#i would also talk to my kid about how piercings and other body mods are perceived in public and in the workplace so that they’d understand

[nope-body]

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[sagemonsters]

@jasper-the-menace has a blind date with...

Atticus the Robot

Atticus is a liberated “butler bot��� who was once a servant in a rich inventor’s house before making their escape. They are humanoid in shape, made of gleaming brass clockwork laid overtop a lavishly decorated porcelain “skeleton” and encased in a jointed glass shell so that viewers can see all of their inner workings. Ordinarily perpetually annoyed by humans and determined to never be helpful to anyone ever again, they have decided to make an exception for you. 

Atticus can read, write, and speak in just about any language you can think of, and learns things incredibly quickly. They love raunchy jokes and foul language, but will tone it down as the situation calls for and/or if you ask them to. They always have a smartass remark ready to go, and often get in trouble with authority figures for talking back. They’re quick to defend you in an argument or debate, but will also start casual arguments with you over the most ridiculous topics because they like verbal sparring.

Once you earn Atticus’ trust, they will ask your opinions on body modifications; Atticus is thinking of getting cosmetic alterations so that they look more sleek and modern. On a related note, Atticus is 100% in favor of you getting any piercings, tattoos, gender-affirming surgeries, or other bodily alterations that you think would be good for you, and is ready to help out as best they can—whether it be holding your hand in the piercing booth or pitching in with post-surgical care.

Atticus is a bit nitpicky about how things are organized, and will fuss with how tableware is laid out due to long-standing habits. They completely understand how you organize and reorganize your bookshelves, and will offer increasingly jokey methods such as “in reverse alphabetical order by the author’s middle name.” However, once you adopt a method, Atticus will abide by it for however long it lasts; when they borrow a book from you, they always put it back in the correct position. 

Atticus doesn’t play video games, but they like to tinker with all kinds of coding languages and make mods for various games as a creative exercise. You’re their #1 playtester and get to see all of their mod creations in action, and in return Atticus keeps your games upgraded to their latest versions and makes sure that everything runs smoothly.

“What are you doing?” the robot demanded, placing their hands on their hips and focusing their clockwork eyes at the woman. She startled guiltily and looked away from where she had been glaring daggers at the drag queen reading to the kids in the children’s literature section of the public library.

“I don’t like public indecency,” she grumbled. “What are you doing here, anyway? Your kind don’t need books. Y’all just… just download information from the Internet!” 

“It’s a public library,” the robot pointed out. “I have as much right to be here as you do.”

She sniffed. “I’m going to tell the manager about this—and about you.”

“Ooh, I’m so scared,” the robot retorted, then rolled their eyes. “Whatever, Karen.”

The woman huffed. “My name is Susan!”

“Blah, blah, blah—that’s all I hear,” the robot retorted. “Run along and complain to the branch manager, why don’t you? Go on!”

Susan made a face and stomped away in the direction of the front desk. You stepped out from behind one of the ceiling-high shelves in the Adult Fiction section. “That was brave,” you said. “Mrs. McConnell is a regular complainer; all of the staff hate her.”

The robot let out a mechanical-sounding snicker. “It’s what she deserves,” they said. “I didn’t want her to interrupt the Drag Story Hour with her idiotic fear-mongering, so…” They shrugged.

“Is there anything you need help with, like finding a book or something?” you asked.

“Nope, I’m just here for the free Wi-Fi,” the robot said. The lenses of their eyes focused more sharply upon you. “Unless that was a polite way of asking me to finish my business and fuck off?”

“Nah,” you said. “I just wanted to talk to you.”

“I see!” the robot said. There was more focusing and re-focusing of the robot’s ocular lenses. “You seem like an interesting human. What do you prefer to be called?”

You told them your name.

“That’s a good choice of a moniker,” the robot said, nodding in approval. “I’ve been called Atticus for a very long time, but I’m thinking about changing it. Do you know any books of names that aren’t aimed at soon-to-be parents? I want interesting names, not a million weird spellings of Ashley or Kayla.”

You thought for a moment. “I don’t think we have anything like that in the print collection—but our ebook catalog might have some interesting choices, and there are also web-based resources too, of course.”

“Good,” Atticus said. “Do you have forty-five minutes or so to spare? I want to hear your opinions on whatever names I encounter.”

Somewhere closer to the front of the library, you heard Susan’s shrill protesting and the branch manager raising his voice trying to calm her down.

“Sure!” you said quickly. “Let’s use one of the computers way in the back.”

Atticus’ design is inspired by this artwork by Nicholas Hunter

see here to get your own blind date with a monster!

[magical-girl-coral]

It's Gin's Birthday! Here are some HCs

- He made his own version of "the floor is lave!". In the Seireitei it was "the twelve worked there," while in Hueco Mundo it was "Szayelaporro spilled something here." Both times people would fly to the roof, and in both times, Gin will have a shoe thrown to his face.

- Things Gin is forbidden to touch during his pranks: Aizen's tea, Kaname's kitchen, anything that belongs to Unohana, Yumichika's hair products (a request from Kenpachi because the bitching was awful the last time it happened), anything made by the twelve division, anything made by Szayelaporro, Yachiru's candy, Soi Fon's knives, the ninth's yet to be published articles, Rangiku's makeup, Komamura's shampoo, and Jushiro's medicine (even Gin isn't heartless enough to mess with that).

- Gin's a surprisingly good cook. It makes sense once you remember that one, Kaname was one of the people who raised him, and two, he grew up with Rangiku and had to learn how to cook, or they would have died from food poisoning.

- He's an absolute fashion disaster. He wears the plainest and oversized clothes he can find. If it weren't for Rangiku, he would have the Shinigami equivalent of a closet full of hoodies. Just hoodies.

- Gin was lowkey crushed when he found out Shinji had a tongue piercing. It meant he couldn't have one of his own without people thinking he's copying his old captain.

- He's the only person in the entire world that can bring Orihime's Cain Instinct to activate. If you leave them alone in the same room, she will try to strangle him.

- He and Orihime have a fascinating dynamic because it's a battle between Orihime's ability to lower people's threatening aura and Gin's creepiness rubbing off on people. It's a pure unstoppable force v.s immovable object battle.

- Gin mostly gets sick during summer thanks to his sensitivity to heat. When they were kids, Rangiku only got sick during winter so they joked that they knew they would be screwed at the same time, so their bodies took turns of who gets to be sick this time.

- When Gin was a kid and got sick for the first time, Aizen had to trick him into taking medicine by putting them in dried persimmons. Gin understood the trick immediately and refused to ear dried persimmons whenever he was sick since then. Nowadays, a good chase around the barracks is the only way to make him take his cough drops.

- The reason why Gin refuses to take medicine is that he wants his immune system to get stronger on its own. He's constantly on survivor mod and doesn't want to become too weak and pampered. He doesn't have the same attitude when someone else gets sick though, like the hypocrite that he is.

- Jushiro once did the mistake of unexpectedly hugging a third seat Gin, awakening the latter's fight or flight instincts and Jushiro got a swift kick to the stomach as a result. No one tried to hug him since, at least not without warning.

- He has a really weird grasp on human pop culture. He gets to go to the human world on rare occasions and will try to catch a movie to pass the time if he finished his mission early. References with him are a hit and a miss.

- He also suffers from insomnia and is usually awake from one to three in the morning. He tries to do paperwork or read a book to help him fall back asleep, and takes a nap in is his office to complete some of the missing sleep.

- All of Gin's seater officers were originally from different divisions. His third was from the first, his fifth was from the eleventh and his sixth was from the sixth. They were unhappy with their positions, so Gin gave them promotions to make the transfer faster. It made his betrayal all the more painful.

- Gin is cursed with genre awareness. He knows exactly what kind of story he's in and what his role is. He figured it out around the time he became captain when Aizen was doing a Shounen protagonist version of Build a Bear with Ichigo's parents. He saw Aizen create his own downfall and thought "ah, I see. So this is where I stand." The reason why he gave Ichigo the mantel of taking down Aizen and why his last thoughts were in complete calm was because he knew he was going to fail thanks to his role as a side villain. He didn't quit with his revenge because he believed he was too far gone and understood that if he's going down, he might as well try to take the bastard that started it all with him.

(here are some "if he lived" hcs because I need to get these out of my system)

- Gin return the Gotei 13 is an uncomfortable reminder of how no one is invincible. Every time someone is like "we Shinigamis are too strong to be defeated," Gin lets out an awkward cough. This is also one of the reasons the head captain wanted him back; he knows they need Gin to remember to keep their feet on the ground.

- There are a few people (other than Rangiku and Izuru) that befriended Gin after his return:

Jushiro: Kinda felt bad for knowing Gin as a kid and not knowing how Aizen was slowly turning him into a weapon. Also, he needs more members for the Shiro club.

Shunsui: He usually goes along with whatever Jushiro's doing and this is no expectation. He was always pretty neutral about things anyway.

Nanao: She already felt like she had to give him the benefit of the doubt with how much Rangiku was happy with his comeback. They ended up bonding over picking up their drunk friends from bars.

Kenpachi: He finds Gin funny and Yachiru likes his snacks.

Unohana: They had some weird bonding and mutuals understanding as she healed him. Also, him being a captain again is a huge pain in the ass to the Central 46. That already makes her happy.

- I've already talked before about how if Gin had an inner hollow it would be a Kitsune, so I would like to add that his teeth would sharpen as a result and his hair would become softer, almost fur-like. It's because the stronger the hollow, the more one's body gets affected, almost like a type of mutation.

- Gin only broke the rules once with his restrains, and that was so Kaname could visit Kakyo's grave during her birthday.

- Even after Central 46 banned all interactions with Karakura town, Gin continued in contact with Orihime through secret burner phones. Only Rangiku and Izuru are aware of this.

- After his return, his first prank was dying all of Byakuya's clothes, furniture, and hair seaweed green. Byakuya had said something so goddamn insufferable that it snapped Gin out of his depression and straight into mischief. If Byakuya likes his Wakabe ambassador so much, Gin might as well help to bring it up to a whole new level.

- The wounds left by Aizen were so severe that Gin had to wait five years before he could get his right arm back without damaging something in the process. His prosthetic was overseen by Unohana herself to make sure no one was messing with any of the electronics.

- The first thing he did after his restraints were removed was to visit his old hut. He wanted to see it one last time before letting go of the past for good.

[blesspastacraig]

A Year in Review

I wanted to creat a list of sorts of everything I wrote in 2020, since I managed to do a lot.

Here’s my one shots:

Not Alone - Published 08 Jan 2020

"I keep telling you, I don't want to go" Craig complains as he burps one of his two newborn twin daughters. His mom, thankfully is burping the other. Craig knows he should be nicer to her but two newborns has him at the end of his tether.

"I know but I'm going to keep pushing you until you do" she says, swaying and patting Daisy's back.

or Craig and Tweek bond at a young parents group because they're the only two people with twins.

New Beginnings - Published 19 Feb 2020

Tweek doesn’t want to push her, so they’re both a little cautious of one another. Tweek doesn’t want to barge in and fill a role she hasn’t given him yet. She’s never had a second parental figure before, and Tweek doesn’t want to force himself into that slot. He barely feels worthy of being the father to his biological child, let alone a stepdad figure to this poor little girl who’s life he’s just invaded.

Or Tweek takes Craig's daughter to a daddy daughter dance because Craig is unable.

Love Chooses You - Published 29 March 2020

He's heard the phrase that you can't choose who you love before, and really, right now he knows it's true. Damien never would have chosen to love Pip of all people.

Rebuild - Published 11 May 2020

“I’m flying Craig!” Tweek cries from the top of the concrete slab. Craig doesn’t answer, only sighs. He sinks down knowing he’s gonna let it happen. He doesn’t want to let it happen but the alcohol has made him slow. Kinda in the same way the drugs have made Tweek fast. They’re out of sync with no way of catching up until sobriety. So Craig just watches, letting it happen. Like he’s watching his own body do nothing. The inner voice tells him to move, to stop it but the body can’t unstick itself from the ground.

Coming Out - Published 20 May 2020

If Tweek is being honest his friends were Craig’s friends, originally. Now they’re his friends too but before Tweek had been a bit of a loner. Not by choice, but for whatever reason kids at school either didn’t like him or just didn’t know he existed. He spent most of his time alone, reading books, studying, playing music or anything one can do alone to ease boredom. For the longest time he’d been the freak and now he actually had friends, like, for real.

