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inkykeiji · 8 months ago
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Honestly lets all just pretend the whole tomura thing didnt happen lmao (i am)
uGH i am trying so hard to just,, split him into the tomura that didn’t know and the tenko that does know, and then just kinda disregard the tenko in his entirety. i just want the tomura that was blissfully unaware!!! give me bratty entitled nihilistic tomu!!! >.< i’m still super disappointed with the whole thing ._.
@ hori: i understand what you’re saying and your comments are valuable, but i am choosing to ignore your narrative choice. (⸝⸝��ᴗᵕ⸝⸝)
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polyamorouspunk · 9 months ago
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full agree on people using trans/cis as the “progressive” version of gender essentialism. im fully a trans dude and im proud of it! but when i talk about how i wasn’t always trans, how i *was* a little girl once, or how i’m also a dyke despite my identity and pronouns, people are occasionally like ‘noo you’re fully trans and youve always been trans don’t let ur internalized transphobia get to u :(‘ and it pisses me off because like. they’re not me they don’t have my experiences and it’s honestly very hurtful to me when people assume i say things about myself out of transphobia rather than just… them being part of my (past or present) identity.
sorry to ramble, im just glad im not completely alone in being annoyed by this lol. also, this is the first ask ive sent you off anon! hello! Love your blog, you’re epic!
YES oh my god I know other fully trans people who agree with you there but especially me I’m like of course I wasn’t a boy when I was a little girl. I’m not a boy now when I’m a girl. Why would I be a boy when I’m a girl that doesn’t make sense for me. But guess what! It does for other people! Other people are going to be like of course I was a boy the entire time I was a little girl. Of course I was both. And I want those people to celebrate that for themselves! And there are some people who will say they were never a boy or a girl ever! Or yes, of course, were “always a boy in a girls body” or vice versa but YES it’s not me and I don’t want to be lumped into it. Like yes, I do NOT care being included as “a trans person” or in “trans spaces” or being “transgender in transgender spaces” when it’s done in a RESPECTFUL way. If you want to respectfully refer to me as transgender honestly like fine sure I do that to myself. But telling me that I AM trans, specifially “no matter what” is not in a respectful way. Like in no way am I ever gonna be like “no not really” if someone points at me and says “wow another trans person” but I’m also usually not going to say “no not really” if people call me cis either? Like I’m fine with being lumped in but I do not want to be told what I am.
Hello! It’s nice to meet your off-anon acquaintance! I love asks 99% of the time! Thank you for chiming in! Come again! Please! I’m begging you! Join my cult
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celestie0 · 5 months ago
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ELLIE DON’T APOLOGIZE FOR RESPONDING LATE IVE BEEN HELLA BUSY TOO SO I GET IT
awww I’m glad you still got to enjoy ur trip to italy somehow ! hope you’re enjoying your roadtrip so much more!! 
OMG YOU TOOK AP STATS TOO? we twinnin fr 🤞I believe we were destined to find each other here on tumblr 😌
I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH YOU ABOUT FRIEND REUNIONS. there's also just something so endearing about laughing over old inside jokes and reviving old tea. oh my gosh we can’t forget about the “remember when you used to like ___?” questions liKE NO SHUT UP THAT WAS AGES AGO 💀. and yes my friend and I have been keeping in touch!! She spams me with gojo reels even though she’s never seen jjk bc she knows how much I love him 😭😭 she’s so real for that
-🫶anon
yes i think i got a 4 on the ap stats test which i was very thrilled about xD
oh god yes 💯 on reviving old tea. i still keep in touch w a lot of my hs friends since most of us scattered off to colleges in just socal and every time we meet up on holidays it’s always just the saaaaame hs tea (with added bonus of new n exciting instagram updates) and we never get bored of it HAHAH. keeping in regular touch is nice but there’s also something really fun about not talking for a couple of months n then getting together to unpack it all
that’s sooo sweet tho omg frienfs that send gojo reels are KEEPERS!! i’m so glad you had a fun time <33
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HAHA ok i’ll add it to my list of things to watch 😭😭 gotta check it out if this ken sato guy’s got you feeling that way LOL
- ellie 💕
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prettyboykatsuki · 8 months ago
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hi my lovely fang!! ramadan kareem! also happy belated isagi day!! loll i’m tipsy doing my skincare and watching formula 1 + premier league football (<-being delusional abt my teams winning. i’m no better than a m*n) but my mind ran on you so i said lemme go blab in your askbox <33
not day drinking or anything dw. just came back in from a bday dinner and then we ended up at a nightclub ?? for some reason ?? the music was really good and it felt good to be out with friends. idk, the old me wouldnt have even entertained the idea of going out so i hope ur proud of me for socializing even when i got drained like an hour into the whole thing.
hope the spring's been good to you so far. (i for one am salty since this weather still feels treacherously winterlike to me.) and remember to pace yourself for school.
life has been so interesting lately: moved out of a toxic household and decided to establish boundaries with family (got villainised for it), trying to learn an instrument as a hobby, became a deku fan (‼️♥️☹️‼️) and an arthur morgan enthusiast (⁉️), my kitchen sink randomly flooded and my landlord was an ass abt it, finally watched howl’s moving castle,
always always still thinking of oliver tho. atp i mentally chant his name like my own personal litany against going apeshit in law school. i think u were talking abt songs that remind u of him and i would like to add for ur consideration: that tyler song w/ pharell? called “ifhy”. also DONT LAUGH but i cannot hear anything off the wiped out album without some association to him. some russ songs too. idk what it is abt that bastard but i enjoy putting him in mental aus he has no business being in: like we both know he’d be a regency AU scoundrel or like a rake or smth and yet i’ll be on the subway crafting it in my mind palace LMAO
back in the day i used to depression-watch the encore westerns channel so those scruffy ruffians u have been read dead posting abt are making my ears perk up a little (a lot).
if i was actually writing you as a legit penpal i would decorate your letter and use different coloured ink and stickers and send u a polaroid and stuff. i am so fond of you like whoa. hugging and squeezing and pulling you 🫂🫂🫂🫂 like taffy!! have a great day and an even greater eid !!
-resident oliver gremlin xoxo
RAMADAN KAREEM EVEN THO I AM ANSWERING POST EID AS SOME KIND OF FOUL BEAST!!!! and happy belated isagi day to u twin i hope it was wonderful
i actually heard alot about the f1 stuff from beloved mutuals posting and general internet circulation!!! lots of . stuff going on in that place from what i can tell . i hope ur special sports guys won i love u !!
also glad ur not drinking too much. a birthday dinner and nightclub feel like a random combo sdjhsdkfj but sometimes u just dont want the night to end so i really get it. im not a club girl either it is so overstimulation for me in a way i have a hard time with so im SO proud of you
i feel u abt spring it is so midwest core how cold it fawking is rn fdkjkhdjfkg. but its fine we ball
ALSO SO PROUD OF U!!!!! setting boundaries w fam is sooo dogshit but u did right by yourself and thats all that matters. iA it becomes easier. also instrument, deku fan, and arthur....... ohhh anon it has been a busy and fun life i see.
I MISS OLIVER SOOO FREAKING MUCH IM HAPPY U BRING HIM UP. i agree ifhy by tyler suits him so much im going to throw my guts up fkgjdffgklsd. also no he is very russ song actually.... best on earth ft him and bia.... i will eat glass. im glad his horrible and annoying ass can support the bad beautiful shorty u are thru law school... the most he is capable of im afraid. ALSO WAIT REGENCY AU KIND OF EATS...... WILL BE SIMMERING ON THAT ..... i think him being a sleazy powerful noble who's been enaged a billion times and broken up with even more chasing u a mean noble girl who hates him ohhh .. ohhhhh
ALSO IM GLAD U LIKE MY RDR POSTING. i am. completely out of my mind about them forreal its actually notfunny anymore JKFDJLKS. but thats alright.
I WOULD LOVE GLITTER PEN. mine would have so many stickers. SO FOND OF U TOO ANON... WE ARE KISSING AND HOLDING HANDS... EID MUBARAK AND MANY BLESSINGS
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madasrabbits · 2 years ago
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hey!!! anon that asked for mcr recommendations and advice on getting past the “missing out” feeling, back again!! first of all i wanted to say thank you sm for writing such a big response and giving me so many helpful recommendations!!!! all of this really means a lot to me and is extremely reassuring, so thank you <33 and i 100% agree that despite my regret of not getting into the band earlier this is definitely the best time to be an mcr fan based off of everything that’s been going on!!!! it is unbelievably heart-warming to see how happy and healthy everybody in the band is right now!! and seeing mcr tumblr go completely off the walls over cheergate recently was such a fun time and god did it make me Feel. i just remember going through an abundance of posts that night from trans/nonbinary people talking abt how much it meant to them and how happy they were for gerard, and for the same reasons it meant a lot to me as well. ALSO omg three cheers for revenge enjoyer hello!!!!! i literally found a three cheers shirt the other day and immediately impulse-bought it bc i knew i’d be dedicating myself to mcr’s discography very soon and that album cover is one of my favourites ever!!!! the album cover of all time (real). not to mention three cheers has the ghost of you on there my babygirl my sweet cheese my rotten soldier <33 oh and i listened to sleep for the first time recently as well????? mass casualties. i think sleep, mama and the ghost of you are my current faves pre-full-discography dive!! and on that note i’m so curious to know what ur fav mcr songs are!!!! AND ur fav three cheers song!!
