#i’d be like ladies i’m tired and they’d be like. we can’t actually talk bc show was loud as fuck but keep grabbing me

[lilgynt]

you bitches wish you were me. punched a girl in the face and she bought me a drink for it

[zitkaplushie]

nightwing secret files liveblog:

this is gonna be a long one so it’s under a cut!

taking wing-

is that jason??

i like this 'a christmas carol' type exposition i'm ngl

i'm not sure if 'jason''s dismissal of the circus is dixon using an unreliable narrator, or if dixon actually believes that

god i hate this art so much

how dare u insult the teen titans in any way 😤 i like the name

also titans cameo!!

more awful jason characterisation (pls dixon just stay 8732894738 feet away from jason)

"without robin i have no family" i guess the titans are just chopped liver huh

"i always thought that one day i'd be batman" nope nope nope nope you have 0 understanding of dick's character if that's what you think mr dixon

i love clark having a part in dick becoming nightwing - i adore it - but the way dixon retcons the importance of the titans, and especially kory, in dick becoming nightwing rubs me the complete wrong way. i'm choosing to read this as a between the scenes moment, but i 100% dixon intended this to replace the titans' importance. and the way ppl just swallow it up w/o thinking about the reasons behind why dixon would want to erase the titans - and kory - pisses me off lmao

"i didn't mean to stay so long [with the titans]" *eternal screaming* he really wants to undermine the titans at every possible turn wow

at least the next page acknowledges the importance of kory in dick's life, but right afterwards we have "lmao she must've liked your costume. all the girls did. you're a chick magnet" (paraphrased) and i'm just back to sighing

also hi i'm mad at the framing of babs being the endgame bc of course they'd do that. and also at kory being shorter than dick. thanks! i hate it! i'm willing to bet that dixon asked for that specifically.

"this is where i came in" i'm confused at this part but tbh i don't care enough to think abt it any more

i'm also ughhhh at the way they're trying to give bludhaven importance. i don't care, i don't like it, he should've never moved there

ok i do really like that last page

the fact files things are good enough, i love the art for the haly's circus one! the pt barnum ref is 😬 though (ik ik it's the 90s but fjskdh why)

lost pages: teen titans-

ok so, i don't like devin grayson. i don't like her writing at all, i don't think she gets the characters at all, and hot take: if you dislike a character who's super important part of dick's life, and helped him come into his own and be who he is, you shouldn't be writing that character. (i'm talking about kory here, but tbh if you dislike any of the characters who dick interacts with frequently and are a huge part of his life - especially his love interests, and his family - you shouldn't be writing dick.) so i'm not going into this story with high hopes. however i've seen ppl talk about this story as being really good so i hope i'll like it too

you can tell she mostly cares about the fab five, which wouldn't be a problem if she treated the ntt characters better but alas ://

kory and vic both say 1 thing the entire page lmao

ALSO KORY NOT KNOWING WHAT DAY IT IS IS ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT I CANNOT BELIEVE

i loooove the parallel between dick grasping wally's hand and young!dick holding his dad's hand 🥺🥺🥺🥺

vic legit says one thing the entire story lmaoooooooo 🙃🙃🙃

i love garth and roy being brought to the tower 🥺

this is def some of grayson's better work, but it suffers from the same thing all of her stories do. she doesn't fully understand all the characters. if one character is off it affects the whole story. a lot of her stories have good ideas and poor execution, and this one definitely doesn't have awful execution but there's still something missing and as someone who loves the titans it's just sad. i get why people like this story - it made me tear up at the end ngl - but the rest of the titans are just as important as dick and it feels like the writer doesn't understand that. (i get this is a dick comic but it's still a titans story.) (it does however make me want to write a fic expanding upon this moment and the aftermath bc the idea of the titans all coming together to cheer dick up is so goooooood. are they gonna have a party celebrating dick's parent's lives? are they gonna eat junk food and watch a comfort movie? are they gonna just sit and talk?? the possibilities are endless!!)

the art is gorgeous as all of jimenez' art is, i love his style so freaking much!!

the next page is of the bludhaven supporting cast and all it does is remind me how much i do not care abt them. i think the only one i actually like is clancy, the others are expendable and forgettable. (i do love clancy a lot though, i wish she'd been written by more people than just dixon). though, i usually love guice's art, i think i actually prefer mcdaniel's take on clancy??? which is 100% a first for me.

i like seeing the set up to dick's apartment, bc i'm a sucker for layouts and maps. i wish this comic was way better written bc the concept of dick living in an apartment building and interacting with his neighbours is one i really like, esp in superhero comics. but again i have to say, alas.

a day in the life of nite-wing/hangin'-with tad:

painful... just painful...

i physically couldn't care less about this if you paid me

the next page is tad's file and i am Not Reading That. nope nope nope. and also fuck you.

next is a map of bludhaven, and like i said, i'm a sucker for maps.

the page after that is brutale's file and again i just do not care. the art is by damion scott who i really like, but the design looks like knock off scarecrow so

the next pages are files for double dare, lady vidc, shrike and blockbuster and i'm skipping them all bc i give negative fucks

next is a spread of what i assume is dick's cork-board? it looks kinda interesting but the writing is hard to make out and i don't care enough to try to decipher it

next is torque's files and same same, idc idc

nightwing's romances/orange you glad i didn't say banana?:

ok so y'all know i hate dickbabs. i hate everything about how it was built on the foundation of tearing down kory and dickkory and i'm a kory fan first and foremost so i hate this whole situation. so i'm already predisposed to disliking anything that talks about how babs is dick's true love, and talks down any of his other love interests. i come into this with an admitted bias. i'd try to be charitable but i don't see why i should when no one involved in the writing of dickbabs is charitable towards my faves so 🤷

i love love love stelfreeze's art! he's drawn babs in something else i read and i loved it then and i love it here!

