#i will get better!! i'm glad this blog is getting interactions so i feel pressured to finish drawings

[priestblaster]

does a hunt with no violence feed anyone?

[itsyagurlchip]

HIII!!

i've come to bother you with requests that you totally don't have to do if you don't want to🫶🫶

Could i maybe possibly request a rise!Leo with an easily flustered reader- but the reader gets all snippy and snarky when they're flustered??

Like let's say Leo gives reader a hug (bare with me here) and the reader enjoys it but instead they try to push him off, i guess reader is kinda touch starved in a way lol.

PLEASE DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO DO THIS AND LMK IF YOU WANT MORE REQUESTS I HAVE A TON I COULD GIVE YOU🫶🫶

☀︎⋆.ೃ࿔*:･This Can't Be☀︎⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

ᯓᡣ𐭩 warnings: cussing(!) rizzernardo(!) extra fluff(!)

ᯓᡣ𐭩When I first looked at this I was lowkey confused- but just pieced this together as best as I could! I always want requests! Just send em in and they'll come out when they do :) It doesn't even have to be a request either- it could just be a hi in my ask box. Interactions make me happy! I hope you all enjoy <33

ᯓᡣ𐭩 Who was this swuave boy? And why was he stealing your heart? Oh wait- it's just Leo...

You and Leo were walking down the street, crumbs of your favorite chips being swiped off and dropped onto the concrete. Only for you two to continue walking, being knee deep into the ridiculous words you threw back and forth at each other.

"And then I just- fwoosh!- sliced at 'em like he was nothin!" Leo said, jabbing at the air, making you chuckle a bit.

"Im sure you looked great doing it, pretty boy." You said back, rolling your eyes.

Your black hoodie was not a good choice for this summer, but you could care less. You weren't no punk. At least you weren't looking like the kid next to you.

Leo was wearing this stupid galaxy hoodie with the worst tacky khaki shorts on. Why was this the person you decided to crush on?

"Never better than you though! I'm pretty sure you could knock those uglies down with only one of those glitter bombs!"

You couldn't help but blush at the compliment, swatting at him for making your heart sway in such a way. Your brows furrowed as he took the hit.

"Glad your ugly mug couldn't surpass mines. Every time I see you, you look like a green blur- makes me think of boogers." You could feel your ears warming up aggressively, but you weren't willing to admit that.

Worst part is, he wasn't even flirting. Leo caught onto this quickly.

"No really! With your gorgeous face smirking down on those who try you- now that's hot!"

And somehow, with the sunset shining on his face at just the right angle. His smile looking down at you in amusement as you try to gather your thoughts. It was like time slowed. Were his mask tails flowing or was it just you?

"UUGH YOU FUCKWAD!!" You yelled, jumping at him ready to tear off that dumb mask of his-

"Hey!W- WaiT-"

You guys tumbled against the concrete, giggling and catching hits. You two tussled, trying to see who gets onto the ground first.

Unexpectedly, Leo brushes his lips against your forehead, stunning you for a moment. Next thing you knew, you were flipped over. Back on the concrete, flushed to the nines, and hair spread everywhere.

Leo leans slowly, grabbing your chin.

"Wasa babeh gurl 😏"

"EWWW UR SO CRINGE!!!! GET OFF OF ME!!"

-

BONUS SCENE:

Somewhere deep inside of you, you knew how much the fucking ass CHEEZY ASS action affected you.

And you couldn't help but yearn for more.

BONUS BONUS SCENE:

Mikey walked up to you the next day, with a sniggling face on

"I knew you were a simp- but not that down bad-"

"FUCK YOU!" -

I made this divider btw <333 im so cool 😎 🤡

I tried to make this as fluffy as possible- that last sibling reader broke my heart.

૮₍˶• .•⑅₎ა tags: @kittykittyanon @radicallxser @oleander-nin @towomatos @thealphagirl

૮₍˶• .•⑅₎ა @ziipzeepzop-eez @wheezdostuff @spongejuice @cyb3r-st4r @nuncscioquidsitamor-14

@voidthegod

if you would like to be added, check my blog. if you would like to be added, check my blog. SEE? I SAID IT TWICE!!

[grison-in-space]

My blog would just make you more confused because I have been an advocate for voting, the post in question has a lot of resources about Biden's lack of action and another person explained why voting doesn't work and things like getting involved in volunteering and protesting works better, and I thought of you as a person who seems to know a lot about politics since I follow you. I should have put more effort in like I did with my second ask. Honestly I'm glad I'm anon because the publics eesponses to my ask, while I deserve it, is vitriolic and I imagine they would move to my inbox. while it's not an excuse I have brain damage from an accidentthat I'm trying to recover from and I n't say that calling me names insulting my lack of intelligence is really helpful when I'm very insecure about it and I have to reallyconcentrate to get my language right. I have been having to really work on communication and sometimes obvious problems to my thought process aren't clear to me like they used to be, like voting not being an and or thing. plenty of people have pointed out the flaws in my ask and I see that I'm in the wrong. I'll leave you alone now, sorry again

I'm sorry I misunderstood you, anon, but the point I was actually trying to make is that I don't have the context that you do even so far as a burner identity, and that also means I can't necessarily presume good faith without additional context. I get why you are concerned about harassment and worried about people in your inbox, but the level of pressure you are putting on me for misinterpreting your original ask is not cool.

