#i’m lowkey retarded

[fag3t]

seeing tags that look like mine around my city and being really shocked like “WAIT…wait…that’s me! that’s me, that’s kjøtt (or ‘that’s xax’)!!” and then it’s like “wait..i didn’t do that shit…nawww, nawewww matthew you delusional as fuck..” like what…like i’m seriously stupid

[omegawolverine]

hi can u tell me what dinner in america is about? i wanna watch it but i wanna know what i’m signing up for!

omg hiii yes :3 im bad at explaining movies so bear with me here but like. okay so id say it falls in romcom territory, idk what the official genre is but it's definitely a funny romance so we're going with that. the main idea is that this guy simon is lowkey wanted by the police and he ends up hiding in this girl patty's house out of convenience bc they run into each other and she recognizes him from a class they had together in college (they're like 20). during this first night when he convinces her parents to let him stay by lying through his teeth he finds out that patty is a huge fan of the punk band he is a frontman of but she doesn't know it's him bc he wears a mask to every show and she's been sending him these love poems (amongst other things...u can find that out for urself) that he's saved literally every single one of bc he thinks she's like a lyrical genius and he's kinda infatuated just by that alone (and the other things inside them........lul)

one thing to note is that patty has some unnamed disability (or multiple bc it's kinda implied she might also have epilepsy and she's on 5 different meds), the popular theory is autism which i think checks out pretty well, so a lot of this movie features her getting called retard amongst other similar comments. i say this both as a warning but also bc it's pretty plot relevant as a huge part of the movie is simon basically helping her get back at people but also grow into herself and learn how to defend herself bc she kinda just let's people treat her like shit bc its her normal (even her parents infantalize her so ofc she thinks it's okay when everyone else treats her like she's stupid).

i don't wanna give too much else away but yeah long story short: fangirl accidentally meets her idol and he falls for her and she falls back before even knowing and they help each other grow yayyy! other general warnings are like homophobia i guess but when simon says dyke and fag it's like yeah he's def a fruitcake so whatever but other characters also do it so ya know! and also obvs the ableism and there's like sexual harassment in a couple scenes but it's like. akin to kurt and ram from heathers type weirdo shit, if that helps paint a picture. mostly the movie is just funny and cute tho! very heartwarming in the 2nd half imo <3 lmk if you watch it and what you think!!

[taeminscoconuthead]

i lowkey want to fucking leave this app rn there are so many retarded people blaming newbies for overtagging when they didn’t mean to. i know i’m already having bad rep and they’re just crying like a baby but i’m super frustrated.

those people just makes me want to kill myself right now. this is why i don’t use this app anymore. i had an argument with someone when i was 14 and never came back ever since. i only came back for our g. people like this are fucking delusional and they all need to die already.

Takashi, are you alright? No seriously, are you doing well?

Look, I'm so sorry you had an encounter like that in this app. The best I could say is to ignore those people the very moment they start speaking. This is why I hate debating or arguing with people online. Sometimes, you're better of leaving them to be. If they're very unlikable, then you gotta show them that. By speaking to them, you're giving them attention that they desperately need. Don't worry, they'll forget about you once nobody stands by their side.

Also, if you want to speak to someone, you know always here. You can dm me here or go to my main account. Whichever you prefer.

[32flavorsotbbg]

8.23

Yo what if I’m retarded

Cause I’m here in this fucking tshirt and I am stoned and I feel like a big toe and idk I just feel so fucking WEIRD

I mean…. Lmao i am…. High 🙂‍↕️

But I feel like a big toe in the sense that like WHAT IF I CARE TOO FUCKING MUCH like why am I out here looking like a fucking big toe concerned over a man. I know how that sounds but I don’t mean it in a fuck men way LMAO of course

I just mean in like a why tfffffff am I like this???

There is a degree to which I am overthinking it for sure. Like it is very embarrassing in my head. Picturing myself being like this thirsty little thing. I was too sober 😂 in the trenches

Oh man oh man.

Okay at least I’m aware now though!!!!! I gotta move more intentionally.

And that’s the long and short of it. I got a big twitch just then.

Very interesting stuff, the unavailable guy stuff. God I feel like suuuuuch a fucking weirdo.

But if I was such a weirdo why would he say those things? Why would he act the way he did?

Probably because he’s a wounded man. But yeah like wtf does that have to do with me 🫣

Damn daddy by drakeo was on just now and it was cracking me up

I think was an urge and signal to step back and reevaluate. Yes someone can want something in one state and then step back from it and realize (self control is on right now and it is also the song frank ocean started with at fyf 🤪) that it’s…… a lot. I feel that way right now. I feel like I respect the approach lowkey tho. That was gentle in the number of steps. God I have such a big ick in my body.

Lol and yeah that’s scary. Because I do really feel those other ways about him. But WHY (this is a misleading why)

And I think that’s so real like yeah we feel these ways but we don’t know each other. Eliminating the physical aspect was honestly so key to kinda zap us out of that dust devil lmao

Yeah that was the sign to steeeepppppppp baaaaaacckkk.

