#i would never move back to my hometown but i do rly miss seeing my family in person

[barkingangelbaby]

aw i just got off the phone with my grandpa and we had a rly nice conversation about having premonitions and i mentioned seeing my dad n grandma in my dreams. it's always fun to have surprise spiritual conversations with him bc he is a Military Man who doesn't show emotion often but when he has his soft moments... hoo boy do i feel loved. it's just very nice to hear his mood shift n know i said something that made him smile

[rcinberry]

hello pals . here thoust be with an about ? haha kisses love and respekt these hoes !

tw: familial death, murder 

STATS: full name: sebastian eli jung nickname(s): bas, bash, CALL HIM BA AND YOU DIE age: 23. date of birth: april 4th 1997 hometown: chicago, illinois  gender: cis male. religion: athiest. sexuality: bisexual. hair colour: blonde. here’s visuals of what he looks like currently, he’s always decked in accessories ! head to toe , he loves looking handsome n expensive, it’s like a personality trait to be that sexy yk?  .. xx (x) eye colour: brown. height: 5'10, i bumped up jimins height myob tattoos: (x) (left hand, the rose & cross only) , (x) (back of his neck), (x) on his inner left forearm,  piercings: two ear piercings in each, right cartilage piercing, (1) nipple piercing, had his tongue pierced when he was like 13 but that hole closed up now.

(i copied this family background from ellie bc she summed it up OFKMGDHG)

immediate family: richard & elizabeth jung (parents), silvia jung (twin brother, younger), and bambi & thumper (pure golden bred golden retrievers, bambi’s owner)

extended family: jeremy jung (uncle, father’s twin, deceased), jeremy’s husband (uncle)

started out as world renowned physicians, but would later own the best hospitals around the world

became a household name because of their big role/impact in the medical world and later the business world

twins run in the family and theres been a set of jung twins in every generation so far (aka richard & jeremy, silvia & sebastian)

mom was the hardass, dad was the softy

richard and elizabeth got divorced when the twins were 19 years old, the fortune/businesses was split between the two

the dad basically disappeared after the divorce happened, the mom is a witch

the twins were always closer to their dad and uncle

in addition to their family life 

sebastian does not get along w his mother at all, she sees him as scum and he sees her as disgrace and a money hungry person, he saw to that when she murdered his uncle before him. they hate each other but he’d never express tht hate in front of silvia, although when silvia isn’t around his mom hurls horrible insults at him and he fights back

will protect silvia till the end of the world he would jump fences for his sister, the only girl that he truly loves even if she hates him currently

loves his dog a lot, bambi is his baby.. his emotional support animal

misses his dad terribly and wishes he’d reach out, he’s tried a few times, hired the best PI and couldn’t find it. his dad doesn’t want to be found or does he? 

which leads to how sebastian is so afraid to be himself and love because mom, a bitch, dad? god knows why he bailed when he needed him the most. 

whomst is sebastian , condensed  !

sebastian is a boy who has seen his uncle die in front of him, so tht fucked him up a lot. like he can be difficult but that’s because he watched someone die and the loving boy he was once was no more... and then to lose his dad right after was a pretty fucked up burden for him to carry into his teen years, he tried not to let it show for silvia’s sake but that kind went down the drain in their 20′s

he rlly only ever looked out for silvia when he was growing up, he didn’t really care about anyone else and that was a product of his mothers neglect, he didn’t want the same for silvia to see her thrive made him happy, he loves his twin a lot 

after his uncle died, and they all got the riches of the family business, he rly saw his mom do a 360 and saw how much money changed the bitch, he rly hates that hag he rlly does, she lets her own son rot and makes sure silvia never feels the way he does around her so he sucks up his pride sometimes

anyways growing up !! he's always been home schooled, unlike silvia he never did anything? he doesnt need to? now that he’s dripping wealth he’s like i can buy excellence i dont need to be work my ass off like yall, bye <3

he’s very cautious of people, you know how the old trope goes.. once betrayed never trust again - that’s him, hardly lets anyone into his circle, it’s so small it’s just himself tbh

