#i’ll be honest i wasn’t super thrilled for the update but it’s been fun. i can get sin by smacking bosses so i don’t have to bother with-

[the-one-with-spider-brainrot]

Cult of the lamb updated so yknow what that means? thats right more doodles of this fam and this fam alone yippee!!

I was not expecting the crown to jumpscare talk to me so now it gets a personality that’s fun

[pathopharmacology]

Hey. I'm the anon that checks in on you occasionally. First, sorry for thanking you for doing your job, I understand now that was tone deaf and I'm sorry for being an ass with that. Secondly, you've gone completely dark since this pandemic started and I'm really worried about you, especially since IIRC you work in emergency. You don't have to be okay (although that sure would be nice!!). I'm guessing you're not. But I'd like to know you're alive. And I want you to know you're not forgotten. We're not friends, though we're mutuals last I checked, and I want you to know someone cares even if there isn't shit I can do to help. Stay breathing. Keep your head above water.

Shit, friend, I am so sorry I freaked you out like that. God’s honest truth, I haven’t checked tumblr in ages, because I kinda noped out of most social media after we lost our first baby and then never really found my footing again after because a bunch more Life Stuff happened (more on that below). I don’t know that I’ll resume any sort of presence here, but for those who do want to stay in touch I have a twitter account (@patho_patho) I use occasionally. It honestly never occurred to me that anyone would worry. Again, I’m super sorry about that. I never intended to scare anyone.

Anyway, life update! The tl;dr version is that I found out I was pregnant in November of last year, freaked out SUPER HARD about it because of how things went the last time, freaked out SUPER HARD some more when covid-19 started showing up in the states, left the emergency department for a care management position right before the hospital implemented a hiring freeze, basically didn’t tell anyone I was pregnant until I was like almost 26 weeks along and it was incredibly obvious anyway, and — several months later — ended up having an unplanned (but non-emergent) cesarean delivery when my water broke three weeks early and the baby was breech.

The little dude is now 8 weeks old, growing like gangbusters and marvelously healthy. Unfortunately, our entire state caught on fire recently, so I’ve just spent the last week with him up at my parents’ house because the air is poison and their ventilation situation is way better than ours. Fun stuff.

I can’t explain how good it was for my mental health to get out of the emergency department. I was struggling even before everything happened with my first pregnancy, so when I got off my “postpartum depression is even more awesome when your baby is dead” medical leave, I was in a REAL bad way. We were thrilled when I got pregnant again, but it was also much earlier than we’d intended (apparently I’m super fertile, hooray?) and I spent the first trimester pretending like it wasn’t happening because I wasn’t sure I could survive the loss of another child. Covid started being a thing riiiight as I was heading into the second trimester, and...let me tell you, being pregnant during a pandemic is absolutely terrifying, and it was even more terrifying when I was still working in the ED. Those early days, when we really didn’t know much except that it was really, really bad? God, that was brutal. I was having panic attacks on my way to work, because I was scared shitless that I was going to get it and either I would die (thus killing my baby), or there would be complications of some sort (which would kill my baby), or me and the baby would be fine, but I would give it to the Dude or my parents and then one of THEM would die and...

Anyway. Bad times. It was bad times.

I was interviewing for a number of positions when things started amping up, and accepted the care management job literally days before the shelter-in-place orders went into effect, which led to a hospital-wise hiring/transfer freeze. The transfer still went through, thank god, and my new job has been amazing. They were super cool when I finally told them I was pregnant, especially when I explained why it took me so long to disclose it in the first place (basically, I wanted to wait until the final diagnostic tests were done and I knew 100% that this kiddo wasn’t sick the way our first was). I’m currently on maternity leave, and every once in a while my supervisor will text with a demand for more baby pictures. It’s really nice, actually. Care management is challenging as fuck, but it’s also really rewarding and interesting, and I’m glad I was able to make the switch before the whole world imploded.

(Also, it’s super nice to be in a position where the stakes are not literally life and death, and I’m also not putting my own life on the line every time I go into a patient room? I might’ve been okay with that once upon a time, but, uh, a lot of shit changed for me last year)

That’s pretty much it, unless y’all want to hear the whole pregnancy saga (which probably isn’t all that interesting, to be honest, except for the last bit with the c-section and all). Parenthood is deeply scary and deeply amazing. Everyone talks to you about postpartum depression, which makes it super easy to be blindsided by postpartum anxiety, which is like regular anxiety except your hormones are completely out of whack and you cry a lot and also refuse to sleep because you’re convinced your baby will die the moment you stop looking at them. Being a new parent during a pandemic is even scarier than being pregnant during a pandemic, and I honestly have no idea how I’m going to explain all of this EVERYTHING to the kiddo once he’s old enough to ask what the fuck was up with 2020, anyway.

Again, I’m really sorry I scared you by going radio silent. I’ve got all my notifications turned back on in case you or anyone else has any follow-up questions, and people are always welcome to check in over on the twitters (which is a garbage site, I freely admit, so I totally understand if folks would rather not). I definitely aten’t dead, and right now I’m doing better than I have in a long while.

Now I just need the air to stop being poison.

[cutegirlmayra]

May I request cute Tails and Amy friendship? You can choose which version just them being cute friends? Maybe they defend each other when someone tries to mess with them? Love your writing

Watch 18:19 of Pajama Blogs - Prompt Requests - Ep 1 for juicy first thoughts on this prompts! (I may divert away from it, but we’ll see :3c)

Thank you so much! I try hard to stay pumped with energy so that I can give you all reading material during these trying times, lol. So let’s hope and press our hands together in a prayer that I’ll entertain, satisfy, and bring joyful feels to everyone through my prompts and fanfiction updates :Db

Prompt:

“Still working on that observatory, eh, Tails?”

As Tails was about to hammer in on his half-finished ‘dome-effect’ he wanted for his upper-level room, he blinked a moment at the familiar voice and excitedly looked down.

“Amy!”

“The one and only.” She winked, grinning widely.

He had managed to get half the curve of the wall done, a dark, steel grey for it’s base color as it held a half-finished walled hole where the large glass would be for viewing the stars. He would insert a self-made telescope between there, and design a way to bring the view as though a holographic light performance right into his ‘black room’ when he wanted to personally ‘sit among the stars’.

“Permission to come aboard, captain?” Amy joked, placing a hand on the ladder and saluting him.

Tails’s twin namesakes wagged in joy, smiling and closing his eyes as he nodded, “Permission always granted! B-but be careful of the rickety-”

“Ah!” the ladder seemed to tilt as a piece of metal began to bend.

“Amy!” he was about to fly down but she summoned her hammer, wedging it into the place where the metal was bending.

“Phew~” she sighed out in relief, having some sweat trickle down the side of her face before climbing up again.

She removed her hammer and used it to place the metal back into the proper alignment again. “You might have given me permission, but did you consult your ship on that decision?”

The two laughed.

“Sorry about that. Everything is still a work in progress, and honestly, it’s kinda revolutionary if this actually works.” Tails scratched behind his head, then explained how new this technology and optical illusion trick really was.

“Yeah,... kinda amazing, Tails.” Amy admired the work already done to give Tails a space to mediate and enjoy the nature of wonderful night sky above him. “I remember when I first met you, that the dark used to be such a scary thing for ya.” She kid, looking to him kindly but nudging him with a tease.

