#i wasn't gonna watch the movie i was gonna write my essay instead so i looked up what happened because i was curious and e

[cacw]

when we were reading lord of the flies in hs my teacher showed us the mist because the premise was similar and it made me so sad i almost threw up

[rollercoasterwords]

Hi! I found your blog through the female rage substack article that you posted and I’m curious about a couple things (so I hope the tone of this ask will read as genuine/non-confrontational etc).

I really liked the article and the anti-gender essentialist content, so I looked through the others and eventually found your jegulus article (which I read and also liked) but I was sort of surprised to see that you are a part of the hp/marauders fandom. For me personally, everything related to that franchise has just been tainted since the whole jkr terf debacle really took off. I was big on hp when I was younger and wolfstar is a ship/dynamic that I enjoyed back then, so I’d probably like your stuff if I were to read it. But I decided some time ago to give any and all hp content the chop, because to me it didn’t feel right to engage with it anymore. So I was just wondering how you feel in that regard, if you don’t mind sharing. I don’t have anyone in my internet content circle that still actively posts about hp and if irl friends still enjoy it then it’s not something we talk about, so I’d just like to know how you juggle the ‘two sides’ in that sense of your trans-positive/anti-essentialist beliefs and fandom content that’s still so intrinsically connected to jkr and her politics. (Also, sorry if you’ve answered a question like this before. I scrolled through your blog a bit, but if yes then not far enough.)

Anyway, hope you’re well and I’ll probably keep an eye out for any future essays on your substack even if I don’t follow you on here. cheers! (and thanks for the “playing the whore” book rec, I’ll be looking into that. a rec from my end would be paul b. preciado's "can the monster speak". it's the written version of a speech he tried to give at a Freudian psychoanalysis conference about the position trans people occupy in psychoanalysis before being booed off stage. it was short and pretty intriguing, in case you're interested/haven't heard of it yet.)

hi! happy 2 hear u enjoyed the female rage essay--i wasn't expecting it to spread as much as it did + had to turn off reblogs for my own peace of mind 2 keep terfs away from my blog, but it's nice to know there are still people getting something out of it. also appreciate the book rec--that definitely sounds up my alley + i'm excited to check it out!

and i'll do my best to answer your question about hp, but i'm gonna put it under a cut because i know this is a contentious topic + i have a feeling my answer's gonna get long--so if anyone doesn't want 2 read abt my conflicting hp-fandom thoughts, just scroll away please xx

so, quite honestly, i'm in agreement with you that the entire franchise is tainted by jkr. the truth is that it was never really my intention to join the fandom--i read a single fic because it went viral on tiktok, then decided to rewrite the fic from another character's pov just for fun. at that point, i hadn't read any other hp fic and had never been involved in any kind of online fandom space, and although i'd read the hp books + watched the movies growing up i hadn't touched them in years + was so far removed from the franchise that i vaguely remembered hearing jkr had said some terfy stuff, but wasn't aware of the extent to which her politics were like. actively and significantly causing real-life harm.

anyway, i'd done a rewrite for fun of another story i liked and had posted it on ao3, and that had received a handful of people commenting + talking about the story with me as i wrote but had remained pretty self-contained + small. i was expecting the same sort of thing with the hp fic i rewrote, but instead someone posted about it on tiktok and it went viral, and then suddenly there were thousands of people reading every ch update and hundreds of comments. like i said, i had never been involved in an online fandom space before, so i sort of awkwardly stumbled into it and tried to figure out what i was doing as i finished up writing the fic. this was at a point in my life where i'd recently moved to a different country and had to go back in the closet after being publicly out for years, and this online fandom space became my only queer community and a bit of a lifeline in that way. i started making actual friends and talking to people + getting more deeply involved in the community aspect of things.

at the same time, i started actually educating myself on jkr + her politics + her impact, and the more i learned the more uncomfortable i became with being part of anything hp-related. now, i've been writing hp fic for almost two years and 'active' in the fandom for ~one and a half, and despite being grateful for the friends i've made and treasuring the space i've been able to cultivate, i've become increasingly disenchanted with 'the fandom' as a whole and have increasingly found it to be a hostile space, so i've sort of taken a step back from broader engagement and more + more have limited my interaction to just my mutuals here on tumblr. unfortunately, i think many of the 'bad parts' of this fandom are somewhat built-in because of the source material; there are a lot of people who agree with jkr's politics to varying extents and that can make it kind of a miserable place to be sometimes. i know many people insist that hp can be completely removed from jkr, but i don't think that's the case, and i've talked on my blog before about the fact that her politics are built into the very foundations of the text, so i think it's necessary to acknowledge her influence if we want to actually engage with hp at all in a way that isn't just perpetuating her politics.