ANON IM SO HAPPY UR BACK AND GETTING INTO THEM … peace and love on planet earth. its always a good time to be an mcr fan but we are thriving right now. theres a certain contagious joy in their happiness that spreads to us i think and its so beautiful to witness .also im so glad that u are a sleep enjoyer because shes my special girl <3333 love of my life ….
also ur so right abt three cheers album art truly iconic and we will always love . Always
ALSOENEURIUUUGFH okay i feel like my faves shift a lot because my taste changes and also because i truly do not believe they have a single bad song . BUT i do have like a loose top ten, with my top two being boy division & prison (sorry for being gay) and then everything falling into a nonspecific order after that : sharpest lives / jetset life / ftwww / vampire money / honey, this mirror / sleep / our lady of sorrows & either bury me in black or hang em high. i think. i dont know i have brain damage and i could write individual theses about every song they’ve ever made. im dying here . its so hard to be a bulletsrevengeblackparadedangerdaysconventionalweapons girl in this economy
and prison stands as my fav three cheers song but i usually stick jetset life as ALMOST tied with it but also its such a good album like truly no skips. every single song makes me go batshit fucking crazy everytime.
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takecareluv · 2 years ago
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heyy im that anon who ranted about losing my friends
i just wanted to say im so grateful you took time to say meaningful words and give advice you thought would help me! it meant a lot and i agree with a lot of what you said and hearing about u meeting ur old bsf again gave me some peace and hope so again im soso thankful
do you have any emoji anons? if you don't mind having some I'd love to be 🖤
its fine if you dont i completely understand! just want you to kind of know when im speaking to u :)
hi baby !! it’s so good to hear from you! i was wondering if you saw my response, so i’m glad knowing that you did and that it was of use to you! i’m not gonna lie, i was scared it made absolutely no sense but to hear it brought you some peace makes me so happy, that’s all i could ever want. <33
i would love for you to be my 🖤 anon !!! i don’t have any emoji anons yet but i’ve always thought they were the cutest things (& ngl always wanted one) so i’m happy you can be my first !!! ☺️
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anti-dazai-blog · 2 years ago
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hi im not on tumblr but my friend sent me ur blog cause they knew id enjoy it, and ooh. this is everything ive ever wanted, for someone to take the bandaged man down a few notches. ive got ur blog bookmarked and will pop in now and again cause so far i agree with most things you said; not all, cause i don't think dazai is a well written character and a major cop out in terms of one. onminscient characters with no explanation how they know things are just plain boring. kinda like ol man up there
HI ANON I’M SO GLAD YOU’RE ENJOYING THIS BLOG!!
I completely understand why you (and many other Anti-Dazais) would find Dazai’s omniscience annoying, and consider him to be poorly written because of that.
Personally, I get more annoyed with Ranpo than I do with Dazai— I wasn’t really planning on bringing this up since I have very mixed feeling on Ranpo, but he’s the perfect example of a character who just knows everything all the time for seemingly no reason. Chapter 6 (the chapter in which Ranpo and his ”ability” are introduced in) tries to claim that although it may seem like he magically knows everything, he’s actually making deductions— therefore proving that he has a valid way of figuring everything out without an ability. But it’s never explained in any future scenes how exactly he’s coming to the conclusions he makes, and the audience is just supposed to accept that he’s able to figure it all out with little to no information on the case.
With Dazai, however, most of the time it doesn’t show him actively figuring stuff out. Instead it shows the aftermath of him acting on whatever conclusion he reached. It could have taken him an hour, or a day, or a week to strategize and plan everything (unlike Ranpo, who the audience is supposed to believe figures everything out instantaneously).
HOWEVER— even if he takes time to plan things out to perfection, I do agree that sometimes it seems a little too perfect. Although he could hypothetically figure each thing out individually, for one person to singlehandedly know everything relevant to know at any given time is a bit much.
I know a lot of people who I consider to be really smart. None of them are anywhere near BSD levels of smart, but still— every single one of them has their off days and messes up sometimes, and I’d like to see Dazai mess up a bit occasionally too. He can’t be perfectly all-knowing forever.
But none of that addresses how well-written he is. I feel like we [the audience] see Dazai the way that other characters in BSD would see him. We see a guy who’s an Asshole, annoying, obnoxious, a genius and master strategist, kinda scary, ruthless, and a real “ends justify the means” sort of guy. We haven’t seen any backstory, we don’t know what form of trauma caused him to be like this, we don’t know if he was like this his whole life- regardless of whatever sad, sad past he had.
I don’t think any of us [the audience] would survive more than five minutes locked in a room with him. A single conversation with him would be a form of psychological tortured horrific enough that it should be banned by the Geneva Convention. And yet his role in the story isn’t an antagonistic one, for the most part. He works on the good side. His job is to save people.
Other stories have done this before. Other stories have taken a villain and placed him on the side of the heroes. But in doing so, they give the villain a redemption arc. They get rid of whatever makes the villain evil, and turns the villain into a semi-good guy who’s trying his best.
BSD isn’t like that. There is no redemption arc. Dazai didn’t lose his worst [most “evil”] traits after joining the ADA. He’s still Dazai, youngest Port Mafia executive, Demon Prodigy, who now works for a different organization, but his methods and motives are exactly the same. And it takes guts for an author to do that, and skill for an author to do that successfully.
As far as well-written goes, I personally consider Dazai to be very well-written. There would be nothing for me to analyze if he wasn’t. This blog wouldn’t exist if he was just a poorly written all-knowing Mary Sue. He’s well-written enough for me to write multi-page analyses on him.
[But full disclosure- I’m not an english major or anything. I’m not an expert on writing or on what makes a character well written. This is all just my take on things, so don’t worry Anon, your opinion is Very Valid and I respect it]
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meduseld · 3 years ago
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Anon I actually loved your long text! But again, spoilery so under the cut:
it's true the backstory with the waynes was reaallll shoddy like. they were like 'oh his mom was in and out of mental hospitals' and that was like proof that she was evil, somehow??? and also like i agree completely, if 2 rich people die in what they're calling a "shocking accident" literally the whole city/state/possibly country would talk about it incessantly, there would be 0 point in like. telling ur mob connected friend to keep The Secret Of Spooky Stuff In Your Wife's Past from getting out...
and the usb thing!! i watched them do that like "buddy you are about to get 25,000 viruses and i hope to god that's not your actual work computer bc if so you just gave a serial killer access to the city police database" but then nothing bad happened and i was like oh..... okay..... sure
but as much as some elements were pretty terrible...... i mean to be fair for possibly the majority of the movie i was blinded by horniness for both kravitz and pattinson, and also i did lowkey um. watch it as a recording that someone taped in a different country on their phone in the theater so. the audio & video quality were bad and the onscreen text like when they were using computers or those contact lenses was not really decipherable to me, so maybe for those reasons i had only a vague idea what was happening, and so it didn't seem as bad to me when it was actually the plot's fault things were not making sense? and also..... the bar in my head. it was so low. so so low. for this movie. and so it like way outperformed the bar because. a lot of recent superhero movies are...... kind of shit (in my opinion, obviously i'm not an expert), and this one (to me personally) seemed noticeably less shitty?
and so i genuinely liked it despite at several points wanting to ask the writers/directors what the fuck their thinking was behind certain things. or like. that scene at the end with the whole torch thing. mr "i am the shadows" "i have to try to achieve justice through fear only" realizing he was wrong. and like yes i know it was so cheesy and on the nose but i'm kind of a sucker for narrative switches/character development like that, even when it is like. made Very Obvious Because Hollywood Thinks The Rest Of The World Is Idiots Only.
sorry this got so long, and i understand if you weren't really wanting to discuss your opinion further, so feel free to delete this if you don't feel like answering ❤️
I’m picking up what you’re putting down! The usb was so cringe and again Spiral already knew the audience would feel that way and had to adjust their scene accordingly so there’s no excuse. Also about the contacts, the thing was there was so much ????? in there too like Batman saying to her for no reason, when she sees the man he hit “hey I broke his nose :)”. That doesn’t give her or the audience anything, it makes no sense and we saw you do that my guy. They both looked so inept that whole scene just openly bickering when she needs to be stealthy. I’m glad you still got something from it and didn’t pay for it lol. It just felt like a script that needed more work and the choices made further were wrong. There’s actually good bones in there but the execution was fumbled to hell imo and yes it very much both talks down to the audience but makes choices the audience knows are dumb like the usb, or the Riddler does Youtube thing. Like it’s so weird how it both over and under estimates the crowd. 