He blushed slightly, looking away, “Well... then you and Sonic showed me how beautiful it was! A-an-and besides that, I’m too old for a night light.” he tried to seem so mature... but that pout made it obvious he just didn’t want to be looked down upon.

“Right. So a big sky-show isn’t the same thing?” She looked over to see he had already marked a place with some cushions, a reading-outlet to the side of the wall imbedded in with a shelf for the books, and a big fuzzy blanket. The tape read: Second Bed.

It all made her smile, “What a lovely little R&R space...” she lowered her eyes, wondering if he still got lonely like she did... and this was his way of coping.

He lived far away from the city, and although Amy lived down a winding road, she would visit the city often enough for groceries and other fun shopping sprees.

What did boys do to occupy their time?

“Heh, I wouldn’t say a 3D projected model of a precisely positioned magnifying glass and hyperized telescope make for a sky-light.” he tried to defend himself, and it was rather cute to Amy.

“Well, I bet Sonic’ll love to bunk here more often.”

The tone suddenly shifted as Amy and Tails both looked down, away from the other.

“Have you... heard from him lately?” Amy asked, almost worried that she already knew the answer to that question.

“No.” Tails sighed out, before dramatically leaning back and letting his head fall back on his shoulders, “Not since Eggman last showed up.”

“Yeah... he’s been rushing off more and more lately on some daring-dos that apparently don’t require any of us to come along...”

There was a quiet somberness...

“Yeahhhh...” Tails once again leaned properly back in place and dipped his head, scratching it softly...

He seemed friend-sick... and as Amy observed him more, he even looked starved for conversation.

“Hmph!” She puffed up the side of her cheek, “Well, we’ll have to give him the ol’silent treatment when he gets back this time too! Serve him right for all those times he’s left us behind on all the fun!” Amy rambled off, but Tails perked up a bit, looking over to her with a slight turn of his lowered head.

“Yeah?”

“Yeah! Just you wait! He’ll come back ready to tell us all his cool stunts on his new latest adventure, and we’ll be just chatting it up about your awesome star project!” She posed with her arm out and her hand upon her muscle, as though Rosy the Riveter. “That means we should wrap this little project of love up and really see what it’s made of!”

“Y-you mean it?” Tails looked thrilled by her offer. “I-I mean, if it’s not too much trouble... I could use your hammer for a few things.” He looked down at the metal that had bent out of place. “You’re strong arm means I could patch the rest of this in one hammer hit! It’ll remain sturdy if you’re strength! Ah...! Sorry!” he looked back over and saw Amy frowning embarrassedly, pushing her fingers together. He wagged his arms out to the side of her, apologetically. “I forgot... how you sometimes take the praise for your strength a little...” he felt awkward now, seeing her begin her usual spiel.

“But I’m... elegant... A-and lady-like when I do it... right?” She looked over to him as though pleading for his approval.

“O-O-of course, you are! I-I even remember Sonic saying something about it! Your hammer is super cute and only adds to your-! Uhh... c-charms!” Tails bundled his fists up and started shaking them profusely around, not sure how to convince her a ‘giant hammer’ was somehow ‘girlish’ but he did his best. “And besides, I don’t care what anyone else says, Amy! You’re super useful thanks to your strength! Just like I am with my brains.”

He was so determined to succeed in cheering her up that Amy couldn’t bear to disappoint him.

She took in a deep breath and got over herself, straightening up. “Yeah... well, I have to be strong, to look after and protect you and the others.” She ruffled up his hair and he laughed lightly, slightly moving away from her touch as a brother would to his older sister.

“I’m sorry that you’re sensitive to that.” He admitted, “You really are super cool when you hit a robot miles away!”

She flinched.

“I-I-I meant that in a good way!” he shook his hands out again, “Honest!”

Amy just laughed, “I can cook too, you know. Why don’t we finish building this thing and then I’ll make us something good to eat. We can turn it off with some smores and maybe crackers or something too later tonight!” Amy’s usual optimism was restored and Tails immediately caught on to it’s wave.

“Woah! You mean it! T-that could take all day...” His ears lowered just slightly.

“Pfft!” Amy turned with a proud look upon her face, placing one hand to her hip as she sat off the edge with him and then slammed her hand to the top of his head again, making him flatten slightly as he was sitting slightly on his knees. He looked uncomfortable, like her force had made him do an unwilling ‘split’ sort of with his knees being parted and he looked as though in strained pain. “Think nothing of it, Tails! As you said before, my hammer strikes are good on one blow! We’ll have this done in no time, so..? Can I stay the night?”

He continued to flinch and twitch in the pain, “S-sur-sure, I-I-I don’t mind... mmm...” he had a small tear forming at the right of his eye.

A few hours passed as the two worked hard, and finally, the dome was done and the telescope he had already completed for the room was successfully moved up to the upper-room... with a lot of back-strain and power from the two working together. Tails had to really test his twin-propelling tails’s weight limit on how fast they could twirl to lift something, and Amy’s powerful arms and back were put to their ultimate test as well!

But somehow, the two worked great together, though bickered and taunted the other at times...

“You can fly higher than that, Tails!”, “D-don’t act like I’m the only one lifting my weight here!”, “AH! What is that supposed to mean!? I’m as light as a feather! And this is... nothing... compared... to what I can lift!”, “Then push harder!”, “You fly harder!”, They both ‘ggrr’d and finally got the massive telescope up that ladder...

When everything was set up, Amy put on a movie for Tails to rest and started cooking up some dinner. She wanted to leave room for the late-night snacks, and coming back in, noticed Tails wasn’t watching the television.

“Huh?” She looked up the ladder to the room and smiled, seeing the computer light on as he must have been programming the telescope and other functions. “He works so hard... he must be excited to show it off to Sonic.” she felt a slight bit of envy. She sighed, “Not like girls and guys can have that strong of a bond... botherhood and sisterhoods are really exclusive, huh?” she frowned, not liking the idea that she could never be as close to Sonic or Tails as the other was with them.

She called down Tails though, and they had a nice dinner together, complimenting their success as Tails hoped it would all work, but Amy told him not to worry.

“You’re incredibly good at designing these technological masterpieces, Tails.” Amy scolded him for about to open his mouth to answer with food in it, and seeing her hand raised and her eyes closed while one opened slightly, he chewed and swallowed before continuing.

“W-well, that doesn’t mean that their isn’t going to be some error on my part involved...”

“I’m sure Sonic will love it. I know I’m excited to see it.” She picked up his finished plate, going to wash them and as she removed her apron...

“Sonic? I was building this for us to view it together, tonight.”

Her face shot up, touched.

Her heart seemed to rise up as though being elevated to a status it thought unattainable.

“R-really?” She always had felt a distance between the boys, and found it just seemed easier and less forced when interacting with Cream... but Cream was still so young too. She loved picking flowers! Don’t get her wrong! She had just gotten really, really good at making flower crowns for so... long...

She placed her apron that she had borrowed from him down, planning to wash it if needs be as well, but turned back to Tails.

He didn’t seem to notice how much that meant to her, already wiping his hands on his white fluff like he would if he was greased up in oil or gunk stains from working on his pet-projects like the X-Tornado and this Observatory. She puffed up her cheek, “I still need to teach you proper manners, huh?” she whispered under her breath, but smiled and touched her heart.