You never really know how someone really feels.

Just the…… ew idk. All of it. All of it all of it.

I feel very closed off at this moment. I feel reluctant and ashamed lmao that legit tickles me to say how I feel.

But I’m honestly having the time of my life. Like in this moment even with the absolutely crushing weight of my shame LMAOOOOOO I am really enjoying smoking and listing to music by my fucking self. I’m listening to the self control (is the song frank started with at fyf) playlist and damn! Shamira and I were really vibing down ahahahahahahha playlist kinda goes 🙂‍↔️

What a time what a time

Just imagining it from his perspective is so humbling lmao I’m acting/existing and someone else is perceiving that 🤢

Now is time to dig in.

Interesting turn of events. So many scenarios playing out my head at once. Past present and future.

Fuck lmao I went to sleep again. Like halfway tho lmao it wasn’t that bad. I just had to fucking chew on some human emotions for a minute and bit a live wire. That’s my bad. But believe I have been snapped back to my right mind.

I feel insecure about the way I am? But you know what tho I have a lot of pure love to give. More discernment. Turn it up. Take it further than the vibe. Further than the surface feeling.

Be fucking cool girlypop go back to not giving a fuck!! I feel very activated ☺️

I gotta hop up off this now and go back to enjoying music lmao fuck this

[yeah-they-call-me-d]

it’s so weird going through this with *****. i do really like her and i haven’t felt like this about a person. she spent the night and genuinely we just laughed all night. i call her a boomer despite her only being 4 years older than me. she called me a retard last night and i have never liked someone more. we laughed about her home having a tv tray and lawn chair because she can’t fit a table into her studio. i had to simp for her lowkey but i couldn’t have imagined a better outcome. she really does make me so happy and i think i am going to actually fall in love with her. she keeps telling me how much she likes me and gassing me up. she told me some deep stuff about her and it made me like her more. she has been so open and communicative with me. she’s taking me to pinball this week and i cannot wait. i showed her my pokemon cards and she gave me mild shit about some. i haven’t liked someone like this ever. i’m making her a hot topic milf shirt because i think i may fall in love with her. her birthday is coming up and i want to take her on a trip to do something nice for her. she’s so kind and soft but also likes the dark side of me that comes out. she has so many tattoos and they’re all so good. i love the snake around her neck. i have never wanted someone so much in my life.

[classyhipbitxh]

Can’t be 😭😭 I’m lowkey retarded��ion even like myself sometimes 😂😂😂

[d-parade]

ay, call me a cunt, call me an asshole, a retard whatever

all i’m saying is where are the transsex male motherfuckers who straight up a toxic man whose mind is only filled with sex, woman and gym

they bound to be somewhere…

lowkey kinda tired from all the chill and nice folks i just need some hardcore homeboys yeaa?

[onlyplatonicirl]

WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY CALL YOU THAT?! MY PARENTS YELL AT ME FOR LAYING IN BED ALL DAY, BUT THEY WOULD NEVER CALL ME THAT!! THAT IS JUST WAY TO FAR!!! I'm angry right now smh. 😠 I'm sorry you have to deal with this, you don't deserve to..

Content warning bad strong not politically correct language and also I vent a little bit???? Idk u don’t have to read this.

That is NOT the worst thing my parents have called me LMAO

They can get a little UHHHHH politically incorrect. Including but not limited to “retard, autistic, shithead, fucker, loser, trash, loner, stupid little bitch” they’ve told me they hate me on multiple occasions my mom says I’m the main source of her suffering and the household would be better once I’m gone and I’ll never amount to anything because I’m too stupid yadda yadda yadda I get it a lot. It doesn’t really bother me anymore.

Also not to offend anyone with autism but people calling me that is a severe trigger because I was but in a school for severely autistic children for two years in elementary and it made me lowkey dislike myself because I just wanted to be normal and not have to take 2 hours of social skills classes every day. Spoiler Alert: I don’t have autism. I don’t even have ADD.

She doesn’t mean it but I’d rather she didn’t say stuff like that. And then she makes fun of me for crying so that’s not fun either.

Like, I’m mentally fine, I just get exhausted. I made some vent art last night and it helped me a lot. I vent to my online friends sometimes but I always feel bad because this stuff happens a lot so I feel like I come off as a constant whiny baby

[thatcreepydoll]

bro they fr said i’m going to hell, called me the witches from hocus pocus (that was lowkey so funny) said im gay because im goth (no problem with LGBT people obviously but like bro 💀) called me a sinner when WERE ALL SINNERS, called me the n word and were making no sense

i’m surprised they didn’t call me autistic or a retard. would’ve been funny to see their reaction when i told them i actually am autistic 💀💀💀

ain’t no way someone on my snap told me i can’t be a christian because i’m a goth 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

[themarauderstheoutsidersandpeggy]

Hi!! Any chance you could do like what a lazy day with each marauder would be like? Because I’m in need of fluff

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JAMES POTTER

Okay he is the laziest of beings 

And so he love love loves when you show up at his dorm door at eight in the morning wrapped in a big blanket and eyes half closed

Hair all messy

Pajama-clad

Loves it

He runs to the door every time you come and scoops you up in his arms

He laughs at your screams and tosses you on the bed before tackling you

“JAMES!”