Also it goes without saying people can enjoy this movie, good for them, disagreements happen lol. I’m not saying you’re a bad person or whatever if you like it, I was just taken aback by how inept it is on a technical and script level because I have no idea how this got made tbh, and much less the rave reviews. But that’s me I guess lol.
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ddarker-dreams · 4 years ago
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dropping by to tell u that ur my favoritest yan fic writer out there and your yan genshin updates give me life MUAH
thank you so much nonnie!!!! 😘😘😘 i appreciate you!!! i’ve absolutely loved writing for genshin, so i’m glad that the community is thriving with so much content aaaa ❤️ warms my heart...
anon 2 asked: I’m not sure if this has been asked before or not, but have you read/watched Togashi’s other work Yu Yu Hakusho? If you haven’t, I think you’d definitely like Kurama.
i have heard of it but i haven’t watched it before! i looked up the design for kurama and wow... he is a very pretty boy. he has these mysterious vibes that makes me think i would like him. if i ever get around to watching it i’ll keep an eye out for this boy 👀
anon 3 asked: If you don't mind me asking, what other games do you play besides genshin?
my cycle of playing games is kind of messed up by genshin right now since that’s the main game i play whenever i get hit with Gamer Urge. however, the games ive enjoyed the most recently other than that would be divinity original sin 2, darkest dungeon, pokémon, animal crossing, and fire emblem!
anon 4 said: it's nice to see a fellow hu tao simp! i was so excited to see you make a yandere hu tao x reader,, i rarely see any x reader content of her so i just silently suffer most of the time 💔 ty for feeding us hu tao simps good food op i will be reading that story religiously everyday 🛐
we need more hu tao in this world, i fully agree. every time i see her i just can’t help but smoke... i think it’s the super cute hair. long pigtails 🥺 ANYWAYS you have god tier taste anon. i trust anyone that loves hu tao.
anon 5 said: i am going to kiss u on the forehead as gently as i can,,, that hu tao fic was absolutely delicious❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
THANK YOU NONNIE!!! i was worried at first over how much macabre hu tao typical dialogue to incorporate into a fanfic, but i ended up content with the balance. she can be soft when she wants to, after all. i’m happy that you enjoyed it!
anon 6 said: You posted the harem HCs right after I finished work and it was such a treat to read. I love them. I know you obviously didn't write them for me in mind but thank you for brightening up my day!
PHEW what good timing!! i end up working on my writing on and off throughout the day and finishing it around the time people (in american) time zones would be getting home. i’m glad that you were able to enjoy the headcanons after a day of work!!
anon 7 said: I loved the Liyue reverse harem, how can you be such a good write???Xiao being a puppy is actually cute and I love this concept
i was looking forward to including vigilant xiao watching over his crush the most 😭 it’s just an adorable sight to picture. he’s such an intimidating figure, it can’t help but melt your heart that he’s there to ensure you’re always safe. the main trick is writing the most self indulgent stuff, anon. that is what produces the best you have to offer because you’re having such a good time writing it.
anon 8 said: akfhdsh Lock why was that Zhongli fic so hot🔥?? Ahh I haven't been able to get it out of my head ALL day & 5000 words? You are superb 😍 I can't help but feel so sorry for poor darling. Having to do that with him on the very first night, man didn't even give her a break/a chance to settle down. Either way I'd love for you to throw some concepts here & there if you can 👉👈 or share your afterthoughts ^_^  the universe in this one felt especially great! I wish you the best of luck, take care <3
it’s all because of the random zhongli dream anon 😭 i couldn’t get him out of my mind until i wrote a loooong fic for him. the idea of his darling being with him since the archon war days is my favorite! i’ve always had a soft spot for it, ever since i was trying to figure out what a yandere zhongli might look like back in november. it’s just... genuinely horrifying to imagine being stuck with that for thousands of years. especially when people view rex lapis so highly in liyue, darling feels even more alone on her festering feelings. there’s no relief to be had.
i think i’ll do a big ol headcanon post because the world for yan zhongli and his god darling is so big, i’ve given it a Lot of thought. but the main gist of it is how darling deals with the inaccurate portrayal of their history together. and of course, she interacts with others, since zhongli has the reassurance from the contract that she won’t try to escape. so there’s a lot of angst there. 😭
anon 9 asked: Hey! any plans for more Hu tao content in the future? your last story was just really gooood, she's such an interesting character! I've also been hooked to Rosaria and I'm wondering if you plan to write for her aswell... hopefully no one asked this already lol
i’d love to write more for hu tao!! she is a character that i adore a lot. currently, i don’t have any ideas for her that would get me going, but once i see one or get hit with inspiration she’ll make a reappearance. i do have a few hu tao requests so hopefully those will help inspire me. AND ROSARIA... 🥺 WHAT A WOMAN. i want to learn more about her!! i’ll write for her when her stories and voice lines are all out, that way the characterization is more accurate. she captured my heart with that distant attitude and those listless eyes 🥰🥰
anon 10 said: hi hi!! i just wanted to say i discovered genshin impact bcs of you! i saw your yandere genshin posts back in november, i didn't know anything abt genshin or their world but i read it and just googled their names to know their appearances lmfao and until then i just fell into a rabbit hole of genshin. i eventually grew tired of not knowing anything abt genshin and its lore so i craved around early january and downloaded the game despite me not rlly being a gamer™ and now i'm here at ar 51, a hu tao main and no, i haven't touched grass since downloading the game 😭
ah yes, welcome anon, to what could be considered heaven or help depending. if you were able to get hu tao then i’d say you’re in the latter camp (aside from having to grind for her ascension materials, that is pure suffering). it’s a fun game to get into during this quarantine/spotty lockdown time, so i hope you’ll enjoy your time with it! i’m glad that mihoyo releases content often enough to keep us well fed.
anon 11 asked: Lock dearest, have you ever watched Jujutsu Kaisen?
i like that super cute girl with short finger hair!! i’m planning on watching the show when it’s completed, which i think is soon? ill binge watch it. i’ve recognized a lot of my favorite voice actors from the clips i’ve seen posted, so i’m excited to give it a shot.
anon 12 asked: You watch Demon Slayer? It's really great 🤯
i’ve seen clips of the amazing animation before! it’s currently on my list of shows to watch. 👀👀
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wri0thesley · 4 years ago
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many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn
Anonymous asked: NAT... you can write WHATEVER you want! It's your blog, and I hope that rude anons can learn to respect that. I used to be on your blog just for jjba content too, so when you started getting into jjk I was indifferent but eventually you dragged me into jjk so hard!! I already like bnha, so seeing you write for it only made me happier! I hope that you continue to write whatever make YOU happy:) ❤and yes, longer fics certainly doesnt mean it's better, quality over quantity
ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!! 
Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making
i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!
Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.
ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn
Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.
gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;
Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕
honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3. 
Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?
hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3
Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.
i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest. 
Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday
dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof. 
Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.
extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!! 
Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!
ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!
Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~
Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)
Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.
hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’. 
i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring. 
anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3 
Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!
thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3
Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.
this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3 
Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u
ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.
Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)
i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3 
Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.
honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3 
Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3
honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3
Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!
honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_; 
Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖
ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3
Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!
to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(. 
Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!
anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess! 
Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!
wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that. 
Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end
HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!). 
Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.
ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3
Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!
i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3 
Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon
i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3 
Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don���t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3
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solomonish · 3 years ago
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(I'm just replying to your answer on my ask. Idm haha you're cool, I love your edits and I love your blog!)
Yeah. The event just feels really...strange. The recent events seem like that compared to the older ones? And I get what you mean. I mean, I'm fairly aware of how Solomon is fleshed out because I read the main story and all of his Devilgrams, but the little tidbits about him is not common knowledge to most players. It sucks they lock out basic information about him and have only a few people understand why he's acting a certain way.
Also yeah. I agree. Satan had really good characterization already and it was kinda forgotten in this event. It's like they forgot his resolutions in the main story and just made him a caricature of who he is like what you and elvish said. There's far worse events out there like the Angel event (where Solomon...ironic ik, also seems to be the only voice of reason in the whole bangle thing), but now that you say that...I do feel like we've been robbed lol.
I skimmed through most of the story too tbh. Now that I think abt it, they often do the "It's all a dream", "It's okay I used magic to solve everything" "It's okay I chose this reality so everyone is happy again yada yada" when the plot is getting nowhere. If they will make their game non-F2P friendly, at least make the story make more...sense?
Thanks for sharing your thoughts! I'm glad I'm not the only one who felt weird about this event.
(Aww thank you!! Feel free to give yourself an anon name if you wanna drop by frequently but no pressure!)