He was already racing up the ladder, and she immediately went into mother mode.

“Ah! Tails! D-don’t move so fast after eating!” she reached a hand up but he called down to her.

“Bring up the treats! I think it’s loaded all the settings in by now! ... Yeah! Yeah it has!”

His excited voice sprang her into an excitement, “W-well, hold on! I’m coming!” It was like he just called out that the fireworks were gonna start...

She rushed through the cleaning and threw the plates into the dishwater, a little rougher than she usually would like to and washed herself up before charging up the ladder. “Don’t let it start without me!”

“Hurry!” Tails called, and she immediately started to leap passed rings on the ladder to just reach out and jump pass a few steps.

“I’m here!” her quills looked a mess as she clung to the edge of the room, Tails rushing over and helping her up as she huffed and puffed in her strain to get there in time.

“Haha, and you tell me not to rush.” He teased her back.

“Hmph.” she blew up her bottom bang of the three quills on her forehead and then smiled to him, cheekily, “If I get stomach cramps, I’m blaming you!”

“Over here!” He laughed a moment at her response but was too excited to show her what he had set up.

“Ah... Tails...” Amy felt so important and loved then, seeing he had taken the large fuzzy blanket and got in it, opening a space for her to join him.

“S-sorry, is this too... um... close?” He squinted an eye, lowering his arm that was gesturing for her to intimately cuddle up within it and watch the show together.

She shook her head, holding back tears and hoping to not confuse him. “Absolutely! I-I mean, it’s perfect! Don’t change a thing!” she crawled down and got into the blanket, taking the other side as she felt Tails bouncing in his seat.

“Okay, good. Three... two... one... Ehem,” he cleared his throat, like a child about to press ‘liftoff’ on a rocket. “Computer! Activate Spatial Definity Mock 5 Advanced Overhead Project 3.2.7.”

Amy blinked her eyes rapidly at such a long line...

“What? You couldn’t have called it, Sky-light?” she teased again, “For nightlight?”

“Quit it...” He nudged her lightly, embarrassed she kept teasing him on that one. “It sounds cooler this way... and it reminds me how long it took to set up the program and make it run right. I haven’t tested this final version yet, so SDM5AOP 3.2.7 is a perfect name for-!”

“O-okay, as long as it makes sense to you.” she decided not to question it.

The whirling of a computer was heard and the two waited anxiously for the results...

“It has to take a second to go through all it’s processing. Lots of... kinda like doors to hurdle through and collect data for.” He explained.

“...Do you... wish Sonic were here instead of me?” she looked away from him for a moment. “I mean... not that you would have a preference b-b-but...” she thought this was a bad, killing the mood he had tried to set up and wish she didn’t say anything. “Nevermind.”

“No, I think you’ll appreciate it more than he will.”

She felt that ranking skyrocket again, as though her tiny significance in life was suddenly bumped up again to a higher sphere of importance in this little fox boy’s life.

“W-... What makes you say that?” she was trying so hard to hide the sparkles in her eyes, but her quivering voice gave away how happy she was to hear that. No, not happy, overjoyed to know she was considered such a special friend to him.

“You actually helped me complete it!” He spread his arms out as the first little light formed in the blackened room.

“Ah!” Amy saw it first, marveling as it faded and then grew brighter and brighter to show the actual dimensions of the star that was currently in the sky, or at least, the radiance of it.

She marveled as he continued to talk, not noticing multiple other little constellations starting to form over his literal head and scattered all throughout the room. Accurate and pronounced, their distance was a miniature diorama of the actual space of the universe...

“I knew you’d want to see it... I’m sure he would too, but Sonic would rather be in the stars then just viewing them... though he does all the time. Heh, I guess you’ll be able to brag about how you were the first to see it! I-if it works or not... It’s still a longshot, s-so... don’t get your hopes up too hig-”

His face was yanked towards the direction of the star, then Amy started shaking his arm. “Ah-AH-AHHHH!!!” she freaked out as a very distinct cosmic entity was defined in the space.

“AH-! AHHH!! IT ACTUALLY WORKS!” Tails flipped out as they both cried out-

“EARTH!”

Then, one after another...

 “The Milky Way!”, “It’s the galaxy from Chris’s world... and look! Here’s our constellations!”, “Ohhh! It’s our solar system! Ahhh! It’s so bright!”

“...Do you think Cosmos seeds found good land to grow on?”

The two suddenly stopped gawking...

Amy couldn’t even look to him, and him the same.

Instead, she scooted closer to him in the blanket, felt his tails solemnly wrap around her for support and comfort, and placed her arm to his opposite shoulder to pull him into the gap of her neck.

He laid his head on her shoulder, tearing up.

“Is... is that why you made all of this?” Amy’s heart tugged on her vocal chords, making them choke slightly.

“...Yeah.” he admitted. “If this was Sonic, I don’t think he’d be willing to talk about it... not like you.” he looked down a moment.

“No, don’t look down.” Amy’s voice plucked up an octave. “Look at your amazing work, Tails. Look at how vast... how beautiful the universe is... I’m sure you’ll see evidence of Cosmo’s seed blooming all over the place. You know why?”

She ducked her gaze down slightly, moving her head to make sure she didn’t obstruct his view.

He smiled lightly through his tears.

“Because life never quits, that’s why!” She pulled him into a half-hug and continued to snuggle up in the blanket. “Hehe, because Cosmo would want you to look at these stars and know that she’s everywhere. Smiling just as brightly as any of these ol’stars and wishing you the best forever!”

She felt his shoulders bounce a little...

She knew Sonic would have done an alright job if he were here too, but...

She was so glad...

Holding him and tucking him in better into the blanket...

That she was the one he shared this whole project with.

That she was the one... who could dry his tears tonight.

-Author: And now I cry, wow, hands slapped together in a prayer really did wonders for myself in this prompt, how about you? lolol To those of you who actually did the gesture and wished me the best, this one’s for you.

[kirishwima]

Could you please write about RFA + V&Saeran reacting to MC playing otome games? I don't know if you ever wrote something like that before. Thank u ♥️

as a big fan of otome games i’m obligated to answer this OwO

Since you haven’t specified any pronouns, I’ll be using they/them for MC!

YOOSUNG:

* “MC, do you like playing games?” he asks one day whilst on a call with MC, the glee in his voice palpable.

* He’s so happy when MC replies with a shy yes! He’s about to ask them is they play LOLOL when MC cuts him off with a rush. “I-it’s probably not the kind of games you play though!”

* He’s a little baffled by that, but MC is quick to change the topic to Yoosung’s beloved LOLOL, and he’s sufficiently distracted to let the matter slide in the meantime.

* It’s only after he and MC meet at the party, only after they start dating and spending much more time together that he understands just what kind of a gamer MC really is.

* “MC! Stop paying attention to your fake boyfriend and come hug me! Me! Flesh and bone, right here!” he groans, patting at his chest and belly with a big sad pout-and really, MC you heartless fiend, how can you ignore those big puppy eyes in favor of an online hottie on your laptop?!

* He’s not nearly as upset over MC’s choice of games as one would think-so long as he receives sufficient amounts of kisses and cuddles, and reassurances that he’s their one and only true boyfriend, he’s good! He’ll even watch MC as they game on their phone whilst they rest their head on his chest.

