#i would like to be kinder to myself

[brown-little-robin]

I think I'm in the "conscious incompetence" stage of being a social animal in the real world and it sucks so majorly. bro what do you do after you realize you're bad at socializing and then in-person interaction gets harder because you know you're failing at it now.

[starrycassi]

Have an álgebra examen tomorrow and I'm currently trying to manifest Viktor into my room so he can help me with this shit. Realistically this man would just hit me over the head because he would def get stressed out with me not understanding until I would eventually break down crying and he would just stand there waiting for me to get over it but I would cry even more because I want him to comfort me. This would end up in him leaving to avoid the impulse of breaking my head open with his cane.

I think Jayce, on the other hand, would just get down to business immediately and sucker punch me in the face after I ask him for the third time the difference between a conditional and identity linear equation. Either that or he gets so stressed out that he just starts crying too going "how come you are so bad at this?" And he's not even trying to be hurtful he's just genuinely appalled by my stupidity

AND BEFORE ANY OF Y'ALL COME "oh I bet you're actually good-" I got a 20/100 in my third parcial. Math hates me. My ECOMP2 teacher told me that I was born to be a writer. The guy (he's 30 something and reference tt regularly on lectures I'm not calling him sir) that teaches me exppsych102 called me one of the most revolutionary minds in the school (this is only because he's a fellow comrade. Also it because I am batshit insane and always end up handing in one or two extra pages in assignments) and I'm here sobbing over the square roots of 138. Like how is this relevant to my career. I KNOW IT'S GOOD FOR COGNITIVE ABILITIES BUT THERE ARE SOOOO MANY OTHER WAYS FOR ME TO DEVELOP THAT. LET ME THE FUCK OUT OF INTERMEDIATE ALGEBRA

[nekrosmos]

My ability to calm people down in record time will never not be funny to me, useful skill to have in social work for sure

[princessnijireiki]

the Tyra Sanchez discourse is so funny, like, yall fell so hard for RuPaul's family friendly VH1 sanitization of the scene that a drag queen waiting until someone who was rude to them died & then saying "I am glad she is dead" and NOTHING ELSE has yall in tatters? grow tf up lmao John Waters should shoot you

[mobolanz]

and this is a goodbye . You won't be hearing from me anymore

[light-wrath-paradise]

I love fix-it aus for stories where any attempt to fix shit could only ever make everything worse. They're like sitcoms to me.

[franeridan]

currently at around ch46 of dunmeshi and i honestly hope going forward kabru becomes More of a bastard cause if he doesn't I feel like the fandom has been doing my boy so dirty

[tricksterlatte]

I saw someone on the bird website point out that just because people disagree with a fellow fan doesn't give them the right to bully or harass said fan, especially in such cruel ways (they were body shaming a well known Overwatch person because she shared a selfie, and the hate originated from her opinions on the character).

It's been driving me crazy how people somehow forgot you can disagree with someone's opinions without being an asshole. Why do we condemn bigotry or cruelty when it's directed at our friends, but hurl it out ourselves when opportunity arises to bash someone we dislike? It just makes me so sad.

This isn't about a specific situation but it's a problem i've noticed over the years. I have been both a perpetrator and a victim of this (if I said otherwise, I'd be a liar. I've been on the internet since I was 10 and have been active in multiple fandoms), but I don't want to contribute whatsoever to that type of environment anymore. We have to talk the talk and walk the walk with this one, or we will continue to be miserable. If you dislike something or someone, either communicate if this person is supposed to matter to you or vice versa, or just block them, mute them, unfollow them. Whichever suits your comfort level for whatever the situation may be. If you hate something or someone but still proceed to follow them, check their profile, and grab screenshots or QRTs to make fun of them, whether with petty jabs or actual bigotry and cruelty, you are not only making other people into targets. You are sending yourself into a spiral that will only harm you in the long run.

I know how addicting social media can be. I know how the instant gratuitous relief can feel when you vent about something within an echo chamber. And I don't think the answer is just don't vent, don't misconstrue my words. I think the answer is does this make you happy? I don't think this type of habit makes anyone happy. I know sometimes people change, and I really hope people can and do.

I don't say this as an accusation or to be mean myself, I say this as someone who suffered on my own end, not only from taking the brunt of harassment but also from indulging it on occasion. I used to be horrible about this type of fixation on things I hated within fandom during my prime days in my earliest tumblr fandoms, and I nearly fell into this trap again over the past few years. My irl situation was entering a state of despair, and during those times, without anyone trustworthy that shared these spaces with me and that knew me well in return, fandom felt like the one place where I had a semblance of control. That doesn't excuse belittling people. It never does. A reason is not justification.

It's a special type of hell, for example from my personal experience, to receive dozens of suibait anons about fanfic you published, whether it was from things I left blatantly tagged and easily avoidable, over my writing not being as good as others' within these spaces, or because people admitted they were envious of something outside of my control. Or people making fun of my cosplay photos or treating me as an object to be sexualized, no matter who they were or how they identified. I had old Retrospring anons sent that exploited my vulnerability regarding events only certain groups knew about, trying me during my worst of times. When I vaguely discussed them on other websites, without sharing things being said to protect myself and to not spread drama, I was largely told I was overreacting and to just delete them. Which I did, but they kept coming. I deleted anonymous ways of contacting me and closed off most forms of contact with fandoms other than a few long running places I've known for years (thank you WWD crew you guys are the GOAT). But even so. If I didn't have the person who is now my wife there for me at the right time, I probably wouldn't be here right now. Not everyone experiencing this type of thing has anyone there for them at all.