(For the record, I do not engage in anon harassment, and if I ever find someone who is pulling that shit based on one of my posts, I will block them outright.)

I also have memory problems, and being on anon means that I have no cues or context to any previous interactions with you. I cannot treat you, on anon, like a well meaning friend who sometimes phrases things funny, because I can't tell you apart from someone who is hate-following me and trying to harass me via inbox, potentially by asking questions without good faith. Which, by the way, does happen and specifically does happen to me! I try to delete that shit out of hand rather than responding, but look, sometimes I want to make a broader point.

I am sorry that the post is getting comments from people who, like me, are not reading your initial words as intended. Truly, I am, that sounds like it sucks. But this is an access problem. You are not sure how to communicate the questions you want to ask without setting off alarms that are, in the rest of your life, defused by the knowledge from the people you are speaking with that you are speaking in good faith as someone who knows and respects them. That might not be something you are able to do without help right now, and that sucks!

At the same time, accommodating that would necessitate that I, what, identify you from speech patterns when you're deliberately hiding your identity, or know you when convenient and not-know you when it's not? That's not reasonable, and I think you know that. This goes double for questions about politics that have people reacting emotionally or being gunshy, which seems to be your primary interest in interacting with me. That is very stressful for me and it makes me feel worried and bad, too.

Anon is going off for a little while, I think.

[11o8x4]

Hey

This is like the first time I'm writing an ask on Tumblr or interact in any way with anyone on here. I just wanted to let you know that there is at least one person out there that cares.

Ok, bear with me.

I read your suicide note and found your blog while searching for sh art pics (don't judge, I sh myself and idk sometimes it's kind of comforting). Sorry for referencing the note but I read it and just wanted you to know that there is someone out there.

I know you don't know me and I don't know you. We're just strangers on a weird app. I also know how fucked up your mind can become when you're suicidal (I relate) so I don't want or need my text to make you feel better or cure anything or sth. Idk I think I'm rambling - sorry.

I just wanted you to know that your art helped me feel not so alone. I am really glad that you survived your attempt and I feel for you and for your situation. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better. Living just sucks and I just hope the good (or ok) days will someday outnumber the bad.

Idk if this was weird or not. I just wanted to write you a little something. Sorry for swearing. You don't have to replay/feel obligated to. Please don't feel pressured or stressed out about that. I don't need anything in return. I just wanted to let you know this (even though it's a little all over the place, sorry)

oh this is super sweet anon.. i cried twice while reading this, thank you so so so much.. i was having a bad day when i opened my inbox and im so glad i opened it in the first place.

your message helped me to ground myself and i gained the will to live again.. ive realized that maybe living isnt bad after all. i get to meet a lot of good people both offline and online, and i get to share my art and hear about people's stories.. and so on and so forth. i will be holding your message close to my heart until i die T_T im really really touched

im also proud of you for holding on for this far. please continue to live, anon! i hope youre happy, wherever you are right now <3 i will always be praying for your wellness and happiness.

[nyehilismwriting]

Hey! I wanted to ask for your advice. I was a minor part of the IF community, specifically the COG community, back in 2020. Mostly as a reader, but I dabbled in sharing some of my own writing too. For... reasons we are both well aware of, both in regards to COG, the larger IF community, and the start of COVID I eventually quietly left. Now, three years later, I've been quietly picking up writing IF again as a way to share my story with others. I was wondering if you think, in your opinion, it's worth officially re-joining the IF community on tumblr. On one hand, I feel like things have improved in that the larger community has matured (somewhat). I would like to make more friends, get advice, and maybe even share some more of my art. On the other hand, my project as it stands is... very non-traditional compared to a lot of other IFs (IE: No character customization, no romance, focus on a singular story with emphasis on worldbuilding, etc.). So I don't know if I would even be able to build a community around it even if I did officially rejoin.

I've followed your blog since 2020, including Project Hadea (although I think I originally started following you for your urban fantasy project, although I cannot for the life of me remember if that was you or another author!), and thought I'd come to you for your advice.

