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Dean felt taken back by the way she rolled her eyes at him and his eyes went wide with her accusatory and pointed words, but worse than that it was the way she talked about Cas-- as if she even knew him! As if she even knew what they'd been through.... he wasn't still hung up on him... not his dick anyway.
Dean half hoped Madison would stumble and flop right on the floor with how rough she yanked herself out of his hold, his brows curved downwards in a harsh stare- ready to rip right back into her... until she started reaming herself... instead of him. The guilt came to a rolling boil before it spilled over, watching how Madison's face turned pink and her brown eyes watered Dean wasn't sure how to fix it and fighting in a bar was the last thing he wanted to be doing.
Dean chased after her the second she left, but it was when she reached for the door handle in her drunken rage that Dean felt all that rage from walking in and seeing her in the grip of a bunch of lowlife bar scuzz burst right back to the surface. But it morphed-- it morphed into genuine anger that she'd let herself get that fucking tossed.
"Are you fucking crazy?!" Dean grabbed Madison by her shoulders and spun her around so her back was pressed against the door and window of her car. "You think you're that invincible huh? You think I don't give two fucks about you that I'd just stand back and watch you get yourself killed behind the wheel?! Jesus christ you're fucking worse than Cas, you know that?!" he seethed with the type of fear that made him incapable of not yelling even with the waterfall of tears from Madison. "If none of this meant a thing I wouldn't be here! I wouldn't have spent the night calling you and filling up your fucking voicemail if I didn't give a shit, Madison! I told you already-- I'm not fucking around here- I'm not that guy. I get it, I fucked up-- I stood you up, but I called to tell you where I was! I called to explain, I called and asked you to fucking come have a date with me in the goddamn fucking stupid as shit er and you wouldn't pick up your damn phone!" his face flushed red, his eyes brightened beneath a soft gloss of heightened emotion.
"You can go ahead and call me the same as all the belly to the earth motherfuckers you've dated. I'm not gonna force you to change your mind-- but you're not gonna blame Cas for this-- or his dick." he added awkwardly. "I'm over Cas- he's over me, we aren't together- we're not fucking behind your back and laughing at you. You're not worthless and you're not pathetic and you do deserve better.... and I'm better! I thought I'd be home by 7 for you to pick me up. I wanted to go out with you-- I wasn't trying to stand you up, but I did and I can admit to that. It was shitty and wrong of me and I'm sorry. But you're not gonna go out and get wasted and try to get behind the wheel of your car- I've seen too much of that go south. I'm not losing anymore people to shitty 2am decisions, now give me your fucking keys and you can walk the hell home if you decide you're too badass to come sleep off your soon to be raging hangover at my place."
Madison was ripped away from the tender affection she was receiving & it was confusing.
She had stumbled a bit at the aggressive yank & she looked up at the culprit. It was Dean. That handsome, son of a bitch.
It took a moment to process what he was saying & when everything registered she huffed, “atleast a sap can be upfront about everything meaning nothing.” She rolled her eyes, “oh you wanna help? Wanna play hero?Im just some stupid bitch huh?” She bit back, “help me find a man who can respect me & not stand me up. Help me find a man who isn’t still hung up on his fucking ex’s dick.”
Madison ripped her wrist away, “you made me feel pathetic & you know what, I can finally accept that.” She wobbled in her heels & ran a hand through her gorgeous messy bun. “I am pathetic, & I am worthless & I should just go out & enjoy my fucking life instead of thinking I deserve better.” She gave him a rough shove away. “And I have you to thank for that. So thank you!” Her voice was raising & her cheeks turning pink, eyes getting glossy. “Thank you for showing me I’m not worth a god damn thing & every man I meet, no matter how tall & handsome & smart & funny, & charming is just like everyone else!”
A few tears slid down her cheek & she reached over to the table to snatch her purse away. Madison did her best to walk toward the door that was bouncing & blurry. Madison managed to make it outside & to her car, but everything was so blurry, she couldn’t grab the handle.
Eventually she gave up & just leaned her head against the window & cried. The alcohol finally taking full advantage of her emotional state.
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hii, I just saw that you have open requests ^^Can I ask for a lighter x reader who has the personality or is similar to Clorinde 🙏🙏🙏🙏 I beg you. I hope it goes well for you 🙏🙏🙏Sorry if there are any spelling mistakes because I lost my glasses.
Hellooo, ofc I can !! Also your spelling is perfectly fine <3
Lighter x s/o with a personality similar to clorindes ・₊✧₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎
✧ content: headcannon format , fluff , confessioning love , pre-relationship and current relationship.
Safe for minors to read !!
