#i will get better!! i'm glad this blog is getting interactions so i feel pressured to finish drawings

[priestblaster]

does a hunt with no violence feed anyone?

[itsyagurlchip]

HIII!!

i've come to bother you with requests that you totally don't have to do if you don't want to🫶🫶

Could i maybe possibly request a rise!Leo with an easily flustered reader- but the reader gets all snippy and snarky when they're flustered??

Like let's say Leo gives reader a hug (bare with me here) and the reader enjoys it but instead they try to push him off, i guess reader is kinda touch starved in a way lol.

PLEASE DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO DO THIS AND LMK IF YOU WANT MORE REQUESTS I HAVE A TON I COULD GIVE YOU🫶🫶

☀︎⋆.ೃ࿔*:･This Can't Be☀︎⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

ᯓᡣ𐭩 warnings: cussing(!) rizzernardo(!) extra fluff(!)

ᯓᡣ𐭩When I first looked at this I was lowkey confused- but just pieced this together as best as I could! I always want requests! Just send em in and they'll come out when they do :) It doesn't even have to be a request either- it could just be a hi in my ask box. Interactions make me happy! I hope you all enjoy <33

ᯓᡣ𐭩 Who was this swuave boy? And why was he stealing your heart? Oh wait- it's just Leo...

You and Leo were walking down the street, crumbs of your favorite chips being swiped off and dropped onto the concrete. Only for you two to continue walking, being knee deep into the ridiculous words you threw back and forth at each other.

"And then I just- fwoosh!- sliced at 'em like he was nothin!" Leo said, jabbing at the air, making you chuckle a bit.

"Im sure you looked great doing it, pretty boy." You said back, rolling your eyes.

Your black hoodie was not a good choice for this summer, but you could care less. You weren't no punk. At least you weren't looking like the kid next to you.

Leo was wearing this stupid galaxy hoodie with the worst tacky khaki shorts on. Why was this the person you decided to crush on?

"Never better than you though! I'm pretty sure you could knock those uglies down with only one of those glitter bombs!"

You couldn't help but blush at the compliment, swatting at him for making your heart sway in such a way. Your brows furrowed as he took the hit.

"Glad your ugly mug couldn't surpass mines. Every time I see you, you look like a green blur- makes me think of boogers." You could feel your ears warming up aggressively, but you weren't willing to admit that.

Worst part is, he wasn't even flirting. Leo caught onto this quickly.

"No really! With your gorgeous face smirking down on those who try you- now that's hot!"

And somehow, with the sunset shining on his face at just the right angle. His smile looking down at you in amusement as you try to gather your thoughts. It was like time slowed. Were his mask tails flowing or was it just you?

"UUGH YOU FUCKWAD!!" You yelled, jumping at him ready to tear off that dumb mask of his-

"Hey!W- WaiT-"

You guys tumbled against the concrete, giggling and catching hits. You two tussled, trying to see who gets onto the ground first.

Unexpectedly, Leo brushes his lips against your forehead, stunning you for a moment. Next thing you knew, you were flipped over. Back on the concrete, flushed to the nines, and hair spread everywhere.

Leo leans slowly, grabbing your chin.

"Wasa babeh gurl 😏"

"EWWW UR SO CRINGE!!!! GET OFF OF ME!!"

-

BONUS SCENE:

Somewhere deep inside of you, you knew how much the fucking ass CHEEZY ASS action affected you.

And you couldn't help but yearn for more.

BONUS BONUS SCENE:

Mikey walked up to you the next day, with a sniggling face on

"I knew you were a simp- but not that down bad-"

"FUCK YOU!" -

I made this divider btw <333 im so cool 😎 🤡

I tried to make this as fluffy as possible- that last sibling reader broke my heart.

૮₍˶• .•⑅₎ა tags: @kittykittyanon @radicallxser @oleander-nin @towomatos @thealphagirl

૮₍˶• .•⑅₎ა @ziipzeepzop-eez @wheezdostuff @spongejuice @cyb3r-st4r @nuncscioquidsitamor-14

@voidthegod

if you would like to be added, check my blog. if you would like to be added, check my blog. SEE? I SAID IT TWICE!!

[grison-in-space]

My blog would just make you more confused because I have been an advocate for voting, the post in question has a lot of resources about Biden's lack of action and another person explained why voting doesn't work and things like getting involved in volunteering and protesting works better, and I thought of you as a person who seems to know a lot about politics since I follow you. I should have put more effort in like I did with my second ask. Honestly I'm glad I'm anon because the publics eesponses to my ask, while I deserve it, is vitriolic and I imagine they would move to my inbox. while it's not an excuse I have brain damage from an accidentthat I'm trying to recover from and I n't say that calling me names insulting my lack of intelligence is really helpful when I'm very insecure about it and I have to reallyconcentrate to get my language right. I have been having to really work on communication and sometimes obvious problems to my thought process aren't clear to me like they used to be, like voting not being an and or thing. plenty of people have pointed out the flaws in my ask and I see that I'm in the wrong. I'll leave you alone now, sorry again

I'm sorry I misunderstood you, anon, but the point I was actually trying to make is that I don't have the context that you do even so far as a burner identity, and that also means I can't necessarily presume good faith without additional context. I get why you are concerned about harassment and worried about people in your inbox, but the level of pressure you are putting on me for misinterpreting your original ask is not cool.

(For the record, I do not engage in anon harassment, and if I ever find someone who is pulling that shit based on one of my posts, I will block them outright.)

I also have memory problems, and being on anon means that I have no cues or context to any previous interactions with you. I cannot treat you, on anon, like a well meaning friend who sometimes phrases things funny, because I can't tell you apart from someone who is hate-following me and trying to harass me via inbox, potentially by asking questions without good faith. Which, by the way, does happen and specifically does happen to me! I try to delete that shit out of hand rather than responding, but look, sometimes I want to make a broader point.

I am sorry that the post is getting comments from people who, like me, are not reading your initial words as intended. Truly, I am, that sounds like it sucks. But this is an access problem. You are not sure how to communicate the questions you want to ask without setting off alarms that are, in the rest of your life, defused by the knowledge from the people you are speaking with that you are speaking in good faith as someone who knows and respects them. That might not be something you are able to do without help right now, and that sucks!

At the same time, accommodating that would necessitate that I, what, identify you from speech patterns when you're deliberately hiding your identity, or know you when convenient and not-know you when it's not? That's not reasonable, and I think you know that. This goes double for questions about politics that have people reacting emotionally or being gunshy, which seems to be your primary interest in interacting with me. That is very stressful for me and it makes me feel worried and bad, too.

Anon is going off for a little while, I think.

[11o8x4]

Hey

This is like the first time I'm writing an ask on Tumblr or interact in any way with anyone on here. I just wanted to let you know that there is at least one person out there that cares.

Ok, bear with me.

I read your suicide note and found your blog while searching for sh art pics (don't judge, I sh myself and idk sometimes it's kind of comforting). Sorry for referencing the note but I read it and just wanted you to know that there is someone out there.

I know you don't know me and I don't know you. We're just strangers on a weird app. I also know how fucked up your mind can become when you're suicidal (I relate) so I don't want or need my text to make you feel better or cure anything or sth. Idk I think I'm rambling - sorry.

I just wanted you to know that your art helped me feel not so alone. I am really glad that you survived your attempt and I feel for you and for your situation. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better. Living just sucks and I just hope the good (or ok) days will someday outnumber the bad.

Idk if this was weird or not. I just wanted to write you a little something. Sorry for swearing. You don't have to replay/feel obligated to. Please don't feel pressured or stressed out about that. I don't need anything in return. I just wanted to let you know this (even though it's a little all over the place, sorry)

oh this is super sweet anon.. i cried twice while reading this, thank you so so so much.. i was having a bad day when i opened my inbox and im so glad i opened it in the first place.

your message helped me to ground myself and i gained the will to live again.. ive realized that maybe living isnt bad after all. i get to meet a lot of good people both offline and online, and i get to share my art and hear about people's stories.. and so on and so forth. i will be holding your message close to my heart until i die T_T im really really touched

im also proud of you for holding on for this far. please continue to live, anon! i hope youre happy, wherever you are right now <3 i will always be praying for your wellness and happiness.