I chose to send this ask publicly so that you could choose to answer it privately, if you wished, since it is a longer ask. But I'm okay with you posting it publicly if you would like to! Additionally, no pressure or obligation to respond. Have a nice day!

hi there!! thank you for thinking of me - and welcome back! i'm glad to hear you've been writing again<3 it's such a good feeling, especially when you haven't been able to be creative for a while.

i think i'll start by addressing your game itself. personally, I think this community could do with some new blood in the form of games that are non-traditional; some of the best IFs I've played, ones that have really stuck with and inspired me, have been ones without romance, or cc, or otherwise outside of the typical format that gets popular on tumblr. honestly, i think we could all stand to get a little weirder with it. having said that, there is a very clear type of game that gets popular on tumblr (long-form, narrative-driven, usually with romance, usually with some kind of emphasis on character creation), so if you're a number-go-up kind of person (or someone who is susceptible to that mindset), I would be braced for your audience to remain small, particularly when you're just starting out.

that's not necessarily a bad thing. while I do agree with you that this community has grown and changed shape a lot since the late 2010s, and in a lot of ways for the better, it's definitely not perfect. I can't, in good conscience, say that this is the friendliest or most comfortable community: lots of people are absolutely lovely, and very very kind and enthusiastic; however, and this is absolutely not limited to IF but endemic to any online community, there are ongoing issues with Boundaries, and Respect, and the ways people interact with work and authors they're fans of. certainly, when you share your work you're giving up some control, but it's hard to predict exactly how that's going to go, and how the audience are going to react.

not saying this to put you off, but it's something I think everyone needs to be aware of before deciding to share. it's good to remember that you're not beholden to anyone. this is tumblr dot come, and you're quite free to start a blog, decide it's not for you, and delete; you're free to turn off anon, or asks altogether, or to never post anything save for updates; this is not a corporate space (and while there are considerations if you plan to open a patreon etc, but if we're just talking tumblr) and you are not obligated to do or provide anything you haven't promised.

my other bit of advice - and i think one of the ways to keep any interactions as pleasant as possible - is to be honest, and transparent, and manage expectations. if you make it clear what kind of game you're writing, you're less likely to get people who are disappointed that it's not what they were expecting and taking it out on you. likewise, setting boundaries is important.

i can't really tell you if it's 'worth' rejoining: i've definitely questioned if it's worth it, myself. i've seen some people, ostensibly in the same community as me, doing and saying things i find utterly reprehensible, and i've made some incredibly close friends who i adore and wouldn't give up for the world. and, after all, i am still here and answering asks, so i can't hate it that much. communities are made up of people, and like any group, there's gonna be people you can't stand and people you can. it's about finding your corner, and making it a bearable space for yourself.

i can't tell you if you'll have a positive or negative experience; I can't tell you how to control that. all i can say is that this is an online community, and ultimately you can control when and how interactions occur.

finally - again, i'm glad you're writing again! if you decide not to step back into the IF scene on tumblr, there's plenty of devs who keep purely to itch.io or the cog forums and seem to do fine; sharing your game does not necessarily mean sharing anything else. do what makes you most comfortable <3

[charlie-morningstar666]

(a message for the mod :D)

sorry if i'm bothering you with this ask, mod. it's fine if you don't answer this, so please don't feel pressured to answer this :D. i know that my words can't worth much to anyone on the other side of this screen, but my gosh i'll try to spread the positivity and my appreciation for all RP blogs, so i'll send this in, mod. there could be a better way of doing this, which i have learned is through the art of tagging (yes i'm slowly learning my way through Tumblr because i, myself, am still a huge Tumblr newbie, lol), and i'm too nervous and shy to do something like that haha, so here's a personalized positivity ask in your ask box :D.

i will say that i love how you portray Charlie. it feels uniquely yours with your own tiny spins on her character. interacting have been such a blast and i wish i can interact more but anxiety always gets in the way, lol. it truly spreads a smile on my face whenever you manage to post.

if you manage to get some anon hate, then i do hope that they manage to stop doing that >:(. they are frankly in no position to talk about those things or have any idea what they are talking about because everyone is so cool and nice and welcoming here :D. again, sorry i'm bothering you with this rather man, i didn't expect it to be this long ask.

and that i hope that you have a wonderful day/night/whenever you manage to read this ask. don't feel the need to respond if you don't want to, just wanted to send this positivity ask in :D.

you might be able to tell who this is, but in case you don't, i wouldn't want to expose myself, so i hope you understand this being on anon without anything particularly signifying who i am :D.

luv you and all that you do for this community :D.

you do what you do best so keep on doing it, mod :3.

-spreading positivity anon :D (the anon that only interacts with mods unless the characters are in need to raising their spirit :3)

(yes i see the contradictory notion of me having this sign off, lol, but i'll be around the other RP blogs and try to spread some positivity with the same sign-off as an attempt to fight off the unnecessary hate that seems to be thrown around :D.)

(OH! Thank you so much for this. I’m glad my best Charlie traits gives you much smiling. I haven’t got any hate(yet), but I have seen people being shitty to a few accounts I know so I have to step in and all.