* “Oh, MC, go with that guy! He looks um-” he blushes, wondering how to phrase his next words-how can he say that that dude with the choker full of spikes and smudged eyeliner looks hot?! “he looks...promising?”

* Oho? *MC will remember that.*

ZEN:

* He never really noticed what exactly it was MC was playing-he saw them giggling at their phone or laptop from time to time and found it cute, sometimes he’d see the background of a game but he’d pay no mind to it-if it was something MC wanted to share with him, they would after all!

* Well, one day he was sitting besides them as they played on their laptop, going over his lines when MC laughed and tugged at his shirt, nodding over to their screen. 

* “Zenny, look at this-doesn’t this guy look a lot like Jumin?”

* Zen raised a brow and looked at the screen-and he was floored. The man at the screen was a well-drawn, hyper-realistic man that really did look oddly similar to that Trustfund prick-and what was that? There was a dialogue bubble at the side of him that wrote ‘For you, my love, I’d buy the moon and all the stars.”

* “MC-are you not satisfied with me...?” he trembled as he uttered the words, his eyes fixated to the man on the screen-and he suddenly had a deep desire to punch Jumin the next time he saw him (doesn’t he always feel that way tho orz)

* It took a lot of explaining from MC to show him that yes, this is just a game, and no, this isn’t real-yes they’re super happy with Zen and don’t need any compensation from a virtual boyfriend, these are just fun games to play, same as Yoosung with his LOLOL.

* Eventually Zen eases into the idea, though not entirely-and if he catches MC playing any game like that, he’ll always urge them to go for the character that most resembles himself lmao

JAEHEE:

* She really doesn’t see the appeal-and doesn’t really have much of a reaction when MC tells her of their hobby. 

*She’s interested to learn of what MC enjoys in their free time, and she’s content to spend some time lounging around on the couch with them, her watching Zen’s musical whilst MC plays on their phone or laptop, and she’ll occasionally look to MC’s screen, offer commentary on the characters, but that’s pretty much it

* Until one day....MC discovers a Zen dating fan game.

* They figure Jaehee will be thrilled to see this, that she’ll want to play this right away! So they waste no time in showing it to them-the plot is fairly good and the art is great, so they know it’s a promising game...

* ...but Jaehee doesn’t seem all that interested. She shakes her head when MC offers her their phone, pushing it back to MC.

* “Thank you, but I’ve already seen this game before-playing as Zen’s lover feels weird, more so when he’s a dear friend. If you’d like to play it you’re free to do so though....” she lowered her head at that last bit, biting her lip. 

* With a bit of coaxing and a chin tilt so she’d look MC in the eye, Jaehee admitted her fear. “W-what if after playing this game you fall in love with Zen?! Of course I had no such fear with all the other games you play, they’re fake, but this is real and it’s Zen and-”

* MC had to kiss Jaehee to shush her, the phone all but forgotten, the game still gleaming on the screen. 

* “Let’s never play that game, ok? Neither of us has any use for it. I love you, and only you” MC whispered on Jaehee’s lips-and that was all the confirmation Jaehee needed.

* Zen couldn’t stop sneezing that night, poor dude lmao

JUMIN:

* “So....MC you enjoy playing as someone else’s significant other?”    “I mean...kind of but not really?”    “I see.”

* The conversation was as awkward as you can imagine-MC had been giggling at something a character had said while playing on their phone, and Jumin asked what they were laughing about, so they answered honestly-and that’s how they ended up here, sitting across each other, MC’s phone in the middle of the two on the dining table, the rich-dude-character still shining on the screen, his brooding expression perfectly matching Jumin’s.

* “Is there anything you feel is lacking from our relationship, that these games provide instead?” Jumin asked, nodding down to MC’s phone.

* “No! No, not at all-Jumin, these are just games, and these are simply characters. I enjoy playing the games, and I like seeing well-written characters, but that’s as far as my exchange with them goes. You-you’re here. You’re with me, and we’re together. I love you, and no game can change this or take that away.”

* This is getting too meta for me lmao

* “I see” Jumin said at last-the words sounded cold, but his lips betrayed a small smile as he stood up, coming around to kneel in front of MC, taking their hands in his. “Thank you for being honest with me, MC.”

* And that was that. Or so MC thought.

* Barely a week after this conversation, a notification popped up on MC’s phone. ‘New Otome Game, Exclusive-Corporate Heir Professes His Love?!’

* Curious MC cilcked on the suspicious link, assuming it’d be a prank from Seven or something of the sort-but hoo boy, it sure wasn’t.

* No, instead it was a full-blown, million-dollar-budget otome game; featuring Jumin Han himself, with his own voice, and a lot of cameos by Elizabeth the 3d-even the MC was built-in the game, designed to look exactly like...well, like MC.

* Jealousy, meet Jumin Han, the man that created an entire freaking game for his fiance to play, which he updates weekly so they’ll focus on him and only him lmao

SEVEN/SAEYOUNG:

* “Dude, you’re playing The Arcana?! Do Julian’s route, he’s one kinky motherf-mmf!”

* Seven’s words were cut short as MC put a hand over his mouth, stopping him mid-sentence. “Babe!” they screamed, “spoilers! I’m still on the prologue!”

* He plays any and all games, and otome are no exceptions lol, it just has to be good enough to catch Seven’s eye.

* He’ll often recommend games to MC, or lay in bed with them and play on their phone, choosing bad dialogue options on purpose to mess with them lol

* You’d think he’d make them an otome game featuring himself since they love them so much-and he might, but he’s a little too self-conscious for that lol, so he’d end up making it more of a meme than anything. He might add in a deep profound love confession unlocked through a series of tests though, just to see if MC would go through the trouble of achieving it~

* And they would-it’d take a lot of trial and error but they’d reach a point in Seven’s game where there’d be a blank screen and his own voice, simply telling MC how much he loves them, how he’d do anything to see their smile and how their every action brightens up his day. It’s short and simple, but enough to make MC’s heart melt, and make them run to Seven’s desk to jump in his arms and kiss him.

* Also he’s a total sucker for blushy innocent characters that can’t reckon danger if it were to punch them in the face, wAnna guess whY?

* also if u havent go play the arcana its p darn good

V/JIHYUN:

* He finds MC’s obsession with otome games to be pretty darn cute?! The way they giggle at some of the dialogue or point out their favorite and explain why they like that character to V is so endearing, and he’s always eagerly listening to their explanations-he’ll even play with them from time to time.

* He won’t really play otome games on his own, but he’ll sit with MC on his lap, his head resting on their shoulder as he helps them pick dialogue options (the best, cutest option, always-this man can’t be mean even to a fictional character, never)

* His favorite seem to be the overly sarcastic, blunt characters that seem to want nothing to do with the main character-MC questioned him about it once, asking him if he’s a masochist or something, but he gave them such an innocent look they just dropped the subject without much thought.

* One night MC was too busy playing otome games as V sat on the couch besides them, gently nudging their thigh with his for even a glimpse of their attention-but MC kept mumbling ‘not now babe’, focusing on their game and the moving dialogue.

* V pouted, prodding his lip as he leaned close to MC. “Baby, do you prefer these characters over me...?”