[nyehilismwriting]

Hey! I wanted to ask for your advice. I was a minor part of the IF community, specifically the COG community, back in 2020. Mostly as a reader, but I dabbled in sharing some of my own writing too. For... reasons we are both well aware of, both in regards to COG, the larger IF community, and the start of COVID I eventually quietly left. Now, three years later, I've been quietly picking up writing IF again as a way to share my story with others. I was wondering if you think, in your opinion, it's worth officially re-joining the IF community on tumblr. On one hand, I feel like things have improved in that the larger community has matured (somewhat). I would like to make more friends, get advice, and maybe even share some more of my art. On the other hand, my project as it stands is... very non-traditional compared to a lot of other IFs (IE: No character customization, no romance, focus on a singular story with emphasis on worldbuilding, etc.). So I don't know if I would even be able to build a community around it even if I did officially rejoin.

I've followed your blog since 2020, including Project Hadea (although I think I originally started following you for your urban fantasy project, although I cannot for the life of me remember if that was you or another author!), and thought I'd come to you for your advice.

I chose to send this ask publicly so that you could choose to answer it privately, if you wished, since it is a longer ask. But I'm okay with you posting it publicly if you would like to! Additionally, no pressure or obligation to respond. Have a nice day!

hi there!! thank you for thinking of me - and welcome back! i'm glad to hear you've been writing again<3 it's such a good feeling, especially when you haven't been able to be creative for a while.

i think i'll start by addressing your game itself. personally, I think this community could do with some new blood in the form of games that are non-traditional; some of the best IFs I've played, ones that have really stuck with and inspired me, have been ones without romance, or cc, or otherwise outside of the typical format that gets popular on tumblr. honestly, i think we could all stand to get a little weirder with it. having said that, there is a very clear type of game that gets popular on tumblr (long-form, narrative-driven, usually with romance, usually with some kind of emphasis on character creation), so if you're a number-go-up kind of person (or someone who is susceptible to that mindset), I would be braced for your audience to remain small, particularly when you're just starting out.

that's not necessarily a bad thing. while I do agree with you that this community has grown and changed shape a lot since the late 2010s, and in a lot of ways for the better, it's definitely not perfect. I can't, in good conscience, say that this is the friendliest or most comfortable community: lots of people are absolutely lovely, and very very kind and enthusiastic; however, and this is absolutely not limited to IF but endemic to any online community, there are ongoing issues with Boundaries, and Respect, and the ways people interact with work and authors they're fans of. certainly, when you share your work you're giving up some control, but it's hard to predict exactly how that's going to go, and how the audience are going to react.

not saying this to put you off, but it's something I think everyone needs to be aware of before deciding to share. it's good to remember that you're not beholden to anyone. this is tumblr dot come, and you're quite free to start a blog, decide it's not for you, and delete; you're free to turn off anon, or asks altogether, or to never post anything save for updates; this is not a corporate space (and while there are considerations if you plan to open a patreon etc, but if we're just talking tumblr) and you are not obligated to do or provide anything you haven't promised.

my other bit of advice - and i think one of the ways to keep any interactions as pleasant as possible - is to be honest, and transparent, and manage expectations. if you make it clear what kind of game you're writing, you're less likely to get people who are disappointed that it's not what they were expecting and taking it out on you. likewise, setting boundaries is important.

i can't really tell you if it's 'worth' rejoining: i've definitely questioned if it's worth it, myself. i've seen some people, ostensibly in the same community as me, doing and saying things i find utterly reprehensible, and i've made some incredibly close friends who i adore and wouldn't give up for the world. and, after all, i am still here and answering asks, so i can't hate it that much. communities are made up of people, and like any group, there's gonna be people you can't stand and people you can. it's about finding your corner, and making it a bearable space for yourself.

i can't tell you if you'll have a positive or negative experience; I can't tell you how to control that. all i can say is that this is an online community, and ultimately you can control when and how interactions occur.

finally - again, i'm glad you're writing again! if you decide not to step back into the IF scene on tumblr, there's plenty of devs who keep purely to itch.io or the cog forums and seem to do fine; sharing your game does not necessarily mean sharing anything else. do what makes you most comfortable <3

[charlie-morningstar666]

(a message for the mod :D)

sorry if i'm bothering you with this ask, mod. it's fine if you don't answer this, so please don't feel pressured to answer this :D. i know that my words can't worth much to anyone on the other side of this screen, but my gosh i'll try to spread the positivity and my appreciation for all RP blogs, so i'll send this in, mod. there could be a better way of doing this, which i have learned is through the art of tagging (yes i'm slowly learning my way through Tumblr because i, myself, am still a huge Tumblr newbie, lol), and i'm too nervous and shy to do something like that haha, so here's a personalized positivity ask in your ask box :D.

i will say that i love how you portray Charlie. it feels uniquely yours with your own tiny spins on her character. interacting have been such a blast and i wish i can interact more but anxiety always gets in the way, lol. it truly spreads a smile on my face whenever you manage to post.

if you manage to get some anon hate, then i do hope that they manage to stop doing that >:(. they are frankly in no position to talk about those things or have any idea what they are talking about because everyone is so cool and nice and welcoming here :D. again, sorry i'm bothering you with this rather man, i didn't expect it to be this long ask.

and that i hope that you have a wonderful day/night/whenever you manage to read this ask. don't feel the need to respond if you don't want to, just wanted to send this positivity ask in :D.

you might be able to tell who this is, but in case you don't, i wouldn't want to expose myself, so i hope you understand this being on anon without anything particularly signifying who i am :D.

luv you and all that you do for this community :D.

you do what you do best so keep on doing it, mod :3.

-spreading positivity anon :D (the anon that only interacts with mods unless the characters are in need to raising their spirit :3)

(yes i see the contradictory notion of me having this sign off, lol, but i'll be around the other RP blogs and try to spread some positivity with the same sign-off as an attempt to fight off the unnecessary hate that seems to be thrown around :D.)

(OH! Thank you so much for this. I’m glad my best Charlie traits gives you much smiling. I haven’t got any hate(yet), but I have seen people being shitty to a few accounts I know so I have to step in and all.

Your comment do not bother me at all and I’m glad someone like you are in this world. I know how it feels to have anxiety in your ways of things, but sometimes you have to take a leap of faith lol. But seriously thank you for this. Once again, you are not bothering me and I accomplished every word in this ask. Thank you once again and I’ll keep on posting whenever I get a new ask or something)

#KINDNESSFORBLOGRPERS

[lavenoon]

HI, Luce! Can I be sappy for a moment? I just wanted to thank you a lot for making the discord server and your AU in general! It was already fun getting into the DA fandom, but getting into the server has been a whole other level of fun! I often wake up and really want to check it immediately in the morning to see what has happened while I was asleep. I almost didn't join at first because I am shy, though I'm glad I decided to do it anyways (training myself to get over social anxiety by interacting more, can't even tell you the amount of times I force myself to hit send XD) because it's always a great time all around! I've met some very nice people through it and even if it hasn't been open that long it really just became a nice kind of familiar very quickly <3 Your AU and all it's variations are so incredibly fun to discuss and provides so much inspiration and blorbo thoughts that accompany me throughout the day! I'm just so very glad we coincided in the same corner of this very vast internet! I'm sending you a giant hug and all the good vibes for your day <3

After trials and tribulations (got distracted) I finally got to this ask!

What makes is funnier is that I had to draft this and go work because obviously I didn't get further. NOW however <3

You may be sappy just know that I keep melting at this ask aaa

And I'm so happy you joined too!! And I'm glad (and proud - because man social anxiety is a bitch) that you're being brave and interact!! I'd miss you if you didn't!!

Now I'm gonna be sappy, be warned

Because, well, yeah! I love the server!! Initially I wasn't too sure about the idea, thought I'm getting ahead of myself, that there isn't actually that kind of interest - but I'm glad I asked friends in dms and also that one post on here and then made it happen, because it's just so so nice!