Red Racer and Ice Cream - Published 12 June 2020

He could leave, but he knows Tweek will start worrying about him. Tweek is having a good night, he seems pleasantly drunk and is having a great time with Jimmy and Token. Craig doesn't want to wreck what is shaping up to ve a good night for Tweek. It's taken a while to get Tweek to really feel comfortable in social situations like these. He wants Tweek to have the best night he can.

Much Ado About Theatre - Published 15 June 2020

"It's in english stupid, just old english" Tweek reminds Craig.

"Whatever I don't get it. It's like reading gibberish" Craig says dismissively, clearly frustrated.

"Why are you -nghh- taking this class then?" Tweek asks, purely curious. It's not just Shakespeare Craig seems disinterested in. He seems uncomfortable onstage as a whole.

"Because you're taking it" Craig admits sheepishly, a blush appearing on his cheeks.

Sure - Published 19 June 2020

Craig gets his first piercing and Tweek accompanies for moral support. They talk about facing fears and the future.

or Tweek is covered with piercings and tattoos and Craig is a body mod virgin.

Firsts - Published 02 July 2020

Craig likes having a Birthday in the winter. It's kind of a good excuse for only inviting like, four people to his gatherings on the excuse they can't go outside. Craig was never big on the schoolyard politics, even when he was small. The idea that he had to have the biggest party, or the most extravagant and have to decide who or whom not to invite stressed him out. He likes having the excuse that he only had a small house, and that his Birthday was in winter in Colorado, so that he can only invite his best friends and be done with it.

or Craig and Tweek's first birthdays together as boyfriends.

Dopamine, Norepinephrine, Serotonin, Oxytocin and Vasopressin - Published July 11 2020

Tweek sighs boredly as he stirs the potion in his cauldron. It's not that he doesn't like earning a living making potions for people and casting spells but it's so much of the same thing. It's always love potions, that's all he makes these days.

Distracted - Published 26 July 2020

Tweek and Craig needed this break so badly. He feels kind of bad for Craig's mom, who is probably going to have a sleepless night babysitting their son. But holy shit, they needed this.

Stir Crazy - Published 14 August 2020

Craig Tucker: Tucker baby coming 2020! We could not be more excited to announce that Tweek and I are having a baby! There's no one else I'd rather go on this crazy journey with. - with Tweek Tucker.

or Craig is pregnant in quarantine.

Source Decay - Published 16 August 2020

Craig still hasn't taken off his wedding ring. He knows he should, but he just hasn't found it in him yet. He knows Tweek hasn't either, he's seen it in pictures even though now they've been separated longer than they were together.

Baby’s First Skateboard - Published 10 September 2020

Craig and Tweek never really grew out of skateboarding. They do it less often than they did before becoming parents, but they still do their best to make time.

You’re the Boss at Home - Published 18 September 2020

So he has mixed feelings about his last day. He knows he'll miss working, he's always been a working person and he knows he won't like sitting at home waiting to go into labor. But also, he doesn't have to deal with everyone fussing over him being pregnant anymore.

Little Star - Published 03 October 2020

This can't be happening to him, he can't have a baby! What would he do with a baby? He doesn't know. He doesn't even know what he's going to do when he goes into labour. He knows, inevitably he will. That he will go into labour, the baby has to come out some way and it's gonna hurt. He knows all this, but he can't bring himself to ask for help. He knows he's in trouble but he doesn't know how to ask for help.

Baby Love - Published 02 November 2020

Craig tries to swallow down the pain. He can't yell or cry out. Everyone will know then. He has to stay quiet or else everyone will know. He bites down on his lip hard and crouches on the floor near his bed. He has to just breathe, if he breathes through it he can make it. He knows he can.

This Time Around - Published 12 November 2020

Tweek knew he was pregnant with his second child straight away. It was a 180 from his first pregnancy, where he took months to figure it out. When he was pregnant with his first child, his son Teddy, he didn't really have much in the way of symptoms besides being hungry all the time. That was pretty easy to dismiss and write off. They weren't trying for a baby, so Tweek had no reason to assume he was pregnant. He only worked it out because he began showing.

Whatever We Are - Published 22 December 2020

It's hard because Stan isn't quite sure what he is to Kyle. Is it just sex? Is it more? Does Kyle maybe wanna make it more official soon? Stan doesn't know. He knows he loves Kyle and he'd pretty much do whatever Kyle wants. But for now, he's just enjoying the intimacy.

Temptation - Published 24 December 2020

Being summoned is kinda annoying. It's kind of like being asleep, super deeply and then pulled into the bright bustling world with no warning. It's no wonder most demons are angry and violent.

Tweek is an imp, so he's more on the mischievous, poltergeist side of the spectrum. He still scares the shit out of most people who summon him. Usually kids with ouija boards who don't know what they're doing. It's whatever, Tweek usually chases them for a bit, makes them scream and that's enough mischief for one day. Tweek can choose to appear by choice, and leave when he wants to but he rarely does. Humans are mostly annoying, so he stays in his own little world until some idiot summons him.

Traditions - Published 25 December 2020

"I hate Christmas" Craig sighs, looking around at all the lights and decorations. He glares at all the people bustling around. Don't they have homes to go to? He rests a hand on his swollen stomach, he certainly wishes he was home.

Here’s My Multichapters, completed and ongoing:

The Sound of Silence - Completed 25 January 2020

15 Chapters

Craig manages to find himself alone, jobless and a new parent. He struggles to put the pieces of his life back together and build something new for both himself and his daughter.

Don’t Break Me - Completed 26 March 2020

2 Chapters

"What are you -ngrhh- accusing me of?" Tweek growls.

"Literally nothing Tweek, I'm accusing you of your health improving? Isn't that good?" Craig huffs in annoyance. He's sick of his intentions being misinterpreted.

Insight - Completed 10 April 2020

2 Chapters

Craig listens to the incessant ticking of the clock on his wall. He can’t actually see it, it’s night and all the lights are off. But he can hear it, a constant reminder of the passing of time. He knows he should sleep, he really wishes he could but it’s just too hard. Knowing Tweek isn’t here but not knowing where Tweek is. He can’t help but worry even though he has so much more to worry about. His mom would tell him off, tell him he needs to rest but this thing with Tweek has him so messed up.

When We’re Older - Completed 04 July 2020

10 Chapters

When they're older they'll start again. They'll get married, find a house, do it all right. Have children when the time is right and build the loving, nurturing home they both have always wanted.

Stowaway - Completed 14 July 2020

3 Chapters

He's slowly beginning to accept it himself, yes, he's pregnant. He knows it but he's not quite ready to face the consequences yet. He didn't intend to get pregnant, he just got too drunk at a party and had sex with a childhood friend. Consensual but unprotected. He feels stupid now.

So he hides them, the baby, like a little stowaway.

Algorithm - Completed 12 August 2020

5 Chapters

Craig shakes his head. He looks at the homemade bracelet which spells Craig on Tweeks wrist. His heart breaks thinking about how Tweek will cut it off once he knows the truth.

Two for the Price of One - Completed 26 August 2020

4 Chapters

Craig has never been one to succumb to baby fever. He knows a lot of people in his profession do. Both he and his husband, Tweek, professional lives revolve around babies. Newborns too, and while Craig acknowledges that babies may be cute, other people's kids have never really triggered some urge to have his own.

Hungry - Completed 11 September 2020

2 Chapters

Tweek has heard about cryptic pregnancies before. He's seen I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant before, people saying they didn't have any nausea, felt normal, didn't put on weight. This isn't quite that, Tweek gained a small amount of weight. He felt fatigued, but he just put that down to stress. He didn't feel nauseous unless he had a headache, so it was really easy to blame that on the headache. The real only symptom he's had is the hunger. He doesn't think it's far fetched that he didn't realise, surely?

or Tweek doesn't realise he's pregnant because his only real symptom is being hungry all the time :)

Creek Week 2020 - Completed 02 November 2020

7 Chapters

My contribution for this years Creek Week 2020

All seven of these are short snippets of either fics I intend to write, or AU's I have left unfinished. But I thought it might be fun to share small excerpts.

Complicated - Ongoing, Last updated 08 January 2021

18 Chapters Published, 20 Chapters all together.

Craig kind of has an image. It's not that he's pretending to be someone else, but he likes to be perceived as aloof, cold and quiet. He's nice to people who truly know him, but he doesn't like to be perceived as soft from the outside. People already think he's kind of weird, and putting up those walls really helps him to keep unwanted people out. His boyfriend sees his sensitive side, his friends do and his family do. The rest of the world gets a cold shoulder, at least until he gets to know someone and decides to let them in.

Craig and Tweek figure out an unplanned pregnancy, Craig learns families come in all shapes and sizes. Especially LGBTQ ones.

AO3 Statistics:

Word Count: 261512

Hits: 22599

Works Published: 31

Top Five Fics by Hits:

1. Complicated

2. When We’re Older

3. The Sound of Silence

4. Stowaway

5. Hungry

All in all, not a bad output. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read, leave kudos and comment. ❤️

[septicfag]

GETTING INTO PUNK MASTERPOST 

Want to get into the punk subculture, but a bit intimidated by it?? Here's a little list of tips and tricks for getting into the scene!!!  [especially if you don't know any punks in real life, or aren't particularly close friends with any punks online either]

THINK FOR YOURSELF!!!! this is so important, you cannot be punk and NOT think for yourself, before accepting anything you have to think it through for yourself!!!!

DON’T BE RACIST, XENOPHOBIC, SEXIST, HOMOPHOBIC, TRANSPHOBIC, FASCIST. ETC. you cannot be part of a group of radical free thinkers as a bigot. If you are a bigot you are not and will not be welcome in the punk community

INFORM YOURSELF ON CURRENT ISSUES. Work to figure out what you think about current issues because (as stated before) its punk as hell to have your own opinions

LISTEN TO PUNK MUSIC. You don't have to listen to anything you don't vibe with, but trying out different genres of punk and listening to some of the big names will help you understand and share something in common with more “seasoned” punks.

TALK TO OTHER PUNKS. most of us are really nice, especially if we know you're trying to get into the scene! You can always interact/talk to us! most of us know how it can be a little scary to break into the scene and are willing to talk about our experiences!

TAKE YOUR SELF EXPRESSION INTO YOUR OWN HANDS. to whatever extent you can make/modify clothes for yourself. add patches and pins or paint on clothes [use fabric paint or acrylic mixed with fabric base for a cheaper alternative] ITS 100% OKAY TO WEAR YOUR MODIFIED CLOTHES EVEN IF THEY'RE NOT "DONE" YET! FUCK FAST FASHION!!

LOOK AT PUNK FASHION. there have been around 50 years of punk fashion, so find some you dig and base some of your modified clothes off of it (I'm really into 80s punk looks so I normally look like I crawled out of CBGB [famous punk bar in NY] during its peak years). Staples of a punk look are clunky boots or skate shoes (converse or knockoffs), band shirts, and battle jackets! Punk “fashion” is based on DIY and practicality. (it should be noted punk clothing also has an emphasis on being safe for moshing/protests, so normally no HUGE spikes and impractical shoes and super loose clothes)

GO TO SHOWS! ESPECIALLY LOCAL SHOWS!! going to shows in your local area is a good way to get into the scene. if you're underage or live in assfuck nowhere it's completely fine to not travel hours or get kicked out of a venue halfway through the show, so feel free to wait until you have a good chance to go to one. If you're in an area with a local scene, going out to local shows is a great way to meet and support other punks! [suggestion by @juggernaut-is-a-metalhead]

Some other notes

YOU CAN BE ANY RACE OR GENDER OR SEXUALITY AND BE PUNK, PUNK IS NOT JUST FOR WHITE CISHET MEN! PUNK HAS ALWAYS AND WILL ALWAYS BE AN INCLUSIVE SPACE FOR EVERYONE WHO’S SICK AND TIRED OF BEING KICKED AROUND BY ANY/EVERYONE!!!

YOU CAN BE PUNK AND MENTALLY ILL, YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS DOES NOT CONTROL YOU AND WHAT YOU WANT AND WHAT YOU BELIEVE EVEN IF SOMETIMES IT FEELS THAT WAY! It’s also completely fine and valid to not want to go to shows/protests or be confrontational if you have a mental illness or honestly just don’t feel comfortable or safe doing so. 

