#i was so heartbroken but the thing was I hadnt caught on that rhyming and structured classic poetry wasnt cool anymore | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bloomfish · 4 years ago

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My first Harry Potter fanfic was a sequel I wrote when I was like 7-8 years old and HBP hadnt come out yet- I though that the end pairings would be Hermione and Krum (understandable I Guess), Ron and Padma (he took her to the ball) and Harry and Fleur (because she kissed him ONE TIME) I also thought Harry was gonna be the minister for magic because both Ron and Trelawney predicted it at different points. The plot was the joint wedding and I rly thought if I could just send it to JKR she would let me team up with her. I even wrote fake reviews on the back saying how much of an asset I was to her as a co-writer

#i blame every adult in my life for continuously inflating my ego about my writing abilities #i thought i was hot shit and it all came crashing down when in high school my best friend was selected to read her poetry at benaroya hall #and not me :)#i was so heartbroken but the thing was I hadnt caught on that rhyming and structured classic poetry wasnt cool anymore #years of being praised for my poetry in school and suddenly I wasnt special anymore #i was really set up to be a bad loser and I'm still a bad loser. i cant be Not Good #i mean if i was my parents i would be extremely proud also but i def developed a superiority complex #and a crippling fear of inferiority #this isnt a wah wah life is so hard for a gifted child post just commenting that my ego is huge and im terrified of failure #im working on it #jana talks

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