#i’m posting this on the 14th bc release date!! but this is all from the trailers

[fujikoi]

Yusuke Urameshi, I´m sending you back to life.

[kachinnate]

reblogn’t, there’s nothing too triggery about this it’s just semi personal re: how one of my ex-best friends ruined lgw from b//mc for me and also just like... in the same vein the Less Discussed portion of my spring of ‘19 Traumas bc this ex-best friend out of 3 caused the least damage and therefore in my mind he got away with a lot more

i’ve just been thinkin about it a lot, idk. i don’t think i’ve ever talked about this specific thing to anyone (explicitly or in detail) and it’s bothered me for so long and i know talking about it on here fixes nothing rlly but.. idk! some kayla lore if you wanted it, mayhaps this will get deleted in like ten minutes after being posted so get it hot while you can

just for context my junior year of high school (aka the Worst One) i drove my at-the-time best friend to school every day -- we lived like a street away from each other, and he didn’t like the Bus and he wasn’t always able to take his mom’s car because we both did theatre together and therefore would be at the school for a Long Ass Time, and like... he was my friend! so i drove him to school! and.. in times like that, it was a good incentive to get myself up, too, cuz shit was lowkey rough back then and i’d feel bad if i made both of us late. 

said best friend was super into musical theatre - like, he wanted to be a musical theatre major, so he’s super well versed on like Most Musicals all the classics w/e .. snob doesn’t feel like the right word bc sometimes he genuinely Did like stuff that was simply Silly/dumb for the sake of it being Silly/dumb but it’s the closest word i can think of. i was constantly embarrassed that my favorite musical was d//eh, and to this day he still barely knows anything about it because 1. he himself didn’t listen/pay much attention to it and 2. despite it literally being my hyperfixation since like my sophomore year, i didn’t feel comfortable talking to him about it bc of what few criticisms he gave it. but he did know it was my fav, he knew that i had a Love for w/rol bc i talked abt him a lot. 

lgw was the first thing from b//mc broadway to get released - and i know like 3-4 different versions of it got released too lmao but this was like the Very First One, i’d never heard it before! i didn’t realize it’d been released until i was idling in front of his house so naturally i was like “oh bet let’s listen to it together” 

he didn’t really like b//mc either for the same reasons he didn’t like d//eh, but it was like... much less so, idk - he liked m//itb so like i figured it was indifference at best.. but regardless uh my fuckin car i’m gonna listen to it if i want to <3 also like if it was good i doubt he’d care abt what it was from 

anyway, he got in, and i played it. the drive to school isn’t that far, so it finished like, while we were in the busy lane waiting to turn into our high school

and like i was really “:DD” bc like it was good that w/rol note held out at the end was kinda Magical and also in context of the musical??? wow YES jeremy finally getting his Protagonist Song(tm) he deserves it and it makes me feel !!!

i hadn’t said anything yet, but literally the first words out of my friend’s mouth were some semblance of “wow, that was terrible” which like. yeah. killed the mood pretty quick skdjgnsdf

he like started digging Into it like making fun of the chorus and will’s voice and i was kinda just quiet like “oh,,, i guess,,” bc i didn’t know what else to do, like i felt bad immediately trying to defend it bc i’d only heard it that One time and also confrontation is hard and confrontation specifically w him was hard, especially bc he was like Genuinely ragging on the song, not in a jokey way

and like.... he eventually stopped because he could tell i was genuinely getting distressed and he kept going like “hey it’s nbd kayla it’s not like you wrote the song” which jsdkgsd to this day i’m not sure what that means or why he thought it’d be comforting but. whatever. the whole thing made me feel really bad and inferior 

in the coming weeks of the actual b//mc soundtrack getting released he also made fun of ilpr at one point, how st/ephanie h/su was “”too much”” or something - idk. those criticisms didn’t bug me as much bc at that point i’d already been resigned about the whole thing, and it’s not like i played that song for him and he said that, he’d listened to it on his own time and just thought for some reason to mention it to me. 

and it’s frustrating, because i can’t even be like “he just doesn’t like new musicals”, bc he really liked h//adestown and there’s usually a musical or two from the tony’s every year he gets into, it was just like... the ones i liked he didn’t [pensive] and i know i know it wasn’t personal, he’s just LIKE that, but .... aughhh it really bothered me when he’d dig into stuff i liked and was always just like “u didn’t write it u didn’t make it” like that was supposed to make my interest in this Thing despite his Distaste ok.... 