* Listen. Listen V does NOT get into these cutesy moods often so if he does you are LEGALLY OBLIGED TO DROP EVERYHTING YOU’RE GOING AND GIVE HIM ALL YOUR ATTENTION and that’s exactly what MC did, otome games be damned.

* V=Victorious

SAERAN/RAY/UNKNOWN:

* He’s so confused???!

* “Wait so the point of the game is to...date the characters?! All of them?!”

* MC nodded, a mischievous grin on their lips. “Sound familiar?” they asked, knowing full well that was how Ray once lured them to Mint Eye-a story as old as time now, now that he’s on his path to recovery, now that the two are happy together.

* Saeran grumbled under his breath, a blush spreading on his cheek. “It’s not like I really knew what these games were at the time...I just took a look at your search history, saw a lot of that ‘otome’ or whatever and made up a rouse based off of it. I didn’t know you’re that invested in them!”

* MC laughed at his obvious confusion, how he looked to MC’s screen, a desktop folder full of otome games open on their screen and glaring back at them. He pouted, furrowing his brow.

* “Wait but-you’re not like-you like me right?”

* MC rolled their eyes. He was slowly getting over his insecurities, sure, but there was still a long way to go.

* They leaned in close and kissed him, a quick peck on the lips before they leaned back, looking to their computer screen. “I could delete all these if it’d make you feel better. I love you. Only you.” they shrugged.

* Saeran’s reddened face was adorable, the way his breath hitched in his throat, his hands trembing as he came to rest his fingers over MC’s wrist. 

* “N-no it’s-it’s okay, I trust you. I um-I love you too.”

* He’s not a fan of otome games, especially not with the connnotations they have for him, but well, if his beloved likes them...he doesn’t mind building a proper game for them.

-send me a mystic messenger headcanon for character reactions-

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you did this on instagram ages ago and it was super interesting lool,,, would u mind showing us all the stories in ur drafts :))

yesss!! so in order from most recently updated onwards:

ruby ruby -- steve harrington: HM

untitled margo valen fic -- regulus black: probably never gonna post this one but sometimes when i make covers for no reason i make a draft so i can stare at the cover a little more lol

the princess diaries -- thor: definitely never gonna be posted but i just liked staring at the cover i made for it haha!! (if u go on my ig it’s on there!!)

dolittle -- george weasley: see below lol

baby -- george weasley: look it took me a WHILE to get a george fic right!!!

high stakes -- sirius black: before i posted most noble i was thinking of a continuation of mean spirits but decided a happy epilogue and then most noble would be best

thrills -- peter parker: this was the og morningstar... by og i mean the first version where izzy was in the mcu, since originally she was dc.

not the chosen one -- hermione granger: about harry’s older brother archie. he’s now featured in most noble!!

blue hawaii -- remus lupin: au of my old old old fic called blue

in bloom -- isaac lahey: updated version of my old jackson whittemore turned isaac lahey x oc fic called teen idle

teen idle -- jackson whittemore but also isaac: scott’s sister gets with jackson but is in love with her best friend isaac. it was fun and people were mad when she ended up w isaac not jackson hahaha. also riley mccall is now featured in morningstar!!

some other CLASSICS from my post 2015/16 days, in order from oldest to newest but not acc new, include:

love her anyway -- draco malfoy: we don’t talk about her. but her plot line was decent,,,,,,, admittedly,,,,,,, and i used it a wee bit for both livvy and holly (mostly holly w the unbreakable vow n hol + draco feeling each other’s feelings, only with holly it was written SO much better) oh and also her dad was barty crouch jr and im gonna be honest i really don’t know why i keep on writing about the crouches for some fuckin reason but briar says hi

cross my heart -- stiles stilinski: ‘another hunter family!!!’ but ~just~ before that got super super popular?? maybe it was. i can’t remember. but it felt original at the time lol i promise. ah so yes i did in fact write a stiles fic bc i did in fact,,,, like every other 13 year old,,,, think he was fit,,,, and ngl. the writing is shit. but. cmh was the reason i got to 100 followers and was my first big fic so. i’m nostalgic for that reason lol/

teen idle -- jackson whittemore: said above but the story goes i liked marina and the diamonds way too much and wrote a whole fic about it. also i’ll argue riley’s been my most ~controversial~ character because people hated her when she started acting ‘cool’ to get jackson’s attention....... and then they hated me when she ended up with isaac not him hahahaha sorry xoxoxoxo

athena -- barry allen: this inspired morningstar but like the similarities are literally just the main character is izzy. lol in this version she wasn’t the antichrist, she was just a rich girl who’s dad was in prison like barry’s,,,, she was friends with the guys at star labs through her dad,, and yeah. kinda basic but it was nice. and isabelle was made as a result of it so :-) fave

also notable mention to arabella which was an original paranormal story i wrote and people LOVED IT. and then i unpublished it lol. literally can’t remember why but god it was so fun to write

ask me questions!!

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Today we are chatting allll about microblading. Is it worth it? How much does it cost? Does it hurt? In all honesty I wasn’t planning on doing a full blog post about it so I’m sorry that the pictures are mostly random selfies I found on my phone. I’ve been asked by so many of you though to dish all the details so I thought it’d be easier to just come here and share my experience.

The good the bad and the ugly!!

  What is Microblading? It’s basically a tattoo for your eyebrows. While it falls under the permanent makeup category it’s much less invasive than getting an actual tattoo and it’s only semi-permanent. It can last anywhere from 1-3 years depending on various factors.

Who was your artist? Her name is Kristi Christensen (@kristi.christensen) and she’s literally the best in the biz. I’m just gonna full on brag about her for a split second — she has people fly in to get their brows micro-bladed from all over the country and she actually teaches other professional microbladers. Not newbie microbladers but professional microbladers. She’s amazing. I dare say the best. When you’re trusting someone with your FACE, you get the best! Plus she’s hilarious and has the cutest southern accent you’ve ever heard. So she comes highly recommended from me.

If you can’t go to Kristi, just make sure you do your research. I had picked out two different microbladers at one point before I found Kristi and I loved most of their work. Most of it. I loved certain brows but I was just so nervous committing to them because I felt like I needed to tell them the shape I wanted… like I couldn’t trust their opinion because I didn’t want them to give me those brows they gave that person or whatever. Does that make sense? When I was looking through Kristi’s instagram feed it was literally every. single. brow was amazing. She had this gift to transform peoples shapes and I loved that she was an artist first. I feel like it’s important to have some sort of creative talent to start with. So do your homework. You want to be full on obsessed with your artist and their work before committing to them. Shop around! Make sure they have experience and that they are licensed. You also want to see how their clients brows are holding up. I have a lot of friends who after a few months have brows that have totally greyed out, they’ve lost their strokes or the color has faded. Ask lots of questions before committing to your artist.

Did it hurt? LIKE HELL. And I never swear so that’s a big deal ha ha!!! I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that I wasn’t prepared for it. I was told by a friend that she was numbed for the whole thing and that it didn’t hurt at all. But one of the amazing things about Kristi is her color stays brown and amazing, it doesn’t grey out like a lot of other artists color. And it’s because of the techniques she uses and her post op care. She doesn’t numb on the first pass… it has something to do with blood flow? Either way haha she didn’t numb me on that first pass. AND IT HURT!!!! It only took about five-ten minutes though and then she was able to numb me for the second pass so it was fine. Put on your big girl pants, you can do this!!!

