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its 10pm, my project is due in 14 hours, im at around 800 words out of 2k, and im abt to power through an all-nighter with a gallon cups of tea bc adrenaline is high and sleep is fucked like usual <33
#sophieâs idle chatter#SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL#THIS IS NOT WORTH 20% OF MY GRADE GNSDFM#WAILS IN PICKING ENG LANG đđ#anyway hello new followers and happy 3.8k??? đ€©#but also i now have my jing yuan fic in the works OFFICIALLY so thats fun and i love him a lot#ALSO LIVESTREAM TMRW???? RIGHT BEFORE MY PROJECTS DUE????? BAIZHU????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????#i will be crying for the next two weeks bc im on easter break after tmrw and can afford it ahah đ«¶đ«¶#anywho thats it for the life update bc i need to get back to this and just. finish it. so that i can never think abt it again.#will i come back tmrw?? will i just pass out when i get back home and wake up saturday morning???#the latter is more likely than u think :'D#but yes hehehahahoho live laugh love i hope ur all doing much better than i am and this is me wishing u all a good night đ„čđ«¶đ«¶#(bUT BAIZHU SOON BAIZHU REAL SCREECH)
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duet | see you soon then
DUET MASTERLIST
NOTE FOR ALL READERS: this is an installment of a series. the masterlist for a catch-up is linked above. this particular chapter is to fall between [im]mature and silky smooth. thanks!
desc: things had been a bit rocky when the twins told you they were leaving hogwarts before graduation. youâd been so hellbent and obsessed on spending time with george that youâd sort of neglected fred. emotions are running high, but the three of you fall into a comfortable routine and suddenly youâre bursting at the seams with happiness. but since itâs finally time for them to leave, you have absolutely no luck in trying to suppress your tears. theyâre making their dreams come true, so why is it so damn hard to say goodbye right now?
a/n: yo! sorry its been a while. school has been kicking my ass and also I genuinely had no inspiration to write this chapter. it was actually supposed to look a little different which is what I think was evidently holding me back. but leeannâs the best and has been incredibly patient with me as I worked through my writerâs block and we bounced ideas off of one another. i..... am so sorry for this. full masterlist is linked above, loves.
word count: 3.4k
warning(s): just sadness bc boys are leaving :(
Things had been⊠tense, to say the least. Your arguments with both of your best mates had caused quite a bit of discomfort between you all. And not to mention that the Easter holidays were rapidly approaching, which only seemed to speed up the pounding in your chest.
Youâd been making progress, though, coming around to the idea of finishing school without them. What an incredible opportunity this was for them, wasnât it? While your feelings of dread and sadness were still very much prominent, you couldnât help but be bursting at the seams with pride, too.
They were damn brilliant individuals and it was about time more people recognized that, right?
It still didnât lessen the pain in your heart, though. It only seemed to elevate it. But you supposed, youâd only learn to grow from it.
The three of you had fallen into a somewhat comfortable routine. Spending lots of time with one another -- youâd also been very conscious about how much time you spent chasing after George. You didnât want to embarrass yourself any further than you already had. Plus, youâd sadly forgotten how lovely it was to be with just Fred -- he was your absolute best mate, after all, and while yes, there had been times when the two of you had very angrily bumped heads, it only made your friendship that much stronger. You owed it to him. You owed it to yourself.
And youâd taken to spending more time with the Gryffindors too, when that ghastly toad look-a-like of a woman wasnât around. What she didnât know wouldnât kill her. They were your friends, too, after all -- Ginny, Ron, Harry, Hermione, Neville -- the lot of them. And by the light of the common room fire reflecting in Fredâs eyes, and the very bright grin George had painted onto his face nearly every evening, you were pretty certain they were genuinely happy to have you there.
âWhatâs this one?â
âAh -- an extension of our latest and greatest inventions, Y/N,â Fred beamed, examining his own creation as he twirled it in his fingers, âWildfire Whizbangs.â
âYou mean youâve created something even bigger than those blasted fireworks youâd let loose in the courtyard a few weeks ago?â you asked, raising an eyebrow. âDonât tell me youâre about to set the bloody Great Hall on fire -- Iâve got exams coming up, you know.â
George laughed and pulled out yet another wildly vibrant colored whizbang from their trunk. âCanât make any promises.â
Youâd been spending so much time in their common room, in fact, that people had just ended up making you an honorary Gryffindor. You did miss yours, though -- the warmth hues of the yellow lining, the cozy armchairs near the fire with books next to it stacked so high they touched the ceiling, the tiny, potted plants on the windowsill. You were placed in Hufflepuff after all, so it was only normal that youâd miss the coziness of your own spot.