YOU DON’T HAVE TO HAVE PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS TO BE PUNK! If you’re underage or just don’t want to or don’t have the money, it’s okay to not have body mods and it doesn’t make you any less punk. 

we really don’t like bootlickers (basically people kowtowing to authority and authority figures)

we're anti-authority 

a lot of us are atheists or at least have a distaste for formalized institutionalized religion

we kind of mind our own fucking business as long as the business isn't hurting us or others

there're a lot of anarchists in punk but you don't have to be one, there are also a lot of social democrats

we DO NOT hurt or harass people who don't deserve it (ie. kids, people who have nothing to do with whatever we're fighting against)

there're not really hard and fast rules that’s a big thing with punk, only you have power over yourself (”no authority but yourself” is a popular quote coined by anarcho-punk band, Crass)

Quick and basic punk genre breakdown

proto-punk- the punk before punk, this genre is comprised of 60s and 70s bands with a less refined sound than mainstream bands at the time, however, they normally didn’t have much in common. Bands like The Velvet Underground fall into this genre.

70's - punk begins to emerge as a genre people argue about who was actually the first punk band a popular choice is Ramones

80's- LOTS of punk potential here, 69.69% of "classic punk" bands are 80's punk

90's- ska started to emerge and punk was seen as skater music a lot of "classic punk" was also 90's 

ska punk- based more on reggae, seen as skater music, normally has fun trumpets!

riot grrrl- feminist punk (just being an all female punk band doesn't make you a riot grrrl band, there’s a sound to it as well)

folk punk- punk but with different instruments and less 3 chord riffs

post-punk- punk but more modern, normally is a bit softer than "classic punk"

hardcore punk- punk with screaming, kind of sounds like black metal, but with anarchy

pop punk- punk but it sounds more pop-y (hotly debated what is and isn't, its kind of a dumpster fire)

garage punk- punk but EVEN less polished [this is my favorite genre]

THERE ARE MORE GENRES THAN THIS, THIS IS JUST A VERY FAST OVER-VIEW. Punk has about 1000000 different sub-genres so only the most popular and well known are included here! 

(note about early punk: 70s and 80s punk sometimes included slurs in music or wearing hate symbols such as swastikas, this was because at the time a lot of punk forerunners subscribed to the idea that wearing/saying things employed by bigots would take power away from them, this idea was largely abandoned by the punk community as they made their way into the 90s. Now in the 20s punks wear lots of anti-hate symbols either coined by the punk community or lifted from other sources) 

(2nd note, concerning inflammatory or ironic statements: a big part of punk culture and lyrics is using purposely inflammatory or heavily ironic statements, one way to figure out if the sentiment in a song is actually meant to be harmful or angry and not ironic is to look up the lyrics/band. As a rule of thumb if they’re an actual punk band that’s listened to by actual punks, it’s irony 99.8% of the time)     

Some bands (almost) every punk has at least heard of:

Bad Brains, Bad Religion, Black Flag, Blink 182, Choking Victim, The Clash, Dead Kennedys, Descendents, Green Day, Leftover Crack, Minor Threat, Misfits, NOFX, The Offspring, Operation Ivy, Pennywise, Ramones, Rancid, Sex Pistols, Social Distortion

[lifted off r/punk on reddit]

Some ending tips:

don’t feel embarrassed to look up lyrics or the sub-genre of a punk song/band, it's a way of learning! also don’t feel embarrassed to look into punk history, it shows you’re genuinely interested in the message and culture!

listen to punk compilation albums! they have some amount of fame in the scene in and of themselves (such as GIVE 'EM THE BOOT [VOLUMES 1-5], PUNK ROCK HALLOWEEN [VOLUMES 1-2], and BARRICADES AND BROKEN DREAMS)

check out entire record labels! you can find a lot of cool bands that don't get a lot of attention. here's a good masterlist of punk record labels, but if that's too daunting, Fat Wreck Cords, Epitaph Records, and Discord Records are very well known. [suggestion by @juggernaut-is-a-metalhead]

It’s completely fine to not have a lot of money to spend on records or supplies for DIY clothes. Punk has an emphasis that your clothes and shit don’t have to be “pretty” they have to be functional. 

for DIY patches/pins you can put ANYTHING you want on them, song lyrics, rallying cries, dates, sayings, literally anything you want, every punk has some weird shit on their patches. 

don't feel pressured into doing anything you don’t want to do, there is/was a group of punks who are "straight edge" meaning they didn’t drink or do drugs or stuff like that (more common in the 90s/00s)

seriously don’t be afraid to interact with other punks!! we're a bit rough but generally harmless if you don’t suck!!

it’s 100% normal to also have nonpunk interests, don’t feel like you have to give up anything you love to be punk.

You don’t have to listen to any of this to be punk, being punk is doing what you want to do because you want to!! This is just a compiled list of tips for anyone not sure where to start!

PUNKS NOT DEAD

[feel free to correct me if I’ve gotten something wrong! my DMs and asks are always open if you want to hear more of my punk hot takes or want to talk to someone about punk or punk adjacent shit!]

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #332

i’m even more tired than before to try and think up song lyrics, i’m pasting from Word and then fucking off to bed lmao.

What was the last video message you received on your phone? I think it was a clip of Doris (Sara's beardie) eating and just being her perfect self? Was your last birthday cake homemade or store bought? Store-bought. One thing you miss about middle school? Shit, nothing. Middle school was the worst. Do you have any shirts signed by famous people? No. Have you ever entered an art competition? Yes. Would you ever pierce yourself? No. I am very much about having a professional do your body mods/art. Plus, I have tremors in my hands. Do you live in a safe neighbourhood? Supposedly. We haven't lived here nearly long enough to know. What is the last thing you did that shocked someone? /shrug Do you often find yourself questioning your future? Only always. Have you ever been for a ride in the back of a truck? Yeah. Do you like your license photo? I hate my permit picture. Are you into superheroes? Who’s your favorite? Not very, but I like 'em enough. I always say my favorite is Deadpool, but I know he's technically an anti-hero, but whatever. If you don't include him, uhhhh... maybe Spiderman. Have you started watching any new TV shows recently? No. Have you ever been able pet a normally wild animal, like a tiger or dolphin? No. :( At least, not to my recollection. Have you ever eaten snow? Yeah. There's actually a winter treat 'round here that you make with snow and sugar called snow cream. Good stuff. What is the messiest area in your home? Right now, the spare room/my wanna-be "office." What’s your favorite computer game genre? Still horror, like video games. Do you have any exes your parents never liked? No. Have you received financial help from your parents in the past 5 years? I'm completely financially dependent on them still. Are you a fast or a slow eater? I eat like, stupid fast, but without being messy. People *cough*Mom*cough* will absolutely point it out, but I seriously can't help it. Making a conscious effort to eat slow feels way too weird. What was the last thing you purchased from a small local business? I don't know. Is there anyone in your family/household whom you frequently argue with? No. Have you ever used chewing tobacco? Ew, no. Tell me what's on your mind? I've been considering yet again reaching out to some tattoo parlors and asking if they're open to hiring someone to handle the front desk and take care of business besides actually performing piercing and tattooing, given my tremors. My group therapy has kinda been encouraging me to use the possibility for social exposure, and besides, I'm very comfortable in the environment and just general aura of tat parlors. I'm sure I'd have to answer the phone, handle money, and obviously talk to costumers, but I know and accept that. I've been at such a stagnant point with my social anxiety in particular that I have to start pushing back harder, and doing this I feel would be one of the most relaxed, social job positions I can hopefully handle. I don't dare to even try this though until I get vaccinated to protect my immunocompromised mom. Writing this all out has actually been pretty encouraging about this idea... Do you wish you never dated someone you dated? Yeah, Tyler. It was such a "I'm lonely and he was nice in high school, so we'll try it" situation. I got nothing from it. Are you scared of growing old alone? Pretty badly. What are you listening to right now? I'm listening to/semi-watching John Wolfe play the remaster of Resident Evil 2. What breed was the last dog you saw? He was a German shepherd. Would you ever go swimming during a thunderstorm? No. Any time a thunderstorm was brewing and I was in the pool, I'd always get out. What is the next concert you will attend? Mom and I plan to see Ozzy when/if he reschedules his tour after he had to cancel with his Parkinson's diagnosis. What was the name of the last pet of yours that died? Teddy. :/ What's the highest science class you have taken? I don't know, actually. What makes you squeal like a school girl? No shame, seeing Mark and Amy do something cute together actually does this, lmao. What’s your favorite symbol? (i.e. the pentagram, the cross, etc.) Do fictional ones count? Because in that case, the Halo of the Sun from the Silent Hill franchise. I'm getting it tattooed somewhere at some point, I'm thinking the left side of my neck. I'm either gonna fashion it in a way where it looks branded on or carved into me. Have you ever been on anti depressants? For all of my pre-teen, teen, and some of my adult life. Apparently, I've only had one truly educated psychiatrist out of no less than a dozen I'd seen, because he fixed me right up. He taught me that those who suffer from bipolarity should avoid anti-depressants; they ramp up your bipolar symptoms. Instead, mood stabilizers are favorable. And what do you know, after I was prescribed a stabilizer and a catalyst for that medication, my depression decreased dramatically and became handleable. Have you ever starved yourself? Kinda. What’s the stupidest name you’ve ever given a pet? I had a guinea pig named Harry Potter. For no particular reason lmao. I'm not even a Harry Potter fan. Do you have nice legs? God no. Do you like fedoras? Okay so I know I am in the strong minority, but I actually do, haha. What is your favorite food group? Carbs. @_@ Have you ever got told that you should be a model? No, but one of the most flattering indirect compliments I've ever gotten was being mistaken for one. Jason's phone wallpaper was one of my favorite pictures of myself with my first snake, and someone asked him if I was a model. ;v;' What song is in a language you don’t speak, but you love it anyway? "Donaukinder" by Rammstein is one of my faves. Who’s a villain you sympathize with and why? SOBS Darkiplier bc his origins are so damn tragic and unfair. What book do you think should be directed as a film? Was The Giver ever made into one? I don't remember that book well, but I do recall it being absolutely beautiful. Have you ever found a stranger’s note somewhere? If so, what did it say? No. Have you ever edited Wikipedia? No. Have you ever edited any other wiki? Yeah. I have thousands on the Silent Hill wiki, where I'm one of the admins. I'm also a content moderator at the Team Ico (Shadow of the Colossus devs) one. Every now and again I used to go on the meerkats wiki as well, where I mainly fixed the fucking nightmarish grammar. Very briefly, I edited at the Dragons of Atlantis wiki as well. Do you get scared when you know some virus or sickness is being passed? Not very, but of course I still acknowledge the risk and am more conscious of hand washing and stuff. What popular social media platforms AREN’T you on? Snapchat, I don't actually use my Twitter, I don't have a personal Instagram... There may be more, idk. Is TikTok a "social media platform?" Because I don't have that, either. What was the name of the first porcelien doll you got? Never had one, given I was afraid of dolls as a kid. What’s your favorite Paramore song? "Decode." Would you be happy with a life without romance? To be entirely honest, I'd feel like I was missing something. Was your childhood happy? Mostly. What fundamentally matters do you? Love, kindness, peace, all that gooey stuff. Is true world peace ever possible? As much as I hate to admit it, I don't think so. The human population is far too big to come to a unanimous agreement on anything. Do you hold yourself to higher standards than you hold others? Yeah. Would you ever own a pet black widow spider? No. I'm getting more into the idea of owning invertebrates (I jabber enough about wanting tarantulas, and there are others, like mantises, I'm interested in as pets), but black widows, I'm not into the idea of having. Too venomous for me to be comfortable risking. If you have a job, what is the longest shift that you've worked? N/A Do you know all of the words to "Bohemian Rhapsody?" FUCK YES I DO. ^ Do you sing it with all of the different voices? sho nuff Do you own more than one copy of a certain book? No. Do you like interpreting poetry or just reading it for fun? Both. I love symbolism, so I get joy out of digging for subtle meanings in poems. Do you have a favorite Dr. Suess book? Yeah, it was always Green Eggs and Ham. Do you watch The Walking Dead? If so, favorite character? Not the show, but I've watched let's plays of the games, haha. In which case Clementine is inarguably one of the best female characters in a video game universe. Who has/had the most mature romantic relationship you’ve seen with your own eyes? Uhhh. I mean I never saw them much, but probably my late grandmother and her last husband. He was fucking incredible to her, and Grammy adored him as well. They helped each other so much and just obviously had the purest love between them. When was the last time you got something for free (legally)? What was it & have you enjoyed it so far? Lmao do balls in Pokemon GO count? Their occasional free boxes are the reason I can play the game because PokeStops are essentially non-existent here, so yes. What is the one fruit you can’t stand to eat? How about vegetable? The first one that came to me were oranges. I enjoy orange juice, but I just caaaaannot with the white veiny shit that you can't totally get off when peeling it. Without that, I might actually enjoy them, but idk. As for vegetable, asparagus is absolutely abhorrent. When’s the last time you actually recited the pledge? If you aren’t American, do/did you have anything similar in your country that you do during a time at school? Probably not since high school. Last person you shared food with? Ummm I have no idea. It's really just Mom and me here and we eat our own stuff. What was the last song you heard for the first time and enjoyed? I believe it waaas... "Down In The Park" by Marilyn Manson, maybe. If your life was a TV show, what would be the theme song? My inner high school emo just screamed "All Signs Point to Lauderdale" by AD2R. Who are some of your favorite female fictional characters, and why? Gahdamn, there's a lot. I don't feel like going through a mental list in my head and then describing why. A character (in anything) you wish hadn’t been killed off? Vol'jin; I think the entire WoW fanbase will forever be pissed about it. It was THE most "lul we dunno what 2 do w/ him anymore, let's let a totally random, unnamed, unimportant demon kill him" like what the fuck, Blizz. Most of his "oomph" was in the book, and I just really wish they'd done so much more with him in the game. Has anything “cute” happened in the past week? Off the top of me noggin, no. When did you last say “I love you”? Did you mean it? Yesterday to Sara. OF course I did. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times? Hi, PTSD, how are ya. Have you ever slept all day? Essentially. When I was on a larger dose of my anxiety med, I physically couldn't stay up for barely even five minutes, and when I'd lie back down, boom, I was OUT. I stayed on that dosage for I think just that one day, it was so bad. Can you have kids? Well, I have a functioning menstrual cycle, so I would assume so. Doesn't mean I will, though. What colors of mascara have you worn on your lashes? Only black. Do you like eating sour things? Hell yeah, I love sour stuff, candy in particular. Do you like pickles? fuuuuck yeah Did you ever have a really close friend move away? Yeah, in elementary school. I feel bad I can't remember her name at the moment... What's the most creative thing you've ever done? I mean, I guess the things I've written in RP. What's the most creative thing someone has done for you? For me? I don't really know. Do you like to watch ghost-hunting shows? Sure, they're some of my favorites. What’s something you’d like to be better at? Social interaction. Have you ever stayed up to talk to someone who was sad? Yeah. Do you think you would make a good parent? No. I know I wouldn't. The only time I ever wanted kids was with Jason, and honestly, I really hope I don't end up with a man because I never want to deal with that urge again and make a mistake. I'm just in no way emotionally fit to be a mother. How many best friends do you have? Just one. What do you cry over the most? My PTSD, honestly. I never sob about it anymore, just shed some tears. What language did/do you take in high school? Latin for one semester, then all four available for German. Which sports do you follow? None. Who was the last person you talked about marriage or having kids with? About marriage, Sara. Kids, the subject was lightly touched upon with Girt, though "with" was never a part of it, but obviously implied seeing as we were dating with long-term in mind. Have you ever been in a house fire? No, thankfully. Have you ever made out for one straight hour? them is rookie numbers Are you any good at remembering phone numbers? No. I literally don't even know my own, nor my mother's. I need to fix that. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? Girt. Do you have a bookshelf? If so, just one or how many? No. If I gave you twenty bucks what would you do with it? Save it to go towards Venus' terrarium. Is there a movie from your childhood that you still watch today? Well of course! I'm unashamed to watch any "kids" movie I enjoy, like Disney ones. Most "kids" movies tend to be better than those intended for adults, it seems... Are you afraid of mice? Oh no, I adore mice and I think had a pair as pets before I got rats. What type of souvenir do you usually purchase when on vacation? I can't really answer this; I haven't gone on nearly enough vacations to develop a theme. I can say confidently though it'd probably be something small. If you could see any musical on Broadway right now, what would it be? I don't enjoy musicals. Have you ever watched Doctor Who? One or two with Sara, yes. I know we at least watched the weeping angels episode. If you read, which book or series did you enjoy most as a child? Warriors by S.E. Hinton. Sometimes I wanna get back into them, but I am YEARS behind and more into Wings of Fire anyway, so. I don't read nearly enough for both. How do you get rid of your hiccups? Literally no trick seems to work for me. I just suffer lmao.