all that being said, the point i'm at currently is that i'm not really sure that this fandom is a space i want to be a part of forever. again--i understand how it can be lifeline for some people and a queer community they might not have elsewhere, because that's been the case for me. but for me personally, as much as i value my own carved-out space, it doesn't completely outweigh the negatives that i have found myself coming into contact with more and more in this fandom. writing hp fic is also something that i keep strictly separate from 'real life,' contained solely in this online space, because i know that any engagement with hp is a red flag for many, many trans people and i don't want to bring it outside of this space. within this online space, i don't keep it a secret that i write hp fic; it's right at the top of my blog so that anyone who wants to can easily block and unfollow me. i only post my fics on ao3, where they are clearly tagged as harry potter fanfiction, and i only post about hp fic + fandom stuff on this blog, which was specifically created for that purpose. i've requested that people no longer post about my hp fics on platforms like tiktok where the algorithm could send it out onto anyone's fyp, and that request is also in my pinned faq. keeping my hp fic as contained as possible to only people who are already engaging with hp fic is one way that i try to mitigate any harm that might be caused by my fics contributing to hp's ongoing popularity.

the other ways i try to mitigate potential harm are by actively discouraging people from giving any financial support to hp + jkr and by being very vocal about my politics on this page, so that anyone who is following me will be getting pro-trans and anti-gender essentialism politics along with any hp engagement. i also don't engage with hp uncritically; i am specifically critical of the shitty politics in the books both in my posts on this blog and my fics themselves. i don't make it a secret that i think the books are politically rotten all the way down through to the foundations.

none of this is to say that there's, like...a Right Way to engage with this content or a set of rules that, if followed, Absolve All Shittiness. this is just an explanation of the personal evaluations i've had to weigh when it comes to deciding how i'm going to interact with content that is fundamentally opposed to my own politics. and again, i don't blame people who think that any amount of engagement is morally untenable and completely block it out. this is a growing source of cognitive dissonance in my own life, and i'm increasingly considering whether/for how much longer i want to continue to write fic + be involved in hp fandom. but for the time being, i'm still here + still writing fic, and i guess my feeling is that any harm that fic causes is a drop in the bucket, and even if i were to stop writing it wouldn't necessarily have a huge impact either way. i'm just some random guy online like everyone else; even though i talk about politics, that doesn't mean that i'm asking to be held up as some sort of moral standard, nor do i think anyone should be expected to be 100% politically perfect in every action they take--like, for me, writing hp fic kind of falls into the same category as like...eating mcdonalds even though i think factory farming is fucked, or buying + wearing makeup sometimes even though i think the beauty industry is fundamentally corrupt, or paying to see the new guardians of the galaxy movie in theaters even though i think marvel movies are us military propaganda. i don't think "no ethical consumption under capitalism" is an excuse to completely abandon any attempt to mitigate the harm our actions might cause, but it does matter to me the way in which someone is engaging with a fundamentally broken/corrupt piece of media beyond simply whether or not they're engaging at all. at the end of the day, it's up to everyone on their own to evaluate where they draw the line on hp, and i am not looking to make that judgment for anybody else considering that my own thoughts + feeling about it are still changing.

[thougts-of-xena]

• Wakanda forever, Líik'ik Talokan and Glory to Ukraine •

[ ukrainian girl's perspective of the latest mcu movie ]

I watched [ Black Panter: Wakanda forever ] recently, and I can clearly tell - it's gonna be my favorite movie of the long long time. It's an amazing, really good action movie, one of the most epic I've seen. I loved it so much to see beautiful cultures, and all honor to Chadwick Boseman's memory made me very emotional every time. Like those silent moments whole audience was silent too, almost holding their breath.

And the most important for me was character of Namor, his arc and whole point about colonization. This period of time, colonization of America and erasing cultures hurted me so deep as an autistic child with history as an interest, and now I can relate so much with all this stories as an adult woman of the nation fighting for independence [ and survival basically ].