i adore dick and babs' friendship, so the beginning is really sweet and cute. i also love the concept of baby!dickie being obsessed with watermelons and wanting to eat them forever

dewey decimal system!!! librarian babs reference!! fdjkh she's such a nerd i love it

babs trying to talk about romance and dick's like 'lol nah what abt fighting' lmao

i Do Not like babs hitting dick while talking abt 'i was segueing into talking about romance, hint hint'

this is romance? dick giving exactly 0 fucks?

why are these writers obsessed with hinting at dick and donna??? like first dixon and now grayson??? please stop!!!! i do love how he says he loves her bc 🥺🥺🥺 i love them

ur not being slick having babs call donna 'donna' and kory 'starfire', i see you grayson. i see ur hate for kory.

and reducing kory to just her body, and dick's sexual attraction to her boils my blood

i'm choosing to interpret babs's face in that panel as her being attracted to kory too

i do like that dick talks about being in love with kory, and thinking about still being with her. a) i'll take those crumbs, and b) thats how i see dick's relationship to love as being (though devin views him as kinda flighty and unfaithful so idk how we're agreeing on this lmao)

pls stop talking shit abt huntress devin, ur the one who made dick/hel a thing

since devin loves her brudick subtext, i'm side-eyeing the mention of bruce there

also why are we hinting at cass pls stop

babs being jealous and petty pls stop

the ending was smooth i have to admit it. if it was any other ship i'd probs love it but as it is, i'm tired of everyone else being downplayed in favour of the ~babs is dick's true loooooveee, it's always been herrrrr, from the beginningggggg~

i don't mind babs being dick's first crush though, in fact that's my hc for him because hello?? who wouldn't have a crush on babs??

thank you mr stelfreeze for accurately portraying babs' bitchface bc she's being a petty bitch here (and i love her but lmaooo i hate this whole thing)

next is the files on the bludhaven pd and i do not caaaare

then there's a timeline, but i don't care about any timeline that dixon writes. i'm petty though so i'm gonna read it and talk abt why i don't like the retcons.

i hate the dickbabs reference in YEAR FUCKING 3 jfc. pls stop with the retcons.

also lmao the difference between the way dick's canon relationship from that time is described in the shittiest way possible (though reluctant at first, dick begins a long and tumultuous romance with teammate starfire.) and how he wrote dick and babs' relationship (robin first teams with ... barbara in her guise as batgirl. the two will pair time and again over the course of their careers and develop a burgeoning affection for one another) this was at a time when they weren't even remotely interested in each other!!! there was no affections there dixon! no matter how much you wish it to be true!! and again the contrast with 'starfire' and 'barbara'! like it's dehumanising and i hate it.

and he can't even bother to get the new teen titans' team name right.

no mention of kory's importance in dick becoming nightwing, nope we ignore that bc it's thanks to superman now.

stepping away from the way he hates kory to talk about the way he hates jason! jason's described as a 'troubled orphan' and a 'juvenile delinquent'.

no mentions of how jason and dick bonded but as soon as tim gets introduced he talks about how dick and tim 'switfly bond as brothers'.

another incredibly impersonal description of dick and kory's relationship (the wedding of dick grayson and kory anders (aka starfire) is aborted by the rogue titan raven. dick and kory soon part company and dissolve their relationship.) but at least he calls her kory this time.

also i love how he speeds up through all the 'non important' development for dick but spends a whole page talking about all the bullshit he's been writing for nightwing. i understand why, but it's just lmaooooo 🙃 when you read it like that, it really shows how shitty this comic is.

talks of the 'doomed relationship' between dick and hel and i really hate it pls stop

the last page is dick's evaluation by the police academy and i do not care so i'm skipping it too.

[lovexdejun]