[mauserfrau]

Mau's Very Silly Headcanon Post

Since I have two pieces of fiction going live this weekend and they’re both going to be late due to butting into each other XD.

I did another one here and there’s going to be some overlap, but less bodily function stuff in this one (mostly spit) (also some vague references to medical trauma).

A lot of this is small potatoes because I didn’t want to spoil anything.  How Phaseleech actually works ends up being a plot point in what I have pending, so I actually can’t just come out and say what’s going on.  That said, I’m sure there are people here who want to know what’s on my mind, but who don’t want to sit through 50K words with half a dozen squick warnings.

That said: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Mauser_Frau

Questions welcome, about this, anything else I think about Borderlands, what exactly is in Chapter 13 of Satellite, if it’s true the one flashback actually happened to Mom... 

Both

-Look, the only thing I did that’s appreciably off-canon is let them have emotions.  Maybe I drove into left field with what those emotions were, but that’s really all anybody’s got to do to fix this situation.  Go with the deity of your choice.  

-If I was headed for a Gearbox ending, it would be for the scrapped one, not the one we got.  See this and this other thing.

>>>I would still have written the twins as having something resembling a meaningful relationship regardless of whether that turned out romantic or not.  As things went and are, them as a couple was something I knew how to write and my mom shipped them (no, I’m not kidding).  

-I’m not going for a canon ending.  Mercy, did I find a thread I could snap and take the whole sweater out.  

-Both had blue siren markings when they were born; Troy’s turned red after they were separated.

--Which was a complicated mess-- they were upside-down verses each other and had several secondary adhesions, the most notable of which was Tyreen’s face to Troy’s thigh.

---Leda never 100% recovered from the emotional or physical trauma, but she put on a brave face for the last sevenish years of her life.  

---Troy’s tissue loss was severe and left him with a notable pit in his upper right side.

---Tyreen also has heavy scarring running from her right armpit to her right hip.  It’s not as complex, but it is very visible.  Missing a fair amount of intestine compared to the average human, but this has apparently never bothered her beyond the fact that visiting the toilet when you don’t eat is not fun.

-Semi-identical twins. Have 82.5% of their genes in common.  LSS, neither one is a parasite.  They’re two sperm plus one egg and they didn’t divide right.

--Ms. Phaseleech* didn’t know any better.  #oops  

--If you get them relaxed enough, they will indeed curl up together in their “fish” position.

-Tyreen is the one who would wail first if separated from her brother when they were very small, but they don’t like being apart even as adults.  

-Both very well-read, used to recite The Odyssey to congregants instead of scripture (‘cause they didn’t have any scripture). 

-Good to excellent hunters. Depends what they’re hunting and if they’re together.  Prefer to go barefoot if there’s no one else around.

-The circumstances surrounding Leda’s death are appreciably worse than fanon baseline to the point I don’t think I ought to leave them lying around in a Tumblr post.  

-Both have wavy hair if they don’t iron the daylights out of it.

-Prefer to be on the road and around people, even if a fair amount of those people are going to end up dinner.

-Get weirdly soft-hearted around kids, especially little boys with a similar complexion to their own.

-Do they have any concept that they’re horrible people? Yes, but it’s very academic and not something that motivates them.  You’d be way more likely to hear them frame themselves as hedonists, which also explains their worldview to a certain extent.  

~*~

Troy

-Skinnier than most other Troys.  You could put him in a room with every fandom Troy and sort them by muscle mass, you’d find him at the bottom end, partying like this was an accomplishment.  

-Has an X-linked connective tissue disorder which is more extensive than he lets on.  He really should not do about 90% of the stunts he does because of the vascular involvement.

-Made a categorical decision to treat the associated pain with a lot of cannabis and massage.  Has a distinct resin and honey body butter smell because of this.

--Also, if you get him off-hours, there’s going to be a fair amount of “but why are we here, man?” discussion.

-Has a kink in his upper back.  His spine tilts to his right.  Not super noticeable, but if you were on massage duty, you’d realize something felt out of place.  

-Used to get catastrophic nosebleeds, though these have lessened in frequency and severity over the years.  

-After a certain point, has a permanent latching socket port installed on his right side, allowing him to switch arms out as he likes.

--Because he has a selection of eccentric ones.  What? It’s a challenge to learn to use non-human aspects like claws or feathers or forty joints in a tentacle.  

--Still flounces around without one if nobody of consequence is watching and generally won’t sleep with one in.

-The insides of his ear gauges are messy and don’t even get him started on changing the jewelry on any, erm, other piercings he might have.  (Nipples and one off-center PA.  That was QUITE enough after what it took for his tattoos to cooperate.) 

-Will frame any illness or off-day as a migraine, which he does get.

-Had really bad teeth before his mouth mods.  After that, has none of his natural teeth remaining.  Primarily uses his exceptional bite radius to annoy others, show off, eat sandwiches in a disturbing fashion and do unspeakable things in bed.  They’re for show.  They’re not functional in any serious way.  

-Doesn’t have great control of said mouth mods in the heat of passion or if you get him laughing hard enough.  Hope you like spit!

-Still has rather heinous-looking feet, but he’s concerned about losing his calluses if he has them fixed.  You’d be more likely to see him open on an operating table than barefoot in public.  

-Always wants to be the little spoon.  You’re a tink? You’re a third his size? So what.  He wants to be the little spoon.  Just give in.

-Genuinely likes tea, especially flower-based tea.  Favorite foods include grits, polenta, tamales, campfire beefy rice, beef and broccoli layered onto somebody else’s leftover noodles, beef curry, beef sandwiches soaked in jus, steak tips on day-old fries and look just give him a sloppy plate of starch and dead cow if you need him to shut up.  

-Drinks vodka so cold and over-filtered it tastes like water, then follows it up with extra greasy, burnt-to-hell texas toast while talking about his mother.

-Lactose intolerant.  Please do not feed the rat child pizza. Or chipped beef on toast.  No, not even if he begs.  

~*~

Tyreen

-Abnormally acute senses, especially hearing/smell and including a form of intuition which targets where things she can leech exist nearby.  She’s only aware of any of this in the context of it being different from how Troy’s senses work.  She knows where to get food.  Don’t most people?

-Doesn’t perceive herself as 100% human.  The Leech is part of her and she likes herself.  Mama said she was perfect.  The details are whatever.  You got a problem here? Well, that’s easy to fix… 

-Would have been sorted as a tomboy growing up, but had no companions to do so.  As is, prefers the company of masculine individuals, loves showing people up in a boyish fashion and is absolutely going to tune you out if you start talking to her about the topic.  

-Reeks.  You might smell something “off” with her around in a meeting room, but get her sweaty or worked up and forget it.  It’s not even a human smell.  Petrichor and spray paint, menstrual blood and chlorine, dead leaves and solvent.  It’s chemical, it’s uncannily biological.  It’s really not OK.  She can’t smell it and Troy’s used to it.  

-Doesn’t shave.  Has fluffy armpits that don’t match her dye job and a rather spectacular bush that extends onto her upper thighs.  Does pluck here brows and the witch hairs on her chin, but otherwise, you know what, nah.

-Heavily tattooed, but this is limited to her torso.  The viewing of said tattoos, as well as her scars, is a ritual in her particular CoV.  

--Not that she cares about being naked.  A body is a body.  You people are so uptight.  

-Will reflexively guard her lower stomach before anything else and sometimes in error.  Do not call her on this.  You will piss her off.  

-Has an eye-shaped siren marking, but it’s on her left shoulder blade and she tends to forget it’s there.  More aware of the “pointer mark” underneath her navel.

-Poor tolerance for any drugs.

-Can only ingest salt, sucrose and 80 proof or better clear alcohol without retching.

--Which is to say she doesn’t eat “people food”.  

--Fatty or high-fiber foods tend to make her ill faster.  She could possibly keep tofu or chicken breast down for an hour or more, but it’s still not going to end well.  

--Can and does eat cinder toffee because it’s one of the few things she can chew and digest.  Konpeito is nice too, but sometimes the dye upsets her stomach.  