I'm a very chatty person by nature (when I'm comfortable), and I just. I love that I can just blurt out a thought and then y'all jump on it and make it better, enable me to make more, and make your own!! All while there's not this pressure for it all to be fully fleshed out already. It's more a dialogue, a development, and sparking so so many of the things that do make it on here also!

I'm of course not trying to make the server like, a dlc to tumblr content or anything, I don't mention it on here to tease anyone who isn't in it, I'm just a lot more comfortable chatting on there and I love the server! It feels like a, well, a cozy little cove! Everyone is nice and it's a fun place to show off anything new in life, blorbo related or not, or hanging in vc - I've actually done streams! With me doing art in my mornings there's just not that many people who could join in the first place, but in the server it's a nice little opt in option that allows for chatting on the side! I'm a little self conscious still about my art process but it's just so so neat to have people react immediately to what I'm cooking up? Like with the CS comic yesterday hehehe, telling/ later showing the twist as I'm sketching it? Hearing the reactions out loud? Definitely worth it!

And it's just. A comfortable little corner, doesn't feel too public, and even on the lurkier days it's just really cool to see the chaos and people sniping each other, it's a little community and I love it! I love seeing the little spontaneous doodles and the agentsona thoughts that wouldn't make it on tumblr simply from the way this site is set up, it's just chatting and I love it very very much. It's really really reassuring for me too because of that, it's direct interaction and wanted direct interaction from both sides! Because yeah, social anxiety (and also rejection sensitivity) is a bitch sometimes and tumblr is still a blogging website, not a chat website! (tumblr DMs are my mortal enemy, and not just because of the weird ones I got before)

So tldr; I'm also very very happy that we found ourselves overlapping spaces in the world wide web, because I am so happy to be here with you!

Also, you've been shown as online the entire time, I do hope you slept well despite whatever your phone is doing FHDJS

[le-velo-pour-dru]

♧ :D

Wahoo, let's do this! >:3

You’re my: mutual who likes iDKHOW and posts a lot about Stranger Things, and who I don't know too well but would be happy to get to know better :3

How I met you: I don't really remember! I know it had to do with iDKHOW though. Either you interacted with one of my posts, or I saw a post of yours in the iDKHOW tag, it was one of those two things. Sorry I don't remember which one though ;w;

Why I follow you: Cause you're an iDKHOW fan, and cause you seem like a fun nice person in general ^^

Your blog is: pretty Stranger Things-focused, from what I can tell, and while I can't say I'm familiar with that fandom, I'm glad you enjoy it :D 💖

Your URL is: very silly X3

Your icon is: a purple worm!!!!!!! :DDD Worms on strings are so fun, I actually have a pair of earrings that are purple worms on strings, they're amazing X3 💜

A random fact I know about you: Your icon from when I first found you was Tuxedo Sam :3 💙

General opinion: Overall, I don't know you very well yet, and I can't relate to your main fandom, but all my interactions with you have been great so far and I'd be happy to get to know you better! 😊🩷

A random thought I have: Feel free to send me asks or DMs whenever, if you want :3 Answering this just made me realize how little I know about you, and I'd be happy to change that if you want ^^ No pressure though, of course

[iamthecomet]

it has been a whole day, mind you a whole WEEK, but today takes the cake, boy oh boy. im finally ready to post and interact outside of a basic skim and a few likes on my dash, and i would LOVE to share the day I've had, but for the sake of some of the other people who recreationally visit your blog, and just because of it being a very sensitive topic, I won't.

All is well now though! I'm writing again and I'm back to interacting with the little people in my phone :)

how has your day been comet?

Hey, it's good to see you back again. I'm sorry that you've been having a WEEK and a DAY. If you ever do want to vent to anyone about specifics you can always DM me, but don't feel pressured to--just if you want to get it off your chest I am happy to listen. I'm glad that things are getting better and that you're writing again and talking again. So much love to you <3. My day is weird. Was great. Now shitty (for reasons not related to my own mental health for once). But I've got some smutty ficlets to work on so that's exciting and will make me feel a little bit better.

[shoot-of-corruption]

🍓 Compliment me? no reverse uno cards you with affaction even with my stupid slowness of replies -- Ria i was thinking about you again the other day thinking back to last year the timing i checked my old thief blog that day/time was odd for me but i am so glad i did. Because by rarely checking in hopes you return to see you was at least safe brought me hope and happiness. you was there at the first of my very first tumblr muse - Malik to specific that quickly was Bakura too. i keep saying it but the amount of time we did interact was so fun and memorable. I am so so happy you came back i know i suck at keeping in touch. You are truly amazing loving beautiful person and a kind heart. I want you happy - thats all ive wanted for you really. I still think back to us interacting around 2016? and also your return- never doubt for a second i wouldn't do my best to support you. Want to open comissions again? do so i'll boost the heck out of the post, need time away from yugioh? trust me i understand the feeling. you come first. after all these years you was easy to talk too to click with again. You are so strong too for returning from that needed break. i'm here for you always my friend. i want to end this ramble with my final sappy thoughts: I can say without hesitation you have been there for me so please i will be there for you. thank you for being you. i know you are beyound amazing -

You guys are the reason I keep coming back! You are truly the collest, most steady feature of my life and the only reason I am unwell with it is because I feel I don't give back enough.

You guys make my life better! Especially you! You have been such a healthy ficture in my life, even if you might not feel like it yourself, you are a amazing, beautiful person and I truly love spending time with you in whatever fashion!

I don't want to pressure you with anything, but I just want to hug you all the time, because you deserve sweetness and steadiness in your life and when our emotions run rampant, that just happens!!

I want to be around you for you! Because you are a cool person, because you give me back so much, when I can just talk to you! Rosey, when I feel that I can make you happy, my day gets 200 times better! So don't you ever doubt that I am the only one giving back, because you give me back so much and I am so glad to have met you!

.. also my head is brimming with ideas and I hate it, because I have not enough time and strength to draw everything up at the moment, but knowing that you would support me is worth just so much, so just-

Thank you. Really and truly. I couldn't wish for anything better!

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

I miss the dynamic we used to have in fandoms too, it was pretty funny and genuine, now no matter which fandom you're part of, I think the whole thing has become very toxic for so many reasons. Everyone expects you to be perfect, to agree on their opinions, to be active all the time (even when you can't), to make your profile look in a certain way because it needs to look 'aesthetic', and sometimes you're tested to see if you're enough fan of someone, like having admiration and love towards an artist has to be measured and it's some kind of competition.

I had this account I created around 2014/15 on Twitter, I was part of many fandoms and it used to be so fun and relaxing to have a place to talk about the things you like and interact with people who understand this. But years later it started being so uncomfortable to be there because what it used to be about being just a fan turned into make yourself look in a certain way, pretend and act in the coolest way possible so everyone likes you. It actually affected a lot my mental health because I felt I needed to be accepted by everyone all the damn time, and I couldn't say what I wanted anymore I was so scared to be rejected by anyone and I didn't want to stay the incorrect thing, I loved posting about my favorite shows or shipps, but I realized that around 2021 that what I posted was not what I thought at all, it was just what everyone wanted me to say because if you didn't like certain scene from a random show (just to give an example) and you shared that opinion, you were attacked. I didn't even feel safe to give my opinions with some friends I made in these fandoms. I remembered specifically that many of my mutuals were harries and I had to pretend I liked him too because otherwise I would've been the weird girl or something, and it's not that I didn't like Harry, I love many of his songs and I think he's very talented, but I don't consider myself his fan because I didn't create that kind of connection with him. But I felt the pressure to said I was obsessed with him too. It got so bad, i ended up deleting my account because, which I actually regret, because I definitely wanted to leave all that nightmare behind, but I had so many great memories from the previous years that I wish I had thought twice before I deleted it, maybe I should have just logged out.