🖤NCT Boyfriend Series🖤 - [🌻] Lucas >>a little nsfw •a deadass meme
•met him through a friend when you all went out bowling or something
•he came off as a bit of a heartbreaker but you couldn’t help being drawn to him
•because despite his flirtatious attitude, he’s super funny and easy to talk to 
•yukhei isn’t as much of a player as you expected
•he’s really sweet and easily flustered, and he isn’t afraid of embarrassing himself 
•like he’ll so something that would have you mortified, but he’d just laugh it off
•oh and speaking of, the first time you hear his laugh
•you’re pretty sure your eardrums bursted 
•after you recover though, you’re folded in half from laughing so hard 
•i can picture him just staring at you with the biggest smile plastered across his face because hE DID THAT
•you’re not the best bowler, so when you’re trying to refrain from throwing the ball into the gutter, lucas shoots his shot w you
•he’ll sneak up behind you and press himself as close as he can without looking like too big of a pervert
•his voice is so deep and soft when he speaks sooooo close to your ear 
•instead of recoiling from him, you find yourself relaxing into his body as he runs his hand down your arm to fix your form 
•when you end up making a strike, you’ll run to him, throw your arms around him
•he’ll end up giving you a ride home that night bc you didn’t want to stop hanging out when the bowling alley closed
•somehow, you guys end up at a diner until 3am, just talking about nothing and everything alike 
•you find out you enjoy the way he chews his lips when he’s thinking 
•he’s weak for the way you throw your whole body back against the booth when you laugh super hard 
•you guys will end up hanging our more often outside of the group and eventually people will regret introducing you two lol
•bc you’re always too busy making plans with each other than them 
•your relationship is mostly platonic until he inevitably confesses 
•you’ll be playing video games at his house, sitting on his bed with his legs wrapped around your waist from behind
•and he’ll just stroke your hair and run his fingers down your back 
•”i like you… like really like you”
•when you turn around to look at him, he’ll just kiss you 
•it’ll be so soft and hesitant but once he feels you kissing him back, it’ll become desperate almost
•tbh the both of you have been holding back for sooooo looooong
•lucas is one of those boys who looks like they’d be a dom but he’s actually a softy who’ll melt at your touch 
•i can see it being a pretty switch relationship when it comes to the bedroom, but he would rather you take charge
•LOVES getting his hair pulled 
•there’d be a lot of hot, opened mouth kisses
•a lot of moaning and heavy breathing 
•his hand would slowly find its way to your throat every time you had sex/made out
•the most common position would be you riding him while he’s sitting up 
•bc he likes your bare chests touching
•also makes it easy to kiss you
•he reeeeeeally likes kissing you 
•since he’s 6001ft tall, he enjoys draping his arms over your shoulders and leaning down to kiss you 
•cuddles would consist of his head in your lap while you play with his hair
•or you laying on top of him, head on his chest, while he runs his fingers up and down your spine 
•dirty jokes
•always flirting with you 
•flirts with elderly ladies and they just adore him 
•your grandma is probably more in love with him than you are
•he’s actually very humble 
•surprises you with gifts a lot
•even if they’re small or handmade 
•he pays attention to the little things, so he knows things about you that you didn’t even know
•you’re definitely the adult in the relationship 
•he can be mature when he has to be, but on a normal day he’s just an extremely large child
•like, he’s the best with kids because he is one 
•sometimes this would cause fights tho, because sometimes you just need for him to act like an adult for once 
•will speak in different languages out of the blue
•lol but no seriously, can we talk about how some of the members will tease lucas for not being that great at korean or even chinese, but this boy is actually so smart… like he RAPS in full, near perfect english, randomly throws english words out there which means he probably doesn’t just practice those lines to get them right for recording, he actually LEARNS these words and knows what they mean. tbh he may speak in broken sentences, but it shows that he’s learning for us. as far as i know, this boy speaks fluent chinese, a little bit of thai, and is trying his fuckin hardest to learn korean and english as fluently as he can. plus he’s one of the most powerful dancers i’ve ever seen, so if that doesn’t scream dedication idk what does
•okay srry abt that lolll
•anyways, yukhei would be 100% loyal as fuck
•he may radiate casanova, but he would never even look at another girl/boy that wasn’t you
•a very open minded and accepting individual 
•dead set on making everyone around him laugh
•will brag about you to everyone who will listen because he’s so head-over-heels for you
•usually the last one to wake up, and usually you have to rip the covers off him/shake him/jump on him
•notorious for just pulling you into the bed with him and wrapping himself around you so you can’t get up and bother him again
•not that you mind
•he’s big and warm and you like the rise and fall of his chest against your back
•he has the BEST morning voice
•like it’s so deep and raspy and ugh
•waking up to him every morning would be the highlight of your day 
•bitch it would be the highlight of yukhei’s life 
•he believes with every ounce of his being that you’re his soulmate 
•would literally be the poster child for ‘get you someone who looks at you the way he looks at her/him”
•a relationship with lucas would be spontaneous and happy. he’d always keep you laughing and interested so you’d never get tired of him
•i’d classify him with opposites attract, soft, lazy, and power couple >>yukhei is a whole boyfriend and if you couldnt tell he’s one of my ultimate biases in nct like protect this boy at all cost bc he’s precious A/N: this was requested and i thought it was funny because i was actually doing yukhei next anyway lol i hope you guys enjoy this and i’m sorry that it’s a little all over the place:)) nct | requests are always open!!

[mythomagically-delicious]

-mmmmm crappy thoughts on this day-

today it hit me that for the last five years or so i’ve felt the overwhelming feeling of i’d rather be dead by twenty-two than alive right now and well. I’m 22. I’m a month past being 22. I am here, right now, alive. Not doing anything much at the moment. Planning which classes to take next semester. Listening to a rock and roll cover of Counting Stars by OneRepublic by Cole Rolland. 

And now tearing up because I kind of got hit in the side by this wave of emotions. Confusion and settling and weird feelings. Earlier today I had a nap and I dreamed about killing myself. It was overall a good dream. I didn’t wake up when I died in-dream. i just kept watching what other people were doing, how they fared, in dream. 

I still think “kill me” in response to things that happen. I still think about how much better I’d be if I wasn’t here. I just. Also know that it’s a lie? like I know it’s wrong and the thoughts are wrong and they’re all lies but I still think about it a lot and it’s still something I’d rather be (dead) than here.

And it’s confusing to me. Like . I’ve been thinking about suicide since I was fourteen. It was really bad when I was 14-17, when I harmed most often and most intensely. When it didn’t stop until I was 20. When I cried all the time and failed classes and got yelled at and felt worse and didn’t know if I had any real friends and didn’t want to risk telling someone how I felt in case they wouldn’t want to know me anymore.

anyway that was a couple years ago but also not? because college is coming somewhere new and starting over and from the ground up and burning yourself out because you think it’s just like high school with farther walks but it’s NOT and learning to have some self mcfreaking control and learning that Hey. Yes. I actually do have an issue with anxiety and depressive tendencies happen and that’s something to address instead of just being an idiot and lazy and also Hey you’re sick all the time, you have intense stomach pain nearly every morning but you can’t figure it out why

so that’s another couple of years and all throughout i’ve told maybe 3 people across all that time and one was that girl in high school you never saw after junior year because she got transferred to horizons for (wow, looky there, it was actually an attempt on her life but later because she got pregnant and needed daycare, I wonder how she’s doing?) and then like uhhh my youth pastor that left the church a year later for a new job and one (1) friend and I don’t even remember who that was

and then it kind of crashed on me all at once and i started seeing that counselor and I felt on the up and up for a while sophomore year (college) but sometime later I started swinging way back down, hard, and led to “screaming in a field” a shit ton because i didn’t have a space to yell and cry and be up fuckin set without roommates or randos around and hey, the practice fields are cold and empty, just like how i feel, and looking at the stars made me feel better even if i could only see 3 bc of pollution

anyway all through all of all i just. ever since high school it’s been on my mind. and there’s a lot of bullshit wrapped around even that that i don’t even know how to get into

(actually, I think it was alice? an older student? who graduated? I have no idea, haven’t seen her in like two years)

and i just. i’m tired of feeling so messed up over this crap. but i still want to end it. and i still want to tell myself to grow up and stop whining and you’re doing alright and you’re an idiot and you’re so stupid and you’re never going to make it through school anyway and you’re the disappointing sister/daughter and no one would miss you (everyone would miss you for at least a month but later they’d forget as is best) and anyway what could you possibly give the world anyway?