anyways , he spent most of his teen years traveling and wandering the world bc it's sexier than being home and u could be whoever u wanna be across seas , not tht he ever faked his identity, his name has meaning n he uses tht for his advantage. even home schooled, he’d be doing school in italy, france, greece, maldives you name it, his experience was the outside world and he’s seen a lot

sebastian doesn't hide himself , like what u see is . esstentially what u see x he has never faked it for the cameras, always authentically and annoyingly himself

he knows he's not a pleasant person and if u can't u can't hang. he's not gna make himself a pleasant person to hang out with , if u wnna curse him out ? curse him out he rly doesn't phase at all like he's rly heard it ALL from his mother that nothing else rly hurts , it takes a lot to hurt him

unless ur silvia, anything that girl says breaks his heart but he doesnt let it show his .00007 centimeter of whats left in his chest

moving on, he's rly the type to show up anyone out of spite . say he can't do it ? watch him do it perfectly the next day , he doesn't like being shown to be stupid bc as much as he does as dumb , he rly isn't the boy has a lot of knowledge up in his brain , he likes playing stupid for the aesthetic. like the jungs come from a line of brains and such, silvia has the brains and the drive - sebastian just... hides it, never shows up to class, pays it off by buying a new wing for the school.. 

but when he does do smthn to show up ppl, does it w grace and a smile on his face or if he wants to prove someone wrong, does it with ease

he interrupts people's tasks bc he doesn't want one of those tasks to be involving silvia at all 

he is a Whore , he just fucks anything honestly u yell at him n he's just . HE's jsut full of himself makes me wnna punch him uhh i thin kthats it!! hes just , a damaged self absorbed son of a binch u kno , gets his shit rocked sometimes and he just laughs it off wipes tears , god  bless

[dissolvingache]

i left her / my hometown today. i rly miss her. i keep crying sporadically. i know it’s not even the first day, so it should get better, but god do i miss her. i miss him. i miss them.

last night i was extremely upset because i don’t want to return to my violent brother, and i’ve been ignoring my mom’s calls for 2 weeks, and i know i’m only making it worse by continuing to ignore, but i can’t control it.

i really wanted them to hug me, but it took forever for me to gather the strength to. i said i feel annoying always asking, especially since they never do, and he said, you know i’m not great with physical affection. i didn’t know that, but now i do. i said i never ask for hugs, so it’s weird for me too, and he said he’ll take that as a compliment (which it was).

she also said she needs to work on getting her own place and then i can come stay whenever for as long as i want... this is one of the most exciting things anyone could say to me, honestly. i said thank you, and she asked for what? i haven’t done it yet. but i’m like even offering that is super nice, jus like helping me now from indio. i told him he saved me.

she asked me if i wanted my birthday present now or later, i said it’s probably safer now than mailing, and she agreed. i don’t know how long ago it was already, but she had gone to a renaissance fair. i remember her texting me to confirm my birthday, and i thought he was just finding out what the moon was like on my birthday (i ended up even writing a poem out of it). instead, it turns out he had bought me a necklace with the moon on my birthday. waxing crescent. i NEVER wear jewelry, but i find this necklace extremely comforting (it’s also surprisingly light, i don’t even feel it), and it feels like the ultimate affirmation of my identity. it’s so sweet. i have to find them a really good birthday gift now too.

right before asking he had gone through her phone’s calendar and deleted indio’s birthday. after giving me the gift she said confession, she had been looking up my birthday.

they kept offering to give me their sketchbook since i had drawn in it, but most drawings were theirs so i said no. they wanted to rip them out, but i didn’t have a good way to transport them, so i said i’ll just have to get them next time we see each other, and she smiled and said ok.

his parents were rly nice. i don’t know if they were saying it jus to say it, but when saying goodbye they said i’m welcome to stay with them whenever i’m there.