My first event was the Halloween one with the zombie belphie card and whatever one came after that, and those ones were fine? After the wedding event I stopped doing events for a while (because I was so upset about how close I was to the lucifer ur but didn't get) so I don't have the most complete portfolio but I feel like the circus event was the last decent event. Between keys and trying to sandwich in characters it just feels so....forced and bad. Idk I'm just so tired of solmare's tomfoolery
I'll be there first to admit that I can miss information told to me blatantly and directly because I get ahead of myself or just don't pay attention but like. I really feel like Devilgrams are a few steps away from a good idea. Since the main story doesn't have a route system, devilgrams feel, to me, like they should just be fun dates with your boys. And yeah, naturally with more content you'll get a deeper insight to the character, but thats different then completely hiding information behind a wall of chance. Its stupid.
And honestly, I dont really mind the excuses for the events since they're such short one-offs but like. There is a way to make it a dream (like ((spoilers)) Lucifer's wedding UR devilgram) and make it make sense, and then there's this. This just feels half-assed and lowkey disrespectful.
And trust me nonnie, you are FAR from the only one with mixed/negative feelings about the event.
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fangirlcenteral · 4 years ago
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Request:  Hi there! Glad ur back! Could you do a Loki x reader where the reader has powers similar to his and is basically a female version of him, and they get along super well and become best friends. Loki then becomes super jealous because he sees her hanging out with a stark intern and he gets all possessive and it ends all fluffy? -anon
A/N: My first request!! I’m so excited. I honestly love this concept so very much and really haven’t thought of this before. But I changed the stark intern to Bucky because I am not creative and here we are. I hope you enjoy this story. Also, sorry I suck at titles. And I used Loki’s on screen powers I didn’t want to dive into research about the comic powers. So i’m making this a series. I got carried away and reached the word limit with just backstory so. A series will be coming. Anyways enjoy. (sorry if it seems rushed. This will be a whole thing this is just kinda to hold you over until then❤❤)
WARNINGS: none
Taglist: @just-the-hiddles
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To say your relationship with Loki was complicated was an understatement. When you joined the Avengers you were forced to be with Loki a lot because your abilities were so similar. Then as time went on you two grew almost close. This happened after a year of being forced to have him train you because you had the same powers.
Over the year you had spent with him you hadn’t made as great of friends with the other Avengers, but you never really tried. Loki and you were close. You didn’t have many friends before, so you didn’t crave social interactions like some of the other members did. You diffidently didn’t hate them, but you didn’t understand them. They lived very fast and dangerous. You were very used to thinking hard and asking why someone would do something. You thought everyone was good somewhere in them, and didn’t really enjoy killing, but you understood why they had to do it. You joined because you understood why they had to do it, they did it to save thousands of people. That’s why you didn’t understand they could still hate Loki so much. He has showed over time how much he had changed.
You had always had feelings somewhere in you for Loki ever since you met him. There was something so intoxicating about him. The way he held himself was so elegant and royal. When you first met him it came off a bit snobby, but as you got to know him you found out that wasn’t how he ever meant it. At first you thought it was just thrill of meeting someone with powers like yours, but it didn’t take long to realize that the warm feeling you felt around him wasn’t just thrill or the raw power you could feel radiating off of him. You never went anywhere with this schoolgirl crush you had developed. You were fine pining at him from a distance and trying to block romantic thoughts knowing he could read your thoughts just as you could.
You had always held a little animosity towards Bucky, not because of anything he had done, because of the way everyone treated him compared to how they treated Loki. He killed people just like Loki had and people still forgave him more than they forgave Loki. You were always nice to him, especially because you could tell he found you rather attractive.
“Hey Y/N,” he said to you one day in the library. You turned to him and smiled then went back to your book.
“Can I ask your opinion on something,” he asked. You closed your book and looked up at him smiling warmly. You could tell that he was a bit nervous.
“Of course, what can I help you with,” you said looking up into his bright blue eyes. He then went on to ask your opinion on an artifact found on the last mission. He had sat down on the love seat with you and was leaning into you. At some point during the conversation you saw the door to the library open and saw Loki walk in and stop looking at the two of you. You didn’t mind it much as you kept talking to Bucky about the artifact.
You became completely engrossed in the conversation and started to lean into Bucky as you got more passionate about the topic at hand. At some point you had placed your hand onto Bucky’s knee as you laughed at a joke he made. When your conversation was done Bucky thanked you and walked off, presumably to find Steve or Tony to tell them what you had just told him. You picked up your book again and began reading. A few minutes later you felt a presence in front of you, and when you looked up you saw a displeased Loki standing in front of you. You smiled up at him and patted the seat next to you.
“is everything okay,” you asked looking at him. You didn’t want to try and read his mind as you had agreed to not do that to each other a few months ago. 
“Yes,” He said shortly as he sat down next to you. You frowned your brow in confusion, but decided to keep your mouth closed since you knew if he wanted to tell you he would and if he didn’t he wouldn’t. You continued to read for a few hours and an hour in you leaned your head onto his shoulder. He didn’t push you off, he just continued on with his book and let you lay on him. He simply shifted and gestured for you to lay on his lap. You shifted and laid down on him as you both continued to read. He didn’t move you at all, not even when you fell asleep or when he was done reading. He simply rested his head on the back of the love seat and began carding his fingers through your hair.
Over the next few days you had found yourself spending more time with Bucky. You trained with him to practice your brute strength. After that you spent time playing cards and chess and just playing games together. Not for any particular reason. You usually don’t play games like that with anyone other than Loki because you can usually hear their thoughts rather loudly. You just enjoyed Bucky’s company more than you enjoyed the company of the others. He didn’t force you to talk. Like Loki, he didn’t talk much, so you didn’t have to deal with pointless conversation that didn’t matter. If he said something it was something important not just mindless jabber that you usually heard from the other Avengers.
Over these few days you noticed Bucky attempting to flirt with you more and more. When you were watching a movie together you noticed his arm resting on the couch behind your head for you to rest your head on. He began leaning a bit closer to you.
“I wanted to tell you that you look beautiful today,” he whispered in your ear. You looked over and smiled at him. He began slowly leaning his face into yours. When suddenly you heard the door get thrown open. You instantly jumped back in surprise and looked up to see and angry Loki walking through the common room towards the kitchen. You then tensed up and scooted away from Bucky subconsciously. You went through the entire movie and your thoughts slowly drifted from the movie to the regal god that had burst through the room a few minutes ago and was now most likely watching you from the kitchen. Your mind then began drifting to when you woke up just a few days earlier with your head nestled into the sleeping gods lap as his hand was tangled into your hair. All you could think of after that was what it would be like to wake up with Loki everyday. Your brain couldn’t help but think about his lips on yours and as you wrapped your hands around his neck and pulled him closer to you as his hands tangled in your hair and gently pulled it as he slipped his tongue into your mouth. While your thoughts continued to spin through your head and eventually noticed the movie ended and see Bucky began to turn off the television. After that he turned to you and told you goodnight as he stalked off towards his room.
You sat for a second thinking, and as your cheeks started to heat at your thoughts you decided to seek out your favorite asgardian. You stood from the couch and turned to see Loki sitting in the kitchen with his back facing you. He looked almost sad. You creeped slowly into his mind. You knew you promised him not to, but you just had to know what was going on in that gorgeous mind of his. You saw you sitting on his lap on that love seat in the library as he kissed slowly down your neck.
“enjoy what you see,” he said without turning around. A blush spread like a rash across your nose and cheeks as you quickly pulled yourself from the complicated maze that is his mind. He slowly turned around and looked you in the eye as he began to stand.
“I assume you enjoy what you saw, especially considering your thoughts were not far off from that exact thought,” He said slowly stalking towards you. When he reached you he didn’t stop. He slowly circled you as you continued to stare at the floor in embarrassment.
“You were in my head,” you said timidly finding your voice. He chuckled as he finally reached your front again and stared at your face that was still pointed at the floor. He reached his thumb to your chin and tilted your face to his. You kept your eyes tilted down to his chin.
“Look me in the eyes,” he said to you sternly. You slowly scanned his face as your eyes fell onto his. It instantly calmed you down if not only for a second. His mischievous green eyes seemed to glow. You stood there lost in his eyes as he moved his had from your chin to his pointer finger tapping your lip.
“Do you seriously think I didn’t know about your little crush. As much as you have trained in telekinesis, I have trained for centuries longer than you. Anytime you try to block me out or repress a thought, I can still see it,” He said staring into your eyes deeply. All you could do is look back down and let the blush conquer your entire face and neck. Your mind wandered to all the times you had spent together and how you just ruined it all. He reaches down again and grabs your chin again and keeps his hand holding your chin while his thumb pulls on your lower lip and continues talking, “Now, I didn’t want to say anything because I wanted to see if you would do anything about it, but I guess it was bold to assume you wouldn’t entertain yourself with midgardians before you could finally come running back to me.” you somehow turn even redder as you stair into his warm green eyes. He watches you pathetically attempt to find words as he chuckles at you.