Your comment do not bother me at all and I’m glad someone like you are in this world. I know how it feels to have anxiety in your ways of things, but sometimes you have to take a leap of faith lol. But seriously thank you for this. Once again, you are not bothering me and I accomplished every word in this ask. Thank you once again and I’ll keep on posting whenever I get a new ask or something)

#KINDNESSFORBLOGRPERS

[lavenoon]

HI, Luce! Can I be sappy for a moment? I just wanted to thank you a lot for making the discord server and your AU in general! It was already fun getting into the DA fandom, but getting into the server has been a whole other level of fun! I often wake up and really want to check it immediately in the morning to see what has happened while I was asleep. I almost didn't join at first because I am shy, though I'm glad I decided to do it anyways (training myself to get over social anxiety by interacting more, can't even tell you the amount of times I force myself to hit send XD) because it's always a great time all around! I've met some very nice people through it and even if it hasn't been open that long it really just became a nice kind of familiar very quickly <3 Your AU and all it's variations are so incredibly fun to discuss and provides so much inspiration and blorbo thoughts that accompany me throughout the day! I'm just so very glad we coincided in the same corner of this very vast internet! I'm sending you a giant hug and all the good vibes for your day <3

After trials and tribulations (got distracted) I finally got to this ask!

What makes is funnier is that I had to draft this and go work because obviously I didn't get further. NOW however <3

You may be sappy just know that I keep melting at this ask aaa

And I'm so happy you joined too!! And I'm glad (and proud - because man social anxiety is a bitch) that you're being brave and interact!! I'd miss you if you didn't!!

Now I'm gonna be sappy, be warned

Because, well, yeah! I love the server!! Initially I wasn't too sure about the idea, thought I'm getting ahead of myself, that there isn't actually that kind of interest - but I'm glad I asked friends in dms and also that one post on here and then made it happen, because it's just so so nice!

I'm a very chatty person by nature (when I'm comfortable), and I just. I love that I can just blurt out a thought and then y'all jump on it and make it better, enable me to make more, and make your own!! All while there's not this pressure for it all to be fully fleshed out already. It's more a dialogue, a development, and sparking so so many of the things that do make it on here also!

I'm of course not trying to make the server like, a dlc to tumblr content or anything, I don't mention it on here to tease anyone who isn't in it, I'm just a lot more comfortable chatting on there and I love the server! It feels like a, well, a cozy little cove! Everyone is nice and it's a fun place to show off anything new in life, blorbo related or not, or hanging in vc - I've actually done streams! With me doing art in my mornings there's just not that many people who could join in the first place, but in the server it's a nice little opt in option that allows for chatting on the side! I'm a little self conscious still about my art process but it's just so so neat to have people react immediately to what I'm cooking up? Like with the CS comic yesterday hehehe, telling/ later showing the twist as I'm sketching it? Hearing the reactions out loud? Definitely worth it!

And it's just. A comfortable little corner, doesn't feel too public, and even on the lurkier days it's just really cool to see the chaos and people sniping each other, it's a little community and I love it! I love seeing the little spontaneous doodles and the agentsona thoughts that wouldn't make it on tumblr simply from the way this site is set up, it's just chatting and I love it very very much. It's really really reassuring for me too because of that, it's direct interaction and wanted direct interaction from both sides! Because yeah, social anxiety (and also rejection sensitivity) is a bitch sometimes and tumblr is still a blogging website, not a chat website! (tumblr DMs are my mortal enemy, and not just because of the weird ones I got before)

So tldr; I'm also very very happy that we found ourselves overlapping spaces in the world wide web, because I am so happy to be here with you!

Also, you've been shown as online the entire time, I do hope you slept well despite whatever your phone is doing FHDJS

[le-velo-pour-dru]

♧ :D

Wahoo, let's do this! >:3

You’re my: mutual who likes iDKHOW and posts a lot about Stranger Things, and who I don't know too well but would be happy to get to know better :3

How I met you: I don't really remember! I know it had to do with iDKHOW though. Either you interacted with one of my posts, or I saw a post of yours in the iDKHOW tag, it was one of those two things. Sorry I don't remember which one though ;w;

Why I follow you: Cause you're an iDKHOW fan, and cause you seem like a fun nice person in general ^^

Your blog is: pretty Stranger Things-focused, from what I can tell, and while I can't say I'm familiar with that fandom, I'm glad you enjoy it :D 💖

Your URL is: very silly X3

Your icon is: a purple worm!!!!!!! :DDD Worms on strings are so fun, I actually have a pair of earrings that are purple worms on strings, they're amazing X3 💜

A random fact I know about you: Your icon from when I first found you was Tuxedo Sam :3 💙

General opinion: Overall, I don't know you very well yet, and I can't relate to your main fandom, but all my interactions with you have been great so far and I'd be happy to get to know you better! 😊🩷

A random thought I have: Feel free to send me asks or DMs whenever, if you want :3 Answering this just made me realize how little I know about you, and I'd be happy to change that if you want ^^ No pressure though, of course

[ventismacchiato]

Hey!🥰 I've seen that u may have a lot of pressure w updates from some messages or comments, so I wanted to stop by and tell u that pls take ur time!! I dont rlly interact much cause I'm quite shy, but I rlly love ur work!! specially ur smaus, and honestly, seeing an update from u just makes my day better🥺👉🏻👈🏻

That being said, I felt that u could use some positivity so pls, update only if u feel like doing so!! Even if we miss ur work, we can stand the wait (knowing for sure that all ur updates are great, btw), and if someone doesn't, well, that's their problem🙂 Obviously u got a life aside ur blog, and fck, editing everything must take quite a lot of time😅 Even if u dont have an "excuse" for posting less, this is a hobby so be sure to enjoy it as we do!!