and people keep asking me what my plan for after graduation is or what i want to use my degree for and in the back of my mind as i answer “I’m still considering” is “Lady I thought I’d be fucking dead by now, and honestly I’m still waiting to swerve into oncoming traffic or jump off the eighth floor of the dorms or find one of my brother in law’s guns in this fucking house or god, please, struck by lightning for being a dumbass and going out while it’s raining or uhh i don’t know jumping from the balcony with something tied around my fucking neck” and if that shit ain’t depressing to have playing in the back of my mind every fucking time i try to think about the future but all i see is a blank,d ark space where maybe some hope should be, then i don’t know what is

anyway i. I had that htought today of remembering how off-handedly i’ve mentioned shit like this and let my friends laugh it off with me and it’s. it’s fucking sad. I almost told my friend i was close with in  high school i was harming when i was a senior or freshman, some year, but it turns out he didn’t actually care for me as a human, just as a convenient excuse for [i don’t wanna talk about this one] and well. that hurt a lot and made it clear [that was a lie too i just didn’t know it] that nobody wanted to have something to do with me

and i was too afraid to approach someone else to be close to in the terms of deep friendship. I can talk your ear off and listen all day to a new acquaintance, but lasting friendship? i don’t know her (but i wish i did..i’m learning, and that’s honestly the bright spot in all this bs)

and just. it’s still there. as positive and forward-thinking and moving on as i’ve been trying to be in my life, it’s still there. and just this morning on the highway we were driving and i fantasized about unlocking the door and jumping out and I had to physically turn away from the door to halt that line of thinking in me (it didn’t really go away, by the by)

and i’m sick of it, but in the way i’d rather give in than keep going when i have no clue what the fuck i’m doing.

but i’m a coward at heart and i’d rather go in a flash of reckless living, not buckling up or hit crossing the street or some bullshit like that than any choice on my part. it’d be easier on my family, for one.

fuck. this was more of a rant than i meant but. i was just thinking this morning and I made it. I’m here. I’m twenty-two and I don’t know what the fuck to do. But i’m here.

despite my brain yelling ‘this is wrong’ i’m here. i’m living. i’m breathing. i’m trying. 

i just wish the last eight years weren’t telling me i shouldn’t be.

[jaderpt]

—☆ so i’m finally making a list plots i’d like to do. i’ll also state a couple quick facts about myself to kinda,,, help with the plotting process! All of that will be under the cut and if you’d like to plot and if you’re down for anything I mentioned just like this or message me as usual!

—♡ FACTS ABOUT ME

my name is bia!

i’m 16 years old and i prefer she/her pronouns.

i’m fine with rping over anything but my replies are quicker and better if we rp over kik. 

if you’d like one of my writing samples, here’s a link to one of my char blogs. 

i prefer playing males but i’m fine with playing females and nonbinary characters as well!

if we plot i can assure hcs, playlists, moodboards, ask memes, etc. etc will be included.

i prefer playing OCs.

i’m not a big fan of using gifs but ,, by all means, use them!

i’ve got a ton of things i won’t rp but theyre typical things so i feel no need to say them.

if you’ve got a kik, imessage, or twitter, it’ll probably be easier for me to answer you quicker.

now on to plots i’d like!

—☆ WANTED PLOTS*

 *they’re mainly copied from other posts so creds to the original plot writers! but some will be really short and not detailed but that’s because if one of the short ones seem interesting i’d like to plot it out w/ whoever is interested.

Muse A is a famous celebrity and Muse B is just a fan. Muse A has gone public with their Snapchat profile meaning anyone can add them. Muse B adds Muse A, and accidentally sends Muse A a snap that was meant for a friend.  Instead of ignoring the snap sent from Muse B sent them, Muse A replies back because they find the other attractive. Thus, creating a relationship though Snapchat - which would soon translate to texting, calling, skyping all that kind of stuff.

a plot where muse a and muse b happen to be neighbors and one night muse a cooks all a perfect meal that took them like 4 hours and they arranged the table all nice and stuff and there’s wine for the occasion and they end up getting stood up by their date or boyfriend and meanwhile muse b is like out of toilet paper or something so they knock on muse a’s door and notice they’re upset and they notice untouched food on the table so she like come inside and sit at the table and just start digging in and muse a doesn’t even care they are just like whatever but basically it becomes a regular occasion and muse b always comes over with a bottle of wine and muse a cooks and this weird casual relationship of some sort blossoms except they aren’t labeling it as dating idk i kinda want this

  plot where MUSE A has just had her heart ripped apart by her boyfriend of eight years, who has not only cheated on her but left her for the other woman. devastated, she is forced to move back home with her family and rebuild the fragments of her life she’s been left with. one day whilst walking around town, she bumps into MUSE B, someone who was in the year above her at school and went out with tons of girls. they weren’t really friends but they used to have a little thing for each other. basically he wants to catch up with her and go out for some lunch and he’s instantly captivated by her like wow, how could this guy have let her go?? but yeah MUSE B has to slowly pick up the pieces of MUSE A bc she’s still completely hung up and in love with her ex. like she’s such a fragile little thing that is now riddled with trust issues and needs protecting and he is just raring to jump in and be with her but he has to wait for once his life and yes. PLEASE.

ok… so… m and f are both celebs. m is very cocky and a big ladies’ man who loves to sleep around and party and all that. f is a little pop star who keeps to herself and never creates drama and is well-liked by the public. m and f meet at an event one night. all m can think about afterward is f and how cool and different she is, while f never wants to see m again after living up to his reputation for being a bit of a jerk. SO m starts to do everything in his power to make f like him… and f starts to like him but in the most pure way possible ?? and they get along so well and genuinely have fun?? like she’ll call him when he’s going to be interviewed on tv and make him watch it over the phone with her ?? and m will text f “I’m coming over and I’m bringing you flowers” and f will say “… I want ice cream AND flowers” and she’s not being a snob she’s just being adorable ?? and m will do anything for her ? but f is still fearful of his rep? but m will still drop everything to just come over and cuddle with f? and just angst and fluff and !!!