i was talking to her mom a lot today. she remembered what university i went to which surprised me jus cuz i haven’t seen her parents in like 4-5 years. i was surprised, since i said i don’t plan to live in my current state forever she asked where i’d wanna go, and i said i don’t know for sure, jus that it has to be a city, not a rural area. she said vancouver has a lot of tech jobs, which i didn’t know, and she said if he can find a job there or somewhere we can move in together. i was like DAMN, his mom sayin that??? that would be fun though. i never considered vancouver, but i’ve thought about leaving this country many times, and i liked the city when i visited it. i don’t know if he’d ever wanna do it, but my dream is to live with at least one person i love. i don’t know if i ever will, but it would be nice, it’s just that all my friends don’t live where i do. another reason i gotta move.

later i asked to hug again and we did. i asked if it’s ok for me to call and all that and they said definitely. they said we have to stay close, and i said i want to (like close relationship), they said to call and everything. i said they can call me too, and she said she’s not great at it, and i said i know, neither am i but...

i said i’m glad they’re back in my life, and they said it sucks it was cuz of this “but silver linings right?” (they used that phrase a lot with me. lots of silver linings for us, mainly just being able to be together).

i said i’m gonna miss spending time with them, and they said they would too, it’s been rly nice having me around. i said i had fun, and he smiled and said he did too.

i asked to take a pic together cuz i always regretted not having a single one ever with her when we dated, and i generally don’t take pics with ppl. i realize now i associated it with my mom which pissed me off but i took pics before with my other friend, and it was nice so i was like i can do that now. i need to remember to ask for the pictures.

we hugged a lot, i told them i was gonna miss their hugs, and they said “so i’m a good hugger?” and i was like duh

i forgot what i said before it, i think i was thanking them for everything, but she said “i care about you” 😭🥴🥰

they said we have to see each other soon, didn’t say goodbye when i was leaving, instead said see you soon. i said she’s welcome to come stay with me too, two of my friends have done it so it’s possible, and she said great, we can hardcore ignore my brother too.

[dikiyvter]

CW:// It’s.. I mean, it’s a post centered on Dottore. Gore, medical horror, referenced animal abuse/death, and references to child experimentation because it’s.... it’s dottore....

       BANGS POTS AND PANS TOGETHER alright kids gather around for Cala needs to add Dottore as a side muse/NPC for some plots so here’s a collection of some of my weird fucking HCs on him. I’ll probably just... edit this whenever I get new ideas instead of making whole new posts, idk, we’ll see.

       0. BASIC INFO.

       Dottore is 5′10″. He’s athletic, but not particularly muscular. He is a cis male ( he/him ) who is grey-asexual and homoromantic ( though in truth he probably falls closer to being on the aromantic scale as well ). Dottore is somewhere between 27 and 33. Though he was born and raised in Fontaine, he is a direct descendent of the Lawrence clan from Mondstadt. He is a polyglot who is fluent in a majority of the spoken languages on Teyvat. This Bitch Has Mental Problems. 

       I. ORIGIN. LAMBERT PIERRE LAWRENCE is the descendent of Mondstadt’s Lawrence clan, though he himself was born and raised in a small village in Fontaine. Well-off is hardly the term to describe his family’s financial state; to describe what they had as WEALTH would be an understatement. Large was the chateau that was owned by the family, surrounded by the rolling fields of the Fontainian countryside. 

       It was a peaceful place, before Lambert was born. The boy had always been.... peculiar. Things had always been difficult with him; Lambert had a hard time keeping pace with emotions, often being cruel and brash in conversation, forgoing all manners in his interruptions and rants. Bonding was something he did not find particularly possible, never growing close to neither his parents nor his younger siblings. Fights with other children in the village broke out often when Lambert was around; And when the boy became bored these issues were ramped to the extremes. He would do anything to seek some relief from the boredom that plagued him; Anything for a scrap of entertainment.

       He found some relief in reading; Fascinated with the medical textbooks that lined the shelves of his fathers study, moving on to anatomy, to biology, to animals. It was around the age of 14 that Lambert became truly fascinated by animals. Something he had once been utterly ambivalent towards was now a hyperfixation. He’d stop for every spotted dog, he’d beg endlessly for a pet cat of his own. The farmers adjacent to the Lawrence’s property would drag the boy by his collar back to his parents after he’d gone breaking into fields and barns. The intensity of the interest was a bit odd-- but a welcome relief from his otherwise distance and cold behavior Lambert had always expressed. Thinking that perhaps the boy had finally developed an interest far more normal for his age, gently did his parents encourage him to properly ask to see the farmers animals; Even gifting the boy a cat for his 16th birthday.