Take care in general, rest properly and take the time u need!! Eventhough there's people who don't get it, I'm sure u have a lot of fans who dont mind to wait for such a great work as yours (me me me, I'm here🙋🏻‍♀️!!)

hihi! and thank you for reading and omg 😭🫶 the pressure does annoy me and when that happens i kinda just log out and write the chapters beforehand and keep them to myself 🤭

OMG IM GLAD MY UPDATES MAKE UR DAY 💓

thank u for understanding ^^

thank u sm :)

[iamthecomet]

it has been a whole day, mind you a whole WEEK, but today takes the cake, boy oh boy. im finally ready to post and interact outside of a basic skim and a few likes on my dash, and i would LOVE to share the day I've had, but for the sake of some of the other people who recreationally visit your blog, and just because of it being a very sensitive topic, I won't.

All is well now though! I'm writing again and I'm back to interacting with the little people in my phone :)

how has your day been comet?

Hey, it's good to see you back again. I'm sorry that you've been having a WEEK and a DAY. If you ever do want to vent to anyone about specifics you can always DM me, but don't feel pressured to--just if you want to get it off your chest I am happy to listen. I'm glad that things are getting better and that you're writing again and talking again. So much love to you <3. My day is weird. Was great. Now shitty (for reasons not related to my own mental health for once). But I've got some smutty ficlets to work on so that's exciting and will make me feel a little bit better.

[flowercrown-bard]

4, 5, 6, 34, 35, 36

Thank you, darling nonny 💜

4 what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

My favourite inside joke is one that we abandoned a while ago sadly: "the GM/[name of a ttrpg character] takes a sip" whenever the two oblivious gays in our campaign have a momentTM

5 what made you start your blog?

I didn't have any other way of communicating with a dear friend of mine other than SMS so tumblr was the better option. I never intended to use tumblr for anything other than messaging her

6 what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

Best: interacting with readers. It's so lovely to get feedback and meet people through comments. It's especially amazing if someone comments/leaves kudos regularly and I start recognise the name

Worst: I very much feel like I'm disappointing readers when it takes me a while to update a fic. Rationally I know I'm the only one putting pressure on myself. Emotionally, I feel like I'm letting people down

34 any pet peeves?

So many but the only one that comes to mind right now (bc I just talked about it) when a version of a fairy tale differs from the one I know. Also Roach being referred to as "he" and Eskel being described as thin

35 do you trust easily?

Good question. See my problem is I'm really bad with faces and even if I do recognise someone I'm really glad at telling if they're my friends or if they just see me as an acquaintance. I think I'm pretty trusting if I'm sure someone's my friend but it takes me a long while to be sure we are friends

36 are you an open book or do you have walls up?

Good question. I feel like lately I've had my walls up far higher than I used to. But then again, people have been saying things to me that make me think that I've been accidentally very open

Ask game

[shoot-of-corruption]

🍓 Compliment me? no reverse uno cards you with affaction even with my stupid slowness of replies -- Ria i was thinking about you again the other day thinking back to last year the timing i checked my old thief blog that day/time was odd for me but i am so glad i did. Because by rarely checking in hopes you return to see you was at least safe brought me hope and happiness. you was there at the first of my very first tumblr muse - Malik to specific that quickly was Bakura too. i keep saying it but the amount of time we did interact was so fun and memorable. I am so so happy you came back i know i suck at keeping in touch. You are truly amazing loving beautiful person and a kind heart. I want you happy - thats all ive wanted for you really. I still think back to us interacting around 2016? and also your return- never doubt for a second i wouldn't do my best to support you. Want to open comissions again? do so i'll boost the heck out of the post, need time away from yugioh? trust me i understand the feeling. you come first. after all these years you was easy to talk too to click with again. You are so strong too for returning from that needed break. i'm here for you always my friend. i want to end this ramble with my final sappy thoughts: I can say without hesitation you have been there for me so please i will be there for you. thank you for being you. i know you are beyound amazing -

You guys are the reason I keep coming back! You are truly the collest, most steady feature of my life and the only reason I am unwell with it is because I feel I don't give back enough.

You guys make my life better! Especially you! You have been such a healthy ficture in my life, even if you might not feel like it yourself, you are a amazing, beautiful person and I truly love spending time with you in whatever fashion!