In our National Day of Dignity and Freedom want to talk with you about it. Why it is so important for me personally, and maybe for many conscious people of our nation as well.

Not for trying to compare who suffered more through the history. It never was, and never will be my goal, this would be awful thing to do. But to share history of my people and explain why this movie and character affected me so much.

For short - though Namor despites human kind in general I hope he might be pleased to see our "let's burn colonizators to the ground" resistance after hundreds of years of oppression, when old 'mighty' Europe only saying they're conserned and "let's just calm down and talk everybody". Heaven knows we tried everything, we tried to talk so many times. Russians do not want to talk with us - they want to make us assimilated part of their country, or they want us dead. And we just want to be left alone and live our lives.

For a bit longer story - just look at this monstrosity of a country. Is this normal for country to be THAT enormously big?

You can say: - Maybe. And I will say: - Only if all subjects having equal rights, impact and independence inside the union.

But things never in the history of russian expansion was like that,  and im going explain it, and hope you will get it why  I have used word "colonizators" earlier.

I really wanted to write a whole proper article or essay about this, but I'm without electricity for most of the time lately. "Thanks" to russian missiles damaging our power plants. And it become really hard for me to engage in deeper research, to translate and put in here sources that wasn't originally in english.

So instead it will be more little history lesson with knowledge from my head, and little documentaries from other intelligent people, which I recommend you to watch to illustrate my point. Videos was made by ukrainan creators, so yu can trust them, english subs that can be turned manually if you open them on YouTube, I'm still not sure how this works here.

I'll mostly use history of my country as an example since i know it better, I feel I have no right to talk about other nations at their behalf.

So Muskovy [ USSSR and modern Russia ] is like adopted offspring of the Golden Horde.

Golden Horde expanfion, you can spot something similar already

It expands only to consume resources, erasing native people of that lands. Do you think small swampy peace of land it originally was had all that gas, oil and wood they're bragging about nowadays?

Do you think there wasn't native people in that land who was exterminated, exiled or assimilated so russians can use resources this nation had? They didn't even had a clear access to big water.

Muskovy was a small part of Kyevan Rus' on a distant swampy land, but it wanted more influence in the world, a clear access to the big water - Black Sea that we had, since they didn't have it and felt like they missing up whole worldwide trading and invasive wars party.

To do so they tried to get all the land for themselves. Kyevan Rus' then was successful and strong country of its time but had an internal issues [ muskovy as one of them ] and was struggling with every neighbor wanted to get a part of its territory.

Interesting story for another time, let's focuse on a russian part of it.

So Muskovy put their eyes on not only territories of modern Crimea, wich was their own country that days  - Crimean Khanat, but all modern Odesa-Mykolaiv-Kherson-Mariupol lands. But they can't get there easily, they need to concuer all the land, wich is not bad itself as it has a lot of coal, forest ant great agricultural potential.

But my people don't wanted to give it up so easily, wanting our territories back, wanting a safespace for our culture and history, so fighted with their lifes. This leads to more than 300 years of  [ - give me your land! - no. ] and after becoming an Empire strong enough to overpower us [ - give us our independence back! - no. ] cycles of merciless wars.

And than Russian Empire coming up with a time proved strategy. I don't know did they make it by themselves or sneaked a peak of it by older empire-sisters but they're using it til now,  evolving from Russian Empire to USSR to Russian federation like some wicked Pokémon.

And here's coming the interesting part with the videos I prepared for you,  grab some snacks and let's go.

The first one is about how russia tried to erase our language

This one about them them trying to erase our culture and replace it with a fucking joke.

And the last one is about creating an image of our people as angry, stupid and degraded, with THEM as superior nation above us, mostly in our heads.

They knew what they were doing and did that on purpose. They wanted make us ashamed of our culture, to separated us from who we are and mash into a faceless "brotherhood nations" with recourses to use.

Unfortunately - it worked, and worked very well as whole nation has an inferiority complex now, simpy denying ourselves. Feeling like its better to be associated with them, to blend in what they are calling culture, than discover our own one, that was appropriated, stolen or forgotten for generations, almost fighting for not to be lost forever.

