#i wrote outwards from the middle so i was in the process of tangling with exactly that scene and its aftermath too

[brujahinaskirt]

so i was in the process of writing this jousting fic where one character gets bonked on the head and the other character is stuck in limbo wondering if the love of his life will ever recover and if his own life was summarily just ruined in an instant and how he can possibly survive having his life obliterated at its seams all over again just because of a few stupid measly minutes

and then last spring the love of my life who has been my best friend since i was a child had a sudden onset aphasiac migraine (something neither of us knew existed) and after about 10 minutes of excruciating pain forgot how to talk and i waited alone at his ICU bedside sleeplessly 24/7 for days doing fun activities like holding up little picture flashcards to try and help him through a whole sentence and praying my atheist ass off that it wasn't a stroke and wondering if he would be able to talk again, or if we'd ever get to to home together, or if the blood clot-busting medicine the ER doctor made me decide whether or not to give him would indeed save his speech and/or life (or if it might have a rare adverse affect as they warned me about and make it much worse), or if my whole life was going to be obliterated

good news! he was fine but i'm still not okay about it at all and i don't when i will be able to pick that fic up again