I don't want to pressure you with anything, but I just want to hug you all the time, because you deserve sweetness and steadiness in your life and when our emotions run rampant, that just happens!!

I want to be around you for you! Because you are a cool person, because you give me back so much, when I can just talk to you! Rosey, when I feel that I can make you happy, my day gets 200 times better! So don't you ever doubt that I am the only one giving back, because you give me back so much and I am so glad to have met you!

.. also my head is brimming with ideas and I hate it, because I have not enough time and strength to draw everything up at the moment, but knowing that you would support me is worth just so much, so just-

Thank you. Really and truly. I couldn't wish for anything better!

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

I miss the dynamic we used to have in fandoms too, it was pretty funny and genuine, now no matter which fandom you're part of, I think the whole thing has become very toxic for so many reasons. Everyone expects you to be perfect, to agree on their opinions, to be active all the time (even when you can't), to make your profile look in a certain way because it needs to look 'aesthetic', and sometimes you're tested to see if you're enough fan of someone, like having admiration and love towards an artist has to be measured and it's some kind of competition.

I had this account I created around 2014/15 on Twitter, I was part of many fandoms and it used to be so fun and relaxing to have a place to talk about the things you like and interact with people who understand this. But years later it started being so uncomfortable to be there because what it used to be about being just a fan turned into make yourself look in a certain way, pretend and act in the coolest way possible so everyone likes you. It actually affected a lot my mental health because I felt I needed to be accepted by everyone all the damn time, and I couldn't say what I wanted anymore I was so scared to be rejected by anyone and I didn't want to stay the incorrect thing, I loved posting about my favorite shows or shipps, but I realized that around 2021 that what I posted was not what I thought at all, it was just what everyone wanted me to say because if you didn't like certain scene from a random show (just to give an example) and you shared that opinion, you were attacked. I didn't even feel safe to give my opinions with some friends I made in these fandoms. I remembered specifically that many of my mutuals were harries and I had to pretend I liked him too because otherwise I would've been the weird girl or something, and it's not that I didn't like Harry, I love many of his songs and I think he's very talented, but I don't consider myself his fan because I didn't create that kind of connection with him. But I felt the pressure to said I was obsessed with him too. It got so bad, i ended up deleting my account because, which I actually regret, because I definitely wanted to leave all that nightmare behind, but I had so many great memories from the previous years that I wish I had thought twice before I deleted it, maybe I should have just logged out.

Sorry I overshared 😭 basically to sum it up I miss the old years so much, it's probably one of the reasons why I love your account <33

And I'm glad I'm not the only way who feels this way.

don’t apologize! i get it completely. times have changed and not for the better. i do hope that eventually things mellow out as far as stan culture goes. i’m happy people can enjoy coming here, just as i do on this blog 💗

[pressagie]

tw: homophobia

hello!! first of all i just wanna say that i love your blog (@/diospirando) so much. i found you through your uquiz (which was really helpful btw). i came here to ask about my love life. here is a little bit about me: my hobbies include learning about marine life and watching films. i am a lesbian and come from a pretty religious family and almost everyone i know is also very religious. i haven’t come out to anyone for obvious reasons except for a few really close friends. i myself am not religious and have left my religion last year, however i feel this overwhelming sense of guilt for leaving even though whenever i try to come back to my religion i just can’t get myself to believe in it again. sometimes i wish i could just go back to believing in it like i did before and try my best to start liking men because i really dont want everyone i know and love to hate me. all of my irl friends are homophobic and i feel a lot of guilt for what i am and after constantly being told my whole life that i will go to hell for simply loving someone i just dont know anymore what to do because i am really so lonely. a lot of my irls are in relationships and i just wanted to ask if there is someone for me as well? like someone who is able to understand me unlike all of the other people in my life and accept me for who i am? and is there a chance of that person being a guy? (i know this sounds bad of me asking since i just said i am a lesbian but i really am just hoping that there is some guy out there that i will like so i can continue to have a good relationship with my family and friends). i am honestly just really sick of being lonely and not being understood, i just want to meet someone who gets me well. i have a preference for tarot but you can decide which works best for my situation. i’d also like to request a book passage and song of your choice. again, thank you and sorry for this question being so long.

hi im so sorry im the person who sent the last anonymous ask (the one that mentions being a lesbian and having a very religious family). i forgot to add something to it and i have no idea how to unsend/edit an ask because im kind of new to tumblr but i just wanted to add something to my question. I'd like to know about future patner and the type of person they are (any information is about), it can be their appearance, personality, achievements, where I'll meet them or even how they're doing currently in life whatever you can channel I'll be happy with anything. thank you :D

Hey 🤎

I'm so sorry you're going through that.

(And thank you for the TW.)