“Shhhh it’s a lazy day let’s sleep.”

You just laughed at the sleepy boi that was already closing his eyes with his head resting on his chest

He steals from Remus’ chocolate stash bc Remus tried really hard to hide it but everyone’s caught him at least once getting chocolate from the hiding place

SIRIUS BLACK

He’s a dog ffs

He enjoys running around and all but you offer him a lazy day of snuggles and???

Sometimes he does transform for you so that you can pet him and just have a fun time with an animal

But sometimes he stays as Sirius and just holds you

You can lowkey feel him smelling your head like every ten seconds and you’re like wtf dude

“Your shampoo just smells really good babe.”

He likes being the big spoon because yay protecc the bby but then sometimes you offer him the little spoon and yes??

He lays in your arms and snuggles into you

REMUS LUPIN

Okay so Remus usually asks for lazy days before and after the full moon

Because boi is tired and angry and just wants a cuddle

And of course you oblige because REMUS???

He’s almost never the big spoon unless you’ve had a particularly bad day

But he just really likes being in your arms and the feeling of you holding him is really comforting

Because sometimes he gets insecure that you might find someone better

And you always reassure him that, “There is no one better for me than you Remus.”

“But babe-”

“Shut up, you’re amazing.”

He shares his chocolate with you but he makes you turn around while he gets it because, “The boys are persuasive and I don’t want you getting sucked in my their mind tricks baby. Now turn around, close your eyes, and don’t listen.”

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[lezzybugo3o]

Character Ownership

(Warning: Long Post Ahead)

I’m gonna set up a scenario and I’d like to see your responses to this. It’s kind of important and I’m also trying to prove a point about who a character belongs to and such.

So let’s say there are two friends named Katie and Elizabeth.

Katie is minding her own business when Elizabeth says “Hey, we should make a werewolf boyfriend for my character Tony.”

Of course, Katie agrees because she likes making characters. So she does some thinking and researching. “Okay, let’s make our werewolf boyfriend a blue-colored wolf so he can blend in with night colors... plus it will contrast his hot-tempered personality since I see him as a bold and brash character. Opposites attract and all that.”

“Sure thing, I guess. What should we name him then?”

“Ummm, let me see... I’m not so good with names but I’ll think of one,” admits Katie.

“It’s okay! I got a few suggestions already. There’s Sable, Corbin, and Jodan. I kinda like Corbin to be honest.”

“Hmm, yeah I like Corbin too! Corbin it is!”

So Katie and Elizabeth have fun creating scenarios for Corbin and Tony. But after some time, Elizabeth starts to call Katie from time to time, most likely to chat and geek out about their characters. Granted, Katie has time to spare, but she’s not one to talk on the phone a lot and whenever she gives a text saying “Hey, sorry. I’m eating breakfast rn”, Elizabeth would respond with a text saying “Hurry up and call me when you’re done.”

A couple months later, Katie gets a message from Elizabeth asking if she could join a Discord server that Katie is a part of that deals in making personas for a popular game. Katie says “yes but you have to provide a link to a profile of yours from a social media platform.”

“....Why?”

“It’s a new policy of ours on the server. One of ours friends had a bad experience with someone and we just wanna take precautions.”

“Why should they have to check out my blog just to coddle someone?”

Katie knows that Elizabeth can be difficult from time to time, but already her callous words are bothering her. After some convincing, Elizabeth agrees to give a link to her Instagram and Tumblr, but not without some... questionable words along the lines of  “If I see any of your dumb buddies on my Instagram, I will shove my foot up their ass. I watch my followers comments and likes like a hawk.” She then continues saying “Oh and if I find out you’ve been shipping Corbin with your other buddies’ werewolves on the Monster server, I’ll be super pissed and not talk to you for a long time. Their lame wolves aren’t good enough for him... omg you already did do it didn’t you?”

At this point, Katie had gotten fed up with how Elizabeth had been acting. During the month, she had been working on Corbin, his backstory and even some developments like giving him a human to bond with and two small pups of his own. She had shared the new info with Elizabeth, thinking she would enjoy the new content... instead Elizabeth seemed more concerned that Katie had made Corbin into something different than what SHE was hoping for, it seems. Katie then spoke up, “Okay I have to ask... why are you so possessive over Corbin? And for that matter, why are you so possessive of Jenna?” (Jenna is a werewolfsona of Katie’s that was made when Elizabeth told her she should make a persona of her)

Elizabeth got quiet and then said, “I thought he was made to be Tony’s boyfriend... but I guess not. I don’t wanna be in your server anymore. Unfollow my Tumblr while you’re at it.” Katie, wanting to preserve their friendship, tries to tell Elizabeth, “Corbin may have started out that way, but he grew into more than just a boyfriend character. I love putting him and Tony together, but I also like to multiship. I don’t want our friendship to end because of some ships.” Then Elizabeth continues to text Katie demanding to change Corbin’s name. Katie refused because she liked the name and doesn’t see why she has to change it. Her “friend” would not budge however and kept demanding that she change his name. Whether for her own good or because she wanted the arguing to stop, Katie lied and said “Okay, I’ll change it.”