✧ I feel like his serious but also unserious mood would be a refresher for you , also helping you become more comfortable around him. For example , if you're dealing with something stressful , he'd be the type to try to keep you out of the house and even if it's just to hang out with Lucy or ceaser knowing your not alone makes him feel better.
✧ he'd definitely fall for you first. your strong and stoic front you put on is so intriguing to him because he's a serious person when he wants to be , but the fact he's NEVER seen you break that serious personality apart from a couple chuckles or when your trying to make Lucy feel better about something silly , it makes him want get closer to you. He also finds you badass as fuck but he'd never say it.
✧ when you finally realise you somehow like this man , you considered a complete and utter idiot. You're in complete denial , like how could I fall for HIM type thing.
✧ he is the one to confess 100% . He was confident , but he never thought you'd actually say yes to him. He was expecting you to stare at him like he was a creature from the hallow , so when you said yes he was actually taken aback by your word's , he totally hit you with a " yeah thats cool... cool " while he's internally screaming , before thinking about telling caesar and the others about it. He is a girl dad at heart ok.
✧ it might not be your cup of tea going out to his fights , but PLEASE do it at least once , this man will be yours for life if you do. Even if you sit there looking uninterested as normal because you finally gave into his begs, he'd be over the moon totally, not because you finally gave into going. He'd try to catch your attention by winking at you when you'd look his way , or if he was feeling extra like a little bitch he'd blow you a kiss being met by ur disappointed eye roll never got boring for him. When you find him afterwards dragging him home, he'd hit you with a " c'mon it wasn't that bad darlin " with that classic smirk on his face... let's just say he got a bonk on the head for that one.
✧ he sometimes found it hard to understand your emotions because of how closed off you could be. He would go to one of the girls about it and ask them what he should do , this man is a dumbass when it comes to love sometimes. He'd always be told to just go to you about it , so after a while , he gave in and went to you. It wasn't easy at first getting you to open up for him , but when you did , it made your relationship a lot better.
✧ at first, if anyone tried to hit on you, he'd be instantly at their throats, but there was one time he was grabbing something to drink while you sat and waited. He came back to a guy walking away uncomfortably looking like he was about to burst into tears , " What's up with him, huh ? " he chuckled , sliding you your drink. " he tried to hit on me, so I told him it straight. I wasn't interested. " You shrugged , " you don't say, " he replied. Ever since then , if someone hit on you he just let you give them that resting bitch face that made men run for the hills. Most men apart from him , personally found any face you pulled stunning .
✧ so , in summary you both have your Flaws mainly with communication , but you both try your best and that's all that matters <3
This is my first time writing lighter so sorry if he's abit out of character !! This request was really fun because I love clorinde
#zenless zone zero#zzz#zzz x reader#zenless zone zero x reader#lighter#lighter x reader#lighter x reader fluff
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every time i walk into my local library i make sure to look at the receptionists with big wet eyes before heading to my corner to study bc i really want them to hire me as a part-time aide
#not even bc i need the money like it would just be so good for my mental health#extra cash would be nice but i also just like existing there#i don't need another thing on my plate but this feels like anxiety relief more than anything#esp bc w all my pre-med stuff sometimes i feel guilty for reading recreationally. this would force me to be somewhere i love to be#i WANT to be around books for 6 hours at a time. stacking. shelving. cleaning those precious books#i will burst into tears if they don't let me#i literally know the dewey decimal system by heart i'm perfect for this#p
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People be like, how you doing? And I'm like, Loop is never going to see their family again.