How long did it take to heal? So what happens is your artist will cut strokes into your skin with a scary knife like tool haaha and you’re gonna bleed. The strokes will scab and it’ll take up to two weeks for them to fall off and heal. When your strokes turn into scabs your brows are CRAZY dark. This picture below is the day after I got them microbladed and the scabs turned jet black.

    If we are being totally honest I hated the shape for a handful of weeks. I thought I had ruined my face. I’ll do a comparison further down but she actually shaved off my tails and lifted my brow arch so that I had more eyelid to play around with. I have very hooded eyes and my brows came super close to my eyes. I knew it, but I was used to seeing myself a certain way and brows can change the way a person looks dramatically!! I felt like I didn’t look like me anymore!!! Obviously I was being ridiculous. More on that soon.

Anyway, it took about 5-6 days before the scabs started falling off… exhibit A

  She used a shadowing technique because she’d taken off my entire tail and strokes weren’t going to be enough to make my brows look natural. Because of that, and I’m not a microblader so I’m just assuming here, but the eyebrow turned into one huge scab. About 8 days after I had my brows microbladed the scabs started peeling off. Kinda gross. Don’t plan on any photoshoots or blind dates while this is going on. It’s honestly not that bad, you can easily fill them in. The color lightened immensely, almost too much and I was still on the fence about my brows at this point. Kristi warned me though. She drummed into my head before I left her house that I wouldn’t be thrilled with my brows until the six week touchup. So I was prepared. Thank goodness!!!

They basically turned into this picture below. The strokes disappeared and the color went a grey color. You can see pretty well here where my brows were shaved off! I was filling them in like normal, which was fine, not ideal, but it was fine because at least I had a shape to draw over. And I was hopeful it’d get better at my six week touchup.

  So here is a comparison on how she transformed my brow shape. Do you see on the right how my tail angles steeper down? It sits right on my brow bone instead of right on top of it like it does on the left.

  And a little bit closer up!! Disclaimer: I filled that selfie in on the left using photoshop. I wanted you guys to have a good side by side to comparison and the scabs were falling off in that picture!

  To me the shape was so dramatically different and it took me several weeks to finally see that it was better than my original shape. If I had not trusted Kristi completely and valued her expert opinion, I would have been so nervous. I knew all along though that I loved her work, I’d not seen one brow that I wasn’t obsessed with and I was confident I’d come around to loving the shape she thought was best for me. I LOVE the shape now. I’ve had so much fun playing with my eyeshadow palettes because I can actually fit shadow on my lids! Before I had zero space to work with!

What is post op care like? No showers. No exercising. A lot of microbladers recommend putting creams on the scabs, Kristi recommends using nothing. She also had me put bandaids on the tails at night to protect them because I’m a side sleeper. I’m trying to think if there was anything else? Once the scabs fall off your free to resume you’re regular routine.

Six weeks after my initial appointment I was finally ready for my 6 week touchup. I was so excited because she told me this was where the dream brows were made!

      She was totally right. I told her how the strokes had fallen off, that the color went a little bit grey and that I felt like you could see where my natural brows ended. She did her magic, added warmth to the color, made more strokes in the arch area to help blend the natural brow and microbladed brows and refined the shape. “Recovery” was much better with the 6 week touch up and the appointment only lasted an hour. I actually didn’t even notice the scabs this second time around, I kept waiting for them to fall off like they did the first time and they were just unnoticeable. The color was darker but I actually really loved that the second time around! I’ve had them done new for a few weeks and the color hasn’t faded to grey like they did with the first appointment and I’m just in love with them. If things change I will definitely give you an update.

So here are a few comparisons:

  Here’s what my brows looked like filled in. See how they go a tiny bit grey? It’s always bothered me and despite using the best products I knew of I couldn’t figure out how to avoid it.

  They just look SO much better! I finally have room to play around with eyeshadows!!! It actually took me a couple weeks to adjust how I applied my makeup! I finally have a brow bone to highlight! It’s literally the best. No, the best is waking up with my brows totally done! I can literally get ready in five minutes now, a little bit of HACing, some lipstick and mascara. Done.

  I’m wearing Bella on the left, which we just ordered 30 of so email me at twistmeprettylips@gmail.com to pre-order it. It’s gonna go dang fast!!! And then on the right I’m wearing sheer berry which is still out of stock :(. Sorry, back to the brows haha! Do you see the shape difference? And the color? The microbladed brows are so warm and totally symmetrical. The minutes in my day I’d spend trying to get my brows symmetrical guys… you don’t even wanna know!

    Was it worth it? Yes. 100x yes. It was annoying to go through the whole scabs falling off process, not being able to workout and shower (I bathed sillies) but it was totally worth it. It’s shaved off a good five minutes of my routine every morning, which is a big deal considering I only have a few minutes to get ready as it is! I don’t look like I’m dead when I wake up, swimming this summer will be amazing and just over all I’ve really enjoyed my new shape!!

How much does it cost? It’s a two hour appointment and Kristi charges $399 – $499 if you need a microblading + shading combo. And then the touch-up is an hour long appointment and it’s $150. So it’s definitely not cheap. But the things people will do to have the perfect brows!!

If you have any other questions, if I missed something please ask me in the comments below!! Have you had your brows microbladed? Did you have a different experience? I’d love to open up the comments below for people to go through and read different peoples experiences, so please comment and share!!!

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Hi everyone! I hope this post finds you well. I’m so honored to be able to share this latest project with you!

If you haven’t been by before, I’m April Simpson-Hunt. I’m a wife and mama to 4 crazy kids. I love to sew, create, bargain hunt, and share my makes/finds. It’s lovely to meet you! Today’s post is a special one, as it’s part of a blog tour. The tour is all about Love Notions & the Origami Tunic pattern. It’s an incredible pattern that’s perfect for all the seasons, but especially fall and winter. There are quite a few talented seamstresses on the tour and everyone really brought their A game. I’m so excited about all the hacks and modifications everyone has made, including me! So let’s get to it!

*Be sure to stay tuned (or scroll through) all the way to the end, as there is a big SALE and a GIVEAWAY!!!

I’m a big fan of Love Notions patterns. I stumbled upon their Laundry day Tee on Pinterest (searching for free sewing patterns) and ran to grab a copy of the pattern for myself. The “LDT” pattern is one of my all time favorites, and is free if you join the Love Notions Facebook group! Below is one of the first Laundry Day tees (and also one of the first pieces of clothing) that I ever made! There is such a following for the pattern, it has its own page on their blog, full of hacks and tricks. When I first grabbed grabbed a copy, it was a simple shirt/ tunic, but now it’s been updated to include a dress length and 2 different waistline variations (slim or swing style).