--Milk, maybe.  Human works better.

-Enjoys swimming or long baths.

-Ambidextrous.  Was either born that way or picked up doing certain things left-handed because that’s what her brother had to work with and she had to show him how to do stuff somehow.

-Good with a forearm-mounted crossbow.  Either hand is fine.

-Used to drool precipitously when she leeched something “good”.  Mostly has a handle on this by the time the CoV gets to be a thing.  Mostly.  

-Deeply immature love language which might include her actually asking to play with her prospective partner and a good bit of bullying.

-SHE IS NOT SHY ABOUT HER NEEDS AND KINKS.  THE HELL WITH YOU.  YOU’RE MAKING SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING.  HOW DARE YOU.  DO YOU WANT TO BE SKAG BAIT ON THE NEXT LIVESCREAM.  UGH. #nottsundereatall

~*~

* The Leech IDed herself as, erm, herself in some stuff I’m not sure I’ll ever post but ANYWAY.

[kinkyacademia]

Could I get a sfw dragon au with Twice and his s/o please? I adore dragon aus aha. Its cool if you won't write for him, but I didn't see him on the list of what you wont write (unless I'm blind) so I thought I'd try! Thanks for considering my request either way! I love this blog btw (even tho I only read the sfw stuff ahaha)

Of course!! I love dragon AU, and Twice is such a babe. This is unedited, so my dearest apologies O_O.HUGE NOTE: Jin does NOT have the “double voice” thing in this, and for a good reason! You’ll see.

-Mod Pasta just got interrupted by their professor.🍜🍝

The cry resounded throughout the town, and it brought you to your feet in an instant. Fear struck the hearts of those around you, but your instincts were deaf to it. He’s back.

-Flashback-

“Why do you have to wear that funny leather mask, Bubaigawara?” You giggled, small, chubby hands pulling at the white cloth. He swatted you away quickly.

“I can’t stay together, (L/N), and I’m scary without it, I promise,” The sea boy told you with a short laugh. You shook your head, rushing forward to give him a big hug. He could never scare you.

-End Flashback-

“Hydra!” Screams filled the air as the downpour from last night turned into a flood. Luckily your bed was above the chilly water, but not for much longer. You strategically jumped around your room to your dresser to pull out a dress and throw it on. It was silky and ivory coloured, but it was the only thing you hadn’t washed since then. It used to drag along the sand and get dirtied up, but now it fit like a glove.

“(L/N), where have you gone?” Your mother’s cries erupted into the air at the same time as a deafening roar that shook your house and caused many wooden trinkets to fall down. You had to ignore her - you were the only one you knew who could quell the beast. You heard a crash, and as soon as you opened your window and began to climb out, something large hit your house. As your own shook violently, you grabbed the edge of your roof and swung yourself up.

You saw that another house had been thrown into your own! Your own room was unaffected, but half the house was demolished. The kitchen your mother worked so hard to keep clean, your older sibling’s room, your parent’s as well…

You forced down tears.

-Flashback-

“I love your hands,” You cooed as the boy whined, insecure about most parts of himself. His six fingered appendages curled slightly, but you wiggled your own to intertwine with his. It wasn’t perfect, but he cherished your soft, smaller ones as his cheeks heated up. His mask was good for one thing, at least, since you were just so flirty with him.

You were only ten or eleven at the time, playing around in the woods near the beach. Thick foliage covered you in a makeshift grotto.

“(F/N), (F/N)!” Your mother dragged your name out. She was far away, but you knew you had heard her calling. You sighed, letting go of him.

“W-Wait, don’t go just yet,” He whispered, and you perked up with wide eyes.

“Why so, Bubaigawa?” He swallowed hard. He needed to make sure you knew this before you left once again, not to be seen for at least another week.

“You need to know the truth,” He gripped the edges of his shirt, not looking at you, “About me, that is. You’ve only seen me like this.”

“Okay,” You nodded, whispering back as to give you more time before your mother could find you. He was always so bouncy, so lively, but now he was collected and nervous. He took a step away from you, nodding to himself.

Without another word, the boy’s skin began to turn turquoise. His nails grew, his size increased about twice as much, and he dropped to the ground. At first, you thought he was becoming ill. Before you could reach down to help him, his neck suddenly grew upwards! A head burst from it, splitting his head open from the back and being followed by more. At least six heads came out, and each of them were mask less and inhuman.

The heads were elongating, becoming narrower and sharper. Your heart pounded as wings also split his back open and pounced out. His previous head formed into that of a dragon, and the others took their own distinct shapes of slightly different dragon heads. The first, the one you knew so well that was on the ground, lifted up to join the others. They all independently studied you, moving around each other, under and over, and blinking with their wide, white eyes.

Finally, yours opened his own, and you could sense the fear in them, “Run if you want to, (F/N),” The voice was still his own, but it was soon joined by the others. They had roughly the same voice, but just in varying tones and expressions.“No, kill her!”“Don’t, she likes us.”“Just wait and see, she’ll r-”“Silence,” The main head quieted them.

“I… You’re a dragon?” You deadpanned, in wonder at the beautiful creature before you. Was it still really him? “Bubaigawara?”

“Yes,” He held remorse in his voice. He knew that he could have spent years without you knowing, but he had fallen in love with you. Adolescence didn’t last long for his species, but for dragons, not long aligned just about with human aging until he reached his prime, “Are you scared of us?”“She’s scared, look at her, she’s frail.”“She isn’t shaking.”

“No,” You took a second to respond. You didn’t believe this man, this dragon, would hurt you, “I’m okay with it, I can’t hate you,” You promised. You promised him, and he would never forget that promise.

-End Flashback-

You used the other house to jump along, the flood being too high for you to run to where you needed to go. As the tide got higher, you saw many people unable to swim. You knew that nothing would change if you didn’t do this.

So you ran, housetop to housetop, jumping, grabbing roof edges and pulling yourself up. The farther you ran, the higher up you got until you reached the top of the flood. You climbed down from the abandoned house, bare feet plopping onto the wet, grassy ground. You sprinted, running to the next house and reading the sign on the front porch to make sure you were going in the right direction. Another roar pierced the skies, and a bolt of lightning illuminated multiple long, slender necks that raised a couple hundred yards into the sky.

Your town was near a beach that was uninhabited. The land itself was raised up, and about a mile away was the real beach. Directly behind the town was how to safely visit the sandy shores, but to the other side was were the land raised into hills that faded into trees. There was a corner to the beach that raised high enough to be a cliff, and that cliff held no vegetation for a couple yards behind it, just rocks. The woods were quite big, but also dangerous if you didn’t know how to traverse them, but the beach behind them was said to hold better fishing and clearer waters.

You could confirm that it did. You used to run away a lot when you were a kid.

-Flashback-

Rumours had spread of a sea beast living in the waters. Apparently it had attacked a boat, killing one man and injuring the rest, leaving them to shovel water out of the boat until they got back to shore.

As a young teenager, you couldn’t help but to be curious.

“Bubaigawara,” You called the lively dragon, and he poked his head out from behind the tree he had just run to. You were trying to play tag, but the fast body of the human boy was just too enhanced by being inhuman.

“Yeah?”

“Did you attack a ship yesterday?” You inquired, running towards him with a smile on your face. Strangely, he didn’t run away, and you ended up tackling him to the ground. He wasn’t laughing, though. You rolled off of him, wiping the leaves and grass off of you as he pulled his legs under him and you turned to watch him skeptically.

“Well, yeah, they sailed into my hunting grounds. I tried to talk it out, but uh… talking dragon, (Y/N),” He chuckled, not looking at you. You had learned to tell by the position of his mask.

“Bubaigawara, they’re going to hunt you,” You chewed on your bottom lip, and he scooted closer to you. You did the same, and soon your noses were nearly touching.

“You should just call me Jin,” He looked down at you, being significantly larger and taller. You yelped as he pulled you onto his lap, hugging you.

“Uh-Jin? Is that your first name?” You squeaked in the bone-crushing hug. He nodded, and when he let go, you scrambled off of him while panting to get your breath back.

“Yup! Bubaigawara is the Hydra family name,” He followed you, and you glared at the feisty teenager. He had gained so much energy and spunk over the last couple years.

“Don’t crush me,” You warned, and he whined while lightly leaning against you, “Aw, come on Bu - Jin, somebody died!”

“They attacked me, and they tried to kill me,” He shook his head, and you sighed. Grabbing his hand and holding all six digits, you tried to convey a bit of seriousness to him.

“Be careful, alright?” You looked directly into the semi-clear part of his cloth that covered his eyes. He nodded quickly.

“Of course, (F/N),” He paused, then perked up, “Let’s have lunch.”

After that, there were a couple search parties sent out to try and find and kill him. A couple wounded him a week later, and that was when you had to say your goodbyes to him. That was five years ago

-End Flashback-

You reached the woods, using the moonlight to walk along nearly-forgotten paths. Pines stuck to your feet, and you knew you had to be bleeding from multiple places as branches whipped your arms and legs, but you dredged on.

This wasn’t the first time the village had flooded, but it was the first time that it was this much. He, the hydra, must have something to do with it.

Minutes passed. Come on, you don’t have much time. Just when you thought that you had made a wrong turn, you passed by a burnt tree stump. You remembered him burning it one day when he was in his dragon form and playing around. One of the heads got angry and felt left out, so it burned the tree down. You fondly remembered coddling it until it calmed down.

He must have more now. They used to grow quickly, a couple each year. You were sprinting now, adrenaline fueling you and making you ignore the pain of the journey.

It might have taken you hours to reach it originally, but as the clearing came up, it had almost been twenty minutes. You finally reached the rocky cliff face, and you looked to your left to see the full picture before you.

It was hard to see in the darkness, but a towering creature the size of half of a small mountain was standing just before the waves hit the beach. With the flooding, it was hard to tell just how tall it was, but he heads were the size of single shop, with more than you could count. When another streak of lightning hit the sky, you saw that only a couple heads were attacking the town now, and most of the buildings were either ruined or gone.

The ones farther inland were rough, but still standing. As you stared, he took another step closer inland, more heads leaning down to attack. You waved your arms, screaming for his attention. Among the chaos down below, the dragon wasn’t paying attention to you.

Any flames the heads produces were quickly put out by the rain, but the damage was already done. Soon, you would have no home to go to. This might be the only way to stop the destruction.

��JIN!” You screamed his name, and a bundle of his heads turned towards you. Instead of fear, relief washed over you, and you felt to your knees in joy, “Jin, over here!”

Suddenly, all the heads turned to you. The humongous creature you used to cuddle in the bushes with stopped its raging, and the heads rose up to join the others. He stomped your way, the water splashing so high that it reached you, but you were already doused. Dark turquoise heads barely had to lower themselves to reach you, and soon you were surrounded by them.

Their voices were eerily familiar, but much deeper and more ominous now.“She dare speak to us?”“Hush, he’s coming.”“Do you not know her? She’s the one we used to know.”“You idiot! She’s the one we used to love.”“Can’t you smell it? She is, she is!”

“(F/N),” A single, slightly larger head poked through the others, and you recognized it at once.

“Jin, you - why are you doing this?” You pushed yourself up, walking to the edge of the cliff to meet him. His eyes were nearly the side of you, and you reached a single hand out to place on his snout.

“They chased me away. Your people chased me away,” Being so close, his voice was nearly deafening, “They separated us, and now they must pay,” His laughter, along with a couple others, filled the air.

“No, Jin, you have to stop,” You shouted, and a growl resonated out of him.

“Stop? I’m nearly finished. Soon your people will leave, and I will claim this land for myself-”

“You could have killed me too!” You tried to pretend to be surprised, but you knew what his answer was.

“I knew you were coming to me,” A twinge of obsession laced his voice, “I’ve been thinking about you for so long, and now you’re here, just like last time. Just like before. Isn’t it wonderful?”“It’s so wonderful.”“No, we want to continue killing!”“Destroy, destroy!”

“Just take me with you,” You had no other choice, “Leave the village, and I’ll go with you, all of you,” You glanced at the heads around you. Each of them studied you, watched you, and many of them bared their sharp teeth with wicked smiles. He wouldn’t hurt you, you knew that. You still knew that.

“We want this land for ourselves, for you,” He lowered his voice at the end, and you shook your head, slowly petting the scales of his snout.