#Isat#Isat spoilers#Isat loop#I'm just. Thinking so hard.#About Loop and what happened at the end of the loops#And what dev said about when you restart the game#Is it a different loop is it the same loop will loop every be free?#Did loop wish themself into a new loop of helping other thems reach their goal?#Either way.... Loop will never see their family again. Because they have Changed and their family has not.#God fuck fuck I love them and I hate them in equal measures#If I ever met them I don't even know what I would do first#Probably give them contact information to a real good therapist???#But honestly I think I'd hug them if they'd let me cause I would burst into tears if they were real#Loop is my worst nightmare because I was loop and I think that's the bad part of the whole ordeal#What do you do when your family can not help you but you help yourself? Are the bonds the same? Different?#How do you reconcile that with your love for your family?#God this little bitch makes me feel so much
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Have you guys ever been so disgusted by family snz that you actually start crying
#i don't think my sister thought i was in my room with my headphones off so she didn’t bother being quiet and it made me feel sick#headphones on straight away immediately burst into tears#obviously being autistic and extremely sensitive to sound doesn't help but :///#only con to living with her#i get so pissed off because she doesn't drink enough water all day and then has gross reactions by the evening at which point she's home#it's actually vile#and the worst part is she gets actively offended if i look even a little disgusted which i cannot help#we're about to share a hotel room for 4 nights so i am going to beg her to drink water and take antihistamines#anyway. i'm sure it'll be fine but had to type this out because i'm still actively in a state of physical repulsion#i've blocked someone on here before over telling me to not be mean about my sister but honestly fuck you let me vent#nttalks
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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had a fellow f1 fan at the camp and i will try to never talk about f1 with her again
#the side eye she gave me when i told her essere ferrari + oscar#she was MAD because i like oscar more than lando#like sorry girl for having my faves#'so how are we feeling about 2025' did she expect me to burst out in tears or what? lewis at ferrari is going to be bomb (i hope so)#then she proceeded to list of all of her faves and didn't let me speak#i still think she believes that i'm upset about the C2 breakup 😭#she's a yapper /neg#my god and don't get me started about the project i had to do with her#god really gave me an insane amount of patience when creating me because how the fuck did i survive this#anne talks: about random things#anne talks: about f1
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another funny thing is how every single thing produced or written by a doctor on something that is not commonly diagnosed is like, come on, we're trying!!!! remember that we're trying!!! if a doctor doesn't have the information you need, it's not necessarily their fault, they're working with whta they have :(((( come oooonnnn, it's probably that doctor's birthday, he's just a little doctor birthday boy. you're going to be mad at him on his birthday? wow. did you know every doctor was born on the same day so when you are mad at one you're mad on ALL of our birthdays? we're trying!!!! remember that we're trying!!!! we don't have the resources!!!! and we're not going to look for them <3
#i wished i lived in this fantasy world where the active resistance of doctors wasn't completely destroying my life#where it was just a matter of not knowing and not active hostility#it's one thing for a doctor to be like oh hm i don't know let me try looking into this or referring you to someone who might know#but 90% of doctors i've dealt with have been like lmao suffer and didn't try anything or refer me anywhere#and even if they DO that they are punished. my current psychiatrist(s) does so much and gets swatted down at every turn#and to be clear the last 10% here tried one (1) thing (basic metabolic workup) and then when it showed nothing were like#okay you are fine 🙏 bye#i do not have very much love for doctors and sorry to bitch about that all the time but as an offshoot of my last post#i cannot complain around my family because then it's like uwu 🥺 did you tell the doctor you have a dog. did you tell him you have a dog.#did you tell the doctor you have a dog this could be a dog allergy did you tell him that you--#shoutout to the doctor who was helpful and then decided that he was done and just going to prescribe claritin#and then didn't even bother to do that when i went by the pharmacy#not that it really matters i already did antihistamines but it was a good try <3#should we throw a party <3 should we invite the nurse that when i burst into tears said nothing and just walked out <3#he at least humored me and ordered some more testing but only after making it clear that i was stupid for asking and that he was humoring m#got some of the results back and surprise surprise it's very autoimmune#health
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#vent#ignore or don't I'm not a fucking cop#dysphoria is a fucking bitch and a half#I don't talk about it much on here but I am genderfluid and I have days that are fem masc both neither etc#and most days I don't mind that I look very masc#but I just opened my camera and it was front facing and I almost burst into tears because I saw a man looking back at me#I was feeling very very fem and just the sudden reality slapping me in the face fucking sucked#FUCK I WANT TO START HRT SO FUCKING BAD BUT I CAN'T FUCKING SUPPORT MYSELF SO I HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY PARENTS#and I'm not out to them about being bi let along trans#and though I HOPE they would be supportive#if they aren't I'm literally fucked#I hate it here
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is it possible for me to just be on every taglist automatically? Because actually I want my notifs filled with your writing. This is how I feel every single time you post.
oh my god, i am gonna cry actually.
yes. yes, this is absolutely possible. i can definitely make an all or nothing taglist, i've just always assumed that there wasn't anyone who would want to be tagged in all of my writing.
gah. ily <3
#thank u ily <3#emmaisgonnacry <3#i will burst into tears#but anyone who does want a situation like this#let me know#the only thing i don't use taglists for is my celebration/events!! but if y'all really wanted me to add those to that stuff i could#just again#I ALWAYS ASSUMED people wouldn't want that haha#IM the insane one actually
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this volume completely destroyed me but these are the exact panels that made me start crying actual physical tears. completely broke me
#the first especially. you know when you know it's too late and that's the last time things will be as they are and from then onwards-#everythings changed. the anticipatory grief and desperation cause you want to claw them back but that's it. you have to let go#and don't even get me started on the last one. I think if I ever see confetti I will burst into tears. I have nothing eloquent to say#please read trigun maximum#trigun spoilers#.txt
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Didn't even make it til 10AM without sobbing at my desk this time.
