#i’m feeling so disgusted by the have its and have nots (musings)

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Readmore for length since whoops have the app info while I'm at it. Only content warning going toward referencing wanting to kill Rabastan in the writing sample.

In summary:

Likely one of the smartest people in the room and well aware of it. Polite enough to refrain from being cocky unless an opportunity to show off and embellish the fact with sarcasm arises.

Best described as an observer and a charmer. Rodolphus has a way of words that is pleasant but packed with a punch. Able to seem calm, collected, and understanding but prone to using words as a weapon and way of getting more information out of people than they thought they were giving away.

Work oriented to the point of burying himself in it and seldom resurfacing. Pulling him away from it had better not turn into a waste of his time or it’s all whoever he is with will hear about.

Hasn’t sworn off relationships but has yet to find someone that can match him. Old fashioned in the sense of wanting an equal partnership between him and whoever he ends up courting. Feels relationships need to be built up on trust and values emotional connection before allowing things to take a physical/romantic/sexual turn.

Family is a weakness; with his being aware of this and still not overly happy about Rabastan having managed to make him prove he'll do just about anything for him.

Rodolphus took in a stray cat. And by taking in, it was more of a case of a window getting left ajar and coming home to the creature chilling on his armchair like it had been living there its whole life.

Primarily sticks to suits and isn't prone to dramatically updating his wardrobe. I will happily accept someone's character trying to convince him to broaden his color choices from black, navy blue, and dark green.

His hair is shoulder-length and well cared for. No idea why I’m going nah give me all the muses that can pull off ponytails but he’ll likely be the one that has me going “that’s why his hair is so big - it’s full of secrets” 😅

Ooof, very excited to explore his eventually aligning with the dark side, but the muse isn't overly in a rush for that.

Birthday:

September 2, 1951. Rodolphus is a Virgo that is very in tune with his need to remain organized and take a practical approach to life. He has a strong need to stick to familial obligations and expectations, taking the responsibilities of being the firstborn son seriously. He takes a methodical approach to everything and is prone to overthinking, often leaving him quiet and carefully analyzing every interaction. He takes pride in appearing cool and collected, using sweet looks and words to get an idea of other peoples’ inner workings.

Wand:

10 inches, black walnut wood, dragon heartstring core. Rodolphus needs a new wand, having learned the hard way that black walnut is a powerful and fickle wood. Two decades of working brilliantly were shattered by his decision to throw Silas’ case to support his brother instead. His inability to be honest with Andromeda and several others about losing the case has caused the wand’s performance to decline. 

Rodolphus’ insight and being overly self-aware made the pair a notable team, with the wand proving to be a reliable partner. There was little thought of the wand’s allegiance ever slipping since he had two decades of partnership with it under his belt and was using the approach of playing to win at his job. Switching it out for something better tempered is unthinkable since it would draw too much attention. He isn’t certain how well-known the wood’s fickleness toward self-deception is and is positive it isn’t worth the risk of those close to him noticing the sudden change in wands if inevitably given a different wood type. It’s only been inconveniencing him recently, so why bother switching if things haven’t approached risking a catastrophe?

Amortentia:

The very idea of being around amortentia is laughable for Rodolphus since he has little time to focus on something as ridiculous as love. He’s been work-oriented since landing his position at the Ministry, and his parents aren’t in a rush to marry him off, so relationships haven’t been something on his mind.

If he were to get near it, the scents of old books, candle wax, and something involving Andromeda would likely come about. Rather unfortunate luck of believing it’s too late to bring those feelings up to Andromeda, though, since he’s too far gone into covering for Rabastan to even think about making a move while keeping secrets from her. It wouldn’t be worth the fallout.

Boggart:

Rodolphus’ boggart isn’t anything overly dramatic. Two things come to mind, with the protectiveness over Rabastan making it worth noting there’s likely a fear of properly losing his brother as the first. Rab in a casket or being handed a life sentence in Azkaban seems reasonable enough to be one of his biggest fears. Rodolphus wouldn’t have gone through the hoops of deliberately blowing a case if he didn’t care deeply for his younger sibling.