And that was that... until a few months later. Katie had become a mod for a roleplaying server and at some point, she decided to invite Elizabeth to join the fun... soon enough, she began to regret her decision, remembering her ‘friend’ and her toxic behavior with her.

The deal was sealed when Katie and some friends on the server were bringing up which OCs of theirs they liked from one another. She was also on the phone with Elizabeth at the moment. When friends began to say they really loved Corbin and how Katie portrayed him... Elizabeth made her anger known by saying “You said you changed his name” and began calling Katie a ‘thieving liar’. The others began to tell Elizabeth to stop her behavior being nothing but polite until she herself left the server and hung up on Katie, telling her ‘goodbye’ and ‘how she now has to live with the fact that their friendship was fixed thanks to a lie’....

With all this said, who do you all think Corbin belongs in this situation? Katie or Elizabeth? In all honesty, I would say Katie because she’s the one that developed and designed Corbin into the character he is whereas Elizabeth merely gave name suggestions.

I WISH this was a fake scenario and I WISH I could say this was a funny little story... but truth be told, this was a real story with different names because I don’t want to start a witch hunt. I was Katie in this scenario and Corbin the werewolf? That was my bull shark Zora Seirin. I had a ‘friend’ (Elizabeth in this scenario) who was so damn obsessive over him and what I did with him and Reimi (my Zorasona). It wasn’t until recently that I finally decided to cut ties with that person after all the toxic behavior they put me through and I was pissed to see them act the way they did to my friends as well, calling them and their OCs ‘retarded’ and/or ‘lame’. I put so much love and care into Seirin’s backstory and his development as a character, therefore he’s MY character. Yet my so-called friend had the gall to say that because she named him, he’s hers  but ‘Lezzy lowkey stole him’ (an actual comment she made on our server)

All I can say is that as shitty as this situation was, it gave me the courage to finally block them, unfriend them and basically want nothing more to do with them. It also showed me just how lucky I am to have friends who truly care about me and my safety and it also made me cry seeing how much they grew to love my characters and my ideas.

Hopefully, I can avoid something like this, but if it can’t I know what to do this time. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope you all have a great one

[domingoanoite]

This is a Q&A that I answered on this blog when I was 24. I decided to revisit it 6 years later and update some of the answers, even though most of them remain the same (guess I’m consistent) Some truths about myself:

