#i wont be doing all prompts cus my brain is lacking recently

[asterroses]

oct 13th - introduce your hawke

lets pretend ive done all the other 12 days okay ? ok ^_^

nikolas "nikky" hawke is my main worldstate hawke . he is a warrior , specifically reaver , and he's a majority diplomatic personality , but was known to be more angry during act 3 . he's trans masc , and he romances fenris . he's 6'6 ft tall , and has a very nice and kind smile . he tries to choose kindness , but it becomes hard for him .

he's forever the eldest daughter archetype ; he helped raise his siblings , taking care of them and helping leandra especially after malcolms death . he struggles a lot with insecurities of never being or feeling good enough , of feeling like he's failed , of feeling like what he does is never Enough for anyone . he deals with rsd and is very stressed most of the time .

hes friend with most of the companions ; his closest two friends , aside from fenris , are merrill and isabela . he and aveline are not friends , nikky very much dislikes her , and his disdain towards her increases after leandra's death , which he places some of the blame onto her . they never see eye to eye , and a lot of the time their conversations are short lived and short fused . his relationship with anders is strained after the chantry explosion , they both struggle to keep in contact with one another . he and sebastian cut contact , as nikky wouldn't kill anders despite his actions and sebastian's pleading . if they met each other again , a fight would definitely occur . fenris and him are romantically entangled . nikolas adores fenris , he loves his personality and his dead pan jokes . he loves him in general . they're a battle couple , one covering the other's back . nikolas has trouble leaving fenris's side , he likes being on his arm . they three years between the act 2 and 3 romance was a bit awkward and strained , both still dancing around their feelings [nikky has an increasingly bad habit of shoving down his feelings] . truthfully i just think their relationship is mostly the exact same as it is in game , its hard for me to accurately describe . fenris did have quite a few things to say when they reunite after here lies in the abyss , while nikky is just shocked that fenris now has an undercut . which nikky quite likes .

the relationship between him and leandra is strained , pulling at the chords of friendly and twisting it into something less . he still loves his mother , but she's put a lot on his shoulders even if she didnt mean to . he mourns her death ; he still feels , years later , that he could have done something to prevent it . he misses carver . he wishes he could have their bickering back even if his memory of carver is slowly fading , and becoming more of wishing instead of memory . bethany and him are still close , even if he accidentally sent her to the circle by not bringing her with him to the deep roads . its not a connection that it once was , theres some grudges still being held , maybe from both of them . he keeps in contact with her frequently , meeting up in person after here lies the abyss . he forever loves his baby sister , she's the only family he has left .

he's more jaded during inquisition and after ; he's not ready to let new people in , he's tired of being titled "champion of kirkwall" , in general , he's just tired . he doesn't get left behind in the fade [alistair does] , and it leaves him reeling . he built himself up to be left behind , due to him feeling like he's damned the world as he released corypheus ; now , afterwards , he doesnt know what to do with himself . he mostly travels with bethany , fenris , and his and fenris's adopted child , sylvan . he's back into being a protector role , especially to the mages [sylvan doesn't have good control over their magic , and it makes nikky worried that he'll lose his child like he lost bethany to the circle once before]

the champion of kirkwall carries many scars , most notable one being a scar through his stomach that the arishok had gifted him during their duel . it still pains him to this day . other notable ones being two holes in his ear , one where a toddler bethany had yanked out his piercing , the other from him being hit by a templar's arrow . the scars across his nose are from a wolf , the one from his jaw from a bar fight with a glass bottle , and he has quite a few more littered all across his body .

he is my little [big] meow meow and i love him so dearly .

31 days of dragon age prompts nikky's tag