So-called "big brother of ours" enslaved our people with serfdom, suppressin our attempts to embrace our heritage, to gain independence, causing artificial hunger Holodomor in 1932-33 also known as Terror-famine in Ukraine, or by repressions like Executed Renaissance. Our culture is still alive and kicking, but you can see there was not big room for blooming.

Those who they couldn't execute - they calling heritage of their own. For example Treasure Island animation, dr. Livesey from it internet loved so much not so long ago - it's actually ukrainian made.

They simply called russain everyone talented or famous from so-called union. They made sure it's almost impossible for you to pursue your ambitions as a scientist, artist or musician anywhere but Russia, so if you work in Russia you will be seen as and caled russian, no matter where you from.

No matter wich culture certain traditional attires [ vyshivanka or papakha ] dish [ borsh or chebureki ] or other heritage  like giorgian dance woman lezghinka russians calling their beryozka now, came from - it all claimed by them as their general [ stolen ] russian culture.

They did it not only to us. I told I wouldn't be speaking of other nations but just take a look what was done to Crimean tatars.

If you thought I made up my point about them wanting access to the sea VERY BAD

You may search on YouTube or TikTok how russians treating their neighbor "former soviet union" countries [ like Republic of Kazakhstan or Georgia ] when visiting them.

Like "you should be grateful we bring civilization to your land" and "your native name is to hard for me to pronounce, I'll just call you Masha, Natasha, Ivan etc." Ask people of other Caucasian regiongs about how they was and still treated till now, ask belorusians about their language [ spoiler - it is dying ].

Its so unfair, that now we are screaming at the top of our lungs to be heard, for people to see us the nations of our own, to just let us be and cherish our culture.

But our voices are suppressed by voices of our oppressors telling us to calm down and listen to them since they know the better way for us to live and solve problems THEY CAUSED. With no regrets or reflexia.

And world prefers to listen to them, praising them, insted of listen to people who was offended, if not to say violated, by them. Not only us, many other nations,.

After all i said this story may sound familiar to black people, indigenous people of America, people of other colonized countrie - because IT IS.

Or you may say to me:

- I'ts just white's business, mind it on your own.

Ok, though its not very correct statement, but I'll take it for now. Let me show you this video, then - Russia is literally colonizing African countries right now for their woods. They won't stop. They simply don't want to, still thinking imperial way.

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Thank you for reading all of this to the end.

My point here was not to make this movie and other people's trauma about my people, to take it away from you. This is YOUR history and YOUR experience.

I'm writing this not to impose ourself in your place, not to say that we can completely 100% clearly understand what are you feeling. I just wanted to share what are going through, to show why this movie in general and Namor in particular is so important and precious to me as.

I feel like he was right all along, just like us wanting nothing other than protect his land and people. Time is now for Ukraine and someone has to end this monster, burn those russian world | peace* they bringing everywhere they go, and we'll not hasitate.

* in russian there's one world for this term, basically it means "coercion some country to peace by violence and propaganda for expantion through the world"

I think it's really important to point some serious issues in movies like that. You may not like the movie, or actors or else, I respect that, but it's social commentary, it's impact you can't overestimate.

I believe some nations should be pointed at this on and on and on like "yes, YOUR nation did it. Yes. Yes it did. It's part of your history and responsibility is not going anywhere. Your way of thinking now is a part of the problem! Take it, rethink it and work it out,  like a mature nation should".

I believe that we can overcome this trauma, educate people [ though some of them may use the Clockwork orange therapy instead ], and in some time make world a better place without all this shit.

I've seen [ Wakanda forever ] two times at theaters already and I'm planning to go for it again. I want it to make a good income, I want corporations see at least financial benefit of educating people, of making an empathy gap smaller.

I want them to seek profit in making a good culture and history representation, to give voice for this people to talk to a wider group of people - its freaking Marvel, after all. To educate and unite those who suffering with generational and colonial trauma.

For example after "Encanto" someone might catch themselves wondering - who was those people that attacked Abuelas village and why would they do that?

Like "The Woman King" left me shaken . Movie may not be 100% historically accurate, as I'm aware, but it was good as the work of art, it showed culture, tradition, and the tragedy. It really drove me to this culture, I hope many people as well wanted to know more, and more.