I have a tendency to ramble, so I'll summarize here: the only type of toxicity that will ever bring people joy is toxic yaoi, toxic yuri, Toxic by Britney Spears, and the Toxic TM from Pokemon. I want to get better myself, and I'm posting this because I hope for the best for anyone who read this. If you disagree with me for this, that's okay too. If you don't think this applies to you, it might not! I don't know you. None of us know each other, which I think should be further incentive to be kind, instead of ample opportunity to be mean. If you have the choice, strive to be kind over the escapism that brings us joy. For some of us, this will be the only kindness we may ever know.

[mochinon-yah]

Hi Mochi!!! I hope you're doing well when you see this >:D You said it was alright to bother you with ask games, so here I am!! /Aff

Music chain! list 5 songs that give off this vibe: dancing with your favorite character

send this to the last 5 people who were active in ur notes (+ anyone you want) with a vibe of your choice (as vague or specific as you want)

SHIROO!!!! ♡

Hello <333 fortunately, i am doing a-okay when i saw this ask! I hope you're doing as well too :D !

(THIS IS THE RIGHT CHOICE GUYS, IF I SAID U CAN BOTHER ME I MEAN LIKE U CAN JUST GO DO THIS- /SMACKED /gen tho)

And oouh, songs that have a vibe like thatt 😻 lemme picture dan heng dancing with me in my head before listing the songs xD but anyway, here's my take on this!

It's Not Living (If It's Not With You) — The 1975

seasons — wave to earth

About You — The 1975

Spring Snow — 10 CM

Make You Mine — PUBLIC

[lucifer-kane]

the kiss with solas on the inquisitor's balcony

[marcvscicero]

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[july-19th-club]

i've been blocked by this person so they will likely never see this, but in cause they're still looking - i sent you a real apology, that i meant, privately, after i'd had time to make sure i was able to approach it in an adult manner, and you responded by refusing to accept that my apology could be genuine. i don't know if it was my phrasing (i will apologize, and genuinely, for mistakes that i make, or posting things that wind up being cruel or unfair, but i will not participate in the 'grovel or you aren't really remorseful' culture that exists on sites like these. i am sorry that i shared something that hurt you. if i could have had a longer conversation with you, i would. my apology was real, and that is why it was not performative). BUT. because i can now no longer message you, i've decided if i have any chance of reaching out to you i will have to do it in public. if you do wind up reading this, i realize that you likely still will not believe me, or accept my sincerity. that's the nature of online interactions, i guess - we don't really ever know each other well enough to accept good faith from one another when we're mad.

[martinskiseyes]

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[isekyaaa]

this kinda turned into vent, so if you dont feel like it just ignore it!

I absolutely love your k*avetham analysis because same. I just realised this, but extremely reminds me of a friend that just doesn't get better. It's been 8 years and not only they haven't improved AT ALL, but I would also argue it's gotten worse. And it's frustrating because you've been there, tried to support them through bad times, but then you get the same rant for 124124 time and you realize that even with all the help they've been receiving, their situation hasn't improved by one bit. And you wonder, is it the fault of friends/family/psychologists not being enough, or are they a problem?

And Kaveh has been getting help! He had a lot of projects lined up, nearly all of Sumeru loves him, but you cannot be stuck in the toxic mentality forever. Alhaitham was friends with a boy that was so guilt-ridden that he was willing to sacrifice himself to get rid of it, and several years later he is still at that stage. You cannot help a person that doesn't want to be helped, and Alhaitham is not even a person who would hold your hand to resolve your issues. He would be supporting you from behind, waiting to catch you when you stumble but leaving you to it. And he has been doing that! But no wonder he's sometimes snippy at Kaveh when he's always getting dragged into his problems.

fejiwoafjiew I wrote a whole rant response to this and then tumblr ended up crashing OTL But you get me, anon!!!! It's tough, right? Seeing someone put themselves through that. And no matter how much you try to help, they just won't get better. And I will be honest with you. In my opinion, it's them that's the problem, not the people around them. They truly do not want to get better because of the responsibility that comes with it. It's just easier to suffer.

It just really sucks to see as a whole. Like look at Kaveh. He's caring, responsible, dutiful, talented, friendly, creative, opinionated, driven, ethical, self-sacrificing, etc etc etc. He has so many genuinely good traits. And yet how do the people close him know him? Someone that is chronically unhappy and complaining constantly. People like him become a self-fulfilling prophecy through self-sabotage. They push away any support they get because they can't see the big picture. It's just frustratingly sad.

I know this would never happen in game, but I just want Kaveh to leave Sumeru for a bit. He needs to just start anew. Maybe move to Mondstadt. Let the culture there engulf him in love and care. Let Venti listen to his problems a bit. Idk. Mentally my solution for any troubled soul is to move to Mondstadt HAHA. And then maybe after he gets better, he can then move back and be more resilient and just... happier.

[denizenhardwick]

also there's a possibility that i might have had pots even before i got covid, covid just made it way worse and forced me to recognize and take my symptoms seriously. and looking back, a lot of stuff makes a hell of a lot more sense through that lens.

[offthewall1979]

not 2 be weird, seeing as i am 1. younger than him and 2. a professional objectifier of his father, but scrolling through Prince's instagram just made me CRY. i am so impressed and proud of him.