyvern? *facepalms forever*

Re: 'Driel - And why doesn't this kid have fear? She's a nine year old on her own in a strange place, and they had a 3-4 day blackout already, but she's just...peachy. Lonely for her family, sure, but she's met a 700 year old faerie that shifts into a wolf, a boy that's possessed by a 3,000 yr old malevolent spirit, a king from the 15th century, and now friggin' Death, and she's just hunky dory. This IS a good thing, yes?

IT'S LARKIN AND ELI LMAO Today, I was hanging out with a guy I like. We climbed a tree to watch the sunset, and as the sun went down, I kissed him. He fell out of the tree. FML