Speaking as a queer person with christian and queerphobic relatives: please remember that you can't choose to like men, or anyone for that matter. Obviously, attraction is fluid – but let me ask you this (and tell me to fuck off, if it's not my place): even if you were to be with a guy, would that solve all the problems which the people in your life have?

I can't tell you what to believe, just as no one should. But if you need to hear this, and it helps in any way: I promise that you're not going to hell for being a lesbian, and you deserve so much better than the judgement and guilt from your family and other people. You deserve to be happy, be it single or otherwise. You deserve understanding, to feel connected – and not only acceptance, but FULL BLOWN RESPECT.

(I'm really glad that you liked the quiz! Guessing you meant this one?)

(Did I understand correctly that you follow me @diospirando? Either way, feel free to come say hello 🥰 I'm very curious to know if we've interacted before, but no pressure!)

(Oh and you can't unsend/edit asks.)

Note: I added some info to my pinned post, and I recommend (to everyone who sent in questions) giving it a read.

Now on to your reading... I did try Tarot first like you asked, but the Oracle's what you get today 🤠

This deck is based on animals at risk of extinction in the Iberian Peninsula (where I live) and others with relevant roles in our mythologies/religions... I included their names, in case they have any personal, special meaning for you – and there are some marine species :]

Spoiler alert: you only got birds 😂 but at least 3/5 (that I checked) are related to the sea!

Is there someone for me as well?

— Who is able to understand me unlike all the other people in my life and accept me for who I am?

ASCENSION & the pigeon Columba palumbus azorica (horizontal)

I take the terms the author of this deck uses with several grains of salt cause I don't buy into the common spiritual associations with, e.g., ascension (but that's a conversation for another time) so here I'm taking the card to mean distancing yourself, traveling... Flying, if you want to be more literal.

This species is endemic to basically one of the Azores islands only – meaning it can't be found anywhere else in the world. If you combine this information, I think it's fair to say that you can find someone (to have a relationship like you want) if you look somewhere you already expect to find them, such as a specific community (that could very well be online)!

Sidenote: it landed on my lap instead of the table, and I usually use that to signal if something/someone has tried to catch your attention, or is still trying – so pay attention.

I'd like to know about my future partner and the type of person they are.

— Their appearance, personality, or even how they're doing currently in life.

RECOGNITION & the falcon Falco naumanni (horizontal) AUTHENTICITY & the gull Ichthyaetus audouinii (upright) + VISION & the eagle Aquila adalberti (inverted) WISDOM & the eagle-owl Bubo bubo (upright)

You may recognize each other from somewhere, but not like you knew each other well before (there is a Reunion card to symbolize that kind of previously established contact/relation in a stronger way). This falcon is a summer migrant so that might point to when you first crossed paths and/or will cross again.

Their personality is authentic, but you'll have a hard time seeing that (at first). This could be related to your own interests and lifestyle, and the concept of individuality (refer to the gull's and the eagle's links for inspiration to think deeper about this).

Either they're being thoughtful regarding how they live, and making wise choices, they're a student/teacher – or both! The Bubo bubo (adorable name) being a species of eagle-owl can indicate some connection to the previous eagle card (individuality, perspective...).

This is getting a little long so I'm gotta let you take it from here 🐚🌊

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (1865) Chapter III: A CAUCUS-RACE AND A LONG TALE

«They were indeed a queer looking party that assembled on the bank – the birds with draggled feathers, the animals with their fur clinging close to them, and all dripping wet, cross, and uncomfortable.»

Movement by Hozier in Spotify Singles (2019)

Thank you for trusting me to read for you. I would love to know what you think: if this resonates with your circumstances, and what comes of it. Don't be afraid to give me honest feedback and suggestions, after all, it'll help me become a better reader :]

Do you want to expand on this or have another topic to explore? Leave me a (follow-up) question!

You can always include the numbered tag associated with your reading(s), and I'll add it to the future posts as well, so they are identified as belonging to the same querent, and easier to find – check below, next to #OMEN DEAL.

For Ko-fi tips (zero pressure)

I honor the spirit who helps with my practice – for winding and guiding my path, learning how to sit with me, and being a light to read by.

Elioth Gruner's Milking Time / Araluen Valley

[russeliarat]

I like you very much! If you suddenly disappeared, I would be distressed and upset and if you stayed away for long, I would be devastated. (I’m being serious. I’m I writer and I don’t use words lightly.)

It sounds like you are believing a lot of lies about yourself: that you exist to hurt people, that no one would miss you if you left, that you have to deal with troubles alone, that the emotions of other people are more important than yours… these are all lies. It sounds like you already recognize that in your head but your heart has yet to be convinced.

I want to tell you that there is hope. As time passes your heart will learn the truths: that you are loved, that you deserve care and comfort, that people do value you and would miss you if you left, that you are not alone, that your life and your existence does NOT hurt people but it enriches their lives. It will take a while for your heart to know these truths: weeks, months, even years, but it will happen. I have hope that it will, I am confident that it will, I KNOW that it will someday come to pass.