       Ever one for isolation, even going on two years into his animal fixation, Lambert had always been fond of nightly walks along the outskirts of the property; Something that had always been encouraged by his parents. But as the walks became longer and longer, and as farmers began to complain of missing sheep and cattle, and even the boys beloved pet cat disappeared-- As Dottore’s behavior became more and more erratic, an eerie wariness grew within the house. 

       Just beyond the property line, nestled in a wooded area between the farmers fields, was a barn that had long since been abandoned. One night, worried that his son was the cause of these disappearances, Lambert’s father followed him on his nightly walk. The barn had been changed over the years; It’s insides refitted for the boys purposes. EERIE WARINESS GREW TO FEAR. It became the family’s secret; The monster they now housed in their home and the monstrosities he left in the night to create. Efforts were taken to curb the behavior, to stamp it out now before it spread; BEFORE IT GOT WORSE.

              NEEDLESS TO SAY, IT GOT WORSE.

       The town became aware of the barn when one of the neighbors young daughters went for a walk and discovered it and all it contained; The abominations of metal and meat that Lambert had forged and sewn, the chemicals he had mixed and the plans he had laid for something far darker, and set in motion was the series of events that would cost him EVERYTHING HE KNEW.

        The barn was investigated that day; Lambert far too busy with his studies to hear the fresh news. His nightly walks were well known by now, and who the barn and its contents belonged to was without doubt; And so that night, as the boy ventured out to the barn and began his work-               THE DOORS WERE CLOSED SHUT AND BLOCKED.               AND TORCHES SET THE WOODEN BARN ALIGHT.               AND HE FESTERED THERE AMONG HIS CREATIONS.

       ... But that was a long time ago. He doesn’t think of it much anymore.

       II. BENEATH THE MASK Lies scars from the incident that chased a young Dottore from his hometown. The scars are present all over his body, but are most prominent across his legs, back, and arms. The left side of his face and neck faced the brunt of the burns- And are, perhaps, the subject of some insecurity. He has taken a number of measures to try and reduce the appearance of these scars, all to very little avail. 

       III. THE SNEZHNAYA CAMPAIGN. Many are familiar with the campaign the Fatui held in Mondstadt to find new recruits; Few are familiar with the results of this campaign. And few outside of Snezhnaya are aware that something very similar is happening within the countries borders, as well. With the majority of it’s citizens suffering in poverty under a massive class gap, Dottore has run a campaign in Snezhnaya to encourage families to sign their young ones up for a specialized training program with the Fatui. The specifics of the program are not clarified, but the most enticing details are; Qualified families will receive a monthly paycheck, and their child will be safe, housed and warmed and fed. With so many families desperate for a lessened load of their already fragile resources, the promise of money, of safety for their struggling children... few people can deny that it’s an enticing deal. IF ONLY THEY KNEW WHAT WAS TRULY HAPPENING. 

       IV. MORALS.... this bitch has none, but I want you all to be as aware of this as possible. Children and animals are not off limits in his experiments. He can and will commit all varities of crime because his personal desires are more important than any laws or reason. All ends justify the means. He doesn’t care much for anyone who isn’t himself. He will hurt, maim, and kill literally anyone, it does not matter to him. All that matters to Dottore is relieving his boredom, feeding his curiosity, and keeping his current place in the world. He would literally rip you open and start sewing animal parts to you if someone offered him a single corn chip to do so. 

       V. PHYSICAL HEALTH... is admittedly a bit of a rollercoaster. Dottore has been performing experiments on himself for a long time- Some successful, some very far from it. Majority of days he can more than keep pace with his fellow harbingers in a fight, and yet there are others where he cannot feasibly accomplish such a task. Having long since adjusted to this, Dottore primarily relies on using drones for ranged attacks, finding this is what works best on both his best and worst days- but he does carry a knife or two on him for emergencies... or for when a bitch just rly needs to be shanked.