Sorry I overshared 😭 basically to sum it up I miss the old years so much, it's probably one of the reasons why I love your account <33

And I'm glad I'm not the only way who feels this way.

don’t apologize! i get it completely. times have changed and not for the better. i do hope that eventually things mellow out as far as stan culture goes. i’m happy people can enjoy coming here, just as i do on this blog 💗

[pressagie]

tw: homophobia

hello!! first of all i just wanna say that i love your blog (@/diospirando) so much. i found you through your uquiz (which was really helpful btw). i came here to ask about my love life. here is a little bit about me: my hobbies include learning about marine life and watching films. i am a lesbian and come from a pretty religious family and almost everyone i know is also very religious. i haven’t come out to anyone for obvious reasons except for a few really close friends. i myself am not religious and have left my religion last year, however i feel this overwhelming sense of guilt for leaving even though whenever i try to come back to my religion i just can’t get myself to believe in it again. sometimes i wish i could just go back to believing in it like i did before and try my best to start liking men because i really dont want everyone i know and love to hate me. all of my irl friends are homophobic and i feel a lot of guilt for what i am and after constantly being told my whole life that i will go to hell for simply loving someone i just dont know anymore what to do because i am really so lonely. a lot of my irls are in relationships and i just wanted to ask if there is someone for me as well? like someone who is able to understand me unlike all of the other people in my life and accept me for who i am? and is there a chance of that person being a guy? (i know this sounds bad of me asking since i just said i am a lesbian but i really am just hoping that there is some guy out there that i will like so i can continue to have a good relationship with my family and friends). i am honestly just really sick of being lonely and not being understood, i just want to meet someone who gets me well. i have a preference for tarot but you can decide which works best for my situation. i’d also like to request a book passage and song of your choice. again, thank you and sorry for this question being so long.

hi im so sorry im the person who sent the last anonymous ask (the one that mentions being a lesbian and having a very religious family). i forgot to add something to it and i have no idea how to unsend/edit an ask because im kind of new to tumblr but i just wanted to add something to my question. I'd like to know about future patner and the type of person they are (any information is about), it can be their appearance, personality, achievements, where I'll meet them or even how they're doing currently in life whatever you can channel I'll be happy with anything. thank you :D

Hey 🤎

I'm so sorry you're going through that.

(And thank you for the TW.)

Speaking as a queer person with christian and queerphobic relatives: please remember that you can't choose to like men, or anyone for that matter. Obviously, attraction is fluid – but let me ask you this (and tell me to fuck off, if it's not my place): even if you were to be with a guy, would that solve all the problems which the people in your life have?

I can't tell you what to believe, just as no one should. But if you need to hear this, and it helps in any way: I promise that you're not going to hell for being a lesbian, and you deserve so much better than the judgement and guilt from your family and other people. You deserve to be happy, be it single or otherwise. You deserve understanding, to feel connected – and not only acceptance, but FULL BLOWN RESPECT.

(I'm really glad that you liked the quiz! Guessing you meant this one?)

(Did I understand correctly that you follow me @diospirando? Either way, feel free to come say hello 🥰 I'm very curious to know if we've interacted before, but no pressure!)

(Oh and you can't unsend/edit asks.)

Note: I added some info to my pinned post, and I recommend (to everyone who sent in questions) giving it a read.

Now on to your reading... I did try Tarot first like you asked, but the Oracle's what you get today 🤠

This deck is based on animals at risk of extinction in the Iberian Peninsula (where I live) and others with relevant roles in our mythologies/religions... I included their names, in case they have any personal, special meaning for you – and there are some marine species :]

Spoiler alert: you only got birds 😂 but at least 3/5 (that I checked) are related to the sea!

Is there someone for me as well?

— Who is able to understand me unlike all the other people in my life and accept me for who I am?

ASCENSION & the pigeon Columba palumbus azorica (horizontal)

I take the terms the author of this deck uses with several grains of salt cause I don't buy into the common spiritual associations with, e.g., ascension (but that's a conversation for another time) so here I'm taking the card to mean distancing yourself, traveling... Flying, if you want to be more literal.

This species is endemic to basically one of the Azores islands only – meaning it can't be found anywhere else in the world. If you combine this information, I think it's fair to say that you can find someone (to have a relationship like you want) if you look somewhere you already expect to find them, such as a specific community (that could very well be online)!

Sidenote: it landed on my lap instead of the table, and I usually use that to signal if something/someone has tried to catch your attention, or is still trying – so pay attention.

I'd like to know about my future partner and the type of person they are.

— Their appearance, personality, or even how they're doing currently in life.

RECOGNITION & the falcon Falco naumanni (horizontal) AUTHENTICITY & the gull Ichthyaetus audouinii (upright) + VISION & the eagle Aquila adalberti (inverted) WISDOM & the eagle-owl Bubo bubo (upright)

You may recognize each other from somewhere, but not like you knew each other well before (there is a Reunion card to symbolize that kind of previously established contact/relation in a stronger way). This falcon is a summer migrant so that might point to when you first crossed paths and/or will cross again.

Their personality is authentic, but you'll have a hard time seeing that (at first). This could be related to your own interests and lifestyle, and the concept of individuality (refer to the gull's and the eagle's links for inspiration to think deeper about this).

Either they're being thoughtful regarding how they live, and making wise choices, they're a student/teacher – or both! The Bubo bubo (adorable name) being a species of eagle-owl can indicate some connection to the previous eagle card (individuality, perspective...).

This is getting a little long so I'm gotta let you take it from here 🐚🌊

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (1865) Chapter III: A CAUCUS-RACE AND A LONG TALE

«They were indeed a queer looking party that assembled on the bank – the birds with draggled feathers, the animals with their fur clinging close to them, and all dripping wet, cross, and uncomfortable.»

Movement by Hozier in Spotify Singles (2019)

Thank you for trusting me to read for you. I would love to know what you think: if this resonates with your circumstances, and what comes of it. Don't be afraid to give me honest feedback and suggestions, after all, it'll help me become a better reader :]

Do you want to expand on this or have another topic to explore? Leave me a (follow-up) question!

You can always include the numbered tag associated with your reading(s), and I'll add it to the future posts as well, so they are identified as belonging to the same querent, and easier to find – check below, next to #OMEN DEAL.

For Ko-fi tips (zero pressure)

I honor the spirit who helps with my practice – for winding and guiding my path, learning how to sit with me, and being a light to read by.

Elioth Gruner's Milking Time / Araluen Valley

[russeliarat]

I like you very much! If you suddenly disappeared, I would be distressed and upset and if you stayed away for long, I would be devastated. (I’m being serious. I’m I writer and I don’t use words lightly.)

It sounds like you are believing a lot of lies about yourself: that you exist to hurt people, that no one would miss you if you left, that you have to deal with troubles alone, that the emotions of other people are more important than yours… these are all lies. It sounds like you already recognize that in your head but your heart has yet to be convinced.

I want to tell you that there is hope. As time passes your heart will learn the truths: that you are loved, that you deserve care and comfort, that people do value you and would miss you if you left, that you are not alone, that your life and your existence does NOT hurt people but it enriches their lives. It will take a while for your heart to know these truths: weeks, months, even years, but it will happen. I have hope that it will, I am confident that it will, I KNOW that it will someday come to pass.

I know this because I was there once. I’ve been to that hell too and I’ve made it out alive.

When I was a kid, I grew up in a dysfunctional household with abusive and neglectful guardians that were not my parents. My guardians and my siblings were all neurodivergent but no one knew how because my guardians believed that “there was no such thing” as anxiety or autism or OCD etc. I was so weird that I had no friends. And I used to think that I was unlovable, that no one cared about me, or seek out my company or value what I have to say and that no one would ever remember my name

Eventually, I graduated high school and left that toxic place and traveled far away and made my own way in the world. And as I’ve gone on, I’ve met nicer, better people who DID learn and remember my name, who invited me to hang out, who stayed by me in hard times. And slowly I learned the truths, that it was possible for someone to love or care about me, that my life was worth something, that I have value. It’s taken years, but I have mostly worked my way from believing lies to believing truths.

I’ve come a long way but I’m not all the way there yet. I often interact on anon because I’m afraid people won’t like me as much anymore if they knew what my main blog was. I know that’s not true in my head, but my heart isn’t quite convinced yet. But I know the day will come when I am comfortable enough to reveal myself (or I’ll accidentally forget to hit “anon” in the ask box, haha).