“If you want me to kiss you, you are going to have to ask politely love,” he says leaning into you. You close your mouth as you try to convince your words to catch up to you chaotic thoughts. His words only make it harder, since all you can imagine now is his lips on yours.
“Please,” you let out meekly.
“Ah, close. Use your words sweet thing,” He said looking at you in mock pity at your flustered state, “I can promise all your thoughts can come true if you can use your words.”
“Kiss me,” you said as he looked at you expectantly, “please,” you ass shyly.
He smirks and slowly leans into you. You let your eyes close as he stops millimetres from your face. You lean into him as he playfully pulls away and chuckles. You whine desperately at him desperately and keep your eyes closed. You feel his hands slide up your body until one reaches your lower back and tugs you into him. Your hands fall to his chest as your eyes open in shock at his sudden movement. He slides the other hand up to your cheek and strokes your cheek as you let your eyes fall as he lets his lips slowly find yours. The kiss begins slow and carefully as he lets his hand fall back and tangle in the hair right behind your head as he held you impossibly closer to him. You let your hands slide up and wrap around his neck as he slowly nudges your head back further as he breaks the kiss for a millisecond before he roughly pulled your lips to his. His hand tightened in your hair making you let out a small moan. Before you had a chance to be embarrassed about it he was sliding his tongue slowly into your mouth and wraps his hand on your back completely around you using his whole arm to trap you against him. He carefully explores your mouth with his tongue sweetly, a stark contrast to his cocky and condescending attitude. Slowly he pulls his tongue out and sinks his teeth into your lower lip as he pulls away from you. Making you whine pathetically as you’re lip snapped back at you. You leave your eyes closed as you lean your head lightly on his chest while you catch your breath. Loki slides his hand from your hair tugging the ends lightly as it travels down to join his other arm which loosens to hold a hand on each of your hips and he caressed his thumb against your clothed hips. He laughed breathily as he kisses the top of your head.
“I thoroughly enjoyed that, and I would assume you did too based on your reaction,” he said.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to do that,” you said against his chest.
“I always assumed you were quite vocal, but the confirmation was nice. I thoroughly enjoyed this,” He said smiling down at you.
“I don’t usually do that,” you said slowly looking up at him smirking.
“And most kisses aren’t like that,” he said smiling, “Now are you finally ready to just stay mine, or do you need to torture me with other men.”
“I don’t think I would be able to kiss anyone else after a kiss like that,” you said pulling away from him. As you looked around you remembered that you are standing in the middle of the kitchen where anyone could walk in.
“Well, if I could be so honored lady Y/N, would you like to join me in my room as I remember a certain thought of falling asleep next to me I could make true,” Loki said smirking down at you.
You giggled and nodded at him and let him drag you to his room where you spent the rest of the night talking, kissing, and him holding you while you slept through the night.
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A/N: I have a lot of backstory and more to this story, so I am making this into a series. Sorry if this seems rushed or short. I felt bad that this had taken so long because I wrote what will probably end up being part of the series. So I am sorry if you don’t like this, there will be more of a super powerful amazing strong reader with these powers coming up. I also have some other people to write about, and another request. So I have a lot more content coming at you soon. As always I hope you enjoy, and as always feedback is welcomed and my ask box and messages are open for requests and just generally being friends. If you need a friend. So do I, I got you, i’m here for you. Have a great day/night.❤❤❤
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starstruckmyths · 4 years ago
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hii 🪐 anon here i just wanted to say i completely agree w/ u! i like to think sub!steve dom!bucky seems to fit in much more w/ their characters. bucky needing to take over n have control + steve needing someone else to take care of him after carrying the shield (responsibility) of a team that protects the world. @ 1st i didn’t rlly seem to mind sub!buck but i’ve come to notice the disproportion in the fandom which is kinda sad lmao. to me it seems like as if most of the fandom likes dom!steve-
bc of his physical appearance, especially Nomad Steve, and so they make him the dom in the relationship. there’s nothing wrong w that but sometimes some of the fics i’ve come across on make steve to be some macho alpha douche and it ultimately ruins his character imo. Most of the sub!steve fics i’ve read stay true to their characters. at the end of the day i think they switch, but bucky does seem to be the dom in the relationship. idk that’s just me tho LOL. sub!steve for the win!
anyways! it’s sad to see a lack of bottom!sub!steve in the fandom but thank u for ur fics!! - 🪐
Ahh, Nonnie!! Hi!!🪐 
I always feel :( when there’s only few fics with a bottom Steve. There are quite some, but I think, overall, on Tumblr, people enjoy Strong Top Steve. And that’s alright, but it’s just sad to us. It’s why I follow blogs with a nice bottom Steve :) 
Like you said, it’s especially the case with Nomad Steve. They see a strong alpha, while all I could see when I watched that movie was a bouncy Golden Retriever baby that secretly just needs all the more cuddling from his boo. 
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Look at this baby🥺 He just wants a hug🥺
This is very personal taste: 
I’ve also read some of the Dom/Alpha/Top Steve fics, and there are some really good ones, but they just don’t resonate with me, because I can’t imagine it. I just can’t imagine all those filthy things coming out of Steve’s mouth, or him taking control like that. 
And the ones that are macho?? No thank you. The stories could be great, but the moment Steve becomes masculine in an overly assertive or aggressive way, I head out. It’s just not the thing for me. I once had a fic that had Steve cursing the first few paragraphs and with an attitude of ‘fuck everything’, and he called people bitches and sluts and that was not something for me lmao. It’s just... not the Steve “I respect everyone, yes even the you who wants to kill me” Rogers.
I think it’s also the case that people just like Bucky to bottom, and that’s okay. Some people like him more as being the babey one that’s taken care of, but we just so happened to like it the other way around. 
Steve has a very free spirit, he’s stubborn, takes responsibility, is very caring towards his friends, respectful, and he’s also energetic. I can see how those things could be added up to ‘top’ but to me they add up to ‘bottom’. Those things can be a very ‘top’ thing to do, but to me Steve gets tired of it. 
Yes, he could be doing this as an easy exercise:
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But at the end of the day, he’s still doing this:
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And I think that’s an important difference to show. Yes, he’s Captain America, yes he can take out a Quinjet by himself and land perfectly and not even get hurt, yes he can punch Nazis all day. But without the suit, he’s just Steve Rogers. When the Quinjet is down, when the Nazis are punched, he goes home, and then what? He’s alone. By himself. Looking at files of his dead friends. 
Also, in canon, we see that Steve struggles with social interactions. He isn’t very good at making friends, and especially in The Avengers, if he’s not worked up/angry about something, his conversations go really strained. In a deleted scene a waitress tries to make small talk, but he isn’t good at it, and with Coulson in the jet, he’s as awkward as can be. With Nick Fury, in every movie, he talks purely like a soldier. He talks about ‘the mission’ and ‘the plan’, he’s not Steve, he’s just the Captain talking to the Director. 
I think that’s important to think about, because it’s part of his character. Doms are usually more initiative, they take control in a situation, they direct their partner to what they want, that’s what makes them dominant. Steve doesn’t have a dominant personality. Yes, he’s the leader, but leading in a war zone is something completely different from leading a partner in bed. Think about it, every time we’ve seen Steve do something with a woman, the woman has had to take initiative. Peggy grabbed him to kiss him, Natasha had to grab him, Sharon had to reel him in close, it’s the woman who takes control, and he goes along. 
Which was also very apparent from the scene right before Howard, where the blonde woman crowded up on him, grabbed his tie and lead him to the bookcases and then pulled him in to kiss him. 
Steve’s not the dominant one when it’s about romantic/sexual actions.
Bucky, however, actively engages in asking girls out to date, he’s charismatic, he makes the move, he even makes the move on Peggy, he’s not afraid to talk to girls, he makes jokes to everyone he sees, he has a cheeky grin that makes the girls go wild. He goes on a date with two girls who only have eye for him, and by the way that Steve and Bucky talk about it, it isn’t the first time that Bucky’s tried to reel him in.   
Looking at their personality, Bucky is more of a Dom than Steve, in my opinion. 
Thank you for the ask!! And I’m glad you like the fics!💖
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sanstropfremir · 3 years ago
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second part of that long ask from ur swf anon :)
after the main dancer was chosen for each class, they would complete the choreo and decide formations for their performances. one of the benefits of the main dancer was that they were always center. they also had the benefit of wearing more embellished clothing to stand out (most noticeable in x class, where rian the main dancer was wearing orange while everyone else was wearing green). here is the full list (mnet truly has the WORST camera angles, so i only included the full cam ver of the performances):
1. assistant class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF2evLz98h4&ab_channel=MnetTV
2. leader class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=srjJzRVVmxc&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL
the judges shared that even though no:ze was the main dancer/in the center/had the most shiny outfit, they didn't really see her. all the other dancers, in their opinion, stood out and overpowered her.