You couldnât help it, though. You found yourself with your friends until the late hours of the evening, and sometimes youâd ever crash in the girlsâ dormitory in Gryffindor tower because it was far too late to even attempt to sneak back down to your own common room, and the boys didnât want you to risk getting into some type of trouble. Whoâd have thought? The Kings of Mischief, worried about you getting into trouble. The irony was wonderfully funny.
Youâd even found yourself working less and less on your assignments, just to spend time with them. It was, truthfully, the closest the three of you had been since youâd met. Absolutely nothing could squash your happiness.
Until you realized one evening when you were pulling on your silk pyjamas and thinking about how good things had been, that you had exactly one week left with them. One week. Seven days. Most of which would be spent studying for exams.
Some type of knot shot up into your throat and you found that your eyes had begun to water more so than normal. Sometimes, you couldnât quite believe the effect this was having on you.
And so you swallowed down your feelings and forced yourself to sleep, hoping that the next day, you wouldnât think about the limited time you had left with them before they fled school, but only about just how much you enjoyed your time with them.
-- -
âPlease donât cry. If you cry, Iâll cry, and Iâm a bloody ugly crier.â
You knew that Fred was doing his best to make you laugh. He always had a particular knack for making you burst out into giggles at the most inappropriate of times. But even so, the mischievous glimmer in his eye and the lopsided grin on his face couldnât make you laugh. Not this time.
Youâd sort of distanced yourself this last week. Not purposefully, mind you, but because there was studying to be done. You had exams, didnât you? And the boys needed to pack all of their belongings for their adventure into adulthood. It sounded so silly when you thought about it. But it also sent a soul-crushing feeling straight through your body.
You hated crying in front of them. Sure, you were a bit dramatic at times, but you tried your absolute hardest not to break down in front of them if you could help it. But this was different, you reckoned. This was them leaving with a permanence that could not be undone. This was goodbye⊠for now.
âI -- Iâm just --â your voice sounded raspy and weak, like someone was gripping your vocal cords and strangling them. You watched through blurred vision as Fredâs lower lip began to wobble, and he bit down on it to keep you from noticing. But you noticed. Of course you did. How could you not? You knitted your brows together to keep the tears from falling, but your emotions were far too high for anything to work. You searched desperately for the words that were filling up your heart, though were proving very difficult to leave your lips. âIâm.. Iâm reallyâŠâ
And Fred, who found himself sometimes turning to mush around you, let his shoulders collapse as tears welled up in his eyes, too. He couldnât believe they were really doing this -- really leaving. Hogwarts had been their home away from home for so many years, and you, the second sister he didnât know he needed.
When he spoke, his voice didnât have the usual cheeky sound to it, that mischievous tone you grew to know and love so much. It was soft, and tired, and pleading with you to please not be angry. You could hear it in the way that he said, âI know,â before pulling you into his chest. He interwove his fingers in your hair and pressed his lips to your forehead before sucking in a breath. You tugged gently on the drawstring hanging from his sweatshirt. It was hard to stay mad at either of them. You forced your eyes shut and bit down hard on your bottom lip, causing you to suck in another breath due to the pain. You felt your heart snap perfectly in half when you heard his voice shake a bit. âIâm really going to miss you, too.â
That was one of the most intimate moments youâd ever shared with Fred, letting each other cry into one anotherâs shoulders. The vulnerability hanging in the air between you both was so intense, it almost didnât seem real. But as quickly as this new side of Fred had appeared, it vanished when he pulled away from you and held onto your shoulders to steady you. He sniffled a bit and tried to nonchalantly wipe away a tear from his eye. âBut youâre coming to visit, yeah? First thing after graduation?â
âOf course,â you playfully swatted him with the sleeve of your robe. âHave got to make sure you two donât find yourselves in any mischief, right?â
Fred threw his head back and laughed. âGreat thing about our shop is that mischief is more than welcomed, darling.â
You both continued to laugh through tears, until everything became still and silent between you both. You bit down on your bottom lip again and repeated the address back to him very slowly. âNumber 93 Diagon Alley.â
âNumber 93 Diagon Alley,â he echoed you. His grin was so large, you began to see traces of that thirteen-year-old boy youâd first met all those long years ago. He was so excited, wasnât he? You felt a pull at your heart. And you were so excited for them. âI love you, kid. Donât forget to write, and definitely donât forget to study. Molly Weasley would be so disappointed.â
He pulled you in for another hug before making his way down the corridor. You folded your arms across your chest and raised an eyebrow. âYou? The King of avoiding schoolwork at all costs is actually telling me to study?â
âWhat can I say?â Fred shrugged his shoulders. Your best mate. Your best mate in the entire world, known for his pranks and laughter and everything in between was pointing a finger at you and telling you to get a jump start on your school work, like heâd done a complete one-eighty. âYou just bring out this side of me.â
âI love you, you absolute git.â
âI love you more.â
Your breathing intensified as he vanished down the corridor.