Thank you for sharing a little of what you’re going through. Thanks for letting us know so we could help carry your burden. No one can do life alone. I don’t know about everyone else, but I know that I like you too much to let you try.

And yes, as the other person said, it is truly an honor and a privilege to meet you. I am so glad that I found you. You are an utter delight to know. Even though you’re going through a hard time and things are messy and confusing, know that no matter what you think or feel or believe, no matter what anyone else tells you…

You are worth knowing.

And you are so very loved.

I have more to say, but I am petsitting for someone and have to go feed their cats and their guinea pig. But I’ll be back later. I’ll be here for you everyday for as long as you need even if it is forever.

There is always hope!

~ 🌲

P.S. And look at that! Linked Universe just updated! And it is a happy and hopeful update indeed!

You're such a sweet person, Evergreen, I'm glad you're out of that situation now. It's terrible when you feel that there's no one in your corner, even worse when it's family on top of friends (or lack thereof) who seem to ridicule you. It leaves such a lasting impression, it shapes your entire being, which has always felt so unfair. Never feel like we won't still adore you for being you, but also never feel pressured to reveal yourself - do what feels right for you, love.

Honestly, I just hope it gets better than it has been, I want to return to normal soon. I only have 3 or so months until I'm out of my school and onto something better hopefully.

Sorry, I don't have much to say right now, it's been a lot to fathom all this love and support. I just don't know where to store it in my head right now lol. I read this like literally 12 hours ago and had to sit on it because I had school and then just didn't know what to say lol

(P.S. This was the first thing I woke up to this morning and so I rushed over to the LU blog to see the update. It's made me feel better lol, thanks! It's just everything I need right now.)

((P.P.S. I saw all the hearts and love ask and I think I might just keep it in my inbox for harder times ^^))

[postwarlevi]

Hey! Fairly-new-to-tumblr anon here again, lol. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your response. After I sent the message and saw your posts about taking your time to reply, I felt bad because I didn't want to guilt trip you T.T I'm so sorry for that. Of course I understand, and was not putting any pressure on you for a fast reply in the least hahaha only sending an idea that came to mind. I really like the space you've created here, so getting to read you is more than great for me! =) glad you thought the idea was cute! More than honoured to be added to a WIP list! I didn't realize you had something similar in mind, you just made it 100% better by adding a dog hahahah! And thank you for the tumblr welcoming! I'm really liking it, remembered some old fandoms I loved aside from SNK and revived my fangirling past hahaha. Anyway end of rant, hope to see you soon!! 💫💫

No no no I'm so sorry. Arg, so, as per my rants it's ME that can't figure out how to manage time. I would love to spend more time here with you and everyone interacting and writing stories. Between my work schedule changing and living with others there's always work work, or house work, and some days I have to decide if I'm going to get some sleep or stay up late to do things now that I have alone time. Lately I've been choosing sleep.

However! I got word that my work will be starting to close early for a while starting next month so maybe I can figure things out! I'm sorry if I made you feel bad, I wouldn't ever want to do that. I want people to know I love interacting and feel terrible I don't do it more often!

Honestly IDK why I put so much pressure on myself, no ones ever been mean about me taking time to respond and I'm just doing all this for fun anyway! I need to chill LOL.

Anyway! Your idea is so sweet and original. The dog story just shows that yes, I totally love Levi as a step dad figure of sorts. Your idea, I love that it's post war Levi and a woman that has basically adopted her nephew. That'll turn out fluffy and sweet for sure!

And thank you for the kind words about my blog. I like that it can feel like a welcoming and warm place, that's what I'm hoping for. You're always welcome here and I hope you continue to enjoy the tumblr experience!

[hellfiremunsonn]

Goddamn Munson Chapter Two

AN: HI HERE IS CHAPTER TWO. I’M UNSURE WHERE I’M GOING WITH THIS OR HOW OFTEN THERE WILL BE SMUT IN IT BUT I’M HAVING A GOOD TIME WRITING IT AND I’M GLAD YOU ALL ARE ENJOYING IT. (Please let me know if there is anything specific I forgot to tag)

Read chapter one here <

I do not allow my writing to be republished anywhere other than my own blog without my consent

18 + MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT MEDIA YOU CONSUME.

Word count: 

Warnings/Tags? Swearing, sub fem, Dom Eddie, male and female orgasm, m and f oral receiving, unprotected sex (please always use protection)

EDDIE MUNSON AU

Chapter Two: VIRGIN IN WHITE. 

A small stream of dusty sun rays filtered through the room as my heavy lids opened slowly. Yawning I stretched my stiff limbs out bumping into a body next to me that I forgot about. Sudden realization hit me and I sprung forward taking in my surroundings. I was in Eddie Munsons bed, in his trailer, with him still next to me, with no pants on. "Shit!" I yelled throwing the small sheet he had laid on me off my legs and climbed towards the end of the bed startling him in the process. "What, what's going on?" He mumbled rubbing his eyes.

"I didn't go home last night!" I shouted searching for my pants finding them hung on his doorknob.

"I know" He said confused.

"I don't stay out this late Eddie, I always come home, I'm-"

"A good girl?" He said cutting me off with a smirk. I blushed and rolled my eyes shoving my legs into my jeans I did them up quickly heading towards the living area for my jacket and keys. Collecting my items frantically I kissed Eddie on the cheek hurrying to my car.

"Will I see you again?" He asked from the steps of his trailer.

"I'll make sure of it!" I shouted from my open window before pulling out of his make shift dirt drive way and sped home.

"Fuck!" I said slamming my hand against my steering wheel. "I'm going to be in so much trouble and I'm going to be late for school" I groaned.

By the time I rounded the corner to my street my bottom lip had almost been rubbed raw from the intense pressure I had on it as I bit it the entire way home. I pulled up into my driveway hurrying up the porch steps tripping in the process. Fumbling with my keys I unlocked the door quickly and closed it quietly behind me hoping no one in the house had awoken yet. Creeping up the steps towards my room I bumped into someone.

"Hi honey!" My mom said startled. "Are you just getting home?" she asked raising an eyebrow. "Uh yeah, I went to Max's and fell asleep on the couch" I said trying my best to sound confident.

"She's such a sweetheart that girl, I'm glad she has someone like you to look up to"

I smiled but then frowned realizing. "Wait did you not notice I wasn't home?" and then I heard it. The familiar high pitched giggle coming from the kitchen. Slowly making my way back down the stairs I turned sucking in a deep breath seeing my older sister sit across the table from my father.  

"Abigail" I stated. It wasn't that I didn't love my sister, because I did, when I was younger I tried so hard to be her. She was always just... Better. better at everything, school, sports, boys, and I knew my parents always liked her better though they would never admit it. Abigail was tall and slender with long blonde hair that always seemed to have a shimmer in it even when it wasn't clean. I felt so small next to her, in all aspects of the word.

"Almost forgot I had a little sister" she said clearly forcing a smile. "How've you been?"

"Do you actually care or should I just leave" I said gesturing do the kitchen doorway behind me with my thumb.

"Andrea can you just be nice to your sister for five seconds" My dad scolded.

"Sorry" I swallowed suddenly my mouth feeling dry. "I've been good Abbie, almost done school, acing my classes" I shoved my hands in the pockets of my jeans as deep as they would go.

"Awe good for you, maybe you'll make the honour roll like I did" She flicked a strand of her hair behind her shoulder and returned her attention to my dad and they continued to talk while I slipped out and back up the stairs to my bedroom. Shutting and locking the door behind me I sunk down onto the floor releasing a breath I didn't realize I was holding.

Annoyed tears welled up in my tired eyes, unable to gain the strength to hold them back. I spent years trying to be Abigail and I only stopped when she finally moved out and went to university far from away from us. I didn't have to compete for her approval or my parents approval because when she was gone they finally noticed me. I wasn't invisible anymore and I didn't have to constantly prove myself to them. All of the confidence I had gained was stripped from me the minute I saw her dumb manicured nails wrapped around my favourite mug.