and like despite this he was still the person i was closest to - this was merely a blip in the whole grand scheme of things, just.. something that bugged me. it took me until after i graduated to realize he’d been a sociopath, that he was never choosing me, i was just.. around, which. sucks. i spent a lot of time sitting with him in my car in front of his house talking about musicals and life for more hours than i’d like to admit. when he broke down crying on his 18th birthday telling us that he didn’t know if he’d ever be enough, i thought that i’d actually started to understand him. 

he’d been my ‘best friend’ since elementary school. i dated him at one point before we both realized we were queer. we’d been the only two seniors who’d been in every show together. despite all the bullshit, he was always there. he assimilated to the personality of our friend group every year when we were around different people, but he was still around, i was still always there for him - he couldn’t assimilate to my personality because to him there were no traits to take, we’d known each other for too long. 

a couple weeks into senior year, i full on sobbed to him in my car telling him about how he and the friend group made me feel so bad last year, told him about how i stopped taking my meds during the musical. he told me that he had no idea that i was feeling like that, that he didn’t know. but i’d driven him to school every day.

the last time we’ve talked in person was march 14th, the last day school for the 2019-2020 year was in session. 

i haven’t taken it off, but i skip lgw whenever it comes on my musical playlist because it still makes my chest feel tight.

[cryptidmads]

alright, so I’ve been thinking about overwatch’s potential lineup of content for may, particularly when anniversary might start bc that’s what’s on everyone’s mind atm. and after talking to some discord pals and thinking to myself for a bit, i’ve settled on two possibilities (that i personally would like to see).

before i list them off, i just wanna make note that we’re most likely going to get an event of some kind next thursday at 3pm (atlantic time), which is the usual update time. the current comp season (season 21) is scheduled to end in 6 days (which is really 6 days and some odd hours but they never specify how many hours that is), and so it makes sense that we would get something right after that season ends and the new one begins imo, especially considering that 3pm atlantic time is the time they release patches to the live servers, including the start of events like anniversary.

(fair warning that this is a bit of a long post and i’m on mobile so i can’t put in a read more, sorry!)

the first possibility i have in mind is the one that makes a bit more sense logically and follows dates from previous years. anniversary has always started on the tuesday closest to may 24th, which is ovw’s actual birthday. so, if we’re set to get something next thursday, we could potentially get a mini two week challenge event (possibly with a short story being released the day before?).

it would make sense in terms of traditional anniversary start dates, but the only gripe i have with it is that if it ran for two weeks starting on the 7th of may, then it would end on the 21st of may, which would surely be the anniversary starting date if it’s not the 19th. so in order to make sure it starts at the right time, the challenge would have to end a couple days before the 21st, making it not completely two weeks, which is something mini challenge events don’t normally do.

there’s also the possibility of the challenge beginning on tuesday the 5th, ending on tuesday the 19th, and anniversary beginning on thursday the 21st, but that conflicts with the strong evidence of an event coming next thursday.

the other possibility i have laid out might sound a bit far fetched at first, but i feel like it has more facts to support it, rather than the previous idea which was mostly guesswork with shaky conclusions tbh. what if anniversary actually began on may 7th?

i know you’re probably thinking I’ve lost my mind, but as arthur conan doyle once said, “When you remove the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.” and think about it:

- if it started on the 7th and went for three weeks, it would end on the 28th, meaning that the 24th would be in the event period timeframe and it would leave the whole month of june open for content (and probably a short story). there would be no ending of something else to interfere with the start of anniversary if this theory is true

- the 7th is a thursday, and the last two seasonal events we got (year of the rat and archives) started on thursdays

- (almost) none of the Important Content Dates for this year have been consistent with the ones from previous years, and although anniversary is an event that’s fixed around one day, it’s safe to say we have a bit more leniency when it comes to our guesses this year if you ask me

- jeff said in an interview with pcgamesn from a little over a month ago that the team was working on some stuff for summer games. if they were working on stuff for summer games back then, wouldn’t that imply that they had at least a good chunk of anniversary stuff done all the way back in late march, just waiting for the event to roll around so they can release it?

- what other guesses do we have? sure, there’s the 12th and 14th, but that also butts heads with the evidence of something arriving on the 7th. this is one of the only layouts i can think of where the dates both make sense (even if it takes some thinking at first) and keep the surprise factor that pretty much every other important date has had so far this year.

i think the only piece of this theory i’m missing is the one i can’t get myself, and that is a background update. in case you don’t know, seasonal events like anniversary always have a background update that needs to be installed a couple days before the event goes up so it can load the new menu screen and stuff (i think). iirc, these updates only happen on pc, so if any pc folks happen to get a background update in the days leading up to the 7th, feel free to tip me off bc i genuinely wanna see if i’m right on this or not haha

alright, i’m done rambling and it’s 2:30 in the morning so if u wanna add anything or say something just drop an ask and i’ll probably answer it when i wake up gnight