I know this because I was there once. I’ve been to that hell too and I’ve made it out alive.

When I was a kid, I grew up in a dysfunctional household with abusive and neglectful guardians that were not my parents. My guardians and my siblings were all neurodivergent but no one knew how because my guardians believed that “there was no such thing” as anxiety or autism or OCD etc. I was so weird that I had no friends. And I used to think that I was unlovable, that no one cared about me, or seek out my company or value what I have to say and that no one would ever remember my name

Eventually, I graduated high school and left that toxic place and traveled far away and made my own way in the world. And as I’ve gone on, I’ve met nicer, better people who DID learn and remember my name, who invited me to hang out, who stayed by me in hard times. And slowly I learned the truths, that it was possible for someone to love or care about me, that my life was worth something, that I have value. It’s taken years, but I have mostly worked my way from believing lies to believing truths.

I’ve come a long way but I’m not all the way there yet. I often interact on anon because I’m afraid people won’t like me as much anymore if they knew what my main blog was. I know that’s not true in my head, but my heart isn’t quite convinced yet. But I know the day will come when I am comfortable enough to reveal myself (or I’ll accidentally forget to hit “anon” in the ask box, haha).

Thank you for sharing a little of what you’re going through. Thanks for letting us know so we could help carry your burden. No one can do life alone. I don’t know about everyone else, but I know that I like you too much to let you try.

And yes, as the other person said, it is truly an honor and a privilege to meet you. I am so glad that I found you. You are an utter delight to know. Even though you’re going through a hard time and things are messy and confusing, know that no matter what you think or feel or believe, no matter what anyone else tells you…

You are worth knowing.

And you are so very loved.

I have more to say, but I am petsitting for someone and have to go feed their cats and their guinea pig. But I’ll be back later. I’ll be here for you everyday for as long as you need even if it is forever.

There is always hope!

~ 🌲

P.S. And look at that! Linked Universe just updated! And it is a happy and hopeful update indeed!

You're such a sweet person, Evergreen, I'm glad you're out of that situation now. It's terrible when you feel that there's no one in your corner, even worse when it's family on top of friends (or lack thereof) who seem to ridicule you. It leaves such a lasting impression, it shapes your entire being, which has always felt so unfair. Never feel like we won't still adore you for being you, but also never feel pressured to reveal yourself - do what feels right for you, love.

Honestly, I just hope it gets better than it has been, I want to return to normal soon. I only have 3 or so months until I'm out of my school and onto something better hopefully.

Sorry, I don't have much to say right now, it's been a lot to fathom all this love and support. I just don't know where to store it in my head right now lol. I read this like literally 12 hours ago and had to sit on it because I had school and then just didn't know what to say lol

(P.S. This was the first thing I woke up to this morning and so I rushed over to the LU blog to see the update. It's made me feel better lol, thanks! It's just everything I need right now.)

((P.P.S. I saw all the hearts and love ask and I think I might just keep it in my inbox for harder times ^^))

[postwarlevi]

Hey! Fairly-new-to-tumblr anon here again, lol. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your response. After I sent the message and saw your posts about taking your time to reply, I felt bad because I didn't want to guilt trip you T.T I'm so sorry for that. Of course I understand, and was not putting any pressure on you for a fast reply in the least hahaha only sending an idea that came to mind. I really like the space you've created here, so getting to read you is more than great for me! =) glad you thought the idea was cute! More than honoured to be added to a WIP list! I didn't realize you had something similar in mind, you just made it 100% better by adding a dog hahahah! And thank you for the tumblr welcoming! I'm really liking it, remembered some old fandoms I loved aside from SNK and revived my fangirling past hahaha. Anyway end of rant, hope to see you soon!! 💫💫

No no no I'm so sorry. Arg, so, as per my rants it's ME that can't figure out how to manage time. I would love to spend more time here with you and everyone interacting and writing stories. Between my work schedule changing and living with others there's always work work, or house work, and some days I have to decide if I'm going to get some sleep or stay up late to do things now that I have alone time. Lately I've been choosing sleep.

However! I got word that my work will be starting to close early for a while starting next month so maybe I can figure things out! I'm sorry if I made you feel bad, I wouldn't ever want to do that. I want people to know I love interacting and feel terrible I don't do it more often!

Honestly IDK why I put so much pressure on myself, no ones ever been mean about me taking time to respond and I'm just doing all this for fun anyway! I need to chill LOL.

Anyway! Your idea is so sweet and original. The dog story just shows that yes, I totally love Levi as a step dad figure of sorts. Your idea, I love that it's post war Levi and a woman that has basically adopted her nephew. That'll turn out fluffy and sweet for sure!

And thank you for the kind words about my blog. I like that it can feel like a welcoming and warm place, that's what I'm hoping for. You're always welcome here and I hope you continue to enjoy the tumblr experience!