Aggressively wiping the tears from my face I rose from the floor and headed into my small bathroom that was attached to my room to shower. I caught a glance of myself in the mirror and my mouth dropped as I realized my neck was covered in tiny hickies. "MUNSON!" I yelled but in the form of a whisper. "I'm going to kill him"

In the shower I scrubbed myself clean playing extra attention to my neck as if my lavender scented body wash was going to magically make the marks dissapear. How the hell was I going to cover these because no amount of makeup would cover them.

Basically tripping out of the shower I threw on some clean clothes as fast as I could which was just a pair of blue jeans and an oversized red sweater. I didn't bother looking for a bra since the sweater was baggy enough to cover anything anyway. I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled half of it up with a hair tie to keep it out of my face. I shoved my feet into my old converse as I quickly and aggressively brushed my teeth. Giving myself a wide smile inspecting them before grabbing my bag and running down the stairs.

"Late for school! Bye!"

I slid into the front seat of my car and sped off towards the school, not even bothering to put my seatbelt on.

Skidding into the parking lot I ran towards the school doors and thankfully kids were still filtering in as I made it to homeroom just as the first bell rang.

My chest heaving I sunk into my seat leaning my head back a little attempting to catch my breath. "Are you okay?" A voice pulled my back. It was Robin.

"Barely" I breathed.

She raised an eyebrow. "What are those?"

"What?" I said looking over to her.

"All over your neck" she whispered through her teeth.

Instinctively I pulled the collar of my sweater up more and pulled my hair in front of me. "I don't want to talk about it"

"Well you better tell me later or I will not hesitate to get Steve involved" she threatened.

I groaned quietly throwing my arms over my eyes covering my head. Steve was like a big brother to all of us and often known as the babysitter for the freshmen but he was extra big brother like to me and if he knew I was out all night with Eddie Munsons hands in my pants he would actually lose his mind.

"I'll tell you,  just not now" I whispered back.

The day dragged on and my classes seemed more uninteresting than usual. I anxiously waited for lunch so I could yell at Eddie for covering me in hickies. Not to say I didn't enjoy them because I did but we weren't in a position where I could casually flaunt these around without getting questioned about it. Robin noticed how antsy I was but I tried my best to ignore her and focus on my school work but again it was still difficult. I gave up on trying to focus and just doodled my way through the day trying to keep my mind away from what happened last night and how good he made me feel. My thighs pressed together and I almost had to physically shake my head from the thoughts when the bell rang signalling that it was lunch.  

Racing towards my locker I switched out the books and notebooks needed for the periods later, trying to take my time so I wouldn't have to wait any longer to confront Eddie.

Entering the cafeteria I scoped out my usual table seeing all the familiar faces including Eddies. He was deep in an enthusiastic conversation hair and hands flying everywhere as he talked and I couldn't help but smile a little.

Stalking towards the table I heard a few greetings but grabbed Eddies arm aggressively dragging him from the table and out of the cafeteria. Rounding the corner I opened and shoved him into one of the janitors broom closets and slapped him on the chest. "Are you insane?" I spat.

"I mean probably a little bit" He said smiling. He picked up a strand of my hair and twirled it between his fingers.

I yanked my collar down and pointed to it. "What is this?" I asked like a mother scolding her child.

"Hickies my dear"

"You can't be covering me in hickies, what am I supposed to say to people?" I said slumping my shoulders. I didn't want to admit it just like everything else about Eddie, but I was scared he didn't like me as much as I liked him and that our little sexual encounter would be a one and done kind of thing.

"Why not? You look pretty in them" He said reaching up cupping my cheek in his hand and I relaxed under it.

I licked my lips, my mouth going dry under his touch. He hummed and said "You can tell everyone where you got them, I don't mind"

"But we're not together" I said quieter than I meant.

his thumb rubbed back and fourth on my cheek before sliding down to my very sensitive neck, brushing the hair away from it to inspect his handy work. Trailing his fingers down along my neck and to my shoulder I tilted my head letting out a small hum.

"Is that what you want?" He asked. His breath hot on my neck as he peppered light wet kisses as he went. I crossed my legs together trying to keep myself composed.

"What do I want?" I said confused.

"You want to be mine?" He nipped at my shoulder and I let out a squeak. "Want everyone to know who did this to you? Show everyone who makes you feel this good?"

"Fuuuu-" My barely formed words were cut off as his hand slid up the back of my neck grabbing a tight fist of my hair. "Want everyone to know just how you purr under my touch?"

My eyes fluttered as I struggled to keep them open to look at him. God he knew just what I wanted without me even saying anything. I was putty in his hands and he loved it as much as I did.

"Yes" I breathed.

"Yes what?"

"Let me be yours" I whined. That was all it took for him to crash his lips into mine. Hot and heavy kisses, desperate to be closer to one another. I quickly reached for the button of his jeans trying to finish what I wanted to start last night but again he grabbed my hands. "So needy" he laughed. "I'm not fucking you in a broom closet"

"Afraid to get caught Munson?" I teased. His hand coming up to grab my face tightly between his fingers.

"Not at all" he laughed "I can keep quiet, but you can't" He stated, his other hand forcing my crossed legs apart. "Who knew innocent Andy wanted to get fucked so badly she would let it happen in a closet during school like a little slut" He cooed. My mouth fell open in response waiting for his touch but instead he let go of my face and took a step back from me. Sticking his hand into his pants he adjusted himself to make his obvious boner less noticeable. Opening the door a crack to make sure there were no roaming students before opening it he reached his hand out to me and I shyly grabbed it, blushing as our fingers interlocked.

My heart was pounding as we walked back to the cafeteria hand in hand. People stopped what they were doing to stare and whisper. When we approached our table I think I almost heard Mikes jaw hit the floor as we sat down.

"What the fuck is going on here?" He asked shocked and slightly in awe.

"What's it look like bean pole?" Eddie said reaching forward grabbing some of Dustins chips, which Dustin slapped at his hand in response.

I don't think my cheeks could have gotten any more red but I did my best to control my breathing, trying to get it back to a normal rhythm. Eddie squeezed my thigh in attempts to calm me but it only made the burning desire between my legs worse. He smiled clearly enjoying watching you struggle.

Lunch calmed down and we explained to everyone that we had liked each other for a while and decided to try the whole dating thing out. They were skeptic and I didn't blame them. I barely talked to Eddie in front of them let alone at all because of the crush I tried so hard to keep hidden. It was nice to be able to admire him so publicly now without fear of rejection. Nothing was truly very different, except now and then Eddie would look at me and smile, squeeze my thigh or place a light kiss on my temple letting me know he was acknowledging me being there. It was strange how right everything felt so quickly. Like he was some missing part of me I didn't know was lost.

The rest of the school day continued like it normally did but I felt less awkward about the marks on my neck, and mostly people didn't notice.

When the final bell rang I was stood at my locker organizing my things and putting what I needed in my bag for the weekend. I had an English test on Monday that I had to study for, but it was on the book we were reading so I knew I didn't need to study too hard to get a decent mark. Robin finally approached me again crossing her arms in front of me.

"Eddie Munson" I said quickly.

"EDDIE MUNSON!?" she repeated loudly.

"Why are you so loud?" I questioned closing my locker.

"Because I can be!" She said just as loudly. "Steve is going to kill you" laughing she placed a hand on my shoulder. "Good luck with that"

"Steve will only kill me if you tell him Robin" I warned giving her a 'I swear to god if you tell him before I do I will actually have to fight you' look. "Get off my ass and go to work" I said bumping my hip into hers.

I dreaded driving home knowing my sister was still there and I felt like I still wasn't ready to properly face her yet.

Just as I suspected she was in the same spot at the kitchen table she was at when I left this morning. I kicked off my shoes by the door and made my way to my room trying to ignore her. "How was school Andrea" Her annoying tone hanging off of my name making it sound sour.

"Fine" I said flatly. "I have to go study"

"Loser" she mumbled thinking I wouldn't hear her but just like every other time before that I always did.

Crashing into my bed I covered my head with one of my pillows trying to do some breathing exercises to keep myself calm. It worked for a little while but it was hard to not let the anxiety creep up on me. I wanted to tell my mom about Eddie. She could always tell I had something for him and often teased me about it but I always denied it so I know she would be thrilled to know he and I started up a romantic relationship. But right now with little miss Abigail in our presence, anything I said or did wouldn't matter, or it would matter too much and lead to some sort of grounding over something so simple and out of my control. God like that time Abbie flooded the bathroom yet somehow managed to get me blamed for it even though I wasn't even home that day. Or when she cut my hair super short to see what she would look like with short hair even though we have completely different hair types.