i really want a plot where this totally sweet girl is dating this total ass and he prob cheats on her all the time and is so shitty to her but she stays because she’s sweet and caring and he’s all she’s ever known and they used to be so in love but anyways he’s totally one of those guys who brings around his douche friends and they sit on the couch and talk about chicks and drugs and partying and she is supposed 2 be the regular house wife gf who brings them food and sits next to him when they watch movies so he can flaunt her and just be /: a dick /: ANYWAYS his fellow douche friend starts to slowly be like god this guy is so awful to her and he starts following her out of the room instead of staying to high five his friend for cheating on her w some club girl and idk he just generally starts hanging out with her more while her bf and his other friends hang out in the basement or some shit and they’ll like sit on the porch while he smokes and they just talk or he’ll help her make food or ANYTHING and it can go so many cute ways tbh like ? he could be listening to the friend brag about sleeping around one day or see him being shitty to her like yelling at her for nothing ro smth and just be like DAMN I’VE HAD ENOUGH and finally break and yell at his friend and fight for her and accidently admit that he thinks she’s totally amazing and he’d cherish her sm or he could kiss her one night while they’re talking and they could start sneaking around behind the friends back or anything so ! 

i really, really want a plot where muse a is a naive, sweet, romantic, whimsical little thing with a whole lot of optimism and sunshine in their veins and muse b is the complete opposite; a total player who has someone new in their bed every weekend and hates responsibilities and just spends a lot of their time fucking around. somehow these two have been friends for a while, despite their differing personalities, and one day muse a ends up having to move out of their apartment due to a fire or an infestation or something and muse b is the one who offers to put them up for the time being. it’s all well and good except muse a has terrible nightmares constantly and one night muse b is sick and tired of it (and deep down a little concerned) so gets into bed with muse a until they stop crying and shaking and fall asleep in muse b’s arms instead. cue awkward muses sleeping in the same bed every night and it actually helping muse a a lot with the nightmares, and lots of cuddling and feelings ensue. muse b, being the player they are, are terrified of the idea of liking someone but muse a is pretty much already head over heels and ANGST !!

an au where our muses are roommates and they can barely come up with enough money to make the rent every month so one of them suggests they make a sex tape and sell it to a website and the other muse is totally not into it until they get a foreclosure notice and when they finally agree to it it’s such a big hit that they keep making more and more

OK BUT CONSIDER THIS !! the landlord accidentally rented out the same apartment to the us and now we have to share?? bonus points if they already know/hate eachother bonus BONUS points if they rage an all out war to see who can get the other to move out first.

muse a and muse b had always been the ideal couple. they were always happy and enjoyed each others company until muse b ended up going into a slump. muse b went through a very tragic incident ( up to the player!!! ). muse b didn’t want to do anything besides staying home alone, watching old reruns of cartoons, smoking marijuana, and eating unhealthy foods. muse a realizes that they’re hurt and upset but is deeply saddened by their life choices and tries their best to get muse b back to their old self. muse b is tired of all of the “nagging” from muse a and needs constant reassurance of muse a’s love for them. muse a is stuck in a constant cycle of wanting to end the relationship and wanting to better muse b.

gimme a plot where … basically, muse a is this corrupted soul, always drinking too much, getting too high, they can barely function and muse b is basically their saving grace, always coming through in the middle of the night after a drunken phone call asking for a ride home. and muse b only does this because they’re a good person at heart, but they can’t deny that muse a’s actions actually disgusts them. but they’ve known each other for too long and muse b always promised they’d never let muse a down, because they know they’re the only thing that’s STABLE in their life. and this has become their routine, muse a texting/calling muse b when something goes wrong and muse b coming around to rescue them. there’s not much to their friendship beside that, these days, because muse a doesn’t really acknowledge them otherwise. and muse b just settles with the fact that they’re being used, but they can’t bear to leave muse a alone, knowing that they probably wouldn’t survive without them … but then ONE NIGHT, when muse b is carrying muse a into bed, tucking them in like they usually do and they’re about ready to say goodnight until muse a, who is completely out of their mind intoxicated, mumbles something barely audible that sounds a lot like ‘i love you.’ muse b thinks to brush it off, until muse a continues professing all these FEELINGS like ‘i really fucking love you, please, don’t leave me tonight’ and muse b is just STUCK. because muse a is so bad for them but muse b is the only good thing in their life … so they stay.

muse a always struggled with staying home and not getting into trouble. they were always out partying and getting high and being completely reckless (maybe bc of some emotional/at home issues??? idk maybe not it up to whoever plays them.). muse a has a cocaine addiction and its very serious, they also have a tendency to hook up with random people. in comes muse b who is the exact opposite. the two meet and begin dating (lots of interpretation here bc i wanna figure this part out with whoever i do it with.). their relationship is pretty toxic between muse a’s drug addiction and constant hookups even though muse a’s feelings for b are very real. muse b realizes the relationship is unhealthy and feels as if muse a is more in love with their drugs than they are with them.

muse a and muse b have always been best friends and definitely had hidden feelings for each other. now those feelings have to be hidden away as muse a has been arranged to marry muse c. muse c is manipulative and is too emotional for their own good. muse a isn’t in love with muse c and most likely never will. muse b is of course jealous and has plotted out a plan to get muse a out of the arranged marriage. it’s the day of the marriage and muse c is standing at the altar while muse a is conversing with muse b in the back. muse b slides muse a a copy of the plan and heads outside awaiting muse a. muse a and b end up driving away in muse b’s car with just the money they have and end up staying in different cities. (think of roadtrip stuff ??) 