My favorite thing about Love Notions patterns is the amount amount of options each pattern comes with. The possibilities are endless! Just like the LDT above, the Origami Tunic & Cardigan is full of tons of great options. I’m a sucker for interesting hemlines, and had yet to conquer a handkerchief hem, so I jumped on the call for the tour quickly. I also adore matching mommy and mommy and me sets, (examples of that fascination here and here) so I grabbed both patterns & quickly ran to get fabric. (you can find the mommy and me bundle Mommy & Me Origami bundle here)

For our first set of cardigans, I knew I wanted to do a bolder print. I am a firm believer that you can never have too many timeless/classic pieces, which sounds great in theory, but it amounts to a wardrobe full of solids more often than not. I had originally envisioned a stripe or boho print, (no, I’m not sick of boho yet. Not florals either, apparently. haha.) but when I stumbled upon this floral in the clearance rack at Hobby Lobby, I knew it was meant to be. At $3/yard, I knew it would come in handy at some point, even if I didn’t end up using it. Can I also share that this was the first time I’ve purchased more than 2 yards of a fabric at once? I bought 5 yards & felt like I had finally joined “the big leagues”. 🙂 What is the maximum yardage you have purchased at one time?

I was so excited to make this set, but thought that it would take forever, considering how big the hem is, but it was surprisingly quick! I prefer to work in batches, so I cut all the pieces for both cardigans out first (only cutting things the wrong direction twice, before realizing that the flowers had a definite TOP), then sewed them up and finished them together. The pattern instructions are clear, concise and incredibly helpful, as with all the other Love Notions patterns I’ve made.

  The only modification I made for this set was to create a cardigan front on the girls’ version, so that it would match mine exactly. The girls’ version is a tunic version, so I simply took the front piece off the fold and before cutting, mapped out a piece of fabric onto the 2 front pieces that was approximately 3″ wide by the length of the front of the cardigan, which was 15″ long for a size 2T. I essentially just copied the front of the women’s cardigan, so I’m confident any of you could have figured it out by yourselves, but wanted to share so that I look like I know what I’m doing here you could see exactly what I had done. 🙂

The knit from Hobby Lobby was pretty thin, so I opted to use small strips of interfacing on the handkerchief hems. I cut and pressed those in as I went along, then top stitched the hem in place for added security. I’m so thankful that there were instructions to use the interfacing, as my hems are gorgeous! Considering how incredibly thin this fabric is, I’m still amazed that they came out as nicely as they did. I didn’t manage to snag any photos up close, so you’ll just have to trust me when I tell you, I’m super proud of them. I knew it would be a challenge and never imagined that they would be remotely pretty, so I’m ecstatic that it turned out so well! This is one of my new favorite things, and we have worn them several times since I made them.

For our next set, I envisioned something for fall/winter. For this set, I wanted to us to coordinate but not be matchy matchy (I may have made another matching set, but my stash had other plans, as the biggest piece I currently have was 2 yards.). I used the tunic style for Aquila and the cardigan (again) for me. I went with a grey color scheme this time around (now I’m back in the solids comfort zone!) I added a bit of length to hers by skipping the height adjustment. (I normally have to shorten everything about 2″) turning it into a long tunic/dress that I felt would transition well from fall to winter. I also created long strips of a white fleece knit around the necks and hems of both, to tie them together and help them coordinate. I’m in love with how they turned out! Feel free to read all the banding tutorial/details below…or skip to the and grab the link for this beautiful pattern….and the giveaway for a Love Notions gift card or free fabric! 🙂

It’s a little harder to see the detail on this set, as we used a point and shoot camera for the photos, but I believe that this set is my favorite of the two! I love the combination on my cardigan of the lightweight sweater knit, 3/4 length sleeve and heavier binding, which pulls the hem down and out (perfect for twirling!). For Aquila’s, the fabric is thick and soft (french terry), and the length is perfect for her. She’s at that stage where she’s constantly flashing her diaper, so I love that I can use this as a church dress, but also throw some leggings underneath it if we are having a rough and tumble day.

I didn’t follow an exact formula for the bands. To be honest, I just kinda winged it, once I figured out what I wanted to do. So for her bands, I followed the pattern pieces for the neck, then just cut strips to the same size as her handkerchief hem. (3″ X Length of bottom of front/bottom of side) I used a reverse v-neck shape to form the rectangle,(think of a shirt with 4 v points of intersection at the collar) then pinned the heck out of it. I sewed it to each point, going slowly and taking my time to ensure I got a perfect V at each and didn’t pull any other pieces into the band. Then I trimmed the points, ironed, topstitched and called it a day. *please note: I did the tutorial pics below…then realized I had the shape wrong. To get the correct rectangular binding, you want them to end in a V shape with the tip of the v at the end of each strip, not the inverted one pictured.

I essentially followed the same method for mine (using 4″ wide by length of the hem pieces), except that mine wasn’t a straight shape. I wanted the banding/binding to go around the entire raw edge, as this sweater knit would have fallen apart at the edges without something holding it together. 🙂 ) For mine, I just cut 4″ wide strips (by the width of the fabric), trimmed them to the exact length of each individual straight line of the hem (I belive there were 6 straightaways. Any time I came to a corner, I stopped and used a new piece) then acted like I was banding it by folding it in half, attaching the edges of that to the right side of the cardigan edges. The corners are a little wonky, as there was a band on band issue there, so I tried to sew them at 45 degree angles and true them up where possible…but again, it was super late and I was winging it. This is my first attempt at a clothing tutorial and I didn’t take very good notes. I’m sorry! Hopefully, that helps!

Those are our cardigans/tunics! This pattern is definitely one for the books! There are so many options that you could create a wardrobe full of them in different fabric choices and it would look incredibly diverse! I’m so glad we could take part in the tour so that I could find the motivation I needed to get some fall pieces made! I already have a new laundry Day Tee cut out and waiting to be sewn up,as well. these patterns are addictive! 🙂

I would like to spend a special thank you to Kelly and Tammy for their amazing designs, as well as their support. I’m so thrilled to be part of this tour! I have had so much fun sewing these and reading about all the other versions the ladies on the tour have made! I love sharing my creations, so feel free to let me know if you have any questions! I hope you found something here that you enjoyed!

You can find

Love Notions patterns here.

The Love Notions Facebook group here.

And the listings for the tunic/cardigans are below!

I’ll leave a little slice of our crazy outtakes below, as that is probably one of my favorite parts of this process. This time, my camera stopped working, so my four year old, Kalel had to be our photographer. It made for quite a few funny shots!

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Have a great day! Thanks so much for stopping by.

Until next time,

Sewing and swimming,

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So this week only, grab your copy of the women’s Origami for $8 or the girl’s version for just $6. Sale ends Saturday September 30 at 11:59pm cst.

Be sure to stop by and say hi to all the fantastic bloggers who are a part of the tour!

Monday September 25:

Sew Shelly Sew

Sewing Curves

Ruby RCreations

Tuesday September 26:

All Things Katy!