âWow,â you heard a voice from behind you, âcanât believe you somehow got my brother to tell you to study. What has the world come too?â
When you whirled around to come face to face with George, his face was an exact carbon copy of Fredâs -- but his sparkling eyes and lopsided grin made your insides twist in a way that Fredâs didnât. All you wanted to do was run up to your dorm and cry, thinking about the entirety of your schooling where you couldâve been wrapped up in his arms if heâd just felt the same way. But that wouldnât help you in any way. You had to be thankful for what you had.
âIt definitely wonât be the same with you two gone.â
You couldnât help it -- the words escaped you before you could register your own thoughts. You could see Georgeâs expression fill with guilt, something that had been happening more often than not, so you offered him a tremendous grin that split your face in half, despite the tears that were falling generously now. You stuck your hand out to pull him into you. âI hope you know how proud I am of you both.â
He breathed a sigh of relief, took your hand in his and walked toward you. He pulled you into a bone crushing embrace, one youâd definitely feel the effects of a few days from now. He cradled your head in his hand the exact same way Fred did, and also placed a kiss onto your hair, but the way your blood bubbled at his touch was so very different from the way you felt with your best friend.
âI just want to thank you.â
âFor what?â
âFor.. everything.â Georgeâs voice was raspy. He pulled away from you but didnât let go. He slid his hands across your shoulders and down your arms before intertwining his fingers with yours. He slowly caressed his thumbs over the tops of your hands as he chose his words carefully. âFor being my best friend, for believing in this ridiculous idea, for dealing with my antics. For everything, all of it. I reckon Hogwarts would not have been the same had I not met you in Charms.â
âIt was my favorite lesson, you know.â
âMine, too.â
You forced yourself to continue to smile at him through your tears, because you didnât want you blubbering like an idiot to be the last thing heâd see before leaving the castle. As if this entire exchange hadnât been dramatic enough, you were really considering telling him how you felt -- right as he left. You could shout out I love you!, couldnât you? It would be the perfect time, too, because heâd already be off and you could run up to your dormitory without worrying about having to face him or your own intense feelings! The words were right there, on the tip of your tongue --
âSave a pygmy puff for me, yeah?â
But those were the words that spoke instead.
George raised his eyebrows and held up a finger. âOh! That reminds me. Have got something for you.â You threaded your eyebrows together in confusion as he reached into his pocket. He very gently pulled out a ribbon, the colour a perfect blend of purple and pink, same as the puffs, with sparkles dancing across it as if it were charmed. Which, knowing George, it probably was. He fiddled with it slightly in his hands before looking up to meet your gaze. âYouâve inspired us. Got a whole line of these things in the works. So I want you to do me a favour.â
Your voice was a whisper. Youâd nearly forgotten how to formulate coherent sentences. âWhat?â you asked him.