3. sub class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY_3E7W8v30&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL
4. x class (i'm not sure what this class was called): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fC-_8fbn_s4&ab_channel=Whatthejess
judges shared that lip j was the stand out of this class. she's the girl on the far left at 0:36. (it was originally her choreo but rian was chosen as the main dancer so that's why she is credited.)
*i only included comments that were stand outs.
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i'm not sure how much creative input the main dancers were given regarding stage design... they didn't show it in the episode so i'm assuming that mnet just told them to show up and perform (because like, the rainbow thing they shot at the end of the leader's performance seemed so random? it didn't match what they were doing). after each performance, the main dancers from each class were asked to pick someone who they thought was the worst dancer. in doing so, the person chosen would lose points for their crew.
judges also chose an mvp crew they thought were the best. prowdmon (monika + lip j + others [sorry i don't know their names. the show really only focuses on these two]) was selected and this gave them the advantage of choosing which crews went against each other in ep4. so, it wasn't a random lottery draw! in the episode, they only showed the part where prowdmon chose to go against wayb (context: no:ze, the main dancer from the leader class, chose monika as the worst dancer. and this made her mad so she was like we're going against wayb - no:ze's crew). i'm not sure why they didn't show how the other crews were paired up. because ya, coca n butter + hook is definitely an interesting match.
also like, wayb was eliminated from the show after ep4's mission.
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and it seems like from here on out, there will be a mission each episode to determine who will be eliminated. i'm honestly not too sure. for their next mission, they're doing a mega crew mission and mnet doesn't really explain it; but it seems like each crew is doing a performance on a larger scale (with more members added to their crew). also, like mnet is ass and doesn't upload all the performances onto their channel..... they only upload the ones that were the most popular/had the biggest public reaction which is why i had a hard time finding the clips for the classes mission. hopefully they do from here on out.
another v long post. thank u again for reading and sharing ur thoughts! always love hearing them. (also, pls let me know if i'm oversharing. u mentioned not caring for the competitive nature and drama so i'm not sure if i was adding too much. there really isn't drama imo. mnet tries to do their best to edit and make it seem that way but when u watch the show, the girls truly root for each other and are friends.)
mnet truly has the worst camera angles i hate them so much. also why are they still streaming on a goddamn potato. the quality is SO bad i can barely see anything!! there's a lot of me complaining in this one i'm sorry in advance.
1. assistant class
i have to assume that whoever they chose as the main dancer is the one that stays in centre because i cannot tell from the clothing at all. i don't think she was a standout performer here, but also the camera and the fire effects are WAY too wild to actually get a good grasp on who even was the standout. i also have to assume that the dancers have no say in the design because design is not a big part of street dance and this kind of chaos screams m 'too-much-money-dont-know-how-to-use-it' net. they built this massive set, barely used it, and didn't leave enough room for the proper formation spacing!! ugh. i hope the judges actually got to see a locked off version of this without all that fire in front of the camera because if i were them i would be squinting down the end of my glasses like a grandma at the screen. that's what i was doing anyways but still.
2. leader class
i have to agree, i don't think noze stood out as the main dancer here. and geniunely i cannot tell that they embellished her costume more. like damn, that stylist took a masterclass in subtlety, because i was easily paying more attention to whoever was wearing those massive thigh high cutout garter stockings and woven bodysuit combo. i am assuming that the point of these challenges was probably to be noticed the most so that they can score points and pick who they went up against for the elimination round? i'm not entirely clear but my point remains; ngl i don't really like this method of creating performance because it means that no one is there to create a performance, yanno? troupe/group choreo like this thrives on teamwork to actually make it a good performance. i know it's a pretty classic method of weeding out people for auditions and stuff like that but personally i find it a wholly uncompelling viewing experience, especially when it's a fully produced stage like this. i know everyone very likely gets along behind the scenes but the incohesion of intent is very obvious. also what's up with the assistant class getting a massive set and the leaders getting a bunch of cars and some smoke pyrotechnics? i mean, i am glad they filmed it during the day, but i am confused by the disparity.
3. sub class
i wish i could describe how poorly mnet shot this. it's not a fucking mama stage, it's a dance stage!! we need to see the choreo properly!!!! and together!!! obviously i don't care about stitching together different takes for the final edit but just...not having a continuity at all in the choreo is a bit jarring. again, i am also not sure how one is supposed to evaluate how well these dancers did, because i can barely see what people are doing. or who the main dancers are. i know i'm railing a lot on mnet here but i can't give an accurate reading of the dancers because legitimately it is so hard to tell what's going on. if they want to bill this as a legitimate dance show, why are they shooting it like a kpop performance? the camerawork for kpop serves a specific function: to add to the visual spectacle and to highlight the idols' faces. you don't need either of those things for shoot choreography, so why do we keep getting closeups of dancers' faces? not that these dance videos aren't spectacle-y or fun, because they very much are, but they really suck at their one primary function, which is displaying the choreo.
4. x class
this is definitely the one where the camera work is the closest to what it should be, but then they go and fuck it up by adding rain! just the groundwater would have been fine, but noooo they had to add the extra rain so there would be extra water drops on the lens!! this is my favourite choreo of all four of these, i think there's the most cohesion and (excluding the rain) it's got a good mix of spectacle with the water and the blacklight and the right camera angles to show the choreo mostly well. i still don't understand why they cut in those sections that don't fit with the rest of the flow though. why. you could have one-taked this and it would have looked dope as fuck. i agree that lip j stands out the most, obviously it's her choreo so it's the best suited to her character and abilities.
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if it wasn't a random lottery draw they should at least have the courtesy of showing people why who picked who!! that's the most interesting part! and i'm not that surprised about wayb being eliminated, prowdmon really stomped them into the ground with that revenge energy. i'm interested in this larger scale performances concept, because i'm not really sure what that looks like in this particular context. if they do end up on youtube i will review them! and you're not oversharing at all, the context is fine! i don't mind reading it as information, i just don't like actually watching it with my own eyes. i can't watch that kind of thing in reality tv because it makes me want to sit everyone down like a kindergarden teacher and go "ok, now why are we all yelling?". too many years of tense rehearsal conflict negotiation and i just want to whack everyone upside the head. it's not very cathartic for me lmao. i have no doubt that everyone is friends because dance scenes are small and i'm sure they've all worked together lots, but even just the editing sets off my fight or fight reflexes.
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emisfritish · 5 years ago
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So no offense, but how can you make a post where you say Sarawat's not to blame for everything in that last train wreck of an episode. Especially when all the fandom agrees on something, you don't even see ur in the wrong then ? How delusional are you ?
Hi dear anon ! (I assume that in your eagerness to send me this message telling me how delusional I am, you forgot common courtesy, no biggie ;))
First- isn’t it interesting how messages that start with ‘no offense’ rarely come off that way ? Nevertheless, you’re one of four anons to send me messages about the subject of Sarawat in the last episode I assume following this post, so I’ll bite. This might get long, so I apologize in advance, and it will be my answer to all four anons, sorry.
I think it’s important to note that we’re watching the show through Tine’s perspective, so we know everything that’s going on in his head, we know how hurt and insecure he’s feeling, and we know how down he was this entire episode (and trust me, I was right there with you with my heart breaking for him basically the entire episode.) I do think though that because of that, we’re judging the situation based on what we know and not based on Sarawat’s perspective : 
To understand Sarawat’s perspective, I think it’s important to lay the context : he just came back from a trip where he poured his heart out to Tine and made it really clear (in his pov) how much he likes Tine and everything he did to get together with him, all the efforts he made. And because of that, I truly think he didn’t realize that Tine’s insecurities could be causing issues for a good chunk of episode 12, not until they talked openly about it. This is in no way blaming Tine either because truly, insecurities are a b*tch that you can’t control and it breaks my heart that he still doesn’t believe that someone could love him this much, that he’s not a placeholder. But here’s where I think Sarawat was at for a good chunk of the episode. I also believe that because people were (rightfully) angered by a few of Sarawat’s actions in the episode, those have kind of erased the way he behaved for 80% of the episode, which was supportive.
Sarawat realized that something was off with Tine in the very first part of the episode, and asked him to talk to him and reassured him about the fact that he was there if needed. When Tine said that it was nothing, Sarawat probably took him at his word, or thought that Tine didn’t want to talk about it. I can’t really blame him for either of those actions. And again in part 2, Sarawat realized that Tine was still off and when Tine brushed it off again, he insisted until Tine told him he had stomach ache, after which he immediately went to get him some medicine to help him. I know a lot of people had issues with the fact that Sarawat didn’t say anything when Tine stayed up all night upset and listening to music, and I can understand that. Here’s my take on it, of course that scene was heartbreaking because we know that Tine was upset, Sarawat however, just thinks that Tine has an upset stomach. Add to that the fact that Tine was wearing headphones, which could be taken as a sign that he just wanted to be left alone, I can’t really fault Wat for not saying anything then or staying up during the night. We reach the next morning and Sarawat immediately wants to stay to take care of Tine because he isn’t feeling well, he only accepts to go to rehearsal when Tine insists, and even after that he comes back early because he’s worried. 