“No, Jin, my people may have hurt you before, but you can be the better person,” You glanced down at the sliver of town you could see, “Enough people have died today. We should go now.”

“Now?” He inquired, his large white eyes narrowing. You nodded, feeling a twinge of fear as the other heads began to get riled up.“No, more!”“She speaks nonsense, kill her!”“Do not kill her, take her and destroy the rest!”“This is our land!”

“We could have an island, or… or a cave, even, Jin. Maybe a mountain in the sea,” You rested your head against his lips that were big enough for you to do so.

“Will you be lonely, (F/N)?”

“Never with you,” You tried to laugh to lighten his spirits. The heads quieted when you did, seeming to like the sound.

“Then let’s go!” He suddenly leaned forward, and you looked around for somewhere to grab onto. Quickly spotting some glands, you pulled yourself on top of his head, holding on for dear life.

-

You hoped that your town was alright after that, but you knew that those stubborn people would rebuild just like any day. As it turned out, Jin had a large mountain in the ocean that he lived in. It had a small collection of gold, diamonds, jewels, and other things. Dragons hoarded things, and you remembered him bringing you stuff like fruit before he could… steal it.

Once you were back on the ground, you sat down and watched as the other heads spoke to one another, some watching you and the others inquiring about you to Jin.

Soon enough, he shushed the rest of them, coming down to you, “We’re back together, (F/N).”

“How could I ever forget a dragon?” You giggled, and he hummed and nodded. Then, he began to shrink, the heads shouting in feeble protest as they combined and combined once again. You walked closer as he became the size of a tree, then the size of an eight foot tall man. He had choppy, blond hair, and the same piercing white eyes as before. You glanced away quickly, knowing he would be naked.

He hummed to himself as he walked to his pile and moved a couple helmets and trinkets aside to grab a poncho. His head kept splitting on one side or the other, another head trying to pop out. It had a built in mask that halted them, and after pulling it on, he also grabbed some loose cotton pants.

“Do they like me?” You looked back at him, and he paused before nodding.

“Yeah, they do. Some of them don’t know you, but none of them dislike you,” You tentatively reached out to touch his arm, and he grabbed your wrist, causing you to squeak. He instantly let go.

“Oh, sorry, that wasn’t me,” He shook his head, “They’ve gotten worse since I left you.”

“I’m here now, Jin,” You placed your hand on his arm, and then rubbed it with your thumb. He sighed calmly.

“You must be exhausted, I have uh… a bed in the back,” He glanced behind you, then began to walk. You followed, and he shook his head once more.

“Do you like berries? There’s a lot of them here, but that’s about I have. I also fish, and there’s another town a day’s journey east,” He began to chat, and you fell back into your old rhythm of interjecting sometimes. Now, though, a lot of his topics were casually villainous in a sense, “And I burned part of the town down because of it.”

You didn’t say anything to that. He had changed, he had grown resentful of humans, but somehow you still were his world. He wrapped you in a blanket, blowing out the torches around the large back room, and left the room to let you sleep. You didn’t catch a wink.

[hxgure]

15 questions, 15 mutuals.

⭑ Are you named after anyone? nah, my parents were never really ones to put much thought into names. hell, more than half the time both my parents spelled all our names wrong at some point lol one of the pretty bad mishaps to my name was how my old man tattooed my name on his forearm but... it was spelled wrong. while i know that ‘vanessa’ has different variations to spelling the name, i just have the standard spelling of vanessa. oh and my pops also mispelled my brother’s name that’s tattooed on his leg. he spelled it “christofer’ instead of christopher. my parents are a bunch of goofs, love ‘em to pieces tho haha B)

⭑ When was the last time you cried? i’m a big emotional baby. i was rewatching marineford arc (one piece) and we all know that one scene with ace and luffy. B( i just wanted to see what episode my friend was on cause he’s on a wild ride to watch and finish one piece. i think he started almost a month ago and now he has like 300ish episodes left to catch up with B)

⭑ Do you have kids? nah, i’ve played it safe as hell. i think most of my pals are parents to at least two or three kids. honestly, been having baby fever since i was 16. i’ve raised all my siblings and babysitted and always wanted my own kid and such. while i know babysitting is very different from taking care of someone you created, i still would love having kids. just needa find my ideal s/o B)

⭑ Do you use sarcasm a lot? i’m extremely sarcastic. it kinda pisses off my mom actually haha. which makes it way more fun for me. honestly, i’m mostly a complete sweetheart to peeps i’m barely getting to know but once we are at hecking around level, i’m a big old ,meanie (a friendly meanie). i like to talk a lot of shit, all in good fun of course B)

⭑ What’s the first thing you notice about people? i don’t like meeting peoples eyes, even after getting to know them. like i know it’s rude to not have eye contact but it gets me feeling sorta anxious so i’m usually looking around like a spaz and meeting their eyes here and there to let them know i’m actually paying attention. but the first thing i guess i notice is their lips? idk i usually focus there when i talk to people but i try not to make it obvious, it’s all really to avoid eye contact as much as i can haha

⭑ What’s your eye color? cacita brown as that one cholo said in blood in, blood out lmao i used to love that movie as a child and watching it as an adult, i just laughed and wondered why i was so blown away by it. american me is way better.

⭑ Scary movie or happy ending? in regards to movies? always scary movies. while i dig sappy shit in reality, i don’t want it in my movies. i wanna be spooked and it helps even more that i’m a big scaredy-cat B) like even super shitty scary movies will get me to be like “what, that shit wasn’t scary?! /lights flicker/ i--i mean... okay, stop playing :side eyes:”

⭑ Any special talents? uhmmm not that i can think of? i’ve had this uncanny sense of being able to read the thoughts of my friends and family? or randomly bring up something to them and later on by chance it happens? i wouldn’t call that a special talent tho haha

⭑ Where were you born? the windy city B) chiraq warrior at your disposal B)

⭑ What are your hobbies? Playing video games is a big one (yo, apex has been taking over my life and that game gets me hella mad haha so then i switch back to overwatch only to get even more mad), writing, listening to music, organizing, watching movies/shows, doodling

⭑ Do you have any pets? yup, her name is sheeba. she’s a half lab/half chihuahua mix. even tho she’s old, she’s still as playful as a pup. she used to have this habit of stealing my food right from my hands B(

⭑ What tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have? only pierced ears. i actually wanted more piercings and tattooes but i’m afraid of needles. i’m tellin ya, i’m a big baby. i do plan on facing my fear sometime next year and finally get my berserk brand tattoo on the side of my chest.

⭑ How tall are you? 5′5″. can you believe i’ve been that height since i was in 5th/6th grade? i went from being the tallest to just... being stuck that height lol

⭑ Dream job? No dream job anymore. Just anything that has me happy as hell and raking in good bank would be considered a dream job-- oh and with a very good work schedule. As an adult, you appreciate scheduling more than money.

⭑ Favorite subject at school? Art. Always been super huge on it. I miss my AP 2D Design class i took in highschool. Some really good times. 

tagged by: @pseudogaiety she’s so lovely <3 tagging: all of y’all. being more familiar with each other is somethin i look forward to, pals B)

[robobrainmurdermysterytheatre]

Fallout 4 Mod List!

I promised a very nice Anon a mod list! These are all the mods I have!

I’m going to sort these by the Categories Nexus Mod Manager has set up just to make it easier for my brain and hopefully someone else’s. I left out anything that was a compatibility patch (I have several of those). Every mod should be linked back to its page on The Nexus! 

Modders are amazing! They’re out here doing the lord’s work for FREE infinitely and continually improving this game. 

Ammo

Commonwealth Vendors Stock Nuka World Ammo

Animation

Idle Hands - Male Idle Flavor and Dialogue Customization - lets you change your character’s idle animations!

Armour

Armorsmith Extended

Captain America Power Armor

Commonwealth Survivalist Gear

CROSS Pre-War Cybernetics

CROSS Chosen of Atom

CROSS Courser Strigidae

CROSS Mojave Manhunter

Dark Drifter Outfits

Eli’s Armouor Collection Remade

Eli’s Armour Compendium

Graphic T-Shirts with Leg Armor

Leg Armor for CC T-Shirts Fix - don’t use the above mod without this!

Kellogg’s Metal Armor Arm Piece

Mac Pack - this has some different styles of Maccready’s outfit its neat

Piper’s Armored Trench Coat

Audio - Music

Main Theme Remix Replacer - Dubstep Remix (If you want to just listen to it on YouTube because it’s lit, click here)

Bug Fixes

Keep Commonwealth Radiant Quests Within the Commonwealth

Buildings

Spectacle Island Bridge

Cheats and God Items

Get All the Starcores because fuck looking for those things every time

Clothing

Alternate Hancock Outfit Standalone (Colonial Duster Retexture)

Boston Jacket Fatigues

Crimsomrider’s Accessories

CROSS Brotherhood Recon

Danse’s Wearable Holotags

Femshepping’s Wasteland Drifter Outfits

FO4 Piercings

MASH very cool mix n match of vanilla outfits and some cool hats

Minutemen Beret

Nuka Cola Collector Armored - makes armor wearable over the CC Nuka Cola outfits

Minutemen Reskin and Standalone - Minutemen uniforms!

Simple Clothing - MC Cloth

The Wandering Scavver Clothing

TheKite’s Handmaiden

Wasteland Fashion - Bandanas and Blindfolds

Companions

Amazing Follower Tweaks

Danse Dialogue Overhaul to make him stfu about the Brotherhood post blind betrayal also my sole calls him ‘hon’ when talking to him and it’s the cutest thing 10/10

Danse Idle Comments Fix same as the other one! ty for fixing him, modders!

Crafting - Home

Build All the Beds

Children Chairs

Choo Choo Ch’Boogie - trains, planes and BOATS!

CREAtive Clutter

Do it Yourshelf - Clutter for shelves and bookcases

OCDecorator - Static loot - any droppable object can become static

Old World’s Containers and Decoration

Ponds - With Placeable Water

Gameplay Effects and Changes

Crafting Highlight Fix

Sofa Surfer - Sleeping on Couches

Useable Cigarettes

Hair, Face and Body

KS Hairdos

KS Hairdos Vanilla Match Retexture - if you get the one above get this so they don’t look like wigs lmao

LooksMenu Body Tattoos

Lots More Facial Hair

Lots More Male Hairstyles

Makeup for Men

NWM Warrior Crest Hairstyles

Ponytail Hairstyles by Azar

WX Hair Colors

Immersion

Mors Sit Anywhere (and Wait)

Player Head Tracking

Models and Textures

Alternative Human Eyes

Automatron Decals and Prints

Automatron Robot Faction Paint Jobs

Cathymeow’s Fun Eyes (Standalone)

Ghastly - Ghoul Eyes Texture - Hancock Eye Glow

MMP4APA - Minuteman Paint for ALL Power Armors

NPC

Kid in a Fridge - Peabody Family Settlers - so Billly and fam can come live on your settlements!

NPCs Travel - this mod is LIT it adds patrolling NPCs both friendly and hostile - you can customize which ones and how many to your liking, it DOESN’T mess up the random encounter spawns from what I’ve experienced. Very cool.

Overhauls

RSE Elements Vol. 2 - Advanced Needs (Survival Mode Replacer) - word of warning in default mode of this mod you have to push a button to pee/poop and oh my god that was awful but you CAN turn it off lmao. I use it mostly to eat/drink up all the food I hoard and for the need to sleep for immersion. There’s also a slider for damage modifiers you can use to simulate the damage modifier of Suvival Mode or when you get to the point where you one-shot everything if that isn’t fun anymore just turn your damage modifier down. Second word of caution is whoever made this mod has some really, really NSFW other mods that uhhhh have some upsetting elements so don’t go chasing their other mods for ‘immersion’ like I did unless you’re prepared for some stuff that sounds, I’ll be honest, r*pey. Like I hesitated to include this one because I didn’t want anyone to accidentally do what I did, but I thought I would with a big ol’ fuckin warning because it’s really good at what it does, and what this one mod does is benign.