Simple wandering who K'uk'ulkan may originally be, what a meaning his figure may originally have, may lead people to more serious research. To study, to respect and adore as this cultures in the way they deserve to. Like my childish adoration is booming and blooming now, bringing me so much joy, im eager to learn and resurch. I just hope books from my childhood aren't burned to ashes in occupied town where I left them.

And I'm only waiting for my salary to try to buy some books end explore world of Black Panter more. Same for comics in general - I was torn from pop-culture growing up, trying regaining this loss in past few years, taking friendly recommendations here, indigenous, POC or queer stories\creators is a priority.

I'm open for discussion, since my mind is a mess after this movie. I have so many thoughts, I love it - the movie and thinking thoughts -  very much.

We can also discuss how amazing it is to see celebration of any other than white european cultures on the big screen, how beautiful it is to see people of color on the leading roles, and black people in position of power through the plot. To show them as good and proud people, who know their worth, and will not tolerate any disrespect towards them. [ and how pleasing it is to see so pissed off people those empathy ends when starts conversation about the minority they can't associate themselves with. It's not about or for you, wolrd is changing, adjust a little, baby boy ]

We can discuss the messages from Black Panter movies that someone with the real power do not use it to cause harm, but the weak ones always seeking power to abuse the others. The message about loss and grief. Like now I have deeper understanding of our national motto "heroes never die".

Or we can share our love to Namor. As my sister told me after the movie - despite our shared thalassophobia we'd love be one of Talokan people. To have place then you'll be safe and secure, to have fatherly caring figure of K'uk'ulkan that always by your side protecting you, making sure that all will be well. Aqua papi? Aqua papa, por favor, gracias. And please - his little wooden house - isn't it adorable? Does his mother inspired him to make it? Does that mean his heart still have some little room for something from the surface? I don't need sleep, I need answers.

You can offer your theme to talk about, but if you coming to start some rude shit here - I'll not hesitate to block you immediately. Same goes for those who didn't like the movie as much as I did, I respect that, just chill out and pass by.

For the ones who read this to the very end - exclusive announcement. On my art acc I'll definitely draw my beloved feather serpent god, not once nor twice, since now it's a comfort character of mine and im going to embrace my urge for historicall, cultural and mythological studies as much as i can. But with some time pass. I have the ideas, now I need to gain some stability, mental at least. I'd love to share love for him with you, feel free to be my guest.

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The whale opinions and spoilers I'm pretty sure has been said before but im not gonna look due to fear of finding thin$po blogs

To start I bounce between 220 and 230 so I'm not "fat fat" but im still overweight, and I have fat loved ones that I'm still listening to their experience experience

Casper didn't watch it with me because he was afraid it'd be triggering- and I'd say it would be.

Everything is shot inside the main characters apartment, Charlie. The main thing I want to point out is how people treated Charlie. He's towering tall and roughly 500+ lbs. He constantly apologized just for existing in his own space, to the point his nurse and friend, named Liz, kept getting onto Charlie for saying "Im Sorry" so much. He constantly shrinks back, and let people yell at him, going as far as blatantly calling him "Disgusting," from his daughter to a Christian missionary who was trying to "save his soul" because his body was basically damned. The fatphobia that he experiences in his own apartment was abhorrent, but that's what fat people experience on a daily basis. And Charlie claims he's never been skinny a day in his life.

Charlie was what's called being passively suicidal. He "let himself go," for example, by ordering 2 large pizzas per night just as dinner. When he was feeling any void or fed up with peoples fakeness, he would binge eat to the point of vomiting. Even after he was told he would not survive the weekend unless he went to the hospital, despite ending up having the money to do so, but he also outright refused most medical care (except a wheelchair, then an oxygen mask on his final day). Instead, he filled the hole by binge eating.

He did this because he lost the love of his life. He found out he was gay and got a divorce from his wife, who took full custody of their daughter despite his protests of still wanting to be in their life. The wife's excuse was "Do you know how hard it is to tell people you left me for a man?" The boyfriends name was Alan, who had killed himself due to religious trauma for being gay. And the missionary I mentioned earlier? He told Charlie that his soul could still be saved if he forsakes the love he still had for Alan in order for his body to become light and reach the kingdom of heaven. Which, Charlie stood his ground in remaining faithful to Alan in which the missionary calls him disgusting and leaves to return to his hometown (he has a backstory to leaving his hometown and going on mission work but, I couldn't care less to relay it).