He then took a very deep breath and reached out to move your hair. He gently placed the ribbon behind your ears and tied it into a small bow on the top of your head. âWhen youâre feeling poorly about your exams, or about finishing school, or about anything, because I know you will -- put this on. Think of us. And just remember that weâre only a letter away until graduation, alright?â
As he watched more tears well up in your eyes, he considered telling you the truth: that it had been him this whole time, sending you these letters and gifts. Itâd been him since the beginning, heâd just been too afraid to tell you. He wet his lips and watched as you brought your fingers to the ribbon and touched it gently. He was going to do it, it was time. Probably a few years too late, but he couldnât worry about that now. He was leaving in five bloody minutes, and he had to seize his chance, when the vulnerability was thick and the emotions were high and he wasnât going to chicken out completely --
But just as he found his confidence, Fred softly called his name from round the bend before disappearing again. You threw your arms around the back of Georgeâs neck and stood on the tips of your toes to hug him. There was no mistaking the sound of your wobbly voice in his ears -- you were crying fully now. âIâm going to miss you.â
If his emotions werenât sky high, he wouldâve noticed just how easily the tears came to the front of his eyes at your simple, five word phrase.
âIâm going to miss you, too.â
He wished it could be yesterday, or the day before. Or last month. Or last year. He wanted to be back in Charms in your third year. He wished he could go back in time, any amount of time, just to have more with you, because this couldnât possibly be the end. It couldnât be.
Through sniffles and sobs and the cracks in your voice, he swore he heard you say, âI love you.â
Fire shot through his veins, but bloody hell, he didnât have time to unload all of that. Fred was calling his name again. âI love you, too.â
George pressed his lips to your hairline and stayed there like that for a few more seconds you wished could last a lifetime. You didnât even bother trying to hide your tears anymore -- they were cascading down your cheeks, and violent sobs were involuntarily escaping from your overused lungs. Every single ounce of your body hurt due to all of the crying youâd been doing the last couple of days. It felt so stupid and so dramatic and so absolutely awful, because the truth was, it was only a couple of months until you saw them again. Until you saw him again. A few months was nothing.
But the idea of being here without them hurt more than you could begin to fathom.
When he pulled away, you noticed how red and blotchy his cheeks were alongside his bloodshot eyes, his messy hair. But you beamed at him again and squeezed his hand and said, âCongratulations,â and watched him as his fingers let go of yours and he walked toward the other end of the corridor.
âHey,â you called, thinking of something. George spun around quickly and peered longingly at you. You just needed a few more seconds or so. âHowâre you two getting out of here, anyway? You know Umbridge has all the entrances sealed. You think itâs going to work, whatever you twoâve got planned?â There was a sliver of selfishness that hoped it didnât, but you suppressed it. You were overflowing with pride for your best friends.
And then there he was -- that young boy filled with adventure and reckless abandon, looking at you as if only seeing you for the very first time. His grin deepened when he replied, âDonât worry -- itâs in typical Weasley fashion.â He stopped in his tracks and placed his hands in his pockets, and peered at you with a type of intense sincerity that made every muscle in your body ache all over again. âIâll see you soon, then?â
Your lip quivered again. âYeah,â you replied, willing yourself to believe it. You would. âIâll see you soon, then.â
You shook your head at him and watched as he disappeared around the bend, but not before that signature wink he loved to offer.
About thirty minutes later, after youâd had a good cry and rinsed the runny mascara off of your cheeks and from underneath your eyes, you heard a bit of yelling from inside the castle. You were sitting in the courtyard basking in the glorious spring weather, forcing yourself to focus on what you needed to study, when a group of students began to huddle near the windows.
Confused, you shut your spellbook and wandered over to where they were gathered, wondering what the bloody hell could be going on inside. Werenât the fifth years supposed to be taking their OWLs?
And then two red headed figures zoomed out of the castle on their broomsticks, followed by a firework dragon the size of the real dragon Harry had fought just last year, with more sparklers and pyrotechnics behind them brightening up the sky. Students flooded into the courtyard and cheers were nearly shaking the whole entire structure of the castle. You looked around at all of the students, beaming with exuberance, and wondered just how many of the Wildfire Whizbangs had gotten caught in Umbridgeâs hair, setting it aflame. You smiled to yourself and began to clap, too.
For as blue as you felt, you were ten times happier for them.
George and Fred were now hovering in the air beneath a very large firework in the shape of a âWâ. Fred was busy cheering along with the crowd, clearly pleased with the feedback from all of the students -- and even some teachers. Was that Flitwick he spotted below? Had he made his Charms teacher proud?
But George wasnât cheering -- he was focused. Focused on scanning the crowd, focused on bouncing his eyes from student to student until he found the familiar one he was looking for.
âYou alright, Georgie?â Fred called over the roar of the dragon, now swimming through the clouds.