I groaned pushing the pillow over my head closer into my ears hoping it would somehow drown out my thoughts but alas it did not. I knew she was going to stay for the weekend or maybe even longer but how was I supposed to deal with her. She was going to drive me insane. I thought about heading to Eddies again but I didn't want to seem too clingy.

The phone rang loudly from the kitchen allowing me to ignore my thoughts briefly as Abigail yelled "Andrea! Phone!"

Slowly rising from my bed I dragged my feet down into the kitchen where our yellow phone hung crooked on the wall. Holding it up to my ear I gave a monotone "Hello?"

"I'll be there in ten minutes" Eddies voice crackled through.

"Eddie?" I questioned wondering how he got my phone number.

"Ten minutes!" He said again in an excited tone.

I stifled a laugh hearing the dial tone on the other end and hung the phone back up on the wall.

"Who was that?" Abbie asked not looking up from whatever fashion magazine she was reading.

"A friend" I said and ran back up stairs to change my clothes.

Eddie had called me innocent earlier and even though he wasn't entirely wrong I wanted to tease him a little with how I was dressed. It was still a bit chilly out in Hawkins so instead of bare legs I went with thick grey thigh high socks underneath my virgin white dress I decided to wear. I chose light blue lace underwear that you would only really see through the thin white material of the dress if you looked hard enough and I knew Eddie would. I went with no bra hoping the cold air would make quite a show if he looked at my chest. I almost added my discarded gold cross necklace I was gifted on my thirteenth birthday but decided it was a little too much.

I grabbed my jean jacket and slipped on my old converse from earlier and bounded down my front porch steps stopping and sitting on the last one as I waited for him to arrive. I heard his van before I saw it and skipped to the end of my driveway rocking back and fourth on my heels in excitement.

"Long time no see darling" He said through the open window once his van was in front of me. I reached for the door handle in front of me but Eddie leaned over and out of the passenger window slapping my hand away from it.

"Hey!" I said rubbing the top of my hand. He jumped out of the van and made his way to my door and opened it for me.

I gave him a sheepish smile.

"What kind of boyfriend would I be if I didn't open the door for you?" He said holding his hand out to me to help me up and into my seat.

"You're too kind" I said playfully as I tugged my dress down over my knees but Eddies hand stopped me as he squeezed, keeping the fabric off the pale skin of my thigh. I blushed trying to avoid his eyes as he began to drive. I couldn't deny that I had been desperate for more from him especially since the little incident in the broom closet during lunch, but I wanted to tease him a little just as much as he teased me. I already felt like I had the lead wearing the dress, to complete the sort of corrupting the innocent church girl fantasy.  

"So what's the plan?" I asked leaning my head onto his shoulder.

"I don't know, I was just thinking we could drive around until we thought of something fun to do.  I just wanted to spend more time with you so it doesn't matter what we do" He gave me a light kiss on the head and I sighed relaxing into his shoulder. I closed my eyes for a little appreciating the cool breeze coming through one of the windows, and the sound of Eddie humming some rock song I didn't know. "I wish it was summer" I sighed. "Then I could spend every day with you"

"I would like that a lot"

"Maybe I'll properly graduate this year" I laughed.

"Properly?" Eddie questioned. I leaned back up realizing I never told him I had technically already done my senior year but was homeschooled.

"I was homeschooled so when we moved here my parents thought it would be a good idea to do my senior year actually in a school" I shrugged. Being homeschooled wasn't something I bragged about. People always expected me to be this shy sheltered fragile little thing when in fact I was the opposite. Well besides being shy. That checks out.

"So how old are you then?" Eddie asked turning down a street, turning the wheel with the palm of his one hand. My stomach fluttered watching his hands.

"N-Ninteen" I stuttered composing myself.

He beamed at me. "What?" I said my cheeks getting hot.

"Finally a girl near my age"

We shared a laugh before returning to our quiet drive.

I started getting a little antsy wondering why Eddie hadn't made a move on me yet. I wondered if he was waiting for me to make the first move, which was something I was not used to.  Biting the inside of my cheek to hold back a smile I shifted so my back was now rested against the passenger seat door. I untied my shoes removing them and stretched out laying my feet onto his lap. He looked at me briefly only to raise an eyebrow and turned his attention back to the road. I pouted. If I was going to get his attention I was going to have to try harder. I slid my feet off his lap and brought my knees up putting them together giving him a small view of my blue underwear. I watched him intently waiting for him to look in my direction. He didn't. I rolled my eyes and crossed my legs folding my hands into my lap.

"Restless?" He asked finally looking at me.

"Yes" I said quickly. "But I have an idea" I smirked as I reached up under my dress hooking both my thumbs into the sides of my underwear and pulled them all the way off. Stopping at my knees briefly when Eddies dark eyes glanced at me. Slowly pulling them down the rest of the way I balled them up in my fist and scooted closer to him. I kissed his bicep as I slid them into the front pocket of his jeans. He shifted uneasy and I watched his cheeks turn a light pink.

Deciding to test my luck further I slid my hand up and down his thigh feeling his already growing erection and began to slowly palm him through his jeans.

"Eddie?" I said sweetly batting my lashes at him.

He cleared his throat. His eyes shifting every so often back down to watch my hand. "Princess if you keep that up I'm going to crash this car before I get to fuck you"

Heat rose throughout my body at his words and I figured I would try again, to push my luck a little further. I reached for the button of his jeans but he swatted my hands away.

"But I thought-"

"Sit there, do not touch me until we get to my place" He said sternly.

"Fine" I pouted again and he smiled at me. "I wish I could touch you" I mumbled.

"Soon" he reassured placing his hand back on my thigh. Before he could move it back to the steering wheel I grabbed it lightly with both hands and guided his hand in between my legs directing him to my clit. A low chuckle rumbled from him as he swiped his fingers along my folds gathering some of my fast growing wetness and began rubbing slow circles. "So needy huh? Is this why you were acting out?" He questioned.

I hummed closing my eyes, letting my head fall back against the seat. "No" I whispered.

"No?"

"I want to touch you but you won't let me" I whined rolling my hips to meet his halted movements rubbing my clit against his slick fingers.

"Fuck" He said through gritted teeth. "You're fucking yourself on my fingers. Desperate little slut"

I let out a soft moan and felt the car come to an abrupt stop. My eyes opened and I realized we had finally made it to his trailer. He removed his hand from my clit, giving his fingers a quick lick before hopping out of the van and opening my door for me. Before I could even take one step down he pulled me forward so I fell over his shoulder and he carried me into his trailer. I giggled and kicked my feet in the air. "Eddie!"

He flipped me over and I thumped down onto his old bed, my knees coming together causing my dress to fall almost to my hips exposing myself more than I had earlier. My heart raced as I watched Eddie look me up and down slowly. Drinking in every part of me as if he was trying to remember every detail. He shrugged off his jacket coming to his knees at the end of the bed. Grabbing my ankles he pulled me to the edge so he was now kneeling in between my legs. I reached my hands forward to cup his face but he grabbed my wrists placing them next to my hips.

"I don't think you get to touch me just yet" he smirked removing my jacket from my shoulders and throwing it onto the floor next to him.

I rolled my eyes about to start saying how unfair it was when he gave me a light smack on my cheek. "Don't roll your eyes at me or I won't touch you either" heat pooled between my legs feeling the faint sting on my cheek. I wanted him to do it again.

I pouted and he traced his thumb across my bottom lip. I opened my mouth slowly and stuck my tongue out feeling the rough pad of his thumb tap against it. I couldn't help but smile. "Fuck you're so sexy when you're this desperate" he rubbed his hands along my thighs and I leaned back onto my elbows growing more and more impatient. "Eddie please" I whined.

"Yes princess?"

"Please touch me" I said making a 'hmmp' sound before giving him my best puppy dog eyes.