So tack on homophobia along with fatphobia.

His daughter was chaotic, and was a mess because of her mom insisting she's pure evil; going as far as showing Charlie her distasteful Facebook post about how "there's going to be a greasefire in hell when he burns". But Charlie only saw the positive in her, and even held onto her essay about Moby Dick she wrote in 8th grade because he believed it to be the most beautiful essay he's ever read (which, says a lot because he's also a history teacher doing online collage courses with his camera off to save continuous ridicule until his final day where he asked everyone to write something true, which prompted himself to be honest with them as well). Every time Charlie thought he was going to die (due to cardiac issues with being overweight) he would either try to read it or ask to be read in his final moments. But you don't know who's essay it was until the very end (or, supposed to not know).

Which, he gets what he wanted. He finally got to spend some time with his daughter (although she fought him every step of the way), he loads her up with the $120,000 he saved for her the entire time he wasn't allowed to talk to her, and she read him the essay in his final moments breathing.

I'm putting it blunt because the ending still makes me cry, but yeah he dies.

I'm writing this because I'm off my meds and it's still making me cry. 8 hours, and 3 extra movies later. It's truly tragic, devastating, soul crushing, and sorrowful. My man Charlie is getting fucked in every way possible and he still only saw the good in people no matter how ugly they were with him.

[guiltypleasurefandomface]

So for Christmas, my friend (the one in her late 70s I might have mentioned before) got me a bag of fancy popcorn and ever since I ate it, I've been craving more popcorn.

And this is not a random present. My big plan after finishing my first essay was to watch a film whilst eating popcorn. And as soon as I handed in that essay after 3 weeks of intensely catching up because of a bad case of not covid, I caught another bout of not covid in the form of a very bad case of tonsillitis, a cough and body aches (I bet it was strep throat). I mean quite literally I submitted the essay and 2 hours later I was down for the count.

And when I got my voice back but when I was still sick, my friend had to hear me lament my night being ruined and how Christmas was being ruined because I was back on the catch up horse doing coursework instead of enjoying Christmas time off and writing an essay and crying so no time for watching movies and eating popcorn.

So she obviously took that to mean I Really Fucking Love Popcorn and the funny thing is, I do but if I do go to the cinema I never get popcorn. Becauee I begrudge paying too much for a bucket full that loses its freshness by the next morning when I can get a box of 4 bags of popcorn for £1 that I can eat half of in one sitting and the rest the next day. (in 2018 prices, its probably more like £2 now)

But anyway I've gone off on a tangent there.

I had a dream last night I organised a holiday and it was on a cruise ship but the boat wasn't going anywhere (must have been in partnership with ocean breeze soap). I turned up to my room and there was a gift box of popcorn on my bed, with some artfully loose around the box... which sounds like a terrible idea cos popcorn is like sand and it can go everywhere so that's gonna end up in the bed.

And there was free popcorn everywhere on the boat Except the on board cinema!! You had to pay £5.99 for a box of popcorn!! And I was like... I can literally go to the end of the corridor and take one of the complimentary boxes of popcorn for free and bring That in. No this guy - who looked like someone I know from a show but I can't think what show - said we can bring in any other snack from any snack shop on board the ship except the complimentary popcorn! If you want popcorn in the cinema you have to buy it in the cinema! What?

I almost abandoned my whole holiday over this. I was like fine, stick your film in your cinema, I'll take my free box of complimentary popcorn and go watch a film in my room!

And I took 2 boxes from the stack, to stick it to the man!

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

hello! can i have a cake please? i’m an ace female, 5’3”, and have a short lil afro that i dyed blonde. i kinda have a biker aesthetic?? i’m v athletic n love weightlifting, playing basketball, n playing (american) football! humble brag but i have those girl abs. 👀 also super into the arts?? HUGE literature nerd, def one of those kids who goes ALL IN when you have to act out shakespeare. tragically like and am good at writing essays, no joke :// absolutely suck at anything stem-related tho i suck at expressing myself verbally so i don’t tend to talk a whole bunch, even when i’m comfortable. i’m v devoted to those close to me tho, like i stop n drop everything as soon as they need help n i would 100% follow them to the end of the earth. i’m a bit like the quiet bodyguard ig ✌🏼😌 i’m lowkey a HUGE simp but i struggle with vulnerability™ so i bully n playfight w/ my crushes 24/7 instead of being normal fhskfkskd it’s so bad. but literally just bully me back and i will go “😳😳” i am a MESS n hopefully this isn’t too long??? hope you have a good day love ✨

🍰 for Anon

Romantic Matchup

Tendou Satori

How yall met

Ok small disclaimer

Tendou is 100% a theater kid

So

When the school was putting on a production for one of his favorite disney movies

Of course he had to try out for a part

What play where they doing you asl?