Muse A and B were best friends. They snuck into places late at night, got high, sat on roofs, and were generally reckless together. Their relationship was purely platonic and nothing more until something happened. Muse A experienced a major tragedy (idk what it is its up to whoever plays them!!!) which causes Muse A to lash out and explode on Muse B the argument gets intense and there are definitely words that they regret saying. The two end their friendship and muse b goes away to a foreign country to do their studies because of their parents. After being away Muse A realizes their mistakes and realizes a bit more. They realize maybe what they felt for muse b wasn’t platonic and they had to do something. Muse a cant help but text muse b with an ‘I love you’ and then they wait. 

muse a was always everyone’s personal ray of sunshine, making everyone’s day instantly. then somehow muse a met muse b who was the exact opposite and they instantly hit it off. muse b was the towns drug dealer, always doing drugs and generally not a good influence on anyone but somehow muse a and muse b started dating. muse b taught muse a everything they knew. from muse a’s first time to muse a learning how to roll a blunt, muse b was the one who taught them that. muse a turned into an almost exact copy of muse b. muse a gained confidence, turned to drugs, hung out at parties, and became gloomy instead of that sunshine everyone knew. everything was good until muse b started cheating on muse a. muse a had a soft spot for muse b and would practically do anything for b. muse a on the other hand knew it wasn’t right and tried to leave countless times but each time muse b would never let go of muse a and fill them up with words that sounded nice and appeared to be an apology but the problem was, muse b never meant them.  the problem is, when muse a gets caught up in muse b’s drug business will muse b continue to not care about them and let muse a get in trouble or will muse b snag muse a so they can skip town and maybe rekindle what they had?

idk about you but i’m a sucker for the we just had sex and it’s the morning after and i woke up to an empty bed and how could i be so stupid of course you left me alone but wait you’re in my kitchen cooking me breakfast and i’m so relieved trope

muse a and b are both college students. muse a was the top of their class, getting straight a’s, and taking almost all ap classes; they didn’t have anything to complain about. then one day something tragic happened ( death of a loved one ?? accident of some kind ?? idk its up to whoever plays them ) and muse a completely changed. their grades plummeted and they quickly fell into a pit of sadness, consuming themselves into their art and writing. all around muse a’s dorm hung unfinished and finished painting and crumpled up pieces of creative writing. word quickly got around about muse a’s current situation and there was a lot of talk going around. then in comes muse b. they didn’t care about school, smoked weed, partied, did drugs and lived life to the ‘fullest’. muse b had never talked to muse a in their life, but they weren’t a fool and new better than to talk about them behind their back and not try to do something. muse b tried to talk to muse a through trying to get paired up in various projects. the two started talking and created an inevitable bond. it was almost impossible to say that they weren’t in love. muse b quickly found interest in muse a’s art and writing and they found out they share the same feelings about wanting to leave the town they live in. muse b suggested getting away and muse a agreed, not caring where they went as long as they were together, which brought up many questions. where would they go? would they go? how would their new life turn out? 

i need a famous ship where they’re both insanely busy with album recordings & red carpets & tours & they’re trying to make this whole long distance relationship work but with the time differences & going months without seeing each other it’s difficult, not to mention all the rumors & shit. but then there’s all the cute things like showing up on tour to surprise each other & going to award shows together & just finally seeing each other again after going so long with only facetime dates, missed calls, & late night texts to get them by. honestly idek where i’m going with this i just know that i really want it ??? but like this or message me & we can figure everything out k cool

aight but how about a plot that’s like “i met a boy that’s super rich so i’m gonna start dating him just so he can buy me nice things. im gonna play with his heart and flirt with his rich friends behind his back. whoops he’s actually nice and he really likes me. i might like him back.  what do you mean you found out i was just using you for your money?? come back i think i feel in love with you”

i’m going to bed soon probably but give me a long distance plot where muse a is famous as fuck and creates a fake fan account on twitter/tumblr to feel kinda closer to fans and it’s all good and no one really knows it’s him and it’s all good and he’s getting to know what fans want from him but then enters muse b, who’s so completely in love with muse a and his music. the two begin to talk and they become friends and soon they’re texting constantly and she tells him everything and fangirls about her idol to him and they’ve both caught feelings really badly. so one day muse b gets a little scared that she’s being catfished so she asks muse a to video call her. out of fear of losing her, he agrees and, surprise bitch, it’s her fucking idol.

*please remember most of the plots don’t belong to me and came from various posts in my plot tag.

—♡ if you read all of this and still want to plot! please don’t hesitate to like this or message me!

[lostlegendaerie]

Six Fics of 2016

someone. someone tagged me in this. multiple someones tagged me in this while my PC was broken as shit so fuck. i dont know but i Wanted This, so. originally by @secretlystephaniebrown​ !

So I thought I’d pick 6 fics of mine written during this year, grab a favorite quote from each of them, give a short explanation of why it’s one of my favorites, and then tag 6 people to do the same! Let’s get some self love rolling as we head towards the end of this year!

and yeah i did write other fandoms this year but its like mostly RvB and Entirely in space, so.

6. Save and Restore - York & Delta, canon compliant

“That’s a-- dirty word, D.” A light, airy chuckle follows; one he remembers following an exchange with Carolina years ago. It sounds so much younger than the rest of York’s words, and he realizes he may not have anything more recent. “Better-- clean it off.”

“I… beg your pardon?”

“Nah, it’s free.”

i mean im Mostly so fond of this one because it was how I met @agentyorkdakota​ my moon and stars, but i also really enjoyed just getting to play with language a lot with this? like i’m pretty sure i’ve discussed this before but for a senior year project i worked a lot on a play called The Skriker where the title character kind of... used mixed metaphors and all sorts of jumbled language to communicate and it just. stuck with me. this language that was kind of cobbled together and makes sense but doesn't and yet does? so that was def a highlight of mine working on this fic. (also it placed me in the Angst War, a feather in my cap if there ever was one)

5. blow you like a popsicle stand - Tucker/Wash, canon compliant

He swallows his fear and creeping horror and lifts the lid. Buried under the crystalline ice of the remarkably still-functioning freezer is a collection of brightly colored little packages, all about the size of his hand.

“What.”

“I know!” Tucker replies, with exactly the kind of enthusiasm than ensures Wash he does not know, “I can’t believe it either. Ice cream! Here! On Chorus! Man, Caboose is gonna flip out when he sees this.”