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? -More milk than cereal 2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? -Kind of (nowadays I would say no coz it also freezes my nose and ears lol) 3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? -Anything close to me; pencils, post-its, my phone, etc  4: how do you take your coffee/tea? -Sugar is essential 5: are you self-conscious of your smile? -Yes 6: do you keep plants? -No, they are boring (and I kill all of them) 7: do you name your plants? -Lol 8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? -I'm very bad at expressing them, actually I normally keep my feelings to myself 9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? -Oh yes 10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? -All of them 11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? -There are so many! All very retarded, of course 12: what's your favorite planet? -Saturn (I changed to Venus, I guess) 13: what's something that made you smile today? -Vines of dogs (OMG vines! nowadays it’s more accurate to say tiktoks of cats) 14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? -Like a nerd palace; full of games and food everywhere (I live with my best friend now, and our house is lowkey nerdy yes) 15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! -The Earth’s rotation is gradually slowing. This deceleration is happening almost imperceptibly, at approximately 17 milliseconds per hundred years. (oh my!) (also,  a full nasa space suit costs 12 million dollars.) 16: what's your favorite pasta dish? -Lasagne! (nice answer girl) 17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? -Purple or pink; my mum never let me dye my hair, so now I'm 24 and I've been craving for it (I managed to dye it pink 3 years ago!!!!) 18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. -Once I made a birthday cake for my friend with four legs and a square on top; like a chair. It was hideous, and they never let me forget it 19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? -Nope. Never had one because I'm afraid people would read it (I just started scrapbooking now) 20: what's your favorite eye color? -Gray, like Amy Lee's 21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. -I have this tetris themed backpack for so many years and it's still brand new; I love it (still have it, still looks brand new) 22: are you a morning person? -Noooo 23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? -Play games on the pc; omg I just love it 24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? -Yes, my group of friends from school are still the best creatures I've ever met (plus, today I would say also my husband) 25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? -I don't think I've ever broken into a nice place :( 26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? -a pair of oxford shoes with a gorgeous pattern of lines and curves, kind of victorian style; it's falling apart but I love it (still have it, but it’s back in Brazil and I dont wear it because I want to preserve that beauty) 27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? -Strawberry of tutti-frutti 28: sunrise or sunset? -Sunset; I'm never awake to see the sunrise lol 29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? -I have this Charlotte friend here in Bournemouth that has the cutest laugh ever (she just had a lovely baby girl :)) 30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? -Of course 31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. -Socks are amazing. I love socks. I wanted to glue socks on my feet forever. I love weird socks with different themes and colours, and I rarely wear white ones. It's mandatory for me to sleep with socks, even in a hot night. I'm wearing socks right now (I couldn’t have answered this better) 32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. -Nothing good happens after 3AM. If I'm awake at this time, I'm possibly drunk, so you can imagine (bitch nowadays I’m only awake at 3am if I’m at the hospital with SOMEONE WHO IS ABOUT TO DIE)  33: what's your fave pastry? -Birthday cake, especially strawberry 34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? -I have this cute polar bear with a pink dress that is still in my room; it has a boyfriend too, a polar bear with a christmas outfit but his head is almost falling from the body HAHAHA (I hope my mum didn’t get rid of it at this point, idk) 35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? -I used to have loads as a teenager, with different colours and such. Nowadays I don't really care about pens, and most of them are stolen 36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? -Muse, forever and always (always! <3) 37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? -Clean and messy. Clean above all 38: tell us about your pet peeves! -I'm obssessed about cleaning; the fizzy drink bottles must ALWAYS be closed with their lids, my hair must be perfect at all times and I can't stand being without a bra (I think at the time I really didn’t know what a pet peeve was; to answer this better, I would say when people chew with their mouth open) 39: what color do you wear the most? -Blue (only dark and sober tbh) 40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? -I have this gorgeous pearl ring that my grandma gave me, and her grandma gave it to her. It's the most precious material thing I own (also wedding rings now but I dont really wear them) 41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? -The green mile by Stephen King (oof! more recently, song of achiles by madeline miller and alias grace by margaret atwood) 42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! -not really 43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? -I don't normally gaze at the stars lol 44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? -I feel it all the time 45: do you trust your instincts a lot? -Yes (not really, liar, you ignore them and than feel stupid. I’m trying to listen to it more!!!!) 46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. -How do you make the number one disappear? Add the letter G and it's "gone" (lady walks into the shop and orders 12 bees. guy gives her 13. she says: but thats too many bees! he says: one of them is a freebie) 47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? -Olives and any spicy food aaaaaargh 48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? -Darkness; I slept with the lights on until I was 17. Today I'm not scared of it anymore 49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? -Nope hehe last one I bought was in 2002 (spotify bitch, hello) 50: what's an odd thing you collect? -I don't collect anything 51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? -My boyfriend Brendan; No Diggity by Chet Faker (Bren is my husband now!) 52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? -I'm Brazilian, so I would say "o meme da senhora" (the memes about the Queen’s death this year were brilliant) 53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? _I've only watched pulp fiction; I thought it was meh (still true, I also watched rocky horror and it’s very weird. the rest are yet to be seen) 54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? -This picture of a pug on a calendar 55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? -LOL I was playing goat simulator with Brendan and I told him not to go to this certain place. He went and got fucked. I screamed for 5 minutes WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE ME? DAAAM IT! (I dont remember doing this xD) 56: what are some things you find endearing in people? -When they react to animals; when they make funny voices and faces and when they share stories from their childhood 57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? -It always makes me sing along in the most dramatic way possible 58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? -Oh my god LOL I don't know how to answer this question  59: what's your favorite myth? -I love the Deathly Hallows heh (I love myths, give me more myths!) 60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? -Nah, poetry is lame 61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? -I gave a bunch of condoms to my friend that was turning 18; once I received clothes 62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? -Only at certain weekends when my mum makes me orange juice (nobody makes me juice nowadays) 63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? -I have an ebook that is really precious and I take it everywhere. The physical ones are meticulously organized. I don't care about my music lol I can listen to anything on Youtube (spotify!!! youtube became annoying with all the ads) 64: what color is the sky where you are right now? -Light blue with a lot of clouds (gray, it could rain) 65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? -MY DOOOGS (I’ve seen them last week <3) 66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? -I don't care about flowers lol but I like roses 67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? -Makes me wanna read dark stories 68: what's winter like where you live? -In Brazil it's hot as summer (here in London it’s cold, nothing else to add.) 69: what are your favorite board games? -Monopoly and scrabble 70: have you ever used a ouija board? -Nope 71: what's your favorite kind of tea? -I prefer hot chocolate (or chai latte) 72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? -Not really (my memory is worse now tho) 73: what are some of your worst habits? -Touching my hair all the time (Bren would say my clapping) 74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. -It is one of my best friends since we were eleven. It loves nature and travelling, looks like a free, delicate bird that smiles all the time and I feel we can spend years without talking to each other, but when we meet again, nothing changes really  75: tell us about your pets! -I'M SO GLAD THIS QUESTION ARRIVED I'M INSANELY IN LOVE WITH ANIMALS AND I LOVE MY TWO PUGS SO MUCH I CAN'T EVEN. Cacau is a black princess and Zik is fawn, they are so lovely and I miss them with all my heart (I still love them babies, but here in London I also have a cat now, she is a Calico named Zelda and she is so soft and cute!) 76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? -My final Masters project (there is always something to clean) 77: pink or yellow lemonade? -Yellow (pink) 78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? -I'm indifferent to them (hate club) 79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? -My friend De Hong hid Aladdin on my pc and made a treasure hunt on my archives so I could find it (<3) 80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? -They are white, but one wall has a beautiful pink wallpaper with flowers on it. My mum chose it to be honest but I love it (all my walls are cream now but I can’t change them coz the house ain’t mine) 81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. -Brendan's eyes are green with a yellow circle in the middle; damn it I said it directly 82: are/were you good in school? -Yes 83: what's some of your favorite album art? Muse's "Absolution"  84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? -I already have three and don't plan to make more (lol I made another. I have 4 now but I’m removing one of them with laser, so will be back to 3 and I don’t plan to make more) 85: do you read comics? what are your faves? -Not really 86: do you like concept albums? which ones? -Nah 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? -Finding nemo lol and Forrest Gump (idk about those anymore haha) 88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? -The Romanticism at the 18th and 19th centuries 89: are you close to your parents? -Very 90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. -I love my hometown Brasilia. It's very quiet, with beautiful architecture and open spaces. It's not touristic at all and it doesn't have anything to do, but I love it 91: where do you plan on traveling this year? -Back to Brazil for a few weeks and hopefully Belgium (went to both this year lol, no more travels tho because of work, but I also went to Madeira) 92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? -I DEMAND MORE CHEESE 93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? -I leave it natural and free (a bun because of fucking work) 94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? -Michael Worrall like two days ago (Charlotte I guess) 95: what are your plans for this weekend? -Work work work (work work work) 96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? -Procrastination ftw 97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? -What the fuck is a myer briggs type? I'm a capricorn and hufflepuff 98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? -During Easter I did it in Ibiza with my coursemate Allison, it was amazing (i don’t remember it being that amazing...the town was dead. but last hiking I did was with Bren at the new forest, then we went to Bmouth to visit Prz, it was nice :)) 99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. -When you were young by The killers and Good enough by Evanescence (like a stone by audioslave) 100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? -I prefer to stay in the present. I wouldn't change anything in the past and I don't want to miss five years of my life