Beauty and the beast

Honestly tendou wasn't shocked when he got the role of the beast

In fact he kinda expected it

But honestly he wasn't mad about it

He thought getting one of the leading roles was super cool

Then he saw who his co star was gonna be

Someone take a random guess

Its you

You had got casted as Belle

You guys had a blast practicing your roles together

You guys hung out a lot more just so you could practice together

And oh boy did it pay off on opening night

Yall both played your roles perfectly

If the audience didn't know any better they would say you both actually loved each other

…

Well apparently they didn't know any better

You both actually had realized your feeling for eachother when you were rehearsing the final scene

But yall thought you would keep your relationship a secret until after the play was over

What they love about you

He loves how your always there for him

This man could be on the other side of the planet

But if he says he needs you

Your there within seconds

What kind of witchcraft

Oh and if anyone dares trash talk your mans

Bad things tend to happen

No tendou bullies on your watch

Honestly he fucks with how athletic you are

But more often than not this turns into a very competitive thing

Im sorry but this little shit is always one upping you

So he sees you being athletic as a challenge to his athleticism yk

Yeah…

But on the bright side tendous never played better in his games

Favorite things to do together

He loves loves loves to play fight with you

yeah ...playfight

Ngl one of yall get injured every time this happens

But does that stop you

Absolutely not

Play Fights are fought with anything from pillows to just your bare hands

Now He gets how this is how you show love

But do you love him THAT much to leave bruises all over his arms

Random Hc

You said you have trouble with verbal expression?

Don't worry about that with tendou

This guess monster right here seems to always know how your feeling and why

So don't stress about that

He likes to act out random scenes of plays with you

Or he likes to sing random songs from musicals with you

One time you guys sang hamilton in 7 minutes right in the middle of the halls

His favorite disney movie is beauty and the beast because it takes place in france

And Yes tendou kins the beast

Ushijima scolded tendou for getting into a fight when he saw the bruises on his arms

Little did he know it was you who gave him those :|

Overall Aesthetic

Theater Kids

Songs-

Phantom of the Opera

Guns and ships

Rewrite the stars

Candy Store

[radellama]

Thanks for the tag @hellishgoat 👨‍❤️‍👨👨‍❤️‍👨

Favourite colour: purple and black >:) though I'm gaining a strong appreciation for dark red too (honestly and dark/desaturated colours I'm usually into

Currently reading: Levius manga... But I haven't been able to read in so long :( I've almost got all of Levius + Levius Est and I just wanna read it all :(

Last song: C Section by Dot Hacker

Last series: star trek deep space 9 >:)

Last movie: uhhhhhhh I think it was Spiderman into the spiderverse? It's been a long time since I was able to sit down and watch a whole movie (hypocritical I know since I watch like 3 star treks in a row :P)

Sweet savoury or spicy: savoury sweet then spicy >:)

Craving: sweet stuff. I want chocolate or doughnuts or something but I'm gonna try have some fried rice instead lol

Tea or coffee: HOT CHOCOLATE!!! and my favourite tin is almost empty and cause of the lockdown I wasn't able to go out and get a new one and now I'm almost out :(( gotta hold out at least a few more days

Currently working on: well..... Uni work. And I'm a bit cranky with my subjects this term. I've got the stupidest essay I've come across that's sapped up all my time and sanity, and then I've got two more subjects worth of assignments left to do after this uhhhgggghhhghh

But creatively!!!! I'm on pause :(( I really just want to work on making more fanart in general (wanna draw more loz and resi specifically) but I'm desperate to work on my star trek au I miss designing everyone and their outfits and I need to design the ship and make refs for everything and get back on writing :(

Not going to tag anyone but if you wanna do this consider it a tag from me ;)