#overachiever to the max#less than an hour at work? Time to SOB!#I fucked up an interaction with my doctor cuz they can't read and I can't pretend to be a sane normal human for two seconds#so I said#Hey the anti anxiety med you prescribed works really well and I do still have several left#but I don't want to be anxious about#like rationing them for fear that I won't get more so can we set it up as a recurring prescription like we had discussed?#and she said “I'm so glad it's working well for you! Happy holidays!”#so I said “Thank you. So if I need a refill do I call or?”#and she said “You can always call our office!”#so I called the office to clarify and immediately burst into tears because I am a disaster who hasn't stopped crying for three days#and they were like “do you... want a refill?” and I blubbered something about just needing to know that I CAN get a refill if/when I need t#so they are going to “Check with the doctor and let me know”#which means that she's going to find out I'm crazy#which probably means she won't give me these again#which means I have 12 to make last for the rest of time because I'm a fucking idiot and broke one trying to half it and it just shattered#because I can't even take pills correctly apparently#also found out yesterday I don't even take BATHS correctly like#jesus christ#can I please for the love of god have one single aspect of my life where I do something right#and am not just a fucked up disaster mess
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Feeling anxious as hell with the thought of going to work today
#i'm lowkey afraid to let my coworkers see my new hair#and especially the customers#my self esteem is so fragile atm that one(1) bad comment or weird look WILL make me burst into tears#i just…wasn't expecting it to look the way it does on me#in theory it's a cute style for sure#but on me?#i don't think it fits in the slightest…#but i'm hoping that's just my lack of self worth talking#i thought i was ugly beforehand anyway so…#the star child speaks#negative
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#venting in the tags so anyone can ignore it#but i really need to move to a calmer place#with the migraine the tinnitus is so much worse#which mean sensory (auditory) overload is breaking the roof#which means i'm trying very hard to not burst into tears because i can't process the noise#someone has been listening loudly to music around my place all day long and the bass is sending painful shock waves to my brain#motorbikes outside are hurting my brain too#every street noise is too much#and omg i think they just stopped the music#i think it was from the shop downstairs??? oh please i hope it won't be a daily thing#the guys are weird there too... i don't want to go there and ask them to not put the music so loud#because i'm sure for a regular person it's not even so loud#and they're super loud people so i'm sure for them it's not even an average level of music...#let me live in the countryside please i can't with all this noise
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Walking to your apartment,you don't expect to see Sukuna down on his knees,with a baby Yuji sitting on his back.
The man gives you a flat look,as Yuji tugs at his identical pink hair,and babbles something.
"don't even dare-"
You burst out laughing.
In your defense,its not often to see your boyfriend,CEO of his own company,one of the scariest man alive, crawling on his hands and knees to please his nephew. Its not often to see Yuji happily tug at his hair more,only to make Sukuna crawl towards you.
"oh my god-"
"i said dont-"
"he has you wrapped around his tiny finger!"
You giggle and wipe the tear from your eye; already feeling the exhaustion of the day long at work fading away. You sigh,and crouch down to Yuji's eye level on your boyfriend's back,and pinch his chubby cheek.
"look at you go! making scary uncle Ryo kneel for you!"
Yuji giggles happily and wraps his tiny fingers around yours. The sight makes your heart soften and you lean to press a gentle kiss to his chubby cheek over your boyfriend's head. When you hear him grumble under his breath,you chuckle and kiss Sukuna's forehead as well. He glares at you,and it makes you press another loud kiss to his cheek.
"stop that, woman!"
"or what?" You tease and brush his bangs from his eyes, "you're gonna make me sit on your back too?"
"oh baby," a sudden dangerous glint takes over his red eyes,and you feel yourself growing hot under his hungry gaze, "i can think of more entertaining ways to punish you, we both know that."
You huff,and try to ignore your burning cheeks.
"not in front of Yuji. Behave, Ryo." You stand up from you position,and move toward kitchen, "did you guys eat anything?"
"i could eat you, instead-"
"Ryo!"
And even though he doesnt understand a word,Yuji lets out a loud laughter over your banter. You just have to pray to all the gods above so he doesn't pick up anything from his uncle as his first word.
#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna fluff#sukuna x reader#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#uncle!sukuna
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I'm so tired I'm barely functioning anymore
#personal#school and work both full-time is a bad idea#but my phd isn't funded#my school won't even let my program have a grad assistant anymore#my program doesn't offer any summer classes so I'll just be working for a bit#but I basically feel purposeless without school#trying my best#but it's never enough#i think if someone told me “good job” and “I'm proud of you” I'd just burst into tears#but i don't think i'm in danger of that happening#exhaustion#frustration#depression#not soccer
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