[milfsrok]

Been a while

It has been around two months since i’ve last posted anything on here, and two months since i’ve broken up with my ex.

I have currently no idea how to explain how i’ve been feeling over this time. I literally went through all the stages of grief at once, I jumped into another “relationship??” so fast that it’s been lowkey stressing me out recently about what the fuck i’m doing. i still struggle with motivational issues, and recently i’ve just been so out of control i can’t even understand half of the things going on around me.

I am absolutely and utterly out of touch with reality. I swear to god i have memory loss or something. Nothing makes sense to me.

For example, i’ll hang out with my friends one week. the next week they’ll bring it up and i will have zero to no memory of it ever happening. I am literally forgetting everything around me i feel like my life isn’t even real. nothing around me is real. everything has been too weird.

another example is that recently i just got done with a summer camp (i will make another post talking about that). And i literally forgot all of my campers names and one time forgot that i was literally one of my campers counsellors, my dumbass went up to her since she was alone and asked who her counsellor was and she just looked at me confused.

The amount of occurrences recently that just feel like missing parts of my brain isn’t even funny. I’ll brush it off and be like “oops i forgot” but it has genuinely been getting to me because it happens so much. it’s gotten to the point where i can’t even remember basic things that have happened throughout the month, or what i had for dinner the last night.

like i said, i’m completely and utterly out of touch with reality. Nothing feels real.

Another thing is that i’ve been completely lashing out on people with no control. For example my brother, or my friends, or even the guy i’m talking to. I will get so mad at the dumbest things and then just feel sad about it. OR when someone does something so little, like it could be the smallest mistake. (Let’s just say my brother forgot to put a plate away). I will literally curse death on him in my mind. I will literally just think about how people are so fucking retarded and why cant people be like me etc. And think of the most gruesome death for them in my head. Sometimes i’ll even get the urge to do it. And feel my hands and head get tight.

Yesterday, The guy i’m currently talking to, got the snap of a girl who really REALLY wants him it’s so obvious. me and him were on a call when suddenly he says “maya wants to call” and i lost all my senses. It’s not even funny i was on the verge of tears. if i wasn’t on a call with him i would be panicking lowkey. That’s when i started being aggressive and lashing out on him. I called him dense, annoying, etc. Basically screaming at him on what to say to her. In the end, i started endlessly apologizing. i know i’m an asshole for that, but that’s just a recent example.

I just feel so out of control, like parts of my brain have been cut off and i’m just instinctively existing without a soul or without anything to process what’s been happening.

So yeah that’s been me ever since the breakup. haha ig?

[kittyfite]

Lowkey typed a reblog without realizing that you meant the singular word, “fandom.” I’m a retard, commas are important though.

Sincerely, the word fandom.

The word fandom has connotations. I'm simply an enthusiast

[happysen]

I met a guy.

