#i wish i could be normal

[miscellaneoussmp]

Hey guys, try not to think about how some of Pac's main trauma responses are denial and dissociation. Try not to think about Pac hearing about Tubbo's death from Fit, who is very much in denial. Try not to think about the denial feedback loop they'll create together.

[thegayestdiaz]

okay so i saw someone make a buddie fic library and it ignited something in my brain and now i’m making a notion page with filters of all the fics i’ve read 😭

[mattscoquette]

going out w my friends 😜😜😜 feeling like im gonna have a panic attack

[spock-in-awe]

yaaaaaaalllllll, i'm parasocial as hell because i look at who Ethan follows on IG and guess what... he now follows Merriam Webster. i am having an abnormal reaction to this.

[bunniexmae]

why is it that every time i experience stress my body is like “ah yes i will solve this by losing appetite and becoming nauseous when eating” why is this my body’s way of coping

[fluttershiesworld]

CW for ED/food/weight loss under cut

i’m so fucked trying to lose weight in a healthy way without relapsing is like impossible. i don’t even know what it feels like to have a normal relationship with food or with my body anymore. not to mention that i genuinely cannot really afford food rn like i can’t get groceries this week and we have so little food in the apartment. like it’s not only easy mentally for me to slip back into eating one meal a day it’s like pretty much what i can afford right now especially since i don’t often have the energy to cook the little food we do have. im so exhausted idk what to do at all and i just kind of want to give up not even in a suicidal way just like what even is there to do at this point

[tayloralison]

not my coworker saying this is the happiest they have seen me

[gorillaxyz]

i wish autism didnt make making + having friends so hard

[charliethinks]

i ate. now i feel bad.

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

i didn’t want you to hear that shake in my voice

my pain is my own

[toucansafari]

when i am upset about something that is, in the grand scheme of things,small and sort of insignificant (but highly significant to me) and someone tries to comfort me by saying it’s not a big deal or “be happy it’s only-” i only feel worse because i start to wonder if i am stupid for feeling so strongly about something so small (which doesnt seem small to me but small to everyone else).

it makes me want to smother my strong feelings about things in general because i constantly feel like i am being too much. (which totally might be the case, but i cant help but feel so)

i’d rather have someone get mad at my behalf (or get mad because they also think it’s a big deal) but that’s not what usually happens. i know people are trying to be nice and tell me that it’s only a pebble while it could have been a big rock. but for me the pebble feel as heavy as the universe itself. especially when i see pebbles everywhere.

it’s the same when i get excited about something and no one else does, because then i feel like an idiot for being so hyped about something that’s evidently not a big deal for everyone else. i know i mustn’t worry about these things and do what i want anyway but it’s like being on the wrong side of the boss in an aoe (while everyone else is on the safe zone) and i feel like soon i will be burnt because of it.

i know these are somewhat irrational thoughts but of late i’ve been feeling them more and more.

[movedtodykedvonte]

develops OCs to advance plot in the cold emails au, develops OCs to advance plot in the cold emails au, develops OCs to advance plot in the cold emails au, develops OCs to advance plot in-

[i-dont-actualy-like-oatmeal]

i'm laughing but i'm so serious

[laffichk]

That's really sad that I can't draw something good I don't like my last works I don't like anything I do I feel meaningless all the time eeeh

[villageoracle]

AHH

[roman-noodlezz]

You know, you'd think the worst part about depression is being depressed. For me, it's feeling numb all day and craving something, idk what, to break through the fog.