Wash is tired, and adrenaline-tingly, and by this time he should just always expect to be betrayed and disappointed but here he is. He pulled a door out of a crumbling concrete wall for decades old ice cream sandwiches. Couldn’t save the lives of kids under his command, but sure. He can demolish a building in a fit of panic.

“What,” he repeats again, trying to shove all of his feelings into one ambiguous syllable. But Tucker just hip-checks him out of the way, flourishes his sword with a buzz of light, and carves a path through the ice to a red and blue package.

this one was done in a swap for @playerprophet​ (whom i also love and tag in this, there you go) and was just. okay. listen. l i s t e n. if i’m gonna write porn im gonna write specific porn. i’m gonna write mildly kinky porn with new shit y’all aint even knew you liked so someone can find me at a con and tell me to my face “oh yeah you wrote the iceplay fic” and i can be like “y e s” but also i can barely scrub the Feelings out of anything i write, so. SO. this was a pretty lighthearted excuse for Porn and it went over really, really well. so im Happy.

4. Golden Boy - York-centric, semi-canon compliant

Not that York can go back, now; not that there's anything left to go back to, with the entire project turning on itself in a disjointed, cumulative sort of cannibalism as every man, woman, or construct fights for themselves. And he’s not entirely blind to the fact that being wired to Delta on a neurological level makes the Director’s treatment of the AI feel infinitely more personal; makes it easier than it should have been to turn his guns on people he’d worked with for years. No. He’s not blind, not in that sense anyway.

But if he’s going forward, he wants to understand in full what he did in the name of science and progress.

this fic once shared a name with @littlefists​ ‘s epic because it was literally the first thing I wrote in the fandom and I Wasn’t Into Tuckington So I Didn’t Know, and i swear to GOD this is the last time i bring this up but i worked so fucking hard on it, it has Combat and Betrayal and Introspection and World Building and while i’ve gotta better grip on canon now I still really, really enjoyed this fic as an explanation for how York, of all people, could have gone so low in OOM

3. Overflow - Tucker/Wash, canon compliant

His thoughts about Tucker have often felt like a glass of water that’s just a little too full. He moves carefully so they don’t slosh around and make a mess of the place, barely keeping it all inside . And he’d thought that, once the newness of the whole ‘ sure we’ll risk lying to the faces of UNSC police to keep you out of prison even though you’ve done next to nothing nice for us your entire life ’ gratitude thing wore off (it didn’t, not entirely, it still pops up sometimes in the worst of moments and chokes him like the noose he should have gotten) the level would go down.

[...]

Tucker does something to him. Tucker finds ways to make him forget, at least for a little while, all the ways he’s fucked up. Even if it’s just finding more tolerable faults, like how the stick Washington has got shoved up his ass does wonders for keeping his back straight. Tucker talks loud enough to drown out the ghosts of everyone he underranked but outlived, listens enough to make his hard-won experience and advice mean something, and he is terrified for the day that everything overflows.

this was birthday fic for @strangestquiet that i actually took a day off from work to ensure i completed it in time but just. anyway. i’m pretty proud of it because it’s Big and it’s Coherent Mission Fic that managed somehow to tie into a little bit of preexisting lore. i’m also unfortunately very fond of all the little OC children bc i’ve constantly had tons of trouble with original characters and even tho no one else seemed to notice them i had fun and i love them all. but just in general i feel like i had a good balance of humor and feelings and also imagery? but as far as the latter goes it falls short of...

2. gethsemane - implied Shepard/Vakarian, Archangel-centric, game-compliant

On his last trip out of the Citadel, tying off loose ends, he bought a pack of playing cards from a human vendor. He had memories - they’d been fond once, but were souring like milk left in the sun - of losing miserably to Shepard and Williams at some gambling game. Leaving gifts on the graves of the departed wasn’t exactly the norm for turian culture, but neither was it strictly a human one either.

The flowers around the small crystal pillar were already wilting with neglect when he arrived. There might have been other tributes left there, but security had loosened until it fell away, slack like discarded clothes. Garrus left the cards there, under the shimmering list of names of casualties from the attack on the Citadel, and took the next transport ship as far away from Widow as possible.

okay so like. whenever possible i love to put good imagery in fic and like. understate emotions when i can and just in general do the literary version of the color saturated wide shot, you feel me? like the pullback with the characters in silhouette but you can still understand everything they’re feeling? anyway i feel like this fic really nailed a lot of my own personal goals for just Vivid fics. can’t wait to write more mass effect fic but it’s gonna be Hard to meet the standards i set for myself with this one.

1. Throw Away the Key - York/Carolina, Alternate Universe

Carolina fights to find the best angle for her umbrella as gusts of wind swat rain at them in little bursts, but by the time her car gives a satisfying click they’re both uncomfortably wet and she’s run out of things to say. Thankfully, he hasn’t.

“We have got to stop meeting like this,” York reflects as he withdraws the metal blade, inch by careful inch. “This is getting a little absurd. Like, bad soulmate romcom Hallmark movie levels of coincidence.”

“Not my fault if you keep breaking the law.” She’s a little surprised by the movie analogy, but decides against teasing him for his choice in films.

“I am bending it, at best.”

listen i’m fucking neck deep in all the complexities of longfic hell and this sure isn’t the artsy stylistic stuff that i can be proud of (or regret) later on down the road but i’m trying. i’m trying to write something massive and happy and so far it’s working. i can’t say for sure if it’s actually Good because i get to see all my messy drafts and stops and starts that the rest of you are spared, but I wanted so badly to write A Good Longfic for the Y/C fandom and with that, at least, I feel like I’m doing well. if nothing else, literally nothing else at all, i am proud of myself for trying this and i hope that it can continue to give people joy long after it’s done and i’m gone.

i’m gonna go ahead and tag @therewithasmile @sinelanguage @lady-of-rohan @flecksofpoppy @owaire and of course @playerprophet but if you’re reading this and wanna do it go right ahead!

[sumergosuigeneris]

September 4, 2019

Phew. Lots happened since my last post. On Sunday, we had the sailing club thing. Friend picked me up, and we were on the road when her cousin called and said he wanted to come.