Looks Menu Customization Compendium

Player Homes

Nuka-World Fizztop Grille Workshop

Bobbi’s Place Player Home

Player Settlement

Place Everywhere

Signs of the Times - Posters

Snappy HouseKit

Better Settlers

Gruffydd’s Signs and Posters

User Interface

Mod Configuration Menu

LooksMenu

Visuals and Graphics

CROSS Crit Gore-verhaul - instead of ash piles you get cool vaporized skeletons and some other things which is neat but not for the faint of heart

Weather

Fallout 4 Seasons - is under a diff completely unrelated category in my NMM but it should go here probably

NAC - Natural and Atmospheric Commonwealth - I’m glad this is the last one because I just need to talk about his mod for a second. It’s fucking amazing. The weathers are real. It’s lightweight. You can change SO MUCH visually in the game for personal preference or screenshots - it’s like an Instagram filter for Fallout with extras lol. There are some cool visual effects for chems, radiation, underwater, when you get hit etc. You don’t have to fuck around to customize it - there’s a holotape menu and you just click and change it and if you don’t like it go back and change it. Make your shit beautiful with NAC! That’s my plug for this mod, it’s one of my faves.

[sozotohakai]

15 QUESTIONS, 15 MUTUALS

Tagged by @moon--wake​ (thank you!)

⭑ are you named after anyone ?  

Technically yes, my mom was raised Christian though she grew apart from the religion itself (but not from her belief in God and angels), and when she learned she was getting a daughter (which she had desired but until me didn’t get), she named be Christelle, to be written like this (rather than Kristel for example), and it can be read as Christ+elle (elle being french she). This works perfectly for me too as it shortens to Chris, which is a more gender neutral name, which is rather fun considering mom wouldn’t have known back then I would realize I’m non binary.

Fun fact: my middle name is the same name from an aunt if I recall correctly, one of the few people from my father’s side of the family that mom did like.

⭑ when was the last time you cried ?  

This weekend, there was Doctor Who on TV and there was the episode with Doctor Donna so if you know it you know it’s the ending that made me cry. It didn’t help my mind start going “Yooo super angst Wangxian” and I yelled NOPE. Long story short: the episode deals with how the only way to save someone is to erase all memories of the time spend together (including meeting) and how they can’t come into contact with anything that could lowkey remind of said times. Now I’m not okay thinking of how the theme of having forgotten is heavy in DGM ouch.

⭑ do you have kids ?  

Nope, unless you count characters I created we always joke that with mom, they’re her grandchildren.

⭑ do you use sarcasm a lot ?  

Depends, it can come out of me at random times, its more likely to happen if I’m playing; or if I’m lacking sleep.

⭑ what’s the first thing you notice about people ?  

That is a good question...   It can vary? But mostly I feel like I take right away into the overall appearance, like... either to recognize them, or store them in my mind so I can hope to recognize them later. I don’t really (or not often) stop at a detail, it’s just, get a reading of the general appearance of someone. After that I pay attention to expressions and how they speak (which is funny to say since I have trouble with eye contact half the time).

⭑ what’s your eye color ?  

Brown

⭑ scary movie or happy ending ?

Happy ending, though tbh, I do kind of love scary movie, it’s just that I have troubles actually watching.

⭑ any special talents ?

Uuuuu, I guess, I’ve been told I’m good at emotional empathy? I’ve been able to know when someone felt low just by how they would write. That’s, I believe, the main reason I find my way with words (when I have time to think) because it’s heavily based on my empathy mixed with experience. Like, I feel so much what someone else is feeling, and that’s why I can come with up with words for them and their situation.

⭑ where were you born ?  

France

⭑ what are your hobbies ?  

Writing, reading, playing games, listening to music, watching videos (Markiplier, React, MMD&Vocaloid stuff, AMV&Anime mix videos, sometimes bloopers and funny stuff).

⭑ do you have any pets ?

I don’t, but my brother and his dad have a cat so he’s like my pet. His name is Grisou (gris = grey so it’s totally a cute naming of his fur colour), he’s playful and seems to view any approach as a signal to play (aka paw at you and try to nip), though he’ll get cuddly at times from what I heard. For my part, we’ve got this ritual that I’ll slowly approach my fingers so he sniffs them (unless I see him about to paw/bite so I dont even try), he lets me pet his head a tiny bit, and then I leave him alone. So he doesn’t try to paw or claw or nip at me because he knows I’ve learned to tell if he’s okay with an approach and when I should stop.

(Fun fact: one time he kind of accidentally hurt my leg, despite my pants he dug fangs and claws too deep and I ended up with a few cuts that bled, I was a bit scared that day and for the next few times I saw him, then I kind of hesitantly start to approach him again, and I think he picked up on it and that’s why he’s a bit more patient with me? I’m the only person he doesn’t straight up claw or paw or nip at, and the few times he does, it’s slow, and/or light).

⭑ what tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have ?  

None, sometimes I get the thought of having tattoos, but I’m not sure I’ll ever follow through. But probably if I did, I would got with a small tattoo first just to like, see? I once thought about wolf tattoo, but tbh if I get a tattoo one day, it’ll be a dragon. Oh gosh yeah, a small tattoo of an eastern dragon circling my wrist or maybe higher like close to elbow level, maybe on both side. And after that if I’d have the courage, a western dragon in the back (with feathers wing, I love my dragons with feather wings).

⭑ how tall are you ?  

5 ‘7~ I don’t think I’m that tall, but I’m amused because it seems like I’m taller than most of my friends. My brother is even taller than me, he’s 6′/6′1. Or because I’m squinting at the conversion, I’m ~172 cm (and he’s ~185 cm).

⭑ dream job ?

What I’m doing right now, which is work as an independant/freelance writer. Lemme be shameless for a tiny bit and link to my site too, since. Kind of fit with the question.

What’s funny is that, as a child, when it first start to float around, what will you be later, I loved dinosaurs so I thought, I’ll become a paleontologist. I stayed on this path until college, I could feel in me something off, there was nothing else that I could see myself do, so I stick to it, but in college I truly felt how much I just didn’t see myself become a scientist. And it’s totally all thanks to mom and my bro that I realized, hey, writer can be a job too. Then came the hilarious realization that I’ve always been writing or reading, mostly in/for school, but at the end of middle school I discovered fanfics and I never stopped writing&reading those since then (and later rping was added).

⭑ favorite subject at school?  

I’ve always enjoyed literature (no surprise here) though to be precise, here in France the subject is called “Français” and is a mix of learning grammar&spelling&punctuation, then all kind of things like analyzing books and poems. It was, in fact, a bit rarer to actually write a story ourself, as it was more about learning the french language and what is expressed in books. But in elementary school I did have a teacher that gave us a homework that was literally just “write a story” and I got an almost perfect mark (in my teacher word: the only reason you didnt was for the grammar&etc mistakes”). While in my mom words, years later, “that was the moment I knew you would become a writer”.

I also adored learning English, I think I do love learning languages in general, but the other languages I tried to learn (Latin for one year, Spanish), the teachers were... not helping. The Latin one was, bless her, good but boring (my mom literally almost fell asleep in a teacher-student meeting, face to face); and my first spanish one had no authority and we barely learned anything, so the next one had to try catching up, but it left me (and those who had come from the same class) with very shaky basics and next to no motivation except just have marks above or equal to average. Compared to those, English was made fun to learn, and then it also got associated with my mind with tons of things (fics, subbed animes, being able to talk with friends).

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[xueyaang]

15 QUESTIONS, 15 MUTUALS

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⭑ are you named after anyone ?  

Allegedly, after my Great-Grandfather, named Christian. Paternal or Maternal, I’m not sure. That’s all I know, haha

⭑ when was the last time you cried ?  

fucking hell.... every several episodes of Nirvana in Fire!! That show was such a ride. I need to watch it again. What really got me about it was the theme of stories, people, memories, etc... some coming back from the dead and all from the past long buried; everything being readdressed the way it ought to have been. And the best part that strikes me deep - justice and truth and integrity on all different levels is not ignored or thrown aside by those want change. That’s what really got me inspired and moved by this show. And also? Deep meaningful relationships linked by a past that slowly becomes uncovered through the show? The younger generation being upset at the collective disillusionment and passivity of the governing body and wanting change but powerless to do anything about it? fuck, hit me with all that good shit every time and I will betray every single hidden city for you.

Ah, I love Nirvana in Fire. If anyone watches it, please come yell at me about it.

⭑ do you have kids ?  

2 cats: one longhair boy by the name of Tyelkormo, and one shorthair tabby with white mittens by the name of Nadia. I love them both <3 No human children, and I would like to keep it that way. But if that’s what My Lady wants, then I will oblige her and make every effort to be a suitable parent.

⭑ do you use sarcasm a lot ?  

The amount of spice used and how often is pretty dependent on my mood. I don’t use it over IM or text, usually, because it can be interpreted in unintended ways. Also, if I deem that the personality I’m conversing with will take well to a dry sense of humor, I crank that shit up.

⭑ what’s the first thing you notice about people ?  

Their mood or the way they react when I start talking. Theory is that it’s indicative of some anxiety that I can only assume comes from childhood and some form of parental neglect, but the theory is pending. 

⭑ what’s your eye color ?  

Brown!

⭑ scary movie or happy ending ?

Happy ending. I don’t like to watch scary movies, I don’t enjoy them enough X’D 

⭑ any special talents ?

Same as Chris - empathy, probably, but I don’t hold it with that much value; it came at a cost and it actually makes things quite difficult for me X’D Additionally, and much more lately, a more deeply developed sense of intuition. Otherwise, not many other qualities X’D

⭑ where were you born ?  

United States

⭑ what are your hobbies ?  

Video games, writing rp, discussing stories (characters, plots, archetypes, nuances of relationships no matter platonic, rival, and less interested in romantic) themes!!, characterizations, etc) for just about anything I like, be it video games or books or shows or movies, intellectual discussions about various aspects of geography and recent news (except regional micropolitics, international/strategic politics only-!). I’m trying to get back into reading and cross stitching and learning the basics of embroidery, anything that will  get me away from a screen. I’m also trying to enjoy the habit of physical activity again - it’s a really hard habit to build up.

⭑ do you have any pets ?

Mentioned previously. I got Tyelko (grey longhair pretty boy) the days after a funeral of someone i was quite close with, and I got Nadia after I got super angry learning that she was left behind by a family who moved away and left her outside to fend for herself.... she had 7 kittens in the weeks that followed bringing her home. I miss them all ): 

⭑ what tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have ?  

Lobe piercings. I’d like to get more piercings, but it’s not necessary either personally or culturally (not like my Lady!), and it would be highly impractical to get a piercing unless I took time off work for the healing process (if there isn’t a way to have an invisible post in the piercing?). I want a tattoo quite badly, but I can’t decide what I want or where so it simply hasn’t happened. Some Tolkien heraldy would be hella rad, or tengwar quotes of something motivating (obviously Ñoldorin lol)

⭑ how tall are you ?  

If you round up, I’m 5′6″.

⭑ dream job ?

Hm, what I’m already doing, really. It’s been a goal for a very long time, but now that I’m here I haven’t decided what I want to be when I grow up. Possibly what I’m doing now, still as a federal employee but not with the military. 

⭑ favorite subject at school?  

Non-bio science classes! I adore earth science!! Physical geography, geomorphology and geology? Hnf. Meteorology, physics, dynamics? fuck yeah. Also, languages? That’s my shit.

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My jolly sailor bold

I was talking with mod David and we just drifted in AU territory (this frightening land we keep turning into angst) and we talked about Danae as a merfolk/mermaid and Elvaid a sailor, strictly for the aesthetic of an underwater kiss.

Now, anyone that knows me also knows that I love to write. So... I wrote something. Sad. Blame it on him.

So... enjoy the sad fest of this AU with Elvaid as a mariner and Danae as a mermaid yalls

-A

Under the cut because long af

Also? The song I used as an inspo and added in???

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“Dad… what’s a mermaid?” “A mermaid?” “Yes, a mermaid.” “Well… A mermaid is like… a very pretty sea lady.” “A very pretty sea lady?” “Yes, with a fish tail and gills. They live underwater, in the deepest depths of the ocean. They have the most beautiful singing voice you could imagine.” “Better than Mama’s?” “Even better than hers…A mermaid’s voice is just… magical… Just like their kiss.” “Their kiss?” “Yeah, according to legends, they can make you breath underwater… They say the sailors that kissed mermaids went deep undersea with them and never came back.” “Dad...” “Yes Elvaid?” “Did you ever see one?” “No, but sometimes I could swear I almost did.” “... One day, I’ll see a mermaid and kiss her... ... ... ... One day…”

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Upon one summer’s morning

The sky, darkened by clouds, thundering high above their heads. The waves, immense, gigantic, violently crashing on the deck. The captain, shouting angrily, barking orders to his crewmen as they were running around, attempting to ready the ship for the incoming storm.

