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southislandwren · 1 year ago

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Agghhhhhhh sorry for boy posting again but today I learned he was a theater kid AND played trumpet in high school. Everything I learn about him makes me a little more down bad for him.

also edited to add so i dont spam posts again tonight. but today was fucking nuts. i worked for 2.5 hours and i was like holding myself up with equipment and trash cans and trying not to fall asleep or throw up. and then all that stuff happened with my food eng exam and i hung out with my two friends for like 4 hours and got a job and yeah. wacky day. i was nauseous the whole time and barely awake but good day

#and I was nervous about him being a homophobe but if he was in theater I’m not as worried lol #anyway. I am trying my best to wait patiently for Saturday #diary post #he’s literally so smart and cool and funny and I want to just hang out with him. I want to parallel play with him #I have bg3 he has his game or idk. just quality quiet time together when we’re NOT thinking about work or school #idk man i think its setting in for all of us that we're GRADUATING and we need BIG KID JOBS and like. no more advisor no more classes etc #its scary!!!! im scared!!!!!!!!!#anyway back to boy bc hes like all i think about anymore. nothing better to think about i gues #but food eng SUCKED and he definitely saw me cry and i had to put my hood up and everything #i was full on going self soothing mode and hes just chilling in the seat across from me #and he must think im just so fucking stupid. and what if thats a dealbreaker for him.#im smart!!! i promise!!!!! i just cant do math :(#idk man. even if he doesnt like me back hes still a cool guy whos my friend. itll all be alright probably #boy post

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