He was just a tourist in this city and we matched on Tinder. Most of his pictures were him and his band and I swiped right cause he wrote Arctic Monkeys down in the profile. Only two days after we started chatting, he set up a date for us. I never had Tinder date before as the only reason I used the app was to read some fucking hilarious profiles or to chat away the temporary sadness in a moment of weakness. That’s why I was a bit reluctant, thinking about actually the chemistry in the conversation was not that, you know, strong. Or to put it in another way, I was shy. But yeah, I took risks, accepting his invitation to dinner cause I didn’t have any other things to do except the trip with the Idiots and obviously, the “Communism” gang from my university was all busy with their internships and “personal business” and I was sick of their bullshit :) 

We met in front of a bar at 6, which I thought was too early when he suggested but agreed anyway and kinda regretted later, wishing we should have met way earlier, idk maybe right after we matched lol. His friend dropped him off while I was waiting for him on my bike. 

“Hey, are you Hannah?”- said somebody.

I turned around and like “BOOM”. It wasn’t as strong as “being struck by lightning” but for a second I bet I looked like a fucking retard. There he was, standing in front of me, holding a helmet in his hand, wearing a black leather jacket and a pair of tight black jeans with black ankle boots. His extremely curly perms were combed onto the front and he had this kind of slightly shy smile as he approached me. The first impression was good, him getting dressed quite neatly for the date I give him that. Not you know, backpackers style with shorts and crumpled tank tops. There was something really classically cool and dreamy about him but at first, I couldn’t really tell and just got that tingling feeling in my stomach. 

He got on my bike and I rode about the Old Quarter looking for somewhere to eat without any specific places in mind and I was lowkey freaking out on the scenario that I couldn’t take him to any nice places. We stopped at a famous sticky rice store and sat down for some. I was always talkative when I was nervous. Guess that’s why I kept scrambling about stupid shit and putting on the most commercial smile I had. For a second, I thought he was intimidated by my gibberish and lost his interest cause he talked quite little but he kept eye contact. He told me a bit about his life in Beijing, the job, his travelling,… Putting up with me when I asked whether his perms were natural or not. Turned out they were natural. *internally screaming* 

He spoke in this gentle standard British accent, very polite, a bit reserved at first. So far the date hadn’t crashed into the ground. Glad. He paid for the food. +10 points for the Hufflepuff (I guess he was a Hufflepuff). We rode back to the bar earlier cause it was supposed to be the Open Mic night and as we shared some common in our taste of music, live music seemed to be a suitable date venue. But yeah it was about 7 and it was too early for music so he got a beer and I had water then we talked. By this time, well I got fonder of him. He was calm, very chilled, knew how to keep a conversation properly without any over the board flirting. An hour or so of music talking and some other small talk, he went to the toilet before we left the bar and I was squirming like a teenager over her idol and had to text one of my close friends to let out a bit of my excitement nearly to the point of explosion. I put it in Capital as I texted that bitch lol : “HE LOOKED LIKE A FUCKING ROCK STAR”. Yeah that’s how I pictured him. Looking like a fucking dupe of Alex Turner while pouring all of that British accent all over my ears. 

I suggested we get out of there and go for a little walk around the streets and come back later for the live music. At this point, I guess I was really into him and I’m gonna tell you why later. He walked next to me and gently moved me to the other side so that he was the one next to the road and the traffic. ;a; That was fucking another 10 points for the Hufflepuff. For better balance (yep, trust me) and you know I like him and wanted a bit more intimacy, I put my arm around his as his hands were in his leather pockets and we wandered around aimlessly while getting more laughter and I think he started to get more loosened up and comfortable. We ended up in another restaurant in an old house and he asked me if I wanted to share a pancake and let me choose the flavour. (+5) We started to talk about food as I started to act a bit like a little bitch about how sugary and fat those pancakes were :’( (shouldn’t have done that) and why I resented this kind of food as my ex-boyfriend dumped me saying I was a bit fat and I was scarred by that. Why the fuck did I say that???? Luckily, he didn’t seem to be offended by my saying on his choice of food. The conversation was smooth, more laughter, he had another beer. We started the topic of ladyboys and other sexualities, laughing it off on the joke that he was actually a ladyboy trying to give me some “services”. Another hour or so, we decided to leave there to get back to the bar and I realized I forgot my backpack at the bar. I told you I was so excited to take a walk with him that I did forget my back. Fortunately, the purse and bike key and phone were in my coat pockets. lol. 

We walked back hand in hand and I leaned onto him when we laughed. It felt so good to have somebody so cute and understanding and chilled next to me. By the time we came back to the bar, it had already filled with people and the music was playing. He ordered a coffee and I had another water lol As people were performing, we quite focused on watching the music and sometimes had to shout into each other’s ears as he laughed at my story and laid his big cool hand on my thigh while taking a sip of coffee with the other hand, still  looking at the band. I shamelessly got mesmerized by his figure in the blue and red light of the stage of the bar and the way he moved his head to the music while still trying to listen to what I was saying. We sat for another hour and the music started to get to my head so I suggested we head out for some late night desserts knowing he has a sweet tooth. 