Now, he is a character! First, wouldn’t let me drive (he’s the man). Second, he said he hadn’t been drinking, but methinks he was high. Third, I thought I was going to die. He had no respect for lanes. And the speeding. And weaving. I can’t believe I was ever like that in my youth, but I definitely did my share of weaving and speeding. In my late teens and early 20s. Dude’s in his 50s. But knew a where all the speed traps were. And was a font of random trivia. Knows a lot about drugs.

He’s a DJ too. One of the members is a DJ and he was going to do the music. But Cousin took the fuck over. And while I like his brand of music well enough, house, I was looking forward to the r&b/soul music I didn’t get.

We got there and it was nice and chill. The food was great. We built a fire and a committee of us was maintaining it. We were pacing ourselves, or at least I was pacing myself, until the racers got there b/c it was definitely going to be a rager.

Note: I thought dude had turned it from a private party to an everyone’s invited party, but it was mostly private, outside of the club’s racers.

Anyway, I guess the wind died completely so it took them hours and hours to get there. They do and they’re beat. Plus one more day of racing to go. So it was a chill rest of the night.

But dude comes over to our fire. We’d been warned B is a fire bug, okay fine. But he came over like he owned the fucking place. He criticized our fire and told us he was going to fix it. Like we hadn’t been maintaining it all day. He was just so mutherfucking stereotypically white male privileging the whole thing that I could not keep my mouth shut. I’d have let him do whatever he wanted, but I really could not not say anything. So I said something along the lines of ‘is the white male coming over to tell us how to tend a fire?’ something like that. Some of the ladies thought that was awesome. Anyway, I would have been done but he goes - alright, I’ll give you 10 minutes then I’m adding a log to the fire. So I said, no we’ll give you 15 mins and then maybe we’ll let you add a log. He left us the fuck alone, but I definitely did not make a friend. Also, he was the DJ. And on the crew of the sea scout boat.

At some point, the hotep dude I know told me that some of them had raced over on the sea scout boat. And he’d recommended to them that I be on the crew. That kind of pissed me off, bc I was like who are these people, they almost all have their own boats, one’s a guest, and they’re all white men. Actually, turns out one was black, but still. All male crew. All own their own boats. None of them had anything to do with taking care of the boat. I mostly moved on though.

But I did talk it out a bit with one person. And then another person, who is the one who’s supposed to be maintaining the boat. And she said she’d help me find a racing crew. Maybe we’d make an all-women crew. Cool. I was happy. But she must have said something, there’s no way she didn’t because a bit later, there were a few of them, including her, discussing the crew on the boat and I got pulled into it a bit. I went inside to make myself a plate, and they called me back out to say they *were* gonna invite me. The commodore couldn’t find me on Wednesday. It was a last minute thing.  I was like fine, whatever. They pretended to offer to let me ride back, but when I said no bc I had plans, they a) got an attitude and b) said the boat was kinda packed, like bitch I’ve been on that boat, 5 men is not packed. And I explained I was looking to get into racing but hadn’t found anyone, and the commodore, I really hope she was drunk, because she said to me that I need to educate myself and stop being narrow-minded. I was stunned, like wtf are you talking about??!?! She definitely meant about racing (if not that plus other things) and tried to soften it, but didn’t manage it.  So then I had to spend time justifying that I wasn’t hugely upset about the race, that I had tried to find a boat, but not *that* hard - it’d been a busy summer. How I ended up feeling like I needed to defend myself that I wasn’t upset about shit I didn’t bring up to these people I don’t even know. Such bullshit.

Also, for the record, the commodore didn’t try to reach out to me. She could have emailed or called. There were several days between Wednesday and the racing. They didn’t want me.  But seriously, my opinion of her is dropping, due to something else too.

So that upset me a bit, but I was determined not to let it get out of hand. But at that point, I was tired too, so I drowsed a while, helped tend the fire (learned a lot from one lady and the commodore who were both girl scouts), then went to try to sleep. Did not get a good spot.

I’d brought my tent to camp, but forgot the poles. Then picked a communal tent but was told a couple was in there. Went to another tent, found out later that another couple was in that one two. These huge communal tents should not have been monopolized by just two couples but whatever. I felt like Mary and Joseph looking for room at the inn.

Next day, I helped cook a little. And got asked to ride with someone else back. Still wondering if S will have something to say about that later. But I was happy to not risk my life again, and get back a little earlier. And I thought I’d be spending more quality time with another person (didn’t happen, I was invited as a buffer but that’s fine). Cousin palmed me something. I looked later - we’d.

I slept like a mofo when I got home. Then joined some bar peeps to go to a festival. They re-dressed me. Which was funny and nice. And we had a decent time. But at one point we got split up. I couldn’t find them and only had 1 of 2 numbers. The one I had wasn’t answering. Eventually, she called me. But I couldn’t fucking hear her over the band. She kept calling me back instead of texting me like I asked. And I thought they’d saved a seat for me, but it was a dude’s so I sat on the ground. It was funny b/c he was kinda pissed, but it’s not like anyone, including his girl, said anything to me. And I guess he knew the people I was with, but didn’t realize until the end I was with them. Like, you think the ‘white’ girl would just be glomming on to some random people? I guess....

Then we after-partied at the other lady’s house. It was nice. Her daughter’s a freshman, and you know I got all up in that. I left later than I wanted but it was a good time. And now I’m thinking other friend isn’t a lesbian? She might be bi or open or whatever but she definitely made a comment about wanting to hook up with some dude.

Kinda dead yesterday. Kinda dead today too if I’m honest. We’ll see how race night goes.

But I need to mention the call. So party/sea scout dude called me and told me that basically the commodore and her hubby had pushed him out of managing the boat. They didn’t ask to use it for this last weekend’s race, and they also registered it for another race without asking him. Actually, they pretended to ask him, but someone outside the club had already said something to him about it being registered. So he’s bringing that up at the board meeting. I’ll be curious b/c the funds used to buy the boat might make all that very sketchy.