âYeah,â George replied, though he didnât fully believe it -- not until he saw you, in the middle of a sea of Ravenclaws, peering up at the two of them with nothing but admiration plastered onto your face. George breathed another sigh of relief and didnât take his eyes off of you. He couldnât. âYeah, Iâm alright.â
âTo new adventures!â Fred cheered and raised his hands in delight. More students began to scream and cheer and wave to them from the grounds. He proceeded to do a backflip on his broomstick in the air.
When your eyes met his from below, he watched as your smile slowly grew a bit larger and your clapping became more exuberant. He could already count down the bloody days until you were finished with school and walking through the front doors of their shop, a grin on your face so large it could cure diseases! But for now, you had to study, and he had a business to run.
He turned toward his brother, who had never looked more excited or proud in all his years. George stuck out his hand for a high-five as he wobbled slightly on his broom. To Fred, George replied, âTo new adventures, mate.â
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i just keep getting so angry about hospital so im going to try and write down everything bad i can remember them doing to try and get it all out
when they first came to my house dr d completely waved off what i said abt not remembering childhood & being disturbed by that. he asked me to name a childhood toy & after i could he said âsee, you can rememberâ even though id literally seen that toy that morning & was remembering from,, you know,, my whole life not just my childhood
despite the fact that i was not a danger to myself or anyone else, dr d decided after seeing me for 20 minutes that i had to go into hospital. he said i could either come informally myself or he would have me sectioned
i was not told how long i would be there for. we were told to bring an overnight bag so i expected it to just be overnight. when i got there i was told that iâd be there for at least 2 weeks
when they first gave me the menu to order off i wasnt told that there was a Rule that i had to finish everything so i ordered the thing i thought id like the most even tho i knew there was stuff i wouldnt like with it
when the food arrived (pizza, peas & chips) i ate everything except the cheese on the pizza bc it was cheddar & thats a Bad Food(tm) & i was really proud of myself bc it was more than iâd had in one sitting for weeks. the exact words the nurse with me said were âthis counts as a failureâ
when the snack time came around no one told me the full list of options (weeks later i found out that chocolate was available) so i picked a yogurt. after opening it i realised it had bits in it but i was too scared to ask for a different one bc i didnt like any of the other flavours. i ate as much as i could but i rlly couldnt stand the bits. the nurse with me told me it was another failure but another nurse in the room, thankfully, replaced her & understood what had happened
i dont remember what happened on the rest of the first day bc my abandonment fear kicked in and i got really panicked when my parents had to leave
i dont remember the rest in chronological order, but lets see
the room i was put into had a leaky toilet. it would leak all night long and due to how the bathroom was the leak echoed. it sounded like a waterfall. every time they came to fix it it would break again later that day. my shower was also broken and wouldnt turn on
i had to have a blood test on a friday but they didnt send the bloods off straight away so i had to have another one the next monday. keep in mind that i have an intense fear of needles
dr d compared me going on the internet to drug addicts waiting in line for heroine, even after i explained that it was the only way i had to avoid isolating myself & tried to explain what i actually do there
i couldnt eat a meal and was told âif you dont start eating weâll have to make youâ despite the fact that i was eating when i could & if i couldnt finish a meal i was eating chocolate that was in my room. also despite the fact i was an informal patient so that was literally not possible
dr d spent hours trying to convince & guilt me into agreeing to take medication, despite the fact that was the one thing iâd always said no to (fun fact! i literally cant swallow medication. no one took me seriously when i said that either). eventually tho the psychologist spoke to him abt it & he stopped
the first 2 weeks i was there i saw no therapists. at all. because it was the easter holidays and they were away. there was nothing to do all day except watch tv, colour, & play cards. despite the fact that we were all so bored we were not taken out of the hospital or allowed access to our phones
in fact, for the entire 2 months i was there i was only taken out by staff twice. both those times happened in the same day. and were to the same place. a costa that was in the main hospital. does it even count as going out if youre just taken to a different part of the same building?