Now we reach the one moment of the episode where I was actually mad at Sarawat : I was glad that they talked openly and Sarawat tried to reassure Tine that he wasn’t just a placeholder (a thought that hadn’t even occurred to him). But when Tine told him he stayed up crying all night and Sarawat just kind of made light of it, yeah, I was mad. I understand that he was just trying to lighten the situation, but I still didn’t like his reaction and wish he had said basically anything else than what he did. That being said, I also recognize that he’s a human being and he’ll make mistakes. So yeah, I didn’t like that scene very much, but I’m not going to cancel him for it either. 
I know people also had a lot of issues with Sarawat’s reaction when Tine sees him and Pam, and again, I understand a 100%. Here’s the way I see it : From Sarawat’s point of view, we’ve gathered that Sarawat liked her for a while and there was no sign of reciprocation, I don’t think the thought that she could actually like him now even crossed his mind until this very moment. So while I wish that Sarawat had reacted quicker and went after Tine, I do think he was just genuinely in shock. I also think that he was kind of in an impossible situation here : basically either follow your boyfriend because he’s rightfully upset about something that is a non-issue in your mind and ditch your friend who just poured her heart out to you and is obviously distressed, or the contrary. I don’t think either decision would have felt right, and it was kind of an impossible situation.
As to how I can think that way when most of the fandom doesn’t ? You’re right, it does seem that most of the fandom really disliked Sarawat this episode and I completely get where they’re coming from and understand, but I also think I’m entitled to my own opinion. We all watch shows and interpret scenes in different ways, and I just didn’t share the same interpretations. That doesn’t make any of the opinions less valid in my book.
Now don’t get me wrong, episode 12 was definitely my least favourite episode so far, and I really really wish they weren’t springing all of this on us in episode 12, leaving them very little time to treat the situation and resolve it in a way that will seem satisfactory. I’ll make my peace with it and see what they have waiting for us in episode 13, but yeah... I still wish it hadn’t happened that way.
That being said- I stand by what I said : I think this situation was shitty for every one involved, and that Sarawat unknowingly hurt Tine, which he definitely has to make up for (just like Tine unknowingly hurt Sarawat many times in the past btw). But these characters are human and flawed, that’s what I love about them, and I truly believe that this whole situation was caused by misunderstandings, insecurities and hurt feelings and I can’t really blame either Tine, Sarawat or Pam for it all, as unpopular of an opinion as it may be. 
I’ll stop there, but just a piece of advice which is valid for all four anons that I got- Leaving an anon message where you either call the person you’re addressing delusional/crazy or are a bit agressive is maybe not the best way to get your point across. I also hope I don’t need to explain the irony in the fact that you’re sending a low key judgmental/insensitive message to an actual person to blame a fictional character for doing the exact same thing you did, but yeah... the irony is definitely there.  
That being said, I hope you have a nice day and stay safe during this peculiar period we’re going through
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visionsofus · 4 years ago
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i just binge read ur scarlet vision mixtape collection n i am in lov w it. is it possible to request me and my husband by mitski? thank u xx
anon thank you SO much for requesting this song - I’d never listened to it before! It fit perfectly and I hope you like the direction I took <3
Track #14: Me and My Husband by Mitski 
| read on AO3 here | mixtape playlist | send me an ask with your song/prompt request |
Synopsis: Vision is reminded that it is Valentine's Day and decides to show up at Wanda's safehouse to surprise her. Fluff ensues and Wanda's fugitive teammates realise exactly how close the pair have become.
“So, when are you leaving?” Tony asked around a mouthful of egg and bacon. They were sat at the dining table, Tony eating his hastily prepared breakfast while Vision perused the news on the tablet in front of him. Many a morning was spent this way, just the two of them. Occasionally they were joined by Happy and other times it was just Vision on his own.  
“Leaving? To go where?” Vision asked looking up in surprise.
Tony raised his eyebrows but finished chewing before he spoke again. “To rendezvous with your lover?”
“Oh,” Vision said setting the tablet down, they usually didn’t speak about the weeks he disappeared from the compound to see Wanda. It had become something of a taboo, out of sight out of mind, which he supposed helped Tony cope with the risk Vision put himself in every few weeks. “We don’t have plans to meet up until the end of February.”
“You’re missing Valentine’s day?” Tony asked, surprised.
“Oh yes, that is today isn’t it?” Vision murmured folding his hands before him in contemplation. “Well, we didn’t speak about needing to spend the day together, it never really came up…”
Tony looked aghast.  
“I mean I don’t think it’s important,” Vision continued hesitantly but Tony had begun to shake his head.
“No, no, no that’s not gonna cut it,” he said wiping his mouth on a napkin and standing up. “C’mon you’re going to Canada.”
“Canada? Why?”
“Because I am not going to let you stand her up on the most romantic night of the year.”
That was how Vision ended up taking the quinjet up to Canada, arriving in the late afternoon. Tony had given him obscure coordinates taking him somewhere north of Calgary.  With the jet safely cloaked and hidden off the main road he began to short walk towards the nearby converted barn that the rest of the team were reportedly residing in. In the afternoon light the fields turned a golden green and seemed to stretch on for miles.
The barn was fairly unassuming from the outside, the only evidence it was lived in being the wide windows on the second floor and what appeared to be a recent coat of paint. He hoped that they wouldn’t have to move on for a while, that this would be isolated enough they could spend some time not running for their lives.
A thin path had been carved out through what would usually be a wild assortment of plants in the front garden, though it was now scarce thanks to winter’s frosts. Set in the middle of the front of the barn was a Dutch door and Vision stepped up to it, rapping the door knocker sharply. The house was silent inside and the only sign that anyone was home was the car sat dormant in the driveway. A distorted head shape edged into view through the frosted glass, and it floated there for a moment before the door swung open to reveal Sam Wilson.
“What the hell are you doing here?” He asked in disbelief.
“Very nice to see you as well, Sam,” Vision said smiling, “is Wanda in?”
“Is Wanda in?” Sam shook his head and looked over his shoulder. “Can’t think of anywhere else she would be, we are fugitives you know.”
“I am well aware.”
Sam sighed when the sarcasm didn’t hit. “Yeah sure, c’mon in. You weren’t followed here?”
“I cloaked the quinjet through the Air Defence Identification Zone and used a secure flight path,” Vision assured him as he stepped inside, immediately noting how warm it was.
“The others are through in the living room and I think Nat is out shopping,” Sam said shutting and locking the door behind him. “Why are you here though? Anything we need to be aware of?”
“Of course not,” Vision said trying to be assuring, suddenly realising how his presence could be misleading, “I’m just here for—”
He was cut off by the welcome sound of Wanda’s voice. “Vis!” she cried in excitement running around the corner, her sock clad feet slipping on the floor and sending her careening into his arms.
Vision laughed and dipped to catch her in a tight hug. She was wrapped up in a woollen sweater that he was quite sure had once been his, but that she must have commandeered on one of their trips in the last year. She had to stand on the tip of her toes to reach but pressed several kisses on his cheeks.
“What are you doing here?” Wanda demanded, leaning back to take him in, her eyes glowing happily.
“I thought I might surprise you,” Vision said quite conscious that Sam was staring open mouthed at them.
At that precise moment Steve walked in to join the group coalescing in front of the door. He was about to bite into an apple but paused when he saw who had joined them, disbelief colouring his newly bearded face.
“Captain,” Vision nodded, “sorry for dropping in unannounced.”
“Vision,” said a dumbstruck Steve, “you’re here… not in America…”
“Yes,” he said holding his arms out to demonstrate he was indeed, physically present.
“I thought we agreed to end of the month in Venice?” Wanda asked turning to him suspiciously.
“Well, you can’t expect me to not show up on Valentine’s day,” Vision said as though it were obvious, though it had not too been obvious to him mere hours ago. The other three stared at him blankly.
“Huh, 14thof February already?” Steve said to himself.
Wanda looked surprise and laughed in disbelief. “You’re right I had no idea you’d show up for Valentine’s day.”
Vision suddenly felt a little out of place. He always met Wanda alone, never with company. They hadn’t been around the other Avengers as anything more than friends, and by now they were much more than that. It had made so much sense to come for Valentine’s day when Tony had been explaining its significance, but perhaps he had overstated the day’s importance. Feeling like a bit of a fool Vision fished around in his pockets for an apt distraction his hand landing on a bar of chocolate. “I suppose you wouldn’t be wanting any of this chocolate then?”
“Not that I need bribery to have you near me,” she said more quietly taking his hand even as Vision withdrew the Sokovian chocolate she was so fond of. It was challenging to get a hold of thanks to limited imports since the Sokovia incident. Vision made sure to buy it at any opportunity and had since amassed a small collection back at the compound for times like this. She grinned as she accepted the chocolate bar and gave him a quick peck on the lips.