Kainara Stitches

Pear Berry Lane

Wednesday September 27:

Ma Moose

Back40Life

Thursday September 28:

Sprouting JubeJube

Mermaid Mama Designs

Third Shift Creations

Friday September 29:

Ronda B. Handmade

Stitches by Laura

Tales of a Tester

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[re-renewed]

April 14, 2017 (9:15 AM)

I've meant to update my journal, and it's been days. I've sorta fallen off with everything else too so it's probably best I force myself to write something. I'm in a really weird place of my life right now. Where I know I'm wrong, but at the same time, how can this wrong feel so right. I'm not doubting God for a second, I know He's there and His plan is better than my own will ever be. And I don't get to choose when or when I don't want to be a good Christian. I don't know she's gotten into me, I know better. Alright, well I'll just try to recap what happened in the past month that I haven't really posted. I guess I'm doing okay in school. Didn't fail my sociology exam that I thought I did, but I turned in my lit review draft 30 minutes before it was due so I can't say I'm in the clear yet. I've been real lazy with school. Justin and I are good. I love him so much. It gets weird sometimes but we'll be okay. I got my wisdoms out and I was losing weight really quickly, and then this week I ate so much shit and gained it back real quick. Plan on working out again today so that's an upside. I'm not sure if I said this yet, but we're not going to Japan this summer anymore. But I just really want to go on a trip.... honestly thinking about just asking someone to come with me to Cali or something. I need to get away. I've just been feeling weird. Oh I guess I should start from the beginning for this one. As you know, Marshmello was this past Saturday, the 8th. I was super excited and my outfit was hella cute. I found a place to get ready and stay after (Kellen's parents are out of town) and everything went according to plan. Kellen had asked me earlier if I knew anyone who sold because he didn't get his roll yet so I was asking around, and he told me if I wanted I could have the other half. At first I was like nah, because drugs are scary and Justin, Emily, and Rylen weren't planning on doing anything but drink before. I didn't think much of it, then the Saturday of, I was like f it. Dawn gave Kellen the pill and while the night had been amazing before I took it, it got so much better. Before Kellen got to the rave, Justin, Emily, Rylen and I had some Midori and sprite but only enough to get you buzzed which was perfect. That was around 7? When we got in, we had enough time to enjoy the local sets (and ignore the bad ones sorry) and see some friends. First person I ran into was Dawn, and it was so nice to see her. She was saying how excited she was for me and was giving me tips for when I rolled (note: sometime between ending work and arriving to Marshmello, I decided I was going to roll. Like idk what got into me. Suddenly it just seemed like a great idea). Then we the night went on we saw the twins, and they were SO GONE. They took something really strong, and their pupils were huge and they were sooooooo gone. Finally Kellen, who was hella late, came right before Ookay was about to go on, and we took a quarter together. I didn't really feel it, and an hour later, Kellen found us in the crowd before Marshmello went on and asked if I wanted to take the last quarters with him. We did. Almost immediately after I felt it. It wasn't too strong, nothing too crazy. Honestly, because of my contacts and my lack of glasses, the lights seemed right when they were really crazy. I didn't know the roll had hit until I looked at the moon. I'll never forget that lol. The rest is history. I just wanted to jump and feel the music. I didn't want to kiss girls or hold anyone, I felt fine just being on my own with the music. I was so into it and it was so fun because I was still totally in control. Because it hit me so late, when we left at 1:30 (Marshmello went on at 12), I was still rolling. Jumping everywhere and just ugh it felt so good. But sitting in the car calmed me down and we went to Zippys after where I was still rolling but I was maintainable (I think). There were cops there and no one arrested me so I'm assuming it was fine. Since then I've just been thinking about when the next time is that I can lose control. I love being in control but that thrill and that extra surge of energy is life I haven't experienced before. If I'm dirty honest, I just want to drink and party and try things. Not like cocaine but I want to roll at another rave and take shots at every party I can. Which is not okay. What in the world has gotten into me? Yes it's fun and it's okay sometimes but I find myself craving this lack of control all the time. I guess I'm that moment, I can just forget who I am and what I have to do. The euphoria takes over and suddenly I can't worry about anything else except that moment. That's something I have never been able to do before. So if you can see, I'm sort of conflicted. I know truly what I want, but I know who I should be. I also can't stop thinking about how disappointed Chloe and other people would be in me... but I'm just not feeling really thoughtful lately. I just want to let go.

[24--floors]

Life Update

Hi guys, 

How are you? I know my last post had some lifey type things, but I figured this could be an all encompassing life post: what's been happening with me, what's new, what am I doing for summer, all that jazz. While I know that most of you aren't particularly interested in how I spend my time, I know that a lot of my family and friends read my blog so it's how I keep them in the loop too. Anyway, let's get into it. 

For starters, I'm blonde. Isn't that exciting? It's definitely an adjustment and it's still a work in progress, but it's for sure not red anymore. I'd had red hair since middle school, so it was a big change for me, but it was something I'd wanted to do for a long time. Jazmin helped me bleach it and I'm not going to lie, I had white/orange hair for a hot second. It wasn't pretty and it was not fun. My scalp was very dry, which is not something I was used to because it's always been oily. I only bleached it the one time and it was a struggle because I do have a good amount of hair, so bleaching it and dying it took a lot of time and effort. I was extremely thankful to have Jazmin helping me with it. Anyway, I do still have some red/orange spots, but it definitely is not bad at all. Bailey told me that deep conditioning is super important so I've been doing that and my hair is not dead or dried out at all. Would I say it's as healthy as before? Not really but it's getting there. It's also not all one color, but it's different shades of blonde so I can't complain. 

Parker and I have officially been together for 6 years as of the beginning of March, so that's like...an accomplishment? a new thing? Unsure where this falls into my life update, but that's a thing. We didn't do anything special, there was a gift exchange and we went to Eataly (which I highly recommend) followed by a hockey game. 

Let's see. Oh! I got a/another job. I guess that makes it my...fourth job. Gross. Anyway, I'm a Clinical Assistant on the Parent-Child Interaction Therapy (PCIT) team at the Boston Child Study Center in Copley Square. It's not a huge time requirement and this is something that will help me get into grad school. It's also almost exactly what I want to do with my life, so being able gain experience in my field of choice is actually amazing. To clarify, I want to go into Marriage & Family Therapy and PCIT is a treatment that focuses on parent child interactions regarding discipline and behavior strategies. It's something that I definitely feel passionate about and am thrilled to be a part of the team. 

That reminds me. I'll be taking the GRE this summer, because I'll be applying to grad school in the fall. I'm very nervous about this because I am not a good test taker. The program that I'd really like to get in to doesn't require the GRE but a lot of my other schools do, so that's a thing I have to do. I also will be attending graduate school in California, which is sad but necessary. As much as I'd love to attend school in Boston or on the east coast, it just wouldn't make sense. Parker's doing film so LA just makes the most sense. 

Blogilates is still a thing I'm doing.

I'm also turning 21 this year! I'm not sure why this is exciting to me because I don't drink at all, but it seems exciting. I think Parker and I are doing a dinner with our friends or something. Either he or Jazmin is in charge. 

Speaking of birthdays, Parker and I decided to treat ourselves to a Disneyland pass, which is so expensive, but I really love Disneyland and we get the SoCal discount, so I'm ignoring the price. Also! Kayla is going to be working in Anaheim so like we'd get to see her and that would be wonderful. 

I guess this leaves me at my summer plans. To be honest, I'm really overworking myself this semester and I know I will be next year as well, so I'm not doing too much this summer. I'm definitely studying for the GRE and working at BBW. Probably touring some graduate schools and their programs. I don't know how I'll fair with one job and just studying as I usually like to keep myself busy, but I think it'll be okay, and if I decide I need another job then I guess I could get another job? I don't know. Now I'm rambling, so I think that's a sign that this post has gone on long enough. 

Thanks for reading!

With love,

Alexis