I carefully did stray

“Ro’Leah! Pull the fishnet up! Quick!”

And the young sailor pulled and pulled and pulled and pulled the strangely heavy net outside of the water and up on the deck. It seemed to him as if the trawl was fighting back, resisting his pulling up. Was it because of the increasingly violent waves pushing the ship around as if it was nothing more than an empty shell or because of the few fishes they had captured in the few hours since they had put the net in the water?

Down by the Walls of Wapping

As he kept pulling the net up, Elvaid could have sworn he heard a woman scream helplessly in the middle of the hubbub caused by the storm preparations. After what seemed like agonising seconds to his burning arms, pained from all the pulling, he finally hauled the net on the ship for good, emptying it’s content on the deck, fishes flapping helplessly as they started suffocating.

But there was something bigger, heavier.

Flailing around in panic, in the middle of the fish pile, a young fish-tailed woman was giving frightened glances around her, attempting to jump back in the water.

Where I met my sailor gay

“C-CAPT’N! CAPT’N THERE’S-” “THERE’S WHAT, RO’LEAH?!” “A-”

Elvaid couldn’t finish his sentence, her terrified sea green eyes had locked with his, killing every sound he could have make before it even left his throat. In that moment, the sailor knew, he just knew he had fallen in love.

As the entranced young man took a step towards the bewitching creature, one of his crewmates pulled him back as the other’s threw another net on her, trapping her on the deck. She hissed and trashed around, baring her sharp teeth as she tried to defend herself to no avail. One of the mariners kicked her face before she got to sing, effectively knocking her out in a last scream that shook Elvaid to his very core.

As soon as she had collapsed, the captain ordered him to carry her below decks and as he lifted her unconscious form, the Scot felt a tear roll down his cheek.

Conversing with a young lass

“Oi, you need to eat somethin’...” he pushed the dish towards her chained form.

Eyeing him silently, she pushed it back for the umpteenth time since he had first brought it to her. In between her refusals to drink, be bathed or eat, the mermaid was slowly withering away; perhaps it was because the captain had stated he wished to sell her away?

Who seem’d to be in pain

“Com’ on… you’re goin’ to die if ya don’t…”

The mermaid looked away, “doesn’t matter.”

Elvaid’s eyes lit up.

“So you actually can talk!”

The mermaid glared at him, quieting down again.

“... You know, you’re voice is really pre’ty.”

No reply.

“When I was a kid, my dad used to tel’ me sto’ies about mermaids.”

No reply.

Saying, Elvaid, when you go

The girl was eyeing him with some sort of curiosity, her painfully dry tail glistening in the lamp’s light. She tilted her head, observing his every moves.

“He said that mermaid’s voices were the pre’tiest… He didn’t lie.” “You do know I could kill you with it, right?” “If it means I could hear you sing, I wouldn’t min’.” “... You’re weird…” “Actually, Elvaid’s my name,” he grinned, pushing the dish to her again, “but you can call me wei’d all you want.”

I fear you’ll ne’er return again

“... Danae.” She mumbled, finally taking the dish.

His grin widened. “Tis a pleasure.”

And from that moment on, Elvaid was tasked with keeping Danae alive, feeding her, bathing her, keeping her company when no one else would dare to, and for him, and him only, she’d sing each night. And for him and him only, she’d chase his worse nightmares away, granting him a peaceful sleep for the first time in forever.

My heart is pierced by Cupid

“Angelfiiiiiish…” he whined, “how’s it to live und’r wat’r?” “Mmm… boring. Most of it is actually really empty.” She gently stroke his hair as he set his head on her laps. “Will you take me there one day?” “Pff… you wish.” “I do…. b’c’use that’ll mean I get to kiss you.”

I disdain all glittering gold

“We’ll be in port in two days, we’ll finally be able to see the creature. Get her ready.” “...”

There is nothing can console me

“N-No! They’re going to kill me!” She sobbed, curling up on the floor.

Elvaid extended a hand to grip her shoulder but all she did was hiss, pushing herself away from him.

“I-I’m sorry…”

But my jolly sailor bold

Elvaid entered her room in the middle of the night, quickly unchaining her using the key he had stolen. Danae gave him a confused look.

“I’m gettin’ you out.” “They’re going to kill you.” “Don’t care.”

He gently lifted the mermaid from the floor, hauling her up. “Let’s go.”

His hair it hangs in ringlets

The small boat was silent as he rowed them away to a safer place for her to leave.

“Here. We should be far ‘nough.” “...”

Danae didn’t move, looking at him with a mix of worry and sadness. He pushed a strand of her dark hair away.

“Com’ on Angelfish… You gotta go…”

His eyes as green as jade

“They’re going to kill you…” she repeated, tearing up. “I’ll be alrigh’... don’t worry.”

She shifted closer to him, pressing her forehead against him.

My happiness attend him

“No-”

Before she objected more, Elvaid pressed his lips against her, using this as a distraction to push her down in the water.

Wherever he may go

“Tha gaol agam ort.”

From Tower Hill to Blackwall

They found him drifting away the next day.

Beated him up. Chained him up. Locked him in the depths of the ship. Deprived him of light. Of water. Of food.

I’ll wander, weep and moan

Each night, he curled himself on the cell’s floor, crying softly, trying to sing himself to sleep, only to wake up, tortured by nightmares, calling her name. And the following day, they beated him until he fainted, pulled his nails out one by one, whipped him to unconsciousness, broke all of his bones, burnt him, blinded him.

But each time, instead of screaming, he would utter the same song she used to sing him.

All for my jolly sailor

“Ballast him and throw him over. He’s useless.”

Until he sails home

Elvaid didn’t react when his captain gave his final verdict. They grabbed him by his broken arms, owning a wince from him, before dragging him outside on the first deck.

“My heart is pierced by Cupid.”

They tied him up.

“I disdain all glitterin’ gold.”

They filled nets with rocks.

“There is nothin’ can console me.”

They tied the nets to his ankles.

“But my jolly mermaid bold.”

He sank like a rock.

Water filled his lungs, burning its way down, killing him from the inside.

Elvaid could feel life slowly leave his body as he sank deeper and deeper in the cold, darkened waters.

A form approached him.

My heart is pierced by Cupid

Someone untied him.

I disdain all glitterin’ gold

He kept sinking.

There is nothin’ can console me

She pressed her warm lips against his.

Elvaid took a breath of water.

But my jolly sailor bold

[hcrdening]

fifteen questions, fifteen mutuals

are you named after anyone ?  Not technically, My middle name is my aunt’s name, though my mom claims to have just liked the name. 

when was the last time you cried ? Literally the other day when i accidentally stepped on a tac and it went deep into my foot. Oh wait.. no i cried yesterday because of fruits basket. 

do you have kids ?  I do! I have three daughters! One is 8, another 4 and the youngest is 2! 

do you use sarcasm a lot ? On and off i think? I can be pretty sarcastic when I want to be but i don’t think i do it as much as i use to. 

what’s the first thing you notice about people ?  It depends I think? If we are talking people online, it’s often just.. whether or not they are excited for things or what makes them happy. 

what’s your eye color ?  Green

scary movie or happy ending ?  I am a complete baby when it comes to scary things, so I tend to like comedy and action movies.. It doesn’t have to be a happy ending, but I would definitely lean towards it. 

any special talents ? ummmmm idk, I can pretend to be decent at juggling several blogs? 

where were you born _? California USA

what are your hobbies ?  Roleplaying obviously, playing video games, watching various shows, I really like making icons because I’m weird and find it soothing. Obviously i like playing with my kids and hanging out with my husband. Though I don’t do it as much as i use to, i love to read too. 

do you have any pets ?  I technically don’t, but we have three dogs in the house, they are relatively decent dogs. Except my husbands dog who lives to drive me up a wall. 

what tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have ?  I have one shitty heart tattoo on my wrist, that I will one day get covered up. I also have my ears pierced, though I rarely wear earrings. The holes them selves never closed up, yeah i know it’s weird. 

how tall are you ?  5′0″

dream job ?  idk, i don’t really think I have one. I’m relatively content with being a stay at home mom. 

favorite subject at school ?  I’m not in school anymore, but it use to be history. 

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15 questions, 15 mutuals.

⭑ Are you named after anyone? Nah, my gran was just looking through those baby name books with my parents and aggressively went “THAT ONE” and thus my name came to be; good thing too since the other option they had was used for like 3 of my friends and I’m HORRIBLE at knowing if someone’s talking to me already.

⭑ When was the last time you cried? Last week, bitches. I almost cried last night but that’s neither here nor there and was mostly pasta based so it doesn’t count.

⭑ Do you have kids? Bro, I’m eighteen, who has the TIME?

⭑ Do you use sarcasm a lot? I’m a bit too sarcastic to the point where I use it so often people think I’m being serious. Luckily, I don’t come across as an asshole ( hopefully ) since it’s mostly used for jokes.

⭑ What’s the first thing you notice about people? I look down when I talk to people I don’t know well and just focus on what they’re saying so I notice accents/voices the most since I’m not really looking at them.

⭑ What’s your eye color? Blue.

⭑ Scary movie or happy ending?

Scary movie. I’m selective about my horror flicks but I do enjoy most of them; mostly because they don’t really scare me much- films like Final Destination and The Evil Dead usually make me laugh and when I do need a scare, I put on a stalker flick. The horror genre is so vast that there’s always something to watch- from horror comedies, to gore fests to the Disturbing genre ( although I don’t like that one ) I think it’s more branched out than a happy ending. Not to say a happy ending isn’t appealing at times, but I do prefer the other option since at times, it can surprisingly be more realistic  than the whole ‘everyone is happy’ bit.

⭑ Any special talents? Nah. I’m decent at videogames, but not really impressive enough to have it count as a talent, I was one of those ‘Talented Kids’ who became ‘Not Good At Being A Person’ people.

⭑ Where were you born? A hospital. I’d rather not say what one.

⭑ What are your hobbies? Drawing, playing games, writing, making ocs, watching movies and sneaking up on my family members on accident according to them.

⭑ Do you have any pets? No :’) I will hopefully get a gecko one day.

⭑ What tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have? I have my ears pierced but I’m hoping on getting my tongue, hips and collar bones too. I’d also like to get a bunch of tattoos. The issue is: I cANNOT SIT STILL TO SAVE MY LIFE. As a kid I wanted to split my tongue but I deadass can’t do that shit.

⭑ How tall are you? ...I dunno but I’m fucking tiny.

⭑ Dream job? Nothing really comes to mind; I’m fine with anything that pays so I’m not too bothered. I just could never work in somwhere like Starbucks because one stupid comment would have my flying across the table to fight.

⭑ Favorite subject at school?

English, History and Chemistry. I was interested in chemistry mostly because our teacher was fucking wild ‘Here, blow this up and I’ll tell you a story about a guy who got his arm blown off by the same thing’ ‘:O’ ‘And on that story-’

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--- 15 questions

⭑ Are you named after anyone? nah

⭑ When was the last time you cried? uhh th..the other night,

⭑ Do you have kids? no way

⭑ Do you use sarcasm a lot? yea

⭑ What’s the first thing you notice about people? how they talk/interact with others i guess

⭑ What’s your eye color? greenish brown

⭑ Scary movie or happy ending? happy ending

⭑ Any special talents? i can draw i guess

⭑ Where were you born? spokane WA, usa

⭑ What are your hobbies? i like to draw, rp, listen to music, play videogames, watch shows/movies, and waste my time

⭑ Do you have any pets? yes !! i have a cat, her name is missty. we also have two dogs named sam and chewy

⭑ What tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have? none, but i have a couple tattoo ideas that i’d really like to get. i really dig space aesthetics so i wanna get one of those constellation tattoos that connects the freckles on your skin ? maybe i’ll get my zodiac or smth idk. i also want to get a galaxy watercolor tattoo of starry cat pawprints with the text that says ‘walk with the stars’ or maybe ‘may starclan light your path’ because big surprise, i’m a warrior cats nerd. i also wanna get a little tattoo of classic sonic !! and shadow’s symbol !! maybe my late mother’s name...and a couple more constellation tattoos... asdksjh i have way too many ideas. i also might get something pierced one day, i like the idea of ear studs like on your inner ear. maybe an eyebrow piercing too would be cool...

⭑ How tall are you? 5′3 :/

⭑ Dream job? to travel or write stories

⭑ Favorite subject at school? art, english

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