We went for some caramel pudding, sitting on some red plastic tools on the pavement at 11 p.m and I forgot all about my father, my mother and my cousin who I promised to that I would get back by 10 :) After that, he got into the convenience store for another beer and tea and we got teased by the cashiers who complimented that we looked good as a couple and I laughed happily looking at his confused face cause he didn’t understand a word lol. As we held hands walking out of that store and he excused himself to the toilet, I made up my mind. I called dad asking him if I could sleep over at my cousin’s as it was pretty late and after a while of lying my best, he gave up and agreed. 

He took me back to his friend’s place. Okay so if you’re expecting some steamy sex scene, there is none for you. At this point, to be honest, I was wishing I hadn’t been on my period and yes somehow as a virgin, who was head over heels for this guy, I was shamefully expecting it too LOL He took me to some benches by a lake and he sat on those with a beer in his hand while I stood between his legs. The conversation was pretty stupid, we talked nonsense but I love it :)) I leaned on to his side and he started to caress the back of my knees. For the first time, I touched his face, his beard and messed with his hair, played with the buttons of his jackets and as I was laughing, I put my hands behind his neck and pulled him closer to me. That lasted for a while before I finally sat down next to him, putting my big fat short legs onto his long finely carved ones in fucking black jeans and he pulled mine closer to his chest and we ended up in a really intimate position. He listened to me and my depression stuff, how I got lonely in Japan and even my friends let me down, how I was dumped by the guy I got to know exactly a year ago and got scarred into thinking I was fat and overweight because of him. I don’t know why I did that. It just came out of my mouth and he was willing to listen. We were sitting in the dark at midnight by a lake and I was pouring all my shit on the guy on our first date.

And suddenly he stared at me with these eyes, approaching his face to mine while his eyes were looking all over my face like he was waiting for my permission, and naturally he kissed me. I let him. It was so warm, sending electricity all over my body and my mind just went numb. His lips opened mine and our tongues met, he threw his hand over my shoulder and used the other one to hold my face. I was just so into it and lost for air that I had to pull away to catch my breath. His nose caressed the corner of my lips patiently waiting for me and I let out: “I’m not experienced in this shit. I’m a virgin”. He was like “What?”

For a second I thought he would dump me at the spot and I felt like an idiot. But no. He didn’t pull away, seemed only a bit surprised and only want to confirm what he just heard. I repeated and he said: “ For a virgin, you are quite confident in kissing ”. At least he wasn’t my first kiss, at least I know what I was doing thank god. At this point, the line of the day was spoken: “You taste like caramel pudding”.  I mean fuck me. Are you fucking serious? Isn’t that the most fucking romantic, the cutest thing one person could say after a kiss???? 

Then we kissed again and again and again with some small talks in between that always ended up in us clashing our lips. The bitter taste of beer just got all over my mouth and my lungs were filled with his cologne and shampoo scent. In a moment I was filled with this feeling of tasting somebody's soul, my senses were full of him. It just got more and more intense and passionate and he moved his hand all over my body, slightly squeezing my ass and my breasts and held my face. But that was it. He didn’t try to get into my pants, just pure kissing and small kisses on my neck which I actually wanted more but seriously I was trying my best to contain my shit then.There was a point that I got so fucking close to it I had to pull myself away and said while gasping for air: “ Stop or else I’m not gonna make it out of here”. In response, he just chuckled and kissed me some more. 

It lasted until 1 in the morning and he told me I should get home or else both of us would get into trouble. 1 a.m me and him holding hands under the dim yellow lights of the streets, he leaned for a kiss and I kept saying Stop for a couple of hundreds of times. Speck of kisses all over my face and then we parted ways. Just like real lovers. Even for one night.

[themarauderstheoutsidersandpeggy]

could you make some hc’s about peter parker dating a cheerleader? the trailer has left me broken and maybe this will heal my heart

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This is lowkey gonna be short and prob inaccurate bc I’m about as far from a cheerleader as you can get

He instantly buys into the ‘all cheerleaders are the coolest people in school’ stereotype the first day of high school

So he gets really confused when you get all blushy around him and stuttery

He starts to think that maybe it’s a joke, maybe you’re pretending to be interested in someone like him to just hurt his feelings afterwards

Once you ask him out (he’s not making any moves) he confesses his fears and you comfort him

You make sure he knows that you like him for him and that you’re not playing with him

The dating is rlly cute

He comes to every game you cheer at

He helps you do your hair and tries to help you with your makeup sometimes

“pETER NO THAT’S MASCARA NOT LIPSTICK WHAT HAVE YOU DONE”

“I DON’T KNOW BUT I LOOKED LIKE LIP GLOSS SO I THOUGHT IT WAS”

He blushes at how short the skirts are and you endlessly tease himmmmm ;)

He asks you to teach him some cheers

He doesn’t get it really good bc he goes hardcore

He doesn’t understand that other’s aren’t blessed with his abilities

smol squishy puff

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