The other is simply recognizing that he’s likely had his life planned out since he was old enough to think about it. With the decidedly neutral stance that was encouraged by his father, it had me questioning if getting bullied into taking the dark mark before he was ready for it would be part of his fears. He’s a logical thinker, and I imagine he isn’t a fan of not feeling in control of his own life. Rodolphus recognizes that deliberately losing the case was a smart move for Rabastan but isn’t certain it had his best interests at heart. Word spreads quickly, and he wouldn’t be surprised if it turned into Rabastan, Bellatrix, or a combination of the two trying to rope him into further throwing cases for the sake of a cause he is still gaining information about. Or worse, believing the lapse in full judgment warrants his taking a stance with the death eaters and makes him weak-willed enough to join the ranks without a second thought. Thinking about all that leaves me acknowledging his boggart could be as simple as his reflection with the dark mark on his forearm, having given others a chance to be in control of him.

Patronus:

With an analytical mind and a persuasive way of speaking, it’s no surprise that Rodolphus’ patronus takes on the shape of a buzzard. He was rather thrown off at being able to cast a corporeal one during his school days since it was one of the spells his parents hadn’t exactly encouraged exploring upon realizing their heir was academically inclined. He would usually rely on memories of his family to cast it. The disconnect between wizard and wand has me assuming he cannot cast a patronus now. With enough insult to injury to acknowledge his happier memories of Rabastan are a bit tainted by his wand’s loyalty shifting.

Writing Sample:

“Accio ink,” Rodolphus sighed, not looking up from the case he was reading over. The request and flick of his wrist were accompanied by a clattering noise and the unmistakable sound of glass shattering from the opposite end of his flat. Ordinarily, he would have thought little of it since he had taken in a cat to have something else alive in the place. The evening proved different, though, since there was no denying that his wand had been proving to be temperamental at best recently. Nothing overly dramatic had happened yet, with the few incidents he could recall having been subtle enough for Rodolphus to begin having doubts while at work.

“For Salazar’s sake, I’ll get it myself,” The brunette muttered when the jar of ink failed to appear at his side. He added a glare at his wand before abandoning it on the armchair he had claimed, hoping to whatever higher being was listening that the cat had simply intercepted things. Luck wasn’t on his side since there were no pawprints scattered around the shattered glass and splattered ink on the marble floor.

An exasperated sigh escaped upon spotting the mess, and he snapped his fingers, not needing to breathe a word for the house elf to clean up the mess. He remained still and assessed the damage with a scowl. Things were getting worse, with more basic spells proving to work inconsistently. It was overly frustrating since it meant needing to deal with it or get a wand that would better align with himself. The feelings of guilt toward the shift hadn’t hit until realizing having acted in his brother’s best interests instead of winning what would have been a clear-cut case. Mixed feelings on the matter had to be enough to make the wand presume he was no longer worthy.

“I’m going to kill Rabastan if he doesn’t beat me to doing so himself,” Rodolphus muttered under his breath, then grabbed a new jar of ink, needing it to finish up the sentence he had left off on before being able to call it a night.

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SONGS  TO  WRITE  MY  MUSE  !!

WHETHER   IT   BE   MELODIES   THAT   GIVE   YOU   INSPIRATION   FOR   YOUR   MUSE   OR   SONGS   THAT   GET   YOU   INTO   THE   WRITING   MOOD   —   PICK   10   SONGS   YOU   FIND   TO   GIVE   YOU   THE   URGE,   THE   DRIVE,   OR   THE   CREATIVITY   TO   WRITE   FOR   YOUR   MUSE   !

"Look Down” - Les Miserables: Now Prisoner 24601, your Time is up and your Parole’s begun. You know what that means. / Follow to the Letter of your Itinerary, this Badge of Shame will Show until you Die. It warns you’re a Dangerous Man.

“Remains” - Aviators: When the World was turned to Grey, the Hatred wouldn’t go away. Resentment in Chains. In the Coldest of our Hearts, a Voice Descends and Light Departs. Madness remains. 

“Magnum Bullets” - Night Runner: No Longer I Pretend, the Staircase I Descend, will lead me anywhere but my Unscripted End. My Heart and Hands Collide, the Gun lays at my side. Too late to turn back, only fates left to decide. 