“Well chocolate and Valentine’s day wishes delivered, I suppose I should leave,” Vision said looking around to see that Sam and Steve were having a silent conversation that was mostly raised eyebrows and shrugged shoulders.
“What are you talking about?” Wanda asked. “You’ve come all the way here you’re at least spending the night. Come on, I’ll show you the house.”
Secretly glad, he let her lead him around. She started at the floor they were currently on, showing him the quaint kitchen at the back of the house and the interconnected living room complete with cosy armchairs and a crackling fireplace. Upstairs were several bedrooms, not particularly large but it meant that they could each have their own spaces. Her bedroom was cast in a warm orange glow as she led him in around a small bed and pointed out the view that she had come to love over the last few weeks. It comforted him to know that she was able to have a space in this way, where she could keep things on a bedside table and put her clothes in a closet instead of the living out of a bag she did when they travelled together.
Back downstairs Natasha had returned, and Sam and Steve were unpacking the shopping in the kitchen as she unwound a scarf and removed her beanie, which had apparently been in the interest of protecting her identity.
“Good to see you Vision,” Nat said grinning at him, and he found comfort in her reaction. It wasn’t that Sam and Steve hadn’t been friendly, but it was as though they didn’t know why he was here and that made him nervous, it made him doubt.
But Wanda was his grounding force and she continued to act as though nothing were different. And so, Vision chose to follow her lead, focusing on his most important person instead of his worries.
They didn’t leave each other’s side for the remainder of the afternoon and he helped Wanda prepare the dinner when she explained it was her turn to cook for her fugitive housemates. She’d decided on a stir fry and he diligently set about slicing up the vegetables for her.
“You travelled here ok?” She said leaning her head against his shoulder as she cooked the noodles and Vision slid a responding arm around her waist.
“Of course,” he said kissing the top of her forehead.
“There was no trouble with Stark even though this wasn’t in the calendar?”
“It wouldn’t matter even if there was,” he replied and knew it was true. He was glad that Tony was so supportive of his relationship with Wanda but equally understood that nothing would have stopped him continuing to see her.  
Steve and Sam came bustling through the kitchen collecting plates and cutlery for the dining table. Vision made to draw back but Wanda grabbed his hand and kept it pressed to her side, giving him a reassuring smile that said all he needed to hear, he ducked his head to kiss her once more. On the way out Vision heard Steve loudly whisper “I think they’re really cute”. Sam’s exasperated response was, “Of course you do”.
“Who would have thought Captain America was such a sap when he wasn’t working,” Wanda said quietly to Vision as he drowned out the bickering now taking place in the other room. “He watches more rom-coms movies than all of us put together.”
It was nice to share a meal with the teammates he had grown so close to but hadn’t seen in so long, even if Vision wasn’t actually eating. They told him stories of their travels in the last eighteen months, mostly sticking to the good times though he was aware there were difficult sides to every anecdote they shared. Vision had heard stories from Wanda of the early days on the run where they took turns sleeping and keeping watch, no matter where they were or how strong the locks might be. It was a time of constant strife from what he understood. It was a relief, then, to see them in a place like this and though he knew it would be hard to stay here for ever, he was glad to hear they had plans to stay until Wanda returned from the Venice trip in April.
Afterwards he hung behind with Steve in the kitchen and helped wash up.
“It’s good you’re here,” Steve said handing him a clean plate to dry up, “it’s nice to see her so happy.”
Vision smiled at the acknowledgment, wiping the plate dry with a tea towel and setting it on the counter. “She is the strongest person I know.” Then, softer, “but I wish I could be there more often to help shoulder her burden.”
Steve hummed in agreement. “It sort of came as a surprise to all of us when she told us she’d started seeingyou. Sure, we assumed things, but I don’t think it was really clear until tonight. I’m happy for you both.”
Vision was aware that Wanda had never really sat the rest of her teammates down to hash out the specifics of what she was doing with Vision when they were away. She was content in knowing that they supported her in pursuing the relationship they now had and had never seen reason to share more than she needed to. She’d confided that there were times when she wanted to boast about their relationship, taking pride in the bond they shared which made him happy. But they both shared the feeling that the intimacy they had couldn’t be explained simply, it was uniquely theirs and he was content to not share it with anyone else if Wanda was as well.  
“It’s a relief for me, knowing that she has you,” Steve went on, “the loneliness is hard on all of us, all this moving around. Wanda had only just begun calling the compound home when we had to leave, so I’m glad she has you to come back to.”
It warmed Vision’s heart to hear how highly Wanda was appreciated in Steve’s mind, and it reassured him that she had a strong friendship with her team that could keep her afloat when they couldn’t be together.
The evening was growing late by the time they reconvened in the living room with the rest of the house’s inhabitants. Sam had stretched himself out on the couch and was starting to nod off. Nat sat in raptures over the program on television, which, by the sound of the narration, was a David Attenborough wildlife documentary.
Wanda rose from where she had been curled up in a comfy armchair and took Vision’s hand, pulling him over. Her eyes glowed with such open happiness that he couldn’t help the feeling that he was falling more and more every time they were near. It had been happening for months now, or years more likely, but at times like this it hit him just how in love he was.  
He sat down in the chair, sinking into its comfy embrace and held his arms out for Wanda who didn’t hesitate in climbing into his lap, settling against his chest and dangling her feet over the arms of the chair. He closed his eyes sighing in content, if only every night could be this way. They didn’t need a fancy dinner out, and the chocolates he gave her had been more than those little heart shaped ones he saw on tv, they’d shared a dinner with her closest friends and now settled down in a space she felt comfortable and safe in. It was his perfect evening, and he did his best to capture it in his mind, saving it to pour over and relive in the moments when they were separated, and he missed her most.
As he opened his eyes, he found her gazing at him and she scrunched her nose up happily when their eyes met. She kissed him once quickly, but he managed to tease one more longer kiss out of her before she settled into his arms fully and closed her eyes.
Vision had expected some sort of sarcastic comment regarding their affection, but the living room was comfortably quiet aside from the calming voice over of David Attenborough on the tv. A quick look over his shoulder showed that Natasha was the only one paying them real attention, she smiled at Vision and gave him a slight nod. He smiled back, a moment of gratitude for each other for being such constants in Wanda’s life.
One by one Steve, Sam and Nat trickled off upstairs, Steve pausing to whisper that he’d checked all the locks and the security system and to just turn the lights off when they went to bed. Wanda was asleep against Vision’s chest and had been for a while now, but she was so peaceful that he couldn’t bear to move her.
So, she slept on and Vision peered outside the windows into the desolate fields that spanned out from the property. He could just see the rising moon peeking out from behind the clouds, casting a strong milky glow on the fields. The fire popped and crackled more quietly now, nearly out, its last embers of warmth keeping the room nice and toasty against the February chill outside.
It was sat there in the old leather armchair with his lover gathered in his arms, miles away from any of the problems they faced in the real world that Vision stole a few breaths to let his thoughts wonder. Thinking of all the time they had been together, all that they had been through and with more challenges no doubt in their future. How he had, against all odds, fallen in love with the remarkable woman asleep in his lap, and that she had returned his affection so fervently. He often thought about the different kinds of love, wondering what he had with Wanda. Initially, when they’d lived at the compound together, he had been sure it was just curiosity, that he was only responding to how she treated him. As someone normal, a friend, a companion. Then, as time went on, he thought it might be infatuation, the desire he’d felt to be near her, to be the reason she smiled but ultimately, a short term attachment. That had all changed in the polarising events of the Accords which he had been sure would tear them apart, but here they were, over a year later and he was still very much in love. Perhaps it was as the Greeks said, six different kinds of love for different relationships. Of all the renditions, Vision supposed Pragma was closest to how he felt, the love that was not only about falling but learning to stand up and keep walking. Beyond this, Vision felt a strange certainty that they’d always be together, in some shape or form and that, when separated, they’d always find their way back to each other.
The fire finally seemed to have given all it could, and so Vision shifted slightly, rubbing Wanda’s arm to rouse her. “I’m going to take you upstairs, Wanda,” he said quietly.
“Alright,” she smiled raising her arms up sleepily which he laughed at, winding them around his neck before he lifted her up.
Upstairs he pulled the covers aside and lay her down, brushing her hair out of her face and pressed a kiss to her forehead.
“Get in bed,” she hissed covering her eyes against the overhead light which he quickly switched out.
“So demanding,” he chuckled but relented, going around the other side and changing into lighter clothes for sleeping in.
“Is there anything else you need?” Wanda said absentmindedly, still playing the host. “Another pillow? Blankets?”
Vision sighed and instead pulled her closer so that he might press his chest to her back and wrap his arms around her waist. He kissed her cheek and felt her smile into the cosy room. “I have you, my love, what else could I possible need?”
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