i had to stay there for 2 months while actively suicidal patients were allowed to leave before their 2 week assessments were over
even my camhs psychologist admitted that she didnt expect them to keep me for more than 2 weeks
the hospital psychologist admitted that she had no idea why dr d was insisting i stay for so long
i was told i was going to be put on a meal plan. i told them that would make me lose weight bc it would further limit how much i could eat. they didnt listen to me and blamed me when i did, in fact, lose weight
for the first month i was there no one did anything about my weight. i had to keep telling them that was my main problem and i needed help with it. after their âhelpâ hindered more than anything i regretted bringing it up
one night we found a piece of paper saying âi have a knife and im going to use it to self harm or kill someoneâ. when we all got, understandably, scared the nurses patronised us and got annoyed with us
a nurse yelled at my friend for ânot being politeâ
my friend managed to run away from the hospital twice. there were warning signs that the rest of the patients picked up on. she nearly killed herself both times
my friend found a razorblade on a seat. she was so shocked to see it there she said out loud âthereâs a razorbladeâ. she said later that she regretted alerting everyone to it bc the nurses obviously took it away. we still dont know how it got there
one girl brought in a pair of scissors. no one had thought to check her bag. luckily she didnt intend to use them for anything other than arts & crafts (& cutting her hair, which is how i found out about the scissors & told her to hand them in. yeah, they didnt even notice she had scissors until i pointed them out)
one girl stole a syringe from the medical room and used it to take the supplement out of her nose tube. they didnt notice for weeks.
one week i gained some of weight. when i was happy dr d said âthats not really enough to be happy aboutâ. the next week a lost less weight than i had gained. he spent half an hour telling me about how much of a failure i was
dr d tried very hard to have me diagnosed with atypical anorexia despite me consistently saying âi want to gain weight because i know im unhealthily underweightâ and the fact that the reason i was admitted to camhs was bc i went to the doctor for help to gain weight
my parents came to collect me to go out every day at 1:30pm. one day by 3:30pm they still werent there. i was scared something had happened because i had no phone to text them using. eventually i was told that the staff had called them to tell them not to come, and no one had told me. i had a panic attack because theyd gone behind my back and this meant i wouldnt be able to text my fp all day. the next day when i saw dr d he said âyoure nearly 18 isnt it a bit childish to get upset over not seeing your parents for just one day?â
an ot that i saw said that i âput on an american accent and smiled when it was pointed outâ. what really happened was she asked if i had an american accent and i smiled out of awkwardness and said âi speak to american people so maybe i picked it up??â bc i didnt want her to feel awkward. if she had asked me i would have told her that i wasnt trying to put on any kind of accent
we were allowed to watch the babadook and mama but the second we suggested a film about psychosis we were told no
me and my friend got yelled at for what was on tv once
they called the police on patients, multiple times, when it was clear that no one would have reacted violently if theyâd just done their jobs right
my friend cried because she knew after she left hospital she would have a criminal record. she had punched a nurse by accident while having a panic attack
i was told i could go home & was being discharged. i emptied out my room and spent a great 2 weeks at home. then we were called and i was told i had to go back for a night
dr d always had an idea in his head of what was wrong with me, and if i said anything that went against it heâd tell me that i was either lying or in denial
dr d told me off for not looking at him and said it wasnt polite
dr d told me off for crying
dr d told me off for not feeling safe with my eyes closed
dr d told another patient that she was probably not autistic bc she understood what âpull your socks upâ meant
despite me saying that i wanted to be assessed for asd nothing happened. they told me that they would consider me to be âinformally autisticâ but that meant literally nothing
nurses thought that they could get me to eat by sitting next to me and guilting me
very few nurses noticed that i ate chocolate after meals because i was aware of the fact that i wasnt eating much & i wanted to change that
i had to eat chocolate after meals bc no one listened to me when i explained my food issues and that was the only way to make sure i was eating
there was what was basically a riot. i wasnt there when it happened but its easy to see how people got that upset and angry
the day after the riot everyone was punished, even those of us who hadnt even been at the hospital
my friend was shut in the ârumpus roomâ (padded room). its illegal to do that
it took a month before someone told me i was allowed to discharge myself
i spent two months in a psychiatric hospital. it was never explained why i was there in a way i could understand. dr d literally said âmy colleagues ask why youâre still hereâ yet he didnât discharge me. if i hadnât turned 18 im sure i would still be there. i wasnt diagnosed with anything. it made my mental health worse
this isnt even everything because my memory of then is very patchy
#yellow.txt#.txt#long post --#hospital --#food m --#calories m --#ed m --#doctors m --#ask to tag --#ableism ? --#medical abuse ? --#hospital tag
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