"Nightmare” - Set it Off: Wait, something doesn’t Feel Right. No, something seems Wrong, and I’ve been Feeling this way for Far too Long. As my Vision get Blurred, my skin’s getting Colder. Appearing young while i’m growing Older. I collapse to the Floor and Scream ‘Can anybody Save me From Myself?’

"Killer in the Mirror” - Set it Off | Sanson / Alter: Where did all the Good People Go? They hide behind the Bars on Windows. In Hopes they can Forget we’re close, trying to get some of what they’ve got. Cause I used to Believe in Justice, a Place where there was better Judgement. Well now, I’m feeling so Disgusted by the Have-its, and the Have-nots.

“Enemy” - Sam Tinnesz + Beacon Light |  Sanson / Alter: You want me Dead. You want me Gone. Covered in Evil, you Turn on us All. Hungry for Power, Hungry for Pain, you Kill a Man if he gets in Your Way. I walked through the Valley of Shadows. I’m not alone, no I won’t Fear the Hangmans’ at the Gallows. I’m not Afraid of the Death in his Stare. 

“The Wolf” - SIAMÉS: I’m out of my Head, of my Heart, of my Mind, cause you can Run but you can’t Hide. I’m gonna make you Mine. Out of my Head, of my Heart, of my Mind, cause I can feel how your Flesh now is Crying out for More. 

"Alive” - Jekyll and Hyde | Sanson / Alter: Wait- What’s this? Sweet Miss. I thought I had Lost you, it’s Fate. What Bliss. Sweet Miss. Your Folly will cost you Dear. My Dear. You’ll see, You’ll never Escape me. I’m Here, I fear, and you will Pay Dear, my Dear. 

“When You’re Evil” - Voltaire  | Sanson / Alter : I Pledge my Allegiance to all things Dark and I Promise on my Damned Soul to do as I am Told. Lord Beelzebub has Never Seen a Soldier quite like Me. Not only does his Job but does it Happily. 

"The Song of Healing” - Rozen (Technically chose this for both Sanson and Marie because i’m weak) 

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Tagging: I did this for a solid two hours so HAVE AT IT IF YOU HAVE THE TIME LOL 

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I split this into two parts, the first two songs are from Izuku’s perspective towards Adachi; the last two are Adachi’s perspective towards Izuku.

1.Hypnotized - Set It Off

Guess you must have,Had me in a tranceAnd now you've lost your chance,So just quit tryin'I know, you know you're guilty,Guess you must have had me hypnotized

You're only mad about the fact that I put a light to you,Basically tracing paperWhen all we see is right through you!Who doesn't love analogies with a couple meanings,Especially when it makes a prick like you start steaming,I can tell you're not quite gettin' what I said before,What I mean by tracing paper'sThat you see-through and disposableGoodbye

2. Karma - CircusP ft. Eyeris

You lead me down a dark path But I’m who you blame for the aftermathYou're screaming out You've broken me down and IAm left alone here to crySomeone, can someonePlease, someone save me now 

You’ve charred my heart into ashI’ve become numb to the painYou’ve driven us both to crashAnd escape without a scratchNow you’ve used up all your luckIt’s time to get what you deserveI’m holding out for karmaI’m holding out to watch you burn

3. Copycat  - Billie Eilish

Don't be cautious, don't be kindYou committed, I'm your crimePush my button anytimeYou got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger finger's mine

By the way, you've been uninvited'Cause all you say are all the same things I did

Copycat trying to cop my mannerWatch your back when you can't watch mine

Call me calloused, call me coldYou're italic, I'm in boldCall me cocky, watch your toneYou better love me, 'cause you're just a clone

4. Killer In The Mirror - Set It Off

Get back, put your hands up, kinda messed up, but it's tough luckAnd I'm sorry, but I don't feel bad for you'Cause I know if you could switch this, you'd be dishing out the same shitSaying sorry, but I don't feel bad

Now I know there's no one I can trustI used to think there wasTell me that I'm cutthroatI think you got your eyes closed 

'Cause I used to believe in justiceA place where there was better judgmentBut now I'm feeling so disgustedBy the "have its" and the "have nots"