"You know what I like about you?" He said rubbing circles on my thighs inching closer at a painfully slow speed.

"What?" I asked. The annoyed tone in my voice earning a small laugh from him. I sat back up again abruptly attempting to grab his face again but he was quicker. Trapping my hands against my sides again he pressed his forehead to mine kissing the top of my nose. "If you stop being a brat, I'll touch you... And" He said tapping my hands. "Keep your hands here"

I nodded quickly, wiggling slightly,  desperate for any sort of friction. "Lean back" He ordered and I did.

He began to pepper light kisses all along my legs, going back and fourth between both thighs making sure to give them both equal attention. He nipped at my hips causing me to squeak out in response. I smiled biting my lip. "Please" I begged again but he ignored my pleas. Eventually, slow and wet, he left long kisses along my waistline stopping right on my pubic bone. "What I like about you" he said continuing his question to me from earlier while slipping one of his fingers up and down my folds gathering some of my arousal onto his finger tip. "Is that you taste as good as you look" and again he put his finger in his mouth while not breaking eye contact. His hand went back between my legs and he began with the slow circles on my clit and my head rolled to the side biting onto my shoulder. He started kissing my legs again but this time didn't stop when he got to my centre. He licked one slow stripe up my core and a loud breathy "Oh" came from me as I gripped the sides of my dress to keep my hands where I was told to keep them.

Eddie obviously noticing my struggle took my hands and placed them on either sides of his head so I would have something to hold onto and I instantly fisted his hair into my hands. Unintentionally pushing him closer to me as my breathing became quick.

"More" I said licking my dry lips.

"Soon baby" He mouthed against me. He slipped one finger into me, curling upwards and pulling out only slightly, creating a 'come here' motion. Repeatedly tapping the other side of my clit adding pressure to both sides. I tucked my knees up and rested one foot on his shoulder.

His mouth left me and I shot my head up, leaning back on my elbows to look at him. "Why did you stop" I blurted panting, admiring the shine across his mouth and chin.

"Do you want to cum like this?" He asked still fingering me with a single digit.

"I don't care" I breathed rolling my head back barely able to hold myself up. "No no no no, wait" I said leaning up fully and removing his hand from me. "I want you in my mouth" I said swallowing hard. he tucked some of my hair behind my ear pulling me in to kiss me. Finally kissed me. The butterflies in my stomach erupted and flew to all parts of my body.  I moaned with almost every kiss as he joined me on his bed now leaning back against the wall.

Frantically I moved, unbuttoning his pants and pulling at them. "Slow down sweetheart" He laughed "I'm not going anywhere" Lifting his hips so I could pull the rest of his pants and boxers off of him. Straddling him I reached between my legs stroking myself a few times before using my own arousal to moisten the tip of his cock. Eddies eyes looked primal and I wanted him inside me so bad but I wanted to do this almost more. Letting my mouth fill with more saliva I pumped him slowly before dipping my head down letting him fill my mouth. He hissed grabbing my hair into a make shift pony to keep it out of my face and his head tilted as he watched me. I bobbed my head at a steady rhythm letting all my spit leak from my mouth onto him. I tried to take him as deep as I could down my throat without gagging but failed as I had to break away for some air. A string of saliva connecting his cock to my mouth.

"You okay?" He asked stroking his thumb against my cheek. "Mmhmm" I said nodding feeling my breath start to regulate.

"I need words baby, don't do anything you don't want to"

"I'm okay" I said smiling and pumping him a few more times.

Grabbing me by the waist he flipped me over so I was now laying on my back with him hovering on top of me. He swiped the tip of his length against me using my wetness as lubricant.

I whimpered. "Please" I begged once more.

"What do you want?" He cooed pushing only slightly into my entrance. Not enough.

"Eddie please. Please fuck me" I said quickly. "Fuck me dumb, fuck me so hard I don't know anything but how good you make me feel" And finally he slipped himself into me and I arched my back in pleasure. He filled me perfectly. Waiting a few seconds before slowly moving in and out so I could get used to him. I felt light headed because of how good it felt and let myself lay back down.

He picked up his pace and moan after moan fell out of my mouth with each thrust. Going deeper and harder with each one. "F-Fuck" I said leaning back up onto my elbows looking down at what connected us.

"You feel so fucking good" Eddie said grabbing my hair into fistful to tilt my head up so I could look at him. "Fuck" He moaned thrusting into me harder. He held onto my hips tightly squeezing my love handles trying to get closer to me.

I slid my hand down to my clit and started rubbing fast and hard circles to bring myself closer to an orgasm.

"Oh Eddie" I moaned out.

"Keep touching yourself for me baby, you look so pretty under me like this" He praised.

I could feel the slow tingle beginning to form in my stomach as I continued to rub myself.

"I'm gunna c-cum soon" I stuttered. Eddie continued to slam into me, and the pressure from his cock hitting my g-spot and the wet sloppy circles on my clit, my orgasm grew. "OH fuck, I'm cumming" Leaning forward I held onto Eddies bicep with my free hand as I rode out my orgasm. I'm sure everyone in the trailer park could hear my loud pornographic moans and screams as I shook in pleasure. Tears rolled quickly down my cheeks, sobbing from overstimulation. I continued to shake slightly as Eddie fucked me harder and faster trying to get himself to his orgasm quicker for my sake.

My hands reached up behind me grabbing onto his sheets as I felt a second orgasm begin before. This was different. I had never cum from penetration alone. "Harder" I cried. "Please Eddie oh my god, I'm going to cum again" I choked arching my back once more. Barely coming down from the first one my second orgasm ripped through me harder and louder than before. "Holy fuck, fuck" I spewed profanities and mumbled words.

"I'm gunna cum" Eddie said.

"Cum in me" I said looking up at him again. The pleasure was still too much, and I could barely take it anymore but he felt so good, and hearing those beautiful sounds coming from his mouth as he slammed into me made it all worth it. His thrusts became sloppy and he hunched over into me breathing down my neck as his orgasm slowed and the only thing we could hear was our heavy breathing.

My legs trembling I slowly put my knees together as Eddie gently removed himself from me. I felt his cum start to leak out of me and noticed Eddie watch as it did. Wrapping me in the thin top sheet of his bed he bunched it between my legs cupping me through the fabric. I whined and grabbed my hand to stop him.

"Just cleaning you up a little" he said softly. He sat next to me. "What do you need?" He asked moving the hair stuck to my sweaty forehead.

"I want, I want" I struggled to form words. "I want to be cozy" I said whimpering as fresh hot tears welled up in my eyes.

"Oh baby" He said kissing me on the forehead. "Are you okay?"

"Yes, just lots of emotions, good ones" I sniffled.

"I'll get you something different to wear"

I sat up slowly. Clutching the top sheet between my legs as Eddie searched through his things to get me some clothes. He handed me an old band T shirt and a pair of sweatpants. "Arms up" He instructed. Lifting my dress over my head he replaced it with the t shirt before moving to my covered lower half. He Removed the top sheet from me shoving it into an already overflowing laundry basket. Setting the sweat pants next to me he went back to his discarded jeans and I raised an eyebrow and then blushed as he smiled while removing my underwear from his pocket.

"Good thing we didn't ruin these huh?"

"Pity" I said grabbing his hands to help me stand up. I wobbled slightly and held onto his shoulders as he bent down so I could step into my underwear and then his sweatpants. "Alright get that cute butt into my bed" He said pointing to the side of his bed closest to the wall. I crawled my way across his bed falling into his pillows curling up into a ball.

Eddie took this time to throw on some comfy clothes himself. He instructed I go pee before laying down. He helped me walk into his little bathroom and waited till I was done to help me back to his bed. I stood and stretched a little while he went to grab an extra spare blanket for us to replace his now cum covered top sheet. Finally sliding under the thick quilt next to me he pulled me into his chest and I held onto him tightly. "I didn't go too far today did I?" He asked stroking my hair.

"No not at all baby" I reassured him. "I would tell you if I didn't like or didn't want to do something I promise"

"Good" He kissed me on the head and continued playing with my hair, and just like the first night together, I fell asleep next to him humming the same song I still didn't recognize.

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